Sept. 21, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Discussing My Bipolar & EUPD – LMBYTS#1435

(music) (10 hours) Discussing My Bipolar & EUPD – LMBYTS#1435

🎙️ Discussing My Bipolar & EUPD – LMBYTS#1435 ⏱️ Duration: 1 hour, 22 minutes 📅 Recorded on: 20 September 2025 🧠 Topic: Deep personal reflection on mental health, especially bipolar disorder and EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) 🧵...

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🎙️ Discussing My Bipolar & EUPD – LMBYTS#1435
⏱️ Duration: 1 hour, 22 minutes
📅 Recorded on: 20 September 2025
🧠 Topic: Deep personal reflection on mental health, especially bipolar disorder and EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) 🧵 OVERVIEW This episode of Let Me Bore You To Sleep is a raw, meandering, yet heartfelt monologue where Jason Newland reflects on recent tech struggles with his podcast, then opens up about his personal experiences with bipolar disorder and EUPD. It evolves from a casual update into a deep dive into the complexities of living with fluctuating mental health. He discusses diagnosis, therapy, medication, and how others have misunderstood his journey. There's also a lot of self-deprecating humor, honesty, and vulnerability throughout. 🧩 STRUCTURED SUMMARY ⛓️ Part 1: Podcast & Website Woes (~0:00–9:00)

  • Jason is frustrated about recent problems with Apple Podcasts, which drastically dropped his listenership stats.
  • He shares that he’s been working hard to fix the issue and reorganize his website, letmeboreyoutosleep.com.
  • He’s visibly tired and emotionally drained by the tech issues but reassures listeners that things are working again.
  • Shout-outs to new Facebook group members, Karen and Kaylee.
🧠 Part 2: Mental Health Journey Begins (~9:00–18:00)
  • Jason discusses a recent GP phone appointment, which resulted in a referral to a mental health nurse and an increase in his medication.
  • Humorously notes that he may become even “slower and more boring” with the new dosage.
  • Reflects on past manic behavior from 2011 and being diagnosed with bipolar disorder later that year.
  • Talks about how his mood swings began in childhood and shares prior experiences with antidepressants and anxiety from as far back as 1995.
💊 Part 3: Medication Stigma & Acceptance (~18:00–27:00)
  • Shares a story about a friend at a Buddhist center who encouraged him to accept medication as part of wellness, despite Jason’s initial resistance.
  • Uses a humorous appendix analogy to emphasize that you don’t refuse treatment for physical illness—so why for mental health?
  • Admits that past judgment from others made him hesitant about long-term medication use.
🧍♂️ Part 4: EUPD & Dual Diagnosis (~27:00–42:00)
  • Delves into the co-diagnosis of EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) and bipolar.
  • Shocked to learn of the EUPD diagnosis years after therapy began.
  • Recalls a 5-year treatment period that included:
    • DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy)
    • Group therapy
    • Psychotherapy at home
  • Shares how mood instability, impulsivity, and difficulty with relationships are key EUPD symptoms he relates to.
🎭 Part 5: Humor, Dating, and Disguises (~42:00–59:00)
  • Veers into lighthearted stories:
    • Taking his ferret Andre into town.
    • Online dating and profile pictures.
    • Hilariously cynical commentary on filtered dating profile photos and photo manipulation.
  • Recounts a short-lived romantic encounter that ended just before a critical psychiatric evaluation, which ironically led professionals to think he was “fine” due to being in a good mood.
⚖️ Part 6: Bipolar Diagnosis – The Real One (~59:00–1:10:00)
  • Shares how in 2011, a new doctor finally took him seriously and referred him for proper diagnosis.
  • Officially diagnosed with bipolar affective disorder (again) in December 2011.
  • Talks about years of ups and downs, job loss, and therapy.
  • Begins understanding his pattern of mood cycles and their impact on life and relationships.
📚 Part 7: Final Thoughts – Acceptance & Awareness (~1:10:00–1:22:00)
  • He explores how both bipolar and EUPD explain so much of his lived experience.
  • Researches EUPD symptoms live during the recording (fluctuating emotions, impulsivity, relationship challenges).
  • Notes that DBT was the key therapy used during treatment—but he hadn’t known that at the time.
  • Reflects on how some people’s moods bounce back quickly, while others (like him) have longer, deeper troughs and spikes.
  • Ends on a gentle note: encourages listeners to be kind to themselves, feel safe, and allow themselves happiness.
  • Mentions the possible reward of a Cornetto. 🍦😄
💬 KEY THEMES & TAKEAWAYSTheme Insight Mental health stigma Jason illustrates the long journey of confronting others’ opinions about medication and mental illness. Dual diagnosis His story highlights the complexity of having both bipolar and EUPD—conditions that can overlap but require distinct approaches. Self-awareness & humor Jason’s ability to talk honestly while keeping it light with jokes and analogies makes this reflection accessible. Therapy & treatment DBT, medication, and long-term psychotherapy played huge roles in stabilizing his life. Loneliness & connection Undercurrent of seeking human connection, acceptance, and the ongoing tension between vulnerability and protection.

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Welcome to Let Me Boy to Sleep. My name is

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Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close

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your eyes. And uh, my website is Jason Newland. No, no,

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my website is let Me Boy to Sleep. Yeah dot com.

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Don't ask. Let's just I made some changes. Not all

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changes go smoothly. I have discovered, for example, it's going

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to open my laptop. Now I've got that shining in

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my face. Okay, so I've had a lot of problems

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with my Apple podcasts the last few days. I think

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it's now sorted. I pay it's now sorted, but it's

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taken quite a lot of effort to get it done. Yeah,

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so hopefully it's all done. I'd say all done, and

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it's never going to be complete, but I hope it's done,

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as in working correctly. Please please, please, please please, because

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the stats were ridiculous yesterday. I mean, honestly, two hundred

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and sixty three downloads of my podcasts. Two hundred and

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sixty three in one day. Now, you know, it can

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go down quite low sometimes if I haven't recorded anything

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for a week or two weeks or something like that.

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But bearing in mind i'd recorded one on Monday, Tuesday

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and Friday, so that wasn't really unless the recordings, which

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is really bad, really bad. So I need to get

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these lights sorted out so I don't like the light

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shining in my face. I know the picture isn't great.

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I'm doing this on YouTube. It's very windy, very very windy.

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I don't know why I'm doing on YouTube. So what

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I've been doing is I've been trying to organize my website,

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Letmeboydsleep dot com so that I just wanted to get

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everything kind of back to normal. And I'll be honest,

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I'm not sure. I don't know what normal is anymore.

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So what is this I look at today? It is

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Today's the twentieth of September two thy twenty five, and

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so Apple Podcasts is now back now eventually I got

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it back by about lunchtime ish, so it's been about

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six hours and it seems to be kind of getting

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back to normal again ish, but I know how difficult

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it can be. All right. Yeah, I'm seeing that some

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of the people that the places that normally listen are

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still listening again. That's good. But I'll give you an example,

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like yesterday's let Me brought This Sleep which was Q

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and A Friday. I looked at the stats this morning

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and I think I had three listens to the ten

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hour version with music, or six listens sis yesterday. This

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was this morning, you know. I mean, I'm not getting

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millions a day normally, but six listens, and when I

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upload I would get that in the first few minutes.

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I uploaded a recording, what are you doing? Ooks? Something

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went wrong? Okay, so SoundCloud's not working for some reason.

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of doing it. With spreaker, the stats take about an

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hour or so, maybe two hours to show up. So

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whatever I've got now, you can add a few hundred

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standard day? How new it's really boxing on tonight? I

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of that SoundCloud. A little message to Sebastian, and then

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that was Sebastian. I'm just trying to think, because this

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is like Saturday summary. I made a lot of changes

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me that basically the new recordings are not shown themselves,

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post this eight hours ago, hopefully fixed the Apple podcast issue.

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It's getting it's it's trained me a little bit drained.

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And I've got a new person joined Jason newlands born

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group on Facebook, and so I'd like to say hello

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to Kaylee, Hi, Kayley, and also yesterday Karen, Hi Karen,

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So welcome to Karen and Kayley Welcome. And if you'd

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like to join Jason Newland's boring group, then just please

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go to Facebook or if you go to my website,

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let me borrow you to sleep dot com. There's there's

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a message, it's basically a link at the top of

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Facebook group and you can go there and just join.

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So I've had messages from people telling me that it's

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successful now and everything's up to date. All the old

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stuff now plays again. So yeah, that's a weird face.

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my GP. I had a doctor's appointment on the phone

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on Thursday, after having spoken to the mental health nurse

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a month ago, and then having spoken to the doctor's

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surgery a week ago, and then I got to the

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doctor's called me on Thursday morning and has referred me

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to the mental health team, and the mental health nurse

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is going to contact me on the thirtieth of September.

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I think, I think, or something like that. So, yeah,

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I get that the doctor increased my medication. So I

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might become even slower than I already am, even slower

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just when you thought that I couldn't get any slower

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and any more boring. And it might be the medication

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that makes me boring. Maybe if I didn't take my medication,

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I wouldn't be boring in slow and I would be

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talking oh so quickly. See, you can't get to see

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me what I was like in a kind of a

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Manichy phase because all those videos were lost. But there

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was a little phase, a little phase back in two

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thousand and eleven, probably looking at summertime, and I was

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definitely I was laughing at things that weren't even funny. Really,

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it was weird. I was a little bit of a

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hyper a little bit, and I did some stuff on

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camera because I was making regular vlogs back then on YouTube.

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My cousin contacted me and said, I'm worried about you

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because there's some of the things I was saying and

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doing on there. So yeah, and that was shortly before

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I was Yeah, that was in the summer, and then

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December I was diagnosed with bipolar for the first time,

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for the first time. I do remember. I actually had

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a a review, a psychiatric review back in two thousand

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and four. So I was having severe anxiety between November

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two thousand and three. It lasted for years, but luckily

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it reduced sort of during two thousand and four, used

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a bit two thousand and five, two thousand and six,

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it was almost kind of sorted, not sorted, but like

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it wasn't seemingly all the time, And that's part of

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the reason why I started doing audios and videos to

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try and help calm people down, calm the mind, perhaps

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a distraction, maybe just a calming voice to listen to,

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which is kind of what I needed for myself anyway.

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I waited for months for this psychiatric review. I was

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initially I'm talking about mental health here, so I should say,

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don't listen to this if you don't want to hear

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about my mental health stuff. I'm not going to go

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into any juicy details or anything like that. I'm just

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going to sort of I'm not going to talk about

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it too much, although it's some stuff I'd like to say,

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but I won't. I won't shall I I would like

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to quite like to, quite like to make a video

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or recording where I open up about some of the

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more personal aspects of my life in the past and

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even now, but it doesn't necessarily fit together with the

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lighted the lightheartedness or the lightness of what these recordings

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are supposed to be. So I don't really get into

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heavy conversations. Really, I talk about factual stuff. You know,

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I've seen a doctor, I seeing a mental health nurse

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or whatever. I'm not going to go into any more

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detail than that. Really, it's just I give you an

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update on what's going on in my life. That's part

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of what this is. And so this is kind of

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a I suppose, quite a funny story. Not funny, but

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you know, kind of funny, but also a little bit sad,

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a little bit sad. So what happened is I was

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first and when I first started going to the doctors,

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because I've been on I was on antidepressants nineteen ninety five.

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then I was on them again in I think probably

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ninety six, then again end of ninety seven, and then

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probably nothing until two thousand and two November. So I

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went quite quite a few years. I didn't I don't

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think I had any medication, but I might be wrong.

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It's hard to remember. But back then i'd take it

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and I didn't like it, and i'd stop taking it.

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I also had two friends that were very I wouldn't

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say unsupportive, but judgmental because they didn't understand. I had

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one friend saying to me basically, it wasn't saying that

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I was weak because I was on medication, but as

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kind of what I took from the conversation. So my

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response was well, stuff the medication, I'll stop taking it then,

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or maybe the person said that I well, I felt

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that they were saying I was relying upon it. And

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you know, medication shouldn't be taken long term. Well, what

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do you do for a long term medical condition? Then,

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my dear, what am I supposed to do? Bipolar EUPD.

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Bipolar is not a short term thing. You don't just

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take medication when you're feeling bad, or take medication. You know,

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when you're too high, you can't just take medication to

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like bring you down. And when you're feeling too low,

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you can't take medication just to bring you up. It'd

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be nice if I could, and then on those days

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one kind of average, i'd be just wouldn't take anything.

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I'd love that, just pop a pill and then I'm fine.

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But because of the nature of it, it's a daily

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routine to keep those levels of serotonin and balance in

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my brain. I don't want to be on medication. But

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you know what, I had a friend and I used

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to know at the Buddhist Center, and he said something

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to me that was really He's part of the reason

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I think I wanted to go and visit Thailand. Because

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he loved the East. He traveled all over Vietnam. I'm

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trying to think of different countries, but that whole kind

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of area. He just loved it. And he kept telling

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me the people there are so nice, so friendly. He said,

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you never, you won't understand it unless you go there.

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You need to see for yourself how lovely the people

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are when you go to you know, Vietnam. I can

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only think of Vietnam and Thailand, and there's lots of

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other countries in that area. I just can't think of

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any Canada. I don't know, but he said, he said,

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sing to me, and I remember I was at the

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bottom behind the count the Buddhist center. There was like

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a cabin. It was an actual building structure and we

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would uce if classes like meditation classes or teaching classes,

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you know, groups to getting together and stuff like that.

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people chairs wise. I mean, it wasn't a lot of space,

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but there was a little toilet and a coat rack,

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you know, pretty much everything you needed. A little heater.

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acupuncturist that used to use it. I went to a

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few times because I've had I've tried so many different

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therapies to try and help with my to you know,

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to relax and my situation, and I like acupuncture. I

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think there was a reiki person possibly that worked down there,

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so the just went the room by the hour. And

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what I did when I became a counselor, I also

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rented that room so for private clients, but also people

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that I did the So I also did the free

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Konic chronic pain relief service there as well, so I

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used that for the same same thing. I also used

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it when I lived around the corner from there. This

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is in twenty eleven, I used it. I used to

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go there in the nighttime. I'd ask them first. I

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didn't just turn up by the keys to get in,

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and there was okay over it. I went there at

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night once everyone was gone, so like eleven o'clock or something,

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and I'd stay there for a few hours and I'd

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make videos hypnosis videos and stuff like that because it

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was quiet, hm and well, anyway, one day I was

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in there, I was waiting for a client to turn up,

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and my friend of the man I would tell me

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about he was there as well, and some of the

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other people were there and they were meeting up, but

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he was there. I'm not quite sure why he was there,

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but he was there anyway. And he told me, he said,

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because I was going for a very difficult, very difficult

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time at that at that moment, and I pretty much

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refused to take medication. I refuse to go and get help.

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He knew my history of know all the different things

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that had kind of time I'd been on medication and

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stuff like that, so you can't we had a little

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bit in common from that perspective, and he knew that

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I had a bit of an attitude about taking medication

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for me, not for other people. I don't judge other

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people for what they need to do, but for me,

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I just I didn't want to. I just didn't want

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to take it. I didn't. I just didn't. I didn't

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want to be I don't know how much of that is,

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just how much of that is other people have influenced

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me with their attitudes, with their stinking thinking as sigg

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Ziggy Ziggler where his name is would say, so I

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he said, anyways, it's in the summer, and he said

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to me. I said, well, he said m I said no,

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I had to go. But why why are you going

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for He said, well, you're clearly not doing very well.

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I said, no, fair enough, I don't argue on that one.

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And he said, why don't you just go back to

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the doctor and see maybe get back on the antidepressants.

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with bipolar. It was I knew I was not doing

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this too good, but I didn't quite know what you

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didn't know about that part of it. And because this

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is after the me being all like mannic and stuff previous,

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so this is probably the end of the summer, probably

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kind of September time or maybe August. And I said, nah,

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just can't be bothered. I don't want to be reliant

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upon it. I don't want to be dependent upon it.

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And there was I think there's a part of me

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still used to think that maybe it made me weak,

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which is ridiculous, but there was kind of a sense

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of old, it's a week, it's you know, I want

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to be stronger than that. And he said, look, because

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he was a lot older than me, he retired, so

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I was in my wow was what was I forty

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wow or maybe yeah, I've probably hadn't him turned forty

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one yet, so I was forty years old. One more

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wow wow. So I was a young man. He was

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probably I would say probably late fifties, maybe early sixties.

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He'd retired early, but he was I probably had about

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twenty years on me. And he said to me, he

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said little JJ. I said, don't call me that. Doot

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call me that. He said, okay, sorry, he said juicy JJ.

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I said, that's right, that's the nickname, juicy JJ, not

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little JJ. But he said anyway, he said that he

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went for the same kind of thing where he didn't

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want to be on a tablet. He didn't want to

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take tablets, didn't like the way that made him feel.

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But he realized, you know, the side effects, maybe feeling

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a bit tired, a bit groggy, a bit slow, whatever,

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everyone's differently. But he said, after about forty years of

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going through that, he decided that he'd rather take a

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tablet a day, or two tablets day whatever, in order

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to feel stable, in order to feel maybe human even,

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you know, in order just to be well, to feel

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well most of the time. And he said that there's

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no there's no shame. There's no shame in no shame

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in doing what's necessary. You know, if you're appendix burst,

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you have them taken out, you don't say to the

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doctor or the surgeon, now it's all right, I'll keep them.

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I'll suffer Now. I'm not comparing appendicitis a burst appendix

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or whatever, which can be fatal, of course, but and

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it probably would be if it wasn't medically sorted out.

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But it's kind of a comparison, you know. It's like

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you need when something is needed, you wouldn't think twice

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about it. Would He's like, okay, take it out. It's

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just that's it. There's not really a conversation. They don't

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even ask today. You know you've got you know, my

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brother hadn't a burst appendix, and they he was rushed

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into surgery of an emergency. He had sepsis and he's fine,

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he survived and everything, and he was very awful while

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but at no point where they didn't ask him they

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excuse him. Is mister Newland junior, jucy. I'm just wondering,

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is that okay if we remove your appendix or what's

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left of them. They didn't. They just took his appendix

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out because that's what was necessary. I don't even know

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if he was even conscious enough for them to sign

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for him to sign a form or anything like that.

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I visited him. Of course, I was a little bit

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disappointed because there was no grapes. I suppose I thought

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there was supposed to be grapes in the hospital room.

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Ye had his own hospital room. How ridiculous is that?

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It's when does anyone get their own hospital room? He

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had his own room. I don't know how he figured out?

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How how are you? I don't know? Anyway, the I

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thought it through and I thought what I kind of

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thought about what my friend said, and it did have

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an effect. It was annoying to start with, I thought,

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I shut up, we're talking about don't know what he's

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liked to be me on different And then I started thinking,

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you know what, this is something I've been going through

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on and off since I was a little kid. So

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it's not a new thing. It's not you know, the

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mood swings. Sometimes you can you can contribute it to puberty,

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or you can or adolescence mood swings. You can contribute

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it to lots lots of different things throughout life and

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bereavement and stuff that. You know, there could be lots

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of different reasons for people to have issues with their

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mood or instability with the mood. But if it's happening

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all the way through your life and it's not like

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it started when I was twenty or fifteen, I'm talking little.

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As far back as I remember, I've had extreme moods

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all the way back. I just didn't tell anybody. That's

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the difference. I didn't I didn't understand why other people

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weren't feeling the way I was feeling. But I also

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didn't understand why I wasn't feeling the way other people

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were feeling, because there'd be times when everyone was like miserable,

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and I'd be happy, and then I'll be sad. I'll

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be tap dancing and ruining the funeral. And I wasn't

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tap dancing on top of the coffin or anything. But

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I'm just saying I would, I'd love it. I wouldn't

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necessarily tune in to the event because my mind was

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doing something different. And I've been at some of the

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most wonderful events as far as like, everyone seems to

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be happy and I'm I'm not for whatever reason, and

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there's no reason. It doesn't seem to be a reason,

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like there's no logic behind it. I remember I was

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at the oh is it stir? What's his name? It's

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the biggest motivational speaker in the world, world's biggest motivational

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motive fational speaker, Tony Robbins. Well, they got bear grills

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next to Tony Robins, and bear grills may be popular,

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but Tony Robbins, there is no one as big as

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Tony Robbins, like as far as worldwide long givity and

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all that. Plus he is probably the tallest man has

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ever lived. He's about eight foot tall. That's true. So

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I went to Tony Robbins thing events in London in

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two thousand of I think it was two thousand and five,

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might have been two thousand and six. I think it's

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two thousand and five. Yeah, probably, Maybe it was two

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thousand and four, might have been. But I went there,

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and I yeah, I think I stayed at my friends

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because he got he gave me tickets, so I think

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I stayed with him and I enjoyed it. I did.

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I enjoyed it, and I'd listened to his recordings because

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that's another thing. I've been trying to do since for

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a long long time. Is trying trying to increase my motivation,

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trying to increase my positivity, trying to go against the

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grain almost at times, and it doesn't always work, but

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I don't I don't give up, so I keep going.

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And I couldn't get into the the old I don't

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know what I want to call it, the cultiness of it,

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you know, the going long because the every now and

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he said, if you believe this, say I like, I'm

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not going to shout eye more than once. That's once.

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I'm not going to keep saying it. You're not going

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to condition me, mister Robbins. No. So he is really good.

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And I've never known anyone that can talk for that long,

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that fast, for that long. I mean literally, he doesn't

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take a breath for like four or five hours. I've

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never seen that before, not on stage. And I think

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because he's naturally talked so fast, when he decides just

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to slow things down and talks a bit slow, I

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think he's kind of taken a nap in between sentences.

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It's just because he's normally so fast, no one notices it.

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That's what I'm thinking. He just switches off and just

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like and then she said this, I'm your mother. I

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don't know. Just whatever he says, the stuff he says.

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And it was very A lot of people, there's about

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ten thousand people there, very excitable. I'm not a very

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excitable person, and I'm not saying it in a good way.

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I just some people are very extremely lively and extremely enthusiastic.

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How I wish I was like that in a way,

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no matter how annoying it might be for other people,

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I just it it would be not I'm just thinking

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of a couple of people from the past that would

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be so excited about something like it's like it's a

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toilet role holder. Well, why are you excited about a

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toilet role holder? Everyone's got their own thing, an't they.

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I think my base level is not too high. There's

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a with positive psychology. There's a theory that no matter

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what happens in our lives, we kind of have a

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base level. Now that base level can be risen up,

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you know, with positive thinking, positive affirmations, diary writing and

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what other things. I'm trying to think grated to journal

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things like that, But the general base level is what

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we end up going back to whether no matter how

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low we go or how high we go, we have

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a tendency going back to the base level of mood.

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And as I said, it can be risen. Some people

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just tend to have a higher base level and some

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people have a much lower base level. But it's not stuck.

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That's something. That's the point. It feels stuck, but it's not.

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It can it can be moved, but it takes the

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effort or extreme stuff in life. But generally the base

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level kind of stays where it is if it's left alone.

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So for example, someone wins the lottery if they're naturally

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maybe not high energy, but I'm not high energy in person,

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so I'm going to be high energy to a degree.

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If I wonder lottery, I would seem high energy in

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some ways, but in other ways I would still be

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kind of be in touch with that level and the

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00:39:34.000 --> 00:39:38.039
heightening of Oh, where I got money. I can do stuff.

430
00:39:38.639 --> 00:39:41.280
I can buy myself as much chocolate as I like.

431
00:39:42.880 --> 00:39:49.639
I can get trousers in need of wigwams. That makes

432
00:39:49.679 --> 00:39:56.360
no sense, And then we allowed to say wigwams. I

433
00:39:56.400 --> 00:40:04.519
don't know, I just did, But then I'd end up

434
00:40:04.559 --> 00:40:09.519
going to my base level Now, if I use that

435
00:40:09.559 --> 00:40:19.440
situation correctly of having money, helping other people, helping myself

436
00:40:22.039 --> 00:40:33.679
live in a nicer lifestyle, traveling, improving my outlook on

437
00:40:33.719 --> 00:40:39.199
the world and life, then my base level is much

438
00:40:39.400 --> 00:40:46.440
more likely to rise up. However slightly. It will rise up,

439
00:40:50.239 --> 00:40:52.440
but it won't stay at that top bit of where

440
00:40:52.559 --> 00:40:56.760
I first won the lottery, because generally, the theory is

441
00:40:57.719 --> 00:40:59.960
the mood goes back down to its general base leg

442
00:41:01.679 --> 00:41:04.360
So if someone's got a high base level where they're

443
00:41:04.400 --> 00:41:09.760
generally positive, when they go really low for whatever reason,

444
00:41:15.280 --> 00:41:18.719
generally they will go back to their base level. So

445
00:41:18.719 --> 00:41:22.119
it would be very difficult, it will hurt and be painful,

446
00:41:22.159 --> 00:41:24.880
it would be uncomfortable, but they will go back to

447
00:41:25.320 --> 00:41:34.320
their base level. I've been thinking about it for someone

448
00:41:34.440 --> 00:41:41.679
like me, or someone that walks around, I say walks around,

449
00:41:41.840 --> 00:41:44.519
but someone that lives their life in a much more

450
00:41:44.599 --> 00:41:48.559
positive higher level of I don't want to say high

451
00:41:48.639 --> 00:41:53.400
level of consciousness, but their base level is much more optimistic, bright,

452
00:41:54.360 --> 00:42:00.480
it's not being disrupted continuously by their brains. May is

453
00:42:00.599 --> 00:42:04.760
kind of just it's almost it just it touches the

454
00:42:04.800 --> 00:42:10.320
base level, and it's just so when I'm okay, it's

455
00:42:10.360 --> 00:42:15.320
still not great. It's weird, and then it's good, and

456
00:42:15.320 --> 00:42:20.400
then it's really not. But someone's got a higher base

457
00:42:20.519 --> 00:42:24.559
level in their normal life, be a happier person. But

458
00:42:24.599 --> 00:42:30.119
then when things are not good, perhaps it feels, perhaps

459
00:42:30.119 --> 00:42:33.039
I'm just thinking off the top of my feet, perhaps

460
00:42:33.079 --> 00:42:39.360
it feels much worse for them because they're not used

461
00:42:39.400 --> 00:42:48.119
to it. They're not used to the low as opposed

462
00:42:48.159 --> 00:42:50.920
to someone that is used to it. I'm used to it.

463
00:42:55.519 --> 00:42:58.079
There's no, it doesn't make me a superhero. I'm just

464
00:42:58.119 --> 00:43:02.920
saying so, I just had to have a quick break there.

465
00:43:05.320 --> 00:43:16.880
Fiddy was barking, oh, like really loud, which means I

466
00:43:16.880 --> 00:43:17.800
don't actually understand.

467
00:43:17.800 --> 00:43:19.960
I don't understand. I don't remember what I was talking about.

468
00:43:22.400 --> 00:43:38.440
Oh oh yeah, base levels. So anyway, I'm just trying

469
00:43:38.440 --> 00:43:45.800
to think, yeah, I don't know what I was talking about.

470
00:43:45.800 --> 00:43:50.880
I was just basically just jabbering on really just having

471
00:43:50.920 --> 00:43:59.880
a yabba jabber, as it were a jabberber. Ooh ooh ooh,

472
00:44:00.280 --> 00:44:11.119
ooh ooh. If you're listening on my podcast, maybe visit

473
00:44:11.199 --> 00:44:14.559
my YouTube channel. Just have a look if you fancy

474
00:44:14.559 --> 00:44:18.360
a laugh, because I haven't got to say anything funny,

475
00:44:18.880 --> 00:44:21.679
just my face. That should be enough. Just look at

476
00:44:21.679 --> 00:44:26.679
me thinking, wow, how could anyone be that pink? He

477
00:44:26.760 --> 00:44:29.280
must have a lot of light shining on him. I don't.

478
00:44:32.119 --> 00:44:34.719
It's really weird. My face is so bright. When I

479
00:44:34.760 --> 00:44:38.239
look in the mirror, I give myself sunburn. There's no

480
00:44:38.599 --> 00:44:48.760
make that would makes sense? Does it? A? Hello?

481
00:44:48.960 --> 00:44:49.519
Fellow?

482
00:44:49.960 --> 00:44:53.719
How are you? Then he's underneath the desk looking at me.

483
00:44:54.719 --> 00:44:55.039
Hello.

484
00:44:55.199 --> 00:44:55.719
Hello.

485
00:44:56.599 --> 00:45:00.880
The reason he was barking is because he's his girlfriend

486
00:45:00.920 --> 00:45:05.920
downstairs was coming in. Wasn't she his girlfriend who lives downstairs?

487
00:45:06.119 --> 00:45:17.480
He loves you? Love her? Yes? You do? You love her? You?

488
00:45:17.480 --> 00:45:25.599
You love her? Yes? Okay, I'm back if I do

489
00:45:25.880 --> 00:45:30.039
make more videos. Oh yeah, there was a spider downstairs

490
00:45:30.079 --> 00:45:34.199
and she was screaming. That's that's why he was reacting.

491
00:45:34.880 --> 00:45:37.360
So I went downstairs and the spider was on front

492
00:45:37.360 --> 00:45:41.599
of her new door handle, and she wouldn't go in.

493
00:45:43.000 --> 00:45:45.880
So I just I got the spider and to get outside.

494
00:45:50.519 --> 00:45:52.960
It was quite handy. I used Vinie's lead and I

495
00:45:52.960 --> 00:45:55.360
put it around his neck and just you know, dragged

496
00:45:55.360 --> 00:46:02.599
it outside. A huge thing. It was. She did say

497
00:46:02.599 --> 00:46:05.159
to me, you're not scared of spiders, and said no,

498
00:46:05.960 --> 00:46:10.679
so what you're scared of. Then I said, crocodiles. Let's

499
00:46:10.719 --> 00:46:15.000
chance of seeing them on your doorstep blocking your door handle.

500
00:46:18.480 --> 00:46:20.760
I used to get that when I was I used

501
00:46:20.760 --> 00:46:25.880
to take Andre my ferret into town. That's when I

502
00:46:26.079 --> 00:46:27.800
in the days when I used to go into town

503
00:46:29.519 --> 00:46:31.679
and I didn't have him off the lead. I didn't

504
00:46:31.679 --> 00:46:34.920
have him off there. I didn't have him walking on

505
00:46:34.960 --> 00:46:36.880
the lead in town. I'd always, you know, if it

506
00:46:36.920 --> 00:46:39.760
was busy, i'd have him in my coat, or i'd

507
00:46:40.039 --> 00:46:42.920
be holding him, or he'd be inside my jacket with

508
00:46:43.000 --> 00:46:49.599
his little head looking out his little face. And sometimes

509
00:46:49.639 --> 00:46:57.920
people would scream, like they'd turn a corner aha ah,

510
00:46:58.840 --> 00:47:07.800
Like I'd understand if I had I don't know, like

511
00:47:07.880 --> 00:47:14.039
a skateboard with a big shark behind me pulling it along.

512
00:47:15.960 --> 00:47:18.920
Or I'm trying to think, what kind of other animal

513
00:47:21.639 --> 00:47:29.599
is scary to people? A gorilla on skates, I don't know.

514
00:47:29.920 --> 00:47:32.199
I don't know what it has to have wheels. I

515
00:47:32.199 --> 00:47:38.519
don't know why wheels have to be involved. So this

516
00:47:38.559 --> 00:47:44.360
will started when I start talking about my first psychiatric review.

517
00:47:46.440 --> 00:47:48.719
Now this is two thousand and four. I waited for

518
00:47:48.960 --> 00:47:52.119
eighties and ages and ages for this. I've been diagnosed

519
00:47:52.119 --> 00:48:01.400
with PTSD, anxiety depression, recurring anxiety, recurring depression, depression disorder,

520
00:48:01.679 --> 00:48:05.840
or major depression disorder, clinical depression, you name it. They

521
00:48:05.920 --> 00:48:10.159
just like kept checking all these titles at me. I

522
00:48:10.159 --> 00:48:13.320
felt like a professor at the end of it. And

523
00:48:16.079 --> 00:48:17.920
none of them were useful to get a job though,

524
00:48:20.360 --> 00:48:30.239
But however, what's that sound? Were this a fair look?

525
00:48:33.079 --> 00:48:43.079
Mhm food m That week was weird because I think

526
00:48:43.119 --> 00:48:52.599
it was on a Wednesday or a day. Yeah, I

527
00:48:52.639 --> 00:48:59.119
think it was a Tuesday. It was it was a

528
00:48:59.199 --> 00:49:05.360
day anyway, it was a day during the week. Now,

529
00:49:05.519 --> 00:49:12.199
on the Saturday, I received a letter. I wish I

530
00:49:12.199 --> 00:49:13.840
should have kept it because I could read it to you,

531
00:49:15.119 --> 00:49:22.199
and basically what it said is talking about starting the

532
00:49:22.280 --> 00:49:26.280
new year the same as every other year, and wanted

533
00:49:26.320 --> 00:49:31.039
to do something different this year. And here's my telephone number.

534
00:49:31.159 --> 00:49:34.960
And I was trying to think, what the heck is

535
00:49:35.000 --> 00:49:38.239
this about? So I checked the address and it was

536
00:49:38.280 --> 00:49:47.440
definitely for me, I thought. Now, it turns out I

537
00:49:47.480 --> 00:49:51.440
was probably drunk at the time. But I put an

538
00:49:51.480 --> 00:49:56.440
advert in the lost and like the love heart section

539
00:49:56.559 --> 00:50:03.039
of the local newspaper. I don't remember doing it. Yeah, anyway,

540
00:50:03.119 --> 00:50:06.480
she replied, I'm guessing, she replied to everyone to be fair.

541
00:50:07.840 --> 00:50:15.400
So we went out. I found her up. She said

542
00:50:16.199 --> 00:50:19.960
you're right. I said yeah, she said you want to

543
00:50:19.960 --> 00:50:24.320
meet up? And said okay. Then, because I'd learned having

544
00:50:24.360 --> 00:50:32.760
done blind dating, as in okay, may not blind dates?

545
00:50:32.800 --> 00:50:38.079
What's the pen paline or blind blind dates? The trick

546
00:50:38.559 --> 00:50:51.920
is to there's a very fine line between first speaking

547
00:50:51.960 --> 00:50:56.960
to the person and first meeting the person. There's a

548
00:50:57.039 --> 00:51:01.599
there's a very short period. I'm not but just quite

549
00:51:01.679 --> 00:51:05.719
often where if you want it to go well, you

550
00:51:05.800 --> 00:51:09.840
need to kind of make the move. And sometimes in

551
00:51:09.840 --> 00:51:12.760
the past I've left it too long where I became

552
00:51:12.800 --> 00:51:15.360
almost best friends with them on the phone, hadn't even

553
00:51:15.440 --> 00:51:17.960
met them, didn't know what they looked like. This is

554
00:51:17.960 --> 00:51:22.760
a days before you know, being able to stream and

555
00:51:24.000 --> 00:51:28.320
live cam. And I don't mean live cameras in chatter bait.

556
00:51:28.440 --> 00:51:36.480
I mean live cam as in Facebook, you know, stream

557
00:51:36.559 --> 00:51:37.559
and saying hi.

558
00:51:39.199 --> 00:51:39.360
Hi.

559
00:51:43.639 --> 00:51:46.159
I don't know how many dates I would have had

560
00:51:46.199 --> 00:51:52.199
if we had cameras back then, video cameras. I never

561
00:51:52.239 --> 00:51:54.079
did very well on those things, you know, the ones

562
00:51:54.119 --> 00:51:59.280
where like there used to be these fans called Rulelette.

563
00:52:01.679 --> 00:52:03.519
They did it with voices. And then when the cameras

564
00:52:03.559 --> 00:52:07.840
came out online, probably twenty odd years ago, they had

565
00:52:07.880 --> 00:52:12.519
it and I went on there twenty five years ago.

566
00:52:12.559 --> 00:52:17.320
Probably any picture you'd be on there and it'd be

567
00:52:17.360 --> 00:52:20.920
like it'd be really grainy, but it's still the picture

568
00:52:21.000 --> 00:52:23.760
was good enough, clear enough for them to see. They

569
00:52:24.119 --> 00:52:27.400
didn't want to talk to me. It's like just swiped

570
00:52:27.480 --> 00:52:32.679
left or right or whatever it is. So yeah, that

571
00:52:32.679 --> 00:52:37.800
didn't really go well. The only time I ever get

572
00:52:37.840 --> 00:52:41.400
any kind of attention from women because I joined that

573
00:52:41.480 --> 00:52:49.639
plenty of fish years ago and I was in my

574
00:52:50.519 --> 00:53:03.000
thirties at that time, probably twenty years ago. Probably I

575
00:53:03.000 --> 00:53:06.800
don't think I got one person under fifty that showed

576
00:53:06.800 --> 00:53:11.079
any interest in me. And I don't know if it

577
00:53:11.159 --> 00:53:17.119
was just because of how I look. I don't think

578
00:53:17.280 --> 00:53:27.599
i'm particularly photographic. Now you can't see on camera what

579
00:53:27.719 --> 00:53:33.360
I really look like, because I don't know why, whether

580
00:53:33.360 --> 00:53:36.960
the camera seems to hide all my good looks or

581
00:53:37.000 --> 00:53:45.920
my sexiness, my chiseled jaw, my long flowing, dark brown

582
00:53:46.000 --> 00:53:57.199
curly hair, my perfect vision, tiny little nose. You know,

583
00:53:57.239 --> 00:54:04.360
it's all hidden. It's all hidden on the camera him

584
00:54:04.519 --> 00:54:11.000
the camera, and you get this this you get me,

585
00:54:13.440 --> 00:54:17.199
and it's weird. It's kind of like as it with

586
00:54:17.360 --> 00:54:21.239
fake Really it's not real. But then I don't feel

587
00:54:21.280 --> 00:54:27.199
too bad because I've seen pictures of people and the

588
00:54:27.280 --> 00:54:31.360
way that on Facebook or on Instagram, the way that

589
00:54:31.400 --> 00:54:38.559
people manipulate the photographs to make them look like make

590
00:54:38.599 --> 00:54:44.960
themselves look completely different, and there doesn't seem any point

591
00:54:45.039 --> 00:54:51.199
in that. For fun, yeah, for fun, but if it's

592
00:54:51.239 --> 00:54:57.679
a dating profile, what's the point in portraying yourself as

593
00:54:57.920 --> 00:55:10.400
looking completely different? And I'm not saying show you much

594
00:55:10.440 --> 00:55:12.760
that all we should show all our faults straight away.

595
00:55:12.800 --> 00:55:18.079
I mean, you know, doing a close up so you

596
00:55:18.119 --> 00:55:21.079
can see your black heads on your ears or whatever.

597
00:55:21.159 --> 00:55:28.960
You know, I don't mean that. But take a picture

598
00:55:29.000 --> 00:55:33.079
of yourself after your ve and a sausage roll with

599
00:55:33.239 --> 00:55:35.800
all the bits all over your face and in between

600
00:55:35.840 --> 00:55:40.400
your teeth, and like, yeah, I'm not okay, that's not

601
00:55:40.440 --> 00:55:47.519
perhaps your best picture. But unless you want to meet

602
00:55:47.559 --> 00:55:57.880
someone that likes sausage rolls, the problem is, so I

603
00:55:57.920 --> 00:56:01.320
could make myself look different on a camera. You know,

604
00:56:01.360 --> 00:56:04.159
I've got editing software. I've got ways of changing how

605
00:56:04.159 --> 00:56:07.920
I look even in this video if I wanted to,

606
00:56:08.840 --> 00:56:11.360
and I haven't, just so you know, But if I

607
00:56:11.400 --> 00:56:14.559
wanted to, I could make my eyes smaller, I could

608
00:56:14.559 --> 00:56:18.119
make my head smaller, I could change the color of

609
00:56:18.159 --> 00:56:22.280
my skin. I could do all kinds of things. It's

610
00:56:22.599 --> 00:56:27.800
ridiculous what you can do with editing now. But I'm

611
00:56:27.800 --> 00:56:33.159
not going to do any of that. And I don't

612
00:56:33.199 --> 00:56:35.199
know why I'm telling you that I'm not going to

613
00:56:35.199 --> 00:56:42.079
do any of that, Because if this is the result

614
00:56:42.199 --> 00:56:48.639
of me working really hard on editing my face to

615
00:56:48.719 --> 00:56:53.360
look better than what I normally do, then something's gone wrong,

616
00:56:53.440 --> 00:57:04.000
isn't it. You know what I mean? So how does

617
00:57:04.039 --> 00:57:07.760
that work? Though? So? Do you put on a made

618
00:57:07.840 --> 00:57:14.159
up picture looks nothing like you and then you go

619
00:57:14.199 --> 00:57:19.679
on the date? How is that going to work? You're

620
00:57:19.719 --> 00:57:21.960
just going to hope that maybe the other person has

621
00:57:22.039 --> 00:57:27.639
done exactly the same thing so that it doesn't matter.

622
00:57:31.159 --> 00:57:33.679
I don't know, I mean, how would you even know

623
00:57:34.760 --> 00:57:37.079
that you were the same person? Because if you go in, Oh,

624
00:57:37.079 --> 00:57:40.719
I'm going to meet you in Weatherspoons or whatever some

625
00:57:40.800 --> 00:57:44.760
pub and you both have messed up with your with

626
00:57:44.840 --> 00:57:48.320
your images, so neither of you look how you really look,

627
00:57:49.039 --> 00:57:52.159
and you turn up at this bar full of people

628
00:57:55.519 --> 00:58:00.400
you're not even going to meet each other unless you

629
00:58:00.440 --> 00:58:02.880
walk up to each other and say, Hi, are you

630
00:58:02.960 --> 00:58:09.400
Jucy JJ, are you are you Sally Seanna, Sanna, Shawnaman

631
00:58:09.519 --> 00:58:22.320
mcenroy or whatever. So yeah, hm hmm. Anyway to this lady,

632
00:58:24.159 --> 00:58:27.440
I realized that she was it was because of that

633
00:58:30.719 --> 00:58:34.119
advert thing that I posted in the new local newspaper.

634
00:58:34.639 --> 00:58:38.760
And she responded, I mean, obviously, needless to say, my

635
00:58:38.840 --> 00:58:47.960
picture wasn't in the newspaper. And I realized that if

636
00:58:47.960 --> 00:58:49.719
anything was going to happen, we just have to make

637
00:58:49.760 --> 00:58:53.639
it happen now, you know, soon. So we ended up

638
00:58:53.679 --> 00:58:55.159
meeting I think Monday night.

639
00:58:56.440 --> 00:59:01.199
Yeah, it was Monday night because East Enders was the

640
00:59:01.199 --> 00:59:08.880
next day. No, yeah, whatever day Holby City was on,

641
00:59:10.079 --> 00:59:13.400
it was the night before that, so I think Holby

642
00:59:13.519 --> 00:59:17.719
City used to be on a Tuesday night, unless it

643
00:59:17.760 --> 00:59:20.280
was on a Thursday night. This is two thousand and

644
00:59:20.320 --> 00:59:37.960
four January. I think it was a Tuesday night. Anyway,

645
00:59:37.960 --> 00:59:39.079
it doesn't really matter.

646
00:59:39.760 --> 00:59:43.559
So I said to her, you know, what's your best feature?

647
00:59:43.639 --> 00:59:46.199
And she told me. I said, okay, where do you

648
00:59:46.239 --> 00:59:51.239
want to meet? And she asked me about myself? I said,

649
00:59:51.519 --> 00:59:52.920
it said, do you want to know anything? I said no, no,

650
00:59:53.039 --> 00:59:57.960
that's fine, that's what I need to know. And so

651
00:59:58.239 --> 01:00:00.360
we just had a little chat on the phone. She

652
01:00:00.480 --> 01:00:03.480
seemed nice, she seemed to like me. So we met up.

653
01:00:04.480 --> 01:00:09.000
I went to this bar. She was already in there.

654
01:00:10.239 --> 01:00:11.719
I think she might have been in there a while

655
01:00:11.760 --> 01:00:20.159
before I got there, and I sat down and said hello.

656
01:00:20.480 --> 01:00:25.480
She said, I don't know. She was particularly excited to

657
01:00:25.519 --> 01:00:28.440
see me, but she acknowledged I existed, So that was

658
01:00:28.440 --> 01:00:36.880
a start. Didn't completely ignore me. That's happened before. That's

659
01:00:36.960 --> 01:00:45.920
enough about my wedding. I gave her a oh what's

660
01:00:46.000 --> 01:00:54.440
it called? What those eggs? Kinder surprise kinder surprise eggs.

661
01:00:55.159 --> 01:00:57.679
I gave her one of those. I said, there you go,

662
01:00:58.199 --> 01:01:00.599
give you something to play with, if something to play

663
01:01:00.639 --> 01:01:06.079
with if you get bored with me, and we laughed.

664
01:01:08.840 --> 01:01:11.039
So we had a drink. I didn't drink the whole

665
01:01:11.039 --> 01:01:14.119
of two thousand and four, so that intrigued her because

666
01:01:14.159 --> 01:01:21.559
she seemed to be enjoying drinking. And then we went

667
01:01:21.599 --> 01:01:25.159
to another place, and then we went back to my place.

668
01:01:25.320 --> 01:01:29.559
She wanted to come back to mine. I didn't expect that.

669
01:01:31.320 --> 01:01:36.599
I never expect that. I just didn't see that coming.

670
01:01:37.960 --> 01:01:39.360
I thought it was just going to be a date

671
01:01:39.440 --> 01:01:42.920
and then probably wouldn't see Heracain, or maybe I would

672
01:01:42.920 --> 01:01:45.679
see Racain, but just you know, I wasn't expecting anything

673
01:01:48.840 --> 01:01:55.280
interesting to happen. And at the time I was living

674
01:01:55.280 --> 01:01:59.119
in the YMCA, not in the hostel park, but in

675
01:01:59.159 --> 01:02:03.239
the flats part so studio apartments, So I did have

676
01:02:03.320 --> 01:02:13.280
my own studio apartment. But I it was messy and

677
01:02:13.360 --> 01:02:17.239
there was stuff on the I just said, just wait here.

678
01:02:17.320 --> 01:02:19.599
I went in and I tried to check everything underneath

679
01:02:19.599 --> 01:02:24.360
the bed it was. It wasn't good. I just didn't know.

680
01:02:24.400 --> 01:02:26.159
I didn't think there was going to be another human

681
01:02:28.480 --> 01:02:31.679
in that flat ever, or that studio thing. I didn't

682
01:02:31.719 --> 01:02:36.920
think anyone will ever go in nextcept me. So she

683
01:02:37.039 --> 01:02:42.239
spent the night. I had fun. I don't know if

684
01:02:42.280 --> 01:02:48.280
she did or not. The relationship did last one more night.

685
01:02:50.719 --> 01:02:55.320
So we spent the Monday night together, spent the Tuesday

686
01:02:55.400 --> 01:02:58.880
night together, and on the Wednesday. It was a little

687
01:02:58.880 --> 01:03:04.119
bit like Craig David's song, except well, it's seven nights

688
01:03:04.239 --> 01:03:08.519
or seven days spare the night. On Monday I spoke,

689
01:03:08.559 --> 01:03:12.119
I phoned her up on Sunday. We went out on Monday.

690
01:03:12.960 --> 01:03:15.480
We made love on Monday night, and then we met

691
01:03:15.519 --> 01:03:19.000
up on Tuesday again, and then Wednesdays she dumped me

692
01:03:19.480 --> 01:03:23.039
by text. I'm not sure how those lyrics would go,

693
01:03:23.880 --> 01:03:32.599
but she uh so. The Monday night was pretty good.

694
01:03:32.639 --> 01:03:38.159
It's quite a good night. The Tuesday morning, at eleven o'clock,

695
01:03:39.679 --> 01:03:44.079
I had my very first psychiatric evaluation with two psychologists

696
01:03:46.039 --> 01:03:56.440
or psychiatrists, psychologists, I'm not sure. And they said how

697
01:03:56.440 --> 01:03:59.199
are you? And I said I'm good, and I was

698
01:03:59.239 --> 01:04:04.800
smiling because I'd had a really good time and I

699
01:04:04.840 --> 01:04:08.960
was in a good mood, and I was on a

700
01:04:09.000 --> 01:04:14.280
waiting list for ages to see them. But the reason

701
01:04:14.320 --> 01:04:17.559
I've been waiting to see them wasn't how I was

702
01:04:17.599 --> 01:04:23.199
feeling in that moment, and they couldn't understand that. I

703
01:04:23.239 --> 01:04:28.440
was trying to explain to them, I just just had

704
01:04:28.480 --> 01:04:32.239
a really good night's session. I'm not sure how I

705
01:04:32.239 --> 01:04:34.280
worded it, but I was just like, I'm in a

706
01:04:34.280 --> 01:04:36.639
good mood because of that. Trust me, this is not

707
01:04:36.679 --> 01:04:39.199
my normal, this is not what I'm normally like. I'm

708
01:04:39.280 --> 01:04:42.119
just still buzzing from that because I got to hold

709
01:04:42.840 --> 01:04:48.199
someone's hand, she let me touch her leg, her ankle, oh,

710
01:04:48.320 --> 01:04:57.880
you know, And they didn't get it. They's like, oh,

711
01:04:59.360 --> 01:05:03.480
they decided they went outside, not outside in the cold,

712
01:05:03.519 --> 01:05:06.960
but they went into a different room or into the hallway.

713
01:05:07.000 --> 01:05:11.519
I don't know. I wasn't looking through the keyhole. They

714
01:05:11.519 --> 01:05:16.280
were in the hallway, and they decided that I was okay,

715
01:05:16.400 --> 01:05:21.079
there's nothing wrong with me, didn't need any help because

716
01:05:21.119 --> 01:05:28.400
I was in a good mood on that day. Now

717
01:05:28.519 --> 01:05:30.920
at the time, bear in mind, this is two thousand

718
01:05:30.960 --> 01:05:40.840
and four, I'd had over a year of really I mean,

719
01:05:40.880 --> 01:05:44.800
I'd lost my job, lost you know, got into debt

720
01:05:45.280 --> 01:05:49.519
loads of things because of my situation, and they weren't

721
01:05:49.519 --> 01:05:54.639
taking me seriously because I wasn't taking myself seriously, because

722
01:05:54.679 --> 01:06:00.639
I was struggling to take myself seriously because I'd had

723
01:06:00.679 --> 01:06:06.159
a really nice time and I wasn't over. I wasn't

724
01:06:06.239 --> 01:06:11.079
drinking or anything like that, so I wasn't hungover. I

725
01:06:11.159 --> 01:06:18.320
was just buzzing from I guess, a different type of stimulation.

726
01:06:21.519 --> 01:06:26.400
So instead of my brain stimulating me in ways I

727
01:06:26.440 --> 01:06:32.440
didn't want it to, my brain was being stimulated I

728
01:06:32.519 --> 01:06:34.400
was going to say manually, but that's probably not a

729
01:06:34.440 --> 01:06:36.360
good way to put it, is it. But it was

730
01:06:36.599 --> 01:06:41.159
like more naturally, you know, it was kind of a

731
01:06:41.239 --> 01:06:47.760
nice kind of thing. I don't know how to really

732
01:06:47.880 --> 01:06:53.920
verbalize it, but they didn't take it seriously. The fact

733
01:06:53.960 --> 01:06:58.800
that I was grinning and smiling and laughing probably didn't help.

734
01:07:05.719 --> 01:07:12.840
That's the thing, isn't it. I think you can't. Yeah,

735
01:07:13.280 --> 01:07:18.480
and then so I go through the next how many years?

736
01:07:22.000 --> 01:07:27.800
So yeah, I go through the next six years of

737
01:07:30.679 --> 01:07:37.880
that's ridiculous. It's like, yeah, losing jobs and all kinds

738
01:07:37.920 --> 01:07:46.840
of things because of my mood stuff. And it took

739
01:07:46.880 --> 01:07:54.239
a doctor again. This was twenty eleven in I don't

740
01:07:54.239 --> 01:07:57.519
know if it was August, maybe it was July. I

741
01:07:57.559 --> 01:08:00.320
went to doctor. This is when I realized that because

742
01:08:00.320 --> 01:08:10.320
I've gone from being up to not being up. And

743
01:08:10.400 --> 01:08:14.320
this doctor wasn't my regular doctor. She I think my

744
01:08:14.400 --> 01:08:18.680
regular doctor was. I got an emergency appointment, so my

745
01:08:18.760 --> 01:08:25.279
regular doctor couldn't see me. So and this doctor I'd

746
01:08:25.279 --> 01:08:29.680
not seen before. She looked back at my files and

747
01:08:29.720 --> 01:08:34.840
she saw that I'd been on medication since ninety five

748
01:08:38.960 --> 01:08:41.439
and all the different things that have been on my record,

749
01:08:41.520 --> 01:08:44.439
on my you know, on my file and all that stuff.

750
01:08:47.079 --> 01:08:49.760
Just bang my microphone. And she said, if you had

751
01:08:50.399 --> 01:08:53.439
if you had a psychiatric ever being referred, and I said, yeah,

752
01:08:53.479 --> 01:08:56.239
I've got referred two thousand and four. But I got

753
01:08:56.279 --> 01:08:58.199
laid that night before and I was just in a

754
01:08:58.239 --> 01:09:03.800
good mood. She aft, and I said, I wasn't really

755
01:09:03.840 --> 01:09:07.720
representing myself very well. She said, well, in future, when

756
01:09:07.720 --> 01:09:11.159
you're of a doctor, maybe don't mention getting laid. I said, okay,

757
01:09:11.880 --> 01:09:13.319
do you feel like I should have said something different

758
01:09:13.359 --> 01:09:15.600
to them? She said, I'm talking about me. She shouldn't

759
01:09:15.600 --> 01:09:23.680
have said it to me now, so okay. Ooh, and

760
01:09:23.720 --> 01:09:25.680
I still got the letter. I did have the letter.

761
01:09:25.880 --> 01:09:30.079
I'm not sure if I got it now somewhere. She said,

762
01:09:30.119 --> 01:09:36.960
I'm going to refer you to a psychiatrist. I said, okay,

763
01:09:37.960 --> 01:09:41.800
and so to get a diagnosis, because she said that

764
01:09:43.439 --> 01:09:49.039
you need a proper session, proper be taken seriously, because

765
01:09:49.039 --> 01:09:51.960
this is just happening too much, and she's been going

766
01:09:51.960 --> 01:09:56.880
on for too long. So I that's what happened. So

767
01:09:56.920 --> 01:09:59.399
I was on put on antidepressants, and then I went

768
01:09:59.439 --> 01:10:05.439
to the psychiatrists at the beginning of Sember twenty eleven,

769
01:10:06.720 --> 01:10:14.479
and after quite a long time dissecting my life, going

770
01:10:14.520 --> 01:10:20.680
back over stuff and also looking at my medical history,

771
01:10:21.880 --> 01:10:30.640
I was diagnosed with bipolar effective disorder. And put on medication,

772
01:10:32.199 --> 01:10:41.399
which I took for a few days and then stopped.

773
01:10:44.319 --> 01:10:45.920
I still took the end of the presons, but I

774
01:10:45.920 --> 01:10:58.039
didn't take the the antipsychotic stuff. And then twenty twelve,

775
01:10:59.760 --> 01:11:06.399
when by still all over the place, twenty thirteen, I

776
01:11:06.479 --> 01:11:10.359
was still on the antidepress now I stopped taking the antidepressants.

777
01:11:10.640 --> 01:11:15.720
Twenty thirteen. I went back on antidepressants.

778
01:11:15.800 --> 01:11:26.880
In the springtime, and then about August September, I couldn't

779
01:11:26.920 --> 01:11:28.039
go back to work anymore.

780
01:11:28.079 --> 01:11:34.800
I had it, just couldn't do it, And eventually I

781
01:11:34.840 --> 01:11:39.239
was referred to see a psychiatrist again. This time I

782
01:11:39.279 --> 01:11:48.560
saw four different psychiatrists interviewed, and I think one was

783
01:11:48.600 --> 01:11:52.000
twice and the other two, so two different, three different psychiatrists.

784
01:11:52.439 --> 01:11:55.479
One saw twice and I saw another one and this

785
01:11:55.680 --> 01:12:08.479
was like over probably every two weeks. And they decided

786
01:12:10.159 --> 01:12:18.720
that I had bipolar effective disorder. So I was re

787
01:12:18.720 --> 01:12:21.600
re not reassigned, and the sounds the wrong word, isn't it.

788
01:12:21.920 --> 01:12:24.560
I was rediagnosed with what I'd already proves to being

789
01:12:24.600 --> 01:12:31.079
diagnosed as with anxiety and stuff, and so I started

790
01:12:31.119 --> 01:12:35.880
having I started going in having psychotherapy. So I was

791
01:12:35.880 --> 01:12:37.920
on a waiting list for that. I was put on

792
01:12:38.000 --> 01:12:45.800
medication for the mood stabilizers for the bipolar and still

793
01:12:45.840 --> 01:12:55.720
took the antidepressants as well. And then I didn't know

794
01:12:56.199 --> 01:13:00.560
right I was. I had psychotherapy for over a year

795
01:13:00.880 --> 01:13:05.439
year and a half. I was finally released two thousand

796
01:13:05.520 --> 01:13:10.359
and seventeen or was it twenty eighteen, So from two

797
01:13:10.439 --> 01:13:18.560
thousand and thirteen for five years really, so from beginning

798
01:13:19.560 --> 01:13:21.760
to them releasing me, it was a five year period.

799
01:13:22.279 --> 01:13:24.319
It wasn't like all the time for five years, and

800
01:13:24.319 --> 01:13:27.319
I wasn't hospitalized or anything, but it was a five

801
01:13:27.399 --> 01:13:30.960
year period when I went to the bipolar group and

802
01:13:31.239 --> 01:13:34.399
you know, all different things. And eventually after five years,

803
01:13:34.439 --> 01:13:43.680
I was released, released from my contract and my psychotherapist.

804
01:13:44.319 --> 01:13:46.039
First of all, we went I went to see her,

805
01:13:47.079 --> 01:13:52.920
and then she started coming, here's my psychologist, and we

806
01:13:52.920 --> 01:13:56.560
were doing I didn't know what. I didn't know what

807
01:13:56.560 --> 01:14:01.680
we were doing. And she said something to me once

808
01:14:01.720 --> 01:14:03.600
because I said, I don't know what it was. I

809
01:14:03.600 --> 01:14:08.000
said to her it was like a question, I don't

810
01:14:08.079 --> 01:14:12.880
understand this, understand why this happens. I said, I don't

811
01:14:12.880 --> 01:14:14.359
know why I'm like this. So I was sitting over

812
01:14:14.439 --> 01:14:17.000
there at the table, she was sitting opposite at the table,

813
01:14:17.479 --> 01:14:20.680
and I had Andre running around trying to get inside

814
01:14:20.720 --> 01:14:24.800
a purse. He was literally inside a handbag at some point.

815
01:14:25.560 --> 01:14:31.880
It was funny. She didn't laugh. I did, and I said,

816
01:14:31.880 --> 01:14:34.960
I don't understand that, and she said, well, it's probably

817
01:14:35.000 --> 01:14:42.399
just it's because of the partner personality disorder. I said, what,

818
01:14:45.479 --> 01:14:50.800
So this was twenty fifteen, right, No one said anything

819
01:14:50.840 --> 01:14:53.920
to me about having a personality disorder. I knew about

820
01:14:53.920 --> 01:14:57.000
the bipolar. They told me bipolar. I'd already been diagnosed

821
01:14:57.000 --> 01:15:03.119
before bipolar. Okay, no one mentioned personality disorder, but they

822
01:15:03.199 --> 01:15:06.359
diagnosed me and not even told me that was my

823
01:15:06.399 --> 01:15:17.319
official diagnosis medically. Yeah, And I was upset because it

824
01:15:17.319 --> 01:15:19.680
it tapped into something separate which I do not want

825
01:15:19.680 --> 01:15:29.960
to go into. But it was really weird. So I

826
01:15:30.000 --> 01:15:34.800
suppose really I wasn't probably diagnosed with bipolar, probably till

827
01:15:34.840 --> 01:15:40.520
two thousand. No, it's twenty thirteen, the end of twenty thirteen,

828
01:15:40.560 --> 01:15:43.520
I suppose, So it's over a year and a half

829
01:15:43.600 --> 01:15:47.960
before I even heard about the borderline personality like emotionally

830
01:15:48.000 --> 01:15:58.920
unstable borderline personality disorder EUPDP E emotionally unstable personality disorder

831
01:16:00.079 --> 01:16:18.159
IF Okay, I've got to look this up. EUPD with

832
01:16:18.159 --> 01:16:33.439
with there's different things that comes with it can come with, Okay,

833
01:16:35.960 --> 01:16:43.600
emotional unstowed personality disorder. It affects only one percent of

834
01:16:43.640 --> 01:16:49.920
the population. It's common for EUPD to coexist with other

835
01:16:50.000 --> 01:16:56.640
psychological health conditions e g. Depression and other anxiety and stuff.

836
01:16:58.399 --> 01:17:01.479
The cause used to includes both in genetic and environmental

837
01:17:01.840 --> 01:17:14.840
with a history of childhood stuff. So DBT. What my

838
01:17:15.479 --> 01:17:18.359
psychologist was coming around to do with me was DBT

839
01:17:18.640 --> 01:17:28.920
called dialectical behavioral therapy. I didn't know that. I didn't know,

840
01:17:30.520 --> 01:17:35.920
so she was really there more for them personality disorder

841
01:17:36.359 --> 01:17:43.600
than for the bipolar. I mean, with bipolar there's coping strategies,

842
01:17:46.520 --> 01:17:50.079
there's yeah, there's an overlap, but the whole what's going

843
01:17:50.119 --> 01:17:58.159
on here, some of the symptoms intense fluctuating emotions with

844
01:17:58.399 --> 01:18:02.000
mood changes out at our lot day to day tick

845
01:18:03.319 --> 01:18:08.600
relationships are difficulty maintaining stable relationships. I don't even don't

846
01:18:08.600 --> 01:18:17.039
even try to anymore. Impulsivity, Yeah, apparently that's what I minus.

847
01:18:17.079 --> 01:18:24.960
Its EUBD with impulsivity, and I think I'll have to

848
01:18:25.000 --> 01:18:34.039
look it up, but yeah, it's it's really weird to

849
01:18:34.079 --> 01:18:37.279
see something and just like it explained you, it's very strange.

850
01:18:38.279 --> 01:18:42.359
But there's also the the bipolar as well, so it's

851
01:18:42.439 --> 01:18:46.880
kind of it's both of them.

852
01:18:46.960 --> 01:18:48.920
I don't know why I'm talking about this today, because

853
01:18:48.960 --> 01:18:57.319
this isn't really let me boy to sleep proper. Really, Vinny,

854
01:18:57.399 --> 01:18:59.319
are you really going to be making noises like that?

855
01:19:00.880 --> 01:19:05.720
This isn't really Maybe I'm just going to call it

856
01:19:05.760 --> 01:19:13.479
talking about bipolar and b DP eup D. I don't

857
01:19:13.520 --> 01:19:17.319
know talking about being mental. I suppose I could put

858
01:19:17.319 --> 01:19:25.119
that down how mental am I? I don't know it's

859
01:19:26.279 --> 01:19:29.279
I don't know what the title could be, but yeah,

860
01:19:29.399 --> 01:19:31.640
I thought it just it just seems to be what

861
01:19:31.720 --> 01:19:36.479
I've talked about. I don't ever really plan what I'm

862
01:19:36.520 --> 01:19:42.760
going to talk about, but I guess if I put

863
01:19:42.800 --> 01:19:44.560
it in the title, then people are going to know

864
01:19:46.560 --> 01:19:50.279
it makes sense, doesn't it? It makes a sense to me.

865
01:19:55.840 --> 01:20:03.279
I've got a very iffy fart building up. It's a

866
01:20:03.319 --> 01:20:07.199
confusing part, you know. I'm not sure if it's safe

867
01:20:07.279 --> 01:20:15.760
or not. And I literally just had a shower a

868
01:20:15.800 --> 01:20:19.279
few weeks ago, so I don't want to I don't

869
01:20:19.279 --> 01:20:27.079
want to make him not gonna make a miss wow, oh, dear.

870
01:20:29.319 --> 01:20:31.800
So yeah, I just I don't know why I'm talking

871
01:20:31.840 --> 01:20:40.279
about this. I don't know why I'm talking about this.

872
01:20:42.680 --> 01:20:51.319
I don't know why I'm talking so much crab. So

873
01:20:51.479 --> 01:20:55.880
that's it. Really, I'm just just chatting about I suppose

874
01:20:55.920 --> 01:20:57.840
because I've been Yeah, I've been going through it a

875
01:20:57.880 --> 01:21:02.199
little bit, and I suppose I kind of would like

876
01:21:02.439 --> 01:21:06.920
to kind of explain a little bit about what it's

877
01:21:07.039 --> 01:21:10.840
like from my perspective. I don't think I have, really,

878
01:21:10.880 --> 01:21:19.319
I don't think I've particularly delved too deeply. I've touched

879
01:21:19.359 --> 01:21:26.039
the surface. But I don't know. I didn't expect a

880
01:21:26.199 --> 01:21:31.119
therapy session. Nobody expects a therapy session. I don't know.

881
01:21:35.720 --> 01:21:39.199
I might have a cornetto. I know it's not perhaps

882
01:21:39.279 --> 01:21:42.840
relevant to what we're talking about, but I suddenly got

883
01:21:42.880 --> 01:21:52.079
the urge, the urge to purge on cornetto's. So that's it.

884
01:21:52.439 --> 01:21:57.239
I'm going to go, Thank you for listening, and remember

885
01:21:58.600 --> 01:22:00.880
to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to

886
01:22:00.920 --> 01:22:05.399
be happy and be gentle with yourself. You deserve to

887
01:22:05.399 --> 01:22:27.680
feel safe, lots of love. Bye. Relax in a more

888
01:22:28.680 --> 01:22:38.880
deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way that can

889
01:22:40.279 --> 01:22:49.600
not just allow you to feel calmer now and throughout

890
01:22:50.640 --> 01:22:59.720
the time we've spend together here, not just relaxed at

891
01:22:59.760 --> 01:23:04.000
the end of the recording when it's finished and you

892
01:23:04.039 --> 01:23:14.399
can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace, but also

893
01:23:21.920 --> 01:23:28.399
I think it would be nice to have those feelings

894
01:23:28.439 --> 01:23:44.680
of relaxation continue for longer after the recording has ended,

895
01:23:49.760 --> 01:24:01.960
so that you can still benefit from listening to my voice,

896
01:24:02.319 --> 01:24:13.800
maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow, and then

897
01:24:13.920 --> 01:24:22.199
by listening regularly, especially if you find like some people do,

898
01:24:22.560 --> 01:24:27.000
and myself as well, sometimes I find one particular recording

899
01:24:27.680 --> 01:24:36.520
that really resonates with me, and I just listen to

900
01:24:36.560 --> 01:24:49.520
it over and over again every morning, every evening. There

901
01:24:49.560 --> 01:24:54.560
was this recording from We're going back to about nineteen

902
01:24:54.680 --> 01:25:02.399
ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guy visualizations.

903
01:25:02.560 --> 01:25:09.520
It kind of was hypnosis, really, and I managed to

904
01:25:09.600 --> 01:25:13.119
find it again and it still has the same effect

905
01:25:13.600 --> 01:25:22.760
on me. And part of it was the person's voice

906
01:25:25.640 --> 01:25:35.199
relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful, and I'd look

907
01:25:35.399 --> 01:25:42.399
forward to listening to her in the morning and in

908
01:25:42.439 --> 01:25:53.720
the evening. And I knew before even pressing the play

909
01:25:53.800 --> 01:26:01.960
button that since I've done that pressed the play button,

910
01:26:02.720 --> 01:26:13.720
this was in the days of CD players pressed the

911
01:26:13.800 --> 01:26:19.119
play button. I fact, it might have even been a

912
01:26:19.199 --> 01:26:23.720
tap tape recorder. I'd lie down on the bed and

913
01:26:23.760 --> 01:26:42.239
then even without necessarily listening to her words because I

914
01:26:42.319 --> 01:26:49.800
had them memorized. Really, it was as if my body

915
01:26:51.720 --> 01:27:00.840
knew exactly what to do, and the saw as just

916
01:27:04.760 --> 01:27:22.800
almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my mind

917
01:27:25.439 --> 01:27:36.439
would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to this

918
01:27:36.520 --> 01:27:46.000
recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and long

919
01:27:46.079 --> 01:27:54.680
before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

920
01:27:55.880 --> 01:27:59.239
because I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six,

921
01:28:06.119 --> 01:28:22.079
I knew, I knew how helpful I found being able

922
01:28:22.119 --> 01:28:31.199
to just let go, to have that trust in the

923
01:28:31.279 --> 01:28:41.640
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

924
01:28:41.720 --> 01:28:52.520
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

925
01:28:52.800 --> 01:29:05.279
you hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some

926
01:29:05.600 --> 01:29:19.800
people have been listening to me for over a decade,

927
01:29:20.640 --> 01:29:24.680
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

928
01:29:26.399 --> 01:29:41.880
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

929
01:29:44.680 --> 01:29:50.640
That's something that I do which you may not realize

930
01:29:53.039 --> 01:30:11.640
by listening, is when I record these recordings. Now, for example,

931
01:30:16.159 --> 01:30:22.239
I also am affected by the words.

932
01:30:23.239 --> 01:30:35.000
That I say. So if I set you focus on

933
01:30:35.039 --> 01:30:42.800
your feet, notice your feet relaxing.

934
01:30:43.560 --> 01:30:51.479
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

935
01:30:51.560 --> 01:31:09.680
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

936
01:31:12.439 --> 01:31:21.960
and maybe notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice

937
01:31:22.079 --> 01:31:28.159
the air in the room, the temperature of the room.

938
01:31:30.039 --> 01:31:40.439
On the backs of your hands. You may start to

939
01:31:41.000 --> 01:31:49.079
notice what almost feels like a very light breeze, even

940
01:31:49.119 --> 01:31:53.359
though there may not be any type of breeze at

941
01:31:53.399 --> 01:32:06.399
all where you are right now. And as you become

942
01:32:07.039 --> 01:32:21.399
aware of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed

943
01:32:21.680 --> 01:32:45.479
my hands are feeling now. And when it comes to

944
01:32:47.000 --> 01:32:53.039
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

945
01:32:53.359 --> 01:33:09.680
you're listening, also feel drowsy. When I make these recordings,

946
01:33:14.319 --> 01:33:30.720
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

947
01:33:32.800 --> 01:33:46.960
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

948
01:33:47.079 --> 01:33:58.399
carry on talking. And it's only where I listen back

949
01:33:58.600 --> 01:34:07.600
to do the editing I hear snoring, and I think

950
01:34:08.039 --> 01:34:18.079
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. Is it snoring away?

951
01:34:18.159 --> 01:34:24.880
Was a pick turned up? That's why I sound like

952
01:34:24.960 --> 01:34:36.079
when I snare, how I get really into the whole experience.

953
01:34:44.000 --> 01:34:53.000
I don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you

954
01:34:53.119 --> 01:35:04.079
feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

955
01:35:19.119 --> 01:35:31.359
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

956
01:35:33.119 --> 01:35:48.880
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

957
01:35:55.439 --> 01:36:12.159
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

958
01:36:12.199 --> 01:36:43.319
you debree easier without necessarily focusing on your breath. However,

959
01:36:43.560 --> 01:37:12.479
being able to notice the eyes in which you breathe

960
01:37:12.520 --> 01:38:02.359
so naturally. You breeze so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

961
01:38:02.479 --> 01:38:20.800
I imagine my breathing improving. When I've got my eyes closed,

962
01:38:26.840 --> 01:38:39.680
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

963
01:38:39.960 --> 01:39:13.479
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. And it feels

964
01:39:13.600 --> 01:39:39.159
nice to, if nothing else, just taking some time away

965
01:39:40.079 --> 01:40:23.399
from everything, enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a

966
01:40:23.760 --> 01:41:15.680
joyful heart. Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

967
01:41:21.520 --> 01:42:00.640
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

968
01:42:00.840 --> 01:43:05.239
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down.

969
01:43:13.520 --> 01:44:00.279
Slowed down because nothing really requires your attention, you can

970
01:44:00.479 --> 01:44:16.560
enjoy the physical sensations of allowing the stress to drip

971
01:44:17.319 --> 01:44:37.159
out of your body, dripping out of every part of

972
01:44:37.319 --> 01:45:01.920
your body and being released from your brain. Lounge your

973
01:45:02.000 --> 01:45:53.159
mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your legs relax

974
01:45:58.159 --> 01:46:48.319
rex rexs so very deeply, relas so deeply. And the feelings,

975
01:46:50.960 --> 01:47:15.840
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

976
01:47:16.239 --> 01:47:54.239
part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticin

977
01:47:57.560 --> 01:48:24.119
the feelings in the back of your name, the feelings

978
01:48:24.279 --> 01:49:13.119
in your wrists, muscles, in front of your body. I

979
01:49:13.319 --> 01:49:57.239
also feeling peace for deeping. There's a sense of peace

980
01:50:01.680 --> 01:50:41.600
spreads through your very core. Even when you focus on

981
01:50:41.640 --> 01:52:04.720
your mind. Your mind becomes a slower, deeper, relaxing, so

982
01:52:05.399 --> 01:53:05.399
very slow, your stomach teast fell in your stomach, you'll back.

983
01:53:10.800 --> 01:53:39.640
Notice Notice how relaxed you now feel. In the hall

984
01:53:39.960 --> 01:54:12.840
of your back. You spy from your brain all the

985
01:54:12.920 --> 01:54:21.600
way down the middle of your back, sending and receiving

986
01:54:24.000 --> 01:55:26.079
millions of messages every day, deepcomfort, increasing deeply relaxed, your

987
01:55:26.199 --> 01:56:05.760
knees les. Spreading these signals down is final cord into

988
01:56:06.399 --> 01:56:25.960
every part of your body, your shins and your calf muscles,

989
01:56:53.039 --> 01:57:22.560
your elberts, feelings of peace and tranquility spreading through your body,

990
01:57:27.600 --> 01:57:43.840
tips of your toes, to your eyes, your fingers, all

991
01:57:43.880 --> 01:57:57.800
the way to your lower back. And I'm letting go,

992
01:58:00.079 --> 01:59:11.119
reciting God pace, drifting mind, just wonderin way happy to

993
01:59:11.399 --> 02:00:15.800
let go, let go completely, let go, so tranquil your

994
02:00:15.840 --> 02:00:47.880
whole body enjoying a sensor listing go.

995
02:00:52.760 --> 02:01:33.239
For more, must.

996
02:01:58.640 --> 02:02:54.800
Be peace, enjoy the space, this space of peace and

997
02:02:55.199 --> 02:05:17.760
safety firy f relx letting go. Maybe we can just

998
02:05:20.640 --> 02:05:29.479
focus on the different parts of your body, just to

999
02:05:29.720 --> 02:06:58.079
notice your forehead and your eyes. Tu sid this not

1000
02:06:58.239 --> 02:07:18.239
to say in the sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom,

1001
02:08:04.279 --> 02:09:11.880
dress day, dress day. He's fall energy paste to breathe

1002
02:09:12.600 --> 02:10:23.239
so much easier. Les you may have you may not

1003
02:10:23.439 --> 02:11:24.239
have noticed your mind drifting, paceful move any even more

1004
02:11:24.640 --> 02:11:49.199
deeply in the direction of total blissful pace, blissful pace

1005
02:13:06.279 --> 02:14:17.039
to to to pace colm so calm, letting go, peace

1006
02:14:17.880 --> 02:15:28.039
of mind rex foty so rex so relaxed. Your body

1007
02:15:28.760 --> 02:16:08.680
feels almost invisible, so very relaxed and peaceful, sir, pace

1008
02:16:24.880 --> 02:17:08.479
right like God, I'm sup peaceful, so fair, And you

1009
02:17:08.559 --> 02:17:15.719
could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1010
02:17:18.719 --> 02:17:28.559
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1011
02:17:29.799 --> 02:17:35.920
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1012
02:17:36.000 --> 02:17:48.879
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1013
02:17:48.920 --> 02:17:56.440
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1014
02:17:56.680 --> 02:18:11.520
speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1015
02:18:14.959 --> 02:18:22.959
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1016
02:18:22.959 --> 02:18:31.000
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1017
02:18:31.040 --> 02:18:38.680
break from your life as it is, and to give

1018
02:18:38.719 --> 02:18:46.840
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1019
02:18:46.959 --> 02:18:54.559
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1020
02:18:54.600 --> 02:19:04.959
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1021
02:19:05.120 --> 02:19:15.719
tension any stresses that you had in your body. It's

1022
02:19:15.760 --> 02:19:20.399
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1023
02:19:21.639 --> 02:19:33.319
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1024
02:19:34.159 --> 02:19:43.680
that negativity with positive heathing energy, which then fills your

1025
02:19:43.719 --> 02:19:55.600
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1026
02:19:56.440 --> 02:20:14.840
those feelings of increase and confidence and almost uplifting, feeling positive, healing,

1027
02:20:18.000 --> 02:20:26.559
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1028
02:20:28.879 --> 02:20:41.079
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

1029
02:20:43.840 --> 02:20:49.079
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1030
02:20:49.159 --> 02:20:54.799
want it to be, just rest.

1031
02:20:58.399 --> 02:20:59.399
And allow.

1032
02:21:01.559 --> 02:21:11.520
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself. To

1033
02:21:12.239 --> 02:21:27.879
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1034
02:21:28.000 --> 02:21:41.479
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1035
02:21:41.680 --> 02:21:49.920
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1036
02:21:50.040 --> 02:22:01.120
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

1037
02:22:02.120 --> 02:22:16.440
with that growing positivity and calmness. And it feels nice,

1038
02:22:16.760 --> 02:22:22.760
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1039
02:22:22.760 --> 02:22:36.079
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1040
02:22:36.319 --> 02:22:39.079
to experience.

1041
02:22:40.639 --> 02:22:41.920
More of this.

1042
02:22:43.559 --> 02:22:59.239
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1043
02:23:00.280 --> 02:23:06.280
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1044
02:23:06.280 --> 02:23:23.360
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1045
02:23:23.360 --> 02:23:33.040
It becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing.

1046
02:23:37.040 --> 02:23:43.159
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1047
02:23:45.520 --> 02:23:50.760
the parts that you have already focused on or continue

1048
02:23:52.159 --> 02:23:59.280
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1049
02:23:59.440 --> 02:24:12.360
focused done or just automatically release any remain intention in

1050
02:24:12.479 --> 02:24:26.760
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

1051
02:24:26.760 --> 02:24:33.280
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1052
02:24:33.399 --> 02:24:42.079
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

1053
02:24:42.280 --> 02:24:49.440
sounds like mister Herbert Opigeon, can just allow you to

1054
02:24:49.559 --> 02:24:56.840
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1055
02:25:00.000 --> 02:25:05.319
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1056
02:25:08.760 --> 02:25:14.799
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1057
02:25:15.319 --> 02:25:25.840
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1058
02:25:26.079 --> 02:25:34.239
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1059
02:25:36.159 --> 02:25:42.479
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1060
02:25:45.840 --> 02:25:54.120
Moving down to your eyes, Focusing on your eyes, noticing

1061
02:25:56.559 --> 02:26:06.319
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1062
02:26:06.319 --> 02:26:12.879
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1063
02:26:13.040 --> 02:26:27.520
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1064
02:26:27.920 --> 02:26:37.799
your tongue, your teeth, your gums, the whole of your mouth, relaxing,

1065
02:26:41.280 --> 02:26:51.600
calm and loose. As you focus now on your jaw,

1066
02:26:54.959 --> 02:26:59.680
just the parts of your jaw near your mouth, your chin,

1067
02:27:00.959 --> 02:27:05.399
but all the way up the size of your face, to.

1068
02:27:05.399 --> 02:27:18.159
Your ears, the hole of your jaw, feeding.

1069
02:27:17.399 --> 02:27:19.920
More relaxed.

1070
02:27:23.159 --> 02:27:31.879
And calm.

1071
02:27:32.239 --> 02:27:41.399
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1072
02:27:41.440 --> 02:27:54.479
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1073
02:27:54.559 --> 02:28:03.520
your neck, right the left side of your neck, relax

1074
02:28:04.000 --> 02:28:19.280
and please and calm. And now the back of your neck.

1075
02:28:22.520 --> 02:28:32.000
Focus in on the back of your neck, letting go

1076
02:28:32.479 --> 02:28:38.280
of any tension that may have been there before, and

1077
02:28:38.920 --> 02:28:52.600
enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release that you

1078
02:28:52.719 --> 02:29:03.520
can experience in the back of your neck, moving down

1079
02:29:04.000 --> 02:29:11.360
your back and moving either side of your spine right

1080
02:29:11.399 --> 02:29:16.360
from the top of your back all the way down

1081
02:29:16.959 --> 02:29:29.399
to the bottom of your back down to your lower back.

1082
02:29:34.600 --> 02:29:41.799
As you move up and down your spine, you can

1083
02:29:41.920 --> 02:29:50.159
feel the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more,

1084
02:29:57.639 --> 02:30:04.440
and there's those muscles relax. That sense of comfort starts

1085
02:30:04.479 --> 02:30:14.600
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1086
02:30:14.680 --> 02:30:21.680
your back, the top of your back, the middle, and

1087
02:30:21.840 --> 02:30:31.360
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1088
02:30:32.559 --> 02:30:37.840
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1089
02:30:37.920 --> 02:30:47.799
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1090
02:30:47.920 --> 02:30:53.559
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1091
02:30:54.000 --> 02:31:08.520
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, and

1092
02:31:08.719 --> 02:31:14.799
in your lower back there seems to be an extra

1093
02:31:15.000 --> 02:31:31.120
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips sit

1094
02:31:31.239 --> 02:31:39.360
down your lower back, into your hips, into the area

1095
02:31:39.440 --> 02:31:47.959
where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and all

1096
02:31:48.000 --> 02:31:57.280
those muscles that spread from your lower back into your

1097
02:31:57.360 --> 02:32:10.760
hip area start to melt, start to reading, let go,

1098
02:32:17.280 --> 02:32:22.159
and you know where about to focus on your shoulders.

1099
02:32:23.879 --> 02:32:31.040
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1100
02:32:33.920 --> 02:32:49.639
continue to relax so calmly. And if you focus on

1101
02:32:49.719 --> 02:33:09.239
your shoulders, you may notice they're already feeling really loose, already.

1102
02:33:11.520 --> 02:33:24.200
Feeding calm, and.

1103
02:33:24.399 --> 02:33:36.879
I feel those muscles then move from your neck into

1104
02:33:36.879 --> 02:34:13.639
your shoulders, feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm,

1105
02:34:13.680 --> 02:34:26.319
and the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep

1106
02:34:26.479 --> 02:34:36.280
into your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling

1107
02:34:36.760 --> 02:34:54.040
deeply into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and

1108
02:34:54.280 --> 02:35:02.559
moving all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing a

1109
02:35:02.719 --> 02:35:08.040
whole area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath

1110
02:35:08.040 --> 02:35:27.159
your arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable in

1111
02:35:27.280 --> 02:35:47.399
your shoulders, which sense that deep healing message into your arms,

1112
02:35:54.040 --> 02:35:59.079
you may feel almost as if your arms are not

1113
02:35:59.200 --> 02:36:10.680
even there. It because the son relaxed, so deeply, relaxed,

1114
02:36:17.840 --> 02:36:52.920
so so calm.

1115
02:36:38.479 --> 02:36:38.559
So.

1116
02:36:53.040 --> 02:37:04.520
That feeling spreading all the way down your arms, two elbows,

1117
02:37:07.959 --> 02:37:37.559
including your elbows circumfort spreads away into rists, your forearments,

1118
02:37:38.079 --> 02:38:01.719
and your wrists so heavy yet the same time, sunlight

1119
02:38:04.920 --> 02:38:36.719
and gentle fork sap now on.

1120
02:38:37.879 --> 02:39:32.639
Your hands, my hands, so peaceful in your hands, the sense.

1121
02:39:32.399 --> 02:40:02.239
Of real pace just seems to feel so familiar, your

1122
02:40:02.360 --> 02:41:40.760
hands relaxed deeply. Else you things things sidlish. I think

1123
02:41:40.879 --> 02:42:29.319
it taps meving your attention from your body. So comfortable,

1124
02:42:40.239 --> 02:44:07.159
marrying your focus to legs us love my souls in

1125
02:44:07.200 --> 02:47:49.000
your thighs and knees. I relaxed, cough muculs just shads, said.

1126
02:46:54.000 --> 02:46:56.559
The lady, and.

1127
02:47:06.559 --> 02:47:27.840
The fathing in your faints, so peaceful, circom sick, peaceful

1128
02:47:34.959 --> 02:48:37.120
sircom sir peaceful cyclm so peace fa re sin peace fall.

1129
02:48:40.440 --> 02:48:53.120
Cclm love that deep rexation.

1130
02:48:53.680 --> 02:49:27.239
To spread your chest storm let you go everything. So

1131
02:49:27.280 --> 02:49:33.639
I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down to one.

1132
02:49:39.559 --> 02:49:42.799
You can imagine in a way it's like just walking

1133
02:49:42.920 --> 02:49:48.719
down some steps and each step or twenty steps, and

1134
02:49:48.840 --> 02:49:59.200
each step represents a level of comfort, each step represents

1135
02:50:01.799 --> 02:50:14.280
a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you walk

1136
02:50:14.399 --> 02:50:20.079
down those steps, the deeper and more relaxed you feel.

1137
02:50:26.799 --> 02:52:14.559
So starting with number twenty twenty nineteenhhhhhhh eighteen seven jan

1138
02:53:00.920 --> 03:03:38.520
sixteen three four f two we nohhhh eight siven us

1139
03:03:49.360 --> 03:05:19.559
six five.

1140
03:06:03.520 --> 03:09:38.159
Four dust.

1141
03:11:06.399 --> 03:11:23.360
And now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna

1142
03:11:23.440 --> 03:11:34.879
count down from ten down to one, focusing just on

1143
03:11:35.040 --> 03:11:45.959
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your

1144
03:11:46.079 --> 03:11:55.040
eye walls themselves, a whole area that makes up your eye.

1145
03:12:06.040 --> 03:12:14.159
And as we count down ten down to one, whilst

1146
03:12:14.440 --> 03:12:30.040
focusing on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with

1147
03:12:30.440 --> 03:12:43.399
each number counting down that you may find the all

1148
03:12:43.520 --> 03:12:49.680
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1149
03:12:52.680 --> 03:12:59.280
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1150
03:12:59.399 --> 03:13:14.040
to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going

1151
03:13:14.159 --> 03:13:24.120
to begin counting down from ten down to one right now,

1152
03:13:32.639 --> 03:19:54.079
ten nine eight seven four.

1153
03:19:28.399 --> 03:22:51.280
Se uhhhhhh.

1154
03:22:30.440 --> 03:22:51.760
One. So cutting down from ten to one ten nine

1155
03:22:53.440 --> 03:23:21.159
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1156
03:23:21.280 --> 03:23:24.200
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1157
03:23:25.440 --> 03:23:29.680
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1158
03:23:29.959 --> 03:23:38.000
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1159
03:23:38.079 --> 03:23:42.159
of pressure. They're like, you're counting down from ten to one.

1160
03:23:42.280 --> 03:23:45.680
Would you expect me to do? Man? Expect me to

1161
03:23:45.680 --> 03:23:49.680
just to go with floppy just because you're counting down.

1162
03:23:55.239 --> 03:23:58.559
I could try it again, but this time I go

1163
03:23:58.600 --> 03:24:05.639
a bit slower. This time that you focus on the

1164
03:24:05.840 --> 03:24:09.959
whole of your body before we focus on your legs.

1165
03:24:12.399 --> 03:24:21.520
Just notice how your body does start to feel more

1166
03:24:22.000 --> 03:25:10.959
relaxed with every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

1167
03:25:21.360 --> 03:26:20.559
four three one, And just notice how how you feel, generally,

1168
03:26:21.000 --> 03:26:35.319
how your body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting

1169
03:26:35.440 --> 03:26:42.559
down from ten to one. It's that space that you have,

1170
03:26:43.879 --> 03:27:07.479
that space between being active, clear or mentally just sitting

1171
03:27:07.719 --> 03:27:12.280
or lying down and just being there, not doing anything,

1172
03:27:12.479 --> 03:27:17.200
not saying anything, nor needing to think about anything.

1173
03:27:19.040 --> 03:27:22.680
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

1174
03:27:22.760 --> 03:27:33.520
of a space, a gap. And the more I came

1175
03:27:33.639 --> 03:27:38.200
down from ten to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

1176
03:27:41.239 --> 03:27:47.600
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1177
03:27:53.559 --> 03:28:05.879
It's a nice feeling, and it moves those stresses or

1178
03:28:06.440 --> 03:28:20.280
discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away. Allows you.

1179
03:28:23.000 --> 03:28:23.520
To just.

1180
03:28:26.520 --> 03:28:33.239
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1181
03:28:33.639 --> 03:28:43.879
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1182
03:28:43.920 --> 03:28:49.840
it's almost like that the stress and attention falls into

1183
03:28:49.959 --> 03:29:07.920
the gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1184
03:29:10.319 --> 03:29:15.760
Now ten.

1185
03:29:20.120 --> 03:31:17.120
Nine, eight, seven, six, five four three one. Now, how

1186
03:31:17.200 --> 03:31:38.159
does your body feel now? Can you notice that, do

1187
03:31:38.200 --> 03:32:15.159
you feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed as we now

1188
03:32:15.319 --> 03:32:35.639
focus on your legs, just your legs. We're just gonna

1189
03:32:36.120 --> 03:32:55.479
start with focusing on your thighs. Of course, it's not

1190
03:32:55.639 --> 03:33:04.079
the most exciting thing to be done, because I'm sure,

1191
03:33:04.239 --> 03:33:06.479
like most of your body, there is not a lot

1192
03:33:06.600 --> 03:33:18.879
going on right now. Just focusing on the whole of

1193
03:33:18.959 --> 03:33:25.440
your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides of

1194
03:33:25.520 --> 03:33:32.360
your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1195
03:33:32.479 --> 03:33:37.399
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1196
03:33:37.520 --> 03:33:46.280
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1197
03:33:46.479 --> 03:34:00.520
your knee joints. Now, this is a big area. It's

1198
03:34:00.559 --> 03:34:06.040
a very heavy area. It's very strong, probably the strongest

1199
03:34:07.040 --> 03:34:20.200
muscles in your body or in your thighs. But I

1200
03:34:20.280 --> 03:34:28.600
don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1201
03:34:34.520 --> 03:34:45.280
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1202
03:34:45.479 --> 03:35:06.079
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1203
03:35:06.200 --> 03:35:16.639
through our lives. And it may seem sound really weird,

1204
03:35:16.760 --> 03:35:25.120
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1205
03:35:25.239 --> 03:35:32.879
our thighs, needs some TLC, a bit of love shown

1206
03:35:33.879 --> 03:35:52.600
a bit of acknowledgement. Thank you gratitude for our thighs

1207
03:35:52.840 --> 03:36:01.680
do for us. And I know this may sound a

1208
03:36:01.760 --> 03:36:08.120
bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I Surely I

1209
03:36:08.159 --> 03:36:13.360
should be out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1210
03:36:17.479 --> 03:36:19.760
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1211
03:36:20.799 --> 03:36:23.040
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be

1212
03:36:23.079 --> 03:36:27.000
outside hugging a tree. I can't see the television from

1213
03:36:27.040 --> 03:36:37.600
the tree. If you move down to your knees gain

1214
03:36:37.920 --> 03:36:46.000
such an important part. And I think we don't necessarily

1215
03:36:47.520 --> 03:36:53.239
I'll speak for myself. You know, I don't necessarily appreciate

1216
03:36:55.040 --> 03:37:00.159
all that my knees do for me until I have

1217
03:37:00.239 --> 03:37:03.600
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever

1218
03:37:05.200 --> 03:37:09.159
maybe i'll bash it or it's aching for some reason.

1219
03:37:10.879 --> 03:37:17.079
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1220
03:37:17.159 --> 03:37:23.120
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1221
03:37:24.879 --> 03:37:32.120
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1222
03:37:32.360 --> 03:37:40.760
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know, that's comfort.

1223
03:37:44.840 --> 03:37:49.479
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1224
03:37:49.559 --> 03:37:57.040
your knees feel, you can have that sense of gratitude

1225
03:37:58.559 --> 03:38:01.159
and love to your need for all that they do

1226
03:38:01.360 --> 03:38:14.360
for you. And you can still have that attention on

1227
03:38:14.520 --> 03:38:20.680
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1228
03:38:21.000 --> 03:38:38.399
you've noticed that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1229
03:38:38.559 --> 03:38:43.760
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1230
03:38:44.639 --> 03:38:51.079
and your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and

1231
03:38:51.239 --> 03:39:04.440
your feet, incorporating of course your ankles so important. You know,

1232
03:39:04.520 --> 03:39:09.280
anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1233
03:39:09.319 --> 03:39:17.440
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted.

1234
03:39:23.319 --> 03:39:25.319
And it's kind of strange in a way when you

1235
03:39:25.440 --> 03:39:31.040
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1236
03:39:31.200 --> 03:39:36.000
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1237
03:39:36.120 --> 03:39:39.840
it doesn't I can't see any problem with that because

1238
03:39:39.840 --> 03:39:45.879
we're just picking stuff up by our ankles so much

1239
03:39:46.159 --> 03:39:55.799
thinner than the rest of our legs, and from a

1240
03:39:55.879 --> 03:40:00.719
physics perspective or logical even it doesn't really makes sense

1241
03:40:02.079 --> 03:40:09.440
that all this weight would ultimately be resting on your

1242
03:40:09.520 --> 03:40:24.559
ankles then leading to your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1243
03:40:24.639 --> 03:40:30.319
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1244
03:40:30.440 --> 03:40:42.280
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

1245
03:40:42.479 --> 03:40:55.760
to get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1246
03:40:55.799 --> 03:41:03.399
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1247
03:41:03.479 --> 03:41:09.799
pointing calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1248
03:41:09.879 --> 03:41:13.440
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1249
03:41:13.479 --> 03:41:17.200
some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

1250
03:41:17.319 --> 03:41:26.959
muscles are being used whenever we use the legs and

1251
03:41:27.079 --> 03:41:39.600
your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped in

1252
03:41:39.719 --> 03:41:52.239
a way, almost as a protector for the bone, leading

1253
03:41:53.639 --> 03:42:04.040
of course to your ankles and your feet. But we're

1254
03:42:04.040 --> 03:42:05.959
not going to focus on your feet. We're just going

1255
03:42:06.040 --> 03:42:12.399
to focus on the legs. I realize, but now that

1256
03:42:12.520 --> 03:42:16.920
I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus on them anyway,

1257
03:42:17.479 --> 03:42:20.040
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1258
03:42:24.079 --> 03:42:28.479
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1259
03:42:28.600 --> 03:42:32.920
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1260
03:42:33.079 --> 03:42:37.040
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1261
03:42:38.840 --> 03:42:49.600
let me focusing on your ankles. There's still that sensation

1262
03:42:49.879 --> 03:43:05.200
of comfort in your thighs, and this that movement of

1263
03:43:05.600 --> 03:43:15.000
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1264
03:43:15.079 --> 03:43:19.840
there's the muscles the big straw muscles that we have

1265
03:43:20.040 --> 03:43:33.399
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1266
03:43:33.479 --> 03:43:38.760
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1267
03:43:39.559 --> 03:43:51.159
can be very sensitive, sensitive to touch, sensitive to temperature,

1268
03:43:57.719 --> 03:44:05.239
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1269
03:44:05.280 --> 03:44:10.079
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, to all this stuff

1270
03:44:10.200 --> 03:44:19.280
that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1271
03:44:19.319 --> 03:44:23.600
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1272
03:44:24.239 --> 03:44:29.440
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1273
03:44:29.680 --> 03:44:32.600
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1274
03:44:32.680 --> 03:44:37.479
the muscles, and to be able to just message inside

1275
03:44:37.559 --> 03:44:44.559
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg massage

1276
03:44:44.639 --> 03:44:57.799
in all the veins, just gently heaving your thighs and

1277
03:44:58.000 --> 03:45:03.000
you can move down. Message in the inside your knees.

1278
03:45:04.520 --> 03:45:11.319
Just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1279
03:45:11.399 --> 03:45:17.120
that healing energy deep into the choice of your knees.

1280
03:45:22.559 --> 03:45:26.280
Of course, there's the back of your your knee, you know,

1281
03:45:26.360 --> 03:45:32.399
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1282
03:45:32.600 --> 03:45:38.479
sensitive area. It feels very nice when you stroke it.

1283
03:45:39.879 --> 03:45:43.239
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1284
03:45:43.440 --> 03:45:49.920
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1285
03:45:50.239 --> 03:45:57.159
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1286
03:45:58.959 --> 03:46:01.959
has a sense of two, which is a little bit different.

1287
03:46:09.799 --> 03:46:19.719
Of course, it's protected by your legs. So you can

1288
03:46:19.799 --> 03:46:25.120
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs,

1289
03:46:30.920 --> 03:46:35.559
folding between your legs, you can just message with your fingertips.

1290
03:46:36.760 --> 03:46:42.920
Imagine your fingertips going inside, message in the muscle or

1291
03:46:43.040 --> 03:46:51.879
tissue you can cause field the bones.

1292
03:46:51.680 --> 03:47:03.600
Of your knees, heading through your fingertips, and then as

1293
03:47:03.680 --> 03:47:04.559
you go down.

1294
03:47:07.200 --> 03:47:10.000
To your calf muscles, and that's the part. I'd like

1295
03:47:10.120 --> 03:47:14.799
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1296
03:47:15.559 --> 03:47:24.520
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1297
03:47:26.079 --> 03:47:36.040
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1298
03:47:39.200 --> 03:47:46.079
massage in and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them,

1299
03:47:47.000 --> 03:47:51.719
healing in a loving way because they deserve to be treated.

1300
03:47:54.760 --> 03:47:58.920
There's the precious bones that they are, because their legs

1301
03:47:58.959 --> 03:48:02.319
are so precious as in all the other parts of

1302
03:48:02.399 --> 03:48:10.559
our body, the more precious of any chul on the planet.

1303
03:48:19.120 --> 03:48:27.120
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1304
03:48:31.680 --> 03:48:38.360
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1305
03:48:41.399 --> 03:48:45.719
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1306
03:48:45.840 --> 03:48:53.520
the love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs,

1307
03:48:56.280 --> 03:49:00.639
wanting to be able to put your hands your thighs,

1308
03:49:02.600 --> 03:49:09.079
the message the muscles and the bones, and to get

1309
03:49:09.120 --> 03:49:17.360
your fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to

1310
03:49:17.559 --> 03:49:27.000
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1311
03:49:27.079 --> 03:49:32.760
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1312
03:49:35.159 --> 03:49:45.360
your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

1313
03:49:48.280 --> 03:49:52.959
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1314
03:49:53.040 --> 03:50:02.840
your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, this so wrong, so flexible,

1315
03:50:06.600 --> 03:50:19.440
absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

1316
03:50:19.479 --> 03:50:28.200
of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1317
03:50:30.200 --> 03:50:34.639
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1318
03:50:34.760 --> 03:50:39.440
only eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight

1319
03:50:39.719 --> 03:50:46.239
for these little ankles. Now, I am a lot heavier

1320
03:50:46.280 --> 03:50:56.399
than Madstone double dock, yet my ankles support my body

1321
03:50:57.159 --> 03:51:03.760
all the time, or they do give off a sigh

1322
03:51:03.760 --> 03:51:09.200
of relief when I sit down, as that my whole

1323
03:51:09.239 --> 03:51:18.760
legs though my feet feel als go my toes clap

1324
03:51:19.959 --> 03:51:48.559
them so happy. Your legs really are amazing. I don't

1325
03:51:48.600 --> 03:51:52.479
know that talking about talking about your legs is probably

1326
03:51:55.000 --> 03:51:59.959
possibly among the most most boring things I've ever heard. Anyway,

1327
03:52:00.200 --> 03:52:02.280
say possibly.

1328
03:52:04.680 --> 03:52:05.680
You're boring or not.

1329
03:52:07.280 --> 03:52:22.760
Everything I said is true. Your legs are amazing. Your

1330
03:52:22.879 --> 03:52:35.479
legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax deeply.

1331
03:52:42.760 --> 03:52:46.079
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1332
03:52:48.280 --> 03:53:25.159
to just let go completely. Legs really can relax because

1333
03:53:25.239 --> 03:53:29.159
the legs are so such a most you know, very

1334
03:53:29.239 --> 03:53:34.959
important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1335
03:53:35.079 --> 03:53:42.280
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1336
03:53:46.040 --> 03:53:58.799
journey of comfort, like a feeling my hips. My hips

1337
03:53:58.920 --> 03:54:05.799
feel really loose, and also my lower back as well.

1338
03:54:07.840 --> 03:54:13.559
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

1339
03:54:13.600 --> 03:54:17.239
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

1340
03:54:19.959 --> 03:54:23.120
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1341
03:54:23.159 --> 03:54:26.959
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1342
03:54:27.079 --> 03:54:34.120
there is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced

1343
03:54:35.559 --> 03:54:54.159
a lot. And I'm now going to count down from

1344
03:54:54.799 --> 03:55:06.159
ten down to one. You can continue to fill wonderfully

1345
03:55:06.239 --> 03:55:42.399
relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four three two

1346
03:55:46.840 --> 03:56:04.600
one relax. So I'm just going to count down from

1347
03:56:04.760 --> 03:56:09.239
five down to one. And as a countdown, if you

1348
03:56:09.399 --> 03:56:16.280
just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1349
03:56:17.360 --> 03:56:26.479
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1350
03:56:26.639 --> 03:56:34.159
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1351
03:56:34.239 --> 03:56:44.399
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1352
03:56:44.559 --> 03:56:52.920
but also relax in your mind. Just notice how you feel.

1353
03:56:53.799 --> 03:56:59.680
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1354
03:56:59.719 --> 03:57:52.440
to think about, starting with number five, four, three two one. Now,

1355
03:57:52.520 --> 03:58:04.760
as you notice the gradual letting go of the tension

1356
03:58:05.000 --> 03:58:12.120
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

1357
03:58:12.280 --> 03:58:21.280
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1358
03:58:23.799 --> 03:58:30.120
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1359
03:58:30.360 --> 03:58:35.520
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1360
03:58:36.840 --> 03:58:42.840
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax. And the

1361
03:58:42.920 --> 03:58:46.559
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1362
03:58:46.719 --> 03:58:58.799
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And as that calmness

1363
03:58:59.040 --> 03:59:06.200
that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even if

1364
03:59:06.239 --> 03:59:13.760
this background sounds either your side online is still going

1365
03:59:13.879 --> 03:59:18.920
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

1366
03:59:19.040 --> 03:59:24.200
television on, there's no music in the background, unless you're

1367
03:59:24.239 --> 03:59:31.760
listening to the recording with music. Of course, you're very

1368
03:59:32.000 --> 03:59:33.840
likely not going to be sitting in a room with

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other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

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more ideal if you can do this on your own,

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so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

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relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow,

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and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

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or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

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that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

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04:00:44.120 --> 04:00:50.959
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

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no effort into it. It's not something that you can

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really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

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the process of this recording and others is simply two

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allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

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04:01:32.360 --> 04:01:43.239
to just let go, to just be here, to be

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in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

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of what tend to relax deeply and maybe even to

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fall asleep, depending on what it is that you wish

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04:02:16.600 --> 04:02:30.479
for yourself in this moment. As we know, relaxing is

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the majority of the process of falling asleep. The actual

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falling asleep part is the tiny bit at the end.

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The deeper, relaxed. Do you become the easier you find

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yourself drifted, But you can also if you choose stay

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04:03:15.000 --> 04:03:34.319
focused on my voice and really enjoy the process, gradually

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04:03:39.920 --> 04:04:06.959
relaxing each muscle in your body effortlessly and just observing

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the sensation of letting go completely. This time, I'm going

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to count from six down to one, and you can

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notice your mind calming down more with each number that

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you hear me say. Naturally, E feel calm and sir,

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peaceful sex five four three four, being aware of how

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your mind has slowed right down, sinking deeply into relaxation.

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And as you focus on your mind, may notice that

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there are some thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts

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that for some reason perhaps need your attention. That's what

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04:09:10.360 --> 04:09:22.680
you can do is send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle

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04:09:23.360 --> 04:09:32.920
those thoughts with love. I at petals from a flower,

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Just sprinkle it over them, petals, feel good love towards

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04:09:41.000 --> 04:09:47.600
those thoughts, to let those thoughts know that you're not

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04:09:47.639 --> 04:09:53.799
abandon in them. You just need them. You require them

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04:09:56.600 --> 04:10:08.760
to just calm down, slow down, quiet down for now.

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So as you focus on those remaining thoughts as we

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count down this time, from seven down to one. With

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each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

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04:10:42.719 --> 04:10:54.559
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

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will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three, one,

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I'll let you know that is how relaxed you're feeling

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04:14:11.360 --> 04:14:26.959
in your body. We're going to focus on your hands,

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04:14:32.799 --> 04:14:39.120
because the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed

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04:14:39.319 --> 04:15:00.360
your body and mind are. This you focus on your

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04:15:00.520 --> 04:15:10.719
hands and your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done.

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There's no clenching of fists or dents in the fingers

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04:15:16.920 --> 04:15:30.479
or anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on

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04:15:30.680 --> 04:15:58.840
your hands, noticing how they feel. Because the more relaxed

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04:15:59.280 --> 04:16:09.000
your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and the

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04:16:09.319 --> 04:16:28.799
more comforts you feel throughout your body. J may have

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04:16:32.879 --> 04:17:11.719
already noticed you mind is starting to drift fix in

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04:17:15.879 --> 04:17:30.559
just on your hands and fingers, allowing them to experience

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04:17:33.280 --> 04:17:41.479
a real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers,

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more and more relaxed with each number from eight down

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to one, you can almost feel that healing and relaxing,

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energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming e more

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relaxing with each number you hear, going down eight, down

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to one, drifting, drifting again starting wize no. Eight seven,

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threehhhhhhhh Just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing

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04:23:23.920 --> 04:23:34.920
to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

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This is your natural state of being. This is how

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you just normally feel when you take away all of

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that other stuff.

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That we add.

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You know, I think like stress and worry in and

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over thinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff. We

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04:24:20.959 --> 04:24:24.840
take that away, which is what we do. What we

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04:24:25.000 --> 04:24:38.799
do now you're left with a real sense of peacefulness,

1441
04:24:42.399 --> 04:24:50.799
which comes to you very quickly because ultimately it's just

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04:24:52.000 --> 04:25:04.360
a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's almost as if

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04:25:04.399 --> 04:25:08.799
you've got inside yourself and you've found a special place

1444
04:25:10.159 --> 04:25:22.600
where everything is peaceful, a place where you can film

1445
04:25:23.840 --> 04:25:33.200
relaxed and you're natural sense and comfort, a place where

1446
04:25:33.319 --> 04:25:42.840
you can be here, where you can accept yourself and

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04:25:43.000 --> 04:25:48.000
who you are, the place where you're not trying to

1448
04:25:50.239 --> 04:26:00.440
please anybody else, in a place where you can actually

1449
04:26:03.840 --> 04:26:08.760
not just love yourself, but in some ways more importantly,

1450
04:26:09.360 --> 04:26:26.440
you can like yourself, appreciate who you are, that sense

1451
04:26:26.559 --> 04:26:40.680
of gratitude. He's in the air around you. That's also

1452
04:26:40.840 --> 04:26:49.559
a place where you can actually feel the healing energy

1453
04:26:50.680 --> 04:27:04.120
soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into your body.

1454
04:27:09.239 --> 04:27:18.639
That healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling to each

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04:27:20.120 --> 04:27:30.920
every single part of your body, and you start to

1456
04:27:31.079 --> 04:27:38.639
realize that actually that healing energy, it's not just entered

1457
04:27:38.719 --> 04:27:50.239
into your brain, it's become part of your brain, and

1458
04:27:50.360 --> 04:28:02.120
the spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy, not

1459
04:28:02.479 --> 04:28:10.440
just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed and

1460
04:28:10.760 --> 04:28:23.239
healthy in this moment, but also you start to realize

1461
04:28:23.479 --> 04:28:33.399
that actually what's happening now without a healing, relaxing energy

1462
04:28:34.319 --> 04:28:46.280
spreading through your body, is actually changing your life. It's

1463
04:28:46.360 --> 04:28:51.879
actually changing the way you're going to feel, not just now,

1464
04:28:53.719 --> 04:29:00.559
but tomorrow and the next day. There's your health in proofs,

1465
04:29:04.120 --> 04:29:11.440
not just your physical health, but your mental health. Things

1466
04:29:11.879 --> 04:29:17.079
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1467
04:29:18.280 --> 04:29:25.840
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1468
04:29:25.959 --> 04:29:37.639
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

1469
04:29:37.680 --> 04:29:48.120
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

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04:29:49.040 --> 04:29:57.040
power to control you the way they seem to be

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able to before as you realize that you're the one

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04:30:08.239 --> 04:30:20.000
who decides what affects you, You're the one who decides

1473
04:30:22.799 --> 04:30:33.840
to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

1474
04:30:35.399 --> 04:30:50.920
noticing these natural developments of healing, continuing to grow and

1475
04:30:51.120 --> 04:31:02.440
improve your life day by day, including of course, your

1476
04:31:02.559 --> 04:31:19.920
ability to relax so much easier than sleeping. It's the

1477
04:31:20.040 --> 04:31:30.879
most natural thing in the world to you because falling

1478
04:31:30.959 --> 04:31:39.399
asleep is something that you've done so many times in

1479
04:31:39.559 --> 04:31:46.680
your life, and you know that you were born, as

1480
04:31:46.760 --> 04:31:53.120
we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

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04:31:57.360 --> 04:32:09.159
We're born with that ability to just drift off into

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04:32:09.319 --> 04:32:22.200
a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids. Sometimes we'll

1483
04:32:22.319 --> 04:32:26.600
fall asleep when we don't even want to try to

1484
04:32:26.680 --> 04:32:31.319
think of stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

1485
04:32:31.479 --> 04:32:35.799
or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

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04:32:36.360 --> 04:32:40.440
We don't want to go to sleep. But the more

1487
04:32:41.000 --> 04:32:45.879
we want to stay awake, the more we just start

1488
04:32:46.000 --> 04:32:54.319
to drift. And the more you fight to drifting, we

1489
04:32:54.520 --> 04:33:00.639
try to stop yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper stronger

1490
04:33:00.799 --> 04:33:11.959
that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with the

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04:33:12.240 --> 04:33:21.639
need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep. But

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04:33:21.720 --> 04:33:36.040
it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA. And sometimes,

1493
04:33:36.200 --> 04:33:41.560
as we get older in life, perhaps at times we

1494
04:33:41.919 --> 04:33:55.520
have forgotten that relaxing completely is not only a wonderfully

1495
04:33:55.919 --> 04:34:19.919
pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very easy

1496
04:34:21.319 --> 04:34:25.360
to let go, because that's all it is. It is

1497
04:34:25.599 --> 04:34:40.240
just deciding to let go. And when you press the

1498
04:34:40.360 --> 04:34:50.759
play button on my recordings, you have given permission for

1499
04:34:50.919 --> 04:34:59.319
my voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

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04:35:00.319 --> 04:35:08.759
you have given me permission for my words to effect

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04:35:11.240 --> 04:35:23.080
you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

1502
04:35:28.279 --> 04:35:46.560
your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

1503
04:35:51.080 --> 04:35:58.520
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

1504
04:36:03.279 --> 04:36:13.119
as well as those changes that continue long after the

1505
04:36:13.240 --> 04:36:23.880
recording ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

1506
04:36:24.759 --> 04:36:39.319
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

1507
04:36:42.439 --> 04:36:49.479
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

1508
04:36:49.599 --> 04:37:06.840
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

1509
04:37:07.159 --> 04:37:22.759
feeling that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness, just

1510
04:37:23.000 --> 04:37:36.639
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

1511
04:37:44.560 --> 04:37:58.319
and that positivity pros within you each and every day,

1512
04:38:01.400 --> 04:38:11.159
moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

1513
04:38:13.520 --> 04:38:26.000
physically and in your mind's more relaxed. And it's not

1514
04:38:26.159 --> 04:38:31.759
that you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind will

1515
04:38:31.840 --> 04:38:43.919
be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on,

1516
04:38:44.599 --> 04:38:54.240
your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to

1517
04:38:54.400 --> 04:39:11.240
start noticing when negativity rises, and you can just say stop, stop,

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04:39:14.119 --> 04:39:20.880
and then negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1519
04:39:28.880 --> 04:39:48.200
Stop and then negativity would disappear. And that you notice

1520
04:39:48.479 --> 04:39:56.840
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

1521
04:40:03.000 --> 04:40:12.560
You can now congratulate yourself because you're the person that

1522
04:40:12.680 --> 04:40:18.799
has done this. You are the one that has opened

1523
04:40:19.000 --> 04:40:26.720
your mind up to the simple facts that you can

1524
04:40:27.200 --> 04:40:31.759
feel more relaxed in your body and in your mind.

1525
04:40:38.000 --> 04:40:43.880
You've opened your mind up to the birthright of being

1526
04:40:43.959 --> 04:41:00.799
able to just fall asleep easily when you choose. And

1527
04:41:00.919 --> 04:41:07.880
that's a nice feeling. Don't you think it feels nice?

1528
04:41:08.000 --> 04:41:17.360
Doesn't it? To feel calm? All that healing energy is

1529
04:41:17.479 --> 04:41:28.319
spreading through your body and your mind to spend time

1530
04:41:28.560 --> 04:41:39.360
in a special place where negativity can no longer enter.

1531
04:41:45.840 --> 04:41:55.040
Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's not allowed entryue doesn't.

1532
04:41:55.319 --> 04:41:58.759
It doesn't. This doesn't deserve to be here, It doesn't

1533
04:41:58.919 --> 04:42:17.639
belong here. Negativity has no place in your life, which

1534
04:42:17.799 --> 04:42:32.520
makes room for more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace.

1535
04:42:49.400 --> 04:43:15.119
It feels nice, doesn't it? Just let go everything. I'm

1536
04:43:15.159 --> 04:43:22.799
gonna count down now from twenty down to one. You

1537
04:43:22.919 --> 04:43:32.840
can continue to relax. If you choose, you can drift

1538
04:43:34.040 --> 04:43:47.279
to sleep with every number you hear me say, you

1539
04:43:47.400 --> 04:43:54.759
can fill twice as relaxed, or if you choose, you

1540
04:43:54.880 --> 04:45:12.720
can fill twice sleeping now. Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, four, ten, thirteen,

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two eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six five. Why did

1542
04:46:59.799 --> 04:47:09.720
you all time to just take a break, your time

1543
04:47:10.080 --> 04:47:28.880
to relax, to allow your mind to slow down, to

1544
04:47:29.080 --> 04:47:47.639
give yourself permission to take a break from everything. And

1545
04:47:47.840 --> 04:47:52.080
you you're the only person that can make that decision.

1546
04:47:54.959 --> 04:47:57.680
You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

1547
04:48:02.880 --> 04:48:26.959
just relax, to just take some time off so that

1548
04:48:27.119 --> 04:48:32.080
you can focus on your body, getting in touch with

1549
04:48:33.279 --> 04:48:49.560
how you feel physically and in the process of this

1550
04:48:49.919 --> 04:48:54.840
body scared where you focus on different parts of your body,

1551
04:49:01.279 --> 04:49:08.680
those parts that you focus on and observe even though

1552
04:49:08.880 --> 04:49:17.040
you're not purposely requesting for those parts of your body

1553
04:49:17.240 --> 04:49:25.680
to relax. It's kind of expected. You expect when you

1554
04:49:25.880 --> 04:49:38.959
listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because

1555
04:49:39.040 --> 04:49:48.799
when you're listening to me, your attention is focused on

1556
04:49:49.040 --> 04:50:05.000
my words, and as my words guide you focus on

1557
04:50:05.240 --> 04:50:20.439
those parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually

1558
04:50:23.319 --> 04:50:40.959
calms your mind. And when your mind calms down, your

1559
04:50:41.080 --> 04:51:06.040
body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes.

1560
04:51:13.560 --> 04:51:21.040
And even though I've not really started to focus on

1561
04:51:21.240 --> 04:51:34.680
your body, you can already feel that healing energy spreading

1562
04:51:34.880 --> 04:51:54.240
through your body, pushing out stress and tension, healing all

1563
04:51:54.319 --> 04:52:00.799
the parts of your body, including your skin, your bones,

1564
04:52:02.360 --> 04:52:08.560
your blood, all of your workings inside your body, all

1565
04:52:08.639 --> 04:52:15.159
of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

1566
04:52:17.000 --> 04:52:23.200
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

1567
04:52:31.200 --> 04:52:46.959
And when your brain fills with that healing energy, the

1568
04:52:47.200 --> 04:53:11.919
feeling of comfort relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way

1569
04:53:12.119 --> 04:53:25.880
that in your mind starts to fill perhaps bit to

1570
04:53:26.080 --> 04:53:41.759
rousing because it's not needed, and it may start to

1571
04:53:42.040 --> 04:53:57.840
drift if that's what's needed. So if you're listening to this,

1572
04:54:00.119 --> 04:54:04.200
what you need is deep relaxation. That's what you get.

1573
04:54:06.400 --> 04:54:07.840
If what you need is.

1574
04:54:09.520 --> 04:54:16.520
To fall asleep naturally and easily, that your mind drifts,

1575
04:54:19.040 --> 04:54:32.799
that's also what will happened because by pressing that play

1576
04:54:32.919 --> 04:54:39.200
button on the podcast and listening to me, give permission

1577
04:54:41.240 --> 04:54:51.799
your body and your mind. In fact, you give the

1578
04:54:51.959 --> 04:55:00.880
command to your body and your mind to relax deeply

1579
04:55:04.759 --> 04:55:09.639
and to drift off to sleep if that's what you

1580
04:55:10.479 --> 04:55:14.880
want or need.

1581
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Them.

1582
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As I focus on the different parts of your body,

1583
04:55:32.959 --> 04:55:41.759
you may start to just drift. And then you come

1584
04:55:41.880 --> 04:55:46.439
back again and you hear me talk again, and I'm

1585
04:55:46.560 --> 04:55:55.680
focusing on a different part of your body, you may

1586
04:55:57.840 --> 04:56:07.959
find yourself drifting being realize you're drifting. Until you stop drifting,

1587
04:56:10.240 --> 04:56:16.799
drew a laugh again to my voice, focusing on a

1588
04:56:16.959 --> 04:56:21.759
different part of your body starts to relax in a

1589
04:56:21.959 --> 04:56:34.200
deeper because that drifting, it's basically here already in the

1590
04:56:34.400 --> 04:56:45.200
sleep zone. And the more you drift, the longer you drift,

1591
04:56:46.880 --> 04:56:57.360
the longer you drift. Eventually, that drifting continues into sleep,

1592
04:57:02.360 --> 04:57:07.240
and that's the last you remember until you wake up.

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In your own time.

1594
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When you experience the right amount of sleep. Fear because

1595
04:57:22.919 --> 04:57:27.799
when you do and if you don't fall asleep. It's

1596
04:57:30.439 --> 04:57:55.639
extremely pleasant, so relaxing so deep here sleep, I feel

1597
04:57:55.880 --> 04:58:08.520
so nice to relax your own body and mind. If

1598
04:58:08.639 --> 04:58:16.319
you feel that heating imagy is spreading through you, relaxing

1599
04:58:16.560 --> 04:58:26.000
us so deeply, relasse.

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So deeply.

1601
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Start to focus on your eyes, moving down to your jaw,

1602
04:58:59.840 --> 05:00:07.759
m down to think you shoulders as thinks chest stop, spine,

1603
05:00:15.080 --> 05:01:14.439
your hips, your ex fainties spreading grimeside your body, feeling

1604
05:01:14.639 --> 05:01:26.200
you up. Now let's focus again on parts of your body.

1605
05:01:30.959 --> 05:01:40.799
Focusing this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth,

1606
05:01:42.040 --> 05:01:59.959
your lips, your tongue, the whole of your mouth. Mm hmm.

1607
05:02:01.680 --> 05:02:13.560
Focusing on your fingers. Maybe you could move your fingers

1608
05:02:13.599 --> 05:02:18.720
a little bits. You can focus on each one individually,

1609
05:02:24.959 --> 05:02:32.159
both hands and even though if you focus on both

1610
05:02:32.200 --> 05:02:37.680
of your hands now they almost seemed to just melt

1611
05:02:37.759 --> 05:02:47.400
into one. Where is your right hand, start left hand,

1612
05:02:47.520 --> 05:03:02.759
and almost as if just mixed together. Now focusing on

1613
05:03:02.840 --> 05:03:30.799
your knees, just noticing how your knees help. Now focusing

1614
05:03:31.360 --> 05:03:44.520
on your helpers, focusing on both your elbows, just absurd

1615
05:03:46.799 --> 05:04:21.720
the feeling of your helpers. You say, I'm sad act

1616
05:04:33.240 --> 05:05:09.279
and change a s.

1617
05:05:12.479 --> 05:06:35.000
eCos it's a cup of sensation. As I just say, now.

1618
05:06:37.680 --> 05:07:35.040
You tis you faint, you ts f right now, ninety

1619
05:07:35.360 --> 05:08:16.799
cents hign soil, body fails noticing your mind feels now

1620
05:08:34.919 --> 05:09:00.479
lett him go, lett him go, letting go if everything,

1621
05:09:08.680 --> 05:09:50.400
letting go, letting go, leting go everything everything. I'm going

1622
05:09:50.439 --> 05:09:54.400
to start now, and I'd like you just, first of all,

1623
05:09:54.560 --> 05:10:00.759
just to see yourself lying down on the my such table,

1624
05:10:02.560 --> 05:10:06.919
lying on your front. Your head is supported, your arms

1625
05:10:07.279 --> 05:10:16.400
are supported, and you feel comfortable, and breathing is really easy,

1626
05:10:18.680 --> 05:10:25.240
and you feel you feel confident in how you look

1627
05:10:25.319 --> 05:10:28.919
as well. So there's none of that issue of body

1628
05:10:29.040 --> 05:10:37.799
problems or shyness because I'm a professional and this is

1629
05:10:38.400 --> 05:10:43.560
a therapy session, so none of that stuff matters whatsoever.

1630
05:10:47.439 --> 05:10:53.919
This is about you. This is about how you feel

1631
05:10:54.560 --> 05:11:01.360
and how you can enjoy. That's sense of comfort and

1632
05:11:01.520 --> 05:11:08.759
relaxation that comes from letting go and allowing my hands

1633
05:11:09.599 --> 05:11:17.119
and my fingers to relax you by messaging your body.

1634
05:11:22.240 --> 05:11:24.439
So I want to start off just by placing my

1635
05:11:24.639 --> 05:11:31.479
hands on the back of your head, just gently, just

1636
05:11:31.759 --> 05:11:36.400
you can feel my hands feel like really on you,

1637
05:11:40.880 --> 05:11:43.240
so you can maybe feel the warmth of my hands

1638
05:11:43.319 --> 05:11:48.759
on the back of your head with my hands to

1639
05:11:48.840 --> 05:11:52.799
the side of your head, not pressing, but just holding

1640
05:11:53.000 --> 05:11:59.000
there very gently, maybe over your ears, and a little

1641
05:11:59.040 --> 05:12:02.279
bit on your face. Ye, just so you can feel

1642
05:12:03.159 --> 05:12:18.159
my hands, so you can become accustomed to them. And

1643
05:12:18.279 --> 05:12:20.560
now put my hands on the back of your head

1644
05:12:20.560 --> 05:12:28.040
again and gently let them slide down onto the back

1645
05:12:28.080 --> 05:12:45.560
of your neck. You can feel my hands gently stroking

1646
05:12:45.680 --> 05:12:52.159
the back of your neck to start with, just so

1647
05:12:52.279 --> 05:12:56.680
you can get used to the feeling of my hands

1648
05:12:56.720 --> 05:13:04.319
on your skin, get accustomed to it. Realize that you're

1649
05:13:04.439 --> 05:13:14.439
safe and it's all good, it's all fine, And I'm

1650
05:13:14.439 --> 05:13:18.680
want to start gently massaging the muscles in the back

1651
05:13:18.720 --> 05:13:34.439
of your neck with both hands. And this is a

1652
05:13:34.560 --> 05:13:41.560
very trusting situation really, because our necks are so fragile

1653
05:13:42.880 --> 05:13:46.279
and to have someone have their hands around your neck

1654
05:13:47.080 --> 05:13:52.439
in that way can sometimes be problematic for people, which

1655
05:13:52.520 --> 05:13:56.799
is why massages are quite good, because it allows you

1656
05:13:56.959 --> 05:14:11.040
to relax and to get in touch with trust, to

1657
05:14:11.159 --> 05:14:23.720
feel peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides of

1658
05:14:23.840 --> 05:14:31.720
your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

1659
05:14:33.439 --> 05:14:35.919
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start.

1660
05:14:36.000 --> 05:14:42.680
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your

1661
05:14:42.759 --> 05:14:49.279
ears kind of area, the side of your neck. Of course,

1662
05:14:49.279 --> 05:14:51.799
it's a lot longer than the front of your neck.

1663
05:15:04.840 --> 05:15:11.880
The message in the back of your neck, especially that

1664
05:15:12.119 --> 05:15:21.560
area where perhaps we hold tension, and there's that area's message.

1665
05:15:21.919 --> 05:15:26.000
You can actually feel a sense of release in the

1666
05:15:26.080 --> 05:15:33.959
back of your neck and maybe you can breathe it

1667
05:15:34.080 --> 05:15:40.040
out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

1668
05:15:49.880 --> 05:15:53.520
They're moving down to that area between your neck and

1669
05:15:53.599 --> 05:16:03.720
your shoulders, that musty area, start into message that area

1670
05:16:03.799 --> 05:16:08.119
on both sides. I mean, this would be the area

1671
05:16:08.240 --> 05:16:10.799
that a lot of people would message if they were

1672
05:16:10.880 --> 05:16:15.799
going to give you, like a shoulder message. Even that's

1673
05:16:16.200 --> 05:16:19.599
not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles that

1674
05:16:19.799 --> 05:16:25.959
lead to the shoulders from the neck and a game

1675
05:16:26.119 --> 05:16:33.119
that can hold tension and stress, and when massaged sometimes

1676
05:16:33.200 --> 05:16:40.200
a nice deep message is useful. And you decide how

1677
05:16:40.400 --> 05:16:58.360
deep that message is, and just allow my knuckles just

1678
05:16:58.479 --> 05:17:02.560
to dig in to get to those muscles and to

1679
05:17:02.840 --> 05:17:13.520
realy relaxed and all the time being firm yet gentle

1680
05:17:15.000 --> 05:17:32.720
with you and just stroking down the area to your

1681
05:17:32.799 --> 05:17:44.560
actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders and

1682
05:17:44.759 --> 05:17:49.479
maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little bit

1683
05:17:49.680 --> 05:17:52.919
off the table, just to give you a little bit

1684
05:17:52.959 --> 05:18:03.919
of a stretch very gently, and you've got the muscles

1685
05:18:03.959 --> 05:18:07.319
at the front of your shoulders, the sides and the

1686
05:18:07.439 --> 05:18:19.880
back again. This is a part that can really take

1687
05:18:20.000 --> 05:18:27.360
quite a bit of pressure, quite a bit of needing.

1688
05:18:27.799 --> 05:18:35.919
If if you wish to really release the tension to

1689
05:18:36.080 --> 05:18:42.119
really get into those muscles, and you can let your

1690
05:18:42.279 --> 05:18:48.720
fingers in there. They can feel really nice. Sometimes it's

1691
05:18:48.840 --> 05:18:59.279
just being stroked gently or being messaged quite strongly. It

1692
05:18:59.400 --> 05:19:08.680
can all be an official to the renorversation with the

1693
05:19:08.799 --> 05:19:22.279
muscles in your shoulders. Now you move down your arms.

1694
05:19:28.880 --> 05:19:32.400
Were doing one arm at a time, starting with your

1695
05:19:32.520 --> 05:19:42.759
right arm. What I'll do is I just lift your

1696
05:19:42.919 --> 05:19:45.680
arm up, just hold it to the side of you.

1697
05:19:48.880 --> 05:19:55.279
Don't words still be attached, and I just message the

1698
05:19:55.439 --> 05:20:08.279
tops of your arms all the way down to your

1699
05:20:08.479 --> 05:20:35.479
forearms into your wrists, gently massaging that parts, the softer

1700
05:20:35.639 --> 05:20:41.919
part which is the under part of the arm, which

1701
05:20:42.080 --> 05:20:47.000
leads to the crease in your elbow. The inside. It's

1702
05:20:47.200 --> 05:21:01.159
much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just have and that stroked.

1703
05:21:04.439 --> 05:21:19.959
I feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down

1704
05:21:21.360 --> 05:21:33.720
to your right hand, just holding your hand in both

1705
05:21:33.799 --> 05:21:43.400
of my hands, just pressing gently on the back of

1706
05:21:43.479 --> 05:21:54.799
your hand, stretching your fingers ever slightly at the same

1707
05:21:54.959 --> 05:22:10.439
time pressing down and messaging finger and then starting to

1708
05:22:10.680 --> 05:22:21.959
massage the palms and the hand. Just turning the hand gently,

1709
05:22:23.759 --> 05:22:33.959
stretching it gently, and actually having your handheld can really

1710
05:22:34.119 --> 05:22:41.599
be an emotional experience sometimes, even if it is a stranger,

1711
05:22:43.560 --> 05:22:47.959
someone you don't know very well, like a massage person

1712
05:22:48.240 --> 05:23:02.000
or a therapist. Maybe because it's intimate, you can feel nice,

1713
05:23:04.639 --> 05:23:14.919
you can feel safe. And as I put that right

1714
05:23:15.200 --> 05:23:23.520
arm back down where it was, I did the same

1715
05:23:23.680 --> 05:23:35.279
with your left arm, exactly the same massage and the

1716
05:23:35.400 --> 05:23:40.880
muscles in your arm all the way down, do you arrest,

1717
05:23:45.040 --> 05:23:54.840
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle, was

1718
05:23:54.919 --> 05:24:08.880
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

1719
05:24:15.400 --> 05:24:25.439
stretching the fingers, gently, massaging the palm of your left hand.

1720
05:24:37.639 --> 05:25:05.680
You feel so so relaxing, so comforting. And I'll just

1721
05:25:05.880 --> 05:25:17.720
rest your left down back down the start to message

1722
05:25:18.240 --> 05:25:28.040
your back, the biggest part of your body, starting at

1723
05:25:28.080 --> 05:25:35.000
the top, starting again where you would have been the

1724
05:25:35.200 --> 05:25:40.159
area at the top in between your shoulders near your neck,

1725
05:25:41.880 --> 05:25:46.319
going back and massage in the area again and this

1726
05:25:46.680 --> 05:26:00.400
time moving downwards, taking it downward, stroke to it'll look

1727
05:26:00.439 --> 05:26:08.799
your back, working from the outside inwards. Massage in that

1728
05:26:11.080 --> 05:26:20.680
your back, but the outsides of your back, the parts

1729
05:26:23.360 --> 05:26:36.200
where your arms will maybe rest against, almost the path

1730
05:26:36.319 --> 05:26:49.720
that connects your front to your back. Just massaging down

1731
05:26:51.919 --> 05:27:01.200
firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving down

1732
05:27:01.439 --> 05:27:05.000
and then moving across a little bed and moving all

1733
05:27:05.040 --> 05:27:11.279
the way down again, be very gentle yet firm as

1734
05:27:11.400 --> 05:27:23.000
you choose. Eventually we get to the spine. We can

1735
05:27:23.159 --> 05:27:28.000
message the muscles and either side of your spine from

1736
05:27:28.040 --> 05:27:33.680
the top of your neck all the way down to

1737
05:27:33.799 --> 05:27:42.560
your lower back. We can do that a few times.

1738
05:27:45.639 --> 05:27:53.000
Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know, two

1739
05:27:53.159 --> 05:27:58.959
fingers and just go either side of the spine almost

1740
05:27:59.400 --> 05:28:02.319
just push down. You go all the way down to

1741
05:28:02.400 --> 05:28:10.360
the bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and

1742
05:28:10.680 --> 05:28:19.680
opening up the body, stretching your body so that you

1743
05:28:19.919 --> 05:28:38.159
feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And

1744
05:28:38.319 --> 05:28:41.639
now I'm going to move to one side, to your

1745
05:28:41.759 --> 05:28:50.799
right side, and from the bottom of your ribs to

1746
05:28:51.000 --> 05:28:56.919
your pelvis, I'm going to message that area of your back.

1747
05:28:58.880 --> 05:29:02.000
I'll stretch over the other side and I will pull

1748
05:29:02.159 --> 05:29:08.560
the muscles gently and massage and push from one end

1749
05:29:09.080 --> 05:29:13.200
that side all the way to my side to the

1750
05:29:13.319 --> 05:29:18.880
middle of fact to where your spine is. Massaging that

1751
05:29:19.159 --> 05:29:23.840
side of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

1752
05:29:26.240 --> 05:29:32.240
It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big area which

1753
05:29:32.319 --> 05:29:44.080
is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of

1754
05:29:44.119 --> 05:29:50.759
the most important places to actually have a message because

1755
05:29:50.840 --> 05:29:56.680
you really feel it. You really feel the release and

1756
05:29:56.840 --> 05:30:05.000
the pleasure of having your lower ba massaged. It releases

1757
05:30:05.360 --> 05:30:13.639
so much from your body that's not useful, starting a

1758
05:30:13.840 --> 05:30:19.880
healing process which will continue long after this recording is over.

1759
05:30:29.240 --> 05:30:32.080
The message in this part of your body not only

1760
05:30:32.240 --> 05:30:37.000
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

1761
05:30:38.439 --> 05:30:44.119
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

1762
05:30:44.159 --> 05:30:48.000
a part that you can really get hold of and

1763
05:30:48.200 --> 05:31:01.840
really massage deeply. If that's your choice. They're not going

1764
05:31:01.880 --> 05:31:03.880
to move over to the other side of your body

1765
05:31:04.400 --> 05:31:13.119
and do the same with the opposite part of your

1766
05:31:13.200 --> 05:31:20.479
lower back. Kneeding and messaging from your sides all away

1767
05:31:24.919 --> 05:31:27.639
to the middle of your back where your spine is

1768
05:31:32.080 --> 05:31:41.319
pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at the same time.

1769
05:31:43.279 --> 05:31:55.799
It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

1770
05:31:56.159 --> 05:32:07.799
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

1771
05:32:07.880 --> 05:32:13.040
stomach as it's been stretched. Even though you're in your

1772
05:32:13.119 --> 05:32:17.400
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because the

1773
05:32:17.560 --> 05:32:28.959
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

1774
05:32:29.040 --> 05:32:33.919
to move or move further up to your top of

1775
05:32:34.000 --> 05:32:38.479
your body, and I we do the same this time,

1776
05:32:39.759 --> 05:32:46.560
starting with your upper back. Put my hands forward over

1777
05:32:47.880 --> 05:32:54.080
and messive massage in that area up to your spine,

1778
05:32:55.240 --> 05:32:57.840
from the side of your body up to your spine,

1779
05:32:59.599 --> 05:33:06.720
so that message area, the muscle tissue or whatever fatty

1780
05:33:06.799 --> 05:33:12.080
tissue even will be possibly from your chest because it's

1781
05:33:12.119 --> 05:33:19.119
all connected. The chest and the back connect together. I'm

1782
05:33:19.159 --> 05:33:22.360
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

1783
05:33:22.599 --> 05:33:33.319
skin from your side up and massaging the area of

1784
05:33:33.439 --> 05:33:41.880
your upper back all the way to your spine. And

1785
05:33:42.000 --> 05:33:44.720
then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue with

1786
05:33:44.880 --> 05:33:47.720
the middle of your back, doing exactly the same thing

1787
05:33:51.599 --> 05:34:05.080
as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now I'll

1788
05:34:05.159 --> 05:34:09.240
move from the other side again and do the exact

1789
05:34:09.479 --> 05:34:13.200
same thing with the top of your back on the

1790
05:34:13.279 --> 05:34:22.799
other side, from pretty much underneath your arm area really

1791
05:34:28.240 --> 05:34:35.799
to your spine, and then continue.

1792
05:34:35.240 --> 05:34:35.479
In that.

1793
05:34:37.560 --> 05:34:42.360
All the way down, including your lower your middle of

1794
05:34:42.400 --> 05:35:00.520
your back. Now I'm gonna go to your thighs, the

1795
05:35:00.639 --> 05:35:05.919
backs of your thighs, and the sides of your thighs,

1796
05:35:10.159 --> 05:35:19.119
starting with your right leg. Massage in the back and

1797
05:35:19.240 --> 05:35:27.799
the sides of your thighs gently and firmly. There's a

1798
05:35:27.919 --> 05:35:31.279
lot of muscles there. It's an area that can be

1799
05:35:31.479 --> 05:35:35.720
very tense at times and maybe needs a little bit

1800
05:35:35.799 --> 05:35:39.400
more pressure than the rest of the body that's up

1801
05:35:39.479 --> 05:35:49.639
to you. You can gently strike the back of your

1802
05:35:49.759 --> 05:35:55.639
legs where you know, opposite your knee joint or underneath

1803
05:35:55.680 --> 05:36:09.080
your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area, and working down

1804
05:36:09.360 --> 05:36:17.599
to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly

1805
05:36:18.080 --> 05:36:31.360
and deeply, if you choose, using both hands fingers, digging

1806
05:36:31.479 --> 05:36:45.439
deep to your ankles and the back of your back

1807
05:36:45.479 --> 05:36:57.000
of your ankles, just generally message in that area, maybe

1808
05:36:59.720 --> 05:37:02.880
lift in the leg and stretching it a little bit.

1809
05:37:13.000 --> 05:37:28.159
Moving to the right foot, massage in the bottom of

1810
05:37:28.240 --> 05:37:42.599
your feet and the size of your feet, gently but

1811
05:37:43.639 --> 05:37:55.080
firm enough so they don't tickle. Just allow the pleasure

1812
05:37:55.159 --> 05:38:00.720
that you get from having your feet massaged to just

1813
05:38:00.880 --> 05:38:09.799
overtake you. As I continue to message your feet, the

1814
05:38:09.880 --> 05:38:17.720
bottoms of your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel.

1815
05:38:20.159 --> 05:38:22.360
You can put a lot of pressure into your heel

1816
05:38:23.159 --> 05:38:28.159
and it feels amazing. Yet the arches need to be

1817
05:38:28.279 --> 05:38:39.959
a bit more gentle. Stretching your toes gently and message

1818
05:38:40.040 --> 05:38:46.080
in the bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each

1819
05:38:46.200 --> 05:38:59.799
one individually. Moving over to the left leg to do

1820
05:39:00.080 --> 05:39:08.759
exactly the same thing. Starting at the top of the thighs,

1821
05:39:10.959 --> 05:39:13.520
work in the back of the thighs and the sides,

1822
05:39:15.159 --> 05:39:25.560
massaging deeply and gently the whole area, working all the

1823
05:39:25.599 --> 05:39:38.439
way down. And this is an area that maybe you

1824
05:39:38.520 --> 05:39:46.880
could like to spend more time relaxing and massaging. Perhaps

1825
05:39:47.759 --> 05:39:52.240
if you wanted, I could make a future recording. I

1826
05:39:52.319 --> 05:40:01.159
want spend more time on one particular area. As you

1827
05:40:01.319 --> 05:40:13.720
moved down to your calf muscles, Massage in your calf

1828
05:40:13.840 --> 05:40:29.720
muscles firmly and gently, moved down your ankle into your feet,

1829
05:40:31.599 --> 05:40:37.319
Massage in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of

1830
05:40:37.400 --> 05:40:47.400
your feet, stretching your toes and massage in each toe individually,

1831
05:40:50.000 --> 05:40:55.840
and that feeling of pleasure and release. The experience when

1832
05:40:55.919 --> 05:41:18.040
you're having your feet massaged feels really good. Now, she'd

1833
05:41:18.080 --> 05:41:29.439
turn over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm

1834
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just gonna start again with your nick area in your shoulders,

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05:41:46.959 --> 05:41:57.360
just to get back in touch with that area and

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05:41:57.520 --> 05:42:08.959
lets you move up. I can clean my hands a

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05:42:09.000 --> 05:42:12.799
bit the more fresh because now I'm gonna message your

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05:42:12.880 --> 05:42:29.279
face simply starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed,

1839
05:42:30.639 --> 05:42:36.479
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

1840
05:42:36.599 --> 05:42:53.439
up on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp, massaging

1841
05:42:53.680 --> 05:43:03.919
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw, shiply

1842
05:43:08.880 --> 05:43:27.319
the side of your neck chin. They're just moving down

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05:43:31.479 --> 05:43:38.959
from your neck down to your chest, starting by message

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05:43:39.040 --> 05:43:45.880
in the very top of your chest where the collar

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05:43:45.959 --> 05:43:59.200
bone is. Give a side of the collarbone, and then

1846
05:43:59.400 --> 05:44:11.720
just mess sides in the hole of the chest, moving

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05:44:11.799 --> 05:44:25.400
the chest around because it's quite a large area. You

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05:44:25.479 --> 05:44:33.200
can move from one side to the next, moving my

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05:44:33.400 --> 05:44:46.840
hands underneath pretty much your arms are stretching up, stretching

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05:44:46.959 --> 05:44:49.360
some of the muscles of your back in the process,

1851
05:44:54.680 --> 05:45:03.319
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again,

1852
05:45:16.080 --> 05:45:21.560
then allowing my hands to just massage gently and slide

1853
05:45:21.840 --> 05:45:28.360
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

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05:45:31.799 --> 05:45:38.479
and then gradually my hands moving apart and massage in

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05:45:38.639 --> 05:45:47.959
and sliding at the same time, moving down to just

1856
05:45:48.080 --> 05:46:03.599
below your red cage, moving down and then messaging up again,

1857
05:46:06.400 --> 05:46:14.279
giving your chest all the attention that it needs to

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05:46:14.479 --> 05:46:26.720
feel completely relaxed, remembering that I'm also going to be

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05:46:26.840 --> 05:46:32.840
focusing on your sides as well, an area that really

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05:46:33.119 --> 05:46:40.680
doesn't get much attention but feels really good when it's massaged.

1861
05:46:45.599 --> 05:46:49.599
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

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05:46:53.439 --> 05:46:56.840
just below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

1863
05:47:06.479 --> 05:47:12.479
Now move into your stomach area. We're gonna stand on

1864
05:47:12.599 --> 05:47:15.159
one side of you like I did when I dig

1865
05:47:15.200 --> 05:47:21.479
your lower back. I'm gonna do a similar process of

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05:47:21.680 --> 05:47:36.479
just stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging from

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05:47:36.560 --> 05:47:44.200
one side to the next. Move in the whole area

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05:47:45.240 --> 05:47:49.159
from below your ribs all the way down to below

1869
05:47:49.240 --> 05:47:58.840
your belly button. I'm gonna move around to the other

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05:47:58.959 --> 05:48:14.759
side of you and repeat that process of relaxing deeply, calmly.

1871
05:48:17.919 --> 05:48:25.080
You feel loose you feel free, and it's something about

1872
05:48:25.200 --> 05:48:30.040
having your stomach massage. It's different from any other part

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05:48:33.560 --> 05:48:38.080
because we do have a tendency of holding a different

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05:48:38.240 --> 05:48:42.240
kind of stress in your stomach that we may not

1875
05:48:42.360 --> 05:48:53.360
be aware of. There's an owl message your stomach. In

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05:48:53.520 --> 05:49:00.599
front of your stomach, they can circles around your belly

1877
05:49:00.639 --> 05:49:16.279
butttom and then going the other way around. The gentleness

1878
05:49:16.439 --> 05:49:22.439
and a freedom that comes from feeling how you're feeling.

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05:49:28.000 --> 05:49:35.159
As I now move down the tops of your thighs, muscles,

1880
05:49:35.759 --> 05:49:40.680
massaging them, and I can do this to your legs

1881
05:49:40.720 --> 05:49:51.400
at the same time, pressing down, messaging deeply those muscles

1882
05:49:51.479 --> 05:50:00.919
in your thighs, the front of your thighs, moving down

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05:50:01.159 --> 05:50:12.560
to your knees, gently messaging your knees, sliding down your shins,

1884
05:50:14.680 --> 05:50:22.000
putting pressure on either side of your shin gently softly

1885
05:50:22.680 --> 05:50:36.360
but firmly, moving down to your ankles, stroking the tops

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05:50:36.599 --> 05:50:47.279
of your feet, and then with each foot in each hand,

1887
05:50:48.159 --> 05:50:56.479
just gently messaging the whole of the foot, the top,

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05:50:56.759 --> 05:51:04.639
the bottom, your heel, your ankle, or your toes, message

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05:51:04.720 --> 05:51:14.040
in every part of your feet. Feels so good. Just

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05:51:14.200 --> 05:51:30.720
to let go and enjoy the process, enjoy feeling so

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05:51:31.080 --> 05:51:45.560
deeply relaxed, so much comfort, and so many feelings that

1892
05:51:45.759 --> 05:52:00.240
come just from touching your skin. And you can just

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05:52:01.400 --> 05:52:10.799
lie there for as long as you choose, enjoying the

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05:52:11.080 --> 05:52:29.319
feeling of deep comfort from being massaged by me, enjoy

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05:52:33.000 --> 05:52:54.759
feeling deeply rased. And all we're gonna do is blow

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out some candles. In your mind, there are going to

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05:53:11.159 --> 05:53:21.840
be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow each

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one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

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05:53:33.119 --> 05:53:40.479
As I count down all the way down to one,

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and each time I say a number, you can imagine

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05:53:53.959 --> 05:54:00.560
that candle in front of you and like you to

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05:54:00.720 --> 05:54:20.040
actually physically generally blow that candle out, just so it's

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05:54:20.080 --> 05:54:31.560
not big blows, just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish.

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And then I'll say the next number, So we moved

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down and you can just blow that one out as well.

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05:54:56.520 --> 05:55:05.080
And as we move down the numbers, you'll find yourself

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feeding more and more relaxed.

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If you need.

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To sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

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In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

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hundred of these candles as you feel more and more

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deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired. And the further

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you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

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You may find that you stop listening to me after

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05:56:43.119 --> 05:56:56.279
a while. And even though there maybe background sounds where

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05:56:56.319 --> 05:57:06.959
you are, you'll be aware of those sounds at the

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05:57:07.080 --> 05:57:28.080
moment he may start just not even notice them at

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all because they are unimportant. Where I am, I've got

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05:57:44.479 --> 05:57:51.479
the sounds of the birds, there's horrorst the pigeon who

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likes to say hello. Sometimes there's the odd playue that

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goes by, maybe traffic and trains in the distance, But

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none of that scenes important whatsoever, or candles you blow

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out less important anything is, or candles you blow out.

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The further you seem to move away from sounds, general

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05:59:06.439 --> 05:59:17.639
date days, stuff seems to just move away on its own.

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You feel more calmer with every candy blowout, guiding the

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05:59:48.479 --> 06:00:01.439
next number, did you hear me say? And then you

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blow that candle out to so easy, so simple. I'm

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gonna start by introducing the first candle.

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She is a hundred. First candle, she.

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Is one hundred. When you blow that candle out, you'll

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find immediately a slight change in how you feel, as

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well as a real sense of positivity growing within you,

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relaxation and sleepiness expanding Start and where one hundred do

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have a candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight, cand

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ninety seven, ninety six, camp ninety five, ninety four, candle

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ninety three, n two ninety one, candle ninety eight, two

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nine and eighty eight eight canto eights, eighty five, e.

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Eighty two two two one.

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US can.

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Seventy nine, can do seventy eight, can do seventy seven,

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candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle

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seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one,

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and seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

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candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle

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sixty three, candle sixty and sixty one candle sixty and St.

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Denie can do fifty eight, can fifty seven, fifty six,

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candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three, candle

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fifty two, candle fifty two, Can to one candle fifty one,

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candle fifty candle forty nine, candle forty eight, can forty seven,

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candle forty six, candle forty five, candle forty two, candle.

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Forty onehhhhhhhh.

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Z four.

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Candle thirty nine and thirty eight, Canto thirty seven, Canto

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thirty five, thirty four.

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Canto.

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Thirty three, handle thirty one, thirty and twoe ten nine.

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What do you ate?

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Candle twenty seven, candle twenty six, cant wit five ten

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no twenty three can do twenty tip two to wait

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y two candle seventeen candle six day WoT shh, he's

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one nine jam to eight hun two candle or let

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go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about the past,

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thoughts about the future, and even things you've been thinking

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about today. Just let it all go because none of

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it is useful in this moment. This is your opportunity

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to just focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get

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in touch with that natural sense of peace that we

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all have within us. It's available for everyone, It just

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sometimes takes a little bit of effort to set up

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the right time and place in order for you to

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just let go. Because when you do decide to let

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go and relax. That's what your body starts to do

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because you've chosen. You've chosen to just allow your body

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to unwind and your mind starts to slow down. And

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it's a nice feeling. It's a nice feeling at the beginning,

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just to know that you have chosen to decide to

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relax deeply, and because you've made that decision, your body

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will just follow suit. Because sometimes all the muscles in

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your body need is just permission from you to relax.

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Because so often we're busy, we're going from here to there,

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we're walking around, and we're doing stuff, and the body

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doesn't have any time or space to really relax deeply.

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So it kind of waits for you to lead the way,

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waits for your permission. And when you do give your permission,

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when you give to say so, when you say okay,

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it's time for your body to let go completely and

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relax totally, your body just follows. So like a breath

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of relief. Ah God, I can now relax. Have feeling

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at the end of a day, of very physical day

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that you may experience in the past, where you get

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home and you just sit down on a chair, maybe

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07:03:35.400 --> 07:03:39.880
you kick your shoes off and ah feels so nice.

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I know that you don't have to get up again

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for a little while at least, and if you choose,

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you can just sit there for maybe an hour to

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07:03:54.319 --> 07:04:06.560
feels blissful. And just by sitting down like that, your

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body knows that it's time to relax. Your body has

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been given permission from you. Because it's a mindset in

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07:04:19.360 --> 07:04:30.400
your mind, you're prepared to let go of everything and

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07:04:31.360 --> 07:04:39.759
just completely allow all the stress of your body to evaporate.

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Any tensions can just gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really,

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07:05:03.479 --> 07:05:10.479
because that sense of relaxation in your body, it's a

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07:05:10.599 --> 07:05:17.040
very natural state. It's not something unusual. It may feel

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07:05:17.159 --> 07:05:20.799
unusual when you first start to relax, if you if

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you haven't really spent a lot of time focusing and

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giving yourself this space to let go completely and relax

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07:05:31.400 --> 07:05:39.439
may seem almost alien, but it isn't. It's actually the

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07:05:39.599 --> 07:05:44.560
most natural thing in the world to let go completely,

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to relax totally, the most natural thing in the world

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to allow yourself to feel really calm in your mind.

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And it is almost like a literal unwinding. It's like

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you press a button and all the tension just releases,

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and it's like a wheel, like a cog, like the

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inside of a clock, just unwinding. And it's almost like

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you could see the little wind up knob that's used

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just going the opposite way that you choose to wind

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it up, and the energy that frenetic stress for energy

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gradually winding down, losing its power, believes in its strength

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as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and

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you may find a little more relaxed. You feel that

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your mind starts to wonder, maybe seem to stop listening

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to me for a while, your mind goes somewhere else,

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and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

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now it's just your mind drifting to sleep, which is

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07:07:51.000 --> 07:08:02.720
quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed intense, we may

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not actually be aware of what we need or we

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physically your emotionally need in this moment. But when you

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allow your body and mind to relax completely and you

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let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas all longngo

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allow them to drop onto the floor, you start to

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get in touch with the feelings of such relaxation. Feelings

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07:08:56.880 --> 07:09:05.119
so nice to be in touch the calmness of the

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different body parts as they become looser and looser. Even

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you breathe in seems easier and more natural, effortless as

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07:09:30.279 --> 07:09:36.200
I cool outs through your mouth or notice into your lungs,

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breathing in comforts and relaxation and then just breathing out

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any excess remain intentional stress from every part of your

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body and mind. As you start to focus on your mind,

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maybe you notice that things have come to a standstill,

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maybe just much much lower than before, because your mind

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07:10:24.599 --> 07:10:35.119
is not really needed when listening to my voice, which

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allows your mind to relax just as deeply as your body.

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And that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation

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of your mind. Let you know, feeling completely calm, loose,

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and relaxed is a great healing experience fear and has

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so many positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life.

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To be able to let go everything and to relax completely,

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you know, all parts of your body and mind, even

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your bones relaxed, Your muscles are relaxed, even the skin

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that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair that you

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have is also deeply relaxed, and your brain really starts

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to feel the benefits.

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Of this.

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Heathing relaxation. Unless you focus on the in the side

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of your scalp where your brain is, you can start

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to realize and notice the benefits of your brain woras

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in depay, and as your brain continues to reacts, sends

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those messages to the rest of your body and to

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your mind to rely works more deepayac silly.

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More.

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Completely, letting go of any remaining thoughts or concerns, allow

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them just to drop onto the floor because they are

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not necessary in this moment, this moment of deep relaxation

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and calmness. Feeling your brain with deep, concentrated healing, calming, relaxing,

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every part of your brain feeling so bus and comfortable,

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so relaxed and peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's

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so healthy. That sense of deep, deep comfort really does

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allow you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations of comfort

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that are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every

2071
07:16:28.080 --> 07:16:45.560
muscle of your body, deeper and deeper, much more deeper

2072
07:16:46.080 --> 07:17:04.400
than before, much more comfort spread through your body. Your mind.

2073
07:17:07.119 --> 07:17:09.040
Be so.

2074
07:17:10.919 --> 07:17:26.959
Peaceful and calm, so very very peaceful in avery part

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07:17:29.599 --> 07:17:48.279
of your body, Letting go of everything and everything so peaceful, calm,

2076
07:17:51.680 --> 07:18:07.040
so relaxed. Very second the passes you feel.

2077
07:18:09.080 --> 07:18:13.159
D d path.

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Relaxed, DPA and dper relax car So Carl, pace for

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07:18:43.080 --> 07:18:46.200
so very peace.

2080
07:18:48.919 --> 07:18:59.799
From your head bound to you. Tis such peace and comfort.

2081
07:19:01.599 --> 07:19:08.200
Growing all all the time, Such.

2082
07:19:08.599 --> 07:19:22.240
Peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind deeper

2083
07:19:22.639 --> 07:19:38.680
and deeper, Such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into ay

2084
07:19:39.119 --> 07:19:56.680
muscle your body. Sudenly, you feel amazing, so relaxed, So

2085
07:19:57.279 --> 07:20:23.080
be so so peaceful, letting go everything, Going to do

2086
07:20:23.360 --> 07:20:30.799
a body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel in

2087
07:20:30.880 --> 07:20:36.279
your body, not trying to change how you feel, not

2088
07:20:36.759 --> 07:20:41.520
trying to relax, not trying to move away from any

2089
07:20:41.599 --> 07:20:50.680
discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting

2090
07:20:51.319 --> 07:20:54.680
how you feel in the different parts of your body,

2091
07:20:56.639 --> 07:21:05.040
just allowing yourself to be exactly as you are, to

2092
07:21:05.279 --> 07:21:13.479
notice to get in touch with how you actually feel

2093
07:21:14.560 --> 07:21:25.479
in this moment. To start off by focusing on your hands.

2094
07:21:30.040 --> 07:21:37.759
Just be aware of your hands. I'd like you to

2095
07:21:37.959 --> 07:21:42.919
move your hands around, just maybe move your fingers a

2096
07:21:43.000 --> 07:21:49.360
little bit. I've been enclosed in your hands very gently,

2097
07:21:51.040 --> 07:21:56.680
just so th you can get in touch with how

2098
07:21:56.799 --> 07:22:11.000
your hands and your fingers fell very very slow movements.

2099
07:22:19.400 --> 07:22:27.159
Focusing now on your feet, and if you can just

2100
07:22:27.319 --> 07:22:32.439
do kind of an equivalent with your feet is you've

2101
07:22:32.639 --> 07:22:38.880
just done with your hands, Maybe turn in your ankles,

2102
07:22:40.840 --> 07:22:50.560
moving your feet around, moving your toes gently, only very

2103
07:22:52.599 --> 07:23:04.319
gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet feel in

2104
07:23:04.479 --> 07:23:17.759
this moment. Focusing now and your eyes, I'd like you

2105
07:23:18.000 --> 07:23:25.200
to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open

2106
07:23:25.279 --> 07:23:29.560
and close your eyes a couple of times to really

2107
07:23:29.759 --> 07:23:33.240
get in touch with how you feel when you do

2108
07:23:33.520 --> 07:23:41.840
close your eyes. The muscle changes in your eyes when

2109
07:23:41.880 --> 07:23:50.520
you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches

2110
07:23:50.880 --> 07:24:01.680
the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching

2111
07:24:01.799 --> 07:24:09.599
up your eyes, just so you can heallygain touch with

2112
07:24:09.880 --> 07:24:29.720
all aspects of how your eyes feel right now. Now

2113
07:24:29.919 --> 07:24:35.959
focusing on your thighs, then you know it just starts

2114
07:24:36.000 --> 07:24:43.959
you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2115
07:24:46.279 --> 07:24:56.959
just enough so you can become more attuned to the

2116
07:24:58.240 --> 07:25:06.720
physical sense of your upper legs, the front of your thighs,

2117
07:25:07.000 --> 07:25:18.040
and the backs of your thigh, noticing and observing how

2118
07:25:20.360 --> 07:25:35.400
your thighs feel right now. Moving your focus to the

2119
07:25:35.520 --> 07:25:42.400
back of your neck, just noticing the back of your neck,

2120
07:25:43.880 --> 07:25:49.159
the muscles, and of course they lead to the side

2121
07:25:49.240 --> 07:25:53.360
of your neck. They also lead to the top of

2122
07:25:53.439 --> 07:25:59.799
your back, which leads to your shoulders. So as your

2123
07:26:00.159 --> 07:26:05.840
focus on the back of your neck, maybe you can

2124
07:26:06.799 --> 07:26:12.319
move your head gently upwards as if you're looking up.

2125
07:26:14.279 --> 07:26:19.919
Maybe moving your head down as if you're looking down.

2126
07:26:23.040 --> 07:26:27.919
Perhaps moving your head side to side, right to left,

2127
07:26:29.840 --> 07:26:41.000
but only very slowly and very gently. I'm not trying

2128
07:26:41.040 --> 07:26:49.279
to force anything. It has to be very very gentle,

2129
07:26:52.319 --> 07:26:54.360
just so you can.

2130
07:26:55.880 --> 07:26:57.479
Be more.

2131
07:26:59.119 --> 07:27:08.520
In time with the feelings, with the sensations, the physical

2132
07:27:09.919 --> 07:27:16.840
sensations of how on the back of your neck feels.

2133
07:27:18.639 --> 07:27:34.000
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2134
07:27:34.119 --> 07:27:40.400
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2135
07:27:40.479 --> 07:27:48.520
are between your elbow and your shoulders. To focus on

2136
07:27:48.799 --> 07:27:55.959
those parts, the tops of your arms, you may like

2137
07:27:56.080 --> 07:28:05.599
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

2138
07:28:08.159 --> 07:28:17.119
so you're not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on

2139
07:28:17.279 --> 07:28:27.159
your arms. It's just slowly you can gain more of

2140
07:28:27.279 --> 07:28:37.560
a sense of how your upper arms are feeling in

2141
07:28:37.799 --> 07:28:51.400
this moment, just noticing as you gently, very gently and

2142
07:28:51.959 --> 07:29:05.040
slowly tighten the muscles and then let go. Notice how

2143
07:29:05.200 --> 07:29:19.319
the tops of your arms feel. Right now, as we

2144
07:29:20.080 --> 07:29:30.759
now focus on your stomach, the area the lower aptomen

2145
07:29:30.880 --> 07:29:36.759
area below your belly button, moving all the way down

2146
07:29:40.159 --> 07:29:50.720
to your hips, just above your grind, maybe you're able

2147
07:29:50.880 --> 07:30:00.759
to tense these muscles in the area very very gently

2148
07:30:04.200 --> 07:30:15.040
and slowly. If that's a difficult thing to do, maybe

2149
07:30:15.080 --> 07:30:23.759
you can just move your body, pushing your stomach up,

2150
07:30:25.439 --> 07:30:29.319
maybe moving a little bit of a side using your hips,

2151
07:30:31.479 --> 07:30:41.279
just so get more in tune with how you're lower

2152
07:30:41.840 --> 07:30:48.880
up to an area is feeling.

2153
07:30:51.240 --> 07:30:52.200
In this moment.

2154
07:30:58.759 --> 07:31:21.319
Just noticing the physical sensations or your lower ablemen. As

2155
07:31:21.400 --> 07:31:34.319
you move your attention to your mouth, notice in your

2156
07:31:34.520 --> 07:31:45.439
lips and inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue,

2157
07:31:55.040 --> 07:32:03.680
Just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It

2158
07:32:03.840 --> 07:32:12.840
may help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2159
07:32:12.919 --> 07:32:20.279
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

2160
07:32:20.560 --> 07:32:26.720
side of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

2161
07:32:27.279 --> 07:32:33.959
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

2162
07:32:34.080 --> 07:32:42.080
the top of your mouth, and then down gently against

2163
07:32:42.159 --> 07:32:52.680
the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a

2164
07:32:53.240 --> 07:32:57.439
very very gentle.

2165
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So that you can.

2166
07:33:06.680 --> 07:33:30.279
Be aware of how you feel in your mouth area. No,

2167
07:33:34.919 --> 07:33:51.040
that's a focus on your wrists, and I'll ask you

2168
07:33:51.479 --> 07:33:59.959
to maybe just routate your wrists by moving your head

2169
07:34:00.040 --> 07:34:15.040
hands in a circular motion very gently and slowly, just slowly,

2170
07:34:15.479 --> 07:34:36.680
can feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in

2171
07:34:39.720 --> 07:34:50.080
your wrists. Perhaps smooth in your hands up and down

2172
07:34:52.759 --> 07:35:20.119
again very very gently and slowly, Harry ganzen and slow

2173
07:35:34.200 --> 07:35:51.240
now start to observe you lower back. The back part

2174
07:35:51.560 --> 07:36:08.840
is just above your hips. What your coxis are a

2175
07:36:09.119 --> 07:36:16.000
whole area which also really does include the side of

2176
07:36:16.159 --> 07:36:26.959
your body, because those muscles are very much connected as

2177
07:36:27.040 --> 07:36:34.360
those muscles also move into your hiperia, connecting too your

2178
07:36:34.479 --> 07:36:51.040
buttocks the side of your hips. And if you're physically

2179
07:36:52.599 --> 07:37:01.439
able to do so, maybe it can very generally just

2180
07:37:02.080 --> 07:37:15.520
move your body evices slightly, very slowly, some side to side,

2181
07:37:19.240 --> 07:37:20.119
just enough.

2182
07:37:25.360 --> 07:37:26.759
To gauge.

2183
07:37:31.520 --> 07:37:49.159
How you feel your lower back. Perhaps secretly even move

2184
07:37:49.400 --> 07:37:51.479
your hips gently.

2185
07:37:53.360 --> 07:37:54.319
Up and down.

2186
07:37:57.880 --> 07:38:13.080
Gently sla in order real be in touch with the

2187
07:38:13.400 --> 07:38:42.159
physical sensations of your law back. As we know, your

2188
07:38:42.240 --> 07:38:53.319
attention to your joe an area for your chin.

2189
07:38:54.279 --> 07:38:55.279
All the way up.

2190
07:38:56.639 --> 07:39:03.479
To near your ears are oh, your jaw.

2191
07:39:13.479 --> 07:39:14.200
You can just.

2192
07:39:16.400 --> 07:39:25.919
It's okay to do side gently open your mouth nor

2193
07:39:26.279 --> 07:39:38.119
wide nice stretching, just very gently and slowly opening your mouth,

2194
07:39:42.520 --> 07:40:00.959
closing your mouth very gently and slowly so you can

2195
07:40:04.080 --> 07:40:45.119
pain touch with how your jaw feels. Now to sit

2196
07:40:45.360 --> 07:41:03.799
down the chest around need to do anything to move

2197
07:41:03.919 --> 07:41:15.439
your chest because it moves every time you breathe. It

2198
07:41:15.759 --> 07:41:19.040
moves very gently.

2199
07:41:20.439 --> 07:41:22.479
And slowly.

2200
07:41:24.240 --> 07:41:39.279
Automatically with each breath you take. As you focus on

2201
07:41:39.919 --> 07:42:25.840
the your chest feels when you breathe, move in your

2202
07:42:26.080 --> 07:42:40.799
focus to your forearms with your elbows. Maybe you're able

2203
07:42:41.240 --> 07:42:55.200
to very gickly and slowly hence the muscles in your forearms,

2204
07:42:58.680 --> 07:43:05.319
and when you do that, you can feel your elbows

2205
07:43:05.599 --> 07:43:42.799
as well, very gently and slowly, gently and softly obsurving

2206
07:43:47.080 --> 07:44:20.599
your forearms and helpers. Now make a focus the rest

2207
07:44:20.720 --> 07:44:33.759
of your back, your upper back and the middle the

2208
07:44:34.119 --> 07:44:53.880
middle of your back. Again, this part of your body moves.

2209
07:44:56.000 --> 07:45:05.840
Also every time you prey. You may not not to sate.

2210
07:45:07.880 --> 07:45:19.959
Usually where you user your upper back in the middle

2211
07:45:20.040 --> 07:45:37.520
of your back, you can really feel that gentle and

2212
07:45:38.759 --> 07:46:33.520
slow moving your focus into hip area. Your butt as gray,

2213
07:46:36.319 --> 07:47:10.159
there's muscle as a noose bones in your midsection, just

2214
07:47:10.520 --> 07:47:32.840
noticing how your hips feel. Right now, you can very

2215
07:47:33.639 --> 07:47:49.240
very gently move your hips maybe side to side, very gently,

2216
07:47:49.520 --> 07:48:24.479
and so yeah, yeah, softly.

2217
07:48:31.400 --> 07:48:31.680
Ms.

2218
07:48:38.200 --> 07:48:54.959
Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2219
07:48:55.080 --> 07:49:06.840
mind and your mind itself just starts to gradually. It

2220
07:49:06.919 --> 07:49:13.400
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting too.

2221
07:49:14.680 --> 07:49:23.479
It's almost like time is strength chin. It's a slower

2222
07:49:23.639 --> 07:49:31.479
pace to maybe what you're used to in your day

2223
07:49:31.560 --> 07:49:53.560
to day life. It's a slower movement of energy, very

2224
07:49:57.959 --> 07:50:06.400
small movements which make up the larger movements, which is

2225
07:50:06.479 --> 07:50:14.200
always the case. Now when you move your hand, it

2226
07:50:14.360 --> 07:50:17.080
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2227
07:50:17.919 --> 07:50:25.319
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2228
07:50:30.279 --> 07:50:37.279
what happens in this space that we're sharing is.

2229
07:50:42.560 --> 07:50:43.680
We move from.

2230
07:50:46.400 --> 07:50:49.000
That big.

2231
07:50:53.439 --> 07:51:05.119
Movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus.

2232
07:51:04.959 --> 07:51:15.200
On how your body feels, not just as a whole,

2233
07:51:16.560 --> 07:51:21.360
not just oh, i'm feeling this way, I'm feeling stressed

2234
07:51:21.560 --> 07:51:27.240
or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm, I'm feeling

2235
07:51:27.400 --> 07:51:34.119
this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that

2236
07:51:34.279 --> 07:51:48.279
your body begins to present to you small feelings around

2237
07:51:48.360 --> 07:52:06.080
your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable

2238
07:52:07.319 --> 07:52:21.279
or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or

2239
07:52:21.400 --> 07:52:29.159
to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about

2240
07:52:29.200 --> 07:52:45.400
them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned,

2241
07:52:46.840 --> 07:53:01.919
just noticing what your body is telling you, the feelings

2242
07:53:02.000 --> 07:53:08.279
in your arms, instead of feeling the whole of the arm,

2243
07:53:09.720 --> 07:53:18.919
Maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

2244
07:53:23.080 --> 07:53:32.279
the skin, the hairs of your arms, all the internal

2245
07:53:32.400 --> 07:53:48.560
parts of your arms, the veins, the bones, just being

2246
07:53:48.639 --> 07:53:57.439
aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm has

2247
07:53:57.520 --> 07:54:08.880
a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has its

2248
07:54:08.959 --> 07:54:29.720
own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm on your

2249
07:54:29.799 --> 07:54:42.119
right arm, your right forearm, there may not be any

2250
07:54:42.680 --> 07:54:49.880
particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2251
07:54:53.639 --> 07:54:59.119
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling. Yeah,

2252
07:54:59.279 --> 07:55:11.759
it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders

2253
07:55:11.799 --> 07:55:15.400
when you think about them, kind of almost like they're

2254
07:55:15.400 --> 07:55:22.000
the same, you know, the same feeling, almost like you

2255
07:55:22.319 --> 07:55:26.919
both of your shoulders are just one thing. Of course

2256
07:55:27.040 --> 07:55:38.319
they're not. And when you focus on your left shoulder

2257
07:55:41.080 --> 07:55:46.240
and then on your right shoulder, maybe find that you

2258
07:55:47.599 --> 07:55:52.680
move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense the muscles gently,

2259
07:55:58.319 --> 07:56:30.680
noticing the difference in each shoulder, your lower back, the

2260
07:56:30.840 --> 07:56:34.919
left side of your lower back and the right side

2261
07:56:35.080 --> 07:56:45.759
of your lower back of course that connection to your

2262
07:56:45.840 --> 07:56:59.159
buttocks and to your hips, and also moving up into

2263
07:56:59.240 --> 07:57:12.119
the middle of your back. And sometimes like right now,

2264
07:57:12.279 --> 07:57:17.040
actually when I focus on their part, when I focused

2265
07:57:17.080 --> 07:57:22.959
on my buttocks and then I focused on the middle

2266
07:57:23.000 --> 07:57:25.880
of my back, I almost felt like the muscles in

2267
07:57:25.959 --> 07:57:36.000
my lower back were being stretched very gently, just stretched

2268
07:57:36.080 --> 07:57:42.639
a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing anything to

2269
07:57:44.000 --> 07:57:49.759
try to stretch your lower back, it just seemed to happen.

2270
07:57:50.959 --> 07:58:08.560
The feeling of very gently stretching your lower back comes along.

2271
07:58:12.279 --> 07:58:35.599
I have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations

2272
07:58:37.200 --> 07:58:54.840
you are experiencing in your chest right now. And there's

2273
07:58:54.919 --> 07:58:59.080
so much of the chest. Obviously, there's the collar bone

2274
07:58:59.240 --> 07:59:06.200
leading to chest. You've got the chest bone, You've got

2275
07:59:06.240 --> 07:59:14.360
the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

2276
07:59:15.040 --> 07:59:22.240
there's possibly the breasts. If you're male, you've got the

2277
07:59:25.080 --> 07:59:30.639
different well my not that different these days, but there

2278
07:59:30.720 --> 07:59:35.880
may be more muscles at the top of the chest,

2279
07:59:39.279 --> 07:59:43.560
but at the side underneath it's pretty much the same

2280
07:59:44.319 --> 07:59:47.400
whether you're a man or a woman. There's muscles there,

2281
07:59:48.720 --> 07:59:53.880
muscles that stretch out to your back as well as

2282
07:59:53.959 --> 08:00:02.560
breast tissue stretches and moves into your back, to just

2283
08:00:02.680 --> 08:00:22.240
being aware of your chest, being with whatever feeling there

2284
08:00:22.360 --> 08:00:41.880
is in your chest. And when I noticed that, I

2285
08:00:42.040 --> 08:00:50.000
focus on my chest. I feel it in my back,

2286
08:00:50.319 --> 08:00:54.400
my upper back. I mean, I guess the obvious reason

2287
08:00:54.439 --> 08:00:57.000
would be because you know I'm grieving.

2288
08:00:59.240 --> 08:01:01.720
Mm in.

2289
08:01:04.439 --> 08:01:07.599
Then it stretches my chest and my back at the

2290
08:01:07.680 --> 08:01:31.400
same time. It feels it feels okay, doesn't feel a

2291
08:01:31.439 --> 08:01:37.959
little bit of pain in my right chest, A little

2292
08:01:38.000 --> 08:01:44.400
bit not pain, but little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I

2293
08:01:44.520 --> 08:01:56.240
don't know. I notice my shoulders also wanting to flex

2294
08:01:56.360 --> 08:02:00.759
for some reason. I think that's probably part of my

2295
08:02:01.000 --> 08:02:09.680
upper back, that connection between my shoulders my upper back,

2296
08:02:11.479 --> 08:02:15.520
because I can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles

2297
08:02:16.279 --> 08:02:24.479
in my back, moving the shoulders backwards or up, which

2298
08:02:24.599 --> 08:02:30.639
then moves. I think it's the scapulous in your back.

2299
08:02:40.680 --> 08:02:48.360
It feels quite nice. Actually, a good thing about this

2300
08:02:48.639 --> 08:02:53.439
is you can, if you want to, you can just

2301
08:02:57.000 --> 08:03:07.000
flex or stick me late the various muscles in your

2302
08:03:07.040 --> 08:03:13.080
body gently in order to get more of a sense

2303
08:03:13.240 --> 08:03:27.759
of how they feel. And when you're relaxing, when you

2304
08:03:27.919 --> 08:03:32.080
do tense and muscle and you let it go and

2305
08:03:32.240 --> 08:03:40.959
you let it relax, it relaxes way more than it

2306
08:03:41.000 --> 08:03:51.319
would normally. But you have to feel that you're able

2307
08:03:51.439 --> 08:03:55.080
to do that. There's no point in doing it if

2308
08:03:55.159 --> 08:04:04.520
there's an issue with a purpose your body. You need

2309
08:04:04.599 --> 08:04:15.119
to be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply,

2310
08:04:18.159 --> 08:04:33.400
it's important to be kind to yourself as you notice

2311
08:04:33.599 --> 08:04:44.680
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

2312
08:04:44.759 --> 08:05:11.159
we started this recording? How came and peaceful is your

2313
08:05:11.279 --> 08:05:23.400
mind right now? We have nothing to think about and

2314
08:05:23.680 --> 08:05:31.080
just my voice to listen to, because you know, the

2315
08:05:31.279 --> 08:05:42.000
intention behind this recording is relaxation. At the very least,

2316
08:05:43.560 --> 08:05:48.119
for you to feel more relaxed at the end of

2317
08:05:48.159 --> 08:05:56.400
the recording than you did at the beginning, at the

2318
08:05:56.560 --> 08:06:08.240
very least, fe your mind to slow down because your

2319
08:06:08.360 --> 08:06:24.720
body continues to relax, because that's what you want to happen.

2320
08:06:28.680 --> 08:06:47.040
That's what you expect to happen. For relaxation to fill

2321
08:06:49.680 --> 08:07:02.840
your body, maybe calm your mind to the point of

2322
08:07:03.119 --> 08:07:50.240
boredom when you start maybe to drift away, drifting. It's

2323
08:07:50.400 --> 08:07:59.959
almost as if you're moving further away from your body

2324
08:08:00.400 --> 08:08:13.840
in your mind, just leaving that there, kind of liking

2325
08:08:13.959 --> 08:08:19.319
it an escape pod in a spaceship a movie, a

2326
08:08:19.479 --> 08:08:21.840
space movie. You know when they get into a little

2327
08:08:21.959 --> 08:08:29.200
pod in it sends the man far away from the spaceship,

2328
08:08:38.360 --> 08:09:37.319
safe to dream and continue to relax, drifting size slow

2329
08:09:50.400 --> 08:10:45.439
and peace so and peaceful and focusing on that.

2330
08:10:47.639 --> 08:11:00.479
Feeling of those individual parts of your body act.

2331
08:11:03.240 --> 08:11:22.240
Or relaxing one by one. You may find that every

2332
08:11:22.360 --> 08:11:33.439
now and then you realize that you weren't listening to

2333
08:11:33.599 --> 08:11:43.680
my voice. It gives your mind started to imagine something different,

2334
08:11:45.119 --> 08:11:55.479
maybe started to almost move into some kind of a

2335
08:11:55.799 --> 08:12:04.720
dreamy state, and then you become aware of my voice again.

2336
08:12:08.319 --> 08:12:14.880
And even though you may want to focus on my voice,

2337
08:12:15.560 --> 08:12:23.000
you may also wish to allow your mind to just

2338
08:12:23.360 --> 08:12:43.200
drift naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As

2339
08:12:43.319 --> 08:13:00.759
you feel more comfort spreading through your body like a

2340
08:13:01.000 --> 08:13:14.520
warm blanket covering you, Champlin, keeping your body.

2341
08:13:14.639 --> 08:13:15.400
It just.

2342
08:13:18.080 --> 08:13:35.560
The perfect temperature, and even if you can hear background sounds,

2343
08:13:41.119 --> 08:13:53.479
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense

2344
08:13:53.599 --> 08:14:10.000
of peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze,

2345
08:14:13.000 --> 08:14:25.639
yet strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough

2346
08:14:25.799 --> 08:14:39.080
to remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that

2347
08:14:39.360 --> 08:14:53.599
was there before, and blow away any other thoughts or

2348
08:14:53.919 --> 08:15:15.319
feelings that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that

2349
08:15:20.479 --> 08:15:45.200
is filling your body and your mind. And as you

2350
08:15:45.400 --> 08:15:52.119
focus on your mind and the countdown from ten down

2351
08:15:52.240 --> 08:16:00.759
to one, and with each number you hear, your mind

2352
08:16:03.840 --> 08:16:26.040
will become slightly more relaxed, just just slightly.

2353
08:16:28.560 --> 08:16:28.599
So.

2354
08:16:28.759 --> 08:16:35.799
From ten down to nine, just a slight movement. From

2355
08:16:36.000 --> 08:16:48.240
nine down to eight, just another small change in how

2356
08:16:48.400 --> 08:16:59.520
you feel. Eight down to seven. I have feeling this

2357
08:17:00.759 --> 08:17:05.240
is a gap, almost like a gap that starts to

2358
08:17:05.400 --> 08:17:14.759
get wider, the gap between those feelings that you used

2359
08:17:14.840 --> 08:17:22.040
to have in your mind compared to the feelings you

2360
08:17:22.200 --> 08:17:29.880
have that are growing now, feelings of comfort and security

2361
08:17:30.200 --> 08:17:41.520
and confidence. And the gap becomes wider. Eight down to seven,

2362
08:17:41.880 --> 08:17:48.319
seven down to six, And when you get to five,

2363
08:17:50.680 --> 08:17:59.840
your mind will start to have a certain physical sensation,

2364
08:18:04.159 --> 08:18:10.000
almost like there's a magnet outside of your head sucking

2365
08:18:10.959 --> 08:18:16.759
the tension and the stress and any remaining feelings that

2366
08:18:16.880 --> 08:18:27.959
you don't want, sucking them out through your skull, and

2367
08:18:28.080 --> 08:18:34.520
then down to four, you could start to really experience

2368
08:18:34.720 --> 08:18:47.159
that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a place

2369
08:18:47.400 --> 08:18:59.240
full of fresh air, place where you can stretch. It's

2370
08:18:59.279 --> 08:19:03.040
almost as if should go down to four and three,

2371
08:19:03.560 --> 08:19:14.040
your mind is expanding with this sense of peace and

2372
08:19:14.240 --> 08:19:24.560
tranquility growing as it moved down to When you get

2373
08:19:24.639 --> 08:19:34.400
to one, your mind just feels exactly how you want

2374
08:19:34.560 --> 08:19:54.200
to feel, almost a perfect feeling, maybe a sensation that

2375
08:19:55.880 --> 08:20:03.560
you'd like to keep a place that's safe, where.

2376
08:20:04.880 --> 08:20:23.479
Nothing can affect you at all, and you can.

2377
08:20:23.560 --> 08:20:32.520
Stay in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident

2378
08:20:32.680 --> 08:20:39.119
in your own ability to create this space and this

2379
08:20:40.479 --> 08:20:46.840
feeling of comfort within your own mind just by counting

2380
08:20:47.959 --> 08:20:56.799
ten down to one. And this is something that you

2381
08:20:56.959 --> 08:21:05.959
can do yourself when you're on your own, a time

2382
08:21:06.119 --> 08:21:09.639
when you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a

2383
08:21:09.759 --> 08:21:22.400
few minutes, close your eyes. It just counts slowly from

2384
08:21:22.639 --> 08:21:37.040
ten down to one and re experience these feelings in

2385
08:21:37.159 --> 08:21:46.040
your mind. And when you feel that way in your mind,

2386
08:21:47.799 --> 08:22:02.040
your body copies your mind, and that feeling it's spread

2387
08:22:02.319 --> 08:22:09.479
through your spine and your nervous system into every part

2388
08:22:09.840 --> 08:22:21.599
of your body, travels through your blood stream, healing and

2389
08:22:21.799 --> 08:22:28.159
relaxing every particle of your existence.

2390
08:22:40.919 --> 08:22:42.840
And we can.

2391
08:22:42.880 --> 08:22:51.279
Practice this a few times before the end of the recording,

2392
08:22:51.919 --> 08:22:57.759
and then you can practice on your own. And each

2393
08:22:58.040 --> 08:23:11.240
time you count from ten about one, the feelings of comfort, calmness,

2394
08:23:12.439 --> 08:23:31.520
deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling your mind

2395
08:23:31.880 --> 08:23:41.119
and your brain with these positive chemicals that spread throughout

2396
08:23:41.200 --> 08:23:51.000
your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body

2397
08:23:51.240 --> 08:24:03.279
and mind so very very easily, just by counting.

2398
08:24:04.279 --> 08:24:05.119
From ten.

2399
08:24:07.799 --> 08:24:08.560
Down to one.

2400
08:24:13.560 --> 08:24:14.439
That's what we're going to do.

2401
08:24:14.799 --> 08:24:15.000
Now.

2402
08:24:15.840 --> 08:24:19.759
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2403
08:24:19.959 --> 08:24:24.279
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2404
08:24:24.319 --> 08:24:32.919
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself ten.

2405
08:24:38.520 --> 08:24:47.880
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2406
08:24:48.000 --> 08:24:57.560
mind and your body. And when I say nine, you

2407
08:24:57.680 --> 08:25:14.400
can repeat nine a game, noticing the increase in comfort

2408
08:25:14.759 --> 08:25:28.119
and calmness in your mind and in your body. The same.

2409
08:25:28.400 --> 08:25:39.520
Want to say eight, when I say seven, six, I

2410
08:25:39.639 --> 08:25:53.919
want I say five, four, when I say three, two,

2411
08:25:58.319 --> 08:26:04.520
and lastly, when I say one, you can repeat that number.

2412
08:26:11.959 --> 08:26:12.119
Now.

2413
08:26:12.240 --> 08:26:17.799
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2414
08:26:17.919 --> 08:26:22.919
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2415
08:26:24.520 --> 08:26:33.000
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2416
08:26:33.119 --> 08:26:38.919
can adapt. So if you feel you want to say

2417
08:26:39.040 --> 08:26:44.880
the numbers ten down to one faster than I do,

2418
08:26:46.680 --> 08:26:49.200
then you go ahead and do that. Or if you

2419
08:26:49.439 --> 08:26:53.400
feel when you do it yourself that you'd like to

2420
08:26:53.639 --> 08:27:01.959
have more more space between the numbers, maybe take a

2421
08:27:02.080 --> 08:27:08.880
lot longer to get from ten all the way down

2422
08:27:09.520 --> 08:27:26.520
to one, that's your choice also to do. So I'm

2423
08:27:26.560 --> 08:27:35.000
going to count from ten down to one, and when

2424
08:27:35.040 --> 08:27:38.799
I get to one, that will be the end of

2425
08:27:38.959 --> 08:27:45.639
this recording, unless, of course, you're listening with music, and

2426
08:27:45.799 --> 08:32:42.680
the music will continue. Ten nine si twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen,

2427
08:32:47.439 --> 08:33:47.880
sixteen fifteen, fourteen, thirty twelve eleven, ten nine eight, seven, six, five, four,

2428
08:33:52.200 --> 08:34:20.439
three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

2429
08:34:20.560 --> 08:34:28.959
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing

2430
08:34:29.759 --> 08:34:34.159
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toast.

2431
08:34:35.720 --> 08:34:40.400
And as you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel

2432
08:34:40.400 --> 08:34:47.200
a little bit tingling, which is I suppose quite understanding,

2433
08:34:47.360 --> 08:34:52.439
considering the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2434
08:34:58.919 --> 08:35:00.880
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2435
08:35:00.959 --> 08:35:10.959
one again, this time you'd feel relief of tension and stress,

2436
08:35:12.479 --> 08:35:22.200
any anxiety that you may have leaving through your stomach,

2437
08:35:24.840 --> 08:35:28.520
just leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just

2438
08:35:29.560 --> 08:35:36.639
releasing the whole of your stomach. You'll navel to just

2439
08:35:36.759 --> 08:35:41.000
above your chest or below your chest, rather so surrounding

2440
08:35:41.080 --> 08:35:45.720
your belly by an area, the whole area. You can

2441
08:35:45.919 --> 08:35:50.360
feel the tension of your body where it's left, just

2442
08:35:51.240 --> 08:35:55.880
releasing from that area, and you may notice that your

2443
08:35:55.959 --> 08:36:02.479
stomach will become very relaxed. As my countdown from twenty

2444
08:36:03.479 --> 08:37:26.159
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2445
08:37:30.240 --> 08:37:47.200
three two what. You can open your eyes again if

2446
08:37:47.240 --> 08:37:50.799
you choose, or you can just keep them closed because

2447
08:37:50.840 --> 08:37:58.159
it feels relaxing. Just notice his stomach feels, I notice

2448
08:37:58.599 --> 08:38:02.119
as your focus. Just do a little scan of your body.

2449
08:38:04.240 --> 08:38:18.000
Just notice how your body feels, focusing upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet,

2450
08:38:21.000 --> 08:38:28.000
just noticing, and you know you may start to film

2451
08:38:30.400 --> 08:38:34.200
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2452
08:38:34.319 --> 08:38:39.000
reason you're listening to this recording because.

2453
08:38:38.799 --> 08:38:40.720
You like to.

2454
08:38:42.360 --> 08:38:54.240
Let go completely of everything and drift off into a nice, natural, calm,

2455
08:38:54.599 --> 08:39:09.799
relaxing sleep. So now we're a focus on your forehead,

2456
08:39:13.720 --> 08:39:16.479
and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in

2457
08:39:16.639 --> 08:39:23.520
this focus as well. Your forehead and your eyes. It's

2458
08:39:23.599 --> 08:39:28.119
that whole area basically, almost as if you were wearing

2459
08:39:28.159 --> 08:39:31.840
a mask, you know, like a I don't know, a

2460
08:39:32.080 --> 08:39:38.439
Batman mask or something, or I'm trying to fa sorrow

2461
08:39:38.639 --> 08:39:40.639
or something, you know, the kind of mask that covers

2462
08:39:40.720 --> 08:39:43.799
your eyes but also covers quite a lot of the forehead.

2463
08:39:47.439 --> 08:39:50.479
I'm focusing on that area because that's the area that

2464
08:39:50.560 --> 08:39:55.080
we're now going to release tension, stress from your mind,

2465
08:39:57.200 --> 08:40:01.040
your brain, from your mind, and any tension that you

2466
08:40:01.200 --> 08:40:05.959
may have remain your face, in your neck and your jaw,

2467
08:40:07.159 --> 08:40:13.279
in your eyes, your forehead, or your scalp. So basically,

2468
08:40:13.479 --> 08:40:19.319
any tension within your head area, including your mind and

2469
08:40:19.520 --> 08:40:27.720
your brain, that's going to be released through your forehead

2470
08:40:27.799 --> 08:40:35.159
and your eyes. As I count down again from twenty

2471
08:40:35.560 --> 08:42:05.360
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, war.

2472
08:42:09.279 --> 08:42:19.200
Three what.

2473
08:42:27.680 --> 08:42:37.200
Noticing she scared your face with jaw, your eyes, your

2474
08:42:37.400 --> 08:42:46.080
cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp, your neck,

2475
08:42:47.560 --> 08:42:51.560
back of your neck, front of your neck, the side

2476
08:42:51.680 --> 08:43:02.040
of your neck, and your throat. H Notice being aware

2477
08:43:02.319 --> 08:43:13.560
of the comfort increased the relaxation, not just in your

2478
08:43:13.759 --> 08:43:19.119
head and neck and mind, also the rest of your body.

2479
08:43:24.400 --> 08:43:30.279
Just notice how loose and calm you felt, and how

2480
08:43:30.479 --> 08:43:44.560
easily it is to just let go completely, let go completely,

2481
08:43:52.240 --> 08:44:03.840
how easily. So what I'm gonna do now is I

2482
08:44:03.919 --> 08:44:11.639
wanted to focus on the top of your head, and

2483
08:44:11.759 --> 08:44:20.680
we're gonna allow every last piece of tension or stress

2484
08:44:20.919 --> 08:44:26.639
the mind be lingering or hiding in your body or

2485
08:44:26.840 --> 08:44:34.400
mind or head to just be sucked out on the

2486
08:44:34.520 --> 08:44:38.959
top of your head, released.

2487
08:44:42.360 --> 08:44:42.840
To the air.

2488
08:44:44.000 --> 08:44:49.720
I want sucked down into the clouds. Man, a big

2489
08:44:49.880 --> 08:44:55.959
cloud above your head. It's like a whirlpool. It's is

2490
08:44:56.080 --> 08:45:03.639
gonna suck that tension our top of your head. Just

2491
08:45:03.799 --> 08:45:13.119
take her away, good your focus. Imagine an opening at

2492
08:45:13.159 --> 08:45:17.599
the top of your head with a tension and stress

2493
08:45:17.720 --> 08:45:23.240
and any remaining issues, maybe worries of concerns that are

2494
08:45:23.479 --> 08:45:24.279
no use to.

2495
08:45:24.360 --> 08:45:28.040
You now you can all be sucked down at the

2496
08:45:28.159 --> 08:45:29.159
top of your head.

2497
08:45:30.720 --> 08:45:36.639
And taken away. As I count down again, I'm twenty

2498
08:45:37.080 --> 08:46:17.400
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen fifty

2499
08:46:22.799 --> 08:47:04.040
fourteen thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight.

2500
08:47:10.000 --> 08:47:26.119
Seven, six, five, four.

2501
08:47:30.000 --> 08:48:04.799
Three two one pree. I notice how you feel, how

2502
08:48:04.959 --> 08:48:13.240
relaxed and calm you physically and mentally feel right now,

2503
08:48:18.880 --> 08:48:28.919
How peaceful your mind feels. It feels so nice to

2504
08:48:29.200 --> 08:48:37.799
just let go, to give yourself some space to breathe easily,

2505
08:48:39.720 --> 08:48:49.720
to think calmly, just to take a break from all

2506
08:48:49.799 --> 08:48:56.479
that pointless worry concerns about things that you don't need

2507
08:48:56.599 --> 08:49:07.000
to think about right now, because this is your time

2508
08:49:07.360 --> 08:49:13.720
to let go. This is your space to enjoy feeling

2509
08:49:15.080 --> 08:49:22.560
deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind, relaxed in your body.

2510
08:49:25.720 --> 08:49:34.599
They can feel so good, so nice to just not

2511
08:49:34.959 --> 08:49:44.000
have to do anything, to be able to really enjoy

2512
08:49:45.720 --> 08:49:54.479
that serenity that comes with letting go completely, that peacefulness

2513
08:49:54.680 --> 08:50:12.560
that comes with being in this peaceful space. And you

2514
08:50:12.680 --> 08:50:17.520
can keep this sense of calmness for as long as

2515
08:50:17.799 --> 08:50:32.159
you choose. If you choose to drift off into a deep, healing,

2516
08:50:32.520 --> 08:50:41.279
natural sleep, then you can do that. It's completely up

2517
08:50:41.360 --> 08:50:49.279
to you, and you can keep this feeling of calmness,

2518
08:50:50.240 --> 08:50:54.560
physically and in your mind for so long as you

2519
08:50:54.799 --> 08:51:11.720
choose to feel completely relaxed, completely relax. And I'd like

2520
08:51:11.840 --> 08:51:17.880
you to make up your mind that you're going to relax,

2521
08:51:26.479 --> 08:51:29.240
and I want to explore that with you what it

2522
08:51:29.439 --> 08:51:36.759
feels like when you actually decide that you're going to relax,

2523
08:51:38.439 --> 08:51:44.840
not forcing yourself, but giving yourself that. I guess it

2524
08:51:45.000 --> 08:51:47.639
is a command, really, isn't it When you're telling yourself

2525
08:51:49.639 --> 08:51:57.040
relax in a gentle but firm way, that only you

2526
08:51:57.360 --> 08:52:02.279
can really tell you something in that way. You can't

2527
08:52:02.279 --> 08:52:06.479
only have someone else saying to you, now it relax, relax,

2528
08:52:07.159 --> 08:52:10.840
you know, and it needs to be gentle, But you

2529
08:52:10.959 --> 08:52:18.040
can't someone else can't really have the same the same

2530
08:52:18.240 --> 08:52:25.720
kind of influence or power that you have over your

2531
08:52:25.880 --> 08:52:37.439
own physicality, over how you feel, because when you say

2532
08:52:37.520 --> 08:52:45.759
it to yourself, it means more. It's personal, and your

2533
08:52:45.880 --> 08:52:51.080
brain and your unconscious mind and your body listens to

2534
08:52:51.240 --> 08:52:56.919
what you say. So, for example, we'll test it out

2535
08:52:57.520 --> 08:52:59.680
and do a little test, a few little tests a

2536
08:52:59.759 --> 08:53:03.200
long the way, and you can get more of an

2537
08:53:03.319 --> 08:53:09.919
idea of the force, a positive force that you can

2538
08:53:10.080 --> 08:53:17.599
have in creating a sense of comfort and relaxation. In

2539
08:53:17.680 --> 08:53:23.720
your body and your mind quite quickly, just by you

2540
08:53:24.799 --> 08:53:34.319
telling yourself to relax. So I'm going to start by

2541
08:53:35.000 --> 08:53:41.119
it's focus on your hands. So focus on your hands

2542
08:53:41.159 --> 08:53:46.040
and just tell your hands to relax, and just say relax.

2543
08:53:47.720 --> 08:53:53.080
As you focus on your hands, you could say my

2544
08:53:53.400 --> 08:53:57.159
hands are relaxed, or I want my hands to relax.

2545
08:53:59.240 --> 08:54:05.040
I think if you you do it directly by focusing

2546
08:54:05.720 --> 08:54:09.880
and imagining that your hands can hear what you're saying.

2547
08:54:10.040 --> 08:54:12.560
You know, like they've got little ears, which is a

2548
08:54:12.599 --> 08:54:19.680
little weird. So talking to your hands and just say relax,

2549
08:54:26.000 --> 08:54:47.479
noticing how your hands start to relax. Now focus on

2550
08:54:47.599 --> 08:54:51.639
your eyes and tell your eyes to relax. You just

2551
08:54:51.720 --> 08:54:58.200
saying the same word relax, and find the right tone

2552
08:54:58.759 --> 08:55:04.720
for you. You know, I might say relax, but you

2553
08:55:05.720 --> 08:55:13.200
you might say relax or relax. You know, you might

2554
08:55:13.279 --> 08:55:19.680
say it differently to yourself, and that's important for you

2555
08:55:20.520 --> 08:55:26.119
to gauge what feels right for you. To just tell

2556
08:55:26.200 --> 08:55:32.119
your eyes to relax whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids,

2557
08:55:32.279 --> 08:55:37.639
the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell

2558
08:55:37.759 --> 08:55:42.599
your eyes directly relax.

2559
08:55:44.479 --> 08:55:44.639
Now.

2560
08:56:11.439 --> 08:56:21.599
Now I just did that myself, and sometimes you may

2561
08:56:21.720 --> 08:56:26.400
feel that you need a bit more time for the

2562
08:56:26.479 --> 08:56:30.560
different parts to relax, you know, because I started talking again,

2563
08:56:31.119 --> 08:56:35.759
and maybe that part hasn't relaxed fully. But what will

2564
08:56:35.840 --> 08:56:38.520
happen is it would just continue to relax even though

2565
08:56:38.560 --> 08:56:45.799
I'm talking. And that's happening with my eyes. Something else

2566
08:56:45.840 --> 08:56:50.439
I noticed is when I started focusing on my eyes,

2567
08:56:50.720 --> 08:56:54.240
that actually almost became They got worse before they got

2568
08:56:54.319 --> 08:56:57.200
better in a way, so that I felt a degree

2569
08:56:57.240 --> 08:57:03.919
of tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing. So

2570
08:57:04.000 --> 08:57:06.680
I think what that was really was just me becoming

2571
08:57:06.880 --> 08:57:13.159
more aware of the tension that was already there that

2572
08:57:13.279 --> 08:57:17.840
I wasn't. I wasn't focused on it before, so I

2573
08:57:18.000 --> 08:57:36.639
wasn't really acknowledging it or really conscious to those feelings. Yeah,

2574
08:57:36.799 --> 08:57:40.200
my eyes is still continuing to relax, as well as

2575
08:57:40.279 --> 08:57:46.200
my hands. Actually, my hands have got a certain kind

2576
08:57:46.240 --> 08:57:52.240
of energy, like not buzzing, but I can kind of

2577
08:57:54.639 --> 08:58:00.520
feel a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's

2578
08:58:00.599 --> 08:58:05.200
where the tension is being released. Maybe that's the cause

2579
08:58:05.240 --> 08:58:14.759
in that the next part, I think we should focus

2580
08:58:14.799 --> 08:58:17.200
on the back of the neck. That's the part was

2581
08:58:17.279 --> 08:58:22.040
quite often well for me holds tension. I don't know

2582
08:58:22.080 --> 08:58:25.919
about it for yourself, but I think it's quite a

2583
08:58:26.119 --> 08:58:33.560
standard place where tension is sometimes held. So and I'm

2584
08:58:33.639 --> 08:58:36.759
doing exactly what you're doing as you do it as well,

2585
08:58:36.880 --> 08:58:40.840
so I'm telling my body parts to relax as well.

2586
08:58:41.599 --> 08:58:43.919
So if you tell your neck, the back of your neck,

2587
08:58:44.439 --> 08:58:46.639
focus on the back of your neck, and just say

2588
08:58:49.520 --> 08:58:54.040
relax in your own words, in your own tone, in

2589
08:58:54.159 --> 08:58:56.959
your own voice. You can say out loud, or you

2590
08:58:57.040 --> 08:59:01.959
can just say it to yourself internally, but you're focusing,

2591
08:59:02.360 --> 08:59:06.240
and you're saying it literally to the back of your neck,

2592
08:59:07.080 --> 08:59:09.599
as if the back of your neck can actually hear

2593
08:59:10.400 --> 08:59:17.159
what you're saying. So do that now, just say relax,

2594
08:59:17.720 --> 08:59:59.599
so the back of your neck, and I'll do the same. Now,

2595
08:59:59.639 --> 09:00:03.200
what I noticed, and you may have had a similar thing,

2596
09:00:04.680 --> 09:00:07.599
is even though I was focusing on the back of

2597
09:00:07.680 --> 09:00:19.119
my neck, other parts started to I don't know, showed

2598
09:00:19.119 --> 09:00:22.319
themselves to me, or maybe because they want to be

2599
09:00:22.400 --> 09:00:26.240
relaxed as well. But I started noticing the feelings in

2600
09:00:26.319 --> 09:00:29.599
my shoulders at tension in my shoulders and in my

2601
09:00:29.759 --> 09:00:36.959
upper back. Whether that was because my back of my

2602
09:00:37.119 --> 09:00:42.599
neck was saying well, I'm pretty much okay, it's the

2603
09:00:42.720 --> 09:00:51.599
other parts that need attention. But my low of my

2604
09:00:52.040 --> 09:00:55.639
back of my neck is still relaxing, but I just

2605
09:00:55.759 --> 09:01:02.360
became more aware of other parts that needed attention. Now,

2606
09:01:02.439 --> 09:01:07.360
this might happen and it's not. It doesn't mean that

2607
09:01:07.439 --> 09:01:11.959
it's going wrong. It just means you're being notified with

2608
09:01:12.959 --> 09:01:20.720
more places that also want to feel relaxed. So I'm

2609
09:01:20.799 --> 09:01:24.959
going to focus on my upper back. So you can

2610
09:01:25.040 --> 09:01:30.840
do the same, even if you don't have any feelings

2611
09:01:30.919 --> 09:01:35.759
of tension that are obvious in your upper back, if

2612
09:01:35.799 --> 09:01:40.639
you just focus on your back and the whole area

2613
09:01:40.799 --> 09:01:45.319
from the shoulder blades down to the middle of your

2614
09:01:45.360 --> 09:01:50.119
back and your spine and me, it's more the shoulder

2615
09:01:50.159 --> 09:02:01.520
blades more. Yeah, that's the parts that are really given me.

2616
09:02:03.200 --> 09:02:03.560
That not.

2617
09:02:05.479 --> 09:02:07.919
That it needs relaxing. The sounds going to ask that

2618
09:02:08.080 --> 09:02:11.400
hard to relax and you can do the same. Now

2619
09:02:22.599 --> 09:02:38.520
relax up the back. There's something strange happened there, and

2620
09:02:38.680 --> 09:02:45.479
this often happens. I've been doing this for over sixteen

2621
09:02:45.639 --> 09:02:53.319
years or something, and often I'm want surprised, amazed really

2622
09:02:53.439 --> 09:02:59.959
that there can be a feeling. So when I was folks,

2623
09:03:00.119 --> 09:03:02.840
sit on the back of my neck, my upper back

2624
09:03:03.159 --> 09:03:08.319
was starting to feel quite stressed and in need of attention.

2625
09:03:10.759 --> 09:03:13.799
As soon as I started talking to you about my

2626
09:03:13.959 --> 09:03:18.880
upper back and talking about, you know, getting ready to

2627
09:03:19.200 --> 09:03:23.959
ask the upper back to relax my the back already

2628
09:03:24.080 --> 09:03:29.799
started to relax. It's almost as if it doesn't need

2629
09:03:30.000 --> 09:03:39.959
to hear the words, just needs attention, just needs to

2630
09:03:40.040 --> 09:03:52.520
be noticed. And that is something that often happens in

2631
09:03:53.400 --> 09:04:00.360
this type of situation is when you start to acts

2632
09:04:01.840 --> 09:04:05.119
a couple of parts of your body, as we've done

2633
09:04:05.240 --> 09:04:13.000
with our hands, our eyes and eyelids, and now back

2634
09:04:13.040 --> 09:04:21.840
of the neck, top of the back, upper bank, the

2635
09:04:21.919 --> 09:04:28.560
rest of the body seems to just take notice and

2636
09:04:28.799 --> 09:04:37.240
decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other parts

2637
09:04:37.319 --> 09:04:47.360
of your body start to just become looser. I suppose

2638
09:04:47.479 --> 09:04:49.919
it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche, you know,

2639
09:04:51.560 --> 09:04:55.279
the little ball starts rolling. Before you know, the whole

2640
09:04:55.400 --> 09:05:07.560
of your body is completely relaxed and can't And if

2641
09:05:07.680 --> 09:05:15.520
you focus on your face, you focus on your eyes,

2642
09:05:17.919 --> 09:05:24.240
your eyelids, your eyebrows, and the muscles around your eyes,

2643
09:05:29.200 --> 09:05:33.919
maybe you start to notice that your forehead is more

2644
09:05:34.000 --> 09:05:39.040
relaxed than it was. Maybe your face is more relaxed.

2645
09:05:41.759 --> 09:05:45.520
I would say, my entire face is a lot more

2646
09:05:45.599 --> 09:05:59.240
relaxed than it was. So we're going to focus now

2647
09:05:59.479 --> 09:06:06.720
on your shoulders again, just like before. Just tell your

2648
09:06:06.799 --> 09:06:10.639
shoulders and you can do them individually. You can do

2649
09:06:10.760 --> 09:06:14.839
the right shoulder and left shoulder. I just didn't do

2650
09:06:15.000 --> 09:06:19.760
both at the same time. And just tell your shoulders

2651
09:06:20.000 --> 09:06:23.959
as you focus on them in your mind, focus on

2652
09:06:24.080 --> 09:06:29.040
them and they feel maybe you can see them in

2653
09:06:29.160 --> 09:07:16.480
your mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders to relax. I

2654
09:07:16.559 --> 09:07:29.919
feel as nice as they relax. But do you notice,

2655
09:07:32.599 --> 09:07:39.040
especially with my back, is the connection between the different

2656
09:07:39.160 --> 09:07:50.239
parts the back, the shoulders, the neck being all connected

2657
09:07:50.720 --> 09:07:57.120
and being such a large part of your body, It's

2658
09:07:57.360 --> 09:08:05.480
it's hard to separate them from each other. And my

2659
09:08:05.680 --> 09:08:14.519
lower back is starting to relax on its own. Maybe

2660
09:08:14.599 --> 09:08:19.360
I'm going too slow and that could be an issue

2661
09:08:20.239 --> 09:08:27.040
because we all go at different speeds. And the idea

2662
09:08:27.120 --> 09:08:29.760
at the beginning of this recording was for you to

2663
09:08:29.839 --> 09:08:45.360
be able to just say to yourself, relax without focusing

2664
09:08:45.519 --> 09:08:51.160
on any particular part of your body. Because when you

2665
09:08:51.319 --> 09:09:02.160
know that taving your hands to relax and your hand relax,

2666
09:09:04.720 --> 09:09:12.199
you tell your eyelids, your eyes and muscles around your eyes,

2667
09:09:13.480 --> 09:09:27.199
and your eyebrows to relax, and they relax. You tell

2668
09:09:27.440 --> 09:09:39.239
the back of your neck to relax, and it relaxes.

2669
09:09:47.239 --> 09:09:48.440
You tell your upper.

2670
09:09:48.319 --> 09:10:06.959
Back to relax, and they relaxes.

2671
09:10:14.680 --> 09:10:53.879
You tell your shoulders to relax, and they relax. You

2672
09:10:54.000 --> 09:10:58.760
told your hands to relax, they relaxed, and they continued

2673
09:11:00.519 --> 09:11:12.040
to relax. When you told your eyelids, the muscles around

2674
09:11:12.080 --> 09:11:23.239
your eyes, your eyebrows to relax, they relaxed and continue

2675
09:11:24.879 --> 09:11:33.639
to relax. When you told the back of your neck

2676
09:11:35.000 --> 09:11:40.800
focused on the back of your neck and told it

2677
09:11:40.959 --> 09:12:00.480
to relax, they relaxed and continued to relax. When you

2678
09:12:00.639 --> 09:12:10.760
told your upper back to relax, be relaxed and continued

2679
09:12:13.279 --> 09:12:27.040
to relax. That's with your shoulders. You told your shoulders

2680
09:12:27.160 --> 09:12:40.480
to relax, and your shoulders relaxed and continued to relax.

2681
09:12:46.160 --> 09:12:54.519
And it's not just that, It's that the rest of

2682
09:12:54.599 --> 09:13:01.720
your body has also been listening, and no relaxation has

2683
09:13:01.919 --> 09:13:08.199
been spreading. So from your eyes, the relaxation spread to

2684
09:13:08.319 --> 09:13:13.519
your forehead, around your face.

2685
09:13:13.480 --> 09:13:26.559
Into your skin, into your jaw, into.

2686
09:13:26.360 --> 09:13:30.400
The frunts and sides of your neck, all the way

2687
09:13:30.519 --> 09:13:41.639
down your chest and stomach. Your relaxed hands and shoulders

2688
09:13:43.639 --> 09:13:54.279
meet up through your arms, relaxing your forearms, your upper arms, elbows,

2689
09:13:54.480 --> 09:14:13.720
your wrists, letting your lower back, your hips, buttocks gray,

2690
09:14:15.599 --> 09:14:22.440
or just start to relax or continue even more. Comfort

2691
09:14:24.080 --> 09:14:25.959
spreading through your legs.

2692
09:14:30.800 --> 09:14:33.040
All the way down to your.

2693
09:14:32.959 --> 09:14:42.760
Ankles, the tops of your feet, the sight of your feet,

2694
09:14:44.559 --> 09:14:55.480
and the bottoms of your feet, relaxing into your toes,

2695
09:14:59.279 --> 09:15:24.120
each toe relaxing. Come please, And as your body relaxes more,

2696
09:15:24.639 --> 09:15:48.519
your mind becomes slower but peaceful, to the point where

2697
09:15:50.720 --> 09:16:02.239
if you choose to fall asleep, hm, he can easily

2698
09:16:02.919 --> 09:16:18.639
do that easy drift the way because there's nothing going

2699
09:16:18.720 --> 09:16:34.080
on in your mind. Your pray is peaceful, your body

2700
09:16:34.599 --> 09:17:08.839
continues to rise. And with that connection between your body relaxing,

2701
09:17:09.319 --> 09:17:23.080
the word do you say to yourself relax means that

2702
09:17:23.199 --> 09:17:29.839
you don't need to focus on just one part. You

2703
09:17:29.919 --> 09:17:42.760
can just focus on your entire body saying the powerful

2704
09:17:42.879 --> 09:18:10.519
word relax. And it's those familiar sensations of comfort spreading

2705
09:18:12.199 --> 09:18:29.120
throughout your body, listening and calming and healing every part

2706
09:18:29.519 --> 09:18:30.559
of your body.

2707
09:18:33.239 --> 09:18:36.279
Feeling more.

2708
09:18:38.959 --> 09:18:57.720
Relaxed. So all we need to do now on is

2709
09:18:57.959 --> 09:19:05.040
just to yourself relax.

2710
09:19:10.279 --> 09:19:10.559
That was.

2711
09:19:16.360 --> 09:19:48.720
Eating completely comfortable, so relaxed. Starting now with number twenty nineteen,

2712
09:19:57.919 --> 09:26:35.639
eighteen seventy sixty fifty four eighty to well to eight.

2713
09:27:54.279 --> 09:28:51.279
Viscus you.

2714
09:30:12.279 --> 09:32:26.239
Anything us.

2715
09:31:23.239 --> 09:33:45.080
Would would be one. So counted down from ten to

2716
09:33:45.239 --> 09:34:11.760
one ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three two one.

2717
09:34:18.800 --> 09:34:21.680
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

2718
09:34:21.760 --> 09:34:25.680
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

2719
09:34:26.000 --> 09:34:35.720
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

2720
09:34:35.760 --> 09:34:39.319
little bit of pressure there, Like you'll count it down

2721
09:34:39.400 --> 09:34:42.360
from ten to one. What do you expect me to do? Man,

2722
09:34:43.279 --> 09:34:46.959
expect me to stick go with floppy just because you're

2723
09:34:47.080 --> 09:34:48.080
counting down.

2724
09:34:52.199 --> 09:34:52.400
Two.

2725
09:34:53.440 --> 09:34:56.720
If you try it again, but this time I'll go

2726
09:34:56.919 --> 09:34:57.839
this slower.

2727
09:35:00.120 --> 09:35:00.360
Time.

2728
09:35:01.599 --> 09:35:06.559
As you focus on the whole of your body before

2729
09:35:06.639 --> 09:35:13.599
we focus on your legs. Just notice how your body

2730
09:35:13.760 --> 09:35:28.720
does start to feel more relaxed with every number that

2731
09:35:28.839 --> 09:36:19.839
I count down ten nine, eight, seven six five four

2732
09:36:27.279 --> 09:37:17.919
three two one. Wow. And just notice how how you

2733
09:37:18.000 --> 09:37:28.279
feel generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily even

2734
09:37:28.319 --> 09:37:39.160
about counting down from ten to one. It's that space

2735
09:37:40.279 --> 09:37:55.559
that you have, that body space between what's being active

2736
09:37:57.919 --> 09:38:07.440
physically or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just

2737
09:38:07.680 --> 09:38:13.559
being there, not doing anything, not saying anything, nor deeding

2738
09:38:13.839 --> 09:38:15.360
to think about anything.

2739
09:38:17.199 --> 09:38:20.879
So it opens up a space, you know, a bit

2740
09:38:20.919 --> 09:38:31.760
of a space, the gap. And the more I camped

2741
09:38:31.839 --> 09:38:36.360
down from the tent to one, the bigger that gap becomes.

2742
09:38:39.400 --> 09:38:45.800
So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort and relaxation.

2743
09:38:51.720 --> 09:38:59.599
It's a nice feeling, yeah, And it moves.

2744
09:39:00.800 --> 09:39:10.720
Those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them away.

2745
09:39:17.519 --> 09:39:30.239
Allows you to just slow down, someone to count again

2746
09:39:30.319 --> 09:39:36.519
from ten down to one, and notice that gap widening,

2747
09:39:38.720 --> 09:39:43.120
the gap. And as it widens, it's almost like the

2748
09:39:44.839 --> 09:40:02.400
stress and attention falls into the gap. It gives you

2749
09:40:02.519 --> 09:40:44.959
that distance. That's space now ten nine six eight seven, six,

2750
09:40:57.680 --> 09:41:28.319
five four three.

2751
09:42:03.000 --> 09:42:03.239
One.

2752
09:42:14.800 --> 09:42:19.199
And how does your body feel.

2753
09:42:21.120 --> 09:42:21.319
Now?

2754
09:42:34.040 --> 09:42:45.959
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer? Do you

2755
09:42:46.239 --> 09:43:14.680
feeling more relaxed? As we now focus on your legs,

2756
09:43:16.400 --> 09:43:36.800
just your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on

2757
09:43:37.279 --> 09:43:56.440
your thighs. Of course, it's not the most exciting thing

2758
09:43:56.559 --> 09:44:03.120
to be doing, because I'm sure like most of your

2759
09:44:03.160 --> 09:44:14.839
body is not a lot going on right now. Just

2760
09:44:15.040 --> 09:44:21.160
focusing on the whole of your thighs, the tops of

2761
09:44:21.239 --> 09:44:27.319
your thighs, the sides of your thighs, the bottoms of

2762
09:44:27.400 --> 09:44:34.360
your thighs, your outer thighs, and your inner thighs, basically

2763
09:44:34.559 --> 09:44:38.199
the whole of your thigh that leads into your hip

2764
09:44:42.279 --> 09:44:53.000
and it goes down to your knee joints. Now, this

2765
09:44:53.199 --> 09:45:00.639
is a big area. It's a very heavy area. It's

2766
09:45:00.839 --> 09:45:07.239
very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or

2767
09:45:07.319 --> 09:45:23.400
in your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps will

2768
09:45:23.519 --> 09:45:36.160
give enough attention to our thighs. Perhaps we don't acknowledge

2769
09:45:36.879 --> 09:45:56.239
how important our thighs are to our lives, how much

2770
09:45:58.879 --> 09:46:12.559
they actually do us all through our lives. And it

2771
09:46:12.760 --> 09:46:18.319
may seem to sound really weird, but I think that

2772
09:46:18.519 --> 09:46:26.400
all of our body parts, especially our thighs, need some TLC,

2773
09:46:29.760 --> 09:46:42.919
a bit of love shown, a bit of acknowledgement, thank you,

2774
09:46:46.080 --> 09:46:58.599
gratitude for our thighs do for us. And I know

2775
09:46:58.760 --> 09:47:04.239
this may sound a bit it's strange. Maybe you think,

2776
09:47:04.680 --> 09:47:07.440
why am I? Surely how I should be out in

2777
09:47:07.559 --> 09:47:16.120
the garden hugging a tree or something. Wow, it's hard

2778
09:47:16.160 --> 09:47:19.319
to set a microphone up on a tree. That's why

2779
09:47:19.319 --> 09:47:22.000
I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside hugging

2780
09:47:22.040 --> 09:47:25.519
a tree. Now I can't see the television from the tree.

2781
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If you move down to your knees gain such an

2782
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important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

2783
09:47:46.319 --> 09:47:53.680
for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

2784
09:47:53.800 --> 09:47:59.040
knees do for me until I have a problem with

2785
09:47:59.160 --> 09:48:04.239
my knee. It's occasionally if I ever maybe i'll bash it,

2786
09:48:04.599 --> 09:48:10.400
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

2787
09:48:10.599 --> 09:48:16.080
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

2788
09:48:16.160 --> 09:48:23.599
being able to use my legs without any kind of

2789
09:48:23.760 --> 09:48:32.120
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

2790
09:48:32.279 --> 09:48:43.319
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

2791
09:48:43.319 --> 09:48:48.680
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

2792
09:48:51.800 --> 09:48:57.519
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

2793
09:48:57.639 --> 09:48:59.720
your needs for all that they do for you