(Long Music) Let me bore your pain away #15 Jason Newland 13th March 2025

Hello, welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. This is Let Me Bore Your Pain Away.

Yeah, I don't know what the bum bum bum for was for, was for, was for, was for. What was I going to say? This is kind of like a sibling to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. They're related.

This is Let Me Bore You To Sleep's sister, kind of. And some would argue the same, but not really. Well, someone might not argue, not really, but I would say not really.

Very similar in some ways. But unlike the Let Me Bore You To Sleep, I actually ask you right from the start to focus on the chronic pain condition you have, the physical discomfort, and rate it from a zero to 10, where it is on the scale now. And I invite you to notice how it feels at the end of this recording, this video, whether you're watching on YouTube or listening on a podcast, or listening on my website.

So that's the difference really with the, because I can't really do that with the Let Me Bore You To Sleep. I can't ask you to let me know afterwards how tired you are, because you might be asleep. Yeah, I think that makes sense.

And I've kind of decided that I'm going to focus more on the Let Me Bore You stuff that I do. So that will include Let Me Bore You To Sleep, Let Me Bore Your Pain Away, possibly sleepy boring objects, and what's the other one, Jason's Bedtime Storytime. So they're all part of they're all under the umbrella of Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

And this of course, Let Me Bore Your Pain Away. And part of the reason for that is this format suits me better than I guess like traditional hypnosis-y stuff. Because I can do this regardless of what sound there is.

I can do it. I mean, I do edit out coughs and, you know, space shuttles going past. I do edit that stuff out if it's too noisy, and if he barks.

But things like him crunching away on his bone or running around or whatever, playing with a toy. I'll leave that in. He's part of this podcast, Vinnie, I'm talking about.

Not some weird, it's not a ghost or anything. And so yeah, so this this is what I do. And I realized that on YouTube, the most popular videos I do are the deep sleep whisper stuff.

But it's just, I guess I've got to go with where I feel is right for me. And doing the Let Me Bore You To Sleep, Let Me Bore Your Pain Away, being the same kind of format. It's just feels more right for me to be focusing on just one thing.

I know there's separate things, but still one, one, one kind of process, rather than trying to do lots of different things, like ASMR, deep sleep whispers. And I mean, personally, I think, because everything I do is softly spoken. So this is kind of ASMR anyway, in a sense of you've got the background sounds, and you've got the sound of my voice, which isn't really a lot different from if you were listening to a whisper recording.

Not really. It's a little bit more like, but this is, you know, it's a bit more clear, and you can hear what I'm saying, as opposed to, that's me whispering. Also, I find there's more strain on my voice when I whisper, which is strange, because that to me, you'd think it'd be less strain.

But I find it's more, puts more pressure on my vocal cords, when I whisper than I do when I just talk. And I need to preserve my voice, even though my voice is, sounds a little bit croaky today. A little bit croaky.

I think my voice is in the process of breaking. Seriously, I'm turning into a girl. I'm turning, I'm becoming an adult.

So wow. This is my, this is my trick I used to do when I was about 13, 17, I don't know, whatever age, my body started to change. I was a late developer, and my brain's still not there.

I've still got a child's brain. So it's, you know, and you know, the argument, well, all men have, sure, stop. Let's just get on.

Can't we just get on? And I used to wake up in the morning, and because you know, when you wake up, there's a little bit croakiness. And I'll be like, yeah, today's the day. Like, I was born under a wandering star.

Damn it. So I've never really, never really had a deep, deep, booming voice. But then people that do have those voices, I'm not saying all, but some of it is a bit fake.

They project their voice like this. And you know, they know they're doing it because they can physically feel it. They weren't born talking like that.

They evolved it. They created it. They, you know, I'm not saying just because someone's got a deep voice that they're putting it on.

But I know people like, who talk like that, because they think they're, he thinks it makes them manly. I know a couple of people like that. And that's not how they talk.

Not really. So I like that. That's how they talk.

But then when they're wanting to look tough. I don't know. I don't quite why that is.

Says a lot about the people that I know, doesn't it? So with this recording, with these, let me bore your pain away. It's very similar, as I said, thing to the Let Me Bore You To Sleep, which will mean nothing if you don't know what the Let Me Bore You To Sleep ones are. And I don't even know how I would explain it after eight years of doing them.

Eight years. 2018 1920 2123 2425 seven years sorry. After seven years of doing Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

I don't even know how to describe them. It's almost more like a blog really like a like a daily update and what's going on. But with a little bit more injected a little bit more silliness a bit of a bit of you know and with these let me bore your pain away.

Recordings it's a little bit different. It's still a bit silly still a bit pointless still a bit but at the same time there is a focus. Some would argue that I've probably never focused in my life but actually I've got quite good focus.

Never noticed that carpet there before. Was that window? There didn't used to be a window there before did it? So yeah, I mean, I'm quite a focused person. That TV is big.

So I, where's my hair gone? I tell you it's weird. I shaved my head and it's not growing back very quickly. If you think consider I shaved my head and my beard at the same time and my beard is a lot thicker than my hair.

Look, look, it almost looks like it's still just the beard's getting quite thick and bushy and curly and puby. You know what I mean? It's just getting hmm. So focus.

Oh, also, oh yeah, I've got a blimey 10 minutes talking and still haven't actually spoken about anything. I still got see part of the part of the process of this is test it and see even if I never mention a chronic pain or physical discomfort or anything like that, even if it's never even mentioned during the recording. Just notice how you feel afterwards and not just afterwards, but also well, yeah, afterwards, but the next day and the day after that and maybe you'd be surprised that changes have occurred, but you won't know why.

And maybe you don't care why I'd be interested why. And logically, to me, it makes sense, but logically, it probably doesn't make a huge amount of sense. How listening to someone like me talking, what sometimes sometimes may appear on the surface as being complete nonsense, actually has the ability to cause comfort within you.

It's not just like your mind slows down and you feel more relaxed and all that stuff. Because there's a degree of comfort comes from feeling calm, feeling safe. And the familiarity, I suppose, as well, of spending time with me, you might spend an hour a day with me, you might listen to me all night long, you know, some people do.

So there's that familiarity and that expectation that actually, maybe it doesn't matter why. Maybe the only real important thing is that you feel more relaxed. And relaxation reduces physical comfort.

It's also important to only ever listen, not just to this, but any recording that may reduce physical chronic pain, only ever listen, or watch videos like that, when you've got permission from your doctor, and you know the cause of it. I mean, for example, if someone had appendicitis, they need to get to their appendix out, don't they need to get to a doctor get to a hospital and stuff.

Don't want to be sitting there listening to a recording trying to get rid of that pain, find out the cause of the pain.

And so I'm quite good to things like arthritis. And for things that you know, the reason why it's there. So for me, this might sound strange, but when I found out the cause of the pain in my lower back, I found out it was arthritis.

It was a kind of a relief. In a sense of, because I wasn't sure if it was spinal, because sometimes you can get referred pain, or I've read a book I have. So you know, you can get pain in one part of the body, and actually, it's a different part of the body that it's that's causing that, when ultimately, it's all being created by the brain, which ironically, and I'm going to say this for the rest of my life, probably, there are no pain sensors in the brain.

Yet the pain causes the pain, but there's no pain in the brain. Go figure. It's the weirdest thing in the world.

There are no honestly, once you get through the skull, no feeling at all. Now probably most people know that maybe some people don't. But the concept, especially things like headaches, how can we even have a headache? Really? When this because it feels like it's in the brain, but it's not.

There is no pain in the brain, because it can't be because there's no physical sense, there's no sensation in the brain. There's nothing when there is a brain, maybe there's not a lot in mind, but so when you're dealing with something like a headache, you're on, it's, it's just a lot less. It's not the whole of your head.

It's just it, or it might feel like it, but it's not, because once you get through the skull, that part has no feeling. And I find that fascinating. And I just do just I find it very, very fascinating.

I'm quite into neuroplasticity at the moment, or have been for the last five or six years. And the idea that actually, our brains are always growing. And there's something I learned years ago, probably in NLP back in 98, 99.

Last century, something I learned last century, 100 years ago, was, it was 1998, 99. The whole idea of that with behaviour or feeling, for example, feeling relaxed, or relaxed, including focus on something, when you focus on something. For example, let's say I was continuously focused on my lower back.

It's a little bit like you, you going through the bushes, or through a field, and you keep travelling that and in the end, you actually make a pathway. And then it ends up you see fields where the pathway is so trodden, nothing's ever going to grow on it. It's literally, it's completely trodden down.

It can be churned up. But unless, but it, you know, basically, if it keeps being walked on, it'll, it won't grow. Stop walking on it.

You know, if the pathway in your field, if people just stop walking on it, which happened in the summer, actually, there's this pathway, imagine that's the pathway that leads to the discomfort, from the brain to the discomfort. And you get so used to like travelling, it's like, oh, it's easy, you can feel it so easily. But in the summer, the council or the farmer, whoever does it, didn't trim the bushes that were growing over, and there's a lot of stinging nettles.

So the dog walkers stopped going down that particular path. And it started to grow over. So it first of all, it grew over to the point where you couldn't even see the path.

Eventually, the path was gone. Someone did clear it out again, in September, October, but all the way from probably May onwards, it got more and more overgrown to the point where I was going in there probably in June. And I was tripping over because all of the weeds had grown over and I was tripping over it.

I was pushing my way through it. And then a few weeks later, I was trying it again. And I just gave up.

I couldn't get through. It overgrown so much. It was no, the pathway was gone.

And it took a lot of work to get that pathway. I think they need to use like some big industrial machine to sort of break the path again. So that's kind of what happens when you start thinking differently, and you open a new pathway when perhaps you think about the, let's say if I was to think about my lower back.

And then I think about how it feels when it feels comfortable. How it feels when it feels relaxed, which it does right now. And it's a strange feeling.

You know that feeling you get when it's nice. It's like a little, like a little bit of air, like a little angel farting in my face, but probably not a good example. But a little bit of air just like puffing out.

That's like a fart, isn't it? But it's nice. I mean, an angel's fart would smell nice, I imagine. But perhaps we shouldn't get too stuck on that one.

And across my chest, it felt quite nice, like, oh, and my shoulders. It's almost like the idea of allowing myself to feel more comfort in my lower back felt nice. It's like I got a little reward, a little, it wasn't like adrenaline, it wasn't, I don't know, it just felt nice.

It wasn't some kind of wonderful, oh, I didn't, I didn't have the urge to do cartwheels. I'll be honest. You know, let's go skydiving.

I wasn't quite in that zone. Just then, you may have noticed. But you feel maybe it's a sense of accomplishment.

Maybe it's, it feels nice for you because you realize that you have choices. And by opening your mind up to the idea of a different pathway from your brain. So when you think about that part of your body, it actually opens up and it moves to like comfort, a feeling of lightness.

And that starts to make sort of cut through the grass in the field making that new pathway, while the other pathway, the old outdated pathway, which is not much use to you. And if anything, too much dog poo there now. It's like got a little used, you know, you ever go on a pathway in a because I also take Vinnie, obviously, I do take Vinnie out every day.

And the Yeah, we've got a lot of fields. But sometimes there's so much dog poo, where people don't pick it up. I'm hoping it's dog poo.

And to the point where it's like, I don't want to go down the way anymore. It's not comfortable anymore. Because we can actually have comfort in physical distress, which is weird.

I think that's a human thing, isn't it? It's like, Oh, I'm in pain. That's familiar. Therefore, it's comfortable.

It's like, actually, it's not comfortable, might be familiar. But lots of things can be familiar. You know, if you do anything regularly, it becomes familiar, doesn't it? So like handstands.

If I was to do a handstand, every lunchtime before I had my dinner, after a certain amount of time, provided I didn't end up in hospital, I'd become used to it. Why I'd want to do that. I don't know.

I say that with a sense of self. Yeah, I seem quite certain that I would be able to physically do a handstand. And I'm not sure if I could.

I mean, actually could actually end up being a headstand. And that's probably not the best thing in the world. I mean, I couldn't even spin on my head when I was a kid.

No matter how hard my parents tried. No, they it was the what was it that breaker breaker, dance breaking, break dancing. Couldn't do it.

Could not do it. And I just couldn't, I didn't know where to get any lino. Where did they get the lino from? Everyone seemed to have a big square of lino.

I mean, did they steal it from their house? I don't remember there being any shops like lino shops that sold it. So where did they get it? Some people tried to do on cardboard that wasn't quite the same. Yeah.

See people walking around. I actually had a roll of carpet, but that that everyone's laughed. They said, you need to be slippery.

So I said, Oh, that's right. I've got a solution for that. Got some baby oil.

And they said, this is inappropriate. I said, why? It's weird. And yeah, got kicked out of church.

So yeah, the thing is having that connection, like a positive. And sometimes I think when we use the word positive, it can be a little bit judgmental to ourselves. Like, this is positive, that's negative.

And I understand the difference between positive and negative. But at the same time, I don't really necessarily see the benefit in having to go at myself for not always being positive, because I'm not always positive. Simple fact, you know, and I don't, you know, I've got a brain, and it's a little bit dysfunctional.

One medication for dysfunctional brain. So it's, you know, I'm not gonna give myself a hard time over that. But at the same time, and at the same time, just by opening up the idea that the possibility that you can feel different, just opening up to like, okay, that's fair enough.

I can feel different. But what would that feel like? What would it feel like to think about that part of your body and actually feel a level of comfort? What would that experience be like? How would it feel? I mean, it's something you can test, we can all test by focusing on multiple parts of our body that are fine, that are absolutely fine. Even if, you know, like, my lower back and my shoulder, I've got an injured shoulder that's a bit loud, that's probably why it's so injured to keep banging it.

Do you ever get that? I had that sometimes when I prod. Because I've got my chest, I've got like a chicken chest. It's hard to notice now because I've got such big boobs.

But I can't really show you can't see. But always had a like a pointy out chest. Yeah, my oldest brother had a concave is a concave that goes in.

He had like really any he had a inverted chest. And my other brother kind of had a kind of almost like in between, I think. I'm trying I'm going by memory here.

But mine was a pigeon chest. And because I was when I was little, I didn't have boobies. Didn't really have much in the way of pectoral muscles, you know, so the chest stuck out.

It doesn't stick out anymore. Because I'm so busty. But it just it.

If a product does, I can sort of feel the bones, the or the gristle or whatever it is. That's because ribs on. Yeah, the chest bone is not actually bone isn't isn't it gristle? And the other does like a few weeks ago, why is it? Why is this part of my body that I keep prodding endlessly starting to hurt? It's gonna keep prodding it.

It's like, we'll stop prodding it and I'll be fine. And I did. And it is.

I'm putting it now though. Because I just haven't spent a lot of time playing with my chest. I'll be honest, I haven't been like caressing the middle of my chest that like the the chicken bone, the chicken chest part.

Well, I'm pretty sure it feels different to how it used to. But I don't know how much of that is because I had my had my rib broken during a massage. I was on my on my stomach.

And the master was a toy massage, genuine massage. It was a genuine what? Don't judge me with a genuine massage. And a bloke was doing it and he was huge.

His hands were the size of big hands. And he pressed down on my back and click big massive click. And wow, it was he thought was funny.

For some reason. I think it was a mixed a communication issue. Because I guess maybe to him because he spoke a different language.

And maybe in his language, someone's screaming, No, no, was the equivalent of like telling a knock knock joke or something like that. I don't know. I don't know.

But I think it because I broke my rib in 2004. And it healed but I think it might have been misaligned. So this might have realigned my my back and my chest.

And it's only a couple of years ago, or three years ago now nearly. And I think maybe it realigned my chest. So perhaps for 20 years nearly I was the because it was I was actually I was elbowed in the chest.

That's what ended up with me get my ribs broke. I was doing I was doing Wing Chun Kung Fu and why he had his elbow in each other in the chest. I don't know.

We had pads on, but the pads didn't cover my whole body. And yeah. The good thing about it, I think the good thing that came out of that.

And I wish I had it on video. Is I went back once I started to heal. I couldn't spar so I couldn't retrain a lot of it was sparring and which is what I like doing and why I used to like doing.

So what I did is I went along because still wanted to be part of the group and was still want to go every two times a week, Tuesday and Thursday, I think. So I just used to practice my kicks and stuff like that, because my upper body was still hurting. So I couldn't really do much for my arms.

But my kicks are fine. My lower body was cool once it healed enough. So I was practicing my kicks on the big punch bag heavy punch bag, but it was attached to the ceiling, which was really high up.

Like really high. This this hole is actually demolished. Not then at the time, but later.

And I wish I had this on camera because I was kicking it. And I was really getting some it's the first time I've ever really been any good kicking. For some reason, my kicking became quite not good, but good for me, if you know I mean the best I've done it.

And I kicked the bag and if it came off the chain, I went flying against the wall. Now the wall was about 300 foot away. No.

But I did I kicked the I kicked the bag, the punch bag, or the kick bag, the punch bag. And it came off off of the chain. And I mean, clearly it was just the chain, you know, it was loose or broken, it was just going to come off anyway.

Imagine a small child could have probably flicked it and it would have come off. Although I know it was me. It was my power.

Powerful. If I'd have had that on video, this is before smartphones. Yeah, it's 2004.

We didn't have smartphones back then. And I mean, I don't know did did we have we have video cameras, so it was possible. The films have been around a while, haven't they? 100 years or so, if not more.

120 years films been around longer than that, maybe. So not that I needed a film crew, just but that was cool. And I don't know why I mentioned that.

Why am I mentioning that? Oh, yeah, my ribs. So I like the idea. I don't know about you, maybe maybe it's a weird concept, a weird thing to think about.

But I like the idea that our brains can create different sensations because we already know that anyway. Yeah, you already know that all the sensations in your body are created by your brain. I'm not talking as an expert.

I'm just these are just facts. Well, I mean, science may change, you might find out that our brains are actually in our big toes. But at the moment, as far as we know, it's in our head.

And I do wonder, I don't always feel like my brains in my head. I'm not always sure that I've got a brain doesn't always doesn't always seem to do what I want it to do. So but we can have physical comfort, calmness, relaxation, pleasure comes from the brain comes from your brain.

And so does everything else, all feelings come from your brain. Every physical sensation comes from your brain doesn't come from anywhere else. I mean, I realize like a child, small child would put their hand on a stove or something take off for good reason should take off shouldn't be near the stove, but take off and would think that it's the pain because the because discomfort was in their hand in the palm of their hand, that that's what originated.

That's that's where the physical discomfort comes from. It's coming from the palm of the hand, but it's not coming from the brain. So, you know, if there was someone actually looking over, watching what's going on, it would see what's happening.

See it's a stove. So okay, choose whether or not to give pain, you know, to send pain through to that. So you've got the physical sensation in the hand sends a message up to the brain, ignore it, or, you know, do something about it.

And it's safety, because if that little kid didn't go and feel it, then well, it's just, it would be terrible. Because there are some people are born without being able to physically feel physical discomfort. And quite often, they don't live very long.

Because it's not discovered. You know, because unless a kid, unless someone has like an accident or something, then it's probably not going to be known that they don't feel pain, because they don't know about it. But unfortunately, you know, not being aware of how our body feels can be a problem.

So we're quite lucky. It doesn't feel very lucky, does it? Like, there are times when I'm thinking, I don't always like, focus on my, my back, the arthritis, I think. Oh, it's like birthday every day.

It's like Christmas every day. I don't know that positive about it. But in a way, I mean, knowing what it is, knowing the cause, that takes away quite a big percentage of the stress anyway.

In fact, there's not really a lot of stress involved. Once you take away knowing, I mean, it's how it affects you. Obviously, that's the cause of more problems and stuff.

That's how it can cause problems. But once you realize you don't need to worry about it, and it's easier said than done, maybe, maybe not. Here's a study that was done, I've talked about this before, but I'm a little bit of a nerd when it comes to this stuff.

Did you know, if you didn't, I'm about to tell you, I follow quite a few pain experts, the lectures, books and stuff like that. A study was done where I think it might be something like 10,000 people's backs were scanned. And it might not have been scanned for the same reason.

You know, just people's backs were scanned for all different reasons. Very often, it's nothing to do with physical pain in their back, it might be to do with internal stuff, or I don't know. But about 10,000, it might not have been 10,000, it was a lot, it was 1000s of people's backs were x-rayed or CAT scanned.

And out of those people that were scanned, they also had a list of those people that had, so they separated it by people that had very, you know, damaged backs. Like physically, they could see on the scan that their backs are very, very badly damaged. And then they broke it up into those that expressed that they had back pain, and those that didn't have any back pain.

And it turned out that more people on the list that was back pain, compared to those that did. And some of those people that had back pain didn't have hardly anything. Some of them, some of them didn't have any injuries in their back, or any wear and tear other than standard.

Of course, a lot of people did, but more, more of the people that had really badly damaged backs, weren't even aware of it, and they weren't feeling anything. And I'm not talking about a young audience here, I'm talking, you know, over the scale. So people, older people in their mid age, middle aged, older age.

And this was done by neuroscientists as a study. Because they're like, why? How is that possible? That some people interpret stuff, they get feelings, and other people don't. And, but then is there's a couple of things I find is fascinating.

I wish they were my stories, but they're not. But I'm gonna pretend they are just pretend that I forget I said that little bit just now. I'm gonna pretend it's my story.

Well, I do have a story of my own. But there is a story of someone that worked on a building site. And a spike, a male spike was dropped from a high thing.

But it's not this is going to be gory, don't worry. And it's a happy ending. And I'm not going to talk about the massage.

That was not happy because that was painful. Anyway. I, the spike landed and went through the person's boot.

The top of the boot. It wasn't wide, but it was, you know, it's a spike and it probably went straight through and almost like basically pinned him to the floor. And like you would, he screamed, screamed and screamed and ambulance was called and everyone stopped working.

And he got, you know, they had to, I guess, drill drill below the foot, the boot to get the thing off. He was taken to hospital, had to cut his boots off. And it turned out that the spike had gone between his big toe and the other toe.

No, it didn't even touch. In fact, it might just just just above. So didn't even touch the toes.

Didn't even scrape the toes and no injury at all. And he went from screaming in agony to, oh, probably a little bit embarrassed, to be honest. Probably more relieved than embarrassed.

There's nothing to be embarrassed about on that situation. I think, try and find anyone that wouldn't be mildly concerned. And neurologists, psychologists and stuff like how, how, and it's belief.

Belief is so strong, so powerful. So when you believe, truly believe that actually, remembering that your brain has no, you know, physical sensations inside. And realizing that a lot of people don't even know, don't, aren't affected at all by injuries and stuff like that.

When you believe that you don't have to, you know, you, you are allowed to feel relaxed and calm. And to enjoy your life and to actually take a break from all that. Maybe realize that, yeah, you served your time on that one.

It's time to for a little bit of release. Also, what's strange is when we focus on just one thing, when you bear in mind the whole body. Okay, we've got this big body.

I mean, my body's very big, especially my belly. Yeah, my belly button now, if you if you got a helicopter and went above my belly button, you'd think it was a volcano. Not just because of the coloring, but molten lava spewing out.

No, it's not that bad. But I'm just, it's actually orange juice I spilled earlier. That's grim.

I realized I need to lose weight when I started finding things in my belly button. Yeah, I remember I went and got in the shower once, I pulled my belly up, you know, to wash myself and my pillow fell, fell into the bath. I thought I was carrying about a bit more weight than normal.

And a couple of my dumbbells. And a half eating cheese sandwich. But yeah, so really, can you imagine? So you're in a forest? Or you're in your garden? Okay, you're in your garden, you've got planes going past.

You've got I say you live near an airport or something. You've got planes going past regularly. You've got neighbors, you've got neighbors television blaring out.

Maybe you've got a dog chewing on a bone. So you can hear all that stuff. And maybe you've got music playing in your own place.

You sit in the garden, you got your own music playing. And it's windy. So you can hear the trees and stuff.

And there's a sound of a cricket. Now you can hear it. But you have to focus to hear it.

So if someone said to you, can you hear that cricket? No. But then when you start listening? Oh, yeah. And the more you focus, it's almost like the cricket becomes louder.

And you have to really focus and put a lot of effort into it. And it's draining, trying to focus on a small thing amongst all that other larger stuff. But sometimes isn't that what we do with when one part of our body we're giving it all that attention, focused on it? When, you know, let's say my lower back, so I need the left side as well.

So what about my feet? What about my hands? What about my knees? My old knees? Wow, my knees are old. I'm the same age as the rest of me, but they've aged a bit. What about my shoulders? What about my face? No comments, please.

What about my stomach, my big belly or my boobies? Or what about the rest of my back? What about my neck? What about my calves, toes, my fingers, my hands, wrists, elbows, you know, there's so much more than just my lower back. Or the other side of my lower back. That's perfect.

I say perfect, but it feels pretty much the same as the rest of my body. I'm not saying that every single part of my body feels exactly the same. But generally, there's a almost like an even keel of physical sensations spread through the body, so that most of your body will pretty much just kind of all follow the same tide, as it were, the same stream or river.

The fact, you know, the idea of one stopping and going a different way, because swimming up a stream is not easy. So I've never tried it, but we did have a wave machine in our swim pool when I was younger, and I wasn't very successful at trying to swim through that. Yeah.

So why do we try? What's the point in trying to go against something that's already there when everything else is going in that direction? Why are you trying to go in a different direction? Just one part where everything else is just flowing. And there's something about that flow, isn't there? You're like a river. It's not stagnant.

It almost feels sometimes when I allow it, when I give it attention, that there's a certain type of attention, like my lower back is like a stagnant pond that even frogs wouldn't want to live in. But the rest of me is like a river with a lot of cellulite in, but still a river. And it's flowing, it's continuous, breathing in, breathing out, food in, food out, you know, water in, water out, you know, just the body functioning.

It's just it's like a flowing, continuing flow with that one part, which is trying to be a stagnant pond. But if you put that stagnant pond, you put it in the middle of that river, how long is it going to stay a stagnant pond? When you realize it's actually part of that river, because you can't have one part that's separate from everything else. Unless you can physically take it off and put it on a table separate from you.

It's not. If it's not separate, then it's part of you. Therefore, it's part of that river.

Because sometimes the energy of trying to stop something from being a part of the rest, maybe with the fear of, or maybe it will spread, maybe that will contaminate the river. But it can't. Because if you put it doesn't matter how smelly, and stagnant, and stinky, and dirty that stagnant pond is.

Literally, you could get a stagnant pond, if you could physically pick it up, pour it into a flowing river. Okay, I mean, you could put your finger in and you wouldn't want to drink it, you wouldn't want to smell it. You it's disgusting.

But you pour into that river. Basically, it's just stagnant water. It's not harmful.

It's just I mean, if anything, it's nature, isn't it? The pour into that flowing river. And within seconds, it's disappeared, it's become part of the river. And within minutes, like you try and find either one part of that stagnant pond that was there before.

Because as hard as you look, all you're going to find is river. All you're going to find is that fresh water that's flowing through. It's weird, isn't it? The concept.

Yeah. I like that idea, actually. That was my own idea.

Actually, I didn't come up with it. That was mine. I'm owning that.

The Jason Newland river pond thing. But yeah, it would though, wouldn't it? So I've always thought about the idea of, you know, if you pour, not always, I mean, not when I was 10. But not on Christmas Day.

You know, generally, I'd be thinking about presents. But I thought about if you put salt, you know, into a swimming pool size, or a swimming pool full of just fresh water. And you poured some, a bucket, not a bucket, but like, you know, a big cup of salt in the middle.

It'd be practically impossible to taste that salt. Because it's diluted so, so much. Millions of old.

Maybe it's because I sometimes think, and I've talked about this before, maybe you might not have heard me say it, but a similar kind of thing with stress and tension and not wanting to feel something, trying to push a feeling away, can sometimes make the feeling stronger and worse. And I love, I kind of liken it to, I'm going back to my counseling days now, but I liken it to standing on a hosepipe.

And the hosepipe, the tap isn't on full, it's like it's on drip, drip, drip, drip.

And that'll just come out, you know, on it in its own time. But if you put your foot on it, onto the hosepipe, the pressure will build over time, to the point where, you know, you might, the hosepipe might be pointing at you. And you don't want to take your foot off the hosepipe because you're going to get covered in water.

And there's that fear of that. And maybe you're about to go and get married. And you're worried about the hosepipe.

And then if you if you take your foot off the hosepipe, it might ruin the church, you know, flood the church or whatever. So because you're standing there having your vows while you're standing on a hosepipe. I don't know, that sounds weird.

But the fact is, if you do take your foot off, yeah, it releases. But then it goes back to a drip. And providing you don't put your foot back on it, it's just going to drip through drip, drip, drip, no pressure, nothing that you wouldn't even notice it happening.

Yeah. So yeah, I quite like that idea. Right.

And as I said at the beginning, just notice how you feel now. And this is one of those kind of recordings where you can get different benefits from it. It can be relaxing, it could be calming, it can be lots of different things.

I've got someone in the garden shouting. But hopefully the most important thing for me is it's useful for you. So thank you for listening.

Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye