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(music) (10 hours) TV shows 1989 Thursday Throwbacks LMBYTS #1537 Jason Newland 15th January 2026

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Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. Eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes, eyes.

I hope you're well and this is Let Me Bore You To Sleep number... what number is it? It's number 1538. Yes. Wow.

So yeah, it's quite old, I would say, quite old. And quite old, quite. Well, it's 1538 episodes long.

So that's quite old, isn't it? Kind of made sense in my head. And today is... Look what I've scrolled down to try and remember what it is. It is, it is Thursday Throwbacks.

So yeah, and it'll be 1989. TV shows from 1989. I'm now, because I'm recording it on a podcast, recording it on a video.

I'm now going to go live on TikTok. And just go live. So hey.

So hello to anyone that's live on TikTok. I really need to get myself some new glasses. It's getting a bit silly now.

I literally, they're getting scratched now on the outside. I guess they're not going to get scratched, but yeah, they can only get scratched on the outside, can't they? But the outside rather than the inside of the glasses, you know, if you know what I mean. So I'm here again.

Vinnie is playing with his thing. So I just say hello to anyone watching on TikTok. Vinnie's chomping on one of his bones.

He's had an R.E.V.T.R.E.E.E.E.E.E.E.T.S. over the last couple of days that I've got him. So he's been very happy. I got him a pig's ear yesterday.

And he was walking home with such pride. His tail up, head up in the sky, well not in the sky, but head up. He didn't have to look up to see his head because he's only little.

But he's just so happy. That's when he's happiest is when he's got his pig's ear. And it's great.

I really think it's grim, but he loves them. Absolutely loves them. So I thought I'd just go through what I've been up to, to start with.

So what I've been doing is just by the way, if you listen on TikTok, this is just a relaxing recording or relaxing live or just, you know, hopefully calm in voice. Although it sounds a bit croaky to me today. I think I still got the, a little bit of the after effects of when I was unwell in the summer, a little bit of a chesty thing going on, but it's okay.

It'll be spring soon and then it'll be summer. Oh, oh, oh. It's true though, isn't it? The weird thing about it is it's staying light for longer in the evening, but in the morning it's still like pretty much dark outside till eight in the morning, eight o'clock AM.

And I'm like, what's that about? Why is it not getting lighter in the morning? If it's getting lighter in the evening? Boggles my brain, but give it another month. Well, by the end of this month, it'll be, should we look, I'll look that up. What's how, what's okay.

Daybreak, daybreak, um, Feb times all time. If I do daybreak times, times UK, UK 2026, it might give me the whole thing. Now that is exciting.

I'm pretty sure you would agree. So let's have a look into October 25th. No, no, not daylight saving.

I want to know every single time that it, uh, okay. Um, daybreak and day on break, okay. Sunset and sunrise, sunrise, sunrise, and sunset times UK.

This might do it. Here are the sunrise, sunset times. It's a genuine.

No, just give me the whole thing. I want the whole thing every day of the year, by the way, I'm not going to go through every day of the year. Uh, I go, it's crazy.

I don't, here's what I don't understand. And it might just be lack of education on my part. Why do we get a different sunset, a different sunrise, depending on where we are in the country? I mean, it's the sun further away, like a hundred miles away from where I live.

I mean, it's just, you'd think it'd be the same. I understand being different, different parts of the world, but not in a tiny, tiny, tiny little country. The time zone is still the same.

Uh, okay. If I go for roughly London, 8.00 AM. So 8.00 AM sunrise, sunset for 21.

And then we go all the way down. So by, by the 1st of February, it will be. Wow.

This is brilliant. It's very slow. Sunrise is much slower than sunset.

So the sunrise on Sunday, the 1st of February is 7.40. So 20 to 20 to 8.00 AM. But according to this dawn, uh, oh, so dawn, dusk, sunrise, dawn, dusk, sunset. Okay.

Right. Got it. So sun, what's the difference between dawn and dusk though? I mean, what's the difference between sunrise and dawn and sunset and dusk? I guess it's that bit, isn't it? Where you start is like it turns from being, um, who sent me a rose? Someone sent, Zac Sess sent me a rose.

Is that right? The first gift you've ever sent express your appreciation. It says here. Thank you.

Thank you, Zac Sess. Um, never got a rose. I don't think, is that the first rose I've ever had? I got a rose.

Thank you. I didn't know. So I don't not quite know what that I don't know.

I know roses, but, um, but you know, I don't really understand the app, if I'm honest. So I suppose dusk, sunset is when it's no, the sun's gone down, isn't it? Pretty much. But then I suppose between sunset and dusk, that half an hour, which is half an hour, like every single pretty much.

That's when it goes from there to be in dark. So I suppose I've been going out sunset, sort of sit four o'clock, where it's not dark, but it is. I don't need a light.

You know, I mean, it's like I can still see my still see around. But dusk, that's really the time. So and sunrise.

So dawn 727. Yes, does start to get light. Because at the moment, it's the 15th.

Is it the 15th today? Yeah, 15th. So 722 is dawn, but some sunrise rather. No.

No, sorry. Forgive me. So 15th of 722.

722 is dawn. But a clock is sunrise. I don't know.

It doesn't seem right. You think morning has broken like the first morning. Blackbirds have spoken like the first bird.

Pray for the evening. Pray for the morning. Dawn.

I'm trying to think of a song that has the word dawn in it. Dawn, dawn, dawn. I love you.

Dawn, dawn, dawn. I do. 15th of January.

So eight o'clock, basically, it's light. And it's dark by five o'clock. So I'm going to go for sunset sun.

So it's, it's, it's light by eight o'clock. And 421 is when it's kind of no longer kind of light, but it's still light enough. You know, I mean, like in the morning, it's just light enough to move around.

But okay, so let's have a look at the end of the month. So Sunday, the first 20 to eight, it will be light. And six, it won't be won't be starting to get dark till just before five o'clock.

No. That's throwing me off again. 1621 1650.

I want to start getting dark again to serve. So I'm getting it wrong now. So I'll be light at 640.

And I'll be stuck. Yeah. 1616 50.

I'll start to get dark at 1650. Yeah, that's what I'm thinking. Does it allow me to go to other months? Or shall I just move on from this and pretend it never happened? I do know calendar.

I want to see the whole year. I just want to know roughly how long it is before it's light at six o'clock. So according to this, it will still it will be.

Yeah, it's still going to be dark at six. Oh, February, let's go to February 1741. No, so just but at least I'll be able to go out after five o'clock in the evening, or in the afternoon.

So that's good. And I'll be a light at seven in the morning, quarter seven in the morning by March. So you see, it's like just a month away.

That's all it is. It's a month away. It's not long as it really should go to let's go to March.

So okay, five weeks. So it'll be right got it. It'll be light.

It'll be light, completely light until six o'clock in the evening by the 12th of March. And it'll be light in the morning at 623. I mean, wow.

Can't argue with that. That's amazing. So my normal routine, were not my normal routine I used to have was to take Vinnie out at six o'clock because there's a few people around at that time and Vinnie's got friends and stuff.

But I haven't been able to do that because it's too dark. I can't see where I'm going. It's not just the dark as in the dark.

But it is the dark. But it's not just the fact that it's dark, but my eyesight is not great. So I can't see what's around.

I mean, some would argue, well, no one can see what's around because it's dark. Just because you've got bad eyesight don't mean that you're going to see better with good eyesight if it's dark. I don't know.

I mean, possibly that's true. But I can't see in the daytime. I can't see what's coming towards me until they get close up.

Can't see faces. And it's just a blur. Even with my glasses on.

Without my glasses, I can't even see the park. I can't see Vinnie, don't know where he is. I'm just like, Vinnie, Vinnie.

It's like, Daddy, I'm sitting on your head. Okay. Thank God for that.

But in the dark is even more because people are walking across the grass towards me. If it's during the day, I can see them, I can see their body movement. I can, you know, see if they've got a dog.

They're not normally walking towards me, but they're walking my direction. But at night, I can't see, can't even see their body until they get like six foot away. I can see a movement and I can see like a blur.

But in the daytime, I can, I might not be able to see their face clearly. But I can see the outline of the body and see whether it's by the way they walk if it's someone I know, because I know people's walks. Not everyone's walks, but you know, people I know, I kind of, and their dogs they're with.

So if I see someone in the distance, I can't really see who it is. But I can tell by the dog, sometimes who it is. And I put the two things together.

I'm a little bit like Mrs. Marvel. Mrs. Maple, Mrs. Marvel, like a bit of detective work, you know. And but at night, I can't do that.

And also Vinnie's, he's got a habit of trying to take me into the darkest places. He genuinely seems to want to, he just wants to take me into the bushes, maybe, but take me where I can't see where I'm going. So yeah, he has to make do with going in the garden at night.

But I've took him out three times today. Or twice. No, I think twice because it was raining.

I've been in the rain for twice already. I just didn't want to, didn't want to get wet again. So he'll have to make do with the garden today.

But if I can, and it's a good day, I'll take him out three times. And the longer the day is, the more times I've got the more kind of you know, I can take him out in the morning at seven. Maybe take him out again at like midday and then take him out again at six.

Just gives him a bit of space. Maybe take him out four times. Maybe take him out twice.

Yeah, it depends on how I feel as well. And that wasn't what I was going to talk about. What was I going to talk about? Oh, the Moses Atalma fight got cancelled because he's hurt himself.

I was really looking forward to that. That was next week. So that's a shame.

Because he's like the new star in boxing really. In heavyweight boxing. So I was kind of like, Oh, that'd be really good.

Great show. Nice Saturday evening in. Well, every every Saturday evening is in but you know, it's more purposeful.

Well, it's nice to have things to look forward to in it. That's all. At the moment, I think the most exciting thing going on in my life is trying to choose which fork to use when I eat.

Which fork to use to get the tea bag out of my teacup. Why don't you use a spoon? I do if there's no spoons available, I use a fork. But it's forks are quite good because a spoon will hold the liquid.

Fork doesn't see. But the forks more likely to puncture the tea bag. See, it's like you have to kind of weigh out the whole situation.

So that usually takes about an hour of consideration from me. By which time the tea bags killed. That's the thing.

This is a serious thing. Okay. You ever heard people say if you get a sty on your eye, use a teabag because it draws out the toxins, which I think is true.

What they don't say is that the teabag cool down. And it might sound like a silly thing. But seriously, it's really important.

Because a teabag has to be in hot water first. If you just put a dry teabag on your eye, you're going to look ridiculous walking around. It is dry.

A wet one's fine. I wonder what kind of glasses I should get. I don't know.

What was I was talking about right at the beginning, there was something wasn't there? Oh, okay. I've been working on my thumbnails. And I have now got semi professional thumbnails on my YouTube channel.

I say semi professional, I basically got help with chat GPT to do it. And it takes a lot of stuff because I have to keep tweaking it. I know what I want.

And then I have to keep checking it to see if it fits in with YouTube's guidelines. And it has to be as minimalistic as possible. Because ultimately, people are looking at the thumbnail on their phone.

And the phone is tiny. So the thumbnail is very small. So, you know, the way I used to kind of think of it is like, I'll have the picture, because I don't use YouTube on my phone.

Generally, I use it on my laptop. When I'm making videos, and I check the thumbnail, I check it on my laptop. But if I watch videos, I watch videos on my television.

So the thumbnails are big, aren't they? Massive, in fact. So, excuse me, what I've been doing the last three days, is more than three days, but the last three days, I've actually kind of put the extra effort in. And it takes a while.

I'm not even like, I'm not exaggerating. A while. Can you give a shout out to my friend, even? This is from Sophie.

Okay. I'm not going to read that out. It's funny.

I don't know if it's a joke or my friends that came out after watching you live. Thanks, Sophie. I'm guessing that's, I don't know.

Can you please say happy birthday to my friend Frank? Yes, Lucy, happy birthday, Frank. Apparently, okay, I'm not going to read that out either. I don't want to embarrass anyone.

So thank you for your messages. So I, yes, I've worked on the thumbnails, done three now. It's very time consuming.

Really, really, really, really time consuming. Because I've now got lots of pictures of me, I've tried to include a picture of me on the actual thing, which I know is not really going to be a good thing necessarily. But hey, there's one of me dressed as a miner.

The one, the Beatles one, it's me, pretty much four versions of me singing together. And the one yesterday was the sleep whisper one. That was me and Vinnie.

So Vinnie's asleep. And me in my nice pink pajamas, which are not real. I just had them made up.

And whispering into the microphone. Vinnie's just farted. So that's nice.

Oh, man. So that's pretty much everything. I don't think there's much else to say regarding an introduction.

We had the police here the other night, midnight, and had dogs, police with a dog and they were looking through the windows of the neighbors downstairs, which freaked them out, which it would anyone wouldn't it? And it really bugged me. I'd like what, but the police wouldn't say anything to them. They went outside said what you doing? Or probably a police officer.

I don't know. Like, it's hard to know how to talk to police, isn't it really, but they wouldn't say anything. So I looked, I thought I'm going to get to the bottom of this.

I talked to quite a few of the dog walkers who live on the area. And it turns out on that night, somebody had vandalized a car and ripped the number plate off their car. So the police, I can only put two and two together, that the police were here looking for that person, because they may have done some other stuff as well.

So they got reported to the police for that. And a lot of people have got doorbell cameras, as do I. So maybe this person's on camera trying to car doors or, you know. So I hope they found the person hope she got caught.

Whoever she is. And so that was kind of weird. Don't have much of that stuff anymore.

Used to get a lot, you know, a few years back, but not recently. Doing the best, the best I can. But it's not good.

I got that Elvis song stuck in my head. And do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do Oh, darling. I've only once gone to is a is a lad.

I think it's about 1920. I don't know. He's called Devin Smith.

D e v i n, I think. And he's on TikTok. He looks like a young Elvis.

He sings Elvis songs. But it's spooky how much he looks like Elvis. And by his eyes, just like is really, I don't know, maybe he got told he looked like Elvis right from an early age.

So he was listening to Elvis songs, and kind of started to love Elvis songs. And maybe that's how it kind of came about. I don't know.

But it's very, very good singer. And I think that if, if, if, if, if a producer like a management came to him and said, Look, he's a he's a bunch of cash. I don't it doesn't have to be a huge amount really does it? But he's a bunch of cash will take you on for two years.

And going to get the best songwriters to write you a song. If you want, you can sing it in a style of Elvis. Or you can find your own tone, your own voice, but just be you just do what you do.

And we don't need to change your look, nothing just be you. And then just put him on the stage, put him, take him to places and see if he has, which I think he does have that power, that stage presence. And I think that a lot of people would go absolutely crazy for him.

He could be like the next big thing. And there's so many great songwriters out there. That's what I don't understand is maybe I mean, I know some people write their own music, their own songs, and they might have like a massive number one album, maybe another follow up that's really popular, and then they kind of drift away because they're not making the hits.

Maybe they're not, you know, perhaps they're not. I don't know, for whatever reason. But then you got those performers to get songs written for them.

I mean, yeah, they're not going to make as much money from this, you know, won't make any money from the songwriting maybe, but they've had that longevity. Like Mariah Carey, as far as I'm aware, I don't think she writes her own songs. Maybe she does.

Whitney Houston never wrote her own songs. She did pretty well. Like singing wise, pretty well is an understatement, isn't it? Really? Michael Jackson? No, actually, he did write his own songs, didn't he? But he had writers with him.

I think a lot of those stars, they, they write with someone. So I think Robbie Williams did that as well. He'd write but he'd write with someone so he'd have a like a mutual kind of writing credits on on the songs.

Who knows Devin might actually be a really great songwriter. He might not even sing in the style of Elvis with his own songs. But then I've seen people sing.

I'm trying to think of an example. There was someone really famous, who had an amazing voice, but she didn't even use it on her first song. She kind of did a certain kind of singing, but it wasn't she didn't use her full vocal vocal range.

It was only afterwards that like, wait a minute, you can really sing. This is phenomenal. I can't remember who it was.

I was going back a while. But was it that I hate you right now? That one may be pink. That's another one pink, going on.

See, I mean, she did songs, but then actually, she can really sing. I'm not saying she wasn't singing, but she can really like phenomenal singer. Jessie J is probably my favorite at the moment.

Because of her latest song. And it's a lot of meaning to that song. So I don't know how it is in the charts, if it's even in the charts.

I guess again, how do you promote stuff like that? Because TV is not really. It's not as popular as it used to be, is it? And the internet's kind of the place. I mean, but then I don't know, I pay not to have adverts.

It's really weird. I'm not with them now. But Sky.

They have a thing if you don't, you might not know they have a thing where now TV so you can watch the TV channels, Sky Atlantic, stuff like that, maybe HBO, and all the movies. If you can pay to not have any adverts, that does still stick a minute or half a minute of promoting their own stuff on there. And that just winds me up.

It probably shouldn't, but it does. I don't want to watch adverts about anything. I just wanted to get on to the next episode.

Thank you. That's the one good thing about the BBC iPlayer. No ads.

Just you know, go from episode to episode. Right? How long are we into the record? Over 30 minutes. But that is the introduction.

Let me have a quick bit of water. Oh, a bit of water. So what am I doing Thursday 19 UK television 1989.

What Britain was watching. According to this, the Polish glossy 1990s TV style is starting to creep in. The Polish polished sorry.

Alternative comedy has become mainstream. I suppose. Yeah, I mean, it's definitely a change in tone.

It didn't get hadn't completely changed. I mean, on TV, we still had. What's his name? Alf Garnett was still on TV.

Still had people like Jim Davison was still on there doing his TV shows. I mean, he did a really good TV show, a snooker show with Virgo. Virgo is a snooker player.

And it was just a riot. They just had fun. And it also hosted the generation game.

There's a lot of mainstream TV shows still on there. Blankety blank, I'm not sure if that was on but blind day and all that stuff that was still on. I suppose comedy.

I don't know. I mean, there was 89 8788 89 stand up comedy had kind of start to be on TV. And it was more like the very early alternative comedians, although they started in the late 70s.

But that was a lot of the early stand up comedy was just anarchy. So Rick Mow and Adrian Edmondson just jumping on stage and beating each other up and shouting and sure was brilliant. But it was very things changed in stand up comedy.

And we had started having people like Joe Brand, who would stand there and tell jokes or be funny, but different kind of different kind of comedy to the mother in law jokes and stuff that used to be a thing. And mind you, I get a bad press always all mother in law jokes and a vicar a priest and a toad walk into a pub and those kind of jokes.

But there were lots and lots of comedians stand up comedians that I saw on telly that were already alternative.

There were nothing like the other comedians. You know, there was a group of comedians group of stand up comics that pretty much did the same jokes as each other. But they made it different with their own personality.

And then I think Roy Chubby Brown, Roy Chubby Brown was like probably the end of the 80s, beginning of the 90s 1992 91 93 was the biggest seller of videos. So if you might not have ever heard of him, if you want to hear some really, really, really adult rude stand up comedy. Someone just asked me, you talk to the wall or what bro? Actually, bro, I am making a podcast.

So I actually record this on video, which is behind this. And I got a microphone there, which is recording the podcast on the equipment behind me. I just go live just to you know, I mean, just just to be here if anyone wants to listen.

But yeah, I'm actually doing something. Although it might not seem like it by him. Okay.

And so I was gonna say, do I like football? No. Yeah, so Roy Chubby Brown, really, really popular. And the first comedian I ever saw it live, apart from Keith Harris.

So I saw Keith Harris was when I was on the Rolf Harris show, Keith Harris and Orville and Cuddles. That was when I was about 10, nine or 10. And then I saw when I was about 17 maybe 18.

I saw Jimmy Jones. And I went with a friend. And it was hilarious.

I just laughed all the way through it. I look like a Martin. Wish I was great name.

And there was the third stand up comedian I ever saw live was just before I moved to London. So this would be 1990. And it's kind of weird, because I was there.

I was me in my next door neighbor. It was really nice atmosphere. And there was this I don't know what it was.

But my friend from school was running the catering, and he was doing chips and stuff like, okay, and he was what was his name? What was his name? Oh, was his name? It was? Wow, I forget my childhood friends now. Not surprising. It's a long time ago, but not Keith, not Neil, not not Steve.

I remember some of them is I mean, I've been friends with him since the age of nine. And I even saw him when I used to go back from London to visit in the early to in the early 90s. So in my early 20s, I'd known him for a long time.

He was is one of the toughest kids in school. But he, he basically had like he was an adult. But the reason why he was so strong was because he used to work for his dad, delivering bags of potatoes as a little kid.

So he was lugging bags of potatoes are probably heavier than he was. When he started out. I can't believe his name's gone out of my head.

Neil, Keith, Ben, Sherlock, Dice, Carlton, Fresh Prince, nope. Neil, Dean, Bean, Sheen, Lean, Keen, Keef, Beef, Weef, Carl. Yep, Carl.

Yeah, it was Carl with a K or a C. Whatever he wanted it to be really. He was my friend. Yeah, he was.

But he was so strong, so strong. Ridiculous. But he actually because I worked in a chip shop from the ages of 16, well, from 15 to 17.

When I left school for two years. I didn't leave school for two years. I left school permanently.

But I worked there for two years in a chip shop. Don't do it, ladies and gentlemen. Unless there's a chance of promotion, or you want to have your own business, or it's a part time job, or you just love chips.

Or there's nothing else. I could have done anything. I don't know why.

Here's what it was. I never told you the story. This is people that listen regularly.

Do you know why I ended up working in chip shop? So I was coming up to leave in school. I'll be honest, I didn't really know what day I was leaving. I didn't know what I was going to do.

I gave it no thought. All I knew is I like doing karate and I liked working out and I liked doing that stuff. And suddenly I was going to be like, you know, I didn't know.

I didn't know what was going to happen. My dad, this is probably in the March. I think it was a Saturday.

My dad kind of didn't call on me, but he like spoke to me in the garden. And he said, what are you going to do? I said, I'm going to go on my bike with Dean, my friend. He said, no, what are you going to do once you leave school? I said, I don't know.

What are you asking me? Isn't it weird, right? We go from the ages of being born to the ages for me at the age of 15, without having one say in what I did in my life, pretty much. And suddenly I'm in charge. Thanks.

Okay, so now I have to make all the decisions. Yet you're making all the decisions for me and everyone else before that, the teachers, the nuns, the various parents. So now I've got to make my decision.

And I wasn't prepared. I had no preparation for this. And then, and then, then, then, then the parents split.

So that wasn't good timing. And obviously not good for timing for anyone, maybe for her, but not for anyone else. Anyway, so I that day on Saturday, he said, you've got to get yourself a job.

Really? So yeah. So the way I've often worked is my brain works is I'm very determined. And if I decide to get a job on the day, I get a job on the day.

So that's what I did. The very first place I walked into, I just walked down the end of my road. I was with my friend, I was in a grump.

I just got some new glasses. So this is like March. I'd literally just been gone.

I'd had like three days at school wearing glasses for the first time with everyone making fun of me. People I'd never even met before were making fun of me. Literally people coming into the school into my classroom, traveling from other parts of the country just to mock me and my glasses, because they'd never seen me wear glasses before.

And I had a wonky eye or a lazy eye, they said. And I had to wear glasses all the time. And then when I got, by the way, I didn't wear them all the time, but I did wear them for, no, I think I just stopped wearing them all together after a little while because I got upset.

And then I started wearing glasses again in 1980, no, 1990, beginning of 1990, and it was just reading only. So my eyes seemed to have improved during that period. And I also walked to the next town just with my glasses on, trying to get used to them.

That's not really relevant to the story, but it is all part of that period of time. I think it might have been the same day as well. And I think I was going to run away to London and go and find a pot of gold.

So I thought I'll show him. He's like, you got to get a job. Why? Why have I got to get a job? Because my dad was a qualified electrician.

He trained for what he did. He did an apprenticeship. He was brilliant.

He was self-employed. You know what I mean? I didn't have his skills. So I'm thinking, what can I do? Bearing in mind, I'm only 15.

So legally, I didn't have to get a job, but hey, the law wasn't quite as tight back then. I didn't turn 16 till the end of August. So there was no rules for me to get a job.

Although, in all fairness, nobody in my family asked me to pay rent or to buy food, so I can't moan there. I didn't have to buy my own food at that time. It wasn't really until I moved into the flat upstairs in a chip shop in March, end of March time 1987.

That was the first time I think I needed to buy my own food. I think. I don't know.

I can't remember. Because I used to eat every day at the chip shop. So I didn't really have to buy a lot of food like when I was out, like when I lived in with my stepmom for a little while.

So I had this thing in my head. It's like, okay, you put me on the spot here. I'm only 15 years old.

You're not even allowed to leave school till you're 18 now, I think, unless you go into college. I think that the laws changed. It wasn't like that when I was a kid.

In fact, when I was a kid, when I was leaving school, my gran, I think she left school at about 12. It's just changed over the years. If you go back a lifetime, there was no going to school.

It was lucky if you got any school in. So a person I probably wouldn't have classed as lucky. But in reality, we are lucky in England or wherever, UK, wherever you are, if you've got school in it.

I didn't appreciate it, but we are lucky to have it. It's like central heating and toilet seats. Going to school is very much like a flushable, a toilet that flushes.

It's just, don't necessarily appreciate it, but it's very useful. Imagine having to scoop it all out every day and chuck it out the window like the old days. That's how they used to do.

They used to just do it in a bucket and chuck it out the window. Oh, that's better. It's not even lying, it's true.

I say the old days, and that's what I used to do last year. I was going to say about a neighbour, but I won't mention it. This is a while back.

No, I won't mention it. No, I got, no. So I wanted a, can you do a shout, a shortcut? I thought I said a shortcut.

So I'm also, if anyone's watching a video or listening to podcast or itchy, I'm also listening, I'm streaming on TikTok. I know some people think, oh, what are you doing? What are you doing that for? But someone earlier just said, just talking to the wall. But I'm actually videoing myself and audio recording myself because the red microphone is for the video.

This microphone is for the podcast and the phone is not far away. It's like arm's length away. I can't really get any closer because trust me, you don't want to see me closer than we already are.

The closer you get, the less handsome I am. So what I did, because I was actually a little bit upset when my dad said that to me. It's like, but he didn't mean it.

He apparently was concerned. That's the thing. I think with my dad, we kind of, we don't meet each other.

He says something that I think I kind of misinterpret. And I say things that he misinterprets. And it is no one's fault.

It's just, we're just very different people. Or maybe we're just very similar. I don't know which is, I think very different.

But I think he was coming from a place of concern. And maybe he knew what was coming next, which was the family breakup. And I didn't know that was coming.

So maybe he kind of foresaw that and he thought, you better be prepared to get a job or to look into doing something. So I basically, my friend, Dean, I said, come on, Dean. Or he might have said, come on, Jace.

Did anyone call me Jace? I don't know. I feel the only people I get called Jason by nobody, except my parents. And my brother.

That's it. The only people who call me Jason are people that I know from the past. Before I moved here, since I've lived here, everyone calls me J. I answered to it.

But I literally sent a message to someone, a neighbour saying, Oh, here's this thing. A text message saying from J, from Jason, sorry. And like, who is this? I actually phoned someone up and said, it's Jason.

Who? Jason, your neighbour. I don't know anyone called Jason. Jason has got Vinnie the dog.

Oh, J. Why didn't you say it was J? It's J. Everyone, it's J. It wouldn't be so bad. I'm actually in front of them when I'm saying it. We're in the same room.

So yeah, the only people that call me Jace is a couple of really kind of close friends and maybe a girlfriend's called me Jace. But generally, I would say, Oh, yeah, probably a couple of good friends call me J. Jace, J. But generally Jason. I've never called myself anything else.

Do you know when you when you meet people? Oops. You know, you meet people and they say, what's your name said? Yeah, it's Steve. Like, no, it's not.

Your name's not Steve, is it? Yes, Steve. I don't say it's not because I don't want to get in trouble. But they say it's Steve.

And like, okay, what's your real name? Steve. So your name, real name Steve. But you want everyone to call you Steve.

Which takes just as much time to say Steve as it does to say Steve. So you're not saving any time. And you know what else annoys me? I won't call anyone Steve or mate.

I'm not doing that. Another thing that annoys me is people call Jamie or James, they call themselves J. J is short for Jason. That's my name.

I'm not sharing it with James. Even Justin, some people are like, yeah, J. You're right, J. J Justin hasn't got an A in it. Although I used to one of my ex girlfriends used to call me Justin.

I didn't realize what it meant until like later, when we split, all the friends kept like shouting, you're right, just in. Like, okay, it was a it was a rude comment from them. So I'm walking down the street with my friend Dean.

And literally, as you get out my house, when I was younger, when I lived there, obviously, I would go out there now would I because I don't live there. And if I went out of my house where I live now, the chip shops nowhere to be seen. In fact, a chip shop has actually moved.

It moves close to where my nan lived. I'm not quite sure what that was about. I think that opened a bank there.

Or a florist or card shop. Live will end in five minutes unless I do the puzzle. Right didn't work properly the first time.

Let's have a look. It still didn't work. I'm doing on the phone.

It's very hard to do on the phone. Okay, right. I just can't see the screen.

So I went, you go out the front door. And there's a road call when you turn left and there's another road going up across the road go up. He didn't.

Oh, Vinnie, I thought it was a weird noise. It's Vinnie's feet scraping against the the legs. You know, listening to me actually relaxes me.

Would you believe it? So go up to the end? Yeah, go up to the end of the road. And then basically, just turn left. Or if you go up two roads, turn right.

No, just just go up to that one road, turn left. And that will lead you where you could go the other road. But anyway, it leads to basically to the town center.

We will literally 30 seconds walk from the town center, which is really great. When I wanted to get to the town center. And I only had a few minutes.

It's just it was pretty perfect. In fact, I would say positioning wise, it was the best place I've ever lived positioning wise for shops. Other than when I lived in Green Street, Upton Park.

And that's a completely different world in Upton Park in Green Street. However, I lived in a flat in opposite a pub. It was the only pub, but there might be in a pub further down near the nearest football ground, because West Ham used to play from that ground.

Now they're in Stratford, I think. But I lived in this flat above was upstairs flat. It's a sublet ye don't ever do sublets.

It's not it's a lot of hassle. And I come out so I'd go out my hour go down steps. Then go it's like an alleyway really terrible.

It was an alleyway turn left down the alleyway onto the main street the high street. You'll never see so many people in your life. Honestly, everybody in the world is there.

There's 1000s and 1000s of people. It's very quiet at night. But during the day, 1000s of people.

And you can hardly you can't get on the pavement. I mean, the cars are parked while they're they're trying to get through. There's so many people, the cars actually get lifted up and tip over because there's so many people.

It's really a lot of people. But turn right. There was an Iceland supermarket.

There was I think a Sainsbury's. There was everything. Every single shop that I needed to go and just buy things.

You know food grow. I'm talking about groceries. I don't know about anything like Argos or anything else.

There was a I think there might have been a there might have been a music store because I did buy a guitar whether I bought it from that road or not. I don't know. And I used to go to the pub across the road on a Sunday lunchtime when I wasn't working.

At the time I was doing insurance and insurance I was doing security work. So I was doing 12 hour shifts in the West End. So I didn't I wasn't always around.

But I don't think or was I maybe I was doing night shift. It's hard to remember. I'd have to really kind of zone in on the time.

Well, I definitely went there a few times anyway. And there was a bloke called I think Derek, I think. And he was a bit of a wheeler dealer and I've gone really well with him.

I don't even know where I met him. I think I did meet him in the pub. And I'd see him in the street and we just have a chat and stuff.

And it'd be a place where people just go in there have a sing song because a karaoke on a Sunday afternoon or lunchtime. And it was really nice atmosphere wasn't busy, but really nice. I liked it.

And what else? Hi, whoever's watching. Yeah, so that was probably one of the best places. But this town that I lived in.

When I think about it, it was it weren't too bad. Actually, it just I guess I didn't really. Yeah, it was a tiny little place.

But we did have a Tesco. So turn left. Yeah, there was a Tesco.

Opposite the Tesco. There was that was where pretty much the opposite of Tesco with the road that was Boots Pharmacy, or chemist we call them chemist back then. Opposite directly opposite that as well a chip shop was and directly opposite a chip shop.

There was like this big, not big area, but it was an area which had a shelter. And opposite there was the cinema. And further down on the right hand side is where the taxes used to kind of stay around.

And, and there was some shops further up. Just standard things, you know, like estate agents, news agents, florists, I'm trying to think on that side of the road, there was ended up being a like a quite a healthy food place which I used to eat at, like salad rolls and stuff like that. Busty Bun Buns or something was called I forget.

And but then next to that, I think it was an estate agent. There was a butcher's Yeah, it was a butcher's. And I was a bike shop.

There was the Oh, yeah, there was the the news agents that I used to work at to deliver my newspapers. That was there as well on left. Next to that was a florist.

Moving up there was this like a furniture store. Then further up there was like a hardware store. But I think before that, the post office was there.

And then it kind of started to tinker out a little bit. And then there was a supermarket right at the end. But I don't there was a time when that supermarket wasn't there.

You could say that about anything. You could say that about the pyramids, couldn't you? But we're not talking about pyramids. And we're not being that pedantic.

Are we? No, thank you. But there was a time when there was there was this used to have a like a like a market fair, which used to be there once a week, or maybe every day, I don't know, on this ground. And there was all this like shrubbery.

And it's almost like a little forest to get through. They knocked all that through. And they built a supermarket.

And they built this whole big building with other stuff in it as well. So like a joint like a bakery, cafe, a pub, a few shops. I think Vinnie just woke himself up.

If anyone has followed on TikTok, thank you. Cheers. I if you turn to go Yeah, opposite that there was the co-op.

There's also a hotel. And there's this big spaces but like, it led you to kind of where the train station is. But the train station was just a train track to start with with a not just a train track because that was the end of the line.

And then you've got this not balcony, what do you call it the platform. But initially, there was nothing else there. And then they built like a big bnq or something like that on the other side.

And they built that supermarket and a massive well big car park outside the other side. So it's all different from what it used to be. This is this happened while I was a kid.

Then going back the co-op and just a few shops down there. But anyway, we're talking about the chip shop. So when in there, I can't honestly say that the chip shop had a help wanted like sign.

I think it might have been because why would I go in there but what I did do is I just walked in and said can I have a job and the bloke be on a counter. I think he found it quite amusing that I did that or annoying one of them. And he said we'll come back later.

So I did tell me to come back. gave me a time went back and yeah, so that's it kind of went from there. What I could have done.

I mean, there's lots of what I could have done. I could have done lots of different things. There's a couple of things I wish I'd done if I was to go back, but then everything you do changes the future, doesn't it? So if I went back now, and did a different job.

I might not be here now at my age. Talking on TikTok, missing out on the excitement of the making videos and stuff. Wow.

Yeah, in my flat. Looking forward to boiling some vegetables later. Some potatoes.

Maybe having some put some tomato ketchup on the potatoes and mixing it in. And just looking just waiting for that first little mouthful. See, I might have missed all that Mr. missed out on all that.

I might be traveling the world jet setting, living in a mansion. See, I missed out on this. So I think what I would have probably I would like to have done if it was possible is to move gone, because I live near the docks.

Got a job on the docks. There was loads of jobs on the docks available. For people like me, I could just deliver packages.

And, you know, he's calling runners, I think. So maybe do that. Maybe not a 15.

I think maybe I was too young, but or perhaps had I known that had the ability to talk. Absolute rubbish. What I could have done is go to the next town.

Not a 15 probably because I've only got a job. A full time job hardly anywhere at 15. chip shops different.

Those kind of place fast food is pretty much okay. Could you get paid by the hour? I suppose. But like an actual proper job with contract and stuff.

I don't think that legally would have been able to employ me at 15. But can you imagine, as soon as I hit 16? If I'd have gone to the next town, gone to the insurance company that I worked at when I was 31. Gone there at 16.

I'd have had the same absolute weirdness. I'd have enjoyed it because I was talking on the phone. I'm not saying I could have held the job down because I wasn't very good at holding jobs down.

But I'd have been earning some good money. And also, the one bit of advice that my dad did give me, which I never took. I took it eventually.

But right from the start, not 15 because I was too young, but he said, get yourself on the council list, the housing list. And I just because he told me to do it, refused to do it, which is a bit silly. And then I think about 2009.

I put myself on the housing list for the first time. So I got this flat in 2015. And I don't know, I mean, I reckon at 15, I would have been pretty much first in line for some kind of council accommodation, because I was pretty much homeless at 15.

And when I was sleeping on a camper bed in the living room of my step grandmother, I didn't have my own bedroom. That's, it's not homeless, but it's, it's not, didn't have my home, didn't have a home. It's, you know, it's very different from, it's, it's not really any different from coach, coach surfing, couch surfing.

So if I'd have gone to the housing, the council and ask for help, then they probably would have done something. I don't know what had me adopted maybe. But I'd have got a council flat probably by the time I was 18.

Because, you know, literally, and also I'd been in care previously before that as well, a few years back. So I think I would have been a prime candidate to get some kind of help, which I did actually get some help. I don't mention this enough.

In the last year, of probably the last six months, maybe, of working at the chip shop, I went to the council, so I literally had no money for food. I was eating when I was working. So it's not like I had no, I was still eating, but I didn't have any money to sort of buy deodorant or to um, mind you, some of the customers put money together and like, bought some deodorant in for me, because I smelt so bad.

And it didn't happen. I'm joking. And that'd be weird.

Well, imagine how funny would that be though? I would probably, what did I do? I went to the council, I told them my situation. And there was a long wait. So I think I probably did it.

It took a few months. And then I got a check and they gave me some money. But the thing is, they didn't, it didn't explain it to me.

So I didn't know what I was getting. I didn't know how much I was getting. I didn't know why I was getting it.

I didn't know how long I was going to get it for. So the whole thing was very confusing to me. Now, what I should have done, again, I didn't, is straight away go to the Citizen Advice Bureau.

But I didn't even know that existed, didn't know what it was. When I was 15, I didn't know what Citizen Advice Bureau was. I probably, if you said, go to the Citizen Advice Bureau, I is that like a secret agency, secret service, secret service place or something? I don't know.

If I'd gone there, they would have helped me. And perhaps I'd have got a social worker to help me and sort out somewhere to live. And I wouldn't have had that pressure to go and do something I didn't want to do.

And you know, could have, should have, you know, but what I would think is if there's a way of me passing on that to other people, like, sometimes, that's why I'm very big on asking for help. And I don't know if, well, I'm pretty sure, certain that not everybody's raised to believe that that's acceptable to ask for help. And I'm not talking about every single day asking everyone, can you help me?

Can we do this? But, but all the time, just when we need help, we all need help at some time.

I'll ask. And there's no better place to get help than a service that's actually set up specifically to help you. Like this is the Citizens Advice Bureau or, you know, for example, they were really good.

Actually, I did see them later on for a few things. So they were good, but not for that. But I went to council.

So I got a little bit help there, which meant I was able to get some clothes. The weird thing about it, it coincided with when I got the money, it coincided with my auntie passing. So I spent a lot of the money on a suit.

So I've got this really nice suit and a jacket and stuff, shoes. So I could because that's the first, first adult thing that I'd been to, you know, family gathering other than like weddings and yeah, weddings really. So I was able to dress nicely and respectfully, but kind of the money went on that.

But it was just nice to have clothes, nice clothes for, you know, for a change. Because at the time I was kind of really just wearing the same old jeans and trainers and there. I just smelt the fish and chips wherever I went.

I would literally go across the road to Boots to buy something, maybe or Tesco, maybe. Just don't remember going to Boots. I think maybe to get something, I don't know what it would be, something for the shop.

And then someone would be saying, what's that smell? What's that smell? And everyone would point at me. So yeah. Oh, wait a minute.

It was me that was shouting, what's that smell? Oh yeah, I need to get that story right. What a weird thing to say. So I, yeah, so that's what happened.

I just went in there and won the job. Right. So these are the TV shows from 1989.

I got, I got sidetracked, I'm afraid. Alternative car, children's TV is beginning to thin out compared to the early 80s. US imports now feel completely normal in prime time.

Always felt normal for me. I didn't really know any different. I mean, when you think Dallas, Dynasty, The A-Team, Logan's Run.

I loved Logan's Run. Logan's Run was so good. If you never know what Logan's Run is, if you don't know, search it on Google.

It was, I'm surprised they haven't made like a new series of it, like a new, an updated version. It was so good. Maybe they have, but it was so good.

And the concept really was, I want to spoil the concept. So good. And some major TV shows on the BBC.

These were debits in 89. Blackadder goes forth. Series four.

Okay, it's not really a debit, but I suppose this is a new series. A bit of Fry and Hugh Laurie, who does the Doctor. He plays the Doctor in House.

Have I Got News For You, pilot recorded 1989. Series launches 1990. Now I remember that launching and I remember seeing the very, very first episode of Have I Got News For You.

So I didn't know that they did a pilot in 1989. But I remember watching the very first episode because it was in, I would say probably September time, 1990. And I was living with my dad for a short period of time.

And we just moved into this new house he's in now. He's moved in there. And I was, he went to bed and I was watching this before going to bed.

I wonder, maybe I was watching it before going to work actually. Because I was doing night shifts back then unless it was on at the weekend. Yeah, I'm not sure.

But I remember watching it anyway. Dear John, new series era continues. Dear John, new series era continues.

New series in 1989. Dear John was earlier on. I'm sorry.

That's throwing me right off. Was there a different? That doesn't seem right. Dear John, 1989.

Dear John, the sitcom title. Stand by your man. No.

Dear John TV show from 88. I can't believe my laptop just shut down. Why? My laptop literally just shut down.

Now I know there's enough. There's enough juice on it. Right, my laptop just broke down, not broke down, it just stopped working.

And I closed it and it sent a big puff of dust right in my face, which made me cough. So now I'm just setting up again. Because I need it to read off the stuff that we were doing.

So I know they did an American version of Dear John in 1989. But I don't ever remember seeing it in England. Or maybe they did.

Maybe they showed it in England. Well, maybe it did. New series era continues.

Maybe they did. ITV press gang 1989. I'm pretty sure press gang was based.

It had it had what's the name that ended up being in EastEnders. And I loved her. It was kind of it was a teen program.

So it wasn't a bear in mind. I was a teenager at the time as well. It wasn't for kids, but it was adults could watch it as well.

But it was probably on around like the six o'clock kind of mark on ITV, maybe 530. Press gang. And it's basically I think, in a press office, and I think maybe it was students in a press office, something like that at a university.

A touch of frost series begin. So in 1992, really, I was just a pilot. That's quite ahead of time, isn't it? 1989, two years, three years before the actual series start.

The upper hand sitcom starring Joe McGann. 1989. That was a version of Who's the Boss.

So that was our version of Who's the Boss that we had Joe Danza, I think. And the Hardwick House. Controversial satire starring Rick Mow.

Hardwick House. I'm gonna have to check that out on YouTube. Agatha Christie's Poi Rot.

Stay Lucky. Debuted 1989. So that's Dennis Waterman, who was in Minder.

And the one of the girls, the female from Bread. She was in that as well. I was gonna say the Liverpool actress, but everyone from Bread is Liverpool.

Apart from Shorty, was it Shorty? Which was, I think he was Northern Irish. Drop the Dead Donkey. Oh, wait a minute.

Stay Lucky, the Bill. I watched some of these old programs on TV. They're just like floating around.

And I quite like Stay Lucky. He's basically living on a barge. He's, I think he's living with someone.

I think she played Penny in. What was that TV show where she played Penny? Where he kept coming and going, and he's, she was in love with him. I think she, he dealed with her at the altar.

And then he came back into her life. And then he kept messing her around. And it was quite successful at the time.

So Drop the Dead Donkey, The Word, Eurotrash, and The Last Resort, Channel 4. The Last Resort, that was Jonathan Russ. And it was really good. It's basically our version, really, of The Tonight Show.

Drop the Dead Donkey. Again, that was just a commission that didn't start till 1990. That's also based in a press office, I do believe.

The Word, I didn't know The Word was out. It was a development phase. But that was 1990.

So we'll talk about that next week. Eurotrash, development phase. Wow.

Eurotrash, that's just a different level. Honestly, I don't even know if you could get away watching it on YouTube now. Hi, mate, letting you know, letting anyone on for a chat and a little sing.

Sorry, I'm just just doing my podcast, really. So you're welcome just to listen and watch. And this whole podcast or this whole recording on video and podcast will be available either later tonight or tomorrow morning.

Cheers. Thank you. Appreciate that.

Jay was it? Jay Fernie. Jay Fernie? Hi. And key continuing UK series 1989.

Comedy and entertainment, only fools and horses. If you notice that as we go through the years, there's less and less new stuff. But a lot more of like continuing stuff.

Red Dwarf, French and Saunders, the New Statesman, spitting image, ever decreasing circles. Hello, hello, the two Ronnies, Wogan, the late, late breakfast show. It says ended in 1988, but remembered strongly in 1989.

That doesn't count as a TV programs on TV, does it? I remember little and large, but that's not gonna be put down in 2026. Because I remembered them from a while back. Dramas and soaps, EastEnders, Coronation Street, just continuing really Emmerdale Farm, Brookside Casualty, Inspector Morse.

I nearly said Inspector Mouse then realized that doesn't make sense. And it's just my eyesight. Although I think that'd make an interesting Danger Mouse, Inspector Mouse, wherever there is danger, he'll be there.

Inspector Mouse, Powerhouse, Bergerac, Howard's Way, final series. 1989 was the very last series of that. So I used to, I don't know why I like that.

I think it was because it was a lot of rich people living, or like, you know, traveling on yachts and stuff. There's something quite nice to like about that, I think. So whoever's just followed me, thank you.

Appreciate it. Yeah, Howard's Way. I think part of me always quite liked the idea of living that type of lifestyle, you know, money and living the high life maybe.

Never got to do it, but I think it appealed to me, just on a kind of, just to see what it was like, you know. London's Burning was still going, Taggart and Minder. So this is 1989, 1989, near the end of its run, 1989.

Yeah, I don't know how long Minder went on for. I thought it was still running in the 90s. But maybe, maybe it didn't run for much longer.

It's weird, I remember it being on. Because once Terry left, Dennis Waterman, Arthur Daly got his nephew to come in and look after him and do the minding. And his nephew could do karate or kung fu or something.

So the thing is, because he was still getting his nephew into trouble, but not as much because it was his family. So with Terry, Arthur Daly would just put him in some of the weirdest, worst positions and not care. To the point where he even tried to split up his relationship with his with his girlfriend, which was like, which I think is why he left.

He didn't. I mean, that's why he left in the show. I mean, but I don't recall him doing anything like that with his nephew because family in it.

I don't know whose family I don't know if he's, it's his brothers and sisters kids, or the brothers and sisters of her indoors. Music and youth culture, Top of the Pops chart show, Rapido, which was a music show. I think I just realized it sounds wrong.

But it was done by French Gutierre, I think. And it was the precursor to Eurotrash. South Bank show.

News and current affairs, same old stuff, just the news. Sports, 1989. Match of the day, Grandstand, FA Cup, Wimbledon.

Snooker's now past his peak. So yeah. Major import shows in the UK in 1989.

So MacGyver, the 18s winding down, Knight Riding near the end, Miami Vice ends in 1989. LA Law, big UK hit now. Moonlighting continues.

And Magnum P.I. ending era. Comedy imports, Cheers, Golden Girls and The Cosby Show. All of which I used to watch on a Friday night.

Children's imports, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. It's a cartoon, wasn't it? The Transformers, still airing. Inspector Gadget and the Smurfs.

I think like last week, Only Fools and Horses Christmas specials are now like a cultural event in this country. And I do miss them. There hasn't been one for a long time, but I do miss that.

For someone that doesn't really, I don't really celebrate Christmas as much as maybe a lot of people do. So for me, Christmas Day, I'd look forward to Top of the Pops. I'd look forward to, like as I got older, I mean, I'd look forward to Only Fools and Horses and EastEnders.

You know, the EastEnders, maybe Coronation Street. Kids TV begins to thin out. But TMNT arrives like a shockwave.

I don't even know what TMNT is. Look at this, 1989 feels like closure. The end of one TV era before the 90s arrive.

I'm not sure, really. I suppose. I mean, it's always just trying to think.

1990 compared to 89. I'm not sure. Just trying to think.

1990 was a good year, predominantly, pretty much for me. I only had five jobs that year. Five or six.

And I only lived in one, two, three, four. I only lived in four different places. So that's a good, good year for me.

So I'm, that's it. 1989. It's just, maybe next year, like 1990, there'll be a lot of new stuff.

Because there's only so many times I can talk about Blackadder or Only Fools and Horses or Red Dwarf or Brookside or Spitting Image and all that stuff. Although there was that show, wasn't there? The one that had, I've gone back to 1988 there. Blimey.

What's the one with Rick Mayle? I want to look this up because I want to see it. New Statesman. That's Rick Mayle.

Okay, new stuff. Major debuts, Dear John, Look and Read, Press Gang, Comedy, Controversial Series, The Hardwick House, Controversial Satire, Stone and Rick Mayle. 1989.

Right, I'm going to look that up and see where that's playing. I want to see it. I've not seen it, I don't think.

Although, chances are I did see it at the time. Oh, how long have I been talking for? A little bit of time. I'd like to say thank you to everyone who's watched live on TikTok.

Thank you everyone that's watched on video. Thank you everyone that's listened on my podcast. And remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy.

Be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe. And also remember that you're already enough.

You're already enough and you're going to be okay. Lots of love. Bye.

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