(Long Music) Trying NOT To Prepare For My New Kitchen | #1676 Let Me Bore You To Sleep | 3rd September 2026 | Jason Newland

Hello, welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. My name's Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

Your eyes. Today is the Thursday, the 3rd of September, 2026. Wow.

Yeah, it's 8.34 in the morning. Not the morning, but the morning. Because, you know what, earlier on I felt like I was almost coming down with a cold.

I had to turn the heating on. Had to turn, yeah I'll repeat it, if you think that two weeks ago we was, you know, in a heatwave, had to turn the heating on. And you could argue we didn't have to turn the heating on.

You know, there wasn't a gun at your head. I said no, there wasn't. Because if there was a gun in my head, do you think I'd be mentioning the heating? No, I'd be talking about the gun at my head, wouldn't I? Blimey.

And if there was a gun at my head, I'd probably stop feeling cold, wouldn't I? I probably wouldn't be so worried about turning the heating on. Or turning it off, or not turning it on. I'd be just like, okay, what do you want me to do next? So, anyway, it was cold.

It was cold. The heating hasn't been on before, because it's all new radiators. Always they like to say in the trade, rads.

Wasn't that a term that surfers used to use? Rad man, it's really rad. Or maybe I'm thinking of something else. Although I did not test every radiator, it definitely warmed up.

The one in the bathroom worked, because I was in the bathroom just after I switched it on. I haven't got one in the kitchen at the moment, because they took it off. In fact, the one in the kitchen is actually in the storage room.

It's not attached, so it doesn't get hot. Obviously, it doesn't get hot. And the one in the living room must have turned on, because I definitely felt better after about five minutes.

Heated up pretty quick. The one in the hallway, I don't know, because I didn't take that particular journey. And I didn't go into the bedroom, because I didn't want to wake up Finny.

But ultimately, it seems to be okay. I'm going to turn it on again later. It's now on to come on when it needs to come on.

And I'm sure I'll come on during the daytime, because it's not cold during the day. The thing is, I've got so much to do today. I don't want to.

I really don't want to. But I kind of, okay, we're going to argue about all I have to, but I need to. It's part of my contract with the people coming to fit my kitchen, is I have to empty the kitchen.

I don't know if they would take me to court if they turned up and the kitchen was just full of stuff. But I don't think I'd get arrested for it. But they might not be too happy, and they might just leave.

And I might get told off by the council. Now, there's not an awful lot of stuff in there. If I could just be rough, well, not rough, but like, if I didn't have to, if I wasn't gentle, I could just chuck everything into a black bag in about five minutes.

But I mean, what I've got two cupboards, apparently, I'm going to have more cupboards when it's finished. But at the moment, I've got two cupboards. And in one of the cupboards, this is the one nearest the sink on the right hand side of the cooker.

It's nearest the window as well. At the top, it's full of like, I've got medication, and I've got my tea bags, and I've got my breakfast cereal at the bottom. And some tins of soup.

So there's not a lot in it, but it's pretty full. I mean, in all fairness, I can't actually reach the top shelf, but all the way to the end, you know, to the, to the back of the cupboard. But may have to get, I don't know.

I'll get my friend to have a look to see if there's anything up there. So I don't want, I don't want them to pull it off and something falls on them. I mean, it's nothing heavy is going to fall on them.

Not like a big chair or, you know, an anvil. It's not a cartoon. But that took quite long to come up with that, didn't it? There was a definite pause there, wasn't it? There was a dog barking now.

I just had to have a little break while the dogs were barking. Oh, yeah. So I need to clean out two cupboards.

So that one cupboard, the other cupboard, which is on the left side of the cooker. But we don't know where the cooker is. Oh, I don't know.

It's, if you walk into the kitchen, right, this is at the moment, it's going to look different when it's done. Immediately on the right, there's the freezer, the flat freezer, which has a lid on top. And immediately in front of me, there's a fridge, a little fridge and a little freezer.

The fridge is on top of the counter and the freezer is underneath the counter. I purchased the fridge brand new when I moved in. The freezer my dad gave to me, and it's about 700 years old.

It still works, kind of. But yeah, I'd rather not have. Well, the thing is, that was only supposed to be a temporary measure, because the counselor said to me, you need to have been here for, I think, a year before you can ask to take away part of the unit, of the counter, so that you can put in a proper fridge freezer, a tall one, which most people have these days, don't they?

So, I don't know why they didn't do that to start with.

I don't know. I don't know. And I don't know.

I really, really don't know. I didn't ask, because I didn't care, I suppose. I've searched, and I still don't care.

Isn't it weird? But yeah, I was like, I didn't care at the time, like, fine. Everything's kind of at the same height that it would be anyway. Plus, I'd run out of money, so I didn't really have the money to buy another freezer, because when I moved in here, blimey, it was expensive.

I paid out for a new fridge, because it was, when you move, well, I don't know about everywhere, but when I moved in here, it was completely empty. It wasn't a carpet, it wasn't an under felt thing for the carpet. It was, there was nail sticking up, there was paint all over the floor, and a couple of the windows were shot out, you know, so they needed replacing.

The kitchen, I mean, everything was clean, but the kitchen was grotty anyway, right from the start, and the toilet always had stains in when I moved in, so it's quite an old, I imagine the kitchen and the bed, the bathroom haven't been changed for a very, very long time. And so I needed to get a washing machine, because, well, simply, there's no laundrette anywhere, like anywhere here.

I'd have to probably go into town, which is a long way to do laundry.

So before I moved here, I lived opposite a laundrette, which was quite handy. So I used to go, when I had the money, I would go over there and do my laundry, or when I could go out. There was periods when I either didn't have the money or couldn't go out, and I should do my laundry in the sink, and just hang it up.

But generally, I'd use the laundrette and let them, just leave it with them to do. They weren't there at the weekends to do it, but it's kind of like, I think the laundrette, and I'm going to say laundrette lady, because I've only ever had laundrette ladies, but my laundrette ladies it's a much, it's kind of a more important relationship, probably the most important relationship I have, I've had.

And I kind of have to test out first before giving them my clothes.

So I go in and, you know, give them maybe my socks first, maybe give them some shirts. And then eventually, once I realized that they're, they seem to be friendly and they, you know, not judgmental, then I hand them my underwear. And when I collect my underwear back, if they're still friendly to me, I know I've hit the jackpot.

So basically, that's the, that they clean my, my dirty underwear and they still work in. And they still, the fact that they still work in there shows that, you know, this surprises me after they've done my underwear. But so I had one in Stratford and this lady, she was literally about four, four foot tall.

I'm not even expanding or exaggerating on that one. She's about four foot tall and she's a little Irish lady. And I'd known her for years anyway.

Well, I'd known her, she used to date someone, she used to date my landlord in 89. And, and then I started using the laundrette in 91. Because I moved back to Stratford.

So I moved away for a little bit and I moved back. And she was my, she was my laundrette lady all the way up to 95, I suppose, 95. I still used to pop in there and say hello to her.

But I moved, when I moved in 97, I had a washing machine in the house. So I used to use all that. And it was drier.

I wish I had a dryer. I want a dryer. That's what I want.

I want a tumble dryer. So at the moment, I just hang it up at the window. I close, open the windows right out, whether it's winter, whatever, have the heating on.

So the heat's going up, drying them and the air's, you know, stale in the room. Yeah, it's been all right. I don't have any damp or anything in here.

It would be handy to have a tumble dryer though. I can't afford one. And anyway, forgetting that the expense when I moved in, there was nothing in it.

So I got a, I went to Curry's, I think it was. This is weird. If you're not in the UK and Curry's, it doesn't sell food.

You'd think it might be a restaurant or something, wouldn't you? That, you know, that you could buy or eat Curry's, I suppose. I don't know why they came out with Curry's. I do wonder, maybe there's a store in India called Kitchen White Goods and it's a restaurant.

I don't know. Who knows? It's just a bit weird, isn't it? Anyway, I bought a fridge, a cooker and a washing machine. The washing machine, the fridge was cheap.

It was like, well, it's cheap, 100 quid or something. The cooker was probably about 120. It was all, they were like very basic.

I didn't get anything high class because I'm not high class. I'm high maintenance, but I'm not high class. So I didn't need anything fancy.

Plus, there wasn't the room to put in some really amazing cooker, you know, it was just a standard cooker. It's electric, so the electric connected to it. And there was no gas, there wasn't gas for a gas cooker.

There was gas, but it wasn't, it was an electric thing. My dad told me, he said, no, you need an electric cooker. Because we can't connect gas to an electric cooker.

I said, why not? And he said, he just turned his back on me and we tutted. And you want to know, you wonder why I don't tell you I'm proud of you. Wow, a bit harsh.

No, that didn't happen. And then I got, I got that, that was delivered probably a few days after I ordered it. And then others, I put it, so that the washing machine was about 350 pound.

And my double bed with game was about 350 pound. It's a really nice bed. And then the last thing I bought was the carpet, which was way more than 350 pound.

Something that was like 800, I think something like that. Very cheap carpet. But it's still, you know, it's, I was quite pleased once it was in.

But I've realized having talked to my neighbors downstairs, that they can hear every time I walk around. And you might think, yes, because you're big and fat. That might.

The thing is, I am quite a soft walker. You know, at night, I will almost tiptoe. I don't actually tiptoe.

I'll be very scared of what my, can you imagine putting this weight all on just my toes? That would not be a, that would be an ambulance journey, I think. But I try and be quiet. And I do try and be considerate to my neighbors, especially my neighbors downstairs are brilliant.

And to be fair, I've got good neighbors, all the neighbors are lovely. And yeah, most of the time they have been really nice. The only problem I had with my best friend who was downstairs, he was my neighbor, but it was just a chaotic lifestyle.

That's, and all the people coming in, that was the problem. But as a neighbor, he was pretty good to be fair, because he, he, he was quite protective of the building. And he, yeah, he, in some ways, he was like the daddy of the building, if that makes sense.

And he should look out for people. So, and everyone that's come in since, because we've had two people moved downstairs, one moved in, then they left, another one moved in. I got to know the one that moved in first.

But then she's gone. And then the new person, I don't really know them. I've spoken to them.

I've been in a flat once, but that's it. Haven't really had much in the way of a conversation, which is fine. The new person moved into Uncle Sausage's flat.

I didn't make any effort. I was like friendly, but I didn't make any effort to kind of really get to know her. Just generally, just leave her alone and stuff.

But I helped her a little bit when she moved in. She had some furniture, so I helped her with that. It wasn't heavy, it was just one of those things that are difficult to get up the stairs on your own.

And she has knocked on my door a couple of times asking me for help with stuff. So, you know, I get on all right with her. I don't, I don't really know her very well.

So, but she's quiet. I mean, I come out of my, this is going to sound like a contradiction, because I'm about to tell you that she's not quiet, but she is. Sometimes I come out of my flat and I hear blaring music coming from her flat.

I don't hear it when I'm in my flat. So I could not care at all. And that might come across as selfish, because it is.

But I know that the person living below her won't care about it. Because I know that I know the person quite well that lives below her. So that don't matter.

I know she wouldn't, she won't care. She probably won't even hear it. So, out of all the people that were living here when I first moved in, my friend downstairs was the very first person I got to know.

No, he wasn't. The lady downstairs was the first person I think I met. And I loved her and wanted to marry her straight away.

But I don't think she felt the same way. In fact, she told me she didn't. She said, you just moved in.

I don't know who you are. Fair enough. What about tomorrow? Can we get married tomorrow? No.

Anyway, I met her. I'm not sure who I met first, her or my friend downstairs. She was also downstairs.

She lived below me. Because I met him as I was walking up the stairs and he was with one of his friends. And I just introduced myself and he introduced himself and that was it.

And then I think a week or so later, I'm looking out the window and I see him in the gardens. I thought, I'll go and say hello. It was because I moved in here in April, so probably about May time.

It was pretty nice weather. So went out and just had a little chat and we hit it off really well. Not instantly.

So then the person next to him on the right hand side, who's opposite my neighbor downstairs, I didn't really meet her for a while. And then when I did, yeah, she was lovely. So again, I've known her for about 11, over 11 years now.

So she's been in my flat loads of times. I've been in her flat. We've, you know, we chat.

So I've known her for a long time now. And she's cool. And then upstairs, there was a bloke that I didn't really know.

Well, I didn't know anyone when I first moved in, did I technically, but there was a bloke, it was Uncle Sausages lived opposite me. So he was always there from the day I moved in. But I didn't meet him until probably a couple of months of living here.

And it's very much just like, hello. You know, but he was very chatty. So kind of got to know him fairly quickly.

Just trying to think the bloke next to Uncle Sausages, he moved out and rented his flat to the current tenant, because it's private. That's the only purchased flat in this building. The rest is just council.

And I get on really well with him as well. When he goes away, he's actually just got back when he goes away, I collect his mail, his packages and stuff and just keep keep hold of them for him. And really nice bloke.

So I've always got on really well with him. His wife sometimes cooks me biscuits and stuff. It's nice, isn't it? Anyway, he's been in pretty much the whole time I've lived there.

And I'll be honest, I didn't realize that the bloke had moved out. I thought that was the bloke. But it wasn't, because I'd never looked at him.

I didn't realize it was a different person. So everything kind of stayed the same from 2014, all the way up to 2000. And no, yeah, it did.

To 2020. Everyone was all living in the same, you know, everyone was there. So for six years, everything was the same.

And for most of that time, I had been I had Andre, sorry. And, you know, and then the lady downstairs departed at the beginning of 2020. And then at the end of 2022, my friend departed.

And then last summer, also 2021. Andre departed. And then last summer, Uncle Sausage departed first or second of August.

So it kind of all changed over what seemed, I know you could say, well, that is a few years, but it's quite a lot. It seemed like quite a short period. And yeah, I think, I don't know, the one that shocked me the most, it's hard to tell, but I'm just like with the lady downstairs, she was younger than me, but so is my friend.

And I just, I guess I didn't see that coming. But then my friend downstairs, I did see that coming. I kind of was almost on a daily basis expecting it.

So that's for a good couple of years. And still a shock though. But then Andre, yeah, I didn't, I did not.

That was, yeah. In some ways, that was the worst one, really, to be fair. I love that little boy.

I loved Andre in a in a way that I've never, never ever had that kind of love. It was like unconditional love. And I didn't understand unconditional love until I had him.

And however pathetic it might sound to talk about a ferret this way, it might sound, I don't think it's pathetic, but I adored that little boy, absolutely adored him. And we had a connection, such a close connection. And it's strange, it's hard to kind of explain it.

But I sort of felt safe when I was holding him. Relaxed me, calmed me down. You know, if I was out, and I kind of felt a bit, a bit tense, I'm underplaying it there.

But if I needed, you know, to relax, really needed to relax. As soon as I got home and just saw, saw him, and picked him up and cuddled him, I just changed the way I felt pretty quickly. The thing is, he was very affectionate to me.

He liked his own space. But he was, you know, I mean, he was getting kisses off him all the time. And very loving.

Vinnie isn't particularly loving towards me. He cuddles up to me on the sofa on the left, to the left of me. But I think he's just got that Jack Russell in him, which is a bit very independent, doesn't really need anyone else.

But the thing is, when he's not with me, when he's with other people, he changes into this needy, like a needy, completely needy, all over them, give me attention, give me attention. He doesn't really do that with me. I mean, sometimes he does come up and he wants my attention, but he doesn't jump all over me and he doesn't get excited to see me.

Even when I go out, I want to come back. He comes to see me, he doesn't just sit on the sofa like, what do you want? Oh, have you been out? I didn't notice. No, no, no, no.

See, he comes and sees me, but it's still like about 1% of what he does when he sees a stranger in the park. Gets so excited when he sees people. There's like, this is pretty much zero excitement when it comes to seeing me.

And maybe it's just because I'm with him so much of the time. Maybe that's what it is. I don't know.

Maybe he's just so bored. And I understand it because I live a very, very boring life. It's even too boring for me now.

I like making boring recordings and working on the website. But I would quite like to have something interesting happen. When I think of interesting things, I think about going on a cruise or going abroad, traveling a little bit.

Maybe over that time of life where I'm just thinking, how do I want to spend my years? Especially with the new medical stuff, being diabetic, now being on statins. It's kind of like, I like to do some things. I don't want to jump out of helicopters or climbing pot, is it potholing, whatever they call it, you know, when you climb through holes.

I don't want to parachute. I don't want to hand glide. I don't want to learn to fly a plane.

I don't want to stand on top of an old plane strapped to a little contraption and do loop the loop like some people in the 99 or 100 do. You see it on the news. Well, I'm 56.

I don't want to do it now. I didn't want to do it when I was six or 26. Never wanted to do that.

It's never, I've never woken up out of bed and like, woken up out of bed. I've never woken up, jumped out of bed and thought, I know what I want to do today. Or I know what I want to devote the rest of my life to.

Standing on top of old planes with double wings. And it's just no, no, I don't. Sorry.

I've got a friend who did the parachute for charity, you know, jumped out of a plane and stuff. And no, there's no logic. There's logic in raising money for charity courses, but there's no logic.

There's no logic in jumping out of a plane unless you have to. There's also no logic in having a plane where people don't have parachutes on. Everybody sitting on a plane should have a parachute.

It's just logical, isn't it? You should have a parachute and inject the seat. If you get on a little boat, you have to have a life jacket on. You get on a big boat, it doesn't matter.

Well, no, it does matter. You need to, everyone should be, you know, if you see these cruises, all these big, posh cruises that cost thousands, maybe more, like being on the, in the, it's like the Ritz on a ship. They should be all walking around in their gowns and their tuxedos.

And they should, on top of that, they should have life jackets. Yeah, because they're in a boat. It's still a boat, just because it's the size of a building.

It's still a boat. Well, that's what I think. I wonder how would it go down if you actually turned up on a ferry, maybe not on a cruise, or let's say a cruise ship.

You turned up and you were wearing a life jacket as you were going to board the ship. What would they say? Would they let you on? Can you imagine the idea of them refusing your entry because you're wearing a safe life jacket? Wow. I don't know.

I don't know what the rules are. I mean, I've ever done, some of the other things I wouldn't want to do, water sports. And I mean, I'm talking about like water skiing and things like that when I say that.

And I've tried water sports. And I'm not just talking about that. When I was at the chip shop, my boss said, Hey, Jason.

And this was in October or early in the year. It was cold anyway. It was dark and cold.

He said, Hey, Jason. I'm going water skiing with one of my pals. Do you want to come water skiing with us? And I said, Yeah, sure.

I don't know why. But I said, Yeah. So I went along.

And I think I had a wetsuit they put, you know, got to put the wetsuit on. Never done it before. I can't swim really.

Minimally, which means probably hardly at all. I haven't swum for decades. So I don't know if I could still do it.

And even then it was pretty much I need the side, I need the side of the swim pool. But funny enough, this is really weird. Okay.

This just goes to show how I don't know what the right term is, but okay, how influential people can be. I never swam in the sea. I might go in the sea up to my chest.

That was pretty much it. So I might swim, you know, on that kind of depth. But it's more splashing around and stuff.

And this is when I was a kid. And one day, my Nan said, See that? I said, What? He said, that thing bobbing up and down. I think, Oh, gosh, he's going to point out, he's going to point out another poo in the sea.

It's getting boring now. I don't stop. Can you please stop pointing out the poo, Nan? And she said, No, not the poo.

It's your granddad. It didn't look like a poo. I'm not saying my granddad's head looked like a poo.

It's just he was swimming. She did point out, my Nan did not point out poo in the sea. I don't know why I even said that.

He must be looking down at me thinking, he used to be such a nice boy. What happened? So I see my granddad and he's swimming. He's quite far out.

So I've got no idea how deep it was. Way deeper than any swimming pool probably that I've been in. And he was just swimming across.

And there's something about seeing him do that, that made me think, yeah, it's safe. I can do that. And I did it.

Not that day. But I went back, I swam out. It's very, very calm.

So it was a good day to do it. And I was way out of my depth. You know, and I just swam from one side to the other because it was like, I saw the length of the beach pretty much, you know.

And to this day, I think I did it once. And I still couldn't believe I did it. I just, it's almost like seeing my granddad do it gave me this superpower to have no fear.

Because I suppose in some ways, my granddad was like a superhero to me in a way because he was, I don't know, when I was little, I knew he was a boxer. He'd been a boxer, he was a champion boxer or whatever. He was in the army.

He fought in the war, you know, like a lot of people of his age. He, I was told, you know, he's the reason why I've been born. So it wasn't for him.

I mean, literally, if it wasn't for him, my dad wouldn't be here. Therefore, I wouldn't be here. And so, yeah, but seeing him and his little head bobbing up and down, I'm not sure if he wore a cap.

I'm saying that like you just asked me, I'm like, did he wear a cap, Jay? I'm not sure. I think he did. I think it was brown.

Hence my nan mistaking him for poo. So yeah, it's, he just did a length, like the length of the, I don't know how many he did, because I didn't realize he was in the sea. Because he didn't tell me when he was doing stuff.

He didn't like call me up and say, grandson, I'm now going for a walk. No, grandson, I'm going to go and collect the paper. Grandson, I have a bowel movement.

Like, granddad, I don't need to know everything you do. Stop phoning me. Which I would never say because, oh, got to have respect in it.

That never happened. He never phoned me telling me he needed to go to the toilet. But he didn't inform me on his particular life choices.

You know, he didn't ask my opinion. Do you think that maybe I should wear the turquoise shirt today? Like, no. Oh, here's, well, it was funny, but when my granddad's, when my nan showed me my granddad's cupboard after he'd left, after he departed, full of new shirts, never been opened, still in a wrapper.

He just liked the shirts he had. He liked the clothes he had. And every Christmas, birthdays, his kids would buy him clothes, new shirts, new ties, because he used to dress very well, my granddad.

Almost, I suppose it was the army, because he'd done, I think, 12 years in the army, and then he spent another six years in the army during the war. So it's very military, you know, very military, military background. So the whole kind of clean shoes and polished and all that stuff is, you know, very immaculate, physically.

Just like me. Just like me. Actually, my granddad, oh, what did he look like? He looked like a movie star.

Not Cary Grant. Oh, he's, he looked like a movie star. He was a movie star in the 40s or whatever, maybe 30s.

And he had a moustache and greased back hair. Dirk Bogart? No, not Dirk Bogart. But my granddad looked like him.

Hence why I'm so handsome, I guess. I remember I was looking at a picture of my nan, and she had this big long picture on the wall, and it was her, all her siblings. Huge family.

It's ridiculous. She had about 75 sisters, 15 brothers. I felt sorry for those brothers.

And they, it was a really long, honestly, I'm not even exaggerating, but it was a long photograph. It was black and white. It must have been, I'm missing the 20s on it.

So it's black and white. The 1920s, 100. Wow.

She was 96 in 2014. So she'd be 106, 108. So she was born 108 years ago.

So we're in 26, 18. So she was born what? 1918. Would that be right? I'm just guessing.

So that picture would have been taken probably in the 30s, because they all looked grown up. So yeah, they did look grown up. So at least teenage, early 20s, kind of.

So one of my, one of her sisters was stunning. Like, absolutely stunning. I think she had ginger hair.

I've always had a thing for ginger hair. But she was stunning. I said that to my nan.

She got annoyed with me. She said, what am I, chopped liver? It's like, I thought, wow. So I realised maybe there was a thing there from the past, that maybe there was, maybe her sister got a lot of attention.

And she was really, really, really good looking. There was nothing wrong with how my nan looked. But I kept saying to her, look, I don't fancy you, Nan, because you're my nan, ain't you? She said, but she's my sister.

She's also your family. I said, I know, but it's far enough removed for me not to feel guilty for what I'm going to, I don't know what I'm going to do when I get home. What I'm, it's not going to, I can't feel guilty because I don't know her and she's been long gone.

And I didn't say that. I said, like, I don't know what I said to her. I think I just said, no, Nan.

No, come on. You're not chopped liver. Of course you're not.

You're my special nanny, nanny. I think I'm in a weird mood because I know I've got to do lots and lots of work today and I don't want to do any of it. It's not just a case of getting everything out of the cupboards and the drawers.

I've got one drawer full of medication, another drawer full of like bits and bobs. Do you ever have like a drawer that's just for crap really, you know? Like maybe you put a letter in there. Maybe you put the scissors in there, maybe sellotape, a lighter, batteries, pens.

It becomes like just a little rubbish box really. Anyway, so I've got to clean that out, but I'm going to have to be careful because there's stuff that I need to have access to. For example, my medication.

So I can't just chuck everything into a bag and stick it in the storage room. It needs to be available for me to get to every day. I suppose what I could do, technically, I could just take the drawers out, couldn't I? Keep the drawers and then dump the drawers when they're finished.

No, because that means I've got drawers to get rid of. And I've got my friend coming around who's going to help me to move the white stuff, you know, like the fridge and the freezer and the other freezer. We can't move the cooker because it's connected.

I can't, I don't, you know, I'm not an electrician and I can't move the washing machine, first of all, because it's connected and secondly, it's too heavy. I can't move that thing. I couldn't even move it with someone else.

Washing machines are way too heavy and I don't know what will they do with the washing machine. Will they move it out themselves or will they work around it? I don't know. All I know is, you know, I can't remove it myself because it's plugged in.

It's all plumbed in. But once it's unplumbed, am I expected to move it? I don't know. And the best I can do is push it along the ground or like move one side to the other side and I'd be worried about breaking the thing because it is quite old now and I really cannot afford for that to break because, as I said, there's no laundry anywhere near here.

I'd have to do my laundry in the bath. Well, I can't do it in the bath because I can't bend over to do it in the bath, so I'd have to do it in the kitchen sink or the bathroom sink, the kitchen sink. The bathroom sink is too small.

And I've done hand washing before and it always ends up smelling a bit weird. It just doesn't smell right for some reason. Maybe that's just me, the way I've done it.

I don't know. Maybe it's the garlic I had. But you wash your clothes in garlic.

Shut up, it was a joke. It wasn't a good joke. It was just this grim.

It was just like weird. I know. Stop it.

But then the thing is, I need to tidy this room up, which is where I am now, the living room, in order to make room for the fridges and freezers and to make room for the other stuff. I've also got to tidy up the storage room because they're going to be putting in an electrical socket so that I can have my freezer in there. I also need to clean the bathroom because they're probably going to want to use the bathroom.

If they're here all day and need a wee wee, they're probably going to want to use the bathroom and it needs cleaning. I need to do my laundry because I'm not going to be able to use my washing machine until they've completed the kitchen, which might be two weeks. So I need to do all my two weeks worth of laundry today.

And it's now half nine and I've not even started. Okay, I've still got some clothes left. Not all my clothes need washing, but it's I've got no t-shirts left.

Yeah, it's going to be it before it's good. I mean, I'm going to get a new kitchen. Come on.

I mean, it's a good thing. I'm just I'm grateful kind of. I'll be you know, I'll be good when it's done.

I just don't want people coming in there. I've got a neighbor that's going to look after Vinnie. That's Vinnie's mom.

She's going to look after him on Friday and then any day that they're coming in because I don't think they're in every single day. It depends on, you know, there's one day for the electrician, another day for the carpenter and you know, it's different different things. So they don't always come in every day, which means hopefully they'll tell me on Friday, what's happening on on Monday.

And, you know, so on and so forth. Because in fact, if they don't, what I'll do is I'll call a company up and said that I need to know what days they're coming in. Because I have to find I've got got to take Vinnie somewhere because he will bark the entire time.

Which I didn't think he would do until I had the radios put in. And Vinnie was screaming for a good half an hour. And I was with him, he just could not.

He's overexcited. Every time someone came into the flat, every time someone opened the door, and I had my door closed in the No, it was upsetting the neighbors. And the radios being put in, there wasn't a huge amount of noise involved with that.

There was a little bit but that lasted, I mean, I think he removed most of the radios within about half an hour. The dog over the fence was just barking, barking, barking. And then I think other dogs are barking.

And it was just too much. So what I did is I asked my neighbor if it take him in and she did for it was only for about three hours. So yeah, that's it really, I'm going to go need to take video for walk.

He's not out of bed yet. Still in bed. Half nine, he's still in bed.

So it's over 11 hours, 11 and a half hours he's been in bed. I don't know how regularly I'm going to be able to make recordings from tomorrow onwards. I can't I won't be able to do anything probably during the day at all.

And by the time the end of the day goes, I might just, I literally might not be able to make any recordings much, but regularly for the next next week or two. But I'll try and do something at the weekend, probably might not be able to do anything tomorrow. But what I will do is continue to work on the website while they're here, because I pretty much just stuck in the flat, can't leave.

So I'll just stay here and work on the website and the podcast and upload and making playlists and all that stuff. And then that's it. It's cold now.

I think we're at that period when it's colder inside than it is outside. You know, there's a part of the year when I'll go outside and it's like, oh, it's a lovely day. But then the reality is, if I sat outside, it wouldn't be warm.

It's fine to walk around in. And there's sun as well. There's no sun in here.

I've got a light, a light bulb, it's not quite the same. So if I was to sit out, if I was to sit down, let's try and move this desk into the garden. Other than the noise, it'd be too noisy, but it's windy today as well.

I would be like, oh, this is chilly. It's not quite as warm and cozy as I thought it was when I was walking. So, yeah, we'll see what happens.

But that's the update, really, for me. This is the today's the second day that I've taken my medication for the diabetes. And I'm taking one tablet a day for a week.

And provided there's no bad side effects or anything, I'm going to continue with two tablets a day next week. And I started on the statins yesterday as well. So I did feel a bit weird yesterday morning.

I'll be honest, I did feel a bit strange. But, you know, afterwards, I was okay. So it's just a body getting used to it.

It's going to, it's going to, it's like I know medication can take a couple of weeks or sometimes three or four weeks to like fully, fully kind of work properly. It's still in your system. When you take it, it starts to be in your system.

It doesn't just lay dormant for four weeks, you know, until you've had enough tablets. So it's still going to get some kind of effect, physical effect. Not the full physical effect of having it.

Because I think these are release, slow release tablets, I think. Yeah, yeah, baby. I'm so tired.

So I'm going to take Vinnie out for a walk. I'm going to come back. I have my second breakfast.

And one of the things I'm going to do to change my diet is I'm going to have a roast dinner, which is it's a frozen one, but it's going to have a roast dinner. And because there's vegetables and stuff, I think I need to be careful of things like carbohydrates. I'm sure the nurse said, which is potatoes, isn't it? But I'm going to do it gradually.

I'm not going to change everything instantly. Just gradually build it up. And I'm in a position where I can't really buy any food.

Because I'm not going to have a kitchen. So everything I do is going to be either microwaved, or pretty much microwaved. I do have an air dryer, hair dryer, whatever the cooker, hair cooker.

And so I could use that but I'm kind of I noticed when I use that it's pretty stinky. Again, garlic. No, it's, it's yeah, this I don't know just leaves a kind of kitchen and still smells like hours later of what I cooked in the air fryer.

Microwave doesn't for some reason. So I don't really want to sit in a room full of well, once you've cooked you don't want to sit in the kitchen, would you? Unless it smells nice, and you like the kitchen. And if that I would quite like to sit in the kitchen, I'll go back on that one.

If I had a kitchen big enough where there was a seating area, I would definitely like to do that. And I would eat my breakfast and my dinners in the kitchen. At the moment, I don't have a dining room, I've got a living room, but I don't have anywhere I can eat.

So I eat at the table, or on the settee. But I have to move stuff away from the table of my desk to make room. Now if I lived a normal life, I didn't have these desks and all this podcast and stuff.

I could potentially have a like a little table and a couple of chairs. I used to didn't I used to have a table, I say that like, you know, I used to have a table and chairs when I first moved in. So I could definitely downsize if I got rid of all this stuff, which I'm not going to because I need it but it would make a lot of space to have a table.

Chairs to sit around to eat or drink coffee, whatever visitors. And then I've got a sofa, reclining sofa, it's very old, it's ripped, it's fallen apart. And I'm thinking, if I get rid of that, maybe I'll just get myself another another, just a chair, something to maybe when I can recline in or something.

But then what do I do if I have a visitor? Because I don't want them sitting in my chair. No, I think I'm okay. Actually, I did used to let people sit in my chair, didn't I? Yeah, yeah, that's all right.

I'm not sure I like it though. I like my chair. I used to like my chair, I did.

And where's Vinnie going to sit? Because he'd have to be on the, not the windowsill, the ledge, the elbow rest. Because I don't think he would, yeah, I'm pretty sure he wouldn't get on my lap and lay on my lap. I might be wrong.

But he'd definitely still want to be near me. Because I think he likes me a little bit. I think.

Not enough to come and say good morning, apparently. So I'm going to go. Thank you for listening.

And remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself. You deserve to feel safe.

Lots of love. Bye.