June 25, 2025

(music) (10 hours) And he was Yellow | LMBYTS #1381 | Jason Newland | 24th June 2025

(music) (10 hours) And he was Yellow | LMBYTS #1381 | Jason Newland | 24th June 2025
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Hello, and welcome to Jasonnewland dot com. My name is

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Jason Newland. I hope you are well. Hi, so.

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Oh, I got no idea what today's and it's Tuesday.

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I don't know what the day is. Is it a

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twenty second or.

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Something like that of June twenty twenty five, I'm not

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really sure. Please only listen when you can safely close

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your eyes. This is let me bore you to sleep.

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My name is Jason Newland. Oh God, itchy lake, I

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think I might have been bitten by a gnat. Okay,

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it's please, Okay, who I've been? It's probably been the

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busiest five days I've had for a very very very

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long time, as far as I suppose you could call

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it outside activities. You know, I'm busy sometimes making recordings,

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but not this week. I haven't been, so.

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I'm gonna I'm gonna tell you about it. First of all,

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my website is back, so apologies to anyone that were

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annoyed for the website going, but it's now back as

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it was. I'm just gonna have to do a little

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feudal checks to make sure as exactly how it was,

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but it is back online.

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Jesson nuland dot com and the yeah, that's done. I

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haven't made a recording according to my web I don't know.

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I'm losing track. To be fair, I didn't let me

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boy a Q and A Friday on Friday, and I

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think I did a deep sleep whisper recording afterwards later

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on in the day, I think, and then no, I

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don't think i'd have done this Saturday. So basically, here's

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what's happened. I'm going to talk about a medical situation,

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but I'm not going to go into information about the

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medical condition. Okay, so this is going to involve hospitals

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and stuff, so if that's might not be the most relaxing,

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most relaxing thing to tell you to talk about, but

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you know, I like to tell you what's going on

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in my life as well. But at the same time,

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I'm not going to I'm not going to go all

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deep and serious with this, although it has been a

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very very serious situation. So you know, it involves medical

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and I'm going to talk about a little bit about

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medical stuff, but not really if you know what I mean.

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But I will be talking about hospitals because that's where

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I've been every day for the last five days, not

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for me, but for someone else. So it all started

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in nineteen seventy when I was born. Now it's so

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my neighbor.

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He's having his new bathroom done. And I didn't see

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him last week.

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Pretty much all week because he's having his bathroom done

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and he's used to having his own space. So really

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the fact that he had people coming and going all week,

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I didn't really see him, and I didn't bother him,

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you know, I didn't really knock on his door because

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I could see on my camera that he was in

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and out and he was fine, and they were all

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in and out on the I got a door camera

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in and out doing the building work. So on Friday evening,

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when all the builders had finished, I knocked on his

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door to see how he was getting on. And then

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I say, evening. It's still light outside, so probably o'clock seven,

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eight seven ish, you know, six seven, and this is Friday.

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It's now Tuesday evening, and he opened the door. I

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just got in from the sun. I mean, I've just

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been outside and it was still sunny or bright anyway,

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maybe not Sunday, it was still still very bright outside.

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So everything looks a bit weird when when I get

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inside after being outside, especially with these glasses because they're

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tinted glasses, so it makes everything a little bit of

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all weird kind of visual for a short while. Plus

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my eyesight's it's not as good as it used to be.

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Well, my friend, my neighbor. He's my friend as well,

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but just use the word neighbor. I guess it's probably

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classes of more as a friend now. But he opened

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the door, so I just explained my relationship with him.

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It's friends who benefits. No, now it's neighbors with benefits.

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No, it's a he's quite elderly, he's nearly seventy eight.

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I help him out with some stuff, so paying bills,

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when he gets letters, making phone calls, I help him

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with that stuff, just stuff because he's hearing's not great,

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so I help him out with stuff where he you know,

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just general. I'm not his career, but I just try

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to help him when he needs help. And he had

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never ask for help or for the first nine years,

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but over the last year he's been a bit more.

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I mean he's asked.

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He asked me for help in the past, but only

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for little bits and bobs, and normally locks himself out,

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or he's lost his debit card things like that, or

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if he looked, Yeah, he's had my telephone number for

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a long time. So he locked himself in a couple

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of times where he couldn't open the lock. So you know,

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I was talking to him through the letter box even

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though he both wore on the phone as well, which

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is weird. And that was I've actually did a podcast

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about that episode. And that was strange because the council

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who I phoned would not talk to me because.

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I'm not him. Okay, So I phoned up saying, my

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elderly neighbor is a locked inside his flat. He needs

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to leave his home, but he can't open the door

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because the door is jammed. The lock was jammed, so

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he needed a locksmith. And they said, well.

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Who is he? I said who he was? And he

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said who are you to him? I said, I'm his neighbor.

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And then they said, well, we can't talk to you.

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I said, you are talking to me. Nope, we can't

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talk to you. We have to talk to him.

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So I literally had I said, well, she said we'll

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phone him up. I said, but you can phone him up.

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So I did phone him up. He couldn't hear him.

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So they phoned me up and they said, can you

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please put me can you put the phone through the

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letter box so he can talk to us? So it

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was weird anyway. That so a few little things like that.

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I ended up putting his fish and chips through the

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letterbox because he couldn't get out to get any food.

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That's a weird one. It's a shared memory though, So

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Friday evening he opens a door. Now he's got very

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fra lately, but he's again, he's seventy eight. He's not

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a big eater. He doesn't drink, doesn't smoke, doesn't He's

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probably one of the most enthusiastic people I've ever met

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regarding sport, regarding anything, and I've ever met anyone possibly

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of any age, that was so enthusiastic about what they love.

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And he loves sport, I mean all sport.

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Boxing is not too bothered about. That's the one I love.

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But he knows about boxing, but not a huge amount.

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But when it comes to football, rugby, cricket, absolutely knows.

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There don't seem to be anything you don't know, and

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he follows all of it. He'll actually he'll listen to

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one spot on the radio, he'll watch one spot on

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the TV, and he'll have another one playing on his tablet,

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like three different sports at the same time. It's just like,

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I don't know how he does it. It's not something

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that I could do. But he loves it. And that's

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what's so sad about the situation because he loves being alive. Right, Okay, again,

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I'm not going to go I don't want to go

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into deep stuff. But he loves he's.

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Got energy, he's got he's enthusiastic about life, constantly looking

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forward to the next day because the rugby's on, or

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the crickets on, or the football match. He's looking forward

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to that. He's looking forward to the weekend every week

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because that's when a lot of sport is on television.

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So you know, I'm just I'm trying to get across that.

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He's really nice, very chatty, very chatty, but he's a

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really nice person.

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It's a kind and gentle person. But as probably I

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am me sitting his ways like a lot of people are.

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I guess I am as well in a lot of ways,

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probably in maybe more.

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Ways than he is.

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To be fair, and he's independent, and he does not

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like being does not like people interfering with his business,

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and who does. To be honest, I don't think anyone

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does really do it. However, I'm laughing just because it

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put me in a very difficult situation. There's nothing funny

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at all about this situation. There's zero humor. But I'll

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probably get some out of it. But just remember I'm

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not mocking him or his situation at all.

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I wouldn't know.

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That's not what I'm doing, but I will perhaps laugh

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at some of the things that happened.

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So open a door, and.

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Literally I couldn't keep my eyes open because it was

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so bright.

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I thought he had some kind of light shining.

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Out out of his flat, and I thought my glasses

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were turning brown again, like the lenses, and then what's

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going on? So I took my glasses off, and it

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wasn't coming from there, it was coming from him.

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He was yellow.

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And I've seen that once before, many many years ago.

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I had two fouls and two thousand and two thousand

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and four that's when I last saw that, the only

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time I've ever seen it, and that person was a

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severe alcohol drinker alcohol drinker, and he survived, but he

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was in hospital but it gain another really nice person.

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I lived in that house. That's when I lived in Ipswich.

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I lived in the house that was every single person

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in there, apart from the person at the bottom, was

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an alcoholic except me, and I didn't drink that whole year.

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It was just, really I think that's pretty irony. I

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stopped drinking because I a little bit of a drink

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issue previous.

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I was just drinking excessively for.

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Three years, like every night for three years, pretty much.

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So I stopped drinking for a whole year. Two thousand

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and four, I moved into this place. The bloat next

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to me was a full on alcoholic. I'm talking like

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proper not didn't go to work. He's just drunk all

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the time. The man downstairs and I got him really

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well with him.

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I helped him get a council flat when he got evicted,

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so I kind of helped him during that period. I

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wasn't living there anymore, but I just couldn't leave him.

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I wanted to help him to well, if you're friends

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of sudden, you've got to help him. And the bloke

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downstairs was a full on, like really almost like a

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functioning alcoholic. The one next to me wasn't functioning. The

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one downstairs was functioning, and I got him really well

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with him, so again really quite good friends with him.

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The man next to him was also an alcoholic, but

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I didn't He wouldn't talk to me. He just didn't

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like me.

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So he lived directly below me, and he moaned that

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my I was making too much noise because when I

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moved in, I had this bed what they called the

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beds that are on the floor footons. I had a

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foot on the most uncomfortable bed in my life.

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That was.

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So every time I moved he oh, I guess I

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was moving the floorboards or whatever, and he could hear me.

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I think I'd be listening to the radio or something,

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and he just moaned. So he didn't like me, which

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is fine. Then downstairs at the bottom, so that's one

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two three people, two at the top with me and

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someone two at the bottom, two below me, and then

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two right.

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At the bottom. The one right at the bottom, that's

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the one it ended up possible.

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He was again another functioning alcoholic, and I think he

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was retired, like the two functioning ones were retired.

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Next to him, there was a crackhouse. Well I'm not joking.

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It got closed down by.

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The police, so he didn't drink, but he did other stuff.

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But he also was really nice. It's just a weird situation.

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He was lovely.

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Yeah, everyone in the house was nice. I didn't get

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on with one and he might be nice as well,

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but everyone else is pretty nice. And it was really

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strange because that was my year of abstinence, almost like

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I'm not doing anything this year, and I'm surrounded by

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all this alcohol. It was ridiculous. It was yeah, I

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don't know, almost like it was a test anyway.

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So I've seen that before.

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So my friend neighbor opposite yellow, yellow skirt and skin,

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and I thought, I'm seeing things here. I had venning

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with me on his lead. So I said, look, do

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you want to show me a bathroom? Said yeah, come in.

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He's exactly the same. It's the same as what he

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ever is. He's like, you know, he was quite bubbly

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as he normally is. He's genuinely quite pleased to see me.

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He doesn't let anyone else in his flat other than

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the builders. He's got no choice about that. But he

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doesn't invite anyone into his home. But he does me.

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Now, he didn't for the first nine years or eight years.

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So I went in there, went to the bathroom. It's

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a really good job they've done. So he's had his

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kitchen done. Now he's got his bathroom. It's nearly finished.

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I've been letting them in this week because he's impossible.

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Such a really nice bathroom. But it's very bright as well,

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because there's a new light in there. It's really because

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it's really bright at the moment. And I look at him.

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I thinking, at this point my glasses have gone back

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to normal. I said to him, you are you okay?

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He said? He said, what are you talking about? What

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are you?

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Are you okay?

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Said yeah, you feel okay? Said yeah? He said why,

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I said, oh, you're yellow? And he said what Now.

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He doesn't have a mirror in his home, and I

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don't know how he shaves.

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He does shave, so he must just do it by

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He must just guess. He's done it for years. But

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mind you, I've shaved at the sink without looking in

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the mirror. It's possible to do it like I've done

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it with a wet shave, a wet razor. We have

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had a sink that was nowhere near mirror because I

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couldn't be bothered to like walk two steps to the

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mirror to do it. But hey, it's this laziness. It's

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a challenge as well, isn't it to do it by touch?

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And it is possible. I mean, millions of people around

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the world, I have no choice but to do it

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by touch, do they? I guess if they're unable to see.

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So yeah, it is, of course it's possible.

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He he didn't know that he was shallow, but it

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wasn't just his skin, it was his eyes as well,

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that you know, the whites of his eyes.

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And I said, are you sure? He said, yeah, We're.

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Fine, and then we just have a normal conversation and

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I said, well, I'm just going to head off, and

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he was joking saying, I said, if you've got the

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builders coming at the weekend, he said, nope, they're not

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coming in. If they are, even if they're not, they're

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not coming in because it's Rugby tomorrow. And I laughed,

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I know he would not answer the door at the weekend.

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That's his time. I said, okay, cool, I'll see it

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like I see it. I see you on Monday, because

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you know, I leave him alone at the weekend.

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In.

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Then then I get in here because I live opposite,

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I get in here and I'm thinking that ain't right.

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It's just not right. It's like, I can't how can

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I ignore that? It's I understand, And there's people coming

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and going not said a thing to him about it

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all week. They must have seen him. They have to

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see hi, because he's letting him in and he's a

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he's a right chatter box.

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He's probably been talking to them the whole week, so

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they've seen him and no one's mentioned it. But then

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maybe the fact that they haven't seen him before they

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might think that's just how he looks all the time.

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It's a weird one, isn't it. It's difficult. It's see

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if I see If you see someone you know really

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well and they're limping, you're going to mention it and

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say you're okay, you're limping. But if you see someone

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for the first time you know, you're a builder, you're

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knock on the door and they're limping, you're not going

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to question it. Yeah, it's I guess it's the same

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kind of thing. I suppose, I don't know.

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I imagine if you're going into people's houses you see so

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many different things that you maybe they don't even notice it,

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you know, I'm not sure. Anyway, I'm sitting in here

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and I'm starting to get upset because I don't know

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what to do, like really starting to get old. This

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is very awkward situation because I know what it's like

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and I know that he he wouldn't want me interfering.

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I was correct as well. So what I did is,

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which is something I don't normally do. I left Finny

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here and I went out around the corner to a

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neighbor that I know, and she's she's a bit older

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than me. She's someone that I can like. I felt

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I needed to talk to someone a bit older than me.

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I don't know why there's not many people older than

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me these days, but I thought, I just get her perspective.

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And I said, I don't know what to do. And

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I said, what I need is really a second opinion,

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because I might be I might not be seeing things correctly.

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I'm seeing yellow, but maybe he's not. He's not tank.

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He doesn't go out in the daytime, really, he goes

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out at night. And you know, there was always that

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maybe that's why. Maybe there's some kind of vitamin deficiency.

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I don't know. I'm not a doctor. I didn't finish

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the entire course. I didn't start. I didn't start the

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course either. But you know, by saying I didn't finish

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my doctorate, it's correct, isn't it.

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I didn't. I didn't complete, I didn't get my doctorate.

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I didn't start a doctorate. But I didn't get the doctorate.

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I never became a doctor.

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It's true. Doesn't mean I don't you know, I also

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don't have any medical training either, So that's irrelevant, isn't it. Really.

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I'm almost in disbelief about what's happened over the last

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five days. Just so I'm used to not going out

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other than three times a day with this little one here,

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this little fur ball in the park. I don't even

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I don't even cross the road like to go to

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the petro station or the pet shop anymore.

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Everything I buy is online. I don't. It's almost started.

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There's an invisible barrier that I've struggled to cross. I

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don't get my my prescriptions get delivered or I try

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and get someone to pick them up for me. I

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don't even travel there anymore. And it's been like that

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for probably since my friend downstairs passed away. Pretty much,

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I haven't really got out. I haven't been that much

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at all. In fact, the last time I went out,

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last time I left this area, I literally kind of

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left this area I think was probably my friend's funeral,

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which was a year and a half.

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Ago something like that. Yeah, over a even and a

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half ago. So yeah, it was kind of strange. So anyway,

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I'm saying that because I've ended up having to go

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out so Friday, so around my friend the neighbor's house,

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and they said, oh, you know, you know, I'm not

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being rude to them because its natural human thing, isn't it.

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We start, we start diagnosing as soon as you say

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someone's turned yellow, Well it's this, it's that. It's that,

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you know, And.

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My personal the way I kind of look at it

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is I don't know what it is, but I know

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he's not supposed to be yellow. That's all I can say.

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And I know that that can be a sign of

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something very serious.

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And I went online. I did research it as well

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before as soon as I came back just online to

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sort of all, okay, no description of turning yellow came

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up as being a positive, that's all. I'm saying.

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So I thought, oh, what do I do next? So

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I went around my neighbors. They basically diagnosed him, and

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we're about to write him a prescription. I said, no, no,

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wait a minute. First of all, you're not a doctor. Secondly,

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can one of you come around with me? And he

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knows the daughter because he's met loads of times. She's

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a little bit younger than me, and so I said,

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if you come round, and I knock on his door.

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Because they asked me. Actually, the neighbor they were visited

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asked me if I had a toilet roll the could borrow.

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So I thought, okay, I'll use that as an excuse.

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I knock on my neighbor's door the opposite me, asking

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me if he's got a spare toilet role because I've

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only got one left. So it gave me an opportunity

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to get him to open the door, because he does

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as he did answer the door to me and the

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other neighbor around the corner.

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She was with me, and as soon as the door

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opened she just went wow like she I mean, she

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was even shocked, even considered already told her what was happening.

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I don't know, actually didn't believe me or whatever, or

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didn't think it was quite as you know, significant, And

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he kind of says he got rid of us quite quickly,

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and so I gave him a toilet role because I

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didn't need a toilet roll, but I gave him my one.

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Came back in there. I've I didn't know what to

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do next. I really struggled. Really, it's weird, I did.

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I think with my friend downstairs it was just me

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the whole time, well not just me, but generally it

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was very often only me that was dealing.

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With him with his issues. So I kind of got

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used to it over years. In years of it, it

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was just progressive, you know, in a sense of more

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of the same.

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This was completely new. This is something I'd never dealt

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with with him before, or with anyone, not really in

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this sense, like being the person he needed to do something.

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So I called one one one, which is in the UK,

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that is, it's like a medical helpline. It's not nine

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to nine nine like in some countries it's nine one one,

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isn't it or whatever, different different numbers that would be emergency.

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One one one is a place where you can phone up.

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They ask you some questions. You can ask questions on

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behalf of someone else technically, I mean you can't. Personally.

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You can if you've got a loved one that's got

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conditions or got some kind of symptoms, you can ask

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for advice. Well, I did this, and the person on

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the one one one they were very limited because I

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wasn't with him, and they kept asking me questions that

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I couldn't answer. Well, they asked, how does he feeling?

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I said, he's feeling fine. Is he there with you now?

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I said no, it's not with me. Now, well, can

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you go and get him? I said not really, because

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he told me to leave him alone, basically.

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In so many words, stop fussing. I think might have

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been one of his sentences. And they said, okay, what's

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his day of birth? So I don't know his date

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of birth, but I know he's nearly seventy eight. Okay,

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but I do know his name. I've got his address

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and all that stuff. I've got his telephone number. I

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said to him and said, okay, all right. So he said, well,

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based on what you said, he needs to call. We

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need to speak to him.

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I said, okay, So he said, They said, we can't

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deal with you. We're going to need to deal with

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him because he's the one that is got the condition.

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And I thought, Okay, this is going.

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To be awkward, but he said it's important because not

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really because of his age or anything, just basically because

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of the from what you said, it's an important thing.

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It's a condition that will need medical attention. And we

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want to get some information from him regarding medical background,

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which I don't have.

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I don't know anything. It turns out he's never ever been,

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never had anything wrong with him every in his life. Never.

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I'm not going to give his information away or say

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who it is. He could be anyone, so you're not

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going to know that.

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But he's completely never been ill other than just the

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general things that all people have of you now and then.

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Doesn't even have a doctor. He's not even registered with

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a doctor. And that's how healthy he's been his whole life.

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And I did tell them that I knew.

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I didn't know about the doctor, but I knew that

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he told me for he's always told me never been

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on medication, because when he heard that I was medication,

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he was kind of surprised that I was on because

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he's on nothing and I'm on what four different medications

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and they're.

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Like, really, you're on all them. I said, yeah, shut up,

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and he.

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And he was interested in the bipolar. He was interested

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in me telling him about that stuff. So every now

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and then he asks me a question about it. But

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it's like gradually, you know.

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Anyway, So I'm here, I don't know what to do.

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I've phoned downstairs to my other neighbors and I said,

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I don't know what to do.

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I really don't know what to do.

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And this is there's a lady that lives downstairs that

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I'm going really well with.

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She's just directly blow me.

476
00:33:01.599 --> 00:33:05.720
And she's twenty years old, but she's probably way more

477
00:33:05.720 --> 00:33:06.880
mature than I am.

478
00:33:07.119 --> 00:33:10.359
It's weird. It's not really weird, but I'm just not.

479
00:33:11.440 --> 00:33:13.200
I didn't know what to do. I really didn't know

480
00:33:13.240 --> 00:33:14.559
what to do, and.

481
00:33:14.599 --> 00:33:17.640
I needed some support. And maybe the fact that I

482
00:33:17.680 --> 00:33:20.400
asked for support is because I've never had any support

483
00:33:20.680 --> 00:33:24.480
with my other friend and I realized that I needed

484
00:33:24.519 --> 00:33:26.799
it back then, but I didn't have any I had

485
00:33:26.839 --> 00:33:27.759
no one to ask.

486
00:33:27.559 --> 00:33:31.400
For help this situation.

487
00:33:34.160 --> 00:33:36.799
I just decided I'm going to ask, which is why

488
00:33:36.799 --> 00:33:39.640
I did ask the neighbor around the corner. The neighbor downstairs,

489
00:33:43.119 --> 00:33:45.480
and she said, well, i'll tell you what I'll do.

490
00:33:46.359 --> 00:33:54.559
I'll come up and we'll tell them together. Because I

491
00:33:54.599 --> 00:33:58.480
didn't know if he was going to get angry with me,

492
00:33:58.720 --> 00:34:02.200
because you already told me pretty much know twice. The

493
00:34:02.240 --> 00:34:04.160
second time it was a little bit like go away.

494
00:34:04.359 --> 00:34:06.759
Did he cut close the door a little bit, you know,

495
00:34:06.880 --> 00:34:10.440
quite quickly? So I knock on his door for a

496
00:34:10.559 --> 00:34:13.960
third time. This time is someone else standing there? So

497
00:34:14.079 --> 00:34:17.760
that's this is really annoying him, which is understandable. He

498
00:34:17.800 --> 00:34:23.960
would annoy me as well, especially as he doesn't he

499
00:34:24.039 --> 00:34:25.960
knows them, but he doesn't know them the way he

500
00:34:26.000 --> 00:34:29.960
knows me. So these are people that he's seen, but

501
00:34:30.079 --> 00:34:33.760
he hasn't doesn't really have like regular contact with them.

502
00:34:34.079 --> 00:34:35.719
And I said, I'm the only one he lets in

503
00:34:35.760 --> 00:34:38.199
his house. No one else, no one else is allowed

504
00:34:38.199 --> 00:34:38.559
in there.

505
00:34:42.840 --> 00:34:47.000
So I've got her. Her boyfriend's there as well. He's

506
00:34:47.000 --> 00:34:49.559
standing on the stairs, but he's tall enough to see

507
00:34:49.960 --> 00:34:55.039
over the banister and he opens the door and I

508
00:34:55.119 --> 00:34:57.960
say to him, oh, you know, you know her downstairs.

509
00:35:01.159 --> 00:35:03.360
I don't know what excuse I made for her being there,

510
00:35:03.920 --> 00:35:07.920
but I said, I've called.

511
00:35:07.679 --> 00:35:08.480
One one one.

512
00:35:09.840 --> 00:35:13.000
About your about your situation, and he said, what did

513
00:35:13.039 --> 00:35:20.239
you do that for? I said, well, I said it.

514
00:35:19.079 --> 00:35:19.480
It just.

515
00:35:21.079 --> 00:35:22.800
He seemed like you were looking forward to the weekend.

516
00:35:22.840 --> 00:35:24.599
I just wanted to ruin all the rugby for you.

517
00:35:24.760 --> 00:35:29.880
So I didn't say that that's like, what other option

518
00:35:29.960 --> 00:35:33.840
did I have? He said why? I said, because I care.

519
00:35:36.519 --> 00:35:36.960
That's why.

520
00:35:37.079 --> 00:35:39.519
That's why I called it, Because I care. I said,

521
00:35:39.519 --> 00:35:41.679
if that's I was getting a little bit defensive to

522
00:35:41.679 --> 00:35:43.559
be honest, that if that's a problem for you, that's

523
00:35:43.599 --> 00:35:46.480
your that's your problem. But I'm sorry.

524
00:35:47.039 --> 00:35:48.760
You know, I've gone through life with a lot of

525
00:35:48.800 --> 00:35:51.920
people not caring and no one it's like, and he's

526
00:35:52.039 --> 00:35:54.199
used to not being on his own, and I see

527
00:35:54.320 --> 00:35:57.679
him as a future version of me in some ways,

528
00:35:58.239 --> 00:36:02.320
because we're both very on her own, doing her own thing,

529
00:36:02.559 --> 00:36:12.239
very independent, don't really like being bothered, and don't generally

530
00:36:12.320 --> 00:36:15.559
ask anyone for anything for all possible.

531
00:36:17.760 --> 00:36:20.760
And I was really I was really getting in a

532
00:36:20.800 --> 00:36:24.000
way of that. I was, I mean knocking on his

533
00:36:24.079 --> 00:36:34.039
door three one, two, three, three times. And the first

534
00:36:34.039 --> 00:36:36.880
time was fine anyway, because that was just a standard

535
00:36:37.000 --> 00:36:40.119
let's say, a look at your bathroom, But the other

536
00:36:40.199 --> 00:36:43.639
two times and having different people standing there with me.

537
00:36:44.519 --> 00:36:46.360
He was very anyway.

538
00:36:46.400 --> 00:36:48.920
The third time he got angry with me, and I

539
00:36:48.960 --> 00:36:53.000
understand it, I do, But at the same time, I also.

540
00:36:52.960 --> 00:36:54.159
Needed a third opinion.

541
00:36:54.840 --> 00:36:57.760
I just I needed to be one hundred percent sure

542
00:36:58.239 --> 00:37:00.000
because I knew I was about to ruin his week

543
00:37:00.159 --> 00:37:03.880
end at the very least, because he's looking forward to

544
00:37:03.920 --> 00:37:08.440
watching the rugby. And I also thought there's a chance

545
00:37:08.440 --> 00:37:12.599
he won't talk to me again. But then I've got this.

546
00:37:12.960 --> 00:37:17.280
There's this I told my friend downstairs, the one Luke.

547
00:37:17.960 --> 00:37:22.480
I said to him at least once when because I'd

548
00:37:22.480 --> 00:37:26.800
call an ambulance for him multiple times and he hated it.

549
00:37:26.800 --> 00:37:31.440
It would never go tospital. Never under any circumstances would

550
00:37:31.440 --> 00:37:33.159
he be taken Tosspital in an ambulance.

551
00:37:34.079 --> 00:37:36.079
And I always wanted to take him, but he never went.

552
00:37:37.639 --> 00:37:39.400
And I said to him once, so I might have

553
00:37:39.440 --> 00:37:42.599
said it more than once. I said, listen, mate, I'd

554
00:37:42.719 --> 00:37:46.000
rather you hate me and be alive that love me

555
00:37:46.039 --> 00:37:48.440
and be dead. You know, I noticed, this is pretty

556
00:37:48.480 --> 00:37:49.679
a silly sentence to say.

557
00:37:49.719 --> 00:37:55.519
But and when I said it, I was quite not aggressive,

558
00:37:55.599 --> 00:37:58.960
but like I wasn't being all gentle with it.

559
00:37:58.960 --> 00:38:00.920
It was like that's how it is.

560
00:38:01.599 --> 00:38:03.159
You got a problem with it, You're going to have

561
00:38:03.199 --> 00:38:05.920
to deal with it, because.

562
00:38:05.679 --> 00:38:08.119
I'm not going to stand and watch. I'm not just

563
00:38:08.119 --> 00:38:13.400
going to ignore someone who's in trouble. I can't.

564
00:38:13.440 --> 00:38:15.119
I can't do that. I just don't have it in

565
00:38:15.199 --> 00:38:20.840
me to do that. So I said the same thing to.

566
00:38:20.800 --> 00:38:26.440
Alex's I got that little line rehearsed. I feel, do

567
00:38:26.480 --> 00:38:28.440
you ever get a feeling, you know when you see.

568
00:38:30.239 --> 00:38:33.320
Clint Eastwood or those movies and they say the things

569
00:38:33.400 --> 00:38:37.719
like go on make my day, Like he's got it rehearsed.

570
00:38:37.760 --> 00:38:42.320
I know he got rehearsed as inn. It was in

571
00:38:42.360 --> 00:38:42.760
the movie.

572
00:38:42.760 --> 00:38:46.320
It was a script, but it's like, it's a really

573
00:38:46.920 --> 00:38:50.000
good line, but I'll.

574
00:38:49.840 --> 00:38:52.519
Just keep it there for the good, for the right moment.

575
00:38:53.199 --> 00:38:56.360
So I said that to him on the third time

576
00:38:56.400 --> 00:38:57.039
we were together.

577
00:38:58.039 --> 00:38:59.800
No not no. One wasn't the third time together. It

578
00:38:59.840 --> 00:39:00.960
was okay.

579
00:39:01.000 --> 00:39:05.719
The third time I was knocking his door. I told

580
00:39:05.800 --> 00:39:07.039
him that i'd called one one.

581
00:39:06.920 --> 00:39:15.199
One, and he said, you shouldn't have done that.

582
00:39:16.719 --> 00:39:20.159
I said, well I did, so you shouldn't have done

583
00:39:20.519 --> 00:39:24.480
but I did. And he was very angry. He shut

584
00:39:24.480 --> 00:39:26.239
the door in my face, standed the door in my face.

585
00:39:26.960 --> 00:39:29.239
Apparently he says something rude to me as well, but

586
00:39:29.280 --> 00:39:32.639
I didn't realize that my neighbor heard, well, both of

587
00:39:32.679 --> 00:39:33.599
them heard him.

588
00:39:33.719 --> 00:39:38.960
For some reason, I didn't hear it, so that was awkward.

589
00:39:40.920 --> 00:39:43.440
Now at this point, my other.

590
00:39:43.280 --> 00:39:48.760
Neighbors from downstairs, they come into my flat and they're like, wow,

591
00:39:50.840 --> 00:39:53.119
probably surprised at how he was acting to me, because

592
00:39:53.119 --> 00:39:55.599
I know that me and him are being quite close

593
00:39:55.679 --> 00:40:03.000
for the last year or so, so it's kind of

594
00:40:03.320 --> 00:40:06.760
she was surprised at that because she's the whole time

595
00:40:06.800 --> 00:40:08.199
she's lived at me and him have been.

596
00:40:09.199 --> 00:40:11.920
We we get on really, you know, she sees us. I

597
00:40:11.960 --> 00:40:18.239
don't know it, just we just Yeah. She was just

598
00:40:18.280 --> 00:40:21.719
surprised at how he was acting. So she came in

599
00:40:21.760 --> 00:40:28.840
there and she said, well, I don't know what to do.

600
00:40:31.159 --> 00:40:34.480
So what she did is she called one more one

601
00:40:36.239 --> 00:40:37.840
and reported it and.

602
00:40:37.800 --> 00:40:42.920
Said, look, the neighbor, he won't he won't listen to us,

603
00:40:43.119 --> 00:40:45.840
he won't allow anyone to come in and you know,

604
00:40:45.960 --> 00:40:54.039
medical anything like that, blah blah. So one more one

605
00:40:54.360 --> 00:40:56.320
they had already told me because I called them back

606
00:40:56.360 --> 00:40:59.960
again as well, and they kept asking the same question,

607
00:41:00.320 --> 00:41:03.559
is he with you? Can you check what's his condition now?

608
00:41:03.599 --> 00:41:07.760
I said, I mean, I'd literally to the same person.

609
00:41:07.800 --> 00:41:11.039
I said, probably six seven times, I'm not with him

610
00:41:11.599 --> 00:41:13.360
because you won't let me in the flat, shut the

611
00:41:13.360 --> 00:41:14.000
door in my face.

612
00:41:14.079 --> 00:41:16.280
We slammed the door in my face. He won't let

613
00:41:16.320 --> 00:41:16.559
me in.

614
00:41:17.519 --> 00:41:21.280
I can't talk to him, and every other probably three

615
00:41:21.320 --> 00:41:21.920
minutes later.

616
00:41:22.719 --> 00:41:26.920
So can I talk to him? Like he's not with me?

617
00:41:27.519 --> 00:41:28.639
So is he still yellow?

618
00:41:28.840 --> 00:41:29.000
Like?

619
00:41:29.239 --> 00:41:29.880
It was weird?

620
00:41:29.920 --> 00:41:32.599
It was kind of I realized they've got their script

621
00:41:32.679 --> 00:41:35.079
and they're trying to get to the bottom of it.

622
00:41:35.159 --> 00:41:38.400
So I'm not in no way being horrible. I'm just

623
00:41:38.639 --> 00:41:47.960
it was it was difficult, and she said, well, we'll

624
00:41:47.960 --> 00:41:50.440
get back to you. I'll get her.

625
00:41:50.719 --> 00:41:52.719
They were all nice. Everyone I spoke to is nice.

626
00:41:52.840 --> 00:41:57.559
We'll get someone back to you. She already spoke to

627
00:41:57.559 --> 00:41:59.599
a manager. And then they said we'll get back to you.

628
00:41:59.679 --> 00:42:02.440
And then they said that also to my other neighbor.

629
00:42:02.639 --> 00:42:05.840
They didn't get back to my other neighbor, and I

630
00:42:05.880 --> 00:42:09.639
thought that was it.

631
00:42:08.199 --> 00:42:08.280
But.

632
00:42:10.480 --> 00:42:15.360
I gave them his number and I said, unlikely he's

633
00:42:15.360 --> 00:42:17.639
going to answer the phone if he hasn't even turned

634
00:42:17.679 --> 00:42:20.440
it off. He's locked the door, so you can't get in,

635
00:42:21.199 --> 00:42:24.079
and unlikely he's going to answer the door. I was

636
00:42:24.119 --> 00:42:26.920
wrong and all that. Actually I was wrong. He had

637
00:42:26.960 --> 00:42:31.440
locked it, but he actually was very compliant with them,

638
00:42:31.480 --> 00:42:38.000
not with me. So I got I can't haven't got

639
00:42:38.000 --> 00:42:42.639
access to my phone. So probably about half an hour later,

640
00:42:42.800 --> 00:42:46.719
maybe the phone went. Maybe an hour later the phone

641
00:42:46.760 --> 00:42:50.880
went and it was one more one again, I think

642
00:42:50.880 --> 00:42:57.599
this time it was a nurse and she said, are

643
00:42:57.599 --> 00:42:59.760
you with him? I said, no, I'm not with him.

644
00:43:00.960 --> 00:43:03.519
He's in a different flat. The door was locked. He

645
00:43:03.639 --> 00:43:07.360
hates me now, She said, I I understand.

646
00:43:08.239 --> 00:43:20.079
Well, we've got his telephone number and he's yeah, I

647
00:43:20.159 --> 00:43:21.199
will try and call.

648
00:43:21.039 --> 00:43:29.559
Him and we're gonna basically send a paramedic around. She said,

649
00:43:29.559 --> 00:43:30.920
can you knock on his door let him know? I

650
00:43:30.920 --> 00:43:35.239
said no, I really can't. I said, well I can,

651
00:43:35.360 --> 00:43:37.599
but you won't answer the door. That's a guarantee, not

652
00:43:37.760 --> 00:43:41.320
to me anyway, and that's just going to upset him

653
00:43:41.320 --> 00:43:44.559
even more. I really didn't expect him to.

654
00:43:44.559 --> 00:43:48.239
Answer the phone to them, But she phoned back about

655
00:43:48.599 --> 00:43:52.159
fifteen minutes later and said they've spoken to him. He

656
00:43:52.280 --> 00:43:55.400
was nicest pie on the phone. He agreed to have

657
00:43:55.400 --> 00:43:58.440
the paramedics come around. He was going to let them in,

658
00:43:59.440 --> 00:44:06.559
and it was absolutely lovely, and I thought, really, so,

659
00:44:09.199 --> 00:44:10.920
I think it's.

660
00:44:12.079 --> 00:44:15.800
At this point I went to bed.

661
00:44:16.199 --> 00:44:17.679
I didn't really go to bed, but I went for

662
00:44:17.679 --> 00:44:22.039
a lie down because I didn't feel any longer that

663
00:44:22.079 --> 00:44:25.719
I could be involved, because the way he'd treated me

664
00:44:26.079 --> 00:44:29.840
and the way that he'd spoken to me, and I

665
00:44:29.880 --> 00:44:32.920
didn't think that he'd want me involved. But at the

666
00:44:32.960 --> 00:44:37.840
same time, he was getting medical assistance and that was

667
00:44:37.880 --> 00:44:43.199
the most important thing. Having me around wasn't important, That's

668
00:44:43.239 --> 00:44:46.199
what I thought anyway.

669
00:44:45.000 --> 00:44:51.079
But him getting help was important. And so they went

670
00:44:51.119 --> 00:44:54.360
in there. I was just laying down, like quarter past

671
00:44:54.400 --> 00:44:55.199
ten or something.

672
00:44:56.239 --> 00:44:59.519
They weren't in there long. There was no big long thing.

673
00:44:59.599 --> 00:45:04.119
It was like, right, yep, we're taking this hospital. They

674
00:45:04.119 --> 00:45:08.159
were in there for fifteen minutes at half past ten

675
00:45:09.320 --> 00:45:11.199
with in his barking, so you can hear the door go.

676
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:13.519
I left my door open, which is not what I

677
00:45:13.599 --> 00:45:17.039
normally do when I'm in bed at that time, but

678
00:45:18.280 --> 00:45:20.039
I looked at the camera. I saw that they were

679
00:45:20.079 --> 00:45:22.440
coming out and he was locking the door. So I

680
00:45:22.480 --> 00:45:32.800
came out and I said, you're right, it's very awkward,

681
00:45:33.920 --> 00:45:37.119
and the paramedics. They knew who I was. I guess

682
00:45:37.119 --> 00:45:39.320
they knew because I didn't want to called. Not knew

683
00:45:39.360 --> 00:45:43.760
me personally, but I think I probably told him I'm

684
00:45:43.800 --> 00:45:48.760
the one a card you. In fact, wait a minute,

685
00:45:56.239 --> 00:46:02.360
wait a minute, I'm no, I've got this wrong.

686
00:46:03.000 --> 00:46:07.159
I'm doing this in the wrong order. Right. Here's what happened.

687
00:46:07.239 --> 00:46:14.320
I took Vinnie out for his last little wi that's it,

688
00:46:15.119 --> 00:46:23.480
and I'm coming back and the ambulance is there or yeah,

689
00:46:23.639 --> 00:46:27.639
we're coming back, and the ambulance was there. So I

690
00:46:27.760 --> 00:46:30.519
go up to them and say hi. They said hi.

691
00:46:31.519 --> 00:46:35.880
I said, I'm the one that called you. They said, oh, okay, hi,

692
00:46:36.920 --> 00:46:38.960
and I said and I had just explained the situation,

693
00:46:40.400 --> 00:46:47.039
and they went upstairs, and I just waited, oh yeah,

694
00:46:47.199 --> 00:46:47.719
oh that's what.

695
00:46:47.880 --> 00:46:48.239
That's it.

696
00:46:48.960 --> 00:46:53.760
I saw the ambulance outside. I came down to take

697
00:46:53.840 --> 00:46:55.800
him into the garden, but for I go out the

698
00:46:55.800 --> 00:47:00.800
front and I turned right for somebody, and then I

699
00:47:00.800 --> 00:47:03.800
turned left the game. It's weird anyway, And I went

700
00:47:03.800 --> 00:47:07.199
out and told him who I was and that I

701
00:47:07.239 --> 00:47:09.639
don't want I'm the one that called originally, and.

702
00:47:11.199 --> 00:47:15.960
Explained my perspective of what's kind of going on with

703
00:47:16.039 --> 00:47:20.480
him just because he's coloring. Really the physically feels fine

704
00:47:20.559 --> 00:47:24.559
and everything. And they said okay, so they went upstairs.

705
00:47:26.039 --> 00:47:29.440
I took Vinnie in the garden.

706
00:47:30.440 --> 00:47:32.199
So they were knocking for a little while before your

707
00:47:32.199 --> 00:47:35.599
answers to be fair and then but they didn't give up,

708
00:47:37.199 --> 00:47:40.760
and I just waited. I waited and listened until he'd

709
00:47:40.840 --> 00:47:43.800
let them in and they closed the door, and then

710
00:47:43.840 --> 00:47:45.079
I went upstairs and I.

711
00:47:45.079 --> 00:47:45.840
Went and lied down.

712
00:47:47.199 --> 00:47:49.000
But they weren't there for long, and then they brought

713
00:47:49.079 --> 00:47:52.480
him out. So I go outside, say you're right, and

714
00:47:52.519 --> 00:47:58.159
she said, there was two paramedics. So we're taking to

715
00:47:58.199 --> 00:48:02.400
the hospital. I said, as I speak to Alex, I said,

716
00:48:02.400 --> 00:48:05.440
how you doing? He said, I think he apologized to me.

717
00:48:07.360 --> 00:48:11.880
And I said to him, brought me to come with you?

718
00:48:13.800 --> 00:48:19.000
He said yes, So I went with him. This was

719
00:48:19.079 --> 00:48:22.639
like half ten, got an ambulance with him. He's lying

720
00:48:22.639 --> 00:48:26.239
down on a bed thing and I'm sitting in a chair.

721
00:48:26.280 --> 00:48:29.880
I didn't even know they had chairs and ambulances. Never

722
00:48:29.960 --> 00:48:35.280
been for an ambulance ride as in my memory, maybe

723
00:48:35.320 --> 00:48:37.840
when I was a kid, but not in my adult memory.

724
00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:42.159
I don't remember ever ever being traveling in an ambulance

725
00:48:44.440 --> 00:48:48.719
and It was a very strange, very strange experience because there.

726
00:48:48.599 --> 00:48:51.960
Was no windows. Well there's windows, but all black blackened out.

727
00:48:52.800 --> 00:48:58.000
So it's almost like traveling on the tube, like underground,

728
00:48:59.039 --> 00:49:04.440
the underground railway, but no stops. You got not no

729
00:49:04.559 --> 00:49:09.119
railway stations or anything going through. And I had no

730
00:49:09.159 --> 00:49:11.599
idea where I was. I knew I was in an ambulance,

731
00:49:12.199 --> 00:49:16.880
but I had no idea where I was, like within

732
00:49:17.000 --> 00:49:21.400
the distance of traveling to the hospital. He was fine,

733
00:49:22.000 --> 00:49:25.719
he was joking, and they've got a cup of coffee

734
00:49:25.760 --> 00:49:31.119
from Costas on the way. It was yeah. And then

735
00:49:31.679 --> 00:49:37.599
so I was with him till three o'clock or three

736
00:49:37.639 --> 00:49:41.679
point thirty in the morning. That's when I took that photo.

737
00:49:41.679 --> 00:49:42.679
I took that video of.

738
00:49:43.079 --> 00:49:46.679
That fox outside the hospital because I was waiting for taxi.

739
00:49:48.039 --> 00:49:50.239
It was right outside. But there's got a lot of

740
00:49:50.280 --> 00:49:52.639
lights at day in the hospital. But it was just

741
00:49:52.719 --> 00:49:57.480
like wow, almost like daytime, but very quiet.

742
00:49:58.880 --> 00:50:01.039
See, Friday night was going to be really busy, but

743
00:50:01.119 --> 00:50:01.559
it wasn't.

744
00:50:03.559 --> 00:50:07.639
And the busiest days, which I found very interesting, just

745
00:50:08.519 --> 00:50:11.719
kind of threw me off a bit. But apparently the

746
00:50:11.719 --> 00:50:14.079
busiest times of the hospital or are Sunday, Monday, and

747
00:50:14.159 --> 00:50:19.320
Tuesday at that hospital anyway, I mean A and E.

748
00:50:19.440 --> 00:50:24.639
Of course it gets I suppose it's busy pretty much

749
00:50:24.639 --> 00:50:27.760
the whole time, but it's you know, it seems to

750
00:50:27.800 --> 00:50:30.199
be that the hospital as a whole, because they've got

751
00:50:30.280 --> 00:50:35.360
less staff on on of the weekend. So I've been

752
00:50:35.400 --> 00:50:39.559
here every day since Friday, and I've seen it get

753
00:50:39.599 --> 00:50:43.440
busier and busier and busier, like every day. It's almost

754
00:50:43.519 --> 00:50:47.480
like a twenty five percent of the people added on.

755
00:50:48.360 --> 00:50:52.320
It's weird, including staff as well. So where there was

756
00:50:52.360 --> 00:50:54.960
like maybe two or three staff, now there is ten.

757
00:50:56.920 --> 00:50:59.440
It's yeah, it's really busy.

758
00:51:01.199 --> 00:51:09.079
Anyway. So they didn't put him into A and E.

759
00:51:10.519 --> 00:51:13.639
They didn't have him sitting down waiting to be seen

760
00:51:13.719 --> 00:51:18.320
for hours and hours. They took him straight into an

761
00:51:18.360 --> 00:51:22.880
emergency observation place, so he was still he was in

762
00:51:23.000 --> 00:51:25.320
A and E, but he was on a bed in

763
00:51:25.400 --> 00:51:29.480
A and E. And they took his bloods and they

764
00:51:29.480 --> 00:51:33.400
did all that really quickly, and he had a cat

765
00:51:33.440 --> 00:51:40.239
scan within an hour of being there, I'd say maybe

766
00:51:40.239 --> 00:51:45.960
two hours, so I was kind of with him. I

767
00:51:45.960 --> 00:51:48.480
didn't go into the X ray place, but I was

768
00:51:48.519 --> 00:51:50.719
outside and.

769
00:51:53.000 --> 00:51:59.400
Everyone was so nice. Bearing in mind they're just super busy.

770
00:52:00.239 --> 00:52:04.360
You know, it's really weird. I think that some people

771
00:52:04.440 --> 00:52:07.559
they's the oh they're just sitting around doing nothing, but

772
00:52:07.599 --> 00:52:11.840
they're not. You know, it's like, okay, maybe they're chatting.

773
00:52:12.639 --> 00:52:15.719
They need to have that moments, a couple of moments of.

774
00:52:15.880 --> 00:52:20.320
Just having a chat, you know, with their friends, talking

775
00:52:20.360 --> 00:52:22.400
about and that's part of the learning process, is what,

776
00:52:22.519 --> 00:52:25.079
isn't it. Because you've got a lot of young student

777
00:52:25.599 --> 00:52:30.360
students working there, student nurses, student doctors, and they learn

778
00:52:30.400 --> 00:52:33.880
from each other's experiences as well, don't they. So if

779
00:52:33.920 --> 00:52:39.039
someone's just had a situation as a nurse with a patient,

780
00:52:39.800 --> 00:52:42.519
they tell their colleague or their friend who's also a

781
00:52:42.559 --> 00:52:45.039
student nurse, and they can kind of learn.

782
00:52:44.840 --> 00:52:45.760
From that experience.

783
00:52:45.960 --> 00:52:50.199
I just thought that out loud, and I really pleased myself. Yeah,

784
00:52:50.400 --> 00:52:54.239
so chattings may be useful sometimes could be helpful for

785
00:52:54.360 --> 00:52:55.760
future patients.

786
00:52:57.880 --> 00:53:00.880
And they're always doing paperwork. I noticed that as well.

787
00:53:00.920 --> 00:53:09.880
It's constant because I kept interrupting people. But it was

788
00:53:10.119 --> 00:53:13.280
it got to three o'clock or just after maybe half

789
00:53:13.559 --> 00:53:17.320
three to half three, I can't remember exactly, And the

790
00:53:17.440 --> 00:53:19.800
nurse said to me, because I said, is a doctor

791
00:53:19.840 --> 00:53:22.960
coming around? Because I told her hours earlier that the

792
00:53:23.039 --> 00:53:25.400
doctor was going to come around because he had his

793
00:53:25.480 --> 00:53:26.000
blood test.

794
00:53:26.119 --> 00:53:30.159
Is that is cat scan done?

795
00:53:30.400 --> 00:53:32.400
So I guess we were waiting for the doctor to

796
00:53:32.440 --> 00:53:35.960
tell him the results of the cat scan. Maybe not

797
00:53:36.000 --> 00:53:41.360
the blood test, but the cat scan. And she said, no,

798
00:53:41.519 --> 00:53:46.320
he won't be seeing a doctor tomorrow properly, because I

799
00:53:46.360 --> 00:53:48.079
thought I was going to wait for him to see

800
00:53:48.079 --> 00:53:53.360
a doctor, either privately or with me there, whatever we wanted,

801
00:53:54.199 --> 00:53:58.000
and then be with him until he got into the ward,

802
00:53:58.159 --> 00:54:00.920
whatever ward he was going to be in, because it

803
00:54:01.039 --> 00:54:03.519
looked like they already said that he's going into a ward,

804
00:54:03.599 --> 00:54:09.000
he was not being sent home, and.

805
00:54:09.320 --> 00:54:13.599
I, Oh, that's what I was going to do. I

806
00:54:13.679 --> 00:54:19.000
was so tired. I wasn't delusional, delusional, whatever you want

807
00:54:19.039 --> 00:54:21.480
to call it. I wasn't like tripping or anything, but

808
00:54:23.599 --> 00:54:26.519
that particular I know it's weird, but that particular morning,

809
00:54:27.000 --> 00:54:30.239
I woke up at three thirty in the morning. It's

810
00:54:30.280 --> 00:54:34.039
a really early morning. I don't normally wake up that early,

811
00:54:34.559 --> 00:54:36.639
but I got out of bed. I had had a

812
00:54:36.719 --> 00:54:42.800
nap during the day, but I'm normally in bed by ten,

813
00:54:43.599 --> 00:54:48.599
so to be awake at three thirty I was I

814
00:54:48.639 --> 00:54:51.760
felt like I was almost on another planet. You know.

815
00:54:52.920 --> 00:54:54.880
It was really strange.

816
00:54:55.039 --> 00:55:01.119
I felt very weird, and he wasn't tired, But then

817
00:55:01.880 --> 00:55:03.360
I wouldn't have been tired if I was in this

818
00:55:03.440 --> 00:55:07.800
situation either, So.

819
00:55:09.519 --> 00:55:09.840
I was.

820
00:55:09.920 --> 00:55:13.079
But I was stimulated as well because I'm not used

821
00:55:13.119 --> 00:55:17.880
to being around people, not that many people whatever, really,

822
00:55:18.039 --> 00:55:20.800
you know, just in my life, I saw more people

823
00:55:20.800 --> 00:55:27.840
on Friday night than I've probably seen the last two years.

824
00:55:28.840 --> 00:55:32.400
As like amount of people, and that it was just

825
00:55:32.480 --> 00:55:34.960
in the evening. It's just a huge amounts of the

826
00:55:35.000 --> 00:55:42.360
people in the hospital, even when it's quiet. So the

827
00:55:42.440 --> 00:55:44.239
nurse said to me, you might as well go home.

828
00:55:45.320 --> 00:55:47.559
He's not going to be seen by a doctor tonight,

829
00:55:48.000 --> 00:55:51.239
very unlikely. It's free in the morning, but it probably

830
00:55:51.239 --> 00:55:58.199
won't be seen until Saturday during the day. And he

831
00:55:58.719 --> 00:56:00.519
very unlikely he's going to be put to a ward

832
00:56:00.599 --> 00:56:04.440
until tomorrow. But she was saying tomorrow, but you know Saturday,

833
00:56:04.440 --> 00:56:08.800
it was already Saturday, I guess early hours. So I

834
00:56:08.880 --> 00:56:13.039
told my friend, I said I'm going to go, and

835
00:56:13.079 --> 00:56:15.280
he said, okay. It said to me a few times ago,

836
00:56:15.360 --> 00:56:19.159
if you want, because I was yawning and like I

837
00:56:19.199 --> 00:56:22.519
was struggling to keep my eyes open by physically struggling

838
00:56:25.440 --> 00:56:31.760
a bit like now. Oh. So I left, got a

839
00:56:31.800 --> 00:56:44.119
taxi home, and I called him in the morning about

840
00:56:44.119 --> 00:56:48.800
ten o'clock Saturday. So I went to sleep. Was it

841
00:56:48.880 --> 00:56:55.039
ten o'clock? It probably was, because I went to sleep

842
00:56:55.199 --> 00:56:57.679
and I awoke. I couldn't go straight to sleep either,

843
00:56:58.679 --> 00:57:01.280
which is weird. Even though I was tired, I hadn't

844
00:57:01.280 --> 00:57:07.960
eaten anything for eight hours, nine hours, so I just

845
00:57:08.039 --> 00:57:10.159
needed to get some food in me. So I had

846
00:57:10.400 --> 00:57:15.480
some breakfast cereal, waited for half hour, forty minutes or whatever.

847
00:57:15.519 --> 00:57:17.480
Then I went to sleep. In fact, I didn't go

848
00:57:17.519 --> 00:57:20.679
to bed. I fell asleep on this chair here. I

849
00:57:20.719 --> 00:57:22.440
don't know if I was watching Telly, but I fell

850
00:57:22.480 --> 00:57:27.320
asleep and I woke up probably about eight or nine

851
00:57:27.360 --> 00:57:29.840
in the morning. So I put him made three hours

852
00:57:30.119 --> 00:57:34.519
four hours sleep. I called him up about ten and

853
00:57:34.559 --> 00:57:36.440
he told me he'd been moved and he had been

854
00:57:36.480 --> 00:57:41.719
seen by a doctor already. I said, wow, okay, so

855
00:57:41.760 --> 00:57:45.320
he's moved into a different ward and I said what

856
00:57:45.360 --> 00:57:48.239
did the doctor say? He said, it's not good. I said, okay,

857
00:57:48.280 --> 00:57:49.639
do you want to tell me now? You want me

858
00:57:49.679 --> 00:57:51.760
to come and visit you and tell me?

859
00:57:51.800 --> 00:57:51.920
Then?

860
00:57:52.000 --> 00:57:58.079
He said, well, i'll tell you in person. So I said,

861
00:57:58.800 --> 00:58:03.719
give me. I don't know when I went what time.

862
00:58:03.760 --> 00:58:06.440
I think, yeah, I left it at midday, So I said,

863
00:58:06.480 --> 00:58:09.480
give me, give me a couple of hours because I

864
00:58:10.199 --> 00:58:13.360
need to get ready, but head off. So I got

865
00:58:13.320 --> 00:58:19.000
a taxi there at midday and got there just four

866
00:58:19.000 --> 00:58:22.280
one o'clock I don't know, twenty to one or something.

867
00:58:23.960 --> 00:58:32.239
And so it was a new ward. He's on the

868
00:58:32.360 --> 00:58:36.559
left hand side, yeah, and he had someone opposite.

869
00:58:36.639 --> 00:58:36.719
Oh.

870
00:58:36.760 --> 00:58:40.280
Yeah, there was a bloke. I got chatting to one

871
00:58:40.320 --> 00:58:42.840
of the blokes that was the other side. There was

872
00:58:43.320 --> 00:58:48.320
two people waiting to go home basically, and he was

873
00:58:48.360 --> 00:58:54.920
in his He was just sitting there again, felt fine physically,

874
00:58:56.119 --> 00:58:59.000
and so told me what a doctor said.

875
00:58:59.000 --> 00:59:02.000
So I'm like, okay. So we started having some quite

876
00:59:02.239 --> 00:59:09.039
serious conversations and that, and so I'm there. I got home.

877
00:59:13.360 --> 00:59:15.199
I couldn't even tell you what time. I got home

878
00:59:15.519 --> 00:59:21.199
about seven o'clock in the evening. And there was there

879
00:59:21.239 --> 00:59:31.840
again Sunday. So I was leaving here probably I think

880
00:59:31.880 --> 00:59:36.239
probably midday again on Sunday, get home about six or

881
00:59:36.280 --> 00:59:40.480
seven Monday.

882
00:59:42.039 --> 00:59:47.119
I left at about twenty to ten quarter ten in

883
00:59:47.159 --> 00:59:50.480
the morning, got home about half six.

884
00:59:51.679 --> 00:59:58.000
In the evening. That was Monday. Today, I tried to

885
00:59:58.039 --> 01:00:00.800
get a little bit earlier, so I left here about

886
01:00:00.800 --> 01:00:05.039
ten past nine. But I missed the bus. This because

887
01:00:05.440 --> 01:00:07.360
all the rest of the time I've been paying taxis

888
01:00:08.119 --> 01:00:11.159
and it's twenty pound per visit, twenty pound per trip,

889
01:00:11.199 --> 01:00:14.119
and I've been doing two trips a day, so one

890
01:00:14.159 --> 01:00:18.280
trip on Friday, two on Sunday, no one on Friday,

891
01:00:18.599 --> 01:00:21.199
two on Saturday, two on Sunday, and two on Monday.

892
01:00:22.320 --> 01:00:26.880
So today I had to get the bus. I really

893
01:00:26.880 --> 01:00:31.639
didn't have any choice. And it's a journey, it's sort

894
01:00:31.679 --> 01:00:42.199
of real journey. Becau's two buses, and I missed the bus. No.

895
01:00:42.440 --> 01:00:45.239
Yesterday I got the bus back. No, I didn't get

896
01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:47.840
I didn't use a taxi. I got a bus back.

897
01:00:48.360 --> 01:00:52.760
And it took me two hours from the hospital to

898
01:00:52.800 --> 01:00:56.679
my home. It takes two hours with two buses waiting

899
01:00:56.719 --> 01:01:01.800
and walking. It's two hours, which is kind of strange really,

900
01:01:02.920 --> 01:01:05.280
And so I got the bus a game today, missed

901
01:01:05.280 --> 01:01:09.280
the first bus, and then I missed the connection coming back.

902
01:01:10.039 --> 01:01:12.519
In fact, I didn't miss the connection. What happened is

903
01:01:12.760 --> 01:01:15.079
I got the bus back from the hospital to the

904
01:01:15.159 --> 01:01:19.480
track to the bus station. That bus station road was

905
01:01:19.559 --> 01:01:22.199
closed off, so the bus has had to do a detour.

906
01:01:23.400 --> 01:01:28.800
I was waiting for a specific bus there was.

907
01:01:29.199 --> 01:01:33.000
It didn't stop at the correct bus stop because there

908
01:01:33.079 --> 01:01:36.599
was I don't know why it didn't stop there. It

909
01:01:36.679 --> 01:01:39.360
went over and there's all these other buses in a way,

910
01:01:39.400 --> 01:01:41.199
so I'm following it to see where it's going to park.

911
01:01:41.920 --> 01:01:45.519
It parked further down the road, so I'm walking towards it,

912
01:01:45.599 --> 01:01:47.599
thinking it's going to open the doors and let people out,

913
01:01:47.840 --> 01:01:49.119
so people are going to wait to get in.

914
01:01:50.360 --> 01:01:54.320
No, it just drives off again. So I missed that bus.

915
01:01:56.400 --> 01:02:01.519
Then there's another bus which is going to the airport,

916
01:02:01.920 --> 01:02:04.760
but it does go past where I live, go past

917
01:02:04.800 --> 01:02:12.000
the estate chop a chopper chopper for proper, full of

918
01:02:12.000 --> 01:02:15.599
people all on their way to holiday.

919
01:02:15.639 --> 01:02:18.679
I guess, so suitcases and everything everywhere.

920
01:02:18.719 --> 01:02:21.960
And I managed to get on and to get a seat,

921
01:02:22.000 --> 01:02:27.840
which is okay, but it's very noisy. And now I

922
01:02:27.880 --> 01:02:33.960
guess people would excited they're on holiday. They just enjoy themselves.

923
01:02:35.719 --> 01:02:40.400
But it's yeah, it was anyway, I got home. That's

924
01:02:40.440 --> 01:02:41.639
the bottom nine. I got home.

925
01:02:43.320 --> 01:02:46.840
I didn't I didn't do a late one though, because

926
01:02:47.239 --> 01:02:52.159
I left to get there for ten and I told

927
01:02:52.199 --> 01:02:55.599
him that I can't leave video on his own.

928
01:02:56.920 --> 01:02:59.199
For you know, seven eight hours a day. I can't.

929
01:02:59.440 --> 01:03:02.119
I can't keep doing that. It's just not fair on

930
01:03:02.239 --> 01:03:06.360
him because he's been unhappy. He's he's stopped eating his food.

931
01:03:07.960 --> 01:03:09.840
I literally I give him his food and his water,

932
01:03:10.679 --> 01:03:14.119
and he's got everything he needs. But he's in one room,

933
01:03:14.800 --> 01:03:16.639
like the living room. It's not it's not a tiny

934
01:03:16.719 --> 01:03:19.400
room or anything, but the windows are open, so he's

935
01:03:19.440 --> 01:03:21.760
got air ventilation. You can't get out, you can't get

936
01:03:21.800 --> 01:03:22.480
to the windows.

937
01:03:24.719 --> 01:03:25.880
TV's on or something.

938
01:03:25.920 --> 01:03:33.239
But it's too long for him, and he's now like rested.

939
01:03:33.280 --> 01:03:38.159
He's cuddled up to me and chilled out now because

940
01:03:38.199 --> 01:03:39.800
I got home a bit earlier, and I think it

941
01:03:39.840 --> 01:03:42.159
makes a difference. So I took him for a walk

942
01:03:42.159 --> 01:03:42.880
before I took him out.

943
01:03:42.920 --> 01:03:47.920
Today he's had three w a l k's. I just

944
01:03:47.960 --> 01:03:52.000
realized said the word. He said three today. He said

945
01:03:52.000 --> 01:03:54.800
A one normal one and one really short one. He

946
01:03:54.880 --> 01:04:01.039
said three normal length ones. So one before I went out.

947
01:04:02.800 --> 01:04:12.559
I was back by corter past two maybe half past two.

948
01:04:13.840 --> 01:04:16.039
So it worked.

949
01:04:16.079 --> 01:04:17.719
Even though I missed the bus and everything, I still

950
01:04:17.760 --> 01:04:23.559
managed to get back by half past two, and he

951
01:04:23.599 --> 01:04:26.199
didn't seem quite as stressed out as he was the

952
01:04:26.320 --> 01:04:31.719
last few days. So that taking off that four four

953
01:04:32.000 --> 01:04:36.519
odd hours more really seems to many difference. And I

954
01:04:36.519 --> 01:04:40.440
gave him some food and he's eating it. I gave

955
01:04:40.559 --> 01:04:42.920
him food yesterday. He wouldn't eat it. He didn't eat

956
01:04:42.960 --> 01:04:44.719
the food all day long. And the food I gave him,

957
01:04:44.800 --> 01:04:51.079
it wouldn't eat either. I mean on Saturday or Sunday,

958
01:04:51.119 --> 01:04:53.840
Sunday I think it was, or maybe Monday. I gave

959
01:04:53.920 --> 01:04:56.840
him his food and his water, and I gave him

960
01:04:56.880 --> 01:05:00.320
a t R E E E E T one of

961
01:05:00.400 --> 01:05:01.159
his favorite.

962
01:05:00.880 --> 01:05:03.599
Ones, and I put it down. He grabbed it and

963
01:05:03.599 --> 01:05:07.159
brought it in the hat into the room and then

964
01:05:07.159 --> 01:05:10.960
I close the door and he's just going bananas because

965
01:05:10.960 --> 01:05:14.119
he doesn't want me to leave. I come home, you know,

966
01:05:14.239 --> 01:05:19.000
eight nine hours later or whatever. The food's untouched. The

967
01:05:19.039 --> 01:05:21.119
tree's still on the floor, has not even touched the tree.

968
01:05:23.159 --> 01:05:26.360
So yeah, he's been a little bit affected. I Mean,

969
01:05:28.000 --> 01:05:29.960
the problem is I've never left him on his own,

970
01:05:30.000 --> 01:05:33.599
hardly or the whole time had him. It's been twenty

971
01:05:33.639 --> 01:05:39.440
four hours a day pretty much together. And there's been.

972
01:05:39.360 --> 01:05:41.480
A couple of occasions where I've had to leave him

973
01:05:41.800 --> 01:05:44.639
for a few hours, but never more than a few hours.

974
01:05:46.239 --> 01:05:49.880
I think maybe four four hours, five hours at the most.

975
01:05:50.920 --> 01:05:53.800
It's you know, it's very it's rare. And this has

976
01:05:53.800 --> 01:05:57.159
been every day for four or four days, five days.

977
01:05:59.199 --> 01:06:00.960
But he seems to be a bit more chilled out

978
01:06:00.960 --> 01:06:04.239
today because I took him out. I had to sit

979
01:06:04.320 --> 01:06:07.239
down first because I was naked, and I took him

980
01:06:07.239 --> 01:06:10.800
out about quarter three, and then I took him out

981
01:06:10.800 --> 01:06:12.440
again about seven.

982
01:06:14.119 --> 01:06:17.719
So he's had he's been out and he's he's done

983
01:06:17.760 --> 01:06:20.000
all he needs to do out there. It's now dark,

984
01:06:20.079 --> 01:06:22.960
so it's probably about ten o'clock at night. And I

985
01:06:22.960 --> 01:06:25.599
don't feel so tired as well, because I had a

986
01:06:25.679 --> 01:06:27.800
nap when I got back here. I took him out.

987
01:06:27.840 --> 01:06:29.960
Then I had a nap about an hour hour and

988
01:06:30.000 --> 01:06:34.880
a half, and I think I woke up with I

989
01:06:34.920 --> 01:06:37.519
think maybe I went to bed about four, work up

990
01:06:37.559 --> 01:06:42.039
about six. I needed I needed to sleep because I

991
01:06:42.159 --> 01:06:47.320
was I was so tired, and I'm still tired enough

992
01:06:47.360 --> 01:06:51.079
to go to bed now, you know, because it's what

993
01:06:51.280 --> 01:06:52.760
it might be gone ten. I don't know how long

994
01:06:52.800 --> 01:06:55.760
I've been talking for. I started this about nine o'clock,

995
01:07:00.199 --> 01:07:08.960
very dull, so knackering. And what's really strange is my

996
01:07:09.079 --> 01:07:14.039
neighbor has started to talk about his life, which he

997
01:07:14.119 --> 01:07:19.199
never used to do. It's away about sport generally, and

998
01:07:19.360 --> 01:07:22.239
now he's we've been going out because he doesn't have

999
01:07:22.280 --> 01:07:27.119
to stay in the ward all the time. I mean,

1000
01:07:27.400 --> 01:07:30.000
I mean legally he can do whatever he wants. He

1001
01:07:30.039 --> 01:07:32.440
doesn't have to stay in the ward ever. You know,

1002
01:07:32.719 --> 01:07:34.400
he can come and go and do what he wants.

1003
01:07:34.440 --> 01:07:37.280
But you know, as far as from a medical perspective,

1004
01:07:37.639 --> 01:07:41.000
as long as he lets them know, and if he's

1005
01:07:41.039 --> 01:07:43.119
got a doctor on the way, then he stays.

1006
01:07:43.280 --> 01:07:44.880
You know, they say, well can you wait until if

1007
01:07:45.000 --> 01:07:48.320
the doctor's seen you? And he needs to be there

1008
01:07:48.320 --> 01:07:50.519
when they're doing the meals as well, because otherwise it

1009
01:07:50.559 --> 01:07:54.400
messes it up with other people. So outside of that,

1010
01:07:55.320 --> 01:07:59.519
for the last three days or I think Sunday Monday tune. Yeah,

1011
01:07:59.559 --> 01:08:02.239
the last three days, maybe Saturday as well.

1012
01:08:02.400 --> 01:08:04.400
We've been going out for a walk and we'll be

1013
01:08:04.480 --> 01:08:08.719
gone outside and sat down and yes, Saturday, Sunday money

1014
01:08:08.719 --> 01:08:16.399
and show all four days. Which is weird because yesterday

1015
01:08:17.159 --> 01:08:20.720
we were sitting at this bench and a duck started

1016
01:08:20.760 --> 01:08:25.119
pecking at my grain, and for a second I thought

1017
01:08:25.119 --> 01:08:25.600
it was Vinnie.

1018
01:08:27.279 --> 01:08:28.960
It's because I'm so used to having him with me.

1019
01:08:29.239 --> 01:08:32.279
I'm not saying that Vinnie pecks at my grain. But

1020
01:08:32.560 --> 01:08:36.159
just if there's movement in my pants, this sounds wrong.

1021
01:08:41.119 --> 01:08:44.079
There's movement in my pants, I assume it's Vinnie. No,

1022
01:08:44.920 --> 01:08:51.199
if you know I'm used to him, like rubbing up

1023
01:08:51.199 --> 01:08:53.760
against me. Again, that sounds wrong. You know the things

1024
01:08:53.800 --> 01:08:56.119
like lick it. No, that sounds wrong as well. Just

1025
01:08:56.640 --> 01:08:59.920
you know, him doing his thing like jumping on me,

1026
01:09:00.279 --> 01:09:04.920
or laying down and cuddling up to my feet or

1027
01:09:05.960 --> 01:09:08.039
just think or walking on my feet, stuff like that,

1028
01:09:09.239 --> 01:09:13.680
or you know. So it was weird because I nearly said,

1029
01:09:13.720 --> 01:09:15.880
of any what are you doing? I looked down. It

1030
01:09:16.000 --> 01:09:18.720
was this duck looking up at me and he's pecking

1031
01:09:18.760 --> 01:09:26.560
at me pits gently, very gentle lover. Well, to be honest,

1032
01:09:26.760 --> 01:09:29.359
very I'm glad because they've got those big old bags.

1033
01:09:29.399 --> 01:09:32.840
They could imagine they could cause problems, but he didn't.

1034
01:09:34.279 --> 01:09:39.159
It was very lovely. His name is Cyril. We got

1035
01:09:39.199 --> 01:09:43.560
on quite well. We swapped numbers. You know, we're going

1036
01:09:43.600 --> 01:09:44.439
to see how it goes.

1037
01:09:45.880 --> 01:09:46.880
So I.

1038
01:09:48.960 --> 01:09:53.079
He's been talking and he's been opening up, and he's

1039
01:09:53.079 --> 01:09:55.840
been asking me about me, which he never normally does,

1040
01:09:56.560 --> 01:10:00.000
asking me about my childhood, talking about his own childhood.

1041
01:10:01.680 --> 01:10:06.319
And I'm not sure if he ever saw me as

1042
01:10:06.319 --> 01:10:09.800
a human before. I don't know if you ever saw

1043
01:10:09.880 --> 01:10:13.800
me as a person just a neighbor, well, I don't think.

1044
01:10:13.840 --> 01:10:15.079
I'm not sure if he saw me as a.

1045
01:10:17.439 --> 01:10:20.720
I don't know, as a person with feelings and or

1046
01:10:20.840 --> 01:10:24.279
had any interest. But I understand that because I'm a

1047
01:10:24.319 --> 01:10:29.560
bit like that myself. But then, you know, he's never

1048
01:10:29.800 --> 01:10:32.720
really talks about his life normally. It's just all about sport,

1049
01:10:33.159 --> 01:10:35.760
and I get bored. I tell him, I don't pretend.

1050
01:10:35.920 --> 01:10:39.079
I tell him I'm not interested in hearing about football.

1051
01:10:40.279 --> 01:10:42.720
I says, boring to me. It's not boring to you.

1052
01:10:42.840 --> 01:10:45.399
It's not boring to most people, but to me, I

1053
01:10:45.640 --> 01:10:51.319
switch off if you. I like talking about boxing, but

1054
01:10:51.560 --> 01:10:53.760
generally I only like talking about boxing to people that

1055
01:10:53.880 --> 01:10:59.800
know about boxing, because I would probably say that I'm

1056
01:10:59.840 --> 01:11:04.119
more more than a casual fan of boxing, you know,

1057
01:11:04.239 --> 01:11:08.600
it's it's something that I really have loved for decades.

1058
01:11:10.239 --> 01:11:13.960
I sound probably more than just a I don't just watch.

1059
01:11:16.680 --> 01:11:19.399
The big fights, although they are the best fights quite often,

1060
01:11:19.880 --> 01:11:22.439
but not always actually.

1061
01:11:24.880 --> 01:11:28.119
Anyway, So that's a lot really about boxing. Is that

1062
01:11:28.239 --> 01:11:30.279
this recorded, and.

1063
01:11:33.239 --> 01:11:35.880
I've done made a few faux pas along the way.

1064
01:11:38.960 --> 01:11:41.720
So I was taken my going to take my friend outside,

1065
01:11:41.760 --> 01:11:45.119
and I said to his neighbor, oh, yeah, he got

1066
01:11:45.239 --> 01:11:46.960
moved to another award.

1067
01:11:48.199 --> 01:11:54.920
On Monday morning, I think or Sunday morning Monday.

1068
01:11:54.960 --> 01:11:57.640
I losing track of the days, to be honest, I

1069
01:11:57.720 --> 01:11:59.760
think it might have been Sunday morning and he got

1070
01:11:59.800 --> 01:12:04.640
moved because there was someone's.

1071
01:12:03.000 --> 01:12:08.239
Starting and may being problematic with him. I don't know

1072
01:12:08.359 --> 01:12:09.279
really what that was about.

1073
01:12:10.600 --> 01:12:15.359
And so we.

1074
01:12:20.000 --> 01:12:21.399
It's quite funny. I said, did you want me to

1075
01:12:21.439 --> 01:12:22.840
go and visit him? And go and then the world

1076
01:12:23.600 --> 01:12:26.640
because it because they basically moved my neighbor, not the bloke,

1077
01:12:27.680 --> 01:12:30.199
And he said no, you laughed. But then we were

1078
01:12:30.199 --> 01:12:31.840
out for a walk he said, are we going to

1079
01:12:31.920 --> 01:12:35.560
go and see that bloke? I was like, no, I

1080
01:12:35.640 --> 01:12:36.279
didn't mean it.

1081
01:12:37.159 --> 01:12:42.199
I said, look, I think it's really worth remembering that

1082
01:12:43.600 --> 01:12:50.239
not people react differently to being unwell, you know, and

1083
01:12:51.079 --> 01:12:55.760
some people are very patient, some people are not, some

1084
01:12:55.920 --> 01:13:00.319
people have you know, it's just it's no way of different.

1085
01:13:00.319 --> 01:13:03.079
We all react different and and I try to just

1086
01:13:03.239 --> 01:13:09.119
like say to everyone in the beds. Every bed apart

1087
01:13:09.199 --> 01:13:15.800
from Mabe were most beds. I mean, I'm sure places

1088
01:13:15.960 --> 01:13:21.399
like the Baby Paternal Maternity ward there's a lot.

1089
01:13:21.279 --> 01:13:25.600
Of pretty a lot of very happy people in those beds.

1090
01:13:26.319 --> 01:13:29.359
I'm guessing after giving birth. I don't know, I've never

1091
01:13:29.920 --> 01:13:39.159
I've never had a baby. But outside of that, saying

1092
01:13:39.239 --> 01:13:43.079
to him like, no one's here because I want to

1093
01:13:43.119 --> 01:13:48.760
be here, and that everyone is in those beds are unwell.

1094
01:13:49.760 --> 01:13:52.479
So it's got to just need to just try and

1095
01:13:53.800 --> 01:13:56.520
give everyone a break if you can. Don't take it

1096
01:13:56.640 --> 01:14:01.039
too personally. I think I've been quite lucky in life

1097
01:14:01.479 --> 01:14:04.960
in a sense of I've done some jobs which have

1098
01:14:05.319 --> 01:14:09.439
involved a lot of rejection. That's sales.

1099
01:14:09.640 --> 01:14:12.239
Sales is one job where it doesn't matter how good

1100
01:14:12.279 --> 01:14:18.600
you are, rejections. The majority, you know, is people saying

1101
01:14:18.720 --> 01:14:24.119
no most of the time. And I kind of got

1102
01:14:24.239 --> 01:14:26.600
used to that. And also being in a working a

1103
01:14:26.680 --> 01:14:29.920
call center, I got used to a lot of very

1104
01:14:30.039 --> 01:14:34.800
rude people as well, and I kind of become accustomed

1105
01:14:34.840 --> 01:14:38.720
to it. And then when I became a counselor, I've

1106
01:14:38.760 --> 01:14:40.880
got to find out a lot of what people are

1107
01:14:40.920 --> 01:14:42.960
going through behind the.

1108
01:14:43.039 --> 01:14:46.920
Scenes as humans. That is not.

1109
01:14:48.439 --> 01:14:50.359
You know, because I've kind of got my own experiences

1110
01:14:50.439 --> 01:14:55.319
and I've got that to work with. But then hearing

1111
01:14:55.479 --> 01:15:00.439
in depth hundreds of other people's experiences over i know,

1112
01:15:00.600 --> 01:15:02.119
five years or whatever I was a.

1113
01:15:02.159 --> 01:15:09.279
Counselor, that was like, wow, it was very educational, I guess.

1114
01:15:11.039 --> 01:15:16.199
So I think with those experiences mixed together, I'm kind

1115
01:15:16.239 --> 01:15:22.439
of able to look at situations from different angles. And

1116
01:15:22.520 --> 01:15:24.720
I'm not saying I do it well because sometimes I

1117
01:15:24.840 --> 01:15:34.600
really don't. Yeah, I'm not always perfect. I'm never perfect.

1118
01:15:35.600 --> 01:15:37.600
I don't even I don't even want to be perfect,

1119
01:15:37.800 --> 01:15:42.279
never really, I think being decent.

1120
01:15:43.479 --> 01:15:49.479
I like to be known as kind, and that's but

1121
01:15:49.720 --> 01:15:53.600
naturally kind, not doing it for any other reason, not

1122
01:15:54.039 --> 01:15:56.640
doing it because I want attention or because I want

1123
01:15:57.000 --> 01:16:02.520
people to think, oh he is so kind, not not that,

1124
01:16:03.399 --> 01:16:08.760
not not like that, but just genuine like a decent person.

1125
01:16:11.760 --> 01:16:18.920
But not perfect because it's easy. It's only one way

1126
01:16:19.000 --> 01:16:21.079
to go. Once you're perfect, you can't go any higher

1127
01:16:21.159 --> 01:16:28.560
up ken you. So I'd rather just I'd rather kind

1128
01:16:28.600 --> 01:16:36.800
of surf surf in the middle somewhere possibly.

1129
01:16:38.600 --> 01:16:44.920
And yeah, anyway, I said to this, his his neighbor

1130
01:16:45.119 --> 01:16:48.079
who's in the ward. So I've got to talking to

1131
01:16:49.680 --> 01:16:52.079
two of the people because he's now an award with

1132
01:16:52.479 --> 01:16:55.199
four people. One of the people doesn't talk to me,

1133
01:16:55.720 --> 01:17:00.199
but admit that he can't anyway, So he's he he's

1134
01:17:01.359 --> 01:17:08.520
very not very unwell, so but he does talk to

1135
01:17:08.600 --> 01:17:10.279
the other day. They've all got to know a little

1136
01:17:10.279 --> 01:17:11.920
bit because they're in the same room with him twenty.

1137
01:17:11.760 --> 01:17:12.439
Four hours a day.

1138
01:17:13.119 --> 01:17:15.479
But he's his why usually there when I go there,

1139
01:17:17.000 --> 01:17:20.319
So I say lo to her, But the two other

1140
01:17:20.399 --> 01:17:23.560
blokes in there got chatting to him. They know my

1141
01:17:23.680 --> 01:17:29.800
name and everything, and so I've been starting to go

1142
01:17:29.920 --> 01:17:31.680
and get coffees for them and sort of saying do

1143
01:17:31.720 --> 01:17:32.439
you need anything?

1144
01:17:32.560 --> 01:17:37.479
And it turns out neither of them are allowed to

1145
01:17:37.560 --> 01:17:46.520
leave the ward, but my neighbor can, so it's like

1146
01:17:46.800 --> 01:17:47.720
for medical reasons.

1147
01:17:49.800 --> 01:17:55.079
And I really put my foot in it. So I

1148
01:17:55.159 --> 01:17:58.600
said to the blokes in the bed next to my neighbor,

1149
01:17:59.399 --> 01:18:04.119
I said, well, if you fancy it, you come in

1150
01:18:04.239 --> 01:18:06.000
comfort walk with us if you want if you want

1151
01:18:06.079 --> 01:18:09.000
to get out, because he hadn't ed any visitors for

1152
01:18:09.319 --> 01:18:12.399
a day or so, and he said no, I can't.

1153
01:18:12.520 --> 01:18:15.399
I said, what's up to you if you be up

1154
01:18:15.439 --> 01:18:16.880
to you if you don't want to. He said, no,

1155
01:18:17.000 --> 01:18:23.119
I can't walk. I'm so sorry, he laughed. He said, no,

1156
01:18:23.399 --> 01:18:26.399
you didn't know digit because I've only seen him in

1157
01:18:26.479 --> 01:18:29.039
the bed. I had no idea that he wasn't able

1158
01:18:29.079 --> 01:18:29.439
to walk.

1159
01:18:30.359 --> 01:18:34.119
And I said, well if you if you want to

1160
01:18:34.159 --> 01:18:37.359
get a chair, I'm happy to push you down, you know,

1161
01:18:38.079 --> 01:18:39.479
And he said, no, I'm not allowed out.

1162
01:18:39.840 --> 01:18:40.119
Okay.

1163
01:18:42.000 --> 01:18:43.560
I think there's a bit of rejection. I think he

1164
01:18:43.720 --> 01:18:47.560
just I'm not saying he's pretending, but he might be

1165
01:18:47.640 --> 01:18:49.119
pretending he's not allowed to leave.

1166
01:18:49.199 --> 01:18:54.640
I mean, that's what I mean. He's perhaps I'm boring him,

1167
01:18:56.520 --> 01:18:57.880
but he's.

1168
01:18:57.319 --> 01:19:00.479
A nice bloke and you're one not. Position asked me,

1169
01:19:00.600 --> 01:19:05.600
can you take me out? And I said, well, when

1170
01:19:05.640 --> 01:19:08.520
you release from hospital, we can perhaps go for a drink.

1171
01:19:08.800 --> 01:19:11.039
He said no, no, I want Can you just help

1172
01:19:11.119 --> 01:19:14.359
me go outside? I said, okay, sorry, I was embarrassing.

1173
01:19:15.439 --> 01:19:19.479
And he said to me, why do you do that?

1174
01:19:19.680 --> 01:19:21.760
I said, what do you mean? He said, why do

1175
01:19:21.840 --> 01:19:25.119
you like going about like all having dates with men

1176
01:19:25.359 --> 01:19:30.920
when you do you like women? I said, so, he said,

1177
01:19:31.840 --> 01:19:36.079
it just seems a weird thing to do. I said why.

1178
01:19:36.439 --> 01:19:40.399
He said, just I don't know. Just a lot of

1179
01:19:40.479 --> 01:19:44.520
straight people don't say things like that, you know. I said, well,

1180
01:19:44.720 --> 01:19:47.720
I'm not a lot of straight people. But he said

1181
01:19:47.760 --> 01:19:51.159
that doesn't make sense. I said, I know, nothing does.

1182
01:19:53.239 --> 01:19:55.720
And then we all just like looked at each other

1183
01:19:58.199 --> 01:20:00.359
and like that moment, you know that my where you

1184
01:20:00.399 --> 01:20:05.239
all realize that's true. Nothing really does make sense, does it.

1185
01:20:05.880 --> 01:20:10.439
If you really like delve into it, it's like okay, wow.

1186
01:20:11.920 --> 01:20:15.239
So anyway, and then I just I did a little

1187
01:20:15.359 --> 01:20:21.000
dance again. I thought that should have done that the

1188
01:20:21.159 --> 01:20:23.319
last thing. If someone tells you they can't walk, you

1189
01:20:23.359 --> 01:20:25.800
don't start dancing in front of them. That's kind of

1190
01:20:25.960 --> 01:20:29.439
just I wasn't doing it for that reason. I was

1191
01:20:29.560 --> 01:20:33.159
just I just had a bit of nervous energy. You know.

1192
01:20:33.960 --> 01:20:37.039
It was strange. But he forgave me anyway. So I

1193
01:20:37.159 --> 01:20:39.680
was kind of like, I can't believe. I just said,

1194
01:20:39.720 --> 01:20:42.600
do you want to go for a walk? And he said, yeah,

1195
01:20:42.600 --> 01:20:44.880
I'm not a dog as well, just don't don't don't

1196
01:20:44.880 --> 01:20:46.119
put it in that word. Do you want to go

1197
01:20:46.199 --> 01:20:47.640
for a walk? Can I take you for a walk?

1198
01:20:48.960 --> 01:20:50.800
I said, I didn't say that today. He said, yeah,

1199
01:20:50.840 --> 01:20:53.319
you did. He said another thing. I said, what's that?

1200
01:20:53.880 --> 01:20:55.840
He said, When you do that, don't hold a dog

1201
01:20:55.960 --> 01:20:59.439
lead in your hand, and don't say good boy, good

1202
01:20:59.479 --> 01:21:03.520
but good boy, and don't call me Vinnie.

1203
01:21:04.039 --> 01:21:09.239
I was like, okay, sorry, I miss him. The other bloke,

1204
01:21:10.159 --> 01:21:15.359
he said, they're not taking me outside. I said okay,

1205
01:21:15.439 --> 01:21:16.800
and been here since.

1206
01:21:18.760 --> 01:21:22.560
I don't know. He's been there for five days, six days,

1207
01:21:23.000 --> 01:21:26.520
five days and he's not been outside since he's been there.

1208
01:21:27.399 --> 01:21:30.079
And I went to the reception. I said, can I

1209
01:21:30.159 --> 01:21:32.720
take what's his name? Out? He's asked me and she

1210
01:21:32.840 --> 01:21:36.119
said no. I said, I'll go on. She said no.

1211
01:21:37.359 --> 01:21:40.159
I said please. She said no. I said, is that

1212
01:21:40.239 --> 01:21:43.640
all you can say? Just no? She said no. That's

1213
01:21:43.680 --> 01:21:46.359
when I realized that she could say other things, and

1214
01:21:46.439 --> 01:21:48.760
I thought maybe she might. I just figured she'd won

1215
01:21:48.840 --> 01:21:52.319
the argument, really, And she said the reason that he

1216
01:21:52.479 --> 01:21:55.399
can't go out is because he needs a medically trained

1217
01:21:55.439 --> 01:21:58.720
person with him. Are you medically trained? And I said yes.

1218
01:22:00.039 --> 01:22:02.399
If she said are you really, I said no, I'm not.

1219
01:22:03.000 --> 01:22:05.199
She said why did you say yes? So I thought

1220
01:22:05.239 --> 01:22:08.840
maybe you believe me? I said, why didn't you just

1221
01:22:08.880 --> 01:22:11.119
stick to your stick to your guns? And if you

1222
01:22:11.199 --> 01:22:14.239
say yes, Why did you say yes twice? I said,

1223
01:22:14.279 --> 01:22:21.359
because I didn't think you believed me. Ah, it was weird.

1224
01:22:22.159 --> 01:22:26.119
So she said no. But I did say to her,

1225
01:22:26.439 --> 01:22:28.319
if you need someone to take him out, I'm happy

1226
01:22:28.359 --> 01:22:30.800
to take him out or any of the other people,

1227
01:22:32.640 --> 01:22:36.279
either with my neighbor or separately. I don't care. I'm

1228
01:22:36.279 --> 01:22:38.359
you know, while I'm here, I'm happy to be useful,

1229
01:22:40.279 --> 01:22:44.640
which is a weird, weird thing. I'd rather do something.

1230
01:22:44.399 --> 01:22:48.359
Than just not do anything, not in life, but just

1231
01:22:48.720 --> 01:22:51.520
in a hospital setting, because I see this so much,

1232
01:22:53.199 --> 01:22:58.319
so many people working so hard, and I kind of like,

1233
01:22:58.439 --> 01:23:03.399
for example, the man next to my neighbor, he asked

1234
01:23:03.479 --> 01:23:07.199
one of the nurses or I don't think the nurse

1235
01:23:07.399 --> 01:23:12.039
or care I don't know the different workers and they

1236
01:23:12.119 --> 01:23:15.159
in hospital if you could get a bag because had

1237
01:23:15.159 --> 01:23:17.479
a lot of rubbish on has been on his table,

1238
01:23:18.279 --> 01:23:19.680
and I said, I can get rid of that for you.

1239
01:23:20.399 --> 01:23:23.479
Just something binzos over there. I'll just take it bit

1240
01:23:23.560 --> 01:23:28.760
by bit. So I emptied his table and he seemed

1241
01:23:28.800 --> 01:23:32.479
surprised I did that. It's no difference to me.

1242
01:23:35.000 --> 01:23:44.000
And yeah, just she was like, is a heo if

1243
01:23:44.039 --> 01:23:47.560
you look inside your pants, it's I don't know, why

1244
01:23:47.560 --> 01:23:50.359
I say that. I'm not saying this so like, oh,

1245
01:23:50.520 --> 01:23:53.520
how good I am? I emptied someone's table. It's not

1246
01:23:53.800 --> 01:23:55.960
I don't think that's going to be my epitaph, is it.

1247
01:23:58.000 --> 01:24:00.560
It was a bit annoying, but he did empty people's tables.

1248
01:24:02.079 --> 01:24:04.520
They didn't want him to. This is to walk randomly

1249
01:24:04.560 --> 01:24:08.399
around hospitals and put people's stuff in the bin. It

1250
01:24:08.560 --> 01:24:16.720
was very annoying. And yeah, so I'm trying to think

1251
01:24:16.760 --> 01:24:20.680
of any other weird things that have happened since I

1252
01:24:20.880 --> 01:24:26.560
was one. Weird occasion is older than taxi. No, this

1253
01:24:26.720 --> 01:24:32.159
is this is weird. Yeah, ordered taxi and I did it.

1254
01:24:32.279 --> 01:24:37.039
It's got like this automatic auto system. And at the

1255
01:24:37.199 --> 01:24:40.159
end of it, they couldn't even understand what I was saying.

1256
01:24:40.399 --> 01:24:42.760
But at the end of it, they said, so picking

1257
01:24:42.840 --> 01:24:47.079
you up from your address and delivering you back to

1258
01:24:47.279 --> 01:24:51.279
your address my home address, and I wanted to pick

1259
01:24:51.319 --> 01:24:55.000
me up the hospital and take me to my address.

1260
01:24:55.479 --> 01:24:56.920
So they were going to pick me up and drop

1261
01:24:57.000 --> 01:25:02.479
me off at the same place. Think that like caused

1262
01:25:02.560 --> 01:25:04.479
some kind of an error in the system, wouldn't you.

1263
01:25:05.840 --> 01:25:06.279
But n.

1264
01:25:08.880 --> 01:25:11.800
So I phoned them up again, and as I phoned

1265
01:25:11.800 --> 01:25:14.520
them up, they phoned me up. So I hung up,

1266
01:25:14.600 --> 01:25:17.800
answered the phone that they were calling me, and I said,

1267
01:25:18.560 --> 01:25:21.039
she said, oh, is that whatever? I said, yeah, you

1268
01:25:21.159 --> 01:25:23.119
made a book and I said yeah, and I was

1269
01:25:23.159 --> 01:25:27.960
about to explain, and she said, oh wait it was.

1270
01:25:28.359 --> 01:25:31.079
She didn't say I'm talking, but it was kind of

1271
01:25:31.159 --> 01:25:35.119
that attitude like, wait a minute, let me finish. So

1272
01:25:36.359 --> 01:25:38.319
she went on and on and said she said, so

1273
01:25:38.439 --> 01:25:40.760
you don't want to be picked up from that address

1274
01:25:40.840 --> 01:25:41.319
and I said no.

1275
01:25:41.920 --> 01:25:46.720
She said, okay, I'll cancel it them, and I don't

1276
01:25:46.840 --> 01:25:48.279
explained to her. I was at the hospital and I

1277
01:25:48.359 --> 01:25:52.560
wanted to go there from the hospital. I assumed that

1278
01:25:52.760 --> 01:25:55.720
by telling her that that she would send me a taxi.

1279
01:25:56.279 --> 01:26:05.479
No, she canceled the taxi all together. So I'm waiting

1280
01:26:05.520 --> 01:26:07.960
for half an hour. Nothing comes. I phone up the

1281
01:26:08.000 --> 01:26:11.319
taxi office again, this time I speak to somewhat different

1282
01:26:12.119 --> 01:26:18.439
and they say, oh, you know, it's canceled. I said okay,

1283
01:26:19.640 --> 01:26:22.840
And he was surprised that it was canceled and they

1284
01:26:22.880 --> 01:26:26.439
didn't send me a taxi, and so he said, I'll

1285
01:26:26.479 --> 01:26:30.119
get someone with you now. So probably about another fifteen

1286
01:26:30.119 --> 01:26:32.039
to twenty minutes and I've got a taxi turn up,

1287
01:26:32.880 --> 01:26:37.520
and I might be exaggerating the timescale here for effect.

1288
01:26:38.359 --> 01:26:40.239
I don't know what type of effect, to be honest,

1289
01:26:41.159 --> 01:26:49.600
a boring effect. So he pulls up and I don't know,

1290
01:26:49.920 --> 01:26:52.800
he doesn't like look the way. He didn't know me anyway,

1291
01:26:53.359 --> 01:26:56.479
but he parked up, and he didn't seem to be

1292
01:26:56.560 --> 01:27:01.399
indicate who's for because there was always people waiting for taxis.

1293
01:27:04.079 --> 01:27:07.199
So I went to where his stories, you know, where

1294
01:27:07.319 --> 01:27:11.760
he was sitting in the car. It was definitely from

1295
01:27:11.800 --> 01:27:14.680
the company i'd ordered, but it could have been for anyone.

1296
01:27:15.600 --> 01:27:20.159
And I said, are you here for Jason? He said yeah,

1297
01:27:22.319 --> 01:27:25.079
be a weird look on his face. I said, all right.

1298
01:27:25.199 --> 01:27:28.239
He said no, I can't go anywhere at the moment,

1299
01:27:29.279 --> 01:27:32.800
I said why not? And he pointed to the screen

1300
01:27:34.199 --> 01:27:37.960
which was the payment thing, and they said, they're telling

1301
01:27:38.000 --> 01:27:41.479
me the journey is going to be seven pound. I'm

1302
01:27:41.560 --> 01:27:46.239
not taking you all away there for seven pound, and

1303
01:27:46.359 --> 01:27:47.640
it's actually seventeen pound.

1304
01:27:47.960 --> 01:27:51.560
I'll give a three pound tip. But so they'd missed

1305
01:27:51.600 --> 01:27:55.000
out the ten pound. So what they've done is they'd

1306
01:27:55.039 --> 01:27:58.680
put on the same thing where it was the same

1307
01:27:58.760 --> 01:28:01.720
price as the original journey. So what they had charged

1308
01:28:01.800 --> 01:28:04.880
me to pick me up and drop me off at

1309
01:28:04.920 --> 01:28:10.479
the same address was seven pounds. Why would you want

1310
01:28:10.520 --> 01:28:13.840
to be picked up and dropped? I mean literally picked up?

1311
01:28:14.359 --> 01:28:17.239
So you get in a car, give them seven pounds

1312
01:28:17.319 --> 01:28:19.479
and then you get out in the car again out

1313
01:28:19.479 --> 01:28:24.279
of the taxi. I mean, why unless you're the only

1314
01:28:24.359 --> 01:28:26.800
time I've seen anyone get into a car and didn't

1315
01:28:26.800 --> 01:28:29.279
get straight out again. And I think this was a taxi.

1316
01:28:30.399 --> 01:28:35.960
It was Superman movie like in the late seventies. He

1317
01:28:36.079 --> 01:28:37.960
gets in a taxi and gets out the other side

1318
01:28:38.000 --> 01:28:41.199
and he's Superman goes in Clark Kent, and I think

1319
01:28:41.239 --> 01:28:44.159
there's a taxi was at police that might be in

1320
01:28:44.199 --> 01:28:48.640
a police car. That was a bit a bit rude

1321
01:28:48.640 --> 01:28:52.880
though if it was a police car, a bit rude

1322
01:28:52.880 --> 01:28:58.560
any car really, isn't it. And he said, we're not

1323
01:28:58.680 --> 01:29:02.399
going anywhere. I'm not taking anyone anywhere until I get

1324
01:29:02.439 --> 01:29:05.119
the proper price. And I said to him, look, it's

1325
01:29:05.159 --> 01:29:09.880
seventeen pound. I'm paying you twenty pound anyway, and he said, oh,

1326
01:29:09.920 --> 01:29:12.920
I'll get in there. I said, you know, there's no

1327
01:29:13.079 --> 01:29:14.000
argument on my side.

1328
01:29:14.039 --> 01:29:17.119
I'm too tired to argue, and I know that it's

1329
01:29:17.199 --> 01:29:20.600
not seven pound. I've done the journey since well I've

1330
01:29:20.640 --> 01:29:25.079
done it. I think I've done it four times.

1331
01:29:24.800 --> 01:29:28.279
At that point, and.

1332
01:29:30.439 --> 01:29:35.840
He just halfway through the journey, the office called him

1333
01:29:35.920 --> 01:29:40.680
up and he explained the situation and they said, oh,

1334
01:29:41.319 --> 01:29:43.199
they didn't know what was going on, and eventually they.

1335
01:29:45.439 --> 01:29:51.640
They changed it. They changed it to it came up

1336
01:29:51.720 --> 01:29:58.319
properly at seventeen. But it's like I couldn't wait around.

1337
01:29:58.399 --> 01:30:01.439
I was like, I want really because when he charge

1338
01:30:01.520 --> 01:30:05.079
me waiting time, that's what I was thinking. Is he

1339
01:30:05.119 --> 01:30:08.680
going to charge me waiting time because he's waiting on

1340
01:30:09.079 --> 01:30:14.960
the proper price. I don't know, but it was. It

1341
01:30:15.039 --> 01:30:17.319
was a cool bloke, so it was that was an

1342
01:30:17.399 --> 01:30:26.439
easy situation too to change or to a remedy. And

1343
01:30:27.239 --> 01:30:31.319
so basically, you know, my friend's under observation. It's got

1344
01:30:32.720 --> 01:30:40.960
things you know, going to be observed, et cetera. But

1345
01:30:41.319 --> 01:30:48.239
going back and forward is really really connected me really

1346
01:30:49.600 --> 01:30:54.760
in a way that I'm surprised at. I kind of

1347
01:30:54.920 --> 01:31:01.520
just didn't expect it, to be honest. I managed to

1348
01:31:01.560 --> 01:31:07.000
get my prescription, which is good on the way and

1349
01:31:11.600 --> 01:31:15.720
had a weird experience today. I went into because they've

1350
01:31:15.760 --> 01:31:19.359
got a W. H. Smiths, They've got a Costa Coffee

1351
01:31:20.439 --> 01:31:27.760
in the hospital. There's a a supermarket in Marks and Spencer's.

1352
01:31:27.800 --> 01:31:35.079
I think, yeah, there's two Costa coffees, actually one small

1353
01:31:35.079 --> 01:31:37.319
one and one larger one where you can eat like

1354
01:31:37.439 --> 01:31:38.560
you can sit down.

1355
01:31:39.880 --> 01:31:42.600
So I go into w A Smith as well. So

1356
01:31:42.680 --> 01:31:46.920
I go into Marks and Spencer's. I get some milk

1357
01:31:46.960 --> 01:31:51.119
because I've got no milk at home for my breakfast

1358
01:31:51.199 --> 01:31:55.640
in the morning, and I realized I've got very little

1359
01:31:55.680 --> 01:32:02.039
breakfast cereal. Ever, I'm looking for the breakfast cereal and

1360
01:32:02.159 --> 01:32:06.319
what I've noticed in this Marks and Spenser's it's just

1361
01:32:07.159 --> 01:32:10.920
maybe it's the same, maybe it's always the same. I

1362
01:32:11.000 --> 01:32:14.840
haven't been in Marx Suspenser's for years, but everything's home brand.

1363
01:32:16.199 --> 01:32:19.840
There's no like norm branded stuff. It's just Mark Suspenser stuff.

1364
01:32:20.840 --> 01:32:22.279
Perhaps that's the norm.

1365
01:32:25.000 --> 01:32:29.159
Because you know things like Sainsbury's they have their own brand,

1366
01:32:29.199 --> 01:32:34.279
but they also sell popular brands as well. Maybe Mark

1367
01:32:34.319 --> 01:32:37.399
sus Spencer's don't do that, but I thought they did.

1368
01:32:37.479 --> 01:32:43.760
I thought they sold both. Hm, I'm not sure anyway,

1369
01:32:43.960 --> 01:32:47.880
this one doesn't seem to. So I'm looking for maybe

1370
01:32:48.039 --> 01:32:53.079
just some some corn flakes or something like that, and

1371
01:32:53.159 --> 01:32:56.359
I end up in this corner where they've got Marks

1372
01:32:56.399 --> 01:33:03.119
Suspencer's home brand. This gets like weird BIS, and I

1373
01:33:03.199 --> 01:33:05.960
think another one is like Mooseley something like that.

1374
01:33:07.520 --> 01:33:12.319
But there's this smell. It's not an it's not it's

1375
01:33:12.359 --> 01:33:15.439
not a horrible smell or anything, but it's like a

1376
01:33:15.760 --> 01:33:26.880
foody kind of smell. It's felt very familiar, but from

1377
01:33:26.960 --> 01:33:27.479
the past.

1378
01:33:27.880 --> 01:33:33.119
It's very strange. I had a very unusual feeling like

1379
01:33:33.439 --> 01:33:39.119
I smelled that before, but it's a long, long, long

1380
01:33:39.239 --> 01:33:43.479
time ago. And I just stood there for a second

1381
01:33:43.680 --> 01:33:54.560
just thinking, hm hmm, how strange. In fact, when I

1382
01:33:54.640 --> 01:33:56.319
visit next time, I might go in there and just

1383
01:33:56.399 --> 01:34:01.079
have a little sniff again. It's a little like hm,

1384
01:34:02.960 --> 01:34:04.199
because it's going to bug me.

1385
01:34:04.520 --> 01:34:07.439
I kind of want to know what that reminds me of,

1386
01:34:08.680 --> 01:34:15.800
because it it was emotions connect to it, emotions connect

1387
01:34:16.000 --> 01:34:19.399
to it, emotions connected to it. I'm not sure if

1388
01:34:19.399 --> 01:34:21.119
I've been talking correctly anymore.

1389
01:34:22.920 --> 01:34:35.279
Oh so tired. So that's it. Really, that's the updated

1390
01:34:35.479 --> 01:34:38.119
version of where I've been and why I have not

1391
01:34:38.279 --> 01:34:44.399
made any recordings this week since Friday, I think, so

1392
01:34:44.439 --> 01:34:52.439
I didn't do anything Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Today's Tuesday. Yeah,

1393
01:34:53.000 --> 01:34:53.520
I don't know.

1394
01:34:55.399 --> 01:34:58.560
I can't even really predict if I'm going to make

1395
01:34:58.600 --> 01:34:59.880
any more recordings this week.

1396
01:35:02.079 --> 01:35:05.920
It's just hard to know. So probably no Q and

1397
01:35:05.960 --> 01:35:13.039
a Friday and hopefully fingers crossed and get back to

1398
01:35:13.239 --> 01:35:16.920
be doing a normal week next week. But I don't know.

1399
01:35:17.520 --> 01:35:22.279
It's I'm kind of surprised that I was able to

1400
01:35:22.399 --> 01:35:29.079
do a recording today, but up to now, I just

1401
01:35:29.159 --> 01:35:31.600
haven't been able to. I just it's been around so

1402
01:35:31.720 --> 01:35:37.840
many people's I just find it very draining. I just

1403
01:35:37.920 --> 01:35:44.359
do I always have done, and it's I can thrive

1404
01:35:44.439 --> 01:35:50.720
off it for a while, but then after, you know,

1405
01:35:51.640 --> 01:35:53.680
after a couple of hours or an hour or two,

1406
01:35:53.880 --> 01:35:57.800
I was like, oh, and then after four or five

1407
01:35:57.880 --> 01:36:01.920
hours of being out, you know, I'm nearly fallen asleep

1408
01:36:02.000 --> 01:36:05.159
on the bus back today or in the taxi bag.

1409
01:36:09.119 --> 01:36:11.680
And technically, you know, I'm not really I've not done

1410
01:36:11.720 --> 01:36:15.920
anything physical. I've not technical mean literally, I've not done

1411
01:36:15.920 --> 01:36:21.159
anything physical other than just a little pretty a bit

1412
01:36:21.239 --> 01:36:24.159
more walk in the normal because just walking around as

1413
01:36:24.239 --> 01:36:26.840
hospitals is probably more than I do when I take

1414
01:36:26.920 --> 01:36:31.600
in for a walk, big old places, isn't they.

1415
01:36:35.399 --> 01:36:40.039
And that's it. Really, that's pretty much the update. There's

1416
01:36:40.199 --> 01:36:43.520
there's I'm sure, there's other stuff that's happened that I've

1417
01:36:43.640 --> 01:36:46.359
not thought about or that I was thinking about, and

1418
01:36:46.439 --> 01:36:51.520
I haven't remembered I as one as one thing.

1419
01:36:51.560 --> 01:36:54.319
Where As these two nurses came in and asked one

1420
01:36:54.359 --> 01:36:57.399
of the other patients if they could borrow her this

1421
01:36:58.239 --> 01:37:02.319
his skin cream because she had sunburn, and I said,

1422
01:37:02.319 --> 01:37:02.960
you're a sunburn.

1423
01:37:03.039 --> 01:37:05.199
She said, all right, I look at this because she

1424
01:37:05.640 --> 01:37:09.920
had a costume, a uniform one, and she showed me

1425
01:37:10.000 --> 01:37:14.800
a picture and it was like her back and showed

1426
01:37:14.840 --> 01:37:16.680
her where it was like sunburn on her back.

1427
01:37:18.239 --> 01:37:24.119
And I said, oh, okay, and she's holding it. She

1428
01:37:24.239 --> 01:37:29.199
looked at me and said next picture, please, and they laughed. Thankfully,

1429
01:37:30.640 --> 01:37:32.520
they didn't show me another picture. But it was just

1430
01:37:32.760 --> 01:37:37.520
I thought, at least I can get away with it still,

1431
01:37:38.159 --> 01:37:40.039
because that's this kind of stuff I used to say when.

1432
01:37:39.880 --> 01:37:42.000
I was younger. Maybe I get away with it now

1433
01:37:42.079 --> 01:37:44.119
because I'm so old and they're just looking at me

1434
01:37:44.279 --> 01:37:50.640
like a grand like a grandfather or something. But it

1435
01:37:50.760 --> 01:37:54.960
was nice. It was just it was I'm not saying,

1436
01:37:55.000 --> 01:37:57.319
look at the picture. Was nice. It's just nice to

1437
01:37:57.399 --> 01:38:03.800
have that friendliness. And they've all been friendly everyone I've

1438
01:38:03.880 --> 01:38:10.800
met at the hospital has been very friendly and it

1439
01:38:10.880 --> 01:38:18.600
says cool. And that is the end of this or recording.

1440
01:38:19.479 --> 01:38:22.680
So as a summary, the website is back up and running.

1441
01:38:24.880 --> 01:38:30.439
I will edit this tomorrow. I'll try and do it

1442
01:38:30.520 --> 01:38:32.680
when I wake up. I don't know when I'm going

1443
01:38:32.760 --> 01:38:33.239
to wake up.

1444
01:38:37.880 --> 01:38:41.000
It won't be early early, because it may be getting

1445
01:38:41.000 --> 01:38:43.760
on to eleven o'clock now, I don't know how long

1446
01:38:43.800 --> 01:38:46.520
I've been talking for. If that'll let me have a look,

1447
01:38:46.760 --> 01:38:52.000
if I can do it about it's twenty past eleven

1448
01:38:53.640 --> 01:38:57.640
and I've been talking for ninety nine. I've been talking

1449
01:38:57.720 --> 01:39:06.760
for one hundred minutes. What's that hour and forty minutes? See, yeah,

1450
01:39:08.239 --> 01:39:10.159
I've thought I started at ten. I've thought I started

1451
01:39:10.159 --> 01:39:10.560
at nine.

1452
01:39:11.399 --> 01:39:15.800
Couldn't have done one hundred minutes, So sixty seventy eighty

1453
01:39:15.920 --> 01:39:22.319
nineteen hundred an hour and forty Okay, So that's it.

1454
01:39:22.720 --> 01:39:27.720
Thank you for listening, and remember to be kind to

1455
01:39:27.800 --> 01:39:31.319
yourself because you do deserve to be happy and be

1456
01:39:31.479 --> 01:39:40.239
gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe, lots of love, bye,

1457
01:39:55.600 --> 01:40:10.600
relax more deep and meaningful way, maybe in a way

1458
01:40:10.800 --> 01:40:19.319
that can not just allow you to feel calmer now

1459
01:40:20.520 --> 01:40:29.079
and throughout the time we spend together here, not just

1460
01:40:29.359 --> 01:40:34.920
relaxed at the end of the recording when it's finished

1461
01:40:35.039 --> 01:40:41.560
and you can enjoy that sense of comfort and peace,

1462
01:40:46.359 --> 01:40:58.960
but also I think it would be nice to have

1463
01:40:59.640 --> 01:41:16.640
those feelings of relaxation continue for longer after the recording

1464
01:41:16.720 --> 01:41:30.159
has ended, so that you can still benefit from listening

1465
01:41:31.079 --> 01:41:39.920
to my voice, maybe in a few hours time, perhaps tomorrow,

1466
01:41:46.039 --> 01:41:53.840
and then by listening regularly, especially if you find like

1467
01:41:54.039 --> 01:41:57.479
some people do and myself as well, I sometimes I

1468
01:41:57.640 --> 01:42:08.119
find one particular recording that really resonates with me, and

1469
01:42:08.239 --> 01:42:13.439
I just listened to it over and over again every morning,

1470
01:42:13.640 --> 01:42:26.199
every evening. There was this recording from We're going back

1471
01:42:26.239 --> 01:42:31.680
to about nineteen ninety nine. It wasn't hypnosis, but it

1472
01:42:31.840 --> 01:42:36.840
was a guided visualizations. It kind of was hypnosis, really,

1473
01:42:39.359 --> 01:42:44.520
and I managed to find it again and it still

1474
01:42:44.640 --> 01:42:50.039
has the same effect on me. And part of it

1475
01:42:50.399 --> 01:43:05.079
was the person's voice relaxed me. She just felt so peaceful,

1476
01:43:07.239 --> 01:43:13.680
and I'd look forward to listening to her in the

1477
01:43:13.800 --> 01:43:15.560
morning and in the evening.

1478
01:43:22.000 --> 01:43:30.960
And I knew before even pressing the play button that

1479
01:43:31.359 --> 01:43:35.720
since I've done that pressed the play button. This was

1480
01:43:36.119 --> 01:43:47.079
in the days of CD players pressed the play button.

1481
01:43:50.479 --> 01:43:53.279
In fact, it might have even been a tape tape recorder.

1482
01:43:54.600 --> 01:44:02.960
I'd lie down on the bed and then even without

1483
01:44:03.560 --> 01:44:06.760
necessarily listening.

1484
01:44:08.039 --> 01:44:21.199
To her words because I had them memorized. Really, it

1485
01:44:21.359 --> 01:44:27.000
was as if my body knew exactly what to do,

1486
01:44:31.960 --> 01:44:53.600
and the muscles just almost went into automatic relaxation, and

1487
01:44:53.920 --> 01:44:58.920
I remember my mind would slow down.

1488
01:45:04.600 --> 01:45:04.760
Now.

1489
01:45:06.960 --> 01:45:13.600
Now, I was listening to this recording in the early

1490
01:45:13.760 --> 01:45:21.520
days of learning hypnosis, and long before I ever made

1491
01:45:22.119 --> 01:45:29.399
any videos or audio recordings myself, because I didn't start

1492
01:45:29.520 --> 01:45:43.199
doing that till two thousand and six, I knew, I

1493
01:45:43.359 --> 01:45:56.800
knew how helpful I found being able to just let go,

1494
01:46:00.119 --> 01:46:05.239
have that trust in the person that I'm listening to,

1495
01:46:12.960 --> 01:46:21.039
knowing that it's going to be just as relaxing, if

1496
01:46:21.119 --> 01:46:30.479
not more so. Each time you hear my voice, you

1497
01:46:30.560 --> 01:46:42.119
may feel the same. Some people have been listening to

1498
01:46:42.279 --> 01:46:56.119
me for over a decade, maybe not solidly, obviously, not

1499
01:46:56.239 --> 01:47:04.399
twenty four hours a day. Maybe people come back, some

1500
01:47:04.560 --> 01:47:19.520
people maybe listen every day. That's something that I do

1501
01:47:21.359 --> 01:47:35.800
which you may not realize by listening, is when I

1502
01:47:36.119 --> 01:47:52.239
record these recordings. Now, for example, I also am affected

1503
01:47:52.800 --> 01:48:05.560
by the words that I say. So if I set

1504
01:48:05.680 --> 01:48:12.680
to you focus on your feet, notice your feet relaxing.

1505
01:48:16.159 --> 01:48:23.880
I will be focusing on my feet. I will be

1506
01:48:24.199 --> 01:48:42.239
noticing my feet relaxing. If I said, focus on your hands,

1507
01:48:45.079 --> 01:48:54.600
and maybe notice the difference between each hand. Perhaps notice

1508
01:48:54.720 --> 01:49:00.760
the air in the room, a temperature of the room.

1509
01:49:02.680 --> 01:49:12.119
On the backs of your hands, you.

1510
01:49:12.239 --> 01:49:16.239
May start to notice what almost feels like a very

1511
01:49:16.479 --> 01:49:24.800
light breeze, even though there may not be any type

1512
01:49:24.840 --> 01:49:26.319
of breeze at all.

1513
01:49:27.920 --> 01:49:40.119
Where you are right now. And as you become aware

1514
01:49:40.359 --> 01:49:54.359
of your hands, I'm also aware of how relaxed my

1515
01:49:54.720 --> 01:50:18.039
hands are feeling. Yeah now, And when it comes to

1516
01:50:19.640 --> 01:50:25.640
potentially drifting off to sleep, which may be the reason

1517
01:50:25.960 --> 01:50:42.159
you're listening, I also feel drowsy when I make these recordings.

1518
01:50:46.920 --> 01:51:03.319
I also notice my mind drifting. In fact, at times

1519
01:51:05.399 --> 01:51:19.520
I've actually fallen asleep without even noticing, and then I

1520
01:51:19.720 --> 01:51:31.000
carry on talking and it's suddenly when I listen back

1521
01:51:31.199 --> 01:51:40.199
to do the editing, I hear snoring, and I think,

1522
01:51:40.640 --> 01:51:51.439
I don't remember snoring. I remember talking. Snoring was a

1523
01:51:51.600 --> 01:51:58.319
pik turned up. That's why I sound like when I snore,

1524
01:52:03.840 --> 01:52:17.039
I get read into a whole experience. I don't know

1525
01:52:17.239 --> 01:52:26.800
how you feel, how relaxed do you feel in your feet,

1526
01:52:29.960 --> 01:52:52.800
how relaxed you feel in your hands? I have noticed

1527
01:52:55.439 --> 01:53:11.640
more and more that the more relaxed, deeper level of

1528
01:53:11.920 --> 01:53:29.159
comfort you feel, the easier your breathing becomes. It's almost

1529
01:53:29.520 --> 01:53:49.840
like that additional muscle relaxation. So this allows you to

1530
01:53:50.039 --> 01:53:51.720
breathe easier.

1531
01:53:58.520 --> 01:54:16.840
Without necessarily focusing on your breath, however, being able to

1532
01:54:20.600 --> 01:54:33.039
notice the ease.

1533
01:54:36.079 --> 01:55:02.640
In which you breathe so naturally. You breathe so very

1534
01:55:02.960 --> 01:55:51.640
easily and smoothly whenever I imagine my breathing improving when

1535
01:55:51.680 --> 01:56:06.960
I've got my eyes closed a ten to visualize a

1536
01:56:07.119 --> 01:56:23.640
beautiful field with trees and flowers producing all that life

1537
01:56:23.800 --> 01:56:56.079
giving oxygen, and it feels nice two if nothing else,

1538
01:56:59.319 --> 01:57:33.439
just taking some time away from everything, enjoying that feeling

1539
01:57:33.840 --> 01:58:24.319
of peace, serenity with a joyful heart. Time seems to

1540
01:58:24.600 --> 01:58:59.680
just drip by, so very slowly, relaxed, so deeply peaceful,

1541
01:59:09.640 --> 01:59:52.399
completely unattached to any thoughts whatsoever in this moment, completely free,

1542
02:00:18.920 --> 02:01:10.279
noticing that your mind has slowed down. Slowed down because

1543
02:01:10.479 --> 02:01:39.000
nothing really requires your attention, you can enjoy the physical

1544
02:01:39.399 --> 02:01:50.600
sensations of allowing the stress to drip out of your

1545
02:01:50.680 --> 02:02:10.479
body to appear out of every butt of your body.

1546
02:02:20.399 --> 02:02:54.279
I'm being released from your brain. Leange your mind slowly,

1547
02:02:58.920 --> 02:03:10.000
but only the muscles in your legs.

1548
02:03:25.159 --> 02:03:55.720
Relax ris res so very deeply, reas.

1549
02:04:00.319 --> 02:04:25.680
So deeply. And the feelings, the pleasant feelings in your

1550
02:04:26.000 --> 02:04:53.760
arms and shoulders, deepening each part of your body further

1551
02:04:58.720 --> 02:05:31.720
and deep mh and deeper noticine, the feelings in the

1552
02:05:31.840 --> 02:05:59.600
back of your neck, the feelings in your wrists, m

1553
02:06:31.119 --> 02:06:56.800
muscles in front of your body, I will say, feeling

1554
02:07:01.560 --> 02:07:35.640
peace for deeply. There's a sense of pace spreads through

1555
02:07:37.199 --> 02:08:14.960
your very core. Even when you focus on your mind,

1556
02:08:26.920 --> 02:09:38.840
her mind becomes be and slowerven deeper, relaxing, so very slow,

1557
02:09:58.479 --> 02:10:54.680
stomach peace fall in yours stomach held back. Notice Notice

1558
02:10:54.920 --> 02:11:13.359
how relaxed you now feel in the hole of your back.

1559
02:11:38.479 --> 02:11:46.119
In a spy from your brain all the way down

1560
02:11:47.520 --> 02:11:57.319
the middle of your back, sending and receiving millions of

1561
02:11:57.640 --> 02:12:58.720
messages every day, deep comfort increase in deeply relaxed your

1562
02:12:58.880 --> 02:13:33.239
niece h relax spreading those signals down your spine or

1563
02:13:33.359 --> 02:13:56.760
cord into air every part of your body, your shins

1564
02:13:56.920 --> 02:14:47.640
and your calf muscles with outbows feelings of peace and

1565
02:14:47.840 --> 02:15:05.840
tranquility spreading through your body, tips of your toes, to

1566
02:15:06.000 --> 02:15:18.000
your eyes, your fingers, all the way till you'll lower back,

1567
02:15:29.840 --> 02:16:32.239
letting her reating, peace to drift in mind, just wander

1568
02:16:32.399 --> 02:16:54.639
in a way, happy to let go, Let go completely,

1569
02:16:57.079 --> 02:18:20.520
let go, said tranquil body, enjoying a sensor listening that.

1570
02:18:24.200 --> 02:18:25.719
Hey, no.

1571
02:19:34.399 --> 02:20:28.360
He enjoying the space, this space of peace and safety,

1572
02:20:51.200 --> 02:20:52.360
so very.

1573
02:21:31.680 --> 02:22:30.879
Us letting go.

1574
02:22:48.959 --> 02:22:56.559
Maybe we can just focus on the different parts of

1575
02:22:56.719 --> 02:24:04.639
your body, just to notice you forehead and your eyes mutual,

1576
02:24:10.159 --> 02:25:51.040
so loose, noticing a sense of complete freedom, absolute freedom, day,

1577
02:26:03.399 --> 02:26:48.079
peace for energy, peace to breathe, so much easy.

1578
02:27:29.200 --> 02:27:51.440
Lois. You may.

1579
02:27:55.280 --> 02:28:55.159
Or may not have noticed your mind drifting peaceful, move

1580
02:28:55.680 --> 02:29:15.520
any even more deeply in the direction of total blissphul

1581
02:29:15.879 --> 02:31:11.799
pace blisphul pace directhhhhhhh t to pace come so calm,

1582
02:31:23.600 --> 02:32:25.159
let him go. Peace of mind rexed body c rex

1583
02:32:33.920 --> 02:33:26.760
C relaxed body feels almost invisible, so very relaxed, paceful,

1584
02:33:33.159 --> 02:34:05.719
so paceful leo.

1585
02:34:21.600 --> 02:34:46.399
So and you could start to notice that you are

1586
02:34:46.639 --> 02:34:58.159
feeling more relaxed, even though I've not purposely focused your

1587
02:34:58.360 --> 02:35:00.079
mind upon.

1588
02:35:01.040 --> 02:35:07.360
That sense of physical comfort that is growing within you

1589
02:35:08.040 --> 02:35:13.319
throughout your body and your mind.

1590
02:35:15.159 --> 02:35:23.559
Starts to slow down, and that could be almost in

1591
02:35:24.479 --> 02:35:33.040
recognition of I guess my speech not being particularly fast

1592
02:35:39.600 --> 02:35:44.040
and things just generally feel calmer.

1593
02:35:47.600 --> 02:35:55.520
Just by listening to my voice, you give yourself an

1594
02:35:55.600 --> 02:36:03.559
opportunity to take a break from the day, take a

1595
02:36:03.639 --> 02:36:11.280
break from your life as it is, and to give

1596
02:36:11.360 --> 02:36:19.440
yourself a rest, giving yourself permission to take some time

1597
02:36:19.600 --> 02:36:27.000
off and to allow your body to relax and allow

1598
02:36:27.239 --> 02:36:37.559
your mind to slow down, which in turn releases the

1599
02:36:37.760 --> 02:36:48.319
tension and stresses that you had in your body. It's

1600
02:36:48.399 --> 02:36:52.920
almost as if the parts of your body just open up,

1601
02:36:54.280 --> 02:37:05.879
allowing the negativity out and at the same time replacing

1602
02:37:06.760 --> 02:37:16.280
that negativity with positive healing energy, which then fills your

1603
02:37:16.360 --> 02:37:28.159
body up and your mind to also starts to appreciate

1604
02:37:29.079 --> 02:37:42.399
those feelings of increasing confidence and an almost uplifting feeling,

1605
02:37:44.479 --> 02:37:58.520
positive healing, an energy that spreads through your body like

1606
02:37:58.639 --> 02:38:08.879
a wave of comfort, and all this comes and just

1607
02:38:12.479 --> 02:38:21.239
allowing yourself a few minutes, maybe half an hour, however

1608
02:38:21.360 --> 02:38:31.040
long you want it to be, to just rest and

1609
02:38:31.239 --> 02:38:41.239
allow your mind and your body to almost reset itself

1610
02:38:44.120 --> 02:38:59.760
to the settings of comfort and relaxation, calmness, which allows

1611
02:39:00.280 --> 02:39:12.959
more room for feelings of pleasure and happiness to move

1612
02:39:13.520 --> 02:39:22.319
around your body and into your mind, almost as if

1613
02:39:22.399 --> 02:39:32.120
your mind and your body are sinking together, almost mirroring

1614
02:39:32.959 --> 02:39:45.799
each other, with that growing positivity and calmness. And it

1615
02:39:45.920 --> 02:39:53.719
feels nice, really does feel nice to know that you

1616
02:39:55.079 --> 02:40:03.600
are the one that has allowed yourself to feel more

1617
02:40:04.920 --> 02:40:11.479
comfort than to experience.

1618
02:40:13.239 --> 02:40:14.399
More of this.

1619
02:40:16.200 --> 02:40:31.319
Deep relaxation spreading throughout your body. And as I focus

1620
02:40:32.920 --> 02:40:38.680
on each part of your body, you can notice that

1621
02:40:38.879 --> 02:40:53.399
that part becomes even more relaxed just by focusing on it.

1622
02:40:55.959 --> 02:41:05.600
It becomes even more arm and comfortable just by focusing.

1623
02:41:09.639 --> 02:41:15.399
And as I move down your body, starting at your head,

1624
02:41:18.120 --> 02:41:23.399
the parts that you have already focused on will continue

1625
02:41:24.760 --> 02:41:31.879
to relax deeply and those parts that have not yet

1626
02:41:32.079 --> 02:41:44.920
focused on or just automatically release any remain intention in

1627
02:41:45.120 --> 02:41:59.239
anticipation of even more comfort about to come now And

1628
02:41:59.639 --> 02:42:06.840
start by focusing on your forehead. Just being aware of

1629
02:42:07.079 --> 02:42:17.200
the feelings of your forehead and any background sounds like

1630
02:42:17.399 --> 02:42:22.479
mister Herbert the pigeon can just allow you to feel

1631
02:42:22.639 --> 02:42:32.600
even more relaxed. Just means you're in the moment. This

1632
02:42:32.799 --> 02:42:37.920
isn't this isn't a sterile environment. This is the world.

1633
02:42:41.360 --> 02:42:47.399
I live in the countryside, so there's lots of nature

1634
02:42:47.920 --> 02:42:58.440
sounds around. So as you focus on your forehead, just

1635
02:42:58.680 --> 02:43:06.479
notice how it comes even more relaxed as your focus

1636
02:43:08.760 --> 02:43:13.280
only on my voice and that part of your body.

1637
02:43:18.479 --> 02:43:26.719
Moving down to your eyes, focusing on your eyes, noticing

1638
02:43:29.200 --> 02:43:38.920
how your eyelids feel so heavy yet so light at

1639
02:43:38.959 --> 02:43:45.440
the same time, and all the muscles around your eyes

1640
02:43:45.680 --> 02:43:59.879
relaxing completely. Moving your focus down to your mouth, your lips,

1641
02:44:00.559 --> 02:44:14.680
your tongue, your teeth. You comes the whole of your mouth, relaxing, calm.

1642
02:44:15.840 --> 02:44:16.399
And lease.

1643
02:44:20.879 --> 02:44:28.680
As you focus now on your jaw, not just the

1644
02:44:28.799 --> 02:44:33.600
parts of your jawney, your mouth, and your chin, but

1645
02:44:33.760 --> 02:44:37.879
all the way up the size of your face to

1646
02:44:38.000 --> 02:44:52.520
your ears, the hole of your jaw, feeding more relaxed.

1647
02:44:55.799 --> 02:44:56.680
And calm.

1648
02:45:04.879 --> 02:45:13.920
Focusing on your neck, the front of your neck and

1649
02:45:14.040 --> 02:45:27.079
your throat relaxing and loose and calm. The side of

1650
02:45:27.200 --> 02:45:32.440
your neck, the right and left side of your neck

1651
02:45:35.399 --> 02:45:51.200
relax and lace and calm. And now the back of

1652
02:45:51.360 --> 02:46:04.159
your neck. Focusing on the back of your neck, letting

1653
02:46:04.360 --> 02:46:09.040
go of any tension that may have been there before,

1654
02:46:10.879 --> 02:46:25.040
and enjoying that sense of increasing comfort and release. Then

1655
02:46:25.159 --> 02:46:35.559
you can experience in the back of your neck, moving

1656
02:46:35.799 --> 02:46:42.399
down your back and moving either side of your spine

1657
02:46:43.680 --> 02:46:45.639
right from the top of your back.

1658
02:46:47.360 --> 02:46:48.639
All the way.

1659
02:46:48.639 --> 02:47:01.280
Down to the bottom of your back down to your

1660
02:47:01.399 --> 02:47:11.920
lower back. As you move up and down your spine,

1661
02:47:14.079 --> 02:47:18.479
you can feel the muscles either side of your spine

1662
02:47:20.719 --> 02:47:35.280
relaxing even more. And as those muscles relax, that sense

1663
02:47:35.360 --> 02:47:45.840
of comfort starts to spread outwards from your spine into

1664
02:47:46.079 --> 02:47:52.680
both sides of your back, the top of your back,

1665
02:47:53.559 --> 02:47:59.879
the middle en your lower back. And as you're scared

1666
02:48:00.079 --> 02:48:09.239
and gently and slowly up and down your back, there's

1667
02:48:09.280 --> 02:48:14.000
the muscles in the top of your back relax and

1668
02:48:14.239 --> 02:48:21.879
become looser. The muscles in the middle of your back

1669
02:48:23.399 --> 02:48:30.840
also seem to just almost divide from each other, separating

1670
02:48:31.079 --> 02:48:46.680
and almost melting. And in your lower back there seems

1671
02:48:46.719 --> 02:48:59.840
to be an extra special feeling of comfort. The spread

1672
02:49:00.239 --> 02:49:06.399
into your hips, sit down your lower back, into your hips,

1673
02:49:11.079 --> 02:49:18.159
into the area where your cosix are, and into your buttocks,

1674
02:49:20.319 --> 02:49:29.680
and always muscles that spread bring your lower back into

1675
02:49:29.760 --> 02:49:43.040
your hip area, start to melt, start to really let

1676
02:49:43.159 --> 02:49:53.719
go and don't even know where about to focus on

1677
02:49:53.840 --> 02:50:00.799
your shoulders, your back, and your spine. What can continue

1678
02:50:02.879 --> 02:50:21.239
till let go continue to relax so calmly, and then

1679
02:50:21.360 --> 02:50:27.479
she focus on your shoulders. You may notice they're already

1680
02:50:29.360 --> 02:50:57.879
feeling really loose, they're already feeling calm, and they're feeling

1681
02:51:02.079 --> 02:51:10.360
those muscles. Then move from your neck into your shoulders.

1682
02:51:16.920 --> 02:51:46.319
Feel so soft and gentle, so smooth and calm, and

1683
02:51:46.520 --> 02:51:59.360
the feeling in your shoulders seems to spread deep into

1684
02:51:59.440 --> 02:52:09.879
your shoulder, a sense of relaxation, not just traveling deeply

1685
02:52:10.200 --> 02:52:27.280
into your muscles, but also relaxing the bones and moving

1686
02:52:27.360 --> 02:52:35.600
all the way to underneath your arms, relaxing that whole

1687
02:52:35.840 --> 02:52:41.559
area between the tops of your shoulders and underneath your arms.

1688
02:52:45.600 --> 02:52:46.159
Healing.

1689
02:52:51.559 --> 02:53:06.200
You feel so relaxed and comfortable you shoulders, which sense that's.

1690
02:53:07.879 --> 02:53:09.799
Deep healing.

1691
02:53:12.920 --> 02:53:30.399
Message into your arms. You may feel almost as if

1692
02:53:30.479 --> 02:53:37.000
your arms are not even there, because they're so relaxed,

1693
02:53:40.200 --> 02:53:50.559
so deeply relaxed, so.

1694
02:53:55.639 --> 02:53:55.959
Calm.

1695
02:54:11.120 --> 02:54:18.079
So this.

1696
02:54:25.639 --> 02:54:36.799
The fee spreading all the way down your arms to elbows,

1697
02:54:40.559 --> 02:55:11.040
including your elbows, circumfort spreads away intrists, your forearm snder

1698
02:55:11.159 --> 02:55:37.600
wrists so heavy. He had the same time, silight and

1699
02:55:38.319 --> 02:56:04.600
gentle fred Sin.

1700
02:56:06.840 --> 02:56:07.840
Now on.

1701
02:56:10.520 --> 02:56:34.639
Your hands, hands.

1702
02:56:41.920 --> 02:57:05.600
Peaceful in your hands. The sensor.

1703
02:57:08.559 --> 02:57:10.399
Real pace.

1704
02:57:22.079 --> 02:57:36.479
Just seems to feel so familiar on your hands, relax

1705
02:57:37.760 --> 02:59:43.200
deeply else the things things you think It taps maing

1706
02:59:43.680 --> 03:00:13.280
attention to the front. Your body sure consopon and the

1707
03:00:13.559 --> 03:01:40.680
new focus till legs don't like mysels and your thighs

1708
03:01:57.239 --> 03:02:38.600
and knees. I relaxed. A cough mussels just shines a

1709
03:02:39.000 --> 03:04:53.600
pussy the fething in your faints. Sir, pace ho circlm

1710
03:04:59.399 --> 03:05:52.200
sip peaceful, sycom so peaceful, sycom so peace for.

1711
03:06:01.040 --> 03:06:09.680
RelA same peace fall.

1712
03:06:13.639 --> 03:06:22.559
Come love that.

1713
03:06:23.040 --> 03:06:25.840
Deep relaxation.

1714
03:06:26.319 --> 03:06:43.159
To spread your chest your story. So relax, let you

1715
03:06:43.680 --> 03:07:04.760
go everything. I'm going to start counting down now, from

1716
03:07:04.840 --> 03:07:13.479
twenty down to one. You can imagine in a way

1717
03:07:13.559 --> 03:07:19.639
it's like just walking down some steps and each step

1718
03:07:20.040 --> 03:07:26.200
or twenty steps, and each step represents a level of comfort.

1719
03:07:29.719 --> 03:07:45.079
Each step represents a deepening of that comfort, and the

1720
03:07:45.280 --> 03:07:51.959
furvies you walk down those steps deeper and more relaxed

1721
03:07:52.280 --> 03:09:47.159
you feel. So starting with number twenty twenty, nineteen, eighteen, seventeen,

1722
03:10:33.559 --> 03:14:40.719
sixteenhhhhhhhhhh three four fie too well.

1723
03:17:56.040 --> 03:17:56.079
No.

1724
03:18:58.680 --> 03:19:59.360
Eight seven.

1725
03:20:01.239 --> 03:20:36.559
Usaid the.

1726
03:20:39.760 --> 03:22:52.200
Six five.

1727
03:23:11.959 --> 03:27:06.600
US du us did.

1728
03:26:42.159 --> 03:26:42.319
Us.

1729
03:28:39.280 --> 03:28:56.360
Now as you focus on your eyes, we're gonna count

1730
03:28:56.479 --> 03:29:07.479
down from ten down to one mmhm, focusing just on

1731
03:29:07.680 --> 03:29:18.600
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your

1732
03:29:18.680 --> 03:29:27.719
eye walls themselves, our whole area that makes up your eye.

1733
03:29:38.680 --> 03:29:43.879
And as we count down from ten down to one,

1734
03:29:46.440 --> 03:29:59.760
whilst focusing on your eyes, you'll become twice is really

1735
03:30:00.079 --> 03:30:11.440
next with each number counting down that you may find

1736
03:30:15.639 --> 03:30:21.360
the all you want to do is just drift off

1737
03:30:21.719 --> 03:30:30.840
to sleep. And if that's what you want, then just

1738
03:30:31.000 --> 03:30:44.120
allow yourself to do that. Now, focusing on your eyes,

1739
03:30:46.239 --> 03:30:51.600
I'm going to begin counting down from ten down to

1740
03:30:51.799 --> 03:33:48.959
one right now. Nine eighth.

1741
03:33:00.200 --> 03:37:26.799
Snush four.

1742
03:37:28.959 --> 03:40:17.120
Three us pass.

1743
03:40:03.000 --> 03:40:03.239
One.

1744
03:40:09.680 --> 03:40:26.319
So counting down from ten to one ten nine eight

1745
03:40:29.159 --> 03:40:53.959
seven six five four three two one. And maybe that

1746
03:40:54.159 --> 03:40:58.280
was a bit too quick in order to relax. Maybe

1747
03:40:58.319 --> 03:41:04.360
it's a bit too fast. You to notice the calming

1748
03:41:04.600 --> 03:41:11.479
of your body, maybe even a little bit of pressure there,

1749
03:41:11.639 --> 03:41:15.159
Like you're counting down from ten to one. Would you

1750
03:41:15.280 --> 03:41:18.479
expect me to do? Man, expect me to just to

1751
03:41:18.559 --> 03:41:28.159
go with floppy just because you're counting down. We could

1752
03:41:28.200 --> 03:41:31.479
try it again, but this time I'll go a bit

1753
03:41:31.600 --> 03:41:38.840
slower this time. As you focus on the whole of

1754
03:41:38.959 --> 03:41:45.719
your body, before we focus on your legs, just notice

1755
03:41:47.319 --> 03:42:00.159
how your body does start to feel more relaxed with

1756
03:42:01.399 --> 03:42:34.879
every number that I count down ten nine, eight, seven, six,

1757
03:42:43.319 --> 03:43:52.239
five four three two one. I just notice how how

1758
03:43:52.319 --> 03:44:02.399
you feel, generally, how your body feels. It's not necessarily

1759
03:44:02.520 --> 03:44:12.920
even about counting down from ten to one. It's that

1760
03:44:13.200 --> 03:44:32.879
space that you have, that space between being active physically

1761
03:44:33.079 --> 03:44:42.680
or mentally to just sitting or lying down, just being there,

1762
03:44:43.440 --> 03:44:48.879
not doing anything, not saying anything, or needing to think

1763
03:44:49.000 --> 03:44:54.879
about anything. So it opens up a space, you know,

1764
03:44:55.079 --> 03:45:04.399
a bit of a space, a gap. And the more

1765
03:45:05.680 --> 03:45:09.040
I came down from ten to one, the bigger that

1766
03:45:09.239 --> 03:45:20.239
gap becomes. So there's that gap of calmness, of comfort, relaxation.

1767
03:45:26.159 --> 03:45:34.040
It's a nice feeling, and it moves.

1768
03:45:35.280 --> 03:45:43.280
Those stresses or discomforts physically or emotionally, moves them.

1769
03:45:44.799 --> 03:45:52.920
Away. Allows you.

1770
03:45:55.639 --> 03:45:56.159
To just.

1771
03:45:59.120 --> 03:46:05.840
Slow down, someone to count again from ten down to one,

1772
03:46:06.280 --> 03:46:16.479
and notice that gap widening the gap. And as it widens,

1773
03:46:16.559 --> 03:46:22.600
it's almost like the stress and attention falls into the

1774
03:46:22.719 --> 03:46:40.559
gap and gives you that distance, that space.

1775
03:46:42.959 --> 03:46:48.399
Now ten.

1776
03:46:52.760 --> 03:48:49.760
Nine eight, seven, six, five four three two one. How

1777
03:48:49.840 --> 03:48:53.360
did you work body feel?

1778
03:48:55.600 --> 03:48:55.760
Now?

1779
03:49:08.479 --> 03:49:21.120
Can you notice that do you feeling calmer, the feeling

1780
03:49:23.479 --> 03:49:50.879
more relaxed as we now focus on your legs, just

1781
03:49:51.040 --> 03:50:12.399
your legs. We're just gonna start with focusing on your thighs.

1782
03:50:27.239 --> 03:50:31.520
Of course, it's not the most exciting thing to be doing,

1783
03:50:32.319 --> 03:50:38.680
because I'm sure, like most of your body is not

1784
03:50:38.760 --> 03:50:50.959
a lot going on right now. Just focusing on the

1785
03:50:51.079 --> 03:50:57.120
whole of your thighs, the tops of your thighs, the

1786
03:50:57.440 --> 03:51:04.079
sides of your fighs, the bottoms of your thighs, your

1787
03:51:04.200 --> 03:51:09.520
outer thighs, and your inner thighs. Basically the whole of

1788
03:51:09.559 --> 03:51:17.399
your thigh that leads into your hip and it goes

1789
03:51:18.399 --> 03:51:28.520
down to your knee joint. Now, this is a big area.

1790
03:51:33.000 --> 03:51:37.959
It's a very heavy area. It's very strong. Probably the

1791
03:51:38.079 --> 03:51:52.760
strongest muscles in your body are in your thighs. But

1792
03:51:52.799 --> 03:52:01.200
I don't think we perhaps give enough attention to our thighs.

1793
03:52:07.159 --> 03:52:17.920
Perhaps we don't acknowledge how important our thighs are to

1794
03:52:18.120 --> 03:52:38.719
our lives, how much they actually do for us all

1795
03:52:38.840 --> 03:52:49.280
through our lives. And it may seem to sound really weird,

1796
03:52:49.360 --> 03:52:57.760
but I think that all of our body parts, especially

1797
03:52:57.879 --> 03:53:06.520
our thighs, needs TLC, a bit of love shown, a

1798
03:53:06.639 --> 03:53:25.239
bit of acknowledgement. I thank you gratitude for our thighs

1799
03:53:25.479 --> 03:53:34.319
do for us. And I know this may sound a

1800
03:53:34.399 --> 03:53:39.600
bit strange. Maybe you think, why am.

1801
03:53:39.520 --> 03:53:43.000
I sure I should be out in the garden hugging

1802
03:53:43.079 --> 03:53:51.000
a tree or something. Well, it's hard to set a

1803
03:53:51.040 --> 03:53:54.760
microphone up on a tree. That's why I'm doing this indoors.

1804
03:53:54.799 --> 03:53:58.559
Otherwise I wouldn't be outside in a tree. I can't

1805
03:53:58.600 --> 03:53:59.920
see the television.

1806
03:53:59.479 --> 03:53:59.920
From the tree.

1807
03:54:06.680 --> 03:54:10.920
If you move down to your knees gain such an

1808
03:54:11.000 --> 03:54:20.719
important part. And I think we don't necessarily I'll speak

1809
03:54:20.760 --> 03:54:21.600
for myself here.

1810
03:54:24.079 --> 03:54:29.159
I don't necessarily appreciate all that my needs do for

1811
03:54:29.319 --> 03:54:35.760
me until I have a problem with my knee. It's occasionally,

1812
03:54:35.840 --> 03:54:40.799
if I ever maybe i'll bash it or it's aching

1813
03:54:41.000 --> 03:54:47.360
for some reason. It's then that I realize how much

1814
03:54:47.520 --> 03:54:51.120
it does. You know, the benefit of being able to

1815
03:54:52.079 --> 03:55:00.319
use my legs without any kind of physical discomfort.

1816
03:55:01.239 --> 03:55:08.280
Is a beautiful thing that's possibly not appreciated until it's

1817
03:55:08.920 --> 03:55:18.319
temporarily removed. You know that's comfort. But as you focus

1818
03:55:18.399 --> 03:55:26.280
on your knees, regardless of how your knees feel, you

1819
03:55:26.360 --> 03:55:32.200
can have that sense of gratitude and love to your

1820
03:55:32.239 --> 03:55:44.879
knees for all that they do for you, and you

1821
03:55:44.959 --> 03:55:48.840
can still have that attention on your thighs and maybe

1822
03:55:49.040 --> 03:55:55.319
notice how your thighs feel. Maybe you've noticed that they

1823
03:55:56.200 --> 03:56:14.000
are relaxing more deeply as you focus now on the

1824
03:56:14.079 --> 03:56:18.479
bottoms of your legs, your shins, and your calf muscles,

1825
03:56:19.000 --> 03:56:26.799
the bones between your knees and your feet, incorporating of

1826
03:56:26.920 --> 03:56:37.959
course your ankles so important. You know, anyone that's had

1827
03:56:38.840 --> 03:56:44.280
even like the slightest sprain of an ankle knows how

1828
03:56:45.920 --> 03:56:56.239
how much we take our ankles for granted. And it's

1829
03:56:56.360 --> 03:56:58.399
kind of strange in a way when you think that.

1830
03:57:00.959 --> 03:57:04.959
You know, logically, our wrists are a lot thinner than

1831
03:57:05.079 --> 03:57:10.000
the rest of our arms, which is okay, I can't

1832
03:57:10.040 --> 03:57:13.520
see any problem with that, because we're just picking stuff

1833
03:57:13.600 --> 03:57:20.840
up by our ankles so much thinner than the rest

1834
03:57:20.879 --> 03:57:31.559
of our legs. And from a physics perspective or logical

1835
03:57:31.639 --> 03:57:35.760
even it doesn't really make sense that all this weight

1836
03:57:37.440 --> 03:57:44.399
would ultimately be resting on your ankles then leading to

1837
03:57:44.479 --> 03:57:57.680
your feet. That thin area, thin bone. Yeah, it does

1838
03:57:57.920 --> 03:58:04.680
so much great work. Supports us, supports our body for

1839
03:58:04.799 --> 03:58:15.159
a lifetime, helps us to balance, It helps you to

1840
03:58:19.159 --> 03:58:28.399
get around and be mobile. And there's the calf muscles.

1841
03:58:28.440 --> 03:58:36.040
Of course, when I was younger, I couldn't see the

1842
03:58:36.120 --> 03:58:42.440
pointing calf muscles, didn't seem to do anything. Okay, if

1843
03:58:42.479 --> 03:58:46.040
I walked around on tiptoes, then my calf muscles get

1844
03:58:46.120 --> 03:58:49.840
some work. But of course that's not true. The calf

1845
03:58:49.959 --> 03:58:59.520
muscles are being used whenever we use our legs, and

1846
03:59:03.680 --> 03:59:12.680
there to protect your lower legs, shaped in a way

1847
03:59:14.520 --> 03:59:26.639
almost as a protector for the bone, leading of course

1848
03:59:26.719 --> 03:59:36.879
to your ankles and your feet. But we're not going

1849
03:59:36.959 --> 03:59:39.079
to focus on your feet. We're just going to focus

1850
03:59:39.159 --> 03:59:45.319
on the legs. And I realize, and now that I've

1851
03:59:45.440 --> 03:59:50.159
mentioned your feet, you'll probably focusing on them anyway, So

1852
03:59:50.280 --> 03:59:52.680
maybe I should focus on your feet a little bit.

1853
03:59:56.680 --> 04:00:01.120
You can have them in your awareness the same as

1854
04:00:01.200 --> 04:00:05.559
you have your thighs in your awareness. Even though we

1855
04:00:05.680 --> 04:00:09.680
haven't been focusing on your thighs for a few minutes,

1856
04:00:11.399 --> 04:00:22.239
I've been focusing on your ankles, there's still that sensation

1857
04:00:22.520 --> 04:00:37.840
of comfort in your thighs, and there's that movement of

1858
04:00:38.200 --> 04:00:47.639
energy because the thighs hold lots of different sensations. Of course,

1859
04:00:47.719 --> 04:00:52.479
there's the muscles, the big strong muscles that we have

1860
04:00:52.680 --> 04:01:06.000
in our thighs. But the skin on the outside of

1861
04:01:06.079 --> 04:01:11.399
the thighs, as in the outside of all of our body,

1862
04:01:12.200 --> 04:01:23.760
can be very sensitive, sensitive to the touch, sensitive to temperature,

1863
04:01:30.319 --> 04:01:37.879
and inside your thighs the bones, there's the muscle, there's

1864
04:01:37.920 --> 04:01:42.680
the blood, vessels, the ar trees, to all this stuff

1865
04:01:42.799 --> 04:01:51.920
that's inside your thighs. I guess sometimes it'd be nice

1866
04:01:51.920 --> 04:01:56.239
if you could actually put your fingers inside your thighs

1867
04:01:56.879 --> 04:02:02.840
and message, so you can message on the outside, of course,

1868
04:02:03.639 --> 04:02:05.959
but to be able to get deep into the muscles,

1869
04:02:06.840 --> 04:02:10.760
and to be able to just massage inside your thighs,

1870
04:02:11.639 --> 04:02:13.920
message in the bones of.

1871
04:02:13.959 --> 04:02:14.639
Your leg.

1872
04:02:16.639 --> 04:02:26.479
Massage in all the vemes, just gently healing your thighs,

1873
04:02:30.399 --> 04:02:35.639
and you can move down message and inside your knees,

1874
04:02:37.120 --> 04:02:43.920
just message in those bones, but with healing fingertips, spreading

1875
04:02:44.040 --> 04:02:49.760
that healing energy deep into the choice of your knees.

1876
04:02:55.200 --> 04:02:58.879
Of course, there's the back of your your need and

1877
04:02:59.000 --> 04:03:05.000
the inside crease where your knee is. It's a very

1878
04:03:05.239 --> 04:03:11.120
sensitive area. It feels very nice when you stroke it.

1879
04:03:12.520 --> 04:03:15.840
That might be because it's an area that's not really

1880
04:03:16.040 --> 04:03:22.520
touched very often. It's almost like a hidden part, that

1881
04:03:22.879 --> 04:03:29.600
crease in your legs. It's almost it's like a part

1882
04:03:29.719 --> 04:03:34.600
that has a sensitivity, which is a little bit different.

1883
04:03:42.399 --> 04:03:52.319
Of course, it's protected by your legs. So you can

1884
04:03:52.399 --> 04:03:57.719
imagine putting your fingers into that crease in your legs.

1885
04:04:03.559 --> 04:04:07.159
Fold in between your legs. You can just message with

1886
04:04:07.280 --> 04:04:14.360
your fingertips. Imagine your fingertips going inside, massage in the

1887
04:04:15.079 --> 04:04:25.000
muscle tissue you can cause field the bones of your knees,

1888
04:04:26.520 --> 04:04:36.959
healing through your fingertips, and then as you go down

1889
04:04:39.840 --> 04:04:42.639
to your calf muscles, and that's the part I'd like

1890
04:04:42.719 --> 04:04:47.399
to be able to really put my fingertips deep inside

1891
04:04:48.200 --> 04:04:57.120
my calf muscles, message in every single tissue of that muscle,

1892
04:04:58.719 --> 04:05:08.639
healing every part, and then doing the same for my shins,

1893
04:05:11.840 --> 04:05:20.000
massaging and generally stroking the bones, generally stroking them, healing

1894
04:05:20.239 --> 04:05:24.360
in a loving way because they deserve to be treated.

1895
04:05:27.399 --> 04:05:31.559
There's the precious bones that they are, because our legs

1896
04:05:31.559 --> 04:05:34.920
are so precious as in all the other parts of

1897
04:05:35.000 --> 04:05:43.200
our body, the more precious of any chore on the planet.

1898
04:05:51.760 --> 04:05:59.719
When you start to think about your legs in this way,

1899
04:06:04.319 --> 04:06:10.959
it can change your perspective. It might sound a bit

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04:06:14.040 --> 04:06:18.360
a bit silly to start with, the idea of having

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love for your legs, showing appreciation for your thighs, wanting

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to be able to put your hands in your thighs,

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massage the muscles and the bones, and to get your

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fingers deep in there and releasing all tension. Just to

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show how much you care about your legs, how much

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you care for what your legs do for you regularly,

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your needs, your cars, your ankles, the strength of your ankles,

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considering how thin they are compared to the rest of

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your legs, especially your thighs. Yet this so strong, so flexible,

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absolutely amazing things. Your ankles are truly a gift because

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of what they do for you, supporting all that weight,

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regardless of how what weight you are, even if you

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only eat ate stone, there's still a lot of weight

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for these little ankles. Now, I'm a lot heavier than

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eight stone double down, Yet my ankles support my body

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all the time. Whether they do give off a sigh

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of relief when I sit down, that's I've had my whole.

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Legs do.

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My feet feet also go, my toes clap. I'm so happy.

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Your legs really are amazing, And I know that talking

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about talking about your legs is probably possibly among the

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most most boring things I've ever heard anyone say. Possibly

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you're boring or not. Everything I said is true. Your

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legs are amazing. Your legs deserve not just respect, they

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deserve to relax.

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Deeply.

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They deserve to take some time out of the day

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to just let go completely. Legs really can relax. And

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because the legs are so such a most, you know,

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very important part of your body. When you relax your legs,

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the rest of your body also naturally follows in that

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journey of comfort. Like I feel it in my hips.

1933
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My hips feel really loose, and also my lower back

1934
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as well. My lower back really feels it feels stretched,

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even though I'm just sitting in a chair and there's

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no stretching as far as I'm aware that I'm doing.

1937
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It's almost as if the muscles are just relaxed so

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much that there is a natural stretch. As a tension

1939
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has reduced a lot. And I'm now going to count

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down from ten down to one, and you can continue

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to fill wonderfully relaxed ten nine, eight, seven, six, five,

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four three two one relax. So I'm just going to

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count down from five down to one, and as a countdown.

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If you just focus on the numbers, just the numbers

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counting down, and notice how you feel in this moment

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as you hear the numbers counting down, knowing that those

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numbers counting down represent you feeling calmer, not just in

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04:14:16.520 --> 04:14:25.079
your body, but also relaxing your mind. Just notice how

1949
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you feel. There's nothing to do, there's nothing to say,

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04:14:31.639 --> 04:14:48.719
there's nothing to think about, starting with number five, four,

1951
04:14:58.239 --> 04:15:34.000
three two one. How as you notice the gradual letting

1952
04:15:34.120 --> 04:15:42.600
go of the tension in your body, you may also

1953
04:15:43.159 --> 04:15:48.639
begin to notice and be aware of how your mind

1954
04:15:49.760 --> 04:15:57.639
is starting to slow down. This is just a natural

1955
04:15:58.479 --> 04:16:06.440
thing that happens. It's not really a special procedure. It's

1956
04:16:06.559 --> 04:16:11.840
just natural because is your body relaxes, your mind also

1957
04:16:12.600 --> 04:16:17.479
starts to relax. And the more your mind relaxes, the

1958
04:16:17.600 --> 04:16:23.040
more your body relaxes. It's just a continuous circle of relaxation.

1959
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And is that calmness that comes from relative quietness. You know,

1960
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even even if this background sounds either your side online,

1961
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it's still going to be quite calm. You know, you

1962
04:16:51.040 --> 04:16:56.239
haven't got the television on, there's no music in the background,

1963
04:16:56.360 --> 04:16:59.000
unless you're listening to the recording with music of course

1964
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you're very likely not going to be sitting in a

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room with other people. Of course you might be, but

1966
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generally it's more ideal if you can do this on

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04:17:13.959 --> 04:17:25.280
your own, so no distractions, and when you stop thinking

1968
04:17:25.319 --> 04:17:42.520
about stuff, relaxation automatically rises, a sense of comfort starts

1969
04:17:42.559 --> 04:17:51.319
to grow, and without trying to build it up into

1970
04:17:51.440 --> 04:18:03.559
something fantastical or something magical, this is just a natural process,

1971
04:18:05.879 --> 04:18:16.600
something that's easy to accomplish. In fact, it's almost you know,

1972
04:18:16.719 --> 04:18:23.600
the sense of relaxing completely happens really when you put

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04:18:23.760 --> 04:18:27.600
no effort into it. It's not something that you can

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04:18:27.719 --> 04:18:39.360
really force. It's something that happens naturally. And part of

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04:18:39.760 --> 04:18:50.000
the process of this recording and others is simply two

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04:18:51.600 --> 04:19:01.959
allow you to take advantage of this space, this time,

1977
04:19:04.959 --> 04:19:15.840
to just let go, to just be here, to be

1978
04:19:16.520 --> 04:19:29.920
in tune with how you feel, yet with the intention

1979
04:19:32.159 --> 04:19:43.600
of wanting to relax deeply and maybe even to fall asleep,

1980
04:19:44.799 --> 04:19:49.959
depending on what it is that you wish for yourself

1981
04:19:51.719 --> 04:20:02.159
in this moment. As we relaxing.

1982
04:20:03.079 --> 04:20:11.200
Is the majority of the process of falling asleep. The

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04:20:11.280 --> 04:20:15.399
actual falling asleep part is the tiny bit at the end.

1984
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The deeper relaxed you become the easier.

1985
04:20:30.000 --> 04:20:30.879
You find.

1986
04:20:32.159 --> 04:20:45.959
Yourself drifting. But you can also if you choose, stay

1987
04:20:47.600 --> 04:21:05.840
focused on my voice and really enjoy the process of

1988
04:21:06.239 --> 04:21:19.159
gradually relaxing each muscle.

1989
04:21:23.360 --> 04:21:50.239
In your body effortlessly and just observing the sensation of

1990
04:21:50.520 --> 04:22:06.120
letting go completely. This time, I'm going to count from

1991
04:22:06.360 --> 04:22:16.559
six down to one, and you can notice your mind

1992
04:22:19.159 --> 04:22:32.559
calming down more with each number that you hear me say, naturally,

1993
04:22:33.639 --> 04:22:37.959
feeling calm and slow.

1994
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And be peaceful.

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Sex fivehhhhhhhhhhh, four, three.

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Two, one, being aware of how your mind to slowe

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write down, sinking deeply into relaxation. And as you focus

1998
04:26:11.719 --> 04:26:20.040
on your mind, you may notice that there are some

1999
04:26:20.959 --> 04:26:30.319
thoughts still there, maybe some stubborn thoughts that for some

2000
04:26:30.600 --> 04:26:35.600
reason perhaps need your attention.

2001
04:26:42.639 --> 04:26:43.879
So what you can do is.

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04:26:49.440 --> 04:27:01.920
Send love to those thoughts. Sprinkle those thoughts with love

2003
04:27:03.680 --> 04:27:09.840
like little petals from a flower. Just sprinkle it over them, petals,

2004
04:27:09.920 --> 04:27:17.120
fill good love towards those thoughts, to let those thoughts

2005
04:27:17.319 --> 04:27:24.159
know that you're not abandoned the number. You just need them.

2006
04:27:25.399 --> 04:27:36.440
You require them to just calm down, slow down, quiet

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04:27:36.840 --> 04:27:52.200
down for now. So as you focus on those remaining

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04:27:52.360 --> 04:27:57.639
thoughts as we count down this time from seven down

2009
04:27:57.719 --> 04:28:13.719
to one number, Just imagine sprinkling those flower petals, love, love, kindness,

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04:28:15.319 --> 04:28:27.159
gratitude over those thoughts, which will allow them to just

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04:28:28.600 --> 04:28:43.639
melt away and relax deeply. With every number, those thoughts

2012
04:28:43.760 --> 04:30:18.959
will become more and more relaxed. Starting with number seven, six, five, four, three.

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04:31:10.200 --> 04:31:10.440
One.

2014
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There as you now notice how relaxed your feeling in

2015
04:31:44.200 --> 04:32:05.760
your body, We're going to focus on your hands, because

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04:32:05.879 --> 04:32:12.079
the more relaxed your hands are, the more relaxed your

2017
04:32:12.200 --> 04:32:34.479
body and mind are. You focus on your hands and

2018
04:32:34.639 --> 04:32:44.680
your fingers. There's nothing needed to be done. There's no

2019
04:32:45.000 --> 04:32:49.959
clenching of fists or tents in the fingers or anything

2020
04:32:50.079 --> 04:33:04.000
like that. It's just noticing and focusing on your hands,

2021
04:33:11.040 --> 04:33:33.240
noticing how they feel. Because the more relaxed your hands feel,

2022
04:33:36.759 --> 04:33:45.720
the calmer your mind feels, and the more the comforts

2023
04:33:45.880 --> 04:33:50.000
you feel throughout your body.

2024
04:33:55.959 --> 04:33:58.799
Je me.

2025
04:34:01.360 --> 04:34:44.439
Have already noticed you mind is starting to drift quick said,

2026
04:34:48.520 --> 04:35:03.200
just on your hands and fingers, allowing them chea experience.

2027
04:35:05.880 --> 04:35:14.119
Are real deepening of that relaxation in your hands and fingers,

2028
04:35:20.159 --> 04:35:42.479
more and more relaxed. With each number from eight down

2029
04:35:42.599 --> 04:35:55.439
to one, you can almost feel that healing and relaxing,

2030
04:35:55.919 --> 04:36:15.000
energy spreading into your hands and fingers, becoming more relaxing

2031
04:36:18.119 --> 04:36:37.159
with each number you hear, going down, eight, down to one, drifting,

2032
04:36:40.880 --> 04:39:27.720
drifting again, starting with number eighth, seven, six, five, three,

2033
04:40:47.520 --> 04:40:56.799
just being here now, nothing to think about, nothing to do,

2034
04:40:58.439 --> 04:41:12.360
nothing to say, and everything just feels calmer. And this

2035
04:41:12.680 --> 04:41:20.240
is your natural state of being. This is how you

2036
04:41:20.560 --> 04:41:26.759
just normally feel when you take away all of that

2037
04:41:27.240 --> 04:41:34.599
other stuff that we add, you know, things like stress

2038
04:41:34.720 --> 04:41:51.159
and worrying and overthinking, anxiety, tension, just generally thinking about stuff.

2039
04:41:53.200 --> 04:41:56.520
When you take that away, which is what we do

2040
04:41:57.080 --> 04:42:08.479
and what we do now, you're left with a real

2041
04:42:08.759 --> 04:42:21.639
sense of peacefulness, which comes to you very quickly because

2042
04:42:21.759 --> 04:42:35.919
ultimately it's just a feeling, a feeling of comfort. It's

2043
04:42:36.119 --> 04:42:39.520
almost as if you've gone inside yourself and you've found

2044
04:42:40.279 --> 04:42:54.279
a special place where everything is peaceful, a place where

2045
04:42:54.400 --> 04:43:01.919
you can film relaxed and you're natural sense of comfort,

2046
04:43:05.080 --> 04:43:12.479
a place where you can be here, where you can

2047
04:43:13.200 --> 04:43:19.840
accept yourself and who you are, the place where you're

2048
04:43:19.919 --> 04:43:30.360
not trying to please anybody else, in a place where

2049
04:43:30.479 --> 04:43:39.880
you can actually not just love yourself, but in some

2050
04:43:40.040 --> 04:43:49.520
ways more importantly, you can like yourself appreciate who you are,

2051
04:43:58.360 --> 04:44:00.000
a sense of gratitude.

2052
04:44:00.080 --> 04:44:04.240
It's in the air.

2053
04:44:04.279 --> 04:44:04.959
Way around you.

2054
04:44:12.639 --> 04:44:20.479
That's also a place where you can actually feel the

2055
04:44:20.799 --> 04:44:36.080
healing energy soaking into your body. Heaving energy soaking into

2056
04:44:36.200 --> 04:44:50.439
your body. The healing energy spreads through your veins, traveling

2057
04:44:50.599 --> 04:45:03.000
to each every single part of your body, and you

2058
04:45:03.159 --> 04:45:10.080
start to realize that actually that healing energy, it's not

2059
04:45:10.439 --> 04:45:17.880
just entered into your brain, it's become part of your brain,

2060
04:45:22.799 --> 04:45:29.439
and the spinal fluid is now mixed with healing energy,

2061
04:45:34.720 --> 04:45:40.959
not just allowing you to feel so much more relaxed

2062
04:45:43.040 --> 04:45:55.040
and healthy in this moment, but also you start to

2063
04:45:55.200 --> 04:46:04.560
realize that actually what's happened and now without healing, relaxing

2064
04:46:05.680 --> 04:46:13.560
energy spreading through your body is actually changing your life.

2065
04:46:18.720 --> 04:46:23.840
It's actually changing the way you're going to feel not

2066
04:46:24.119 --> 04:46:31.479
just now, but tomorrow and the next day. As your

2067
04:46:31.639 --> 04:46:39.680
health improves, not just your physical health but your mental health.

2068
04:46:43.639 --> 04:46:48.799
Things that used to bother you in the past, for

2069
04:46:49.000 --> 04:46:55.000
some reason, no longer have the effect that they used

2070
04:46:55.040 --> 04:47:09.680
to because something's changed deep within you. Maybe things that

2071
04:47:10.040 --> 04:47:19.720
used to cause you to feel anger no longer have

2072
04:47:20.720 --> 04:47:29.479
that power to control you the way they seem to

2073
04:47:29.599 --> 04:47:38.479
be able to before, as you realize that you're the

2074
04:47:38.599 --> 04:47:51.880
one who decides what affects you. You're the one who

2075
04:47:52.040 --> 04:48:05.799
decides to feel relaxed and calm when you choose to

2076
04:48:06.119 --> 04:48:20.720
enjoy noticing these natural developments of healing, continuing to grow

2077
04:48:23.520 --> 04:48:34.799
and improve your life day by day, including of course,

2078
04:48:34.919 --> 04:48:52.439
your ability to relax so much easier than sleeping. It's

2079
04:48:52.479 --> 04:49:02.840
the most natural thing in the world to you because

2080
04:49:03.080 --> 04:49:10.240
falling asleep is something that you've done so many times

2081
04:49:12.000 --> 04:49:17.639
in your life, and you know that you were born,

2082
04:49:19.119 --> 04:49:25.759
as we all were, with the ability to fall asleep naturally.

2083
04:49:30.000 --> 04:49:40.680
We were born with that ability to just drift off

2084
04:49:41.400 --> 04:49:54.520
into a deep, healing sleep. Even when we're kids, sometimes

2085
04:49:54.639 --> 04:49:59.080
will fall asleep and we don't even want to try

2086
04:49:59.200 --> 04:50:03.279
to think of st you're awake. Maybe it's a birthday

2087
04:50:03.360 --> 04:50:07.520
in the morning, or it's Christmas or holiday or something

2088
04:50:07.599 --> 04:50:10.200
we look forward to. We don't want to go to sleep.

2089
04:50:12.439 --> 04:50:17.439
But the more we want to stay awake, the more

2090
04:50:17.680 --> 04:50:26.000
we just start to drift. And the more you fights drifting,

2091
04:50:26.880 --> 04:50:32.319
we're trying to stop yourself and drifting asleep, the deeper

2092
04:50:32.479 --> 04:50:44.080
and stronger that drifting becomes. Because we're born not just

2093
04:50:44.279 --> 04:50:51.000
with the need to relax deeply and to naturally fall asleep.

2094
04:50:54.200 --> 04:51:07.520
But it's our birthright, it's part of our DNA, and

2095
04:51:07.799 --> 04:51:13.240
sometimes as we get older in life, perhaps at times

2096
04:51:14.159 --> 04:51:28.119
we have forgotten relaxing completely. It's not only a wonderfully

2097
04:51:28.560 --> 04:51:52.560
pleasant experience, it's also really easy. It's very very easy

2098
04:51:53.919 --> 04:51:58.240
to let go, because that's all it is, is just

2099
04:52:01.840 --> 04:52:13.240
deciding to let go. And when you press the play

2100
04:52:13.360 --> 04:52:23.599
button on my recordings, you have given permission for my

2101
04:52:23.840 --> 04:52:31.959
voice to relax you. When you press that play button,

2102
04:52:32.959 --> 04:52:41.400
you have given me permission for my words to effect

2103
04:52:43.880 --> 04:52:55.720
you in a positive, only a positive way, opening up

2104
04:53:00.919 --> 04:53:19.159
your mind to useful and healing suggestions that can have

2105
04:53:23.720 --> 04:53:31.159
such an amazing effect on how you feel right now,

2106
04:53:35.919 --> 04:53:45.759
as well as those changes that continue long after the

2107
04:53:45.880 --> 04:53:56.520
recording ends, those changes within you that continue to flourish

2108
04:53:57.400 --> 04:54:11.959
and grow, transforming your life in a positive, beautiful way,

2109
04:54:15.040 --> 04:54:22.080
allowing you to move forward in your life in the

2110
04:54:22.240 --> 04:54:39.479
direction that you choose for yourself. And this feeling, this

2111
04:54:39.759 --> 04:54:55.360
feeling that you can experience a safety, comfort, calmness, This

2112
04:54:55.639 --> 04:55:09.279
feels so nice. It's such a healthy place to be,

2113
04:55:17.159 --> 04:55:30.959
and that positivity grows within you each and every day

2114
04:55:34.040 --> 04:55:43.799
moving forward you're going to find that you're more relaxed

2115
04:55:46.159 --> 04:55:58.479
physically and in your mind is more relaxed. And it's

2116
04:55:58.560 --> 04:56:04.119
not that you're thinking slower, it's just that your mind

2117
04:56:04.200 --> 04:56:16.080
will be less clogged up with unnecessary negativity because from

2118
04:56:16.200 --> 04:56:26.479
now on, your mind rejects negativity. From now on, you're

2119
04:56:26.520 --> 04:56:37.360
going to start noticing when negativity arises, and you can

2120
04:56:37.520 --> 04:56:51.439
just say stop, stop, and that negativity will turn around

2121
04:56:52.080 --> 04:57:11.439
and leave you alone. Stop and that negativity would disappear.

2122
04:57:19.599 --> 04:57:26.080
And as you notice that you feel way more relaxed

2123
04:57:27.520 --> 04:57:42.880
than you probably expected, you can now congratulate yourself because

2124
04:57:43.040 --> 04:57:49.319
you are the person that has done this. You are

2125
04:57:49.400 --> 04:57:54.119
the one that has opened your mind up to the

2126
04:57:54.279 --> 04:58:02.119
simple facts that you can fit or more relaxed than

2127
04:58:02.200 --> 04:58:12.159
your body. And in your mind, you've opened your mind

2128
04:58:12.360 --> 04:58:16.720
up to the birthright of being.

2129
04:58:16.560 --> 04:58:17.319
Able to just.

2130
04:58:20.000 --> 04:58:34.840
Fall asleep easily when you choose. And that's a nice feeling.

2131
04:58:36.439 --> 04:58:44.680
Don't you think it feels nice? Doesn't it to feel

2132
04:58:46.200 --> 04:58:51.599
calm full, that healing energy is spreading through your body

2133
04:58:52.720 --> 04:59:08.919
in your mind? Spend time a special place where negativity

2134
04:59:10.439 --> 04:59:23.319
can no longer enter. Negativity is banned, it's barred, it's

2135
04:59:23.439 --> 04:59:30.080
not allowed entry. Doesn't. It doesn't. This doesn't deserve to

2136
04:59:30.159 --> 04:59:39.319
be here, doesn't belong here. Negativity has no place in

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your life, which makes room for more comfort, more healing,

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more relaxation, more peace. It feels nice, doesn't it.

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Just let go.

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With everything. I'm gonna count down now from twenty down

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to one. You can continue to relax. If you choose,

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you can drift to sleep with every number you hear

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me say, you can fill twice as relaxed, or if

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you choose, you can fill twice sleeping now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen,

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twoeve eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five.

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Four on.

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This is your time to just take a break, your

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time to relax, to allow your mind to slow down,

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to give yourself permission to take a break from everything.

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Ensure the only person that can make that decision. You're

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the only person that can actually tell your mind to

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just relax, to just take some time off so that

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you can and focus on your body, getting in touch

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with how you feel physically and in the process of

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this body scan where you focus on different parts of

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your body, those parts that you focus on and observe

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even though you're not purposely requesting for those parts of

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your body to relax. It's kind of expected. You expect

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when you listen to my voice to feel more relaxed naturally,

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because when you're listening to me, your attention is focused

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on my words, and as my words guide you to

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focus on those parts of your body, your focus increases,

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which actually calms your mind. And when your mind calms down,

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your body relaxes. And when your body calms down, your

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mind relaxes. And even though we've not really started to

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focus on your body, you can already feel that healing

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energy spreading through your body, pushing out stress and tension,

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healing all the parts of your body, including your skin,

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your bones, your blood, all of your walkings inside your body,

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all of the muscles, all of the fat, all of everything,

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05:09:49.639 --> 05:09:55.799
every hair on your body is filled with that healing energy.

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And when your brain fills without healing energy, the feeling

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of comfort, relaxation.

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Increases, deeply increases.

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In a way that your mind starts to fill perhaps

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been drowsing because it's not needed, and it may start

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05:11:14.360 --> 05:11:29.919
to drift if that's what's needed. So, if you're listening

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to this and what you need is deep relaxation. That's

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where you get.

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If what you need is to fall asleep.

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Naturally and easily, that's your mind drifts. That's also.

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What will happened.

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Because by pressing a play button on the podcast and

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listening to me, you give permission your body and your mind.

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In fact, you give the command to your body and

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your mind to relax deeply and to drift off to sleep.

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If that's what you want.

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Or need.

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Then as I focus on the different parts of your body,

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you may start to just drift. And then you come

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back again and you hear me talking and I'm focusing

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05:13:19.919 --> 05:13:30.759
on a different part of your body, you may find

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05:13:30.919 --> 05:13:40.599
yourself drifting ben and realize you're drifting. Until you stop drifting,

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05:13:42.840 --> 05:13:50.000
you're alert again to my voice, focusing on a different

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05:13:50.159 --> 05:13:59.720
part of your body, starts to relax even deeper because

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I drifting, it's basically here already in the sleep zone.

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Then the more you drift, the longer you drift, the

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longer you drift. Eventually, that drifting continues into sleep, and

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that's the last you remember until you wake up in

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05:14:44.479 --> 05:14:50.080
your own time. When you experience the right amount of sleep,

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05:14:50.919 --> 05:14:59.119
fear because when you do and if you do for

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a sleep. It's extremely pleasant, so relaxing, so deep healing.

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Sleep.

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I feel so nice to relax scenes your own body

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05:15:35.680 --> 05:15:45.159
and mind. If you feel that heating energy is spreading

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05:15:45.560 --> 05:15:50.799
through you, relaxing, use so deeply.

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Relaxes.

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I take by start to focus on your eyes, moving.

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Down to your jaw, down, till back your shoulders.

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Oh so fas your chest, stop.

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You and.

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Spine, your heats, your legs, your fate, your.

2213
05:18:15.880 --> 05:18:47.720
Jos feeding spreading grime inside your body, feeling you up.

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Now let's focus again on parts of your body. Focusing

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05:19:04.240 --> 05:19:15.240
this time on your forehead. Now on your mouth, your lips,

2216
05:19:17.279 --> 05:19:37.159
your tongue, a whole of your mouth. Focusing on your fingers.

2217
05:19:42.560 --> 05:19:47.119
Maybe you could move your fingers a little bits. You

2218
05:19:47.279 --> 05:20:02.919
can focus on each one individually, both hands and even

2219
05:20:03.000 --> 05:20:05.200
though if you focus on both of your.

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05:20:05.159 --> 05:20:06.799
Hands now.

2221
05:20:08.360 --> 05:20:16.680
They almost seemed to just melt into one. Where is

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05:20:16.759 --> 05:20:24.880
your right hand starting left hand, and almost as if

2223
05:20:27.639 --> 05:20:43.040
just mixed together. Now focusing on your knees, just noticing

2224
05:20:44.319 --> 05:21:08.639
how your knees hell. Now focusing your elbers, focusing on

2225
05:21:08.840 --> 05:21:23.840
both your elvers, just observing the feeling of your elpers.

2226
05:21:48.000 --> 05:22:10.119
Now focusing I'm sorry, the back of your neck, energy, back,

2227
05:22:41.520 --> 05:24:11.040
upside ancles, sensations as I to say, now your toes,

2228
05:24:14.599 --> 05:24:36.200
if your faint, being aware, how your toes feel right now,

2229
05:25:07.240 --> 05:25:40.919
not too sent how you entire body feels, noticing, your

2230
05:25:41.240 --> 05:26:33.080
mind feels now, letting go, letting go, let's go everything,

2231
05:26:41.360 --> 05:27:16.439
letting go, letting go, let's go, h everything ever thing.

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05:27:22.720 --> 05:27:26.200
I'm going to start now, and I would like you

2233
05:27:26.360 --> 05:27:30.159
just to first of all, just to see yourself lying

2234
05:27:30.279 --> 05:27:37.479
down on the message table, lying on your front. Your

2235
05:27:37.520 --> 05:27:46.200
head is supported, your arms are supported, and you feel comfortable,

2236
05:27:46.720 --> 05:27:55.880
and breathing is really easy, and you feel you feel

2237
05:27:56.000 --> 05:27:59.360
confident in how you look as well. So there's none

2238
05:27:59.400 --> 05:28:05.680
of that issue of body problems or shyness because I'm

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05:28:05.720 --> 05:28:13.840
a professional and this is a therapy session, so none

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05:28:13.880 --> 05:28:20.880
of that stuff matters on whatsoever. This is about you.

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05:28:23.759 --> 05:28:29.520
This is about how you feel and how you can

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05:28:31.000 --> 05:28:36.599
enjoy that sense of comfort and relaxation that comes from

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05:28:38.000 --> 05:28:43.639
letting go and allowing my hands and my fingers to

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05:28:43.799 --> 05:28:55.279
relax you by messaging your body. So I want to

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05:28:55.360 --> 05:29:00.439
start off just by placing my hands on the back

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05:29:00.520 --> 05:29:05.200
of your head, just gently, just so you can feel

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05:29:05.520 --> 05:29:13.959
my hands feel like really on you so you can

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05:29:14.040 --> 05:29:16.360
maybe feel the warmth of my hands on the back

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05:29:16.400 --> 05:29:21.959
of your head. With my hands to the side of

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05:29:22.040 --> 05:29:26.520
your head, not pressing, but just holding there very gently,

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05:29:29.479 --> 05:29:32.520
maybe over your ears, and a little bit on your face,

2252
05:29:33.759 --> 05:29:39.000
just so you can feel my hands so you can

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05:29:39.080 --> 05:29:40.680
become accustomed.

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05:29:41.680 --> 05:29:42.119
To them.

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And now put my hands on the back of your

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05:29:53.000 --> 05:30:00.400
head again and gently let them slide down onto the

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05:30:00.479 --> 05:30:17.439
back of your neck. You can feel my hands gently

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05:30:17.720 --> 05:30:24.639
stroking the back of your neck to start with, just

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05:30:24.720 --> 05:30:28.599
so you can get used to the the feeling of

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05:30:28.720 --> 05:30:36.080
my hands on your skin, get accustomed to it, realize

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05:30:36.200 --> 05:30:40.400
that you're safe and it's all good, it's all fine.

2262
05:30:46.799 --> 05:30:50.880
And I'm going to start gently messaging the muscles in

2263
05:30:50.959 --> 05:31:06.799
the back of your neck with both hands. And this

2264
05:31:06.919 --> 05:31:13.159
is a very trusting situation really, because our necks is

2265
05:31:13.279 --> 05:31:18.439
so fragile and to have someone have their hands around

2266
05:31:18.520 --> 05:31:23.639
your neck in that way can sometimes be problematic for people,

2267
05:31:24.880 --> 05:31:29.319
which is why massages are quite good, because it allows

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05:31:29.400 --> 05:31:39.319
you to relax and to get in touch with trust,

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05:31:43.639 --> 05:31:56.200
to feel peaceful and calm. There's a massage the sides

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05:31:56.319 --> 05:32:04.319
of your neck, gently moving from the bottom of your neck.

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05:32:06.040 --> 05:32:08.560
It would be sort of near where your shoulders start.

2272
05:32:08.639 --> 05:32:15.720
I guess, all the way up to your jaw, your ears,

2273
05:32:16.159 --> 05:32:21.880
kind of area, the side of your neck. Of course,

2274
05:32:21.919 --> 05:32:24.439
it's a lot longer than the front of your neck,

2275
05:32:37.400 --> 05:32:44.520
and message in the back of your neck, especially that

2276
05:32:44.720 --> 05:32:54.200
area where perhaps we hold tension, and as that area's message,

2277
05:32:54.560 --> 05:32:58.599
you can actually feel a sense of release in the

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05:32:58.680 --> 05:33:06.560
back of your neck and maybe you can breathe it

2279
05:33:06.680 --> 05:33:12.639
out as well. Notice how it feels. Notice how you feel.

2280
05:33:22.400 --> 05:33:26.040
And they're moving down to that area between your neck

2281
05:33:26.119 --> 05:33:35.880
and your shoulders, that musty area, starting to message that

2282
05:33:36.080 --> 05:33:40.319
area on both sides. I mean, this would be the

2283
05:33:40.439 --> 05:33:43.279
area that a lot of people would message if they

2284
05:33:43.319 --> 05:33:48.119
were going to give you like a shoulder message. Even

2285
05:33:48.240 --> 05:33:52.159
that's not technically the shoulders, but it's all the muscles

2286
05:33:52.200 --> 05:33:58.599
that lead to the shoulders from the neck and again

2287
05:33:58.759 --> 05:34:05.759
that can hold tension and stress. And when massaged sometimes

2288
05:34:05.840 --> 05:34:12.799
a nice deep message is useful, and you decide how

2289
05:34:13.040 --> 05:34:30.959
deep that message is, and just allow my knuckles just

2290
05:34:31.080 --> 05:34:35.200
to dig in to get to those muscles and to

2291
05:34:35.479 --> 05:34:45.279
really relaxed and all the time and being firm yet

2292
05:34:45.720 --> 05:35:05.080
gentle with you and just stroking down the area to

2293
05:35:05.200 --> 05:35:11.159
your actual shoulders, moving to the muscles of your shoulders

2294
05:35:17.159 --> 05:35:21.959
and maybe initially just pulling up the shoulders a little

2295
05:35:22.000 --> 05:35:25.439
bit off the table, just to give you a little

2296
05:35:25.439 --> 05:35:35.880
bit of a stretch, but very gently. And you've got

2297
05:35:35.919 --> 05:35:39.520
the muscles at the front of your shoulders the sides

2298
05:35:39.759 --> 05:35:50.319
of the back. Again, this is a part that can

2299
05:35:50.479 --> 05:35:55.639
really take quite a bit of pressure, quite a bit

2300
05:35:55.720 --> 05:36:05.959
of needed and if you wish to really release the

2301
05:36:06.119 --> 05:36:14.439
tension to really get into those muscles and you can

2302
05:36:14.520 --> 05:36:18.720
let your fingers in there, they can feel really nice.

2303
05:36:20.639 --> 05:36:28.200
Sometimes it's just being stroked gently or being massaged quite strongly,

2304
05:36:32.040 --> 05:36:41.919
can all be beneficial to the relaxation with the muscles

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05:36:42.000 --> 05:36:54.880
in your shoulders. Now, as you move down your arms,

2306
05:37:01.520 --> 05:37:05.040
we do one arm at a time, starting with your

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05:37:05.159 --> 05:37:15.400
right arm. What I'll do is I just lift your

2308
05:37:15.520 --> 05:37:18.319
arm up, just hold it to the side of you

2309
05:37:21.560 --> 05:37:26.360
that where it still be attached, and I just message

2310
05:37:27.880 --> 05:37:40.599
the tops of your arms all the way down to

2311
05:37:40.759 --> 05:38:07.599
your forearms into your wrists, gently messaging that part, the

2312
05:38:07.759 --> 05:38:11.200
softer part, which is the under part of the arm,

2313
05:38:14.319 --> 05:38:18.040
which leads to the crease in your elbow. The inside

2314
05:38:19.439 --> 05:38:33.799
it's much more sensitive skin. Sometimes just having that stroked

2315
05:38:37.200 --> 05:38:54.040
feel really nice, pleasurable and relaxing. Now moving down to

2316
05:38:54.119 --> 05:39:06.439
your right hand, just holding your hand in both of

2317
05:39:06.560 --> 05:39:16.680
my hands, just pressing gently on the back of your hand,

2318
05:39:18.959 --> 05:39:30.439
stretching your fingers ever slightly at the same time pressing

2319
05:39:30.599 --> 05:39:43.919
down and messaging each finger, and then starting to massage

2320
05:39:44.040 --> 05:39:54.599
the palms of their hand. Just turning the hand gently,

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05:39:56.360 --> 05:40:06.599
stretching it gently, and actually having your handheld can really

2322
05:40:06.720 --> 05:40:14.200
be an emotional experience sometimes, even if it is a stranger,

2323
05:40:16.200 --> 05:40:20.560
someone you don't know very well, like a massage person

2324
05:40:20.880 --> 05:40:34.599
or a therapist. Maybe because it's intimate, you can feel nice,

2325
05:40:37.240 --> 05:40:47.560
you can feel safe. And as I put that right

2326
05:40:47.840 --> 05:40:56.159
arm back down where it was, we did the same

2327
05:40:56.319 --> 05:41:08.560
with your left arm, exactly the same, massaging the muscles

2328
05:41:09.759 --> 05:41:13.520
in your arm all the way down to your wrist,

2329
05:41:17.639 --> 05:41:27.479
stroking the inside of your arm, just being gentle or

2330
05:41:27.560 --> 05:41:41.479
as firm as you require, and then massaging your left hand,

2331
05:41:48.000 --> 05:41:58.040
stretching the fingers gently, massaging the palm of your left hand.

2332
05:42:10.240 --> 05:42:38.279
You feel so so relaxing, so comforting, And I'll just

2333
05:42:38.479 --> 05:42:51.360
rest your left arm back down the start message your back,

2334
05:42:53.119 --> 05:43:01.119
the biggest part of your body, starting at the top,

2335
05:43:04.360 --> 05:43:08.279
starting again where we already have been the area at

2336
05:43:08.319 --> 05:43:14.799
the top in between your shoulders, near your neck. Going

2337
05:43:14.919 --> 05:43:19.560
back and massage in the area again, but this time

2338
05:43:19.919 --> 05:43:32.919
moving downwards, making it downward. Stroke to the middle of

2339
05:43:33.080 --> 05:43:41.400
a back, working from the outside inwards, so massaging that

2340
05:43:43.720 --> 05:43:56.159
your back, but the outside of your back parts where

2341
05:43:56.200 --> 05:44:09.000
your arms would maybe rest against almost the part that

2342
05:44:09.159 --> 05:44:22.360
connects your front to your back, and just messaging down

2343
05:44:24.520 --> 05:44:33.840
firmly but gently, as firm as you want, moving down

2344
05:44:34.040 --> 05:44:37.720
and then moving across a little bed, moving all the

2345
05:44:37.759 --> 05:44:45.639
way down again, be very gentle yet firm as you choose.

2346
05:44:52.080 --> 05:44:56.720
Eventually you get to the spine. We can message the

2347
05:44:56.880 --> 05:45:01.040
muscles and either side of your spine from the top

2348
05:45:01.159 --> 05:45:07.200
of your neck all the way down to your lower back.

2349
05:45:13.439 --> 05:45:19.479
We can do that a few times. Sometimes people would

2350
05:45:19.560 --> 05:45:26.279
use the knuckle or the you know, the two fingers

2351
05:45:26.360 --> 05:45:31.599
and just go either side of the spine and almost

2352
05:45:32.040 --> 05:45:35.080
just push down, go all the way down to the

2353
05:45:35.119 --> 05:45:43.720
bottom of the spine, each time releasing tension and opening

2354
05:45:43.840 --> 05:45:52.880
up the body, stretching your body so that you feel

2355
05:45:53.599 --> 05:46:11.080
more relaxed but at the same time rejuvenated. And now

2356
05:46:11.119 --> 05:46:15.000
I'm going to move to one side, to your right side,

2357
05:46:19.840 --> 05:46:24.360
and from the bottom of your ribs to your pelvis.

2358
05:46:25.439 --> 05:46:31.680
I'm going to message that area of your back. I'll

2359
05:46:31.799 --> 05:46:34.799
stretch over the other side and i will pull the

2360
05:46:34.959 --> 05:46:41.759
muscles gently and massage and push from one end that

2361
05:46:42.000 --> 05:46:46.240
side all the way to my side to the middle

2362
05:46:46.279 --> 05:46:52.040
of fact to where your spine is. Massaging that side

2363
05:46:52.119 --> 05:46:56.479
of your spine the opposite side to where I'm standing.

2364
05:46:58.840 --> 05:47:04.400
It's almost like the eating bread. There's that big area

2365
05:47:04.639 --> 05:47:16.639
which is firm yet lots there to message. Potentially one

2366
05:47:16.680 --> 05:47:21.360
of the most important places to actually have a message

2367
05:47:23.040 --> 05:47:28.880
because you really feel it. You really feel the release

2368
05:47:29.279 --> 05:47:36.799
and the pleasure of having your lower back massaged. It

2369
05:47:37.040 --> 05:47:46.159
releases so much from your body that's not useful, starting

2370
05:47:46.240 --> 05:47:52.000
a healing process which will continue long after this recording

2371
05:47:52.159 --> 05:48:03.840
is over. The message in this part of your body

2372
05:48:04.400 --> 05:48:09.279
not only feels really good for you, it's actually fun

2373
05:48:09.400 --> 05:48:14.159
to do because it is, as I said, like kneading bread.

2374
05:48:16.560 --> 05:48:19.040
It's a part that you can really get hold of

2375
05:48:20.599 --> 05:48:34.240
and really massage deeply. If that's your choice. They're not

2376
05:48:34.360 --> 05:48:36.159
going to move over to the other side of your

2377
05:48:36.200 --> 05:48:45.439
body and do the same with the opposite part of

2378
05:48:45.599 --> 05:48:52.759
your lawer back. Kneading and messaging from your sides or

2379
05:48:52.840 --> 05:48:59.599
the way to the middle of your back where your

2380
05:48:59.680 --> 05:49:13.159
spy and is pressing and kneading, firm and gentle at

2381
05:49:13.200 --> 05:49:28.400
the same time. It feels so releasing this mixture of pleasure, comfort, release, calmness,

2382
05:49:28.799 --> 05:49:40.439
relaxation or mixed together. Plus there's that feeling from your

2383
05:49:40.520 --> 05:49:45.639
stomach as it's being stretched. Even though you're in your

2384
05:49:45.759 --> 05:49:50.040
stomach now, you can feel it being stretched because that

2385
05:49:50.200 --> 05:50:01.560
whole area is connected to your stomach. Now we're going

2386
05:50:01.639 --> 05:50:06.560
to move or move further up to the top of

2387
05:50:06.639 --> 05:50:12.919
your body, and we did the same this time, starting

2388
05:50:14.279 --> 05:50:20.520
with your upper back. Put my hands forward over and

2389
05:50:20.720 --> 05:50:28.080
massive massage in that area up to your spine, from

2390
05:50:28.119 --> 05:50:32.279
the side of your body up to your spine. So

2391
05:50:32.439 --> 05:50:38.759
some of that message area, that muscle tissue or wherever

2392
05:50:39.000 --> 05:50:44.560
fatty tissue even will be possibly from your chest because

2393
05:50:44.560 --> 05:50:51.720
it's all connected, chest and the back connect together. I'm

2394
05:50:51.759 --> 05:50:54.959
going to be massaging and just pulling some of that

2395
05:50:55.240 --> 05:51:03.200
skin from your side up and messaging the area.

2396
05:51:05.880 --> 05:51:07.080
Of your upper back.

2397
05:51:08.599 --> 05:51:15.119
All the way to your spine. And then I'll move

2398
05:51:15.240 --> 05:51:18.000
down a bit and I'll continue with the middle of

2399
05:51:18.040 --> 05:51:25.599
your back, doing exactly the same thing as gentle as

2400
05:51:27.360 --> 05:51:38.799
deep as you choose. Now, I'll move from the other

2401
05:51:38.919 --> 05:51:43.720
side again and do the exact same thing with the

2402
05:51:43.840 --> 05:51:53.240
top of your back on the other side, from pretty

2403
05:51:53.319 --> 05:52:06.759
much underneath your arm area really to your spine, and

2404
05:52:06.880 --> 05:52:13.919
then continuing that all the way down, including your lower

2405
05:52:14.240 --> 05:52:31.759
your middle of your back. I'm gonna go to your thighs,

2406
05:52:33.119 --> 05:52:38.560
the backs of your thighs, and the sides of your thighs,

2407
05:52:42.799 --> 05:52:51.720
starting with your right leg. Massage in the back and

2408
05:52:51.880 --> 05:53:00.439
the sides of your thighs gently and firmly. There's a

2409
05:53:00.520 --> 05:53:03.919
lot of muscles there. It's an area that can be

2410
05:53:04.080 --> 05:53:08.319
very tense at times and maybe needs a little bit

2411
05:53:08.439 --> 05:53:12.040
more pressure than the rest of the body that's up

2412
05:53:12.119 --> 05:53:22.279
to you. You can gently stroke the back of your

2413
05:53:22.400 --> 05:53:28.279
legs where you know, opposite your knee joint or underneath

2414
05:53:28.319 --> 05:53:41.279
your knee joint, very sensitive, gentle area. And then working

2415
05:53:41.439 --> 05:53:48.880
down to your calf muscles. Massage in your half muscles

2416
05:53:49.759 --> 05:54:03.080
thoroughly and deeply, if you choose, using both hands fingers,

2417
05:54:03.639 --> 05:54:16.880
digging deep to your ankles, in the back of your

2418
05:54:17.840 --> 05:54:23.880
back of your ankles, just gently massage in that area,

2419
05:54:29.319 --> 05:54:45.959
maybe lifting the leg and stretching a little bit. Moving

2420
05:54:46.759 --> 05:55:01.319
to the right foot massaging the bottom of your feet

2421
05:55:05.680 --> 05:55:16.840
and the sides of your feet gently but firm enough

2422
05:55:17.040 --> 05:55:27.799
so they don't tickle, and just allow the pleasure that

2423
05:55:27.919 --> 05:55:34.200
you get from having your feet massaged to just overtake you.

2424
05:55:37.520 --> 05:55:43.119
As I continue to message your feet, the bottoms of

2425
05:55:43.200 --> 05:55:53.000
your feet, the sides, your arches, your heel. You can

2426
05:55:53.040 --> 05:55:56.040
put a lot of pressure into your heel and it

2427
05:55:56.200 --> 05:56:01.159
feels amazing. Yet the archies need to be a bit

2428
05:56:01.240 --> 05:56:12.919
more gentle. Stretching your toes gently the message in the

2429
05:56:13.040 --> 05:56:21.080
bottoms of your toes with my fingers, each one individually.

2430
05:56:29.520 --> 05:56:33.360
Moving over to the left leg to do exactly the

2431
05:56:33.479 --> 05:56:43.840
same thing, starting at the top of the thighs, work

2432
05:56:43.880 --> 05:56:48.479
in the back of the thighs and the sides, massaging

2433
05:56:48.680 --> 05:56:58.840
deeply and gently the whole area, working all the way down.

2434
05:57:05.840 --> 05:57:11.599
And this is an area that maybe you could like

2435
05:57:11.720 --> 05:57:21.119
to spend more time relaxing and massaging. Perhaps if you wanted,

2436
05:57:21.279 --> 05:57:25.520
I could make a future recording. I want to spend

2437
05:57:25.560 --> 05:57:34.479
more time on one particular area. As you moved down

2438
05:57:37.400 --> 05:57:48.880
to your calf muscles, massagy and your calf muscles firmly

2439
05:57:50.919 --> 05:58:02.360
and gently, moving down your ain cold into your feet

2440
05:58:04.200 --> 05:58:09.919
massage in the backs of your feet, the bottoms of

2441
05:58:10.000 --> 05:58:20.040
your feet, stretching your toes and message in each toe individually.

2442
05:58:22.639 --> 05:58:28.159
And the feeling of pleasure and release the you experience

2443
05:58:28.319 --> 05:58:46.919
when you're having your feet massaged feels really good. Now

2444
05:58:50.279 --> 05:58:54.479
as you turn over in your mind, laying on your back,

2445
05:59:01.919 --> 05:59:14.639
I'm just gonna start again with your neck area and

2446
05:59:14.799 --> 05:59:23.080
your shoulders, just to get back in touch with that area.

2447
05:59:30.040 --> 05:59:41.799
Unless we move up, I can clean my hands, make

2448
05:59:41.840 --> 05:59:45.799
them more fresh, because now I'm gonna message your face

2449
05:59:47.279 --> 06:00:01.919
simply starting off with your forehead. Your eyes are closed,

2450
06:00:03.279 --> 06:00:09.080
you can just stretch your eyes a little bit, pushing

2451
06:00:09.200 --> 06:00:26.080
up on your eyebrows, just messaging around your scalp, massaging

2452
06:00:26.279 --> 06:00:36.520
down your cheeks, around your ears, into your chaw shently

2453
06:00:41.520 --> 06:00:59.439
the side of your neck, your chin, and just moving

2454
06:00:59.639 --> 06:01:10.840
down from your neck down to your chest, starting by

2455
06:01:11.000 --> 06:01:18.119
message in the very top of your chest where the

2456
06:01:18.240 --> 06:01:31.599
collar bone is. Give a side of the collarbone, and

2457
06:01:31.680 --> 06:01:44.360
then just message in the hole of the chest, moving

2458
06:01:44.439 --> 06:01:58.000
the chest around. Because it's quite a large area. You

2459
06:01:58.080 --> 06:02:06.400
can move from one side to next, moving my hands

2460
06:02:09.040 --> 06:02:19.439
underneath pretty much where your arms are stretching up, stretching

2461
06:02:19.599 --> 06:02:22.000
some of the muscles of your back in the process

2462
06:02:27.279 --> 06:02:35.919
moving up over your chest, and they're moving down again.

2463
06:02:48.639 --> 06:02:54.159
They're laying my hands, They're just massage gently and slide

2464
06:02:54.479 --> 06:03:01.000
down towards your stomach, starting in the middle of your chest,

2465
06:03:04.439 --> 06:03:11.319
and then gradually my head's moving apart and massaging and

2466
06:03:11.520 --> 06:03:21.040
sliding at the same time, moving down to just below

2467
06:03:21.119 --> 06:03:39.279
your redcage, moving down and then messaging up again, giving

2468
06:03:39.360 --> 06:03:47.439
your chest all the attention that it needs to feel

2469
06:03:47.720 --> 06:03:59.880
completely relaxed. Remembering that I'm also going to be focusing

2470
06:04:00.840 --> 06:04:06.119
on your sides as well, an area that really doesn't

2471
06:04:06.200 --> 06:04:13.319
get much attention. It feels really good when it's massaged.

2472
06:04:18.240 --> 06:04:22.240
Just stroking my hands down the sides of your body,

2473
06:04:26.040 --> 06:04:29.439
just below your arms, all the way down to your hips.

2474
06:04:39.119 --> 06:04:44.959
Now moving to your stomach area. I'm going to stand

2475
06:04:45.080 --> 06:04:47.759
one side of you like I did when I did

2476
06:04:47.840 --> 06:04:53.040
your lower back. I'm going to do a similar process

2477
06:04:54.040 --> 06:05:04.720
of just stretching the muscles from your side, gently massaging

2478
06:05:08.919 --> 06:05:10.799
from one side to the next.

2479
06:05:12.840 --> 06:05:13.279
Move in.

2480
06:05:15.840 --> 06:05:20.040
The whole area from below your ribs all the way

2481
06:05:20.119 --> 06:05:30.959
down to below your belly button, and then move around

2482
06:05:31.080 --> 06:05:40.919
to the other side of you and repeat that process

2483
06:05:41.279 --> 06:05:54.319
of relaxing deeply calmly, you feel loose, you feel free.

2484
06:05:56.720 --> 06:06:01.400
And it's something about having your stomach messaged that's different

2485
06:06:01.479 --> 06:06:08.319
from any other part because we do have a tendency

2486
06:06:08.919 --> 06:06:12.799
of holding a different kind of stress in our stomach

2487
06:06:14.240 --> 06:06:22.040
that we may not be aware of. There's an now

2488
06:06:22.240 --> 06:06:30.479
message your stomach in front of your stomach, making circles

2489
06:06:31.959 --> 06:06:41.159
around your belly button, anything going the other way around.

2490
06:06:47.720 --> 06:06:53.439
There's a gentleness and a freedom that comes from feeling

2491
06:06:54.119 --> 06:07:04.400
how you're feeling. As I now move down the tops

2492
06:07:04.479 --> 06:07:11.400
of your thighs, muscles, massaging them, and I can do

2493
06:07:11.599 --> 06:07:17.279
this to your legs at the same time, pressing down,

2494
06:07:20.159 --> 06:07:26.279
massaging deeply those muscles in your thighs, the front of

2495
06:07:26.400 --> 06:07:37.360
your thighs, and moving down to your knees, gently massaging

2496
06:07:37.439 --> 06:07:48.720
your knees, Sliding down your shins, putting pressure on either

2497
06:07:48.880 --> 06:08:01.000
side of your shin gently softly but firmly, moving down

2498
06:08:01.360 --> 06:08:16.080
to your ankles, stroking the tops of your feet, and

2499
06:08:16.279 --> 06:08:22.360
then with each foot in each hand, just gently messaging

2500
06:08:23.159 --> 06:08:31.439
the whole of the foot, the top, the bottom, your heel,

2501
06:08:31.959 --> 06:08:39.720
your ankle, your toes, messaging every part of your feet.

2502
06:08:44.759 --> 06:08:50.799
Feels so good. Just to let go and enjoy the process.

2503
06:08:56.439 --> 06:09:15.319
Enjoy feeling so deeply relaxed, so much comfort, and so

2504
06:09:15.520 --> 06:09:32.279
many feelings become just from touching your skin, And you

2505
06:09:32.400 --> 06:09:38.599
can just lie there for as long as you choose,

2506
06:09:42.560 --> 06:09:52.080
enjoying the feeling of deep comfort from being massaged.

2507
06:09:54.040 --> 06:09:54.400
By me.

2508
06:10:01.560 --> 06:10:06.119
Enjoy fear.

2509
06:10:10.200 --> 06:10:16.159
Deeply rased.

2510
06:10:22.040 --> 06:10:28.520
And all we're gonna do is blow out some candles.

2511
06:10:31.040 --> 06:10:53.240
In your mind, there're gonna be a hundred candles, and

2512
06:10:53.360 --> 06:10:59.840
you're going to blow each one out individually, one by one,

2513
06:11:02.520 --> 06:11:12.200
starting at a hundred. As I count down all the

2514
06:11:12.240 --> 06:11:20.040
way down to one, and each time I say a number,

2515
06:11:25.520 --> 06:11:32.400
you can imagine that candle in front of you, and

2516
06:11:32.439 --> 06:11:42.200
I'd like you to actually physically generally blow that candle out,

2517
06:11:48.560 --> 06:11:56.240
just so it's not a big blow, Its just a gentle,

2518
06:12:00.680 --> 06:12:10.119
and that candle will extinguish. And then I'll say the

2519
06:12:10.240 --> 06:12:13.720
next number, so we move down.

2520
06:12:16.720 --> 06:12:17.400
And you can just.

2521
06:12:21.159 --> 06:12:30.159
Blow that one out as well. And as we move

2522
06:12:30.560 --> 06:12:41.599
down the numbers, you'll find yourself feeding more and more relaxed.

2523
06:12:44.599 --> 06:12:50.599
If you need to sleep, you'll also find yourself becoming

2524
06:12:52.360 --> 06:13:06.040
incredibly tired and sleepy. In fact, you may struggle to

2525
06:13:06.159 --> 06:13:19.119
blow out all one hundred of these candles as you

2526
06:13:20.240 --> 06:13:47.200
feel more and more deeply relaxed, more and more deeply tired.

2527
06:13:51.560 --> 06:13:59.319
And the further you go down, the more your mind

2528
06:14:01.119 --> 06:14:13.439
starts to drift. You may find that you stop listening

2529
06:14:13.680 --> 06:14:26.240
to me after a while. And even though there may

2530
06:14:26.319 --> 06:14:35.040
be background sounds where you are, you'll be aware of

2531
06:14:35.119 --> 06:14:50.639
those sounds at the moment, be may start to just

2532
06:14:54.319 --> 06:15:13.680
not even notice them at all because they're unimportant. Where

2533
06:15:13.799 --> 06:15:21.360
I am, I've got the sounds of the birds, there's horrors,

2534
06:15:21.520 --> 06:15:29.439
the pigeon who likes to say hello sometimes, and there's

2535
06:15:29.479 --> 06:15:39.840
the old plane that goes by, maybe traffic and trains

2536
06:15:40.119 --> 06:15:52.599
in the distance. But none of that scene is important whatsoever.

2537
06:15:57.400 --> 06:16:11.799
Or candles you blow out less important. Anything is more

2538
06:16:12.240 --> 06:16:24.080
candles you blow out. The further seemed to move away

2539
06:16:30.040 --> 06:16:43.759
from sounds and general date days. Stuff seems to just

2540
06:16:45.799 --> 06:17:04.400
move away on its own. You feel more armor with

2541
06:17:04.599 --> 06:17:06.639
every candle you blow out.

2542
06:17:16.400 --> 06:17:17.400
God in the.

2543
06:17:21.080 --> 06:17:34.040
Next number, did you hear me say? And then you

2544
06:17:34.240 --> 06:18:01.400
blow that candle out too? So easy, so simple. We're

2545
06:18:01.479 --> 06:18:15.319
gonna start by introducing the first candle. This is a

2546
06:18:15.560 --> 06:18:33.799
hundred first candle, she is one hundred. When you blow

2547
06:18:34.119 --> 06:18:53.680
that candle out, you'll find immediately a light change in

2548
06:18:53.919 --> 06:19:02.080
how you feel, as well as a real sense of

2549
06:19:04.680 --> 06:19:40.159
positivity growing withinue, relaxation and sleepiness expanding, starting with one

2550
06:19:40.439 --> 06:20:01.840
hundred blow out by candle now mm HM ninety nine,

2551
06:20:20.279 --> 06:21:17.279
Candle ninety eight, Candle ninety seven, S.

2552
06:21:27.360 --> 06:21:28.759
I this SI.

2553
06:21:56.599 --> 06:23:30.639
CA ninety five, ninety four, Candle ninety three, I Like

2554
06:23:30.840 --> 06:24:52.319
you too, Like you one and ninety eight, ten nine

2555
06:25:09.680 --> 06:27:44.080
and eight eight, can do eightis, candle eightis eighty five

2556
06:28:20.159 --> 06:28:36.639
and eight.

2557
06:29:01.560 --> 06:29:02.080
Eight IT.

2558
06:30:10.000 --> 06:32:36.799
Seven two two seventy nine, candle seventy eight, candle seventy seven,

2559
06:32:48.159 --> 06:33:49.360
candle seventy six, candle seventy five, candle seventy four, candle

2560
06:33:53.479 --> 06:34:57.959
seventy three, candle seventy two, candle seventy one, candle seventy one,

2561
06:35:09.599 --> 06:36:08.400
candle seventeen and sixty nine, candle sixty eight, candle sixty seven,

2562
06:36:22.119 --> 06:37:26.919
candle sixty five, candle sixty four, candle sixty four, candle

2563
06:37:27.560 --> 06:37:40.400
sixty three, candle.

2564
06:37:41.799 --> 06:39:00.119
Sixty cher sixty one, Can sixty and.

2565
06:39:07.279 --> 06:40:18.360
Fifty nine, candle fifty eight, candle fifty seven, candle fifty six,

2566
06:40:47.040 --> 06:42:02.439
candle fifty five, candle fifty four, handle fifty three, can

2567
06:42:05.759 --> 06:43:47.119
fifty two, can do fifty candlu fifty, candle fifty one,

2568
06:44:07.279 --> 06:45:56.439
candle fifty, candle fty nine candle foot at eight, candle

2569
06:46:00.360 --> 06:47:41.680
forty seven, forty six, candle forty five, candle forty two,

2570
06:48:21.959 --> 06:51:01.599
Can do you candle forty candle thirty nine eight, candle

2571
06:51:06.000 --> 06:53:52.599
thirty seven, candle thirty five four, handle thirty three, handle

2572
06:53:56.000 --> 06:54:45.119
thirty one, SI.

2573
06:56:01.360 --> 06:56:01.759
Can.

2574
06:56:05.080 --> 06:58:28.919
Twoeyteen nine, Can twenty eight, candle twenty seven, You wenty six,

2575
06:59:09.840 --> 07:02:30.599
candle twenty five, Can twenty three, Can toit Di Tohm.

2576
07:02:01.919 --> 07:03:46.759
Wit, to wait, N't do.

2577
07:03:49.840 --> 07:04:44.400
Ninety eight, cercity.

2578
07:05:34.279 --> 07:07:50.639
Six day four two.

2579
07:08:52.400 --> 07:09:07.799
And sh.

2580
07:10:49.159 --> 07:11:48.080
No two two.

2581
07:11:53.040 --> 07:15:38.479
Eight two.

2582
07:17:00.319 --> 07:17:07.919
Can or.

2583
07:17:13.759 --> 07:17:20.959
Let go of all of those thoughts, worries, concerns about

2584
07:17:21.040 --> 07:17:27.599
the past, thoughts about the future, and even things you've

2585
07:17:27.599 --> 07:17:28.840
been thinking about today.

2586
07:17:30.919 --> 07:17:36.040
Just let it all go because none of it is

2587
07:17:36.279 --> 07:17:50.680
useful in this moment. This is your opportunity to just

2588
07:17:51.040 --> 07:18:05.400
focus on feeling relaxed, allowing yourself to get in touch

2589
07:18:05.560 --> 07:18:15.000
with that natural sense of peace that we all have

2590
07:18:15.360 --> 07:18:22.479
within us. It's available for everyone. It just sometimes takes

2591
07:18:23.360 --> 07:18:27.080
a little bit of effort to set up the right

2592
07:18:29.560 --> 07:18:33.599
time and place in order for you to just let go.

2593
07:18:37.159 --> 07:18:42.680
Because when you do decide to let go and relax.

2594
07:18:45.240 --> 07:18:51.919
That's what your body starts to do because you've chosen.

2595
07:18:53.439 --> 07:19:00.400
You've chosen to just allow your body to unwind, and

2596
07:19:00.560 --> 07:19:07.560
your mind starts to slow down. And it's a nice feeling.

2597
07:19:09.560 --> 07:19:12.720
It's a nice feeling at the beginning, just to know

2598
07:19:13.880 --> 07:19:23.959
that you have chosen to decide to relax deeply, and

2599
07:19:24.080 --> 07:19:30.639
because you've made that decision, your body will just follow suit.

2600
07:19:33.200 --> 07:19:37.840
Because sometimes all the muscles in your body need is

2601
07:19:38.159 --> 07:19:47.759
just permission from you to relax. Because so often we're busy,

2602
07:19:48.040 --> 07:19:52.240
we're going from here to there, we're walking around, and

2603
07:19:52.360 --> 07:19:59.599
we're doing stuff, and the body doesn't have any time

2604
07:20:00.159 --> 07:20:08.759
space to really relax deeply. So it kind of waits

2605
07:20:08.919 --> 07:20:14.000
for you to lead the way, waits for your permission.

2606
07:20:18.319 --> 07:20:24.840
And when you do give your permission, when you give

2607
07:20:24.880 --> 07:20:31.159
the say so, when you say okay, it's time for

2608
07:20:31.279 --> 07:20:40.959
your body to let go completely and relax totally, your

2609
07:20:41.000 --> 07:20:50.479
body just follows somewhere like a breath of relief. Ah good,

2610
07:20:50.560 --> 07:20:57.479
I can now relax. That feeling at the end of

2611
07:20:57.520 --> 07:21:01.680
a day of very physical that you may experience in

2612
07:21:01.799 --> 07:21:05.360
the past, where you get home and you just sit

2613
07:21:05.560 --> 07:21:09.439
down on a chair, maybe you kick your shoes off

2614
07:21:09.560 --> 07:21:16.080
and h feels so nice. Know that you don't have

2615
07:21:16.240 --> 07:21:19.720
to get up again for a little while at least,

2616
07:21:20.759 --> 07:21:23.159
and if you choose, you can just sit there for

2617
07:21:23.319 --> 07:21:36.639
maybe an hour to feels blissful. And just by sitting

2618
07:21:36.799 --> 07:21:42.000
down like that, your body knows that it's time to relax.

2619
07:21:43.639 --> 07:21:49.520
Your body has been given permission from you. Because it's

2620
07:21:49.560 --> 07:21:59.720
a mindset in your mind, you're prepared to let go

2621
07:22:00.159 --> 07:22:10.240
everything and just completely allow all the stress of your

2622
07:22:10.360 --> 07:22:28.720
body to evaporate. An intensions can just gradually vanish. It's

2623
07:22:28.759 --> 07:22:40.599
almost like magic, really, because that sense of relaxation in

2624
07:22:40.680 --> 07:22:47.880
your body, it's a very natural state. It's not something unusual.

2625
07:22:48.959 --> 07:22:52.200
It may feel unusual when you first start to relax,

2626
07:22:52.319 --> 07:22:56.400
if you if you haven't really spent a lot of

2627
07:22:56.560 --> 07:23:02.240
time focusing and giving yourself this to let go completely

2628
07:23:02.439 --> 07:23:10.080
and relax, they seem almost alien, but it isn't. It's

2629
07:23:10.240 --> 07:23:16.159
actually the most natural thing in the world to let

2630
07:23:16.200 --> 07:23:26.159
go completely, to relax totally, the most natural thing in

2631
07:23:26.279 --> 07:23:38.799
the world to allow yourself to feel really calm in

2632
07:23:38.919 --> 07:23:45.720
your mind. And it is almost like a literal unwinding.

2633
07:23:49.400 --> 07:23:54.880
It's like you press a button and all the tension

2634
07:23:55.279 --> 07:24:01.040
just releases, and it's like a wheel or like a cog,

2635
07:24:02.040 --> 07:24:05.439
like the inside of the clock, just unwinding, and you

2636
07:24:05.520 --> 07:24:09.119
say should I. You could see that the little wind

2637
07:24:09.240 --> 07:24:15.080
up knob that's used just going the opposite way that

2638
07:24:15.159 --> 07:24:21.080
you choose to wind it up, and the energy that

2639
07:24:21.319 --> 07:24:31.520
prometic stress for energy gradually winding down, losing its power,

2640
07:24:32.840 --> 07:24:40.240
losing its strength as a sense of relaxation becomes stronger

2641
07:24:41.439 --> 07:24:50.959
and deeper, and you may find a the more relaxed

2642
07:24:52.360 --> 07:24:56.880
you feel, your mind starts to wander.

2643
07:25:00.040 --> 07:25:00.639
Maybe you.

2644
07:25:03.400 --> 07:25:07.639
Seem to stop listening to me for a while, your

2645
07:25:07.720 --> 07:25:13.240
mind goes somewhere else, and then you realize you're listening

2646
07:25:13.319 --> 07:25:19.000
to me again, and that's just your mind to drifting

2647
07:25:19.360 --> 07:25:29.240
to sleep, which is quite natural, because sometimes when we're

2648
07:25:31.840 --> 07:25:37.560
stressed and tense, we're may not actually be aware of

2649
07:25:37.759 --> 07:25:44.360
what we need or we physically your emotionally need in

2650
07:25:44.520 --> 07:25:52.639
this moment. But when you allow your body and mind

2651
07:25:52.959 --> 07:26:03.439
to relax completely, and you let go of all thoughts, concerns, worries, ideas,

2652
07:26:04.919 --> 07:26:09.479
all the goo allow them to drop onto the floor,

2653
07:26:14.959 --> 07:26:20.959
you start to get in touch with the feelings of

2654
07:26:22.840 --> 07:26:33.680
such relaxation. Feelings so nice to be in touch with

2655
07:26:34.520 --> 07:26:43.040
the calmness of the different body parts as they become

2656
07:26:43.400 --> 07:26:56.119
looser and looser. Believe in your breathing seems easier and

2657
07:26:56.319 --> 07:27:05.919
more natural, effortless as I cool outs through your mouth

2658
07:27:06.080 --> 07:27:16.000
or nose into your lungs, breathing in comforts and relaxation,

2659
07:27:18.599 --> 07:27:24.520
and then just breathing out any excess remain intention or

2660
07:27:24.720 --> 07:27:35.439
stress from every part of your body and mind. As

2661
07:27:35.479 --> 07:27:41.119
you start to focus on your mind, maybe you notice

2662
07:27:41.360 --> 07:27:48.720
that things that come to a standstill or maybe just

2663
07:27:49.439 --> 07:27:57.439
much much lower than before because your mind does not

2664
07:27:57.880 --> 07:28:08.479
really needed when listening to my voice, which allows your

2665
07:28:08.639 --> 07:28:17.080
mind to relax just as deep as your body. And

2666
07:28:17.200 --> 07:28:30.040
that's synchronicity between the relaxation of your body relaxation of

2667
07:28:30.240 --> 07:28:30.799
your mind.

2668
07:28:33.159 --> 07:28:34.400
Let you know that.

2669
07:28:36.520 --> 07:28:43.799
Feeling completely calm, loose, and relaxed.

2670
07:28:45.560 --> 07:28:46.599
Real is.

2671
07:28:48.360 --> 07:28:54.119
A great healing experience fear.

2672
07:28:56.360 --> 07:28:57.119
And has.

2673
07:29:01.400 --> 07:29:09.159
So many positive benefits for your body and mind and

2674
07:29:09.279 --> 07:29:17.959
your life. To be able to let go everything and

2675
07:29:18.159 --> 07:29:26.599
to relax completely you know, all parts of your body

2676
07:29:27.959 --> 07:29:39.520
and mind, even your boness relaxed, or your muscles are rised,

2677
07:29:46.360 --> 07:30:00.639
Even the skin that covers your body is relaxed. Every hair.

2678
07:30:03.840 --> 07:30:04.200
You have.

2679
07:30:05.959 --> 07:30:06.919
Is also.

2680
07:30:08.720 --> 07:30:25.880
Deeply relaxed, and your brain really starts to feel the benefits.

2681
07:30:27.159 --> 07:30:27.479
Of this.

2682
07:30:29.080 --> 07:30:41.439
Heating relaxation, and as you focus on the inside of

2683
07:30:41.560 --> 07:30:47.279
your scalp where your brain is, you can start to

2684
07:30:47.520 --> 07:30:57.119
realize and notice the benefits of your brain relaxing deepay.

2685
07:31:01.520 --> 07:31:13.159
The initial brain continues to relax sends those messages to

2686
07:31:14.000 --> 07:31:21.840
the rest of your body and your mind to rely,

2687
07:31:22.360 --> 07:31:43.959
wax e more deeply, relax the more completely, letting go

2688
07:31:44.119 --> 07:31:55.919
of any remaining thoughts a concens allow them just to

2689
07:31:56.240 --> 07:32:03.720
drop onto the floor because they're no longer necessary in

2690
07:32:04.439 --> 07:32:18.240
this moment, this moment of deep relaxation and calmness. Feeling

2691
07:32:20.880 --> 07:32:45.520
your brain with deep concentrated heathing, calming, relaxing, every part

2692
07:32:45.919 --> 07:32:56.680
of your brain feeling so loose.

2693
07:32:57.919 --> 07:33:02.400
And comfortable, so.

2694
07:33:03.599 --> 07:33:17.959
Relaxed and be peaceful. Your brain feels so light, that's

2695
07:33:18.159 --> 07:33:30.400
so healthy. That sense of deep deep comfort really does

2696
07:33:31.599 --> 07:33:43.279
allow you to enjoy those ever increase in sensations of

2697
07:33:45.200 --> 07:33:57.919
comfort that are spreading throughout your body, relaxing each.

2698
07:33:59.240 --> 07:34:01.759
And every muscle of your.

2699
07:34:01.720 --> 07:34:20.479
Body, eat deeper and deeper, much more deeper than before,

2700
07:34:24.240 --> 07:34:35.400
much more comfort spreading through your body.

2701
07:34:36.119 --> 07:34:37.000
Your mind.

2702
07:34:39.759 --> 07:34:58.759
Be so peaceful and calm, so very fair, peaceful in avery,

2703
07:34:59.240 --> 07:35:13.639
paw of your body, letting go the a everything averything,

2704
07:35:17.319 --> 07:35:38.759
so peaceful, cal so relax very second the passes you

2705
07:35:39.080 --> 07:35:59.240
feel d DPA relaxed, DPA and dper.

2706
07:36:03.040 --> 07:36:18.759
Came so calm, peace for so very peace.

2707
07:36:21.560 --> 07:36:30.840
From your head down to your tails. Such peace and

2708
07:36:31.240 --> 07:36:47.680
comfort growing all the time, Such peace and comfort spreading

2709
07:36:48.680 --> 07:37:04.119
through your body, your mind deeper deepert such comforts spreading

2710
07:37:05.439 --> 07:37:13.240
and sinking deeper into ay muscle of your body.

2711
07:37:16.840 --> 07:37:18.520
Suddenly you feel.

2712
07:37:20.720 --> 07:37:41.680
Amazing, so relaxed, so piece so so relax and piaco,

2713
07:37:45.080 --> 07:37:46.159
letting go.

2714
07:37:50.119 --> 07:37:56.279
Everything do eight.

2715
07:37:56.240 --> 07:38:03.959
Body scan, focusing on firstly how you feel in your body,

2716
07:38:05.119 --> 07:38:10.720
not trying to change how you feel, not trying to relax,

2717
07:38:12.000 --> 07:38:17.000
not trying to move away from any discomfort or stress

2718
07:38:17.200 --> 07:38:24.639
or tension. Just accepting, observing and accepting how you feel

2719
07:38:25.639 --> 07:38:30.560
in the different parts of your body. Just allowing yourself

2720
07:38:31.959 --> 07:38:39.400
to be exactly as you are, to notice, to get

2721
07:38:39.479 --> 07:38:48.080
in touch with how you actually feel in this moment.

2722
07:38:51.560 --> 07:38:58.080
I'm going to start off by focusing on your hands.

2723
07:39:02.680 --> 07:39:10.799
Just be aware of your hands, like you to move

2724
07:39:10.919 --> 07:39:16.080
your hands around, just maybe move your fingers a little bit.

2725
07:39:18.560 --> 07:39:24.240
I've been and closing your hands very gently, just so

2726
07:39:24.680 --> 07:39:30.200
that you can get in touch with how your hands

2727
07:39:32.680 --> 07:39:53.000
and your fingers feel, very very slow movements. Focusing now

2728
07:39:53.880 --> 07:40:01.159
on your feet, if you can just you kind of

2729
07:40:01.200 --> 07:40:07.000
an equivalent with your feet you've just done with your hands,

2730
07:40:08.360 --> 07:40:17.479
maybe turning your ankles, moving your feet around, moving your

2731
07:40:17.639 --> 07:40:31.560
toes gently, only very gently and very slowly, noticing how

2732
07:40:33.360 --> 07:40:37.880
your feet feel in this moment.

2733
07:40:44.799 --> 07:40:50.919
Focusing now on your eyes, I'd like you to just

2734
07:40:52.599 --> 07:40:58.400
focus on your eyelids. Maybe you can open and close

2735
07:40:58.479 --> 07:40:59.479
your eyes.

2736
07:40:59.240 --> 07:41:03.599
A couple of times to really get in touch with

2737
07:41:04.479 --> 07:41:09.159
how you feel when you do close your eyes. The

2738
07:41:09.319 --> 07:41:15.520
muscle changes in your eyes when you do close them,

2739
07:41:18.400 --> 07:41:24.759
maybe raising your eyebrows. It stretches the tops of your eyes,

2740
07:41:28.000 --> 07:41:36.400
perhaps squinting your eyes, scrunching up your eyes, just so

2741
07:41:36.560 --> 07:41:44.959
you can heally get in touch with all aspects of

2742
07:41:46.159 --> 07:42:05.200
how your eyes feel right now. Now focusing on your thighs,

2743
07:42:07.599 --> 07:42:10.880
then you know it just starts you to gently tense

2744
07:42:11.119 --> 07:42:21.080
your thighs, just very very gently, just enough so you

2745
07:42:21.200 --> 07:42:34.840
can become more attuned to the physical sensation of your

2746
07:42:34.959 --> 07:42:40.360
upper legs, the front of your thighs, and the backs

2747
07:42:40.439 --> 07:42:54.759
of your thighs, noticing and observing how your thighs feel

2748
07:42:56.040 --> 07:43:09.040
right now, moving your focus to the back of your neck,

2749
07:43:12.720 --> 07:43:19.360
just noticing the back of your neck, the muscles, and

2750
07:43:19.479 --> 07:43:22.439
of course they lead to the side of your neck.

2751
07:43:23.919 --> 07:43:29.040
They also lead to the top of your back, which

2752
07:43:29.200 --> 07:43:34.599
leads to your shoulders. So as your focus on the

2753
07:43:34.759 --> 07:43:40.319
back of your neck, maybe you can move your head

2754
07:43:41.240 --> 07:43:49.000
gently upwards as if you're looking up. Maybe moving your

2755
07:43:49.119 --> 07:43:56.880
head down as if you're looking down. Perhaps moving your

2756
07:43:56.959 --> 07:44:06.919
head side to side, right to left, only very slowly

2757
07:44:08.799 --> 07:44:17.319
and very gently. I'm not trying to force anything. It

2758
07:44:17.479 --> 07:44:27.000
has to be very very gentle, just so you can.

2759
07:44:28.479 --> 07:44:30.080
Be more.

2760
07:44:31.759 --> 07:44:40.360
In touch with the feelings, with the sensations of the

2761
07:44:40.639 --> 07:44:49.479
physical sensations of how the back of your neck feels.

2762
07:44:51.240 --> 07:45:06.639
Right now, as we now focus on the tops of

2763
07:45:06.759 --> 07:45:12.520
your arms, the parts where your biceps and your dry

2764
07:45:12.639 --> 07:45:20.000
SIPs are between your elbow and your shoulders. So you

2765
07:45:20.200 --> 07:45:27.080
focus on those parts, the tops of your arms, you

2766
07:45:27.240 --> 07:45:35.200
may like to just tense them, but very very gently

2767
07:45:37.119 --> 07:45:46.119
and slowly, so you're not straining or putting any pressure

2768
07:45:47.240 --> 07:45:58.520
whatsoever on your arms. It's just solely you can gain

2769
07:45:59.040 --> 07:46:10.200
more sense of how your upper arms are feeling in

2770
07:46:10.400 --> 07:46:24.040
this moment, just noticing as you gently, very gently and

2771
07:46:24.599 --> 07:46:37.880
slowly tighten the muscles and then leto notice how the

2772
07:46:38.080 --> 07:46:40.000
tops of your arms feel.

2773
07:46:42.840 --> 07:46:43.479
Right now.

2774
07:46:51.479 --> 07:47:02.319
As a now focus on your stomach, the area the

2775
07:47:02.400 --> 07:47:08.720
lower abdomen area below your belly button, moving all the

2776
07:47:08.840 --> 07:47:22.560
way down to your hips, just above your grind. Maybe

2777
07:47:22.759 --> 07:47:30.400
you're able to tense these muscles in that area very

2778
07:47:32.639 --> 07:47:45.919
very gently and slowly. If that's a difficult thing to do,

2779
07:47:47.360 --> 07:47:56.360
maybe you can just move your body, pushing your stomach up,

2780
07:47:58.080 --> 07:48:01.919
maybe moving a little bit to a side using your hips,

2781
07:48:04.080 --> 07:48:13.919
just so get more in tune with how your lower

2782
07:48:14.400 --> 07:48:21.439
abdomen area his feeling.

2783
07:48:23.880 --> 07:48:24.799
In this moment.

2784
07:48:31.400 --> 07:48:33.080
Just noticing.

2785
07:48:34.000 --> 07:48:56.680
The physical sensations by your lower abdomen as move your

2786
07:48:56.759 --> 07:49:09.759
attention to your mouth, notice in your lips and then

2787
07:49:09.840 --> 07:49:27.720
inside your mouth, your teeth, your gums, your tongue, just

2788
07:49:28.000 --> 07:49:36.599
noticing how your tongue and your mouth feels. It may

2789
07:49:36.880 --> 07:49:45.560
help by moving your tongue around your mouth, moving it

2790
07:49:46.119 --> 07:49:53.520
to your left, maybe pressing it gently against the side

2791
07:49:53.680 --> 07:50:00.159
of your mouth, and then to the right gently the

2792
07:50:00.360 --> 07:50:08.240
side of your mouth, perhaps pressing up against the top

2793
07:50:08.319 --> 07:50:15.319
of your mouth, and then down gently against the bottom

2794
07:50:15.400 --> 07:50:29.639
of your mouth, always very slowly and a very very gentle,

2795
07:50:34.520 --> 07:50:46.799
so that you can be aware of how you feel

2796
07:50:50.200 --> 07:51:10.919
in your mouth area. Now I'm going to focus on

2797
07:51:11.119 --> 07:51:27.279
your wrists, and I'll ask you to maybe just routine

2798
07:51:28.919 --> 07:51:35.919
your wrists by moving your hands in a circular motion

2799
07:51:37.240 --> 07:52:00.560
very gently and slowly, just so you can feel the

2800
07:52:00.759 --> 07:52:17.880
sensations that you are currently experiencing in your risks. Perhaps

2801
07:52:17.959 --> 07:52:27.400
smooth in your hands up and down the game very

2802
07:52:30.000 --> 07:52:47.639
very chamly and slowly, very chance.

2803
07:52:51.400 --> 07:52:53.159
And slow.

2804
07:53:06.200 --> 07:53:23.200
As now start to observe your lower back. The bad

2805
07:53:23.560 --> 07:53:33.959
part is just above your hips, where your cosix are

2806
07:53:41.479 --> 07:53:47.680
a whole area which also really does include the signs

2807
07:53:48.599 --> 07:53:54.080
like a body, because those muscles are very much connected.

2808
07:53:59.360 --> 07:54:06.360
There's those muscles also move into your hip aia, connecting

2809
07:54:06.639 --> 07:54:21.799
too your buttocks side of your hips, And if you're

2810
07:54:23.080 --> 07:54:31.799
physically able to do so, maybe you can very gently

2811
07:54:34.000 --> 07:54:47.319
just move your body eviss slightly, very slowly, some side

2812
07:54:47.520 --> 07:55:07.880
to side, just enough to gauge how you feel your

2813
07:55:08.040 --> 07:55:26.720
lower back, perhapsickly, even move your hips gently up and down,

2814
07:55:30.520 --> 07:55:37.479
gently and slowly in order's an.

2815
07:55:41.520 --> 07:55:43.119
Be in touch.

2816
07:55:45.439 --> 07:56:09.200
With the physical sensations of your lower back. Between know

2817
07:56:09.599 --> 07:56:25.639
your attention to your jaw an area for your chin

2818
07:56:26.919 --> 07:56:31.040
all the way up to the area your ears are

2819
07:56:34.240 --> 07:56:49.959
all of your jaw. You can just it's okay to

2820
07:56:50.119 --> 07:57:02.119
do same. Gently open your mouth, no wide stretching, just

2821
07:57:02.759 --> 07:57:15.680
very gently and slowly open in your mouth. Close in

2822
07:57:15.799 --> 07:57:36.720
your mouth very gently and slowly, so you can be

2823
07:57:36.919 --> 07:58:17.400
in touch with how your jaw feels. Low like to

2824
07:58:17.520 --> 07:58:33.279
sit down the chest area. You don't need to do

2825
07:58:33.479 --> 07:58:41.799
anything to move your chest because it moves every time

2826
07:58:42.040 --> 07:59:00.520
we breath. It moves very gently and slowly qutomatically with

2827
07:59:00.799 --> 07:59:16.599
each breath you take. As you focus on your chest,

2828
07:59:21.799 --> 08:00:01.200
he else when you breathe leave in your focus to

2829
08:00:01.360 --> 08:00:18.520
your forearms with your elbows. Maybe you're able to very gently.

2830
08:00:19.840 --> 08:00:21.919
And slowly.

2831
08:00:23.720 --> 08:00:32.279
Tense the muscles in your forearms, and when you do that,

2832
08:00:32.759 --> 08:01:05.360
you can feel your elbows as well, very gently and slowly, jackly,

2833
08:01:09.479 --> 08:01:52.759
softly saving your forums and delpas. Make a focus the

2834
08:01:52.919 --> 08:02:04.759
rest of the back, no upper back and the middle

2835
08:02:06.360 --> 08:02:22.520
the middle of your back. Again, this part of your

2836
08:02:22.680 --> 08:02:37.439
body moves also every time you breed. You may not

2837
08:02:37.759 --> 08:02:51.840
notice that. Usually make you observe your upper back. In

2838
08:02:52.000 --> 08:03:10.759
the middle of your back, you can really feel sin't's

2839
08:03:52.520 --> 08:04:09.240
ma your focus et no butty as bray there's a

2840
08:04:09.400 --> 08:04:46.400
muscle with those bones in your midsection. Just noticing how

2841
08:04:46.959 --> 08:04:48.319
your hips.

2842
08:04:50.479 --> 08:04:50.799
Feel.

2843
08:04:54.000 --> 08:05:11.799
Right now, you can very very gently use your hips,

2844
08:05:16.720 --> 08:05:22.240
maybe sighed the side very gently and.

2845
08:05:25.240 --> 08:05:43.360
Sea very.

2846
08:05:47.759 --> 08:06:26.040
Gently softly. M Everything starts to slow down, including the

2847
08:06:26.639 --> 08:06:35.360
thoughts in your mind and your mind itself just starts

2848
08:06:35.799 --> 08:06:41.159
to gradually. It doesn't have to be instant, but just

2849
08:06:42.040 --> 08:06:51.279
gradually starting too. It's almost like time is storing chin.

2850
08:06:55.200 --> 08:07:03.520
It's a slower pace to maybe you're used to in

2851
08:07:03.639 --> 08:07:15.159
your day to day life. It's a slower movement of energy,

2852
08:07:26.000 --> 08:07:38.959
very small movements which make up the larger movements, which

2853
08:07:39.000 --> 08:07:46.840
is always the case. When you move your hand, it

2854
08:07:46.959 --> 08:07:49.720
might seem like it's one movement, but it's lots of

2855
08:07:50.520 --> 08:07:57.919
minute different muscles moving in accordance with each other. And

2856
08:08:02.919 --> 08:08:15.240
what happens in this space that we're sharing is we

2857
08:08:15.479 --> 08:08:21.639
move from that big.

2858
08:08:26.080 --> 08:08:37.639
Movement into those smaller movements. Starting to focus on.

2859
08:08:43.000 --> 08:08:49.240
How your body feels, not just as a whole, not

2860
08:08:49.520 --> 08:08:54.000
just oh, i'm feel in this way. I'm feeling stressed

2861
08:08:54.200 --> 08:08:59.840
or tense, or I'm feeling relaxed and calm. I'm feeling

2862
08:09:00.080 --> 08:09:06.759
this way, I'm feeling that way. Starting to notice that

2863
08:09:06.880 --> 08:09:20.919
your body begins to present to you small feelings around

2864
08:09:21.000 --> 08:09:38.720
your body, small physical sensations in your legs, whether pleasurable

2865
08:09:39.919 --> 08:09:53.919
or not. Maybe resisting the temptation to label them or

2866
08:09:54.000 --> 08:10:01.759
to judge them those feelings, just think them, thinking about

2867
08:10:01.799 --> 08:10:18.000
them is just being neutral, just feelings, not being particularly concerned,

2868
08:10:19.479 --> 08:10:34.639
just noticing what your body is telling you. Feelings in

2869
08:10:34.720 --> 08:10:40.919
your arms instead of feeling the whole of the arm,

2870
08:10:42.360 --> 08:10:51.560
Maybe notice those individual feelings, all those different muscles and

2871
08:10:55.680 --> 08:11:04.880
the skin as of your arms, the all the internal

2872
08:11:05.040 --> 08:11:21.200
parts of your arms, the veins, the bones, just being

2873
08:11:21.240 --> 08:11:30.080
aware of maybe your elbow on your right arm has

2874
08:11:30.159 --> 08:11:41.479
a certain feeling. Maybe your left wrist also has its

2875
08:11:41.599 --> 08:12:02.319
own individual physical sensation. What about your forearm? When your

2876
08:12:02.439 --> 08:12:14.720
right arm, you're right forearm, there may not be any

2877
08:12:15.279 --> 08:12:22.520
particular feeling that you could even give a name to,

2878
08:12:26.279 --> 08:12:30.599
may not feel like anything other than just a feeling.

2879
08:12:31.560 --> 08:12:43.599
You know, it's there. The feelings in your shoulders, perhaps

2880
08:12:43.680 --> 08:12:47.439
your shoulders when you think about them, kind of almost

2881
08:12:47.599 --> 08:12:54.319
like they're the same, you know, the same feeling, almost

2882
08:12:54.439 --> 08:12:59.080
like both of your shoulders are just one thing. Of

2883
08:12:59.240 --> 08:13:10.439
course they're not. And when you focus on your left

2884
08:13:10.520 --> 08:13:18.680
shoulder and then on your right shoulder, maybe find that

2885
08:13:18.840 --> 08:13:24.159
you move the muscles a little bit, maybe tense the

2886
08:13:24.319 --> 08:13:50.360
muscles gently, noticing the difference in each shoulder, your lower back,

2887
08:14:03.240 --> 08:14:06.959
the left side of your lower back, and the right

2888
08:14:07.200 --> 08:14:18.159
side of your lower back of course that connection to

2889
08:14:18.279 --> 08:14:30.759
your buttocks and to your hips, and also moving up

2890
08:14:31.520 --> 08:14:45.240
into the middle of your back. And sometimes like right now, actually,

2891
08:14:46.119 --> 08:14:49.759
when I focus on that part, when I focused on

2892
08:14:49.840 --> 08:14:55.680
my buttocks and then I focused on the middle of

2893
08:14:55.720 --> 08:14:58.639
my back, I almost felt like the muscles in my

2894
08:14:58.759 --> 08:15:08.639
lower back would be inside stretched very gently, just stretched

2895
08:15:08.720 --> 08:15:15.240
a little bit. Even though I wasn't doing anything to

2896
08:15:16.639 --> 08:15:22.360
try to stretch your lower back, it just seemed to happen.

2897
08:15:23.599 --> 08:15:41.159
The feeling of very gently stretching your lower back comes along.

2898
08:15:44.880 --> 08:16:08.200
I have feeling in your chest, just noticing what sensations

2899
08:16:09.799 --> 08:16:27.479
you are experiencing in your chest right now. And there's

2900
08:16:27.560 --> 08:16:31.720
so much of the chest. Obviously there's the collar bone

2901
08:16:31.840 --> 08:16:38.639
leading to the chest. You've got the chest bone, You've

2902
08:16:38.680 --> 08:16:47.000
got the muscles in your chest. Of course, if you're female,

2903
08:16:47.680 --> 08:16:54.840
there's possibly the breasts. If you're male, you've got the

2904
08:16:57.720 --> 08:17:00.959
different well might not make different these days, but.

2905
08:17:03.119 --> 08:17:04.279
There may be more.

2906
08:17:06.000 --> 08:17:12.279
Muscles at the top of the chest, but at the

2907
08:17:12.479 --> 08:17:17.360
side underneath, it's pretty much the same whether you're a

2908
08:17:17.439 --> 08:17:22.479
man or a woman. There's muscles there, muscles that stretch

2909
08:17:22.599 --> 08:17:28.159
out to your back as well as breast tissue stretches

2910
08:17:28.759 --> 08:17:36.040
and moves into your back, to just being aware of

2911
08:17:36.119 --> 08:17:57.159
your chest, being with whatever feeling there is in your chest.

2912
08:18:12.799 --> 08:18:20.799
When I noticed I focus on my chest, I feel

2913
08:18:20.880 --> 08:18:25.479
it in my back and my upper back. I mean,

2914
08:18:25.560 --> 08:18:28.479
I guess the obvious reason would be because you know,

2915
08:18:28.520 --> 08:18:39.240
I'm breathe in in, and it stretches my chest and

2916
08:18:39.599 --> 08:18:53.479
my back at the same time. It feels it feels okay,

2917
08:18:59.599 --> 08:19:04.560
m hm, doesn't feel I got a little bit of

2918
08:19:04.680 --> 08:19:11.400
pain in my right chest, a little bit, not pain,

2919
08:19:11.599 --> 08:19:17.439
but a little discomfort, maybe stiffness possibly, I don't know.

2920
08:19:21.479 --> 08:19:29.040
I notice my shoulders are also wanting to flex for

2921
08:19:29.159 --> 08:19:34.200
some reason. I think that's probably part of my upper back,

2922
08:19:39.279 --> 08:19:44.439
that connection between my shoulders my upper back, because I

2923
08:19:44.479 --> 08:19:49.119
can move my shoulders and stretch the muscles in my

2924
08:19:49.279 --> 08:19:57.759
back moving the shoulders backwards or up, which then moves

2925
08:19:58.479 --> 08:20:13.319
I think it's the scapulars. Yes, in your back. It

2926
08:20:13.400 --> 08:20:21.319
feels quite nice. Actually, if you think about this is

2927
08:20:21.479 --> 08:20:23.720
you can if you want to.

2928
08:20:24.439 --> 08:20:26.080
You can just.

2929
08:20:29.599 --> 08:20:41.279
Flex or stimulate the various muscles in your body gently

2930
08:20:42.759 --> 08:20:46.240
in order to get more of a sense of how

2931
08:20:46.319 --> 08:21:01.200
they feel. And when you're relaxing, when you de tense

2932
08:21:01.279 --> 08:21:05.240
and muscle and you let it go and you let

2933
08:21:05.279 --> 08:21:14.279
it relax, it relaxes way more than it would normally.

2934
08:21:19.240 --> 08:21:24.479
That you have to feel that you're able to do that.

2935
08:21:26.119 --> 08:21:29.880
There's no point in doing it if there's an issue

2936
08:21:31.799 --> 08:21:37.279
with the per part of your body. You need to

2937
08:21:37.360 --> 08:21:47.759
be gentle with yourself at all times when relaxing deeply.

2938
08:21:50.759 --> 08:22:06.040
It's important to be kind to yourself. As you notice

2939
08:22:06.240 --> 08:22:17.319
your mind. How much has your mind slowed down since

2940
08:22:17.400 --> 08:22:20.400
we started this recording?

2941
08:22:36.400 --> 08:22:37.400
How come.

2942
08:22:41.119 --> 08:22:52.599
And peaceful is your mind right now? We have nothing

2943
08:22:52.720 --> 08:22:58.200
to think about and just my voice to listen to,

2944
08:23:02.360 --> 08:23:10.919
Because you know, the intention behind this recording is relaxation.

2945
08:23:13.639 --> 08:23:18.799
At the very least, for you to feel more relaxed

2946
08:23:20.119 --> 08:23:23.000
at the end of the recording than you did at

2947
08:23:23.040 --> 08:23:35.680
the beginning, at the very least, for your mind to

2948
08:23:36.000 --> 08:23:52.200
slow down as your body continues to relax, because that's

2949
08:23:52.599 --> 08:24:08.479
what you want to happen, that's what you expect to happen.

2950
08:24:14.560 --> 08:24:32.520
For relaxation, to fill your body, maybe calm in your

2951
08:24:32.720 --> 08:24:41.560
mind to the point of boredom. When you start maybe

2952
08:24:42.000 --> 08:25:24.680
to drift away breathed in, it's almost as if you're

2953
08:25:27.959 --> 08:25:36.159
moving further away from your body in your mind, just

2954
08:25:36.479 --> 08:25:48.319
leaving that there, kind of liking it. An escape pod

2955
08:25:49.080 --> 08:25:53.279
and a spaceship a movie, a space movie, you know

2956
08:25:53.400 --> 08:25:57.439
when it gets a little part in it since the

2957
08:25:57.560 --> 08:26:22.959
man far away from the spaceship, save to dream, continue

2958
08:26:28.400 --> 08:28:17.799
to relax, drifting and peace, a peace, and focusing on

2959
08:28:17.959 --> 08:28:36.680
that feeling of those individual parts of your body, that relaxing.

2960
08:28:38.639 --> 08:28:39.360
One by one.

2961
08:28:47.040 --> 08:28:47.599
You may.

2962
08:28:49.279 --> 08:29:02.959
Find that every now and then you realize that you

2963
08:29:03.119 --> 08:29:11.520
aren't listening to my voice, thin give your mind started

2964
08:29:11.720 --> 08:29:26.240
to imagine something different, maybe started to almost move into

2965
08:29:27.200 --> 08:29:35.479
some kind of a dreamy state, and then you become

2966
08:29:35.560 --> 08:29:43.119
aware of my voice again. And even though you may

2967
08:29:45.159 --> 08:29:50.159
want to focus on my voice, you may also wish

2968
08:29:50.520 --> 08:30:03.880
to allow your mind to just drift naturally into that

2969
08:30:04.200 --> 08:30:26.439
space of comfort and safety. As you feel warm comfort

2970
08:30:28.279 --> 08:30:42.080
spreading through your body like a warm blanket covering you gently,

2971
08:30:46.080 --> 08:31:04.479
keeping your body it just perfect temperature. And even if

2972
08:31:04.560 --> 08:31:16.520
you can hear background sounds, they just don't seem to

2973
08:31:17.680 --> 08:31:33.479
matter anymore. There's that sense of peace spreads through your

2974
08:31:33.599 --> 08:31:47.439
mind like a gentle breeze, yet strong enough to blow

2975
08:31:47.520 --> 08:32:03.880
away all negativity, strong enough to remove from your mind

2976
08:32:07.159 --> 08:32:21.919
any anxiety or stress that was there before, and blow

2977
08:32:22.040 --> 08:32:32.959
away any other thoughts or feelings that just don't fit

2978
08:32:37.080 --> 08:33:01.919
with the sense relaxation, that is feeling your body and

2979
08:33:02.240 --> 08:33:22.319
your mind. Unless you focus on your mind and count

2980
08:33:22.439 --> 08:33:29.200
down from ten down to one. With each number, your

2981
08:33:33.040 --> 08:34:02.000
mind will become slightly relaxed, just just slightly, from ten

2982
08:34:02.479 --> 08:34:09.880
down to nine, just a slight movement, nine down to eight,

2983
08:34:11.159 --> 08:34:27.599
just another small change in how you feel. Eight down

2984
08:34:27.720 --> 08:34:35.560
to seven. That feeling is a gap, almost like a

2985
08:34:36.080 --> 08:34:43.360
gap that starts to get wider, the gap between those

2986
08:34:44.279 --> 08:34:53.360
feelings that you used to have in your mind compared

2987
08:34:53.479 --> 08:35:01.040
to the feelings you have there growing now of comfort

2988
08:35:01.360 --> 08:35:13.040
and security and confidence. And the gap becomes wider, made

2989
08:35:13.119 --> 08:35:20.279
down to seven, seven down to six. When you get

2990
08:35:20.319 --> 08:35:27.400
to five, the mind or start to have a certain

2991
08:35:28.799 --> 08:35:40.360
physical sensation, most like there's a magnet outside of your

2992
08:35:40.479 --> 08:35:47.279
head sucking the tension and the stress and any remaining

2993
08:35:48.400 --> 08:35:54.759
feelings that you don't want, sucking them out through your skull.

2994
08:36:00.560 --> 08:36:05.639
And then down to four you can start to really

2995
08:36:06.279 --> 08:36:19.279
experience that sense of not just emptiness, but space, a

2996
08:36:19.439 --> 08:36:28.200
place full of fresh air, place where you can stretch.

2997
08:36:31.720 --> 08:36:34.360
It's almost as if as you go down to four

2998
08:36:35.119 --> 08:36:43.959
and three, your mind is expanding, with this sense of

2999
08:36:44.639 --> 08:36:56.840
peace and tranquility growing as it moves down to When

3000
08:36:56.880 --> 08:37:06.279
you get to one, in mind just feels exactly how

3001
08:37:06.400 --> 08:37:26.880
you want to feel, almost perfect fearing maybe a sensation that.

3002
08:37:28.520 --> 08:37:29.919
You'd like to keep.

3003
08:37:32.919 --> 08:37:43.759
A place that's safe, where nothing can affect you at all,

3004
08:37:55.439 --> 08:37:59.959
and you can stay in that that space of comfort

3005
08:38:00.080 --> 08:38:10.000
for confidence, confident in your own ability to create this

3006
08:38:10.919 --> 08:38:16.919
space and this fear of comfort within your own mind

3007
08:38:18.479 --> 08:38:28.400
just by counting ten down to one. And this is

3008
08:38:28.560 --> 08:38:33.240
something that you can do yourself when you're on your own,

3009
08:38:38.119 --> 08:38:42.040
the time when you can maybe sit down, maybe just

3010
08:38:42.119 --> 08:38:54.159
for a few minutes, close your eyes, just count slowly

3011
08:38:54.840 --> 08:39:09.639
from ten down to one and experience these feelings in

3012
08:39:09.759 --> 08:39:18.639
your mind. And when you feel that way in your mind,

3013
08:39:20.400 --> 08:39:34.680
your body copies your mind, and that feeling it's spread

3014
08:39:34.919 --> 08:39:42.119
through your spine and your nervous system into every part

3015
08:39:42.479 --> 08:39:55.159
of your body, travels through your bloodstream, heathing and relaxing

3016
08:39:57.360 --> 08:40:15.319
every particle of your existence, and we can we can

3017
08:40:15.479 --> 08:40:23.880
practice this a few times before the end of the recording,

3018
08:40:24.560 --> 08:40:30.400
and then you can practice on your own. And each

3019
08:40:30.680 --> 08:40:43.840
time you count from ten about one, the feelings of comforts, calmness,

3020
08:40:45.080 --> 08:41:04.159
deep deep relaxation become stronger and deeper feeling your mind

3021
08:41:04.520 --> 08:41:13.759
and your brain. With these positive chemicals, the spread throughout

3022
08:41:13.840 --> 08:41:23.639
your body, relaxing you so quickly, relaxing your whole body

3023
08:41:23.880 --> 08:41:37.520
and mind so very, very easily, just by counting ten

3024
08:41:40.400 --> 08:41:47.599
down to one. So we're gonna do now.

3025
08:41:48.479 --> 08:41:50.159
I'm going to count from ten.

3026
08:41:50.200 --> 08:41:54.599
Down to one. I'd like you to repeat the number

3027
08:41:54.840 --> 08:42:01.240
after me. So when I say ten, you can just

3028
08:42:01.400 --> 08:42:03.919
repeat to yourself.

3029
08:42:05.279 --> 08:42:05.520
Ten.

3030
08:42:11.159 --> 08:42:20.479
Just notice, be aware of how you feel in your

3031
08:42:20.639 --> 08:42:30.200
mind and your body. And when I say nine, you

3032
08:42:30.279 --> 08:42:47.040
can repeat to yourself nine, noticing the increase in comfort

3033
08:42:47.400 --> 08:42:54.560
and calmness in your mind and in your body.

3034
08:43:00.240 --> 08:43:00.759
The same.

3035
08:43:01.040 --> 08:43:02.279
Want to say eight.

3036
08:43:05.080 --> 08:43:16.680
When I say seven, six, when I say five, four,

3037
08:43:20.639 --> 08:43:32.599
when I say three, two, and lastly when I say one,

3038
08:43:35.040 --> 08:43:45.959
you can repeat that number. Now. Of course, when you

3039
08:43:47.240 --> 08:43:52.560
do this on your own without listening to me, you

3040
08:43:52.720 --> 08:43:59.479
can say the numbers or whatever speed that you feel

3041
08:44:00.319 --> 08:44:09.240
it's necessary. For you, so you can adapt. So you

3042
08:44:09.439 --> 08:44:13.680
feel you want to say the numbers ten down to

3043
08:44:13.959 --> 08:44:20.159
one faster than I do, then you go ahead and

3044
08:44:20.279 --> 08:44:23.759
do that. Or if you feel when you do it

3045
08:44:23.880 --> 08:44:30.560
yourself that you'd like to have more more space between

3046
08:44:30.720 --> 08:44:37.479
the numbers, maybe take a lot longer to get from

3047
08:44:37.680 --> 08:44:48.319
ten all way down to one. That's your choice also

3048
08:44:48.639 --> 08:45:01.040
to do. So I'm going to count from turn down

3049
08:45:01.159 --> 08:45:10.159
to one. I want to get to one. That will

3050
08:45:10.200 --> 08:45:17.040
be the end of this recording. Let's course listening to music.

3051
08:45:18.240 --> 08:50:30.520
The music will continue two nine f twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen,

3052
08:50:34.560 --> 08:51:20.479
thirty twelve eleven, ten, nine eight, seven, six, five, four

3053
08:51:24.799 --> 08:51:30.520
three two.

3054
08:51:36.759 --> 08:51:37.000
One.

3055
08:51:45.439 --> 08:51:55.560
Now open your eyes, noticing how you physically film have

3056
08:51:55.680 --> 08:52:03.040
been counted down from twenty to one, allowing stress at

3057
08:52:03.119 --> 08:52:08.360
tension to leave through your fingertips and your tastes. And

3058
08:52:08.479 --> 08:52:13.080
as you focus on your fingertips maybe they feel a

3059
08:52:13.119 --> 08:52:19.840
little bit tingly, which is I suppose quite an understanding

3060
08:52:19.959 --> 08:52:25.040
considering the tension has been exiting your body through your fingertips.

3061
08:52:31.520 --> 08:52:33.520
So now I'm going to count from twenty down to

3062
08:52:33.599 --> 08:52:40.880
one again. This time you can feel a relief of

3063
08:52:41.040 --> 08:52:51.759
tension and stress any anxiety that you may have leaving

3064
08:52:53.959 --> 08:52:59.840
through your stomach. Just leaving through your stomach almost as

3065
08:53:00.720 --> 08:53:07.119
it's just releasing, the hold of your stomach will naval

3066
08:53:08.639 --> 08:53:12.720
to just abuding chest or blow your chest, rather so

3067
08:53:12.959 --> 08:53:18.119
surrounding your belly by an area, the whole area. You

3068
08:53:18.200 --> 08:53:22.680
can feel the tension of your body where it's left

3069
08:53:22.959 --> 08:53:28.240
just releasing from the area, and you may notice that

3070
08:53:28.360 --> 08:53:34.599
your stomach will become very relaxed. As I countdown from

3071
08:53:34.720 --> 08:54:58.759
twenty down to one now twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirty, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, four,

3072
08:55:02.840 --> 08:55:13.279
three two what.

3073
08:55:18.319 --> 08:55:20.880
You can open your eyes again if you cheers, but

3074
08:55:20.959 --> 08:55:21.799
I can just keep.

3075
08:55:21.680 --> 08:55:27.880
Them closed because it feels relaxing. Just notice saying your

3076
08:55:27.959 --> 08:55:33.520
stomach feels notice as your focus. Just do a little

3077
08:55:33.639 --> 08:55:40.680
scan of your body, not to saying your body feels focusing.

3078
08:55:43.439 --> 08:55:50.599
Look up a body, back, chest, stomach, legs, yms, hands, feet,

3079
08:55:53.639 --> 08:56:03.200
just noticing, and you know you may stuff to or

3080
08:56:03.279 --> 08:56:08.400
a sense of tiredness, which may be the reason listening

3081
08:56:08.439 --> 08:56:15.319
to this record it because you like to let go

3082
08:56:15.680 --> 08:56:25.080
completely of everything. The drift moor into a nice natural

3083
08:56:26.520 --> 08:56:38.919
calm relaxing sleep. So now the focus.

3084
08:56:41.479 --> 08:56:48.279
On your forehead, and if you choose, you can incorporate

3085
08:56:48.360 --> 08:56:50.520
your eyes in this focus as well.

3086
08:56:52.360 --> 08:56:57.799
Your forehead and your eyes. It's that whole area basically,

3087
08:56:58.759 --> 08:57:01.680
almost as if you you're wearing a mask, you know,

3088
08:57:01.880 --> 08:57:07.240
like a I don't know, Batman mask or something, or

3089
08:57:09.319 --> 08:57:11.919
I'm trying to fat sorrow or something.

3090
08:57:11.680 --> 08:57:13.799
You know, the kind of mask that covers your eyes

3091
08:57:14.279 --> 08:57:16.400
but also covers quite a lot of the forehead.

3092
08:57:20.279 --> 08:57:23.319
Focused on that area because that's the area that we're

3093
08:57:23.360 --> 08:57:30.319
now going to release tension, stress from your mind, your brain,

3094
08:57:30.599 --> 08:57:34.159
from your mind, and any tension that you may have

3095
08:57:34.479 --> 08:57:42.159
remain in your face, your neck, mataw, your eyes, your forehead,

3096
08:57:42.919 --> 08:57:49.279
or your scalp. It's basically any intension within your head area,

3097
08:57:50.000 --> 08:57:52.000
including your mind and.

3098
08:57:52.119 --> 08:57:59.959
Your brain, that's going to be released through your foe

3099
08:58:00.159 --> 08:58:01.080
head in your eyes.

3100
08:58:05.040 --> 08:58:11.479
As a countdown again from twenty down to one now

3101
08:58:13.959 --> 08:59:31.919
twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifteen, fourteen, thirteen, twelve, eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,

3102
08:59:41.919 --> 09:00:07.959
three one noticing she scared your face with jaw, your.

3103
09:00:08.000 --> 09:00:16.599
Eyes, the cheap bads, your ears, your forehead, your scalp,

3104
09:00:18.240 --> 09:00:23.479
your neck, backing your neck, front of your neck, the

3105
09:00:23.759 --> 09:00:25.759
size of your neck and the throat.

3106
09:00:32.000 --> 09:00:45.319
Noticing being aware of the comfort increased in relaxation, not

3107
09:00:45.759 --> 09:00:50.680
just in your head and neck and mind, also the

3108
09:00:50.799 --> 09:01:00.759
rest of your body. She made his house and calm

3109
09:01:00.959 --> 09:01:04.080
you felt. How easily.

3110
09:01:05.880 --> 09:01:07.400
It is to just let go.

3111
09:01:10.200 --> 09:01:17.159
Completely? They go completely?

3112
09:01:24.840 --> 09:01:26.560
How easily.

3113
09:01:33.759 --> 09:01:38.080
So to do balance? You just focus on the top

3114
09:01:38.159 --> 09:01:38.759
of your head.

3115
09:01:44.200 --> 09:01:53.599
I'm looking allowed every last peace, attention or stress, the

3116
09:01:53.759 --> 09:02:00.639
mind be letting green hiding in your body mine, my.

3117
09:02:00.799 --> 09:02:08.200
Head just be s down on top of your head.

3118
09:02:10.560 --> 09:02:11.360
At least.

3119
09:02:15.000 --> 09:02:22.040
To Yeah, I want sat down into the clouds, a

3120
09:02:22.159 --> 09:02:27.400
be cloud of good bad. It's like a whirlpool.

3121
09:02:28.200 --> 09:02:33.040
This is gonna so bad. Attention our the top of

3122
09:02:33.119 --> 09:02:36.840
your head, just take.

3123
09:02:36.759 --> 09:02:46.119
Away good, use your focus, maging a opening on top

3124
09:02:46.200 --> 09:02:53.119
of your head with a tension, stress and remaining issues,

3125
09:02:53.279 --> 09:02:57.400
maybe worries of satinst I'm not used to you now

3126
09:02:58.680 --> 09:03:04.360
you'll all be so down to that I've taken away.

3127
09:03:06.360 --> 09:03:10.880
As I count down again, I'm twenty down to one.

3128
09:03:14.200 --> 09:03:50.840
Now, twenty nineteen, eighteen, seventy sixty fifty.

3129
09:03:55.439 --> 09:05:02.919
Fourty thirteen, well eleven nine eight seven six four three

3130
09:05:12.799 --> 09:05:38.279
war bread not to see how he feel how relaxed

3131
09:05:38.680 --> 09:05:51.799
dot com you physically and mentally feel right now, help

3132
09:05:52.599 --> 09:06:01.840
be so your mind feels feel so nice to just

3133
09:06:02.040 --> 09:06:10.400
let go, to give yourself some space to breathe easily,

3134
09:06:12.360 --> 09:06:22.360
to think calmly, just to take a break from all

3135
09:06:22.440 --> 09:06:29.080
that pointless worry concerns about things that you don't need

3136
09:06:29.239 --> 09:06:39.639
to think about right now, because this is your time

3137
09:06:39.959 --> 09:06:40.519
to let go.

3138
09:06:41.879 --> 09:06:51.639
This is your space to enjoy feeling deeply relaxed, peaceful

3139
09:06:51.800 --> 09:06:55.160
in your mind, relaxed in your body.

3140
09:06:58.319 --> 09:07:07.239
It can feel so good, so nice to just not

3141
09:07:07.559 --> 09:07:16.639
have to do anything, to be able to really enjoy

3142
09:07:18.319 --> 09:07:21.040
that serenity that comes.

3143
09:07:22.199 --> 09:07:24.480
And letting go completely.

3144
09:07:26.000 --> 09:07:28.239
That peacefulness that comes with.

3145
09:07:35.040 --> 09:07:36.440
In this.

3146
09:07:38.239 --> 09:07:48.279
Peaceful space. And you can keep this sense of calmness

3147
09:07:49.120 --> 09:08:00.319
for as long as you choose you cheer is to

3148
09:08:00.519 --> 09:08:07.760
drift off into a deep, healing, natural sleep. Then you

3149
09:08:07.839 --> 09:08:19.319
can do that. It's completely up to you, and you

3150
09:08:19.440 --> 09:08:24.440
can keep this feeling of calmness physically meaning in mind

3151
09:08:25.720 --> 09:08:32.160
for so long as you choose to feel completely relaxed,

3152
09:08:37.919 --> 09:08:46.680
completely relaxed. And I'd like you to make up your

3153
09:08:46.919 --> 09:09:00.480
mind that you're going to relax what it's law that

3154
09:09:00.720 --> 09:09:06.000
with you, but it feels like when you actually decide

3155
09:09:08.239 --> 09:09:12.919
that you're going to relax, not forcing yourself, but giving

3156
09:09:12.959 --> 09:09:18.959
yourself that. Yes, it is a command, really, isn't it.

3157
09:09:19.040 --> 09:09:26.680
When you're telling yourself relax in a gentle but firm way,

3158
09:09:27.559 --> 09:09:33.760
that only you can really tell yourself in that way.

3159
09:09:34.599 --> 09:09:36.400
You can't really have someone else saying to you and

3160
09:09:36.480 --> 09:09:43.120
now relax, relax, you know, and it needs to be gentle,

3161
09:09:43.279 --> 09:09:46.800
but you can't. Someone else can't really have the same

3162
09:09:50.239 --> 09:09:56.319
the same kind of influence or power that you have

3163
09:09:57.519 --> 09:10:01.559
over your own physicality.

3164
09:10:01.639 --> 09:10:10.199
Over how you feel, because when you say it.

3165
09:10:10.599 --> 09:10:18.839
To yourself, it means more. It's personal, and your brain,

3166
09:10:19.400 --> 09:10:24.680
your unconscious mind, and your body listens to what you say.

3167
09:10:27.000 --> 09:10:31.120
So for example, we'll test it out and do your test.

3168
09:10:31.239 --> 09:10:34.879
If you your tests along the way, and you can

3169
09:10:35.000 --> 09:10:41.239
get more of an idea of the force of positive

3170
09:10:41.480 --> 09:10:47.879
force that you can have in creating a sense of

3171
09:10:48.160 --> 09:10:53.160
comfort and relaxation in your body and your mind quite

3172
09:10:53.279 --> 09:11:06.000
quickly just by you telling yourself to relax. So I'm

3173
09:11:06.040 --> 09:11:12.760
going to start by it's focus on your hands. So

3174
09:11:12.919 --> 09:11:15.919
focus on your hands and just tell your hands to relax,

3175
09:11:16.919 --> 09:11:21.800
and just say relax. As you focus on your hands,

3176
09:11:24.080 --> 09:11:28.639
you could say my hands are relaxed, or I want

3177
09:11:28.680 --> 09:11:32.959
my hands to relax. I think if you actually do

3178
09:11:33.080 --> 09:11:41.080
it directly by focusing and imagining that your hands can

3179
09:11:41.360 --> 09:11:42.760
hear what you're saying, you.

3180
09:11:42.800 --> 09:11:44.000
Know, like they've got little ears.

3181
09:11:44.760 --> 09:11:49.879
You see a little weird. So talking to your hands

3182
09:11:50.639 --> 09:11:59.199
and just say relax, medicine.

3183
09:12:05.279 --> 09:12:06.959
Now your hands start to relax.

3184
09:12:19.360 --> 09:12:22.839
Now, focus on your eyes and tell your eyes to relax.

3185
09:12:24.000 --> 09:12:28.800
You're just saying the same word relax. And find the

3186
09:12:29.000 --> 09:12:36.400
right tone for you. You know, I might say relax,

3187
09:12:37.080 --> 09:12:45.199
but you you might say relax or relax. You know,

3188
09:12:45.519 --> 09:12:51.160
you might say it differently to yourself, and that's important

3189
09:12:52.040 --> 09:12:56.199
for you to gauge what it feels right for you.

3190
09:12:58.080 --> 09:13:02.959
To just tell your eyes to relax, whilst focusing on

3191
09:13:03.080 --> 09:13:08.160
your eyes, your eyelids, the muscles around your eyes, your eyebrows,

3192
09:13:08.720 --> 09:13:15.639
and just tell your eyes directly relax.

3193
09:13:17.080 --> 09:13:17.279
Now.

3194
09:13:44.080 --> 09:13:54.239
And I just did that myself. And sometimes you may

3195
09:13:54.360 --> 09:13:56.720
feel that you need a bit more time.

3196
09:13:58.720 --> 09:14:01.959
Or the different parts to relax, you know, because I

3197
09:14:02.080 --> 09:14:05.919
started talking again, and maybe that pie.

3198
09:14:05.720 --> 09:14:09.400
Hasn't relaxed fully. But what happened is it will just

3199
09:14:09.519 --> 09:14:14.959
continue to relax, even dark thing that's happened with my eyes.

3200
09:14:17.879 --> 09:14:22.480
Something else I noticed is when I started focused on

3201
09:14:22.599 --> 09:14:26.559
my eyes, that actually almost became they got worse before

3202
09:14:26.599 --> 09:14:29.400
they got better in a way. So I felt a

3203
09:14:29.480 --> 09:14:34.760
degree of tension growing in my eyes and then disappearing.

3204
09:14:36.480 --> 09:14:38.480
So I think what that was really it was just

3205
09:14:38.639 --> 09:14:44.839
me becoming more aware of the tension that was already

3206
09:14:44.959 --> 09:14:49.000
there that I wasn't. I wasn't focused on it before,

3207
09:14:50.319 --> 09:14:58.400
so I wasn't really acknowledging it or really conscious to

3208
09:14:58.639 --> 09:15:11.720
those feelings. Yeah, my eyes is still continue to relax,

3209
09:15:12.360 --> 09:15:18.040
as well as my hands. Actually, my hands have got

3210
09:15:18.080 --> 09:15:24.239
a certain kind of energy, like not buzzing, but I

3211
09:15:24.360 --> 09:15:24.919
can kind of.

3212
09:15:27.279 --> 09:15:33.160
Feel a degree of energy in my hands. Maybe that's

3213
09:15:33.199 --> 09:15:38.080
where the tension is being released. Maybe that's causing that.

3214
09:15:45.440 --> 09:15:47.599
The next part, I think we should focus on the

3215
09:15:47.680 --> 09:15:48.400
back of the neck.

3216
09:15:49.080 --> 09:15:53.000
That's a part of is quite often well for me,

3217
09:15:53.480 --> 09:15:56.720
holds tension. I don't know about for yourself, but I

3218
09:15:56.760 --> 09:15:57.680
think it's quite.

3219
09:15:57.480 --> 09:16:05.720
A standard place where attention that's sometimes held. So and

3220
09:16:06.040 --> 09:16:07.559
I'm doing it exactly.

3221
09:16:07.239 --> 09:16:09.559
What you're doing as you do it as well, so

3222
09:16:09.760 --> 09:16:13.480
I'm telling my body parts to relax as well.

3223
09:16:14.239 --> 09:16:16.519
So if you tell your neck the back of your neck,

3224
09:16:17.080 --> 09:16:19.279
focus on the back of your neck, and just say

3225
09:16:22.120 --> 09:16:26.680
relax in your own words, in your own tone, in

3226
09:16:26.760 --> 09:16:29.559
your own voice. You can say out loud, or you

3227
09:16:29.639 --> 09:16:34.839
can just say it to yourself internally. But you're focusing it,

3228
09:16:35.000 --> 09:16:38.879
and you're saying it literally to the back of your neck,

3229
09:16:39.680 --> 09:16:42.239
as if the back of your neck can actually hear

3230
09:16:43.040 --> 09:16:49.839
what you're saying. So do that now, Just say relax

3231
09:16:50.319 --> 09:16:53.239
to the back of your neck, and I'll do the same.

3232
09:17:32.080 --> 09:17:35.559
And what I noticed, and you may have had similar

3233
09:17:35.680 --> 09:17:40.160
thing is even though I was focusing on the back

3234
09:17:40.199 --> 09:17:52.239
of my neck, other parts started to I showed themselves

3235
09:17:52.319 --> 09:17:55.440
to me, or maybe because they want to be relaxed

3236
09:17:55.480 --> 09:17:59.760
as well. But I started noticing the feelings and my shoulders,

3237
09:18:00.319 --> 09:18:02.879
a tension in my shoulders and in my upper back.

3238
09:18:05.959 --> 09:18:06.720
Whether that was.

3239
09:18:06.800 --> 09:18:12.400
Because my back of my neck was saying I'm pretty

3240
09:18:12.480 --> 09:18:23.400
much okay. It's the other parts to need attention, but

3241
09:18:23.599 --> 09:18:26.400
my load, my back of my neck is still relaxing.

3242
09:18:27.879 --> 09:18:30.319
But I just became more aware of other parts that

3243
09:18:30.599 --> 09:18:37.599
needed attention. Now this might happen, it's not.

3244
09:18:39.199 --> 09:18:41.720
It doesn't mean that it's going wrong. It just means

3245
09:18:42.559 --> 09:18:44.440
you're being notified.

3246
09:18:44.559 --> 09:18:49.480
If more places, but also want to feel relaxed.

3247
09:18:52.760 --> 09:18:55.040
So I'm going to focus on my.

3248
09:18:55.239 --> 09:19:00.519
Upper back, so you can do the same, even if you.

3249
09:19:00.559 --> 09:19:05.599
Don't have any feelings of tension that are obvious in

3250
09:19:05.720 --> 09:19:12.559
your other bank. You just focus on your back the

3251
09:19:12.599 --> 09:19:15.319
whole area from the shoulder blades.

3252
09:19:15.040 --> 09:19:19.599
Down to the middle of your back and the spine.

3253
09:19:21.319 --> 09:19:29.199
With me, it's more the shoulder blades more. Yeah, that's

3254
09:19:29.279 --> 09:19:34.120
the parts that really sort of given me.

3255
09:19:35.839 --> 09:19:36.160
That, not.

3256
09:19:38.120 --> 09:19:40.519
That it needs relax in yourselves, going to ask that

3257
09:19:40.720 --> 09:19:44.040
hard to relax, and you can do the same. Now,

3258
09:19:55.239 --> 09:19:56.519
relax your other back.

3259
09:20:08.680 --> 09:20:13.839
There's something strange happened there, And this often happens, and

3260
09:20:13.959 --> 09:20:18.879
been doing this for sixteen years.

3261
09:20:18.680 --> 09:20:20.919
Or something, and often.

3262
09:20:22.279 --> 09:20:28.959
I'm one surprised that amazed, really bad. It can be

3263
09:20:29.040 --> 09:20:33.519
a feeling. So when I was focusing on the back of.

3264
09:20:33.559 --> 09:20:38.040
My neck, my other bank was starting to feel quite

3265
09:20:38.239 --> 09:20:44.000
stressed and in need of attention. As soon as I

3266
09:20:44.080 --> 09:20:49.879
started talking to you about my upper back and talking about,

3267
09:20:50.080 --> 09:20:53.879
you know, getting ready to ask the other back to relax,

3268
09:20:55.599 --> 09:21:01.319
like the back already started to relax. It's almost as

3269
09:21:01.360 --> 09:21:03.959
if it doesn't need to hear the words.

3270
09:21:04.599 --> 09:21:13.360
Just needs intention. It just needs to be noticed.

3271
09:21:22.080 --> 09:21:28.839
That's something that often happens in this type of situation.

3272
09:21:30.040 --> 09:21:32.319
Is when you start to.

3273
09:21:32.440 --> 09:21:37.440
Relax a couple of parts of the buddy. As we're

3274
09:21:37.519 --> 09:21:37.919
done with.

3275
09:21:38.040 --> 09:21:45.720
Our hands, the eyes and eyelids, and now back in

3276
09:21:45.800 --> 09:21:54.440
the neck talk to the bank. At the bank, the

3277
09:21:54.559 --> 09:22:01.120
rest of the body seems to just take notice, and

3278
09:22:01.360 --> 09:22:02.360
the side, in.

3279
09:22:02.440 --> 09:22:10.800
Its own way to start relaxing. Other parts of your body.

3280
09:22:11.239 --> 09:22:20.720
Start to just become loser. I suppose it's kind of

3281
09:22:20.800 --> 09:22:22.160
like a bit of an avalanche.

3282
09:22:22.360 --> 09:22:27.440
You know, a little ball starts rolling before you know it.

3283
09:22:27.559 --> 09:22:31.080
The whole of your body is completely relaxed and can't.

3284
09:22:39.959 --> 09:22:47.559
And if you focus on your face, you focus on

3285
09:22:47.639 --> 09:22:56.000
your eyes, eyelids, your eyebrows and the muscles.

3286
09:22:55.879 --> 09:23:05.879
And aunt eyes, maybe you start to notice your forehead

3287
09:23:06.199 --> 09:23:07.599
is more relaxed.

3288
09:23:07.160 --> 09:23:07.680
Than it was.

3289
09:23:09.760 --> 09:23:11.680
Maybe your face is more relaxed.

3290
09:23:14.400 --> 09:23:18.120
I would say, my entire face is a lot more

3291
09:23:18.199 --> 09:23:32.160
relaxed than was. So I'm going to focus now on

3292
09:23:32.839 --> 09:23:39.959
your shoulders again, just like before. Just tell your shoulders

3293
09:23:40.639 --> 09:23:44.279
and you can do it with diggity. Do my shoulder

3294
09:23:44.319 --> 09:23:48.080
and your shoulder. I just didn't do both at the

3295
09:23:48.160 --> 09:23:53.680
same time. Just tell your shoulders and you focus on

3296
09:23:53.760 --> 09:23:58.519
them in your mind, focus on them and feel maybe

3297
09:23:59.839 --> 09:24:07.319
you can see. The boy said, just tell your shoulders

3298
09:24:11.080 --> 09:24:11.800
two lacks.

3299
09:24:49.319 --> 09:25:01.319
It's nice if they relax, but.

3300
09:25:01.360 --> 09:25:10.239
I didn't notice, especially with my back, is the connection

3301
09:25:10.559 --> 09:25:21.800
between different parts, the bag of shoulders, the neck being

3302
09:25:21.879 --> 09:25:26.599
all connected and being such a large part of your body,

3303
09:25:29.559 --> 09:25:32.400
it's always hard to separate them from the ch other.

3304
09:25:38.160 --> 09:25:40.360
My lower back is starting to relax on the.

3305
09:25:40.440 --> 09:25:51.760
Same maybe going too slow, and that could be an.

3306
09:25:51.680 --> 09:25:59.120
Issue because we will go at different speeds. And the

3307
09:25:59.279 --> 09:26:02.400
idea of given that this recording was for you to

3308
09:26:02.480 --> 09:26:18.000
be able to just say to yourself, relax without focusing

3309
09:26:18.120 --> 09:26:23.760
on any particular part of your body. Because when you

3310
09:26:23.919 --> 09:26:34.760
know that telling your hands to relax, your hand relax,

3311
09:26:37.360 --> 09:26:44.800
You tell your eyelids, your eyes and muscles around your eyes,

3312
09:26:46.279 --> 09:27:01.120
your eyebrows to relax and they relax. Tell back in

3313
09:27:01.279 --> 09:27:39.599
the back lags relaxes until you're out back two nights thelxes.

3314
09:27:47.519 --> 09:27:49.279
T your shoulders.

3315
09:27:50.599 --> 09:27:51.279
Two legs.

3316
09:28:02.000 --> 09:28:29.720
They relaxed. You told your hands to relax and relaxed.

3317
09:28:30.440 --> 09:28:33.800
They continued to relax.

3318
09:28:39.760 --> 09:28:46.480
You told your eyelies, the muscles around your eyes, my

3319
09:28:46.800 --> 09:28:58.160
graphs to relax. They relaxed. And if continue to relax.

3320
09:28:59.800 --> 09:29:06.279
Hm m hm. And he told the back of your neck.

3321
09:29:07.599 --> 09:29:09.080
W lit on the back of your neck.

3322
09:29:12.839 --> 09:29:24.680
He told you to relax and relaxed. You continued to relax,

3323
09:29:32.879 --> 09:29:33.879
and he told.

3324
09:29:33.680 --> 09:29:35.160
Your auca back.

3325
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To relax, be relaxed, and continued to relax. That's with

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your shoulders.

3327
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He told your.

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Shoulders to relax as relaxed, coming two years to relax.

3329
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And it's not just that, it's.

3330
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But the rest of your body is all.

3331
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Also in listening. And now relaxation has been spreading.

3332
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So from your.

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Eyes to relaxation.

3334
09:30:40.239 --> 09:30:48.680
Spread your forehead. We're your face, into your skin, into

3335
09:30:48.720 --> 09:31:01.199
your job to the frost, the s bank.

3336
09:31:03.120 --> 09:31:14.239
Down chest stuff next, hands and shoulders.

3337
09:31:16.239 --> 09:31:20.879
It's up in your arms relaxing.

3338
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For a shot.

3339
09:31:24.639 --> 09:31:27.839
Up arms, no bad rests.

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Let's go.

3341
09:31:39.519 --> 09:31:40.599
In little bay.

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Hps.

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But this boy, you just start to.

3344
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Relax, continue up spreading for your legs. Kis types of

3345
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the feet, the size.

3346
09:32:14.680 --> 09:32:19.160
Of the feet, the bottoms and face.

3347
09:32:27.000 --> 09:33:00.360
In two times and she putting access more in minds

3348
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peaceful way if cheese full same.

3349
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Age, easily easy drift because it's nothing I like rays

3350
09:33:57.239 --> 09:34:41.959
peaceful the teams tos I connection between le say the

3351
09:34:42.199 --> 09:34:49.319
words and he say to your side, relax.

3352
09:34:55.160 --> 09:34:56.720
And step that need.

3353
09:34:58.160 --> 09:34:59.680
The practice suggest.

3354
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If you just find yoursel.

3355
09:35:13.680 --> 09:37:12.279
Says its sensations, if speak says just starting down.

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From twenty.

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Nineteen, eighteen, seventeen, sixteen, fifto.

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Eight two, last seven hu

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