(Long Music) Q&A Friday | #1638 Let Me Bore You To Sleep

Hello and welcome to let me boy to sleep on this very, very, very hot day. It's the 26th of June. Yeah, June.

I'm trying to think what month is 6th. 26th of June, 2026. So it's the 26th of the 6th.

26. I love it when that happens. Well, not when the day's got three sixes in I don't mean it like that, but just kind of like matching.

That's what I mean. And it's 1616. It's for 16 minutes past four.

No. Six minutes past six. And it's actually 117 in the afternoon.

Hot, hot, hot, hot. So please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. The flies are even landing on my microphone.

That's just rude. So yeah, let me boy to sleep and it is all Q&A Friday. Q&A Q&A Q&A Friday.

Q&A Yeah, sorry. Q&A I've stopped. I've stopped.

It's out of my system. Q&A Friday. Okay, now it's out of my system.

One more. It's Q&A Friday. So, yeah, I do have some questions, which is good.

So thank you for those people asked the asked some questions. I have Sarah and Nikhil and Ali. So thank you all of you for asking questions.

Before I go on, let me have a look before I go on and on and on and on and on. I hope that. The last let me boy to sleep, which was number 1637 and was called it was called this is for Luca pain.

I hope you heard it, Luca. That's why I mentioned that. I don't know if you heard it or if you saw that I I did a shout out for you, but I've now done another shout out for you.

Yay. I had my delivery. I had a delivery this morning for my Wiltshire farm foods.

This isn't an advert. It'd be lovely, wouldn't it? If I could. Oh, man.

I mean, I had some adverts last week came on to my podcast. I think it was a week ago today was Friday. Absolutely ridiculous.

There's like the podcast was showing adverts every I don't know, every 10 minutes or something or whatever on some of my podcasts and by the time I realized I had done it, it was just like, Oh, man. I haven't lost a load of listeners. So I might have done.

I mean, I got rid of the all those adverts like as soon as I realized that was happening. But if someone came and listened for the first time, chances are they're never going to come back because like how can you have a sleep hypnosis recording or a sleep podcast where 32 minutes in you've got a big loud advert. Like no, doesn't work.

And it's sad in a way that I'm unable to have them because I could earn a living doing this if I was able to have adverts like paste throughout the podcast. If it was if I was just like a normal podcaster. I could earn a living from the adverts.

You know, if I was just doing like a I don't know like an interview kind of podcast or just talking which wasn't had nothing to do with sleep. And then I wouldn't have as many adverts as they will put it in there. But I could put in, you know, and for every half an hour, something like that, or every 20 minutes.

And yeah, probably probably probably earn a living from these podcasts. It doesn't work with sleep hypnosis. I just picked the wrong subject.

But then what other subject could I have done? Because everything I do involves kind of, well, it's either hypnosis or it's sleep. You can't have an advert in the middle of us of a hypnosis recording for I don't know, nail biting or something like that or stop smoking. Suddenly a big you know, I mean, so what I need is a sponsor.

I need a sponsor, like a sponsor with money. And I can just I don't know, you know, like football teams get sponsored. But then football teams sometimes do the sponsoring as well, don't they? But to be sponsored by and if I was like a, let's say if I was a boxer.

He's always talking about boxing. Yeah, man. I know.

I know. So if I was a boxer, I was just starting out even if I was an amateur, if I was kind of in a good, then I might be able to get sponsorship from some of the local businesses in my town. Maybe the local football team might sponsor me so I can put their logo on my t-shirt.

You know, I mean, that kind of stuff. Or if I turn professional, then have something like that. I could work on a podcast.

I think the thing is because I'm not local. I have people in my local area listening. I know according to the stats I do.

I have people because I'm kind of near London. I have people in the southeast listening, but I also have people. You know what I'm going to do now? I'm going to take this opportunity to look at the stats.

I'm pleased with myself for that. I managed to edge my way into doing that. And no one saw it coming.

Not even me. I mean, with the United Kingdom, for example, if you look at England, England, England. This is the last seven days or whatever.

So you got London, Leeds, Maidstone, Hartlepool, Birmingham, Rains Park, York, Harrow, Stanmore, Northwich, Manchester, Ashbourne, Gillingham, Liverpool, Wigan, Tower Hamlets, Huntingdon, Malmesbury, Woodford Green, Beckingham, Doncaster, Heathfield, Ashford, Gosport, Nottingham, Lewisham, Brent, Portsmouth, Hayes, Derby, Brigton, Brighton, New Milton, Eastbourne, Tamworth. I knew someone from Tamworth once. He used to go around telling everyone he was from Tamworth.

But that was it. That's all he did. Just like used to walk up to people and say, I'm from Tamworth.

Where's that? See, no one knows. Why are you telling me? Because of that, because no one knows. I'm advertising Tamworth.

It's near Birmingham, apparently. Theudon, Garnon, Swindon, Coventry, Bishop's, Stalford, Sheffield, North Holt, Utoxeter, Utoxeter. I generally don't know how to say that one.

Utoxeter. Sutton Coldfield, Haywards Heath, Harrogate, Mansfield, Lowestoft, Great Missenden, Catford, Peckham, Hackney. Peckham is only Fools and Horses territory.

So how many of those places have I been to? I've been to London. I lived in London. I was born in London.

Lived there for about two and a half years, or two years, whatever, when I was a baby. Then I moved to Newcastle. Then I moved back to London when I was 20.

Until I was 31. London, Leeds. I don't think I've been to Leeds, but I've been through Leeds.

Yeah, I don't think I've actually been to Leeds, like stopped and had a cup of coffee, or just stopped and said to a passerby, where are we? What is this town? And they said, oh, you're in Leeds. That would be classed as being in Leeds, I would say. At least kissing the floor, something normal like that.

Maidstone. So Maidstone is in Kent. So I had an uncle that lived in Maidstone.

So I've been to Maidstone a few times. He was my favouritest uncle in the whole wide world. Very, very beautiful man.

Hartlepool. I don't know where Hartlepool is. Is it near Blackpool? I don't know.

Birmingham. I've been to Birmingham. I went there on a blind date once.

Went to visit a lady and say, it was interesting. Well, for me anyway. Rains Park.

I think sometimes you get an idea for a blind date is going well or not. Is if you go to, if you say, well, I'm going to phone a taxi now and they say I've already done it. I've already booked the cab.

It's kind of like maybe it's not going as well as I thought. Rains Park. Now Rains Park is in London or just outside of London.

I knew someone that lived in Rains Park, but I don't think I've ever actually been there. York. I think I've been through York, like travelling through, but never been to York.

But I know my brother went to York on a school trip, like a school holiday. Because York is like a Roman, a former Roman place. And I think there's spas and I don't know.

I did ask him if he touched a Roman helmet and he said no. But it's, yeah, I didn't know at the time. I thought he meant Romans were still living there.

But I was only young. I was only like 19. Harrow.

Harrow. Harrow. What does that sound familiar? I think I've been to Harrow.

I can't remember. Stanmore. Sounds very familiar, but I don't really know where it is.

Is it anywhere near the airport? Is there a Stanmore airport? Stanmore. Stanmore. Stanmore? Stansted.

I think it's Stansted, ain't I? No, I think the Heathrow. Northwich. Don't know about that one.

Don't know where that is. Manchester. Yes, been to Manchester on the way to somewhere else.

But I stopped at Manchester and I got on a tram. I did, I did, I did and travelled through Manchester town centre. So technically I've been there.

I didn't do much there. But I have been there. I've walked the Manchester soil.

Ashbourne. Now I think Ashbourne is in Kent. So I might have been there.

Gillingham or Gillingham, I think also is in Kent. So I may well have been there. Liverpool.

Yep, I've been to Liverpool because I went there to to get a ferry back in 2004. The ferry was to the Isle of Man. So I've been to Liverpool.

Wigan. I don't know where Wigan is. Tower Hamlets.

It's part of London. I've been to Tower Hamlets. Huntington.

Don't know where that is. Malmesbury. Yeah, I don't know where that is.

Woodford Green. Part of London. Been there.

Beckenham. I don't know. Really don't know.

Doncaster. No, I don't. I don't know where that is either.

Heathfield. I don't know. Ashford.

I think Ashford is in Kent as well. So I would have probably been there at some point. Travelled through, but probably maybe stopped.

Probably have been there. Gosport. Don't know.

See, I recognise all of these names, but just, you know, don't know where they are. Nottingham. Yep, been to Nottingham many times.

Many times in the past. I mean, most things happened in the past, to be fair. Lovely area.

I really liked it there. And the people were really nice as well. The ones I met.

Can't really vouch for the ones I didn't meet. It's hard to judge people you haven't met, isn't it? Oh, wait a minute, people do that all the time, don't they? I try not to, though. I assume that everyone's lovely.

Lovely, lovely, lovely, lovely, lovely. Lewisham. Is Lewisham? It's a part of London, isn't it, I think.

Brent. I don't know David Brent, but I don't know about the town. Portsmouth.

I know where Ports, well, I don't know where it is, but I do know where it is, roughly. I think it's quite near to Bognor Regis, where I went to Butlins, where I worked at Butlins. So Portsmouth is, I don't know if it still is, but it used to be a naval, a naval base.

And where the Navy, I don't know if it's where the Navy did their training, but it's, it's very much, it was very much like a naval town. But I've never been there. But it's a famous, famous place in England.

You've got Hayes, I think that's near London, isn't it? Maybe it isn't. Derby. I had a girlfriend that lived in Derby.

So I visited there a few times. Brighton, Brighton, Brighton. Only been to Brighton once and that was for a funeral.

New Milton. I really don't know where that is, genuinely do not know where that is. Not all the time when I say I don't know where something is, I'm actually telling the truth, but on this occasion, I probably am telling the truth, probably.

Eastbourne. Eastbourne, I've been to Eastbourne. I had family that lived in Eastbourne and we went, when I was a kid, basically just camping and we were travelling around that area.

So yeah, Tamworth. As I mentioned, I had a friend who came from Tamworth and he kept mentioning Tamworth. Thaydon Garnon.

I can't, I struggle to even say it. Thaydon Garnon. Genuinely don't know.

Swindon. I don't know. I like the name of that.

Don't know why. I do. It sounds nice, but I ain't been there.

Coventry. Coventry. No, I don't know where that is either.

I think these are kind of middle of the country, the middle bits. I might be wrong. Bishops Stortford.

It sounds like countryside to me, but I might be wrong. It just sounds like there'd be lots of fields and trees and bunny rabbits running around. Sheffield.

Another famous town, well, city actually, sorry, in England. It's quite famous. I might be wrong with this.

Some of these places are famous for having university, being like a university town. Sheffield, I think has become one of them. And did Sheffield used to be boat building or steel or something like that? I'm being serious right now.

I don't. I think I might be right. I don't like to be serious.

I like to keep it light. Sorry, I had to mention boat. I had to mention boat building.

I do apologize. I'm sure Sheffield's famous. I'm sure maybe this is steel, making steel.

Because some of the towns in England were very famous for certain things. I think Romford was very famous. No, wait a minute.

Parts of Newcastle were very famous for ship building. I'm trying to think where the, there's parts of the country very famous for building cars, car manufacturing, and stuff like that. And yeah, I'm trying to think.

I can't think of. Oh, Dagenham. I think Dagenham was the place that was built for Ford.

So it's literally like a town was built around the Ford factory. Now, I think this is correct. Pretty sure, because I used to know a bodybuilder called Wilf Sylvester, and he was a former Mr. Universe, and like top 20 Mr. Olympia and stuff like that.

I met him when he like, retired from bodybuilding, and he owned a gym literally around the corner from where I lived. And it was about five foot four. But he obviously was a much lighter weight than people like Arnie and stuff.

But he was, he was doing bodybuilding at the same kind of time as probably looking like 70s and 80s was his kind of period. So he was doing it during Lee Haney and Rich, Rich Gaspari and all that stuff like in the 80s. He was coming in like in the top 20 and stuff.

And Al Beckles, Al Beckles. He was about 59 years old, Al Beckles, right? And he, he was alive to the about the age of 96, something like that. At 59, in about 1984, or five, he came I think, second or third in the Mr. Olympia, which is an amazing accomplishment, accomplishment for anybody of any age in the bodybuilding world.

And it probably quite easy for me. I wouldn't even have to train too hard. But you know, I don't like to brag.

But he is 59 years old. He was the oldest bodybuilder ever to even reach the top 10 of the Mr. Olympia. I think in fact, he might have been the oldest bodybuilder to ever even enter Mr. Olympia.

And when I say that I'm not mentioning I'm not talking about Lee Haney, who was the winner. I'm not being derogative. Just when I say entering Mr. Olympia, I mean actually becoming part of the show, you know, because I don't think you even have to give any notice.

You can just turn up on the day, I think. I've never bothered myself, because I don't need that boost of esteem. I've got enough self esteem already.

I just look in a mirror and look at my body and think, Yeah, you'll do. I don't need to go on stage in front of people and start flexing. And, you know, it's like, it's just a waste of a day, a waste of an afternoon, really.

And I just don't want to be oiled up by someone else. You know, it might sound weird. And I'm not being like, I don't really like being touched.

Unless it's by someone that I'm intimately connected with, like a girlfriend, or a mother. I don't have a mother. But you know, when I was a kid, I didn't.

I liked being touched by her. I put in sun cream and stuff like that. But didn't like it so much with the bloke next door.

You know, I mean, just, I prefer. I'm not really a touchy feeling person, having people. I don't want I don't want.

Okay, I don't want to sit in some big bodybuilder rubbing oil into me. It's just generally, I'd rather it be I just, I just, I don't want it to come across as being like anti oil rubbing. But at the same time, you know, if I want to be all excited about it, I don't want to come across as all biddy, biddy, diddy, whatever.

You know, I mean, like, I can't believe that baby oil has got such a bad reputation now just because of one man and all weird things that he got up to. Baby oil has been a very positive part of my life over the years. I'm very fond of baby oil.

In fact, I'd love to get actually promoted by baby oil like sponsored. So if you're if you work at baby oil company, is it Johnson and Johnson's? If you I will, I will, honestly, I'll mention baby oil at the beginning of every recording. I'm fine with that.

Because it is nice. It's really it's good for your skin and you know, but you can't reach your own back. That's the problem.

And at the bodybuilding contests, you know, I just don't want to go through like I have to ask someone, or excuse me, can you oil my back please? It's just a sentence I never want to have to say out loud in public. So that's why I never won the Olympia. I never didn't even enter the Mr. Olympia.

And I went to Mr. Universe, just to have a look. And I thought it's too easy. I was looking at these bodybuilders like pumping up and doing press ups like I saw this guy was doing like 15 press ups and he was out of breath.

And I thought I can do at least five without getting out of breath and he's supposed to be an athlete. And he was like so heavy and drained and had any probably had any water for about two weeks, hardly. So that all of you know, the muscles stood out and it's like a funny thing happened on a bodybuilding stage once wasn't funny for the bodybuilder.

So I'm not making fun of the bodybuilder, but it would have been kind of funny in the audience to watch. And he basically he was, well you know, I mean, you know what I look like. So you know what a bodybuilder looks like.

He was doing a pose where you're at front pose a bit like the Incredible Hulk used to do in a TV show. Well, I suppose the Hulk still does it, doesn't it? That kind of forward like that. Now, I don't know if you went but he froze.

And his trainer was like at the side of the stage saying, well done. That's great. Now you can move and do another one now.

You do another one now. Do the one where you point up a bit like Superman pointing and like you're about to fly off or something. But he didn't he just stayed in that that pose that Hulk pose.

And it literally frozen his his whole body had just frozen. The muscles had frozen, he couldn't move. So they had to lift him off.

And it took literally took about half the audience altogether to lift this monster off the stage because he was so heavy. Because he didn't have a crane available because they didn't know it's going to happen. After that, if you go to a bodybuilding contest, the Mr. Universes or Mr. Olympia, you always see a crane outside.

Now you know why. Just in case. And they've got these stages and I've always got this little window at the top, little skylight.

And you know, if you'd like one, why is there a window so high up? Now you know why. So they can, it's just enough room. It's actually shaped like a bodybuilder.

So they pull them up and then they have to kind of try and turn them so they get through. Otherwise, it's like a bit like a jigsaw puzzle really. But yeah, Peckham.

I'm trying to think of all the other ones. Where did I get through to? Lowestoft. Been to Lowestoft quite a few times.

I did. Oh, I did. Did I mention Harrogate? I've been to Harrogate.

I went to Harrogate on a computer course when I was 18. I was in a, I know it's Q&A Friday. I always talk about other stuff before I get to the questions.

You know I do. Why can't I just do the questions right at the beginning? I don't know. I've got so much to tell you, you see.

I didn't do a recording yesterday at all. I don't think. Did I do a recording yesterday? I don't think I did.

Because it was so hot. I just couldn't. I was asleep a lot of the day and I went to bed at eight in the evening.

In the morning, in the afternoon, in the evening. I went to bed early. Oh no, I did two.

I didn't do a Let Me Boy To Sleep. I did do two recordings. I did a Breaking Free From Manipulation one called Compulsive Apologizing and Healing From The Inside called Calming Anxiety At Night.

So I did those two. I forgot about that. But I did those in the morning.

Early in the morning I thought it was like hot. But once, once the day got here I couldn't do anything else. I'm a little bit, you know.

And I had a problem with Vinny because he had something stuck in his foot. So I had to ask a neighbor to come help hold him down while we looked at it. I had to put a muzzle on him and he was not having it.

Just to look at his foot, not to do anything else, just to look at it. And it was one of his hands. So that was worse because if it had been one of his feet, it's further away from his body.

And, you know, because it was one of his hands, he was pulling it towards his face and he was, he was trying to bite us to be honest. That he doesn't like, he doesn't like being held if he doesn't want to be. He doesn't like being picked up unless he wants to be picked up.

And he definitely, definitely does not like being held down. But who the hell does? Who likes being held down? No one does today. Apart from people that do.

And on top of that having the muzzle on, so I guess he felt very, he said, I think he said to me, what did he say? When I'm, when I'm, I don't like that muzzle because it makes me defenseless. And I said, Vinny, that's the whole point. The fact that you're defenseless because if I just held you down or just got you down and looked at your paw, what would you do? He said, I'd bite you.

He said, I said, yeah, he'd bite me. He said, yeah, what's wrong with that? He said, I said, well, I don't want you biting me. He said, well, I don't want you holding me down.

I said, but I'm trying to help you. Well, how's holding me down helping me? Because of your, your hand. He said, what? I said, your hand, you've got something stuck in your hand from walking and we need to kind of clean your hand off and make sure it's okay and do what needs to be done.

And he said, I can reach my hand myself. I don't need your help. And he had been chewing it.

I said, yeah, but you don't realize I'm trying to help you. You also need to cut your toenails. He said, no, you're not.

I said, what? He said, you're not, you're not touching my toenails. I said, we need to cut your toenails. It's not a case of whether you want them done or not.

They have to be done. One, the little finger toenails, they're almost like, it's starting to look like a witch, like a, you know, like really scraggly toenails and stuff. And he started having a go at me for body shaming him.

Like, I'm not body shaming you. I care about you, baby. I want you to be okay.

And I want, you know, he said, but isn't that why we walk on the pavement quite a lot. So I can keep my toenails trim. I said, yeah, but you, you like to walk on the grass.

He said, no, I think it's you that wants to walk on the grass. I said, well, yeah, I do like walking on the grass because it's nice. It's summertime.

I can't walk on the grass half the year without getting wet and getting muddy because of the, the wet grass. He said, I understand what wet and muddy meant. You didn't have to mention the wet grass.

I mean, I'm on the grass too. I'm also getting wet and muddy. You don't hear me complain though, do you? Such an attitude on this boy.

And in the end, so first of all, before I called my neighbor, I got him into the bath and it was cold water or like, yeah, it's pretty much cold water. So I wanted to just cool him off anyway. So I had a little like rub and see if I could get some of the debris off or whatever.

So I wasn't sure what it was. I only noticed it yesterday because he's not a fan of having his toes or his fingers or anything touched. Just doesn't like it.

And I don't know kind of how useful that was. And then I looked again, it was still there. And my neighbor came round and she managed to take a picture, a photograph of his hand.

And I posted it on ChatGPT to sort of get an idea what it could be. And ChatGPT, let me tell you what it said. Why do you rely on that? You know what? I don't rely on ChatGPT, but I use it.

And the reason I use it is because it's useful. And it's helped me out quite a few times, actually. So I got a picture and it says, I can see several pieces of grass and seeds and plant material caught in the fur around the pads.

So it kind of just said that what I need to do is try and gently wash his feet in lukewarm water. And basically try and loosen any bits of grass or debris and stuff, especially between his toes. So what I did is I've got these tubs.

They're storage tubs. They're not like storage tubs. They are storage tubs, but they're big enough for him to fit in.

I don't mean that is like I'm going to travel with him because there's no, I have to put holes in them, wouldn't I? But they're big enough to have some water in. So I put some water in, lukewarm, and I mixed his shampoo, doggy shampoo in with it, made it all bubbly. It was lukewarm.

And I had to chase him around for about three days to catch him. And when I did, I put him into the into the tub. And this is because I carried it into the living room.

It's a bit heavy, actually, but I carried it into the living room. And then I put him into it. Once he was into it, he was fine.

Because the top was too high for him to see over. But he could see me, you know, it wasn't like he was on his own. So I was touching him the whole time.

And I gave him a little bit of a rub down, like his back and stuff as well. And what I did is I used my toothbrush, or used a toothbrush, which was like an old toothbrush that I'd used before mine. It tasted weird afterwards.

But yeah, so and I cleaned, so I'd already cleaned the other feet anyway, when he was in the bath earlier, a few hours earlier. So what I did is I just focused on I did the other the other feet first, the other two feet and his other hand, just so it didn't look like I was focusing on just one thing, you know, so he kind of was prepared for the next one to do. And he did have his muzzle on.

I don't think he really needed it on. Actually, once he's in the bath, he pretty much stands there like, Oh, no. And so I cleaned his hand off with the toothbrush and with my hands as well.

And just really gentle, pretty spent about 1015 minutes giving a good, just a good soak. And there was bits clinging onto his foot. So I'm guessing it was just stuff that I just collected.

Now I'm surprised I hadn't noticed it before. Because, you know, I keep an eye on him. I'm with him all the time.

I just Yeah, I hadn't noticed it, but it was quite obvious. So I think it hadn't couldn't have been there for very long. And when my neighbor was up here, she said to me, has he been chewing air? So I haven't seen him do it.

And literally at that moment, I looked down and he was chewing air. So I realized that because he's constantly chewing underneath the table, I don't look to see what he's chewing. I just assume he's chewing one of the chew toys, the chew things.

And I didn't think he'd be chewing his own own foot. But then he I haven't seen him do it since. I've never seen him chew his foot before, ever.

So this is a new thing. I've not been watching him. But she did say, you know, some dogs do it when you're asleep.

So I'm not watching him when I'm asleep, am I? So kind of keep an eye out. I've got some lovely neighbors. I'm lucky.

I do have some lovely neighbors. They're all younger than me. But most people in the world are younger than me now.

But they look out for me and they're kind. So it's nice. I do.

I think in the past, I'm starting to appreciate things I didn't do in the past. Maybe it's because I've started to realize that sometimes I need help. And sometimes they need to ask for help.

And, you know, I try and help other people. And I've not always been successful in that. But there's going to come a time I know in the future where I'm is probably going to be more me needing help than me provide or the other people asking for help from me.

Because I haven't really got much to offer. I can lend an ear as long as I give it back. I can't help people financially.

But if anyone ever, that's Finny by the way. If anyone needs food, I'll give them food. If anyone's hungry, none of my neighbors that I know, not even the ones I don't know, I wouldn't care if I didn't know them.

I know them because I know everyone what they look like around here. But if someone was hungry, I'd give them some food. Because that's the right thing to do.

If I didn't know them well enough, I wouldn't necessarily let them into my home. Because I don't think that's necessarily a safe thing to do, perhaps. But I would definitely give them some food if I had food to give.

If I didn't have anything, then I can't. But you know, if I've got a spare a pizza or, you know, a tin of beans, even some some bread, so they can have beans on toast. And I've done that loads of times.

I'm not saying that to show how amazingly wonderful I am, because everyone already knows that. But you do realize when I say stuff like that, I'm just like joking around and messing around. I'm going to break this to you, but I never used to be a professional bodybuilder.

I don't really believe I could win Mr. Olympia and Mr. Universe. Not everything I say is true. See, I do a lot of serious recordings now.

I don't know if you've noticed that I've been doing a lot more serious stuff, not with the Let Me Boy To Sleep book, the hypnosis side of things, the manipulation podcasts, the healing from the inside. It's all kind of serious and hopefully useful. But at the same time, I need to do non-serious things.

And that's what the Let Me Boy To Sleep is about. It's not just about me being silly. But that is a part of it.

You know, if that makes sense. If it makes any sense at all. Yeah, Harrogate, I went to a computer course.

Oh, wow, what most amazing hotel I've ever been to in my life. But I did get food poisoning. So huge, it's just really, it was like a proper top class hotel.

I don't know if it was five star, but it was even the room I stayed in was huge. And I stayed in a few hotels over my life. And that was by far the best I've ever been in.

That was when I was 18. Mansfield. So yeah, I've been to Mansfield quite a few times.

I've already mentioned Lowestoft. I had family in Lowestoft. I think I've got some family in Lowestoft.

And I also went to Lowestoft, I think we used to go there on holidays, Lowestoft, Yarmouth, that kind of area. So got amazing beaches. If you've never been to the UK, and, you know, we do, I know it's England's not known for its beaches, I think worldwide, you know, you probably think more of some of the more tropical countries.

But we do have some really beautiful beaches like sand, there's sand. Yeah, I mean, I suppose maybe that's not enough to make it beautiful, but got lovely beaches, the sea. But the beaches, I mean, I've only seen one sea that was absolute that was actually, okay, apart from Wales, Wales, I've been to a lot of beaches and seas when I was a kid, that was our holiday destination of choice.

That was my dad's, that was the parents of choice. And I loved Wales is lovely, great place, lovely beaches, it was just really lovely place. We went there every year for you for quite a few years.

And visited all you know, a lot of the mines, the slate mines and stuff like that and went up, we went up Everest twice. So once, we climbed it. And the second time we went up by train.

So that was all right. It was the train was was easier. I mean, obviously, I guess, but it was kind of yeah, I prefer the trip.

I didn't mind the walking. I mean, some call it hiking, but it's no good if there's no traffic coming past to kind of hitch a lift. What's the point in hiking, just standing there with your thumb out on a mountain.

No passing traffic, you're just there for days and days and days. So I was a little bit too small for the for climbing up, but I managed to do it. But I think there's like, I think we did it three times.

Actually, we did the hard way round, which was like a bit longer and climbing over rocks and stuff. Not like rock climbing properly, but just you know, a little bit more difficult. And then there's one where it was more like steps up.

Now I'm partly making this up, but I'm pretty sure it might be true. And then the train and the other time, oh yeah, the data like here there's another one where you could you could go up to climb up on top of like it's scaffolding. So you'd climb up the scaffold and it's very high up probably about 100 foot up.

And then you just jump up, jump down onto a trampoline. And then you'd land on top of the mountain. But I didn't try that one.

It just I mean, technically, it's like, yeah, okay, it's easier. But it's not if you got to climb up 100 foot. That's not easy.

That's a lot of hard work in it. And I'm never really big fan of heights anyway. Didn't like heights.

Besides, by the time I got to the top, I'd be too. I don't know. I just like it was other things to do.

So I wanted to go bungee jumping and go on a plane ride. I just didn't, you know. I think my probably the place that I love the most, beach wise was Torquay.

Now, I don't know why. But I do know why. Because I loved it.

I just found Torquay to be a beautiful place. And there was a what do you call it like coral reef there. And I've never seen a coral reef out of the the my words are really getting muddled today.

It's the heat. It's not the heat. It's my brain, probably my old brain.

I've never seen a coral reef. I was gonna say off the television. What I mean by that is normally it's on TV when I see stuff like that.

And I really liked it. I really liked it a lot. And out of all the places that I thought about maybe living one day, Torquay is one of those places.

And I haven't got a clue what it's like to live in Torquay, because I stayed in the bed and breakfast or hotel bed and breakfast place just near the beach. And the only places I went to in Torquay was the beach and the local park because there was the last night of the proms was being played there. So I was only in Torquay for about three days, I think.

And I went to some nightclubs as well with my cousin who lived there. Yes, that's all I remember really. But it was, yeah, I liked it.

It's a shame I didn't go back a couple of times just to see, you know, kind of make it like a regular thing. You know what I mean? Just maybe go out for one week a year. You know, when I was working and stuff, just have it as a holiday destination.

Just go up one at least one more time and see if I still liked it. And Lowestoft, I also went to a not foot fetish, a reflexology course I did in Lowestoft. And that was one month, one weekend a month for about 10 months.

I think I did about three or four months and I quit. So it was in a lighthouse, believe it or not. Or was it a windmill? Either a lighthouse or windmill.

Windmill would make more sense because a lighthouse would be on rocks near the sea, wouldn't it? And that was nowhere near the sea. Yeah, probably a windmill. But I don't think it had the windmill bit.

Didn't have the blades. You know, the helicopter bits. Deflectors.

What do they call them? Propellers. It didn't have the propeller. I think they took the propeller off.

Because I guess all windmills they were used to produce stuff, weren't they? Corn or stuff like that. So I don't know where the corn came from. But I think that was in places where they didn't have room for fields.

So they had to find a different way to sort of grow to create crops. So they used a windmill. So it didn't maybe have fields in an area.

I'm not quite sure how it worked. I mean, I don't know. I mean, maybe they all had a rumpelstiltskin in there on a little sewing machine or something.

I don't know. I didn't ask because I was there for reflexology course. That was okay, actually.

Because I was working and I had to, this is like 2005, I think. And I had to take each of those weekends off of work and plan it like in advance. And my team leaders were quite cool about that.

Hackney. Hackney. I used to go to Hackney fairly often because I had a girlfriend that lived there.

She lived in Hackney Downs. And this is a time where there was no phones, but there was telephone boxes. Because this is what 1991.

So literally no mobile phones, no, it's just landlines everywhere. So I'd have to phone her in the hope that she'd be at home. To let her know that I was in Hackney Downs.

So that she could come down and see me and then she'd show me where she lived. Or just generally, if she wasn't there, where are you? Call her up. I can't make it.

My auntie's doing some knitting and she needs me as a model. I said, what is she, what she's knitting? Knitting a human is she? She said, no. Unhung up.

So I never know really what happened there. Mind you, my girlfriend was, she was made of wool. So that could explain a lot of things.

Couldn't go out in the rain. I tell you, I dared, didn't spill anything sticky on her because it's made such a mess. Like treacle as an example.

You know what wool's like, it's very difficult to get it off. But yeah, and she shrunk in the washing machine. It was a weird relationship actually.

So I should get on with the questions, shouldn't I? Sorry. Sarah asks me, should I do it in your voices? Sarah says, every time you ask, I rack my brains. Don't, okay, I'll stop.

Every time you ask, I rack my brains. Don't want you to feel like nobody cares. But I don't.

No, no, I do, but I can't think of anything. That's all right. You know what? I know sometimes, Sarah, I get people where I don't get any questions at all, or just one, but I don't care what the questions are.

Even if it's just the most absurd random question, it's fine because it just, this is just a light hearted thing. Doesn't need to be anything serious. I think I might need the toilet.

Don't you sometimes wish your body would give you a bit of notice? Wish my body could be a you know what I mean? I need to go to the toilet, but my body gives me no notice that that might be a thing. Especially when I'm busy like this. Yeah, I'll be back in a second.

Still haven't got my light in my bathroom. They're doing it next week. So I haven't really, well, I've had to kind of go to the toilet during the day, if you know what I mean.

At night, it's just, yeah, it's impossible. Trying to use my phone light. It's like, come on.

I don't want to drop my phone down the toilet again. I've done that a few times over the years. I've did it by accident once.

Right, I'm gonna be back in a second. Oh, that was nice. So Anne asks me, do you swim? Does Vinny? No.

Does Vinny? He can. He has. Yeah, he has.

I'm trying to think if he's ever been. He's been in the pond, not pond. It's like a duck pond thing in the fields.

So yes, been in there, jumped in to get something, but he didn't like it and he got out and well, his retaliation, his revenge is basically just flapping his ears and covering me with water. Dirty pond water. And he started chasing me around and said, your turn, see how you like it.

And he was chasing me around the field trying to push me in. Do I swim? Not really. It's kind of a weird one.

It's a weird one because I have had one on one swimming lessons when I was in junior school, because swimming is something I was struggled with. So I can technically swim. I know how to.

I even know how to float. Well, I learned to have that confidence of floating and basically floating, you don't do anything do you just lay there. But it's, yeah, mentally, I'm not really a swimmer.

I haven't, I mean, I can, I say I can, I haven't for decades been anywhere near water to even test it out. But I used to, sometimes go swimming, and I've even swum in the sea on my own before. Because I saw my granddad do it once and he basically went out and then he just swam along parallel to the beach and I did it on my own once.

So I would have been way out of my depth, like, but there was comfort knowing that my granddad could do it. And he was always a hell of a long, a lot of older, a lot older than I was. And it gave me confidence.

He wasn't with me. But I don't know, just seeing him do it. I kind of kind of like, okay.

So I did that a few times, or once at least. I mean, technically, that's probably the most bravest I've ever been. You know, when it comes to swimming, in the sea, out a fair distance.

No one knowing I was there, apart from the sharks, I suppose. So it's kind of like, I mean, now if I was in the sea, everyone would see me, wouldn't you? I'd jump in, half the sea would just end up splashing all over the town, probably. The tide's gone in.

No, Jason's jumped into the sea. So, you know, I've got a bit more muscle on me now, as we like to say. I don't know.

I had a thing back in 19, early 70s. There was a craze with what's me, what do you call them? Wave machines in swimming baths. That's my chair just cranked there.

So I went to the swimming baths and I was, either I was on a school trip, I was, I was with a bunch of kids. Maybe it was when I was in a children's home, I don't remember. All I remember is them turning on the wave machine and I didn't know it was going to turn, in fact, I didn't even know there was a wave machine.

I didn't, I wasn't, I don't think I was just that aware because I was pretty young. And I got, well, ended up under the water and I was saved by one of the lifeguards and ever since then, I, I didn't like being anywhere near water. So, yeah, I still haven't, I'm okay till the water gets to my chest and then I kind of, oh.

It's just not for me. I'm not really a swimmer. It's weird, well, it's not weird, but my oldest brother, I personally think he could have gone and been like a professional athlete as a swimmer because he was so good.

And he's, when he was at school, he was probably about six foot two, six foot three, long arms, long legs, and he just, he was really, really good at swimming. It was easy to him. But then we didn't really live near, much near like swimming, swimming places and there wasn't the facilities to be or to even be an amateur swimmer.

I don't think was really in my area. It would have been like traveling away to get a coach and stuff. But he was really good at swimming.

I mean, basically he just, yeah, two, what do you call them? Strokes, two strokes with his arms and he was the other side of the pole. Took me about a hundred. We used to go running sometimes together, jogging in the school because he's four years older than me.

So what was I? 13, 14, 15, 16, 17. That's probably when I was about 14. So he was like 18.

He weren't doing no exercise, probably hadn't done any exercise for a couple of years. I was a lot fitter than him, but I could not catch up with him. He could literally stop, have a cigarette and then carry on walking or carry on like, in fact, he didn't have to, he could just walk, stop, have a cigarette, sunbathe for a bit, have a sandwich and then carry on.

And I still would be behind him on the promenade because of his long legs. I mean, once, right, I'm jogging behind him and I beat him once, I was ahead of him and I got to the end of the prom, it was quite a long prom, and I thought, ah, I beat you. And I said to him, he wasn't far away, I said, I didn't see you, I didn't even see passing you.

He said, you ran through my legs. I said, why didn't you, how come you didn't beat me? He said, I was a little bit disturbed by that, I just found it a bit weird. You ran through my legs and you didn't even notice.

I said, yeah, but you're like five times taller than me. I mean, I reckon when I was 14, I was probably about 5'5", probably. Probably, yeah.

I hadn't, yeah, at 13, 14, I was still very short. I probably wouldn't have been much more than about 5'2", 5'3", 5'4", something like that. So I was very short and he was like fully grown adult.

So, yeah, so no is the answer to that. I don't swim. I can, kind of, but I don't want to either.

Yeah, swimming's not my thing. I'm never, if I have the choice, I'd go into a swimming pool if there's no one else around because I just don't like the body envy that I get when I get into a public swimming pool. You know, no one likes being stared at.

I know a lot of women sort of say this and I agree. I understand, you know, just because someone's got an amazing body and whether they work on it or whether it's just natural, you know, given to them like me, I still don't want to be stared at. I don't want to be objectified just by my body.

It's not fair. And judging someone just on their good looks, I don't think it's kind. And I don't know, I just got fed up with it over the years.

So I don't really go out in public with my top off or anything because on occasion I wore shorts a couple of years ago just to walk to the petrol station. The amount of cars that crashed, everyone was looking at my legs in awe and wonder. Well, I heard some sounds that I don't know.

Disbelief seemed to be one of them. But anyway, so that's the answer to that. And Nicole, what's a popular trend you just don't understand? Oh, wow, where do we start? I don't even understand the trends that used to be popular.

I mean, football. Now, whatever I say next, I am not. I'm not mocking people liking stuff, because I think it's really good that people like stuff.

You know, it's we all need to have things that we're interested and passionate about. So in England, football is probably the most popular thing after talking about the weather. But yeah, football, never really understood that.

But then I was talking to someone the other day that didn't understand why anyone would want to watch boxing. And I, I can kind of understand why some people wouldn't like it because it is, I suppose it's a little bit a little bit aggressive, isn't it at times, but I just yeah, that's probably the thing football would be the one that really don't get. Never have.

Being masculine, acting tough, being like one of the lads, you know, oh, and just acting like that, and being aggressive. And so I don't get that. Never really understood that and just it seems false doesn't feel real to me.

People that pretend to be offended when they're not really offended, and you can see them actually build up, like work on building up the anger. It's not real, because if you catch them off guard, you can make them laugh. Not everyone, but I've seen people actually on YouTube, some of these videos of people in real life getting into arguments and stuff.

And one of the friends will say something and they start laughing. Now they can't really be angry. If they're laughing, you know, anger, things like that, very locked in emotion.

So that always used to kind of, my stepmom used to be like that, my first stepmom. I never understood how she could do it. So she used to be shouting about, you know, how messy my room was, or she'd love to have a good old shout and moan about that.

Like, yeah, why is your room so messy? Why is there toys all over the floor? Well, it's like, I don't know why. They're there, they're on the floor because they're on the floor. I'm messy because I'm messy.

What? We can't all be tidy. Is it that idea that everyone should be the same? You know, it's like, no, it's not going to happen. Anyway, I didn't say that to her because I'd have got in trouble.

But then she'd be in a proper little having a little rant and having a tantrum. Oh, yeah, adults having tantrums. That's another thing.

It's not so much I don't understand. I just find them funny because more adults have tantrums than toddlers. I'll stick to that one.

And toddlers don't know what they're doing. Well, sometimes they don't know what they're doing. I mean, I think sometimes toddlers will just have a tantrum until they get what they want.

Because they're very clever. So. What was I going to do? Oh, yeah, tantrum.

Oh, yeah, she'd be moaning about, why is the stuff all over the garden? And why are your clothes in the bath? And just normal stuff like that. Why can't you just use the toilet like everyone else? And I'm not going anywhere near your bed. But then the phone would ring and she'd pick it up.

Hello, five, four, seven, nine, three. That's not quite how she spoke. She'd answer the phone really politely and she'd have the time of her life on the phone, giggling, laughing, having so much fun.

And the phone could sometimes last half an hour. Then she'd say, OK, brilliant. That's great news.

I'm so glad that, you know, your husband's going to be well and, you know, I'm so glad. Brilliant. We've won the lottery.

That's great. We've got a million pounds. Thank you so much.

Then she'd put the phone down and continue yelling at me. How genuine is that? I can't do that. I genuinely can't.

I've tried to do the pretending to get angry and you've got to work it. But yeah, by the way, when I said, you know, when you answer the phone, hello, seven, nine, three, five, four. That used to be how people used to answer the phones in the 80s and possibly the 90s as well.

They'd answer the phone by saying their own telephone number, not the area code, just the number. Two, five, six, nine, three, two. Hi, who are you? It's true.

It's weird, though, really, when you think about it. The strange thing is now. I mean, I just speak for myself.

I don't even know my own telephone number. I know the last four digits. I know the first two digits.

I know it starts with 07, but pretty much every mobile telephone number like starts with 07 in England, as far as I know. So, yeah. Just trying to think what other popular trends I don't understand.

Marriage? I don't know. Is marriage a popular trend? I can't think of anything. I suppose fashion has never really been my thing.

I kind of wish it had. Because I do scrub up okay. Well, I used to.

Scrub up kind of okay. So if I wore something that fitted nice, and it was decent, you know, I look kind of okay. But I seem to either, like when it comes to suits, either they were too big, or as I've grown, too small.

I think it's proper panting. Hi darling. Don't worry.

I think today's the last day of it being like really hot. So it should get back to normal tomorrow. Because he's not been out yet today, other than just in the garden.

It's just too hot to take him out. I'll take him in the garden for another little bit later. After I've done this recording.

Maybe take him out about seven. When it's cooled down, hopefully it will be cooled down by then. But I just couldn't.

I don't want to put him through it. To be honest, I didn't really fancy going out myself. Because I had a food delivery coming between eight and 11 or something.

So I was waiting in for that. I woke up super early this morning. Because of the heat.

Although I did go to bed at eight, but I woke up about half two. And he was awake as well. I mean, he might have woken me up.

I don't know. I had the windows open in the bedroom. So something in the garden might have startled him or me or whatever.

So I've been up since then. I've been to bed since, you know, but it's kind of one of those, I was awake, but didn't really. Yeah, I was hungry as well.

I was hungry. I wanted some breakfast. Yes, breakfast.

So I've been a little bit out of kilter. But, but, but there's boxing on early hours, Sunday morning. It's Friday today.

And I want to be awake to watch that because it's a really big fight. It's in America. So I want to watch it, which means I'm going to be waking up about two, three, whatever in the morning.

So it's one of those situations like, you know, it's okay watching boxing on replay. It's not the same as watching it live. It's just not.

And one of the problems with watching a replay, you know, like say if I wake up on a Sunday morning and I decide to watch the boxing, like nine or 10 in the morning, whatever. There's a chance that I'll see, I'll be online, you know, like I normally do get up, check the stats, go online, and I might see the results of the fight before I even get to watch it. And it's happened a few times when I've just completely forgot that the boxing was even on.

You know, I just got up maybe six in the morning, gone online and suddenly it's like, oh, KO victory for blah, blah, blah, whoever. What's his name? Oh, come on. I mean, one fight was really ruined.

And it was Miller. Baby Miller, they call him Big Baby Miller. There's a heavyweight fight.

He wasn't fighting anyone famous or anything, but he's quite a famous boxer. And during the fight, his wig came off and it started flapping around. Which is probably one of the funniest things that's kind of ever happened ever in a boxing ring, I would say, that's been televised.

Like unexpected. There's been a few things over the years that I've seen. But this was like, it was spoiled because I saw it on the internet before.

It was quite big news worldwide because it was such a funny thing to happen. So the news channels and MSN and whatever were all kind of mentioning it and showing a picture of his wig flapping around while he was in the boxing ring. So I knew it was going to happen, spoil it, because I wanted to watch that fight anyway.

I'll always watch a heavyweight boxing fight regardless of who it is, because that's my favourite. Generally, it was my favourite group, my favourite weight of boxers. So although it's still really funny to watch, I kind of knew it was coming.

So it's like, oh, but it's still funny. I watched it a few times and it's just ridiculous. And it's not like he had a wig of any kind of length, either.

It was almost like a crew cut. Really, really, really, really short. As short as you can pretty much have it without being bald.

But having a wig to do that. Just be bald. I mean, he looks better bald anyway.

It's just weird. And it was funny because he took it off, because it was still flapping around. And his opponent looked very confused while he was punching him in the face.

It's like, and this little wig was just flapping, waving hello to him. And you can hear the audience laughing. Now this is Baby Miller.

He's got a reputation for being very argumentative and confrontational before a fight. Trying to really sort of be all tough before a fight. And after that, regardless of how tough he is in real life, he's now the least threatening heavyweight boxer of all time.

Because of that, because he just looks so silly. If that had happened to Mike Tyson, in his heyday, he would never have lived it down. No matter what he did in his career, he would never have lived that down.

That would have been what people remembered Mike Tyson for, as far as boxing goes. I know he's remembered for different things. But as far as boxing goes, Mike Tyson would be remembered for the wig flapping, if that had happened to him.

I think I once saw a similar thing in karate at a karate tournament when I was about 16. And there was this really tough guy. And he was like a black belt karate in the next town to me.

And he was known for being a strong man. He'd pull lorries and stuff like that. He was a bodybuilder.

He was a huge, huge, huge man. I can't remember his name. But I did go and see him at a strongman contest once.

And he was big. He was about six foot five. Huge.

And you know, like, I don't know if he was good enough to be in Britain's strongest man or not. But he was definitely like regional, you know, really very strong. And I saw him in a contest and he fought against my boss's brother.

So my boss in the chip shop, his wife, they were both my boss, the man and a woman, both the boss and her brother was a black belt in karate. So we went to the tournament. So I wasn't really doing karate anymore at that point when I was 16.

So I couldn't really get the time off to do it because I was working evenings. So and I'd lost interest in everything to be honest with that point. So we went along because I thought it'd be fun to watch.

And his her brother beat him. I actually beat you know, beat him in the cry. And he was probably just as tall if not taller than the bloke himself.

And he beat him in a contest. I don't know if it was the final or semifinals. I'm sure his name is Lee Brady.

Actually, I better be careful what I say now if that is actually his name. Because it probably wasn't Lee Brady. It was Lee Haney.

I'm just thinking of the bodybuilder Lee Haney, am I? That's what it is. Let's have a look. Oh, he was a karate.

He was a karate bronze middlist. Oh, no, no, no. He's a fitness instructor.

I don't think the same person because he'd be in his 70s now probably, actually. So it wouldn't be the same person. It was it wasn't Lee anyway, it was some some bloke.

But he got punched that looked like he had a wig on his hairline. He got punched so hard, his hairline went up. And I seem to be the only person that noticed.

Now I think in reality, he probably just was frowning. And he got punched. He kind of it smoothed his forehead so it looked like his hair went back.

It didn't like fall off or anything. And I was the only person that laughed out loud. And kind of, you got to be careful what you do in those kind of situations.

Because everybody there is like a karate man or woman. I don't want to upset anyone. Mind you, I was a karate man as well.

I was the karate kid. Kind of questions are supposed to be answering questions on a popular trends, popular trends. I think you could say all popular trends, I don't understand.

The popular trend of speaking, using different language, which never happened when I was young. This seems to be like it's gone national. I don't know how.

But I see it so often. Even like just, I think it's a cultural things like a cultural mix. And a lot a lot of people say bro.

I suppose it's no different probably from when I used to say mate, white mate, white mate. You know what I mean? You know what I mean? But the amount of times I've now seen videos where people are saying, allow it, allow it. That just, I think it's just more because of the internet.

It's more. That's I think that's all it is. Instead of just adding an extra word or two, which I think my generation probably did, depending on where we were in the country.

And it didn't spread particularly quickly because there wasn't an internet. When I was like a kid and even my 20s even. So on my late 20s there was.

So I suppose trends didn't filter through the way they do now on TikTok. I'll tell you what I think. This is quite I don't know if this is controversial, but in the UK, our current Prime Minister, who's on his way out of the number 10 Downing Street.

He decided or he announced that they were going to ban anyone under the age of 16 from using social network sites such as TikTok being one of them. And I imagine Facebook, YouTube, whatever. And I think YouTube is a shame because YouTube is such an educational site.

And it's really highly censored as well now. It's not the old days, you know, the Wild West. So back in yeah, back in the early days of YouTube, like 2008, 2009, you could see stuff that you shouldn't really that no one should want us to would want to see.

But you kind of come over it by accident. It'd be just like suddenly it'd be there like, what the heck am I watching? And they didn't, they didn't censor what was allowed to be put on there. So people put all kinds of stuff on there.

In some ways, it was much better because more interesting. And as it was new, basically, so that's probably why it was so good because it was new. But then, now, I don't have to censor anything that I do, because I don't do anything that needs censoring.

But you can't show the certain things you can't show anymore, you have to blur it out. So nothing that's going to be harmful to a kid visually is going to be shown, I don't think on YouTube, but I might be wrong. And also, verbally, there's certain words you're not allowed to say and so you know, people get their videos taken down.

If they've said something that they're not allowed to say. Spotify, Spotify, TikTok. Now TikTok is one of the most censored social media platforms that there is.

Literally, there's words you cannot say on there on the lives. It's more censored than Facebook. It's more censored than YouTube.

It is. I put this is what I think, and I like TikTok, because I post my videos on there. And I've got a little bit of a following now, a small following people.

Every don't worry, I'm not going to go back to the stats. Or am I? Yeah, I am. Very briefly.

So on my TikTok, I have go to TikTok studio for my analytics. So for the last 28 days, I've had 8559 video views and 777 likes. Thanks, Vinny, make a bit more noise, please.

So that's 8559 views that I wouldn't have got if I wasn't on TikTok. The last 60 days 20,000 the last year 99,000. But that's I've not been I've only been doing it for the last few months, really, like regular.

So that's that's cool. I get on average. So I don't know I can get the stats on.

Can I get stats on Instagram insights? Yes, I can. insights. So insights.

Okay, this is just for the hour, this is just for the the actual profile. So that 255 views of my profile, but I have monthly recap. Does it show me? No.

Latest week. You shared quite 11 times in a row, right? It's not giving me the x the actual stats, but but what I can tell you is how weird is that I thought it would have been on my hair so itchy today. It's like my whole body's just itchy.

So I'm getting on average, on Instagram, a couple of hundred, sometimes 300 and video views on Instagram a day for each new video I do. And on TikTok, I get was that Instagram? Yeah. And on TikTok, I get kind of roughly the same.

I mean, a bit more though. Yesterday was 471 for that one. 464 for the one the day before, but then 99 for the day before that.

So it depends between two and 400 on TikTok. Can we try and move away from the the metal things in it? Because it's literally just banging against the metal. No.

Okay. Thanks. Anyway, he's just ignoring me completely.

Oh, he has moved his foot. So that's nice. I think and I realized I'd be doing myself a disservice if this happened.

But I think if anything, if anyone should be banned from TikTok, and Instagram, things like that, it should be people over the age of 16. Because Instagram and TikTok were created for kids, it was created for young people was not created for adults. The problem is they make no money from kids and young people.

They make money from adverts, they're focusing on maybe focusing on young people, but nearly everybody that streams live are adults. And so basically, it's, it's a, it's an app for young people, very young people, that's been taken over by adults. And the same thing happened with Facebook.

Now, Facebook wasn't necessarily for kids, but it was for young, younger people. When it first came out, it was for like student kind of level age, you know, people in their early 20s or whatever, and younger. And then suddenly the parents were coming on, maybe to spy on them and see what they're up to, you know, like you'd want to do if you were a parent, would you make sure your kids okay, what they're up to at college.

So it turned, you know, there's a big, I remember a big period when people were having to block their parents, because they're being spied on. And then the adults, once they were on there, they wanted to keep contact with family members, which wasn't really, the young people wanted to keep in contact with their friends, you know, at school or college or whatever. And it was almost, you know, then it was different, like the other older people were adding family and, and it is kind of, I feel it'd be good if there was a separate, a separate one for different ages.

Like, I'm not into segregation, by the way. But I do think that, for example, TikTok, it was created for very young people. And it seems a shame that very young people who were created for are not going to be able to access it anymore, in a few months time.

And also the fact that it's the most censored platform that there is, I think a lot of people don't realize how censored it is. You know, I mean, you'd, there's certain things you just cannot do on there. Otherwise, you'll be banned instantly.

I'm not saying it out of knowledge, because I've never done anything like that. But I once went live to shave my head. And just the sound of the vibrating sound of my razor got me banned for, well, about a week or two.

Now what does happen on you on TikTok is you're very limited what you can say when you're on there when you're live. But it doesn't seem to be much of a censorship towards what other people can write. And when someone you invite someone into your box, what they say, some people seem to get away with that they say some, you know, be quite cruel and that so that side of things needs to be looked at.

But that was just human beings may go I've seen people. I think he's still hunting a fly. And he just keeps jerking.

It's like suddenly he's he's just jumps. That's a bit annoying. A little bit annoying, especially when I'm trying to have a little sleep on a settee listening to just a sexy voice podcast.

I should check this one. The voice is so nice. And it's called Jason Newland.

Honestly, especially the healing from the inside those podcasts. They just special. That's so or such a soft and gentile voice.

What have I've had anyone actually listened today? Oh, yeah, I have just nice. It takes a while before the podcast will start to take off. Because I've only really shared it with the podcast apps, you know, very recently.

So, yeah, I just think it'd be nice to to let I'm not sure. I don't get that involved. But I have seen people have conversations and then people are commenting.

Because that's what you know, if you're live on there, you can comment if you're watching. And the people start having a go at the commenters. So why are they commenting? This is a private conversation.

It's like, really? So you come on to an app, you come live on a platform where literally millions of people can watch you if if they if they know about you. I mean, you have to know about someone before you they don't. TikTok doesn't just share you with everyone.

You have to kind of build up that reputation before they sort of start promoting you and that. I mean, I've literally got a tiny amount of people following me on TikTok 245 people. But then you think how many people are actually listening to the videos or watching the videos while listening to the videos? That's 7443 likes so far.

So I just do that every day. I post one recording every day on there from my catalogue, my recent catalogue. So I'm a little bit behind because of how many recordings I've been doing recently daily, sometimes up to three recordings a day.

But generally, yeah, just just keep at it. Keep at it until I can, till I can till I I mean, I don't know if I'm ever going to get a huge amount of people that you know, I've had a few videos were with some thousands of views, but not many. And that was a while ago as well.

One of them was really just like running around or something. And the thing is, I'm not online. I'll show pictures of Vinny and Vinny videos maybe.

And for people that listen to my podcasts, but I'm not online to for that I'm online just to promote what I'm doing, the podcasts, the recordings. And that's the only reason I've been online since what for 20 years. I've never been on here really to have fun to.

That's why you know, this kind of things you see on TikTok, I wouldn't do any of that stuff. I'm definitely not gonna be dancing or anything. It's just not me.

If it's you then do it if it's fun and brilliant, but it's not. That's just Yeah, it's me that there's no point in that for me. That's a trend.

Yeah, that's a trend that I don't. It's not aimed at me. I'm like, too old for that stuff.

But that's definitely, you know, the things you see on Instagram or TikTok where people are miming to songs or doing the same, just copying each other basically. It's not not for me. I don't understand why they do it.

I mean, I guess I never understood the copying thing. I like the idea of doing something a little bit unique, having something that's me, just me, and not like anything else. And I think everybody can have that if they're just themselves.

But there's there's kind of a difficulty in that sort of growing up probably in any country, to be fair, anywhere in the world. To be able to just be yourself requires knowing yourself, I guess, or being able to grow up without the restrictions of people around you. The expectations and like, oh, you should be like this, you should, you know, because when I grew up, the standard thing was I should get exams, I should leave school, get a decent job, find a girlfriend, get married, buy a house, have a mortgage, and then have children, and then go on holiday once or twice a year.

And it was kind of all in some ways all set out for me. Ah, Squeaky's back. So, right, the neighbours are in the garden again.

Oh, man. I don't know, might have to close the window. I can't close the window.

I'll try and edit out whatever big noise they make. And my largest rational fear, crocodiles, and dying. Sorry, it is.

I don't I don't like those things. I don't. And yeah, crocodiles, sharks, and getting old, I suppose.

There, I think there's nothing irrational about that. It's very rational. So that's my rational fears is probably the same as everyone else.

I'll be honest, I don't think I'm unique in that one. And my all time favourite thing in the world. Feeling, place, food, song, feeling.

Come on. Ali, Ali asks this. Come on.

I can't say what my favourite, what's everyone's favourite feeling? I mean, if you look at like physical feelings, without some of the obvious, you know, adult stuff. I like the feeling of sort of a contented feeling. Helping people.

I like helping people, or at least feeling that I've helped people. That's, that's probably my favourite feeling in the world. And feeling that I've, yeah, helped people.

Sometimes I can just sit down, watch a bit of TV or watch a movie with that feeling inside me that okay, if I've had a nice message from someone saying, thank you, you record and really helped me or help my son or got me through this situation, stuff like that. And I had a recording, sorry, a message today. I'm trying to do this, finish this now because it's going to be noisy outside.

Unfortunately, it's probably okay. So I got a message. This is for one of my anxiety at night, calming anxiety at night recording I did a couple of days ago.

And from Rachel, thank you. I needed this tonight. And, and stuff going on with the family.

So that felt nice. And I'm happy that I could do something that was useful. You know what I mean? So, yeah, cool.

That's probably my favourite feeling, feeling that I've helped someone. And I kind of it, it lets me for some reason, my brain allows me to feel that. But it won't allow me to feel it unless it's real.

Unless I really do feel it. So I can't, I can't imagine, I can't I do need, that's why I kind of need feedback sometimes. And it sounds a little bit needy, but I'm need, I'm knee deep in neediness.

That's me. It's nice to get genuine feedback because that's what gives me that's, that's what feels nice. And physically, having a girlfriend, I imagine would be nice.

Having holding hands, you know, those kind of things that I haven't done for many, many years. So favourite food, I would say pizza, but I think I've overdone the pizza over the last few years. I don't appreciate pizza anymore, as much as I did.

And favourite food, I don't have one at the moment. And I probably have to start going somewhere and eating somewhere like, oh, I really like this. And that would then become my favourite food.

Favourite place. In some ways, Thailand was my favourite place. And Torquay, I mentioned earlier.

I don't know, I need, I need to be a bit more travelled, I need to spend more time in both those places to kind of to figure out if I like it, really like it or not. And it takes me a while to kind of adjust and to know how I'm feeling about things. I'm not always an instant, you know, takes a, I'm a slow burner, I think.

My favourite song is too many. There's too many songs that I love, absolutely love. And way, way too many.

Total Eclipse of the Heart, The Wanderer, and Do You Come From a Land Down Under, that one. The Smiths, Last Night I Dreamt Someone Loved Me. It's just so many, so many songs that I absolutely love.

So I can't pick just one out really, not right now, maybe on a different day I could. Favourite thing in the world, feeling that I've helped, feeling that my life has been worthwhile, that I've actually, it's not about being useful, but like it's been worth it. Like actually I made a difference.

And I know that's probably quite shallow in some ways, but um, knee deep in neediness, I like that, that term. Yeah, I am knee deep in neediness. So yeah, maybe that, that's the title of my book, Knee Deep in Neediness.

I wonder if anyone else has had that, that term before. Knee, so I might not have thought of it myself. Knee deep, knee deep in neediness.

The phrase, okay, right, I think I'm not, it's been used before. Knee deep in, knee deep in, but I'm not sure, because it's saying, this is the phrase knee deep in neediness can be understood in a few ways. Literally refers to being in or among something that reaches up to one's knees, such as water or, so knee deep.

Okay, so they're focused on the knee deep. Ah, all right, so it's not, it's not actually saying what I'm saying. It's just that they're focusing on the knee deep bit.

I might have been the first person to coin the term knee deep in neediness. Because they're just talking about, I can hear the people in the garden now. I have to finish recording because they're just going to keep going on.

It's going to get louder and louder now. So I've answered all the questions, knee deep in neediness. I'm looking at it, I can't find any, knee deep is like a, an expression, but I've never heard the term knee deep in neediness.

And I might have just created my own term. Wow, how good would that be? Let me know if you've heard it before. Or let me know if it's the first time you've heard it.

Because I don't think I've copied it off anywhere. It's hard to know if anything is original, isn't it? You know, if you read enough books and been around long enough, I might have heard it somewhere else, but I don't remember. Wow, knee deep in neediness.

So I'm going to go. Thank you very much, everybody for your questions. And also thank you everyone for listening.

So thank you to Sarah and Nicole and Ali. And remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself.

You deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye.