July 1, 2025

(music) (10 hours) Attempted Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1385 | Jason Newland | 30th June 2025

(music) (10 hours) Attempted Monday’s Boring Objects | LMBYTS #1385 | Jason Newland | 30th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name's Jason Newland.

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This is let me bore you to sleep. Please only

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listen when you can safely closer. Eze. Today is Monday,

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the thirtieth of June, Tall zero, little five. Then he

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is carried up next to me on the sofa. Something's

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got his attention because he's is a pricked up and

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he's looking around. So haven't you've heard something, haven't you? Yeah,

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he's not quite so angry with me today because although

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I did leave him on his own again visiting my

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well day by in hospital. Mm hmm, well, I I

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left early, so I got a left by it with

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another neighbor who took me to the hospital after dropping

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off his wife and kid at school and work. And

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I got there. I left here at half seven, got

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there about core past eight a m. And I left

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and bo, I'm not sure what I left. I left

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about one. I think I'm not exactly Yeah, I'm not

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exactly sure. So I was home. I think I was

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home by two o'clock.

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I took Vinnie into the garden to do wewis, but

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it's too hot outside for him to go out properly.

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So I'm not gonna he won't be going out until

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probably six seven six or something like that because it's

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just a bit too hot.

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He did have a nice w alk this morning, which

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was about half an hour out. We was out for

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about half an hour, but I think it because it

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was so early in the morning. I mean, we did

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wake up about I don't know, twenty to four, because

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we did.

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We went to bed about half eight last night and

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woke up about twenty to four, and so we got up.

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I got up, I had my breakfast. He got up

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as well, and we went for a walk about half six.

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Till. Yeah, it was about twenty five to seven till

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about five past seven, and then I had a shower,

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So I got back, had a shower, Yeah, and then

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pretty much I had about three minutes to get prepared

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to go downstairs and get a lift. So it all

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worked out okay. Potentially, Potentially I was.

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Maybe moving a bit too fast because normally, you know,

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I'm not.

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I'm not necessarily set to a timer. So I found

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that I was making slightly more noise than usual when

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I was I was probably attempting to make less noise.

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I find that the try, the more I try to

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make less noise. The more noise I tend to make.

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So if I'm in the wal if I'm gonna I'm

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in the kitchen and I'm trying to wash up really

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quietly because it's early in the morning and I don't

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want to disturb, you know, the neighbors. That's when I

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start dropping stuff in the sink. It's weird, isn't it

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Isn't it strange? And it's strange.

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So yeah, I just want to say thank you to

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everyone that's sent their well wishes.

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For my neighbor.

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It's very kind of you, and I do appreciate your support.

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He So I'll give you the update.

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I know this is going to be Monday's boring objects.

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I'm going to talk about hospitals, but none of it

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is going to be medical or anything like that. Okay,

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so it was a little bit, but it's not really good.

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It's not It's all going to be tasteful, if that's

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the right word. I'll try and keep everything tasteful apart

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from some of my jokes. Maybe I don't know. Well,

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can't you tell jokes, do you? I've never remember you

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were telling a joke. Okay, I don't if jokes is

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a correct word. I think they're jokes. Maybe other people

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don't know, they don't notice.

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So, yeah, hospitals is going to be And maybe I've

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even done that before, but.

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We're doing it again, doing it again.

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So I will talk about my experiences in hospitals, including

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being in hospital twice myself, also going to hospital a

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few times for different things, and visiting people in hospital.

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The first time I did hypnosis with someone in hospital. Yeah,

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so this had a few little instances along the way.

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Visiting my nan in hospital, but I mean that that

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was a journey and that took me about five hours,

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six hours to get there, and then when I get there,

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I'm told that it's closing time or yeah, kind of

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that wasn't good. So the update on me Naybar.

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Is two things. Really, his next door neighbor, his current

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next door neighbor that's in the bed next to him,

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is leaving tomorrow and so he won't be there. And

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if they're close, they're really close. That been together for

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a week and you can see there's a it's almost

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like a brotherly kind of thing going on there. It's nice.

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And this is ten.

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This bloke's probably ten years younger than him. I mean,

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I think he's about sixty six. She's kind of in

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the middle between me and my neighbor. My neighbor's seventy

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eight on Friday, I think this week. The other neighbor

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this Friday, third, Wednesday, froze whatever. I'm fifty four, he's

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sixty six, and everyone's sixty sixty eight, so it's kind

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of midway between us, and you can see there's a

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playfulness between them.

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I did this.

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I was something quite interesting about my neighbor today from

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his neighbor, his new neighbor. Now, my neighbor can't stop talking.

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But he literally can't stop talking, and he just talks, talks, talks.

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Apparently he talks when he's asleep. He doesn't even stop

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talking when he's asleep. So I don't know what and this, Okay,

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I don't I was talking to the nurses about him

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talking because I was laughing about it, and they can't believe.

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I don't think they've ever met anyone who talks as

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much as him. They thought he was due to his condition,

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and I said, no, he's been like that since I've

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known him for ten years. I'm not saying that he's

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not affected by his condition. You know, I don't want

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to get in the way of any kind of medical

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intervention that might help. But yeah, they laughed, They said really,

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I said, yeah, there's always been a chatterbox. But then

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I'm a chatterbox, and I do see myself in him.

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That sounds wrong, doesn't it, But I you know, I

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see myself. I tell you, I think part of the reason.

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It's not a conscious thing, but I think part of

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the reason why I I've helped.

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Him over the period the time I've been here.

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And continue to do so, to try and help anyway,

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I'm not sure how helpful I am is because I

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see it's almost like I'm looking at him and that's

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me in twenty five years time, or twenty three years time,

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twenty six years time. Wait a minute, fifty four, fifty four,

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sixty four, seventy four, I'll be seventy five.

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It'll be seventy eight. That's twenty three years something like that.

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So you know, twenty three years, you know, in some ways, Oh,

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it's a long time away, is it?

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Though?

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It is for someone who's ten, it is for someone

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who's twenty, it is for someone who's thirty. Maybe someone

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who's forty, But it doesn't seem that far away now.

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I mean for someone who's twenty, if you say, oh,

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in twenty five years, don't look at you like really,

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I'll be an old age pincher in twenty five years.

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Or if you say that to a twenty year old

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in twenty five years, like yeah, I remember when I

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was a kid, Okay, when I was a kid, when

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I was a younger man, in my twenties, even up

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to my mid twenties, I remember thinking, I'm not genuinely

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thinking if someone said, oh, you got some wrong on

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your leg, you're going to have to have it removed

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in twenty years time, wouldn't even care. It's like twenty

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years that's a lifetime away. I don't care about twenty

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years away now. If someone said that now, it'd be like,

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that's like telling me before Christmas, by the end of

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this year, you're going to have that. That's how close

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it seems, almost because it goes so quickly, so quickly.

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In twenty five years ago or twenty three years ago,

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even I was working in a core center in Churchill Insurance,

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and I felt old then. I felt old then.

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I think part of the reason was because I was

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working with when nearly everybody there was younger than me

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by a lot. So you know, I was thirty one,

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thirty two. There was people there in their early twenties,

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some even in late teens, and quite a few of

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them treated me like I was old, like really old.

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There was this female I think she was probably about twenty,

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and she was in my team. She's quite new and

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she I think I was just finished a shift. So

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I get my phone out of my pocket. I'm just

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gonna look at it so if there'd any text or anything.

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And she starts laughing. She says, oh, ah, I didn't

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think you'd have a modern phone because it was a

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small phone. It's like, really, what did you think I'd

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have some kind of big satellite phone or bring out

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put out an egg cup with a bit of string

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attached to it, Like, what did you think I was

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going to use.

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It's a phone. It's just it's some weird You may

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be using something something, something up to date. Yeah, and

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now as I get older, I'm thinking I was selling

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mobile phone contracts forty twenty four years ago. So my

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neighbor downstairs wasn't even alive when I was selling mobile

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phone contracts. My neighbors stays. My neighbor downstairs wasn't even

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alive when I was working at Churchill. I mean she was, Yeah,

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she wasn't alive. She wasn't even alive when I just

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when I finished working at Churchill. In fact, my neighbor

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downstairs was born.

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A year before I started making recordings online. Because I've

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been doing it nineteen years. She's twenty.

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It's unbelievable, fully formed human being with her whole lifetime

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experiences at the same time as me sitting here. We're

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not sitting here necessarily but making weird audios and it's

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beyond measure. I find a very confusion, I really do.

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And to make it worse, she's probably thirty times more

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mature than I am as a person, like now, not

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when when I was your age, I was like a

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twenty was I was a child Mentally I was a child.

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I can just hear like all many children when they

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enter it in their aide and no mental never grab

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up me.

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Sure stop.

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This is about love, This is this is a gentle,

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loving place. Come on, come on, can't we just get along?

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Hey? Anyway, my neighbor he talks in his sleep. I

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didn't know that. I tried to explain that to his neighbor.

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I said, well, we don't sleep together. And I made

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a mistake. I said the wrong thing earlier. I've got

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a habit of doing this, just generally in life. I'm

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talking to one of the nurses and I'm just asking

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some questions and we just chatting. I said, oh, you've

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got lovely eyes. I didn't mean anything by it, and

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she punched me. And now she didn't I said you

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got lovely eyes. I said, oh, sorry about that. And

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we carried on talking and apparently it was distracting her

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change in the cafeter but she didn't know it was

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behind the curtain. But it's and I thought, oh, bit,

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I might think. See I didn't care about myself embarrassing myself.

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It's far.

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It's it's quite hard for me to embarrass myself these days.

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Although something did happen later on that was a bit embarrassing.

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Involved a toilet. I'll tell you that in a minute. Anyway,

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it started to bug me. I'm thinking, she's at work,

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and this is someone that I've gotten quite well with.

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I did last week. It's really nice, very friendly. We

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have a laughing that, and I thought, that's that was

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just it was not on I can't be. It's you know,

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it's one thing if I was, even even if I was,

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I don't know, just paying someone a compliment. It's probably

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not the thing to do anymore. It used to be

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kind of okay when I was younger, in my in

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my day, you know, in the seventeen century. But and

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I thought, no, that's just I apologize as I said it.

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And so I thought, you know, what what I'll do

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is when there's no one else around, I just apologize

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to us.

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I did.

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I said, Look, and then what I thought i'd do, okay,

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is i'd apologize. But it's part of me wanted to.

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I don't know, it's just it's just it's the cheeky.

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Cheeky little monkey inside of me.

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So this is what I said to her. I said,

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I just I just want to apologize earlier if I

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was inappropriate when I said that, you've got a lovely smile.

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And she said, oh, don't worry about it, and she's

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and she said, honestly, I said, no, it was unprofession

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of me.

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And she laughed. And so.

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Now I'm thinking when she left, did she notice I

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said something different, because before I said she had lovely eyes,

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and I said a lovely smile, and I thought, oh,

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that's wrong. I shouldn't, so I thought I better just changed.

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As I left, I said, oh, by the way, again

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before I, guys want to say, say sorry for saying

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saying that you got already perky bum.

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I shouldn't. I didn't say it. I just I didn't.

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I actually didn't say goodbye to her because I didn't

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see her when I left. But I'm wondering if she

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if she noticed that I said something different.

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It's it just popped out in my mouth. It's a

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little bit like hmm, I don't know.

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It's a bit like watching my my name try to

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eat more than one bold sweet at a time. One

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always seemed to pop out, one always fell on the floor.

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No, I didn't. I don't want to saying that. Leave

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my name alone, blimey. Just like seeing it a hamster

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try and eat a gob stopper. Anyone see it.

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Everyone knows what a gobstopper is. Oh, my body's so sensitive.

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I'm just stroking my chest. I've got a little it's

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a spot. Actually, I've thought it was a nipple. I thought,

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oh no, not a fifth nipple.

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So yeah, I he's all right. But he had he

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had this body scan, like a big old body scan

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on Friday morning, like you know, early hours before nine o'clock.

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I've got Friday morning, and he still hasn't had the results.

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And I hung around hoping that he would get the

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results before I left. But by half eight, I think

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it was by about one o'clock, still no one had

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come to see him, and he was eating his dinner.

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So I just left him. I went downstairs to get

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him some stuff from the shop, and then I just

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came home. So I was going to give him a

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call tomorrow. I'm not going to go every single day

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this week because I don't think I can. I can't

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financially do it. But it's not just that I could

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get a bus. It's just a journey. I couldn't, you know.

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I got a taxi back today. I just couldn't face

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getting on a bus and two journeys and standing out

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in that sun. And so yeah, I just got the

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taxi back. And then I'm in a taxi just talking

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about technology and just some whatever, and just as we

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pull up outside my house, I notice he's got a camera.

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There's a little not only a camera, but there's a

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little screen. It's shown me and him together. There's one

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thing having a camera. It's fine. I've never seen myself

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on a little screen like that, And I said, I

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don't know.

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It was a little bit annoying. I think I felt

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a little bit trust passed upon because if I knew

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i'd been filmed.

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I think there's one thing being filmed without sound, because

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you know, you need to be filmed if what you're doing,

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you know, I guess that's okay, but I didn't really

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want my conversation recorded.

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I don't know. It felt a little bit intrusive, a

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little bit, a little bit, you know.

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And I.

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Mean, I've been in places, I've been in taxis and

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cars where there's a camera. I just I don't take

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much notice of it. But I've never been anywhere before

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where there's actually a screen it shows you yourself being recorded.

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It made it more real. And there's a reason I

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don't film myself anymore because I don't like being on camera,

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which is a shame because my YouTube channel's going completely

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to nothing, really, even though every recording I do is

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uploaded onto YouTube. I'm losing subscribers.

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I don't know why. That's funny, but it's Yeah, it's weird.

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I thought it would be quite handy to have it

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as a.

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As a separate like there's another place to listen to

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the podcast, but ootube doesn't seem to agree. Agree agree. Yeah,

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So it's Monday, Monday, and that's it. I don't think

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there's anything else going on with the hospital visits.

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Day went there. I found out my other neighbor because

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I knew it used to be in a band. He

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was quite one of the and.

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I say originators, but it's one of the originators of

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the psychedelic movement in this country. It started in America,

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but he he built a group and he was in

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a lot of he worked with a lot of really

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famous people in the sixties when the psychedelic movement was around,

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which would be I don't probably late sixties, maybe early seventies,

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late sixties, yeah, late sixties, because I know the Beatles

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were influenced by the psychedelic movement in sixty six, sixty seven,

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sixty eight, something like that. And he's literally he's in

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London recording an album. You know, he's still and he's

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he's over eighty I think now, and he's still going

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and he knows loads of people. But to him it's

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not they're not famous people. They're just people that he's

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known for sixty years. And it's weird. He said, something

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just off. This is by the way, this is somebody

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that does not brag. That's the thing about it. He's

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not a bragger. I'm a bragger. I just don't have

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anything to brag about. That's why you don't really hear

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me bragging because there's nothing to brag about. He's got

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loads to brag about, and he doesn't. But he will ask.

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He will answer questions, and not all questions, but he will,

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you know, if I ask him stuff. And he said

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the only Beatle member that he didn't meet was Paul McCartney.

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He met the other three.

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And I said to it, okay, well you know the

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next question I'm going to ask. And he said, what's that?

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How do I get my name? I said, no, because

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he's got I won't say you're be about to look

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it up because he's on a Wikipedia page.

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He's not.

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He was well known, but he's not kind of like famous,

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famous in a sense of possibly anyone under the age

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of seventies will have heard of possibly, Like I mean,

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as in the period of time that he was well

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known was the seventies, late sixties and seventies, and but

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he worked on albums with a lot of famous artists

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over a long period of time. So I'm bragging about him.

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But he doesn't brag up won if he brags about me?

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So I'm bragging about him telling people or one of

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my neighbors used to be in famous bands and stuff

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in the sixties and seventies, and I know him. Do

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you think he's saying the same kind of thing about me? Yeah,

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I got a neighbor's he's got a dog. What else

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is it to say?

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He got a dog? What else?

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You know?

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He's quite a nice bloke. You want to be trapped

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at a lift with him because he was just talking

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a lot of rubbish. But other than that, h yeah,

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he was saying something about he was It was at

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this gig what was it? The Birds? The Birds were

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playing this one of the birds were like huge, The

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band called the Birds b y r Ds, I do believe,

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And they were at a small club in London and

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all the names went to this club on this occasion,

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so they wanted to see them in concert. So my

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neighbor went along and it was jam packed.

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He was telling me this this morning, because I was

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asking him about ACTU. I said to him, No, what

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was John Linnan like? And he said, exactly the same

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as you'd think, because at that time, that's when he

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was in the Beatles. And he said, sarcastic, funny, full

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of energy, and he just was kind of what you

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saw on TV. He you know, he obviously he could

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be serious as well.

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But great sense of humor and yeah, and he said basically,

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my neighbor said, he got into this club.

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It's so jam packed. I don't know if it was

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Johnny Scott's or whatever.

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It is one of those big places, and he ended

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up I.

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Think it was one of the I think Pink Floyd's

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manager was there and knew him and called him over

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and invited him to go and sit on the table

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with John Lennon. And he ended up sitting between John

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between Pink Floyd's manager.

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And John Lennon's wife at that time, and John Lennon's

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wife was sitting next to John Lennon. So he's literally

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just he's never met John Lennon, and to be fair,

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there was no one more famous in the world of

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entertainment at that time than the Beatles. So even you know,

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he was in.

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I imagine he was in awe of beating him. He

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got chatting to him and stuff. But in that situation,

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you'd probably just be like an ordinary person really, because

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you can't treat someone like they're a superstar. I've always

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They're probably not going to want to talk to you.

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I'm guessing, in fact, I find that way. I'll find

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that in the past when I when I when I

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act like a superstar, people don't like to talk to me.

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Actually, just generally people don't like to talk to me.

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Part from the people that do, they're the ones that

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worried me though, you know, the people that want to

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sit down and actually, oh, tell me more.

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Jason, I'm like, I'm not sure if I do want

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to be worried.

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Ooh yeah, he's my neighbors. That's a different neighbor. So

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the neighboring hospital is just waiting for his tests. And

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it was weird because today he started asking me questions

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about myself. Now, I was expecting him to use this

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as an excuse to start to talk about sports, which

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is what he sometimes does. He asks questions and then

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it can lead him on to talking about something he

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wants to talk about, or maybe there was a subject

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that he wanted to talk about, and he was trying

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to get me there by drawing me in, you know,

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by pretending to be interested in what I used to do.

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But he seemed genuinely interested. And he was asking me

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about the comedy, about doing stand up comedy in London,

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because I think I must have mentioned to him at

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some point, and he was asking me about people that

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I'd met. I think, yeah, because I think I was

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telling about the neighbor what I just told you. I

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was telling him about that, and he started asking me

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about me, about me and saying, now, who did you meet?

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I said, in London, you haven't met any famous people?

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And I said, and he said, specifically famous comedians when

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I was on the comedy circuits to be involved in

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comedy for about ten years or twenty years really, but

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ten years solidly, And he said that he kept he

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had follow up questions, where did I go? How much

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was the gigs that people how much the people.

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Pay to get in.

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I felt a little bit like he was trying to

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catch me out, like I was just lying, and he

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was trying to find out if I was just telling

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porky pies. But the thing is why I'd have to

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be a bit silly to lie about my failures, wouldn't

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I because I wasn't successful. I never made out I

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was successful.

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Ever. I had some good gigs. I had a few

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really really brilliant gigs, but.

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Not many, and a few average gigs but not many.

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I would say, probably if you're going to go buy

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an audience response or the comedy promoter's response or the

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comedy club promoter percentage wise, I would say, if you

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broke it up into good, I'll leave good and really

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good in the same category.

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So good okay, not really good, not okay bad, I'm good,

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so okay would be a few laughs okay would be

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where they didn't the promoter didn't get kicked out of

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the club and told they're never going to be able

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allowed to have another night there of comedy because of

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what I'd said, So that would be an okay gig,

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but not necessarily a good gig for me.

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A bad gig that I had lots of those, especially

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in the first couple of years. The first year, I

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don't think I was even aware that they were bad.

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I was, I wasn't the most I don't know. I

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don't know what's this got to do with hospitals. Well,

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this conversation occurred in the hospital, so it is still

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part of the boring objects Monday's Boring Objects A and

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percentage wise, I would say probably I worked out. I

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think a bit about I did about I worked out once.

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I did about two hundred and fifty gigs twenty fifty

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twenty fifty performances over the period, and things did start

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to slow down once I got to nineteen ninety five,

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and I went through periods when I didn't do any

476
00:37:14.280 --> 00:37:19.559
comedy at all for months and months. So nineteen ninety

477
00:37:19.639 --> 00:37:23.159
four A lot of this was to do with accommodation

478
00:37:24.239 --> 00:37:32.639
jobs situations where you know, I was I just couldn't

479
00:37:32.920 --> 00:37:36.440
either I was not interested or I didn't have the

480
00:37:36.480 --> 00:37:38.840
money to get to gigs anyway, So I didn't bother

481
00:37:39.519 --> 00:37:41.559
because there were some gigs I could just turn up at,

482
00:37:41.840 --> 00:37:47.679
like a talent contest that was every Thursday or every

483
00:37:47.719 --> 00:37:49.800
Wednesday or every other Thursday.

484
00:37:49.880 --> 00:37:50.039
You know.

485
00:37:50.440 --> 00:37:52.599
I think there was a downstairs at the King's Head

486
00:37:52.679 --> 00:37:55.599
was once a month on a Thursday, I do believe.

487
00:37:56.440 --> 00:38:00.760
And at the Comedy Cafe every Wednesday there was a

488
00:38:00.960 --> 00:38:06.519
new Act Night, which I performed there a lot, many, many,

489
00:38:06.639 --> 00:38:13.639
many times, pretty much every Wednesday for most of nineteen

490
00:38:13.719 --> 00:38:15.840
ninety one.

491
00:38:16.280 --> 00:38:22.639
Yeah, it's true, wow, and quite a few ninety two,

492
00:38:22.760 --> 00:38:26.679
quite a few ninety three, ninety four, ninety five, sub

493
00:38:26.800 --> 00:38:31.000
ninety six, ninety seven and ninety eight. So yeah, I

494
00:38:31.079 --> 00:38:32.159
performed there.

495
00:38:32.960 --> 00:38:38.639
Over an eight year period, but less and less as

496
00:38:38.679 --> 00:38:45.199
the years went by. In nineteen ninety six, I was

497
00:38:45.239 --> 00:38:54.440
a security guard and I couldn't do any gigs at

498
00:38:54.440 --> 00:38:59.559
all because I was doing weird shifts and.

499
00:39:03.679 --> 00:39:11.159
You know what this is strange. I don't think I

500
00:39:11.320 --> 00:39:20.880
performed on stage. I might be wrong, but.

501
00:39:20.840 --> 00:39:23.000
I'm not sure if I performed on stage the whole

502
00:39:23.039 --> 00:39:27.760
of nineteen ninety six. So I thinking at the beginning

503
00:39:27.800 --> 00:39:30.840
of the year I was homeless and then managed to

504
00:39:30.840 --> 00:39:36.079
find somewhere to live. I might have gone and done

505
00:39:36.079 --> 00:39:38.440
a few gigs at the beginning of the year, possibly,

506
00:39:39.000 --> 00:39:41.920
And then I got the security job in around March

507
00:39:43.280 --> 00:39:50.360
nineteen ninety six, and I had that security job all

508
00:39:50.400 --> 00:39:57.440
the way toward the summer nineteen ninety seven till about

509
00:39:57.480 --> 00:40:04.360
probably June, maybe July time, maybe May June nineteen ninety seven.

510
00:40:05.960 --> 00:40:08.159
So I had that I worked for that security company

511
00:40:08.199 --> 00:40:11.639
the whole time, and I was doing night shifts weekends.

512
00:40:14.159 --> 00:40:17.400
It was almost impossible for me to.

513
00:40:19.679 --> 00:40:21.639
Plan to do.

514
00:40:21.519 --> 00:40:24.400
Gigs to even because most of the gigs I did

515
00:40:24.440 --> 00:40:27.679
were free. You know, nearly all my gigs were just

516
00:40:27.760 --> 00:40:30.719
ones that I'd do for nothing. I'd do an open

517
00:40:30.760 --> 00:40:33.679
spot or turn up at the comedy cafe on a

518
00:40:33.719 --> 00:40:38.880
Wednesday night. So I'm sure I probably did a couple

519
00:40:39.360 --> 00:40:41.880
during that period, but I didn't do much in ninety six.

520
00:40:42.920 --> 00:40:44.639
That was really the tail end of.

521
00:40:44.679 --> 00:40:50.840
My comedy non career, as it were. But that was

522
00:40:50.880 --> 00:40:56.239
also at the time when I was I was getting better.

523
00:40:58.440 --> 00:40:59.760
I was able to.

524
00:41:02.159 --> 00:41:06.679
Be more topical, and I found that I was I'm

525
00:41:06.679 --> 00:41:10.000
not saying that I was good, but I was a

526
00:41:10.039 --> 00:41:17.840
better than before, and by talking about topical things it

527
00:41:17.880 --> 00:41:20.480
was I don't know, it just sometimes you don't even

528
00:41:20.480 --> 00:41:25.440
have to be particularly funny. I found by just saying

529
00:41:25.480 --> 00:41:29.880
something a bit silly about something that's really big in the.

530
00:41:29.760 --> 00:41:32.920
News, it's just like a silly line. Sometimes get a

531
00:41:32.960 --> 00:41:35.039
little I might just get a little smirk or something,

532
00:41:35.079 --> 00:41:37.920
but I was still better than what I was used

533
00:41:37.920 --> 00:41:42.079
to getting. Well, I did say, if you were making

534
00:41:42.079 --> 00:41:46.760
anyone angry, that was that was the good thing. And

535
00:41:49.039 --> 00:41:57.280
nineteen so ninety seven. From the summer ninety seven till

536
00:41:57.320 --> 00:42:00.239
the end of end of ninety seven, I did do

537
00:42:00.280 --> 00:42:01.199
a few gigs.

538
00:42:02.719 --> 00:42:05.039
Yeah, I did. I went, I did, and went to

539
00:42:05.079 --> 00:42:07.519
a few gigs as well. So I performed a bit

540
00:42:07.639 --> 00:42:13.199
more at the latter part of ninety seven because I

541
00:42:13.239 --> 00:42:17.079
was back involved in the comedy again. So I did. Yeah,

542
00:42:17.239 --> 00:42:25.039
on a probably never at the weekend because I was

543
00:42:25.079 --> 00:42:29.320
busy at the weekends, But on a on a Tuesday, Wednesday,

544
00:42:29.400 --> 00:42:35.239
Thursday night, I'd probably end up going to gigs, whether

545
00:42:35.320 --> 00:42:38.639
to just watch my friends who are other comedians performing.

546
00:42:38.840 --> 00:42:41.480
Or to perform myself. Ones that I could just turn

547
00:42:41.559 --> 00:42:44.559
up at and they'd let me on. So that was

548
00:42:44.599 --> 00:42:54.400
pretty cool. And then in ninety eight January, I just

549
00:42:54.440 --> 00:42:58.559
did my very last gig. Ever, I didn't realize just

550
00:42:58.599 --> 00:43:00.800
my last gig, but it was the last performance.

551
00:43:02.719 --> 00:43:08.920
And yeah, I've just heard him go. He started barking

552
00:43:08.960 --> 00:43:13.639
then because someone sneezing in the garden or well it

553
00:43:13.719 --> 00:43:16.719
was outside this building. It might have been in the building,

554
00:43:16.719 --> 00:43:20.400
but outside where I live. It was just a little.

555
00:43:20.199 --> 00:43:31.599
Sneeze and thinking, so yeah, I why, oh yeah, because

556
00:43:32.039 --> 00:43:34.639
my neighbor in hospital, he's just asking me all these questions,

557
00:43:35.679 --> 00:43:40.079
and I was thinking, what's the catch, How's he going

558
00:43:40.159 --> 00:43:45.159
to lead on to talking about football or sport?

559
00:43:47.079 --> 00:43:55.679
And yeah, he seemed almost almost interested in what I

560
00:43:55.760 --> 00:44:07.440
was saying. Weird, So because he's absolutely he's phonetic. It's

561
00:44:07.440 --> 00:44:11.440
a phonetic about sport. I mean on a level that

562
00:44:11.440 --> 00:44:16.880
I've never seen before. Loves sport. Oh. What I did

563
00:44:16.920 --> 00:44:20.559
do is because he's saying he didn't want the TV on,

564
00:44:21.800 --> 00:44:24.719
and they've got these TVs, not like the some of

565
00:44:24.719 --> 00:44:26.199
the NHS TVs are.

566
00:44:26.079 --> 00:44:29.800
Not great quality screens. And there the ones that are

567
00:44:29.960 --> 00:44:31.679
the side of the bed and you have to pay

568
00:44:31.719 --> 00:44:33.159
five pounds a day to have it.

569
00:44:34.239 --> 00:44:37.960
These TVs are free to use and they're decent TVs.

570
00:44:39.599 --> 00:44:42.880
And his one was unplucked. So and the person next

571
00:44:42.880 --> 00:44:46.960
to hims had his TV on the whole time. Now,

572
00:44:47.000 --> 00:44:51.079
I didn't realize how good the screen was the picture,

573
00:44:51.360 --> 00:44:55.400
because I've never looked at the other blokes TV. And

574
00:44:55.440 --> 00:45:00.480
I said to my neighbor in hospital, I said, I

575
00:45:00.480 --> 00:45:02.599
would say not that he in the hospital, because I've

576
00:45:02.840 --> 00:45:04.000
talked about a.

577
00:45:04.000 --> 00:45:06.000
Few different neighbors. I want you to know who are

578
00:45:06.039 --> 00:45:09.440
talking about, who I'm gossiping about.

579
00:45:11.079 --> 00:45:13.840
I said to him, you know, wim Muldon's starting today,

580
00:45:14.559 --> 00:45:20.519
and he starts talking about Wimbledon, and I said, well,

581
00:45:20.519 --> 00:45:21.440
why don't you watch it?

582
00:45:22.360 --> 00:45:22.559
Oh?

583
00:45:22.639 --> 00:45:25.239
No, I'm happy with my tablet. I said, you've got

584
00:45:25.239 --> 00:45:29.639
a good You've got a television up there, a big screen.

585
00:45:30.679 --> 00:45:32.320
Well compared to his little tablet.

586
00:45:32.320 --> 00:45:35.199
It's a big screen. It's not they're not.

587
00:45:35.239 --> 00:45:38.360
They're not big TVs, but probably twenty four inches or

588
00:45:38.440 --> 00:45:40.760
I don't know, thirty inches or something.

589
00:45:40.760 --> 00:45:41.079
They're not.

590
00:45:41.880 --> 00:45:46.599
They're not little, but they're not big a nice size.

591
00:45:46.599 --> 00:45:48.280
If you're in a really small.

592
00:45:48.079 --> 00:45:55.000
Room and it's up, it's kind of I think it's

593
00:45:56.679 --> 00:45:58.679
I wonder if they could be moved down. I'm going

594
00:45:58.760 --> 00:46:01.920
to ask that. I don't maybe there can be. I

595
00:46:01.920 --> 00:46:04.920
would need it moved down for me because with my

596
00:46:04.960 --> 00:46:13.000
eyesighting it, i'd need it closer. And it was unplugged.

597
00:46:13.039 --> 00:46:15.760
So between me and his neighbor next to him, I

598
00:46:15.800 --> 00:46:18.639
got the TV plugged in because he said, oh, it's

599
00:46:18.679 --> 00:46:21.239
not working. I said, oh, And then we had to

600
00:46:21.320 --> 00:46:24.280
find the remote control, and nurse went and got a

601
00:46:24.280 --> 00:46:27.360
remote control that he could use, which was exactly the

602
00:46:27.400 --> 00:46:29.880
same as a remote control I've got here in my hand.

603
00:46:30.519 --> 00:46:32.400
And he might be thinking, why are you Why have

604
00:46:32.440 --> 00:46:35.800
you got a TV remote control in your hand, because

605
00:46:35.800 --> 00:46:36.719
I just picked it up.

606
00:46:37.000 --> 00:46:40.480
That's why it's just there to the left. I've not

607
00:46:40.559 --> 00:46:43.119
had a remote control in my hand the whole time

608
00:46:43.159 --> 00:46:50.119
I've been talking. That would be strange. It might not

609
00:46:50.239 --> 00:46:58.039
be strange. I've had a can of whipped cream though. Yeah,

610
00:46:58.400 --> 00:47:02.639
so he said to me. I said to him, and

611
00:47:02.639 --> 00:47:04.159
then he said to me. Then I said to him,

612
00:47:04.920 --> 00:47:07.039
So I plugged it in, turned it on. We got

613
00:47:07.039 --> 00:47:14.159
the TV onto it was. It was a political program

614
00:47:14.360 --> 00:47:19.480
on BBC two and then the live coverage of Wimbledon

615
00:47:19.679 --> 00:47:26.800
starting at I think eleven thirty in the morning. And

616
00:47:26.840 --> 00:47:30.679
once it started, he started to be distracted by.

617
00:47:30.599 --> 00:47:37.480
It, and I thought, yeah, this is good because once

618
00:47:37.559 --> 00:47:41.880
football is on, or rugby or cricket, he's now got

619
00:47:41.880 --> 00:47:42.639
a distraction.

620
00:47:46.159 --> 00:47:48.199
And it was kind of funny because we were talking

621
00:47:49.039 --> 00:47:55.840
and it was it was a women's tennis match and

622
00:47:55.880 --> 00:48:04.079
it was just grunting. It was like ah, and it

623
00:48:04.119 --> 00:48:05.840
was I don't know, I just found it quite funny

624
00:48:05.880 --> 00:48:10.119
because it seemed a little bit inappropriate for well, for

625
00:48:10.199 --> 00:48:14.039
where we were, just to hear, because I kept thinking

626
00:48:14.199 --> 00:48:16.519
I forgot the TV was on. So I've been going

627
00:48:16.559 --> 00:48:19.519
in there for however long, and the TV has never

628
00:48:19.559 --> 00:48:23.519
been on, so any sounds like that I'm used to hearing.

629
00:48:23.639 --> 00:48:29.199
Maybe he is from a different ward, because there's there's

630
00:48:29.320 --> 00:48:38.679
six different wards on that ward. That makes sense, So yeah,

631
00:48:38.800 --> 00:48:43.199
it's a ward, but there's six different rooms with four

632
00:48:43.239 --> 00:48:46.639
beds in each, and then there's a couple of other

633
00:48:46.719 --> 00:48:51.920
kind of single rooms which I'm thinking might be private. Perhaps,

634
00:48:52.000 --> 00:49:00.400
I don't know, I'm not sure. So he it was weird.

635
00:49:01.119 --> 00:49:02.840
I don't know what other people must have thought, if

636
00:49:02.840 --> 00:49:05.280
they'd have heard all that grunting coming out of the

637
00:49:05.360 --> 00:49:10.280
TV or out of our ward. I think they're also

638
00:49:10.440 --> 00:49:15.719
single sex wards, so the men. There's women in that

639
00:49:17.000 --> 00:49:21.079
big ward that he's in, but not in his particular ward.

640
00:49:22.159 --> 00:49:25.280
Does this make sense? It seems to be too many wards.

641
00:49:25.320 --> 00:49:29.599
I'm using the word ward too often. Four wards, six

642
00:49:29.639 --> 00:49:37.719
wards in one ward. But yeah, it's I've not been

643
00:49:37.800 --> 00:49:40.519
in the other wards, but I have. Actually I went

644
00:49:40.559 --> 00:49:45.199
in one by accident, and that was all females, and

645
00:49:45.280 --> 00:49:52.280
I thought, well, it looks like my neighbor. But it wasn't.

646
00:49:53.280 --> 00:49:55.000
Do you ever get that where you see someone and

647
00:49:55.079 --> 00:50:00.159
you just think, oh, and it's not the person. You

648
00:50:00.360 --> 00:50:04.559
try to adapt adapts, you know, scrunch your face up

649
00:50:04.559 --> 00:50:07.400
a little bit and close your eyes half half so

650
00:50:08.280 --> 00:50:10.199
it makes them look a bit more like the person

651
00:50:10.239 --> 00:50:12.039
that you think they should look like.

652
00:50:13.880 --> 00:50:27.119
No, okay, and then I left. So I spent probably

653
00:50:27.760 --> 00:50:31.880
four and a half five hours with him. I never

654
00:50:32.039 --> 00:50:40.400
left it half one or maybe it was one, not sure.

655
00:50:41.280 --> 00:50:43.519
I think it was. He didn't eat his fish and chips.

656
00:50:44.320 --> 00:50:48.039
They're still on the side. No one's noticed. They're still

657
00:50:48.079 --> 00:50:51.000
on the side of his bed bike, on his bedside

658
00:50:51.119 --> 00:50:55.199
cabinet thing. And it's going to start stinking at some point,

659
00:50:55.239 --> 00:51:02.679
isn't that fish? It's been there since Friday. You're going

660
00:51:02.679 --> 00:51:05.239
to start noting. There's be going to be cats. And

661
00:51:05.280 --> 00:51:07.079
why is there so many cats in the ward where

662
00:51:07.079 --> 00:51:10.119
they're coming from? Why they're coming in there? They'll all

663
00:51:10.159 --> 00:51:13.000
be climbing up to the windows now on a big gladder,

664
00:51:13.360 --> 00:51:16.320
a cat ladder. Is there such a thing as a

665
00:51:16.360 --> 00:51:16.920
cat ladder?

666
00:51:18.280 --> 00:51:20.239
I suppose they could all just climb on each other's

667
00:51:20.360 --> 00:51:24.519
backs and make a big heap. I don't know if

668
00:51:24.559 --> 00:51:28.719
that's possible. Oh you know what I forgot to do today.

669
00:51:30.440 --> 00:51:33.519
I was going to ask somebody if I'm able to

670
00:51:33.519 --> 00:51:35.800
take Vinnie with me to see my neighbor, because he

671
00:51:35.880 --> 00:51:38.679
keeps asking about him and he wants to see him.

672
00:51:38.760 --> 00:51:45.400
And another person who walks their dog told me that

673
00:51:45.559 --> 00:51:51.960
sometimes the hospital does allow depending on the patient's situation.

674
00:51:52.480 --> 00:51:57.840
They do allow hospital visits with a dog, but in

675
00:51:57.880 --> 00:52:02.239
a specific part of the hospital. So he'd have to

676
00:52:02.280 --> 00:52:03.920
go to that part of the hospital and I'd have

677
00:52:03.960 --> 00:52:06.519
to take Vinnie there and he could sort of spend

678
00:52:06.519 --> 00:52:10.519
time with him. The alternative is if he comes outside.

679
00:52:11.039 --> 00:52:13.800
I know, I can take Vinnie outside the grounds of

680
00:52:13.840 --> 00:52:21.199
hospital and he could come downstairs. But he can't. Really,

681
00:52:22.519 --> 00:52:25.639
I don't know how to explain this, but he doesn't

682
00:52:26.480 --> 00:52:32.519
seem to the mobility he had a week ago doesn't

683
00:52:32.519 --> 00:52:36.039
seem to be there for some reason. You know, before

684
00:52:37.800 --> 00:52:40.559
I think he's been going downhill a little bit, just

685
00:52:40.679 --> 00:52:44.960
I think it's his age maybe. But the week before

686
00:52:44.960 --> 00:52:48.920
he went in hospital, he was walking around every day,

687
00:52:48.960 --> 00:52:54.199
going to the Petro station, taking strides. You know, he

688
00:52:54.320 --> 00:52:57.920
wasn't like now now, he's walking one foot next to another,

689
00:52:58.119 --> 00:53:01.199
next to the other when I take him outside. I

690
00:53:01.199 --> 00:53:03.400
couldn't take him outside today because I was waiting for

691
00:53:03.440 --> 00:53:05.760
the doctor, and the other day we went out and

692
00:53:05.800 --> 00:53:09.599
the doctor came while we were out. Its not ideal,

693
00:53:13.920 --> 00:53:20.320
but he's really walking very very slowly and at times

694
00:53:20.320 --> 00:53:21.039
holding onto me.

695
00:53:23.800 --> 00:53:26.440
So I don't know. It might be a confidence thing.

696
00:53:27.039 --> 00:53:30.639
It might just he might have a similar thing to

697
00:53:30.679 --> 00:53:37.559
me where it's there's too many people. He's not used

698
00:53:37.559 --> 00:53:37.880
to that.

699
00:53:38.480 --> 00:53:42.360
It's not used to be walking down a hallway with

700
00:53:43.639 --> 00:53:48.199
let's face it, thousands of people coming and going, you know,

701
00:53:48.760 --> 00:53:52.679
and everyone's walking at different angles, different directions, people walking

702
00:53:52.719 --> 00:53:58.960
directly at you, and trolley's and you know, all sort

703
00:53:58.960 --> 00:54:06.880
of people on gurney and deliveries and all kinds of stuff.

704
00:54:08.440 --> 00:54:13.639
No parachutes and no elephants. But you know, I'm not

705
00:54:13.679 --> 00:54:15.559
saying everything's in the hallway, but it's quite a.

706
00:54:15.480 --> 00:54:20.079
Lot of stuff. So I don't know how much of

707
00:54:20.119 --> 00:54:24.039
it is that. But he doesn't go downstairs on his own.

708
00:54:24.760 --> 00:54:27.039
He doesn't go he doesn't go to the shop on

709
00:54:27.079 --> 00:54:31.760
his own, which a week ago he would have done.

710
00:54:32.320 --> 00:54:35.480
Before he went in there, he would have just you know,

711
00:54:36.000 --> 00:54:38.679
if he was visiting someone, Let's say, if he was

712
00:54:38.800 --> 00:54:41.400
visiting me and I said, oh, I need a bottle

713
00:54:41.440 --> 00:54:44.880
of coke, or can you get me some cheese, which

714
00:54:44.920 --> 00:54:49.039
is what he wanted today. Can you get me something

715
00:54:49.039 --> 00:54:52.280
from the shop? He just said, yeah, okay, you need

716
00:54:52.320 --> 00:54:58.880
have gone down and got it for me. So yeah,

717
00:54:58.920 --> 00:55:04.719
there was a that's a difference that I've noticed. And

718
00:55:04.760 --> 00:55:09.280
he's not talking as loudly as he used to. He's

719
00:55:09.320 --> 00:55:10.840
still talking unstop, but.

720
00:55:10.960 --> 00:55:14.400
Is how much quieter talk? Because I can't hear him

721
00:55:14.400 --> 00:55:17.559
sometimes I kind of have to get closer to him

722
00:55:17.559 --> 00:55:20.559
and then he just goes boom in my ear makes

723
00:55:20.559 --> 00:55:29.119
me jump. So I was going to do some washing today,

724
00:55:29.199 --> 00:55:35.199
some laundry. What do I say to him? I said something,

725
00:55:35.239 --> 00:55:41.519
I've got to do some laundry today. He said, he thought,

726
00:55:41.519 --> 00:55:54.400
I said something else. What sounds like laundry? Now? He thought,

727
00:55:54.400 --> 00:55:59.599
I said law degree, So I need to start. I

728
00:55:59.639 --> 00:56:04.119
need you need to do some law do some laundry.

729
00:56:06.960 --> 00:56:11.320
And he said, oh, when are you starting that? I

730
00:56:11.360 --> 00:56:16.239
said what I said this afternoon? He said oh? I

731
00:56:16.239 --> 00:56:21.559
said yeah. He said, like, well, I didn't know why

732
00:56:21.559 --> 00:56:24.639
it was so interested in me doing my laundry because

733
00:56:25.960 --> 00:56:27.440
I'll be honest and i'll break this to you. I

734
00:56:28.159 --> 00:56:33.000
don't want to come across as being ungrateful or negative,

735
00:56:33.079 --> 00:56:36.159
but I don't get a huge kick from doing the laundry.

736
00:56:36.519 --> 00:56:39.320
It doesn't give me the it doesn't give me everything

737
00:56:39.360 --> 00:56:43.119
I hoped I hoped out of life. You know.

738
00:56:43.360 --> 00:56:46.440
It's but at the same time, it's a hell of

739
00:56:46.480 --> 00:56:49.320
lot easier than going to the laundret, which is what

740
00:56:49.400 --> 00:56:53.719
I did for most of my adult life, well since

741
00:56:53.760 --> 00:56:58.320
the age of sixteen. So I do appreciate not going

742
00:56:58.360 --> 00:57:00.920
to the laundret. And if I didn't know washing machine,

743
00:57:01.199 --> 00:57:04.800
I would do my washing by hand. I'm never going

744
00:57:04.840 --> 00:57:12.119
to a laundrette again, especially as the Yeah, the local laundrette,

745
00:57:12.119 --> 00:57:12.800
what there isn't one.

746
00:57:13.639 --> 00:57:17.199
So the closest laundrette is about six miles away, six

747
00:57:17.239 --> 00:57:20.440
and a half miles away. So yeah, I'm not getting there.

748
00:57:21.159 --> 00:57:24.239
Yeah, I used to because I used to live across

749
00:57:24.239 --> 00:57:27.039
the road from there. Even then it was it was

750
00:57:27.079 --> 00:57:31.440
a struggle, still used to do. I used to watch

751
00:57:31.480 --> 00:57:34.599
my stuff by hands sometimes. Then I just couldn't face

752
00:57:35.000 --> 00:57:39.119
going over there. I guess I didn't have the same

753
00:57:39.199 --> 00:57:42.719
relationship with her. The launderette ladies I did with the

754
00:57:42.760 --> 00:57:47.880
laundrette lady in Stratford in London, although I did end

755
00:57:47.960 --> 00:57:52.559
up being friends of her. There's two ways it can go.

756
00:57:53.880 --> 00:58:00.639
I found with someone that washes your underpants, okay, on

757
00:58:01.119 --> 00:58:09.000
a regular basis. So the relationship is probably in some

758
00:58:09.079 --> 00:58:13.320
ways the most intimate relationship I have ever had with

759
00:58:14.400 --> 00:58:26.559
a female. It's something very there's a lot of unsaid stuff,

760
00:58:27.679 --> 00:58:35.239
you know, it's like an understanding. I no amount of money,

761
00:58:35.639 --> 00:58:38.639
no amount of money that I gave my launderette ladies

762
00:58:39.480 --> 00:58:41.480
for washing my clothes.

763
00:58:43.079 --> 00:58:46.280
Was compensation enough for what they had to go through,

764
00:58:47.079 --> 00:58:52.960
is you know, for handling my washing my underpants or whatever.

765
00:58:53.960 --> 00:58:58.440
So I realized that, and I've always realized that right

766
00:58:58.440 --> 00:59:03.079
from an early age. I thought, yeah, it's a job.

767
00:59:02.920 --> 00:59:06.400
I wouldn't particularly want to do out and I've had

768
00:59:06.440 --> 00:59:10.400
some really greaty jobs and I don't. It's just something

769
00:59:10.440 --> 00:59:14.360
I don't think i'd really I'd rather I'd rather work

770
00:59:14.559 --> 00:59:18.840
down the sewers.

771
00:59:18.960 --> 00:59:24.639
I think they do that. It's just yeah, it's so

772
00:59:24.880 --> 00:59:25.400
I had.

773
00:59:26.119 --> 00:59:29.639
But the difference is instead of like, it's not looking

774
00:59:29.719 --> 00:59:33.840
down at someone doing a job is admiration.

775
00:59:34.800 --> 00:59:35.719
That's how I feel.

776
00:59:36.199 --> 00:59:39.440
I admire someone who can do something like that, something

777
00:59:39.480 --> 00:59:44.599
that I don't think I could do, and it's just

778
00:59:44.639 --> 00:59:49.320
because it would just it's I don't have the rights.

779
00:59:52.360 --> 00:59:55.280
There's a certain skill set that I just don't have

780
00:59:56.800 --> 01:00:00.320
to do something like that to do that kind of work.

781
01:00:00.400 --> 01:00:02.920
So I've got a lot of admiration. I do admire

782
01:00:02.960 --> 01:00:05.800
people that can do things that I can't do, which

783
01:00:05.840 --> 01:00:08.079
means I admire probably most of the people in the

784
01:00:08.079 --> 01:00:11.760
world because I can't really do too much. I can

785
01:00:11.840 --> 01:00:17.800
talk absolutely rubbish for an hour. I'm quite good at

786
01:00:17.800 --> 01:00:25.199
watching television. That's about it. Really, I ain't got much

787
01:00:25.199 --> 01:00:30.480
else to me. It's that's my skill. My skill is

788
01:00:31.639 --> 01:00:39.960
just talking absolute warbly bobbly for whatever, you know, an hour,

789
01:00:40.079 --> 01:00:44.639
hour and a half, I've been talking for an hour.

790
01:00:44.679 --> 01:00:48.719
I've not even got on to the subject of boring

791
01:00:48.840 --> 01:00:54.320
hospital stories. Apart from I guess this last hour being boring.

792
01:00:56.559 --> 01:01:03.559
I can't stop talking. What's going on, By the way,

793
01:01:04.039 --> 01:01:07.519
I don't. I don't want this podcast to turn into

794
01:01:08.840 --> 01:01:12.440
me talking about hospitals the whole time. That's that's not

795
01:01:12.559 --> 01:01:16.719
my intention. So if you feel that's happening, let me know.

796
01:01:17.480 --> 01:01:22.400
But over the years, what you may have noticed if

797
01:01:22.400 --> 01:01:25.800
you've been following me for a while, is I do

798
01:01:26.920 --> 01:01:30.239
talk about what's going on in my life as well

799
01:01:30.280 --> 01:01:34.559
as making up a lot of just silly stuff.

800
01:01:35.559 --> 01:01:38.800
This so this is one of those occasions where I'm

801
01:01:39.159 --> 01:01:47.360
I'm kind of intertwining reality and stupidity, I guess, instead

802
01:01:47.360 --> 01:01:52.000
of being mainly stupidity. So I try and mix it

803
01:01:52.079 --> 01:02:01.159
up a little bit, just just a little bit, and

804
01:02:03.840 --> 01:02:16.039
M yeah, I guess because I didn't do Did I

805
01:02:16.119 --> 01:02:18.079
do a recording yesterday? I think I did?

806
01:02:18.079 --> 01:02:20.920
Didn't I I think I did. Didn't do one Saturday?

807
01:02:21.079 --> 01:02:26.320
Did a Q and a Friday? I think yesterday. By

808
01:02:26.360 --> 01:02:29.639
the way, you might be able to hear some background music.

809
01:02:30.039 --> 01:02:34.079
Sorry about that, but it's summer. Everyone's got their windows

810
01:02:34.079 --> 01:02:35.440
open rightly, so.

811
01:02:37.119 --> 01:02:39.280
And you know what.

812
01:02:40.760 --> 01:02:44.480
Yesterday I was I've made a recording in the afternoon,

813
01:02:46.679 --> 01:02:50.400
and I could hear the neighbors shouting as I was

814
01:02:50.440 --> 01:02:55.679
doing the editing, and I thought, wow, if you can

815
01:02:55.719 --> 01:03:00.920
hear that on this microphone, then that just shows you

816
01:03:01.039 --> 01:03:05.440
how loud it was, because they're not in my garden,

817
01:03:05.599 --> 01:03:12.880
in a different garden over a fence. Just shows you

818
01:03:12.920 --> 01:03:19.440
how loud it was. But it didn't seem to be continuous.

819
01:03:20.719 --> 01:03:24.320
That was just a particular rah rah rah rah h

820
01:03:24.760 --> 01:03:28.559
like that. I mean I think I just made more

821
01:03:28.639 --> 01:03:30.760
sense than the person that was shouting.

822
01:03:30.880 --> 01:03:38.920
But yeah, kind of. So I've been in hospital twice.

823
01:03:40.159 --> 01:03:43.119
Oh now we start the recording an hour into it.

824
01:03:43.280 --> 01:03:46.679
Begin to start, now, are we well? Okay, calm down.

825
01:03:47.920 --> 01:03:52.679
I've been in hospital twice. I had my adenoids out

826
01:03:52.880 --> 01:03:58.440
when I was seven. I was about eight. I think

827
01:03:58.480 --> 01:04:01.239
it was either just before I was a or just after.

828
01:04:01.880 --> 01:04:04.960
I think it was just before I was eight years old. Now,

829
01:04:05.599 --> 01:04:09.679
the reason I had my adenoids out is because I

830
01:04:09.920 --> 01:04:12.760
was partially deaf. We have a drink of water.

831
01:04:17.440 --> 01:04:30.800
Oh yeah, so.

832
01:04:32.599 --> 01:04:37.719
It's basically just start. It started with h.

833
01:04:39.840 --> 01:04:42.360
So I was in junior school and I started having

834
01:04:42.400 --> 01:04:46.679
to go to the nurse. So I was getting earaches,

835
01:04:46.960 --> 01:04:52.000
and progressively it was kind of becoming really really regular.

836
01:04:54.920 --> 01:04:57.239
I don't know how much I was skiving. If I'm

837
01:04:57.280 --> 01:05:01.679
honest with you, I might have just liked the nurse.

838
01:05:02.119 --> 01:05:02.639
I don't know.

839
01:05:02.800 --> 01:05:08.800
I can't remember, but I think that when I told

840
01:05:08.880 --> 01:05:15.280
us she had nice eyes. It's possible this inappropriateness started.

841
01:05:15.079 --> 01:05:24.039
Many very very young. I said, oh, yeah, I had

842
01:05:24.239 --> 01:05:27.960
my I didn't know what was going on.

843
01:05:28.239 --> 01:05:30.360
And then I started going to the I get sent

844
01:05:30.440 --> 01:05:33.320
to the doctors. Then I got son to the hospital

845
01:05:34.679 --> 01:05:39.719
and they started testing my ears and to see what

846
01:05:39.840 --> 01:05:40.599
was wrong with my ears.

847
01:05:40.880 --> 01:05:43.719
And they started testing my ears as in not just

848
01:05:43.880 --> 01:05:48.760
looking through them and stuff through them. I've been through them,

849
01:05:49.239 --> 01:05:52.760
but into them with those little eye things that they do.

850
01:05:57.400 --> 01:06:00.519
But they started to give me hearing tests and I

851
01:06:00.679 --> 01:06:05.800
was partially deaf in my ear. Now. They said, that

852
01:06:06.000 --> 01:06:08.480
explains why I'm so behind.

853
01:06:08.199 --> 01:06:13.079
At school, and it's really weird. I seem to be

854
01:06:13.159 --> 01:06:17.239
the only one that was surprised at that statement. I

855
01:06:17.280 --> 01:06:23.239
didn't know I was behind a school. I said, look, it's.

856
01:06:25.440 --> 01:06:30.119
Happy when I'm behind. I'm wow. I finished staring at me.

857
01:06:30.199 --> 01:06:31.440
What are you staring at me for?

858
01:06:32.199 --> 01:06:35.880
Were you staring at You're deady for? I think he's

859
01:06:35.960 --> 01:06:39.679
just happy to have me home. I spent the whole

860
01:06:39.719 --> 01:06:43.480
weekend with him here this weekend, and he was boring, but.

861
01:06:45.960 --> 01:06:48.599
He seemed so much happy to have me here. He

862
01:06:48.760 --> 01:06:51.679
was cuddled up to me. Weren't you You were happy

863
01:06:51.719 --> 01:06:53.480
to have your daddy back. Wasn't here for a couple

864
01:06:53.519 --> 01:06:56.320
of days, and I'm here tomorrow as well, So I'll

865
01:06:56.320 --> 01:07:00.760
spend all day with him tomorrow, and then I'll go

866
01:07:00.960 --> 01:07:05.119
on Wednesday for a bit visit, and then Thursday, I'll

867
01:07:05.159 --> 01:07:07.840
have all day with my little baby again. On Thursday,

868
01:07:07.960 --> 01:07:11.480
won't I Yeah, then I'll go up to visit uncle

869
01:07:11.599 --> 01:07:15.280
and my uncle sausages that's what Vinny calls him, Uncle's

870
01:07:15.280 --> 01:07:17.760
sausages because he gives him sausages.

871
01:07:19.800 --> 01:07:26.159
And I will then have the weekend off again. So

872
01:07:26.280 --> 01:07:27.880
I'm not going to go up at the weekends, and

873
01:07:27.920 --> 01:07:31.679
I'm going to go on Monday, Wednesday free right day.

874
01:07:33.840 --> 01:07:38.719
Yeah, depending, of course, I'm upon the situation. You know,

875
01:07:38.840 --> 01:07:40.599
if he called me up and said, could you please

876
01:07:40.639 --> 01:07:43.920
come tomorrow, I'll go. There's not an issue with that.

877
01:07:44.079 --> 01:07:49.119
But generally I told him i'd be there Wednesday. I'll

878
01:07:49.159 --> 01:07:51.480
call him tomorrow I see how he is. But if

879
01:07:51.519 --> 01:07:54.559
he needed me to go up, then I would go up.

880
01:07:56.199 --> 01:07:57.679
I mean, if he needed me to go up.

881
01:07:57.639 --> 01:07:59.280
Now, i'd go up. Now you know, I'll go back.

882
01:07:59.440 --> 01:08:01.800
So it's not that, ain't no problem.

883
01:08:03.800 --> 01:08:06.480
You know, I've told him my phone is on anytime

884
01:08:06.559 --> 01:08:08.480
if he needs to call me, which he did over

885
01:08:08.559 --> 01:08:16.800
the weekend, and I'm kind of his I say lifeline

886
01:08:16.800 --> 01:08:19.920
and that's very dramatic. But I'm I was someone that

887
01:08:20.000 --> 01:08:25.560
he can just contact if he just wants to just

888
01:08:25.840 --> 01:08:27.199
update me on stuff, you.

889
01:08:27.239 --> 01:08:30.840
Know, even if it's And he phoned me up yesterday

890
01:08:32.600 --> 01:08:36.319
to talk about Jaws the movie, and him and his

891
01:08:36.439 --> 01:08:38.760
neighbor in there they were having like a little quiz

892
01:08:39.399 --> 01:08:45.319
quizzy game talking about movies, and they were trying to

893
01:08:45.439 --> 01:08:50.119
remember the main character that the actual actors in Jaws.

894
01:08:51.479 --> 01:08:58.399
So you had Robert Shaw, David Schneid or Schneider. I

895
01:08:58.479 --> 01:09:04.159
forget what his first name is, and I've lost his

896
01:09:04.279 --> 01:09:09.479
name again. I did remember it. He was in Uh

897
01:09:12.239 --> 01:09:17.000
do Do Do Do Do? That movie something of the

898
01:09:17.520 --> 01:09:21.960
Close Encounters of the Third kind. So it's those three

899
01:09:22.039 --> 01:09:25.960
that were in that movie. They were the stars and

900
01:09:27.560 --> 01:09:32.119
Schneider who what was his first name? But Robert Shaw

901
01:09:32.359 --> 01:09:36.079
was the He was a captain, the captain of the

902
01:09:36.359 --> 01:09:43.479
of the the boat and what's his name? Do do

903
01:09:43.800 --> 01:09:45.760
do do do? That?

904
01:09:46.039 --> 01:09:53.680
That bloke he was also in It is it Schneider

905
01:09:53.760 --> 01:09:56.239
that says or need to get a bigger boat? I

906
01:09:56.359 --> 01:09:59.479
think how's a good line in it, need to get

907
01:09:59.479 --> 01:10:00.000
a bigger boat.

908
01:10:02.119 --> 01:10:07.720
There was a movie called The Perfect Storm, and I

909
01:10:07.800 --> 01:10:11.840
think this is in the two thousands, and it was

910
01:10:11.920 --> 01:10:15.239
basically a really big storm. That's basically what's around a

911
01:10:15.399 --> 01:10:20.239
boat in a storm, really big boat in a really

912
01:10:21.000 --> 01:10:26.640
bigger storm. And I remember seeing the.

913
01:10:29.079 --> 01:10:34.399
The trailer for this movie on television and in the trailer,

914
01:10:35.560 --> 01:10:37.560
this is when it was like being released at the cinema.

915
01:10:38.359 --> 01:10:41.560
In the trailer, it was a bloke from a beautiful

916
01:10:41.640 --> 01:10:47.479
mind what's his name, and Gladiator, so he was the

917
01:10:47.520 --> 01:10:52.239
star of this movie. In the trailer, there's a part

918
01:10:52.399 --> 01:10:58.079
where there's this massive wave coming and Gladiator, a beautiful

919
01:10:58.119 --> 01:11:00.479
mind man shouts out.

920
01:11:01.960 --> 01:11:06.439
Hold on. At that point, I thought, I'm never going

921
01:11:06.520 --> 01:11:11.119
to watch that movie. If that's going to be the

922
01:11:11.279 --> 01:11:15.479
hook word hold on. If that's the best they can

923
01:11:15.600 --> 01:11:17.760
do in a situation like that, just shout hold on,

924
01:11:18.119 --> 01:11:21.039
then no, I'm not gonna watch it. Sorry. If that,

925
01:11:21.239 --> 01:11:26.520
if that's the level of dialogue, just I don't know

926
01:11:26.640 --> 01:11:27.239
why it just.

927
01:11:28.760 --> 01:11:32.039
But there again, I had the same I had the

928
01:11:32.159 --> 01:11:35.319
same opinion about Gladiator. I thought, I'm not watching this,

929
01:11:35.560 --> 01:11:38.439
but it was a great movie. I've found it to

930
01:11:38.479 --> 01:11:42.279
be a great movie. I need to be specific that

931
01:11:42.439 --> 01:11:44.359
I I mean, it was class is a great movie

932
01:11:47.720 --> 01:11:54.199
by the critics and by the audience members. But I

933
01:11:54.560 --> 01:11:59.359
can only go by what I found, and it was

934
01:12:00.560 --> 01:12:02.640
I partly watched Gladiator too.

935
01:12:04.840 --> 01:12:09.600
But I made this error because I got this little

936
01:12:10.239 --> 01:12:15.720
walking machine. It's really cheap, nasty for members, and I've

937
01:12:15.720 --> 01:12:19.199
got it about a year and a half ago. But

938
01:12:19.319 --> 01:12:26.439
it's really honestly, it's it doesn't feel safe even walking

939
01:12:26.479 --> 01:12:30.800
on it, like a treadmill. But it's really tacky, and

940
01:12:31.960 --> 01:12:35.560
I'm a little bit worried about the carpet underneath. Seriously,

941
01:12:37.359 --> 01:12:39.279
but I thought, you know what, I'm going to give

942
01:12:39.279 --> 01:12:44.359
it a go. So I started watching Gladiator, and I thought,

943
01:12:44.399 --> 01:12:46.000
I'm only going to walk and I walked on it

944
01:12:46.039 --> 01:12:49.359
for about an hour, no half an hour maybe, so

945
01:12:49.439 --> 01:12:51.119
said I'm only going to walk on it when I

946
01:12:51.199 --> 01:12:56.239
watched Gladiator. Actually that's not what I thought. I thought,

947
01:12:56.319 --> 01:13:00.640
I'm never going to walk on it again, because it's rubbish. No,

948
01:13:00.640 --> 01:13:01.000
I didn't.

949
01:13:01.000 --> 01:13:05.159
Fact, I did feel like I was actually touching the carpet,

950
01:13:06.119 --> 01:13:08.399
which is not supposed to happen. And I was a

951
01:13:08.439 --> 01:13:12.319
bit concerned about my neighbor downstairs because she did see

952
01:13:12.399 --> 01:13:20.239
me a few days later and she said, were you

953
01:13:20.439 --> 01:13:25.560
dancing upstairs? I said no, She said, you were doing

954
01:13:25.640 --> 01:13:28.960
something because the whole flat was shaking. I said, no,

955
01:13:30.359 --> 01:13:34.680
I don't even live there anymore. She said what I said,

956
01:13:34.720 --> 01:13:36.279
I do live there. I don't know why I said that,

957
01:13:36.479 --> 01:13:38.800
but yeah, it wasn't me, she said it was who

958
01:13:38.840 --> 01:13:41.479
else would it be. I said that a pigeons, maybe

959
01:13:42.199 --> 01:13:46.960
in the loft. Pigeons often are naughty.

960
01:13:48.119 --> 01:13:51.560
In the loft. She said, how would the pigeons in

961
01:13:51.640 --> 01:13:56.359
the loft affect my flat when your whole flat is

962
01:13:56.600 --> 01:14:02.000
in between me and the loft. I said, I don't

963
01:14:02.119 --> 01:14:05.840
have the answers to every question. You know, I'm not.

964
01:14:06.760 --> 01:14:13.119
I'm not a for thoras. She said, this a fulfill left.

965
01:14:13.640 --> 01:14:14.680
I said, yeah, for thor.

966
01:14:17.319 --> 01:14:20.479
She said, well, if you're trying to say forsaurus, that

967
01:14:20.640 --> 01:14:24.640
doesn't have the answers to any questions. That's just descriptions

968
01:14:24.680 --> 01:14:28.039
of words and various different versions of the same word.

969
01:14:29.199 --> 01:14:35.079
Really, and I said yeah. She said we didn't make sense.

970
01:14:36.239 --> 01:14:44.439
I said, you don't make sense. Yeah. It was one

971
01:14:44.479 --> 01:14:48.560
of the better conversations I've had this year, actually, But

972
01:14:48.680 --> 01:14:53.199
then I didn't go back on the treadmill, if you

973
01:14:53.239 --> 01:14:56.000
want to call it that. So I'm not And it's

974
01:14:56.039 --> 01:14:57.920
weird because I want to watch the rest of the movie.

975
01:14:58.000 --> 01:15:01.920
But every time I go to like watch it, I think, no,

976
01:15:02.079 --> 01:15:03.800
I need to need to get on the treadmill to

977
01:15:03.840 --> 01:15:10.359
watch that. How strange is it? Isn't that a weird one?

978
01:15:14.960 --> 01:15:19.319
So I was having my ears tested and they said, oh, yeah,

979
01:15:19.439 --> 01:15:21.840
I was partly I don't even know which ear it was,

980
01:15:23.680 --> 01:15:25.359
right ear or left it. I could even tell you

981
01:15:25.560 --> 01:15:28.039
such a long time ago I knew at the time,

982
01:15:29.680 --> 01:15:33.880
and it said, yeah, you're partially deaf in one ear,

983
01:15:34.239 --> 01:15:35.720
which explains why.

984
01:15:38.319 --> 01:15:39.479
You're well.

985
01:15:39.560 --> 01:15:42.359
They didn't tell that. My parents said that to me.

986
01:15:43.039 --> 01:15:46.880
It's why I'm so behind at school, so they've first

987
01:15:46.960 --> 01:15:49.119
all they blamed while I was so behind at school

988
01:15:49.319 --> 01:15:52.479
on the fact that I moved around so much as

989
01:15:52.520 --> 01:15:55.439
a little kid, so I never stayed in any school

990
01:15:55.479 --> 01:16:01.000
for a very long period of time. So pretty much

991
01:16:01.079 --> 01:16:04.600
taught myself to read, and my writing wasn't up to

992
01:16:04.720 --> 01:16:09.439
much at the age of seven, but you know I did.

993
01:16:09.600 --> 01:16:14.279
I picked it up and I loved reading, so I

994
01:16:14.399 --> 01:16:19.640
definitely wasn't. I wasn't behind. I personally wouldn't say that

995
01:16:19.720 --> 01:16:25.359
I was behind in reading. Whether I understood what I

996
01:16:25.479 --> 01:16:28.760
was reading, it's still an issue now. I'm not sure

997
01:16:28.800 --> 01:16:29.720
how much I understand.

998
01:16:29.800 --> 01:16:38.199
But I and writing. I learned to do joined up

999
01:16:38.239 --> 01:16:44.159
writing when I was about nine, nine or ten. That's

1000
01:16:44.199 --> 01:16:48.920
when I learned to start doing joined up writing. And

1001
01:16:54.119 --> 01:16:57.880
writing was okay. I was okay with writing. I didn't

1002
01:16:58.039 --> 01:17:07.159
necessarily understand or the apostrophes and commas and stuff I

1003
01:17:07.239 --> 01:17:16.279
understood full stops made sense. So I wasn't necessarily grammatically correct,

1004
01:17:17.119 --> 01:17:22.840
but I did as far as writing goes. But reading, yeah,

1005
01:17:24.279 --> 01:17:28.920
reading was something that I just adored. I loved reading.

1006
01:17:29.960 --> 01:17:31.760
And something happened the other day.

1007
01:17:32.479 --> 01:17:35.680
I was watching a YouTube channel, YouTube video and it

1008
01:17:35.760 --> 01:17:41.039
was about the Wizard of Oz. Now i'd forgotten or

1009
01:17:41.119 --> 01:17:43.680
I didn't know, but I think I did previously. I

1010
01:17:43.720 --> 01:17:45.880
think I did previously know, but I think i'd forgotten it.

1011
01:17:46.840 --> 01:17:50.159
The Wizard of Oz books. There was a lot of books,

1012
01:17:51.800 --> 01:17:55.479
like a lot, and the bloke through wrote the Wizard

1013
01:17:55.520 --> 01:17:59.600
of Oz wrote lots of books about Oz and the

1014
01:17:59.640 --> 01:18:05.880
different characters in US. Now, this is a memory that

1015
01:18:05.960 --> 01:18:08.439
I'm not sure if it's true or not, but I'm

1016
01:18:08.560 --> 01:18:12.960
pretty certain I read most of those books because I

1017
01:18:12.960 --> 01:18:14.520
would get a book like that and i'd read it

1018
01:18:14.600 --> 01:18:18.199
overnight or over a couple of days. Because I was

1019
01:18:18.399 --> 01:18:24.319
just it was almost like it's like being really thirsty

1020
01:18:24.439 --> 01:18:28.960
and drinking a lot of water. That was almost a

1021
01:18:29.039 --> 01:18:31.439
bit like that for me. When I was reading, I

1022
01:18:31.800 --> 01:18:34.520
just thought, oh, more, more and more and more loved it.

1023
01:18:35.760 --> 01:18:37.960
And when I talk about it, it makes me hard, No,

1024
01:18:38.039 --> 01:18:39.640
it makes me not horn.

1025
01:18:39.720 --> 01:18:45.359
It makes me I didn't mean it makes me kind

1026
01:18:45.399 --> 01:18:52.439
of damp. No, not damp. It makes me kind of

1027
01:18:52.479 --> 01:18:53.680
want to do it, That's what I mean. It makes

1028
01:18:53.720 --> 01:18:57.039
me want to kind of guess my juice is going again.

1029
01:18:57.119 --> 01:19:01.159
That probably sounds wrong to get a book, and I'm

1030
01:19:01.199 --> 01:19:04.680
not even talking about factual books, which is something that

1031
01:19:04.720 --> 01:19:05.720
I've focused on for.

1032
01:19:07.600 --> 01:19:12.359
Most of my adult life. Really, I'd like to get

1033
01:19:12.439 --> 01:19:22.640
back to maybe reading some what do you call it fiction?

1034
01:19:23.159 --> 01:19:26.000
I guess yeah, story books.

1035
01:19:27.560 --> 01:19:30.760
And perhaps not most supposed to call them story books,

1036
01:19:30.800 --> 01:19:33.399
but that's what they are, isn't as a story. I'd

1037
01:19:33.479 --> 01:19:40.520
like to get back to that. And maybe I did

1038
01:19:40.640 --> 01:19:44.880
think about writing my own romantic novel, but doing it

1039
01:19:44.960 --> 01:19:46.880
in my own, you know, doing my own little way.

1040
01:19:49.760 --> 01:19:52.319
I did do it. Oh, I did this recording.

1041
01:19:53.640 --> 01:19:58.000
I think it was a video, it might have been

1042
01:19:58.039 --> 01:20:05.680
an audio, and I posted it online and a few

1043
01:20:05.800 --> 01:20:09.479
this is back when I was fairly doing quite well

1044
01:20:09.520 --> 01:20:13.880
on YouTube. They got quite quite a positive response.

1045
01:20:15.880 --> 01:20:16.520
But I lost it.

1046
01:20:17.199 --> 01:20:20.760
I lost the recording somewhere along the line. But it

1047
01:20:20.880 --> 01:20:23.720
was quite funny, and it was just a story of

1048
01:20:24.039 --> 01:20:28.720
me a romantic encounter on a train and I was

1049
01:20:28.840 --> 01:20:31.920
just saying all the wrong things and it was but

1050
01:20:32.039 --> 01:20:36.119
this is I mean, we're talking like two tenty twelve.

1051
01:20:36.880 --> 01:20:42.960
I think I did this recording, and yeah, well I

1052
01:20:43.039 --> 01:20:44.399
wish I had it, just so I could have a

1053
01:20:44.439 --> 01:20:51.840
little listen. I also did a recording based on Andre

1054
01:20:52.039 --> 01:20:57.159
talking and it was a whole recording of him just

1055
01:20:57.520 --> 01:21:00.359
making fun of me. I think I lost that as well,

1056
01:21:02.159 --> 01:21:03.720
so that would have been I would be good to

1057
01:21:03.960 --> 01:21:09.159
be able to listen to. Lost a lot of recordings

1058
01:21:09.199 --> 01:21:13.399
over the years, a good few hundred videos and recordings,

1059
01:21:13.479 --> 01:21:14.319
audio recordings.

1060
01:21:14.359 --> 01:21:23.680
I've lost some that were potentially not too awful, potentially.

1061
01:21:25.880 --> 01:21:26.319
I reckon.

1062
01:21:26.399 --> 01:21:31.039
Over the nineteen years I've been doing these things, there

1063
01:21:31.079 --> 01:21:33.359
must be I've got to have at least a handful

1064
01:21:34.039 --> 01:21:37.680
of decent recordings, ones that are just good.

1065
01:21:39.399 --> 01:21:41.840
There's got to be. There's got to be a few

1066
01:21:41.880 --> 01:21:50.239
little gems there. Surely, even if it was accidental so

1067
01:21:51.199 --> 01:21:55.960
the doctor regarding my hearings said, well, it's going to

1068
01:21:56.000 --> 01:22:02.720
be pretty much one of two things. Either I was

1069
01:22:02.800 --> 01:22:03.600
born that way.

1070
01:22:04.039 --> 01:22:08.039
So I've always been partially deaf in one ear. Or

1071
01:22:08.279 --> 01:22:11.399
I'd had an accident and bang my head when I

1072
01:22:11.479 --> 01:22:15.000
was a kid little, which did happen, but I think

1073
01:22:15.000 --> 01:22:16.760
it happens for a lot of kids, don't there. But

1074
01:22:17.399 --> 01:22:19.960
I remember I fell down some concrete steps once when

1075
01:22:20.000 --> 01:22:24.039
I was about five, four or five.

1076
01:22:25.399 --> 01:22:29.880
And yeah, health and safety wasn't really a thing back

1077
01:22:29.920 --> 01:22:35.159
then in the seventies, So yeah, I did take a Yeah,

1078
01:22:37.000 --> 01:22:40.319
definitely had a few bashes on the head over my childhood.

1079
01:22:42.680 --> 01:22:44.399
But I might also have been born like this. I

1080
01:22:44.439 --> 01:22:50.359
don't know. So what they did is they it was

1081
01:22:50.560 --> 01:22:51.840
It's basically just a blockage.

1082
01:22:52.880 --> 01:22:57.439
So my adinoids were blocking or causing a blockage in

1083
01:22:57.600 --> 01:23:02.760
one of my ears, maybe both my ears, but I

1084
01:23:02.800 --> 01:23:03.439
think it was one.

1085
01:23:04.720 --> 01:23:08.840
So they took my had anoys out when I was

1086
01:23:10.560 --> 01:23:12.760
I was either eight or just before I was eight.

1087
01:23:15.399 --> 01:23:18.800
My biggest memory of that two things.

1088
01:23:18.880 --> 01:23:22.079
First of all, I've made Teddy Bear with me, which

1089
01:23:22.159 --> 01:23:26.520
was nice. I love my little Teddy Bear, and I

1090
01:23:26.640 --> 01:23:29.840
might have called him Teddy And you might think oh

1091
01:23:29.920 --> 01:23:35.079
that's original, Oh Teddy like okay, Well, my granddad was

1092
01:23:35.119 --> 01:23:39.560
called Teddy and my uncle was called Edward, so both

1093
01:23:39.640 --> 01:23:45.319
of them because in this country, ted is another name

1094
01:23:45.439 --> 01:23:49.560
for Edward and Eddie is another name for Edward. So

1095
01:23:49.720 --> 01:23:53.239
my granddad was called ted and my uncle was called Eddie,

1096
01:23:53.680 --> 01:23:57.640
but they were both called Edward. And I called my

1097
01:23:57.800 --> 01:24:02.840
Teddy ted or Teddy, probably.

1098
01:24:02.600 --> 01:24:05.640
After my granddad. Probably maybe I called him ted, but

1099
01:24:06.039 --> 01:24:10.119
I wouldn't dare call my granddad ted. No, it was Granddad.

1100
01:24:11.319 --> 01:24:16.960
He didn't play those games. Oh no, he would have.

1101
01:24:18.680 --> 01:24:25.600
I there was that. And the other thing is I

1102
01:24:25.720 --> 01:24:29.479
had botherel for the first time, which was a bad idea.

1103
01:24:31.359 --> 01:24:33.439
Because that was the last drink of the day and

1104
01:24:33.520 --> 01:24:35.239
I think that was just before I had the operation,

1105
01:24:35.439 --> 01:24:38.159
so I wasn't allowed any more water or anything, any

1106
01:24:38.199 --> 01:24:42.079
food or anything. And as botherol, which meant I mean now,

1107
01:24:42.239 --> 01:24:44.439
to me, it was just like having a mouth of mud,

1108
01:24:45.359 --> 01:24:47.279
mouthful of mud, liquid mud.

1109
01:24:48.119 --> 01:24:48.399
It was.

1110
01:24:50.479 --> 01:24:53.720
It wasn't my thing. Botherel wasn't my It's kind of

1111
01:24:53.760 --> 01:24:58.479
like liquid marmite. I would say, it's a yeast extract drink.

1112
01:25:00.279 --> 01:25:05.840
And I wasn't pleased with that. It wasn't a good decision.

1113
01:25:05.880 --> 01:25:08.680
But I remember. It's really weird because bearing in mind

1114
01:25:08.720 --> 01:25:12.920
it's such a long time ago. Now I remember the

1115
01:25:13.560 --> 01:25:17.319
because I was an award Bloody dogs again, can you

1116
01:25:17.359 --> 01:25:21.439
hear that? I wait till it stops, and I'll started

1117
01:25:21.439 --> 01:25:27.640
talking again. So I just remember this that. I don't

1118
01:25:27.680 --> 01:25:30.840
think it was anyone else in the ward. Maybe one

1119
01:25:30.880 --> 01:25:33.920
other person. There was a children's ward, I think, but

1120
01:25:34.079 --> 01:25:39.520
it was grim. It was like underground, no windows, it was.

1121
01:25:40.239 --> 01:25:42.359
It wasn't a nice ward. It was in a really

1122
01:25:42.560 --> 01:25:43.760
old hospital that I.

1123
01:25:43.760 --> 01:25:47.520
Think got shut down because it was it'd been there

1124
01:25:47.640 --> 01:25:54.680
since the Civil War, I think, and the one in France,

1125
01:25:56.000 --> 01:26:03.640
and I I thought, so the lady came down with

1126
01:26:03.880 --> 01:26:13.520
this trolley full of different things, tea, coffees, cocoa, bov real, water,

1127
01:26:14.239 --> 01:26:21.279
juice probably, I don't know if there be any fizzy drinks,

1128
01:26:21.319 --> 01:26:27.560
probably not, but just that kind of stuff aholics and

1129
01:26:28.520 --> 01:26:30.720
no coffee that I don't think they had coffee for

1130
01:26:30.880 --> 01:26:36.399
kids back then. It didn't want me running around or

1131
01:26:36.600 --> 01:26:42.760
whizzing being excited, and I couldn't make my mind up.

1132
01:26:42.960 --> 01:26:45.760
This has been an issue I had all through my

1133
01:26:45.880 --> 01:26:52.079
childhood and still today struggle to make my mind up

1134
01:26:52.159 --> 01:26:59.079
about anything. Really, I mean, it was an issue more

1135
01:26:59.159 --> 01:27:02.119
for other people than me. It was annoying for me.

1136
01:27:02.560 --> 01:27:06.279
Where it was frustrating for me, it was I suppose

1137
01:27:06.319 --> 01:27:08.920
it got really annoying for other people, you know, if

1138
01:27:08.920 --> 01:27:14.079
who was in a who were ordering food or you know,

1139
01:27:14.279 --> 01:27:20.479
things like that, choosing a video to watch, even up

1140
01:27:20.600 --> 01:27:23.600
to the last time I went into Blockbusters, which would

1141
01:27:23.640 --> 01:27:35.399
have been too when the Blockbusters shut down, so over

1142
01:27:35.479 --> 01:27:39.640
ten years ago, in it twelve years ago. So the

1143
01:27:39.760 --> 01:27:43.199
last time I went into Blockbusters, and every other time,

1144
01:27:44.640 --> 01:27:46.960
and every other time that I went into any video shop,

1145
01:27:49.039 --> 01:27:57.800
I would spend an absolute age trying to decide which

1146
01:27:58.000 --> 01:28:03.039
video to get. Unless I went there for a specific thing.

1147
01:28:03.840 --> 01:28:06.079
So if I went there for the new season of

1148
01:28:06.319 --> 01:28:11.159
the Sopranos box set, then it was quite simple.

1149
01:28:11.680 --> 01:28:12.239
I'd get that.

1150
01:28:14.640 --> 01:28:18.960
But if I was if there was a particular movie,

1151
01:28:22.399 --> 01:28:24.800
but outside of that, I would be there for ages.

1152
01:28:26.399 --> 01:28:29.720
And I did the same thing as a kid. I'd

1153
01:28:29.760 --> 01:28:34.159
spend probably hours, I'm not even joking. Be I'd go

1154
01:28:34.479 --> 01:28:37.640
and look at the back cover of every single video.

1155
01:28:39.479 --> 01:28:43.039
Now in Blockbusters, that's not you don't you know things

1156
01:28:43.079 --> 01:28:47.960
were in cases, weren't they the Blockbuster cases, but in

1157
01:28:48.079 --> 01:28:52.199
the original video shops, well at least where I lived,

1158
01:28:53.359 --> 01:28:57.039
all the videos were still in the video case with

1159
01:28:57.760 --> 01:28:59.800
you know, the picture of the movie on the front,

1160
01:29:00.560 --> 01:29:04.159
who was in the movie on the back, the synopsis

1161
01:29:04.239 --> 01:29:09.159
of the movie, plus the videotape was in there, so

1162
01:29:09.399 --> 01:29:10.520
everything was kind of there.

1163
01:29:10.560 --> 01:29:11.880
So I'd go through.

1164
01:29:13.560 --> 01:29:24.960
Every video looking for something that peaked my peakiness, got

1165
01:29:25.039 --> 01:29:29.840
my juices going, made me moist, I don't know whatever,

1166
01:29:29.880 --> 01:29:32.359
I just got me excited, and.

1167
01:29:35.239 --> 01:29:40.159
It would take forever. Honestly, I'd be in there for

1168
01:29:42.960 --> 01:29:46.760
an hour and a half. And none of these shops

1169
01:29:46.760 --> 01:29:50.840
were big, by the way, they were jam packed, but

1170
01:29:50.960 --> 01:29:53.199
they like, we have videos. And I only did this

1171
01:29:53.319 --> 01:29:56.319
when there's no one else around, So I wouldn't do

1172
01:29:56.439 --> 01:29:58.119
this if it was busy, if there was a lot

1173
01:29:58.159 --> 01:30:01.840
of other customers. It was you know, and they all

1174
01:30:01.880 --> 01:30:02.800
got to know me because I.

1175
01:30:05.520 --> 01:30:10.439
Think one of the owner of the video shop once

1176
01:30:10.520 --> 01:30:21.520
said to me, do you what did you say? It's

1177
01:30:21.600 --> 01:30:23.279
just something like, oh, by the way, just let you

1178
01:30:23.359 --> 01:30:25.520
know you're going to be getting a pay rise.

1179
01:30:27.479 --> 01:30:31.560
Next month. And I said what he said, oh, and

1180
01:30:31.640 --> 01:30:34.199
he just liked he laughed, So I forgot you don't

1181
01:30:34.239 --> 01:30:37.439
work here. I was there so often. He thought I

1182
01:30:37.560 --> 01:30:41.159
worked there. It was the boss, it was the owner.

1183
01:30:43.239 --> 01:30:46.840
They had no staff, it was a family run business.

1184
01:30:48.479 --> 01:30:56.319
They lived there. I mean, once I stay, he started

1185
01:30:56.399 --> 01:30:59.079
moaning because so used to me. He once he has

1186
01:30:59.119 --> 01:31:02.760
started mona. It was moaning nuts. He said, Jason, can

1187
01:31:02.800 --> 01:31:07.039
you please stop leaving dirty dishes in the sink, but

1188
01:31:07.119 --> 01:31:10.520
can you wash up after yourself? I said, I don't

1189
01:31:10.560 --> 01:31:17.880
live with you. You're not my dad. What's going on?

1190
01:31:18.880 --> 01:31:21.119
And he just forgot. I thought I was actually one

1191
01:31:21.159 --> 01:31:24.279
of his kids because I was always there looking at

1192
01:31:24.279 --> 01:31:24.920
the videos.

1193
01:31:27.399 --> 01:31:29.640
Now, technically that would have been a really good job

1194
01:31:29.720 --> 01:31:35.119
for me because not only was I an avid video watcher,

1195
01:31:37.479 --> 01:31:40.079
I knew where all the videos were. I knew where

1196
01:31:40.199 --> 01:31:43.920
all the titles were. So if you just said to me,

1197
01:31:45.199 --> 01:31:48.199
if you've got the Big Boss Bruce Lee's movie, or

1198
01:31:48.279 --> 01:31:54.039
if you've got I don't know anything like a Disney movie,

1199
01:31:54.119 --> 01:31:56.159
or if you've got I could say yes or no

1200
01:31:57.279 --> 01:31:59.079
because I knew what was on the shelves.

1201
01:32:02.199 --> 01:32:04.760
I was always It's really weird. I just knew where

1202
01:32:04.760 --> 01:32:07.920
everything was so cause I was in there near the

1203
01:32:08.000 --> 01:32:13.199
every day looking for the next video and that's what

1204
01:32:13.359 --> 01:32:16.800
I did, and it was so cheap. It was probably

1205
01:32:16.840 --> 01:32:20.479
about fifty pence forty pence or something to rent a

1206
01:32:20.600 --> 01:32:26.319
video out for one day, and so i'd get at times.

1207
01:32:26.359 --> 01:32:32.880
I would be in there every day, especially during the holidays. Oh,

1208
01:32:33.159 --> 01:32:35.239
such a nice I liked those times.

1209
01:32:38.680 --> 01:32:43.079
With Blockbusters. It was more a weekly thing because I

1210
01:32:43.279 --> 01:32:50.319
was working, and it'd be probably like a lot of

1211
01:32:50.399 --> 01:32:53.840
people would, I guess, to go on a Friday evening

1212
01:32:55.479 --> 01:32:58.600
or Saturday evening and just rent out like maybe two

1213
01:32:58.720 --> 01:33:02.680
or three videos for the weekend and bring them back

1214
01:33:02.720 --> 01:33:09.079
on a Monday. So yeah, I lived just up the

1215
01:33:09.199 --> 01:33:15.479
road from Yeah, I did lift just up the road

1216
01:33:15.600 --> 01:33:27.000
from the video shop. Yeah, but it's actually two different places.

1217
01:33:27.039 --> 01:33:29.960
I lived just the next place was just around the corner.

1218
01:33:30.600 --> 01:33:33.520
The other place was a lot further away, but the

1219
01:33:33.840 --> 01:33:40.880
place before that was and it wasn't far, probably fifteen

1220
01:33:40.920 --> 01:33:43.760
minute walk, so it wasn't far.

1221
01:33:44.079 --> 01:33:44.359
Really.

1222
01:33:48.840 --> 01:33:51.119
I used to love it though. It's love getting videos out.

1223
01:33:54.880 --> 01:33:58.800
It's strange how things had changed because now because of

1224
01:33:58.840 --> 01:34:03.399
all the streaming, I mean, Blockbusters closed down in this

1225
01:34:03.560 --> 01:34:06.359
country anyway. I don't know if this video shops elsewhere,

1226
01:34:06.439 --> 01:34:09.920
but I don't think video shops exist anymore.

1227
01:34:11.279 --> 01:34:15.319
Or DVD shops, but they still sell DVDs, I think.

1228
01:34:18.079 --> 01:34:20.520
But it's streaming.

1229
01:34:21.640 --> 01:34:25.760
But the thing is, what I noticed with the streaming companies,

1230
01:34:26.159 --> 01:34:30.640
the channels, is they don't keep the same stuff on there.

1231
01:34:31.159 --> 01:34:35.439
They tend to take stuff off. Even Netflix doesn't keep

1232
01:34:35.520 --> 01:34:36.640
the same stuff on there.

1233
01:34:36.680 --> 01:34:40.119
Forever they have stuff, and then they'll take it off.

1234
01:34:41.039 --> 01:34:44.439
I don't know why I repeat myself then, and that is.

1235
01:34:46.640 --> 01:34:56.800
Slightly disappointing to myself, because because of the wonderful thing

1236
01:34:56.960 --> 01:35:02.760
he does. I'm thinking of what, maybe reading all of

1237
01:35:02.880 --> 01:35:08.000
the Wizard of Oz books, maybe getting them all and

1238
01:35:08.159 --> 01:35:10.640
just reading them. I mean, that would be the point

1239
01:35:10.680 --> 01:35:13.039
of reading them, isn't it. I have to get them first.

1240
01:35:14.439 --> 01:35:20.520
And I was also thinking about writing a book, not

1241
01:35:20.600 --> 01:35:25.920
a Wizard of Oz book, but I did wonder sometimes

1242
01:35:28.159 --> 01:35:30.159
the idea of creating a new world.

1243
01:35:31.760 --> 01:35:36.079
Now it's been done, of course well by lots of people,

1244
01:35:37.000 --> 01:35:44.199
but more famously, what's her name?

1245
01:35:44.399 --> 01:35:47.359
What's a Harry Potter? You've got the Wizard of Oz,

1246
01:35:47.520 --> 01:35:55.279
you've got Narnia, you've got Discworld, you've got the uh

1247
01:35:59.319 --> 01:36:04.520
Token and whatever may be, my precious that that thing,

1248
01:36:05.399 --> 01:36:11.479
the Hobbit, or that kind of world. So I do think,

1249
01:36:11.920 --> 01:36:17.239
you know, I thought about making a world up, but

1250
01:36:17.359 --> 01:36:19.600
that's it looks like it looks like a lot of effort,

1251
01:36:21.239 --> 01:36:26.680
and remember on all the different characters. I don't know,

1252
01:36:29.000 --> 01:36:32.039
I thought. I did think maybe introducing some new characters

1253
01:36:32.159 --> 01:36:40.000
to my podcasts, or perhaps having a guest, a guest

1254
01:36:40.159 --> 01:36:46.800
come in and like a you know, a different personality

1255
01:36:46.880 --> 01:36:52.560
you come and talk once a week, or maybe Vinie

1256
01:36:52.600 --> 01:36:59.880
doing a show. I don't know. When I have my

1257
01:37:00.000 --> 01:37:02.439
appendix out. When I was about twelve, that was brilliant.

1258
01:37:02.479 --> 01:37:06.000
I loved that. I loved everything about that. There was

1259
01:37:06.039 --> 01:37:09.319
a few moments when I was embarrassed. There was one

1260
01:37:09.359 --> 01:37:19.239
particular time when all I wanted to do is I

1261
01:37:19.359 --> 01:37:22.840
don't know why I didn't just go over there, but

1262
01:37:23.000 --> 01:37:25.319
I think at this point I wasn't really supposed to

1263
01:37:25.399 --> 01:37:27.760
leave my bed because it was just after the op,

1264
01:37:28.199 --> 01:37:29.880
so they didn't want to me putting pressure on the

1265
01:37:29.960 --> 01:37:30.920
stitches and stuff.

1266
01:37:34.920 --> 01:37:38.239
But I thought I got a way around this, so

1267
01:37:38.359 --> 01:37:43.760
I put my hand up, I said miss and that

1268
01:37:43.760 --> 01:37:46.279
I actually got up and I started walking towards the

1269
01:37:46.960 --> 01:37:49.760
hallway because that's where there was a box of comics

1270
01:37:49.800 --> 01:37:51.840
and I wanted to have a look at the comics.

1271
01:37:53.199 --> 01:37:55.319
To see what was in there. I think there was

1272
01:37:55.399 --> 01:37:59.079
like X Men comics and stuff like that. And the

1273
01:37:59.199 --> 01:38:03.840
nurse we're going. I said, I'm just going to go

1274
01:38:04.079 --> 01:38:06.680
to the toilet. She said, no, turn around. You know

1275
01:38:06.720 --> 01:38:09.600
you're not allowed to walk around until the stitches are

1276
01:38:10.199 --> 01:38:17.680
a bit more cemented. I said, okay, so I go

1277
01:38:17.920 --> 01:38:19.239
just to get back in bed. She said, no, no,

1278
01:38:19.399 --> 01:38:24.079
if you just if you can just stand there, and

1279
01:38:26.680 --> 01:38:34.640
she pulled out this. I actually thought they were hats,

1280
01:38:34.920 --> 01:38:41.560
but they're not hats, like a cardboard hat, and she yeah,

1281
01:38:42.399 --> 01:38:47.359
she pulled one of them out. Apparently I did. I

1282
01:38:47.439 --> 01:38:50.800
thought people laughing because they were enjoyed my dance in

1283
01:38:50.880 --> 01:38:56.119
my comedy routine, but apparently it's because that's not what

1284
01:38:56.199 --> 01:39:00.880
they were for. So she got me to she said, well,

1285
01:39:00.960 --> 01:39:03.880
now do we weies in. I don't know if she

1286
01:39:03.920 --> 01:39:06.560
said those words when I was twelve, so I don't

1287
01:39:06.600 --> 01:39:08.279
know if that was the right thing.

1288
01:39:08.800 --> 01:39:15.319
But anyway, at this point, at this junction in my life,

1289
01:39:15.680 --> 01:39:19.760
I was a teenager. I was getting onto being a teenager.

1290
01:39:23.079 --> 01:39:27.279
I was self conscious about my body. I also had

1291
01:39:27.319 --> 01:39:31.880
a huge interest in the ladies in females. At this time,

1292
01:39:32.720 --> 01:39:38.279
especially older women loved really. They had no interest in me.

1293
01:39:38.880 --> 01:39:40.000
I was interested in them.

1294
01:39:41.319 --> 01:39:43.880
And there was a particular nurse Therecord Nurse Nichols, that

1295
01:39:44.079 --> 01:39:49.039
I was in love with. I've been in love many times,

1296
01:39:50.039 --> 01:39:52.680
especially when I was a kid, constantly in love with women.

1297
01:39:54.520 --> 01:40:02.039
And yeah, but anyway, I don't think it was Nurse Nichols,

1298
01:40:02.119 --> 01:40:05.119
but it's a different nurse another. They were all nice,

1299
01:40:05.920 --> 01:40:08.119
but she came like friendly. I mean, she came over

1300
01:40:09.920 --> 01:40:11.479
and she said, just do it in here. I said,

1301
01:40:11.520 --> 01:40:13.159
it's okay. He says, no, that's why I hold it.

1302
01:40:14.840 --> 01:40:20.600
This is the cardboard thing, I mean. And it was

1303
01:40:20.640 --> 01:40:25.680
among the most embarrassing things that I've done because I

1304
01:40:25.720 --> 01:40:27.760
didn't need to go to the toilet. I didn't need

1305
01:40:27.800 --> 01:40:34.760
a wee wee. So I'm standing there with my you know, aimed.

1306
01:40:38.279 --> 01:40:47.880
And nothing happened, and I was talking to her. I

1307
01:40:47.960 --> 01:40:49.439
just wish you'd look at me in the eyes. That's

1308
01:40:49.479 --> 01:40:52.439
all I wanted. Just just look up here. My face

1309
01:40:52.520 --> 01:40:58.439
is up here. And it was so embarrassing.

1310
01:40:58.920 --> 01:41:02.000
The weird thing about it is even more embarrassing really

1311
01:41:02.079 --> 01:41:05.840
when I think about it, because at the time she

1312
01:41:06.079 --> 01:41:10.560
was an old woman, you know, I was twelve.

1313
01:41:11.319 --> 01:41:14.479
She was I mean old, as in she was old,

1314
01:41:15.800 --> 01:41:19.920
but in reality the nurses might have only been like

1315
01:41:20.039 --> 01:41:24.439
eighteen nineteen, so they were young. But because I was

1316
01:41:24.520 --> 01:41:26.760
so young, they all seemed really old. They might be

1317
01:41:26.920 --> 01:41:31.239
my twenties. So the fact is these were.

1318
01:41:33.079 --> 01:41:37.279
Young women, which makes it more embarrassing. But I was

1319
01:41:37.600 --> 01:41:47.760
I couldn't, I couldn't go weeries and yeah, that wasn't.

1320
01:41:47.840 --> 01:41:52.279
I didn't didn't enjoy that, which just goes to show

1321
01:41:52.279 --> 01:41:59.880
I suppose that was another another you know, learning moment

1322
01:42:00.199 --> 01:42:05.399
about not lying. I suppose, but I didn't. I didn't

1323
01:42:05.439 --> 01:42:13.439
really feel that I was lying. Technically, I suppose I was,

1324
01:42:14.640 --> 01:42:18.279
but it didn't really feel that way. I was just

1325
01:42:18.680 --> 01:42:25.119
telling FIBs because I wanted to. I wanted to read

1326
01:42:25.159 --> 01:42:33.560
a comic. But the problem is at that time I

1327
01:42:33.720 --> 01:42:37.640
was still getting the Dandy and looking and I was

1328
01:42:37.680 --> 01:42:40.039
probably a bit too old for those comics, so I said,

1329
01:42:40.079 --> 01:42:43.600
don't bring them in. But the comics they had for

1330
01:42:43.720 --> 01:42:46.039
the kids were a little bit older than what I

1331
01:42:46.079 --> 01:42:47.439
would normally look at.

1332
01:42:51.279 --> 01:42:54.600
And I've never seen any of the whole thing you've

1333
01:42:54.680 --> 01:42:58.119
noticed is a fly again. I've never seen any of

1334
01:42:58.239 --> 01:43:02.760
these superhero comics before because My brothers didn't used to

1335
01:43:02.840 --> 01:43:06.840
get those kind of comics, although I think one of

1336
01:43:06.880 --> 01:43:11.840
them did start to. But I used to get Looking

1337
01:43:12.279 --> 01:43:17.479
and the Dandy every week. My brother that was two

1338
01:43:17.600 --> 01:43:21.680
years older than me used to get The Beano and

1339
01:43:21.880 --> 01:43:26.439
Wizard and Chips. And my oldest brother, who was four

1340
01:43:26.520 --> 01:43:29.640
years older than me, I think he used to get

1341
01:43:29.720 --> 01:43:36.239
a football magazine and a warm magazine because there used

1342
01:43:36.239 --> 01:43:39.560
to be a lot of that stuff back in the

1343
01:43:40.119 --> 01:43:43.199
late seventies early eighties.

1344
01:43:43.600 --> 01:43:47.319
There's but yeah, I think he might have had a

1345
01:43:48.800 --> 01:43:53.000
roy of the Rovers or something was a comic that

1346
01:43:53.079 --> 01:43:56.880
he might have gotten, and but of course it might

1347
01:43:56.920 --> 01:44:01.680
have changed. I'm sure one of them started getting superhero comics.

1348
01:44:02.800 --> 01:44:07.680
So I got this this memory of seeing Wolverine, and

1349
01:44:09.640 --> 01:44:14.800
I struggled to follow this story because the graphics were amazing,

1350
01:44:15.399 --> 01:44:19.800
but I couldn't always see figure out who was saying

1351
01:44:19.920 --> 01:44:23.640
what and why, And because the story is carried on

1352
01:44:23.840 --> 01:44:28.960
from the previous week or the previous comic, there seemed

1353
01:44:29.000 --> 01:44:33.279
to be a lack of consistency, or I suppose maybe

1354
01:44:33.359 --> 01:44:38.600
too much consistency depends on how you look at it. Yeah,

1355
01:44:38.800 --> 01:44:42.880
so I just wanted to look at the comics. That's

1356
01:44:42.920 --> 01:44:46.359
all it was, but other than that, it was the

1357
01:44:46.720 --> 01:44:52.239
bestest time of my childhood. Being in that hospital was brilliant.

1358
01:44:52.439 --> 01:44:57.279
So not all everyone, one of the doctors, not so much,

1359
01:44:57.479 --> 01:45:01.039
but all of the nurses.

1360
01:45:05.199 --> 01:45:06.079
You know, it was.

1361
01:45:11.159 --> 01:45:15.680
Yeah, it was okay, it was more than okay. I

1362
01:45:15.920 --> 01:45:19.359
enjoyed it. It was a nice time. It was lovely

1363
01:45:19.439 --> 01:45:22.039
to have a break from school, have a break from

1364
01:45:23.119 --> 01:45:26.680
family life. That was lovely. Just to be away from everyone.

1365
01:45:27.760 --> 01:45:33.800
It was just spectacularly wonderful. I stayed in there for

1366
01:45:35.279 --> 01:45:38.520
a long time because I loved it. I got so

1367
01:45:38.720 --> 01:45:43.920
well with the other kids, and yeah, I didn't feel

1368
01:45:45.760 --> 01:45:47.760
I mean, I just didn't feel out of my depth.

1369
01:45:47.920 --> 01:45:53.760
I didn't feel self conscious. We just had fun and

1370
01:45:54.119 --> 01:45:57.319
I probably never laughed as much as I did then

1371
01:45:58.000 --> 01:46:01.720
as the first time I'd laughed. It's almost like the

1372
01:46:01.760 --> 01:46:06.239
first time I felt free, really without restrictions of I

1373
01:46:06.279 --> 01:46:09.800
suppose adults in a way, and brothers, so I didn't

1374
01:46:09.840 --> 01:46:12.239
have any known people around and I could just be

1375
01:46:12.520 --> 01:46:18.600
myself without I don't know, there was I don't know

1376
01:46:18.760 --> 01:46:20.840
how to explain it. It was just nice. It was

1377
01:46:20.920 --> 01:46:21.880
so nice. I loved it.

1378
01:46:23.199 --> 01:46:27.600
And I'm going to go because Vinnie started barking, a

1379
01:46:27.720 --> 01:46:30.680
few doors being slammed, and music's gone up downstairs. So

1380
01:46:32.279 --> 01:46:35.680
I realized I haven't really gone in depth about talking

1381
01:46:35.720 --> 01:46:40.159
about being boring, hospital, boring objects and stuff.

1382
01:46:43.239 --> 01:46:48.199
I attempted it. So give me two out of ten.

1383
01:46:48.319 --> 01:46:50.640
Please give me a even know if it's a loanmark,

1384
01:46:51.439 --> 01:46:56.159
give me a low mark. I don't mind. So thank

1385
01:46:56.199 --> 01:47:00.319
you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because

1386
01:47:00.359 --> 01:47:03.880
you do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself.

1387
01:47:04.279 --> 01:47:07.640
You deserve to feel safe, lots of love.

1388
01:47:10.760 --> 01:47:11.000
Bye.

1389
01:47:20.239 --> 01:47:34.720
Relax in a more deep and meaningful way, maybe in

1390
01:47:34.840 --> 01:47:40.359
a way that can not just allow you to feel

1391
01:47:41.760 --> 01:47:50.880
calmer now and throughout the time we've spend together here,

1392
01:47:53.039 --> 01:47:58.720
not just relaxed at the end of the recording when

1393
01:47:58.760 --> 01:48:05.359
it's finished and you can enjoy that sense of comfort

1394
01:48:05.600 --> 01:48:20.479
and peace, but also I think it would be nice

1395
01:48:20.600 --> 01:48:40.359
to have those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after

1396
01:48:40.479 --> 01:48:51.039
the recording has ended, so that you can still benefit

1397
01:48:53.960 --> 01:49:01.199
from listening to my voice, maybe in a few hours time,

1398
01:49:03.119 --> 01:49:16.560
perhaps tomorrow, and then by listening regularly, especially if you

1399
01:49:16.760 --> 01:49:22.000
find like some people do and myself as well. Sometimes

1400
01:49:22.039 --> 01:49:28.319
I find one particular recording that really resonates with me,

1401
01:49:32.680 --> 01:49:35.039
and I just listen to it over and over again

1402
01:49:37.319 --> 01:49:50.319
every morning, every evening. There was this recording from We're

1403
01:49:50.399 --> 01:49:55.000
going back to about nineteen ninety nine. It was it

1404
01:49:55.119 --> 01:50:01.479
wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided visualizations was hypnosis, really,

1405
01:50:04.000 --> 01:50:09.119
and I managed to find it again and it still

1406
01:50:09.239 --> 01:50:14.680
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1407
01:50:15.000 --> 01:50:29.720
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1408
01:50:31.840 --> 01:50:38.279
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1409
01:50:38.439 --> 01:50:49.079
morning and in the evening, and I knew before even

1410
01:50:49.880 --> 01:50:56.960
pressing the play button that as soon as I'd done that,

1411
01:50:58.039 --> 01:51:01.439
pressed the play button. This is in the days of

1412
01:51:06.560 --> 01:51:15.760
CD players, press the play button, ifact it might have

1413
01:51:15.840 --> 01:51:20.279
even been a tape recorder. I'd lie down on the

1414
01:51:20.359 --> 01:51:33.720
bed and then even without necessarily listening to her words

1415
01:51:37.079 --> 01:51:46.399
because I had them memorized. Really, it was as if

1416
01:51:46.479 --> 01:51:57.680
my body knew exactly what to do, and the muscles

1417
01:51:57.960 --> 01:52:19.279
just almost went into automatic relaxation, and I remember my

1418
01:52:19.520 --> 01:52:33.399
mind would slow down. Now. Now, I was listening to

1419
01:52:33.520 --> 01:52:42.720
this recording in the early days of learning hypnosis, and

1420
01:52:43.000 --> 01:52:51.840
long before I ever made any videos or audio recordings myself,

1421
01:52:53.079 --> 01:52:56.399
because I didn't start doing that till two thousand and six.

1422
01:53:03.359 --> 01:53:19.279
I knew. I knew how helpful I found being able

1423
01:53:19.359 --> 01:53:28.399
to just let go, to have that trust in the

1424
01:53:28.520 --> 01:53:38.880
person that I'm listening to, knowing that it's going to

1425
01:53:38.960 --> 01:53:49.680
be just as relaxing, if not more so. Each time

1426
01:53:50.000 --> 01:54:02.479
you hear my voice, you may feel the same. Some

1427
01:54:02.840 --> 01:54:09.439
people have been listening to me for over a decade,

1428
01:54:17.880 --> 01:54:21.880
maybe not solidly, obviously not twenty four hours a day,

1429
01:54:23.640 --> 01:54:30.680
but maybe people come back. Some people maybe listen every day.

1430
01:54:41.920 --> 01:54:47.840
That's something that I do which you may not realize

1431
01:54:50.279 --> 01:55:05.760
by listening, is I record these recordings.

1432
01:55:07.479 --> 01:55:07.680
Now.

1433
01:55:08.039 --> 01:55:20.520
For example, I also am affected by the words that

1434
01:55:20.680 --> 01:55:32.800
I say. So if I set you focus on your feet,

1435
01:55:35.359 --> 01:55:43.079
notice your feet relaxing, I will be focusing on my feet.

1436
01:55:48.000 --> 01:56:05.359
I will be noticing my feet relaxing. If I said,

1437
01:56:05.520 --> 01:56:13.159
focus on your hands, and maybe notice the difference between

1438
01:56:13.279 --> 01:56:24.079
each hand, perhaps notice the air in the room, the

1439
01:56:24.239 --> 01:56:28.840
temperature of the room. On the backs of your hands.

1440
01:56:36.680 --> 01:56:40.479
You may start to notice what almost feels like a

1441
01:56:40.680 --> 01:56:48.600
very light breeze, even though there may not be any

1442
01:56:49.159 --> 01:56:53.880
type of breeze at all where you are right now.

1443
01:57:02.239 --> 01:57:12.800
And as you become aware of your hands, I'm also

1444
01:57:13.199 --> 01:57:41.359
aware of how relaxed my hands are feeling now, and

1445
01:57:41.560 --> 01:57:48.439
when it comes to potentially drifting off to sleep, which

1446
01:57:48.560 --> 01:58:01.720
may be the reason you're listening, I also feel drowsy

1447
01:58:04.960 --> 01:58:18.399
when I make these recordings. I also notice my mind drifting.

1448
01:58:26.319 --> 01:58:38.880
In fact, at times I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing,

1449
01:58:43.800 --> 01:58:52.880
and then I carry on talking. And it's only where

1450
01:58:53.239 --> 01:59:02.279
I listen back to do the editing. H I hear snoring,

1451
01:59:04.239 --> 01:59:11.479
and I think, I don't remember snoring. I remember talking.

1452
01:59:14.319 --> 01:59:21.439
Is it snoring? Was a pick turned up? That's why

1453
01:59:21.520 --> 01:59:29.079
I sound like when I snare, how I get really

1454
01:59:29.399 --> 01:59:42.760
into a whole experience. I don't know how you feel.

1455
01:59:49.039 --> 01:59:55.560
How relaxed do you feel in your feet, how relaxed

1456
01:59:59.439 --> 02:00:20.520
you feel in your hands. I have noticed more and

1457
02:00:20.720 --> 02:00:39.560
more that the more relaxed, deeper level of comfort you feel,

1458
02:00:43.279 --> 02:00:59.399
the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost like that additional

1459
02:01:02.600 --> 02:01:25.960
muscle relaxation. So this allows you debreath easier without necessarily

1460
02:01:28.800 --> 02:01:56.439
focusing on your breath. However, being able to notice the

1461
02:01:56.840 --> 02:02:26.720
ease in which you breathe so naturally, you breathe so

1462
02:02:27.079 --> 02:03:10.359
very easily and smoothly. Whenever I imagine my breathing improving.

1463
02:03:16.079 --> 02:03:29.359
When I've got my eyes closed, I tend to visualize

1464
02:03:31.520 --> 02:03:45.880
a beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that

1465
02:03:47.960 --> 02:04:20.720
life giving oxygen. It feels nice to, if nothing else,

1466
02:04:23.960 --> 02:04:58.039
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

1467
02:04:58.439 --> 02:05:48.920
of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

1468
02:05:49.239 --> 02:06:24.319
just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply, peaceful,

1469
02:06:34.279 --> 02:07:16.359
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely

1470
02:07:16.760 --> 02:08:12.039
free noticin that your mind has slowed down, slowed down

1471
02:08:34.520 --> 02:09:02.840
because nothing really requires your attention. You can enjoy the

1472
02:09:03.079 --> 02:09:14.960
physical sensations of allowing the stress to drip out of

1473
02:09:15.079 --> 02:09:35.079
your body, dripping out of every part of your body

1474
02:09:45.079 --> 02:10:18.880
and being released from your brain. Change your mind slowly

1475
02:10:23.560 --> 02:11:03.000
but surely. The muscles in your legs relax res rexs

1476
02:11:07.560 --> 02:11:48.239
so very deeply, relas so deeply, And the feelings, the

1477
02:11:48.479 --> 02:12:13.760
pleasant feelings in your arms and shoulders, deepening each part

1478
02:12:13.920 --> 02:12:54.840
of your body further and deeper and deeper noticine, the

1479
02:12:55.000 --> 02:13:21.319
feelings in the back of your neck, m the feelings

1480
02:13:21.520 --> 02:14:10.319
in your wrists, muscles in front of your body. I

1481
02:14:10.560 --> 02:14:59.560
also feeding, peaceful, deeping. There's a sense of peace spreads

1482
02:15:00.079 --> 02:15:39.600
through your very core. Even when you focus on your mind,

1483
02:15:51.520 --> 02:17:03.479
your mind becomes a slower and deeper relaxing, so very slow,

1484
02:17:22.680 --> 02:18:19.319
your stomach taste felling your stomach. He'll back. Notice, Notice

1485
02:18:19.559 --> 02:18:37.959
how relaxed you never feel in the hall of your back.

1486
02:19:03.120 --> 02:19:10.760
In a spy from your brain all the way down

1487
02:19:12.120 --> 02:19:21.959
the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of

1488
02:19:22.239 --> 02:20:50.200
messages every day, deecomfort increasing deeply relaxed, your knees, les,

1489
02:20:54.120 --> 02:21:04.079
spreading those signals down a spinal cord into air, every

1490
02:21:04.360 --> 02:21:23.040
part of your body, your sins and your calf muscles,

1491
02:21:50.280 --> 02:22:17.959
your elbows, m h. Feelings of peace and tranquility spreading

1492
02:22:18.760 --> 02:22:31.200
through your body, tips of your toes, to your eyes,

1493
02:22:35.600 --> 02:22:54.040
your fingers, all the way till you lower back and

1494
02:22:54.479 --> 02:23:57.079
letting her reating m pace, drifting mind. Just want in

1495
02:23:57.200 --> 02:24:22.120
a way happy to let go, let go completely, let go,

1496
02:24:47.680 --> 02:25:45.079
so tranquil your whole body enjoying a sensor listing go

1497
02:25:48.799 --> 02:27:45.079
heven more eight, enjoy the space, this space.

1498
02:27:47.680 --> 02:27:48.719
Of peace.

1499
02:27:51.959 --> 02:30:14.959
And safety, fay Rex, letting go. Maybe we can just

1500
02:30:17.879 --> 02:30:26.639
focus on the different parts of your body, just to

1501
02:30:26.959 --> 02:31:55.840
notice your forehead and your eyes actual solace, not to say,

1502
02:31:55.840 --> 02:33:31.239
in the sense of company, late freedom, absolute freedom, dress, day, dress, days, fall, energy,

1503
02:34:04.200 --> 02:35:19.840
pace to breathe, such easy lis you may have you

1504
02:35:20.120 --> 02:36:20.520
may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful move ay

1505
02:36:20.600 --> 02:36:40.799
even more deeply in the direction of total blissful pace,

1506
02:36:45.040 --> 02:38:48.799
blissful pace, total peace Colm Sir calm lett him go

1507
02:39:13.760 --> 02:40:25.239
peace of mind rex body c rex cra. A body

1508
02:40:26.000 --> 02:40:57.840
feels almost invisible, so very relaxed and peaceful, So.

1509
02:41:05.559 --> 02:41:06.000
A s.

1510
02:41:22.200 --> 02:42:05.680
R like God. I'm swip so s sas. And you

1511
02:42:05.799 --> 02:42:12.959
could start to notice that you are feeling more relaxed,

1512
02:42:15.959 --> 02:42:25.680
even though I've not purposely focused your mind upon that

1513
02:42:27.040 --> 02:42:33.120
sense of physical comfort that is growing within you throughout

1514
02:42:33.239 --> 02:42:46.040
your body, and your mind starts to slow down, and

1515
02:42:46.159 --> 02:42:53.639
that could be almost in recognition of I guess my

1516
02:42:53.920 --> 02:43:08.639
speech not being particularly fast, and things just generally feel calmer.

1517
02:43:12.200 --> 02:43:20.159
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1518
02:43:20.200 --> 02:43:28.159
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1519
02:43:28.280 --> 02:43:35.920
break from your life as it is, and to give

1520
02:43:35.959 --> 02:43:44.040
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1521
02:43:44.200 --> 02:43:51.600
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1522
02:43:51.840 --> 02:44:02.159
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1523
02:44:02.360 --> 02:44:12.959
tension any stresses that you had in your body. It's

1524
02:44:13.000 --> 02:44:17.520
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1525
02:44:18.879 --> 02:44:30.520
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1526
02:44:31.399 --> 02:44:40.879
that negativity with positive healing energy, which then fills your

1527
02:44:40.959 --> 02:44:52.799
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1528
02:44:53.680 --> 02:45:07.000
those feelings of increasing confidence. That's an almost uplifting feeling,

1529
02:45:09.079 --> 02:45:23.120
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1530
02:45:23.239 --> 02:45:33.520
a wave of comfort. And all this comes from just

1531
02:45:37.079 --> 02:45:45.840
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1532
02:45:45.959 --> 02:45:56.200
long you want it to be, just rest and allow

1533
02:45:58.799 --> 02:46:08.760
your mind and your body to almost reset itself to

1534
02:46:09.479 --> 02:46:25.079
the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows more

1535
02:46:25.280 --> 02:46:38.600
room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move around

1536
02:46:38.920 --> 02:46:47.120
your body and into your mind, almost as if your

1537
02:46:47.280 --> 02:46:58.280
mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring each other,

1538
02:46:59.319 --> 02:47:11.360
with that growing positivity and calmness. And it feels nice,

1539
02:47:14.000 --> 02:47:19.879
really does feel nice to know that you are the

1540
02:47:20.040 --> 02:47:33.319
one that has allowed yourself to feel more comfort and

1541
02:47:33.559 --> 02:47:47.399
to experience more of this deep relaxation spreading throughout your body.

1542
02:47:54.399 --> 02:47:59.719
And as I focus on each part of your body,

1543
02:48:02.120 --> 02:48:14.159
you can notice that that part becomes even more relaxed

1544
02:48:16.200 --> 02:48:25.000
just by focusing on it, it becomes even more calm

1545
02:48:25.280 --> 02:48:30.200
and comfortable. Just by focusing.

1546
02:48:34.239 --> 02:48:40.000
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1547
02:48:42.760 --> 02:48:48.000
the parts that you have already focused on or continue

1548
02:48:49.399 --> 02:48:56.479
to relax deeply, and those parts that have not yet

1549
02:48:56.680 --> 02:49:01.799
focused on or just automatically.

1550
02:49:04.760 --> 02:49:13.520
Release any remain intention in anticipation of even more comfort

1551
02:49:14.879 --> 02:49:25.559
about to come. Now, I'm going to start by focusing

1552
02:49:26.239 --> 02:49:32.959
on your forehead. Just being aware the feelings of your

1553
02:49:33.079 --> 02:49:45.639
forehead and any background sounds like mister Herbert Opigeon can

1554
02:49:45.799 --> 02:49:53.079
just allow you to feel even more relaxed. Just means

1555
02:49:53.200 --> 02:49:59.399
you're in the moment. This isn't this isn't a sterile

1556
02:49:59.600 --> 02:50:07.680
environ moments, this is the world. I live in the countryside,

1557
02:50:09.319 --> 02:50:19.280
so there's lots of nature sounds around. So as you

1558
02:50:19.440 --> 02:50:25.719
focus on your forehead, just notice how it becomes even

1559
02:50:26.760 --> 02:50:36.319
more relaxed as you focus only on my voice and

1560
02:50:36.520 --> 02:50:44.920
that part of your body. Moving down to your eyes,

1561
02:50:47.000 --> 02:50:58.120
focusing on your eyes, noticing how your eyelids feel so

1562
02:50:58.479 --> 02:51:08.200
heavy yet so light at the same time, and all

1563
02:51:08.239 --> 02:51:19.520
the muscles around your eyes relaxing completely. Moving your focus

1564
02:51:21.040 --> 02:51:27.680
down to your mouth, your lips, your tongue, your teeth

1565
02:51:27.760 --> 02:51:28.959
and your gums.

1566
02:51:30.959 --> 02:51:32.760
The whole of your mouth.

1567
02:51:34.319 --> 02:51:48.799
Relaxing, calm and loose. As you focus now on your jaw,

1568
02:51:52.200 --> 02:51:56.239
just the part of your jaw near your mouth and

1569
02:51:56.360 --> 02:52:00.600
your chin, but all the way up the size of

1570
02:52:00.719 --> 02:52:07.360
your face to your ears, the hole of your jaw,

1571
02:52:10.040 --> 02:52:37.159
feeling more relaxed and calm. Focusing on your neck, the

1572
02:52:37.280 --> 02:52:44.760
front of your neck and your throat relaxing and loose

1573
02:52:45.520 --> 02:52:55.680
and calm. The sides of your neck, right and left

1574
02:52:55.920 --> 02:53:14.360
side of your neck lax and loose and calm. And

1575
02:53:14.600 --> 02:53:21.559
now the back of your neck. Focusing on the back

1576
02:53:21.799 --> 02:53:32.040
of your neck, letting go with any tension that may

1577
02:53:32.079 --> 02:53:42.639
have been there before, and enjoying that sense of increasing

1578
02:53:44.239 --> 02:53:52.799
comfort and release that you can experience in the back

1579
02:53:52.879 --> 02:54:05.360
of your neck and down your back, and moving either

1580
02:54:05.559 --> 02:54:09.639
side of your spine right from the top of your

1581
02:54:09.760 --> 02:54:15.280
back all the way down to the bottom of your

1582
02:54:15.360 --> 02:54:32.920
back down to your lower back. As you move up

1583
02:54:33.000 --> 02:54:41.799
and down your spine, you can feel the muscles either

1584
02:54:41.959 --> 02:54:55.479
side of your spine relaxing even more, and as those

1585
02:54:55.639 --> 02:55:04.719
muscles relax, that sense of comfort starts to spread outwards

1586
02:55:06.680 --> 02:55:16.239
from your spine into both sides of your back. The

1587
02:55:16.360 --> 02:55:19.879
top of your back, the middle and your lower back.

1588
02:55:23.399 --> 02:55:30.520
And as you scan gently and slowly up and down

1589
02:55:30.760 --> 02:55:35.799
your back, there's the muscles in the top of your

1590
02:55:35.879 --> 02:55:45.840
back relax and become looser. The muscles in the middle

1591
02:55:45.879 --> 02:55:53.200
of your back also seem to just almost divide from

1592
02:55:53.280 --> 02:56:06.680
each other, separating and almost melting. And in your lower

1593
02:56:06.760 --> 02:56:18.319
back there seems to be an extra special feeling of comfort.

1594
02:56:23.600 --> 02:56:29.719
The spreads into your hips. Sit down your lower back,

1595
02:56:30.040 --> 02:56:38.000
into your hips, into the area where your cosis are,

1596
02:56:41.600 --> 02:56:50.559
and into your buttocks, and alas muscles that spread in

1597
02:56:50.799 --> 02:57:00.280
your lower back into your hip area start to out,

1598
02:57:04.719 --> 02:57:17.000
start to reading, let go, and you know where about

1599
02:57:17.159 --> 02:57:23.159
to focus on your shoulders. Your back and your spine

1600
02:57:24.239 --> 02:57:41.000
will continue to let go, continue to relax so calmly,

1601
02:57:45.680 --> 02:57:50.600
and then you focus on your shoulders. You may notice

1602
02:57:51.040 --> 02:58:22.360
they're already feeling really loose, already feeding calm and fear.

1603
02:58:26.680 --> 02:58:35.000
Those muscles then move from your neck into your shoulders.

1604
02:58:41.559 --> 02:59:10.959
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

1605
02:59:11.159 --> 02:59:24.000
the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1606
02:59:24.079 --> 02:59:34.479
your shoulders, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1607
02:59:34.879 --> 02:59:51.879
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1608
02:59:51.959 --> 03:00:00.760
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing whole area

1609
03:00:01.000 --> 03:00:10.719
between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms healing.

1610
03:00:16.159 --> 03:00:29.239
You feel so relaxed and comfortable in your shoulders, which

1611
03:00:29.440 --> 03:00:30.239
sense that.

1612
03:00:32.520 --> 03:00:34.479
Deep healing.

1613
03:00:37.520 --> 03:00:55.000
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1614
03:00:55.079 --> 03:01:04.840
your arms are not even there, because there's relaxed, so

1615
03:01:06.440 --> 03:01:55.000
deeply relaxed, so side calm, so the feeling spreading all

1616
03:01:55.680 --> 03:02:19.799
way down your arms into elbows, including your elbows circumfort

1617
03:02:20.079 --> 03:02:36.399
spreads or away into wrists, your forearments and your wrists

1618
03:02:43.200 --> 03:03:03.479
so heavy. Yet at the same time sunlight and gentle

1619
03:03:28.200 --> 03:03:29.239
fork sin.

1620
03:03:31.440 --> 03:03:32.440
Now on.

1621
03:03:35.120 --> 03:04:05.120
Your hands, hands, so.

1622
03:04:06.479 --> 03:04:29.719
Peaceful in your hands, the sense of.

1623
03:04:33.200 --> 03:04:34.639
Real pace.

1624
03:04:46.440 --> 03:04:59.840
It just seems to feel s familion on your head

1625
03:05:00.440 --> 03:06:09.600
for thats tape else I think else things sidish.

1626
03:06:37.520 --> 03:06:38.719
You think it taps.

1627
03:07:07.360 --> 03:07:37.920
Moving your attention to front your body so comfortable, moving

1628
03:07:38.200 --> 03:07:42.399
your focus to legs.

1629
03:08:21.040 --> 03:09:02.760
Us love muscles.

1630
03:09:04.200 --> 03:09:58.319
In your thighs and knaves, I relaxed, carve musculs and

1631
03:09:58.559 --> 03:10:00.040
just shades.

1632
03:11:18.760 --> 03:11:24.239
Us to.

1633
03:11:49.879 --> 03:11:53.920
Be reading.

1634
03:12:03.479 --> 03:12:25.079
In the feathing in your faints. So peaceful, circom sit peaceful,

1635
03:12:32.200 --> 03:13:27.559
sircomm sir peaceful cyclm so peace fall re same.

1636
03:13:32.559 --> 03:13:47.200
Peace fall, c calm, have that.

1637
03:13:47.680 --> 03:14:08.399
Deep relaxation to spread your chest, storm l letting go.

1638
03:14:12.520 --> 03:14:13.200
Everything.

1639
03:14:24.440 --> 03:14:29.840
So I'm going to start counting down now from twenty

1640
03:14:30.239 --> 03:14:38.360
down to one. You can imagine in a way it's

1641
03:14:38.559 --> 03:14:44.680
like just walking down some steps and each step or

1642
03:14:44.840 --> 03:14:50.840
twenty steps, and each step represents a level of comfort,

1643
03:14:54.319 --> 03:15:09.680
each step represents a deepening of that comfort, and the

1644
03:15:09.920 --> 03:15:16.000
fervies you walk down those steps, the deeper and more

1645
03:15:16.040 --> 03:16:11.639
relaxed you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty nineteenhhhhhh

1646
03:16:32.440 --> 03:18:02.479
eighteen seventeen sixteen s.

1647
03:18:26.000 --> 03:19:31.239
Which sustains.

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03:19:13.959 --> 03:22:05.040
Fiften four FI two US two.

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03:25:20.639 --> 03:26:14.000
No H.

1650
03:26:23.319 --> 03:32:06.200
Eight seven US issues six five four.

1651
03:32:02.760 --> 03:34:06.920
Us ussis.

1652
03:36:03.639 --> 03:36:04.319
And now.

1653
03:36:08.680 --> 03:36:21.360
As you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count down

1654
03:36:21.760 --> 03:36:32.879
from ten down to one, focusing just on your eyes,

1655
03:36:36.639 --> 03:36:45.159
your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eye walls themselves,

1656
03:36:46.680 --> 03:37:03.719
a whole area that makes up your eye. And as

1657
03:37:03.799 --> 03:37:12.319
we count down ten down to one, whilst focus in

1658
03:37:12.600 --> 03:37:27.280
on your eyes, you will become twice is relaxed with

1659
03:37:27.680 --> 03:37:40.639
each number counting down that you may find the all

1660
03:37:40.719 --> 03:37:46.920
you want to do is just drift off to sleep.

1661
03:37:49.920 --> 03:37:56.520
And if that's what you want, then just allow yourself

1662
03:37:56.639 --> 03:38:11.000
to do that. Now focus in on your eyes. I'm

1663
03:38:11.079 --> 03:38:16.639
going to begin counting down from ten down to one

1664
03:38:20.840 --> 03:44:51.399
right now, ten nine eight seven four.

1665
03:44:53.559 --> 03:47:09.280
Three us.

1666
03:47:27.680 --> 03:47:49.000
One. So counting down from ten to one ten nine

1667
03:47:50.680 --> 03:48:18.399
eight seven six five four three two one. And maybe

1668
03:48:18.559 --> 03:48:21.440
that was a bit too quick in order to relax.

1669
03:48:22.680 --> 03:48:26.920
Maybe it's a bit too fast for you to notice

1670
03:48:27.200 --> 03:48:35.239
the calming of your body, maybe even a little bit

1671
03:48:35.280 --> 03:48:39.399
of pressure there, like you're counting down from ten to one.

1672
03:48:39.520 --> 03:48:42.879
Would you expect me to do? Man, expect me to

1673
03:48:42.959 --> 03:48:52.520
STI go with floppy just because you're counting down. We

1674
03:48:52.600 --> 03:48:56.000
could try it again, but this time I'll go this

1675
03:48:56.200 --> 03:49:03.479
slower this time, as you focus on the whole of

1676
03:49:03.559 --> 03:49:10.360
your body before we focus on your legs. Just notice

1677
03:49:11.920 --> 03:49:24.719
how your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1678
03:49:26.000 --> 03:49:50.000
every number that I count down ten nine eight seven

1679
03:49:59.159 --> 03:50:26.879
six five four three.

1680
03:51:01.239 --> 03:51:01.479
One.

1681
03:51:12.840 --> 03:51:18.520
And just notice how how you feel generally, how your

1682
03:51:18.559 --> 03:51:33.440
body feels. It's not necessarily even about counting down from

1683
03:51:33.520 --> 03:51:41.159
ten to one. It's that space that you have, that

1684
03:51:43.799 --> 03:52:04.719
space between being active physically or mentally to just sitting

1685
03:52:04.959 --> 03:52:09.719
or lying down, just being there, not doing anything, not

1686
03:52:10.040 --> 03:52:17.079
saying anything, or needing to think about anything. So it

1687
03:52:17.200 --> 03:52:20.719
opens up a space, you know, a bit of a space,

1688
03:52:21.719 --> 03:52:31.559
a gap. And the more I came down from ten

1689
03:52:31.639 --> 03:52:39.000
to one, the bigger that gap becomes. So there's that

1690
03:52:39.239 --> 03:52:51.840
gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation. It's a nice feeling,

1691
03:52:57.399 --> 03:53:06.079
and it moves these stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally,

1692
03:53:06.799 --> 03:53:07.840
moves them.

1693
03:53:09.440 --> 03:53:09.799
Away.

1694
03:53:16.559 --> 03:53:17.520
Allows you.

1695
03:53:20.239 --> 03:53:20.760
To just.

1696
03:53:23.760 --> 03:53:30.479
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1697
03:53:30.879 --> 03:53:41.120
and notice that gap widening, the gap, and as it widens,

1698
03:53:41.200 --> 03:53:46.879
it's almost like the stress and attention falls.

1699
03:53:46.799 --> 03:53:47.559
Into the gap.

1700
03:54:01.200 --> 03:54:05.559
Give you that distance, that space.

1701
03:54:07.559 --> 03:54:13.000
Now ten.

1702
03:54:17.360 --> 03:55:27.360
Nine, eight, seven, six, five four three.

1703
03:56:02.079 --> 03:56:02.319
One.

1704
03:56:13.840 --> 03:56:18.239
Now, how did your body feel.

1705
03:56:20.200 --> 03:56:20.360
Now?

1706
03:56:33.079 --> 03:56:49.360
Can you notice that they feeling calmer, the feeling more relaxed.

1707
03:57:11.840 --> 03:57:16.200
As we now focus on your legs, just your legs.

1708
03:57:32.200 --> 03:57:52.319
We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs. Of course,

1709
03:57:52.440 --> 03:57:57.319
it's not the most exciting thing to be doing because

1710
03:58:00.760 --> 03:58:03.440
I'm sure, like most of your body, there's not a

1711
03:58:03.559 --> 03:58:15.959
lot going on right now. Just focusing on the whole

1712
03:58:16.079 --> 03:58:22.440
of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the sides

1713
03:58:22.639 --> 03:58:29.600
of your thighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your outer thighs,

1714
03:58:29.719 --> 03:58:34.639
and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of your thigh

1715
03:58:34.760 --> 03:58:43.520
that leads into your hip and it goes down to

1716
03:58:43.760 --> 03:58:46.680
your knee joints.

1717
03:58:51.840 --> 03:58:59.040
Now, this is a big area. It's a very heavy area.

1718
03:58:59.520 --> 03:59:06.319
It's very strong, probably the strongest muscles in your body or.

1719
03:59:06.360 --> 03:59:22.719
In your thighs. But I don't think we perhaps give

1720
03:59:22.879 --> 03:59:25.840
enough attention to our thighs.

1721
03:59:31.760 --> 03:59:33.159
Perhaps we don't.

1722
03:59:34.479 --> 03:59:55.000
Acknowledge how important our thighs are to our lives, how

1723
03:59:55.120 --> 04:00:04.239
much they actually do for us all through our lives.

1724
04:00:11.399 --> 04:00:16.959
And it may seem to sound really weird, but I

1725
04:00:17.079 --> 04:00:23.079
think that all of our body parts, especially our thighs,

1726
04:00:24.079 --> 04:00:31.399
needs some TLC, a bit of love shown, a bit

1727
04:00:31.440 --> 04:00:50.719
of acknowledgement, thank you, gratitude for our thighs do for us.

1728
04:00:57.280 --> 04:01:02.879
And I know this may sound a bit strang Maybe

1729
04:01:02.920 --> 04:01:05.959
you think, why am I? Surely I should be out

1730
04:01:06.479 --> 04:01:14.879
in the garden hugging a tree or something. Well, it's

1731
04:01:14.959 --> 04:01:18.200
hard to set a microphone up on a tree. That's

1732
04:01:18.239 --> 04:01:20.719
why I'm doing this indoors. Otherwise I would be outside

1733
04:01:20.760 --> 04:01:24.600
huging a tree. I can't see the television from the tree.

1734
04:01:31.280 --> 04:01:35.559
If you move down to your knees, gain such an

1735
04:01:35.639 --> 04:01:45.319
important part. And I think we don't necessarily, I'll speak

1736
04:01:45.399 --> 04:01:52.719
for myself. Yeah, I don't necessarily appreciate all that my

1737
04:01:52.920 --> 04:01:58.079
needs do for me until I have a problem with

1738
04:01:58.200 --> 04:02:03.319
my knee, as if I ever maybe i'll bash it

1739
04:02:03.680 --> 04:02:09.479
or it's aching for some reason. It's then that I

1740
04:02:09.639 --> 04:02:15.120
realize how much it does. You know, the benefit of

1741
04:02:15.239 --> 04:02:22.680
being able to use my legs without any kind of

1742
04:02:22.840 --> 04:02:31.200
physical discomfort is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated

1743
04:02:31.319 --> 04:02:42.360
until it's temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as

1744
04:02:42.399 --> 04:02:47.760
you focus on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel,

1745
04:02:50.840 --> 04:02:56.600
you can have that sense of gratitude and love to

1746
04:02:56.680 --> 04:03:09.319
your knees for all that they do for you. And

1747
04:03:09.440 --> 04:03:13.079
you can still have that attention on your thighs and

1748
04:03:13.200 --> 04:03:19.399
maybe notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that

1749
04:03:19.760 --> 04:03:38.440
they are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on

1750
04:03:38.559 --> 04:03:42.159
the bottoms of your legs and your shins and your

1751
04:03:42.239 --> 04:03:48.600
calf muscles and the bones between your knees and your

1752
04:03:48.680 --> 04:04:01.680
feet incorporate and of course your ankles so important. You know,

1753
04:04:01.760 --> 04:04:06.520
anyone that's had even like the slightest sprain of an

1754
04:04:06.559 --> 04:04:14.680
ankle knows how how much we take our ankles for granted,

1755
04:04:20.559 --> 04:04:22.600
and it's kind of strange in a way when you

1756
04:04:22.680 --> 04:04:28.280
think that. You know, logically, our wrists are a lot

1757
04:04:28.440 --> 04:04:33.239
thinner than the rest of our arms, which is okay,

1758
04:04:33.360 --> 04:04:37.239
it doesn't can't see any problem with that because we're

1759
04:04:37.319 --> 04:04:43.760
just picking stuff up. But our ankles so much thinner

1760
04:04:45.000 --> 04:04:53.559
than the rest of our legs, and from a physics

1761
04:04:53.639 --> 04:04:59.360
perspective or logical even it doesn't really make sense that

1762
04:04:59.520 --> 04:05:07.280
all this weight would ultimately be resting on your ankles

1763
04:05:08.399 --> 04:05:21.799
then leading to your feet, that thin area, thin bone. Yeah,

1764
04:05:21.879 --> 04:05:27.559
it does so much great work. Supports us, supports our

1765
04:05:27.680 --> 04:05:39.520
body for a lifetime, helps us to balance, helps you

1766
04:05:39.719 --> 04:05:53.000
to get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1767
04:05:53.040 --> 04:06:00.680
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1768
04:06:00.719 --> 04:06:05.799
point in calf muscles. Didn't seem to do anything. Okay,

1769
04:06:06.920 --> 04:06:10.479
if I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles

1770
04:06:10.520 --> 04:06:14.040
get some work. But of course that's not true. The

1771
04:06:14.159 --> 04:06:18.559
calf muscles are being used whenever we use our legs

1772
04:06:24.159 --> 04:06:36.760
and your shins there to protect your lower legs, shaped

1773
04:06:36.840 --> 04:06:41.520
in a way almost as a protector for the bone,

1774
04:06:49.120 --> 04:07:01.000
leading of course to your ankles and your feet. But

1775
04:07:01.120 --> 04:07:03.000
we're not going to focus on your feet. We're just

1776
04:07:03.079 --> 04:07:09.239
going to focus on the legs. And I realize, and

1777
04:07:09.399 --> 04:07:13.399
now that I've mentioned your feet, you'll probably focus on

1778
04:07:13.559 --> 04:07:16.760
them anyway, So maybe I should focus on your feet

1779
04:07:16.760 --> 04:07:22.879
a little bit. You can have them in your awareness

1780
04:07:25.079 --> 04:07:28.760
the same as you have your thighs in your awareness.

1781
04:07:29.639 --> 04:07:33.520
Even though we haven't been focusing on your thighs a

1782
04:07:33.639 --> 04:07:44.719
few minutes, I've been focusing on your ankles, there's still

1783
04:07:44.799 --> 04:07:59.799
that sensation of comfort in your thighs in this that

1784
04:08:00.360 --> 04:08:10.360
movement of energy, because the thighs hold lots of different sensations.

1785
04:08:11.840 --> 04:08:16.680
Of course, there's the muscles, the big straw muscles that

1786
04:08:16.840 --> 04:08:29.680
we have in our thighs. But the skin on the

1787
04:08:29.840 --> 04:08:35.280
outside of the thighs, as in the outside of all

1788
04:08:35.360 --> 04:08:44.200
of our body, can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch,

1789
04:08:47.000 --> 04:08:56.920
sensitive to temperature, and inside your thighs.

1790
04:08:58.959 --> 04:09:03.760
The bones, there's the muscle, there's the blood, vessels, the

1791
04:09:04.000 --> 04:09:14.000
ar trees to all this stuff inside your thighs. I

1792
04:09:14.079 --> 04:09:17.559
guess sometimes it'd be nice if you could actually put

1793
04:09:17.600 --> 04:09:24.920
your fingers inside your thighs and a message, so you

1794
04:09:25.000 --> 04:09:28.479
can message on the outside, of course, but to be

1795
04:09:28.559 --> 04:09:31.719
able to get deep into the muscles, and to be

1796
04:09:31.799 --> 04:09:36.920
able to just message inside your thighs, message in the

1797
04:09:37.040 --> 04:09:39.239
bones of your leg.

1798
04:09:41.280 --> 04:09:50.639
Massage in all the veins and just gently heaving your

1799
04:09:50.760 --> 04:09:59.639
thighs and you could move down message and inside you

1800
04:10:01.760 --> 04:10:08.559
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1801
04:10:08.639 --> 04:10:14.360
that healing energy deep into the joints of your knees.

1802
04:10:19.840 --> 04:10:23.520
Of course, there's the back of your knee, you know,

1803
04:10:23.600 --> 04:10:29.639
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1804
04:10:29.840 --> 04:10:35.719
sensitive area. Very it feels very nice when you stroke it.

1805
04:10:37.120 --> 04:10:40.479
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1806
04:10:40.680 --> 04:10:47.159
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1807
04:10:47.479 --> 04:10:54.399
crease in your legs. It's almost like a part that

1808
04:10:56.200 --> 04:11:07.479
has a sensitivity which is a little bit different. Of course,

1809
04:11:07.520 --> 04:11:18.000
it's protected by your legs. So you can imagine putting

1810
04:11:18.879 --> 04:11:29.200
your fingers into that crease in your legs, folding between

1811
04:11:29.319 --> 04:11:34.399
your legs, you can just message with your fingertips. Imagine

1812
04:11:34.399 --> 04:11:40.760
your fingertips going inside, message in the muscle or tissue

1813
04:11:45.360 --> 04:11:49.280
you can cause field the bones of your.

1814
04:11:49.239 --> 04:12:01.879
Knees, heading through your fingertips, and then as you go down.

1815
04:12:04.440 --> 04:12:07.239
To your calf muscles. And that's a part i'd like

1816
04:12:07.360 --> 04:12:12.040
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1817
04:12:12.799 --> 04:12:21.760
my calf muscles, massage in every single tissue of that muscle,

1818
04:12:23.319 --> 04:12:33.239
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1819
04:12:36.440 --> 04:12:43.319
massage in and gently stroking the bones, generally stroking them,

1820
04:12:44.239 --> 04:12:48.959
healing in a loving way, because they deserve to be treated.

1821
04:12:52.000 --> 04:12:56.159
There's the precious bones that they are, because our legs

1822
04:12:56.200 --> 04:12:59.520
are so precious as in all the other parts of

1823
04:12:59.600 --> 04:13:07.799
our body, the more precious of any tube on the planet.

1824
04:13:16.360 --> 04:13:24.360
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1825
04:13:28.920 --> 04:13:35.600
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

1826
04:13:38.639 --> 04:13:42.959
a bit silly to start with the idea of having

1827
04:13:43.840 --> 04:13:53.840
love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

1828
04:13:54.000 --> 04:13:57.879
to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

1829
04:14:00.159 --> 04:14:06.479
message the muscles and the bones, and to get your

1830
04:14:06.600 --> 04:14:15.120
fingers deep in there, releasing all tension, just to show

1831
04:14:17.000 --> 04:14:24.360
how much you care about your legs, how much you

1832
04:14:24.479 --> 04:14:33.040
care for what your legs do for you regularly, your knees,

1833
04:14:33.319 --> 04:14:46.159
your calves, your ankles, the strength of your ankles, considering

1834
04:14:46.360 --> 04:14:50.840
how thin they are compared to the rest of your legs,

1835
04:14:51.000 --> 04:15:04.680
especially your thighs. Yeah, this so strong so flexible, absolutely

1836
04:15:04.959 --> 04:15:16.760
amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because of

1837
04:15:16.840 --> 04:15:28.120
what they do for you, supporting all that weight. Regardless

1838
04:15:28.159 --> 04:15:32.159
of how what weight you are, even if you only

1839
04:15:32.200 --> 04:15:37.000
eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight for

1840
04:15:37.120 --> 04:15:43.719
these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than a

1841
04:15:43.959 --> 04:15:54.559
stone double down, yet my ankles support my body all

1842
04:15:54.639 --> 04:16:01.000
the time, or the they do give off a sigh

1843
04:16:01.000 --> 04:16:06.760
of relief when I sit down. That's my whole legs.

1844
04:16:06.840 --> 04:16:16.000
Do my feet feel or so go my toes clap

1845
04:16:17.200 --> 04:16:45.639
they're so happy. Your legs really are amazing. And I

1846
04:16:45.840 --> 04:16:49.719
know that talking about talking about your legs is probably

1847
04:16:52.239 --> 04:16:56.920
possibly among the most most boring things I've ever heard

1848
04:16:56.959 --> 04:17:05.360
anyone say. Possibly you're boring or not. Everything I said

1849
04:17:05.520 --> 04:17:22.159
is true. Your legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not

1850
04:17:22.559 --> 04:17:30.959
just respect, They deserve to relax.

1851
04:17:32.319 --> 04:17:32.719
Deeply.

1852
04:17:40.000 --> 04:17:43.319
They deserve to take some time out of the day

1853
04:17:45.559 --> 04:18:14.280
to just let go completely. Your legs really can relax.

1854
04:18:21.920 --> 04:18:26.040
And because the legs are so such a most you know,

1855
04:18:26.280 --> 04:18:32.200
very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

1856
04:18:32.319 --> 04:18:39.520
the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

1857
04:18:43.280 --> 04:18:55.520
journey of comfort, like I feel in my hips. My

1858
04:18:55.719 --> 04:19:03.040
hips feel really loose, and also my lower back as well.

1859
04:19:05.079 --> 04:19:10.799
My lower back really feels it feels stretched, even though

1860
04:19:10.840 --> 04:19:14.479
I'm just sitting in a chair and there's no stretching

1861
04:19:17.200 --> 04:19:20.360
as far as I'm aware that I'm doing. It's almost

1862
04:19:20.399 --> 04:19:24.200
as if the muscles are just relaxed so much that

1863
04:19:24.319 --> 04:19:31.360
there is a natural stretch as the tension has reduced

1864
04:19:32.840 --> 04:19:51.399
a lot. And I'm now going to count down from

1865
04:19:52.040 --> 04:20:01.079
ten down to one, and you can continue to fill

1866
04:20:02.879 --> 04:20:27.159
wonderfully relaxed ten nine eight seven six, five.

1867
04:20:31.479 --> 04:20:35.600
Four three.

1868
04:20:39.399 --> 04:21:00.239
Two one. Relax. So I'm just going to count down

1869
04:21:01.719 --> 04:21:06.440
from five down to one, and as a countdown, if

1870
04:21:06.440 --> 04:21:13.520
you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers counting down,

1871
04:21:14.600 --> 04:21:23.719
and notice how you feel in this moment as you

1872
04:21:23.879 --> 04:21:31.399
hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those numbers counting

1873
04:21:31.479 --> 04:21:41.639
down represent you feeling calmer, not just in your body,

1874
04:21:41.799 --> 04:21:50.159
but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how you feel.

1875
04:21:51.040 --> 04:21:56.959
There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say, there's nothing

1876
04:21:57.079 --> 04:22:34.079
to think about. Starting with number five, four three two.

1877
04:22:39.879 --> 04:22:40.159
One.

1878
04:22:49.760 --> 04:23:02.000
As you notice the gradual letting go of the tension

1879
04:23:02.239 --> 04:23:09.360
in your body, you may also begin to notice and

1880
04:23:09.520 --> 04:23:18.520
be aware of how your mind is starting to slow down.

1881
04:23:21.040 --> 04:23:27.360
This is just a natural thing that happens. It's not

1882
04:23:27.600 --> 04:23:32.760
really a special procedure. It's just natural because as your

1883
04:23:34.079 --> 04:23:40.079
body relaxes, your mind also starts to relax and the

1884
04:23:40.159 --> 04:23:43.799
more your mind relaxes, the more your body relaxes. It's

1885
04:23:43.959 --> 04:23:56.040
just a continuous circle of relaxation. And is that calmness

1886
04:23:56.280 --> 04:24:03.440
that comes from relatived this. You know, even even if

1887
04:24:03.479 --> 04:24:11.000
this background sounds either your side online, it's still going

1888
04:24:11.120 --> 04:24:16.159
to be quite calm. You know, you haven't got the

1889
04:24:16.280 --> 04:24:21.440
television on, there's no music in the background unless you're

1890
04:24:21.479 --> 04:24:29.000
listening to the recording with music. Of course, you're very

1891
04:24:29.239 --> 04:24:31.079
likely not going to be sitting in a room with

1892
04:24:31.200 --> 04:24:36.000
other people. Of course you might be, but generally it's

1893
04:24:36.719 --> 04:24:38.920
more ideal if you can do this on your own,

1894
04:24:40.639 --> 04:24:50.719
so no distractions, and when you stop thinking about stuff,

1895
04:24:57.280 --> 04:25:07.559
relaxation automatically rises. A sense of comfort starts to grow,

1896
04:25:12.079 --> 04:25:18.760
and without trying to build it up into something fantastical

1897
04:25:19.159 --> 04:25:30.879
or something magical, this is just a natural process, something

1898
04:25:31.040 --> 04:25:41.200
that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1899
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the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

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no effort into it. It's not something that you can

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really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

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the process of this recording and others is simply to

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allow you to take advantage of this space this time,

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to just let go, to just be here, to be

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in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

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of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

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depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

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in this moment. As we know, relaxing is the majority

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of the process of falling asleep. The actual falling asleep

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part is the tiny bit at the end. The deeper

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relaxed you become, the easier you find yourself drifting. But

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you can also if you choose stay focused on my

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voice and really enjoy the process, gradually relaxing each muscle

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in your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

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letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

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six down to one. You can notice your mind calming

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down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

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feeling calm and slier, peaceful, six, five, four, three, two,

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being aware of how your mind has slowed right down,

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sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus on your mind,

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you may notice that there were some thoughts still there,

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maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some reason perhaps need

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your att.

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So what you can do is.

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Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

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like little petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them,

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petals feel good love towards those thoughts. To let those

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thoughts over. You're not abandon in them, You just need them.

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You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

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down for now. So as you focus on those remaining thoughts,

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as we count down this time from seven down to one.

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With each number, just imagine sprinkling those flower petals of love, kindness,

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gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

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would become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three.

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One.

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I'll let you now notice how next you're feeling in

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your body. We're going to focus on your hands, because

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the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

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body and mind are. You focus on your hands and

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your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done. There's no

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clenching of fists or dents in the fingers or anything

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like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

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noticing how they feel. Because the more relaxed do your

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hands feel, the calm your mind feels, and the more

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comfort you feel throughout your body.

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May have.

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Already noticed you mind is starting to drift. Fix in

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just on your hands and fingers, allowing them cheap experience.

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Are real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers,

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more and more relaxed. With each number from eight down

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to one. You can almost feel the healing and relaxing

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energy spreading into your hands and fingers becoming e more

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relaxing with each number you hear, going down eight down

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to one, drifting drifted again starting wiz No. Eight seven

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threehhhhhhhh just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing

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to do, nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer.

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This is your natural state of being. This is how

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you just normally feel when you take away all of

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that other stuff that we add, you know, things like

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stress and worry and over thinking, anxiety, tension, just generally

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thinking about stuff. We take that away, which is what

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we do.

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We do it now.

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You're left with a real sense of peacefulness, which comes

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to you very quickly, because ultimately it's just a feeling,

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a feeling of comfort. It's almost as if you've got

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inside yourself and you've found a special place where everything

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is peaceful, a place where you can film relaxed and

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your natural sense and comfort, a place where you can

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be here where you can accept yourself and who you are,

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the place where you're not trying to please anybody else,

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in a place where you can actually not just love yourself,

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but in some ways more importantly, you can like yourself, appreciate.

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Who you are.

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That sense of gratitude it's in the air around you.

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That's also a place where you can actually feel the

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healing energy soaking into your body. Healing energy soaking into

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your body, That healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling

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to each and every single part of your body, and

1981
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you start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's

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not just entered into your brain, it's become part of

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your brain and the spinal fluid who is now mixed

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with healing energy, not just allowing you to feel so

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much more relaxed and healthy in this moment, but Also,

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you start to realize that actually, what's happening now without healing,

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relaxing energy spreading through your body is actually changing your life.

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It's actually changing the way you're going to feel not

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just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As your

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health improves, not just your physical health but your mental health.

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Things that used to bother you in the past, for

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some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

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to because something has changed deep within you. Maybe things

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that used to cause you to feel anger no longer

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have that power to control you the way they seem

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to be able to before. As you realize that you're

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the one who decides what affects you, you're the one

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who decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose

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to enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing continuing to

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grow and improve your life day by day. Including of course,

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you're by to relax so much easier than sleeping. It's

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the most natural thing in the world to you, because

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falling asleep is something that you've done so many times

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in your life, and you know that you were born,

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as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

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We're born with that ability to just drift off into

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a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes will

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fall asleep and we don't even want to try to

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think of stay awake. Maybe it's a birthday in the morning,

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or it's Christmas or holiday or something we look forward to.

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We don't want to go to sleep. But the more

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we want to stay awake, the more we just start

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to drift. And the more you fight to drifting or

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try to stop yourself and drift in asleep, the deeper

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and strongerout drifting becomes. Because we're born not just with

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the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep,

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but it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA. And

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sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

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we have forgotten that relaxing completely is not only a

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wonderfully pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very

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easy to let go, because that's all it.

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Is, is just.

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Deciding to let go. And when you press the play

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button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

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voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

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you have given me permission for my words to effect

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you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

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your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

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such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

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as well as those changes that continue long after the

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recording ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

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and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

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allowing you to move forward in your life in the

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direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

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feeling that you can experience of safety, comfort, calmness, This

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feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

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and that positivity grows within you each and every day.

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Moving forward, you're going to find that you're more relaxed

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physically and in your mind it's more relaxed. And it's

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not that you're thinking slower. It's just that your mind

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05:03:28.799 --> 05:03:40.680
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2042
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now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2043
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going to start noticing when negativity arises, and you can

2044
05:04:02.159 --> 05:04:16.080
just say stop, stop, and then negativity will turn around

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and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity would disappear.

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And that you notice that you feel way more relaxed

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than you probably expected. You can now congratulate yourself because

2048
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you're the person that has done this. You are the

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one that has opened your mind up to the simple

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facts that you can feel more relaxed in your body

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and in your mind. You've opened your mind up to

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the birthright of being able to just fall asleep easily

2053
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when you choose. And that's a nice feeling. Don't you

2054
05:06:01.439 --> 05:06:13.000
think it feels nice? Doesn't it? To feel calm? All

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that healing energy is spreading through your body and your

2056
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mind to spend time in a special place where negativity

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can no longer enter. Negativity is banned. It's bad, it's

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not allowed entry. Doesn't it doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

2059
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be here. It doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place

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in your life, Which makes room feel more comfort, more healing,

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more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it?

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Just let go.

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With everything. I'm gonna count down now from twenty down

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to one. You can continue to relax. If you choose,

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you can drift to sleep with every number you hear

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me say you can fill twice is relaxed, or if

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you choose, you can fill twice sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, ten, two, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six.

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Five.

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Oh, it's your time to just take a break, your

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time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

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to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

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And you're the only person that can make that decision.

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You're the only person that can actually tell your mind

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has to relax, to just take some time off so

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that you can focus on your body, getting in touch

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with how you feel.

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Physically.

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And in the process of this body scared where you

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focus on different parts of your body, those parts you

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focus on and observe. Even though you're not purposely requesting

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for those parts of your body to relax, it's kind

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of expected. You expect when you listen to my voice

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to feel more relaxed naturally, because when you're listening to me,

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your attention is focused on my words, and as my

2085
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words guide you to focus on those parts of your body,

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your focus increases, which actually calms your mind. And when

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your mind calms down, your body relaxes. And when your

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body calms down, your mind relaxes. And even though we've

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not really started to focus on your body, you can

2090
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already feel that healing energy spreading through your body, pushing

2091
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out stress and tension, healing all the parts of your body,

2092
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including your skin, your bones, your blue but all of

2093
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your organs inside your body, all of the muscles, all

2094
05:17:08.360 --> 05:17:15.479
of the fat, all of everything, every hair on your

2095
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body is filled with that healing energy. And when your

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brain fills without healing energy, the feeling of comfort relaxation

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increases deeply increases in a way, your mind starts to fill,

2098
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perhaps bit drowsing because it's not needed, and it may

2099
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start to drift if that's what's needed. So if you're

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listening to this and what you need is deep relaxation, that's.

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What you get. If what you need is to fall asleep.

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Naturally and easily, that your mind drifts, that's also what

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will happen. Because by pressing a play button on the

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podcast and listening to me, give permission your body and

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your mind. In fact, you give the command to your

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body and your mind to relax deeply and to drift

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off to sleep, if that's what.

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You want.

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Or need.

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Them.

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As I focus on the different parts of your body,

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you may start to just drift, and then you come

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back again and you hear me talk again, and I'm

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focusing on a different part of your body.

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You may.

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Find yourself drifting. You haven't realize you're drifting until you

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stop drifting.

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Drew a.

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Let again to my voice, focusing on a different part

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of your body, starts to relax.

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In deeper.

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Because that drifting, it's basically here already in the sleep zone.

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And the more you drift, the longer you drift on,

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the longer you drift. Eventually, that drifting continues into sleep,

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and that's the last you remember until you wake up

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in your own time, when you experienced the right amount

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of sleep. Fear, because when you do and if you

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do fall asleep, it's extremely pleasant. So relaxing, so deep

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here sleep, I feel so nice to relax into your

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own body in mind. If you feel that heating image

2131
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is spreading through it, relaxing, use so deeply, relax and

2132
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use so deeply. We start to focus on your eyes,

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moving down to your jaw, Thank you, shoulders, oh thingus

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you're chest, stop you b spine, your hips, your legs,

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faint utsies, good spreading grime inside your body. Feeling you up.

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Now let's focus again on parts of your body, kay,

2137
05:26:28.200 --> 05:26:38.040
focusing this time on your forehead, Now on your mouth,

2138
05:26:39.279 --> 05:26:59.560
your lips, your tongue, the whole of your mouth. Focusing

2139
05:27:00.959 --> 05:27:10.880
on your fingers. Maybe you could move your fingers a

2140
05:27:10.919 --> 05:27:22.959
little bits. You can focus on each one individually, both hands,

2141
05:27:27.119 --> 05:27:29.680
and even though if you focus on both of your

2142
05:27:29.799 --> 05:27:35.599
hands now they almost seem to just melt into one.

2143
05:27:40.880 --> 05:27:48.959
Where is your right hand starting left hand, and almost

2144
05:27:49.119 --> 05:28:06.599
as if just mixed together. Now, focus your knees, just

2145
05:28:07.119 --> 05:28:29.520
nex sing how your knees help now, focusing your elbers,

2146
05:28:32.360 --> 05:28:47.479
focusing on both your elbows, just observing the feeling of

2147
05:28:47.680 --> 05:29:18.919
your helpers. You say, I'm sorry, back.

2148
05:29:30.599 --> 05:30:10.439
Energange yours echos.

2149
05:30:24.000 --> 05:31:29.439
It's a gal of sensation of echos. I to say

2150
05:31:31.840 --> 05:32:00.799
now you tis of your faint. You ties feel now

2151
05:32:31.880 --> 05:32:57.479
not to sent hw you in soil. Body feels not

2152
05:32:57.759 --> 05:33:43.119
to sing, Your mind feels now letting go, lett him go,

2153
05:33:51.240 --> 05:34:41.040
letting go everything, letting go, letting go, leting go everything everything.

2154
05:34:47.319 --> 05:34:51.000
I'm going to start now, And I'd like you just

2155
05:34:51.200 --> 05:34:56.799
first of all, just to see yourself laying down on

2156
05:34:56.919 --> 05:35:03.080
that message table, like on your front. Your head is supported,

2157
05:35:03.479 --> 05:35:12.240
your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable, and breathing

2158
05:35:12.439 --> 05:35:21.840
is really easy, and you feel you feel confident in

2159
05:35:21.959 --> 05:35:24.159
how you look as well. So there's none of that

2160
05:35:24.319 --> 05:35:31.080
issue of body problems or shyness, because I'm a professional

2161
05:35:32.240 --> 05:35:38.639
and this is a therapy session, so none of that

2162
05:35:38.799 --> 05:35:49.000
stuff matters whatsoever. This is about you. This is about

2163
05:35:49.400 --> 05:35:57.520
how you feel and how you can enjoy that sense

2164
05:35:57.639 --> 05:36:03.639
of comfort and relaxation that comes from letting go and

2165
05:36:03.840 --> 05:36:11.959
allowing my hands and my fingers to relax you by

2166
05:36:12.159 --> 05:36:20.759
messaging your body. So I want to start off just

2167
05:36:20.880 --> 05:36:25.599
by placing my hands on the back of your head,

2168
05:36:27.080 --> 05:36:32.400
just gently, just so you can feel my hands feel

2169
05:36:32.520 --> 05:36:39.240
like really on you. So you can maybe feel the

2170
05:36:39.360 --> 05:36:41.520
warmth of my hands on the back of your head.

2171
05:36:45.240 --> 05:36:48.720
With my hands to the side of your head, not pressing,

2172
05:36:48.880 --> 05:36:55.200
but just holding there very gently, maybe over your ears,

2173
05:36:55.759 --> 05:36:58.759
and a little bit on your face, just so you

2174
05:36:58.840 --> 05:37:06.720
can feel my hands so you can become accustomed to them.

2175
05:37:15.360 --> 05:37:17.520
And now put my hands on the back of your

2176
05:37:17.599 --> 05:37:25.000
head again and gently let them slide down onto the

2177
05:37:25.080 --> 05:37:42.080
back of your neck. You can feel my hands gently

2178
05:37:42.319 --> 05:37:49.279
stroking the back of your neck to start with, just

2179
05:37:49.319 --> 05:37:53.400
so you can get used to the feeling of my

2180
05:37:53.560 --> 05:38:00.840
hands on your skin, get accustomed to it, realize that

2181
05:38:01.360 --> 05:38:11.479
you're safe and it's all good. It's all fine. And

2182
05:38:11.520 --> 05:38:15.639
I'm going to start gently massaging the muscles in the

2183
05:38:15.720 --> 05:38:31.599
back of your neck with both hands. And this is

2184
05:38:31.639 --> 05:38:37.919
a very trusting situation really, because our necks is so

2185
05:38:38.240 --> 05:38:43.240
fragile and to have someone have their hands around your

2186
05:38:43.360 --> 05:38:48.279
neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

2187
05:38:49.479 --> 05:38:53.959
which is why messages are quite good, because it allows

2188
05:38:54.000 --> 05:39:03.959
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

2189
05:39:08.240 --> 05:39:20.799
to feel peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides

2190
05:39:20.919 --> 05:39:28.959
of your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

2191
05:39:30.680 --> 05:39:33.159
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start,

2192
05:39:33.240 --> 05:39:39.919
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your

2193
05:39:40.000 --> 05:39:46.520
ears kind of area the side of your neck. Of course,

2194
05:39:46.520 --> 05:39:49.040
it's a lot longer than the front of your neck.

2195
05:40:02.080 --> 05:40:09.119
The message in the back of your neck, especially that

2196
05:40:09.360 --> 05:40:18.799
area where perhaps we hold tension, and there's that area's message.

2197
05:40:19.159 --> 05:40:23.240
You can actually feel a sense of release in the

2198
05:40:23.319 --> 05:40:31.200
back of your neck, and maybe you can breathe it

2199
05:40:31.319 --> 05:40:37.240
out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

2200
05:40:47.000 --> 05:40:50.639
And they're moving down to that area between your neck

2201
05:40:50.720 --> 05:41:00.479
and your shoulders, that muscle area, starting to message that

2202
05:41:00.680 --> 05:41:04.959
area on both sides. I mean, this would be the

2203
05:41:05.080 --> 05:41:07.880
area that a lot of people would message if they

2204
05:41:07.919 --> 05:41:12.720
were going to give you like a shoulder message, even

2205
05:41:12.840 --> 05:41:16.799
that's not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles

2206
05:41:16.799 --> 05:41:18.639
that lead to the shoulders.

2207
05:41:19.919 --> 05:41:20.799
From the neck.

2208
05:41:22.639 --> 05:41:27.759
And a game that can hold tension and stress. And

2209
05:41:27.959 --> 05:41:35.880
when massaged sometimes a nice deep message is useful, and

2210
05:41:36.159 --> 05:41:51.799
you decide how deep that message is, and just allow

2211
05:41:53.680 --> 05:41:58.720
my knuckles just to dig in to get to those

2212
05:41:58.919 --> 05:42:08.520
muscles and to really relaxed and all the time being

2213
05:42:08.759 --> 05:42:26.279
firm yet gentle with you and just stroking down the

2214
05:42:26.479 --> 05:42:35.040
area to your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of

2215
05:42:35.080 --> 05:42:46.200
your shoulders and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders

2216
05:42:46.240 --> 05:42:49.599
a little bit off the table, just to give you

2217
05:42:49.680 --> 05:43:00.119
a little bit of a stretch, but very gently. And

2218
05:43:00.200 --> 05:43:02.720
you've got the muscles at the front of your shoulders,

2219
05:43:03.479 --> 05:43:14.439
the sides and the back. Again, this is a part

2220
05:43:14.599 --> 05:43:20.000
that can really take quite a bit of pressure, quite

2221
05:43:20.000 --> 05:43:28.080
a bit of needing. If if you wish to really

2222
05:43:29.919 --> 05:43:35.400
release the tension to really get into those muscles and

2223
05:43:38.840 --> 05:43:42.159
you can let your fingers in there. They can feel

2224
05:43:42.360 --> 05:43:49.080
really nice. Sometimes it's just being stroked gently or being

2225
05:43:49.759 --> 05:44:05.720
messaged quite strongly can all be beneficial to conversation with

2226
05:44:05.880 --> 05:44:19.520
the muscles. In your shoulders. Now you move down your arms.

2227
05:44:26.119 --> 05:44:29.639
Were doing one arm at a time, Starting with your

2228
05:44:29.759 --> 05:44:40.000
right arm. What I'll do is I just lift your

2229
05:44:40.159 --> 05:44:42.919
arm up, just hold it to the side of you

2230
05:44:46.159 --> 05:44:52.520
that way still be attached, and I just message the

2231
05:44:52.680 --> 05:45:05.520
tops of your arms all the way down to your

2232
05:45:05.720 --> 05:45:33.119
forearms into your wrists, gently massaging that part, the softer part,

2233
05:45:33.200 --> 05:45:39.639
which is the under part of the arm, which leads

2234
05:45:39.799 --> 05:45:44.639
to the crease in your elbow. The inside it's much

2235
05:45:45.159 --> 05:46:02.080
more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked I feel

2236
05:46:02.200 --> 05:46:18.880
really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to your

2237
05:46:19.000 --> 05:46:31.799
right hand, just holding your hand in both of my hands,

2238
05:46:37.680 --> 05:46:44.200
just pressing gently on the back of your hand, stretching

2239
05:46:44.360 --> 05:46:55.040
your fingers ever so lightly, at the same time pressing

2240
05:46:55.200 --> 05:47:08.520
down and messaging each finger, and then starting to massage

2241
05:47:08.639 --> 05:47:21.560
the palms and their hand. Just turning the hand, stretching

2242
05:47:21.639 --> 05:47:31.400
it gently and actually having your handheld can really be

2243
05:47:33.159 --> 05:47:38.840
an emotional experience. Sometimes, even if it is a stranger,

2244
05:47:40.840 --> 05:47:45.200
someone you don't know very well, like a massage person

2245
05:47:45.479 --> 05:47:59.240
or a therapist. Maybe because it's intimate, they can feel nice,

2246
05:48:01.880 --> 05:48:12.159
you can feel safe. And as I put that right

2247
05:48:12.439 --> 05:48:20.759
arm back down where it was I do the same

2248
05:48:20.919 --> 05:48:32.520
with your left arm, exactly the same, massage and the

2249
05:48:32.639 --> 05:48:38.119
muscles in your arm all the way down. Do you arrest,

2250
05:48:42.279 --> 05:48:52.080
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

2251
05:48:52.159 --> 05:49:06.119
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

2252
05:49:12.639 --> 05:49:22.680
stretching the fingers, gently massaging the palm of your left hand.

2253
05:49:34.840 --> 05:50:02.919
You feel so so relaxing, so comforting, and I just

2254
05:50:03.119 --> 05:50:14.959
rest your left arm back down. The start to massage

2255
05:50:15.479 --> 05:50:25.279
your back, the biggest part of your body, starting at

2256
05:50:25.319 --> 05:50:32.240
the top, starting again where you already have been, the

2257
05:50:32.439 --> 05:50:37.400
area at the top in between your shoulders, near your neck.

2258
05:50:39.159 --> 05:50:43.560
Going back and massage in the area again, but this

2259
05:50:43.919 --> 05:50:57.479
time moving downwards, taking it downward. Stroke to the middle

2260
05:50:57.520 --> 05:51:06.040
of your back, working from the outside inwards, massaging that

2261
05:51:08.319 --> 05:51:17.919
your back, but the outsides of your back, the parts

2262
05:51:20.599 --> 05:51:33.439
where your arms would maybe rest against, almost the path

2263
05:51:33.560 --> 05:51:46.959
that connects your front to your back. Just massaging down

2264
05:51:49.159 --> 05:51:58.439
firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving down

2265
05:51:58.680 --> 05:52:02.319
and moving across a little bed and moving all the

2266
05:52:02.360 --> 05:52:10.279
way down again, be very gentle yet firm as you choose.

2267
05:52:16.680 --> 05:52:21.319
Eventually we get to the spine. We can message the

2268
05:52:21.479 --> 05:52:25.680
muscles and either side of your spine from the top

2269
05:52:25.759 --> 05:52:31.799
of your neck all the way down to your lower back.

2270
05:52:38.040 --> 05:52:44.400
We can do that a few times. Sometimes people choice

2271
05:52:47.240 --> 05:52:51.000
the knuckle or the you know, the two fingers and

2272
05:52:51.240 --> 05:52:57.599
just go either side of the spine almost just push down,

2273
05:52:58.479 --> 05:53:00.720
go all the way down to the bottom of the spine,

2274
05:53:02.400 --> 05:53:12.080
each time releasing tension and opening up the body, stretching

2275
05:53:13.240 --> 05:53:20.119
your body so that you feel more relaxed but at

2276
05:53:20.159 --> 05:53:36.479
the same time rejuvenated. And now I'm going to move

2277
05:53:36.599 --> 05:53:44.919
to one side, to your right side, and from the

2278
05:53:44.959 --> 05:53:50.479
bottom of your ribs to your pelvis, I'm going to

2279
05:53:50.599 --> 05:53:57.279
message that area of your back. I'll stretch over the

2280
05:53:57.360 --> 05:54:02.119
other side and I will pull the muscle gently and

2281
05:54:02.360 --> 05:54:07.119
massage and push from one end that side or the

2282
05:54:07.200 --> 05:54:12.200
way to my side to the middle of fact to

2283
05:54:12.240 --> 05:54:17.400
where your spine is, massaging that side of your spine

2284
05:54:19.080 --> 05:54:24.240
the opposite side to where I'm standing. It's almost like

2285
05:54:24.520 --> 05:54:29.400
kneading bread. There's that big area.

2286
05:54:29.240 --> 05:54:29.639
Which is.

2287
05:54:31.159 --> 05:54:41.400
Firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one of the

2288
05:54:41.479 --> 05:54:48.119
most important places to actually have a message, because you

2289
05:54:48.479 --> 05:54:54.119
really feel it. You really feel the release and the

2290
05:54:54.200 --> 05:55:02.639
pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It releases so

2291
05:55:02.959 --> 05:55:11.400
much from your body that's not useful, starting a healing

2292
05:55:11.560 --> 05:55:17.159
process which will continue long after this recording is over.

2293
05:55:26.439 --> 05:55:29.319
The message in this part of your body not only

2294
05:55:29.479 --> 05:55:34.240
feels really good for you, it's actually fun to do

2295
05:55:35.680 --> 05:55:41.319
because it is, as I said, like kneading bread. It's

2296
05:55:41.400 --> 05:55:45.240
a part that you can really get hold of and

2297
05:55:45.439 --> 05:55:59.080
really message deeply. If that's your choice, They're not going

2298
05:55:59.119 --> 05:56:01.119
to move over to the other side of your body

2299
05:56:01.639 --> 05:56:10.360
and do the same with the opposite part of your

2300
05:56:10.439 --> 05:56:18.000
lower back. Kneeding and messaging from your sides all away.

2301
05:56:22.159 --> 05:56:24.880
To the middle of your back where your spine is

2302
05:56:29.319 --> 05:56:38.560
pressing and kneading firm and gentle at the same time.

2303
05:56:40.520 --> 05:56:43.799
It feels so releasing.

2304
05:56:46.439 --> 05:56:56.880
This mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness, relaxation or mixed together.

2305
05:57:02.639 --> 05:57:07.439
Plus there's that feeling from your stomach as it's been stretched.

2306
05:57:09.319 --> 05:57:12.479
Even though you're in your stomach now, you can feel

2307
05:57:12.520 --> 05:57:16.319
it being stretched because the whole area is connected to

2308
05:57:16.400 --> 05:57:27.759
your stomach. Now we're going to move or move further

2309
05:57:27.959 --> 05:57:32.919
up to your top of your body, and we did

2310
05:57:32.959 --> 05:57:41.599
the same this time, starting with your upper back. Put

2311
05:57:41.680 --> 05:57:47.240
my hands forward over and massive massage in that area

2312
05:57:50.200 --> 05:57:53.919
up to your spine from the side of your body

2313
05:57:54.119 --> 05:57:58.840
up to your spine, so some of that message area

2314
05:57:59.520 --> 05:58:05.400
that must or tissue or whatever fatty tissue even will

2315
05:58:05.479 --> 05:58:10.799
be possibly from your chest because all connected, the chest

2316
05:58:11.000 --> 05:58:17.520
and the back connect together. I'm going to be massaging

2317
05:58:17.680 --> 05:58:22.319
and just pulling some of that skin from your side

2318
05:58:22.959 --> 05:58:31.439
up and massage in the area of your upper back

2319
05:58:33.200 --> 05:58:39.759
all the way to your spine, and then I'll move

2320
05:58:39.840 --> 05:58:42.599
down a bit and I'll continue with the middle of

2321
05:58:42.680 --> 05:58:50.200
your back, doing exactly the same thing as gentle, as

2322
05:58:52.000 --> 05:59:03.400
deep as you choose. Now, I'll move from the other

2323
05:59:03.520 --> 05:59:08.360
side again and do the exact same thing with the

2324
05:59:08.479 --> 05:59:17.840
top of your back on the other side, from pretty

2325
05:59:17.919 --> 05:59:31.439
much underneath your arm area really to your spine, and

2326
05:59:31.520 --> 05:59:38.240
then continue in that all the way down, including your

2327
05:59:38.319 --> 05:59:55.599
lower your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to

2328
05:59:55.759 --> 06:00:02.360
your thighs, the backs of your thighs, and the sides

2329
06:00:02.479 --> 06:00:13.479
of your thighs, starting with your right leg, massaging the

2330
06:00:13.639 --> 06:00:22.639
back and the sides of your thighs gently and firmly.

2331
06:00:24.759 --> 06:00:28.200
There's a lot of muscles there. It's an area that

2332
06:00:28.319 --> 06:00:32.479
can be very tense at times and maybe needs a

2333
06:00:32.560 --> 06:00:35.000
little bit more pressure than the rest of the body

2334
06:00:36.080 --> 06:00:43.759
that's up to you. You can gently strike the back

2335
06:00:46.599 --> 06:00:50.319
of your legs where you know, opposite your.

2336
06:00:50.319 --> 06:00:58.200
Knee joint or underneath your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area,

2337
06:01:05.159 --> 06:01:08.599
and working down to your calf muscles.

2338
06:01:11.520 --> 06:01:17.880
Massage in your calf muscles thoroughly and deeply, if you choose,

2339
06:01:21.360 --> 06:01:40.560
using both hands fingers, digging deep to your ankles and

2340
06:01:40.680 --> 06:01:46.880
the back of your back of your ankles, just gently

2341
06:01:47.119 --> 06:01:59.439
massage in that area, maybe lifting the leg and stretching

2342
06:01:59.479 --> 06:02:22.240
it a little. Moving to the right foot, massage in

2343
06:02:24.799 --> 06:02:31.560
the bottom of your feet and the size of your

2344
06:02:31.639 --> 06:02:48.520
feet gently but firm enough so they don't tickle. Just

2345
06:02:48.720 --> 06:02:54.240
allow the pleasure that you get from having your feet

2346
06:02:54.360 --> 06:02:58.840
massaged to just overtake you.

2347
06:02:59.639 --> 06:02:59.919
M hm.

2348
06:03:02.159 --> 06:03:07.759
As I continue to message your feet, the bottoms of

2349
06:03:07.840 --> 06:03:17.599
your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel. You can

2350
06:03:17.680 --> 06:03:20.639
put a lot of pressure into your heel and it

2351
06:03:20.799 --> 06:03:25.759
feels amazing, Yet the arches need to be a bit

2352
06:03:25.840 --> 06:03:37.520
more gentle. Stretching your toes gently and message in the

2353
06:03:37.639 --> 06:03:45.680
bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each one individually.

2354
06:03:54.119 --> 06:03:57.959
Moving over to the left leg to do exactly the

2355
06:03:58.080 --> 06:04:08.439
same thing, starting at the top of the thighs. Work

2356
06:04:08.520 --> 06:04:13.080
in the back of the thighs and the sides, massaging

2357
06:04:13.319 --> 06:04:23.439
deeply and gently a whole area, working all the way down.

2358
06:04:30.479 --> 06:04:36.200
And this is an area that maybe you could like

2359
06:04:36.319 --> 06:04:45.720
to spend more time relaxing and massaging. Perhaps, if you wanted,

2360
06:04:45.880 --> 06:04:50.119
I could make a future recording. I want to spend

2361
06:04:50.200 --> 06:04:59.080
more time on one particular area. As you moved down

2362
06:05:02.000 --> 06:05:13.520
to your calf muscles. Massage in your calf muscles firmly

2363
06:05:15.479 --> 06:05:29.479
and gently, moving down your ankle into your feet. Massage

2364
06:05:29.599 --> 06:05:35.119
in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of your feet,

2365
06:05:40.279 --> 06:05:47.279
stretching your toes and massage in each toe individually. And

2366
06:05:47.439 --> 06:05:53.319
that feeling of pleasure and release. The experience when you're

2367
06:05:53.400 --> 06:06:15.119
having your feet massaged feels really good. Now as you

2368
06:06:15.319 --> 06:06:26.680
turn over in your mind, laying on your back, I'm

2369
06:06:26.759 --> 06:06:40.200
just gonna start again your nick area in your shoulders,

2370
06:06:44.200 --> 06:06:54.599
just to get back in touch with that area and

2371
06:06:54.759 --> 06:07:06.159
lets you move up. I can clean my hands a

2372
06:07:06.240 --> 06:07:10.040
bit the more fresh because now I'm gonna message your

2373
06:07:10.119 --> 06:07:26.520
face gently, starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed,

2374
06:07:27.880 --> 06:07:33.720
I can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2375
06:07:33.840 --> 06:07:50.680
up on your eyebrows, just massaging around your scalp, massaging

2376
06:07:50.919 --> 06:08:01.159
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your jaw, shipley,

2377
06:08:06.119 --> 06:08:07.599
the side of your neck.

2378
06:08:11.599 --> 06:08:11.840
Chin.

2379
06:08:23.159 --> 06:08:30.840
They're just moving down from your neck down to your chest,

2380
06:08:34.599 --> 06:08:38.639
starting by message in the very top of your chest

2381
06:08:42.479 --> 06:08:47.720
where the collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone,

2382
06:08:56.159 --> 06:08:59.400
and they just message in the hole of the chest,

2383
06:09:08.599 --> 06:09:20.639
moving the chest around. Because it's quite a large area,

2384
06:09:22.599 --> 06:09:30.040
you can move from one side to the next, moving

2385
06:09:30.400 --> 06:09:41.400
my hands underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up,

2386
06:09:43.560 --> 06:09:46.599
stretching some of the muscles of your back in the process,

2387
06:09:51.919 --> 06:10:00.560
moving up over your chest, and they're moving down out again.

2388
06:10:13.319 --> 06:10:18.799
Then allowing my hands. They just message gently and slide

2389
06:10:19.080 --> 06:10:25.599
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2390
06:10:29.040 --> 06:10:35.720
and then gradually my hands moving apart and message in

2391
06:10:35.880 --> 06:10:45.200
and sliding at the same time, moving down to just

2392
06:10:45.319 --> 06:11:00.319
below your red cage, moving down and then mess uptching

2393
06:11:00.400 --> 06:11:09.040
up again, giving your chest all the attention that it

2394
06:11:09.200 --> 06:11:23.720
needs to feel completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also going

2395
06:11:23.799 --> 06:11:29.279
to be focusing on your sides as well, an area

2396
06:11:29.439 --> 06:11:35.599
that really doesn't get much attention but feels really good

2397
06:11:36.799 --> 06:11:46.119
when it's massaged. Just stroking my hands down the sides

2398
06:11:46.240 --> 06:11:52.959
of your body, just blow your arms all the way

2399
06:11:53.040 --> 06:12:06.200
down to your hips. Now move into your stomach area.

2400
06:12:08.240 --> 06:12:11.599
We're gonna stand on one side of you like I

2401
06:12:11.680 --> 06:12:16.200
did when I did your lower back. I'm gonna do

2402
06:12:16.279 --> 06:12:22.319
a similar process of just stretching the muscles from your side,

2403
06:12:25.840 --> 06:12:35.159
gently massaging from one side to the next.

2404
06:12:37.439 --> 06:12:37.880
Move in.

2405
06:12:40.439 --> 06:12:44.639
The whole area from below your ribs all the way

2406
06:12:44.759 --> 06:12:55.159
down to below your belly button, and I'm gonna move

2407
06:12:55.279 --> 06:12:58.279
around to the other side of you and repeat that

2408
06:13:04.919 --> 06:13:18.919
process of relaxing deeply, calmly. You feel loose, you feel free.

2409
06:13:21.360 --> 06:13:26.040
And there's something about having your stomach message that's different

2410
06:13:26.119 --> 06:13:32.919
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2411
06:13:33.560 --> 06:13:37.520
of holding a different kind of stress in your stomachs

2412
06:13:38.840 --> 06:13:46.720
that we may not be aware of. There's an owl

2413
06:13:46.880 --> 06:13:55.119
message your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

2414
06:13:56.599 --> 06:14:05.759
around your belly button, and then going the other way around.

2415
06:14:12.360 --> 06:14:18.880
The gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling how

2416
06:14:19.000 --> 06:14:29.119
you're feeling. As I now move down the tops of

2417
06:14:29.240 --> 06:14:36.240
your thighs muscles, massaging them, and I can do this

2418
06:14:37.240 --> 06:14:45.520
to your legs at the same time, pressing down massaging

2419
06:14:46.000 --> 06:14:51.119
deeply those muscles in your thighs. The front of your

2420
06:14:51.200 --> 06:15:02.599
thighs and moving down to your knees, gently messaging your knees,

2421
06:15:07.840 --> 06:15:13.919
sliding down your shins, put pressure on either side of

2422
06:15:14.000 --> 06:15:27.040
your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down to your ankles,

2423
06:15:32.000 --> 06:15:41.639
stroking the tops of your feet, and then with each

2424
06:15:43.000 --> 06:15:48.400
foot in each hand, just gently messaging the whole of

2425
06:15:48.520 --> 06:15:57.279
the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel, your ankle,

2426
06:15:58.159 --> 06:16:09.680
your toes, message in every part of your feet. Feel

2427
06:16:09.880 --> 06:16:15.400
so good, just to let go and enjoy the process.

2428
06:16:21.080 --> 06:16:39.919
Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort and so

2429
06:16:40.119 --> 06:16:56.880
many feelings come just from touching your skin. And you

2430
06:16:57.000 --> 06:17:03.200
can just lie there for as long as you choose,

2431
06:17:07.200 --> 06:17:16.680
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

2432
06:17:18.680 --> 06:17:19.000
By me.

2433
06:17:26.200 --> 06:17:48.159
Enjoy feeling deeply rased. And all we're gonna do is

2434
06:17:51.759 --> 06:18:08.279
blow out some candles. In your mind, there are going

2435
06:18:08.319 --> 06:18:18.720
to be a hundred candles, and you're going to blow

2436
06:18:18.880 --> 06:18:29.279
each one out individually, one by one, starting at one hundred.

2437
06:18:30.360 --> 06:18:37.720
As I count down all the way down to one,

2438
06:18:42.240 --> 06:18:51.159
and each time I say the number, you can imagine

2439
06:18:51.200 --> 06:18:57.599
that candle in front of you, and I'd like you

2440
06:18:57.759 --> 06:19:13.200
to actually eat physically generally blow that candle out just

2441
06:19:17.000 --> 06:19:25.319
so it's not big blow, its just a gentle, and

2442
06:19:25.560 --> 06:19:35.520
that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the next number,

2443
06:19:37.159 --> 06:19:46.119
so we moved down, and you can just blow that

2444
06:19:46.279 --> 06:19:56.240
one out as well. And as we move down the numbers,

2445
06:20:00.799 --> 06:20:06.200
you'll find yourself feeding more and more relaxed.

2446
06:20:09.240 --> 06:20:10.040
If you need.

2447
06:20:11.520 --> 06:20:20.799
To sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming incredibly tired and sleepy.

2448
06:20:24.639 --> 06:20:32.080
In fact, you may struggle to blow out all one

2449
06:20:32.240 --> 06:20:49.119
hundred of these candles as you feel more and more

2450
06:20:49.439 --> 06:21:17.360
deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired. And the further

2451
06:21:17.720 --> 06:21:27.400
you go down, the more your mind starts to drift.

2452
06:21:33.799 --> 06:21:40.240
You may find that you stop listening to me after

2453
06:21:40.400 --> 06:21:53.520
a while. And even though there maybe background sounds where

2454
06:21:53.560 --> 06:22:05.040
you are, you'll be aware of those sounds at the moment.

2455
06:22:10.000 --> 06:22:10.720
He may.

2456
06:22:13.959 --> 06:22:30.040
Start just not even notice them at all because they're unimportant.

2457
06:22:38.080 --> 06:22:43.279
Where I am, I've got the sounds of the birds,

2458
06:22:45.159 --> 06:22:49.840
there's all horrorst the pigeon who likes to say hello.

2459
06:22:50.119 --> 06:23:02.080
Sometimes there's the odd playue that goes by, maybe traffic

2460
06:23:02.400 --> 06:23:13.040
and trains in the distance, but none of that scene

2461
06:23:13.240 --> 06:23:27.639
is important whatsoever, or candles you blow out less important

2462
06:23:29.159 --> 06:23:44.400
anything is or candles you blow out, the further you

2463
06:23:44.720 --> 06:24:04.720
seemed to move away from sounds and chet rule, date days,

2464
06:24:05.159 --> 06:24:20.200
stuff seems to just move away on its own. You

2465
06:24:20.919 --> 06:24:41.720
feel more calma with every candle you blow out, guiding

2466
06:24:41.959 --> 06:24:58.240
you the next number, did you hear me say? And

2467
06:24:58.400 --> 06:25:00.479
then you blow that can all out?

2468
06:25:01.319 --> 06:25:01.520
Too?

2469
06:25:09.680 --> 06:25:33.159
So easy, so simple. I'm gonna start by introducing the

2470
06:25:33.479 --> 06:25:50.040
first candle This is a hundred. The first candle this

2471
06:25:50.360 --> 06:26:06.919
is one hundred. When you blow that candle out, you'll

2472
06:26:07.119 --> 06:26:24.720
find immediately a slight change in how you feel, as

2473
06:26:24.799 --> 06:26:32.759
well as a real sense of positivity growing within you,

2474
06:26:38.840 --> 06:27:09.040
relaxation and sleepiness expanding. Starting with one hundred, now a

2475
06:27:09.360 --> 06:28:19.479
candle now ninety nine, candle ninety eight, candle ninety seven,

2476
06:28:41.880 --> 06:30:23.279
cam ninety six, capt ninety five, ninety four, candle ninety three,

2477
06:30:54.959 --> 06:32:34.599
ninety two, mighty one, candle ninety had eighty nine, hand

2478
06:32:42.720 --> 06:36:26.639
eighty eight, eight canto eight eighty five eight eight it

2479
06:36:26.919 --> 06:39:46.080
two two one USUS candle seventy nine, candle seventy eight,

2480
06:39:55.000 --> 06:40:57.639
candle seventy seven, candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle

2481
06:41:00.439 --> 06:41:57.560
seventy four, candle seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one,

2482
06:42:18.360 --> 06:43:19.319
candle seventy one and seventy and sixty nine, candle sixty eight,

2483
06:43:29.119 --> 06:44:31.799
candle sixty seven, candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle

2484
06:44:33.959 --> 06:45:26.400
sixty four, candle sixty three, candle sixty chi and sixty one,

2485
06:45:49.080 --> 06:47:42.959
candle sixty fifty nine, candle fifty eight, fifty seven fifty six,

2486
06:48:11.680 --> 06:49:27.360
candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three, candle

2487
06:49:30.400 --> 06:51:11.759
fifty two, candle fifty two, con tolonee, candle fiftenty one,

2488
06:51:31.880 --> 06:53:26.080
candle fifty, candle forty nine, candle forty eight, candle forty seven,

2489
06:53:55.439 --> 06:55:47.720
candle forty six, candle forty five, candle forty two, candle.

2490
06:55:51.680 --> 06:55:52.840
Forty one.

2491
06:56:31.200 --> 06:58:31.680
Four, candle thirty nine and thirty eight, cantle thirty seven,

2492
06:59:10.759 --> 07:01:17.200
Canto thirty five, cant thirty four, camp thirty three, handle

2493
07:01:20.599 --> 07:04:16.319
thirty one, can thirty and twoe ten nine twenty eight,

2494
07:05:07.720 --> 07:07:26.959
candle twenty seven, candle twenty six, cant wit five when

2495
07:07:29.240 --> 07:09:27.159
four end not twenty thirty can do twenty typ to

2496
07:10:07.599 --> 07:19:12.880
wait two candle seventeen, candle sixtyay four two and nine jammed.

2497
07:19:17.680 --> 07:19:51.680
Eight champ.

2498
07:21:36.720 --> 07:24:43.840
Two candle or let go of all of those thoughts, worries,

2499
07:24:44.159 --> 07:24:50.279
concerns about the past, thoughts about the future, and even

2500
07:24:51.759 --> 07:24:56.080
things you've been thinking about today. Just let it all

2501
07:24:56.159 --> 07:25:02.400
go because none of it is useful in this moment.

2502
07:25:07.319 --> 07:25:22.680
This is your opportunity to just focus on feeling relaxed,

2503
07:25:27.000 --> 07:25:33.400
allowing yourself to get in touch with that natural sense

2504
07:25:35.479 --> 07:25:43.599
of peace that we all have within us. It's available

2505
07:25:43.680 --> 07:25:48.520
for everyone. It just sometimes takes a little bit of

2506
07:25:48.680 --> 07:25:56.080
effort to set up the right time and place in

2507
07:25:56.319 --> 07:26:02.560
order for you to just let go. Because when you

2508
07:26:02.759 --> 07:26:10.560
do decide to let go and relax, that's what your

2509
07:26:10.599 --> 07:26:19.319
body starts to do because you've chosen. You've chosen to

2510
07:26:19.759 --> 07:26:26.840
just allow your body to unwind and your mind starts

2511
07:26:26.959 --> 07:26:34.400
to slow down. And it's a nice feeling. It's a

2512
07:26:34.520 --> 07:26:38.759
nice feeling at the beginning, just to know that you

2513
07:26:39.240 --> 07:26:49.520
have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and because you've

2514
07:26:49.599 --> 07:26:58.119
made that decision, your body will just follow suit. Because

2515
07:26:58.159 --> 07:27:02.799
sometimes all the muscle in your body need is just

2516
07:27:03.159 --> 07:27:12.400
permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2517
07:27:12.639 --> 07:27:16.840
we're going from here to there, we're walking around and

2518
07:27:16.959 --> 07:27:24.319
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2519
07:27:24.520 --> 07:27:32.919
or space to really relax deeply, So it kind of

2520
07:27:33.040 --> 07:27:38.599
waits for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2521
07:27:42.959 --> 07:27:43.639
And when you do.

2522
07:27:45.279 --> 07:27:50.439
Give your permission, when you give the say so, when

2523
07:27:50.520 --> 07:27:56.639
you say okay, it's time for your body.

2524
07:27:58.040 --> 07:28:07.000
To let go completely relax totally, your body just follows.

2525
07:28:10.119 --> 07:28:15.360
So like a breath of relief. Ah good, like a

2526
07:28:15.479 --> 07:28:22.520
now relax have feeling at the end of a day,

2527
07:28:22.560 --> 07:28:26.959
of very physical day that you may experience in the past,

2528
07:28:28.040 --> 07:28:30.599
where you get home and you just sit down on

2529
07:28:30.680 --> 07:28:34.919
a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off, and ah,

2530
07:28:35.720 --> 07:28:40.919
feels so nice. I know that you don't have to

2531
07:28:41.000 --> 07:28:45.400
get up again for a little while at least, and

2532
07:28:45.520 --> 07:28:48.159
if you choose, you can just sit there for maybe

2533
07:28:48.200 --> 07:29:01.639
an hour to It feels blissful. Just by sitting down

2534
07:29:01.959 --> 07:29:06.639
like that. Your body knows that it's time to relax.

2535
07:29:08.279 --> 07:29:14.119
Your body has been given permission from you because it's

2536
07:29:14.159 --> 07:29:24.400
a mindset in your mind, you're prepared to let go

2537
07:29:24.560 --> 07:29:34.639
of everything and just completely allow all the stress of

2538
07:29:34.720 --> 07:29:44.200
your body to evaporate. Any tensions can just gradually.

2539
07:29:46.279 --> 07:29:46.639
Vanish.

2540
07:29:53.159 --> 07:30:04.840
It's almost like magic, really, because that sense of relaxation

2541
07:30:05.159 --> 07:30:11.159
in your body, it's a very natural state. It's not

2542
07:30:11.360 --> 07:30:16.200
something unusual. It may feel unusual when you first start

2543
07:30:16.279 --> 07:30:20.959
to relax. You if you haven't really spent a lot

2544
07:30:21.000 --> 07:30:25.439
of time focusing and giving yourself this space to let

2545
07:30:25.479 --> 07:30:33.000
go completely and relax may seem almost alien, but it isn't.

2546
07:30:34.520 --> 07:30:40.439
It's actually the most natural thing in the world to

2547
07:30:40.599 --> 07:30:50.400
let go completely, to relax totally, the most natural thing

2548
07:30:50.720 --> 07:31:02.919
in the world to allow yourself to feel really calm

2549
07:31:03.360 --> 07:31:10.360
in your mind. And it is almost like a literal unwinding.

2550
07:31:14.000 --> 07:31:19.479
It's like you press a button and all the tension

2551
07:31:19.880 --> 07:31:25.680
just releases, and it's like a wheel, like a cog,

2552
07:31:26.639 --> 07:31:30.200
like the inside of the clock just unwinding. And it's

2553
07:31:30.240 --> 07:31:35.200
almost like you could see the little wind up knob

2554
07:31:35.360 --> 07:31:40.360
that's used just going the opposite way that you choose

2555
07:31:40.479 --> 07:31:48.279
to wind it up, and the energy that frenetic stress

2556
07:31:48.720 --> 07:31:58.759
for energy gradually winding down, losing its power, losing its strength.

2557
07:32:01.240 --> 07:32:10.520
As a sense of relaxation becomes stronger and deeper, and

2558
07:32:10.840 --> 07:32:18.919
you may find a little more relaxed. You feel that

2559
07:32:19.080 --> 07:32:29.360
your mind starts to wonder, maybe seem to stop listening

2560
07:32:29.439 --> 07:32:34.040
to me for a while, Your mind goes somewhere else,

2561
07:32:35.479 --> 07:32:41.319
and then you realize you're listening to me again, and

2562
07:32:41.439 --> 07:32:48.080
now it's just your mind drifting to sleep, which is

2563
07:32:48.240 --> 07:32:59.400
quite natural, because sometimes when we're stressed and tense, we're

2564
07:32:59.479 --> 07:33:04.439
not actually be aware of what we need or we

2565
07:33:04.639 --> 07:33:09.759
physically your emotionally need in this moment.

2566
07:33:12.639 --> 07:33:15.959
But when you allow your.

2567
07:33:15.880 --> 07:33:21.599
Body and mind to relax completely and you let go

2568
07:33:21.680 --> 07:33:32.479
of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas all longo allow them

2569
07:33:32.560 --> 07:33:42.880
to drop onto the floor, you start to get in

2570
07:33:43.080 --> 07:33:54.840
touch with the feelings of such relaxation. Feelings so nice

2571
07:33:56.799 --> 07:34:02.759
to be in touch with the calmness of the different

2572
07:34:02.880 --> 07:34:15.959
body parts as they become looser and looser. Even your

2573
07:34:16.119 --> 07:34:28.159
breathing seems easier and more natural, effortless, as I call

2574
07:34:28.479 --> 07:34:37.000
outs through your mouth or nose into your lungs, breathing.

2575
07:34:36.680 --> 07:34:45.040
In comforts and relaxation, and then just breathing out any

2576
07:34:46.240 --> 07:34:50.279
excess remain intentional stress.

2577
07:34:51.599 --> 07:35:00.599
From every part of your body and mind. You start

2578
07:35:00.680 --> 07:35:06.759
to focus on your mind. Maybe you notice that things

2579
07:35:09.400 --> 07:35:15.880
come to a standstill, or maybe just much much lower

2580
07:35:16.599 --> 07:35:26.319
than before, because your mind is not really needed when

2581
07:35:26.520 --> 07:35:34.520
listening to my voice, which allows your mind to relax

2582
07:35:36.560 --> 07:35:44.599
just as deeply as your body. And that's synchronicity between

2583
07:35:46.200 --> 07:35:57.919
the relaxation of your body, relaxation of your mind. Let

2584
07:35:58.159 --> 07:36:13.000
you know, feeling completely calm, beliefs, and relaxed is a

2585
07:36:13.279 --> 07:36:18.680
great healing experience fear.

2586
07:36:20.959 --> 07:36:21.720
And has.

2587
07:36:26.000 --> 07:36:34.439
So many positive benefits for your body, mind, and your life.

2588
07:36:37.119 --> 07:36:45.840
To be able to let go everything and to relax completely.

2589
07:36:47.759 --> 07:36:55.880
You know, all parts of your body and mind, even

2590
07:36:56.000 --> 07:37:11.639
your bones relaxed, all your muscles are relaxed, Even the

2591
07:37:11.959 --> 07:37:25.279
skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

2592
07:37:28.240 --> 07:37:28.799
That you have.

2593
07:37:30.599 --> 07:37:48.159
Is also deeply relaxed. And your brain really starts to

2594
07:37:48.400 --> 07:37:50.520
feel the benefits.

2595
07:37:51.759 --> 07:37:52.080
Of this.

2596
07:37:53.680 --> 07:38:05.360
Heathing relaxation. Un As you focus on the in the

2597
07:38:05.560 --> 07:38:10.560
side of your scalp where your brain is, you can

2598
07:38:10.880 --> 07:38:18.840
start to realize and notice the benefits of your brain

2599
07:38:19.919 --> 07:38:34.040
relaxing deepay in. As your brain continues to relax sends

2600
07:38:34.439 --> 07:38:43.000
those messages to the rest of your body and to

2601
07:38:43.240 --> 07:39:08.319
mind to re relax more, deepay, relax more completely, letting

2602
07:39:08.560 --> 07:39:20.279
go of any remaining thoughts or concerns, allow them just

2603
07:39:20.520 --> 07:39:27.040
to drop onto the floor because they're not longen necessary

2604
07:39:28.319 --> 07:39:40.159
in this moment, this moment of deep reaxation and calmness,

2605
07:39:42.479 --> 07:40:09.159
filling your brain with deep, concentrated healing calming, relaxing, every

2606
07:40:09.799 --> 07:40:26.959
part of your brain feeling so loose and comfortable, so

2607
07:40:28.200 --> 07:40:42.840
relaxed and peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's so

2608
07:40:43.200 --> 07:40:55.040
healthy in that sense of deep deep comfort really does

2609
07:40:56.240 --> 07:41:10.479
allow you to enjoy those ever increasing sensations of comfort

2610
07:41:12.159 --> 07:41:24.919
that are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each and every

2611
07:41:25.319 --> 07:41:27.040
muscle of your body.

2612
07:41:31.279 --> 07:41:32.159
Deeper.

2613
07:41:36.279 --> 07:41:53.159
And deeper, much more deeper than before, much more comfort

2614
07:41:55.759 --> 07:42:10.479
spreading through your body, your mind, be so peaceful and calm,

2615
07:42:13.319 --> 07:42:27.840
so very very peaceful in avery part of your body,

2616
07:42:29.479 --> 07:42:44.119
let it go, the a, everything and everything so peaceful

2617
07:42:44.599 --> 07:43:04.000
and calm, so relax very second the parts you feel

2618
07:43:06.319 --> 07:43:25.319
dper DPA relaxed, dper and dper relax.

2619
07:43:27.680 --> 07:43:32.000
Car so calm.

2620
07:43:35.840 --> 07:43:37.520
Peace for.

2621
07:43:40.319 --> 07:43:49.599
So very peace, from your head down to your toys.

2622
07:43:52.720 --> 07:44:05.119
Such peace and comfort growing all all the time, Such

2623
07:44:05.840 --> 07:44:20.840
peace and comfort spreading through your body and mind. Deepper deeper,

2624
07:44:23.759 --> 07:44:37.000
such comfort spreading and sinking deeper into ay muscle of

2625
07:44:37.200 --> 07:44:53.919
your body, so that you feel amazing, so relaxed, so

2626
07:44:54.520 --> 07:45:20.000
be so rel and peace, letting you go everything. We're

2627
07:45:20.000 --> 07:45:26.400
going to do a body scan, focusing on firstly how

2628
07:45:26.479 --> 07:45:31.799
you feel in your body, not trying to change how

2629
07:45:31.880 --> 07:45:37.680
you feel. Not trying to relax, not trying to move

2630
07:45:37.759 --> 07:45:44.599
away from any discomfort or stress or tension. Just accepting,

2631
07:45:46.159 --> 07:45:51.240
observing and accepting how you feel in the different parts

2632
07:45:51.319 --> 07:45:58.000
of your body, Just allowing yourself to be exactly as

2633
07:45:58.080 --> 07:46:09.560
you are, to notice, to get in touch with how

2634
07:46:09.639 --> 07:46:19.919
you actually feel in this moment. To start off by

2635
07:46:20.040 --> 07:46:28.880
focusing on your hands, just be aware of your hands.

2636
07:46:34.240 --> 07:46:38.720
I like you to move your hands around, just maybe

2637
07:46:38.799 --> 07:46:44.360
move your fingers a little bit. I've been enclosing in

2638
07:46:44.479 --> 07:46:52.119
your hands very gently, just so that you can get

2639
07:46:52.240 --> 07:46:59.000
in touch with how your hands and your fingers feel,

2640
07:47:04.400 --> 07:47:23.360
very very slow movements. Focusing now on your feet, and

2641
07:47:23.439 --> 07:47:27.360
if you can just do kind of an equivalent with

2642
07:47:27.520 --> 07:47:33.240
your feet is you've just done with your hands, Maybe

2643
07:47:34.680 --> 07:47:43.279
turning your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your toes gently,

2644
07:47:46.119 --> 07:47:58.599
only very gently and very slowly, noticing how your feet

2645
07:47:59.159 --> 07:48:14.639
feel in this moment. Focusing now and your eyes. I'd

2646
07:48:14.759 --> 07:48:21.680
like you to just focus on your eyelids. Maybe you

2647
07:48:21.799 --> 07:48:24.880
can open and close your eyes a couple of times

2648
07:48:26.279 --> 07:48:30.159
to really get in touch with how you feel. When

2649
07:48:30.200 --> 07:48:38.279
you do close your eyes, the muscle changes in your

2650
07:48:38.360 --> 07:48:45.000
eyes when you do close them. Maybe raising your eyebrows,

2651
07:48:46.759 --> 07:48:54.560
it stretches the tops of your eyes, perhaps squinting your eyes,

2652
07:48:58.319 --> 07:49:03.639
scrunching up your eyes, just so you can really get

2653
07:49:03.680 --> 07:49:14.479
in touch with all aspects of how your eyes feel.

2654
07:49:16.959 --> 07:49:17.400
Right now.

2655
07:49:26.799 --> 07:49:32.799
Now focusing on your thighs, then you know, it just

2656
07:49:32.840 --> 07:49:41.200
starts you to gently tense your thighs, just very very gently,

2657
07:49:43.520 --> 07:49:48.080
just enough so you can become.

2658
07:49:49.240 --> 07:49:53.040
More attuned.

2659
07:49:53.880 --> 07:50:03.159
To the physical sensation of your upper the front of

2660
07:50:03.279 --> 07:50:13.040
your thighs, and the backs of your thigh noticing and

2661
07:50:13.279 --> 07:50:30.720
observing how your thighs fear. Right now, moving your focus

2662
07:50:32.439 --> 07:50:38.919
to the back of your neck, just noticing the back

2663
07:50:39.040 --> 07:50:45.279
of your neck, the muscles, and of course they lead

2664
07:50:45.560 --> 07:50:49.919
to the side of your neck. They also lead to

2665
07:50:50.080 --> 07:50:54.959
the top of your back, which leads to your shoulders.

2666
07:50:56.599 --> 07:51:00.279
So as your focus on the back of your neck,

2667
07:51:02.240 --> 07:51:08.680
maybe you can move your head gently upwards as if

2668
07:51:08.759 --> 07:51:16.119
you're looking up, Maybe moving your head down as if

2669
07:51:16.200 --> 07:51:23.119
you're looking down. Perhaps moving your head side to side,

2670
07:51:24.279 --> 07:51:37.639
right to left, only very slowly and very gently. I'm

2671
07:51:37.680 --> 07:51:43.360
not trying to force anything. It has to be very

2672
07:51:45.720 --> 07:51:51.599
very gentle, just so that you can.

2673
07:51:53.119 --> 07:51:54.720
Be more.

2674
07:51:56.360 --> 07:52:05.759
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations the physical

2675
07:52:07.159 --> 07:52:14.080
sensations of how on the back of your neck feels

2676
07:52:15.880 --> 07:52:31.240
right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2677
07:52:31.360 --> 07:52:37.639
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your triceps

2678
07:52:37.720 --> 07:52:45.759
are between your elbow and your shoulders. To focus on

2679
07:52:46.040 --> 07:52:53.200
those parts the tops of your arms, you may like

2680
07:52:53.319 --> 07:53:02.840
to just tense them, but very very gently and slowly,

2681
07:53:05.400 --> 07:53:13.439
so you're not straining or putting any pressure whatsoever.

2682
07:53:14.319 --> 07:53:15.240
On your arms.

2683
07:53:17.919 --> 07:53:25.319
It's just slowly you can gain more of a sense

2684
07:53:25.560 --> 07:53:36.000
of how your upper arms are feeling in this moment,

2685
07:53:39.400 --> 07:53:52.080
just noticing as you gently, very gently and slowly tightening

2686
07:53:52.279 --> 07:54:03.200
the muscles, and then leto notice how the tops of

2687
07:54:03.319 --> 07:54:21.840
your arms feel right now. As in now focus on

2688
07:54:22.040 --> 07:54:29.560
your stomach, the area the lower abdomen area below your

2689
07:54:29.599 --> 07:54:38.240
belly button, moving all the way down to your hips,

2690
07:54:39.319 --> 07:54:50.000
just above of your grind. Maybe you're able to tense

2691
07:54:50.360 --> 07:55:02.520
these muscles in that area very very gently and slowly.

2692
07:55:08.200 --> 07:55:12.599
If that's a difficult thing to do, maybe you can

2693
07:55:12.840 --> 07:55:23.479
just move your body, pushing your stomach up, maybe moving

2694
07:55:23.520 --> 07:55:28.759
a little bit to a side using your hips just

2695
07:55:29.319 --> 07:55:38.520
so can get more in tune with how you're lower

2696
07:55:39.080 --> 07:55:56.040
up to an area is feeling in this moment. Just

2697
07:55:56.479 --> 07:56:18.680
noticing the physical sensations or your lower abdomen. As you

2698
07:56:18.959 --> 07:56:32.200
move your attention to your mouth, notice in your lips

2699
07:56:34.159 --> 07:56:42.680
and inside your mouth, your teeth, your guns, your tongue,

2700
07:56:52.279 --> 07:57:00.919
just noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It

2701
07:57:01.080 --> 07:57:10.080
may help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving

2702
07:57:10.159 --> 07:57:17.520
it to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the

2703
07:57:17.799 --> 07:57:24.000
side of your mouth, and then to the right, gently

2704
07:57:24.479 --> 07:57:31.159
to the side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against

2705
07:57:31.319 --> 07:57:39.319
the top of your mouth, and then down gently against

2706
07:57:39.400 --> 07:57:49.919
the bottom of your mouth, always very slowly and a

2707
07:57:50.479 --> 07:57:54.680
very very gentle.

2708
07:57:59.119 --> 07:58:00.319
So that you can.

2709
07:58:03.919 --> 07:58:27.520
Be aware of how you feel in your mouth area. No,

2710
07:58:32.159 --> 07:58:48.279
got to focus on your wrists, and I'll ask you

2711
07:58:48.720 --> 07:58:57.479
to maybe just rotate your wrists by moving your hands

2712
07:58:58.880 --> 07:59:12.279
in a circular emotion very gently and slowly, just slowly,

2713
07:59:12.720 --> 07:59:33.919
can feel the sensations that you are currently experiencing in

2714
07:59:36.959 --> 07:59:47.319
your wrists. Perhaps move in your hands up and down

2715
07:59:50.000 --> 08:00:31.639
again very very gently, slowly, very chanzu and slow. Now

2716
08:00:34.279 --> 08:00:48.840
start to observe your lower back. The back part is

2717
08:00:50.479 --> 08:01:06.639
just above your hips, where your coxis are a whole

2718
08:01:06.919 --> 08:01:13.520
area which also really does include the sides of your

2719
08:01:13.560 --> 08:01:24.479
body because those muscles are very much connected as those

2720
08:01:24.639 --> 08:01:31.599
muscles also move into your hip AIA connect into your

2721
08:01:31.720 --> 08:01:48.279
buttocks the sides of your hips, and if you're physically

2722
08:01:49.840 --> 08:01:58.680
able to do so, maybe you can very gently just

2723
08:01:59.319 --> 08:02:12.759
move body eviss slightly, very slowly, some side to side,

2724
08:02:16.479 --> 08:02:17.360
just enough.

2725
08:02:22.599 --> 08:02:24.000
To gauge.

2726
08:02:28.759 --> 08:02:46.439
How you feel your lower back, perhaps secretly, even move

2727
08:02:46.639 --> 08:03:00.720
your hips gently up and down, gently and slowly in

2728
08:03:01.080 --> 08:03:14.919
order really be in touch with the physical sensations of

2729
08:03:15.159 --> 08:03:44.520
your lower back. As we know your attention to your

2730
08:03:44.759 --> 08:03:50.560
joe an area for your chin.

2731
08:03:51.520 --> 08:03:52.520
All the way up.

2732
08:03:53.880 --> 08:04:11.360
To near your ears are oh, your jaw, you can just,

2733
08:04:13.479 --> 08:04:20.159
if it's okay to do so, gently open your mouth,

2734
08:04:23.040 --> 08:04:34.680
no wide noice stretching, just very gently and slowly opening

2735
08:04:34.799 --> 08:04:47.880
your mouth and closing your mouth very gently and slowly

2736
08:04:57.439 --> 08:05:14.759
so you can pink touch with how your jaw feels now,

2737
08:05:41.439 --> 08:05:57.040
I like to sing now the chest around you don't

2738
08:05:57.240 --> 08:06:04.599
need to do anything to move your chest because it

2739
08:06:04.840 --> 08:06:17.720
moves every time you breathe. It moves very gently and

2740
08:06:18.360 --> 08:06:35.919
slowly automatically with each breath you takee As you focus

2741
08:06:36.479 --> 08:07:22.439
on the how your chest heels when you breathe, move

2742
08:07:22.639 --> 08:07:37.040
in your focus to your forearms with your elbows maybe

2743
08:07:37.360 --> 08:07:43.080
you're able to very gently.

2744
08:07:44.520 --> 08:07:46.599
And slowly.

2745
08:07:48.360 --> 08:07:56.919
Dense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2746
08:07:57.400 --> 08:08:30.599
you can feel your elbows as well. Very gently and slowly, gently.

2747
08:08:33.400 --> 08:08:35.400
And softly.

2748
08:08:38.919 --> 08:09:17.360
Absurd your forearms and helpers. Now make a focus the

2749
08:09:17.560 --> 08:09:29.400
rest of your back, your upper back in the middle,

2750
08:09:30.959 --> 08:09:47.159
the middle of your back. Again, this part of your

2751
08:09:47.319 --> 08:10:02.040
body moves also every time you breed. You may not

2752
08:10:02.360 --> 08:10:16.479
notice that. Usually why shoul user your upper back in

2753
08:10:16.599 --> 08:10:26.479
the middle of your back. He can really feel that

2754
08:10:28.119 --> 08:11:23.479
gentle and slowerment. Moving your focus into your hip area,

2755
08:11:26.799 --> 08:11:28.200
your butty as.

2756
08:11:30.439 --> 08:11:30.759
Gray.

2757
08:11:33.560 --> 08:12:07.400
There's a muscles at those bones in your midsection. Just

2758
08:12:07.759 --> 08:12:30.119
noticing how your hips feel. Right now, you can very

2759
08:12:30.880 --> 08:12:45.159
very gently move your hips, maybe side to side, very

2760
08:12:45.880 --> 08:13:21.639
gently and m yeah, yeah, softly.

2761
08:13:28.639 --> 08:13:28.919
Ms.

2762
08:13:35.439 --> 08:13:52.200
Everything starts to slow down, including the thoughts in your

2763
08:13:52.319 --> 08:14:04.080
mind and your mind itself. Just start to gradually. It

2764
08:14:04.159 --> 08:14:10.639
doesn't have to be instant, but just gradually starting too.

2765
08:14:11.919 --> 08:14:14.520
It's almost like time is strength.

2766
08:14:15.680 --> 08:14:15.919
Chin.

2767
08:14:19.799 --> 08:14:25.799
It's a slower pace to maybe what you're used to

2768
08:14:28.119 --> 08:14:36.080
in your day to day life. It's a slower movement

2769
08:14:39.159 --> 08:15:01.759
of energy, very small movements which makes up the larger movements,

2770
08:15:03.360 --> 08:15:09.840
which is always the case. Now, when you move your hand,

2771
08:15:11.400 --> 08:15:14.200
it might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots

2772
08:15:14.279 --> 08:15:22.159
of minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other.

2773
08:15:22.520 --> 08:15:34.479
And what happens in this space that we're sharing is

2774
08:15:39.799 --> 08:15:54.000
we move from that big movement into those smaller movements.

2775
08:16:00.439 --> 08:16:11.680
Starting to focus on how your body feels, not just

2776
08:16:11.799 --> 08:16:16.319
as a whole, not just oh, i'm feeling this way.

2777
08:16:16.400 --> 08:16:22.479
I'm feeling stressed or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm.

2778
08:16:23.799 --> 08:16:30.400
I'm feeling this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to

2779
08:16:30.639 --> 08:16:41.840
notice that your body begins to present to you small

2780
08:16:42.959 --> 08:16:59.319
feelings around your body, small physical sensations in your legs,

2781
08:17:02.119 --> 08:17:15.319
whether pleasurable or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label

2782
08:17:15.400 --> 08:17:24.919
them or to judge them, those feelings, just thinking them,

2783
08:17:25.840 --> 08:17:38.799
thinking about them is just being neutral, just feelings, not

2784
08:17:39.040 --> 08:17:50.680
being particularly concerned, just noticing what your body is telling you,

2785
08:17:58.479 --> 08:18:04.639
the feelings in your arm, instead of feeling the whole

2786
08:18:04.919 --> 08:18:14.680
of the arm, maybe notice those individual feelings, all those

2787
08:18:14.759 --> 08:18:26.560
different muscles and the skin, the hairs of your arms,

2788
08:18:28.479 --> 08:18:42.520
all the internal parts of your arms, the veins, the bones.

2789
08:18:45.400 --> 08:18:51.400
Just being aware of maybe your elbow on your right

2790
08:18:51.639 --> 08:19:02.240
arm has a certain feeling. Maybe you're left wrist also

2791
08:19:02.520 --> 08:19:25.520
has its own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm

2792
08:19:26.599 --> 08:19:38.799
on your right arm, your right forearm, there may not

2793
08:19:38.959 --> 08:19:46.720
be any particular feeling that you could even give a

2794
08:19:46.799 --> 08:19:54.000
name to, may not feel like anything other than just

2795
08:19:54.599 --> 08:19:57.200
a feeling. Yeah, it's there.

2796
08:20:03.520 --> 08:20:09.240
The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps your shoulders when you

2797
08:20:09.360 --> 08:20:13.080
think about them, kind of almost like they're the same,

2798
08:20:14.240 --> 08:20:19.880
you know, the same feeling, almost like you both of

2799
08:20:19.959 --> 08:20:21.840
your shoulders are just one thing.

2800
08:20:23.639 --> 08:20:34.759
Of course they're not. And when you focus on your

2801
08:20:34.840 --> 08:20:43.040
left shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find

2802
08:20:43.240 --> 08:20:48.639
that you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense

2803
08:20:48.759 --> 08:21:14.279
the muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder. Your

2804
08:21:14.360 --> 08:21:30.279
lower back, the left side of your lower back and

2805
08:21:31.080 --> 08:21:41.759
the right side of your lower back of course that

2806
08:21:42.000 --> 08:21:54.400
connection to your buttocks and to your hips, and also

2807
08:21:54.639 --> 08:22:08.360
moving up into the middle of your back. And sometimes

2808
08:22:08.720 --> 08:22:12.200
like right now, actually when I focus on their part,

2809
08:22:13.599 --> 08:22:17.959
when I focused on my buttocks and then I focused

2810
08:22:18.040 --> 08:22:22.119
on the middle of my back, I almost felt like

2811
08:22:22.360 --> 08:22:27.119
the muscles in my lower back were being stretched very gently,

2812
08:22:31.880 --> 08:22:37.159
just stretched a little bit, even though I wasn't doing

2813
08:22:37.240 --> 08:22:46.000
anything to try to stretch your lower back. It just

2814
08:22:46.119 --> 08:22:58.400
seemed to happen. The feeling of very gently stretching your

2815
08:22:58.479 --> 08:23:17.560
lower back comes along. I have feeling in your chest,

2816
08:23:25.200 --> 08:23:38.599
just noticing what sensations you are experiencing in your chest

2817
08:23:38.840 --> 08:23:55.000
right now. And there's so much of the chest. Of course,

2818
08:23:55.200 --> 08:23:58.840
there's the collar bone leading to the chest. You've got

2819
08:23:58.880 --> 08:24:07.479
the chest bone, You've got the muscles in your chest.

2820
08:24:10.240 --> 08:24:16.319
Of course, if you're female, there's possibly the breasts. If

2821
08:24:16.360 --> 08:24:24.520
you're male, you've got the different well why not that

2822
08:24:24.639 --> 08:24:32.119
different these days, But there may be more muscles at

2823
08:24:32.159 --> 08:24:38.400
the top of the chest, but at the side underneath

2824
08:24:39.560 --> 08:24:42.360
it's pretty much the same. Whether you're a man or

2825
08:24:42.400 --> 08:24:48.840
a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch out to

2826
08:24:48.959 --> 08:24:53.880
your back as well as breast tissue stretches and moves

2827
08:24:53.919 --> 08:25:01.279
into your back. To just be aware of your chest

2828
08:25:10.240 --> 08:25:37.319
being with whatever feeling there is in your chest. And

2829
08:25:37.400 --> 08:25:44.880
when I noticed that, I focus on my chest, I

2830
08:25:45.119 --> 08:25:50.119
feel it in my back, my upper back. I mean,

2831
08:25:50.159 --> 08:25:53.119
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2832
08:25:53.119 --> 08:26:04.279
I'm grieving in and it stretches my chest and my

2833
08:26:04.400 --> 08:26:18.119
back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

2834
08:26:24.880 --> 08:26:29.680
doesn't feel I got a little bit of pain in

2835
08:26:29.799 --> 08:26:37.680
my right chest, a little bit, not pain, but little discomfort,

2836
08:26:37.840 --> 08:26:47.880
maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know. I notice my shoulders

2837
08:26:47.919 --> 08:26:57.000
also wanting to flex for some reason. I think that's

2838
08:26:57.040 --> 08:27:05.360
probably part of my upper back, that connection between my

2839
08:27:05.520 --> 08:27:10.319
shoulders marper back, because I can move my shoulders and

2840
08:27:11.439 --> 08:27:18.119
stretch the muscles in my back, moving the shoulders backwards

2841
08:27:19.080 --> 08:27:23.680
or up, which then moves the I think it's the

2842
08:27:23.840 --> 08:27:44.720
scapulous in your back. It feels quite nice. Actually, a

2843
08:27:44.799 --> 08:27:48.319
good thing about this is you can, if you want to,

2844
08:27:49.080 --> 08:28:03.959
you can just flex or stimulate the various muscles in

2845
08:28:04.080 --> 08:28:09.799
your body gently in order to get more of a

2846
08:28:10.000 --> 08:28:24.919
sense of how they feel. And when you're relaxing, when

2847
08:28:24.959 --> 08:28:29.000
you do tense and muscle, then you let it go

2848
08:28:29.319 --> 08:28:38.119
and you let it relax. It relaxes way more than

2849
08:28:38.159 --> 08:28:48.279
it would normally. But you have to feel that you're

2850
08:28:48.319 --> 08:28:51.919
able to do that. There's no point in doing it

2851
08:28:52.159 --> 08:28:57.959
if there's an issue with the per part of your body.

2852
08:29:01.439 --> 08:29:08.040
You need to be gentle with yourself at all times

2853
08:29:10.639 --> 08:29:22.159
when relaxing deeply. It's important to be kind to yourself

2854
08:29:29.759 --> 08:29:38.200
as you notice your mind how much has your mind

2855
08:29:38.520 --> 08:30:05.759
slowed down since we started this recording. How came and

2856
08:30:06.040 --> 08:30:17.360
peaceful is your mind right now? We have nothing to

2857
08:30:17.479 --> 08:30:27.360
think about and just my voice to listen to. Because

2858
08:30:27.439 --> 08:30:38.400
you know the intention behind this recording, this relaxation. At

2859
08:30:38.439 --> 08:30:44.880
the very least, for you to feel more relaxed at

2860
08:30:44.919 --> 08:30:48.279
the end of the recording than you did at the beginning,

2861
08:30:53.400 --> 08:31:02.080
at the very least, for your mind to slow down

2862
08:31:04.959 --> 08:31:17.759
because your body continues to relax, because that's what you

2863
08:31:19.400 --> 08:31:39.200
want to happen. That's what you expect to happen, for

2864
08:31:39.439 --> 08:31:57.639
relaxation to fill your body, maybe calm in your mind

2865
08:31:59.119 --> 08:32:06.639
to the point to boredom. When you start maybe to

2866
08:32:12.279 --> 08:32:54.000
drift away drifting, it's almost as if you're moving further

2867
08:32:54.200 --> 08:33:02.439
away from your body in your mind, just leaving that there,

2868
08:33:10.439 --> 08:33:14.720
kind of liking it an escape pod in a spaceship

2869
08:33:15.119 --> 08:33:18.479
a movie, a space movie. You know when they get

2870
08:33:18.560 --> 08:33:24.520
into a little pod in it since the month far

2871
08:33:24.720 --> 08:33:53.080
away from the spaceship, safe to dream and continue to

2872
08:33:53.240 --> 08:34:34.959
relax HM drifting size slow.

2873
08:34:47.639 --> 08:34:48.680
And peace.

2874
08:35:04.840 --> 08:35:50.880
So relaxed and peaceful and focusing on that feeling of

2875
08:35:51.080 --> 08:36:01.319
those individual parts of your body that's HM or relaxing

2876
08:36:03.279 --> 08:36:19.880
one by one, you may find that every now and

2877
08:36:20.080 --> 08:36:31.400
then you realize that you weren't listening to my voice

2878
08:36:34.040 --> 08:36:45.759
because your mind started to imagine something different, maybe started

2879
08:36:45.880 --> 08:36:54.439
to almost move into some kind of a dreamy state.

2880
08:36:59.279 --> 08:37:01.919
And then you become I'm aware of my voice again.

2881
08:37:05.560 --> 08:37:12.119
And even though you may want to focus on my voice,

2882
08:37:12.799 --> 08:37:20.240
you may also wish to allow your mind to just

2883
08:37:20.599 --> 08:37:40.400
drift naturally into that space of comfort and safety. As

2884
08:37:40.560 --> 08:37:58.000
you feel more comfort spreading through your body like a

2885
08:37:58.240 --> 08:38:12.639
warm blanket covering you gently, keeping your body it just

2886
08:38:15.319 --> 08:38:32.840
the perfect temperature, and even if you can hear background sounds,

2887
08:38:38.360 --> 08:38:50.720
they just don't seem to matter anymore. There's that sense

2888
08:38:50.840 --> 08:39:07.240
of peace spreads through your mind like a gentle breeze,

2889
08:39:10.240 --> 08:39:22.880
yet strong enough to blow away all negativity, strong enough

2890
08:39:23.040 --> 08:39:36.319
to remove from your mind any anxiety or stress that

2891
08:39:36.599 --> 08:39:50.840
was there before, and blow away any other thoughts or

2892
08:39:51.159 --> 08:40:12.560
feelings that just don't fit with the sense relaxation that

2893
08:40:17.680 --> 08:40:42.439
is filling your body and your mind. And as you

2894
08:40:42.639 --> 08:40:49.919
focus on your mind and countdown from ten down to one,

2895
08:40:51.319 --> 08:41:01.680
and with each number you hear, your mind will become

2896
08:41:07.759 --> 08:41:28.080
slightly more relaxed, just just slightly, from ten down to nine,

2897
08:41:28.880 --> 08:41:35.799
just a slight movement from nine down to eight, just

2898
08:41:35.919 --> 08:41:52.400
another small change in how you feel. Eight down to

2899
08:41:52.680 --> 08:42:02.119
seven feeling. This is a gap, almost gap that starts

2900
08:42:02.439 --> 08:42:11.439
to get wider, the gap between those feelings that you

2901
08:42:11.759 --> 08:42:19.080
used to have in your mind compared to the feelings

2902
08:42:19.240 --> 08:42:26.040
you have that are growing now, feelings of comfort and

2903
08:42:26.319 --> 08:42:37.959
security and confidence, and that gap becomes wider. Eight down

2904
08:42:38.080 --> 08:42:44.919
to seven, seven down to six, and when you get

2905
08:42:44.959 --> 08:42:52.000
to five, your mind will start to have a certain

2906
08:42:53.400 --> 08:43:05.000
physical sensation, almost like there's a magnet outside of your

2907
08:43:05.119 --> 08:43:11.880
head sucking the tension and the stress and any remaining

2908
08:43:13.000 --> 08:43:19.360
feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2909
08:43:25.159 --> 08:43:30.279
And then down to four you could start to really

2910
08:43:30.880 --> 08:43:43.919
experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a

2911
08:43:44.080 --> 08:43:52.799
place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

2912
08:43:56.319 --> 08:43:58.959
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2913
08:43:59.720 --> 08:44:05.919
and three, your mind is expanding, with this sense.

2914
08:44:08.520 --> 08:44:09.880
Of peace.

2915
08:44:11.200 --> 08:44:21.560
And tranquility growing as it moves down to When you

2916
08:44:21.639 --> 08:44:31.040
get to one, your mind just feels exactly how you

2917
08:44:31.400 --> 08:44:50.959
want to feel, almost a perfect feeling, maybe a sensation

2918
08:44:51.400 --> 08:45:00.560
that you'd like to keep a place that's safe, where

2919
08:45:02.119 --> 08:45:21.080
nothing can affect you at all, and you can stay

2920
08:45:21.200 --> 08:45:29.959
in that that space of comfort and confidence, confident in

2921
08:45:30.080 --> 08:45:38.200
your own ability to create this space and this feeling

2922
08:45:38.479 --> 08:45:45.439
of comfort within your own mind just by counting ten

2923
08:45:47.240 --> 08:45:54.360
down to one. And this is something that you can

2924
08:45:54.479 --> 08:46:03.520
do yourself when you're on your own a time when

2925
08:46:03.639 --> 08:46:07.639
you can maybe sit down, maybe just for a few minutes,

2926
08:46:12.240 --> 08:46:23.279
close your eyes. It just counts slowly from ten down

2927
08:46:23.360 --> 08:46:35.000
to one, and we experience these feelings in your mind.

2928
08:46:40.840 --> 08:46:45.159
And when you feel that way in your mind, your

2929
08:46:45.240 --> 08:46:59.720
body copies your mind, and that feeling it's spread through

2930
08:47:00.080 --> 08:47:07.119
your spine and your nervous system into every part of

2931
08:47:07.240 --> 08:47:22.319
your body, travels through your bloodstream, heathing and relaxing every

2932
08:47:23.319 --> 08:47:41.240
particle of your existence. And we can practice this a

2933
08:47:41.360 --> 08:47:49.439
few times before the end of the recording, and then

2934
08:47:49.520 --> 08:47:56.520
you can practice on your own, and each time you

2935
08:47:56.759 --> 08:48:08.439
count from ten down to one, the feelings of comfort, calmness,

2936
08:48:09.680 --> 08:48:28.799
deep deep relaxation becomes stronger and deeper feeling your mind

2937
08:48:29.119 --> 08:48:38.360
and your brain with these positive chemicals that spread throughout

2938
08:48:38.439 --> 08:48:48.279
your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body

2939
08:48:48.479 --> 08:49:01.720
and mind so very, very easily, just by counter from

2940
08:49:01.880 --> 08:49:12.240
ten down to one. That's what we're going to do. Now,

2941
08:49:13.080 --> 08:49:17.000
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I'd

2942
08:49:17.200 --> 08:49:21.520
like you to repeat the number after me. So when

2943
08:49:21.560 --> 08:49:28.560
I say ten, you can just repeat to yourself.

2944
08:49:29.919 --> 08:49:30.159
Ten.

2945
08:49:35.759 --> 08:49:45.119
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

2946
08:49:45.279 --> 08:49:54.799
mind and your body, and when I say nine, you

2947
08:49:54.880 --> 08:49:58.040
can repeat to yourself.

2948
08:50:00.400 --> 08:50:00.680
Nine.

2949
08:50:04.639 --> 08:50:15.840
Became noticing the increase in comfort and calmness in your

2950
08:50:16.080 --> 08:50:26.680
mind and in your body. The same when I say eight,

2951
08:50:29.680 --> 08:50:41.279
when I say seven, six, when I say five, four,

2952
08:50:45.240 --> 08:50:57.240
when I say three, two, and lastly when I say one,

2953
08:50:59.759 --> 08:51:11.919
can beat that number. Now, of course, when you do

2954
08:51:12.119 --> 08:51:17.479
this on your own without listening to me, you can

2955
08:51:18.400 --> 08:51:25.080
say the numbers or whatever speed that you feel is

2956
08:51:25.400 --> 08:51:34.319
necessary for you, so you can adapt. So you feel

2957
08:51:34.560 --> 08:51:38.759
you want to say the numbers ten out to one

2958
08:51:40.639 --> 08:51:45.159
faster than I do, then you go ahead and do that.

2959
08:51:46.080 --> 08:51:49.759
Or if you feel when you do it yourself that

2960
08:51:49.880 --> 08:51:55.919
you'd like to have more more space between the numbers,

2961
08:51:58.520 --> 08:52:05.000
maybe take a lot longer to get from ten all

2962
08:52:05.360 --> 08:52:23.520
the way down to one, that's your choice also to do. So,

2963
08:52:23.560 --> 08:52:32.000
I'm going to count from ten down to one. I

2964
08:52:32.119 --> 08:52:35.400
want to get to one. That will be the end

2965
08:52:36.000 --> 08:52:41.639
of this recording, unless, of course, you're listening with music,

2966
08:52:42.880 --> 08:57:55.159
then the music will continue ten nine eight, twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

2967
08:57:59.159 --> 08:58:45.119
thirty twelve eleven, ten nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

2968
08:58:49.439 --> 08:59:17.680
three two one. Now open your eyes, noticing how you

2969
08:59:17.799 --> 08:59:26.200
physically feel having counted down from twenty to one, allowing

2970
08:59:27.000 --> 08:59:31.400
stress and tension to leave through your fingertips and your toast.

2971
08:59:32.959 --> 08:59:37.639
And as you focus on your fingertips, maybe they feel

2972
08:59:37.639 --> 08:59:44.439
a little bit tingling, which is I suppose quite understanding

2973
08:59:44.599 --> 08:59:49.680
considering the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

2974
08:59:56.159 --> 08:59:58.159
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

2975
08:59:58.240 --> 09:00:06.080
one again. This time you can feel relief of tension

2976
09:00:07.680 --> 09:00:18.759
and stress, any anxiety that you may have leaving through

2977
09:00:18.840 --> 09:00:24.759
your stomach just leaving through your stomach, almost as if

2978
09:00:25.319 --> 09:00:31.759
it's just releasing the whole of your stomach. You'll navel

2979
09:00:33.240 --> 09:00:36.200
to just above your chest or below your chest, rather

2980
09:00:37.319 --> 09:00:40.560
so surrounding your belly by an area, the whole area.

2981
09:00:42.680 --> 09:00:46.720
You can feel the tension of your body where it

2982
09:00:46.880 --> 09:00:53.040
is left, just releasing from the area, and you may notice.

2983
09:00:52.799 --> 09:00:57.799
That your stomach will become very relaxed. As I count

2984
09:00:57.840 --> 09:02:18.279
down from twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

2985
09:02:23.119 --> 09:02:44.279
four three two what. You can open your eyes again

2986
09:02:44.319 --> 09:02:47.000
if you choose, or you can just keep them closed

2987
09:02:47.720 --> 09:02:53.479
because it feels relaxing. Just notice how your stomach feels,

2988
09:02:54.880 --> 09:02:58.520
I notice as your focus, just do a little scan

2989
09:02:58.759 --> 09:03:05.319
of your body. Just notice how your body feels, focusing

2990
09:03:08.400 --> 09:03:19.000
upper body, back, chest, stomach, legs, arms, hands, feet, Just noticing,

2991
09:03:23.240 --> 09:03:27.840
and you know, you may start to film more of

2992
09:03:27.880 --> 09:03:33.000
a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason listening

2993
09:03:33.080 --> 09:03:37.639
to this recording, because you would.

2994
09:03:37.599 --> 09:03:37.959
Like to.

2995
09:03:39.599 --> 09:03:51.479
Let go completely of everything and drift morph into a nice, natural, calm,

2996
09:03:51.840 --> 09:04:07.040
relaxing sleep. So now we're going to focus on your forehead,

2997
09:04:10.959 --> 09:04:13.720
and if you choose, you can incorporate your eyes in

2998
09:04:13.880 --> 09:04:18.520
this focus as well. So your forehead and your eyes,

2999
09:04:20.599 --> 09:04:25.000
it's that whole area basically almost as if you were

3000
09:04:25.080 --> 09:04:29.040
wearing a mask, you know, like a I don't know,

3001
09:04:29.080 --> 09:04:35.680
a Batman mask or something, or I'm trying to sorrow

3002
09:04:35.880 --> 09:04:37.880
or something, you know, the kind of mask that covers

3003
09:04:37.959 --> 09:04:41.040
your eyes but also covers quite a lot of the forehead.

3004
09:04:44.919 --> 09:04:47.959
Focusing on that area, because that's the area that we're

3005
09:04:48.000 --> 09:04:52.319
now going to release tension and stress from your mind,

3006
09:04:54.439 --> 09:04:58.279
your brain, from your mind, and any tension that you

3007
09:04:58.439 --> 09:05:03.200
may have remain in your face, in your neck, your jaw,

3008
09:05:04.400 --> 09:05:10.520
in your eyes, your forehead, or your scalp, So basically

3009
09:05:10.720 --> 09:05:16.599
any tension within your head area, including your mind and

3010
09:05:16.759 --> 09:05:24.360
your brain, and that's going to be released through your

3011
09:05:24.439 --> 09:05:31.400
forehead and your eyes. As I counted down again from

3012
09:05:31.959 --> 09:06:56.599
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

3013
09:07:02.199 --> 09:07:31.839
war three one, Noticing as you scan your face with jaw,

3014
09:07:32.400 --> 09:07:41.199
your eyes, your cheap bones, your ears, your forehead, your scalp,

3015
09:07:42.839 --> 09:07:47.120
your neck, back of your neck, the front of your neck,

3016
09:07:48.080 --> 09:07:58.800
the side of your neck, and your throat. Noticing being

3017
09:07:58.879 --> 09:08:10.400
aware of the comfort increased in the relaxation, not just

3018
09:08:10.559 --> 09:08:15.680
in your head and neck and mind, also the rest

3019
09:08:15.720 --> 09:08:26.120
of your body. Just notice how loose the calm you felt,

3020
09:08:27.120 --> 09:08:32.000
and how easily it is to just let go.

3021
09:08:34.839 --> 09:08:51.239
Completely, let go completely, how easily.

3022
09:08:58.239 --> 09:09:01.480
That's what I'm gonna do now, is I wanted to

3023
09:09:01.639 --> 09:09:09.440
focus on the top of your head, and we're gonna

3024
09:09:09.519 --> 09:09:18.720
allow every last piece of tension or stress the mind

3025
09:09:19.839 --> 09:09:25.199
be lingering or hiding in your body or mind or

3026
09:09:25.400 --> 09:09:32.080
head to just be sucked out on the top of

3027
09:09:32.160 --> 09:09:42.239
your head, released into the air. I want sucked out

3028
09:09:42.360 --> 09:09:48.440
into the clouds. Let a big cloud above your head,

3029
09:09:50.440 --> 09:09:54.279
almost like a whirlpool, and this is gonna suck that

3030
09:09:54.720 --> 09:10:01.239
tension out of the top of your head. Just take

3031
09:10:01.319 --> 09:10:10.440
her away. Good to focus. Imagine an opening at the

3032
09:10:10.519 --> 09:10:15.000
top of your head with a tension and stress and

3033
09:10:16.040 --> 09:10:20.199
any roup made in issues, maybe worries or concerns that

3034
09:10:20.319 --> 09:10:24.120
are no use to you. Now you can all be

3035
09:10:24.440 --> 09:10:28.959
sucked down at the top of your head and taken away.

3036
09:10:30.959 --> 09:10:35.239
As I count down again, I'm twenty down to one

3037
09:10:38.800 --> 09:12:23.080
now twenty or nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifty fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four,

3038
09:12:27.239 --> 09:13:02.959
three two one. Pree noticing how you feel, how relaxed

3039
09:13:03.319 --> 09:13:16.319
and calm you physically and mentally feel right now, how

3040
09:13:17.440 --> 09:13:26.480
peaceful your mind feels. It feels so nice to just

3041
09:13:26.639 --> 09:13:35.040
let go, to give yourself some space to breathe easily,

3042
09:13:36.959 --> 09:13:45.040
to think calmly, and just to take a break from

3043
09:13:46.839 --> 09:13:53.199
all that pointless worry and concerns about things that you

3044
09:13:53.279 --> 09:14:03.319
don't need to think about right now, because this is

3045
09:14:03.519 --> 09:14:08.360
your time to let go. This is your space to

3046
09:14:08.680 --> 09:14:19.160
enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful in your mind, relaxed in

3047
09:14:19.279 --> 09:14:29.040
your body. They can feel so good, so nice to

3048
09:14:29.440 --> 09:14:37.239
just not have to do anything, to be able to

3049
09:14:38.559 --> 09:14:48.440
really enjoy that serenity that comes with letting go completely,

3050
09:14:50.599 --> 09:14:53.040
that peacefulness that comes.

3051
09:14:52.879 --> 09:15:01.040
With in this.

3052
09:15:02.879 --> 09:15:12.919
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

3053
09:15:13.760 --> 09:15:24.879
for as long as you choose. If you choose to

3054
09:15:25.120 --> 09:15:32.360
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep, then you

3055
09:15:32.440 --> 09:15:43.959
can do that. It's completely up to you, and you

3056
09:15:44.080 --> 09:15:48.680
can keep this feeling of calmness physically and in your

3057
09:15:48.800 --> 09:15:56.800
mind for as long as you choose to feel completely relaxed,

3058
09:16:02.519 --> 09:16:11.279
completely relax And I'd like you to make up your

3059
09:16:11.519 --> 09:16:24.199
mind that you're going to relax, and I want to

3060
09:16:24.279 --> 09:16:27.680
explore that with you. What it feels like when you

3061
09:16:27.839 --> 09:16:36.919
actually decide that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself,

3062
09:16:37.040 --> 09:16:43.199
but giving yourself that. I guess it is a command, really,

3063
09:16:43.279 --> 09:16:50.199
isn't it. When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle

3064
09:16:50.319 --> 09:16:57.360
but firm way that only you can really tell yourself

3065
09:16:57.800 --> 09:17:00.400
in that way. You can't really have some one else

3066
09:17:00.440 --> 09:17:05.599
saying to you now it relax, relax, you know, and

3067
09:17:06.760 --> 09:17:09.040
it needs to be gentle. But you can't someone else

3068
09:17:09.080 --> 09:17:17.160
can't really have the same the same kind of influence

3069
09:17:18.319 --> 09:17:26.480
or power that you have over your own physicality, over

3070
09:17:26.680 --> 09:17:35.919
how you feel, because when you say it to yourself,

3071
09:17:37.199 --> 09:17:44.160
it means more. It's personal, and your brain and your

3072
09:17:44.599 --> 09:17:49.319
unconscious mind and your body listens to what you say.

3073
09:17:51.599 --> 09:17:55.080
So for example, we'll test it out and do a

3074
09:17:55.120 --> 09:17:59.080
little test, a few little tests along the way, and

3075
09:17:59.199 --> 09:18:04.199
you can get more of an idea of the force,

3076
09:18:05.120 --> 09:18:11.839
the positive force that you can have in creating a

3077
09:18:12.040 --> 09:18:16.000
sense of comfort and relaxation in your body and your

3078
09:18:16.080 --> 09:18:25.400
mind quite quickly just by you telling yourself to relax.

3079
09:18:30.040 --> 09:18:33.680
So I'm going to start by it's focus on your hands.

3080
09:18:37.319 --> 09:18:39.480
So focus on your hands and just tell your hands

3081
09:18:39.879 --> 09:18:45.800
to relax. I just say relax. As you focus on

3082
09:18:45.919 --> 09:18:52.879
your hands, you could say my hands are relaxed, or

3083
09:18:52.919 --> 09:18:57.080
I want my hands to relax. I think if you

3084
09:18:57.160 --> 09:19:04.000
actually do it directly by focusing and imagining that your

3085
09:19:04.120 --> 09:19:07.839
hands can hear what you're saying, you know, like they've

3086
09:19:07.839 --> 09:19:13.519
got little ears which is a bit weird. So talking

3087
09:19:13.680 --> 09:19:30.239
to your hands and just say relax, noticing how your

3088
09:19:30.319 --> 09:19:46.000
hands start to relax. Now, focus on your eyes and

3089
09:19:46.120 --> 09:19:49.319
tell your eyes to relax. So you just saying the

3090
09:19:49.400 --> 09:19:56.360
same word relax, and find the right tone for you.

3091
09:19:58.879 --> 09:20:03.319
You know, I might say relax, but you you might

3092
09:20:03.440 --> 09:20:10.800
say relax or relax. You know, you might say it

3093
09:20:10.919 --> 09:20:18.519
differently to yourself, and that's important for you to gauge

3094
09:20:18.800 --> 09:20:24.160
what feels right for you. To just tell your eyes

3095
09:20:25.360 --> 09:20:29.559
to relax, whilst focusing on your eyes, your eyelids, the

3096
09:20:29.720 --> 09:20:35.160
muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows, and just tell your

3097
09:20:35.360 --> 09:21:10.120
eyes directly relax. Now. Now I just did that myself,

3098
09:21:10.480 --> 09:21:20.279
and sometimes you may feel that you need a bit

3099
09:21:20.400 --> 09:21:26.120
more time for the different parts to relax, you know,

3100
09:21:26.239 --> 09:21:30.720
because I started talking again and maybe that part hasn't

3101
09:21:30.839 --> 09:21:34.000
relaxed fully. But what will happen is it would just

3102
09:21:34.120 --> 09:21:38.800
continue to relax even though I'm talking. And that's happening

3103
09:21:38.879 --> 09:21:46.080
with my eyes. Something else I noticed is when I

3104
09:21:46.160 --> 09:21:50.400
started focusing on my eyes, they actually almost became They

3105
09:21:50.440 --> 09:21:53.199
got worse before they got better in a way, so

3106
09:21:53.440 --> 09:21:56.639
that I felt a degree of tension growing in my eyes.

3107
09:21:58.319 --> 09:22:02.680
And then disappearing. So I think what that was really

3108
09:22:02.879 --> 09:22:08.760
was just me becoming more aware of the tension that

3109
09:22:09.000 --> 09:22:13.639
was already there that I I wasn't focused on it before,

3110
09:22:14.919 --> 09:22:23.000
so I wasn't really acknowledging it or really conscious to

3111
09:22:23.239 --> 09:22:36.360
those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is still continuing to relax,

3112
09:22:36.959 --> 09:22:42.639
as well as my hands. Actually, my hands have got

3113
09:22:42.680 --> 09:22:43.400
a certain.

3114
09:22:43.239 --> 09:22:43.559
Kind of.

3115
09:22:46.440 --> 09:22:52.160
Energy, like not buzzing, but I can kind of feel

3116
09:22:52.239 --> 09:22:58.040
a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's where

3117
09:22:58.080 --> 09:23:02.680
the tension is being released. That's the cause in that

3118
09:23:10.080 --> 09:23:12.239
the next part, I think we should focus on the

3119
09:23:12.319 --> 09:23:15.080
back of the neck. That's a part which quite often,

3120
09:23:17.120 --> 09:23:20.199
well for me, holds tension. I don't know about for yourself,

3121
09:23:21.120 --> 09:23:25.360
but I think it's quite a standard place where tension

3122
09:23:25.519 --> 09:23:32.199
is sometimes held. So, and I'm doing exactly what you're

3123
09:23:32.279 --> 09:23:34.879
doing as you do it as well, So I'm telling

3124
09:23:35.000 --> 09:23:39.160
my body parts to relax as well. So if you

3125
09:23:39.279 --> 09:23:42.239
tell your neck the back of your neck, focus on

3126
09:23:42.360 --> 09:23:48.919
the back of your neck and just say relax in

3127
09:23:49.000 --> 09:23:52.120
your own words, in your own tone, in your own voice.

3128
09:23:52.800 --> 09:23:54.839
You can say out loud, or you can just say

3129
09:23:54.879 --> 09:24:00.400
it to yourself internally, but you're focusing and your saying

3130
09:24:00.480 --> 09:24:04.680
it literally to the back of your neck, as if

3131
09:24:04.720 --> 09:24:08.400
the back of your neck can actually hear what you're saying.

3132
09:24:11.760 --> 09:24:15.360
So do that now, just say relax to the back

3133
09:24:15.400 --> 09:24:56.959
of your neck and I'll do the same. Now, what

3134
09:24:57.279 --> 09:25:00.199
I noticed, and you may have had SI and I

3135
09:25:00.319 --> 09:25:04.760
think is even though I was focusing on the back

3136
09:25:04.800 --> 09:25:15.720
of my neck, other parts started to, I don't know,

3137
09:25:16.080 --> 09:25:19.480
show themselves to me or maybe because they want to

3138
09:25:19.519 --> 09:25:23.400
be relaxed as well. But I started noticing the feelings

3139
09:25:23.440 --> 09:25:26.720
in my shoulders, at tension in my shoulders and in

3140
09:25:26.839 --> 09:25:34.120
my upper back. Whether that was because my back of

3141
09:25:34.160 --> 09:25:39.480
my neck was saying, well, I'm pretty much okay, it's

3142
09:25:39.800 --> 09:25:48.839
the other parts that need attention, but my low my

3143
09:25:49.279 --> 09:25:52.879
back of my neck is still relaxing. But I just

3144
09:25:53.000 --> 09:25:59.720
became more aware of other parts that needed attention. This

3145
09:26:00.160 --> 09:26:04.839
it happened, and it's not It doesn't mean that it's

3146
09:26:04.919 --> 09:26:10.400
going wrong. It just means you're being notified with more

3147
09:26:10.480 --> 09:26:18.160
places that also want to feel relaxed. So I'm going

3148
09:26:18.239 --> 09:26:22.319
to focus on my upper back. So you can do

3149
09:26:22.480 --> 09:26:28.199
the same, even if you don't have any feelings of

3150
09:26:28.360 --> 09:26:33.080
tension that are obvious in your upper back. If you

3151
09:26:33.239 --> 09:26:38.239
just focus on your back and the whole area from

3152
09:26:38.279 --> 09:26:42.839
his shoulder blades down to the middle of your back

3153
09:26:43.319 --> 09:26:47.360
and your spine. And with me, it's more the shoulder

3154
09:26:47.400 --> 09:26:57.360
blades more. Yeah, that's the parts that really sort of

3155
09:26:58.279 --> 09:26:58.760
given me.

3156
09:27:00.440 --> 09:27:00.800
The not.

3157
09:27:02.720 --> 09:27:05.519
That it needs relaxing. The sounds gonna ask that hard

3158
09:27:05.599 --> 09:27:20.279
to relax, and you can do the same. Now relax

3159
09:27:20.639 --> 09:27:35.959
up the back. There's something strange happened there, And this

3160
09:27:37.519 --> 09:27:38.360
often happens.

3161
09:27:38.440 --> 09:27:39.319
I've been doing this for.

3162
09:27:41.839 --> 09:27:48.040
Over sixteen years or something, and often I'm I'm surprised,

3163
09:27:48.959 --> 09:27:54.239
but amazed really that there can be a feeling.

3164
09:27:55.680 --> 09:27:56.440
So when I was.

3165
09:27:56.959 --> 09:27:59.919
Focusing on the back of my neck, on my back

3166
09:28:00.400 --> 09:28:05.559
was starting to feel quite stressed and in need of attention.

3167
09:28:08.000 --> 09:28:11.040
As soon as I started talking to you about my

3168
09:28:11.199 --> 09:28:16.120
upper back and talking about, you know, getting ready to

3169
09:28:16.440 --> 09:28:21.199
ask the upper back to relax, my op back already

3170
09:28:21.319 --> 09:28:27.040
started to relax. It's almost as if it doesn't need

3171
09:28:27.239 --> 09:28:37.199
to hear the words, just needs attention, just needs to

3172
09:28:37.279 --> 09:28:49.760
be noticed. And that is something that often happens in

3173
09:28:50.639 --> 09:28:57.519
this type of situation, is when you start to relax

3174
09:28:59.080 --> 09:29:02.360
a couple of parts and your body, as we've done

3175
09:29:02.480 --> 09:29:10.239
with our hands, our eyes, and eyelids, and now back

3176
09:29:10.279 --> 09:29:19.080
of the neck, top of the back, upper back. The

3177
09:29:19.160 --> 09:29:25.800
rest of the body seems to just take notice and

3178
09:29:26.040 --> 09:29:34.480
decide in its own way to start relaxing. Other parts

3179
09:29:34.559 --> 09:29:44.599
of your body start to just become looser. I suppose

3180
09:29:44.720 --> 09:29:47.160
it's kind of like a bit of an avalanche. You know,

3181
09:29:48.800 --> 09:29:52.040
a little ball starts rolling, and before you know it,

3182
09:29:52.160 --> 09:29:55.400
the whole of your body is completely relaxed and can't

3183
09:30:04.519 --> 09:30:12.160
And if you focus on your face, you focus on

3184
09:30:12.239 --> 09:30:20.879
your eyes, your eyelids, your eyebrows, and the muscles around

3185
09:30:20.959 --> 09:30:30.480
your eyes. Maybe you start to notice that your forehead

3186
09:30:30.800 --> 09:30:35.440
is more relaxed than it was. Maybe your face is

3187
09:30:35.559 --> 09:30:42.239
more relaxed. I would say my entire face is a

3188
09:30:42.319 --> 09:30:55.720
lot more relaxed than it was. So we're going to

3189
09:30:55.800 --> 09:31:03.440
focus now on your shoulders again, just like before. Just

3190
09:31:03.599 --> 09:31:07.400
tell your shoulders, and when you can do them individually.

3191
09:31:07.519 --> 09:31:11.239
You can do the right shoulder and left shoulder. I

3192
09:31:11.440 --> 09:31:15.440
just didn't do both at the same time. And just

3193
09:31:15.599 --> 09:31:19.199
tell your shoulders. As you focus on them in your mind,

3194
09:31:20.559 --> 09:31:25.480
focus on the how they feel. Maybe you can see

3195
09:31:25.559 --> 09:31:32.440
them in your mind's eye. Just tell your shoulders.

3196
09:31:35.720 --> 09:31:36.360
To relax.

3197
09:32:13.639 --> 09:32:27.160
I feel as nice as they relax, but do you notice,

3198
09:32:29.839 --> 09:32:36.279
especially with my back, is the connection between the different

3199
09:32:36.400 --> 09:32:47.480
parts the back, with shoulders, the neck being all connected

3200
09:32:47.959 --> 09:32:54.360
and being such a large part of your body, it's

3201
09:32:54.360 --> 09:33:02.760
all it's hard to separate them from each other. My

3202
09:33:02.919 --> 09:33:11.800
lower back is starting to relax on its own. Maybe

3203
09:33:11.839 --> 09:33:16.599
I'm going too slow and that could be an issue

3204
09:33:17.480 --> 09:33:24.279
because we all go at different speeds. And the idea

3205
09:33:24.360 --> 09:33:27.000
of the beginning of this recording was for you to

3206
09:33:27.080 --> 09:33:42.599
be able to just say to yourself, relax without focusing

3207
09:33:42.720 --> 09:33:48.360
on any particular part of your body. Because when you

3208
09:33:48.559 --> 09:33:59.400
know that telling your hands to relax and your hand relax,

3209
09:34:01.959 --> 09:34:08.639
you tell your eyelids and your eyes and muscles around

3210
09:34:08.760 --> 09:34:18.199
your eyes and your eyebrows to relax, and they relax.

3211
09:34:23.959 --> 09:34:35.199
You tell the back of your neck to relax, and

3212
09:34:35.639 --> 09:34:45.959
it relaxes. You tell your upper back.

3213
09:34:52.440 --> 09:35:00.000
To relax, hm.

3214
09:35:02.919 --> 09:35:13.919
And it relaxes. You tell your shoulders.

3215
09:35:15.199 --> 09:35:27.360
To relax, and they relax.

3216
09:35:51.080 --> 09:35:55.120
You told your hands to relax, they relaxed, and they

3217
09:35:55.239 --> 09:36:08.879
continued to relax. When you told your eyelids, the muscles

3218
09:36:08.879 --> 09:36:19.400
around your eyes, your eyebrows to relax, they relaxed and

3219
09:36:19.680 --> 09:36:30.599
continue to relax. When you told the back of your

3220
09:36:30.680 --> 09:36:37.919
neck focused on the back of your neck and told

3221
09:36:38.000 --> 09:36:57.639
it to relax. They relaxed and continued to relax. When

3222
09:36:57.680 --> 09:37:07.239
you told your upper back to relax, be relaxed and

3223
09:37:07.400 --> 09:37:23.680
continued to relax. As with your shoulders, you told your

3224
09:37:23.760 --> 09:37:37.760
shoulders to relax, and your shoulders relaxed and continued to relax.

3225
09:37:43.400 --> 09:37:51.720
And it's not just that, it's that the rest of

3226
09:37:51.839 --> 09:37:58.959
your body has also been listening, and that relaxation has

3227
09:37:59.160 --> 09:38:05.440
been spread. So from your eyes, the relaxation spread to

3228
09:38:05.559 --> 09:38:13.879
your forehead, around your face, into your skin, into your jaw,

3229
09:38:23.239 --> 09:38:27.639
into the fronts and sides of your neck, all way

3230
09:38:27.760 --> 09:38:38.879
down your chest and stomach, your relaxed hands and shoulders,

3231
09:38:40.879 --> 09:38:51.400
let up through your arms, relaxing your forearms, your upper arms, elbows,

3232
09:38:51.680 --> 09:39:10.959
your wrists, letting go your lower back, your hips, buttocks gray,

3233
09:39:12.839 --> 09:39:19.680
or just start to relax, or continue even more comfort

3234
09:39:21.319 --> 09:39:30.760
spreading through your legs all the way down to your ankles,

3235
09:39:35.959 --> 09:39:40.000
the tops of your feet, the sight of your feet,

3236
09:39:41.800 --> 09:39:52.720
and the bottoms of your feet, relaxing into your toes,

3237
09:39:56.519 --> 09:40:21.360
each toe relaxing come peace, And as your body relaxes more,

3238
09:40:21.879 --> 09:40:45.760
your mind becomes slower and peaceful, to the point where

3239
09:40:47.959 --> 09:41:00.480
if you choose to fall asleep. He can easy do that,

3240
09:41:06.080 --> 09:41:16.000
he say, drift the way because there's nothing going on

3241
09:41:16.120 --> 09:41:32.720
in your mind. Your pray is peaceful, your body continues

3242
09:41:36.599 --> 09:41:37.239
to rise.

3243
09:42:01.040 --> 09:42:01.599
And with that.

3244
09:42:01.879 --> 09:42:08.720
Connection between your body relaxing and the word do you

3245
09:42:09.080 --> 09:42:22.839
say to yourself relax means that you don't need to

3246
09:42:23.000 --> 09:42:28.400
focus on just one part. You can just focus on

3247
09:42:30.480 --> 09:42:40.680
your entire body saying the powerful word.

3248
09:42:44.800 --> 09:42:45.400
Relax.

3249
09:42:55.120 --> 09:43:09.879
And there's those me their sensations of comfort spreading throughout

3250
09:43:10.199 --> 09:43:26.800
your body, listening and calming and healing every part to

3251
09:43:26.919 --> 09:43:53.000
your body, healing more relaxed, so that all you need

3252
09:43:53.160 --> 09:44:08.120
to do now on is just tell yourself relax observed

3253
09:44:13.599 --> 09:44:37.680
feeding completely comfortable, col so relaxed, Starting now with number

3254
09:44:37.720 --> 09:47:52.120
twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventy sixty fifty four thirty well them

3255
09:50:05.519 --> 09:50:05.760
Nine