June 9, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Entrepreneur | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1369 | 9th June 2025

(music) (10 hours) Entrepreneur | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1369 | 9th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland, who please only listen when you can safety

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close your eyes. What else?

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M h.

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What do I normally say? Shall I say something? Oh? Itchy?

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Got itchy?

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Side?

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Hello? Opinny. So this is let be buoy to sleep.

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Monday's boring objects? What can I talk about today?

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But you?

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If you, if you're not, If you're not prepared, no,

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I haven't. Why not if you be prepared? You are

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you not a professional? No? Caut yourself a professional? No?

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Why are you? Then? I don't know? You should know

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what you're doing. No, I don't know what I'm doing.

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I'm just plodding along hoping that I don't fall in

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a hole. Basically, So, Monday's boring up jecks. I'm going

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to talk about something that I've never talked about before.

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It's a part of my life that I don't think

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I've ever even mentioned, which may surprise you that i'd

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done over one thousand, three hundred recordings. And how could

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I have not mentioned? How can I be at least

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one thing that I've not mentioned because I've not exactly

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had an interest in life? So but there is one thing.

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And I was thinking about this earlier when I was

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on a toilet. I don't know what I thought about

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it then, but there's selfie that I wanted to be.

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So I've got this is what the subject is going

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to be then, but I'll be talking about myself. But

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the subject is entred and entrepreneurship. That's the subject. That's

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the boring subject for today's Monday's boring object. So entrepreneurship

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or entrepreneurs Right from an early, quite an early age,

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I wanted to be successful in some kind of business.

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Clearly it never happened, but I kind of I don't

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know what it was. Maybe it was the idea of

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working for myself. I saw my dad, he was self employed,

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so he had a successful business. And I used to

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like watching del Boy on Only Fools and Horses, the

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duck in and dive in and after daily ducking and diving.

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And I wasn't so big on the con aspect of that,

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you know, selling people cars that didn't have any breaks.

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That wasn't, you know, not really my style, but it

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made for a comedy show. So when I was in

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my I think my first delve into any kind of entrepreneurship,

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money making outside of working for someone else, was probably

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when I was about thirteen, so yeah, I'm just trying

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to delve back to see probably thirteen. Yeah, so one

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of the things. So I started working, I think when

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I was twelve part time. I think twelve was the

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that was the minimum age to do a paper round.

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I think might have been eleven, but I think it

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was twelve, I think. And so hmm, I get a

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little bit modeled up because I had so many different

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paper rounds. I had a morning paper round, I hadn't

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eaten lot at different times. I had an evening paper round.

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I had a monthly delivering leaflets, and there was a

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fortnightly delivering these pamphlet things. I also worked in the

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bakery well as well as I also worked in the

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washing dishes in this restaurant, and then I worked in

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a bakery or a bakehouse they called it. So I

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started off working in the evenings just washing up, which

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is a cool job. Actually it was all right. So

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that was very busy, but it was okay. And I've

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worked during the day sometimes on a Saturday, and I

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think it was something like seventy five pence an hour

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which may not seem a lot, but when I was

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twenty one or twenty two, literally ten years later, I

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still was only getting about two pounds an hour, you know,

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so it was pretty you know, I was probably better

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off then than what I was when I left school

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so financially on me, but then I didn't have to

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pay rent or buy food, so I guess it was

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it was a little bit different. So forgetting the jobs

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I had, there was I don't know what it was,

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but I started to think, hmm, what can I do

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to earn some money. I don't know why I wanted

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to earn money, because I knew I could do a

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paper around and I could I could get money. It

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wasn't a lot, but it was still you know, it

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was still okay. And I had multiple jobs going at

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the same time at times. Why I don't know why,

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but yeah, I just this this feeling, this need two

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do something too, I don't know, make something of myself

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kind of to be successful. It never happened, but you know,

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I kind of really was. I was going for it.

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So I'm not sure which order it happened. But I'll

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focus on what I did at school first, and then

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I'll talk about what I did outside of school when

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I was still at school, but what I did on

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the outside, and then I'll move into what I did

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once I left school. So this is how I worked

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this out in my brain. Okay, I categorized things, so

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I've broken it up into periods. So it's the period

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before I left school, those couple of years, three years

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or whatever before I left school. And then there's a

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period when I was working at a chip shop and

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when I left the chip shop. So that's a little

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period on its own. Can you hear that plane. Then

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there's another period, you know, So I broken out into periods.

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So the period before leaving school is then broken up

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into different periods. There's the period, it's the things I

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did at school and the things I did outside of school.

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And then I break it in again into those things

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that at school, those things that I was getting money for,

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and those things that I was owed money for. So

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at school, there was a few trends. One thing I

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realized is people kept running out of pens. So I

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bought a bunch of pens and I would sell them

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and I made a profit, but it was just it

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was never going to buy me my new jet you know,

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so that was a little bit boring. I was walking around.

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I could walk to school with a whole satchel full

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of pens and come home and made like maybe fifty

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pence profit. It really wasn't worth it. And then but

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unfortunately the pens were rubbish as well, so that didn't

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really last. There was a reason they were so cheap.

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And then there was another trend. I mean, pens weren't

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a trend, but there was a couple of trends that

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I kind of jumped on. One was gob stoppers. Gob

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Stoppers became really, really, really popular. And if you don't

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know what a gobstopper is, basically it just it's called

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a gob stopper because you can't talk when it's in

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your mouth. It's so big, and it's like a like

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a big ball. Actually, when you suck the ball for

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long enough, it it's got like maybe different tastes and stuff,

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and probably a little bit like what's his name, Willy Wonka?

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That wasn't they had a gob stopper, didn't they? That

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was different flavors of dinner and stuff. Anyway, in the end,

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in the middle of right in the middle of there'd

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be like chewing them, but it would take ages to

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get through it, and the teachers would confiscate it. It'd

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make you spit it out if you had one in

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your mouth and they saw it, which made it more

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attractive to the pupils. You know. It was like a

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challenge to be able to get away with spending the

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whole lesson forty five minutes with that, you know, something

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in your mouth. But what happened is people, I think,

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what happened to you? Hear that? Yeah that, I don't

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think you hear that in the garden. I distracted me,

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all right. So what it was is I noticed that

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when when one kid had something, all the other kids

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seem to want it, mainly the boys, to be fair,

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But if one had it, others wanted it, but they

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couldn't have it because you know, he didn't sell god stoppers.

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The teacher didn't have a supply to sell to us.

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I probably would have gone against education standards, possibly, But

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then I thought, hmmm, because I saw I had a

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friend who wanted who had one, and I said, can

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I have one? He said yeah, and he said it'd

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be a pound, and I think they cost like forty

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pence fifty pence to buy, maybe twenty pence to buy,

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you know, so I was like okay, and I thought, hmmm,

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So what I did is I bought about ten of

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these and the sales technique was just to basically walk

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around sucking or be in a classroom break tom is

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good because people want stuff and it's easier to you know,

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exchange money and stuff during a break rather than at

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class time. So I made a few quid doing that.

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Another friend of mine was doing the same thing as well. Actually,

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so it wasn't I don't think it was really my

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It wasn't really my invention really. And then another thing

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happened where there was this trend where it was chucking

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coins at a wall. So let's say two people would

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chuck pound coins or fifty pounds pieces against the wall

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and whichever one got closest to the wall would win

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the other person's money. That's the simplest way to explain it.

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Sometimes it yeah, it's exposed. It's a it's a similar

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to bowls, you know, where you've got to get the

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closest to the ball, to the white ball. You've got

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to get your bowls, so you kind of knock the

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other the other person's ball out the way, so it's

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a little bit like that, so you might bounce off

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the wall, but not the other person's coined further away

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from the wall. And people were losing what it nearly

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got every time someone lost, but then if like go

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double or nothing, double or nothing. And so I saw

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that people were getting they wanted to get their money back.

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And this is something that was happening every single break time, lunchtime,

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break two breaks and lunch time every day for quite

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a while. I think it got banned in the end. Yeah. Yeah,

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that and the Ouiji bought they got banned, and the

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gangs they've banned. The gangs as well. Went through a

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little phase of having gangs, the Wanderers, the Warriors, the Wongs,

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just because of the Wanderers movie. And I start my

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own gang called the Silver Eagles because no one wanted

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me to be in their gang. So I started my

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own gang. But I had I had the It was

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kind of like a misfits gang. And yeah, I went

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a bit wrong. So everything got banned because I had

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people in my gang that were actually acting like a gang.

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They didn't I don't think they realized it was just

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for fun. Yeah, so it's so. Then what I did

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is I thought people are losing their minds because they

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haven't got enough money to try and win back. So

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I started lending money because I had I had a

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couple of part time jobs, so I had I always

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had some cash. So I started taking like ten twenty

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pounds to scool with me. That's probably my life savings,

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to be fair. But and I'd have always like one

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pound coins. And I started to lend people money. And

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I had a little book and I kept track of

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everything I had interest added on. I don't remember what

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the interest was. It's a long time ago, and I

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didn't realize how hard it is to do to be

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a money lender. Really, it's not an easy job. And

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I always thought, you know, you see these I mean,

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it's many movies and TV shows and that I've seen,

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you know how money lenders operate in later years, you know,

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sort of like how they can be quite quite naughty,

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you know, when it comes to getting their money back.

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But after doing it for a little while, I realized

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that people will make they will take the whatever you

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want to call it, as much as they can. They

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will avoid paying it sometimes outright, they like say nope,

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you're not getting it back, and it leaves. You know,

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once one person does that, then the whole thing's gone.

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Now this happened to me. Someone decided they weren't going

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to pay me back. So I collected and I got

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a friend to come and he collected it for me.

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And I disliked the whole situation so much. It wasn't

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like awful, but it was very much. Yeah, I stopped

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it before it got our hand. And then that's when

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I realized that life is not for me. You know,

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a little bit of a little taste of that. It's

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like no, over like two pound fifty, you know what

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I mean. It's like, no, it's really silly. Because my

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friend was my friend was saying, I'll give them money.

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You need to own the money. I was in the

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toilet in at school and this kid was saying that

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you ain't getting nothing, and he did end the pain.

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But it just wasn't wasn't It just wasn't for me.

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It wasn't for hear me, even my friend, because he's like, no,

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this isn't really what I want to be doing. So

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I think that's a good thing that it taught me

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that that sort of lifestyle was not for me. I'm

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a bit I guess it's the word vanilla, would be

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a little bit, a little bit peaceful. I think just

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had a bit of an interruption. Then some one knocked

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on No, they didn' knock on the door. They knocked

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on the phone. They rang on the door. They rang

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me up. That's it, oh key, When I was I

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talking about? What was I talking about? When earlier? But

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what was it? It was something hmm, pens, gobs, stoppers,

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coins against the wall, money lending. I didn't go really

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to plan change of mind with that stuff, and I

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think that was the end of my entrepreneurial career at school.

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That was it for school thing. Outside of school, I

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had three different businesses that I started. And by businesses,

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I mean I put postcards in the local shop window.

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That's what I mean by businesses. With my telephone number,

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my home telephone number. The first one. There was three

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different ones. There was one for car cleaning, there was

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one for wait a minute, what was it car cleaning?

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Dog walking? And there was another one for looking after kids, babysitting. Now,

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I used to babysit my little brother, so I kind

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of knew my way around being a babysitter. So I thought, oh,

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maybe I can do this, maybe make some money out

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of it, because I was getting nothing for looking after

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my little brother all through the summer and in the

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evenings and like between school to say, evenings between school

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and like six o'clock. I was looking after him, and yeah,

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I just it was quite easy, well, yeah, generally, so

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I thought maybe I could make some money out that

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I didn't get any I might have even put an

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advert in the local paper as well. I didn't do

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any leaflets. I didn't make any leaflets at this point.

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I don't think I did. Maybe I did, but I

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think it was mainly just and if I remember rightly,

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it was just one news agents that I put my

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postcard in the window. Maybe I did it in two.

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I'm trying to think of the different places in town.

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There was definitely one place where I used to have

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my paper around anywhere else in town where was there

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another news agents? There was one down the seafront, and

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there was one on the way to my AND's house

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where I used to live when I was eight.

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Mm hmmm mmm.

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That's the only ones I can remember as far as

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the news agents go in that town. There probably was others,

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but not like within where I would go, Oh, no,

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that was there a news agent's. Yeah, there was a

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news agent's, of course there was, which was not near

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where I was talking about it. It was near where

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my dad moved to and I lived with him for

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a little while. It was opposite the co op, and

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it was It was kind of weird because it was

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it was next to a laundrette, and then next the

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laundrette was a hairdressers, and oppositely that was the co op.

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So it was like there was three shops, well the

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laundrette to three buildings with three commercial businesses. So if

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you was standing outside the co op that I worked in,

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looked across the road on the left hand side, was

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was it what gate road? BlimE me, I don't know

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if that's that's come into our mind. It might be

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the road. So there's this newsagent's quite a spacey shop actually,

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and then there was the laundret, and then there was

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on the right hand side there was the women's I

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think it was like a hairdresser's because in the end days,

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you know, it's a little while ago, hares would quite

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often just be for females. Barbers would be for men,

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but then some hairdressers would have different sections, one for men,

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one for women. Not. It wasn't so much segregation. It's

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just unless it was because I went to a hairdressers

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that had a men's section and there was a women's section. Yeah,

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for some reason, I got to get Yeah, I had

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my haircut and a women's section once because I had

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a perm. I know, it's a half perm. I was

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still at school, so I had a half perm because

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because I've got no idea, because I was fifteen, I

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guess fourteen fifteen seemed like a good idea. It was

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weird really because I also dyed my hair dark brown.

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They might think, what's weird about dyn your hair dark

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brown and having a half perm. This are two different, separate, different,

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separate occasions. Well, firstly, my hair is already dark brown,

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so that was a bit pointless. And once my hair

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got past a certain length, it went curly. Anyway, I

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got naturally curly hair. I just I guess it has

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to get to a certain length before it goes curly curly.

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I'm talking about what when I used to have a

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full sexy head of hair. Yeah, the same hairdresses that

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I got my I think I did the coloring. I

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colored my hair from a box, you know, you know,

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from the soup. I don't know hair dye, I guess,

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so I did that myself, made a mess of it.

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I had a big Yeah. It was a bit weird

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out school that day, because it does. It doesn't just

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dye your hair. If you leave it, it dyees your

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skin temporarily at least, And so I was going to

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I was, honestly, I was like, the teacher said, you

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can't come to school with blackface. I'm not, you know,

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because in that in that day, it wasn't it was

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okay to do that, but it was crowned upon even then.

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But I said, I'm not. I wouldn't do that stuff.

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It's so we'll take it off what you've got makeup on,

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so it's not it's dye. I've literally it dripped down

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my face. I was told to sit with it for

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an hour or whatever to let it soak in. So

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I thought I'd do it for two hours because it

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would definitely be done, and then rinse it off and

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then but it didn't say anything about my face, And

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the teacher said, were you not aware that it was

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all down in your face. I said, yeah, but I

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didn't I was focusing on my hair. He said, don't

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you ever wash your face? I said this, yeah, I

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have done. It is what do you mean you have done?

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Do you not wash your face every day? And I

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said where you asked I don't ask you personal questions.

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I don't ask you whether or not you flush. What

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do you mean whether or not I flush? I said,

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I don't ask you if you flush a toilet when

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you've done a pooh. I said, well, everyone does, But

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I said so, I don't know if I have done

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if you do. He said that you're just saying this, Jason,

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to distract the listeners from the fact that you said

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blackface earlier. I said, no, it's a term that people use.

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It's not a term I use, but it's a term

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that's used for someone that like puts a ground paint

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on their face, and it's not acceptable anymore. It was

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in the eighties. He said, we're in the eighties. I said,

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oh no, but just getting confusing. You're talking about my

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listeners in thirty forty years time. But we're now in

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nineteen eighty four and things are different now. He said, yeah,

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I know, and I said, but that's not what I

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was doing.

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It.

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Literally, it's stained my face. He said, are you sure

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so you can see it? Try wiping it off. He

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said no, I don't want to touch it. I said,

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that isad because of the health and guidelines and sharp protection.

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He said, no, you just look dirty. You just smell bad,

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and I don't want to I don't you look like

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you might have fleas. I said, well, you can't say

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that to me. You're a teacher and he said, I'm

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not a teacher. I said, what do you mean you're

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a teacher. You're here at the oh he said, I'm

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the janitor. Why would the teacher be cleaning the toilets?

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I said, oh, I did wonder about that, which brings

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me to the next question. Why are you asking me

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if I flush? You literally see me flush every day

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when you see me. Why are you hanging around the

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toilets anyway? And I said, well, that's what I was

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thinking about you now I know you're a cleaner. He said,

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what's your excuse? I said, I don't have one, And

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I said to him, be honest with me, mister janitor,

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do you feel managed to move away from you know

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what I said earlier, And he said, no, I'm not

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sure if it Maybe everyone's forgotten. I said, I don't know,

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because it wasn't used in a derogatory word way. It

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was literally just used inner to someone thinking I was

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doing that and I wasn't doing that. I said, yeah,

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but it's the term. It's just not a nice term.

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I said, but I wasn't using that term. I don't

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use that term. But that's what the newspapers use. Well,

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that's what the news uses when a celebrity comes out

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and does something like that. I mean, you remember Ted

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Danson in the early nineties when he was dating Whoopi Goldberg.

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He painted He went to a fancy dress party and

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painted his face a different color and he got into

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a lot of a lot of trouble.

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Wow.

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The jella said, how many people listening to this podcast

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do you think are going to actually remember that Whoopy

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Goldberg and Ted Danson used to date. That's a blast

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from the past. How do you remember things like that? Well,

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more importantly, why do you remember things like that? I said,

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it's always handy to get me out of trouble. I

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can use it as an example because of someone like

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Ted Danson, who was he was a legend. He is

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a legend, star of cheers, being in loads of movies,

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loads of TV shows. He is a legend, and he's

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still a legend now and he still makes good TV

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shows now, even though he's in his nineties or whatever.

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And at the time, he was dating Whoopee Goldberg, who

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was also arguably one of the most famous actresses in

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Hollywood at that time, huge star, and she didn't obviously

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didn't care that he was putting makeup on. He said, ah,

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the janet. He said, what do you think about would

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be Goldberg now? Then I said, what do you mean? Well,

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she seems to come up with quite a lot of

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criticism ever since doing that view show. We actually have

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a TV show based on that in the UK called

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Angry Women, Not Angry Women, Moaning, Not Moaning Women, Wicked Women.

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I told you it's got a name. It's been shut

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down anyway, speak they've took it off air. Moaning Not

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Moaning was. I used to watch It was quite good.

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There's a few presenters on there that I really liked.

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Women Something Women, and it was kind of a copy

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of the view. I think the view was first, but

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it might not have been. But anyway that the Janet

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was say, or what do you think about Whoopi Goldberg? Now?

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I said, well, so, what you don't realize is I

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was a fan of Woodby Goldberg before she was famous.

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He said, no, you wasn't You weren't a fan of it?

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I said, yes, I was. See Whoopi Goldberg did comedy

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before she was an actress, and she had a hit

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stage show on Broadway which was one of the best

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shows I've ever seen. I wouldn't I say, I see it.

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I had it on a video and I also had

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it on album as well. I still can't remember what

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it was called. But it was phenomenal. It was funny,

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it was insightful, intelligent, She did different characters as one

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as a one woman show, brilliant, and I think she

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won Bafters or whatever. She wre loads of awards for it,

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and that's what That's what got her into, I guess,

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into being on TV and being in movies because I

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was such a big stand up fan, and I collected

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albums and comedy. I did start doing an again, don't I.

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I did start collecting, having a comedy collection. I like

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collecting things. I like looking at them. So if I

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had a row of comedy DVDs all along the wall,

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I'd look at them and think, oh, look at them.

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They're all comedy DVDs. I collected them. I spent ten

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years collecting them. And it'd have to be specific and

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don't have to be all stand up, and it'd be

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in groups, So maybe i'd have Maybe that's why I

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categorize things memories in groups, because it's a very librarian

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kind of way to do things, which means maybe I

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should have been a librarian. That didn't you know. I

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used to work in this children's charity. And this is

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when I was a counselor at the charity as well,

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and I couldn't work there anymore because of the It

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was just the working environment was not very nice. But

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I still stayed as a counselor. Part of my job

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when I was there for eight months I was there

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was to do admin pretty much, just to be on

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the reception. That was my job. There's more to it,

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I'll tell you one day. But it wasn't good. It

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was not good. But one of my roles was to

470
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alphab to organize is the files by alphabetic or order. Okay,

471
00:39:06.239 --> 00:39:11.000
So I left in two thousand and eleven August. I

472
00:39:11.039 --> 00:39:17.159
went back probably about twenty sixteen, maybe two thousand seventeen,

473
00:39:18.840 --> 00:39:22.000
maybe twenty eighteen, it was around that time. It was

474
00:39:22.119 --> 00:39:28.039
quite a few years later, looking at maybe doing some

475
00:39:28.239 --> 00:39:31.039
voluntary work there, because I did volunteer work before, and

476
00:39:31.079 --> 00:39:34.159
I liked being a voluntary volunteer. Just didn't like working

477
00:39:34.239 --> 00:39:40.440
for them, And because if you volunteer, people can't. They

478
00:39:40.519 --> 00:39:43.880
might try it, but they can't be route here, you know,

479
00:39:43.960 --> 00:39:47.800
they can't. They dislike they have to. I say, they

480
00:39:47.840 --> 00:39:56.599
have to. But generally volunteers hold all the cards really,

481
00:39:59.400 --> 00:40:06.159
you know, so a manager, supervisor, they got no choice

482
00:40:06.159 --> 00:40:13.719
but to really be gentle and respectful. I'm not saying

483
00:40:13.719 --> 00:40:16.920
that's always the case, but you know, in my experience

484
00:40:17.000 --> 00:40:20.199
that seemed to be the case. And that's what it

485
00:40:20.239 --> 00:40:22.599
was when I was as a volunteer there. Soon as

486
00:40:22.599 --> 00:40:27.719
I started working there, Wow, I was treated very differently.

487
00:40:29.239 --> 00:40:34.920
It was dark opposite. It's amazing considering it as a

488
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:40.880
charity for children. So anyway, I thought, maybe I'll go

489
00:40:40.880 --> 00:40:44.800
and volunteer again. I was looking for some vo volunteer places,

490
00:40:46.599 --> 00:40:52.280
get me out, you know, just to do something and

491
00:40:53.599 --> 00:40:56.000
so I go into this building just out of interest,

492
00:40:56.119 --> 00:41:01.880
like half hoping that the manager would have gone moved on,

493
00:41:03.519 --> 00:41:06.239
got a different job, you know, hopefully she wasn't there anymore.

494
00:41:06.480 --> 00:41:10.639
But she was there, unfortunately, but it was worth a try.

495
00:41:11.000 --> 00:41:15.280
So I went in there. I'm talking to a man

496
00:41:15.320 --> 00:41:18.079
I've never met before. He was in charge of the volunteers,

497
00:41:18.960 --> 00:41:22.920
so he was saying, or we might have some volunteer work.

498
00:41:26.199 --> 00:41:29.159
And then in through the door comes not the manager,

499
00:41:29.360 --> 00:41:34.199
she did turn up later on, but a lady that

500
00:41:34.360 --> 00:41:36.800
I used to work with that was in the counseling office.

501
00:41:37.440 --> 00:41:41.639
I used to go really well with her. She came in.

502
00:41:42.679 --> 00:41:45.119
She was the one that would give me, tell me

503
00:41:45.159 --> 00:41:50.360
what I needed to do with the client files and

504
00:41:50.400 --> 00:41:52.920
the alphabetical stuff, you know, where to put it and stuff.

505
00:41:53.559 --> 00:41:56.440
She came in telling me that I had completely ruined

506
00:41:56.480 --> 00:42:02.840
everything and put everything into the files in wrong alphabet unalphabetically,

507
00:42:05.159 --> 00:42:09.639
and all it was is by surname, so you know,

508
00:42:09.719 --> 00:42:13.440
it's it's like And I said, what are you talking

509
00:42:13.480 --> 00:42:15.119
about it? She said, yeah, yeah, he just messed it

510
00:42:15.159 --> 00:42:18.039
all up. She'd made it a complete nightmare. Because every

511
00:42:18.119 --> 00:42:21.480
seven years, I think it was, they had to go

512
00:42:21.559 --> 00:42:23.440
through all the files and get rid of anything that

513
00:42:23.519 --> 00:42:27.719
was over seven years old. So they were going they

514
00:42:27.719 --> 00:42:32.119
were now in that process again, having and I was

515
00:42:32.159 --> 00:42:35.760
going through that process when I was working there, so

516
00:42:35.840 --> 00:42:38.000
it was the next turn to do that. And she

517
00:42:38.119 --> 00:42:42.119
was saying, you've made such a mess. Everything's in the

518
00:42:42.159 --> 00:42:48.639
wrong all day in under wrong alphabet and stuff. I said, well,

519
00:42:48.679 --> 00:42:52.639
first of all, hi, how are you? Yeah? Maybe say

520
00:42:52.639 --> 00:43:00.360
hello first? So they just moaning at me desperate women,

521
00:43:00.599 --> 00:43:05.280
wicked women. What was it called? I can't remember? And

522
00:43:05.320 --> 00:43:08.800
I said, are you sure that it was me and

523
00:43:08.840 --> 00:43:14.280
not one of the many, many, many people that have

524
00:43:14.360 --> 00:43:19.519
come and gone in the last seven years? Me? Come on,

525
00:43:20.599 --> 00:43:25.199
how can you bear it in mind that the files

526
00:43:25.239 --> 00:43:30.519
at the time, the seven years worth of files would

527
00:43:30.519 --> 00:43:36.199
have been put in there? Okay, how can But I'm

528
00:43:36.199 --> 00:43:38.920
the one to blame for the whole thing. It's like wow,

529
00:43:40.559 --> 00:43:46.400
And I was amazed. It's like really, And the one

530
00:43:46.440 --> 00:43:51.280
thing I can do, I can alphab better to lize

531
00:43:52.199 --> 00:43:58.840
this that makes sense. I know I might have to

532
00:43:59.760 --> 00:44:01.800
do it in my head or do all my fingers

533
00:44:01.840 --> 00:44:04.199
to figure out what comes before, but I know A

534
00:44:04.400 --> 00:44:08.119
comes first. I know the z's at the end. Somewhere

535
00:44:09.960 --> 00:44:14.119
and M and then oh, they're kind of in the

536
00:44:14.119 --> 00:44:18.639
middle ish bqs. Do you know I might have to

537
00:44:18.679 --> 00:44:22.599
work it out, but I know that the F is

538
00:44:22.639 --> 00:44:29.559
after B Just things like that. You know, I don't

539
00:44:29.599 --> 00:44:31.440
need a chart on the wall for me to look

540
00:44:31.480 --> 00:44:34.000
at it, but I know the alphabet. I can't do

541
00:44:34.039 --> 00:44:37.639
it backwards. There's a lot of things I can't do backwards.

542
00:44:39.280 --> 00:44:42.599
I can't do a wee way backwards. You know, why

543
00:44:42.639 --> 00:44:45.159
would I what would do? When I can walk backwards?

544
00:44:45.159 --> 00:44:50.480
But I will bang into things? Did you know? I

545
00:44:50.519 --> 00:44:53.920
don't ever tell you The only time I ever ever

546
00:44:53.960 --> 00:44:58.960
had a black eye in my whole life was when

547
00:44:58.960 --> 00:45:06.559
I was walking home from school this kid. So I'm

548
00:45:06.639 --> 00:45:11.920
like shouting at this kid and he's looking at me,

549
00:45:13.599 --> 00:45:17.719
and he bangs into a lamp post because he's distracted

550
00:45:17.760 --> 00:45:20.280
by me. And I'm laughing my head off and I

551
00:45:20.280 --> 00:45:24.440
turn around and I bang into a lamp post. Now,

552
00:45:24.760 --> 00:45:28.599
back in them days, the lamp posts were concrete. They

553
00:45:28.639 --> 00:45:30.840
weren't like metal like that are now not saying that

554
00:45:31.480 --> 00:45:36.159
banging into a metal lamp post wouldn't be problematic, But

555
00:45:37.079 --> 00:45:43.480
these were solid concrete lamposts, and my eye just so

556
00:45:47.840 --> 00:45:53.119
videy's looking at me. Do you like that sound? I

557
00:45:53.199 --> 00:45:57.880
was so proud of my black eye, my shiner. Really

558
00:45:58.239 --> 00:46:01.280
really loved it. I don't know why it's called a shiner,

559
00:46:02.239 --> 00:46:06.719
but I loved it. It's and it was like, really,

560
00:46:06.719 --> 00:46:17.360
my whole eyebrow is like blue. So proud, and I

561
00:46:17.559 --> 00:46:20.199
was like walking around like I've just been in a

562
00:46:20.199 --> 00:46:23.280
big fight, and I was a big man. I was

563
00:46:23.320 --> 00:46:27.760
probably about twelve, thirteen or whatever at the time. It's

564
00:46:27.800 --> 00:46:31.400
like yeah, But unfortunately my friend was just going around

565
00:46:31.440 --> 00:46:36.039
telling everyone, Yeah, he walked into a lamp post. He'd

566
00:46:36.039 --> 00:46:38.239
already told everyone before I got to school the next day.

567
00:46:38.960 --> 00:46:45.719
So I'm walking around like a big I am and

568
00:46:45.800 --> 00:46:52.039
everyone already knew. So people was saying, what happened to you?

569
00:46:52.280 --> 00:46:54.000
Are you okay? I said, oh, you should see the

570
00:46:54.039 --> 00:46:59.039
other person. And I said that a few times. Eventually

571
00:46:59.079 --> 00:47:02.679
someone said, what the post? Lamp post looked fine this morning,

572
00:47:03.639 --> 00:47:08.880
still standing up? Ah, how do you know? Dean told

573
00:47:08.920 --> 00:47:14.320
everyone really said yeah, we didn't tell everyone, but everyone

574
00:47:14.320 --> 00:47:18.480
then just spread it around because he said that you're

575
00:47:18.480 --> 00:47:21.239
going to brag about being in a fight and how

576
00:47:21.280 --> 00:47:27.440
you beat up ten people, and you know why, you've

577
00:47:27.440 --> 00:47:32.920
got a black eye because one of them got lucky.

578
00:47:33.440 --> 00:47:35.559
I said, Okay, I walked into a lamp post. What's

579
00:47:35.599 --> 00:47:44.000
wrong with that? It's funny, But this is not huge

580
00:47:44.000 --> 00:47:51.800
to glamorous, is it. Yeah, that's the only time I

581
00:47:51.960 --> 00:47:54.760
never I've been bruised. I've had bruises and stuff, but

582
00:47:54.800 --> 00:48:00.360
I've never actually had a proper, full, proper shiner time

583
00:48:00.480 --> 00:48:05.840
my life. I'd got one of them. So yeah, I

584
00:48:05.880 --> 00:48:11.960
had my hair dark brown half a perm. I never

585
00:48:11.960 --> 00:48:16.920
really understood what half a perm was, but I was intrigued,

586
00:48:18.800 --> 00:48:21.599
very intrigued. I didn't know if it was going to

587
00:48:21.760 --> 00:48:23.719
half my hair is gonna be permed in our half

588
00:48:23.760 --> 00:48:30.119
would just be left. See. I didn't realize when I

589
00:48:30.280 --> 00:48:35.519
was between the ages of twenty and twenty four. Summer

590
00:48:35.559 --> 00:48:41.480
twenty nineteen ninety four, I grew my hair long. So

591
00:48:41.559 --> 00:48:44.480
I had long hair all the way down to my

592
00:48:44.760 --> 00:48:49.880
middle of my back for years. But because my hair

593
00:48:49.920 --> 00:48:57.000
is so curly, it was almost impossible to manage. I'd

594
00:48:57.079 --> 00:49:01.320
have it in a ponytail most of the time. I

595
00:49:01.360 --> 00:49:05.280
didn't know that it was possible to straighten hair. I

596
00:49:05.280 --> 00:49:08.360
could have strained it, it could have been lovely. I

597
00:49:08.360 --> 00:49:10.679
could have still well. I wouldn't still have it, because

598
00:49:11.679 --> 00:49:16.320
I imagine my hair would have fallen out much quicker

599
00:49:16.519 --> 00:49:19.480
if I had kept the ponytail, because it really pulls

600
00:49:19.480 --> 00:49:23.880
on the roots then it So I did think about

601
00:49:23.920 --> 00:49:26.800
growing my hair long, just the for a laugh, really,

602
00:49:27.760 --> 00:49:31.280
just to see what it would look like now being

603
00:49:33.480 --> 00:49:47.800
a bit mildly slightly marginally bald, how it would work out.

604
00:49:49.360 --> 00:49:51.599
But I just never got around to it because for

605
00:49:51.639 --> 00:49:54.559
some reason, the longer my hair gets, the border I look,

606
00:49:55.760 --> 00:50:00.280
which is weird because the size get very curly. So

607
00:50:00.320 --> 00:50:04.519
what very thick curly hair at the back, at the sides,

608
00:50:06.920 --> 00:50:13.239
not so much at the front. There's there's it's kind

609
00:50:13.280 --> 00:50:19.159
of like looking down on a forest, you know, when

610
00:50:19.199 --> 00:50:21.920
you look down the forest and it's like really thick forest.

611
00:50:22.000 --> 00:50:26.599
Then you get an opening and on the on one

612
00:50:26.679 --> 00:50:32.119
side there's the like bits of opening that's like the

613
00:50:32.159 --> 00:50:34.800
front of my hair, and on the crown on my

614
00:50:34.840 --> 00:50:39.760
head it's like a lake's that's just like an opening completely.

615
00:50:40.800 --> 00:50:42.519
That's that's kind of what my head, the top of

616
00:50:42.519 --> 00:50:48.480
my head looks like. Yeah, I don't know if that's

617
00:50:48.519 --> 00:50:57.920
a good visual. I did have my hair bleached in

618
00:50:59.800 --> 00:51:08.800
nineteen eighty nineteen eighty eight. I wanted to be like Bross.

619
00:51:09.800 --> 00:51:12.960
So my head bleached. Both my ears pierced. I got

620
00:51:12.960 --> 00:51:15.920
a lot of attention. I wanted a lot of attention,

621
00:51:16.079 --> 00:51:23.039
and I was getting it, but not for women, and

622
00:51:23.079 --> 00:51:26.519
I couldn't understand it. I was with my friend and

623
00:51:26.559 --> 00:51:30.199
we were going into like I said, all these men

624
00:51:30.719 --> 00:51:34.239
are chatting me up? What was going on? And turned

625
00:51:34.239 --> 00:51:36.440
out we was in a gay bar. Didn't know. I

626
00:51:36.519 --> 00:51:41.039
didn't know there was a gay bar in town. The

627
00:51:41.119 --> 00:51:43.280
reason I liked it in there because it was friendly

628
00:51:44.039 --> 00:51:46.039
and it wasn't like a gay nightclub. It was just

629
00:51:46.079 --> 00:51:49.199
a bar, but it was run by a gay bloke

630
00:51:49.679 --> 00:51:56.239
and the atmosphere in there was really nice, really nice.

631
00:51:56.440 --> 00:52:01.199
There was no arguments, no, it was just really nice.

632
00:52:01.199 --> 00:52:04.360
So I go in there because some people I knew

633
00:52:04.360 --> 00:52:06.679
went in there and we just have a chat and

634
00:52:06.800 --> 00:52:10.519
it was bright and it was lovely. I didn't know

635
00:52:10.559 --> 00:52:13.119
it was a gay club or a gay bar rather

636
00:52:13.960 --> 00:52:18.800
because back then it wasn't official in a sense. It

637
00:52:18.880 --> 00:52:22.400
wasn't like an official gay bar. It was just a

638
00:52:22.480 --> 00:52:28.400
bar run for I guess, for his people that he knew,

639
00:52:28.440 --> 00:52:33.599
and for people to feel comfortable going there. And that's

640
00:52:33.639 --> 00:52:35.039
one of the things about. I didn't know I was

641
00:52:35.039 --> 00:52:38.440
going to talk about gay bars, but I've been lots

642
00:52:38.440 --> 00:52:40.760
of gay nightclubs over the years when I was younger.

643
00:52:43.000 --> 00:52:46.239
The one thing, the two things I noticed, one thing

644
00:52:46.440 --> 00:52:51.639
I liked, the one thing I didn't like. I liked

645
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:59.039
the atmosphere, such a good atmosphere. Never ever seen trouble

646
00:52:59.480 --> 00:53:02.079
in a game, aar or gay club. Not saying that

647
00:53:02.119 --> 00:53:06.880
it never happened, but I never saw it. And you

648
00:53:06.920 --> 00:53:11.199
know in London, you go anywhere, you know what I mean,

649
00:53:11.239 --> 00:53:15.639
there's there's usually something happens during the night. Nothing nothing

650
00:53:15.679 --> 00:53:20.039
happened ever when I was out, and they're probably all

651
00:53:20.039 --> 00:53:26.239
too busy checking me out. And then the thing I

652
00:53:26.280 --> 00:53:30.000
didn't wasn't so impressed with. And I don't know why

653
00:53:30.039 --> 00:53:33.559
this is. And I've been in quite a few nightclubs

654
00:53:33.639 --> 00:53:40.280
during that period, every single gay club or gay nightclub

655
00:53:40.360 --> 00:53:42.800
rather I went to. There's no lights in the toilets.

656
00:53:43.599 --> 00:53:48.320
I couldn't figure it out. Like, how am I supposed

657
00:53:48.360 --> 00:53:50.039
to know where? I remember saying, how I'm supposed to

658
00:53:50.039 --> 00:53:54.119
know where everything is? And you just follow the follow,

659
00:53:54.159 --> 00:53:57.920
the follow the sounds, follow the noises. So does anyone

660
00:53:57.960 --> 00:53:59.199
know where the cubicle is.

661
00:53:59.239 --> 00:54:06.519
Like, so here, okay, I lead you there like no,

662
00:54:06.599 --> 00:54:10.519
it's okay, now I don't.

663
00:54:10.280 --> 00:54:13.880
Need you to hold my hat. Oh you got lovely hands. Okay,

664
00:54:15.880 --> 00:54:19.239
but it's yeah, I remember, yeah, I remember got a

665
00:54:19.280 --> 00:54:24.440
girlfriend from a game I once it was brilliant because

666
00:54:24.480 --> 00:54:27.039
it's that old you can't you can't pick up women

667
00:54:27.039 --> 00:54:33.079
in a gay bar. It's actually I think women were

668
00:54:33.079 --> 00:54:35.159
there the same reason I was there, because it was

669
00:54:35.199 --> 00:54:39.719
a nice atmosphere. It was safe, unthreatening, it was nice,

670
00:54:40.800 --> 00:54:43.840
just a lovely place. So I used to meet women, well,

671
00:54:43.960 --> 00:54:49.719
particularly met one particular female, and I'm sure she was

672
00:54:49.760 --> 00:54:52.480
there for exactly the same reason. And we got on

673
00:54:52.599 --> 00:54:55.679
and we ended up dating, and we had a lot

674
00:54:55.719 --> 00:55:03.679
in common, you know, just chilled out, didn't really want

675
00:55:03.719 --> 00:55:07.519
all that the hassle. You know, it's quite nice to

676
00:55:07.679 --> 00:55:11.400
just she didn't want to be somewhere where she's going

677
00:55:11.440 --> 00:55:15.599
to be hit on all the time, and I quite

678
00:55:15.679 --> 00:55:17.360
like being somewhere where I was being hit on all

679
00:55:17.360 --> 00:55:21.519
the time, you know. And we ended up going out,

680
00:55:21.639 --> 00:55:32.559
and yeah, I remember she was it. We couldn't go out.

681
00:55:32.960 --> 00:55:37.360
We kind of we had the first night together on

682
00:55:37.480 --> 00:55:40.599
that night, but we did arrange to meetach other the

683
00:55:40.639 --> 00:55:43.840
next day and she found me out and said, oh,

684
00:55:44.679 --> 00:55:48.639
she couldn't meet me until later on in the day

685
00:55:48.679 --> 00:55:53.000
because she had to get a prostate exam. So I thought, okay,

686
00:55:53.039 --> 00:55:56.280
well we'll meet up later on. And it was good.

687
00:55:56.679 --> 00:56:03.079
It was a nice romantic time. Yeah. Yeah. So one

688
00:56:03.079 --> 00:56:16.000
other things I My next delve into entrepreneurship was probably

689
00:56:17.519 --> 00:56:22.159
when I was at the chip shop because oh yeah,

690
00:56:22.679 --> 00:56:29.639
I did get a couple of vocals for the child

691
00:56:29.840 --> 00:56:35.400
minding service or babysitting service, and they all said the

692
00:56:35.440 --> 00:56:44.199
same thing, your boy, it's like, okay, weird question. I said, yeah,

693
00:56:45.199 --> 00:56:48.480
all right, never mind by it's in the end. After

694
00:56:48.599 --> 00:56:50.199
a few of these corpers, I said, wait a minute,

695
00:56:50.559 --> 00:56:54.239
what's the problem. I'm not leaving my kid, little boy.

696
00:56:55.079 --> 00:56:58.840
We figured that you were if you're offering a babysitting service,

697
00:56:58.920 --> 00:57:02.440
that you'd be female. I said, what difference does it make?

698
00:57:04.960 --> 00:57:07.159
I said, I babysit my little brother all the time.

699
00:57:07.920 --> 00:57:11.599
And ironically I didn't say this to the person because

700
00:57:12.079 --> 00:57:14.360
I couldn't really predict the future to him, but I

701
00:57:14.400 --> 00:57:17.880
would have said to him what I want to say

702
00:57:17.920 --> 00:57:21.519
to you is I had multiple people asked me to

703
00:57:21.519 --> 00:57:25.960
babysit their kids, as I got older, because you know,

704
00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:32.280
when I was in a chip shop, there was one, two, three,

705
00:57:32.880 --> 00:57:38.320
three different people asked me to babysit for them and

706
00:57:38.320 --> 00:57:40.679
they pay me. They give me five quid or whatever.

707
00:57:41.599 --> 00:57:43.400
And it meant that they could go out for a meal,

708
00:57:43.559 --> 00:57:46.920
they could go out and do something, and I just

709
00:57:46.960 --> 00:57:50.239
turn up when they were already in bed. So I'd

710
00:57:50.280 --> 00:57:54.679
just go watch TV, watch a big, big colored TV

711
00:57:54.840 --> 00:57:59.559
and stuff. It was easy just sitting there for a

712
00:57:59.639 --> 00:58:01.639
few hours. I said, come back and I go home.

713
00:58:02.000 --> 00:58:05.400
Whether give me a lift home if if I you know,

714
00:58:05.719 --> 00:58:11.760
was if they weren't drunk. So I did it a

715
00:58:11.760 --> 00:58:16.000
few times, and I did it again when I worked

716
00:58:16.039 --> 00:58:18.760
in the co op, I looked after my friend's kids.

717
00:58:18.840 --> 00:58:25.000
It's the babysit. I think that was it. But no.

718
00:58:25.119 --> 00:58:31.639
I also I was actually a childminder for probably about

719
00:58:31.840 --> 00:58:37.000
four months five months when I was eighteen. I actually

720
00:58:37.000 --> 00:58:39.559
lived in like a live in nanny. But all my

721
00:58:39.960 --> 00:58:42.880
only job really was just to take her to school.

722
00:58:43.239 --> 00:58:46.360
The rest of the time I'd just be I'd be

723
00:58:46.360 --> 00:58:48.800
in the flat while she was in bed, so I'd

724
00:58:48.800 --> 00:58:50.280
have to just make sure that she was safe and

725
00:58:50.320 --> 00:58:53.920
she'd be asleep anyway, and they'd be doing a night shift.

726
00:58:56.159 --> 00:58:58.440
So I did that for a while and then i'd yeah,

727
00:58:58.440 --> 00:59:00.199
I'd take her to school in the morning, that's it,

728
00:59:01.840 --> 00:59:06.719
And that was it didn't I'm not sure. Maybe no,

729
00:59:06.800 --> 00:59:08.719
I didn't pick her up from school. I think the

730
00:59:10.119 --> 00:59:12.840
mother picked her up from school because she was up

731
00:59:12.880 --> 00:59:16.039
by then, so she'd beg in bed by seven, and

732
00:59:16.079 --> 00:59:19.519
then she'd be up again, probably by two two or

733
00:59:19.519 --> 00:59:23.280
three two. Probably the school was only around the corner.

734
00:59:27.360 --> 00:59:30.760
But I couldn't really use that as a as a

735
00:59:30.800 --> 00:59:35.800
defense when I was a kid saying to this person

736
00:59:35.840 --> 00:59:38.239
on the phone, what difference does it make for my

737
00:59:38.320 --> 00:59:43.239
boy or a girl? Just I didn't really get it,

738
00:59:43.239 --> 00:59:46.079
to be honest, I didn't understand. I didn't see what

739
00:59:46.119 --> 00:59:49.639
the difference would be. But yeah, I didn't get any

740
00:59:49.679 --> 00:59:54.599
work anyway. And then when I was at the chip shop,

741
00:59:55.519 --> 00:59:58.199
it it got a bit silly because I had literally

742
00:59:58.239 --> 01:00:01.559
I was selling my furniture just so I could get by,

743
01:00:02.800 --> 01:00:06.719
because my dad had all my furniture and storage from

744
01:00:06.719 --> 01:00:10.800
my bedroom. So when I got that flat, he moved in,

745
01:00:12.400 --> 01:00:14.880
you know, as far as the furniture goes, probably the TV,

746
01:00:15.280 --> 01:00:16.840
I was thinking about it. I probably did get the

747
01:00:16.840 --> 01:00:19.480
TV so it was in storage. I was wondering the

748
01:00:19.480 --> 01:00:23.719
other day what happened to that TV. I got my bed,

749
01:00:24.599 --> 01:00:43.920
I got my wardrobe and bed wardrobe. There probably wasn't

750
01:00:44.000 --> 01:00:48.159
much more. Probably maybe a chair. That was about it. Really,

751
01:00:48.159 --> 01:00:52.679
there wasn't like a lot of things. I didn't have,

752
01:00:52.760 --> 01:00:57.880
like huge amounts of belongings. I wonder where everything went.

753
01:00:58.599 --> 01:01:03.199
I must have had some stuff because it was in

754
01:01:03.400 --> 01:01:09.679
storage downstairs in the garage where at my step man's place.

755
01:01:12.880 --> 01:01:16.239
I mean, all my weights and my punch bags and

756
01:01:16.280 --> 01:01:22.239
all that stuff I sold before I even moved into

757
01:01:22.280 --> 01:01:25.159
the flab after chip shop. So I didn't have any

758
01:01:25.159 --> 01:01:27.599
of that stuff anymore because I wasn't able to use that.

759
01:01:27.639 --> 01:01:29.599
I was a point leven if I can't use it,

760
01:01:30.599 --> 01:01:32.239
because at the time I didn't know I was ever

761
01:01:32.320 --> 01:01:41.440
going to find anywhere else to live. Yeah, So I

762
01:01:41.480 --> 01:01:43.480
got to the point where I was sleeping on the

763
01:01:43.559 --> 01:01:50.000
floor on a mattress in the living room, and I

764
01:01:50.119 --> 01:01:57.719
didn't really have any belongings. So I started to for

765
01:01:57.960 --> 01:02:00.960
what can I do? So I started to be a

766
01:02:01.000 --> 01:02:05.079
bit of a wheeler dealer, and I knew some people

767
01:02:05.239 --> 01:02:10.239
that had stuff to sell or stuff for me to

768
01:02:10.280 --> 01:02:13.880
buy to sell. And sometimes they'd let me have it

769
01:02:14.440 --> 01:02:18.320
and I'd pay them once I got the money from

770
01:02:18.360 --> 01:02:20.760
the person I was selling it to, which is quite

771
01:02:20.760 --> 01:02:22.360
a good deal for me because I didn't have any

772
01:02:22.400 --> 01:02:25.119
sort of cash to play with. So I did that

773
01:02:25.159 --> 01:02:27.199
for a bit, sold a few little bits and bobs.

774
01:02:27.440 --> 01:02:31.360
Sold a fridge freezer. That was probably my biggest sale.

775
01:02:31.599 --> 01:02:34.199
I think I made about forty five pounds for that,

776
01:02:35.559 --> 01:02:39.280
which was pretty much double what I was getting a

777
01:02:39.320 --> 01:02:43.000
week in my pocket, So that was quite a nice

778
01:02:43.039 --> 01:02:48.880
bit of money. What else then I got, Well, I

779
01:02:48.920 --> 01:02:51.599
started doing it. I met a jeweler who was one

780
01:02:51.639 --> 01:02:54.440
of the customers, and he was telling me that there

781
01:02:54.519 --> 01:02:59.599
was money and jewelry, and I think he was kind

782
01:02:59.639 --> 01:03:04.840
of hired. He had a jewelry store, retired and he'd

783
01:03:04.880 --> 01:03:08.639
been in London or something, but he still kind of

784
01:03:08.800 --> 01:03:12.400
did a little bit on the side, you know. So

785
01:03:12.559 --> 01:03:14.000
I talked to him and I was like.

786
01:03:14.480 --> 01:03:18.400
Oh it.

787
01:03:18.519 --> 01:03:20.840
Sometimes he showed me catalogs. I'd be sitting on his

788
01:03:20.920 --> 01:03:24.719
lap and he showed me catalogs and bits of the

789
01:03:24.840 --> 01:03:28.000
jewelryes and like said, well, you could the markup prices

790
01:03:28.079 --> 01:03:34.360
for that, so you can you can spend one hundred

791
01:03:34.360 --> 01:03:36.519
pounds on something to sell it for like maybe three

792
01:03:36.519 --> 01:03:42.159
point fifty four hundred, because the more something costs, the

793
01:03:42.239 --> 01:03:46.320
more valuable it feels to the person buying it. But

794
01:03:46.440 --> 01:03:54.480
the markup is really high, and thought all so I

795
01:03:54.559 --> 01:04:03.880
kind of looked into it, and again this man decided

796
01:04:04.159 --> 01:04:07.440
he said he could sell me stuff. So it gave

797
01:04:07.480 --> 01:04:11.760
me a catalog. Again. I would buy the stuff, I

798
01:04:11.760 --> 01:04:16.199
would sell it, and then he would provide me with

799
01:04:16.360 --> 01:04:17.920
that and I would get the money for him. So

800
01:04:18.199 --> 01:04:22.920
that's kind of I would order from him and sell

801
01:04:22.960 --> 01:04:25.880
it to people. Now, I sold a couple of rings,

802
01:04:27.360 --> 01:04:30.440
but it didn't really go very far. It is only

803
01:04:30.480 --> 01:04:34.559
so much you can do when you work in a

804
01:04:34.679 --> 01:04:42.880
chip shop, because it was quite hard for me to

805
01:04:43.039 --> 01:04:48.159
present myself as successful to the people on the other

806
01:04:48.199 --> 01:04:53.400
side of the counter, the customers successful enough to depart

807
01:04:53.480 --> 01:05:00.679
with their money for jewelry when I I stunk of

808
01:05:00.840 --> 01:05:07.960
fish and I was wearing just dirty were not dirty,

809
01:05:07.960 --> 01:05:12.719
with clothes that were just horrible, and I, yeah, I

810
01:05:12.760 --> 01:05:18.480
didn't I didn't really, I didn't fit the part. I

811
01:05:18.599 --> 01:05:20.639
got a couple of sales, but you know, it didn't

812
01:05:20.679 --> 01:05:25.000
work great, but it was something, so I kind of

813
01:05:25.360 --> 01:05:29.360
made a little bit of money. My friend came around

814
01:05:29.400 --> 01:05:35.719
once with some a big black bag full of cigarettes,

815
01:05:37.559 --> 01:05:44.360
and that was he. He had a friend who had

816
01:05:44.360 --> 01:05:46.719
a friend and we were going to sell them in

817
01:05:46.760 --> 01:05:51.400
the pubs, and so I stored them. This is before

818
01:05:51.440 --> 01:05:53.199
I moved into the flat, So this is a long

819
01:05:53.239 --> 01:05:57.360
time ago, before I moved into the the flat above

820
01:05:57.400 --> 01:06:02.880
the chip shops. So this is like forty wow, four

821
01:06:03.000 --> 01:06:11.000
years ago. And so we're all ready to go out

822
01:06:11.039 --> 01:06:13.719
that night and you know, go into the pubs, and

823
01:06:13.840 --> 01:06:15.719
just so I couldn't even get served in the pubs.

824
01:06:15.840 --> 01:06:18.639
I was what fifteen at the time. So let's go

825
01:06:18.679 --> 01:06:22.840
around and sell these cigarettes to people. And he came around.

826
01:06:22.880 --> 01:06:26.360
I thought, but let's get ready to go, and they said, no,

827
01:06:26.400 --> 01:06:29.199
it's a problem. I said, what he showed me the

828
01:06:29.239 --> 01:06:34.679
newspaper and what he didn't know where the cigarettes had

829
01:06:34.719 --> 01:06:39.880
come from. So he sped the rest of the evening

830
01:06:40.639 --> 01:06:47.199
disposing of them because you know, it was dodgy. It's like,

831
01:06:47.800 --> 01:06:50.639
I can't believe it. I really I didn't mind being

832
01:06:50.760 --> 01:06:52.800
a wheel lid. I was trying to be a wheeler dealer,

833
01:06:53.440 --> 01:06:59.480
but I wasn't trying to be a criminal. I'm a criminal. See, yeah,

834
01:06:59.559 --> 01:07:03.440
that wasn't. It wasn't great, I mean ideally old. It

835
01:07:03.559 --> 01:07:07.559
just sort of it wasn't one hundred percent sure it

836
01:07:07.639 --> 01:07:10.039
was from there, but it just seemed a little bit

837
01:07:10.039 --> 01:07:13.599
of a coincidence. No one sort of knew, no one, well,

838
01:07:13.679 --> 01:07:16.719
no one that did know would tell, which is probably

839
01:07:16.760 --> 01:07:23.920
the right thing anyway. But so we're walking around disposing

840
01:07:24.000 --> 01:07:30.519
of them for hours, literally taking them out of packets

841
01:07:30.559 --> 01:07:34.079
and breaking them up one by one. They must have

842
01:07:34.159 --> 01:07:40.000
been there was a lot, a lot that's yeah, a lot,

843
01:07:42.800 --> 01:07:46.519
a lot of money's worth actually in today's money, that

844
01:07:46.559 --> 01:07:55.519
would be worth probably a couple of thousand pounds worth

845
01:07:55.519 --> 01:08:00.360
of cigarettes now, because it's about twenty pounds a packets now,

846
01:08:00.440 --> 01:08:05.559
so yeah, at least one hundred packs, probably maybe even

847
01:08:05.559 --> 01:08:12.079
more than that. So yeah, it's after that. I didn't

848
01:08:12.159 --> 01:08:16.439
I thought, no, I don't think I'm gonna I'm not

849
01:08:16.439 --> 01:08:19.439
going to sell contraband, not contraband, but I just the

850
01:08:19.520 --> 01:08:23.560
idea of I didn't want to sell stolen goods. I

851
01:08:23.600 --> 01:08:25.319
mean it might not be, but I didn't want to

852
01:08:25.359 --> 01:08:28.439
do that anyway because I was in such a small

853
01:08:28.479 --> 01:08:31.359
town you couldn't get away with it. And when I

854
01:08:31.359 --> 01:08:34.520
moved to London, I was buying stuff all the time

855
01:08:34.600 --> 01:08:40.479
that was snide or dodgy stuff that had come in

856
01:08:40.520 --> 01:08:44.399
on the boats. I don't mean I wasn't buying immigrants.

857
01:08:46.359 --> 01:08:53.520
I wasn't buying illegals. No, there was like tapes that

858
01:08:53.640 --> 01:08:59.039
were what do you call them, like copies of stuff snids.

859
01:08:59.039 --> 01:09:03.439
I suppose that's what they could. I forget what they

860
01:09:03.520 --> 01:09:06.079
call them. But yeah, So that was the end of

861
01:09:06.079 --> 01:09:14.960
that criminal empire, just wasn't for me. And then I

862
01:09:15.000 --> 01:09:20.439
traveled to London to the main place where they sell jewelry,

863
01:09:21.159 --> 01:09:25.560
and this is probably a little bit later, probably Yeah,

864
01:09:25.600 --> 01:09:27.840
that was a couple of years later, probably about nineteen

865
01:09:27.920 --> 01:09:33.159
eighty nine. I went to London and I bought I

866
01:09:33.199 --> 01:09:36.880
probably spent about one hundred pound on jewelry, brought it

867
01:09:36.920 --> 01:09:43.279
back trying to sell it, and I was even walking

868
01:09:43.359 --> 01:09:45.960
through the train trying to sell it to people on

869
01:09:46.000 --> 01:09:50.560
the train. What was going on in my mind? I

870
01:09:50.560 --> 01:09:54.840
didn't sell anything, But I don't know where I got

871
01:09:54.880 --> 01:10:03.479
the the confidence, so we say, maybe stupidity, but confidence.

872
01:10:03.479 --> 01:10:05.960
Where did I get that from? To be able to

873
01:10:06.000 --> 01:10:08.439
walk up to complete strangers on a train that was

874
01:10:08.520 --> 01:10:13.079
sitting there and try and sell them jewelry out of

875
01:10:13.119 --> 01:10:16.880
a carry it back. It didn't even know No, I

876
01:10:16.920 --> 01:10:20.359
don't think they even had boxes, which was a bit silly.

877
01:10:22.079 --> 01:10:26.680
Like Yeah, in the end, I'm not sure. I think

878
01:10:26.720 --> 01:10:31.319
I did sell some, but I think I didn't sell many.

879
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:36.960
I did sell some, not on the train, but afterwards.

880
01:10:37.479 --> 01:10:42.960
I might have given a few away. But another thing

881
01:10:43.000 --> 01:10:48.079
I did is I bought the Exchange and Mart, which

882
01:10:48.159 --> 01:10:53.680
was a magazine and very famous for it was very famous.

883
01:10:53.680 --> 01:10:56.800
I'm not sure if it's still around. It might be

884
01:10:56.880 --> 01:11:01.680
a website now, but people used to sell their cars

885
01:11:01.720 --> 01:11:06.199
on there. Buy and selling cars. They also had buying

886
01:11:06.239 --> 01:11:08.840
and selling number plates was a very that was a

887
01:11:08.920 --> 01:11:14.720
very kind of specialized thing. But there's also a business

888
01:11:14.760 --> 01:11:23.800
section where you could phone up or send off for

889
01:11:24.479 --> 01:11:28.520
a business kit absolutely free, and it'd be a free

890
01:11:28.560 --> 01:11:31.359
business idea. You go along and they just send it

891
01:11:31.399 --> 01:11:33.880
to you in the post and you'd give it go

892
01:11:33.920 --> 01:11:36.159
and see if you could, you know, make money from it.

893
01:11:38.720 --> 01:11:42.560
And I did that for every single business opportunity there was.

894
01:11:44.119 --> 01:11:48.319
And I remember I came downstairs one morning and I

895
01:11:48.399 --> 01:11:53.600
had about forty five It was a brilliant day. I

896
01:11:53.600 --> 01:11:57.680
had about forty five packages or envelopes with stuff in

897
01:11:59.199 --> 01:12:02.960
with all these different and things. It's different, you know,

898
01:12:03.000 --> 01:12:05.399
because I was just giving stuff away free, trying to

899
01:12:05.399 --> 01:12:10.039
get people to sell it, samples and stuff. It was

900
01:12:10.079 --> 01:12:16.640
so good. There was financial plans. There was even money lending,

901
01:12:16.800 --> 01:12:21.119
which perhaps wasn't a good thing to get to get

902
01:12:21.119 --> 01:12:27.760
involved in again. But the one thing I did take up,

903
01:12:29.079 --> 01:12:31.800
I did sort of delve into the jewelry, try to

904
01:12:31.840 --> 01:12:38.640
start business as a jeweler, kind of in person. I

905
01:12:38.680 --> 01:12:41.720
had this idea that I'd be call myself mister Gold,

906
01:12:43.479 --> 01:12:47.840
and I'd travel. I'd go around the pubs and I'd

907
01:12:47.880 --> 01:12:53.079
wear lots of jewelry and a suit, and everyone would

908
01:12:53.119 --> 01:12:57.520
come to me for their jewelry requirements and I'd just

909
01:12:57.600 --> 01:12:59.600
be known in the local town. And that would be

910
01:13:00.119 --> 01:13:04.920
if someone got engaged, they'd come to me because I

911
01:13:04.920 --> 01:13:08.840
would get them a reduced rate than what they would

912
01:13:08.840 --> 01:13:12.720
get in a jewelers, but it would still be the

913
01:13:12.800 --> 01:13:19.640
same quality. Didn't quite work out, that was the plan,

914
01:13:22.520 --> 01:13:25.279
and so I had leaflets made up and you know,

915
01:13:25.319 --> 01:13:34.119
all this stuff done, and yeah, I had necklaces, and yeah,

916
01:13:34.119 --> 01:13:40.439
it didn't quite work. The next thing I tried was perfume.

917
01:13:42.000 --> 01:13:44.680
Now this company, I still feel a little bit giddy

918
01:13:44.720 --> 01:13:48.399
thinking about it because it was exciting. They sent me

919
01:13:48.560 --> 01:13:55.119
a whole pack of perfumes, a big sample pack, like big.

920
01:13:55.439 --> 01:13:59.079
You know, we'd go through the letterbox. I mean, it

921
01:13:59.199 --> 01:14:02.399
might argue because it wouldn't go through letbox, doesn't It

922
01:14:02.399 --> 01:14:06.119
doesn't mean it's like big, but it was big. It

923
01:14:06.159 --> 01:14:13.880
was kind of like souit I don't know, not suitcase size,

924
01:14:14.800 --> 01:14:18.920
but briefcase size, maybe maybe a bit smaller than briefcase.

925
01:14:21.840 --> 01:14:28.760
And the samples were nice, really nice, and they'd be

926
01:14:28.840 --> 01:14:33.760
it was so I felt professional. So what I did

927
01:14:33.960 --> 01:14:38.439
I started going around to people I knew, and it'd

928
01:14:38.439 --> 01:14:42.960
be almost like an Anne Smer's party, but we're perfume,

929
01:14:48.159 --> 01:14:54.279
but without any laughter or people. So I guess there's

930
01:14:54.319 --> 01:14:59.119
nothing like an An Summer's party. But I knew a few people,

931
01:14:59.159 --> 01:15:03.359
a few females, and I just like, try that because

932
01:15:03.359 --> 01:15:06.359
back in them days, perfume, you know, it's it's not

933
01:15:06.840 --> 01:15:12.319
things were different. There wasn't a lot of is it

934
01:15:12.399 --> 01:15:16.560
cologne that men wear, which is basically just perfume, isn't it?

935
01:15:16.560 --> 01:15:19.680
So that there wasn't a lot of really kind of

936
01:15:19.840 --> 01:15:25.720
men perfume like there is now, not that I don't

937
01:15:25.800 --> 01:15:32.439
wear cologne. I just like, and I like an old

938
01:15:32.439 --> 01:15:39.119
fashioned bio. I think that's perfect. Oh, I thought you

939
01:15:39.159 --> 01:15:41.640
were coming and could smell you from a block off,

940
01:15:42.399 --> 01:15:47.640
block off, block away, block away, a mile away, so

941
01:15:50.359 --> 01:15:56.000
I don't have bio. It's weird though, because I've known

942
01:15:56.039 --> 01:15:58.680
a few people like really really bad bio in it.

943
01:15:59.520 --> 01:16:03.920
And I don't know. I was sitting there. I was

944
01:16:04.000 --> 01:16:07.319
in there, working the place, and the person's I wasn't

945
01:16:07.359 --> 01:16:11.640
far from their armpit. It just the working environment meant

946
01:16:11.640 --> 01:16:16.079
that perhaps I need to explain that. But the you know,

947
01:16:16.159 --> 01:16:22.720
I could smell them. And I was also near the microwave,

948
01:16:24.079 --> 01:16:29.920
and the microwave was heating up a pie. And it

949
01:16:30.000 --> 01:16:31.760
was weird because I was kind of getting a little

950
01:16:31.800 --> 01:16:37.039
bit of a similar smell from both his armpit and

951
01:16:37.079 --> 01:16:41.239
the microwave, and they were almost like they were mixing together,

952
01:16:42.439 --> 01:16:47.640
really like having a little dance in the air. The

953
01:16:48.039 --> 01:16:52.199
two smells were. I don't know if it's symbiotic whatever,

954
01:16:52.560 --> 01:17:00.359
like a little symbiotic bouncing on a symbiotic trampoline. I

955
01:17:00.399 --> 01:17:10.239
don't know, but I was like, Oh, that's weird. And

956
01:17:10.279 --> 01:17:17.680
then I started to think, is the pie is smelling

957
01:17:17.800 --> 01:17:22.439
like his armpits? Or is the armpits smelling like that pie?

958
01:17:23.039 --> 01:17:24.600
Now I didn't know what kind of pie it was

959
01:17:24.640 --> 01:17:31.399
because I wasn't the one heating the pie up, so

960
01:17:32.279 --> 01:17:38.439
and the pies all had different bottoms of like tin fold.

961
01:17:38.439 --> 01:17:41.239
Obviously don't put a tin fold in the microwave, but

962
01:17:41.359 --> 01:17:49.279
they all had different So I'm standing there thinking, was

963
01:17:49.319 --> 01:17:52.279
I sitting down? Sometimes I sit down when I want

964
01:17:52.279 --> 01:17:54.680
to enjoy a smell and trying to figure out what

965
01:17:54.840 --> 01:17:59.880
the substances, especially if there's two different smells. Sometimes I

966
01:18:00.159 --> 01:18:04.239
to rest my legs. On this occasion, I think I

967
01:18:04.279 --> 01:18:09.039
was just standing. Yeah, because he was very tall. That's

968
01:18:09.039 --> 01:18:10.880
why I was able to get to the arm not

969
01:18:10.960 --> 01:18:13.000
get to the arm pits. But that's why the arm

970
01:18:13.000 --> 01:18:15.359
pits a little bit closer to me. And I didn't

971
01:18:15.359 --> 01:18:18.239
actually had my nose in his armpit. That would have

972
01:18:18.279 --> 01:18:23.319
been inappropriate to do that when there was customers around that.

973
01:18:23.439 --> 01:18:26.000
The microwave was also to right at me. He was

974
01:18:26.239 --> 01:18:29.720
to left me because we was in a like a

975
01:18:31.079 --> 01:18:39.279
food environment, and I thought, I wonder what kind of

976
01:18:39.319 --> 01:18:45.920
pie it is? Then? Is it a chicken pie? Is

977
01:18:45.920 --> 01:18:49.560
it a vegetable pie? I don't know why I'm squeaking

978
01:18:49.560 --> 01:18:54.279
when I say the word pie pie. But they had

979
01:18:54.720 --> 01:19:00.239
different metal covers, like or not covers but holders. So

980
01:19:02.079 --> 01:19:08.399
the chicken ones were yellow, the I think the steak

981
01:19:08.640 --> 01:19:20.199
ones were oblong with purple bombs purple aluminium or aluminium

982
01:19:21.439 --> 01:19:24.600
aluminium is the correct way to say that. But the

983
01:19:24.640 --> 01:19:29.680
bottom of the one with silver aluminium, which meant it

984
01:19:29.760 --> 01:19:33.119
was a beef and onion pie. And I thought to myself,

985
01:19:35.159 --> 01:19:45.159
beef and onion, beef an onion. But I didn't realize

986
01:19:45.199 --> 01:19:47.600
I was saying it out loud. The customers will look

987
01:19:47.600 --> 01:19:50.880
at me a bit weird. The person I was working

988
01:19:50.920 --> 01:19:54.520
with was like, you're talking about But then when the

989
01:19:54.560 --> 01:19:56.720
customer shouted out, now he's talking about my pie. It's

990
01:19:56.720 --> 01:19:59.840
in a microwave. It sounds smells like it's ready, and

991
01:20:00.279 --> 01:20:04.000
it hasn't. It hasn't pinged yet, but not that I'm

992
01:20:04.039 --> 01:20:06.840
time in it. But I reckon it's probably ready because

993
01:20:06.840 --> 01:20:09.920
I can smell it. I said, are you sure, though?

994
01:20:10.119 --> 01:20:12.840
Is he sure that's what you can smell? And he

995
01:20:12.840 --> 01:20:15.000
said what else could I be able to smell other

996
01:20:15.079 --> 01:20:20.000
than the beef and union pie? And I said maybe,

997
01:20:20.039 --> 01:20:22.199
And I thought, no, I can't just say his armpits

998
01:20:22.279 --> 01:20:26.520
can I because that would be I don't know. I

999
01:20:26.520 --> 01:20:29.760
don't think it would go down too well. I guess

1000
01:20:29.760 --> 01:20:32.239
that's something you need to discuss with the person first.

1001
01:20:32.279 --> 01:20:38.199
Isn't it like it could be an awkward conversation? So

1002
01:20:39.239 --> 01:20:42.840
you're right, Tony, Yeah, you're right. Before we start our

1003
01:20:42.920 --> 01:20:45.800
shift today tonight, I was just wondering if I can

1004
01:20:45.840 --> 01:20:51.359
ask you something, Yeah, what is it? Well? I just

1005
01:20:51.359 --> 01:20:55.960
want to know just in case I have to heat

1006
01:20:56.039 --> 01:21:04.479
up a beef and onion pie in a microwave and

1007
01:21:05.479 --> 01:21:11.600
a customer asks, is there a beef lunion pie being

1008
01:21:12.039 --> 01:21:16.159
heated up? Or maybe I haven't heated the beef lunnon

1009
01:21:16.199 --> 01:21:20.000
pie up? And if a customer asks, is a beef

1010
01:21:20.000 --> 01:21:22.800
and onion pie being heated up? And if there isn't

1011
01:21:23.079 --> 01:21:25.800
a beef and onion pipe being heated up? Is it okay?

1012
01:21:25.880 --> 01:21:29.199
If I tell them that it's your armpits that they're smelling.

1013
01:21:31.560 --> 01:21:34.000
It's weird to sort of bring that into a conversation,

1014
01:21:34.079 --> 01:21:39.079
isn't it, Especially when you've been talking about Star Trek.

1015
01:21:40.079 --> 01:21:47.600
So I was thinking they overlap, there's an overlapping smell.

1016
01:21:49.039 --> 01:21:52.319
He intrigued me. I didn't realize, but it seems to

1017
01:21:52.399 --> 01:21:59.960
still be intriguing me for a weird way. For some reason,

1018
01:22:00.119 --> 01:22:07.560
my phone keeps turning off. I don't trust that phone.

1019
01:22:10.800 --> 01:22:17.840
And then I started thinking beef an onion pie body odor?

1020
01:22:20.039 --> 01:22:22.119
What they've both got in common other than the smell

1021
01:22:22.680 --> 01:22:29.680
bo beef an onion bo body odor bo? So I

1022
01:22:29.720 --> 01:22:33.399
started thinking, is that why they call beef and onion

1023
01:22:33.439 --> 01:22:37.800
pies beef and onion pies because they smell like bo?

1024
01:22:38.680 --> 01:22:40.800
Then I thought, no, that doesn't make sense. Maybe that's

1025
01:22:40.800 --> 01:22:43.760
why they call bo bo because it smells like a

1026
01:22:44.039 --> 01:22:49.039
beef and onion pie. Again, I thought perhaps I should

1027
01:22:49.079 --> 01:22:55.239
ask him, but that didn't seem like how when is

1028
01:22:55.319 --> 01:22:58.239
a good time? I suppose directly after asking, if it's

1029
01:22:58.279 --> 01:23:01.720
okay to point to his armpits if a customer thinks

1030
01:23:01.720 --> 01:23:04.520
they're smelling a beef onion pie being heated up, that

1031
01:23:04.560 --> 01:23:08.960
would be probably the ideal entry into that part of

1032
01:23:09.000 --> 01:23:23.319
the conversation. Yeah, so I delved in jewelry and so

1033
01:23:23.439 --> 01:23:30.319
that was okay. The perfume, that's it. Perfume. I did

1034
01:23:30.399 --> 01:23:33.199
sell a little bit of perfume, not a lot, A

1035
01:23:33.199 --> 01:23:37.720
little bit, but not a lot. And I just thought, oh,

1036
01:23:38.319 --> 01:23:45.119
so that didn't really work. But I loved the whole planning,

1037
01:23:45.600 --> 01:23:50.720
not the doing, but the dreaming. Not the doing, but

1038
01:23:50.800 --> 01:23:55.319
the thinking about it. The idea of being an entrepreneur.

1039
01:23:57.439 --> 01:24:00.720
It really appealed to me and getting all these new

1040
01:24:00.760 --> 01:24:05.479
things through the post about, you know, how to sell

1041
01:24:06.119 --> 01:24:17.920
registration numbers and all things like that, but ultimately never

1042
01:24:17.960 --> 01:24:21.159
really made any money. I was probably at a loss

1043
01:24:21.239 --> 01:24:23.239
with the amount of money I paid out over the

1044
01:24:23.319 --> 01:24:26.520
years with that, you know, not that I paid out

1045
01:24:26.520 --> 01:24:28.680
a lot, but I didn't have a lot come in either.

1046
01:24:32.319 --> 01:24:42.479
So that's my entrepreneurial period. I think it kind of

1047
01:24:42.520 --> 01:24:47.319
came to an end by the time I was By

1048
01:24:47.319 --> 01:24:51.199
the time I was nineteen, I kind of kind of

1049
01:24:51.239 --> 01:24:54.119
given up on that. I just didn't really pursue it anymore.

1050
01:24:54.600 --> 01:24:59.399
But for good like five years was that fourteen, fifteen,

1051
01:24:59.439 --> 01:25:04.279
six seven, eighteen nineteen, maybe six years I was really

1052
01:25:04.319 --> 01:25:10.720
pursuing options, looking at ways to maybe make some money

1053
01:25:11.399 --> 01:25:18.000
as an entrepreneur. I also tried It's when I think

1054
01:25:18.039 --> 01:25:23.399
I was eighteen, I was going to sell water filters

1055
01:25:24.039 --> 01:25:28.800
as a self employed basis, but that didn't really work

1056
01:25:28.840 --> 01:25:31.920
because I didn't have a car and to carry around

1057
01:25:32.000 --> 01:25:35.600
water filters. It is just yeah, it was a big

1058
01:25:35.640 --> 01:25:40.359
old suitcase, and I thought, oh, so that didn't work. Plus,

1059
01:25:40.399 --> 01:25:43.960
I think they wanted money from me. They wanted me

1060
01:25:44.039 --> 01:25:48.359
to put down a deposit on or to pay for

1061
01:25:48.439 --> 01:25:51.000
the first water filter that I was going to use

1062
01:25:51.000 --> 01:25:53.479
as a demonstration, because they wouldn't be able to use

1063
01:25:53.520 --> 01:25:55.479
it again, they wouldn't be able to sell it on.

1064
01:25:56.760 --> 01:25:58.560
So I think they wanted me to pay them that

1065
01:26:01.239 --> 01:26:04.840
and I said okay, and then I didn't speak to

1066
01:26:04.880 --> 01:26:08.880
him again. I just like left it like and it

1067
01:26:09.239 --> 01:26:12.079
probably wasn't a lot of money, but more than I

1068
01:26:12.159 --> 01:26:21.800
had anyway. Perhaps that was their stick is that was

1069
01:26:21.840 --> 01:26:28.000
their way of selling water fillers, by employing people on

1070
01:26:28.039 --> 01:26:34.520
a self employed basis that didn't cost them anything, and

1071
01:26:34.560 --> 01:26:38.439
they they'd sell a water filler to them. I wonder

1072
01:26:38.479 --> 01:26:41.159
how many interviews he did a week, how many jobs

1073
01:26:41.159 --> 01:26:50.079
he gave away a week. So that was pretty much

1074
01:26:50.199 --> 01:26:58.640
the That was that period. There was I think what

1075
01:26:58.680 --> 01:27:00.319
I would have liked to die. Oh yeah, I did

1076
01:27:00.359 --> 01:27:04.079
become a window cleaner. And it's not so much. I mean,

1077
01:27:04.119 --> 01:27:10.399
it's entrepreneurial, isn't it. It's self employed. I became a

1078
01:27:10.399 --> 01:27:14.880
window cleaner and I cleaned one window. I think it

1079
01:27:14.920 --> 01:27:19.039
was my landlord's my landlady's windows. And then I left

1080
01:27:19.079 --> 01:27:24.159
the ladder and all my equipment in her garage. Then

1081
01:27:24.199 --> 01:27:29.520
I moved to Spain, decided to move to Spain. Came

1082
01:27:29.600 --> 01:27:34.239
back the same day after going to Spain for the afternoon,

1083
01:27:35.399 --> 01:27:37.359
and she evicted me, and she wouldn't give me the

1084
01:27:38.840 --> 01:27:51.079
I wouldn't give me the ladder back. M So that's

1085
01:27:51.319 --> 01:27:57.359
that's the end of Monday's boring objects talking about being

1086
01:27:57.399 --> 01:28:04.920
an entrepreneur or entre entrepreneurial ship, being an entrepreneur. I

1087
01:28:04.960 --> 01:28:06.680
don't know what I'm going to call it. I can't

1088
01:28:06.680 --> 01:28:09.600
even spell the word. I literally can't say it even

1089
01:28:09.640 --> 01:28:13.439
can I. So I will see see how this all

1090
01:28:13.520 --> 01:28:18.399
comes out. But that's it for me. So thank you

1091
01:28:19.079 --> 01:28:23.319
for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you

1092
01:28:23.399 --> 01:28:26.239
do deserve to be happy, and be gentle of yourself

1093
01:28:26.319 --> 01:28:35.960
because you deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye.

1094
01:28:43.079 --> 01:28:57.640
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1095
01:28:57.680 --> 01:29:03.239
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1096
01:29:04.600 --> 01:29:13.840
calmer now and throughout the time we spend together here,

1097
01:29:15.880 --> 01:29:21.560
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1098
01:29:21.560 --> 01:29:28.239
it's finished, and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1099
01:29:28.439 --> 01:29:43.319
and peace. But also I think it would be nice

1100
01:29:43.439 --> 01:30:03.239
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1101
01:30:03.319 --> 01:30:13.880
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1102
01:30:16.760 --> 01:30:24.039
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1103
01:30:25.960 --> 01:30:39.439
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1104
01:30:39.600 --> 01:30:44.840
find like some people do and myself as well. Sometimes

1105
01:30:44.880 --> 01:30:51.159
I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1106
01:30:55.520 --> 01:30:57.920
and I just listen to it over and over again

1107
01:31:00.159 --> 01:31:13.199
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1108
01:31:13.199 --> 01:31:18.960
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis,

1109
01:31:19.039 --> 01:31:24.359
but it was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1110
01:31:26.840 --> 01:31:32.000
and I managed to find it again and it still

1111
01:31:32.079 --> 01:31:37.680
has the same effect on me, And part of it

1112
01:31:37.840 --> 01:31:52.680
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1113
01:31:54.680 --> 01:32:01.239
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1114
01:32:01.279 --> 01:32:11.960
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1115
01:32:12.720 --> 01:32:21.159
pressing the play button that since I've done that pressed

1116
01:32:21.199 --> 01:32:29.760
the play button. This was in the days of CD

1117
01:32:29.960 --> 01:32:38.640
players press the play button. In fact, it might have

1118
01:32:38.680 --> 01:32:43.039
even been a tape tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1119
01:32:43.079 --> 01:32:55.920
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1120
01:32:56.119 --> 01:33:09.039
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1121
01:33:09.079 --> 01:33:19.800
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1122
01:33:19.960 --> 01:33:42.000
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1123
01:33:42.079 --> 01:33:56.159
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

1124
01:33:56.199 --> 01:34:02.960
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1125
01:34:05.520 --> 01:34:13.359
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1126
01:34:13.399 --> 01:34:18.159
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1127
01:34:18.199 --> 01:34:37.520
thousand and six, I knew, I knew how helpful I

1128
01:34:37.600 --> 01:34:47.880
found being able to just let go, to have that

1129
01:34:48.239 --> 01:35:00.880
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1130
01:35:00.960 --> 01:35:09.279
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1131
01:35:11.920 --> 01:35:18.920
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1132
01:35:25.279 --> 01:35:39.920
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1133
01:35:40.720 --> 01:35:44.760
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1134
01:35:46.479 --> 01:35:53.000
but maybe people come back. Some people may be listen

1135
01:35:53.079 --> 01:36:09.640
every day. That's something that I do which you may

1136
01:36:09.760 --> 01:36:30.720
not realize by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now,

1137
01:36:30.840 --> 01:36:43.399
for example, I also am affected by the words that

1138
01:36:43.520 --> 01:36:55.680
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

1139
01:36:58.199 --> 01:37:05.920
notice your feet relaxed, I will be focusing on my feet.

1140
01:37:10.840 --> 01:37:28.239
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1141
01:37:28.359 --> 01:37:36.039
focus on your hands and maybe notice the difference between

1142
01:37:36.079 --> 01:37:47.039
each hand. Perhaps notice the air in the room, the

1143
01:37:47.079 --> 01:37:51.720
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands,

1144
01:37:59.479 --> 01:38:03.399
you may start to notice what almost feels like a

1145
01:38:03.520 --> 01:38:11.600
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1146
01:38:12.000 --> 01:38:16.920
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1147
01:38:25.079 --> 01:38:35.680
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1148
01:38:36.039 --> 01:39:04.239
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now. And

1149
01:39:04.399 --> 01:39:11.319
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1150
01:39:11.399 --> 01:39:25.520
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1151
01:39:27.800 --> 01:39:41.239
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1152
01:39:49.159 --> 01:40:01.760
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1153
01:40:06.600 --> 01:40:15.760
and then I carry on talking. And it's only when

1154
01:40:16.039 --> 01:40:25.159
I listen back to do the editing I hear snoring

1155
01:40:27.079 --> 01:40:34.359
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1156
01:40:37.000 --> 01:40:44.399
This snoring was a pick turned up. That's why I

1157
01:40:44.479 --> 01:40:54.560
sound like when I snore, I get really into the

1158
01:40:54.600 --> 01:41:12.840
whole experience. I don't know how you feel. How relaxed

1159
01:41:12.920 --> 01:41:23.000
do you feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel

1160
01:41:23.159 --> 01:41:49.800
in your hands. I have noticed more and more that

1161
01:41:50.000 --> 01:42:06.359
the more relaxed deeper level of comfort you feel, the

1162
01:42:06.399 --> 01:42:27.000
easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation.

1163
01:42:31.319 --> 01:42:52.319
So this allows you to breathe easier without necessarily focusing

1164
01:42:54.520 --> 01:43:20.119
on your breath, however, being able to notice the ease

1165
01:43:23.560 --> 01:43:50.119
in which you breathe so naturally. You breathe so very

1166
01:43:50.399 --> 01:44:39.319
easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving. When I've

1167
01:44:39.319 --> 01:44:55.159
got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize a beautiful

1168
01:44:55.319 --> 01:45:12.399
field with trees and flowers producing all that life giving oxygen.

1169
01:45:32.439 --> 01:45:47.800
And it feels nice too, if nothing else, just taking

1170
01:45:48.079 --> 01:46:25.760
some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace,

1171
01:46:30.760 --> 01:47:15.279
serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by,

1172
01:47:19.800 --> 01:48:09.640
so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to

1173
01:48:10.520 --> 01:49:07.479
any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free, noticing that

1174
01:49:15.039 --> 01:50:01.560
your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because nothing really

1175
01:50:01.800 --> 01:50:32.399
requires your attention, you can enjoy the physical sensations of

1176
01:50:32.560 --> 01:50:45.520
allowing the stress to drip out of your body, dripping

1177
01:50:45.840 --> 01:51:09.800
out of every part of your body and being released

1178
01:51:15.079 --> 01:51:54.680
from your brain. Hune your mind slowly but surely, the

1179
01:51:55.000 --> 01:52:32.079
muscles in your legs. Relax relx, relax so very deeply,

1180
01:52:41.840 --> 01:53:12.880
relax so deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in

1181
01:53:12.960 --> 01:53:37.520
your arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body

1182
01:53:40.800 --> 01:54:19.239
further and deeper and deeper. Noticin the feedings in the

1183
01:54:19.279 --> 01:55:19.199
back of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, muscles,

1184
01:55:21.279 --> 01:55:58.439
in the front of your body, I will say, feeling peaceful, deep,

1185
01:56:15.560 --> 01:56:25.880
There's a sense of pace spreads through your very cool

1186
01:56:56.359 --> 01:57:16.319
even when you focus on your mind, her mind becomes

1187
01:57:23.640 --> 01:58:46.520
a and slowerven deeper, relaxing, so very slow, his stomach

1188
01:59:00.600 --> 01:59:42.560
peace fall in your stomach. You're back. Notice Notice how

1189
01:59:42.840 --> 02:00:00.840
relaxed you now feel in the hole of your back.

1190
02:00:25.960 --> 02:00:33.600
In a spy from your brain all the way down

1191
02:00:34.960 --> 02:00:44.840
the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of

1192
02:00:45.079 --> 02:02:13.039
messages every day. Deep comfort, increase, deeply relaxed nis reles

1193
02:02:16.960 --> 02:02:26.359
spreading those signals down your spine or cord into air

1194
02:02:26.520 --> 02:02:59.880
every part of your body, your shins and your calf muscles, hm,

1195
02:03:13.159 --> 02:03:42.640
your elbows, feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

1196
02:03:47.640 --> 02:04:03.920
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers. All

1197
02:04:04.039 --> 02:04:05.800
wait till you know about.

1198
02:04:17.319 --> 02:04:18.039
Letting her.

1199
02:04:20.119 --> 02:05:20.399
Reletting her pace to drift in mind, just wondering away.

1200
02:05:29.880 --> 02:06:11.520
Happy to let go, let go completely, let go, said Tranquil,

1201
02:06:35.880 --> 02:08:22.079
who body enjoying a sense listening God, he nore hey

1202
02:08:56.960 --> 02:09:07.960
joy the space, this space.

1203
02:09:10.520 --> 02:09:11.560
Of peace.

1204
02:09:14.800 --> 02:09:40.039
And safety, so fery.

1205
02:09:47.119 --> 02:10:21.119
Relaxed, us.

1206
02:10:50.119 --> 02:11:41.600
Leading the letting go. Maybe we can just focus on

1207
02:11:41.800 --> 02:12:16.439
the different parts of your body, just to notice your

1208
02:12:16.680 --> 02:13:18.720
forehead and your eyes. A chu, said Lis, noticing in

1209
02:13:18.840 --> 02:14:38.479
the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress d dress day.

1210
02:14:50.880 --> 02:14:51.640
He's on.

1211
02:14:53.720 --> 02:16:38.280
Energy paste to breeze, so much ease, yeah, loose. You

1212
02:16:38.520 --> 02:16:51.079
may have you may not have noticed your mind drifted

1213
02:17:27.600 --> 02:17:51.920
peaceful move an even more deeply in the direction of

1214
02:17:57.079 --> 02:19:27.559
total blissful pace, bliss for pace, raft to to to pace,

1215
02:19:58.360 --> 02:20:53.840
sir con let him go, peace of mind right forty

1216
02:21:11.159 --> 02:22:07.879
so relaxed, so relaxed. A body feels almost invisible, so

1217
02:22:08.600 --> 02:23:16.040
very relaxed, paceful, so paceful, rel liked so m h.

1218
02:23:28.280 --> 02:23:34.479
And you could start to notice that you are feeling

1219
02:23:34.920 --> 02:23:46.079
more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your mind

1220
02:23:47.079 --> 02:23:54.600
upon that sense of physical comfort that is growing within

1221
02:23:54.760 --> 02:24:03.879
you throughout your body, and mind starts to slow down,

1222
02:24:08.799 --> 02:24:16.000
and that could be almost in recognition of I guess

1223
02:24:16.440 --> 02:24:28.920
my speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally

1224
02:24:30.600 --> 02:24:41.639
feel calmer. Just by listening to my voice, you give

1225
02:24:41.680 --> 02:24:48.600
yourself an opportunity to take a break from the day,

1226
02:24:50.760 --> 02:24:58.239
take a break from your life as it is, and

1227
02:24:58.399 --> 02:25:06.120
to give yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take

1228
02:25:06.239 --> 02:25:11.760
some time off and to allow your body to relax

1229
02:25:13.520 --> 02:25:21.399
and allow your mind to slow down, which in turn

1230
02:25:24.040 --> 02:25:29.639
releases the tension any stresses that you had in your body.

1231
02:25:35.639 --> 02:25:39.520
It's almost as if the parts of your body just

1232
02:25:39.799 --> 02:25:51.479
open up, allowing the negativity out and at the same

1233
02:25:51.639 --> 02:26:02.920
time replacing that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then

1234
02:26:03.079 --> 02:26:12.200
fills your body up and your mind to also starts

1235
02:26:12.399 --> 02:26:29.840
to appreciate those feelings of increasing confidence, an almost uplifting feeling,

1236
02:26:31.920 --> 02:26:45.959
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1237
02:26:46.079 --> 02:26:56.319
a wave of comfort. And all this comes from just

1238
02:27:00.000 --> 02:27:08.680
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1239
02:27:08.799 --> 02:27:18.520
long you want it to be, to just rest and

1240
02:27:18.680 --> 02:27:28.680
allow your mind and your body to almost reset itself

1241
02:27:31.559 --> 02:27:47.319
to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows

1242
02:27:47.719 --> 02:28:00.440
more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move

1243
02:28:00.959 --> 02:28:09.760
around your body and into your mind. Almost as if

1244
02:28:09.840 --> 02:28:19.559
your mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring

1245
02:28:20.399 --> 02:28:33.239
each other, with that growing positivity and calmness, And it

1246
02:28:33.360 --> 02:28:41.159
feels nice, really does feel nice to know that you

1247
02:28:42.520 --> 02:28:51.040
are the one that has allowed yourself to feel more

1248
02:28:52.360 --> 02:28:59.000
comfort than to experience.

1249
02:29:00.719 --> 02:29:01.840
More of this.

1250
02:29:03.639 --> 02:29:18.799
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1251
02:29:20.360 --> 02:29:26.120
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1252
02:29:26.319 --> 02:29:40.840
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1253
02:29:43.399 --> 02:29:53.040
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1254
02:29:57.120 --> 02:30:02.840
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1255
02:30:05.559 --> 02:30:10.840
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1256
02:30:12.239 --> 02:30:19.319
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1257
02:30:19.520 --> 02:30:32.399
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1258
02:30:32.559 --> 02:30:46.799
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

1259
02:30:46.840 --> 02:30:53.280
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1260
02:30:53.440 --> 02:31:01.520
aware of the feelings of your forehead and then your

1261
02:31:01.559 --> 02:31:09.040
background sounds like mister Herbert the pigeon, can just allow

1262
02:31:09.159 --> 02:31:16.280
you to feel even more relaxed. Just means you in

1263
02:31:16.399 --> 02:31:24.440
the moment, this isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This

1264
02:31:24.639 --> 02:31:32.440
is the world. I live in the countryside, so there's

1265
02:31:32.559 --> 02:31:42.840
lots of nature sounds around. So as you focus on

1266
02:31:43.000 --> 02:31:50.559
your forehead, just notice how it becomes even more relaxed

1267
02:31:50.959 --> 02:31:59.840
as you focus only on my voice and that part

1268
02:31:59.879 --> 02:32:10.799
of your body. Moving down to your eyes, focusing on

1269
02:32:10.920 --> 02:32:24.280
your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so heavy yet

1270
02:32:24.479 --> 02:32:31.719
so light at the same time, and all the muscles

1271
02:32:31.799 --> 02:32:44.280
around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to

1272
02:32:44.360 --> 02:32:51.399
your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth, your gums,

1273
02:32:53.760 --> 02:33:08.520
the whole of your mouth, relaxing, calm at least, as

1274
02:33:08.559 --> 02:33:16.600
you focus now on your jaw, not just the parts

1275
02:33:16.639 --> 02:33:21.399
of your jawney, your mouth, and your chin, but all

1276
02:33:21.479 --> 02:33:25.959
the way up the size of your face to your ears,

1277
02:33:28.239 --> 02:33:39.959
the hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

1278
02:33:43.200 --> 02:33:44.120
And calm.

1279
02:33:52.319 --> 02:34:01.360
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1280
02:34:01.520 --> 02:34:09.159
your throat relaxing and loose and calm.

1281
02:34:13.319 --> 02:34:19.079
The sides of your neck, the right and left side

1282
02:34:19.280 --> 02:34:24.159
of your neck, relax and.

1283
02:34:25.639 --> 02:34:39.280
Loose and calm. And now the back of your neck.

1284
02:34:42.600 --> 02:34:52.600
Focusing on the back of your neck, letting go of

1285
02:34:52.799 --> 02:34:59.639
any tension that may have been there before, and enjoying

1286
02:35:00.120 --> 02:35:12.959
that sense of increasing comfort and release. Then you can

1287
02:35:13.120 --> 02:35:24.239
experience in the back of your neck moving down your

1288
02:35:24.360 --> 02:35:31.680
back and moving either side of your spine right from

1289
02:35:31.719 --> 02:35:37.079
the top of your back all the way down to

1290
02:35:37.200 --> 02:35:49.440
the bottom of your back down to your lower back.

1291
02:35:54.680 --> 02:36:01.799
As you move up and down your spine, you can

1292
02:36:02.000 --> 02:36:10.200
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1293
02:36:17.680 --> 02:36:24.440
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1294
02:36:24.559 --> 02:36:34.639
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1295
02:36:34.760 --> 02:36:41.840
your back, the top of your back, the middle end

1296
02:36:41.879 --> 02:36:51.360
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1297
02:36:52.600 --> 02:36:57.879
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1298
02:36:58.000 --> 02:37:07.879
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1299
02:37:08.000 --> 02:37:13.600
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1300
02:37:14.040 --> 02:37:28.559
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, and

1301
02:37:28.760 --> 02:37:34.799
in your lower back there seems to be an extra

1302
02:37:35.040 --> 02:37:51.200
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips, sit

1303
02:37:51.319 --> 02:37:59.399
down your lower back, into your hips, into the area

1304
02:37:59.440 --> 02:38:07.799
where you ox six are, and into your buttocks, and

1305
02:38:07.920 --> 02:38:11.120
always muscles that spread.

1306
02:38:13.319 --> 02:38:14.639
Bring your lower back.

1307
02:38:16.879 --> 02:38:29.120
Into your hip area, start to melt, start to reading,

1308
02:38:30.319 --> 02:38:42.200
let go, and even nowhere about to focus on your shoulders.

1309
02:38:43.959 --> 02:38:50.959
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1310
02:38:54.000 --> 02:38:57.399
continue to relax.

1311
02:39:00.280 --> 02:39:04.440
So calmly.

1312
02:39:08.520 --> 02:39:13.440
And as you focus on your shoulders, you may notice

1313
02:39:13.879 --> 02:39:32.639
they're already feeding, really loose, They're already feeding.

1314
02:39:37.399 --> 02:39:37.799
Calm.

1315
02:39:44.479 --> 02:39:56.879
The feeling those muscles, the move from your neck into

1316
02:39:56.959 --> 02:40:22.319
your shoulders feels so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1317
02:40:33.719 --> 02:40:46.280
and the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep

1318
02:40:46.559 --> 02:40:56.280
into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1319
02:40:56.840 --> 02:41:14.040
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1320
02:41:14.360 --> 02:41:20.680
move it all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing

1321
02:41:22.520 --> 02:41:27.319
a whole area between the tops of your shoulders and

1322
02:41:27.520 --> 02:41:33.600
underneath your arms healing.

1323
02:41:39.000 --> 02:41:39.680
You feel so.

1324
02:41:41.600 --> 02:41:53.079
Relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which sense that.

1325
02:41:55.319 --> 02:41:57.399
Deep healing.

1326
02:42:00.360 --> 02:42:17.840
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1327
02:42:17.920 --> 02:42:24.440
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1328
02:42:27.639 --> 02:43:14.760
so deeply relaxed, so calm, so loose. A feelings spreading

1329
02:43:17.559 --> 02:43:31.959
all way down your arms, two elbows, including your elbows

1330
02:43:41.840 --> 02:43:58.520
circumfort spreads your way into wrists, your forearments and your

1331
02:43:58.639 --> 02:44:26.319
wrists so heavy, yet the same time, sunlight and gentle

1332
02:44:51.040 --> 02:44:55.280
frey sent now on.

1333
02:44:57.959 --> 02:45:22.000
Your hands, my hands.

1334
02:45:27.920 --> 02:45:30.760
So peaceful.

1335
02:45:31.760 --> 02:45:33.120
In your hands.

1336
02:45:51.440 --> 02:45:52.559
With a sense of.

1337
02:45:56.040 --> 02:46:10.479
Real pace, just seems to.

1338
02:46:14.719 --> 02:46:54.040
Feel so familion When your hands, relax deeply else your fingers.

1339
02:47:27.040 --> 02:48:33.799
It's rich you think it tips making attention left front,

1340
02:48:34.200 --> 02:50:24.920
your body so comfortable, Then you focus jis my souls

1341
02:50:27.040 --> 02:50:28.559
in your fids.

1342
02:50:44.840 --> 02:50:45.920
And names.

1343
02:50:49.559 --> 02:53:26.680
I relaxed, calf muscles, just shades a classie in the

1344
02:53:26.920 --> 02:53:55.639
fathing in your faiths sir, peaceful, circolm sad peaceful circom

1345
02:54:25.879 --> 02:54:56.879
so peaceful, sycom so peace for RelA sener peace fall

1346
02:55:00.479 --> 02:55:15.879
so calm, allout that deep relaxation, to spread your chest

1347
02:55:16.200 --> 02:55:47.520
in your storm. Lets you go h everything. So I'm

1348
02:55:47.520 --> 02:55:53.680
gonna start counting down now from twenty down to one.

1349
02:55:59.600 --> 02:56:02.840
You can imagine in a way it's like just walking

1350
02:56:02.959 --> 02:56:08.799
down some steps in each step or twenty steps, and

1351
02:56:08.920 --> 02:56:19.280
each step represents a level of comfort. Each step represents

1352
02:56:21.879 --> 02:56:34.360
a deepening of that comfort and the furvies you walk

1353
02:56:34.440 --> 02:56:40.159
down those steps to deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1354
02:56:46.879 --> 02:58:34.639
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen seven, ten,

1355
02:59:21.000 --> 03:10:23.840
sixteen three four four two we no eight sivenissis six

1356
03:11:38.959 --> 03:12:58.680
five four.

1357
03:13:00.920 --> 03:15:58.879
Dai using us.

1358
03:17:26.760 --> 03:17:43.799
Now as you focus on your eyes, We're gonna count

1359
03:17:43.920 --> 03:17:55.680
down from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes.

1360
03:17:59.440 --> 03:18:06.440
Your eyes, it's the muscles around your eyes, your eye

1361
03:18:06.760 --> 03:18:15.120
walls themselves, our whole area that makes up your eye.

1362
03:18:26.079 --> 03:18:31.319
And as we count down from ten down to one,

1363
03:18:33.920 --> 03:18:46.840
whilst focus in on your eyes, you'll become twice is

1364
03:18:47.040 --> 03:18:58.920
relaxed with each number counting down that you may find

1365
03:19:03.079 --> 03:19:08.840
the all you want to do is just drift off

1366
03:19:09.159 --> 03:19:18.280
to sleep. And if that's what you want, then just

1367
03:19:18.440 --> 03:19:31.559
allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

1368
03:19:33.680 --> 03:19:39.079
I'm going to begin counting down from ten down to

1369
03:19:39.280 --> 03:25:02.959
one right now, ten nine eight seven fist us four

1370
03:26:16.399 --> 03:29:07.319
three thoo counting down from ten to one.

1371
03:29:09.399 --> 03:29:12.040
Ten nine.

1372
03:29:13.520 --> 03:29:41.200
Eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1373
03:29:41.360 --> 03:29:44.280
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1374
03:29:45.520 --> 03:29:49.760
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1375
03:29:50.000 --> 03:29:58.079
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1376
03:29:58.120 --> 03:30:02.239
of pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1377
03:30:02.319 --> 03:30:05.719
Would you expect me to do man, expect me to

1378
03:30:05.799 --> 03:30:15.360
stick go with floppy just because you're counting down. We

1379
03:30:15.440 --> 03:30:18.719
could try it again, but this time I'll go a

1380
03:30:18.760 --> 03:30:26.159
bit slower this time, as you focus on the whole

1381
03:30:26.239 --> 03:30:32.479
of your body before we focus on your legs, just

1382
03:30:32.760 --> 03:30:42.719
notice how your body does start to feel more relaxed

1383
03:30:47.520 --> 03:31:22.319
with every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six,

1384
03:31:30.760 --> 03:32:39.719
five four three two one, and just notice how how

1385
03:32:39.760 --> 03:32:49.840
you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

1386
03:32:49.959 --> 03:33:00.360
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

1387
03:33:00.639 --> 03:33:20.319
space that you have, that space between being active physically

1388
03:33:20.559 --> 03:33:30.159
or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just being there,

1389
03:33:30.879 --> 03:33:36.319
not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think

1390
03:33:36.440 --> 03:33:37.280
about anything.

1391
03:33:39.079 --> 03:33:42.760
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

1392
03:33:42.799 --> 03:33:53.559
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1393
03:33:53.719 --> 03:33:58.280
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1394
03:34:01.280 --> 03:34:07.680
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1395
03:34:13.639 --> 03:34:25.959
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1396
03:34:26.520 --> 03:34:43.120
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away, allows you to

1397
03:34:43.520 --> 03:34:52.639
just slow down. So ione to count again from ten

1398
03:34:52.719 --> 03:35:01.079
down to one, and notice that gap widening, the gap,

1399
03:35:02.879 --> 03:35:07.479
And as it widens, it's almost like the stress and

1400
03:35:07.639 --> 03:35:25.200
attention falls into the gap and gives you that distance,

1401
03:35:27.239 --> 03:36:31.280
that space. Now ten nine eight, seven, six, five four

1402
03:36:49.639 --> 03:37:43.200
three two one. Now, how does your body feel now?

1403
03:37:55.920 --> 03:38:07.879
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer? Are you

1404
03:38:08.159 --> 03:38:36.559
feeling more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

1405
03:38:38.280 --> 03:38:58.719
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

1406
03:38:59.159 --> 03:39:18.319
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

1407
03:39:18.479 --> 03:39:25.000
to be doing, because I'm sure, like most of your

1408
03:39:25.040 --> 03:39:36.719
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

1409
03:39:36.920 --> 03:39:43.079
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

1410
03:39:43.159 --> 03:39:49.200
your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of

1411
03:39:49.280 --> 03:39:56.239
your thighs, your outer thighs, and you're inner thighs. Basically

1412
03:39:56.440 --> 03:39:59.959
the whole of your thigh that leads into your head

1413
03:40:04.159 --> 03:40:14.920
and it goes down to your knee joint. Now, this

1414
03:40:15.120 --> 03:40:22.559
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

1415
03:40:22.559 --> 03:40:28.360
a very strong probably the strongest muscles in your body

1416
03:40:29.079 --> 03:40:43.360
or in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps

1417
03:40:45.360 --> 03:40:58.079
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

1418
03:40:58.760 --> 03:41:18.159
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

1419
03:41:20.799 --> 03:41:34.280
they actually do for us all through our lives. And

1420
03:41:34.399 --> 03:41:40.200
it may seem sound really weird, but I think that

1421
03:41:40.399 --> 03:41:48.319
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, needs some TLC,

1422
03:41:51.639 --> 03:42:04.280
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement. I

1423
03:42:04.479 --> 03:42:20.159
thank you gratitude for our thighs do for us, And

1424
03:42:20.280 --> 03:42:26.159
I know This may sound a bit strange. Maybe you think,

1425
03:42:26.559 --> 03:42:29.479
why am I Surely I should be out in the

1426
03:42:29.600 --> 03:42:38.079
garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's hard to

1427
03:42:38.159 --> 03:42:41.360
set a microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm

1428
03:42:41.399 --> 03:42:44.239
doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging a tree.

1429
03:42:45.639 --> 03:42:54.319
I can't see the television from the tree. If you

1430
03:42:54.440 --> 03:42:59.639
move down to your knees gain such an important part.

1431
03:43:03.959 --> 03:43:09.040
And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak for myself here.

1432
03:43:11.520 --> 03:43:16.360
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs to do

1433
03:43:16.559 --> 03:43:21.440
for me until I have a problem with my knee.

1434
03:43:22.440 --> 03:43:26.520
It's occasionally, if I ever maybe i'll bash it or

1435
03:43:27.520 --> 03:43:33.040
it's aching for some reason. It's then that I realize

1436
03:43:34.200 --> 03:43:38.239
how much it does. You know, the benefit of being

1437
03:43:38.239 --> 03:43:46.159
able to use my legs without any kind of physical

1438
03:43:46.319 --> 03:43:54.479
discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until

1439
03:43:55.520 --> 03:44:05.280
it's temporarily removed. You know that comfort. But as you

1440
03:44:05.399 --> 03:44:10.600
focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

1441
03:44:13.680 --> 03:44:19.399
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

1442
03:44:19.520 --> 03:44:32.120
your knees for all that they do for you. And

1443
03:44:32.280 --> 03:44:35.920
you can still have that attention on your thighs, and

1444
03:44:36.040 --> 03:44:42.239
maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that

1445
03:44:42.600 --> 03:45:01.280
they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on

1446
03:45:01.399 --> 03:45:05.920
the bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles,

1447
03:45:06.440 --> 03:45:14.680
the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating the course.

1448
03:45:14.799 --> 03:45:26.520
Your ankles so important. You know, anyone that's had even

1449
03:45:26.959 --> 03:45:33.600
like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how how

1450
03:45:33.840 --> 03:45:43.959
much we take our ankles for granted. And it's kind

1451
03:45:44.000 --> 03:45:49.479
of strange in a way when you think that. You know, logically,

1452
03:45:49.840 --> 03:45:52.920
our wrists are a lot thinner than the rest of

1453
03:45:53.000 --> 03:45:57.680
our arms, which is okay, it doesn't I can't see

1454
03:45:57.680 --> 03:46:03.680
any problem with that just picking stuff up. Our ankles

1455
03:46:05.520 --> 03:46:15.440
so much thinner than the rest of our legs, and

1456
03:46:15.600 --> 03:46:20.079
from a physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really

1457
03:46:20.159 --> 03:46:27.440
make sense that all this weight would ultimately be resting

1458
03:46:28.440 --> 03:46:38.440
on your ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area,

1459
03:46:39.920 --> 03:46:49.520
thin bone. Yeah, it does so much great work. Supports us,

1460
03:46:49.639 --> 03:46:59.600
supports our body for a lifetime, helps us to balance,

1461
03:47:01.799 --> 03:47:14.639
It helps you to get around and be mobile. And

1462
03:47:14.719 --> 03:47:22.399
there's the calf muscles. Of course, when I was younger,

1463
03:47:22.799 --> 03:47:26.159
I couldn't see the pointing calf muscles didn't seem to

1464
03:47:26.280 --> 03:47:32.200
do anything. Okay, if I walked around on tiptoes, then

1465
03:47:32.399 --> 03:47:36.120
my calf muscles get some work. But of course that's

1466
03:47:36.200 --> 03:47:40.200
not true. The calf muscles are being used whenever we

1467
03:47:40.639 --> 03:47:54.200
use the legs and your shins there to protect your

1468
03:47:54.280 --> 03:48:03.280
lower legs, shaped in a way, almost as a protector

1469
03:48:03.760 --> 03:48:18.479
for the bone, leading of course to your ankles and

1470
03:48:18.600 --> 03:48:25.520
your feet. But we're not going to focus on your feet.

1471
03:48:25.600 --> 03:48:29.959
We're just going to focus on the legs. And I realize,

1472
03:48:32.040 --> 03:48:35.920
and now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing

1473
03:48:36.200 --> 03:48:39.280
on them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your

1474
03:48:39.319 --> 03:48:45.159
feet a little bit. You can have them in your

1475
03:48:45.200 --> 03:48:51.600
awareness the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1476
03:48:52.440 --> 03:48:56.280
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs for

1477
03:48:56.319 --> 03:49:07.319
a few minutes, I've been focusing on your ankles, there's

1478
03:49:07.360 --> 03:49:22.559
still that sensation of comfort in your thighs, and there's

1479
03:49:22.680 --> 03:49:31.920
that movement of energy because the thighs hold lots of

1480
03:49:31.959 --> 03:49:38.159
different sensations. Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw

1481
03:49:38.360 --> 03:49:50.360
muscles that we have in our thighs, but the skin

1482
03:49:52.280 --> 03:49:56.719
on the outside of the thighs, as in the outside

1483
03:49:56.799 --> 03:50:06.159
of all of our body can be very sensitive, sensitive

1484
03:50:06.319 --> 03:50:19.319
to the touch, sensitive to temperature. And inside your thighs

1485
03:50:21.840 --> 03:50:26.600
the bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the

1486
03:50:26.840 --> 03:50:32.319
ar trees, to all this stuff that's inside your thighs.

1487
03:50:36.760 --> 03:50:40.120
I guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually

1488
03:50:40.200 --> 03:50:47.639
put your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so

1489
03:50:47.719 --> 03:50:51.239
you can message on the outside, of course, but to

1490
03:50:51.280 --> 03:50:54.440
be able to get deep into the muscles, and to

1491
03:50:54.520 --> 03:50:59.600
be able to just message inside your thighs, message in

1492
03:50:59.639 --> 03:51:08.319
the bone bones of your leg, massage in all the veins,

1493
03:51:08.799 --> 03:51:19.200
just gently healing your thighs, and you could move down

1494
03:51:21.239 --> 03:51:26.319
message and inside your knees, just message in those bones,

1495
03:51:27.319 --> 03:51:34.360
but with healing fingertips spreading that healing energy deep into

1496
03:51:34.440 --> 03:51:43.879
the choice of your knees. Of course, there's the back

1497
03:51:44.079 --> 03:51:49.239
of your your knee and the inside crease where your

1498
03:51:49.319 --> 03:51:56.879
knee is. It's a very sensitive area. Three it feels

1499
03:51:56.959 --> 03:52:02.000
very nice when you stroke. It might be because it's

1500
03:52:02.040 --> 03:52:07.319
an area that's not really touched very often. It's almost

1501
03:52:07.440 --> 03:52:13.719
like a hidden part, that crease in your legs. It's

1502
03:52:13.760 --> 03:52:21.000
almost like a part that has a sensitivity which is

1503
03:52:21.040 --> 03:52:32.040
a little bit different. Of course, it's protected by your legs.

1504
03:52:39.399 --> 03:52:43.639
So you can imagine putting your fingers into that crease

1505
03:52:44.559 --> 03:52:53.639
in your legs. Fold in between your legs. You can

1506
03:52:53.760 --> 03:52:59.239
just message with your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside,

1507
03:53:00.959 --> 03:53:09.600
massage in the muscle tissue. You can cause field the

1508
03:53:10.680 --> 03:53:23.479
bones of your knees healing through your fingertips. And then

1509
03:53:23.559 --> 03:53:29.280
if you go down to your calf muscles, and that's

1510
03:53:29.360 --> 03:53:32.840
the part I'd like to be able to really put

1511
03:53:32.920 --> 03:53:39.799
my fingertips deep inside my calf muscles, massage in every

1512
03:53:41.479 --> 03:53:54.239
single tissue of that muscle, healing every part. And then

1513
03:53:54.319 --> 03:54:02.079
doing the same for my shins, massage and generally stroking

1514
03:54:02.280 --> 03:54:08.600
the bones, generally stroking them, healing in a loving way

1515
03:54:09.920 --> 03:54:16.319
because they deserve to be treated. There's the precious bones

1516
03:54:16.399 --> 03:54:21.040
that they are, because our legs are so precious as

1517
03:54:21.120 --> 03:54:25.799
in all the other parts of our body, the more

1518
03:54:25.879 --> 03:54:40.000
precious at any juol on the planet. When you start

1519
03:54:40.159 --> 03:54:52.040
to think about your legs in this way, it can

1520
03:54:52.319 --> 03:55:01.799
change your perspective. It might sound a bit a bit

1521
03:55:02.040 --> 03:55:07.520
silly to start with the idea of having love for

1522
03:55:07.639 --> 03:55:16.959
your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting to be

1523
03:55:17.040 --> 03:55:24.440
able to put your hands in your thighs, massage the

1524
03:55:24.600 --> 03:55:30.479
muscles and the bones, and to get your fingers deep

1525
03:55:30.600 --> 03:55:40.319
in there, releasing all tension. Just to show how much

1526
03:55:40.440 --> 03:55:47.920
you care about your legs, how much you care for

1527
03:55:49.040 --> 03:55:57.000
what your legs do for you regularly, your knees, your calves,

1528
03:55:58.319 --> 03:56:10.559
your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering how thin

1529
03:56:10.719 --> 03:56:14.280
they are compared to the rest of your legs, especially

1530
03:56:14.399 --> 03:56:29.079
your thighs, yet they're so strong, so flexible, absolutely amazing things.

1531
03:56:30.360 --> 03:56:40.000
Your ankles are truly a gift because of what they

1532
03:56:40.159 --> 03:56:51.840
do for you, supporting all that weight, regardless of how

1533
03:56:52.040 --> 03:56:56.040
what weight you are, even if you only eat ate stone,

1534
03:56:58.120 --> 03:57:01.399
there's still a lot of weight for these little ankles.

1535
03:57:05.040 --> 03:57:09.280
Now I'm a lot heavier than eight stone. Double down,

1536
03:57:12.760 --> 03:57:21.719
get my ankles support my body all the time, or

1537
03:57:21.799 --> 03:57:24.680
they do give off a sigh of relief when I

1538
03:57:24.799 --> 03:57:35.440
sit down. That's my whole legs, though my feet, feet

1539
03:57:35.479 --> 03:58:01.200
also go, my toes clap. I'm so happy. Your legs

1540
03:58:03.120 --> 03:58:10.959
really are amazing, And I know that talking about talking

1541
03:58:11.000 --> 03:58:17.639
about your legs is probably possibly among the most most

1542
03:58:17.760 --> 03:58:25.440
boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring

1543
03:58:25.600 --> 03:58:33.760
or not. Everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing.

1544
03:58:42.680 --> 03:58:55.520
Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1545
03:59:02.840 --> 03:59:06.159
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1546
03:59:08.360 --> 03:59:37.120
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1547
03:59:44.719 --> 03:59:48.840
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1548
03:59:49.120 --> 03:59:55.040
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1549
03:59:55.120 --> 04:00:02.360
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1550
04:00:06.079 --> 04:00:16.920
journey of comfort. I can feel it in my hips.

1551
04:00:18.319 --> 04:00:25.440
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1552
04:00:25.520 --> 04:00:32.120
as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

1553
04:00:33.239 --> 04:00:36.280
even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

1554
04:00:36.399 --> 04:00:41.639
no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1555
04:00:42.639 --> 04:00:45.280
It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

1556
04:00:45.520 --> 04:00:51.440
much that there is a natural stretch as the tension

1557
04:00:52.360 --> 04:01:13.600
has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

1558
04:01:13.680 --> 04:01:21.559
down from ten down to one, and you can continue

1559
04:01:23.399 --> 04:01:49.680
to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1560
04:01:54.319 --> 04:02:22.360
four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

1561
04:02:22.479 --> 04:02:27.840
count down from five down to one. And as a countdown,

1562
04:02:29.120 --> 04:02:33.879
if you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers,

1563
04:02:35.520 --> 04:02:44.520
counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

1564
04:02:46.280 --> 04:02:50.680
as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

1565
04:02:50.840 --> 04:03:03.879
numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

1566
04:03:04.000 --> 04:03:12.319
your body, but also relax in your mind. Just notice

1567
04:03:12.399 --> 04:03:18.440
how you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

1568
04:03:19.079 --> 04:03:36.159
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four,

1569
04:03:45.680 --> 04:04:21.440
three two one. Now, as you notice the gradual letting

1570
04:04:21.559 --> 04:04:30.040
go of the tension in your body, you may also

1571
04:04:30.639 --> 04:04:36.079
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

1572
04:04:37.200 --> 04:04:45.120
is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

1573
04:04:45.959 --> 04:04:53.879
thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

1574
04:04:54.000 --> 04:04:59.280
just natural because as your body relaxes, your mind also

1575
04:05:00.079 --> 04:05:04.920
starts to relax, and the more your mind relaxes, the

1576
04:05:05.040 --> 04:05:10.479
more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1577
04:05:16.520 --> 04:05:25.040
And there's that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1578
04:05:25.200 --> 04:05:30.799
even even if there's background sounds, either your side or mine,

1579
04:05:32.479 --> 04:05:38.440
it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1580
04:05:38.479 --> 04:05:43.719
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background.

1581
04:05:43.799 --> 04:05:46.479
Unless you're listening to the recorded with music. Of course,

1582
04:05:51.319 --> 04:05:53.479
you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

1583
04:05:53.600 --> 04:05:56.719
room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1584
04:05:58.040 --> 04:06:01.280
generally it's morene deal if you can do this on

1585
04:06:01.399 --> 04:06:12.719
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1586
04:06:12.799 --> 04:06:29.959
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

1587
04:06:30.000 --> 04:06:38.760
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1588
04:06:38.879 --> 04:06:51.000
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1589
04:06:53.360 --> 04:07:04.040
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1590
04:07:04.159 --> 04:07:11.040
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1591
04:07:11.200 --> 04:07:15.079
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1592
04:07:15.159 --> 04:07:26.799
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1593
04:07:27.239 --> 04:07:37.440
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1594
04:07:39.040 --> 04:07:49.399
allow you to take advantage of this space this time.

1595
04:07:52.319 --> 04:08:03.319
It's just let go to just be here, to be

1596
04:08:03.959 --> 04:08:17.360
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1597
04:08:19.600 --> 04:08:31.079
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1598
04:08:32.239 --> 04:08:37.399
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1599
04:08:39.159 --> 04:08:54.239
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1600
04:08:55.440 --> 04:08:59.840
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1601
04:09:00.479 --> 04:09:08.680
is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper relaxed

1602
04:09:09.000 --> 04:09:30.559
you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But you

1603
04:09:30.639 --> 04:09:37.639
can also, if you choose, stay focused on my voice

1604
04:09:39.360 --> 04:10:10.879
and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle in

1605
04:10:11.040 --> 04:10:38.319
your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of letting

1606
04:10:38.520 --> 04:10:54.120
go completely. This time, I'm going to count from six

1607
04:10:55.159 --> 04:11:07.159
down to one, and you can notice your mind calming

1608
04:11:07.479 --> 04:11:20.040
down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1609
04:11:21.079 --> 04:12:55.600
feeling calm and slow and be peaceful sex five, four, three,

1610
04:13:33.639 --> 04:14:30.479
two one, being aware of how your mind to slowed,

1611
04:14:32.600 --> 04:14:59.040
rite down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus

1612
04:14:59.159 --> 04:14:59.600
on your.

1613
04:14:59.600 --> 04:15:00.159
Mind and.

1614
04:15:03.879 --> 04:15:13.120
May notice that there are some thoughts still there, maybe

1615
04:15:13.280 --> 04:15:23.040
some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need your attention.

1616
04:15:29.959 --> 04:15:38.840
That's what you can do is send love to those thoughts.

1617
04:15:42.120 --> 04:15:53.000
Sprinkle those thoughts with love. I at petals from a flower,

1618
04:15:54.040 --> 04:16:00.920
Just sprinkle it over them, petals, feel good love towards

1619
04:16:01.040 --> 04:16:07.639
those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that you're not

1620
04:16:07.760 --> 04:16:13.879
abandon the number. You just need them. You require them

1621
04:16:16.680 --> 04:16:28.840
to just calm down, slow down, quiet down for now.

1622
04:16:36.719 --> 04:16:41.719
So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

1623
04:16:41.920 --> 04:16:47.159
count down this time from seven down to one. With

1624
04:16:47.280 --> 04:17:01.159
each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

1625
04:17:02.799 --> 04:17:14.639
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1626
04:17:16.040 --> 04:17:31.079
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

1627
04:17:31.200 --> 04:19:57.840
will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, one.

1628
04:20:14.799 --> 04:20:32.239
As you now notice how relaxed you're feeling in your body,

1629
04:20:40.639 --> 04:20:53.840
we're going to focus on your hands, because the more

1630
04:20:53.959 --> 04:21:01.000
relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your body and

1631
04:21:01.280 --> 04:21:22.840
mind are. You focus on your hands and your fingers.

1632
04:21:28.399 --> 04:21:33.159
There's nothing needed to be done. There's no clenching of

1633
04:21:33.440 --> 04:21:37.760
fists or dents in the fingers or anything like that.

1634
04:21:45.200 --> 04:21:59.200
It's just noticing and focusing on your hands, noticing the

1635
04:21:59.319 --> 04:22:24.239
healift feel because the more relaxed your hands feel, the

1636
04:22:24.520 --> 04:22:33.920
calmer your mind feels, and the more comforts you feel

1637
04:22:36.000 --> 04:23:06.159
throughout your body. You may have already noticed your mind

1638
04:23:09.440 --> 04:23:37.159
is starting to drift. Fix him just on your hands

1639
04:23:38.360 --> 04:23:56.319
and fingers, allowing them she experience a real deepening of

1640
04:23:56.520 --> 04:24:12.399
that relaxation, and your hands and fingers more and more relaxed.

1641
04:24:17.520 --> 04:24:35.920
With each number from eight down to one, you can

1642
04:24:36.000 --> 04:24:46.959
almost feel that healing and relax and energy spreading into

1643
04:24:47.079 --> 04:25:06.319
your hands and fingers becoming year more relaxing with each

1644
04:25:06.840 --> 04:25:24.639
number you hear, going down eight, down to one, drifting,

1645
04:25:28.319 --> 04:29:35.000
drifting again starting with number eight, seven f three, Just

1646
04:29:35.280 --> 04:29:44.239
being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

1647
04:29:45.879 --> 04:30:00.200
nothing to say, and everything just feels calm. This is

1648
04:30:01.280 --> 04:30:08.040
your natural state of being. This is how you just

1649
04:30:09.159 --> 04:30:14.879
normally feel when you take away all of that other

1650
04:30:15.319 --> 04:30:22.760
stuff that we add, you know, thinks like stress and worry,

1651
04:30:22.879 --> 04:30:38.600
in and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

1652
04:30:40.799 --> 04:30:43.959
We take that away, which is what we do.

1653
04:30:44.719 --> 04:30:45.799
What we do now.

1654
04:30:52.040 --> 04:31:03.280
You're left with a real sense of peacefulness which comes

1655
04:31:03.440 --> 04:31:12.760
to you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling,

1656
04:31:17.159 --> 04:31:24.920
a feeling of comfort. It's almost as if you've got

1657
04:31:25.000 --> 04:31:33.479
inside yourself and you've found a special place where everything

1658
04:31:36.840 --> 04:31:45.079
is peaceful, a place where you can film relaxed and

1659
04:31:45.280 --> 04:31:54.120
you're natural sense of comfort, a place where you could

1660
04:31:54.200 --> 04:32:03.680
be here where you can accept yourself and who you are,

1661
04:32:06.120 --> 04:32:12.200
in the place where you're not trying to please anybody else,

1662
04:32:12.719 --> 04:32:25.479
in the place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1663
04:32:25.600 --> 04:32:31.040
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself,

1664
04:32:33.559 --> 04:32:50.840
appreciate who you are. That sense of gratitude he's in

1665
04:32:50.959 --> 04:33:01.920
the air way around you. That's also a place where

1666
04:33:02.120 --> 04:33:12.479
you can actually feel the healing energy soaking into your body.

1667
04:33:19.159 --> 04:33:31.479
Healing energy soaking into your body, That healing energy spreads

1668
04:33:32.479 --> 04:33:43.639
through your veins, traveling to each every single part of

1669
04:33:43.799 --> 04:33:53.599
your body, and you start to realize that actually that

1670
04:33:53.880 --> 04:34:02.639
healing energy, it's not just entered into your brain, it's

1671
04:34:02.720 --> 04:34:14.680
become part of your brain, and the spinal fluid is

1672
04:34:14.799 --> 04:34:25.680
now mixed with healing energy, not just allowing you to

1673
04:34:26.080 --> 04:34:33.680
feel so much more relaxed and healthy in this moment,

1674
04:34:38.159 --> 04:34:47.599
but also you start to realize that actually, what's happening

1675
04:34:47.840 --> 04:34:58.439
now without healing, relaxing energy spreading through your body, it's

1676
04:34:58.639 --> 04:35:09.080
actually changed in your life. It's actually changing the way

1677
04:35:09.240 --> 04:35:15.799
you're going to feel not just now, but tomorrow and

1678
04:35:15.919 --> 04:35:24.840
the next day. As your health improves, not just your

1679
04:35:24.959 --> 04:35:32.720
physical health, but your mental health. Things that used to

1680
04:35:32.880 --> 04:35:39.000
bother you in the past, for some reason, no longer

1681
04:35:40.319 --> 04:35:46.799
have the effect that they used to because something has

1682
04:35:47.319 --> 04:36:00.360
changed deep within you. Maybe things that used to cause

1683
04:36:00.439 --> 04:36:12.400
you to feel anger no longer have that power to

1684
04:36:12.560 --> 04:36:18.200
control you the way they seem to be able to before.

1685
04:36:21.880 --> 04:36:32.680
As you realize that you're the one who decides what

1686
04:36:33.040 --> 04:36:44.720
affects you. You're the one who decides to feel relaxed

1687
04:36:45.599 --> 04:36:58.360
and calm when you choose to enjoy noticing these natural

1688
04:36:59.400 --> 04:37:12.759
developers of healing continue to grow and improve your life

1689
04:37:14.159 --> 04:37:25.959
day by day, including of course, your ability to relax

1690
04:37:26.639 --> 04:37:41.520
so much easier than sleeping. It's the most natural thing

1691
04:37:42.479 --> 04:37:52.439
in the world to you, because falling asleep is something

1692
04:37:52.599 --> 04:38:03.439
that you've done so many times in your life, and

1693
04:38:03.599 --> 04:38:07.400
you know that you were born, as we all were,

1694
04:38:08.240 --> 04:38:18.159
with the ability to fall asleep naturally. We were born

1695
04:38:19.479 --> 04:38:29.959
with that ability to just drift off into a deep,

1696
04:38:31.240 --> 04:38:43.000
healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will fall asleep

1697
04:38:43.080 --> 04:38:47.040
when we don't even want to try to think of

1698
04:38:47.200 --> 04:38:51.599
stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning, or

1699
04:38:51.639 --> 04:38:55.840
it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

1700
04:38:56.439 --> 04:39:01.119
We don't want to go to sleep. The more we

1701
04:39:01.240 --> 04:39:06.639
want to stay awake, the more we just start to drift.

1702
04:39:10.799 --> 04:39:15.279
And the more you fights drifting, we try to stop

1703
04:39:15.360 --> 04:39:22.279
yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes.

1704
04:39:29.200 --> 04:39:34.520
Because we're born not just with the need to relax

1705
04:39:34.639 --> 04:39:43.040
deeply and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birth right,

1706
04:39:46.439 --> 04:39:56.799
it's part of our DNA, and sometimes as we get

1707
04:39:56.840 --> 04:40:10.759
older in life, perhaps a times we have forgotten relaxing completely.

1708
04:40:12.520 --> 04:40:25.880
It's not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy.

1709
04:40:37.240 --> 04:40:44.720
It's very very easy to let go, because that's all

1710
04:40:44.799 --> 04:40:59.159
it is, is just deciding to let go. And when

1711
04:40:59.319 --> 04:41:07.119
you press the play button on my recordings, you have

1712
04:41:07.319 --> 04:41:17.880
given permission from my voice to relax you. When you

1713
04:41:18.040 --> 04:41:23.200
press that play button, you have given me permission for

1714
04:41:23.400 --> 04:41:37.439
my words to effect you in a positive, only a

1715
04:41:37.639 --> 04:41:58.959
positive way, opening up your mind to useful and healing

1716
04:42:00.520 --> 04:42:16.560
suggestions that can have such an amazing effect on how

1717
04:42:16.720 --> 04:42:28.799
you feel right now, as well as those changes that

1718
04:42:29.119 --> 04:42:39.119
continue long after the recording ends, those changes within you

1719
04:42:41.959 --> 04:42:54.720
that continue to flourish and grow, transforming your life in

1720
04:42:55.319 --> 04:43:07.200
a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move forward in

1721
04:43:07.360 --> 04:43:13.880
your life in the direction that you choose for yourself.

1722
04:43:22.959 --> 04:43:34.959
And this feeling, this feeling that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness.

1723
04:43:42.759 --> 04:43:56.720
This feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

1724
04:44:04.599 --> 04:44:22.599
and that positivity grows within you. Eat every day moving forward,

1725
04:44:26.439 --> 04:44:37.400
you're going to find that you're more relaxed physically and

1726
04:44:37.599 --> 04:44:46.279
in your mind, is more relaxed. And it's not that

1727
04:44:46.400 --> 04:44:51.959
you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind will be

1728
04:44:52.159 --> 04:45:04.000
less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on,

1729
04:45:04.680 --> 04:45:14.279
your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to

1730
04:45:14.439 --> 04:45:31.319
start noticing when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop,

1731
04:45:34.200 --> 04:45:40.959
and that negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1732
04:45:48.959 --> 04:46:08.279
Stop and that negativity would disappear. And as you notice

1733
04:46:08.560 --> 04:46:16.880
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected,

1734
04:46:23.080 --> 04:46:31.880
you can now congratulate yourself because you are the person

1735
04:46:32.560 --> 04:46:38.159
that has done this. You are the one that has

1736
04:46:38.400 --> 04:46:46.240
opened your mind up to the simple facts that you

1737
04:46:46.560 --> 04:46:51.840
can feel more relaxed in your body and in your mind.

1738
04:46:58.040 --> 04:47:03.959
You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being

1739
04:47:04.000 --> 04:47:20.880
able to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And

1740
04:47:21.000 --> 04:47:27.959
that's a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice?

1741
04:47:28.080 --> 04:47:37.439
Doesn't it? To feel calm? All the healing energy is

1742
04:47:37.560 --> 04:47:48.400
spreading through your body in your mind to spend time

1743
04:47:50.720 --> 04:48:06.639
a special place where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity

1744
04:48:06.840 --> 04:48:15.799
is banned, it's barred, it's not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't.

1745
04:48:15.880 --> 04:48:24.319
This doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity

1746
04:48:24.560 --> 04:48:38.680
has no place in your life, which makes room for

1747
04:48:39.040 --> 04:49:10.520
more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice,

1748
04:49:10.639 --> 04:49:35.880
doesn't it. Just let go with everything. I'm gonna count

1749
04:49:36.040 --> 04:49:44.159
down now from twenty down to one. You can continue

1750
04:49:44.439 --> 04:49:54.759
to relax if you chuosh, you can drift to sleep

1751
04:49:58.360 --> 04:50:09.720
with govery number. Hear me say, you can fill twice

1752
04:50:09.799 --> 04:50:16.880
as relaxed, or if you choose, you can fill twice

1753
04:50:17.520 --> 04:51:32.840
sleeping now. Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen,

1754
04:51:39.520 --> 04:53:19.560
two eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six five. Yeah, this

1755
04:53:19.759 --> 04:53:29.799
is your time to just take a break, your time

1756
04:53:30.119 --> 04:53:48.919
to relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to

1757
04:53:49.159 --> 04:54:08.159
give yourself permission to take a break from everything. Ensure

1758
04:54:08.240 --> 04:54:15.279
the only person that can make that decision. You're the

1759
04:54:15.360 --> 04:54:23.799
only person that can actually tell your mind just relax,

1760
04:54:31.919 --> 04:54:47.520
to just take some time off so that you can

1761
04:54:48.319 --> 04:54:53.720
focus on your body, getting in touch with how you

1762
04:54:53.919 --> 04:55:10.759
feel physically and in the process of this body scan

1763
04:55:11.200 --> 04:55:21.639
where you focus on different parts of your body, those

1764
04:55:21.959 --> 04:55:29.119
parts that you focus on and observe. Even though you're

1765
04:55:29.200 --> 04:55:38.040
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax,

1766
04:55:40.279 --> 04:55:46.639
it's kind of expected you expect when you listen to

1767
04:55:46.799 --> 04:55:59.439
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

1768
04:55:59.520 --> 04:56:09.720
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

1769
04:56:14.720 --> 04:56:25.560
and as my words guide you to focus on those

1770
04:56:25.799 --> 04:56:43.959
parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms

1771
04:56:44.119 --> 04:57:04.240
your mind. And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

1772
04:57:11.720 --> 04:57:33.639
And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes. And

1773
04:57:34.360 --> 04:57:41.840
even though we've not really started to focus on your body,

1774
04:57:44.799 --> 04:57:55.880
you can already feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

1775
04:58:00.759 --> 04:58:15.080
pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

1776
04:58:15.159 --> 04:58:24.919
your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood, all

1777
04:58:25.000 --> 04:58:29.560
of your organs inside your body, all of the muscles,

1778
04:58:30.720 --> 04:58:38.040
all of the fat, all of everything, every hair on

1779
04:58:38.200 --> 04:58:51.599
your body is filled with that healing energy. And when

1780
04:58:51.680 --> 04:59:07.959
your brain fills with that healing energy, the feeding of

1781
04:59:08.159 --> 04:59:35.959
comfort relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way that your

1782
04:59:36.119 --> 04:59:53.520
mind starts to fill, perhaps spit drowsing because it's not needed,

1783
04:59:56.959 --> 05:00:02.880
and it may start to drift.

1784
05:00:11.279 --> 05:00:17.919
If that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this

1785
05:00:20.040 --> 05:00:23.479
and what you need is deep relaxation.

1786
05:00:23.439 --> 05:00:24.240
That's what you get.

1787
05:00:26.439 --> 05:00:27.919
If what you need is.

1788
05:00:29.599 --> 05:00:36.599
To fall asleep naturally and easily that your mind drifts.

1789
05:00:39.119 --> 05:00:53.360
That's also what happened because by pressing out play button

1790
05:00:54.319 --> 05:01:01.439
on the podcast and listening to me, give permission your

1791
05:01:01.560 --> 05:01:12.520
body and your wind. In fact, you give the command

1792
05:01:14.000 --> 05:01:24.919
to your body and your wind to relax deeply and

1793
05:01:25.080 --> 05:01:30.840
to drift off to sleep if that's what you want

1794
05:01:34.319 --> 05:01:46.680
or need. And as I focus on the different parts

1795
05:01:47.119 --> 05:02:01.200
of your body, you may start to just drift. And

1796
05:02:01.279 --> 05:02:05.080
then you come back again and you hear me talking

1797
05:02:05.400 --> 05:02:09.599
and I'm focusing on a different part of your body,

1798
05:02:15.360 --> 05:02:24.799
you may find yourself drifting, being able to realize you're drifting.

1799
05:02:26.520 --> 05:02:33.400
Until you stop drifting, you're a love again to my voice,

1800
05:02:34.840 --> 05:02:40.720
focusing on a different part of your body starts to

1801
05:02:40.880 --> 05:02:50.880
relax in her deeper because I'm drifting. It's basically here

1802
05:02:51.200 --> 05:03:03.080
already in the sleep zone. And the more you drift,

1803
05:03:03.840 --> 05:03:13.759
the longer you drift, the longer you drift. Eventually, that

1804
05:03:14.040 --> 05:03:24.200
drifting continues into sleep, and that's the last you remember

1805
05:03:26.240 --> 05:03:34.439
until you wake up in your own time. When you

1806
05:03:34.759 --> 05:03:43.240
experienced the right amount of sleep. Fear because when you

1807
05:03:43.479 --> 05:04:00.279
do and if you do sleep, it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing, deep,

1808
05:04:01.639 --> 05:04:22.319
healing sleep, I feel so nice to relax your own

1809
05:04:22.520 --> 05:04:31.680
body in mind, as if you feel that hearing imagy

1810
05:04:31.720 --> 05:04:45.279
is spreading through it. Relaxing, use so deeply, relaxes so

1811
05:04:48.080 --> 05:05:11.000
deeply to start to focus on your eyes, moving down

1812
05:05:14.000 --> 05:06:04.360
to joe, down to back, your shoulders a facus, your

1813
05:06:04.720 --> 05:07:26.599
chest stupid, your hips, your ex faint, your toes spreading

1814
05:07:28.319 --> 05:07:42.759
grimeside your body, feeling you up. Now let's focus again

1815
05:07:45.319 --> 05:07:53.119
parts of your body, focusing this time on your forehead.

1816
05:07:59.599 --> 05:08:08.880
Now on your mouth, your lips, your tongue, a whole

1817
05:08:08.959 --> 05:08:31.080
of your mouth. Focus on your fingers. Maybe you could

1818
05:08:32.680 --> 05:08:36.560
move your fingers a little bits. You can focus on

1819
05:08:36.799 --> 05:08:51.279
each one individually, both hands and even though it should

1820
05:08:51.279 --> 05:08:56.799
focus on both of your hands now they almost seemed

1821
05:08:56.840 --> 05:09:04.959
to just melt into one. Where did your right hand?

1822
05:09:05.200 --> 05:09:16.319
Starting left hand? And no words, as if just mixed together.

1823
05:09:21.840 --> 05:09:33.119
Now focusing on your knees, just noticing how your knees hell.

1824
05:09:49.880 --> 05:09:57.479
Now focusing on your elbows, focusing on both your elbows

1825
05:10:03.759 --> 05:10:53.759
just absurd the faith of fees, you said, absida energy

1826
05:10:56.599 --> 05:12:52.080
back back upsideus. It's a cup of sex sections acoust s.

1827
05:13:02.040 --> 05:13:16.319
What if of your faith being with hell? Your toes

1828
05:13:19.000 --> 05:14:20.959
feel right now? Ninety cent? How you insire, body feels noticing,

1829
05:14:28.200 --> 05:15:14.479
your mind feels now, lett him go, letting go, letting

1830
05:15:15.520 --> 05:16:03.919
go everything, letting go, letting go, let go everything. See,

1831
05:16:10.159 --> 05:16:13.840
I'm going to start now, and I'd like you just,

1832
05:16:14.000 --> 05:16:19.639
first of all, just to see yourself lying down on

1833
05:16:19.759 --> 05:16:25.919
the message table, lying on your front. Your head is supported,

1834
05:16:26.319 --> 05:16:35.080
your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable, and breathing

1835
05:16:35.279 --> 05:16:44.639
is really easy, and you feel you feel confident in

1836
05:16:44.799 --> 05:16:47.000
how you look as well. So there's none of that

1837
05:16:47.159 --> 05:16:53.919
issue of body problems or shyness, because I'm a professional

1838
05:16:55.080 --> 05:17:01.439
and this is a therapy session, so none of that

1839
05:17:01.599 --> 05:17:11.439
stuff matters on whatsoever. This is about you. This is

1840
05:17:11.520 --> 05:17:19.799
about how you feel and how you can enjoy that

1841
05:17:20.040 --> 05:17:25.919
sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting go

1842
05:17:26.439 --> 05:17:31.759
and allowing my hands and my fingers to relax you

1843
05:17:34.639 --> 05:17:43.319
by messaging your body. So I want to start off

1844
05:17:43.560 --> 05:17:48.439
just by placing my hands on the back of your head,

1845
05:17:49.880 --> 05:17:55.240
just gently, just you can feel what my hands feel

1846
05:17:55.360 --> 05:18:02.080
like really on you. So you can maybe feel the

1847
05:18:02.159 --> 05:18:04.360
warmth of my hands on the back of your head.

1848
05:18:08.040 --> 05:18:11.560
With my hands to the side of your head, not pressing,

1849
05:18:11.720 --> 05:18:18.040
but just holding there very gently, maybe over your ears,

1850
05:18:18.599 --> 05:18:21.840
and a little bit on your face so you can

1851
05:18:22.040 --> 05:18:29.560
feel my hands so you can become accustomed to them.

1852
05:18:38.200 --> 05:18:40.360
And now put my hands on the back of your

1853
05:18:40.439 --> 05:18:47.720
head again and gently let them slide down on to

1854
05:18:47.799 --> 05:18:57.639
the back of your neck. You can feel my hands

1855
05:19:04.479 --> 05:19:07.439
gently stroking the back of your neck to start with,

1856
05:19:12.040 --> 05:19:16.040
just so you can get used to the feeling of

1857
05:19:16.159 --> 05:19:23.680
my hands on your skin, get accustomed to realize that

1858
05:19:24.200 --> 05:19:34.279
you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine. And

1859
05:19:34.319 --> 05:19:38.439
I'm going to start gently messaging the muscles in the

1860
05:19:38.560 --> 05:19:54.439
back of your neck with both hands. And this is

1861
05:19:54.479 --> 05:20:01.639
a very trusting situation, really, because necks are so fragile

1862
05:20:02.959 --> 05:20:06.360
and to have someone have their hands around your neck

1863
05:20:07.159 --> 05:20:12.520
in that way can sometimes be problematic for people, which

1864
05:20:12.560 --> 05:20:16.880
is why massages are quite good, because it allows you

1865
05:20:17.040 --> 05:20:31.119
to relax and to get in touch with trust, to

1866
05:20:31.240 --> 05:20:43.799
feel peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides of

1867
05:20:43.880 --> 05:20:51.759
your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

1868
05:20:53.479 --> 05:20:56.000
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

1869
05:20:56.080 --> 05:21:02.720
I guess, all the way up to your jaw your

1870
05:21:02.840 --> 05:21:09.319
ears kind of area that side of your neck. Of course,

1871
05:21:09.360 --> 05:21:11.880
it's a lot longer than the front of your neck,

1872
05:21:24.880 --> 05:21:31.959
and message in the back of your neck, especially that

1873
05:21:32.200 --> 05:21:41.639
area where perhaps we hold tension, and there's that area's message.

1874
05:21:42.000 --> 05:21:46.080
You can actually feel a sense of release in the

1875
05:21:46.159 --> 05:21:54.040
back of your neck and maybe you can breathe it

1876
05:21:54.119 --> 05:21:59.959
out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

1877
05:22:09.959 --> 05:22:13.560
They're moving down to that area between your neck and

1878
05:22:13.639 --> 05:22:23.799
your shoulders, that muscle area, starting to message that area

1879
05:22:23.880 --> 05:22:28.200
on both sides. I mean, this would be the area

1880
05:22:28.319 --> 05:22:30.880
that a lot of people would message if they were

1881
05:22:30.919 --> 05:22:35.880
going to give you, like a shoulder message. Even that's

1882
05:22:36.279 --> 05:22:39.680
not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles that

1883
05:22:39.880 --> 05:22:46.040
lead to the shoulders from the neck and a game

1884
05:22:46.200 --> 05:22:53.200
that can hold tension and stress, and when massaged sometimes

1885
05:22:53.279 --> 05:23:00.279
a nice deep message is useful. And you decide how

1886
05:23:00.479 --> 05:23:18.439
deep that message is, and just allow my knuckles just

1887
05:23:18.520 --> 05:23:22.639
to dig in to get to those muscles and to

1888
05:23:22.919 --> 05:23:33.599
realy relaxed, and all the time being firm yet gentle

1889
05:23:35.040 --> 05:23:52.759
with you and just stroking down the area to your

1890
05:23:52.880 --> 05:24:04.639
actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders, and

1891
05:24:04.840 --> 05:24:09.560
maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little bit

1892
05:24:09.720 --> 05:24:13.000
off the table, just to give you a little bit

1893
05:24:13.040 --> 05:24:24.000
of a stretch, very gently, and you've got the muscles

1894
05:24:24.040 --> 05:24:36.279
at the front of your shoulders, the sides and the back. Again,

1895
05:24:36.520 --> 05:24:40.360
this is a part that can really take quite a

1896
05:24:40.439 --> 05:24:48.639
bit of pressure, quite a bit of needing if if

1897
05:24:48.720 --> 05:24:56.680
you wish to really release the tension to really get

1898
05:24:56.799 --> 05:25:03.360
into those muscles, and you can let your fingers in there.

1899
05:25:04.439 --> 05:25:10.000
Make you feel really nice. Sometimes it's just being stroked

1900
05:25:10.119 --> 05:25:20.639
gently or being messaged quite strongly, can all be beneficial

1901
05:25:22.279 --> 05:25:40.400
to the reorversation with the muscles in your shoulders. Now

1902
05:25:40.799 --> 05:25:50.200
you move down your arms, were doing one arm at

1903
05:25:50.240 --> 05:26:00.520
a time, starting with your right arm. Wow, do is

1904
05:26:00.639 --> 05:26:04.919
I just lift your arm up, just hold it to

1905
05:26:05.040 --> 05:26:12.439
the side of you that words still be attached, and

1906
05:26:12.599 --> 05:26:27.159
not just message the tops of your arms all the

1907
05:26:27.240 --> 05:26:45.880
way down to your forearms into your wrists, gently messaging

1908
05:26:51.759 --> 05:26:58.119
that part, the softer part, which is the under part

1909
05:26:58.159 --> 05:27:03.720
of the arm, which leads to the crease in your

1910
05:27:03.759 --> 05:27:19.759
elbow the inside. It's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just

1911
05:27:19.880 --> 05:27:39.119
having that stroked feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now

1912
05:27:39.279 --> 05:27:50.000
moving down to your right hand, just holding your hand

1913
05:27:53.319 --> 05:28:03.040
in both of my hands, just pressing gently on the

1914
05:28:03.159 --> 05:28:14.439
back of your hand, stretching your fingers ever slightly at

1915
05:28:14.479 --> 05:28:29.279
the same time, pressing down and massaging each finger, and

1916
05:28:29.400 --> 05:28:40.000
then starting to massage the palms of their hand. Just

1917
05:28:40.279 --> 05:28:51.599
turning the hand, stretching it gently, and actually having your

1918
05:28:51.759 --> 05:28:59.840
hand held can really be an emotional experience sometimes, even

1919
05:28:59.840 --> 05:29:04.479
if it is with a stranger, someone you don't know

1920
05:29:04.759 --> 05:29:10.080
very well, like a massage person or a therapist. Maybe

1921
05:29:12.119 --> 05:29:25.720
because it's intimate, you can feel nice, you can feel safe.

1922
05:29:33.520 --> 05:29:36.439
And as I put that right arm back down where

1923
05:29:36.479 --> 05:29:48.759
it was, did the same with your left arm, exactly

1924
05:29:48.919 --> 05:29:58.520
the same. Massage in the muscles in your arm all

1925
05:29:58.560 --> 05:30:07.119
the way down, dear wrist, stroking the inside of your arm,

1926
05:30:12.680 --> 05:30:26.119
just being gentle or as firm as you require, and

1927
05:30:26.240 --> 05:30:42.680
then messaging your left hand, stretching the fingers gently, massaging

1928
05:30:42.919 --> 05:31:00.479
the palm of your left hand. You feel so m

1929
05:31:01.720 --> 05:31:26.959
so relaxing, so comforting, and I just rest your left

1930
05:31:27.159 --> 05:31:41.200
arm back down. Start to message your back, the biggest

1931
05:31:41.360 --> 05:31:52.720
part of your body, starting at the top, starting again

1932
05:31:52.919 --> 05:31:56.200
where we already have been, the area at the top

1933
05:31:56.560 --> 05:32:04.080
in between your shoulders, and the going back. Message in

1934
05:32:04.119 --> 05:32:16.200
the area again, but this time moving downwards, making it downward.

1935
05:32:16.400 --> 05:32:24.279
Stroke to the middle of a back, working from the

1936
05:32:24.680 --> 05:32:35.000
outside inwards, massage in that your back, but the outsides

1937
05:32:35.319 --> 05:32:45.639
of your back parts where your arms would maybe rest

1938
05:32:45.720 --> 05:32:58.720
against almost the part that connects your front to your back,

1939
05:33:08.000 --> 05:33:16.360
and just messaging down firmly but gently, as firm as

1940
05:33:16.479 --> 05:33:24.439
you want, moving down and moving across a little bed,

1941
05:33:24.639 --> 05:33:30.400
moving all the way down again, be very gentle yout

1942
05:33:30.639 --> 05:33:41.400
firm as you choose. Eventually you get to the spine.

1943
05:33:42.799 --> 05:33:47.000
We can message the muscles on either side of your spine,

1944
05:33:47.880 --> 05:33:50.880
from the top of your neck all the way down

1945
05:33:53.720 --> 05:34:02.639
to your lower back. We can do that a few times.

1946
05:34:05.680 --> 05:34:12.439
Sometimes people would use the knuckle or the you know,

1947
05:34:12.880 --> 05:34:17.360
two fingers and just go either side of the spine

1948
05:34:18.680 --> 05:34:22.400
almost just push down, go all the way down to

1949
05:34:22.479 --> 05:34:30.439
the bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and

1950
05:34:30.759 --> 05:34:39.759
opening up the body, stretching your body so that you

1951
05:34:40.000 --> 05:34:58.240
feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And

1952
05:34:58.400 --> 05:35:01.720
now I'm going to move to one side, to your

1953
05:35:01.840 --> 05:35:10.880
right side, and from the bottom of your ribs to

1954
05:35:11.080 --> 05:35:17.000
your pelvis, I'm gonna message that area of your back.

1955
05:35:18.919 --> 05:35:22.080
I'll stretch over the other side and i will pull

1956
05:35:22.200 --> 05:35:28.639
the muscles gently and massage and push from one end

1957
05:35:29.159 --> 05:35:33.279
that side or the way to my side to the

1958
05:35:33.400 --> 05:35:38.959
middle in fact to where your spine is massaging that

1959
05:35:39.240 --> 05:35:43.919
side of your spine, the opposite side to where I'm standing.

1960
05:35:46.279 --> 05:35:52.279
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

1961
05:35:52.400 --> 05:36:04.159
is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of

1962
05:36:04.200 --> 05:36:10.840
the most important places to actually have a message because

1963
05:36:10.919 --> 05:36:16.759
you really feel it. You really feel the release and

1964
05:36:16.919 --> 05:36:25.080
the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases

1965
05:36:25.439 --> 05:36:33.720
so much from your body that's not useful, starting a

1966
05:36:33.880 --> 05:36:39.959
healing process which will continue long after this recording is over.

1967
05:36:49.319 --> 05:36:52.159
The message in this part of your body not only

1968
05:36:52.279 --> 05:36:57.080
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

1969
05:36:58.520 --> 05:37:04.159
because it is, as a said, like kneading bread. It's

1970
05:37:04.240 --> 05:37:08.080
a part that you can really get hold of and

1971
05:37:08.279 --> 05:37:21.880
really message deeply. If that's your choice. They're not going

1972
05:37:21.959 --> 05:37:23.959
to move over to the other side of your body

1973
05:37:24.479 --> 05:37:33.159
and do the same with the opposite part of your

1974
05:37:33.279 --> 05:37:40.319
law back. Kneading and messaging from your sides all the

1975
05:37:40.400 --> 05:37:47.520
way to the middle of your back where your spine

1976
05:37:47.680 --> 05:38:01.400
is pressing and kneading firm and into at the same time.

1977
05:38:03.360 --> 05:38:15.880
It feels so releasing. This mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

1978
05:38:16.240 --> 05:38:27.880
relaxation or mixed together plus there's that feeling from your

1979
05:38:27.959 --> 05:38:33.080
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

1980
05:38:33.200 --> 05:38:37.479
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

1981
05:38:37.639 --> 05:38:49.000
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

1982
05:38:49.080 --> 05:38:54.000
to move or move further up to your top of

1983
05:38:54.080 --> 05:39:00.240
your body, and we did the same this time art

1984
05:39:00.319 --> 05:39:06.639
in with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

1985
05:39:07.959 --> 05:39:14.159
and massive massage in that area up to your spine,

1986
05:39:15.319 --> 05:39:17.919
from the side of your body up to your spine.

1987
05:39:19.720 --> 05:39:25.880
So some of that message area, that muscle tissue or

1988
05:39:25.880 --> 05:39:29.919
whatever fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest

1989
05:39:31.759 --> 05:39:35.880
because it's all connected. The chest and the back connect together.

1990
05:39:39.040 --> 05:39:42.279
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

1991
05:39:42.400 --> 05:39:49.799
that skin from your side up and massage in the

1992
05:39:50.000 --> 05:39:57.479
area of your upper back all the way to your spine.

1993
05:40:01.880 --> 05:40:04.119
And then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

1994
05:40:04.720 --> 05:40:07.799
with the middle of your back doing exactly the same thing.

1995
05:40:11.639 --> 05:40:25.479
There's gentle as deep as you choose. Now I'll move

1996
05:40:25.639 --> 05:40:29.799
or the other side again and do the exact same

1997
05:40:30.000 --> 05:40:33.959
thing with the top of your back on the other side,

1998
05:40:35.040 --> 05:40:49.080
from pretty much underneath your arm area really to your spine,

1999
05:40:54.200 --> 05:41:00.799
and then continue in that all the way down including

2000
05:41:00.959 --> 05:41:17.959
your lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go

2001
05:41:18.400 --> 05:41:24.639
to your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the

2002
05:41:24.840 --> 05:41:34.759
sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg. Massage

2003
05:41:34.880 --> 05:41:44.439
in the back and the sides of your thighs gently

2004
05:41:44.680 --> 05:41:50.599
and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's an

2005
05:41:50.639 --> 05:41:54.200
area that can be very tense at times and maybe

2006
05:41:54.919 --> 05:41:57.360
needs a little bit more pressure than the rest of

2007
05:41:57.439 --> 05:42:06.040
the body that's up to you. You can gently stroke

2008
05:42:06.159 --> 05:42:13.080
the back of your legs where you know, opposite your

2009
05:42:13.159 --> 05:42:21.000
knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area,

2010
05:42:27.959 --> 05:42:35.319
and working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your

2011
05:42:35.439 --> 05:42:44.799
calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both

2012
05:42:44.959 --> 05:43:03.919
hands fingers, digging deep to your ankles and the back

2013
05:43:04.000 --> 05:43:10.639
of your back of your ankles, just gently message in

2014
05:43:10.720 --> 05:43:22.439
that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching it a

2015
05:43:22.520 --> 05:43:47.680
little bit. Moving to the right foot, massage in the

2016
05:43:47.759 --> 05:43:54.759
bottom of your feet and the size of your fate

2017
05:43:59.599 --> 05:44:11.080
m gently but firm enough so they don't tickle, and

2018
05:44:11.319 --> 05:44:17.080
just allow the pleasure that you get from heaving your feet.

2019
05:44:17.200 --> 05:44:26.840
Message to just overtake you. As I continue to message

2020
05:44:26.880 --> 05:44:36.360
your feet, the bottoms of your feet, the sides, your arches,

2021
05:44:37.080 --> 05:44:41.840
your heel. You can put a lot of pressure into

2022
05:44:41.919 --> 05:44:47.959
your heel and it feels amazing, Yet the arches need

2023
05:44:48.080 --> 05:44:56.479
to be a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently,

2024
05:44:59.200 --> 05:45:03.520
a message in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers,

2025
05:45:05.959 --> 05:45:19.720
each one individually. Moving over to the left leg to

2026
05:45:19.880 --> 05:45:28.080
do exactly the same thing, starting at the top of

2027
05:45:28.200 --> 05:45:32.840
the thighs. Work in the back of the thighs and

2028
05:45:32.919 --> 05:45:45.360
the sides, massaging deeply and gently the whole area, working

2029
05:45:45.439 --> 05:45:54.479
all the way down. And this is an area that

2030
05:45:55.639 --> 05:46:06.919
maybe you could like to spend more time relaxing and messaging. Perhaps,

2031
05:46:07.840 --> 05:46:12.680
if you wanted, I could make a future recording. What's

2032
05:46:12.680 --> 05:46:21.639
spend more time on one particular area. As you moved

2033
05:46:21.720 --> 05:46:34.360
down to your calf muscles. Massagy in your calf muscles

2034
05:46:35.880 --> 05:46:49.799
firmly and gently, moving down your ankle into your feet,

2035
05:46:51.639 --> 05:46:57.400
Massage in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of

2036
05:46:57.479 --> 05:47:07.479
your feet, stretching your toes and message in each tone individually.

2037
05:47:10.080 --> 05:47:15.799
And the feeling of pleasure and release, the experience in

2038
05:47:16.000 --> 05:47:37.919
your having your feet massaged feels really good. Now, she

2039
05:47:38.159 --> 05:47:49.520
turn over in your mind laying on your back. I'm

2040
05:47:49.599 --> 05:48:02.119
just going to start again for your nick area in

2041
05:48:02.240 --> 05:48:09.919
your shoulders, just to get back in touch with that

2042
05:48:10.200 --> 05:48:27.759
area and lets you move up. I can clean my hands,

2043
05:48:29.080 --> 05:48:32.880
make them more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your

2044
05:48:32.959 --> 05:48:49.360
face simply starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed,

2045
05:48:50.720 --> 05:48:56.520
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2046
05:48:56.639 --> 05:49:13.520
up on your eyebrows, just messaging around your scalp, massaging

2047
05:49:13.759 --> 05:49:23.959
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw chiently

2048
05:49:28.959 --> 05:49:47.400
the side of your neck chin, and just moving down

2049
05:49:51.880 --> 05:49:59.279
your neck down to your chest, starting by messaging the

2050
05:50:00.159 --> 05:50:06.439
very top of your chest where the collar phone is.

2051
05:50:08.759 --> 05:50:20.479
Give a side of the collarbone, and then just message

2052
05:50:20.680 --> 05:50:32.919
in the hole of the chest, moving the chest around,

2053
05:50:41.680 --> 05:50:46.479
because it's quite a large area. You can move from

2054
05:50:46.520 --> 05:50:57.080
one side to the next. Move in my hands underneath

2055
05:50:57.360 --> 05:51:07.080
pretty much where your arms are, stretching up, stretching some

2056
05:51:07.240 --> 05:51:15.080
of the muscles of your back in the process, moving

2057
05:51:15.240 --> 05:51:36.240
up over your chest and then moving down again. Then

2058
05:51:36.479 --> 05:51:42.200
laying my hands. They're just massage gently and slide down

2059
05:51:43.520 --> 05:51:48.439
towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2060
05:51:51.880 --> 05:51:58.759
and then gradually my hands moving apart and massaging and

2061
05:51:59.000 --> 05:52:08.479
sliding at the same time, moving down to just below

2062
05:52:08.560 --> 05:52:26.720
your redcage, moving down and then messaging up again, giving

2063
05:52:26.799 --> 05:52:34.880
your chest all the attention when it needs to feel

2064
05:52:35.159 --> 05:52:47.439
completely relaxed, remembering that I'm also going to be focusing

2065
05:52:48.279 --> 05:52:53.560
on your sides as well, an area that really doesn't

2066
05:52:53.639 --> 05:53:00.759
get much attention but feels really good when it's massaged.

2067
05:53:05.680 --> 05:53:09.680
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2068
05:53:13.479 --> 05:53:16.919
just below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

2069
05:53:26.560 --> 05:53:32.560
Now move into your stomach area. We're gonna stand on

2070
05:53:32.680 --> 05:53:35.200
one side of you like I did when I did

2071
05:53:35.279 --> 05:53:41.520
your luwer back. I'm gonna do a similar process of

2072
05:53:41.759 --> 05:53:56.560
just stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging from

2073
05:53:56.639 --> 05:54:04.240
one side to the next, move in the whole area

2074
05:54:05.319 --> 05:54:09.240
from below your ribs all the way down to below

2075
05:54:09.319 --> 05:54:18.919
your belly button, and then move around to the other

2076
05:54:19.040 --> 05:54:34.840
side of you and repeat that process of relaxing deeply, calmly.

2077
05:54:38.000 --> 05:54:45.159
You feel loose, you feel free. And there's something about

2078
05:54:45.279 --> 05:54:50.119
having your stomach message that's different from any other part

2079
05:54:53.639 --> 05:54:58.159
because we do have a tendency of holding a different

2080
05:54:58.279 --> 05:55:02.200
kind of stress in the stuff looks that we may

2081
05:55:02.279 --> 05:55:11.080
not be aware of. There's a now message your stomach,

2082
05:55:13.400 --> 05:55:20.319
the front of your stomach. They can circles around your

2083
05:55:20.360 --> 05:55:35.400
belly bottom thing going the other way around. There's a

2084
05:55:35.639 --> 05:55:42.000
gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling how you're

2085
05:55:42.119 --> 05:55:55.279
feeling as a Now, move down the tops of your thighs, muscles,

2086
05:55:55.840 --> 05:56:00.759
message in them, and I can do this two legs

2087
05:56:00.840 --> 05:56:11.479
at the same time, pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles

2088
05:56:11.560 --> 05:56:20.479
in your thighs, the front of your thighs, and moving

2089
05:56:20.680 --> 05:56:31.720
down to your knees, gently massaging your knees, Sliding down

2090
05:56:31.880 --> 05:56:38.959
your shins, putting pressure on either side of your shin gently,

2091
05:56:41.599 --> 05:56:55.799
softly but firmly, moving down to your ankles, stroking the

2092
05:56:56.040 --> 05:57:06.560
tops of your feet, and then with each foot in

2093
05:57:06.680 --> 05:57:11.799
each hand, just gently messaging the whole of the foot,

2094
05:57:16.080 --> 05:57:21.639
the top, the bottom, your heel, your ankle, your toes,

2095
05:57:24.119 --> 05:57:33.279
messaging every pile of your feet. It feels so good

2096
05:57:34.040 --> 05:57:48.200
just to let go and enjoy the process, Enjoy feeling

2097
05:57:50.759 --> 05:58:04.040
so deeply relaxed. So much comfort and so many feelings

2098
05:58:05.799 --> 05:58:20.279
come just from touching your skin, and you can just

2099
05:58:21.439 --> 05:58:30.880
lie there for as long as you choose, enjoying the

2100
05:58:31.159 --> 05:58:49.400
feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by me, enjoy

2101
05:58:53.080 --> 05:59:15.080
feeling deeply and all we're gonna do is blow out

2102
05:59:15.159 --> 05:59:31.279
some candles. In your mind, there are going to be

2103
05:59:31.360 --> 05:59:42.200
a hundred candles, and you're going to blow each one

2104
05:59:42.279 --> 05:59:53.360
out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred. As

2105
05:59:53.400 --> 06:00:05.119
I count down all the way down to one, and

2106
06:00:05.240 --> 06:00:14.080
each time I say the number, you can imagine that

2107
06:00:14.279 --> 06:00:20.639
candle in front of you, and I'd like you to

2108
06:00:20.759 --> 06:00:40.119
actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so it's

2109
06:00:40.159 --> 06:00:51.639
not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish.

2110
06:00:56.360 --> 06:01:00.919
And then I'll say the next number we move down,

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then you can just blow that one out as well.

2112
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And as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself

2113
06:01:26.240 --> 06:01:34.880
feeding more and more relaxed. If you need to sleep,

2114
06:01:35.799 --> 06:01:47.919
you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact,

2115
06:01:48.040 --> 06:01:58.080
you may struggle to blow out all one hundred of

2116
06:01:58.240 --> 06:02:16.639
these candles as you feel more and more deeply relaxed,

2117
06:02:23.319 --> 06:02:41.319
more and more deeply tired, and the further you go down,

2118
06:02:43.959 --> 06:02:57.599
the more your mind starts to drift. You may find

2119
06:02:58.000 --> 06:03:12.400
that you stop listening to me after a while. And

2120
06:03:12.599 --> 06:03:16.759
even though there may be background sounds where you are,

2121
06:03:21.639 --> 06:03:32.840
you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment, be

2122
06:03:33.200 --> 06:03:51.599
may start just not even notice them at all because

2123
06:03:51.759 --> 06:04:05.319
they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got the sounds of

2124
06:04:05.439 --> 06:04:12.680
the birds, there's horrors, the pigeon who likes to say hello.

2125
06:04:12.959 --> 06:04:24.880
Sometimes there's the old plane that goes by, maybe traffic

2126
06:04:25.240 --> 06:04:27.880
and trains.

2127
06:04:27.560 --> 06:04:28.439
In the distance.

2128
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But none of that scene is important. Whatsoever. Or candles

2129
06:04:46.720 --> 06:05:00.279
you blow out, less important anything is, or ca doors

2130
06:05:01.279 --> 06:05:18.959
you blow out. The firth seemed to move away, sounds,

2131
06:05:22.639 --> 06:05:37.000
general date days, stuff seems to just move away on

2132
06:05:37.200 --> 06:05:54.080
its own. You feel more calm with every candy blowout,

2133
06:06:03.880 --> 06:06:13.959
guiding you to the next number. Did you hear me say?

2134
06:06:21.040 --> 06:06:33.279
And then you blow that candle out to so easy,

2135
06:06:38.159 --> 06:06:58.799
so simple. I'm gonna start by introducing the first candle.

2136
06:07:02.439 --> 06:07:19.680
She's a hundred. First candle, she is one hundred. When

2137
06:07:19.959 --> 06:07:34.680
you blow that candle out, you'll find immediately a slight

2138
06:07:36.799 --> 06:07:48.639
change in how you feel, as well as a real

2139
06:07:48.959 --> 06:08:20.159
sense of positivity growing within you. Relaxationding, sleepiness expanding. Starting

2140
06:08:20.840 --> 06:09:08.360
with one hundred, bo that candle now ninety nine, candle

2141
06:09:10.919 --> 06:10:50.799
ninety eight, cand ninety seven, ninety six, camp ninety five,

2142
06:11:11.240 --> 06:12:45.520
ninety four, candle ninety three, I Like you too much

2143
06:12:46.080 --> 06:13:40.080
one candle ninety and eighty nine.

2144
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And eight.

2145
06:14:07.919 --> 06:19:34.400
Eight eight eight eighty five, and I ate it two twohhhh,

2146
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seving nine, candle seventy eight, candle seventy seven, candle seventy six,

2147
06:21:55.240 --> 06:22:54.759
candle eighty five, candle seventy four, candle seventy three, candle

2148
06:23:00.040 --> 06:24:02.000
seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one and seventy

2149
06:24:17.159 --> 06:25:10.159
and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven, candle

2150
06:25:13.919 --> 06:26:16.759
sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle sixty three,

2151
06:26:26.560 --> 06:27:55.840
candle sixty and sixty one, candle sixty and fifty nine,

2152
06:28:17.360 --> 06:29:35.080
candle fifty eight, candle fifty seven, can fifty six, candle

2153
06:29:38.520 --> 06:30:55.040
fifty five, candle fifty four, HANDO fifty three, hand fifty two,

2154
06:31:18.439 --> 06:33:29.520
fifty two, cantifty, candle if the one, candle if fourteen nine,

2155
06:34:00.119 --> 06:35:51.880
candle forty eight, candle forty seven, candle forty six, candle

2156
06:35:55.240 --> 06:37:15.520
forty five, forty two, can do what do you want?

2157
06:37:48.400 --> 06:39:54.520
Can do forty thirty nine, thirty eight, cant thirty seven,

2158
06:40:33.599 --> 06:42:44.319
candle thirty five, thirty four, handle thirty three, candle thirty one,

2159
06:43:27.560 --> 06:46:37.200
can si and two one nine twenty eight candle joenty seven,

2160
06:47:15.000 --> 06:50:07.840
twenty six, twenty five and when ti four twenty candle

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06:50:10.080 --> 06:52:37.319
went tap two and twenty one, wait and do n

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06:52:37.680 --> 07:00:35.119
s seven six yay, fot two sh fy nine eight

2163
07:00:35.279 --> 07:03:43.000
two eight came two two.

2164
07:05:55.159 --> 07:05:55.400
Four.

2165
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Let go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about

2166
07:06:08.479 --> 07:06:15.040
the past, thoughts about the future, and even things you've

2167
07:06:15.040 --> 07:06:22.799
been thinking about today. Just let it all go because

2168
07:06:22.880 --> 07:06:30.479
none of it is useful in this moment. This is

2169
07:06:31.479 --> 07:06:50.959
your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself

2170
07:06:51.119 --> 07:06:58.880
to get in touch with that natural sense of peace

2171
07:07:01.560 --> 07:07:07.200
that we all have within us. It's available for everyone.

2172
07:07:08.360 --> 07:07:13.279
It just sometimes takes a little bit of effort to

2173
07:07:13.439 --> 07:07:19.479
set up the right time and place in order for

2174
07:07:19.599 --> 07:07:26.520
you to just let go. Because when you do decide

2175
07:07:28.919 --> 07:07:34.240
to let go and relax, that's what your body starts

2176
07:07:34.319 --> 07:07:44.560
to do, because you've chosen, You've chosen to just allow

2177
07:07:44.720 --> 07:07:50.560
your body to unwind and your mind starts to slow down.

2178
07:07:53.880 --> 07:07:58.279
And it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at

2179
07:07:58.319 --> 07:08:04.240
the beginning, just to know that you have chosen to

2180
07:08:04.400 --> 07:08:13.479
decide to relax deeply, and because you've made that decision,

2181
07:08:15.279 --> 07:08:22.319
your body will just follow suit, because sometimes all the

2182
07:08:22.439 --> 07:08:27.200
muscles in your body need is just permission from you

2183
07:08:28.240 --> 07:08:36.720
to relax. Because so often we're busy, we're going from

2184
07:08:36.840 --> 07:08:40.799
here to there, we're walking around, and we're doing stuff,

2185
07:08:43.119 --> 07:08:49.439
and the body doesn't have any time or space to

2186
07:08:49.639 --> 07:08:56.639
really relax deeply. So it kind of waits for you

2187
07:08:56.919 --> 07:09:06.080
to lead the way, waits for your permission. And when

2188
07:09:06.159 --> 07:09:12.880
you do give your permission, when you give to say so,

2189
07:09:13.119 --> 07:09:20.880
when you say okay, it's time for your body to

2190
07:09:21.080 --> 07:09:29.799
let go completely and relax totally, your body just follows.

2191
07:09:32.959 --> 07:09:38.240
So like a breath of relief. Ah good, I can

2192
07:09:38.319 --> 07:09:45.360
now relax. Have feeling at the end of a day

2193
07:09:45.400 --> 07:09:49.799
of very physical day that you may experience in the past,

2194
07:09:50.880 --> 07:09:53.439
where you get home and you just sit down on

2195
07:09:53.520 --> 07:09:57.720
a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off, and are

2196
07:09:58.560 --> 07:10:03.959
feels so nice knowing that you don't have to get

2197
07:10:04.080 --> 07:10:08.479
up again for a little while at least, and if

2198
07:10:08.520 --> 07:10:11.159
you choose, you can just sit there for maybe an

2199
07:10:11.240 --> 07:10:24.080
hour to kind of feels bliss. And just by sitting

2200
07:10:24.240 --> 07:10:29.479
down like that, your body knows that it's time to relax.

2201
07:10:31.119 --> 07:10:36.959
Your body has been given permission from you because it's

2202
07:10:37.000 --> 07:10:40.000
a mindset in your mind.

2203
07:10:43.360 --> 07:10:44.680
You're prepared.

2204
07:10:46.639 --> 07:10:55.959
To let go of everything and just completely allow all

2205
07:10:56.439 --> 07:11:05.240
the stress of your body to evaporate, an intensions can

2206
07:11:05.520 --> 07:11:24.360
just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that

2207
07:11:24.919 --> 07:11:31.799
sense of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2208
07:11:33.680 --> 07:11:38.319
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2209
07:11:38.439 --> 07:11:41.759
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2210
07:11:43.159 --> 07:11:47.040
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2211
07:11:47.279 --> 07:11:53.360
space to let go completely and relax, they seem almost alien,

2212
07:11:55.240 --> 07:12:01.119
but it isn't. It's actually the most natural thing in

2213
07:12:01.240 --> 07:12:11.439
the world to let go completely, to relax totally, the

2214
07:12:11.599 --> 07:12:22.560
most natural thing in the world to allow yourself to

2215
07:12:22.840 --> 07:12:30.599
feel really calm in your mind. And it is almost

2216
07:12:31.240 --> 07:12:38.360
like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a button

2217
07:12:41.000 --> 07:12:47.400
and all the tension just releases, and it's like a wheel,

2218
07:12:47.759 --> 07:12:52.000
like a cog, like the inside of the clock just unwinding.

2219
07:12:52.639 --> 07:12:56.080
And it's almost like you could see that the little

2220
07:12:56.200 --> 07:13:01.159
wind up knob that's used just go in the opposite

2221
07:13:01.240 --> 07:13:07.240
way that you choose to wind it up, and the

2222
07:13:07.479 --> 07:13:18.040
energy that frynetic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing

2223
07:13:18.200 --> 07:13:25.959
its power losing its straight As a sense of relaxation

2224
07:13:26.360 --> 07:13:37.240
becomes stronger and deeper, and you may find a little

2225
07:13:37.319 --> 07:13:44.319
more relaxed. You feel that your mind starts to wander.

2226
07:13:47.439 --> 07:13:53.279
Maybe you seem to stop listening to me for a while,

2227
07:13:54.959 --> 07:14:00.279
your mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're

2228
07:14:00.360 --> 07:14:05.759
listening to me again, and that's just your mind to

2229
07:14:05.959 --> 07:14:16.000
drift in to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes

2230
07:14:16.200 --> 07:14:23.240
when we're stressed and tense, we're not mean I actually

2231
07:14:23.360 --> 07:14:28.279
be aware of what we need or we physically your

2232
07:14:28.360 --> 07:14:38.599
emotionally need in this moment. But when you allow your

2233
07:14:38.720 --> 07:14:44.439
body and mind to relax completely, and you let go

2234
07:14:44.560 --> 07:14:54.680
of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas, all the goo and

2235
07:14:54.720 --> 07:15:03.240
allow them to drop onto the floor, you start to

2236
07:15:05.400 --> 07:15:16.680
get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation. Feelings

2237
07:15:16.959 --> 07:15:25.000
so nice to be in touch with the calmness of

2238
07:15:25.119 --> 07:15:33.880
the different body parts as they become looser and looser.

2239
07:15:37.959 --> 07:15:46.840
Believe in your breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless,

2240
07:15:50.119 --> 07:15:54.159
as that cool out is through your mouth or notice

2241
07:15:55.279 --> 07:16:06.279
into your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation, and then

2242
07:16:06.479 --> 07:16:15.040
just breathing out any excess remain intentional stress from every

2243
07:16:15.680 --> 07:16:23.400
part of your body and mind. And as you start

2244
07:16:23.520 --> 07:16:29.599
to focus on your mind, maybe you notice that things

2245
07:16:32.200 --> 07:16:38.720
come to a standstill or maybe just much much lower

2246
07:16:39.439 --> 07:16:49.159
than before because your mind is not really needed when

2247
07:16:49.319 --> 07:16:57.360
listening to my voice, which allows your mind to relax.

2248
07:16:59.400 --> 07:17:09.040
Just deeper is your body. And that's synchronicity between the

2249
07:17:09.200 --> 07:17:21.000
relaxation of your body relaxation of your mind. Let you

2250
07:17:21.279 --> 07:17:34.000
know that feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed real is

2251
07:17:35.799 --> 07:17:51.799
a great healing experience fear and has so many positive

2252
07:17:52.159 --> 07:18:00.520
benefits for your body, mind, and your life. Be able

2253
07:18:00.639 --> 07:18:10.799
to let go everything and to relax completely. You know,

2254
07:18:11.520 --> 07:18:20.919
all parts of your body and mind. Even your bonys relaxed,

2255
07:18:24.400 --> 07:18:37.319
your muscles are relaxed, even the skin that covers your

2256
07:18:37.439 --> 07:18:58.279
body is relaxed. Every had you have is also deeply relaxed.

2257
07:19:04.360 --> 07:19:14.639
And your brain really starts to feel the benefits of

2258
07:19:14.840 --> 07:19:28.720
this healing relaxation. And as you focus on the inside

2259
07:19:28.840 --> 07:19:34.119
of your scalp where your brain is, you can start

2260
07:19:34.680 --> 07:19:43.520
to realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing

2261
07:19:44.080 --> 07:19:57.560
demail and as your brain continues to react, sends those

2262
07:19:58.319 --> 07:20:06.360
messages to the rest of your body and to mind

2263
07:20:08.319 --> 07:20:31.400
to really relax more deep, relaxy, more completely, letting go

2264
07:20:32.279 --> 07:20:44.000
any remaining thoughts of concerns, allow them just to drop

2265
07:20:44.279 --> 07:20:51.200
onto the floor because they're not long be necessary in

2266
07:20:51.880 --> 07:21:05.720
this moment, this moment of deep reaxation and calmness, feeling

2267
07:21:08.319 --> 07:21:32.959
your brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing every part

2268
07:21:33.360 --> 07:21:51.840
of your brain feeling so lous and comfortable, so relaxed

2269
07:21:53.759 --> 07:22:06.439
and beeaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so healthy.

2270
07:22:09.639 --> 07:22:19.840
That sense of deep deep comfort really does allow you

2271
07:22:23.560 --> 07:22:35.279
to enjoy those ever increasing sensations of comfort that are

2272
07:22:35.520 --> 07:22:48.759
spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every muscle of

2273
07:22:48.919 --> 07:23:07.959
your body, deeper and deep, much more deeper than before,

2274
07:23:11.680 --> 07:23:27.240
much more con spreading through your body. Your mind be

2275
07:23:29.040 --> 07:23:46.200
so peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in avery

2276
07:23:46.720 --> 07:24:01.119
part of your body, letting go of everything and everything

2277
07:24:04.759 --> 07:24:27.159
so peaceful, cal so relax very second aposis. You feel.

2278
07:24:29.159 --> 07:24:48.119
Dper DPA relaxed, dper and dper relax.

2279
07:24:50.479 --> 07:25:09.479
Call so calm beece fall so very peace from your

2280
07:25:09.799 --> 07:25:22.119
head down to your ties, such peace and comfort throwing

2281
07:25:22.599 --> 07:25:36.319
all all the time, such peace and comfort spreading through

2282
07:25:36.959 --> 07:25:52.959
your body and mind deepper deeper, such comfort, spreading and

2283
07:25:53.400 --> 07:26:04.959
sinking deeper to airy muscle your body so that you

2284
07:26:05.400 --> 07:26:17.959
feel amazing, so relaxed, so piece, so.

2285
07:26:22.680 --> 07:26:24.880
So relaxed.

2286
07:26:28.040 --> 07:26:44.439
And peace. Letting go everything to do a body scan,

2287
07:26:46.240 --> 07:26:52.599
focusing on firstly how you feel in your body, not

2288
07:26:52.759 --> 07:26:58.200
trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2289
07:26:59.439 --> 07:27:04.439
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2290
07:27:04.639 --> 07:27:12.080
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2291
07:27:13.080 --> 07:27:18.000
in the different parts of your body, just allowing yourself

2292
07:27:19.400 --> 07:27:26.840
to be exactly as you are, to notice, to get

2293
07:27:26.919 --> 07:27:35.560
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2294
07:27:38.919 --> 07:27:45.520
I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

2295
07:27:50.119 --> 07:27:57.840
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

2296
07:27:58.040 --> 07:28:03.000
move your hands around, just maybe move your fingers a

2297
07:28:03.080 --> 07:28:09.439
little bit. I've been and closing your hands very gently,

2298
07:28:11.080 --> 07:28:16.759
just so that you can get in touch with how

2299
07:28:16.880 --> 07:28:31.080
your hands and your fingers fell, very very slow movements.

2300
07:28:39.479 --> 07:28:47.240
Focusing now on your feet, and if you can just

2301
07:28:47.400 --> 07:28:52.759
do kind of an equivalent with your feet you've just

2302
07:28:53.040 --> 07:29:01.240
done with your hands. Maybe turn in your ankles, moving

2303
07:29:01.319 --> 07:29:13.119
your feet around, moving your toes gently, only very gently

2304
07:29:13.400 --> 07:29:25.319
and very slowly, noticing how your feet feel in this moment.

2305
07:29:32.240 --> 07:29:38.400
Focusing now on your eyes, I'd like you to just

2306
07:29:40.040 --> 07:29:45.840
focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close

2307
07:29:45.919 --> 07:29:50.119
your eyes a couple of times to really get in

2308
07:29:50.319 --> 07:29:54.439
touch with how you feel. When you do close your eyes.

2309
07:29:56.560 --> 07:30:03.000
The muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them,

2310
07:30:05.840 --> 07:30:12.200
maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches the tops of your eyes,

2311
07:30:15.439 --> 07:30:23.880
perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes just so

2312
07:30:24.000 --> 07:30:32.400
you can hear it again, touch with all aspects of

2313
07:30:33.599 --> 07:30:52.639
how your eyes feel right now. Now focusing on your thighs,

2314
07:30:55.040 --> 07:30:59.279
then it just starts you to gently tense your thighs,

2315
07:31:00.639 --> 07:31:10.479
just very very gently, just enough so you can become

2316
07:31:12.080 --> 07:31:23.119
more achieved to the physical sensation of your upper legs,

2317
07:31:25.360 --> 07:31:28.520
the front of your thighs, and the backs of your thigh.

2318
07:31:33.080 --> 07:31:52.479
Noticing and observing how your thighs feel right now, moving

2319
07:31:52.720 --> 07:32:01.159
your focus to the back of your neck, just noticing

2320
07:32:01.319 --> 07:32:07.360
the back of your neck the muscles, and of course

2321
07:32:07.520 --> 07:32:11.840
they lead to the side of your neck. They also

2322
07:32:12.119 --> 07:32:16.959
lead to the top of your back, which leads to

2323
07:32:17.040 --> 07:32:22.560
your shoulders. So as you focus on the back of

2324
07:32:22.680 --> 07:32:30.040
your neck, maybe you can move your head gently upwards

2325
07:32:31.200 --> 07:32:37.200
as if you're looking up, maybe moving your head down

2326
07:32:38.639 --> 07:32:44.639
as if you were looking down, perhaps moving your head

2327
07:32:44.840 --> 07:32:54.360
side to side, right to left, but only very slowly,

2328
07:32:56.840 --> 07:33:05.080
very gently. I'm not trying to force anything. It has

2329
07:33:05.279 --> 07:33:15.959
to be very very gentle, just so you can be

2330
07:33:17.080 --> 07:33:27.599
more in touch with the feelings, with the sensations of

2331
07:33:27.759 --> 07:33:36.919
the physical sensations of how the back of your neck feels.

2332
07:33:38.720 --> 07:33:54.080
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2333
07:33:54.200 --> 07:33:59.919
your arms, the parts where your biceps and you try

2334
07:34:00.119 --> 07:34:08.599
steps between your elbow and your shoulders to focus on

2335
07:34:08.880 --> 07:34:16.040
those parts. On tops of your arms, you may like

2336
07:34:16.159 --> 07:34:25.680
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

2337
07:34:28.240 --> 07:34:38.040
so you're straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

2338
07:34:40.759 --> 07:34:48.119
It's just solely you can gain more of a sense

2339
07:34:48.400 --> 07:34:58.840
of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment,

2340
07:35:02.240 --> 07:35:14.840
just noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly tighten

2341
07:35:15.080 --> 07:35:25.880
the muscles and then let go. Notice how the tops

2342
07:35:26.000 --> 07:35:44.680
of your arms feel right now, as now focus on

2343
07:35:44.880 --> 07:35:52.360
your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area below your

2344
07:35:52.439 --> 07:36:01.040
belly button, moving all the way down to your hips,

2345
07:36:02.159 --> 07:36:13.400
just above your grind. Maybe you're able to tense these

2346
07:36:13.599 --> 07:36:31.200
muscles in the area very very gently, and slowly. If

2347
07:36:31.319 --> 07:36:35.680
that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can just

2348
07:36:37.000 --> 07:36:46.400
move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a

2349
07:36:46.479 --> 07:36:52.200
little bit to a side, using your hips, just so

2350
07:36:53.959 --> 07:37:03.080
get more in tune with hell your lower abdomen area

2351
07:37:06.919 --> 07:37:08.959
is feeling.

2352
07:37:11.319 --> 07:37:20.520
In this moment. Just noticing.

2353
07:37:21.439 --> 07:37:42.040
The physical sensations or your lower abdomen as you move

2354
07:37:44.000 --> 07:37:57.040
your attention to your mouth, notice in your lips and

2355
07:37:57.319 --> 07:38:15.159
inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue, Just

2356
07:38:15.479 --> 07:38:24.080
noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It may

2357
07:38:24.319 --> 07:38:33.000
help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving it

2358
07:38:33.560 --> 07:38:40.959
to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the side

2359
07:38:41.119 --> 07:38:47.360
of your mouth, and then to the right, gently to

2360
07:38:47.560 --> 07:38:54.159
the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against the

2361
07:38:55.479 --> 07:39:02.279
top of your mouth, and then down gently against the

2362
07:39:02.400 --> 07:39:13.520
bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a very

2363
07:39:16.159 --> 07:39:33.159
very gentle so that you can be aware of how

2364
07:39:33.400 --> 07:39:56.040
you feel in your mouth area. Now going to focus

2365
07:39:58.319 --> 07:40:13.040
on your wrists, and I ask you to maybe just

2366
07:40:14.240 --> 07:40:22.720
routine your wrists by moving your hands in a circular

2367
07:40:23.119 --> 07:40:48.000
motion very gently and slowly, just soly can feel the

2368
07:40:48.200 --> 07:41:05.360
sensations that you are currently experiencing in your wrists. Perhaps

2369
07:41:05.599 --> 07:41:14.840
move in your hands up and down the game very

2370
07:41:17.479 --> 07:41:53.840
very champney and slowly, very che soul and slow beat

2371
07:41:53.919 --> 07:42:10.639
with Now start to observe your lower back. The bad

2372
07:42:11.000 --> 07:42:21.439
part is just above your hips where your coxis are

2373
07:42:29.000 --> 07:42:35.080
a whole area which also really does include the signs

2374
07:42:36.040 --> 07:42:41.560
of your body because those muscles are very much connected.

2375
07:42:46.799 --> 07:42:53.840
There's those muscles also move into your hip aia connecting

2376
07:42:54.080 --> 07:43:09.000
to your buttocks the sides of your hip, and if

2377
07:43:09.040 --> 07:43:18.479
you're physically able to do so, maybe you can very

2378
07:43:18.799 --> 07:43:34.000
gently just move your body eviss slightly, very slowly some

2379
07:43:34.439 --> 07:43:51.959
side decide just enough yeah, to e gauge how you

2380
07:43:52.240 --> 07:44:10.279
feel in your lower back, perhaps sickly. Move your hips

2381
07:44:10.639 --> 07:44:29.040
gently up and down, gently and slowly in order's be

2382
07:44:29.560 --> 07:44:38.880
in touch with the physical sensations of your lower back.

2383
07:44:55.959 --> 07:44:56.639
As we know.

2384
07:44:57.080 --> 07:45:13.119
Move your attention to your jaw an area for your chin,

2385
07:45:14.360 --> 07:45:18.479
all the way up to near where your ears are.

2386
07:45:21.639 --> 07:45:37.959
All your jaw you can just it's okay to do so.

2387
07:45:39.880 --> 07:45:50.400
Gently open your mouth, no wide, no stretcher, just very

2388
07:45:51.159 --> 07:46:07.119
gently and slowly opening your mouth, closing your mouth gently

2389
07:46:10.159 --> 07:46:33.959
slowly so you can pin touch. But how your jaw feels.

2390
07:46:37.400 --> 07:47:19.520
Now I have to sit down the chest area You

2391
07:47:19.599 --> 07:47:27.319
don't need to do anything to move your chest because

2392
07:47:27.360 --> 07:47:38.599
it moves every time we breathe. It moves very gently

2393
07:47:40.479 --> 07:47:57.720
and slowly automatically with each breath you take as you

2394
07:47:58.200 --> 07:48:45.520
focus on your chest fields when you breathe, move in

2395
07:48:45.720 --> 07:49:00.880
your focus to your forms, your elbows. Maybe you're able

2396
07:49:01.319 --> 07:49:05.919
to very gently.

2397
07:49:07.319 --> 07:49:09.439
And slowly.

2398
07:49:11.200 --> 07:49:19.759
Tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2399
07:49:20.240 --> 07:49:43.799
you can feel your elbows as well. Very gently and slowly,

2400
07:49:52.240 --> 07:50:12.880
gently and softly ob saving your forearms and del bas

2401
07:50:23.439 --> 07:50:46.599
the focus the rest of your back, your upper back

2402
07:50:51.119 --> 07:51:08.560
and the middle the middle of your back. Again, this

2403
07:51:09.200 --> 07:51:19.319
part of your body moves also every time you pray.

2404
07:51:24.279 --> 07:51:37.880
You may not notice that usually makes you observe your

2405
07:51:38.080 --> 07:51:45.279
upper back. In the middle of your back. You can

2406
07:51:45.560 --> 07:52:46.319
really feel that gentle and moving your focus to your area.

2407
07:52:49.880 --> 07:53:02.560
Butte broy there's muscles and those bones in your midsection.

2408
07:53:30.159 --> 07:53:50.159
Just noticing how your hips feel right now, you can

2409
07:53:52.680 --> 07:54:06.319
very very gently leave your hips maybe sighed the side

2410
07:54:07.680 --> 07:55:01.479
and gently sor yeah, Harry, chadly softly. It's everything starts

2411
07:55:01.799 --> 07:55:17.200
to slow down, including the thoughts in your mind, and

2412
07:55:17.319 --> 07:55:27.400
your mind itself just starts to gradually. It doesn't have

2413
07:55:27.520 --> 07:55:35.279
to be instant, but just gradually starting too. It's almost

2414
07:55:35.400 --> 07:55:46.520
like time is storing chin. It's a slower pace to

2415
07:55:46.759 --> 07:55:52.400
maybe what you're used to in your day to day life.

2416
07:55:55.560 --> 07:56:22.520
It's a slower movement of energy, very small movements which

2417
07:56:22.639 --> 07:56:30.759
make up the larger movements, which is always the case. Now,

2418
07:56:30.840 --> 07:56:35.400
when you move your hand, it might seem like it's

2419
07:56:35.520 --> 07:56:41.240
one movement, but it's lots of minute different muscles moving

2420
07:56:43.400 --> 07:56:52.360
in accordance with each other. And what happens in this

2421
07:56:54.279 --> 07:57:09.080
space that we're sharing is we move from that big.

2422
07:57:13.520 --> 07:57:25.119
Movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on.

2423
07:57:30.439 --> 07:57:36.680
How your body feels, not just as a whole, not

2424
07:57:36.959 --> 07:57:41.439
just oh, i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed

2425
07:57:41.639 --> 07:57:47.319
or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling

2426
07:57:47.479 --> 07:57:54.200
this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that

2427
07:57:54.360 --> 07:58:08.360
your body begins to present to you small feelings around

2428
07:58:08.439 --> 07:58:26.159
your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable

2429
07:58:27.400 --> 07:58:41.360
or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or

2430
07:58:41.439 --> 07:58:49.240
to judge them those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about

2431
07:58:49.279 --> 07:59:05.479
them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned,

2432
07:59:06.639 --> 07:59:22.000
but just noticing what your body is telling you feelings

2433
07:59:22.040 --> 07:59:28.360
in your arms instead of feeling the whole of the arm.

2434
07:59:29.799 --> 07:59:39.000
Maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

2435
07:59:43.159 --> 07:59:52.360
the skin, the hairs of your arms, all the internal

2436
07:59:52.479 --> 08:00:08.639
parts of your arms, the veins, the bones, just being

2437
08:00:08.680 --> 08:00:17.520
aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm has

2438
08:00:17.599 --> 08:00:28.959
a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has its

2439
08:00:29.040 --> 08:00:49.759
own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm on your

2440
08:00:49.880 --> 08:01:02.200
right arm, your right forearm, and may not be any

2441
08:01:02.720 --> 08:01:09.959
particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2442
08:01:13.720 --> 08:01:18.080
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

2443
08:01:19.000 --> 08:01:31.080
You know, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders. Perhaps

2444
08:01:31.119 --> 08:01:34.880
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

2445
08:01:35.080 --> 08:01:41.759
like they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost

2446
08:01:41.880 --> 08:01:46.560
like both of your shoulders are just one thing. Of

2447
08:01:46.720 --> 08:01:57.919
course they're not. And when you focus on your left

2448
08:01:57.959 --> 08:02:06.119
shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find that

2449
08:02:06.279 --> 08:02:11.599
you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense the

2450
08:02:11.759 --> 08:02:37.799
muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder. Your lower back,

2451
08:02:50.680 --> 08:02:54.400
the left side of your lower back and the right

2452
08:02:54.639 --> 08:03:05.599
side of your lower back, of course that connection to

2453
08:03:05.720 --> 08:03:18.200
your buttocks and to your hips, and also moving up

2454
08:03:18.959 --> 08:03:32.200
into the middle of your back and sometimes like right now,

2455
08:03:32.319 --> 08:03:37.119
actually when I focus on their part, when I focused

2456
08:03:37.159 --> 08:03:43.040
on my buttocks and then I focused on the middle

2457
08:03:43.080 --> 08:03:45.959
of my back, I almost felt like the muscles in

2458
08:03:46.040 --> 08:03:56.080
my lower back were being stretched very gently, just stretched

2459
08:03:56.159 --> 08:04:02.680
a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing anything to

2460
08:04:04.080 --> 08:04:09.840
try to stretch your lower back, you just seemed to happen.

2461
08:04:11.040 --> 08:04:28.639
The feeling of very gently stretching your lower back comes along.

2462
08:04:32.360 --> 08:04:55.639
I have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations

2463
08:04:57.279 --> 08:05:14.919
you are experiencing in your chest right now. And there's

2464
08:05:15.000 --> 08:05:18.759
so much of the chest of obviously there's the collar

2465
08:05:18.880 --> 08:05:22.639
bone leading to the chest. You've got the chest bone,

2466
08:05:25.919 --> 08:05:33.720
You've got the muscles in your chest. Of course, if

2467
08:05:33.759 --> 08:05:41.880
you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If you're male, you've

2468
08:05:41.959 --> 08:05:48.279
got the different well my not that different these days,

2469
08:05:48.319 --> 08:05:55.439
but there may be more muscles at the top of

2470
08:05:55.520 --> 08:06:03.159
the chest, but at the sight underneath, it's pretty much

2471
08:06:03.240 --> 08:06:06.680
the same. Whether you're a man or a woman. There's

2472
08:06:06.799 --> 08:06:13.599
muscles there, muscles that stretch out to your back as

2473
08:06:13.639 --> 08:06:17.479
well as breast tissue stretches and moves into your back.

2474
08:06:22.360 --> 08:06:41.319
To just being aware of your chest being with whatever

2475
08:06:41.599 --> 08:07:01.159
feeling there is in your chest. When I noticed that,

2476
08:07:01.919 --> 08:07:10.080
I focused on my chest. I feel it in my back,

2477
08:07:10.400 --> 08:07:14.479
my upper back. I mean, I guess the obvious reason

2478
08:07:14.520 --> 08:07:24.560
would be because you know, I'm greath in in and

2479
08:07:24.720 --> 08:07:28.279
it stretches my chest and my back at the same time.

2480
08:07:36.200 --> 08:07:51.759
It feels it feels okay, it doesn't feel a little

2481
08:07:51.799 --> 08:07:58.200
bit of pain in my right chest, A little bit

2482
08:07:58.360 --> 08:08:03.880
not pain, but a little this comfort, maybe stiffness, possibly,

2483
08:08:04.439 --> 08:08:13.560
I don't know. I notice my shoulders also wanting to

2484
08:08:15.919 --> 08:08:20.599
flex for some reason. I think that's probably part of

2485
08:08:20.759 --> 08:08:29.720
my upper back, that connection between my shoulders my upper back,

2486
08:08:31.639 --> 08:08:35.599
so I can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles

2487
08:08:36.360 --> 08:08:44.560
in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up, which

2488
08:08:44.680 --> 08:08:50.720
then moves I think it's the scapulous in your back.

2489
08:09:00.759 --> 08:09:08.400
It feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this

2490
08:09:08.720 --> 08:09:13.520
is you can, if you want to, you can just

2491
08:09:17.040 --> 08:09:28.759
flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

2492
08:09:30.200 --> 08:09:33.680
in order to get more of a sense of how

2493
08:09:33.759 --> 08:09:48.639
they feel. And when you're relaxing. When you do tense

2494
08:09:48.720 --> 08:09:52.680
and muscle and you let it go and you let

2495
08:09:52.720 --> 08:10:01.720
it relax, it relaxes way more then it would normally

2496
08:10:06.680 --> 08:10:11.919
that you have to feel that you're able to do that,

2497
08:10:13.560 --> 08:10:17.319
there's no point in doing it if there's an issue

2498
08:10:19.240 --> 08:10:24.720
with the per part of your body. You need to

2499
08:10:24.799 --> 08:10:35.240
be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply.

2500
08:10:38.240 --> 08:10:53.479
It's important to be kind to yourself. As you notice

2501
08:10:53.680 --> 08:11:04.759
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

2502
08:11:04.840 --> 08:11:31.240
we started this recording. How came and peaceful is your

2503
08:11:31.319 --> 08:11:43.439
mind right now? We have nothing to think about and

2504
08:11:43.759 --> 08:11:51.159
just my voice to listen to. Because you know the

2505
08:11:51.360 --> 08:12:02.080
intention behind this recording, this relaxation. At the very least,

2506
08:12:03.639 --> 08:12:08.200
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

2507
08:12:08.400 --> 08:12:17.240
recording than you did at the beginning, at the very least,

2508
08:12:21.400 --> 08:12:30.400
for your mind to slow down as your body continues

2509
08:12:32.439 --> 08:12:49.000
to relax, because that's what you want to happen. That's

2510
08:12:49.159 --> 08:13:10.319
what you expect to happen, For relaxation to fill your body,

2511
08:13:18.560 --> 08:13:23.680
maybe calm in your mind to the point of boredom

2512
08:13:27.240 --> 08:14:11.040
when you start maybe to drift away. Drifting it's almost

2513
08:14:11.319 --> 08:14:20.520
as if you're moving further away from your body in

2514
08:14:20.599 --> 08:14:34.040
your mind, just leaving that there, kind of liking it.

2515
08:14:34.520 --> 08:14:40.439
An escape pod and a spaceship a movie, a space movie.

2516
08:14:40.520 --> 08:14:42.360
You know when they get into a little pod in

2517
08:14:42.439 --> 08:15:00.840
it since the month far away from the spaceship Safe three,

2518
08:15:09.720 --> 08:16:42.599
continue to relax, drifting so slow and peace and peace,

2519
08:17:03.840 --> 08:17:18.279
and focusing on that feeling of those individual parts of

2520
08:17:18.400 --> 08:17:34.880
your body that are relaxing. One by one. You may

2521
08:17:36.720 --> 08:17:50.439
find that every now and then you realize that you

2522
08:17:50.599 --> 08:17:59.200
weren't listening to my voice because your mind started to

2523
08:17:59.400 --> 08:18:14.680
imagine something different, maybe started to almost move into some

2524
08:18:15.000 --> 08:18:23.439
kind of a dreamy state. And then you become aware

2525
08:18:23.639 --> 08:18:32.880
of my voice again. And even though you may want

2526
08:18:33.080 --> 08:18:38.000
to focus on my voice, you may also wish to

2527
08:18:40.520 --> 08:18:52.119
allow your mind to just drift naturally into that space

2528
08:18:52.400 --> 08:19:16.400
of comfort and safety. As you feel more comfort spreading

2529
08:19:16.759 --> 08:19:29.520
through your body like a warm blanket covering you gently,

2530
08:19:33.520 --> 08:19:51.639
keeping your body it just the perfect temperature, and even

2531
08:19:51.799 --> 08:20:03.799
if you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem

2532
08:20:03.959 --> 08:20:20.680
to matter anymore. There's that sense of peace spreads through

2533
08:20:20.799 --> 08:20:34.439
your mind like a gentle breeze. Yeah, strong enough to

2534
08:20:34.639 --> 08:20:50.880
blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove from your

2535
08:20:51.040 --> 08:21:08.840
mind any anxiety or stress that was there before, and

2536
08:21:09.119 --> 08:21:19.840
blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just don't

2537
08:21:20.159 --> 08:21:44.360
fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your body

2538
08:21:49.439 --> 08:22:06.880
end your mind. And as you focus on your mind

2539
08:22:09.080 --> 08:22:15.000
and countdown from ten down to one, and with each

2540
08:22:15.599 --> 08:22:40.639
number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2541
08:22:43.400 --> 08:22:51.759
just just slightly so. From ten down to nine, just

2542
08:22:51.880 --> 08:22:59.159
a slight movement. From nine down to eight, just another

2543
08:23:01.080 --> 08:23:15.840
small change in how you feel. Eight down to seven,

2544
08:23:18.599 --> 08:23:24.040
That feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that

2545
08:23:24.400 --> 08:23:34.040
starts to get wider, the gap between those feelings that

2546
08:23:34.279 --> 08:23:41.159
you used to have in your mind compared to the

2547
08:23:41.360 --> 08:23:48.880
feelings you have there growing now, feelings of comfort and

2548
08:23:49.159 --> 08:24:00.799
security and confidence. And that gap becomes wider. Eight down

2549
08:24:00.919 --> 08:24:07.720
to seven, seven down to six, And when you get

2550
08:24:07.799 --> 08:24:14.840
to five, your mind will start to have a certain

2551
08:24:16.240 --> 08:24:27.799
physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of your

2552
08:24:27.919 --> 08:24:34.720
head sucking the tension and the stress and any remaining

2553
08:24:35.840 --> 08:24:42.200
feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2554
08:24:48.000 --> 08:24:53.119
And in down to four you could start to really

2555
08:24:53.720 --> 08:25:06.720
experience that sense of not just empty but space, a

2556
08:25:06.919 --> 08:25:15.639
place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

2557
08:25:19.159 --> 08:25:21.799
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2558
08:25:22.599 --> 08:25:31.400
and three, your mind is expanding, with this sense of

2559
08:25:32.080 --> 08:25:44.279
peace and tranquility growing as it moved down to When

2560
08:25:44.319 --> 08:25:53.319
you get to one, in your mind just feels exactly

2561
08:25:53.520 --> 08:26:09.959
how you want to feel, almost perfect feeling, maybe a

2562
08:26:13.080 --> 08:26:22.159
sensation that you'd like to keep a place that's safe,

2563
08:26:23.159 --> 08:26:43.439
where nothing can affect you at all, and you can

2564
08:26:43.639 --> 08:26:52.799
stay in that that space of comfort, confidence, confident in

2565
08:26:52.919 --> 08:27:01.040
your own ability to create this space and this fearing

2566
08:27:01.319 --> 08:27:08.279
of comfort within your own mind just by counting ten

2567
08:27:10.080 --> 08:27:17.200
down to one. And this is something that you can

2568
08:27:17.319 --> 08:27:26.400
do yourself when you're on your own a time when

2569
08:27:26.479 --> 08:27:30.479
you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a few minutes,

2570
08:27:35.080 --> 08:27:46.639
close your eyes, just count slowly from ten down to one,

2571
08:27:51.119 --> 08:28:03.720
and the re experience these feelings in your mind. And

2572
08:28:03.840 --> 08:28:08.439
when you feel that way in your mind, your body

2573
08:28:11.360 --> 08:28:23.000
copies your mind, and that feeling it's spread through your

2574
08:28:23.919 --> 08:28:30.599
spine and your nervous system into every part of your body,

2575
08:28:32.680 --> 08:28:46.880
travels through your blood strain, heathing and relaxing every particle

2576
08:28:47.040 --> 08:29:04.400
of your existence. And we can practice this a few

2577
08:29:04.520 --> 08:29:12.400
times before the end of the recording, and then you

2578
08:29:12.520 --> 08:29:19.919
can practice on your own, and each time you count

2579
08:29:20.040 --> 08:29:31.279
from ten down to one, the feelings of comfort, calmness,

2580
08:29:32.520 --> 08:29:51.599
deep deep relaxation become stronger and deeper feeling your mind

2581
08:29:51.959 --> 08:30:01.840
and your brain with these positive chemicals bread throughout your body,

2582
08:30:03.400 --> 08:30:12.080
relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body and mind

2583
08:30:15.040 --> 08:30:28.080
so very very easily, just by counting from ten down

2584
08:30:28.159 --> 08:30:36.080
to one. So we're going to do it now. I'm

2585
08:30:36.119 --> 08:30:40.080
going to count from ten down to one. I'd like

2586
08:30:40.240 --> 08:30:44.439
you to repeat the number after me. So when I

2587
08:30:44.599 --> 08:30:59.439
say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten. Just notice,

2588
08:31:00.119 --> 08:31:08.840
be aware of how you feel in your mind, in

2589
08:31:08.959 --> 08:31:18.360
your body, and when I say nine, you can repeat

2590
08:31:19.560 --> 08:31:34.880
to yourself nine. Became noticing the increase in comfort and

2591
08:31:37.200 --> 08:31:48.200
calmness in your mind and in your body, the same

2592
08:31:48.479 --> 08:31:59.759
when I say eight, when I say seven, six, when

2593
08:31:59.799 --> 08:32:18.439
I say five, four, when I say three, two, and

2594
08:32:18.639 --> 08:32:32.200
lastly when I say one, you can beat that number. Now,

2595
08:32:32.319 --> 08:32:37.880
of course, when you do this on your own without

2596
08:32:38.000 --> 08:32:43.000
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2597
08:32:44.599 --> 08:32:53.080
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2598
08:32:53.200 --> 08:32:59.159
can adapt. So you feel you want to say the

2599
08:32:59.319 --> 08:33:06.840
numbers ten down to one faster than I do, then

2600
08:33:06.880 --> 08:33:09.759
you go ahead and do that. Or if you feel

2601
08:33:10.639 --> 08:33:13.720
when you do it yourself, then you'd like to have

2602
08:33:14.319 --> 08:33:23.000
more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot longer

2603
08:33:24.240 --> 08:33:30.119
to get from ten all the way down to one.

2604
08:33:34.319 --> 08:33:46.840
That's your choice also to do. So I'm going to

2605
08:33:47.040 --> 08:33:55.200
count from ten down to one, and I want to

2606
08:33:55.240 --> 08:34:02.680
get to one. That will be the end of this recording. Let's,

2607
08:34:02.720 --> 08:34:07.319
of course you're listening with music and the musicle continue

2608
08:34:14.959 --> 08:39:18.000
two No. Eight fus twenty ninety eighty seventeen, sixteen fifteen, fourteen,

2609
08:39:22.000 --> 08:40:07.919
thirty twelve eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2610
08:40:12.240 --> 08:40:40.520
three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

2611
08:40:40.639 --> 08:40:49.000
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing

2612
08:40:49.799 --> 08:40:54.240
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toast.

2613
08:40:55.799 --> 08:41:00.520
And as you focus on your fingertips they feel a

2614
08:41:00.560 --> 08:41:07.959
little bit tingling, which is I suppose quite understanding considering

2615
08:41:08.040 --> 08:41:12.479
the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2616
08:41:18.959 --> 08:41:20.959
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2617
08:41:21.080 --> 08:41:28.319
one again. This time you're going to feel relief of

2618
08:41:28.479 --> 08:41:39.200
tension and stress, any anxiety that you may have leaving

2619
08:41:41.439 --> 08:41:47.400
through your stomach, just leaving through your stomach, almost as

2620
08:41:47.439 --> 08:41:54.080
if it's just releasing the hole of your stomach. You'll

2621
08:41:54.200 --> 08:41:58.720
navel to just above your chest or below your chest,

2622
08:41:58.840 --> 08:42:03.400
rather so surrounding your belly by an area, the whole area.

2623
08:42:05.520 --> 08:42:10.119
You can feel the tension of your body where it's left,

2624
08:42:10.400 --> 08:42:15.680
just releasing from that area, and you may notice that

2625
08:42:15.840 --> 08:42:22.040
your stomach will become very relaxed. As my countdown from

2626
08:42:22.159 --> 08:43:55.319
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two,

2627
08:44:00.759 --> 08:44:07.799
or you can open your eyes again if you choose,

2628
08:44:08.360 --> 08:44:12.000
or you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

2629
08:44:14.319 --> 08:44:19.439
Just notice how your stomach feels. I notice as your focus,

2630
08:44:19.720 --> 08:44:25.080
just do a little scan of your body, just noticing

2631
08:44:25.200 --> 08:44:38.040
your body feels focusing upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2632
08:44:41.080 --> 08:44:48.000
just noticing, and you know, you may start to feel

2633
08:44:50.479 --> 08:44:54.279
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2634
08:44:54.400 --> 08:45:02.560
reason listening to this recording, because you like to let

2635
08:45:02.720 --> 08:45:14.319
go completely of everything and drift or into a nice natural, calm,

2636
08:45:14.680 --> 08:45:29.880
relaxing sleep. So now we have a focus on your forehead,

2637
08:45:33.799 --> 08:45:36.560
and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in

2638
08:45:36.720 --> 08:45:41.319
this focus as well. With your forehead and your eyes,

2639
08:45:43.439 --> 08:45:47.840
it's that whole area basically almost as if you were

2640
08:45:47.919 --> 08:45:51.880
wearing a mask, you know, like a I don't know,

2641
08:45:52.119 --> 08:45:59.080
batman mask or something, or I'm trying to sorrow or something.

2642
08:45:59.159 --> 08:46:01.240
You know, the kind of man that covers your eyes

2643
08:46:01.759 --> 08:46:08.240
but also covers quite a lot of the forehead. Focusing

2644
08:46:08.319 --> 08:46:10.919
on that area, because that's the area that we're now

2645
08:46:11.080 --> 08:46:17.759
going to release tension, stress from your mind, your brain,

2646
08:46:18.040 --> 08:46:21.639
from your mind, and any tension that you may have

2647
08:46:21.919 --> 08:46:26.000
remain in your face, in your neck, and your jaw,

2648
08:46:27.200 --> 08:46:33.360
in your eyes, your forehead, or your scalp. So basically,

2649
08:46:33.560 --> 08:46:39.400
any tension within your head area, including your mind and

2650
08:46:39.599 --> 08:46:47.200
your brain, and that's going to be released through your

2651
08:46:47.279 --> 08:46:54.240
forehead and your eyes. As I count down again from

2652
08:46:54.799 --> 08:47:59.560
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty, twelve, eleven, ten, nine,

2653
08:48:04.520 --> 08:48:51.040
eight seven six five W three one laici. As you

2654
08:48:51.319 --> 08:48:58.279
scan your face, but jaw, your eyes, the cheap ones,

2655
08:48:58.560 --> 08:49:07.959
your ears, your forehead, your scalp, your neck, back of

2656
08:49:08.040 --> 08:49:11.759
your neck and front of your neck, the side of

2657
08:49:11.880 --> 08:49:22.720
your neck, and your throat. Noticing being aware of the

2658
08:49:22.880 --> 08:49:34.240
comfort increased being relaxation, not just in your head and

2659
08:49:34.479 --> 08:49:44.520
neck and mind, also the rest of your body. Just

2660
08:49:44.799 --> 08:49:51.080
notice how loose and calm you film, and how easily

2661
08:49:53.319 --> 08:50:04.639
it is to just let go completely, let go completely,

2662
08:50:12.279 --> 08:50:24.319
how easely. So what we're gonna do about is to

2663
08:50:24.479 --> 08:50:32.159
focus on the top of your head, and we're going

2664
08:50:32.200 --> 08:50:41.040
to allow every last piece of tension or stress the

2665
08:50:41.240 --> 08:50:47.240
mind be lingering or hiding in your body, your mind,

2666
08:50:47.959 --> 08:50:54.799
my head to just be sucked down at the top

2667
08:50:54.840 --> 08:51:04.799
of your head, released into the air. It was sucked

2668
08:51:04.840 --> 08:51:11.279
down into the clouds. Imagine a big cloud above your head.

2669
08:51:13.240 --> 08:51:17.119
It was like a whirlpool. It's just gonna suck that

2670
08:51:17.279 --> 08:51:23.720
at tension out of the top of your head. Just

2671
08:51:23.880 --> 08:51:33.200
take her away. Good to focus. Imagine an opening at

2672
08:51:33.240 --> 08:51:37.680
the top of your head with that tension and stress

2673
08:51:37.799 --> 08:51:43.040
and in remaining issues maybe worries of con sads that

2674
08:51:43.200 --> 08:51:46.959
are no use to you. Now you can all be

2675
08:51:47.240 --> 08:51:50.880
sucked down at the top of your head. You have

2676
08:51:51.080 --> 08:51:57.400
taken away. As I count down again, I'm twenty down

2677
08:51:57.599 --> 08:52:51.319
to one now, twenty ninety, eighteen seventy, sixteen fifty Fourteeneen

2678
08:52:57.279 --> 08:54:11.159
twelve eleven nine, eight seven, six five four three war breath.

2679
08:54:16.240 --> 08:54:29.720
Noticing how you feel, how relaxed and calm you physically

2680
08:54:30.759 --> 08:54:44.560
and mentally feel right now, how peaceful your mind feels.

2681
08:54:47.200 --> 08:54:52.400
It feels so nice to just let go, to give

2682
08:54:52.439 --> 08:55:06.639
yourself some space to breathe easily, think calmly, just to

2683
08:55:06.759 --> 08:55:14.159
take a break from all that pointless worry concerns about

2684
08:55:14.319 --> 08:55:21.040
things that you don't need to think about right now,

2685
08:55:23.840 --> 08:55:29.599
because this is your time to let go. This is

2686
08:55:29.720 --> 08:55:39.959
your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind,

2687
08:55:41.200 --> 08:55:50.520
relaxed in your body. They can feel so good, so

2688
08:55:51.119 --> 08:55:59.400
nice to just not have to do anything, to be

2689
08:55:59.560 --> 08:56:10.240
able to really enjoy that serenity that comes of letting

2690
08:56:10.360 --> 08:56:23.840
go completely, that peacefulness that comes with being in this

2691
08:56:25.680 --> 08:56:35.759
peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2692
08:56:36.599 --> 08:56:47.720
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

2693
08:56:47.959 --> 08:56:55.159
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you

2694
08:56:55.279 --> 08:57:06.479
can do that. It's called completely up to you, and

2695
08:57:06.759 --> 08:57:11.279
you can keep this feeling of calmness physically and in

2696
08:57:11.400 --> 08:57:17.200
your mind for as long as you choose to feel

2697
08:57:17.439 --> 08:57:32.959
completely relaxed, completely relax And I'd like you to make

2698
08:57:33.119 --> 08:57:46.680
up your mind that you're going to relax, and I

2699
08:57:46.799 --> 08:57:50.040
want to explore that with you. What it feels like

2700
08:57:50.279 --> 08:57:58.560
when you actually decide that you're going to relax, not

2701
08:57:58.840 --> 08:58:06.040
forcing yourself, but giving yourself that yes, it is a command, really,

2702
08:58:06.119 --> 08:58:13.040
isn't it When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

2703
08:58:13.159 --> 08:58:20.200
but firm way, that only you can really tell yourself

2704
08:58:20.639 --> 08:58:23.520
in that way. You can't really have someone else saying

2705
08:58:23.560 --> 08:58:28.439
to you and now it relax, relax, you know, and

2706
08:58:29.599 --> 08:58:31.880
it needs to be gentle, But you can't someone else

2707
08:58:31.919 --> 08:58:40.000
can't really have the same the same kind of influence

2708
08:58:41.159 --> 08:58:49.319
or power that you have over your own physicality, over

2709
08:58:49.520 --> 08:58:58.759
how you feel, because when you say it to yourself,

2710
08:59:00.080 --> 08:59:07.000
it means more. It's personal, and your brain and your

2711
08:59:07.439 --> 08:59:14.479
unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say. So,

2712
08:59:14.799 --> 08:59:18.560
for example, we'll test it out and do a little test,

2713
08:59:18.720 --> 08:59:22.319
a few little tests along the way, and you can

2714
08:59:22.439 --> 08:59:28.720
get more of an idea of the force, a positive

2715
08:59:28.919 --> 08:59:35.319
force that you can have in creating a sense of

2716
08:59:35.639 --> 08:59:40.599
comfort and relaxation in your body and your mind quite

2717
08:59:40.720 --> 08:59:53.439
quickly just by you telling yourself to relax. So I'm

2718
08:59:53.479 --> 09:00:00.639
going to start by's focus on your hands, to focus

2719
09:00:00.720 --> 09:00:03.360
on your hands, and just tell your hands to relax,

2720
09:00:04.360 --> 09:00:09.279
and just say relax. As you focus on your hands,

2721
09:00:11.520 --> 09:00:16.080
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want

2722
09:00:16.119 --> 09:00:20.439
my hands to relax. I think if you actually do

2723
09:00:20.520 --> 09:00:28.560
it directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can

2724
09:00:28.799 --> 09:00:31.439
hear what you're saying. You know, they've got little ears,

2725
09:00:32.200 --> 09:00:37.360
which is a little weird. So talking to your hands

2726
09:00:38.080 --> 09:01:06.919
and just say relax, nodicin now your hands start to relax. Now,

2727
09:01:07.080 --> 09:01:10.279
focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

2728
09:01:11.479 --> 09:01:16.119
You just say in the same word relax and find

2729
09:01:16.200 --> 09:01:23.840
the right tone for you. You know, I might say relax,

2730
09:01:24.520 --> 09:01:32.639
but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

2731
09:01:32.959 --> 09:01:38.599
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

2732
09:01:39.479 --> 09:01:45.560
for you to gauge what feels right for you. To

2733
09:01:45.799 --> 09:01:50.959
just tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes,

2734
09:01:51.479 --> 09:01:56.200
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and

2735
09:01:56.439 --> 09:02:31.919
just tell your eyes directly relax now. Now. I just

2736
09:02:32.040 --> 09:02:42.319
did that myself, And sometimes you may feel that you

2737
09:02:42.520 --> 09:02:47.959
need a bit more time for the different parts to relax,

2738
09:02:48.799 --> 09:02:52.680
you know, because I start talking again and maybe that

2739
09:02:52.880 --> 09:02:56.479
part hasn't relaxed fully. But what will happen is it

2740
09:02:56.520 --> 09:03:01.159
will just continue to relax even though I'm talking. That's

2741
09:03:01.240 --> 09:03:08.840
happened with my eyes. Something else I noticed is when

2742
09:03:08.880 --> 09:03:13.000
I started focusing on my eyes. They actually almost became

2743
09:03:13.119 --> 09:03:15.279
they got worse before they got better in a way,

2744
09:03:16.000 --> 09:03:18.959
so that I felt a degree of tension growing in

2745
09:03:19.040 --> 09:03:24.840
my eyes and then disappearing. So I think what that

2746
09:03:25.119 --> 09:03:29.720
was really was just me becoming more aware of the

2747
09:03:29.959 --> 09:03:35.279
tension that was already there that I wasn't. I wasn't

2748
09:03:35.360 --> 09:03:40.400
focused on it before, so I wasn't really acknowledging it

2749
09:03:40.919 --> 09:03:57.439
or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is

2750
09:03:57.680 --> 09:04:01.200
still continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually,

2751
09:04:04.680 --> 09:04:10.080
my hands have got a certain kind of energy, like

2752
09:04:10.360 --> 09:04:15.479
not buzzing, but I can kind of feel a degree

2753
09:04:15.520 --> 09:04:21.479
of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension

2754
09:04:21.599 --> 09:04:33.560
is being released. Maybe that's causing that. The next part,

2755
09:04:33.680 --> 09:04:35.840
I think we should focus on the back of the neck.

2756
09:04:36.520 --> 09:04:41.720
That's a part is quite often well for me, holds tension.

2757
09:04:41.759 --> 09:04:44.560
I don't know about for yourself, but I think it's

2758
09:04:44.680 --> 09:04:51.000
quite a standard place where tension is sometimes held. So,

2759
09:04:53.119 --> 09:04:56.240
and I'm doing exactly what you're doing as you do

2760
09:04:56.360 --> 09:04:59.799
it as well, so I'm telling my body parts to

2761
09:05:00.080 --> 09:05:03.040
relax as well. So if you tell your neck the

2762
09:05:03.159 --> 09:05:05.720
back of your neck, focus on the back of your

2763
09:05:05.799 --> 09:05:12.840
neck and just say relax in your own words, in

2764
09:05:12.919 --> 09:05:16.159
your own tone, in your own voice. You can say

2765
09:05:16.240 --> 09:05:20.119
out loud, or you can just say it to yourself internally.

2766
09:05:21.000 --> 09:05:25.520
But you're focusing and you're saying it literally to the

2767
09:05:25.599 --> 09:05:28.360
back of your neck, as if the back of your

2768
09:05:28.439 --> 09:05:35.360
neck can actually hear what you're saying. So do that now,

2769
09:05:35.599 --> 09:05:39.799
Just say relax so the back of your neck and

2770
09:05:39.959 --> 09:06:21.519
I'll do the same. Now, what I noticed, and you

2771
09:06:21.760 --> 09:06:26.360
may have had similar thing is, even though I was

2772
09:06:26.480 --> 09:06:35.199
focusing on the back of my neck, other parts started to,

2773
09:06:38.199 --> 09:06:41.839
I don't know, show themselves to me, or maybe because

2774
09:06:41.879 --> 09:06:44.760
they want to be relaxed as well. But I started

2775
09:06:44.959 --> 09:06:49.040
noticing the feelings in my shoulders, tension in my shoulders,

2776
09:06:49.360 --> 09:06:56.080
and in my upper back. Whether that was because my

2777
09:06:56.639 --> 09:07:00.480
back of my neck was saying I'm pretty much okay.

2778
09:07:02.080 --> 09:07:11.360
It's the other parts that need attention, But my low

2779
09:07:11.440 --> 09:07:15.360
of my back of my neck is still relaxing. But

2780
09:07:15.440 --> 09:07:22.440
I just became more aware of other parts that needed attention. Now,

2781
09:07:22.519 --> 09:07:27.440
this might happen, and it's not. It doesn't mean that

2782
09:07:27.519 --> 09:07:32.040
it's going wrong. It just means you're being notified of

2783
09:07:33.040 --> 09:07:40.800
more places that also want to feel relaxed. So I'm

2784
09:07:40.879 --> 09:07:45.040
going to focus on my upper back. So you can

2785
09:07:45.120 --> 09:07:50.919
do the same even if you don't have any feelings

2786
09:07:50.959 --> 09:07:55.879
of tension that are obvious in your upper back. You

2787
09:07:56.080 --> 09:08:01.080
just focus on your back and the whole area from

2788
09:08:01.120 --> 09:08:05.680
the shoulder blades down to the middle of your back

2789
09:08:06.120 --> 09:08:10.199
and your spine. And for me, it's more the shoulder

2790
09:08:10.239 --> 09:08:20.120
blades more. Yeah, that's the parts that are really sort

2791
09:08:20.160 --> 09:08:26.839
of given me the not that it needs relaxing, the

2792
09:08:26.959 --> 09:08:30.680
sounds gonna ask that part to relax, and you can

2793
09:08:30.720 --> 09:08:56.720
do the same. Now, relax up the back. There's something

2794
09:08:56.959 --> 09:09:01.199
strange happened there, And this often happens.

2795
09:09:01.279 --> 09:09:02.160
I've been doing this for.

2796
09:09:05.080 --> 09:09:11.839
Sixteen years or something, and often I'm I'm surprised, but

2797
09:09:12.480 --> 09:09:18.919
amazed really that there can be a feeling. So when

2798
09:09:18.959 --> 09:09:22.279
I was focusing on the back of my neck, my

2799
09:09:22.400 --> 09:09:27.160
upper back was starting to feel quite stressed and in

2800
09:09:27.400 --> 09:09:32.879
need of attention. As soon as I started talking to

2801
09:09:33.040 --> 09:09:37.680
you about my upper back and talking about, you know,

2802
09:09:38.199 --> 09:09:43.400
getting ready to ask the upper back to relax, MIPA

2803
09:09:43.440 --> 09:09:49.040
back already started to relax. It's almost as if it

2804
09:09:49.160 --> 09:09:59.440
doesn't need to hear the words, just needs intention, just

2805
09:09:59.599 --> 09:10:11.400
needs to be noticed. And that is something that often

2806
09:10:11.639 --> 09:10:18.599
happens in this type of situation is when you start

2807
09:10:19.680 --> 09:10:24.680
to relax a couple of parts of your body, as

2808
09:10:24.720 --> 09:10:31.160
we've done with our hands, our eyes and eyelids, and.

2809
09:10:31.400 --> 09:10:40.120
Now back of the neck, top of the back, up

2810
09:10:40.199 --> 09:10:40.720
the back.

2811
09:10:41.879 --> 09:10:45.839
The rest of the body seems to just take notice

2812
09:10:48.599 --> 09:10:56.839
and decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other

2813
09:10:57.000 --> 09:11:06.839
parts of your body start to just become looser. I

2814
09:11:06.959 --> 09:11:09.599
suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

2815
09:11:09.800 --> 09:11:14.879
you know, the little ball starts rolling before you know it.

2816
09:11:15.000 --> 09:11:18.239
The whole of your body is completely relaxed and can't

2817
09:11:27.400 --> 09:11:35.000
And if you focus on your face, you focus on

2818
09:11:35.080 --> 09:11:43.720
your eyes, your eyelids, your eyebrows, and the muscles around

2819
09:11:43.800 --> 09:11:53.319
your eyes. Maybe you start to notice that your forehead

2820
09:11:53.639 --> 09:11:58.279
is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your face is

2821
09:11:58.400 --> 09:12:05.080
more relaxed. I would say, my entire face is a

2822
09:12:05.160 --> 09:12:06.760
lot more relaxed than it was.

2823
09:12:18.040 --> 09:12:18.599
So you're going to.

2824
09:12:18.599 --> 09:12:26.279
Focus now on your shoulders again, just like before, just

2825
09:12:26.440 --> 09:12:30.400
tell your shoulders, and you can't do them individity. You

2826
09:12:30.480 --> 09:12:34.319
can do the right shoulder and left shoulder. I just

2827
09:12:34.440 --> 09:12:38.680
didn't do both at the same time. And just tell

2828
09:12:39.040 --> 09:12:42.000
your shoulders as you focus on them in your mind,

2829
09:12:43.360 --> 09:12:48.279
focus on them how they feel. Maybe you can see

2830
09:12:48.400 --> 09:12:55.279
them in your mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders.

2831
09:12:58.519 --> 09:12:59.680
To relax.

2832
09:13:36.839 --> 09:13:53.199
As nice as they relax. I didn't notice, especially with

2833
09:13:53.360 --> 09:14:01.160
my back, is the connection between the different parts, the

2834
09:14:01.319 --> 09:14:11.279
back of shoulders, the neck being all connected and being

2835
09:14:11.440 --> 09:14:17.919
such a large part of your body, so it's hard

2836
09:14:18.040 --> 09:14:26.319
to separate them from each other. And my lower back

2837
09:14:26.440 --> 09:14:35.080
is starting to relax on the same Maybe I'm going

2838
09:14:35.160 --> 09:14:41.199
too slow and that could be an issue because we

2839
09:14:41.319 --> 09:14:47.360
all go at different speeds. And the idea of the

2840
09:14:47.440 --> 09:14:50.239
beginning of this recording was for you to be able

2841
09:14:50.319 --> 09:15:06.080
to just say to yourself, relax without focusing on any

2842
09:15:06.319 --> 09:15:11.720
particular part of your body. Because when you know that,

2843
09:15:12.639 --> 09:15:24.839
telling your hands to relax and your hands relax, you

2844
09:15:24.959 --> 09:15:31.760
tell your eyelids and your eyes and muscles around your

2845
09:15:31.919 --> 09:15:46.839
eyes and your eyebrows to relax, and they relax. You

2846
09:15:47.080 --> 09:15:59.319
tell the back of your neck to relax, and it relaxes.

2847
09:16:07.319 --> 09:16:27.080
You tell your upper back to relax, and they relaxes.

2848
09:16:34.760 --> 09:16:36.680
You tell your shoulders.

2849
09:16:38.040 --> 09:16:50.199
To relax, and they relax.

2850
09:17:13.879 --> 09:17:17.959
You told your hands to relax, they relaxed, and they

2851
09:17:18.080 --> 09:17:31.680
continued to relax. When you told your eyelids, the muscles

2852
09:17:31.720 --> 09:17:42.199
around your eyes, your eyebrows to relax. They relaxed and

2853
09:17:42.519 --> 09:17:53.720
continued to relax. When you told the back of your neck,

2854
09:17:55.080 --> 09:18:00.879
focused on the back of your neck and told it

2855
09:18:01.000 --> 09:18:20.559
to relax, it relaxed and continued to relax. And you

2856
09:18:20.720 --> 09:18:30.800
told your upper back to relax, it relaxed and continued

2857
09:18:33.360 --> 09:18:47.120
to relax. That's with your shoulders. You told your shoulders

2858
09:18:47.239 --> 09:19:00.519
to relax, in your shoulders relaxed and continued to relax.

2859
09:19:06.199 --> 09:19:14.559
And it's not just that, It's that the rest of

2860
09:19:14.639 --> 09:19:21.760
your body has also been listening, and their relaxation has

2861
09:19:22.000 --> 09:19:28.279
been spreading. So from your eyes, the relaxation spread to

2862
09:19:28.400 --> 09:19:36.720
your forehead, round your face, into your skin, into your jaw,

2863
09:19:46.080 --> 09:19:50.480
into the runs and sides of your neck, all way

2864
09:19:50.599 --> 09:20:00.919
down your chest and stomach. Your relax the hands and

2865
09:20:01.160 --> 09:20:11.279
shoulders me up through your arms, relaxing your forearms, your

2866
09:20:12.000 --> 09:20:27.839
outo arms, elbows, your wrists, let you go, the lower bag,

2867
09:20:31.120 --> 09:20:37.800
your hips, buttocks growing, or just start to relax and

2868
09:20:38.040 --> 09:20:51.360
continue even comfort spreading through your legs all the way

2869
09:20:51.480 --> 09:21:01.279
down to your ankles, the tops of your feet, the

2870
09:21:01.559 --> 09:21:06.279
sight of your feet, and the bottoms of your feet

2871
09:21:10.080 --> 09:21:41.720
relaxing into your toes, each tone relaxing, cal please, And

2872
09:21:41.879 --> 09:21:59.480
as your body relaxes more, your mind becomes slower, peaceful,

2873
09:22:07.160 --> 09:22:15.120
to the point where if you choose to fall asleep,

2874
09:22:20.400 --> 09:22:37.599
you can easy do that, easy drift the way because

2875
09:22:37.639 --> 09:22:45.199
there's nothing going on in your mind. Your brain is peaceful,

2876
09:22:53.559 --> 09:23:27.040
your body continues to acts. And with that connection between

2877
09:23:27.360 --> 09:23:33.199
your body relaxing, the word do you say to yourself

2878
09:23:35.639 --> 09:23:46.760
relax means that you don't need to focus on just

2879
09:23:47.040 --> 09:23:54.599
one part. You can just focus on your entire body

2880
09:24:01.160 --> 09:24:25.919
saying the powerful word relax. And there's those familiar sensations

2881
09:24:27.199 --> 09:24:40.879
of comfort spreading throughout your body. Who seeing and calming

2882
09:24:43.360 --> 09:24:59.639
and healing, every part of your body heathing more relaxed.

2883
09:25:14.400 --> 09:25:18.120
So all you need to do now one is just.

2884
09:25:19.959 --> 09:25:41.199
Tell your so relax, sir, eating completely comfort. The boy

2885
09:25:41.760 --> 09:26:29.800
come so relaxed. Started down with number twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen,

2886
09:26:43.400 --> 09:28:30.000
sixteen fifty forty thirty. You well.

2887
09:32:55.160 --> 09:34:12.639
Eight us.

2888
09:34:10.120 --> 09:39:54.279
Us susie.

2889
09:38:11.120 --> 09:39:49.199
Us one.

2890
09:39:55.279 --> 09:40:15.120
Two, counting down from ten to one ten nine eight seven,

2891
09:40:17.239 --> 09:40:39.800
six five four three two one. And maybe that was

2892
09:40:39.879 --> 09:40:44.080
a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe it's

2893
09:40:44.080 --> 09:40:50.000
a bit too fast for you to notice the calming

2894
09:40:50.239 --> 09:40:57.080
of your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

2895
09:40:57.279 --> 09:41:00.680
Like you're counting down from ten to one. What do

2896
09:41:00.760 --> 09:41:04.199
you expect me to do? Man, expect me to stick

2897
09:41:04.199 --> 09:41:13.639
go with floppy just because you're counting down too. If

2898
09:41:13.639 --> 09:41:17.000
you try it again, but this time, I go this

2899
09:41:17.319 --> 09:41:24.480
lower this time, as you focus on the whole of

2900
09:41:24.559 --> 09:41:31.360
your body before we focus on your legs, Just notice

2901
09:41:32.959 --> 09:41:45.720
how your body does start to feel more relaxed with

2902
09:41:47.000 --> 09:42:39.919
every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2903
09:42:47.360 --> 09:43:38.800
three two one, And just notice how how you feel generally,

2904
09:43:39.239 --> 09:43:53.559
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

2905
09:43:53.680 --> 09:44:00.800
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

2906
09:44:02.160 --> 09:44:20.599
that body space between being active physically or mentally, just

2907
09:44:25.319 --> 09:44:30.519
sitting or lying down, just being there, not doing anything,

2908
09:44:30.720 --> 09:44:37.319
not saying anything, nor needing to think about anything. So

2909
09:44:38.040 --> 09:44:41.040
it opens up a space, you know, a bit of

2910
09:44:41.120 --> 09:44:52.080
a space, the gap. And the more I came down

2911
09:44:52.120 --> 09:44:59.519
from the tental one, the bigger that gap becomes. So

2912
09:44:59.599 --> 09:45:11.959
there's that gap of calmness, of comfort and relaxation. It's

2913
09:45:12.000 --> 09:45:24.120
a nice feeling, yeah, And it moves those stresses or

2914
09:45:24.680 --> 09:45:41.279
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away, allows you to

2915
09:45:41.680 --> 09:45:51.080
just slow down, someone to count again from ten down

2916
09:45:51.120 --> 09:46:01.080
to one, and notice that gap widening the gap. And

2917
09:46:01.239 --> 09:46:06.239
as it widens, it's almost like the stress and attention

2918
09:46:07.080 --> 09:46:25.440
falls into the gap. It gives you that distance, that

2919
09:46:25.760 --> 09:46:53.639
space now ten nine, six, eight seven,