June 2, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025

(music) (10 hours) Buddhism | Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1363 | 2nd June 2025
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Hello, Hello, Welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland and this is let Me Buoy You to Sleep.

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Please only listen when you can safety close your eyes,

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and this is Monday's boring Objects. I hope you will.

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I actually started this recording to do a kind of

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a relaxation recording, and I realized that it's just not

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quite enough to do that.

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Here.

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Too much noise, too much background noise. Vinnie's like cleaning

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himself and it's weird. So yeah, I'm gonna do this

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instead because he is a part of the let Me

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boy You to Sleep or to let Me Bore Your

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Pain Away recordings. And those that listen regularly know who

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Vinnie is. You know that he's a little Jack Russell,

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little red Jack Russell who likes to be involved. He's

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kind of like my co host in a weird way.

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Very weird way, really, isn't it. So I've ordered some

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shopping and it's apparently it's on its way. It should

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be here in about twenty minutes. And then I've got

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a meeting a friend for coffee at this afternoon. So

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that's the first time I've been out anywhere in public

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since wow. December. Yeah, first time I've been out anywhere

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since December, because that was when I went saw my

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dad at the pub just before Christmas. I mean, I

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go to the park and I have been to the

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pet shop probably since then. I'm into the garage a

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couple of times, but I don't like going to the

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garage anymore. I have been to the pharmacy probably a

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couple of times in that time. I mean last month

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I didn't go, but all the other months I did.

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This month I didn't go, but I've got a neighbor

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that I asked a neighbor to go and collect it

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for me, and they did, which is grew groovy. So

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probably January, February, March, January, February, March I got them.

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You know, I probably had to go and collect themselves.

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Maybe not January, but definitely February. Much But I haven't

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been in a public place, you know, sitting down with

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humans around me. So it's going to be a bit strange,

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but it's okay. It's a very old friend, someone I've

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known for a long time. I'm thinking I'm going to

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talk about Buddhism because it's a Buddhist friend. I'm meeting,

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and I don't want to really focus on him as

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the boring object. And also I don't think. I don't

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think that anything I talk about is boring.

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Is just.

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Yeah, that's the thing. I hope people don't think that

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if I was going to talk about let's say, yeah,

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train spotting or a subject that's some people would be

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absolutely engrossed and fascinated. We can absolutely love that I'm

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mocking it and corn it boring because I'm not. I mean,

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look at some of the subjects that I've covered in

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my Boring Objects. I say, look, I don't know what

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I had myself. I'm gonna have to go and look.

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I going look, look, look, look, look, look look where

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is it? Okay, sleepy boring objects? Monday's Sleepy Boring Objects.

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So I've now done I've done a lot. There's a

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lot of a lot of episodes. But and when I

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first started doing them, I did the first song was rain. Okay,

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that's not something I particularly find interesting. Hair, that's the

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number one I don't particularly find interesting. Bricks, so you know, printers, cameras, plugs,

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so I was talking about really random just objects, and

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then swimming pools, ovens, hitch hiking books. Now, there's nothing

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boring about books to me. So that was something that

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I've had a big interest in over the years. And

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once I actually get my eyes tested and get some

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proper glasses, I will be getting back into reading the

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books once my eyes work. Microphones, that's not a boring subject. Well,

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mops now that probably is. So yeah, I don't know

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how manage you talk about mops for thirty five minutes. Wallpaper,

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I mean, that is the epiphany of boringness, isn't it

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really wallpaper or a painted wall? Train? Spotters, games, beds

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as jobs, baths now the jobs only lasted thirty eight

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minutes fifty nine seconds when that was the eighteenth of

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October twenty twenty one. So yeah, I started doing these

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sleepy boarding objects on the ninth of August twenty twenty one,

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so I've been doing it for a while now. I yeah,

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I could have made that jobs one last for about

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ten hours. Really. I got baths, wooden benches. Belgium again.

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I love Belgium. I got It's like, I don't have

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an issue with Belgium. I really really loved Belgium when

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I went there. Brilliant place, great especially it's it. Whatever

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I say now is going to probably come across as wrong,

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and it's just I like the fact that it's flat

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like this. I'm not a big I'm not a lover

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of hills, really, I'm not. I'd like to be able

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to just walk and you can see ahead of yourself,

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can't you. You can see what's about you can wherever you go,

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So basically, whenever you leave your house, no matter where

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you go, how far away you go, you can always

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see your house. It's great and tea bags cheese. Yes,

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I've done quite a few. The last one I did

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was dog walking, and I'm pretty sure that was super

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super exciting for everyone. Oh God, I'm trying to manipulate, manipulate,

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maneuver the laptop, but it keeps missing schools. I did

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that the week before Monday's Boring Objects, but I didn't

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even talk. I didn't even give it a subject. And

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the one before that, I didn't give it a subject.

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That's weird. I don't know what that is about. Strange.

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And then I did Willy Wonka that was the twenty

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first of April, then another one before that I didn't

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give it a subject. That's kind of the point of

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The thing, isn't it said, why am I not giving

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them subjects? Doc job? That's the one they first of

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March this year, twenty twenty five homes cleaning jobs, New

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Year's Eve, Monday's boring objects. So I did a recording

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on New Year's Eve last year and as an hour

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and an hour and forty minutes. So maybe I was

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actually talking about New Year's Eves that I'd spent over

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the years. And then the Monday before that it was Christmas.

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Well it was probably Christmas Eve, wasn't it New Year's

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EO Christmas Eve? So I talked about Christmas for one

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hour and eighteen minutes, blind me. Then before that I

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talked about friends, hair styles. Before that, counseling degree, girlfriends,

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girlfriends and girl they dare your girlfriend? Ooh? Girlfriends lasted

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two hours and seven minutes. What the ex about? Online

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IQ tes tests? Two hours and forteen minutes? So I

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actually did an online I did online IQ tests. Wow,

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I kind of vaguely remember that. That was in October

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last year. So today what did I say I was

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going to talk about? I can't remember.

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I have a.

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Not deliveries. Oh Buddhism, So I'm going to talk. I'm

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going to talk about Buddhism. I'm not going to talk

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about Buddhism itself. I'm not going to go into details,

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you know, about what Buddhism is and stuff. But I'm

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going to talk about my experiences with Buddhism from from

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an early age and then onwards. So just let you know.

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I do have a Facebook group called Jason Newland's Boring Group.

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The link is on my website. I also have a

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YouTube channel at Jason Newland. I'm just going to go

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back to doing I tried to make some videos the

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last few days and takes so long and my head

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looks my face looks like a tomato. I'm not Yeah,

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I'm just going to go back to doing audios. It's

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much more relaxed for me. I'm just talking to the microphone.

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I can look at the computer screen if I want to,

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I can close my eyes. I can just.

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Chill out and yeah, this suits me better, better, and

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what else.

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So yeah, that's it. I'll probably just continue go back

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to uploading on YouTube. Six versions that are recording, you know,

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without music, and then with music five and ten hours. Yeah,

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Today's second of June two thousand and twenty five, I

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got my Universal Credit an email from them telling me

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to check some stuff and I didn't understand it. I

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genuinely didn't understand it. And then then I've got a

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letter through today, so apparently on my new style employment

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and support allowance on your interview on and there's a

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little gap, but you you had an interview, so they

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did call me last week with us to agree what

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you need to do to get new style essay. This

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is known as your claimant commitment. You agreed your claimant

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commitment on a twenty eighth of May two twenty five,

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which was Thursday, Wednesday, Wednesday, last Wednesday. What happens next?

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We were right to tell you if you can get

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new style of essay, and if so, how much you

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will get. So at this point I don't even know

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I'm getting if I'm getting it, I don't know when

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they're going to tell me. And then this is this

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is absolutely it's kind of it's funny, but it's not

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funny because it's very confusing. I've got a letter about

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another one about my employment and support allowance. Your contribution

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based employment and support allowance will change the new style

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employment Lalla, and we will book an appointment, so I

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get this. They sent this in a twenty fifth bearing

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in mind it's so they sent this on well, it's

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dated the twenty fifth, which would be the Sunday before last,

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so it will have been sent out earliest on a Monday.

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So it's literally taken Yeah, it's taken a whole week

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to get here, so I'm not sure how that works.

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And now I've got a letter from the rent for

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the council iri rent reminder. It appears you have not

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received your rent. We have not received your rent payment

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on time, and you now owe one hundred and sixty

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eight pound ninety if you have paid within the last

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few days. Thank you. Please disregard this letter. And it's

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given me like a list of things that will happen

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over payment payment overdue that leads to legal action, corp proceedings,

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then eviction a little bit heavy handed. I mean, my

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rents ten years. My rent's always been paid and only

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reason it's not being paid yet is because the benefits

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are changed over they just so does that mean I

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owe one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety? I don't know.

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This is confusing me. I really think you know, if

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you owe one hundred and sixty eight pound ninety. The

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word legal actions, core proceedings and evictions shouldn't not be

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on that letter. That's just a really it's weird. I'm

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not I'm not a big fan of that. If I

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have him pay difficulty paying your rent, please contact us.

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If you normally pay your rent with housing benefit or

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have made a claim for Universal credit, then it may

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have been suspended or stopped. Wow. The thing is, these

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letters are just generic, aren't they. No one's actually like

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thinking all that Jason on to get him now and

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typing it out.

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It is just.

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I guess if you go, I mean one hundred and

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sixty eight pound ninety. The rents one hundred and what

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four pounds a week, so that's not even two weeks

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rent and they're sending a letter out, so I don't know,

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very strange. It's a very very unusual behavior. I personally think,

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should I talk about a rent? I can't even remember

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that a lot of the rents are paid over the years.

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That might be more interesting or moor less interesting, more boring.

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I just just said, oh, you're all over the place.

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Why are you making so much noise? You've already ruined

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one recording today, Vinny, why don't try and ruin this

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one as well? Well, I'm doing it all on my own,

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he said, seven rudes, Stop being some rude. Don't flap

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your ears at me. You've got such an attitude now

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as you're getting older, Yes you have, you're getting an attitude.

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You need to calm yourself down. No, don't look away,

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look at me. You need to calm He's so cute.

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He's wiggling his tail. It's both his ears are up

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and he's turning his head. He's so damn cute, and

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as you are. I finally found some food that he likes,

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that he really likes, and one's called I'll tell you though.

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It's like a whole food. Where is it? I got

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it from Amazon. I've got it. I bought it on Amazon.

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It's not, you know, an Amazon mute food? Where is it? Okay?

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He really likes it. And I've gone through probably ten

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different types of food trying to find him something that

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he would almost I don't want to say, get excited

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to eat, but it seems sometimes he just reluctantly eats

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what I give him it's okay, or eat it if

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he's hungry. But he doesn't seem to be particularly you know, excited.

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Just have a look past three months. Oh I got

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some Yeah, because I also got some soap, and some toothpaste,

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tough paste, and some deodorant. Sketches shoes on the thirteenth

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for me that my other shoes are falling apart, right,

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so I get these sketches. Men's go max athletic. The

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idea of me buying anything with the name athletic, and

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it is kind of funny to me, but they're supposed

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to be good for sort of slipping on. And the

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weird problem is, and they're supposed to be ten size ten,

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they're too loose. They're not too loose. They're not falling

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off me when I walk, but they're not I definitely

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couldn't run in them. Again, that's kind of tiggles me

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a little bit because I've said, the little visual of

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me trying to run, I'm not going to be running

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in them. But that's not the point is I took

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Vinnie around the field the other day, around the actual

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field fields, and I ended up with a blister on

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the back of my foot. This is this is wearing socks.

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So how much did it cost? Fifty pounds fifty sixpence

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supposed to be tenpence, size ten, and I desperately needed

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because the other ones. When I broke my foot probably ah,

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BlimE me two years ago, two years, maybe a year,

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a year and a half. I can't it's a while,

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and I couldn't put socks on. Maybe it was when

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I break my toe. I can't remember, but I couldn't

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put socks on because my foot. It must have been

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my toe. Oh is it when I kicked the wall

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when I was asleep. I think I kicked the wall. Yees.

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So I broke my toe, my big toe, and it

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wasn't on purpose, by the way, So I was hobbling

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around for a while. I couldn't put my socks on.

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That was just a just no, it's a no no.

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So but luckily the shoes I had were comfortable enough

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the former sketches ones. I had to not need shoes

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to not need socks, and I went through about a

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year where I didn't wear socks at all. Some would

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say that's gross, but it's it's not the worst thing

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I've done, so it's it probably maybe it is, Maybe

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it is groom. I don't know, but I got. I

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went through the whole winter about wearing socks. I was outside,

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didn't need socks, just got used to it, and there

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was a degree of freedom I quite liked. I enjoyed that,

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I know, just a little bit of it was relaxing.

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It was I didn't feel so restricted. But then the

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shoes that I had started falling apart internally and also

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at the bottom. They're just worn out, basically because I

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do I suppose, I do quite a bit of walking

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through the week, taking him out and stuff. So I

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could no longer where I could no longer have them

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without socks. So I started wearing socks. But then they

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just became really uncomfortable because there's just it's like stick

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things sticking into my foot. That's why I had to

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better go and buy some new shoes. And I did

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think maybe I could go back to not wearing any

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socks again, But it turns out I'm going to need

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to two pairs of socks really if I want them

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to fit tight no nicely. If I was going to

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walk around the field like I did before, I probably

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need two pairs of socks. But the question is why

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this is only my right heel blister, But my left

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heel didn't. I mean, I wasn't hopping. I used both feet,

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So why did only one blister and the other one

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did not? That just seems a bit strange. So, okay,

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we're talking about dog food. Dog food. I just had

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my delivery, by the way, I just I had a few,

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a few. I think that's why I'm kind of losing

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track of where I am with this recording a little bit,

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because I've had a few interruptions from Vinnie from the door,

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going from the door going to once is when the

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post got delivered and Vinnie went absolutely rah rah rah.

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And then I got my delivery and Vinie went rah

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rah rah rah rah. And earlier we had someone in

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the garden talking a loudness or volume that's unnecessary. Really,

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I think she did he or she When they talk

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on their phone and have their phone on a loud

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speaker and they walk to the next road, so I think,

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what what they do? They leave their phone like the

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other side of the road or something, and then come

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back into the garden and talk. That's what it sounds like.

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So loud Lily's Kitchen Natural adult dog food. Now it

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was lah a little bit six pound fifty six and

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it was six tins one hundred and fifty grams each.

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I give him half a ten per meal basically because

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he had treats and he eats the dry food and

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stuff in between. So I did give him the whole packet.

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I give him the whole tin, and he couldn't eat

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all too much, so I'm just give him half at

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a time. He loves it. I don't have to coax

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him to eat it, which I did before with the

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other stuff, and I really have I mean, you might think, oh,

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wait a minute, it was a one time purchase. So

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I paid seven pound twenty nine. Really seven pounded? Does

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it tell me how much I paid delivered twenty eighth

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of may buy it again? Okay, let's have a look.

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Buy again. Seven pound twenty nine. Yeah, that's how much

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I paid for six So I'm going to have another

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look to see what other what other foods visit the store.

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Lily's Kitchen calling all daring dogs shop dog food. Okay,

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that's what we want. I'm not I'm not happy now

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because they also serve, they help. I don't want to

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buy food that also makes food for cat for cats.

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It's just it just feelings feels unfair for any shop

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dry food. No, well, I suppose I could shop web food.

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Let's have a look see what different ones they've got.

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They've got ones in big ten which I don't want.

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Classic dinners. That's the ones I got, uh, Classic dinners

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multipack six times one point fifty gram all I can

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also by them. What's this thirteen pound forty nine thirteen

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amiens in that one and thirty is cottage pie pack

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of ten. It's oh, it's not thirteen pounds, it's twelve

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pounds fourteen, so it's a different it's a discount, but

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that's the same, the same one. I'd like the idea

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of maybe me, you know, having options, having different ones.

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I don't want to just get in like ten of

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the same, although there's quite a few different ones that

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they do they've got, So have a look. Beef goulash,

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cottage pie, lean machine, whatever that is great British breakfast

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Sunday lunch, chicken and turkey, casse role lamb, hot pot

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lamb tag in to guinea fishy pie, fishy fish pie,

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fishy fish pie as opposed to what kind of other

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fish pie, coronation chicken, Okay, so that's all the ones

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I do. It's still good. Oh no, it's more beef supper,

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lamb supper, chicken supper, and you've got organic as well.

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So I don't know how many is in that one? One, two, three, four?

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Is it four for fourteen pound? That seems a little bit.

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Oh no, it's back of ten fourteen pound pack of

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ten Okay, so I'll go back. So there's quite a few.

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Let's have a look at some of these other ones.

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This is the pack of pack of one Lily's Kitchen

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six six weekend Favorites. Okay, so that's seven pound A

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note it is eight pound forty nine but as cheaper

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ways of getting it, lowest price other sellers seven pound

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seventy five plus three delivery. So why is it costing

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more than the actual place that makes the stuff? That

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don't make so much sense. Where are they getting it from?

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Or they buying it in bulk and then dividing it

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into smaller packs, or you know, I knew what I

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meant when I said what I said. I could put

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it down on my Amazon list. If anyone's interested in

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buying Viny some food, let me know if you are,

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because honestly, I have tried is what I bought him

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so far, Win a lot Meatia chunks, Win a lot

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of Sunday Dinners, Caesar's Countries, Doe Adult and Lily's Kitchen,

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so that's recent. The other one's pedigree Charm Adult Wet Food.

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Several of or other ones have I got him? Oh

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some of it might actually have been from Sainsbury's who

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won't be on here. But he's had lots of different

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old number pedigree chum different one Sultana cake and now

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that was for me. I do like a bit of cake.

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Hard to believe, but I do. I do is like

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to kick Oh, Morrison's Chocolate Claires. I ordered that at

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some point in the past. I haven't ordered anything from Amazon,

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like the shopping groceries for ages. I use Uber eats

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now because Amazon kept not delivering the stuff that I ordered,

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so they used Morrison's and had a few examples when

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they just didn't. The stuff wasn't in the bag and

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you get refund and stuff, but I just didn't. That

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wasn't quite what I was looking for, you know what

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I mean? Sketches Men's Go Max delivered Tuesday ten for

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June our three delivery shoes. I was going to say,

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I didn't buy it in tem for June. I need

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a second of June. I did buy some FM London

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one two, three, four five eight pack. There was an

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eight pack of boxes or underwear and they were too small,

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just too They weren't too small, but they were just

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too tight. So I can't really wear them. I can

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wear them, but they're just a bit too tight, you know,

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a bit too Oh look at this, just looking at

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some I've bought. Most of the stuff I've bought on

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Amazon has just been food. Just looking at other dog

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food and must be I'll wag a complete dog food.

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So I've bought oh yeah, James well beloved adult dog food.

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And according to this, I bought socks. But I don't

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know where any of them are now. I'm not sure

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how many of those have been eaten by Vinnie. Possibly

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a few, possibly, I mean genuinely, possibly a few have

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been eaten by him or hidden. He might have a

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stash somewhere. I don't know where he would have them.

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Oh wow, I there's a muzzle that I got for LOGI.

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So that's quite a while back. In it, it doesn't

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say what date it was. Man right, I can't find

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any others. So yeah, what was I talking about? What

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was the etiking a boot? This is going to be

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one of those recordings where I don't actually get to

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the point, and as we all know, that doesn't happen

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very often. Maybe she was stick with a Buddhist. So

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my first interesting Buddhism, I would say, probably came when

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I watched Kung Fu on TV, Kung Fu show Good

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Our Supper, I don't know if you remember, and there

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was one scene where he was locked in a I

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don't know what it was called, like a a heated

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little shed thing, you know, like a coal bunker thing,

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and he was locked in there overnight or for two

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days or three days, and he when they opened the

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door expected him to be in a not very good space.

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He was calmly, meditating, smiling, if I if I remember correctly,

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they were so annoyed that they closed door again, but

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that might just be added and I just added that myself.

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And that's when I started thinking and like, ah, because

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I've been I've been in a situation where I was

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locked in cupboards and locked in places, and like I

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didn't know how to deal with it. And I thought oh,

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there is a way of dealing with that kind of

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stuff where you know, to calm yourself down. I didn't

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really understand because I was like eight nine years old,

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but I liked it. I liked it a lot, I did.

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I liked it, and I thought, hmm, And then I

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remember seeing Incredible Hulk and he also used to try

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and work or you know, find ways to calm himself

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down so that he didn't get angry because you wouldn't

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like him when he got angry. And this was the

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TV show from the seventies and I guess early eighties

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as well. And again I was kind of like, okay,

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because I had a few anger stuff issues. I guess

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back then I would explode. So I could see the

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similarity between me and the Incredible Hulk, except I just

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turned red and stayed the same size other than that,

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and didn't get any stronger, but just screamed like a Benchie.

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So I kind of like that seed was sown the

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idea of finding a way to calm down my mind

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or calm down me, and I was. I guess I

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was a little bit a stress head when I was

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a kid, and I didn't even know why. I wasn't.

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I didn't understand why I was how I was. And

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I remember one particular time I went home from school

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and was still living in the house where mine and

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the grand had moved in, so I would have been

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about nine eight or nine. I went into kitchen and

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I and my stepmom said, but you're right. I said, yeah,

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I fine. He said, come on, you don't and I

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started crying and I'm sort of just uncontrollably crying and

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I didn't know why, and it was I just remember that,

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and it happened a few times. It still happened as

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an adult sometimes, but it was really just like built

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up and I didn't really I had no way of

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dealing with it. I guess I had nowhere of dealing

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what happened in the past. I didn't understand it. None

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of it really made sense. Buckets see the benefit of

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some kind of I knew it was meditation, So I

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don't know how I knew it was meditation. Maybe someone

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told me that was that Kung Fu was doing in

468
00:39:18.039 --> 00:39:22.199
that like dungeony room thing that he was locked in

469
00:39:22.800 --> 00:39:29.320
like a hot room or something. But yeah, those seeds

470
00:39:29.320 --> 00:39:32.639
were planted of like maybe there is a way to

471
00:39:35.320 --> 00:39:44.920
calm myself, and then I when my dad was ill,

472
00:39:45.039 --> 00:39:47.760
he had to have a serious operation when I was

473
00:39:47.800 --> 00:39:57.360
about twelve, i'd say, maybe eleven. So at that time

474
00:39:57.440 --> 00:39:59.800
I turned to the New Testament. It kind of co

475
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.840
decided when the Gideon Society came around the school, and

476
00:40:04.559 --> 00:40:06.480
probably right at the beginning of the first year of

477
00:40:06.519 --> 00:40:10.639
high school, they handed these Gideon Bibles. I've got one

478
00:40:10.880 --> 00:40:14.679
on the shelf. Actually it's not the same one, but

479
00:40:14.719 --> 00:40:17.320
it's it is the same one. It's a red Gideon's Bible,

480
00:40:17.400 --> 00:40:21.800
and that they produced probably millions over the years, hundreds

481
00:40:21.840 --> 00:40:27.800
of millions probably, and I read it. I spent all

482
00:40:27.800 --> 00:40:33.280
my time reading it, really and there was a degree

483
00:40:33.400 --> 00:40:44.119
of meditation that came from that for me, by letting

484
00:40:44.239 --> 00:40:50.559
go and not clinging onto stuff and not not getting

485
00:40:50.599 --> 00:40:53.880
angry with people. But at the same time, I was

486
00:40:53.920 --> 00:40:56.000
letting people get away with stuff that I would not

487
00:40:56.239 --> 00:40:59.679
normally have done at school and that so, you know,

488
00:40:59.760 --> 00:41:04.199
it didn't last long, but it lasted till my dad

489
00:41:05.360 --> 00:41:08.320
had his operation and was better. So then I went

490
00:41:08.360 --> 00:41:15.039
back to my old ways. And then when I was

491
00:41:15.119 --> 00:41:21.119
then I started doing karate, and there was a degree

492
00:41:21.159 --> 00:41:29.559
of self control involved in that. There was definitely I

493
00:41:29.559 --> 00:41:35.360
would say a degree of controlled in the anger because

494
00:41:35.400 --> 00:41:38.360
it's it's a very It's a discipline, isn't it. Like

495
00:41:38.440 --> 00:41:42.360
all sports, it's a discipline. So I was starting to

496
00:41:42.440 --> 00:41:45.079
learn a bit of discipline. I'd already been in the

497
00:41:45.119 --> 00:41:47.079
Cecre det so I'd had to learn that kind of

498
00:41:47.079 --> 00:41:57.639
discipline as well being shouted at and not reacting, which yeah,

499
00:41:58.039 --> 00:42:09.719
wasn't easy. But they're on a a religious education trip

500
00:42:10.360 --> 00:42:16.719
school trip to London, visiting a few different religious places.

501
00:42:17.679 --> 00:42:21.960
So we went to a church I think we went

502
00:42:22.000 --> 00:42:32.400
to is was it what are they called, a Muslim place,

503
00:42:32.840 --> 00:42:41.760
a Jewish place, Catholic place, and a Buddhist place. We

504
00:42:41.880 --> 00:42:44.239
might have even gone to a seek place. So we

505
00:42:44.280 --> 00:42:48.400
went to quite a few different places and didn't spend

506
00:42:48.400 --> 00:42:51.400
a huge amount of time there, but because there was

507
00:42:51.440 --> 00:42:55.159
nothing there. There was just like empty buildings really, so

508
00:42:55.239 --> 00:42:57.039
we kind of had to look around. But when we

509
00:42:57.079 --> 00:43:00.000
got to the Buddhist center in London, there was people

510
00:43:00.039 --> 00:43:07.000
were there and we all sat around and they answered questions,

511
00:43:07.000 --> 00:43:08.880
because we didn't have that with any of the other

512
00:43:08.920 --> 00:43:14.199
places that we visited, so you know, it was probably

513
00:43:14.239 --> 00:43:18.440
a bit more enjoyable because there was interaction, and then

514
00:43:18.480 --> 00:43:21.239
they did they answered questions, and I kept asking questions

515
00:43:21.320 --> 00:43:26.159
about karate because they did karate there as well, so

516
00:43:26.239 --> 00:43:28.760
that kind of I think I annoyed everyone else in

517
00:43:28.800 --> 00:43:32.159
the in the group. And then I was also the

518
00:43:32.199 --> 00:43:36.679
first time I ever had a McDonald's milkshake. Oh my goodness,

519
00:43:37.280 --> 00:43:42.000
that was phenomenal. So two really lovely experiences in one day.

520
00:43:44.280 --> 00:43:47.000
So what they did at the London Buddies Center, which

521
00:43:47.039 --> 00:43:55.480
is in bethnal Green, I think we did some meditation

522
00:43:55.719 --> 00:44:00.840
that probably lasted ten minutes, maybe fifteen minutes, and we

523
00:44:00.920 --> 00:44:07.800
all sat on mats, dad bells and incest was burning

524
00:44:07.920 --> 00:44:12.760
and it was like, really I liked it a lot,

525
00:44:12.960 --> 00:44:18.039
I mean really really liked it. In fact, I think

526
00:44:18.079 --> 00:44:21.960
if if I'd have been closer, if there'd been one

527
00:44:22.000 --> 00:44:27.480
in my town, I possibly would have gone. I mean

528
00:44:27.519 --> 00:44:29.440
I might not have been allowed to go, but I

529
00:44:29.440 --> 00:44:32.760
would have probably asked to go and maybe sneaked in

530
00:44:33.400 --> 00:44:36.079
just for the meditation because I needed it. I so

531
00:44:36.239 --> 00:44:45.000
needed it a way to calm my mind. Makes you

532
00:44:45.239 --> 00:44:48.679
must have starting to think, why don't I go? I

533
00:44:48.719 --> 00:44:54.440
should go back? Hey. So that was that experience, and

534
00:44:54.480 --> 00:45:01.280
then I left school the next year and I didn't

535
00:45:01.320 --> 00:45:05.199
do anything other than just try and survive, really, so

536
00:45:05.280 --> 00:45:09.880
I gave up the karate. I didn't had no interests really,

537
00:45:11.760 --> 00:45:16.920
And then it was probably nineteen eighty nine I decided

538
00:45:17.440 --> 00:45:22.639
I became very interested in comedy. I started to write

539
00:45:22.639 --> 00:45:28.760
a journal. And then nineteen ninety after living in London

540
00:45:28.800 --> 00:45:31.559
for a while, I came back to the town I

541
00:45:31.599 --> 00:45:38.519
was used to living and I decided to become a comedian,

542
00:45:38.559 --> 00:45:42.079
a stand up So I planned and I was going

543
00:45:42.119 --> 00:45:43.880
to move back to London the next year, and I

544
00:45:43.880 --> 00:45:49.000
did so I went back to London ninety one, and

545
00:45:49.039 --> 00:45:56.159
then probably about ninety two, maybe ninety three, but I'd

546
00:45:56.199 --> 00:46:00.639
say probably about ninety two, I started getting in trusted

547
00:46:01.000 --> 00:46:10.000
in beat generation books like the Dama Bumbs, the I

548
00:46:10.000 --> 00:46:12.960
don't know, there's so many different ones, wasn't there on

549
00:46:13.000 --> 00:46:18.119
the Road and the Dama Bums both by Carriac Karaoke

550
00:46:19.039 --> 00:46:25.920
Jack Carroac and then Alan Ginsburg and Cassidy or whatever,

551
00:46:26.159 --> 00:46:32.199
lots of different ones. And as I have a tendency

552
00:46:32.280 --> 00:46:35.440
to do in my life, I collected every single book

553
00:46:35.519 --> 00:46:40.480
I could on the subject, every single beat book, every

554
00:46:40.559 --> 00:46:44.519
poetry book and everything. I'm not saying. I had all

555
00:46:44.519 --> 00:46:46.800
those books, but I collected all the ones I could

556
00:46:46.960 --> 00:46:50.639
afford to get, and I did that for put in the

557
00:46:50.599 --> 00:46:53.280
next three years up to all one of the next

558
00:46:53.280 --> 00:46:59.519
couple of years to two thousand and four, nineteen ninety four, sorry,

559
00:46:59.519 --> 00:47:03.719
not too for nineteen ninety four. So I got very

560
00:47:03.800 --> 00:47:08.280
much into after that, though, I got into Buddhism. Well,

561
00:47:08.320 --> 00:47:14.920
actually probably more Taoism to start with, because the b

562
00:47:15.159 --> 00:47:18.519
generation a lot of what they're talking about was very Buddhist,

563
00:47:19.239 --> 00:47:22.800
very Taoist or Taoist however you want to pronounce it,

564
00:47:24.320 --> 00:47:29.119
and that interested me. So I kind of from there

565
00:47:29.400 --> 00:47:34.920
got back into interested in Buddhism, interested in I mean,

566
00:47:34.960 --> 00:47:37.199
I remember I used to go to school, go to school,

567
00:47:37.239 --> 00:47:42.280
go to work, and I would be reading books like

568
00:47:42.400 --> 00:47:48.320
Confucious books or Zen books about Zen maybe the cones

569
00:47:48.519 --> 00:47:53.519
or not like ice cream cones but or is it

570
00:47:53.599 --> 00:47:59.719
co Aen's And I'd have these I think the right

571
00:48:00.159 --> 00:48:03.840
pithy you know, like there a book of sayings, and

572
00:48:03.880 --> 00:48:08.440
I'd read those in my breaks at work. So I

573
00:48:08.559 --> 00:48:13.159
was very involved in Buddhism, but only in the sense

574
00:48:13.199 --> 00:48:23.519
of reading the books. And then two thousand and five

575
00:48:24.119 --> 00:48:27.599
or two thousand, yeah, between yeah, so between that time

576
00:48:27.639 --> 00:48:40.000
and two thousand and five September August, No, when was it.

577
00:48:40.079 --> 00:48:45.800
Probably I'm in November maybe two nineteen ninety five, I

578
00:48:45.880 --> 00:48:49.280
keep it's so long ago. I can't it's like nineteen

579
00:48:49.400 --> 00:48:53.639
ninety five. That was like that was a different century.

580
00:48:54.920 --> 00:49:00.519
So nineteen ninety five, I I sold all my book books,

581
00:49:00.760 --> 00:49:06.760
or my Buddhist books. And I had a good collection,

582
00:49:07.079 --> 00:49:10.360
a large collection, but I sold.

583
00:49:10.159 --> 00:49:10.639
Them all.

584
00:49:13.119 --> 00:49:17.639
Because I was basically being evicted and I needed somewhere.

585
00:49:17.840 --> 00:49:20.480
I needed some cash, and then I went and worked

586
00:49:20.519 --> 00:49:24.719
at Butlin's, so you know, I didn't really work out.

587
00:49:25.320 --> 00:49:31.760
It worked out in the end, but I loved that

588
00:49:31.800 --> 00:49:35.679
little collection and it's I had. Yeah, I had a

589
00:49:35.679 --> 00:49:39.920
good collection of books back then, probably a good couple

590
00:49:39.920 --> 00:49:50.239
of hundred books. Yeah, and then nothing, honestly up from

591
00:49:50.320 --> 00:49:55.800
ninety five then ninety six. I did read buy another book,

592
00:49:57.039 --> 00:50:01.719
which was the It was a Buddhist book, the Tibetan.

593
00:50:04.400 --> 00:50:07.320
I've still it's not the same one, but it's the

594
00:50:07.360 --> 00:50:09.840
same one. So I basically had that book three times

595
00:50:09.880 --> 00:50:14.480
now and it's on my bookcase. It's sort of red cover.

596
00:50:14.760 --> 00:50:20.000
I forget something Path of good Fortune to make me

597
00:50:20.039 --> 00:50:24.000
want to read it again, strange, isn't it? So I

598
00:50:24.079 --> 00:50:26.159
bought that, and I was reading that when I was

599
00:50:26.239 --> 00:50:33.159
doing a security job during ninety six ninety seven, and

600
00:50:33.199 --> 00:50:40.199
I think I also got I also had see this

601
00:50:40.280 --> 00:50:46.840
is weird. I've had this book. It is Teachings of

602
00:50:46.880 --> 00:50:55.760
a Buddha, and I've had it since probably nineteen ninety three.

603
00:50:57.679 --> 00:51:00.840
I still got it. So I can't get it.

604
00:51:05.760 --> 00:51:06.440
What is that good?

605
00:51:10.840 --> 00:51:33.320
Okay, okay, couch watch.

606
00:51:37.360 --> 00:51:47.840
It's obstacle everywhere. I came back the cover and it's

607
00:51:47.920 --> 00:51:50.800
like a I guess it's a dust cover or whatever.

608
00:51:50.840 --> 00:51:56.480
It's very worn now. But it's called The Teachings of

609
00:51:56.480 --> 00:52:05.880
Buddha and it's one size English. Other side is I

610
00:52:05.920 --> 00:52:10.440
don't know Chinese, Mandarin. I'm not sure what the what

611
00:52:10.559 --> 00:52:13.639
the language is. It might be Japanese, actually, I'm not sure.

612
00:52:16.119 --> 00:52:24.920
Teach instead of Buddha. What year was this printed? Oh

613
00:52:25.000 --> 00:52:29.119
it's Japan Yes, so it's Japanese. So it's English and Japanese.

614
00:52:30.199 --> 00:52:35.199
Nineteen sixty six it was printed, and then again the

615
00:52:35.280 --> 00:52:43.039
revised edition, Wow, seven hundred and third revised edition seven

616
00:52:43.239 --> 00:52:51.360
hundred and three revisions of this nineteen ninety one. This

617
00:52:51.480 --> 00:52:53.840
was so this this was from nineteen ninety one, so

618
00:52:53.880 --> 00:52:57.639
I probably got it in about ninety two. It's the

619
00:52:57.679 --> 00:53:04.280
only item that I have from that long ago. And

620
00:53:04.320 --> 00:53:08.119
then you know how much it cost me twenty five pound,

621
00:53:09.559 --> 00:53:11.679
still got the price tag on it on the inside.

622
00:53:12.599 --> 00:53:21.159
Twenty five pound. When you consider at the time my

623
00:53:21.360 --> 00:53:25.519
rent was forty pounds a week. I was earning one

624
00:53:25.599 --> 00:53:29.559
hundred pounds a week in my job, So I spent

625
00:53:29.639 --> 00:53:34.880
twenty five pounds on a book, which kind of shows

626
00:53:35.880 --> 00:53:43.400
how interesting I was in the subject, because so it's

627
00:53:43.440 --> 00:53:47.639
English and Japanese, and there is how many pages, over

628
00:53:47.719 --> 00:53:50.960
six hundred pages. But it's not a big book. It's

629
00:53:51.480 --> 00:53:58.920
you know, quite small. The writing is quite small. So yeah,

630
00:53:59.039 --> 00:54:02.039
it's good, but it's very in a way, it's kind

631
00:54:02.039 --> 00:54:05.119
of similar to the Gideon's Bible in the sense of

632
00:54:06.320 --> 00:54:11.440
you can look up things to to focus on. So

633
00:54:11.639 --> 00:54:22.280
for example, if you're interested in I, I should be

634
00:54:22.280 --> 00:54:26.880
at the back. Actually, yeah, it at the back like

635
00:54:26.920 --> 00:54:35.960
a glossary. No it isn't, it's not at all. There

636
00:54:36.000 --> 00:54:43.079
is a there's a also, okay, so there is like

637
00:54:43.159 --> 00:54:46.320
it's an index. So if you want to look at

638
00:54:46.360 --> 00:54:54.480
truth where you want to, okay, do not forget where

639
00:54:54.519 --> 00:55:03.039
you are seeking h do not let your mind be disturbed,

640
00:55:03.119 --> 00:55:08.320
even under unsatisfactory circumstances. So there's little things like that

641
00:55:08.360 --> 00:55:12.480
you can go into and it say, okay, it can

642
00:55:12.559 --> 00:55:19.599
help in a few you know, I suppose stuff when

643
00:55:19.639 --> 00:55:22.559
it's getting when things are maybe a little bit difficult,

644
00:55:22.960 --> 00:55:29.760
and the meaning of life, a prejudiced life, and the

645
00:55:29.840 --> 00:55:32.039
five things that no one can accomplish in this world,

646
00:55:33.320 --> 00:55:38.920
the four truths in this world is faith is a

647
00:55:39.360 --> 00:55:45.000
manifest manifestation, manifestation. I can't even say the word, but anyway,

648
00:55:45.079 --> 00:55:48.960
that there reason not getting that out is because I

649
00:55:49.039 --> 00:55:52.239
just I forgot. I don't think I've got that book,

650
00:55:52.280 --> 00:55:58.079
but I forget that that book predates every other item

651
00:55:58.199 --> 00:56:02.480
or belonging that I have in world. I have nothing

652
00:56:02.559 --> 00:56:07.679
that's older in that book. I mean even my internal

653
00:56:07.800 --> 00:56:12.320
organs have regenerated in that time, because I'd say, is

654
00:56:12.320 --> 00:56:15.159
that every seven years our organs regenerate over time, So

655
00:56:16.079 --> 00:56:22.320
that book's older than me. Technically it was born when

656
00:56:22.320 --> 00:56:26.199
I was twenty one. That book, so in this sense,

657
00:56:26.239 --> 00:56:29.280
is like my son or my daughter. That book is

658
00:56:31.519 --> 00:56:36.000
and it's the only thing. Even when I was destroying

659
00:56:36.079 --> 00:56:46.920
books back in twenty fourteen, I wouldn't go near that one.

660
00:56:48.400 --> 00:56:50.800
I mean, it's not that it's irreplaceable because it's probably

661
00:56:52.159 --> 00:56:57.119
for me now and it's nine thousandth edition reprint or whatever,

662
00:56:57.199 --> 00:57:05.000
but it's yeah, it's traveled with me. You think about it,

663
00:57:05.000 --> 00:57:11.480
it's traveled for so it was in Stratford and it's

664
00:57:11.519 --> 00:57:14.639
traveled with me all the different places I've moved, So

665
00:57:14.760 --> 00:57:20.360
let's count those. So from Stratford ninety four to another

666
00:57:20.400 --> 00:57:26.920
place in light and so that's one, then again stayed

667
00:57:26.920 --> 00:57:32.239
with me there, then to Ireland, then back to London.

668
00:57:32.760 --> 00:57:36.960
So that's four places. Just been to Ireland, it's been,

669
00:57:38.559 --> 00:57:44.920
then to Bogner, Regis, then back to London, then to

670
00:57:44.960 --> 00:57:53.320
another place in London, another place in London, then another

671
00:57:53.400 --> 00:58:00.199
place in London, then Ipswich, another place in it's which

672
00:58:00.280 --> 00:58:06.119
number place in Ipswich. No, a place in Ipswich, number

673
00:58:06.119 --> 00:58:14.320
place in Ipswich. So that's fourteen so far. Then where

674
00:58:14.320 --> 00:58:19.599
I'm living now that's fifteen. No, where I moved, so

675
00:58:19.639 --> 00:58:28.440
that it is rather then six, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen,

676
00:58:30.920 --> 00:58:35.639
nineteen or twenty, So about nineteen or twenty different places

677
00:58:35.639 --> 00:58:40.639
I've lived since I've got this book. I think it's

678
00:58:40.679 --> 00:58:43.119
more than that. I've moved probably more than that. I'm

679
00:58:43.159 --> 00:58:46.719
just think old yeah, twenty one, twenty two, Yeah, maybe

680
00:58:46.760 --> 00:58:50.480
twenty three, twenty two, between twenty one and twenty three.

681
00:58:50.519 --> 00:58:53.800
Times I've moved since I've got this book, So it's

682
00:58:53.840 --> 00:58:57.599
moved around with me. Now, how I thought about it,

683
00:58:57.599 --> 00:59:01.119
I would have took it with me to when I

684
00:59:01.119 --> 00:59:03.199
went to Amsterdam, or when I went to the Isle

685
00:59:03.199 --> 00:59:10.320
of Man, or when I went to Bulgaria, or when

686
00:59:10.320 --> 00:59:12.840
I went to Thailand or whatever. I could have sort

687
00:59:12.840 --> 00:59:17.000
of taken it with me. Is my travel my travel companion,

688
00:59:17.599 --> 00:59:21.599
But I didn't didn't think about it. I got you know,

689
00:59:21.599 --> 00:59:25.920
I like to travel light, not in physical weight, but

690
00:59:26.039 --> 00:59:33.159
just generally light. So yeah, so that I've got that book.

691
00:59:33.199 --> 00:59:39.039
So that's that's been with me the whole time. I

692
00:59:39.039 --> 00:59:42.280
I generally, I don't really look at it. It's terrist jaw.

693
00:59:42.440 --> 00:59:44.440
I should have got that other book, shouldn't I The

694
00:59:44.480 --> 00:59:48.199
other book that I've got, Path of Great Fortune, Noble

695
00:59:48.280 --> 00:59:58.320
Path of Great Fortune or something it's called. So what

696
00:59:58.440 --> 00:59:59.760
year am I up to on this?

697
01:00:00.039 --> 01:00:00.119
Yes?

698
01:00:02.920 --> 01:00:05.320
So yeah, I think when I got involved in about

699
01:00:05.320 --> 01:00:09.280
two thousand, nineteen ninety seven blind Me. I keep saying

700
01:00:09.280 --> 01:00:16.719
two thousand, nineteen ninety seven, I started getting into self development,

701
01:00:19.719 --> 01:00:22.800
and before that I was, it's going to be strange

702
01:00:22.840 --> 01:00:28.559
because I never really did any sales. In the nineties.

703
01:00:28.639 --> 01:00:33.039
I tried a few different sales jobs and failed every

704
01:00:33.079 --> 01:00:38.159
single one of them. And because they were always not

705
01:00:38.239 --> 01:00:44.159
always but one wasn't, but most of them were, you know,

706
01:00:46.039 --> 01:00:53.800
bonus only no actual pay unless your sell I couldn't

707
01:00:53.880 --> 01:00:56.639
keep it up because I was I had a tendency

708
01:00:56.679 --> 01:01:01.400
of starting those jobs. They're not hard to get because

709
01:01:01.719 --> 01:01:03.960
there's nothing for the people to lose. Is that really?

710
01:01:04.320 --> 01:01:06.599
The companies that take you on they don't pay you anything,

711
01:01:07.440 --> 01:01:10.320
and they give you a commission, so they don't have

712
01:01:10.400 --> 01:01:12.960
to pay you a commission. If you make money, it's

713
01:01:12.960 --> 01:01:19.239
a win win for them. So I didn't get you know,

714
01:01:19.719 --> 01:01:21.760
but I was interested in selling, and I had lots

715
01:01:21.760 --> 01:01:24.440
of selling books, lots of sales books, and I used

716
01:01:24.480 --> 01:01:28.440
to read those books for fun in the ninety five,

717
01:01:28.599 --> 01:01:34.760
ninety six, ninety seven, ninety eight, ninety nine. It's weird.

718
01:01:34.800 --> 01:01:39.360
I just in fact, earlier than that. I started reading

719
01:01:39.440 --> 01:01:45.679
sales books in nineteen eighty nine when I was doing canvassing,

720
01:01:46.679 --> 01:01:51.000
and I just liked the positivity of it. Anything that

721
01:01:51.039 --> 01:01:53.199
could help me to feel a little bit more positive

722
01:01:53.559 --> 01:01:58.480
was a good thing. But I did go after Rails

723
01:01:58.519 --> 01:02:06.960
a bit during the nineties, and then I started doing

724
01:02:07.079 --> 01:02:13.039
sales in two thousand and one as a job, like

725
01:02:13.320 --> 01:02:20.079
full time properly, so you know, I kind of began

726
01:02:20.199 --> 01:02:24.159
reading books again on sales and listening to audio tapes

727
01:02:24.199 --> 01:02:33.519
by zig Ziggler and people like that. I kind of, yeah,

728
01:02:33.599 --> 01:02:37.639
I'd lost contact with the the Buddhism stuff. I didn't

729
01:02:37.760 --> 01:02:40.800
have anything to do with that, although I didn't have

730
01:02:40.920 --> 01:02:42.960
my little book here, but I didn't look at it.

731
01:02:44.280 --> 01:02:48.719
And then probably about November two thousand and two or

732
01:02:48.920 --> 01:02:51.840
the end of two thousand and two, I was in

733
01:02:53.679 --> 01:03:02.400
much need to for help as far as relaxing, as

734
01:03:02.440 --> 01:03:08.400
far as anxiety control and stuff like that. So what

735
01:03:08.519 --> 01:03:13.440
happened is I used to walk past this place every day,

736
01:03:14.320 --> 01:03:17.840
a Buddhist center. It was at a Buddhist shop, and

737
01:03:17.880 --> 01:03:21.559
then I realized it was a Buddhist center, and then

738
01:03:21.599 --> 01:03:24.239
I kind of started thinking about going in there, and

739
01:03:25.239 --> 01:03:27.199
I knew it was open, and I think at Wednesday

740
01:03:27.320 --> 01:03:32.480
or Tuesday evening, and I don't know. It kind of

741
01:03:32.559 --> 01:03:35.239
pulled me in a little bit so I was going

742
01:03:35.280 --> 01:03:40.119
into the shop quite regularly and buying gifts. It's a

743
01:03:40.159 --> 01:03:44.119
gift shop called Evolution, So I'd buy gifts for my

744
01:03:44.280 --> 01:03:46.960
nan or buy gifts for family from there, because I

745
01:03:47.039 --> 01:03:49.800
liked it in there, and I liked the atmosphere. I

746
01:03:49.960 --> 01:03:54.800
liked the calmness of the people that were working there,

747
01:03:55.639 --> 01:03:57.920
who I ended up being friends with. I ended up

748
01:03:57.960 --> 01:04:02.679
actually working there myself, but at that time I wasn't

749
01:04:02.719 --> 01:04:07.679
going to the Buddhist center. And then I'm not quite

750
01:04:07.760 --> 01:04:13.480
sure how it worked, but I ended up going and

751
01:04:13.519 --> 01:04:16.519
from then on. In fact, that very first night, I

752
01:04:16.639 --> 01:04:20.039
met my friend who I'm going to see in a

753
01:04:20.039 --> 01:04:28.000
couple of hours, and he was there and we just

754
01:04:28.039 --> 01:04:30.440
got on really well. I mean, what's that two thousand

755
01:04:30.480 --> 01:04:35.239
and two, three four five, So that's what twenty twenty

756
01:04:35.280 --> 01:04:41.320
three years? Twenty three years. Yeah, so I've known him

757
01:04:41.320 --> 01:04:44.960
for twenty two twenty three years. Even we lived with

758
01:04:45.039 --> 01:04:46.880
him for a little while. I worked with him twice,

759
01:04:49.679 --> 01:04:53.639
so because he lived in a Buddhist community when I

760
01:04:53.719 --> 01:04:58.119
moved in and then moved out, he moved out after

761
01:04:58.119 --> 01:05:00.000
a couple of weeks, but he was planning on moving

762
01:05:00.079 --> 01:05:02.400
now anyway. That's why they were looking for someone to

763
01:05:02.400 --> 01:05:08.119
move in, and I worked with him in the Evolution

764
01:05:08.199 --> 01:05:11.280
Shop in It's which he got me a job there

765
01:05:12.000 --> 01:05:15.840
because after going to the Buddhist Center for a while

766
01:05:17.320 --> 01:05:21.400
for about a year, Yeah, I kept I kept my

767
01:05:21.480 --> 01:05:23.199
job going for as long as I could. I didn't

768
01:05:23.199 --> 01:05:25.440
want to leave my job. I didn't want to lose it.

769
01:05:25.440 --> 01:05:27.559
Didn't want to leave it because I was good at it,

770
01:05:27.599 --> 01:05:33.480
and you know, I was doing quite well, but I

771
01:05:33.559 --> 01:05:35.599
wasn't well enough to keep going. And then in the

772
01:05:35.719 --> 01:05:38.000
end I had to leave. So it was another year.

773
01:05:38.119 --> 01:05:41.079
So as the end of two thousand and three, even

774
01:05:41.119 --> 01:05:43.719
though I'd gone part time, I just packed it in,

775
01:05:45.079 --> 01:05:51.480
couldn't do it anymore. And that Christmas, my friend offered

776
01:05:51.519 --> 01:05:56.239
me a job just over the Christmas period working in

777
01:05:56.840 --> 01:06:00.480
the Evolution shop because that was their busy part of

778
01:06:00.519 --> 01:06:04.159
the whole year. So I did. I worked there, probably

779
01:06:04.199 --> 01:06:09.000
not every day, probably three days a week or you know,

780
01:06:09.119 --> 01:06:14.559
part time, but just you know, having somewhere because I

781
01:06:14.599 --> 01:06:17.079
needed to have an income. But at the same time,

782
01:06:17.159 --> 01:06:20.679
I couldn't work full time. I didn't fill up to that,

783
01:06:22.599 --> 01:06:30.920
so and I worked there part time until the following August,

784
01:06:35.199 --> 01:06:37.920
and I kind of lived on savings really and then

785
01:06:38.159 --> 01:06:40.960
again well I ended up living on credit cards and stuff,

786
01:06:41.440 --> 01:06:49.679
which wasn't probably the best idea. And then and then

787
01:06:49.960 --> 01:06:51.960
I left, but I didn't leave the Bullhet Center, but

788
01:06:52.000 --> 01:06:54.880
I left the shop, got a job.

789
01:06:56.840 --> 01:06:57.320
And.

790
01:06:59.199 --> 01:07:04.800
I continued going to the Buddhist Center. Four sauce is

791
01:07:04.880 --> 01:07:12.360
two thousand and four, I had my Mitra ceremony, which

792
01:07:12.400 --> 01:07:16.599
is kind of like I guess, like a Christening, like

793
01:07:16.639 --> 01:07:21.360
a Christenin kind of thing. It's a ceremony. And so

794
01:07:21.440 --> 01:07:24.239
that was in August two thousand or August or September

795
01:07:24.280 --> 01:07:30.280
two thousand and four. And then in two thousand and

796
01:07:30.800 --> 01:07:36.360
five I moved into the Buddhist community because I was

797
01:07:36.719 --> 01:07:39.960
going very well with the people living there, well most

798
01:07:40.000 --> 01:07:42.400
of them. I didn't know everyone, but I knew like

799
01:07:42.639 --> 01:07:48.639
at least one, two three people before, in fact four

800
01:07:48.679 --> 01:07:51.639
people living there. There was another person I didn't know

801
01:07:51.719 --> 01:07:54.679
so well, but he moved out, and another person my

802
01:07:54.760 --> 01:08:00.000
friend who yeah, so and I lived there. In continue

803
01:08:00.119 --> 01:08:04.519
you go to the Buddhist Center from up until I

804
01:08:04.639 --> 01:08:15.159
left in two thousand and seven, around November time, when

805
01:08:15.800 --> 01:08:21.960
I had to find basically there was a squirmish, a squirmish,

806
01:08:22.479 --> 01:08:26.239
and so I had to move out, and I went

807
01:08:26.319 --> 01:08:31.479
and lived. I needed really to live closer to where

808
01:08:31.520 --> 01:08:36.199
the university was, which was in a different town, which

809
01:08:36.279 --> 01:08:38.640
is what I did. But then I started going to

810
01:08:38.720 --> 01:08:42.920
the Buddhist Center in that town, and then I ended

811
01:08:42.960 --> 01:08:46.840
up working in the because a couple of people knew

812
01:08:46.920 --> 01:08:51.960
me anyway, because it wasn't that far away. And then

813
01:08:52.000 --> 01:08:54.760
I started working in the Evolution shop in that town

814
01:08:56.159 --> 01:09:02.680
because my friend was working there, the one that got

815
01:09:02.680 --> 01:09:06.640
me a job at the Evolution in Ipswich, got me

816
01:09:06.680 --> 01:09:10.640
a job at the Evolution in this town as well.

817
01:09:12.079 --> 01:09:14.800
And it was it was just part time again during

818
01:09:14.880 --> 01:09:20.439
Christmas the busiest time, and it was handy because I

819
01:09:20.520 --> 01:09:23.079
was a student that actually a little bit of money

820
01:09:23.199 --> 01:09:28.479
was useful. So I did that on and off for

821
01:09:28.479 --> 01:09:32.840
a couple of years well, during a period of being

822
01:09:33.119 --> 01:09:39.880
at university, really just part time Saturdays, not every Saturday.

823
01:09:40.000 --> 01:09:43.399
This is whenever. Really we need that be barking, please mate.

824
01:09:44.640 --> 01:09:54.000
And then I when I finished university, I moved literally

825
01:09:54.039 --> 01:09:57.720
around the corner from the Buddhist Center, so I was

826
01:09:59.000 --> 01:10:02.079
probably going a little bit more regular then because it's

827
01:10:02.119 --> 01:10:05.359
just up the road. And then I moved again a

828
01:10:05.439 --> 01:10:08.680
year later, and it was also across across thetroad. It's

829
01:10:08.720 --> 01:10:11.319
just like the opposite, but it's still the same kind

830
01:10:11.319 --> 01:10:14.159
of distance, a little bit further away, but you know,

831
01:10:14.760 --> 01:10:19.279
ten minute walk, five minute walk, six minute walk, ten seven,

832
01:10:19.680 --> 01:10:25.119
eight nine, something like that, And so i'd go along.

833
01:10:25.560 --> 01:10:27.600
I used to go New Year's Eve and stuff like

834
01:10:27.640 --> 01:10:32.560
that as well. So I was involved in the Buddhist

835
01:10:32.600 --> 01:10:38.359
Center then during this period sort of especially like during

836
01:10:38.399 --> 01:10:44.720
two thousand and three two thousand and four, I bought

837
01:10:45.159 --> 01:10:50.279
so many books on Buddhism. It's just it's one of

838
01:10:50.319 --> 01:10:52.560
those things that I have a tendency of doing. If

839
01:10:52.560 --> 01:10:55.359
I really get into a subject, I'll buy every book

840
01:10:55.399 --> 01:11:02.640
I can. What I find is to study a subject,

841
01:11:02.800 --> 01:11:08.319
I like to if you, if you read enough books

842
01:11:08.319 --> 01:11:15.479
on a subject, you'll start to see repetition almost or yeah,

843
01:11:15.640 --> 01:11:19.520
you guarantee to see repetition. But that repetition is good

844
01:11:19.720 --> 01:11:23.039
because then it helps for me, It helps it to

845
01:11:23.119 --> 01:11:27.640
absorb it and also get to see things from a

846
01:11:28.199 --> 01:11:33.560
slightly different angle or different opinion or expressed in a

847
01:11:33.600 --> 01:11:42.520
slightly way, you know. So that that's what I did.

848
01:11:42.640 --> 01:11:45.159
Bought a lot of books. I ended up giving most

849
01:11:45.159 --> 01:11:51.960
of them to the Buddhist Center. Yeah, I did accept

850
01:11:52.960 --> 01:11:55.760
this one. The reason I know is because I didn't print.

851
01:11:56.960 --> 01:12:00.279
I didn't because I printed the Buddhist Center's print it.

852
01:12:01.319 --> 01:12:03.800
But I didn't give this one away. I kept this one.

853
01:12:04.479 --> 01:12:08.239
This was never this will be with me, this will

854
01:12:08.239 --> 01:12:12.359
be me, this is this is with me forever, I

855
01:12:12.399 --> 01:12:24.760
guess now. And when I moved away to hear So

856
01:12:24.800 --> 01:12:27.600
there's a lot of things happened in the Buddhist world,

857
01:12:27.640 --> 01:12:32.319
you know, since I've been involved. I went to retreats

858
01:12:32.359 --> 01:12:35.000
and I went on a pain management retreat as well,

859
01:12:35.520 --> 01:12:39.680
back in two thousand and five I think, unless it

860
01:12:39.720 --> 01:12:45.439
was two thousand and six, and I think it might

861
01:12:45.439 --> 01:12:48.359
have been two thousand and six. And that was amazing

862
01:12:48.600 --> 01:12:53.359
because I was interested in pain relief and as a practitioner,

863
01:12:53.399 --> 01:12:57.199
and this was like a breath works mindfulness pain relief

864
01:12:59.640 --> 01:13:03.199
and lasted for about a week I think two weeks

865
01:13:03.239 --> 01:13:07.079
a week. I think it's about a week. So as

866
01:13:07.119 --> 01:13:16.239
well as being a retreat, it was also training as well. Yeah,

867
01:13:16.680 --> 01:13:22.279
so I used to go out and meet up with Buddhists.

868
01:13:22.359 --> 01:13:24.039
I used to meet up with my friend that I'm

869
01:13:24.079 --> 01:13:28.680
seeing today when I was in the same town. You know,

870
01:13:28.760 --> 01:13:32.720
when I first started going to the Buddhist center. We

871
01:13:32.840 --> 01:13:36.319
used to meet up quite often, once a week, once

872
01:13:36.359 --> 01:13:41.640
every two weeks, and he almost kind of became like

873
01:13:41.680 --> 01:13:45.880
a counselor to me. It wasn't the idea, it wasn't

874
01:13:45.920 --> 01:13:49.680
the plan, and that wasn't his intention. But I used

875
01:13:49.680 --> 01:13:53.520
to just go and unload and he just sit down

876
01:13:53.560 --> 01:13:59.479
and listen, and you know, it was probably wasn't really

877
01:13:59.560 --> 01:14:03.319
fair on him, but he was so so gentle and

878
01:14:03.520 --> 01:14:12.159
so the right word attentive. And I said to him,

879
01:14:12.439 --> 01:14:15.640
why don't you, why don't you become a counselor, And

880
01:14:15.720 --> 01:14:22.159
he said he didn't want to. But then once I'd

881
01:14:22.199 --> 01:14:26.319
finished my counseling course, he trained up to become a counselor.

882
01:14:28.960 --> 01:14:31.760
So he also is a counselor. Well, he's trained. I

883
01:14:31.800 --> 01:14:34.399
don't know if he's seeing clients or not. I don't know.

884
01:14:35.000 --> 01:14:38.279
I know why'm not. I haven't seen clients for over

885
01:14:38.319 --> 01:14:47.439
a decade now. I wouldn't even know how what what what?

886
01:14:49.760 --> 01:14:53.640
I'm sure I must have some skills. I don't know it.

887
01:14:56.520 --> 01:15:02.000
But yeah, it's so, I've seen him go through lots

888
01:15:02.039 --> 01:15:05.279
of different things. I mean, he's now got a kid

889
01:15:05.319 --> 01:15:15.319
that's probably thirteen twelve thirteen fourteen now, And I went

890
01:15:15.359 --> 01:15:19.039
to his wedding, which was in probably about two thousand

891
01:15:19.119 --> 01:15:35.880
and nine, which is yeah, two thousand and nine, twenty nineteen,

892
01:15:39.239 --> 01:15:41.399
so yeah, probably the next year they had a baby's

893
01:15:41.560 --> 01:15:47.880
probably fifteen years old. He's boy. Now, wow, it's really weird.

894
01:15:47.920 --> 01:15:51.600
My niece. I got a message from my stepmom saying,

895
01:15:51.960 --> 01:15:54.600
I'll just letting you know that your niece is now

896
01:15:56.079 --> 01:16:01.680
it's her seventeenth birthday today. This is yesterday. I forgot

897
01:16:01.720 --> 01:16:13.800
to send a card. But hey, and seventeen, and I remember,

898
01:16:14.159 --> 01:16:16.279
it doesn't seem long ago that she was running around

899
01:16:17.319 --> 01:16:18.920
two all of us and just punching us all in

900
01:16:18.960 --> 01:16:23.279
the balls. You know what was last year? No, but

901
01:16:23.319 --> 01:16:24.479
you know when she was a little kid, you know,

902
01:16:24.560 --> 01:16:27.800
a kid doing they just sort of they realized they

903
01:16:27.880 --> 01:16:32.000
found a place where they can hurt you. And I

904
01:16:32.039 --> 01:16:34.319
had a video camera and I filmed her when she

905
01:16:34.560 --> 01:16:43.119
was probably five four something like that, and she was

906
01:16:43.119 --> 01:16:45.199
at a dinner table if it was at Christmas, and

907
01:16:45.239 --> 01:16:50.560
I was filming and she was just being so funny

908
01:16:50.760 --> 01:16:53.680
and she's not making faces and doing all funny voices

909
01:16:53.720 --> 01:16:59.880
and stuff. But I lost it. I lost the film footage.

910
01:17:00.479 --> 01:17:03.960
I don't know what happened. And it's a little bit

911
01:17:04.039 --> 01:17:06.600
unlike me because I did. I kept a lot of

912
01:17:06.600 --> 01:17:09.159
film footage that well, most film footage that I took

913
01:17:09.199 --> 01:17:13.720
with that camera is actually on YouTube. Now that wouldn't be,

914
01:17:13.760 --> 01:17:18.680
of course, because that's of family and stuff. I wouldn't show.

915
01:17:18.880 --> 01:17:21.680
I wouldn't have videos of kids and stuff on the

916
01:17:21.760 --> 01:17:28.439
YouTube channel. Even with my neighbor, I was filming Vinnie

917
01:17:28.520 --> 01:17:33.279
in their garden and I made sure that the little

918
01:17:33.279 --> 01:17:35.520
girl wasn't in the camera. You could hear a voice.

919
01:17:35.520 --> 01:17:39.800
But I'm not filming. I just want to All I

920
01:17:39.880 --> 01:17:42.399
want is to film Vinnie. I don't want to film humans.

921
01:17:42.840 --> 01:17:48.479
I don't want humans on the camera. He's laying on

922
01:17:48.520 --> 01:17:51.880
the floor. The windows, the curtains are open and the

923
01:17:52.079 --> 01:17:55.880
sun shining in, and he's found the one little part

924
01:17:56.000 --> 01:18:02.680
where the sun's still shining on the carpet. Honestly, it's

925
01:18:02.760 --> 01:18:09.960
almost dog shaped size. He fits in it perfectly. It's

926
01:18:10.000 --> 01:18:12.800
a tiny little bit on the carpet that's got some

927
01:18:15.159 --> 01:18:21.680
It just makes me laugh. He's so funny, he's so cute.

928
01:18:21.680 --> 01:18:23.199
But I know if I went over and I touched

929
01:18:23.239 --> 01:18:27.479
him and growl at me. It doesn't like being disturbed.

930
01:18:29.399 --> 01:18:32.479
But it's okay for him to disturb me. It's fine

931
01:18:32.520 --> 01:18:38.159
for me to disturb him. Mind you. I woke up

932
01:18:38.239 --> 01:18:43.560
this morning and he was just standing over me, and

933
01:18:44.880 --> 01:18:46.600
I thought he needed to get up and go, but

934
01:18:46.680 --> 01:18:50.399
he didn't. He didn't want to go out, didn't want anything.

935
01:18:51.079 --> 01:18:52.520
As soon as I got out of bed, he just

936
01:18:52.520 --> 01:18:56.079
went back and laid down to go to sleep. So

937
01:18:56.119 --> 01:18:59.640
I'm thinking he woke me up, so maybe but I

938
01:18:59.760 --> 01:19:02.960
was making some weird noises or something and he was concerned,

939
01:19:03.000 --> 01:19:05.279
So he was he woke me up, or he was

940
01:19:05.319 --> 01:19:11.520
protecting me, guarding me or something, which for just watching me,

941
01:19:13.239 --> 01:19:17.000
Either he was he was helping me, or he's just

942
01:19:17.039 --> 01:19:24.239
a weirdo, a bit of both. Tech staff is the dar.

943
01:19:27.000 --> 01:19:32.840
See if I've got any messages? Okay, right PayPal? Yeah,

944
01:19:32.920 --> 01:19:38.039
that's that's just for the groceries I got delivered, which

945
01:19:38.079 --> 01:19:43.600
is fine. Okay, it's not coming up.

946
01:19:47.680 --> 01:19:47.840
Right?

947
01:19:47.920 --> 01:19:48.640
Another message?

948
01:19:48.720 --> 01:19:49.840
My my?

949
01:19:51.640 --> 01:19:56.840
What sit downstairs? Jason? Sorry, babe, do you have any

950
01:19:56.880 --> 01:19:59.479
fizzy drink? As my sugar levels are really low and

951
01:19:59.520 --> 01:20:10.600
I don't nothing, I don't sorry, I'm not allowed to

952
01:20:10.680 --> 01:20:21.079
drink fizzy drinks, although saying that some times I have.

953
01:20:23.119 --> 01:20:26.560
Oh I could give her an ice cream I got

954
01:20:26.560 --> 01:20:28.840
on Yeah, I could give her that. I would be

955
01:20:30.079 --> 01:20:32.520
I just got some cornetto's, could give her a cornetto

956
01:20:32.560 --> 01:20:37.600
I suppose every day she asks us something. The weird

957
01:20:37.600 --> 01:20:39.159
thing about it is she doesn't even talk to me,

958
01:20:39.680 --> 01:20:43.199
like has no conversation with me at all, but constantly

959
01:20:43.239 --> 01:20:47.520
asking me stuff. So that's today, yesterday, hijason, does some

960
01:20:47.640 --> 01:20:50.079
juice please, as I literally only have one only have

961
01:20:50.159 --> 01:21:00.239
tap water. That was yesterday. And last Tuesday, do you

962
01:21:00.239 --> 01:21:04.079
have any frozen meals? I could nick because I'm waiting

963
01:21:04.119 --> 01:21:10.640
on the food bank. And the Thursday before that, can

964
01:21:10.680 --> 01:21:15.279
you put she wanted me have someone put money into

965
01:21:15.319 --> 01:21:20.159
my account. And then the Monday before that we've got

966
01:21:20.199 --> 01:21:25.840
some butter. I can borrow to butter some rolls. And

967
01:21:25.880 --> 01:21:30.119
then the Sunday before that is ru anywhere you can

968
01:21:30.199 --> 01:21:32.479
order me some white chest of drawers on a pay

969
01:21:32.560 --> 01:21:35.359
monthly for the baby, as I got so much baby

970
01:21:35.359 --> 01:21:44.319
clothes now nowhere to put them, and I can pay

971
01:21:44.359 --> 01:21:49.560
you once a month towards it. Like no, I can't

972
01:21:49.600 --> 01:21:53.680
get credit. I literally cannot get credit. Even if I

973
01:21:53.720 --> 01:22:04.239
wanted to, I couldn't. It's amazing, absolutely amazing, So length. Okay.

974
01:22:04.319 --> 01:22:07.600
The the Sunday before that, have you got a lighter? Please?

975
01:22:12.000 --> 01:22:15.159
Sunday before that? Can you keep my can you keep

976
01:22:15.199 --> 01:22:26.560
an eye on my flat? It goes on. I told

977
01:22:26.600 --> 01:22:29.319
I had a friend. I did this, It's okay. And

978
01:22:29.399 --> 01:22:33.319
then the thirtieth of April, do you have any money

979
01:22:33.319 --> 01:22:35.479
I could have because I need to go to London.

980
01:22:35.479 --> 01:22:40.079
I need twenty pound which I didn't have any money.

981
01:22:40.720 --> 01:22:45.720
So that's the twenty fifth of April. Fifth of April.

982
01:22:46.159 --> 01:22:48.560
Don't suppose you've got fifteen pound I can have so

983
01:22:48.600 --> 01:22:51.039
I can get a or if you can just order

984
01:22:51.119 --> 01:22:54.199
me an egg, egg, fried rice, sat a chicken and

985
01:22:54.279 --> 01:22:59.359
chips from the Chinese. It was like, what did I

986
01:22:59.359 --> 01:23:03.159
answer that? Nope, got no money, but you can have

987
01:23:03.199 --> 01:23:07.159
a pasta pack just needs boiling. I left a bag

988
01:23:07.199 --> 01:23:12.720
outside your door. I don't think she ate that. And

989
01:23:12.760 --> 01:23:19.720
then the Thursday before that, oh no, And oh the

990
01:23:19.760 --> 01:23:27.039
Wednesday before that, do you have any potatoes? Friday before

991
01:23:27.079 --> 01:23:34.680
that do you have any chocolates? And Friday, twenty first

992
01:23:34.680 --> 01:23:37.000
of March, I wonder if you add in money I

993
01:23:37.000 --> 01:23:45.960
could borrow her for taxi okay, which I didn't. And

994
01:23:45.960 --> 01:23:51.159
then the Monday, BlimE me that's amazing, This is amazing.

995
01:23:51.319 --> 01:23:57.359
The Monday, seventeenth March, I wonder if you could transfer

996
01:23:57.439 --> 01:24:02.880
me seventeen pound so I can give you cash at midnight,

997
01:24:08.239 --> 01:24:10.079
or if you can borrow me the money, could you

998
01:24:10.199 --> 01:24:19.800
order me a big Mac? That was a no? Twenty

999
01:24:19.840 --> 01:24:23.000
seventh of February. Is there any way you could do

1000
01:24:23.079 --> 01:24:25.840
me a big favor and try and get me an iPhone? Please?

1001
01:24:26.319 --> 01:24:30.159
Mine keeps turning off and he's smashed, and I'm having whatever.

1002
01:24:30.199 --> 01:24:31.960
I'm not going to be the whole thing out. I

1003
01:24:32.000 --> 01:24:45.199
can pay you next week when I'm paid. I said,

1004
01:24:45.199 --> 01:24:46.640
I have no money. Is the only way you could

1005
01:24:46.640 --> 01:24:52.000
get paid monthly? And I said I can't. I can't,

1006
01:24:52.840 --> 01:25:03.319
I can't borrow any money. Whatever. Look nineteenth of February.

1007
01:25:04.520 --> 01:25:07.119
Would I be able to ask? Can I? Can you boy?

1008
01:25:07.520 --> 01:25:11.479
I borrow sixty pound? I said, sorry, I've already leant

1009
01:25:11.520 --> 01:25:13.439
some one eighty pounds and they didn't pay it back,

1010
01:25:14.039 --> 01:25:19.960
which left me with nothing? What other one? What's the

1011
01:25:20.039 --> 01:25:44.000
next one? H just kind of can just going back

1012
01:25:47.840 --> 01:25:50.960
all right? January?

1013
01:25:52.079 --> 01:25:52.239
Oh?

1014
01:25:52.359 --> 01:25:59.399
Yes, certainly got any eggs? This is last January, third

1015
01:25:59.399 --> 01:26:01.880
of January. Do you have any do you have ten pound?

1016
01:26:02.279 --> 01:26:14.039
I can borrow. Third of January any painkillers? Seventeenth December

1017
01:26:14.119 --> 01:26:20.199
last year, any painkillers? Fifteenth of December, you've got a

1018
01:26:20.279 --> 01:26:32.840
lighter please? Twenty third of October do you have seventeen

1019
01:26:32.880 --> 01:26:41.960
pound you can put in my count? I don't have

1020
01:26:42.000 --> 01:26:49.279
any money, as I couldn't. Nineteenth of October can I

1021
01:26:49.279 --> 01:26:51.399
have six pound or eight pounds to borrow off you?

1022
01:26:53.800 --> 01:27:03.560
And then a big whatever? Information? I said zero cash?

1023
01:27:04.000 --> 01:27:09.399
Sixteenth the day before? Wow, can I borrow you ten

1024
01:27:09.479 --> 01:27:13.239
or fifteen pounds? I got thirty seven pence so I

1025
01:27:13.239 --> 01:27:18.520
can do that. Fifteenth of October last year, do you

1026
01:27:18.560 --> 01:27:24.640
have any newspapers I can use? And sixteenth of October

1027
01:27:25.079 --> 01:27:32.199
you've got any milk? Okay? What's the next one? Going back?

1028
01:27:39.880 --> 01:27:42.520
Seventh of October? See this is when this is at

1029
01:27:42.520 --> 01:27:45.079
a time when I was helping her. I had to

1030
01:27:45.079 --> 01:27:49.760
stop after this. My heating box is not working. I

1031
01:27:49.800 --> 01:27:53.640
was wondering if you know how to whatever? Just wondering.

1032
01:27:53.920 --> 01:27:56.319
This is seventh October, wondering if you have ten pounds

1033
01:27:56.319 --> 01:28:00.680
till Thursday, as I'm very not very well, So I

1034
01:28:00.760 --> 01:28:03.000
put ten pounds in a bank and I just texted

1035
01:28:03.079 --> 01:28:06.520
that to her. Oh sorry, I'm got a garage and

1036
01:28:06.520 --> 01:28:18.680
on a six pounds short Could you help me out? Yeah?

1037
01:28:18.720 --> 01:28:24.920
It just goes on and on and on. It's weird.

1038
01:28:25.840 --> 01:28:29.720
Seventeenth of August last year, do you have thirty pounds?

1039
01:28:29.680 --> 01:28:47.319
I can board to get whatever? Where's you're going? Wow? Friday,

1040
01:28:47.720 --> 01:28:52.159
nineteenth of July? Could you transfer me sixty nine pence?

1041
01:28:53.880 --> 01:28:55.920
And then a little while later, can you put twenty

1042
01:28:55.920 --> 01:29:00.920
pounds on my account? And I give you cash? I

1043
01:29:00.960 --> 01:29:05.359
had no money in my accounsel. I couldn't thirty first

1044
01:29:05.359 --> 01:29:08.399
of July do you ever take measure? I don't know

1045
01:29:08.399 --> 01:29:09.119
what that was about.

1046
01:29:09.479 --> 01:29:21.439
Through random?

1047
01:29:21.640 --> 01:29:25.159
Oh this is the word. Thirteenth July. Could I connect

1048
01:29:25.399 --> 01:29:30.479
to your WiFi? Please? My day is low. No no no,

1049
01:29:30.479 --> 01:29:33.760
no no no. That it gives someone your password for

1050
01:29:33.760 --> 01:29:36.640
your WiFi. That's it forever. Then you're never going to

1051
01:29:36.680 --> 01:29:39.680
get them off. You can block people and you can

1052
01:29:39.840 --> 01:29:45.479
change the password, but blind me, I can't involve with that. Okay,

1053
01:29:45.560 --> 01:29:55.319
so we're going back to seventh of July. So wow,

1054
01:29:57.039 --> 01:30:04.760
seventeenth seventh of July. Oh, yeah, I let my umbrella.

1055
01:30:05.000 --> 01:30:09.159
I didn't get my umbrella back then. I need you,

1056
01:30:09.239 --> 01:30:13.880
really need your help. I'm in a taxi and I

1057
01:30:13.880 --> 01:30:16.960
only have three pound and I put I have less

1058
01:30:16.960 --> 01:30:33.520
than you, So what do I do? Wow, it's weird

1059
01:30:33.720 --> 01:30:39.840
just looking back at it, it's uh oh yeah, what

1060
01:30:39.960 --> 01:30:45.039
is this? Back in God, this was like constant. This

1061
01:30:45.079 --> 01:30:51.239
is a long This is a twenty seventh, twenty seventh

1062
01:30:51.239 --> 01:31:04.920
for June twenty seventh, for June twenty sixth of June.

1063
01:31:05.760 --> 01:31:07.520
I just want to check your okay, as there was

1064
01:31:07.520 --> 01:31:11.520
an ambulance outside at four m this morning. I'm okay and.

1065
01:31:14.279 --> 01:31:14.640
Very low.

1066
01:31:14.680 --> 01:31:19.680
I don't have money for fizzy drink or chocolate. The

1067
01:31:19.720 --> 01:31:37.640
ambulance wasn't for her anyway. I got I got some coke.

1068
01:31:39.439 --> 01:31:41.319
Lest some coke outside your door. This is on the

1069
01:31:41.319 --> 01:31:59.119
twenty seventh. Can you Oh yeah, can you? So you

1070
01:31:59.199 --> 01:32:10.119
want to borrow fifty equid? Could you buy me three

1071
01:32:10.439 --> 01:32:18.680
for my prescription? And then later on another fourteen pound?

1072
01:32:19.560 --> 01:32:19.880
Wow?

1073
01:32:20.000 --> 01:32:23.439
This is just silly, isn't it. Oh well, I'll move

1074
01:32:23.479 --> 01:32:26.960
on from that because it's weird because she's only lived

1075
01:32:27.000 --> 01:32:29.600
here for three months. He's only moved in last week.

1076
01:32:31.159 --> 01:32:36.960
She's only been here three days. So I think one

1077
01:32:36.960 --> 01:32:41.680
of the downsides of the Buddhism I guess was well,

1078
01:32:41.680 --> 01:32:44.199
not not a downside. But I tried to help people.

1079
01:32:46.520 --> 01:32:49.279
I guess one of the downsides of helping people is

1080
01:32:51.000 --> 01:32:54.079
more here than anywhere else. Not here, but like in

1081
01:32:54.119 --> 01:32:59.319
this area, people have sort of took advantage of it,

1082
01:33:00.079 --> 01:33:04.760
or took advantage and of the situation. And bit by

1083
01:33:04.840 --> 01:33:08.119
bit I've managed to stop it. I'm still getting asked

1084
01:33:08.119 --> 01:33:10.560
for stuff, but I just say no. I had another

1085
01:33:10.600 --> 01:33:12.600
neighbor downstairs knock on my door when I was in

1086
01:33:12.640 --> 01:33:16.920
bed on Friday about eleven o'clock, asking if I had

1087
01:33:17.199 --> 01:33:22.000
twenty pound. She said, oh, I need I need some tobacco.

1088
01:33:23.079 --> 01:33:26.479
If you got twenty pound, Well, twenty pound doesn't buy tobacco,

1089
01:33:27.600 --> 01:33:30.800
it's like thirty six pounds or something, so twenty pounds

1090
01:33:30.840 --> 01:33:33.560
not going to get you anything. And I said, but

1091
01:33:33.640 --> 01:33:37.039
she did, you know? She just want And I said no,

1092
01:33:37.079 --> 01:33:39.720
she's okay, bye, So she didn't hassle me for it.

1093
01:33:39.760 --> 01:33:42.920
But like I don't have any money, I don't have

1094
01:33:42.920 --> 01:33:47.560
any cash. I'm think of getting a big sign, sticking

1095
01:33:47.600 --> 01:33:50.560
it on my door, my front door. You know those,

1096
01:33:51.439 --> 01:33:53.720
what do those? You know when a shop is empty,

1097
01:33:54.279 --> 01:34:02.840
and they said, this property does not contain cash. Some

1098
01:34:02.920 --> 01:34:06.079
shops had that done it in the window when they're closed.

1099
01:34:07.560 --> 01:34:10.119
I remember when I worked in the chip shop, he

1100
01:34:10.239 --> 01:34:13.720
always left the till open and I said, why did

1101
01:34:13.720 --> 01:34:16.680
you do that? Then he said, because if someone does

1102
01:34:16.720 --> 01:34:23.520
break in it, they can just help themselves to because

1103
01:34:23.560 --> 01:34:26.760
there was always like a float, maybe twenty quid or something.

1104
01:34:26.960 --> 01:34:30.720
They can help themselves to that and leave. They haven't

1105
01:34:30.760 --> 01:34:33.680
got a take. They won't take the till with them,

1106
01:34:33.920 --> 01:34:35.960
and I think the till was quite expensive. Putt a

1107
01:34:35.960 --> 01:34:39.800
few underquid, so they won't break the till because they

1108
01:34:40.039 --> 01:34:42.359
generally they'll smash the till up to get into it,

1109
01:34:43.159 --> 01:34:46.039
even though underneath the till was a little catch which

1110
01:34:46.039 --> 01:34:50.159
you could push and it would open it. I don't

1111
01:34:50.159 --> 01:34:53.479
know if they still have that in tills. They had

1112
01:34:53.479 --> 01:34:57.399
it in a oh when I was in the comedy

1113
01:34:57.439 --> 01:35:04.119
club they had one which was really old. For some reason,

1114
01:35:04.560 --> 01:35:09.840
my boss liked it. It didn't work at all, but

1115
01:35:10.000 --> 01:35:14.640
it looked nice like wooden. But you could open it

1116
01:35:14.680 --> 01:35:16.520
from the bottom. So I think maybe a lot of

1117
01:35:16.560 --> 01:35:19.880
tills you can just open them from the bottom, but

1118
01:35:20.000 --> 01:35:23.199
press a button or a lever and they open, so

1119
01:35:23.279 --> 01:35:25.439
you haven't got smashed them and break them or anything.

1120
01:35:26.199 --> 01:35:28.920
I mean, listen, I'm not giving advice to the thieves.

1121
01:35:29.800 --> 01:35:34.680
If he was to break into a shop, here's my advice.

1122
01:35:35.479 --> 01:35:42.079
No, not really, but yeah, this was about Buddhism. It

1123
01:35:42.079 --> 01:35:45.479
didn't really end up being about Buddhism, did it. Not really?

1124
01:35:46.800 --> 01:35:51.119
Not really, I replied to the neighby downstairs or not?

1125
01:35:51.279 --> 01:36:00.600
I can't remember. Wow, that's a lot of sorry, ok,

1126
01:36:00.720 --> 01:36:04.760
I replied. There. The thing is, if I do take

1127
01:36:04.760 --> 01:36:07.159
her anything down like the other day, I want to

1128
01:36:07.159 --> 01:36:08.840
have a chat with her, just to find out what's

1129
01:36:08.880 --> 01:36:11.800
going on. So can I come in and got no

1130
01:36:11.880 --> 01:36:20.199
clothes on? I said, that's fine, And doesn't talk to me,

1131
01:36:20.479 --> 01:36:25.720
doesn't have any any conversation with her or anything. It's

1132
01:36:25.840 --> 01:36:30.600
just it's almost like she doesn't like me at all. Yeah,

1133
01:36:31.399 --> 01:36:33.399
she asks her stuff. I don't. I don't kind of

1134
01:36:33.479 --> 01:36:34.119
understand that.

1135
01:36:35.960 --> 01:36:36.600
It's weird.

1136
01:36:37.079 --> 01:36:41.920
It just seems a bit strange. I did buy her television.

1137
01:36:44.079 --> 01:36:48.279
That's a long, a long while ago. That was the

1138
01:36:48.319 --> 01:37:01.880
second of June last year, second of June. Oh yeah,

1139
01:37:01.880 --> 01:37:03.439
she wanted me to go. She asked me to go

1140
01:37:03.479 --> 01:37:06.479
to television, and she said I'd like one like yours

1141
01:37:06.680 --> 01:37:09.720
or a little smaller. And my answer was my TV

1142
01:37:09.840 --> 01:37:13.119
is huge. There's no way I can. So I got

1143
01:37:13.119 --> 01:37:15.319
this on special offer and I paid for it over

1144
01:37:15.359 --> 01:37:17.880
a long time. But this was over I think a

1145
01:37:17.960 --> 01:37:23.159
grand or maybe just under one thousand pounds. It's like,

1146
01:37:23.279 --> 01:37:28.079
I think, I don't know what size it is, seventy

1147
01:37:28.119 --> 01:37:31.239
five eighty five something like that, but she got I

1148
01:37:31.359 --> 01:37:43.600
ended up getting her a fifty five inch one wow.

1149
01:37:46.760 --> 01:37:53.640
So yeah, it's just wanting to look when I got

1150
01:37:53.680 --> 01:38:03.079
my very first message. What's the very first message? Eighteenth

1151
01:38:03.079 --> 01:38:11.920
of May last year, eighteenth of my very first message.

1152
01:38:12.079 --> 01:38:14.399
So as soon as she got a message, this is

1153
01:38:14.520 --> 01:38:22.439
probably the day I gave her the telephone number. How

1154
01:38:22.479 --> 01:38:26.680
are you? This is at half six eighteenth, you'd be

1155
01:38:26.720 --> 01:38:31.319
a Saturday. Probably cool? Thanks, just watching boxing? Okay, that's good.

1156
01:38:31.399 --> 01:38:33.279
I'm just waiting to see if my friend can borrow

1157
01:38:33.319 --> 01:38:46.640
me twenty pounds to get food. So I'm like, okay,

1158
01:38:47.600 --> 01:38:50.680
so I must have maybe a carder. So I ended

1159
01:38:50.720 --> 01:39:08.199
up giving her that money. H so yeah, oh dear,

1160
01:39:21.159 --> 01:39:24.319
so yeah, I said at the end of the recording,

1161
01:39:25.239 --> 01:39:28.199
the end of the record in La la la la, La,

1162
01:39:28.239 --> 01:39:43.439
la la la, I'm feeling quite hungry. Anyone else I

1163
01:39:43.479 --> 01:39:45.800
can't be bothered to go out, though I might have

1164
01:39:45.840 --> 01:39:48.800
to cancel going out. I'm not really in the mood.

1165
01:39:49.359 --> 01:39:52.840
I don't want to go out, or don't I really don't,

1166
01:39:54.279 --> 01:40:07.039
but I don't know. I don't mhm did it here

1167
01:40:07.119 --> 01:40:26.199
we go walking down the street. Mm hmmm, h oh,

1168
01:40:28.720 --> 01:40:44.800
what's hired? Mm hmm how interesting dp d d d D.

1169
01:40:59.039 --> 01:41:12.680
So I'm just looking at some and online. So really

1170
01:41:16.680 --> 01:41:18.760
that's pretty much the end of the record. And I

1171
01:41:18.920 --> 01:41:29.159
do believe is it time to eat though? Because when

1172
01:41:29.199 --> 01:41:33.760
did I eat? Last nine? Ten? And yeah, maybe it is. Yeah,

1173
01:41:33.800 --> 01:41:36.680
I feel I'm going to cancel on me. I don't

1174
01:41:36.720 --> 01:41:41.520
want to go out after all these nice things I

1175
01:41:41.560 --> 01:41:42.199
said about him.

1176
01:41:42.199 --> 01:41:42.560
I just.

1177
01:41:46.319 --> 01:41:58.279
Coming board. It's not just that I just can't. Yeah,

1178
01:41:58.600 --> 01:42:05.520
you know, not can't be bothered. That's not the right word.

1179
01:42:12.600 --> 01:42:21.359
Am hm Oh I have sulved to eat and then

1180
01:42:21.399 --> 01:42:30.960
I see how I feel afterwards. So yeah, thank you

1181
01:42:31.000 --> 01:42:36.560
for listening. I feel like I really wound down this

1182
01:42:36.680 --> 01:42:46.159
recording to almost to stand still. It's real, So thank

1183
01:42:46.199 --> 01:42:51.079
you for listening. Rememberer, be kind to yourself because you

1184
01:42:51.239 --> 01:42:59.039
do deserve to be happy. Remember to be gentle with yourself.

1185
01:43:00.960 --> 01:43:19.319
Deserve to feel safe lots of love by relax in

1186
01:43:19.359 --> 01:43:30.119
a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way

1187
01:43:30.239 --> 01:43:38.920
that can not just allow you to feel calmer now

1188
01:43:39.960 --> 01:43:48.560
and throughout the time we've spent together here, not just

1189
01:43:48.840 --> 01:43:54.439
relaxed at the end of the recording when it's finished

1190
01:43:54.479 --> 01:44:01.039
and you can enjoy that sense of comfortfort and peace,

1191
01:44:05.800 --> 01:44:18.600
but also I think it would be nice to have

1192
01:44:19.119 --> 01:44:36.119
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1193
01:44:36.199 --> 01:44:49.640
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

1194
01:44:50.520 --> 01:44:59.439
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

1195
01:45:05.479 --> 01:45:13.319
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1196
01:45:13.479 --> 01:45:16.920
some people do and myself as well. I sometimes I

1197
01:45:17.079 --> 01:45:27.640
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1198
01:45:27.680 --> 01:45:32.920
I just listen to it over and over again every morning,

1199
01:45:33.079 --> 01:45:45.640
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1200
01:45:45.680 --> 01:45:51.199
to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it

1201
01:45:51.279 --> 01:45:56.359
was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1202
01:45:58.840 --> 01:46:04.000
and I managed to find it again and it still

1203
01:46:04.079 --> 01:46:09.680
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1204
01:46:09.840 --> 01:46:24.640
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1205
01:46:26.680 --> 01:46:33.159
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1206
01:46:33.239 --> 01:46:43.960
morning and in the evening. And I knew before even

1207
01:46:44.720 --> 01:46:51.920
pressing the play button that as soon as I've done that,

1208
01:46:52.880 --> 01:46:56.319
pressed the play button. This was in the days of

1209
01:47:01.399 --> 01:47:10.560
CD players pressed the play button. In fact, it might

1210
01:47:10.560 --> 01:47:15.039
have even been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on

1211
01:47:15.079 --> 01:47:27.920
the bed and then even without necessarily listening to her

1212
01:47:28.119 --> 01:47:41.079
words because I had them memorized. Really, it was as

1213
01:47:41.079 --> 01:47:51.760
if my body knew exactly what to do, and the

1214
01:47:51.920 --> 01:48:13.960
muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember

1215
01:48:14.079 --> 01:48:28.119
my mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening

1216
01:48:28.159 --> 01:48:34.960
to this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis,

1217
01:48:37.479 --> 01:48:45.319
and long before I ever made any videos or audio

1218
01:48:45.399 --> 01:48:50.159
recordings myself, because I didn't start doing that till two

1219
01:48:50.199 --> 01:49:09.479
thousand and six, I knew. I knew how helpful I

1220
01:49:09.600 --> 01:49:20.039
found being able to just let go, to have that

1221
01:49:20.239 --> 01:49:32.880
trust in the person that I'm listening to, knowing that

1222
01:49:32.960 --> 01:49:41.279
it's going to be just as relaxing, if not more so.

1223
01:49:43.920 --> 01:49:50.880
Each time you hear my voice, you may feel the same.

1224
01:49:57.279 --> 01:50:08.199
Some people have been listening to me for over a decade.

1225
01:50:12.680 --> 01:50:16.720
Maybe not solidly, obviously, not twenty four hours a day,

1226
01:50:18.479 --> 01:50:34.680
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1227
01:50:36.720 --> 01:50:42.720
There's something that I do which you may not realize

1228
01:50:45.119 --> 01:51:03.680
by listening is when I record these recordings now, for example,

1229
01:51:08.239 --> 01:51:14.279
I also am affected by the words.

1230
01:51:15.319 --> 01:51:25.399
That I say. So if I set you.

1231
01:51:26.399 --> 01:51:35.960
Focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing, I will

1232
01:51:36.039 --> 01:51:47.279
be focusing on my feet. I will be noticing my

1233
01:51:47.479 --> 01:52:05.039
feet relaxing. If I focus on your hands and maybe

1234
01:52:05.199 --> 01:52:17.279
notice the difference between each hand, perhaps notice the air

1235
01:52:17.720 --> 01:52:22.399
in the room, the temperature of the room. On the

1236
01:52:22.439 --> 01:52:34.239
backs of your hands, you may start to notice what

1237
01:52:34.359 --> 01:52:42.479
almost feels like a very light breeze, even though there

1238
01:52:42.479 --> 01:52:47.600
may not be any type of breeze at all where

1239
01:52:47.640 --> 01:53:00.039
you are right now. And as you become aware of

1240
01:53:01.279 --> 01:53:14.600
your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed my hands

1241
01:53:18.600 --> 01:53:40.960
are feeling now. And when it comes to potentially drifting

1242
01:53:41.039 --> 01:53:46.159
off to sleep, which may be the reason you're listening,

1243
01:53:51.840 --> 01:54:06.479
I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings. I

1244
01:54:06.640 --> 01:54:25.039
also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times I've

1245
01:54:25.079 --> 01:54:39.520
actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I carry

1246
01:54:39.560 --> 01:54:51.119
on talking. And it's only where I listen back to

1247
01:54:51.159 --> 01:55:00.199
do the editing I hear snoring, and I think I

1248
01:55:00.239 --> 01:55:10.279
don't remember snoring. I remember talking. Is it snoring? Was

1249
01:55:10.840 --> 01:55:17.199
a pick turned up? That's why I sound like when

1250
01:55:17.199 --> 01:55:28.119
I snare, how I get really into the whole experience.

1251
01:55:36.039 --> 01:55:45.079
I don't know how you feel. How relaxed do you

1252
01:55:45.199 --> 01:56:00.239
feel in your feet, how relaxed you feel in your hands.

1253
01:56:11.199 --> 01:56:23.439
I have noticed more and more that the more relaxed,

1254
01:56:25.159 --> 01:56:41.000
deeper level of comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes.

1255
01:56:47.560 --> 01:57:04.239
It's almost like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows

1256
01:57:04.279 --> 01:57:35.359
you debree easier without necessarily focusing on your breath, however,

1257
01:57:35.600 --> 01:58:04.399
being able to notice the ease in which you breathe

1258
01:58:04.600 --> 01:58:54.399
so naturally. You breathe so very easily and smoothly. Whenever

1259
01:58:54.560 --> 01:59:12.880
I imagine my breathing improving, when I've got my eyes closed,

1260
01:59:18.880 --> 01:59:31.760
I tend to visualize a beautiful field with trees and

1261
01:59:32.000 --> 02:00:12.439
flowers producing all that life giving oxygen. It feels nice too,

1262
02:00:14.039 --> 02:00:33.000
if nothing else, just taking some time away from everything,

1263
02:00:44.319 --> 02:01:17.119
enjoying that feeling of peace serenity with a joyful heart.

1264
02:01:42.199 --> 02:02:07.720
Time seems to just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed,

1265
02:02:13.600 --> 02:02:52.720
so deeply peaceful, completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in

1266
02:02:52.920 --> 02:03:57.319
this moment, completely free, noticing that your mind has slowed down,

1267
02:04:05.560 --> 02:04:52.279
slowed down because nothing really requires your attention. You can

1268
02:04:52.560 --> 02:05:08.680
enjoy the physical sensation of allowing the stress to drip

1269
02:05:09.399 --> 02:05:29.239
out of your body, dripping out of every part of

1270
02:05:29.399 --> 02:05:53.920
your body and being released from your brain o your

1271
02:05:54.079 --> 02:06:45.239
mind slowly but surely. The muscles in your legs relax

1272
02:06:50.199 --> 02:07:40.399
res res so very deeply, rags so deeply, and the feelings,

1273
02:07:43.039 --> 02:08:07.920
the pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each

1274
02:08:08.319 --> 02:08:46.319
part of your body further and deeper and deeper. Noticing

1275
02:08:49.640 --> 02:09:16.279
the feelings in the back of your neck, the feelings

1276
02:09:16.319 --> 02:10:05.199
in your wrists, muscles in front of your body. I

1277
02:10:05.399 --> 02:10:54.399
also feeling peaceful deeply. There's a sense of peace spreads

1278
02:10:54.840 --> 02:10:57.840
through your very core.

1279
02:11:28.359 --> 02:11:49.000
Even when you focus on your mind, her mind becomes.

1280
02:11:55.600 --> 02:13:18.479
Be and slower, deep relaxing, so very slower. Your stomach.

1281
02:13:32.600 --> 02:14:15.640
It's fellin you's stomach. Look back. Notice Notice how relaxed

1282
02:14:20.000 --> 02:14:58.039
you now feel in the hole of your back. A

1283
02:14:58.399 --> 02:15:07.119
spy h from your brain all the way down the

1284
02:15:07.159 --> 02:15:17.880
middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of messages

1285
02:15:18.600 --> 02:16:45.040
every day, deep comfort, increasing deeply relaxed, Your knees relax

1286
02:16:48.959 --> 02:16:58.319
spreading those signals down your spine or cord into air.

1287
02:16:58.440 --> 02:17:18.079
Every part your body have shins and your carf muscles

1288
02:17:45.440 --> 02:18:14.639
outburs feelings of peace and tranquility, spreading through your body,

1289
02:18:19.639 --> 02:18:35.920
tips of your toes to your eyes, your fingers, all

1290
02:18:35.920 --> 02:18:53.239
the way to your lower back, and letting her rediating

1291
02:18:53.399 --> 02:19:38.200
her pace drift in.

1292
02:19:45.639 --> 02:19:46.000
Mind.

1293
02:19:50.479 --> 02:20:08.280
Just won't diving away, Happy to let go, let go

1294
02:20:13.079 --> 02:21:14.520
completely leer, so tranquil your whole body, enjoying of censor,

1295
02:21:39.280 --> 02:21:40.319
listing God.

1296
02:21:44.840 --> 02:21:51.239
For more.

1297
02:22:53.799 --> 02:23:43.680
He enjoy the space, this space of peace.

1298
02:23:46.799 --> 02:24:10.959
And safety.

1299
02:24:11.239 --> 02:26:13.639
Fayy relxhhhhhhhh, letting go. Maybe we can just focus on

1300
02:26:13.799 --> 02:26:48.520
the different parts of your body, just to notice your

1301
02:26:48.680 --> 02:27:51.440
forehead and your eyes uptual, so loose, noticing the sense

1302
02:27:51.520 --> 02:29:26.120
of complete freedom, absolute freedom, dress day, peace, fall energy,

1303
02:29:59.000 --> 02:31:11.360
pace to breeze such ease. Yeah, Lees. You may have

1304
02:31:14.719 --> 02:32:00.440
or may not have noticed your mind drifting, please fault

1305
02:32:14.399 --> 02:32:29.639
move any even more deeply in the direction of total

1306
02:32:34.239 --> 02:34:30.479
blissful pace, blissful pace, terrest te to pace co su

1307
02:34:30.879 --> 02:35:44.600
come let him go. Peace of mind, relaxed body, so relax,

1308
02:35:53.360 --> 02:36:41.760
so relaxed. Your body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed

1309
02:36:45.159 --> 02:37:42.200
and pasteful, so pace rel like cad sip pace.

1310
02:37:47.959 --> 02:38:00.639
So the fairs, and you.

1311
02:38:00.600 --> 02:38:07.799
Could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1312
02:38:10.760 --> 02:38:20.639
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1313
02:38:21.879 --> 02:38:28.000
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1314
02:38:28.040 --> 02:38:40.959
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1315
02:38:41.000 --> 02:38:48.520
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1316
02:38:48.719 --> 02:39:03.600
speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1317
02:39:07.040 --> 02:39:14.959
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1318
02:39:15.040 --> 02:39:23.040
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1319
02:39:23.079 --> 02:39:30.760
break from your life as it is, and to give

1320
02:39:30.799 --> 02:39:39.319
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time off,

1321
02:39:41.479 --> 02:39:46.879
and to allow your body to relax and allow your

1322
02:39:47.000 --> 02:39:57.639
mind to slow down, which in turn releases the tension,

1323
02:39:59.079 --> 02:40:07.799
any stress is that you had in your body. It's

1324
02:40:07.840 --> 02:40:12.440
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1325
02:40:13.719 --> 02:40:25.399
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1326
02:40:26.200 --> 02:40:35.760
that negativity with positive, healing energy, which then fills your

1327
02:40:35.799 --> 02:40:47.680
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1328
02:40:48.520 --> 02:41:06.920
those feelings of increasing confidence and almost uplifting feeling positive healing,

1329
02:41:10.079 --> 02:41:18.639
an energy that spreads through your body like a wave

1330
02:41:20.959 --> 02:41:33.159
of comfort. And all this comes from just allowing yourself

1331
02:41:35.920 --> 02:41:41.159
a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however long you

1332
02:41:41.200 --> 02:41:46.879
want it to be, just rest.

1333
02:41:50.440 --> 02:41:51.479
And allow.

1334
02:41:53.600 --> 02:42:03.600
Your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1335
02:42:04.280 --> 02:42:19.959
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness which allows more

1336
02:42:20.079 --> 02:42:33.559
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1337
02:42:33.760 --> 02:42:42.000
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1338
02:42:42.079 --> 02:42:52.680
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each

1339
02:42:52.879 --> 02:43:08.520
other with that growing positivity and calmness. And it feels nice,

1340
02:43:08.799 --> 02:43:14.760
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1341
02:43:14.840 --> 02:43:28.280
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort than

1342
02:43:28.360 --> 02:43:42.239
to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body,

1343
02:43:49.239 --> 02:43:54.600
and as I focus on each part of your body,

1344
02:43:56.959 --> 02:43:58.559
you can notice that.

1345
02:43:58.319 --> 02:43:59.280
That part.

1346
02:44:03.000 --> 02:44:15.520
Becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it. It

1347
02:44:15.600 --> 02:44:29.200
becomes even more calm and comfortable just by focusing. And

1348
02:44:29.360 --> 02:44:34.879
as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1349
02:44:37.559 --> 02:44:42.879
the parts that you have already focused on or continue

1350
02:44:44.200 --> 02:44:51.360
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1351
02:44:51.520 --> 02:45:04.399
focused on or just automatically relie any remain intention in

1352
02:45:04.559 --> 02:45:18.799
anticipation of even more comfort about to come. Now, I'm

1353
02:45:18.840 --> 02:45:25.319
going to start by focusing on your forehead. Just being

1354
02:45:25.440 --> 02:45:34.079
aware of the feelings of your forehead and any background

1355
02:45:34.360 --> 02:45:41.479
sounds like mister Herbert's opinion. Can just allow you to

1356
02:45:41.639 --> 02:45:48.920
feel even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment.

1357
02:45:52.000 --> 02:45:57.399
This isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1358
02:46:00.799 --> 02:46:06.879
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1359
02:46:07.360 --> 02:46:17.920
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1360
02:46:18.120 --> 02:46:28.200
notice how it becomes even more relaxed as you focus

1361
02:46:28.239 --> 02:46:34.479
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1362
02:46:37.920 --> 02:46:46.200
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1363
02:46:48.639 --> 02:46:57.200
how your eyelids feel so heavy it has so light

1364
02:46:58.200 --> 02:47:04.440
at the same time, and all the muscles around your

1365
02:47:04.479 --> 02:47:16.959
eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth,

1366
02:47:18.799 --> 02:47:26.360
your lips, your tongue, your teeth, You comes the hole

1367
02:47:26.600 --> 02:47:41.200
of your mouth, relaxing, calm and loose as you focus

1368
02:47:41.399 --> 02:47:49.520
now on your jaw, not just a part of your journey,

1369
02:47:49.639 --> 02:47:54.920
your mouth, your chin, but all the way up the

1370
02:47:55.040 --> 02:48:01.600
size of your face, to your ears, the hole of

1371
02:48:01.760 --> 02:48:12.040
your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

1372
02:48:15.360 --> 02:48:23.879
And calm.

1373
02:48:24.319 --> 02:48:33.479
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1374
02:48:33.520 --> 02:48:46.559
your throat, relaxing and loose and calm. The sides of

1375
02:48:46.639 --> 02:48:51.920
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1376
02:48:54.840 --> 02:48:58.280
relax and place.

1377
02:49:02.040 --> 02:49:09.079
And calm.

1378
02:49:09.200 --> 02:49:16.079
And now the back of your neck focusing on the

1379
02:49:16.120 --> 02:49:26.520
back of your neck, letting go of any tension that

1380
02:49:26.760 --> 02:49:35.600
may have been there before, and enjoying that sense of

1381
02:49:36.639 --> 02:49:41.600
increasing comfort and release.

1382
02:49:44.319 --> 02:49:48.319
Then you can experience in the back of your neck,

1383
02:49:54.639 --> 02:49:57.000
moving down your back.

1384
02:49:59.079 --> 02:50:03.879
And moving either side of your spine right from the

1385
02:50:03.920 --> 02:50:09.280
top of your back all the way down to the

1386
02:50:09.319 --> 02:50:26.840
bottom of your back down to your lower back. As

1387
02:50:26.879 --> 02:50:34.360
you move up and down your spine, you can feel

1388
02:50:34.440 --> 02:50:42.200
the muscles either side of your spine relaxing even more.

1389
02:50:49.680 --> 02:50:56.479
And as those muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts

1390
02:50:56.559 --> 02:51:06.680
to spread outwards from your spine into both sides of

1391
02:51:06.760 --> 02:51:13.719
your back, the top of your back, the middle, and

1392
02:51:13.920 --> 02:51:23.399
your lower back. And as you scan gently and slowly

1393
02:51:24.639 --> 02:51:29.920
up and down your back, there's the muscles in the

1394
02:51:30.000 --> 02:51:39.879
top of your back relax and become looser. The muscles

1395
02:51:40.000 --> 02:51:45.639
in the middle of your back also seem to just

1396
02:51:46.079 --> 02:52:00.559
almost divide from each other, separating and almost melting, and

1397
02:52:00.760 --> 02:52:06.879
in your lower back there seems to be an extra

1398
02:52:07.040 --> 02:52:23.159
special feeling of comfort. The spreads into your hips, sit

1399
02:52:23.319 --> 02:52:31.440
down your lower back, into your hips, into the area

1400
02:52:31.479 --> 02:52:40.000
where your cosicks are, and into your buttocks, and all

1401
02:52:40.040 --> 02:52:49.360
those muscles that spread in your lower back into your

1402
02:52:49.440 --> 02:53:02.760
hip area, start to melt, start to really let go

1403
02:53:09.360 --> 02:53:14.239
and even know where about to focus on your shoulders.

1404
02:53:15.959 --> 02:53:23.120
Your back and your spine will continue to let go,

1405
02:53:26.000 --> 02:53:41.719
continue to relax so calmly, and as you focus on

1406
02:53:41.760 --> 02:53:54.719
your shoulders, you may notice they're already feeling really loose.

1407
02:53:59.479 --> 02:54:25.479
They're all already feeding calm and fear. Those muscles then

1408
02:54:25.639 --> 02:54:38.079
move from your neck into your shoulders. Feel so soft

1409
02:54:41.319 --> 02:54:48.000
and gentle, so smooth.

1410
02:54:53.559 --> 02:55:05.040
And calm.

1411
02:55:06.000 --> 02:55:18.879
The feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1412
02:55:18.920 --> 02:55:29.360
your shoulders, that sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1413
02:55:29.680 --> 02:55:46.680
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1414
02:55:46.799 --> 02:55:55.120
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing the whole

1415
02:55:55.280 --> 02:56:00.319
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your

1416
02:56:00.440 --> 02:56:20.280
arms healing. You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders,

1417
02:56:23.799 --> 02:56:25.639
which sense that's.

1418
02:56:27.319 --> 02:56:29.399
Deep healing.

1419
02:56:32.360 --> 02:56:49.879
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1420
02:56:49.920 --> 02:56:56.440
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1421
02:56:59.600 --> 02:57:29.920
so deeply relaxed, so so calm.

1422
02:57:30.559 --> 02:57:37.559
So this.

1423
02:57:45.079 --> 02:57:56.200
The feeling spread in all way down your arms to elbows,

1424
02:58:00.239 --> 02:58:29.600
including your elbows, circumfort spreads away into wrists, your forearments

1425
02:58:30.200 --> 02:58:53.719
under wrists so heavy, yet at the same time slight

1426
02:58:57.000 --> 03:00:02.079
and gentle. Fuck sick now on your hands, hand peaceful

1427
03:00:03.799 --> 03:00:24.520
in your hands. That's a sense of.

1428
03:00:28.040 --> 03:00:29.520
Real pace.

1429
03:00:41.280 --> 03:00:55.000
It just seems to feel so familiar when your hands

1430
03:00:55.319 --> 03:01:08.040
relax deeply, as.

1431
03:01:25.079 --> 03:02:03.319
If things things silish.

1432
03:02:32.319 --> 03:03:06.799
You think it tips maving your attention from your body.

1433
03:03:19.920 --> 03:04:59.079
So comfortable, my man, your focus to lights usles in

1434
03:04:59.239 --> 03:05:54.520
your though a niece, I relaxed, cough muscles, just shaves,

1435
03:05:58.000 --> 03:08:58.079
composing you faints, sir, peaceful, sircom sir, peaceful, sircomm sir,

1436
03:08:58.719 --> 03:09:22.319
peaceful syclm so peace fall RelA same.

1437
03:09:27.360 --> 03:09:29.200
Peace fall.

1438
03:09:32.520 --> 03:09:59.000
CCLM. Love that deep relaxation to spread your chest storm.

1439
03:09:54.000 --> 03:10:03.680
Relat, let it go.

1440
03:10:07.319 --> 03:10:09.680
Everything.

1441
03:10:19.280 --> 03:10:25.280
So I'm gonna start counting down now, from twenty down

1442
03:10:25.319 --> 03:10:33.479
to one. You can imagine in a way it's like

1443
03:10:34.239 --> 03:10:40.719
just walking down some steps and each step or twenty steps,

1444
03:10:40.760 --> 03:10:50.159
and each step represents a level of comfort, each step

1445
03:10:50.440 --> 03:11:06.000
represents a deepening of that comfort, and the fervies you

1446
03:11:06.120 --> 03:11:12.200
walk down those steps to deeper, more relaxed you feel.

1447
03:11:18.879 --> 03:13:54.600
So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eight, seventeen, sixteen.

1448
03:14:21.120 --> 03:15:18.399
Sis.

1449
03:15:08.760 --> 03:19:23.440
Fifteen fourhhhhhhhh f s two us.

1450
03:19:49.879 --> 03:20:17.360
The no.

1451
03:22:18.120 --> 03:25:04.239
Eight sivenh.

1452
03:24:55.639 --> 03:25:34.440
Six US.

1453
03:26:10.959 --> 03:27:30.760
Five four.

1454
03:30:00.639 --> 03:30:59.000
The US.

1455
03:31:08.639 --> 03:31:52.479
One.

1456
03:31:56.200 --> 03:32:15.840
No, as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count

1457
03:32:15.920 --> 03:32:27.719
down from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1458
03:32:31.479 --> 03:32:41.479
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1459
03:32:41.479 --> 03:32:58.559
our whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1460
03:32:58.639 --> 03:33:07.360
we count down ten down to one, whilst focus in

1461
03:33:07.399 --> 03:33:22.879
on your eyes, you'll become twice is relaxed with each

1462
03:33:23.239 --> 03:33:35.920
number counting down that you may find the what you

1463
03:33:35.920 --> 03:33:44.840
want to do is just drift off to sleep. And

1464
03:33:44.959 --> 03:33:51.600
if that's what you want, then just allow yourself to

1465
03:33:51.680 --> 03:34:06.319
do that. Now, focusing on your eyes, I'm going to

1466
03:34:06.440 --> 03:34:13.000
begin counting down from ten down to one.

1467
03:34:15.680 --> 03:40:46.159
Right now, ten nine eight seven four.

1468
03:40:20.440 --> 03:44:17.920
Shree tossus.

1469
03:43:22.479 --> 03:43:45.200
One. So counting down from ten to one ten nine

1470
03:43:45.520 --> 03:44:04.200
eight seven six five four three two.

1471
03:44:05.440 --> 03:44:11.520
One.

1472
03:44:12.680 --> 03:44:15.639
And maybe that was a bit too quick in order

1473
03:44:15.680 --> 03:44:19.600
to relax. Maybe it's a bit too fast for you

1474
03:44:19.879 --> 03:44:29.639
to notice the calming of your body, maybe even a

1475
03:44:29.680 --> 03:44:33.520
little bit of pressure there, like you're counting down from

1476
03:44:33.559 --> 03:44:36.360
ten to one. Would you expect me to do man,

1477
03:44:37.159 --> 03:44:40.639
expect me to just to go with floppy just because

1478
03:44:40.680 --> 03:44:49.879
you're counting down. We could try it again, but this

1479
03:44:50.079 --> 03:44:55.760
time I'll go a bit slower this time, and you

1480
03:44:55.959 --> 03:45:01.280
focus on the whole of your body before we focus

1481
03:45:01.319 --> 03:45:10.000
on your legs. Just notice how your body does start

1482
03:45:11.799 --> 03:45:23.239
to feel more relaxed with every number that I count

1483
03:45:23.280 --> 03:47:02.280
down ten nine at eight, seven, six, five, four, three one,

1484
03:47:07.680 --> 03:47:13.399
And just notice how how you feel, generally, how your

1485
03:47:13.399 --> 03:47:28.319
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1486
03:47:28.360 --> 03:47:36.040
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1487
03:47:38.600 --> 03:47:59.799
space between being active physically or mentally, just sitting or

1488
03:48:00.040 --> 03:48:04.600
going down and just being there, not doing anything, not

1489
03:48:04.879 --> 03:48:11.920
saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So it

1490
03:48:12.000 --> 03:48:15.600
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1491
03:48:16.520 --> 03:48:26.399
a gap. And the more I came down from ten

1492
03:48:26.440 --> 03:48:33.840
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1493
03:48:34.040 --> 03:48:46.680
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling,

1494
03:48:52.239 --> 03:49:00.959
and it moves those stresses or discomforts physical or emotionally,

1495
03:49:01.639 --> 03:49:12.440
moves them away. Allows you.

1496
03:49:15.079 --> 03:49:15.680
To just.

1497
03:49:18.559 --> 03:49:25.319
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1498
03:49:25.719 --> 03:49:35.959
and notice that gap widening, the gap, And as it widens,

1499
03:49:36.000 --> 03:49:41.959
it's almost like that the stress and attention falls into

1500
03:49:42.000 --> 03:50:02.559
the gap and gives you that distance, that space. Now

1501
03:50:07.319 --> 03:52:08.840
ten nine, eight, seven, six, five four three one. Now,

1502
03:52:09.040 --> 03:52:13.159
how does your body feel.

1503
03:52:15.040 --> 03:52:15.360
Now?

1504
03:52:27.920 --> 03:52:41.559
Can you notice that? Do you feeling calmer, the feeling

1505
03:52:42.920 --> 03:53:10.399
more relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just

1506
03:53:10.479 --> 03:53:31.959
your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1507
03:53:46.680 --> 03:53:51.000
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1508
03:53:51.760 --> 03:53:58.159
because I'm sure like most of your body is not

1509
03:53:58.239 --> 03:54:10.440
a lot going on right now. Just focusing on the

1510
03:54:10.520 --> 03:54:16.639
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

1511
03:54:16.879 --> 03:54:23.559
sides of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your

1512
03:54:23.639 --> 03:54:29.000
outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of

1513
03:54:29.000 --> 03:54:36.879
your thigh that leads into your hip and it goes

1514
03:54:37.840 --> 03:54:49.120
down to your knee joint. Now, this is a big area.

1515
03:54:52.440 --> 03:54:57.440
It's a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the

1516
03:54:57.520 --> 03:55:12.239
strongest muscles in your body are in your thighs. But

1517
03:55:12.280 --> 03:55:20.760
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1518
03:55:26.600 --> 03:55:37.399
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1519
03:55:37.559 --> 03:55:58.239
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1520
03:55:58.239 --> 03:56:08.760
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1521
03:56:08.799 --> 03:56:17.280
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1522
03:56:17.319 --> 03:56:24.959
our thighs need some TLC, a bit of love shown,

1523
03:56:25.959 --> 03:56:44.719
a bit of acknowledgement, thank you gratitude for our thighs

1524
03:56:44.920 --> 03:56:53.799
do for us. And I know this may sound a

1525
03:56:53.840 --> 03:57:00.239
bit strange. Maybe you think, why am I sure I

1526
03:57:00.239 --> 03:57:05.399
should be out in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well,

1527
03:57:09.559 --> 03:57:12.000
it's hard to set a microphone up on a tree.

1528
03:57:12.840 --> 03:57:15.159
That's why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I wouldn't be

1529
03:57:15.159 --> 03:57:19.079
outside hugging a tree. I can't see the television from

1530
03:57:19.079 --> 03:57:29.680
the tree. If you move down to your knees gain

1531
03:57:29.959 --> 03:57:38.159
such an important part. And I think we don't necessarily

1532
03:57:39.600 --> 03:57:47.319
I'll speak for myself here. I don't necessarily appreciate all

1533
03:57:47.360 --> 03:57:52.200
that my needs to do for me until I have

1534
03:57:52.280 --> 03:57:55.680
a problem with my knee. It's occasionally, if I ever

1535
03:57:57.239 --> 03:58:01.239
maybe i'll besh it, or it's a thing for some reason.

1536
03:58:02.959 --> 03:58:09.200
It's then that I realize how much it does. You know,

1537
03:58:09.239 --> 03:58:15.239
the benefit of being able to use my legs without

1538
03:58:16.959 --> 03:58:24.239
any kind of physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's

1539
03:58:24.440 --> 03:58:32.840
possibly not appreciated until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort.

1540
03:58:36.920 --> 03:58:41.600
But as you focus on your knees, regardless of how

1541
03:58:41.600 --> 03:58:49.159
your knees feel. You can have that sense of gratitude

1542
03:58:50.639 --> 03:58:53.280
and love to your needs for all that they do

1543
03:58:53.440 --> 03:59:06.479
for you, and you can still have that attention on

1544
03:59:06.559 --> 03:59:12.799
your thighs and maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe

1545
03:59:13.079 --> 03:59:30.479
you've notice that they are relaxing more deeply as you

1546
03:59:30.639 --> 03:59:35.959
focus now on the bottoms of your legs, your shins,

1547
03:59:36.719 --> 03:59:43.239
and your calf muscles, the bones between your knees and

1548
03:59:43.319 --> 03:59:56.920
your feet, incorporating of course, your ankles so important. Anyone

1549
03:59:56.959 --> 04:00:01.760
that's had even like the slightest sprain of an ankle

1550
04:00:02.920 --> 04:00:15.520
knows how much we take our ankles for granted. And

1551
04:00:15.559 --> 04:00:18.040
it's kind of strange in a way when you think that.

1552
04:00:20.440 --> 04:00:24.440
You know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

1553
04:00:24.520 --> 04:00:28.600
the rest of our arms, which is okay, it doesn't

1554
04:00:29.120 --> 04:00:32.239
I can't see any problem with that because we're just

1555
04:00:32.319 --> 04:00:39.959
picking stuff up by our ankles so much thinner than

1556
04:00:40.000 --> 04:00:49.120
the rest of our legs, and from a physics perspective

1557
04:00:50.360 --> 04:00:54.559
or logical even it doesn't really make sense that all

1558
04:00:54.639 --> 04:01:03.360
this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles then

1559
04:01:03.479 --> 04:01:16.639
leading to your feet. That thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1560
04:01:16.680 --> 04:01:22.440
it does so much great work, supports us, supports our

1561
04:01:22.520 --> 04:01:34.479
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

1562
04:01:34.559 --> 04:01:47.840
to get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1563
04:01:47.879 --> 04:01:55.520
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1564
04:01:55.559 --> 04:02:01.920
pointing calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1565
04:02:01.920 --> 04:02:05.520
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1566
04:02:05.559 --> 04:02:09.280
some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

1567
04:02:09.399 --> 04:02:19.000
muscles are being used whenever we use our legs, and

1568
04:02:19.159 --> 04:02:31.719
your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped in

1569
04:02:31.760 --> 04:02:44.360
a way, almost as a protector for the bone, leading

1570
04:02:45.680 --> 04:02:56.079
of course to your ankles and your feet. But we're

1571
04:02:56.120 --> 04:02:58.040
not going to focus on your feet. We're just going

1572
04:02:58.079 --> 04:03:04.479
to focus on the legs. I realize, and now that

1573
04:03:04.600 --> 04:03:09.040
I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus on them anyway,

1574
04:03:09.559 --> 04:03:12.159
So maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1575
04:03:16.159 --> 04:03:20.600
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1576
04:03:20.639 --> 04:03:25.040
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1577
04:03:25.120 --> 04:03:29.120
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1578
04:03:30.879 --> 04:03:41.719
I've been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

1579
04:03:41.959 --> 04:03:57.319
of comfort in your thighs in this that movement of

1580
04:03:57.639 --> 04:04:07.120
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1581
04:04:07.159 --> 04:04:11.959
there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that we have

1582
04:04:12.120 --> 04:04:25.479
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1583
04:04:25.520 --> 04:04:30.879
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1584
04:04:31.639 --> 04:04:43.200
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature.

1585
04:04:49.760 --> 04:04:57.319
And inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1586
04:04:57.360 --> 04:05:02.200
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, to all this stuff

1587
04:05:02.239 --> 04:05:11.360
that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1588
04:05:11.399 --> 04:05:15.840
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1589
04:05:16.360 --> 04:05:21.559
and a message, so you can message on the outside,

1590
04:05:21.799 --> 04:05:24.719
of course, but to be able to get deep into

1591
04:05:24.760 --> 04:05:29.600
the muscles, and to be able to just message inside

1592
04:05:29.639 --> 04:05:36.680
your thighs, message in the bones of your leg, massage

1593
04:05:36.680 --> 04:05:49.920
in all the veins, just gently healing your thighs, and

1594
04:05:50.040 --> 04:05:56.639
you can move down message and inside your knees, just

1595
04:05:56.840 --> 04:06:03.520
message in those bones, but with huge fingertips spreading that

1596
04:06:03.920 --> 04:06:15.120
healing energy deep into the joints of your knees. Of course,

1597
04:06:15.200 --> 04:06:19.360
there's the back of your your knee and the inside

1598
04:06:19.520 --> 04:06:25.680
crease where your knee is. It's a really sensitive area.

1599
04:06:27.680 --> 04:06:32.040
Very it feels very nice when you stroke it. That

1600
04:06:32.159 --> 04:06:35.920
might be because it's an area that's not really touched

1601
04:06:36.079 --> 04:06:42.639
very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that crease

1602
04:06:44.760 --> 04:06:51.239
in your legs. It's almost like a part that has

1603
04:06:51.280 --> 04:07:02.319
a sensitivity, which is a little bit different. Of course,

1604
04:07:02.360 --> 04:07:12.879
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1605
04:07:13.719 --> 04:07:24.079
your fingers into that crease in your legs, folding between

1606
04:07:24.120 --> 04:07:29.200
your legs, you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine

1607
04:07:29.239 --> 04:07:37.559
your fingertips going inside message in the muscle or tissue

1608
04:07:40.200 --> 04:07:44.120
you can cause. Field the bones of your.

1609
04:07:44.079 --> 04:07:56.719
Knees, heading through your fingertips, and then as you go down.

1610
04:07:59.280 --> 04:08:02.120
To your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

1611
04:08:02.200 --> 04:08:06.879
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1612
04:08:07.639 --> 04:08:16.600
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1613
04:08:18.159 --> 04:08:28.120
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1614
04:08:31.280 --> 04:08:39.559
massage in generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing

1615
04:08:39.719 --> 04:08:44.280
in a loving way because they deserve to be treated.

1616
04:08:46.840 --> 04:08:51.000
There's the precious bones that they are, because our legs

1617
04:08:51.000 --> 04:08:54.440
are so precious as in all the other parts of

1618
04:08:54.440 --> 04:09:02.680
our body, the more precious of any chore on the planet.

1619
04:09:10.959 --> 04:09:18.680
And when you start to think about your legs in

1620
04:09:18.719 --> 04:09:30.159
this way, it can change your perspective. It might sound

1621
04:09:30.200 --> 04:09:37.000
a bit a bit silly to start with the idea

1622
04:09:37.200 --> 04:09:45.680
of having love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs,

1623
04:09:48.360 --> 04:09:52.799
wanting to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1624
04:09:54.959 --> 04:10:01.399
massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1625
04:10:01.440 --> 04:10:09.520
fingers deep in there and releasing all tension, just to

1626
04:10:09.639 --> 04:10:19.079
show how much you care about your legs, how much

1627
04:10:19.159 --> 04:10:24.879
you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

1628
04:10:27.239 --> 04:10:38.040
your knees, your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

1629
04:10:40.360 --> 04:10:45.079
considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

1630
04:10:45.120 --> 04:10:54.920
your legs, especially your thighs. Yeah, this so strong, so flexible,

1631
04:10:58.680 --> 04:11:08.920
absolutely un amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift

1632
04:11:11.159 --> 04:11:20.319
because of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

1633
04:11:22.280 --> 04:11:26.680
regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

1634
04:11:26.799 --> 04:11:31.920
only ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1635
04:11:31.959 --> 04:11:39.079
these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than maystone,

1636
04:11:40.680 --> 04:11:41.479
double dot.

1637
04:11:44.760 --> 04:11:44.959
Get.

1638
04:11:45.040 --> 04:11:54.040
My ankles support my body all the time, orthough they

1639
04:11:54.079 --> 04:11:57.319
do give off a sigh of relief when I sit down.

1640
04:11:59.559 --> 04:12:07.479
That's I've had my whole legs. Though my feet feel

1641
04:12:07.559 --> 04:12:33.280
or so go, my toes clap so happy. Your legs

1642
04:12:35.120 --> 04:12:43.000
really are amazing. And I know that talking about talking

1643
04:12:43.000 --> 04:12:49.639
about your legs is probably possibly among the most most

1644
04:12:49.760 --> 04:12:57.479
boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly you're boring

1645
04:12:57.600 --> 04:13:05.760
or not. Everything that's said, it's true. Your legs are amazing.

1646
04:13:14.680 --> 04:13:25.799
Your legs deserve not just respect, they deserve to relax.

1647
04:13:27.159 --> 04:13:27.559
Deeply.

1648
04:13:34.840 --> 04:13:39.520
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1649
04:13:40.360 --> 04:14:09.159
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1650
04:14:16.719 --> 04:14:20.879
And because the legs are so such a most, you know,

1651
04:14:21.079 --> 04:14:27.079
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1652
04:14:27.120 --> 04:14:34.399
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1653
04:14:38.079 --> 04:14:48.959
journey of comfort. Like I feel it in my hips.

1654
04:14:50.319 --> 04:14:57.479
My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1655
04:14:57.520 --> 04:15:05.479
as well. Lower back really feels it feels stretched, even

1656
04:15:05.479 --> 04:15:08.440
though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no

1657
04:15:08.719 --> 04:15:14.840
stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's

1658
04:15:14.879 --> 04:15:17.840
almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so much

1659
04:15:18.959 --> 04:15:24.840
that there is a natural stretch as the tension has

1660
04:15:25.479 --> 04:15:45.920
reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count down

1661
04:15:46.040 --> 04:15:55.479
from ten down to one, and you can continue to

1662
04:15:55.639 --> 04:16:26.600
feel wonderfully relaxed. Ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

1663
04:16:29.920 --> 04:16:36.399
three two.

1664
04:16:38.920 --> 04:16:39.200
One.

1665
04:16:45.200 --> 04:16:57.200
Relax. So I'm just going to count down for five

1666
04:16:57.319 --> 04:17:01.559
down to one, and it's a countdown. If you just

1667
04:17:01.639 --> 04:17:09.520
focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down, and

1668
04:17:09.680 --> 04:17:18.879
notice how you feel in this moment as you hear

1669
04:17:18.959 --> 04:17:26.559
the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting down

1670
04:17:26.719 --> 04:17:36.840
represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body, but

1671
04:17:36.879 --> 04:17:46.120
also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel. There's

1672
04:17:46.200 --> 04:17:52.000
nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing to

1673
04:17:52.120 --> 04:18:30.760
think about, starting with number five, four three two.

1674
04:18:34.719 --> 04:18:34.959
One.

1675
04:18:44.399 --> 04:18:56.280
Now, as you notice the gradual letting go of the

1676
04:18:56.399 --> 04:19:04.079
tension in your body, you may also begin to notice

1677
04:19:04.159 --> 04:19:12.680
and be aware of how your mind is starting to

1678
04:19:12.719 --> 04:19:19.399
slow down. This is just a natural thing that happens.

1679
04:19:21.920 --> 04:19:27.120
It's not really a special procedure. It's just natural because

1680
04:19:27.200 --> 04:19:33.120
as your body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax.

1681
04:19:34.680 --> 04:19:38.360
And the more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes.

1682
04:19:38.479 --> 04:19:49.120
It's just a continuous circle of relaxation. And is that

1683
04:19:50.239 --> 04:19:58.120
calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know, even even

1684
04:19:58.159 --> 04:20:05.200
if there's background sounds either your side online is still

1685
04:20:05.600 --> 04:20:10.920
going to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got

1686
04:20:10.920 --> 04:20:16.120
the television on, there's no music in the background unless

1687
04:20:16.120 --> 04:20:23.559
you're listening to the recorded with music. Of course, you're

1688
04:20:23.719 --> 04:20:25.799
very likely not going to be sitting in a room

1689
04:20:25.879 --> 04:20:30.520
with other people. Of course you might be, but generally

1690
04:20:30.639 --> 04:20:33.799
it's more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1691
04:20:35.479 --> 04:20:45.639
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1692
04:20:52.120 --> 04:21:02.399
relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts to grow,

1693
04:21:06.879 --> 04:21:13.639
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1694
04:21:14.000 --> 04:21:25.760
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1695
04:21:25.879 --> 04:21:36.079
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1696
04:21:36.159 --> 04:21:43.079
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

1697
04:21:43.200 --> 04:21:47.120
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

1698
04:21:47.159 --> 04:21:59.159
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

1699
04:21:59.200 --> 04:22:09.440
the process of this recording and others is simply two

1700
04:22:11.040 --> 04:22:21.440
allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1701
04:22:24.399 --> 04:22:35.360
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1702
04:22:35.959 --> 04:22:49.399
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1703
04:22:51.600 --> 04:23:03.120
of wanting to relax deeply, that maybe even to fall asleep,

1704
04:23:04.239 --> 04:23:09.440
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1705
04:23:11.159 --> 04:23:26.239
in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

1706
04:23:27.440 --> 04:23:31.959
of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

1707
04:23:32.000 --> 04:23:38.959
part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

1708
04:23:40.120 --> 04:24:02.360
relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But

1709
04:24:02.479 --> 04:24:09.120
you can also if you choose, stay focused on my

1710
04:24:09.280 --> 04:24:38.239
voice and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle

1711
04:24:42.799 --> 04:25:09.680
in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1712
04:25:09.959 --> 04:25:25.600
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

1713
04:25:25.799 --> 04:25:39.200
six down to one. You can notice your mind calming

1714
04:25:39.479 --> 04:25:52.079
down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1715
04:25:53.079 --> 04:28:42.920
feeling calm and slow, peaceful, six, five, four, three two, one,

1716
04:28:55.760 --> 04:29:09.079
being aware how your mind has slowed right down, sinking

1717
04:29:11.680 --> 04:29:32.040
deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

1718
04:29:32.280 --> 04:29:44.799
you may notice that there are some thoughts still there,

1719
04:29:44.799 --> 04:29:54.360
maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

1720
04:29:54.440 --> 04:30:09.680
your attention. So what you can do is send love

1721
04:30:09.879 --> 04:30:23.600
to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love, my little

1722
04:30:23.639 --> 04:30:29.319
petals from a flower, Just sprinkle it over them, petals,

1723
04:30:29.360 --> 04:30:36.600
feel good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

1724
04:30:36.799 --> 04:30:44.159
know that you're not abandoned in them. You just need them.

1725
04:30:44.799 --> 04:30:56.559
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet down.

1726
04:31:00.440 --> 04:31:12.280
For now, so as you focus on those remaining thoughts

1727
04:31:13.479 --> 04:31:18.840
as we count down this time from seven down to one.

1728
04:31:19.120 --> 04:31:33.399
With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals, love, love, kindness,

1729
04:31:34.760 --> 04:31:46.680
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

1730
04:31:48.079 --> 04:32:03.120
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, the thoughts

1731
04:32:03.200 --> 04:34:26.959
would become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three,

1732
04:34:29.599 --> 04:34:59.759
What how let's you now notice how relaxed you're feeling

1733
04:35:03.439 --> 04:35:19.080
in your body. We're going to focus on your hands,

1734
04:35:24.880 --> 04:35:31.279
because the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed

1735
04:35:31.400 --> 04:35:52.439
your body and mind are. Ms you focus on your

1736
04:35:52.560 --> 04:36:02.840
hands and your fingers, there's nothing needed to be done.

1737
04:36:03.799 --> 04:36:08.880
There's no clinching of fists or dents in the fingers

1738
04:36:08.959 --> 04:36:22.680
or anything like that. It's just noticing and focusing on

1739
04:36:22.759 --> 04:36:51.040
your hands, noticing how they feel. Because the more relaxed

1740
04:36:51.360 --> 04:37:01.680
your hands feel, the calmer your mind feels, and all

1741
04:37:04.560 --> 04:37:28.840
comforts you feel throughout your body may have already noticed

1742
04:37:33.119 --> 04:38:08.639
you mind is starting drest fix in just on your

1743
04:38:08.720 --> 04:38:25.880
hands and fingers, allowing them to cheat experience a real

1744
04:38:26.439 --> 04:38:43.400
deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers more

1745
04:38:43.080 --> 04:39:05.080
and more relaxed. With each number from eights down to one,

1746
04:39:07.599 --> 04:39:19.000
you can almost feel that healing, relaxing energy spreading into

1747
04:39:19.080 --> 04:39:25.360
your hands and fingers.

1748
04:39:25.080 --> 04:39:26.279
Becoming.

1749
04:39:31.159 --> 04:39:49.439
More relaxing with each number you hear, going down eight

1750
04:39:50.200 --> 04:40:19.799
down to one, drifting, drifting again sported wiz no eight

1751
04:40:57.479 --> 04:44:13.880
seven f three, just being here now, nothing to think about,

1752
04:44:15.599 --> 04:44:27.159
nothing to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

1753
04:44:31.599 --> 04:44:39.159
And this is your natural state of being. This is

1754
04:44:39.319 --> 04:44:46.000
how you just normally feel when you take away all

1755
04:44:46.040 --> 04:44:53.000
of that other stuff that we add, you know, things

1756
04:44:53.080 --> 04:45:09.279
like stress and worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally

1757
04:45:09.439 --> 04:45:15.479
thinking about stuff, and you take that away, which is

1758
04:45:15.520 --> 04:45:16.000
what we do.

1759
04:45:16.720 --> 04:45:17.159
What we do.

1760
04:45:17.400 --> 04:45:34.759
Now, you left with a real sense of peacefulness, which

1761
04:45:34.919 --> 04:45:44.799
comes to you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling,

1762
04:45:49.159 --> 04:45:56.959
a feeling of comfort. It's almost as if you've gone

1763
04:45:57.000 --> 04:46:09.759
inside yourself and you've found special place where everything is peaceful,

1764
04:46:12.680 --> 04:46:18.119
a place where you can film relaxed and your natural

1765
04:46:20.240 --> 04:46:25.599
sense and comfort, a place where.

1766
04:46:25.400 --> 04:46:34.880
You can be here, where you can accept yourself and

1767
04:46:35.040 --> 04:46:40.119
who you are, the place where you're not trying to

1768
04:46:42.319 --> 04:46:52.959
please anybody else, in.

1769
04:46:48.919 --> 04:46:57.520
A place where you can actually not just love yourself,

1770
04:46:57.599 --> 04:47:07.240
but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate.

1771
04:47:07.919 --> 04:47:09.000
Who you are.

1772
04:47:17.799 --> 04:47:24.439
That sense of gratitude it's in the air way around you.

1773
04:47:32.080 --> 04:47:39.959
That's also a place where you can actually fulfeel the

1774
04:47:40.279 --> 04:47:55.599
healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

1775
04:47:55.639 --> 04:48:09.880
your body. That healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling

1776
04:48:10.040 --> 04:48:22.479
to each every single part of your body, and you

1777
04:48:22.599 --> 04:48:29.639
start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's not

1778
04:48:29.840 --> 04:48:37.319
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

1779
04:48:42.240 --> 04:48:48.919
and the spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

1780
04:48:54.159 --> 04:49:00.360
not just allowing you to feel so much more acts

1781
04:49:02.479 --> 04:49:14.520
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

1782
04:49:14.639 --> 04:49:25.479
realize that actually what's happening now without healing, relaxing energy

1783
04:49:26.400 --> 04:49:38.400
spreading through your body is actually changing your life. It's

1784
04:49:38.439 --> 04:49:45.240
actually changing the way you're going to feel not just now,

1785
04:49:45.799 --> 04:49:52.759
but tomorrow and the next day. As your health improves,

1786
04:49:56.200 --> 04:50:03.680
not just your physical health but your mental health. Things

1787
04:50:03.919 --> 04:50:09.200
that used to bother you in the past, for some reason,

1788
04:50:10.360 --> 04:50:17.959
no longer have the effect that they used to because

1789
04:50:18.040 --> 04:50:29.759
something has changed deep within you. Maybe things that used

1790
04:50:29.759 --> 04:50:40.360
to cause you to feel anger no longer have that

1791
04:50:41.119 --> 04:50:49.159
power to control you the way they seem to be

1792
04:50:49.200 --> 04:50:58.319
able to before. As you realize that you're the one

1793
04:51:00.319 --> 04:51:12.119
who decides what affects you, you're the one who decides

1794
04:51:14.880 --> 04:51:25.959
to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to enjoy

1795
04:51:27.479 --> 04:51:40.200
Noticing these natural developments of healing continue it to grow

1796
04:51:42.959 --> 04:51:54.319
and improve your life day by day, including of course,

1797
04:51:54.360 --> 04:52:11.880
your ability to relax so much easier than sleeping. It's

1798
04:52:11.919 --> 04:52:17.240
the most natural thing in the world.

1799
04:52:17.159 --> 04:52:17.520
To you.

1800
04:52:21.919 --> 04:52:30.159
Because falling asleep is something that you've done so many times.

1801
04:52:31.439 --> 04:52:37.080
In your life, and you know that you were born,

1802
04:52:38.560 --> 04:52:42.240
as we all were, with the ability.

1803
04:52:43.240 --> 04:52:56.599
To fall asleep naturally. You're born with that ability to

1804
04:52:57.000 --> 04:53:11.040
just drift off into a deep, healing sleep. Even when

1805
04:53:11.119 --> 04:53:15.840
we're kids, sometimes we'll fall asleep when we don't even

1806
04:53:15.880 --> 04:53:21.880
want to try to take a stay awake. Maybe it's

1807
04:53:21.959 --> 04:53:26.439
a birthday in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday

1808
04:53:26.599 --> 04:53:29.040
or something we look forward to. We don't want to

1809
04:53:29.040 --> 04:53:34.200
go to sleep. But the more we want to stay awake,

1810
04:53:36.360 --> 04:53:43.439
the more we just start to drift. And the more

1811
04:53:44.119 --> 04:53:48.360
you fights drifting or try to stop yourself and drift

1812
04:53:48.400 --> 04:54:01.560
in asleep, the deeper and stronger that drifting becomes because

1813
04:54:01.599 --> 04:54:07.080
we're born not just with the need to relax deeply

1814
04:54:08.759 --> 04:54:18.599
and to naturally fall asleep, but it's our birthright, it's

1815
04:54:18.680 --> 04:54:29.279
part of our DNA. And sometimes as we get older

1816
04:54:29.279 --> 04:54:40.720
in life, perhaps at times we have forgotten that relaxing

1817
04:54:42.000 --> 04:54:56.520
completely is not only a wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also

1818
04:54:56.840 --> 04:55:16.319
really easy. It's very, very easy to let go, because

1819
04:55:16.360 --> 04:55:25.720
that's all it is, is just deciding to let go.

1820
04:55:30.799 --> 04:55:36.919
And when you press the play button on my recordings,

1821
04:55:38.639 --> 04:55:49.840
you have given permission for my voice to relax. When

1822
04:55:49.880 --> 04:55:54.000
you press that play button, you have given me permission

1823
04:55:55.159 --> 04:56:08.919
for my words to effect you in a positive, only

1824
04:56:09.400 --> 04:56:29.080
a positive way, opening up your mind to useful and

1825
04:56:30.520 --> 04:56:48.159
healing suggestions that can have such an amazing effect on

1826
04:56:48.400 --> 04:57:00.000
how you feel right now, as well as those shape

1827
04:57:00.439 --> 04:57:09.439
just to continue long after the recording ends, those changes

1828
04:57:10.200 --> 04:57:24.000
within you to continue to flourish and grow, transforming your

1829
04:57:24.080 --> 04:57:37.000
life in a positive, beautiful way, allowing you to move

1830
04:57:38.279 --> 04:57:43.639
forward in your life in the direction that you choose

1831
04:57:45.080 --> 04:58:07.040
for yourself. This feeling, this feeling you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness,

1832
04:58:14.759 --> 04:58:28.759
just feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

1833
04:58:36.599 --> 04:58:53.439
and that posivity grows within you each and every day

1834
04:58:53.479 --> 04:59:03.279
moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

1835
04:59:05.599 --> 04:59:18.159
physically and in your mind's more relaxed. And it's not

1836
04:59:18.240 --> 04:59:23.840
that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind will

1837
04:59:23.919 --> 04:59:36.119
be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from now on,

1838
04:59:36.680 --> 04:59:46.360
your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're going to

1839
04:59:46.439 --> 05:00:03.360
start noticing when negativity arises, and you can just say stop, stop,

1840
05:00:06.200 --> 05:00:13.000
and then negativity will turn around and leave you alone.

1841
05:00:20.959 --> 05:00:40.319
Stop and then negativity would disappear. And that you notice

1842
05:00:40.560 --> 05:00:48.919
that you feel way more relaxed than you probably expected.

1843
05:00:55.040 --> 05:01:03.360
You can now congress chulate yourself because you are the

1844
05:01:03.479 --> 05:01:09.919
person that has done this. You are the one that

1845
05:01:10.040 --> 05:01:18.040
has opened your mind up to the simple facts that

1846
05:01:18.200 --> 05:01:23.279
you can feel more relaxed in your body and in

1847
05:01:23.360 --> 05:01:35.400
your mind. You've opened your mind up to the birthright

1848
05:01:35.560 --> 05:01:44.159
of being able to just fall asleep easily when you choose.

1849
05:01:52.799 --> 05:01:59.919
And that's a nice feeling. Then you think it feels nice,

1850
05:02:00.119 --> 05:02:09.479
doesn't it? The feel calm, All the healing energy is

1851
05:02:09.560 --> 05:02:20.479
spreading through your body and your mind to spend time

1852
05:02:22.720 --> 05:02:38.680
a special place where negativity can no longer enter. Negativity

1853
05:02:38.840 --> 05:02:47.840
is banned, it's barred, it's not allowed entry, doesn't it doesn't.

1854
05:02:47.880 --> 05:02:56.319
This doesn't deserve to be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity

1855
05:02:56.520 --> 05:03:10.959
has no place in your life. Which makes room feel

1856
05:03:11.040 --> 05:03:42.560
more comfort, more healing, more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice,

1857
05:03:42.639 --> 05:04:07.919
doesn't it. Just let go with everything. I'm gonna count

1858
05:04:08.000 --> 05:04:16.360
down now from twenty down to one. You can continue

1859
05:04:16.439 --> 05:04:26.759
to relax. If you choose, you can drift to sleep

1860
05:04:30.400 --> 05:04:40.159
with every number you hear me say, you can fill

1861
05:04:41.319 --> 05:04:47.560
twice as relaxed, or if you choose, you can fill

1862
05:04:48.439 --> 05:05:54.799
twice sleeping now. Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

1863
05:06:03.759 --> 05:07:03.200
thirty two, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

1864
05:07:10.639 --> 05:07:11.000
Five.

1865
05:07:17.880 --> 05:08:00.240
Oh, this is your time to just take a break,

1866
05:08:01.159 --> 05:08:12.240
your time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

1867
05:08:20.880 --> 05:08:35.000
to give yourself permission to take a break from everything

1868
05:08:39.799 --> 05:08:47.200
Ensu're the only person that can make that decision. You're

1869
05:08:47.240 --> 05:08:55.840
the only person that can actually tell your mind just relax,

1870
05:09:03.919 --> 05:09:19.639
to just take some time off so that you can

1871
05:09:20.279 --> 05:09:25.799
focus on your body, getting in touch with how you

1872
05:09:25.919 --> 05:09:42.919
feel physically and in the process of this body scanned

1873
05:09:43.200 --> 05:09:53.720
where you focus on different parts of your body, those

1874
05:09:53.959 --> 05:10:01.159
parts that you focus on and observe. Even though you're

1875
05:10:01.200 --> 05:10:10.080
not purposely requesting for those parts of your body to relax,

1876
05:10:12.279 --> 05:10:18.720
it's kind of expected. You expect when you listen to

1877
05:10:18.799 --> 05:10:31.479
my voice to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're

1878
05:10:31.520 --> 05:10:41.799
listening to me, your attention is focused on my words,

1879
05:10:46.720 --> 05:10:57.639
and as my words guide you to focus on those

1880
05:10:57.799 --> 05:11:16.000
parts of your body, your focus increases, which actually calms

1881
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your mind. And when your mind calms down, your body relaxes.

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And when your body calms down, your mind relaxes. And

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even though I've not really started to focus on your body,

1884
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you can already feel that healing energy spreading through your body,

1885
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pushing out stress and tension, healing all the parts of

1886
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your body, including your skin, your bones, your blood, all

1887
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of your walkings inside your body, all of the muscles,

1888
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are all of the fat, all of everything. Every hair

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on your body is filled with that healing energy. And

1890
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when your brain fills without healing energy, the feeling of

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comfort relaxation increases, deeply increases in a way that in

1892
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your mind starts to feel perhaps been drowsing because it's

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not needed, and it may start to drift if that's

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what's needed. So if you're listening to this, and what

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you need is deep relaxation, that's what you get. If

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what you need is to fall asleep naturally and easily,

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that your mind drifts, that's also what will happened, because

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by pressing a play button on the podcast and listening

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to me, give permission your body and your mind. In fact,

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you give the command to your body and your mind

1901
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to relax deeply and to drift off to sleep. If

1902
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that's what you want one need, then as I focus

1903
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on the different parts of your body, you may start

1904
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to just drift. And then you come back again and

1905
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you hear me talking, and I'm focusing on a different

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part of your body. You may find yourself drifting. Be

1907
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there and realize you're drifting until you stop drifting and

1908
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drew a laugh again to my voice. Focusing on a

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different part of your body starts to relax in the

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deeper because that drifting, it's basically here already in the

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sleep zone. And the more you drift, the longer you drift,

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the longer you drift. Eventually, that drifting continues into sleep,

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and that's the last you remember. Two your wake up

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in your own time, when you experience the ry amount

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of sleep fear because when you do.

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And if you do fall.

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Asleep, it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing, so deep sleep, I

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feel so nice to relax into your own body and minds.

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You feel that heating energy is spreading through you, relaxing

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so deeply, relax so deeply. We start to focus on

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your eyes, moving down to Joe, down till you show

1922
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this as your chest stop spar aps, your ex faint

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dot spies spreading groveside your body, feeling your up. Now

1924
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let's focus again on parts of your body. Kay, kay,

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focusing this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth,

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your lips, your tongue, a whole of your mouth. Focusing

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on your fingers. Hmm, maybe you could move your fingers

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a little bit as you can focus on each one individually,

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both hands, and even though you should focus on both

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of your hands now they almost seem to just melt

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into one. Where is your right hand start left hand,

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and almost as if just mix together. Now focusing on

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your knees, just like to sing, how your knees help?

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Now focusing with your helpers, focusing on both your hopers.

1935
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Just absurd feeling of your helpers, you say, I'm sad

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back and check upside ECUs.

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It's a coup of sex sections. As I to say,

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now your times of your faint, you tis feel NINETYO

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sent him sire, body fails ninety sent.

1940
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Your mind feels now lett him go, letting him go,

1941
05:29:46.040 --> 05:30:18.599
let him go, everything, letting go, letting go, letting go,

1942
05:30:22.759 --> 05:30:45.360
h everything, everything. I'm going to start now, and I'd

1943
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like you just to first of all, just to see

1944
05:30:47.319 --> 05:30:55.520
yourself lying down on the message table, lying on your front.

1945
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Your head is supported, your arms are support and you

1946
05:31:04.840 --> 05:31:11.479
feel comfortable, and breathing is really easy, and you feel

1947
05:31:15.000 --> 05:31:17.959
you feel confident in how you look as well. So

1948
05:31:18.400 --> 05:31:22.560
there's none of that issue of body problems or shyness

1949
05:31:23.439 --> 05:31:31.560
because I'm a professional and this is a therapy session,

1950
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so none of that stuff matters on whatsoever. This is

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05:31:39.840 --> 05:31:47.119
about you. This is about how you feel and how

1952
05:31:47.959 --> 05:31:55.159
you can enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that

1953
05:31:55.360 --> 05:32:01.919
comes from letting go and allowing my hands and my

1954
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fingers to relax you by messaging your body. So I

1955
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want to start off just by placing my hands on

1956
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the back of your head, just gently, just so you

1957
05:32:24.040 --> 05:32:33.000
can feel my hands feel like really on you, so

1958
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you can maybe feel the warmth of my hands on

1959
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the back of your head. With my hands to the

1960
05:32:41.040 --> 05:32:45.240
side of your head, not pressing, but just holding there

1961
05:32:45.400 --> 05:32:51.240
very gently, maybe over your ears, and a little bit

1962
05:32:51.279 --> 05:32:55.880
on your face, just so you can feel my hands

1963
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so you can become accustomed.

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To them.

1965
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And now I put my hands on the back of

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your head again and gently let them slide down onto

1967
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the back of your neck. You can feel my hands

1968
05:33:36.479 --> 05:33:39.439
gently stroking the back of your neck to start with,

1969
05:33:44.040 --> 05:33:47.799
just so you can get used to the the feeling

1970
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of my hands on your skin, get accustomed to realize

1971
05:33:55.639 --> 05:33:59.840
that you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine.

1972
05:34:06.240 --> 05:34:10.319
And I'm want to start gently massaging the muscles in

1973
05:34:10.400 --> 05:34:26.240
the back of your neck with both hands. And this

1974
05:34:26.360 --> 05:34:32.599
is a very trusting situation really, because our necks are

1975
05:34:32.720 --> 05:34:37.880
so fragile and to have someone have their hands around

1976
05:34:37.959 --> 05:34:43.080
your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

1977
05:34:44.319 --> 05:34:48.759
which is why massages are quite good, because it allows

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05:34:48.840 --> 05:34:58.759
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

1979
05:35:03.080 --> 05:35:15.639
to feel peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides

1980
05:35:15.759 --> 05:35:23.759
of your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

1981
05:35:25.479 --> 05:35:28.000
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start.

1982
05:35:28.080 --> 05:35:35.159
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your ears,

1983
05:35:35.599 --> 05:35:40.799
kind of area on the side of your neck, and

1984
05:35:40.880 --> 05:35:43.439
of course it's a lot longer than the front of

1985
05:35:43.520 --> 05:36:03.840
your neck. And massaging the back of your neck, especially

1986
05:36:03.919 --> 05:36:12.360
that area where perhaps we hold tension and there's that

1987
05:36:12.520 --> 05:36:17.560
area's message. You can actually feel a sense of release

1988
05:36:17.880 --> 05:36:25.479
in the back of your neck and maybe you can

1989
05:36:25.639 --> 05:36:31.240
breathe it out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice

1990
05:36:31.240 --> 05:36:44.080
how you feel. And they're moving down to that area

1991
05:36:44.639 --> 05:36:52.240
between your neck and your shoulders, that musty area, starting

1992
05:36:52.319 --> 05:36:59.279
to message that area on both sides. I mean, this

1993
05:36:59.360 --> 05:37:02.400
would be there that a lot of people would message

1994
05:37:02.439 --> 05:37:05.799
if they were going to give you, like a shoulder message.

1995
05:37:07.319 --> 05:37:11.080
Even that's not technically the shoulders, but it's all the

1996
05:37:11.200 --> 05:37:17.520
muscles that lead to the shoulders from the neck and

1997
05:37:17.639 --> 05:37:22.919
a game that can hold tension and stress. And when

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05:37:23.119 --> 05:37:31.040
massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful, and you

1999
05:37:31.279 --> 05:37:49.240
decide how deep that message is. Just allow my knuckles

2000
05:37:50.360 --> 05:37:54.479
just to dig in to get to those muscles and

2001
05:37:54.599 --> 05:38:05.599
to ready relaxed all the time, being firm yet gentle

2002
05:38:07.040 --> 05:38:24.759
with you, and just stroking down the area to your

2003
05:38:24.880 --> 05:38:36.639
actual shoulders. Moving to the muscles of your shoulders and

2004
05:38:36.840 --> 05:38:41.560
maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little bit

2005
05:38:41.720 --> 05:38:45.000
off the table, just to give you a little bit

2006
05:38:45.040 --> 05:38:56.000
of a stretch, very gently, and you've got the muscles

2007
05:38:56.040 --> 05:39:08.240
at the front of your shoulders the sides of the back. Again,

2008
05:39:08.520 --> 05:39:12.360
this is a part that can really take quite a

2009
05:39:12.439 --> 05:39:20.639
bit of pressure, quite a bit of needing if if

2010
05:39:20.720 --> 05:39:28.680
you wish to really release the tension to really get

2011
05:39:28.759 --> 05:39:35.360
into those muscles, and you can let your fingers in there.

2012
05:39:36.439 --> 05:39:42.000
They can feel really nice. Sometimes it's just being stroked

2013
05:39:42.119 --> 05:39:51.880
gently or being messaged quite strongly. It can all be

2014
05:39:52.000 --> 05:40:12.360
beneficial to the relaxation with the muscles in your shoulders. Now,

2015
05:40:12.560 --> 05:40:22.000
as you move down your arms, we do one arm

2016
05:40:22.080 --> 05:40:32.040
at a time, starting with your right arm. What I'll

2017
05:40:32.119 --> 05:40:36.680
do is I just lift your arm up, just hold

2018
05:40:36.759 --> 05:40:41.720
it to the side of you that would it still

2019
05:40:41.759 --> 05:40:48.159
be attached, and I just message the tops of your

2020
05:40:48.319 --> 05:41:04.959
arms all the way down to your forearms into your wrists.

2021
05:41:16.360 --> 05:41:28.400
Gently massage in that part, the softer part, which is

2022
05:41:28.520 --> 05:41:34.840
the under part of the arm, which leads to the

2023
05:41:35.000 --> 05:41:41.319
crease in your elbow. The inside. It's much more sensitive skin.

2024
05:41:51.000 --> 05:42:01.119
Sometimes just having that stroked can feel really nice, pleasurable

2025
05:42:01.400 --> 05:42:20.479
and relaxing. Now moving down to your right hand, just

2026
05:42:20.720 --> 05:42:33.080
holding your hand in both of my hands, just pressing

2027
05:42:33.240 --> 05:42:39.959
gently on the back of your hand, stretching your fingers

2028
05:42:42.000 --> 05:42:51.200
ever slightly at the same time pressing down and messaging

2029
05:42:51.919 --> 05:43:04.599
each finger, and then starting to massage the palms and

2030
05:43:04.720 --> 05:43:22.520
their hand. Just turning the hand, stretching it gently and

2031
05:43:22.680 --> 05:43:29.560
actually having your handheld can really be an emotional experience

2032
05:43:30.000 --> 05:43:36.000
sometimes even if it is a stranger. So when you

2033
05:43:36.080 --> 05:43:41.639
don't know very well, like a massage person or a therapist,

2034
05:43:41.799 --> 05:43:56.919
maybe because it's intimate, they can feel nice, you can

2035
05:43:57.000 --> 05:44:07.799
feel safe. And as I put that right arm back

2036
05:44:07.959 --> 05:44:16.040
down where it was, I did the same with your

2037
05:44:16.159 --> 05:44:29.520
left arm, exactly the same, massaging the muscles in your

2038
05:44:29.680 --> 05:44:37.680
arm all the way down. Do you arrest, stroking the

2039
05:44:37.799 --> 05:44:47.720
inside of your arm, just being gentle, was as firm

2040
05:44:47.840 --> 05:45:08.000
as you require, and then massaging your left hand, stretching

2041
05:45:08.080 --> 05:45:17.479
the fingers gently, massaging the palm of your left hand.

2042
05:45:29.680 --> 05:45:57.720
You feel so so relaxing, so comforting. And I'll just

2043
05:45:57.919 --> 05:46:09.799
rest your left arm back down out the start message

2044
05:46:10.319 --> 05:46:20.119
your back, the biggest part of your body, starting at

2045
05:46:20.159 --> 05:46:27.080
the top, starting again where we already have been the

2046
05:46:27.279 --> 05:46:32.200
area at the top in between your shoulders, near your neck.

2047
05:46:33.959 --> 05:46:38.400
Going back and message in the area again, but this

2048
05:46:38.759 --> 05:46:52.319
time moving downwards, making it downward. Stroke to the middle

2049
05:46:52.360 --> 05:47:00.560
of your back, working from the outside inwards, so massage

2050
05:47:00.639 --> 05:47:07.919
in that your back, but the outsides of your back

2051
05:47:12.319 --> 05:47:27.880
parts where your arms will maybe rest against, almost the

2052
05:47:28.040 --> 05:47:41.279
path that connects your front to your back. Just messaging

2053
05:47:41.520 --> 05:47:52.799
down firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving

2054
05:47:53.000 --> 05:47:57.080
down and then moving across a little bed, moving all

2055
05:47:57.119 --> 05:48:03.360
the way down again, be very gentle h ferm, as

2056
05:48:03.479 --> 05:48:15.080
you choose. Eventually you get to the spine. We can

2057
05:48:15.240 --> 05:48:20.080
message the muscles and either side of your spine from

2058
05:48:20.119 --> 05:48:25.720
the top of your neck all the way down to

2059
05:48:25.840 --> 05:48:34.639
your lower back. We can do that a few times.

2060
05:48:37.680 --> 05:48:44.639
Sometimes people use the knuckle or the you know, the

2061
05:48:44.880 --> 05:48:49.360
two fingers and just go your side of the spine.

2062
05:48:50.639 --> 05:48:54.360
Almost just push down, go all the way down to

2063
05:48:54.479 --> 05:49:01.680
the bottom of the spine. Each time, release in tension

2064
05:49:02.400 --> 05:49:11.560
and opening up the body, stretching your body so that

2065
05:49:11.680 --> 05:49:18.840
you feel more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated.

2066
05:49:30.200 --> 05:49:33.479
And now I'm going to move to one side, to

2067
05:49:33.599 --> 05:49:40.919
your right side and from the bottom of your ribs

2068
05:49:42.840 --> 05:49:48.400
to your pelvis. I'm going to massage that area of

2069
05:49:48.520 --> 05:49:53.520
your back. I'll stretch over the other side and i

2070
05:49:53.560 --> 05:50:00.080
will pull the muscles gently and massage and push on

2071
05:50:00.240 --> 05:50:05.119
one end that side or way to my side to

2072
05:50:05.240 --> 05:50:10.000
the middle of fact to where your spine is. Massaging

2073
05:50:10.880 --> 05:50:15.240
that side of your spine the opposite side to where

2074
05:50:15.279 --> 05:50:23.319
I'm standing. It's almost like kneading bread. There's that big

2075
05:50:23.520 --> 05:50:35.799
area which is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially

2076
05:50:35.919 --> 05:50:40.119
one of the most important places to actually have a

2077
05:50:40.279 --> 05:50:47.720
message because you really feel it. You really feel the

2078
05:50:47.880 --> 05:50:53.040
release and the pleasure of having your lower back massaged.

2079
05:50:56.200 --> 05:51:01.880
It releases so much from your body that's not useful,

2080
05:51:05.080 --> 05:51:10.639
starting a healing process which will continue long after this

2081
05:51:10.840 --> 05:51:22.919
recording is over. The message in this part of your

2082
05:51:23.000 --> 05:51:28.360
body not only feels really good for you, it's actually

2083
05:51:28.479 --> 05:51:32.520
fun to do because it is, as I said, like

2084
05:51:32.720 --> 05:51:37.840
kneading bread. It's a part that you can really get

2085
05:51:38.080 --> 05:51:45.439
hold of and really message deeply. If that's your choice.

2086
05:51:53.439 --> 05:51:55.360
They're not going to move over to the other side

2087
05:51:55.400 --> 05:52:01.880
of your body and do the same with the opposite

2088
05:52:01.959 --> 05:52:11.279
part of your lower back. Kneeding and messaging from your

2089
05:52:11.479 --> 05:52:18.919
side or away to the middle of your back where

2090
05:52:18.959 --> 05:52:32.599
your spine is pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at

2091
05:52:32.639 --> 05:52:47.840
the same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2092
05:52:48.240 --> 05:52:59.799
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2093
05:52:59.799 --> 05:53:05.080
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2094
05:53:05.200 --> 05:53:09.479
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2095
05:53:09.639 --> 05:53:21.000
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2096
05:53:21.080 --> 05:53:26.000
to move or move further up to your top of

2097
05:53:26.080 --> 05:53:32.360
your body, and we did the same this time, starting

2098
05:53:33.720 --> 05:53:40.000
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

2099
05:53:40.159 --> 05:53:47.520
massive massage in that area up to your spine, from

2100
05:53:47.560 --> 05:53:51.720
the side of your body up to your spine. So

2101
05:53:51.880 --> 05:53:58.200
some of that message area, that muscle tissue or whatever

2102
05:53:58.439 --> 05:54:04.000
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2103
05:54:04.000 --> 05:54:07.840
it's all connected. The chest and the back connect together.

2104
05:54:11.000 --> 05:54:14.279
I'm going to be massaging and just pulling some of

2105
05:54:14.400 --> 05:54:22.319
that skin from your side up and massaging the area

2106
05:54:25.319 --> 05:54:29.479
of your upper back all the way to your spine.

2107
05:54:33.919 --> 05:54:36.119
And then I'll move down a bit and I'll continue

2108
05:54:36.720 --> 05:54:39.479
with the middle of your back doing exactly the same

2109
05:54:39.599 --> 05:54:56.880
thing as gentle or as deep as you choose. Now,

2110
05:54:57.000 --> 05:55:00.799
I'll move from the other side again and do the

2111
05:55:00.919 --> 05:55:05.080
exact same thing with the top of your back on

2112
05:55:05.200 --> 05:55:14.479
the other side, from pretty much underneath your arm area

2113
05:55:14.599 --> 05:55:29.759
really to your spine, and then continue in that all

2114
05:55:29.799 --> 05:55:34.880
the way down, including your lower your middle of your back.

2115
05:55:48.560 --> 05:55:53.720
I'm gonna go to your thighs, the backs of your thighs,

2116
05:55:56.439 --> 05:56:03.840
and the sides of your thighs, starting with your right leg,

2117
05:56:06.159 --> 05:56:16.400
massaging the back and the side of your thighs gently

2118
05:56:16.720 --> 05:56:22.599
and firmly. There's a lot of muscles there. It's an

2119
05:56:22.639 --> 05:56:26.200
area that can be very tense at times and maybe

2120
05:56:26.919 --> 05:56:29.360
needs a little bit more pressure than the rest of

2121
05:56:29.400 --> 05:56:38.040
the body that's up to you. You can gently stroke

2122
05:56:38.159 --> 05:56:45.080
the back of your legs where you know, opposite your

2123
05:56:45.159 --> 05:56:53.000
knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area,

2124
05:57:00.080 --> 05:57:07.319
and working down to your calf muscles. Massage in your

2125
05:57:07.439 --> 05:57:16.799
half muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both

2126
05:57:16.959 --> 05:57:35.880
hands fingers, digging deep to your ankles, in the back

2127
05:57:36.000 --> 05:57:42.639
of your back of your ankles, just gently massage in

2128
05:57:42.720 --> 05:57:54.919
that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching a little bit.

2129
05:58:05.080 --> 05:58:20.439
Moving to the right foot, massaging the bottom of your

2130
05:58:20.479 --> 05:58:35.919
feet and the size of your feet, gently but firm

2131
05:58:36.080 --> 05:58:47.279
enough so they don't tickle. Just allow the pleasure that

2132
05:58:47.360 --> 05:58:53.639
you get from heaving your feet massaged to just overtake you.

2133
05:58:56.959 --> 05:59:02.560
As I continue to message your feet, the bottoms of

2134
05:59:02.639 --> 05:59:12.439
your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel. You can

2135
05:59:12.479 --> 05:59:15.479
put a lot of pressure into your heel and it

2136
05:59:15.639 --> 05:59:20.599
feels amazing, Yet the arches need to be a bit

2137
05:59:20.680 --> 05:59:32.360
more gentle. Stretching your toes gently the message in the

2138
05:59:32.479 --> 05:59:40.520
bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each one individually.

2139
05:59:48.959 --> 05:59:52.799
Moving over to the left leg to do exactly the

2140
05:59:52.919 --> 06:00:03.279
same thing. Starting at the top of the thighs, work

2141
06:00:03.319 --> 06:00:07.919
in the back of the thighs and the sides, massaging

2142
06:00:08.119 --> 06:00:18.279
deeply and gently the whole area, working all the way down.

2143
06:00:25.279 --> 06:00:31.040
And this is an area that maybe you could like

2144
06:00:31.159 --> 06:00:40.560
to spend more time relaxing and messaging. Perhaps if you wanted,

2145
06:00:40.680 --> 06:00:45.200
I could make a future recording. I want spend more

2146
06:00:45.279 --> 06:00:56.880
time on one particular area. As you move down to

2147
06:00:56.959 --> 06:01:11.040
your calf muscles, Massage in your calf muscles firmly and gently,

2148
06:01:16.759 --> 06:01:25.200
move down your ankle into your feet. Massage in the

2149
06:01:25.639 --> 06:01:35.680
backs of your feet, the bottoms of your feet, stretching

2150
06:01:35.959 --> 06:01:42.279
your toes and massage in each toe individually. And the

2151
06:01:42.680 --> 06:01:48.119
feeling of pleasure and release that you experience when you're

2152
06:01:48.200 --> 06:02:10.360
having your feet massaged feels really good. Now, she turn

2153
06:02:10.520 --> 06:02:21.599
over in your mind. Laying on your back, I'm just

2154
06:02:21.720 --> 06:02:39.080
gonna start again your nick area in your shoulders, just

2155
06:02:39.240 --> 06:02:49.880
to get back in touch with that area. Unless we

2156
06:02:50.040 --> 06:03:01.599
move up, I can clean my hands bit the more

2157
06:03:01.720 --> 06:03:07.119
fresh because now I'm going to message your face gently,

2158
06:03:11.479 --> 06:03:22.759
starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed, you

2159
06:03:22.840 --> 06:03:28.759
can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing up

2160
06:03:28.840 --> 06:03:46.000
on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp, massaging down

2161
06:03:47.000 --> 06:04:01.000
your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw, gently, the

2162
06:04:01.200 --> 06:04:19.400
side of your neck, your chin. They're just moving down

2163
06:04:23.560 --> 06:04:31.000
yourn your neck down to your chest, starting by message

2164
06:04:31.119 --> 06:04:37.959
in the very top of your chest where the collar

2165
06:04:38.040 --> 06:04:51.240
bone is. Give a side of the collarbone, and then

2166
06:04:51.479 --> 06:05:03.919
just message in the hole of the chest, moving the

2167
06:05:04.080 --> 06:05:17.639
chest around because it's quite a large area. You can

2168
06:05:17.799 --> 06:05:25.840
move from one side to the next, moving my hands

2169
06:05:28.479 --> 06:05:38.880
underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up, stretching

2170
06:05:39.040 --> 06:05:41.439
some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2171
06:05:46.720 --> 06:05:55.360
moving up over your chest and they're moving down again.

2172
06:06:08.119 --> 06:06:13.599
Then allowing my hands they just massage gently and slide

2173
06:06:13.919 --> 06:06:20.439
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2174
06:06:23.880 --> 06:06:30.759
and then gradually my hands moving apart and massaging and

2175
06:06:31.000 --> 06:06:40.479
sliding at the same time, moving down to just below

2176
06:06:40.520 --> 06:06:55.680
your red cage, moving down and then messaging up again,

2177
06:06:58.479 --> 06:07:06.360
giving your chest all the attention that it needs to

2178
06:07:06.560 --> 06:07:18.759
feel completely relaxed, remembering that I'm also going to be

2179
06:07:18.880 --> 06:07:24.880
focusing on your sides as well, an area that really

2180
06:07:25.200 --> 06:07:32.759
doesn't get much attention, that feels really good when it's massaged.

2181
06:07:37.680 --> 06:07:41.680
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2182
06:07:45.479 --> 06:07:48.880
just below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

2183
06:07:58.560 --> 06:08:04.560
Now moving to your stomach area. We're gonna stand on

2184
06:08:04.639 --> 06:08:07.200
one side of you like I did when I did

2185
06:08:07.279 --> 06:08:13.520
your lower back. I'm gonna do a similar process of

2186
06:08:13.759 --> 06:08:28.560
just stretching the muscles from your side, gently messaging from

2187
06:08:28.599 --> 06:08:36.240
one side to the next, move in the whole area

2188
06:08:37.319 --> 06:08:41.240
from below your ribs all the way down to below

2189
06:08:41.319 --> 06:08:50.919
your belly button, and then move around to the other

2190
06:08:51.040 --> 06:09:06.840
side of you and repeat that sense of relaxing deeply, calmly.

2191
06:09:09.959 --> 06:09:17.159
You feel loose, you feel free, and it's something about

2192
06:09:17.279 --> 06:09:22.119
having your stomach message that's different from any other part

2193
06:09:25.639 --> 06:09:30.159
because we do have a tendency of holding a different

2194
06:09:30.279 --> 06:09:34.319
kind of stress in your stomach that we may not

2195
06:09:34.439 --> 06:09:45.400
be aware of. There's an owl message your stomach. In

2196
06:09:45.560 --> 06:09:53.040
front of your stomach, they can circles around your belly button,

2197
06:09:58.919 --> 06:10:08.319
thing going in the other way around. There's a gentleness

2198
06:10:08.520 --> 06:10:14.479
and a freedom that comes from feeling how you're feeling.

2199
06:10:20.040 --> 06:10:27.240
As I now move down the tops of your thighs, muscles,

2200
06:10:27.840 --> 06:10:32.759
massaging them, and I can do this to your legs

2201
06:10:32.799 --> 06:10:43.479
at the same time, pressing down, massaging deeply those muscles

2202
06:10:43.560 --> 06:10:52.479
in your thighs, the front of your thighs, and moving

2203
06:10:52.680 --> 06:11:03.720
down to your knees, gently massaging your knees, Sliding down

2204
06:11:03.840 --> 06:11:09.319
your shins, put pressure on either side of your shin

2205
06:11:10.479 --> 06:11:27.479
gently softly but firmly, moving down to your ankles, stroking

2206
06:11:27.759 --> 06:11:38.119
the tops of your feet, and then with each foot

2207
06:11:38.520 --> 06:11:43.799
in each hand, just gently messaging the whole of the foot,

2208
06:11:48.080 --> 06:11:53.639
the top, the bottom, your heel, your ankle, your toes,

2209
06:11:56.119 --> 06:12:05.279
messaging every part of your feet. It feels so good.

2210
06:12:06.000 --> 06:12:22.759
Just let go and enjoy the process, Enjoy feeling so

2211
06:12:23.119 --> 06:12:38.479
deeply relaxed, so much comfort, so many feelings become just

2212
06:12:38.639 --> 06:12:54.000
from touching your skin, and you can just lie there

2213
06:12:56.200 --> 06:13:04.959
for as long as you choose, enjoying the feeling of

2214
06:13:05.319 --> 06:13:30.279
deep comfort from being massaged by me, enjoy feeling deep.

2215
06:13:34.959 --> 06:13:35.599
Rased.

2216
06:13:41.479 --> 06:13:47.959
And all we're gonna do is blow out some candles.

2217
06:13:50.479 --> 06:14:05.560
In your mind, there are going to be one hundred candles,

2218
06:14:12.680 --> 06:14:18.439
and you're going to blow each one out individually, one

2219
06:14:18.840 --> 06:14:26.240
by one, starting at one hundred. As I count down

2220
06:14:31.439 --> 06:14:38.279
all the way down to one, and each time I

2221
06:14:38.560 --> 06:14:47.639
say a number, you can imagine that candle in front

2222
06:14:47.720 --> 06:14:58.720
of you, and I'd like you to actually physically generally

2223
06:14:58.840 --> 06:15:14.560
blow that candle out, just so it's not big blows,

2224
06:15:14.919 --> 06:15:28.799
just a gentle, and that candle will extinguish. And then

2225
06:15:28.959 --> 06:15:33.200
I'll say the next number. So we moved down.

2226
06:15:36.119 --> 06:15:36.880
And you can just.

2227
06:15:40.599 --> 06:15:49.599
Blow that one out as well. And as we move

2228
06:15:50.000 --> 06:15:59.919
down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeding more and more

2229
06:16:00.040 --> 06:16:01.040
more relaxed.

2230
06:16:04.040 --> 06:16:04.799
If you need.

2231
06:16:06.360 --> 06:16:15.599
To sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

2232
06:16:19.439 --> 06:16:26.919
In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

2233
06:16:27.080 --> 06:16:43.400
hundred of these candles. And as you feel more and

2234
06:16:43.680 --> 06:17:11.479
more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired, And the

2235
06:17:11.799 --> 06:17:22.240
further you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

2236
06:17:28.639 --> 06:17:35.080
You may find that you stop listening to me after

2237
06:17:35.200 --> 06:17:48.040
a while. And even though there may be background sounds

2238
06:17:48.119 --> 06:17:58.919
where you are, you'll be aware of those sounds at

2239
06:17:58.959 --> 06:18:15.479
the moment, be may start just not even notice them

2240
06:18:19.959 --> 06:18:36.520
at all because they're unimportant. Where I am, I've got

2241
06:18:36.560 --> 06:18:43.520
the sounds of the birds. There's horrors, the pigeon who

2242
06:18:43.759 --> 06:18:49.959
likes to say hello. Sometimes there's the old plane that

2243
06:18:50.119 --> 06:19:07.159
goes by. Maybe traffic and trains distance, but none of

2244
06:19:07.240 --> 06:19:21.720
that scenes important whatsoever, Or candles you blow out, less

2245
06:19:21.799 --> 06:19:38.959
important anything is. Or candles you blow out, the further

2246
06:19:39.560 --> 06:20:02.479
seemed to move away, sounds, general date, days, stuff seems

2247
06:20:02.720 --> 06:20:16.840
to just move away on its own. You feel more

2248
06:20:19.439 --> 06:20:40.319
calmer with every candle you blow out, guiding you the

2249
06:20:40.520 --> 06:20:53.479
next number, did you hear me say? And then you

2250
06:20:53.680 --> 06:21:20.840
blow that candle out too? So easy, so simple. I'm

2251
06:21:20.919 --> 06:21:35.439
gonna start by introducing the first candle. This is a hundred.

2252
06:21:39.799 --> 06:21:53.599
First candle, this is one hundred. When you blow that

2253
06:21:54.000 --> 06:22:13.520
candle out, you'll find immediately a slight change in how

2254
06:22:13.639 --> 06:22:25.000
you feel, as well as a real sense of positivity

2255
06:22:25.919 --> 06:23:00.439
growing within you. Relaxation and sleepiness, expanding starting with one hundreds,

2256
06:23:03.799 --> 06:24:06.119
I can't do now nineteen nine, candle ninety eight, candle

2257
06:24:09.639 --> 06:26:09.720
ninety seven, ninety six, capt ninety five, ninety four, candle

2258
06:26:15.520 --> 06:28:10.759
ninety three, N two ninety one and ninety and eighty

2259
06:28:11.000 --> 06:28:12.040
two nine.

2260
06:28:29.119 --> 06:28:38.319
And eighty.

2261
06:28:39.880 --> 06:33:30.200
Eight, can eight, candle eighty eighty five eight eight ITN two.

2262
06:33:38.520 --> 06:34:30.400
Two USU.

2263
06:35:15.159 --> 06:35:56.240
Can seventy nine, can do seventy eight, candle seventy seven,

2264
06:36:07.560 --> 06:37:08.799
candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle

2265
06:37:12.959 --> 06:38:17.040
seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one, and seventy

2266
06:38:17.200 --> 06:39:24.520
one and seventeen and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle

2267
06:39:26.639 --> 06:40:29.799
sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four,

2268
06:40:45.799 --> 06:42:27.319
candle sixty three, candle sixty sixty one, candle sixty fifty

2269
06:42:27.560 --> 06:44:12.560
nine and fifty eight, fifty fifty six, candle fifty five,

2270
06:44:30.080 --> 06:45:50.919
candle fifty four, handle fifty three, can fifty two fifty

2271
06:45:51.200 --> 06:47:56.200
two came to see candle fifty one, candle fifty candle

2272
06:48:00.119 --> 06:49:54.360
fourty nine, camel fourteen eight, count forty seven, county forty

2273
06:49:54.959 --> 06:51:42.479
six can't foty five, forty two, canto.

2274
06:52:20.759 --> 06:52:27.000
Nd foty.

2275
06:53:09.520 --> 06:53:11.040
Thirty nine.

2276
06:53:44.840 --> 06:53:49.319
And ser.

2277
06:53:50.799 --> 06:56:34.000
Eight, can't do thirty seven, Candle thirty five, Canto thirty two,

2278
06:56:38.000 --> 06:59:27.240
thirty three, candle thirty one and two one ten nine,

2279
07:00:10.279 --> 07:02:29.680
what you ate, candle twenty seven, candle twenty six, can't

2280
07:02:35.080 --> 07:03:22.319
wait five and swing.

2281
07:03:24.080 --> 07:04:00.040
Four and twenty.

2282
07:04:39.240 --> 07:04:39.799
Came to.

2283
07:04:41.759 --> 07:05:22.000
Equin go, git to.

2284
07:06:02.439 --> 07:06:40.959
Wait, yes.

2285
07:07:05.680 --> 07:07:06.200
And do.

2286
07:07:09.319 --> 07:15:45.880
Ninety and seventy sixty four two y save eight s

2287
07:18:14.599 --> 07:20:38.680
two candle or let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2288
07:20:39.000 --> 07:20:45.080
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2289
07:20:46.560 --> 07:20:50.919
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

2290
07:20:51.000 --> 07:20:57.240
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

2291
07:21:02.119 --> 07:21:17.479
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

2292
07:21:21.799 --> 07:21:28.240
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

2293
07:21:30.319 --> 07:21:38.439
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

2294
07:21:38.520 --> 07:21:43.360
for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

2295
07:21:43.479 --> 07:21:50.880
effort to set up the right time and place in

2296
07:21:51.159 --> 07:21:57.360
order for you to just let go. Because when you

2297
07:21:57.599 --> 07:22:05.360
do decide to let go and relax, that's what your

2298
07:22:05.400 --> 07:22:14.119
body starts to do. Because you've chosen, You've chosen to

2299
07:22:14.560 --> 07:22:21.680
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

2300
07:22:21.759 --> 07:22:29.240
to slow down, and it's a nice feeling. It's a

2301
07:22:29.360 --> 07:22:33.560
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2302
07:22:34.080 --> 07:22:44.319
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2303
07:22:44.439 --> 07:22:52.959
made that decision, your body or just follow suit, because

2304
07:22:53.000 --> 07:22:57.639
sometimes all the muscles in your body need is just

2305
07:22:58.000 --> 07:23:07.240
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2306
07:23:07.479 --> 07:23:11.680
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2307
07:23:11.799 --> 07:23:19.119
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2308
07:23:19.360 --> 07:23:27.759
or space to really relax deeply. So it kind of

2309
07:23:27.880 --> 07:23:33.439
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2310
07:23:37.759 --> 07:23:44.279
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2311
07:23:44.319 --> 07:23:50.599
the say so, when you say okay, it's time for

2312
07:23:50.720 --> 07:24:00.400
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2313
07:24:00.439 --> 07:24:09.919
body just follows some like a breath of relief. Ah God,

2314
07:24:10.000 --> 07:24:16.919
I can now relax. Have feeling at the end of

2315
07:24:16.959 --> 07:24:20.959
a day of very physical day that you may experience

2316
07:24:21.080 --> 07:24:24.400
in the past, where you get home and you just

2317
07:24:24.599 --> 07:24:28.880
sit down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off,

2318
07:24:29.000 --> 07:24:35.520
and ah, feels so nice. Know that you don't have

2319
07:24:35.680 --> 07:24:39.159
to get up again for a little while at least,

2320
07:24:40.200 --> 07:24:42.599
And if you choose, you can just sit there for

2321
07:24:42.759 --> 07:24:55.479
maybe an hour to it feels blissful. And just by

2322
07:24:55.680 --> 07:25:00.759
sitting down like that, your body knows that it's time

2323
07:25:00.840 --> 07:25:06.159
to relax. Your body has been given permission from you.

2324
07:25:08.400 --> 07:25:18.680
Because it's a mindset in your mind, you're prepared to

2325
07:25:18.880 --> 07:25:28.439
let go of everything and just completely allow all the

2326
07:25:28.759 --> 07:25:37.520
stress of your body to evaporate. An intensions can just

2327
07:25:37.880 --> 07:25:57.279
gradually vanish. It's almost like magic, really, because that sense

2328
07:25:57.560 --> 07:26:03.799
of relaxation in your body, it's a very natural state.

2329
07:26:05.680 --> 07:26:10.319
It's not something unusual. It may feel unusual when you

2330
07:26:10.439 --> 07:26:13.720
first start to relax, if you if you haven't really

2331
07:26:15.159 --> 07:26:19.040
spent a lot of time focusing and giving yourself this

2332
07:26:19.240 --> 07:26:24.279
space to let go completely and relax may seem al

2333
07:26:24.439 --> 07:26:32.720
most alien, but it isn't. It's actually the most natural

2334
07:26:32.840 --> 07:26:41.400
thing in the world to let go completely, to relax totally,

2335
07:26:43.400 --> 07:26:50.119
the most natural thing in the world to allow yourself

2336
07:26:54.479 --> 07:27:01.880
to feel really calm in your mind. And it is

2337
07:27:02.159 --> 07:27:10.680
almost like a literal unwinding. It's like you press a button.

2338
07:27:13.000 --> 07:27:13.639
And all the.

2339
07:27:13.880 --> 07:27:20.479
Tension just releases, and it's like a wheel, like a cog,

2340
07:27:21.479 --> 07:27:25.000
like the inside of a clock, just unwinding, and it's

2341
07:27:25.040 --> 07:27:30.040
almost i you could see the little wind up knob

2342
07:27:30.200 --> 07:27:35.200
that's used just going the opposite way that you choose

2343
07:27:35.319 --> 07:27:43.119
to wind it up, and the energy that primetic stress

2344
07:27:43.560 --> 07:27:53.520
for energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength.

2345
07:27:56.040 --> 07:28:05.360
As a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and

2346
07:28:05.680 --> 07:28:14.560
you may find a more relaxed you feel your mind

2347
07:28:15.080 --> 07:28:24.479
starts to wonder, maybe seem to stop listening to me

2348
07:28:24.680 --> 07:28:30.560
for a while, your mind goes somewhere else, and then

2349
07:28:30.680 --> 07:28:36.759
you realize you're listening to me again, and that's just

2350
07:28:36.919 --> 07:28:47.200
your mind drifting to sleep, which is quite natural, because

2351
07:28:47.279 --> 07:28:54.880
sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're not may not

2352
07:28:54.919 --> 07:28:59.880
actually be aware of what we need or we physically

2353
07:29:00.119 --> 07:29:09.240
your emotionally need in this moment. But when you allow

2354
07:29:10.439 --> 07:29:16.279
your body and mind to relax completely and you let

2355
07:29:16.400 --> 07:29:27.000
go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas all lego allow

2356
07:29:27.159 --> 07:29:37.560
them to drop onto the floor, you start to get

2357
07:29:37.639 --> 07:29:49.000
in touch with the feelings of such relaxation. Feels so

2358
07:29:49.360 --> 07:29:57.599
nice to be in touch with the calmness the different

2359
07:29:57.720 --> 07:30:10.799
body parts as they become looser and looser. Even your

2360
07:30:10.959 --> 07:30:23.000
breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless, as I cool

2361
07:30:23.279 --> 07:30:31.439
outs through your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing

2362
07:30:31.520 --> 07:30:39.880
in comforts and relaxation, and then just breathing out any

2363
07:30:41.080 --> 07:30:48.880
excess remain intention stress from every part of your body

2364
07:30:50.439 --> 07:30:57.000
and mind. As you start to focus on your mind,

2365
07:30:58.759 --> 07:31:08.159
maybe notice that things come to a standstill, maybe just

2366
07:31:08.880 --> 07:31:16.880
much much lower than before, because your mind is not

2367
07:31:17.319 --> 07:31:27.919
really needed when listening to my voice, which allows your

2368
07:31:28.080 --> 07:31:36.520
mind to relax just as deeply as your body. And

2369
07:31:36.639 --> 07:31:49.479
that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation of

2370
07:31:49.680 --> 07:31:50.240
your mind.

2371
07:31:52.599 --> 07:31:53.840
Lets you know that.

2372
07:31:55.959 --> 07:32:09.799
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed is a great healing

2373
07:32:10.880 --> 07:32:28.159
experience fear and has so many positive benefits for your body, mind,

2374
07:32:28.560 --> 07:32:35.680
and your life. To be able to let go everything

2375
07:32:37.360 --> 07:32:45.639
and to relax completely, you know, all parts of your

2376
07:32:45.720 --> 07:32:57.880
body and mind, even your bons arixed, all your muscles

2377
07:32:58.040 --> 07:33:13.639
are rised, even the skin that covers your body is relaxed.

2378
07:33:18.759 --> 07:33:20.040
Every hair.

2379
07:33:23.279 --> 07:33:23.639
You have.

2380
07:33:25.400 --> 07:33:42.959
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to

2381
07:33:43.240 --> 07:33:45.319
feel the benefits.

2382
07:33:46.599 --> 07:33:46.919
Of this.

2383
07:33:48.520 --> 07:34:00.200
Heathing relaxation. And as you focus on the even the

2384
07:34:00.400 --> 07:34:05.400
side of your scalp where your brain is, you can

2385
07:34:05.720 --> 07:34:13.639
start to realize and notice the benefits of your brain

2386
07:34:14.759 --> 07:34:17.040
relaxing depay.

2387
07:34:21.000 --> 07:34:21.680
In it's your.

2388
07:34:21.720 --> 07:34:34.000
Brain continues to react, sends those messages to the rest

2389
07:34:34.200 --> 07:34:42.279
of your body and to your mind to re wors

2390
07:34:43.400 --> 07:35:04.560
e more debate, relax more completely, letting go of any

2391
07:35:06.439 --> 07:35:16.599
remaining thoughts or concerns, allow them just to drop onto

2392
07:35:16.720 --> 07:35:25.400
the floor because they're no longer necessary in this moment,

2393
07:35:27.840 --> 07:35:40.959
this moment of deep reaxation and calmness, feeling your brain

2394
07:35:42.919 --> 07:36:06.040
with deep concentrated healing, calming, relaxing every part of your brain,

2395
07:36:10.520 --> 07:36:30.479
feeling so loose and comfortable, so relaxed and beheaceful. Your

2396
07:36:30.639 --> 07:36:42.599
brain feels so light, that's so healthy. That sense of

2397
07:36:43.119 --> 07:36:58.880
deep deep comfort really does allow you to enjoy those

2398
07:36:59.319 --> 07:37:11.080
every increasing sensations of comfort that are spreading throughout your body,

2399
07:37:15.360 --> 07:37:32.000
relaxing each and every muscle your body e deeper and deeper,

2400
07:37:35.119 --> 07:37:52.759
much more deeper than before, much more comfort spreading through

2401
07:37:54.159 --> 07:38:08.200
your body and your mind. So peaceful and calm, so

2402
07:38:10.639 --> 07:38:24.599
very very peaceful in avery point of your body, letting

2403
07:38:25.119 --> 07:38:44.959
go the a everything averything, so peaceful, calm, so really

2404
07:38:51.439 --> 07:38:59.159
very second the passes you feel.

2405
07:39:01.159 --> 07:39:22.040
DPER, DPA relaxed, DPER and dperlax.

2406
07:39:22.479 --> 07:39:26.840
Car SoC.

2407
07:39:30.639 --> 07:39:32.319
Pce for.

2408
07:39:35.119 --> 07:39:49.400
So very peace, your head bound to tays such peace

2409
07:39:50.240 --> 07:39:51.880
and comfort.

2410
07:39:53.639 --> 07:40:08.319
Growing all the time, s speace and comfort spreading through

2411
07:40:08.919 --> 07:40:24.959
your body, your mind deeper deeper, such comforts spreading and

2412
07:40:25.400 --> 07:40:36.959
sinking deeper into ay muscle of your body. Sudenly, you

2413
07:40:37.400 --> 07:40:49.919
feel amazing, so relaxed, so peace, so.

2414
07:40:54.720 --> 07:40:56.639
So relax.

2415
07:41:00.080 --> 07:41:16.439
Out peace letting. Going going to do a body scan,

2416
07:41:18.200 --> 07:41:24.599
focusing on firstly how you feel in your body, not

2417
07:41:24.759 --> 07:41:30.159
trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2418
07:41:31.439 --> 07:41:36.439
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2419
07:41:36.639 --> 07:41:44.080
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2420
07:41:45.080 --> 07:41:50.000
in the different parts of your body, just allowing yourself

2421
07:41:51.400 --> 07:41:58.840
to be exactly as you are, to notice to get

2422
07:41:58.919 --> 07:42:07.520
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2423
07:42:11.319 --> 07:42:22.360
To start off by focusing on your hands, just be

2424
07:42:22.479 --> 07:42:31.319
aware of your hands, like you to move your hands around,

2425
07:42:32.759 --> 07:42:35.319
just maybe move your fingers.

2426
07:42:34.959 --> 07:42:35.520
A little bit.

2427
07:42:37.959 --> 07:42:44.159
I've been enclosing your hands very gently, just so that

2428
07:42:44.439 --> 07:42:52.159
you can get in touch with how your hands and

2429
07:42:52.360 --> 07:43:13.360
your fingers feel, very very slow movements. Focusing now on

2430
07:43:13.520 --> 07:43:20.599
your feet and if you can just do kind of

2431
07:43:20.639 --> 07:43:25.560
an equivalent with your feet. Is you've just done with

2432
07:43:25.759 --> 07:43:34.360
your hands, maybe turning your ankles, moving your feet around,

2433
07:43:36.360 --> 07:43:47.319
moving your toes gently, only very gently and very slowly.

2434
07:43:49.759 --> 07:43:51.159
Noticing how.

2435
07:43:52.799 --> 07:44:06.240
Your feet feel in this moment. Focusing now and your eyes.

2436
07:44:09.240 --> 07:44:16.360
I'd like you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe

2437
07:44:16.439 --> 07:44:19.159
you can open and close your eyes a couple of

2438
07:44:19.319 --> 07:44:24.720
times to really get in touch with how you feel

2439
07:44:24.840 --> 07:44:32.840
when you do close your eyes. The muscle changes in

2440
07:44:32.959 --> 07:44:39.840
your eyes when you do close them, maybe raising your eyebrows,

2441
07:44:41.599 --> 07:44:49.400
it stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes,

2442
07:44:53.159 --> 07:44:58.439
scrunching up your eyes, just so you can really get

2443
07:44:58.520 --> 07:45:09.040
in touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel

2444
07:45:11.759 --> 07:45:27.240
right now. Now focusing on your thighs, and then you

2445
07:45:27.279 --> 07:45:31.279
know it just starts you to gently tense your thighs,

2446
07:45:32.639 --> 07:45:42.479
just very very gently, just enough so you can become

2447
07:45:44.040 --> 07:45:55.119
more attuned to the physical sensation of your upper legs,

2448
07:45:57.360 --> 07:46:00.520
the front of your thighs, and the backs your thigh

2449
07:46:05.080 --> 07:46:24.479
noticing and observing how your thighs feel right now. Moving

2450
07:46:24.720 --> 07:46:33.119
your focus to the back of your neck, just noticing

2451
07:46:33.319 --> 07:46:39.360
the back of your neck the muscles, and of course

2452
07:46:39.520 --> 07:46:43.799
they lead to the side of your neck. They also

2453
07:46:44.119 --> 07:46:48.959
lead to the top of your back, which leads to

2454
07:46:49.040 --> 07:46:54.560
your shoulders. So as your focus on the back of

2455
07:46:54.639 --> 07:47:02.040
your neck, maybe you can move your head gently upwards

2456
07:47:03.200 --> 07:47:09.159
as if you're looking up, Maybe moving your head down

2457
07:47:10.639 --> 07:47:17.200
as if you're looking down. Perhaps moving your head side

2458
07:47:17.400 --> 07:47:29.799
to side, right to left, only very slowly, very gently.

2459
07:47:32.319 --> 07:47:37.479
You're not trying to force anything. It has to be

2460
07:47:38.000 --> 07:47:46.360
very very gentle, just so you can.

2461
07:47:47.919 --> 07:47:49.520
Be more.

2462
07:47:51.200 --> 07:48:03.040
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations physical sensations

2463
07:48:03.319 --> 07:48:11.240
of how on the back of your neck feels right now,

2464
07:48:18.799 --> 07:48:26.799
as we now focus on the tops of your arms,

2465
07:48:29.159 --> 07:48:34.000
the parts where your biceps and your triceps are between

2466
07:48:34.040 --> 07:48:41.759
your elbow and your shoulders. So you focus on those parts,

2467
07:48:42.759 --> 07:48:48.439
the tops of your arms, you may like to just

2468
07:48:49.240 --> 07:49:00.560
tense them, but very very gently and slowly, so you're

2469
07:49:00.599 --> 07:49:10.040
not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever on your arms.

2470
07:49:12.720 --> 07:49:20.119
It's just slowly you can gain more of a sense

2471
07:49:20.400 --> 07:49:30.840
of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment,

2472
07:49:34.240 --> 07:49:46.840
just noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly tighten

2473
07:49:47.080 --> 07:49:57.880
the muscles and then let go, notice how the tops

2474
07:49:58.000 --> 07:50:16.639
of your arms feel right now, as now focus on

2475
07:50:16.840 --> 07:50:24.360
your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area below your

2476
07:50:24.439 --> 07:50:33.040
belly button, moving all the way down to your hips,

2477
07:50:34.119 --> 07:50:45.400
just above your grind. Maybe you're able to tense these

2478
07:50:45.599 --> 07:51:03.200
muscles in the area very very gently and slowly. If

2479
07:51:03.319 --> 07:51:07.680
that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can just

2480
07:51:09.000 --> 07:51:18.400
move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving a

2481
07:51:18.439 --> 07:51:24.159
little bit to a side using your hips, just so

2482
07:51:24.799 --> 07:51:33.319
you can get more in tune with how you're lower

2483
07:51:33.959 --> 07:51:50.880
up to an area his feeling in this moment, Just

2484
07:51:51.319 --> 07:52:13.520
noticing the physical sensations or your lower abdomen as you

2485
07:52:13.799 --> 07:52:27.000
move your attention to your mouth, notice in your lips,

2486
07:52:29.040 --> 07:52:37.520
then inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue,

2487
07:52:47.119 --> 07:52:55.720
just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It

2488
07:52:55.880 --> 07:53:04.919
may help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2489
07:53:05.000 --> 07:53:12.360
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

2490
07:53:12.639 --> 07:53:18.799
side of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

2491
07:53:19.319 --> 07:53:26.000
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

2492
07:53:26.119 --> 07:53:34.119
the top of your mouth, and then down gently against

2493
07:53:34.240 --> 07:53:44.720
the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a

2494
07:53:45.319 --> 07:54:04.680
very very gentle so that you can be aware of

2495
07:54:04.959 --> 07:54:27.360
how you feel in your mouth area. No, God to

2496
07:54:27.599 --> 07:54:43.599
focus on your wrists, and I'm gonna ask you to

2497
07:54:43.840 --> 07:54:53.759
maybe just routine your wrists by moving your hands in

2498
07:54:53.880 --> 07:55:07.759
a circular motion very gently and slowly, just slowly, can

2499
07:55:13.639 --> 07:55:32.680
feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in your risks.

2500
07:55:36.759 --> 07:55:46.759
Perhaps smooth in your hands up and down again, very

2501
07:55:49.439 --> 07:56:29.520
very champly and slowly, Harry chem so slow now start

2502
07:56:30.279 --> 07:56:45.360
to observe you lower back. The bad part is just

2503
07:56:45.799 --> 07:57:01.479
above of your hips, where your coxis are a whole

2504
07:57:01.759 --> 07:57:08.720
area which also really does include the side of your body,

2505
07:57:10.439 --> 07:57:20.080
because those muscles are very much connected as those muscles

2506
07:57:21.000 --> 07:57:30.240
also move into your hiperia, connect into your buttocks, the

2507
07:57:30.599 --> 07:57:45.240
side of your apps. And if you're physically able to

2508
07:57:45.479 --> 07:57:54.720
do so, maybe you can very gently just move your

2509
07:57:54.840 --> 07:58:07.599
body evis is slightly, very slowly some side to side,

2510
07:58:11.319 --> 07:58:28.159
just enough to gauge how you feel in your lower back,

2511
07:58:35.759 --> 07:58:46.159
perhaps sickly, even move your hips gently up and down,

2512
07:58:49.919 --> 07:58:56.840
gently and slowly in order that's an.

2513
07:59:00.959 --> 07:59:02.479
Be in touch.

2514
07:59:04.880 --> 07:59:28.639
With the physical sensations of your lower back. As we know,

2515
07:59:29.080 --> 07:59:45.080
your attensure to your joe an area for your chin

2516
07:59:46.360 --> 07:59:50.479
all the way up to the area your ears are.

2517
07:59:53.680 --> 08:00:09.959
Oh your joe. You can just it's okay to do so.

2518
08:00:11.880 --> 08:00:22.360
Gently open your mouth nor wide, no stretching, just very

2519
08:00:23.119 --> 08:00:35.119
gently and slowly open in your mouth and enclose in

2520
08:00:35.240 --> 08:00:56.159
your mouth very gently and slowly, so you can be

2521
08:00:56.360 --> 08:01:06.360
in touch with how your jaw feels.

2522
08:01:09.360 --> 08:01:09.560
Now.

2523
08:01:36.240 --> 08:01:51.880
I like to sing now the chest around you don't

2524
08:01:52.080 --> 08:01:59.400
need to do anything to move your chest because it

2525
08:01:59.639 --> 08:02:12.520
moves every time you breathe and lose very gently and

2526
08:02:13.159 --> 08:02:30.759
slowly automatically with each breath you take. As you focus

2527
08:02:31.319 --> 08:03:17.880
on your chest fields when you breathe, move in your

2528
08:03:18.159 --> 08:03:32.840
focus to your forearms with your elbows. Maybe you're able

2529
08:03:33.319 --> 08:03:37.959
to very gently.

2530
08:03:39.279 --> 08:03:41.439
And slowly.

2531
08:03:43.159 --> 08:03:51.720
Dense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2532
08:03:52.200 --> 08:04:25.360
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, gently.

2533
08:04:28.200 --> 08:04:30.200
And softly.

2534
08:04:33.720 --> 08:05:12.680
Observing your forums dipas no, make a focus the rest

2535
08:05:12.799 --> 08:05:25.840
of your back, your upper back and the middle the

2536
08:05:26.200 --> 08:05:45.959
middle your back. Again, this part of your body moves

2537
08:05:48.080 --> 08:05:57.759
also every time you pray. You may not notice that

2538
08:06:00.200 --> 08:06:12.040
sha Why should save your upper back in the midle

2539
08:06:12.080 --> 08:07:12.439
of your back, can really feel that Shinto and man

2540
08:07:12.639 --> 08:07:23.479
your focus into your hip area. The buttecks.

2541
08:07:24.959 --> 08:07:25.560
To gray.

2542
08:07:28.400 --> 08:08:02.919
There's muscles those bones in your midsection just not de

2543
08:08:03.080 --> 08:08:24.919
sent how your hips feel right now? You can very

2544
08:08:25.680 --> 08:08:40.040
very gently move your hips maybe side to side very

2545
08:08:40.720 --> 08:09:38.200
gently and yeah, yea softly. Everything starts to slow down,

2546
08:09:44.680 --> 08:09:50.360
including the thoughts in your mind and your mind itself

2547
08:09:53.599 --> 08:09:59.799
just starts to gradually. It doesn't have to be in

2548
08:10:00.360 --> 08:10:08.319
but just gradually starting too. It's almost like time is

2549
08:10:08.759 --> 08:10:19.880
storing chin. It's a slower pace to maybe what you're

2550
08:10:20.240 --> 08:10:27.880
used to in your day to day life. It's a

2551
08:10:28.119 --> 08:10:55.080
slower movement of energy, very small movements which make up

2552
08:10:55.400 --> 08:11:03.000
the larger movements, which is always the case. Now, when

2553
08:11:03.040 --> 08:11:08.200
you move your hand, it might seem like it's one movement,

2554
08:11:08.319 --> 08:11:16.240
but it's lots of minute different muscles moving in accordance

2555
08:11:16.360 --> 08:11:27.560
with each other. And what happens in this space that

2556
08:11:27.720 --> 08:11:35.720
we're sharing is we move from.

2557
08:11:38.439 --> 08:11:41.080
That big.

2558
08:11:45.520 --> 08:12:02.560
Movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on how

2559
08:12:02.680 --> 08:12:09.959
your body feels, not just as a whole, not just oh,

2560
08:12:10.040 --> 08:12:14.279
i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed or tense,

2561
08:12:14.520 --> 08:12:19.919
or I'm feeling relaxed and calm, I'm feeling this way,

2562
08:12:20.080 --> 08:12:26.959
I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that your body

2563
08:12:31.279 --> 08:12:40.919
begins to present to you small feelings around your body,

2564
08:12:47.479 --> 08:12:59.560
small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable or not.

2565
08:13:04.959 --> 08:13:14.040
Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or to judge

2566
08:13:14.080 --> 08:13:21.560
them those feelings, just thinking them, thinking about them is

2567
08:13:21.759 --> 08:13:38.959
just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned, just

2568
08:13:39.360 --> 08:13:54.799
noticing what your body is telling you. Feelings in your arms,

2569
08:13:57.799 --> 08:14:02.759
instead of feeling the whole of the arm, Maybe notice

2570
08:14:03.000 --> 08:14:15.840
those individual feelings, all those different muscles and the skin,

2571
08:14:19.080 --> 08:14:24.919
the hairs of your arms, all the internal parts of

2572
08:14:25.000 --> 08:14:41.319
your arms, the veins, the bones, just being aware of

2573
08:14:44.400 --> 08:14:50.840
maybe your elbow on your right arm has a certain feeling.

2574
08:14:52.919 --> 08:15:06.639
Maybe your left wrist also has it's own individual physical sensation.

2575
08:15:19.080 --> 08:15:25.799
What about your forearm on your right arm, your right forearm,

2576
08:15:33.119 --> 08:15:39.200
there may not be any particular feeling that you could

2577
08:15:39.279 --> 08:15:47.159
even give a name to, may not feel like anything

2578
08:15:48.159 --> 08:15:58.959
other than just a feeling. Yeah, it's there. The feelings

2579
08:15:59.000 --> 08:16:05.000
in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you think about them,

2580
08:16:06.200 --> 08:16:10.479
kind of almost like they're the same, you know, the

2581
08:16:10.599 --> 08:16:15.560
same feeling, almost like you both of your shoulders are

2582
08:16:15.680 --> 08:16:28.439
just one thing. Of course they're not. And when you

2583
08:16:28.680 --> 08:16:34.680
focus on your left shoulder and then on your right shoulder,

2584
08:16:36.720 --> 08:16:41.200
maybe find that you move the muscles a little bit,

2585
08:16:42.759 --> 08:16:56.159
maybe tense to the muscles, gently noticing the difference in

2586
08:16:56.279 --> 08:17:24.119
each shoulder, your lower back, the left side of your

2587
08:17:24.200 --> 08:17:28.040
lower back, and the right side of your lower back

2588
08:17:35.959 --> 08:17:41.200
of course that connection to your buttocks and to your hips,

2589
08:17:48.720 --> 08:17:52.319
and also moving up into the middle of your back.

2590
08:18:02.240 --> 08:18:06.400
And sometimes like right now, actually when I focus on

2591
08:18:06.520 --> 08:18:12.119
their part, when I focused on my buttocks and then

2592
08:18:12.159 --> 08:18:16.439
I focused on the middle of my back, I almost

2593
08:18:16.520 --> 08:18:19.240
felt like the muscles in my lower back were being

2594
08:18:19.599 --> 08:18:31.040
stretched very gently, just stretched a little bit. Even though

2595
08:18:31.119 --> 08:18:40.159
I wasn't doing anything to try to stretch your lower back,

2596
08:18:40.560 --> 08:18:48.759
it just seemed to happen, the feeling of very gently

2597
08:18:50.279 --> 08:19:12.400
stretching your lower back along I have feeling in your chest,

2598
08:19:20.000 --> 08:19:33.400
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2599
08:19:33.680 --> 08:19:49.919
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Obviously,

2600
08:19:50.040 --> 08:19:53.639
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2601
08:19:53.680 --> 08:20:02.279
the chest bone, you've got the muscles in your chest.

2602
08:20:05.080 --> 08:20:11.159
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2603
08:20:11.200 --> 08:20:19.319
you're male, you've got the different well why not that

2604
08:20:19.479 --> 08:20:26.959
different these days, But there may be more muscles at

2605
08:20:27.000 --> 08:20:33.200
the top of the chest, but at the side underneath,

2606
08:20:34.360 --> 08:20:37.200
it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or

2607
08:20:37.240 --> 08:20:43.680
a woman, there's muscles there muscles that stretch out to

2608
08:20:43.799 --> 08:20:48.720
your back, as well as breast tissue stretches and moves

2609
08:20:48.759 --> 08:20:56.119
into your back, to just being aware of your chest,

2610
08:21:05.040 --> 08:21:32.159
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. And

2611
08:21:32.240 --> 08:21:39.720
when I noticed that, I focus on my chest. I

2612
08:21:39.959 --> 08:21:44.959
feel it in my back, my upper back. I mean,

2613
08:21:45.000 --> 08:21:47.919
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2614
08:21:47.959 --> 08:21:58.680
I'm breathe in in, and it stretches my chest and

2615
08:21:59.040 --> 08:22:12.919
my back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

2616
08:22:19.680 --> 08:22:24.520
doesn't feel I got a little bit of pain in

2617
08:22:24.599 --> 08:22:31.159
my right chest, a little bit, not pain, but a

2618
08:22:31.240 --> 08:22:41.479
little discomfort, maybe stiffness, possibly, I don't know. I notice

2619
08:22:41.560 --> 08:22:51.400
my shoulders also wanting to flex for some reason. I

2620
08:22:51.479 --> 08:22:59.360
think that's probably part of my upper back, that connection

2621
08:22:59.639 --> 08:23:04.400
between my shoulders marper back. Because I can move my

2622
08:23:04.520 --> 08:23:11.799
shoulders and stretch the muscles in my back, moving the

2623
08:23:11.840 --> 08:23:18.400
shoulders backwards or up, which then moves I think it's

2624
08:23:18.479 --> 08:23:34.159
the scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually,

2625
08:23:39.479 --> 08:23:42.639
a good thing about this is you can, if you

2626
08:23:42.799 --> 08:23:56.720
want to, you can just flex or stimulate the various

2627
08:23:56.959 --> 08:24:04.439
muscles in your body gently in order to get more

2628
08:24:04.479 --> 08:24:14.799
of a sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing.

2629
08:24:19.599 --> 08:24:23.639
When you do tense and muscle and you let it

2630
08:24:23.799 --> 08:24:31.200
go and you let it relax, it relaxes way more

2631
08:24:32.799 --> 08:24:42.840
than it would normally. That you have to feel that

2632
08:24:42.919 --> 08:24:46.639
you're able to do that. There's no point in doing

2633
08:24:46.720 --> 08:24:52.240
it if there's an issue with the per part of

2634
08:24:52.319 --> 08:25:01.560
your body. You need to be gentle with yourself at

2635
08:25:01.799 --> 08:25:15.040
all times when relax in deeply, it's important to be

2636
08:25:15.279 --> 08:25:31.040
kind to yourself. As you notice your mind. How much

2637
08:25:32.200 --> 08:25:39.840
has your mind slowed down since we started this recording?

2638
08:25:55.880 --> 08:26:11.479
How come and peaceful is your mind right now? We

2639
08:26:11.520 --> 08:26:17.040
have nothing to think about and just my voice to

2640
08:26:17.240 --> 08:26:27.919
listen to, because you know, the intention behind this recording

2641
08:26:29.400 --> 08:26:36.959
is relaxation. At the very least, for you to feel

2642
08:26:37.200 --> 08:26:41.599
more relaxed at the end of the recording than you

2643
08:26:41.840 --> 08:26:53.720
did at the beginning, at the very least, for your

2644
08:26:53.919 --> 08:27:11.040
mind to slow down your body continues to relax because

2645
08:27:11.319 --> 08:27:23.720
that's what you want to happen. That's what you expect.

2646
08:27:27.319 --> 08:27:27.919
To happen.

2647
08:27:34.000 --> 08:27:51.959
For relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm in your

2648
08:27:52.159 --> 08:28:01.000
mind to the point of boredom when you're are maybe

2649
08:28:01.439 --> 08:28:47.840
to drift away. Drifting it's almost as if you're moving

2650
08:28:48.479 --> 08:28:56.360
further away from your body in your mind, just leaving

2651
08:28:56.599 --> 08:29:08.560
that there, kind of liking it an escape pod and

2652
08:29:08.639 --> 08:29:13.000
a spaceship a movie. A space movie, you know when

2653
08:29:13.000 --> 08:29:16.880
they get into a little part in it sends the

2654
08:29:17.000 --> 08:29:41.479
man far away from the spaceship, safe to dream and

2655
08:29:41.759 --> 08:31:14.639
continue to relax, drifting silk and preece, relax and peace

2656
08:31:35.840 --> 08:31:50.240
and focusing on that feeling of those individual parts of

2657
08:31:50.400 --> 08:31:56.159
your body that's relaxing.

2658
08:31:58.080 --> 08:31:58.799
One by one.

2659
08:32:06.479 --> 08:32:18.840
You may find that every now and then you realize

2660
08:32:19.000 --> 08:32:29.880
that you weren't listening to my voice because your mind

2661
08:32:30.439 --> 08:32:45.200
started to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move

2662
08:32:45.400 --> 08:32:54.479
into some kind of a dreamy state, and then you

2663
08:32:54.599 --> 08:33:01.400
become aware of my voice again. And even though you

2664
08:33:02.400 --> 08:33:08.560
may want to focus on my voice, you may also

2665
08:33:09.319 --> 08:33:23.159
wish to allow your mind to just drift naturally into

2666
08:33:23.279 --> 08:33:44.680
that space of comfort and safety. As you feel more

2667
08:33:45.319 --> 08:33:58.560
comfort spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering

2668
08:33:58.720 --> 08:34:12.759
you gently, keeping your body it just the perfect temperature,

2669
08:34:23.159 --> 08:34:33.520
and even if you can hear background sounds, they just

2670
08:34:34.959 --> 08:34:48.759
don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense of peace

2671
08:34:51.240 --> 08:35:05.759
spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong

2672
08:35:05.919 --> 08:35:21.919
enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough to remove

2673
08:35:22.479 --> 08:35:32.439
from your mind any anxiety or stress that was there before,

2674
08:35:40.799 --> 08:35:49.720
and blow away any other thoughts or feelings that just

2675
08:35:51.520 --> 08:36:15.919
don't fit with the sense relaxation that is feeling your

2676
08:36:16.040 --> 08:36:38.479
body and your mind. Un As you focus on your

2677
08:36:38.560 --> 08:36:46.360
mind and countdown from ten down to one, and with

2678
08:36:46.759 --> 08:37:12.639
each number you hear, your mind will become slightly more relaxed,

2679
08:37:15.400 --> 08:37:23.919
just just slightly, from ten down to nine, just a

2680
08:37:24.200 --> 08:37:33.520
slight movement, from nine down to eight, just another small

2681
08:37:38.040 --> 08:37:50.639
change in how you feel. Eight down to seven. That

2682
08:37:51.000 --> 08:37:56.919
feeling is a gap, almost like a gap that starts

2683
08:37:57.279 --> 08:38:06.799
to get wider, gap between those feelings that you used

2684
08:38:06.880 --> 08:38:14.080
to have in your mind compared to the feelings you

2685
08:38:14.279 --> 08:38:21.959
have that are growing now, feelings of comfort and security

2686
08:38:22.240 --> 08:38:34.319
and confidence, and the gap becomes wider. Mate down to seven, seven,

2687
08:38:34.479 --> 08:38:42.840
down to six, and when you get to five, your

2688
08:38:43.040 --> 08:38:56.639
mind will start to have a certain physical sensation, most

2689
08:38:56.799 --> 08:39:02.080
like there's a magnet outside of your head at sucking

2690
08:39:03.000 --> 08:39:08.840
the tension and the stress and any remaining feedings that

2691
08:39:08.959 --> 08:39:20.040
you don't want, sucking them out through your skull. And

2692
08:39:20.119 --> 08:39:26.560
then down to four you can start to really experience

2693
08:39:26.799 --> 08:39:39.240
that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a place

2694
08:39:39.439 --> 08:39:51.279
full of fresh air, place where you can stretch. It's

2695
08:39:51.360 --> 08:39:55.119
almost as if as you go down to four and three,

2696
08:39:55.599 --> 08:40:06.080
your mind is expanding, with this sense of peace and

2697
08:40:06.319 --> 08:40:16.639
tranquility growing as it moved down to When you get

2698
08:40:16.680 --> 08:40:25.880
to one, in your mind just feels exactly how you

2699
08:40:26.240 --> 08:40:46.279
want to feel, almost perfect fearing, maybe a sensation that

2700
08:40:47.959 --> 08:40:57.319
you'd like to keep, a place that's safe, where nothing

2701
08:41:00.880 --> 08:41:16.080
can affect you at all, and you can stay in

2702
08:41:16.200 --> 08:41:25.080
that that space of comfort and confidence, confident in your

2703
08:41:25.200 --> 08:41:33.360
own ability to create this space and this feeling of

2704
08:41:33.560 --> 08:41:42.279
comfort within your own mind, just by counting ten down

2705
08:41:42.360 --> 08:41:49.360
to one. And this is something that you can do

2706
08:41:49.599 --> 08:41:58.479
yourself when you're on your own the time when you

2707
08:41:58.639 --> 08:42:02.479
can maybe sit down, maybe just for a few minutes,

2708
08:42:07.040 --> 08:42:18.119
close your eyes. It just counts slowly from ten down

2709
08:42:18.200 --> 08:42:29.840
to one and re experience these feelings in your mind.

2710
08:42:35.680 --> 08:42:40.000
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

2711
08:42:40.080 --> 08:42:54.599
body copies your mind, and that feeling it's spread through

2712
08:42:54.799 --> 08:43:01.919
your spine and your nervous system to every part of

2713
08:43:02.040 --> 08:43:14.599
your body, travels through your blood stream, heathing and relaxing

2714
08:43:16.799 --> 08:43:35.639
every article of your existence. And we can practice this

2715
08:43:36.000 --> 08:43:44.040
a few times before the end of the recording, and

2716
08:43:44.119 --> 08:43:50.360
then you can practice on your own, and each time

2717
08:43:51.279 --> 08:44:01.119
you count from ten out one, the feelings of comfort,

2718
08:44:02.639 --> 08:44:21.080
calmness and deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling.

2719
08:44:21.799 --> 08:44:32.439
Your mind and your brain with these positive chemicals spread

2720
08:44:32.759 --> 08:44:42.479
throughout your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole

2721
08:44:42.720 --> 08:44:55.279
body and mind so very very easily just by counting.

2722
08:44:56.720 --> 08:45:00.639
Ten to one.

2723
08:45:05.759 --> 08:45:09.040
So we're gonna do now. I'm going to count from

2724
08:45:09.200 --> 08:45:10.520
ten down to one.

2725
08:45:11.599 --> 08:45:12.599
I'd like you to.

2726
08:45:12.759 --> 08:45:17.240
Repeat the number after me. So when I say ten,

2727
08:45:20.279 --> 08:45:23.360
you can just repeat to yourself.

2728
08:45:24.759 --> 08:45:25.000
Ten.

2729
08:45:30.599 --> 08:45:39.919
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2730
08:45:40.080 --> 08:45:49.599
mind and your body, and when I say nine, you

2731
08:45:49.720 --> 08:46:05.520
can repeat to yourself nine, okay, noticing the increase in

2732
08:46:05.759 --> 08:46:13.720
comfort and calmness in your mind and in your body

2733
08:46:19.680 --> 08:46:29.159
the same. Want to say eight when I say seven, six,

2734
08:46:31.680 --> 08:46:45.959
when I say five, four, when I say three, two,

2735
08:46:50.360 --> 08:47:04.200
and lastly when I say one, can repeat that number. Now.

2736
08:47:04.279 --> 08:47:09.880
Of course, when you do this on your own without

2737
08:47:10.000 --> 08:47:15.000
listening to me, you can say the numbers or whatever

2738
08:47:16.599 --> 08:47:25.040
speed that you feel is necessary for you, so you

2739
08:47:25.200 --> 08:47:31.159
can adapt so you feel you want to say the

2740
08:47:31.319 --> 08:47:38.840
numbers ten, out to one faster than I do, then

2741
08:47:38.880 --> 08:47:41.799
you go ahead and do that. Or if you feel

2742
08:47:42.639 --> 08:47:45.759
when you do it yourself that you'd like to have

2743
08:47:46.319 --> 08:47:54.319
more more space between the numbers, maybe take a lot

2744
08:47:54.520 --> 08:48:00.959
longer to get from ten or all the way down

2745
08:48:01.599 --> 08:48:18.599
to one, that's your choice also to do. So I'm

2746
08:48:18.639 --> 08:48:27.159
gonna count from ten down to one, and when I

2747
08:48:27.240 --> 08:48:31.799
get to one, that will be the end of this recording.

2748
08:48:34.279 --> 08:48:37.919
The less, of course, you're listening to music, and the

2749
08:48:38.080 --> 08:48:59.880
music will continue ten no I.

2750
08:49:25.040 --> 08:54:10.479
F us.

2751
08:53:18.880 --> 08:54:04.720
Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty twelve eleven,

2752
08:54:09.680 --> 08:54:56.439
ten nine eight, seven, six, five, four, three two one.

2753
08:55:04.880 --> 08:55:15.200
Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically feel having

2754
08:55:15.319 --> 08:55:22.919
counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress and tension

2755
08:55:23.439 --> 08:55:28.080
to leave through your fingertips and your tastes. And as

2756
08:55:28.119 --> 08:55:32.799
you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel a little

2757
08:55:32.880 --> 08:55:39.919
bit tingling, which is I suppose quite an understanding considering

2758
08:55:40.000 --> 08:55:44.479
the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2759
08:55:50.959 --> 08:55:52.959
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2760
08:55:53.080 --> 08:56:03.119
one again. This time you're going to feel tension and stress,

2761
08:56:04.560 --> 08:56:14.279
any anxiety that you may have leaving through your stomach

2762
08:56:16.880 --> 08:56:20.599
just leaving through your stomach, almost as if it's just

2763
08:56:21.599 --> 08:56:28.720
releasing the whole of your stomach, your navel to just

2764
08:56:28.840 --> 08:56:33.080
above your chest or blow your chest rather so surrounding

2765
08:56:33.159 --> 08:56:38.319
your belly button area, the whole area. You can feel

2766
08:56:38.560 --> 08:56:45.279
the tension of your body where's left, just releasing from

2767
08:56:45.360 --> 08:56:48.599
the area, and you may notice that your stomach will

2768
08:56:48.680 --> 08:56:55.840
become very relaxed. As I countdown from twenty down to

2769
08:56:55.959 --> 08:58:22.880
one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three.

2770
08:58:27.119 --> 08:58:32.639
Two what.

2771
08:58:37.759 --> 08:58:40.400
You can open your eyes again if you choose, or

2772
08:58:40.439 --> 08:58:44.000
you can just keep them closed because it feels relaxing.

2773
08:58:46.319 --> 08:58:51.439
Just notice saying your stomach feels I notice there's your focus.

2774
08:58:51.680 --> 08:58:56.880
Just do a little scan of your body. Just notice

2775
08:58:56.880 --> 08:59:10.040
saying your body feels focus in upper body, back, chest, stomach, lags, arms, hands, feet,

2776
08:59:13.080 --> 08:59:20.040
Just noticing, and you know, you may start to film

2777
08:59:22.479 --> 08:59:26.279
more of a sense of tiredness, which may be the

2778
08:59:26.400 --> 08:59:32.400
reason you're listening to this recording, because you would.

2779
08:59:32.400 --> 08:59:32.759
Like to.

2780
08:59:34.400 --> 08:59:46.279
Let go completely of everything and drift off into a nice, natural, calm,

2781
08:59:46.680 --> 09:00:01.880
relaxing sleep. So now we're gonna focus on your forehead,

2782
09:00:05.799 --> 09:00:08.560
and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in

2783
09:00:08.720 --> 09:00:15.599
this focus as well. Your forehead and your eyes. It's

2784
09:00:15.680 --> 09:00:20.159
that whole area basically, almost as if you were wearing

2785
09:00:20.200 --> 09:00:24.000
a mask, you know, like a I don't know, a

2786
09:00:24.119 --> 09:00:31.080
Batman mask or something, or I'm trying to sorrow or something,

2787
09:00:31.119 --> 09:00:33.240
you know, the kind of mask that covers your eyes

2788
09:00:33.720 --> 09:00:40.240
but also covers quite a lot of the forehead. Focusing

2789
09:00:40.279 --> 09:00:42.919
on that area because that's the area that we're now

2790
09:00:43.080 --> 09:00:49.759
going to release tension, stress from your mind, your brain,

2791
09:00:50.040 --> 09:00:53.599
from your mind, and any tension that you may have

2792
09:00:53.919 --> 09:00:58.000
remaining in your face, in your neck and your jaw,

2793
09:00:59.200 --> 09:01:05.360
and your eyes, your forehead or your scalp. So basically,

2794
09:01:05.560 --> 09:01:11.400
any tension within your head area, including your mind and

2795
09:01:11.599 --> 09:01:19.799
your brain, that's going to be released through your forehead

2796
09:01:19.880 --> 09:01:27.200
and your eyes. As I count down again from twenty

2797
09:01:27.599 --> 09:03:01.639
down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fteen, thirty, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three,

2798
09:03:11.279 --> 09:03:27.759
or noticing as you scan your face with jaw, your eyes,

2799
09:03:29.159 --> 09:03:38.159
the cheap bones, your ears, a forehead, your scalp, your neck,

2800
09:03:39.639 --> 09:03:43.599
back of your neck, front of your neck, the side

2801
09:03:43.720 --> 09:03:54.400
of your neck, and your throat. Noticing being aware of

2802
09:03:54.639 --> 09:04:06.080
the comfort, increased being relaxation, not just in your head

2803
09:04:06.200 --> 09:04:11.159
and neck and mind, also the rest of your body.

2804
09:04:16.479 --> 09:04:23.560
Just notice how loose and calm you feel, and how easily.

2805
09:04:25.319 --> 09:04:26.880
It is to just let go.

2806
09:04:29.639 --> 09:04:53.759
Completely, let go completely, how easily. So what I'm going

2807
09:04:53.799 --> 09:04:57.200
to do now is I want to focus on the

2808
09:04:57.319 --> 09:05:07.919
top of your head. Am We're gonna allow every last

2809
09:05:09.799 --> 09:05:15.880
piece of tension or stressed the mind, be lingering or

2810
09:05:16.080 --> 09:05:22.400
hiding in your body or mind, my head to just

2811
09:05:24.159 --> 09:05:30.560
be sucked out on the top of your head, released

2812
09:05:34.439 --> 09:05:41.240
to the air. I sucked out into the clouds. Let

2813
09:05:41.479 --> 09:05:46.840
a big cloud above your head. It's like a whirlpool.

2814
09:05:47.639 --> 09:05:50.479
It's just gonna suck that tension.

2815
09:05:51.599 --> 09:05:53.000
Our the top of your head.

2816
09:05:55.680 --> 09:06:04.919
Just take away you good, your focus. Imagine an opening

2817
09:06:05.080 --> 09:06:08.919
on the top of your head with a tension and

2818
09:06:09.199 --> 09:06:14.760
stress and in made in issues, maybe worries of sands

2819
09:06:15.000 --> 09:06:16.480
that are no use to you.

2820
09:06:16.680 --> 09:06:20.440
Now you can all be sucked down at the top

2821
09:06:20.480 --> 09:06:21.279
of your head.

2822
09:06:22.760 --> 09:06:28.720
And taken away. As I count down again, I'm twenty

2823
09:06:29.160 --> 09:06:30.279
down to work.

2824
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Now.

2825
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Twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen sixteen, fifty fourteen thirteen to twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2826
09:08:22.040 --> 09:08:57.639
three two one pree noticing how you feel, have relax

2827
09:08:58.120 --> 09:09:11.120
do come you physically and mentally feel right now, how

2828
09:09:12.239 --> 09:09:21.279
peaceful your mind feels. It feels so nice to just

2829
09:09:21.480 --> 09:09:29.839
let go, to give yourself some space to breathe easily,

2830
09:09:31.800 --> 09:09:41.800
to think calmly, just to take a break from all

2831
09:09:41.879 --> 09:09:48.519
that pointless worry concerns about things that you don't need

2832
09:09:48.680 --> 09:09:59.080
to think about right now, because this is your time

2833
09:09:59.400 --> 09:10:08.519
to let this is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed,

2834
09:10:10.599 --> 09:10:18.080
peaceful in your mind, relaxed in your body. It can

2835
09:10:18.239 --> 09:10:27.400
feel so good, so nice to just not have to

2836
09:10:27.639 --> 09:10:38.800
do anything, to be able to really enjoy that serenity

2837
09:10:39.519 --> 09:10:47.800
that comes with letting go completely, that peacefulness that comes with.

2838
09:10:54.480 --> 09:10:55.839
Being in this.

2839
09:10:57.680 --> 09:11:07.760
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

2840
09:11:08.559 --> 09:11:19.680
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

2841
09:11:19.959 --> 09:11:27.160
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you

2842
09:11:27.279 --> 09:11:38.760
can do that. It's completely up to you, and you

2843
09:11:38.919 --> 09:11:43.879
can keep this feeling of calmness physically in your mind

2844
09:11:45.160 --> 09:11:51.639
for as long as you choose to feel completely relaxed,

2845
09:11:57.360 --> 09:12:05.239
completely relax Yes, and I'd like you to make up

2846
09:12:05.919 --> 09:12:18.959
your mind that you're going to relax, and I want

2847
09:12:18.959 --> 09:12:22.440
to explore that with you. What it feels like when

2848
09:12:22.480 --> 09:12:31.720
you actually decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself,

2849
09:12:31.839 --> 09:12:38.040
but giving yourself that. Yes, it is a command, really,

2850
09:12:38.120 --> 09:12:45.040
isn't it When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

2851
09:12:45.160 --> 09:12:52.199
but firm way that only you can really tell yourself

2852
09:12:52.639 --> 09:12:55.480
in that way. You can't really have someone else saying

2853
09:12:55.519 --> 09:12:58.599
to you and now it relax, relax.

2854
09:12:59.239 --> 09:12:59.440
You know.

2855
09:13:01.599 --> 09:13:03.839
It needs to be gentle, but you can't. Someone else

2856
09:13:03.919 --> 09:13:12.000
can't really have the same the same kind of influence

2857
09:13:13.160 --> 09:13:21.319
or power that you have over your own physicality, over

2858
09:13:21.519 --> 09:13:30.720
how you feel, because when you say it to yourself,

2859
09:13:32.000 --> 09:13:39.000
it means more. It's personal, and your brain and your

2860
09:13:39.440 --> 09:13:46.480
unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say. So,

2861
09:13:46.800 --> 09:13:50.559
for example, we'll test it out and do a little test,

2862
09:13:50.720 --> 09:13:54.319
a few little tests along the way, and you can

2863
09:13:54.440 --> 09:14:01.199
get more of an idea of the force, positive force

2864
09:14:01.360 --> 09:14:08.120
that you can have in creating a sense of comfort

2865
09:14:08.319 --> 09:14:13.120
and relaxation in your body and your mind quite quickly

2866
09:14:14.919 --> 09:14:25.599
just by you telling yourself to relax. So I'm going

2867
09:14:25.680 --> 09:14:32.639
to start by it's focus on your hands. So focus

2868
09:14:32.720 --> 09:14:35.319
on your hands and just tell your hands to relax,

2869
09:14:36.360 --> 09:14:41.239
and just say relax. As you focus on your hands,

2870
09:14:43.519 --> 09:14:48.080
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want

2871
09:14:48.120 --> 09:14:52.319
my hands to relax. Now, I think if you actually

2872
09:14:52.400 --> 09:14:59.360
do it directly by focusing and imagining that your hands,

2873
09:15:00.400 --> 09:15:02.680
can you hear what you're saying, you know, like they've

2874
09:15:02.680 --> 09:15:08.360
got little ears, which is a little weird. So talking

2875
09:15:08.480 --> 09:15:25.040
to your hands and just say relax, nodicin how your

2876
09:15:25.160 --> 09:15:40.839
hands start to relax. Now, focus on your eyes and

2877
09:15:40.919 --> 09:15:44.040
tell your eyes to relax. So you just say in

2878
09:15:44.080 --> 09:15:51.199
the same word relax and find the right tone for you.

2879
09:15:53.720 --> 09:15:58.160
You know, I might say relax, but you you might

2880
09:15:58.279 --> 09:16:05.599
say relax or relax. You know, you might say it

2881
09:16:05.720 --> 09:16:13.360
differently to yourself, and that's important for you to gauge

2882
09:16:13.639 --> 09:16:19.000
what feels right for you. To just tell your eyes

2883
09:16:20.199 --> 09:16:24.400
to relax whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids, the

2884
09:16:24.519 --> 09:16:30.000
muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell your

2885
09:16:30.160 --> 09:17:04.919
eyes directly relax now. Now, I just did that myself,

2886
09:17:05.319 --> 09:17:15.120
and sometimes you may feel that you need a bit

2887
09:17:15.239 --> 09:17:20.959
more time for the different parts to relax, you know,

2888
09:17:21.040 --> 09:17:25.559
because I started talking again. And maybe that part hasn't

2889
09:17:25.639 --> 09:17:28.839
relaxed fully, But what happened is that it would just

2890
09:17:28.959 --> 09:17:33.599
continue to relax even though I'm talking. And that's happened

2891
09:17:33.720 --> 09:17:40.919
with my eyes. Something else I noticed is when I

2892
09:17:41.000 --> 09:17:45.199
started focusing on my eyes, that actually almost became they

2893
09:17:45.279 --> 09:17:48.040
got worse before they got better in a way. So

2894
09:17:48.400 --> 09:17:51.480
I felt a degree of tension growing in my eyes

2895
09:17:53.120 --> 09:17:57.480
and then disappearing. So I think what that was really

2896
09:17:57.559 --> 09:18:02.440
it was just me becoming more aware of the tension

2897
09:18:03.559 --> 09:18:07.800
that was already there that I wasn't. I wasn't focused

2898
09:18:07.879 --> 09:18:12.959
on it before, so I wasn't really acknowledging it or

2899
09:18:15.319 --> 09:18:29.959
really conscious to those feelings. Yeah, my ways is still

2900
09:18:30.080 --> 09:18:36.720
continuing to relax, as well as my hands. Actually, my

2901
09:18:36.879 --> 09:18:43.080
hands have got a certain kind of energy, like not buzzing,

2902
09:18:43.279 --> 09:18:48.160
but I can kind of feel a degree of energy

2903
09:18:48.199 --> 09:18:54.440
in my hands. Maybe that's where the tension is being released.

2904
09:18:56.319 --> 09:19:06.120
Maybe that's causing that. The next part, I think we

2905
09:19:06.199 --> 09:19:08.800
should focus on the back of the neck. That's the

2906
09:19:08.879 --> 09:19:13.800
part was quite often well for me holds tension. I

2907
09:19:13.839 --> 09:19:16.879
don't know about for yourself, but I think it's quite

2908
09:19:17.959 --> 09:19:25.160
a standard place where tension is sometimes held. So and

2909
09:19:25.480 --> 09:19:28.400
I'm doing exactly what you're doing as you do it

2910
09:19:28.440 --> 09:19:32.440
as well. So I'm telling my body parts to relax

2911
09:19:32.519 --> 09:19:35.400
as well. So if you tell your neck, the back

2912
09:19:35.480 --> 09:19:37.959
of your neck, focus on the back of your neck,

2913
09:19:38.120 --> 09:19:45.040
and just say relax in your own words, in your

2914
09:19:45.080 --> 09:19:48.720
own tone, in your own voice. You can say out loud,

2915
09:19:48.879 --> 09:19:53.040
or you can just say it to yourself internally. But

2916
09:19:53.199 --> 09:19:56.559
you're focusing, and you're saying it literally.

2917
09:19:56.559 --> 09:19:59.800
To the back of your neck, as if the back

2918
09:19:59.800 --> 09:20:00.959
of your neck you can.

2919
09:20:00.919 --> 09:20:07.639
Actually hear what you're saying. So do that now, Just

2920
09:20:07.720 --> 09:20:12.120
say relax to the back of your neck, and I'll

2921
09:20:12.160 --> 09:20:53.879
do the same. Then what I noticed, and you may

2922
09:20:53.959 --> 09:20:59.000
have had similar thing is, even though I was focusing

2923
09:20:59.120 --> 09:21:07.199
on the back of my day, other parts started to

2924
09:21:10.239 --> 09:21:13.839
I don't know, showed themselves to me or maybe because

2925
09:21:13.879 --> 09:21:16.760
they want to be relaxed as well. But I started

2926
09:21:16.959 --> 09:21:20.480
noticing the feelings in my shoulders at tension in my

2927
09:21:20.559 --> 09:21:26.639
shoulders and in my upper back. Whether that was because

2928
09:21:28.040 --> 09:21:31.879
my back of my neck was saying, well, I'm pretty

2929
09:21:31.919 --> 09:21:42.839
much okay. It's the other parts that need attention, but

2930
09:21:43.040 --> 09:21:45.839
my low my back of my neck is still relaxing.

2931
09:21:47.319 --> 09:21:49.760
But I just became more aware of other parts that

2932
09:21:50.040 --> 09:21:58.680
needed attention. Now, this might happen and it's not. It

2933
09:21:58.760 --> 09:22:02.199
doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means you're

2934
09:22:02.279 --> 09:22:08.959
being notified with more places that also want to feel relaxed.

2935
09:22:12.199 --> 09:22:16.559
So I'm going to focus on my upper back. So

2936
09:22:16.760 --> 09:22:20.400
you can do the same, even if you don't have

2937
09:22:20.559 --> 09:22:25.879
any feelings of tension that are obvious in your upper back,

2938
09:22:27.680 --> 09:22:32.279
if you just focus on your back and the whole

2939
09:22:32.440 --> 09:22:37.160
area from the shoulder blades down to the middle of

2940
09:22:37.239 --> 09:22:41.599
your back and your spine. And with me, it's more

2941
09:22:41.639 --> 09:22:49.519
the shoulder blades more. Yeah, that's the parts that are

2942
09:22:49.599 --> 09:22:58.120
really sort of given me the nod that it needs

2943
09:22:58.199 --> 09:23:00.959
relaxing and sounds going to ask hard to relax.

2944
09:23:02.199 --> 09:23:03.639
And you can do the same now.

2945
09:23:14.680 --> 09:23:30.599
Relaxing up the back. There's something strange happened there, and

2946
09:23:30.760 --> 09:23:33.199
this often happens.

2947
09:23:33.279 --> 09:23:34.160
I've been doing this for.

2948
09:23:36.800 --> 09:23:42.879
Ver sixteen years or something, and often I'm one surprised

2949
09:23:43.760 --> 09:23:50.559
but amazed really that there can be a feeling. So

2950
09:23:50.760 --> 09:23:53.319
when I was focusing on the back of my neck,

2951
09:23:54.199 --> 09:23:58.360
my other back was starting to feel quite stressed and

2952
09:23:59.120 --> 09:24:03.919
in need of a tension. As soon as I started

2953
09:24:04.160 --> 09:24:09.360
talking to you about my upper back, and talking about,

2954
09:24:09.519 --> 09:24:13.319
you know, getting ready to ask the upper back to relax.

2955
09:24:15.040 --> 09:24:20.760
Why the back already started to relax. It's almost as

2956
09:24:20.800 --> 09:24:24.720
if it doesn't need to hear the words, just needs

2957
09:24:26.040 --> 09:24:42.559
the intention, just needs to be noticed. That is something

2958
09:24:42.680 --> 09:24:49.879
that often happens in this type of situation is when

2959
09:24:49.959 --> 09:24:55.440
you start to relax a couple of parts of your body,

2960
09:24:56.519 --> 09:25:01.879
as we've done with our hands, how eye is, the eyelids.

2961
09:25:03.080 --> 09:25:10.080
And now back of the neck, top of the back,

2962
09:25:12.000 --> 09:25:12.519
upper back.

2963
09:25:13.839 --> 09:25:17.839
The rest of the body seems to just take notice

2964
09:25:20.599 --> 09:25:28.839
and decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other

2965
09:25:29.000 --> 09:25:38.839
parts of your body start to just become looser. I

2966
09:25:38.959 --> 09:25:41.599
suppose it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche,

2967
09:25:41.800 --> 09:25:46.839
you know, the little ball starts rolling. Before you know it,

2968
09:25:47.000 --> 09:25:50.239
the whole of your body is completely relaxed and can't

2969
09:26:00.000 --> 09:26:10.800
focus on your face. You focus on your eyes, your eyelids,

2970
09:26:11.879 --> 09:26:21.599
your eyebrows, and the muscles around your eyes. Maybe you

2971
09:26:21.680 --> 09:26:26.720
start to notice that your forehead is more relaxed than

2972
09:26:26.800 --> 09:26:34.120
it was, Maybe your face is more relaxed. I would

2973
09:26:34.239 --> 09:26:38.360
say my entire face is a lot more relaxed than

2974
09:26:38.400 --> 09:26:55.839
it was. So we're going to focus now on your shoulders, again,

2975
09:26:56.080 --> 09:27:01.040
just like before, Just tell your shoulders and you can

2976
09:27:01.239 --> 09:27:03.720
do them in dividity. You can do the right shoulder

2977
09:27:03.720 --> 09:27:07.519
and left shoulder. I just didn't do both at the

2978
09:27:07.599 --> 09:27:12.919
same time. And just tell your shoulders as you focus

2979
09:27:13.080 --> 09:27:16.959
on them in your mind, focus on them they feel

2980
09:27:17.680 --> 09:27:25.599
maybe you can see them in your mind's eye. Just

2981
09:27:25.760 --> 09:28:10.279
tell your shoulders to relax as nice as they relax.

2982
09:28:20.680 --> 09:28:29.040
But I do notice, especially with my back, is the

2983
09:28:29.199 --> 09:28:35.040
connection between the different parts the back, with shoulders, the

2984
09:28:35.239 --> 09:28:45.319
neck being all connected and being such a large part

2985
09:28:45.400 --> 09:28:51.160
of your body, it's a it's hard to separate.

2986
09:28:50.800 --> 09:28:51.839
Them from each other.

2987
09:28:57.519 --> 09:28:59.919
My lower back is starting to relax on its.

2988
09:29:06.360 --> 09:29:07.480
Maybe I'm going too.

2989
09:29:07.480 --> 09:29:13.480
Slow and that could be an issue because we all

2990
09:29:13.559 --> 09:29:19.919
go at different speeds. And the idea of the beginning

2991
09:29:20.000 --> 09:29:22.360
of this recording was for you to be able to

2992
09:29:22.599 --> 09:29:38.959
just say to yourself, relax without focusing on any particular

2993
09:29:39.160 --> 09:29:44.959
part of your body. Because when you know that tenning

2994
09:29:45.040 --> 09:29:57.160
your hands to relax and your hand relax, you tell

2995
09:29:57.239 --> 09:30:04.239
your eyelids and your eyes and muscles around your eyes

2996
09:30:05.559 --> 09:30:19.279
and your eyebrows to relax and they relax. You tell

2997
09:30:19.519 --> 09:30:31.319
the back of your neck to relax and it relaxes.

2998
09:30:39.319 --> 09:30:59.040
You tell your upper back to relax, and it relaxes.

2999
09:31:06.760 --> 09:31:46.319
You tell your shoulders to relax, they relaxed. You told

3000
09:31:46.360 --> 09:31:53.199
your hands to relax, they relaxed, and they continued to relax.

3001
09:31:59.040 --> 09:32:04.680
And he told you eyelids, the muscles around your eyes,

3002
09:32:05.760 --> 09:32:17.599
your eyebrows, to relax, They relaxed and continue to relax.

3003
09:32:23.959 --> 09:32:27.599
When you told the back of your neck, focused on

3004
09:32:27.680 --> 09:32:33.639
the back of your neck and told it to relax,

3005
09:32:37.959 --> 09:32:53.319
they relaxed and continued to relax. And you told your

3006
09:32:53.879 --> 09:33:06.000
upper back to relax, hm, it relaxed and continued to relax.

3007
09:33:14.319 --> 09:33:19.879
That's with your shoulders. You told your shoulders to relax,

3008
09:33:20.239 --> 09:33:32.559
and your shoulders relaxed and continued to relax.

3009
09:33:38.199 --> 09:33:43.160
And it's not just that, It's.

3010
09:33:45.839 --> 09:33:50.279
That the rest of your body has also been listening,

3011
09:33:51.959 --> 09:33:58.040
and their relaxation has been spreading. So from your eyes

3012
09:33:58.400 --> 09:34:05.599
to relaxation spread to your forehead, round your face.

3013
09:34:05.559 --> 09:34:18.639
Into your skin, into your jaw, into.

3014
09:34:18.680 --> 09:34:23.080
Runs the side of your neck, all way down your

3015
09:34:23.279 --> 09:34:36.160
chest and stomach. Your relaxed hands and shoulders me up

3016
09:34:37.559 --> 09:34:46.279
through your arms, relaxing your forearms, your upper arms, elbows,

3017
09:34:46.519 --> 09:34:47.239
your wrists.

3018
09:34:50.879 --> 09:34:51.360
Let's it go.

3019
09:34:58.919 --> 09:35:08.720
In lower bay, your hips, buttocks gray or just start

3020
09:35:08.919 --> 09:35:18.040
to relax. So continue in comfort, spreading through your legs.

3021
09:35:22.839 --> 09:35:25.040
All the way down to your.

3022
09:35:25.000 --> 09:35:34.800
Ankles, the tops of your feet, the sight of your feet,

3023
09:35:36.639 --> 09:35:47.519
and the bottoms of your feet, relaxing into your toes,

3024
09:35:51.360 --> 09:36:01.720
each toe relaxing, gol, please.

3025
09:36:13.680 --> 09:36:14.080
And ass.

3026
09:36:14.120 --> 09:36:31.440
Your body relaxes more. Your mind becomes slower but peaceful,

3027
09:36:39.160 --> 09:36:47.120
to the point where if you choose to fall asleep,

3028
09:36:52.400 --> 09:37:10.319
he can easy do easy drift away because there's nothing

3029
09:37:10.440 --> 09:37:25.720
going on in your mind. Your brain is basial. Your

3030
09:37:25.800 --> 09:37:59.480
body continues to rise. And with that connection between your

3031
09:37:59.599 --> 09:38:05.199
body relax in the word do you say to yourself

3032
09:38:07.639 --> 09:38:18.720
relax means that you don't need to focus on just

3033
09:38:19.080 --> 09:38:26.599
one part. You can just focus on your entire body,

3034
09:38:33.120 --> 09:38:40.239
saying the powerful word relax.

3035
09:38:49.959 --> 09:38:50.639
And there's.

3036
09:38:52.519 --> 09:39:05.639
Those familiar sensations of comfort that spreading throughout your body,

3037
09:39:11.360 --> 09:39:31.720
saying and calming and heathing every part to your body, heathing, relaxed.

3038
09:39:46.360 --> 09:39:49.800
So that all we need to do now one is

3039
09:39:50.040 --> 09:39:53.120
just tell your something.

3040
09:39:56.559 --> 09:40:40.760
Relax, completely comfortable. So starting down with number twenty nineteen

3041
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eighteen seventeen sixty fifty