(music) #1283 Busy little hypnotist - Let me bore you to sleep (3rd February 2025)

Ah, hello, oh itchy ankle. Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Yeah, Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. Vinnie's back there having his dinner. I seem to be covering my hair, my hairy shoulders should cover myself up.

This just happens to be the t shirt that I'm wearing now. It's quite comfortable actually quite freeing. But I don't know if anyone's been watching the some of the newer videos I've been doing.

I'm going through a phase of wearing Larry shirts. Like really Larry. I've got to not Mexican, Hawaiian to Hawaiian shirts, or bowling the company bowling shirts, those kinds of shirts.

So I'm going to get more. I think it might annoy some people. That's not why I'm doing it.

That's just an extra bonus. So anyway, hi. Today, I have created created with my own hands.

Two recordings. Plus this, but two hypnosisy recordings, one proper full on requested by Caroline or Caroline. Caroline, Caroline, Caroline, Caroline, I think it's Caroline.

And it was a request. So what I've done, I'll rub my hands together. I'm probably going to regret doing this.

Now Vinnie's moaning. Vinnie, what are you moaning for? What are you moaning for? Yeah, no, I gotta keep my body covered. Otherwise people realize that I'm still fat.

I know. I know. Shush.

And he's hungry. He's already had some roast dinner. Haven't you already had a well not a whole dinner, but yes, some of mine.

And now he's had his own dinner. He's had some cakes, obviously not my cakes. Okay, my cakes.

He says, I've introduced cakes. Do you know when people have a food tolerance or intolerance, but they don't know what it is. So they kind of take out pretty much everything from their diet, apart from the main staple things.

And then they start to introduce the other stuff back. Well, I think that maybe sugar, sugar wasn't the problem. And I've started to introduce not sugar, but some sugary objects like your biscuit, your cake back, you know, just to see whether or not you know, because I'm thinking maybe that isn't the reason I was so fat.

Yeah. So oh, yeah. On my website now.

jasonnewland.com. I have there's a lot of pages on there. There's all the podcasts and all the different stuff like that. But now there is a contact page, but I've also got a request a recording in the menu.

And it's highlighted like it's a button on the website or on the in the menu. Which means if you have a recording you'd like me to make, then just go to my website. Click on that.

I might do another one for question a Friday. Ask me a question for Q&A Friday. And I start building those questions up.

Maybe I don't know. But you know, I might regret doing the whole requesting because there's a chance that I could have put excess pressure on myself. It's like every now and then is all right.

I don't know if I can't imagine too many people would really contact me anyway. So it's fine. But it's there.

So if there's something that you'd I can consider doing. And I've now I've got a podcast, which is actually called requests, requested recordings. I've only got one uploaded there at the moment.

But there's quite a few over the years that I've done. And I'm going to be uploading those as well to that podcast. And that podcast will then have a link on my website.

So yeah, it's just kind of just about organizing my stuff. You know, just getting it kind of organized a little bit. I suppose it's not a shout out but sending my love to my little brother who's him and his girlfriend's dog passed away today.

So sending my love out to him and her. I know they're not going to see this but still. So that's kind of a happy news is it to be put on it.

I normally try and keep it positive. But it's a real thing that's happened. And it's Yeah, so sending my love to him and both of them.

Well, this is going on in my life. Kind of my life was I just watched, I've got to stop doing this. Two days in a row, I've watched a real crime interrogation.

And these are like beyond, beyond serious investigations or interrogations into serious crimes. It's never like shoplifting, or a bit of fraud or something like that. It's like, well, and I found myself the last two days being glued to like, Vinnie, what? What? Why are you going? What, Vin? Why? What? Vinnie, what is it mate? What is it? I can't I can't.

What is it? Move your head if you want me to just ignore you. Move your head from side to side. What? I'm not turning around because then everyone can see my massive bald patch.

He did say to me, Daddy, why have you got more hair on your back than on your head? Rude. Very rude. Vinnie, why do you always smell of poo? Poo poo.

I try and get AI to make an image of him that looks like him and it never does. It's like, make me an image of a small red Jack Russell with a little bit of white on his chest and on his paws. That's it.

And there's a little bit on his neck as well. But predominantly red all over. Apart from his belly, you know, but that I don't know if he hasn't got any hair on his belly anyway.

And it always comes up with like just completely different kind of dog. Do you reckon I should try a sausage dog Vinnie? Maybe then I'll get up. Maybe that's what it is.

Maybe he is a sausage dog. Oh. So yeah, I have been watching those.

This is on YouTube. And I'm never gonna watch it again. I can't.

I can't do it. Not gonna do it. It's just awful.

So that's it. That's the last time I watched those programs. I've watched them before in the past and nothing good comes out of it.

But I couldn't I wanted to watch it to the end. It's weird. I just wanted to see what the end result was.

Because they all start off being nice to the person, you know, the police like the interrogators, or the interviewers. Oh, we know you didn't do anything. We know it wasn't you.

In this one, the police woman was holding the woman's hand holding a hand. And this person had done beyond what I could talk about is beyond what I would want to ever talk about. And she knew it.

So the police woman knew this, but she had to get it out of her mouth yet to get her to tell the truth. So she's there holding her hand stroking her thumb playing footsie underneath the table. It's like that's it's kind of cold really imagine beyond to do that.

It's it's it's a skill set that I can't imagine many people have. Wow. So so I'm not going to watch any of those programs again.

He's just whining. He does a lot of whining. I don't know quite why he's such a whiner.

Why is it anyone looks like I got I should have worn a bra today. This is terrible. I'm trying to make it firm but wonderbar probably that's what I need.

So yeah, I've done three recordings including this today. This is just a bit of fun in it. Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

Just me shooting the breeze with the other stuff. The weird thing about it is this right. The deep sleep whisper hypnosis recordings are among my most popular recordings as far as podcasts go.

And YouTube as well funny enough. So but they seem to be the least popular when I ask my Facebook group what they like deep sleep whisper seems to be one of the least popular ones I do. Yeah.

Out there. The list to the other listeners just by views and listens show the deep sleep whisper ones are popular. I say popular popular in in consideration with the rest of the stuff I do.

I mean, they're not popular in the great scheme of things. I'm not getting millions. But sometimes I get more than three.

And that's popular. Anything above two for me is like, wow, that's a good number of people listening in one day. If I can get seven in one week.

Oh, yeah, it's amazing. Once I got 19 listens in a month. I felt like a superstar.

That's what Alfred Hitchcock he wasn't it? Hello, ladies and gentlemen. My name is Alfred Hitchcock. Welcome.

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do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do do well that's the end of the show ladies and gentlemen i mean this is he definitely had one hell of a mind when it came to that stuff and he wrote it he produced it directed it everything ladies and gentlemen here's a weird one i don't normally get into politics and now i'm not going in the direction you might think i'm going no no no no no i'm going to talk about our the

leader of my country at the moment he's the leader of this country who knows what's going to happen in the future it's uh it's looking very strange right now well is a bloke called kia starmer i've never met anyone called kia what kind of a name is that i'm not there's nothing wrong with the name so where where would it originate from kia and his first name was is is uh he's been knighted so everyone used to call him sir kia i thought it was shakira shakira starmer so i thought

he was a shakira like shakira shakira hipster that's my shakira impression and something's coming is this whole thing about during lockdown the prime minister did things that he wasn't supposed to do he went out when everyone else wasn't allowed to go out and kia starmer who was the shadow who was in charge of the opposition at that time said if you if he said because he was being an under he was under investigation as well because he was accused of being out when he shouldn't be and i think he said

uh if mr speaker if it is found out that i did in fact break the rules i will stand down and that was what a couple of years back three years ago four i don't know that's a while back and then today or yesterday it was very recently accusations have come out that he did in fact it was a different situation a different a different thing but he did have a member of the public come in to the house of commons or the chambers or something during lockdown when he wasn't

supposed to be seeing other people and this person was his speech therapist his acting his acting voice actor therapist whatever you want to call it so she was teaching him how to speak um so he had all this you know voice coaching and stuff to improve his speaking and and they said is it is it true prime minister because now he's prime minister isn't he sashira shishirikama um whatever your name is prime minister so you had voice lessons acting lessons how how did it go how long did you you had

them for what six weeks and apparently put her on as part of the emergency staff this uh acting voice acting coach i'm making a little bit this i'm filling the dots in as it were and um someone asked him and said prime minister i was wondering if you could just tell us how having the voice coaching has helped you with your elocution and your speaking in public speaking and he said um well i think it's been really good it's helped me a lot to speak more clearly and to have a

much nicer tone in my voice mr speaker i think is it is very important that we that we are as a prime minister that i talk it's the way i draw because yeah here's my question here's my question why does every single prime minister pretty much that i've known i've all had weird voices like quite strange you had margaret thatcher okay that wasn't a good impression but she had her voice then you had john major uh mr speaker my name is john major he spoke like that i like john major

actually for some reason i just thought it was quite cool but yeah that's that voice speaking speaking voice and then who do we have next after john major we had tony blair and it's like hey everybody let's go do this and now hey yes that's how it should be like weird speaking mannerisms and then after him but gordon brown he no one could understand what he said the only time he actually spoke clearly was when he was rallying for the upcoming election he was the prime minister and he wanted to

get to stay in and it was labor he'd taken over from tony blair and he'd just been speaking to an elderly lady on the streets like you know she was going around as they do you know and he got into his car and he started slag but he started being talking about this lady but he still had his microphone on so it was recorded and he was saying oh she's oh she's a racist old lady the racist it was a bit of a growler old uh whatever his name was and

then we had blimey who did we have david cameron yeah that's why david cameron so he had a weird voice and then even and then after david cameron blimey who did we have then we had so many prime ministers we had three in one week once it's an exaggeration but it was we i think we did actually have three prime ministers in two months so we had oh what's her name i quite like that she used to be a dancer well she used to dance so she was and she had

a like a kind of strange voice and then if you're uptight and what he's doing over there and then boris boris johnson took over i mean no one in the world talks like that i do i can't believe someone called him an albino gorilla that was rude i can't believe that but you know i suppose politics people are rude towards politicians for some reason i think they're brilliant and then after him really so after him we had what's the name who lasted for about what does she last for 16 days

he's found something to destroy bless him and then we had what's his name so it's been too many to remember the names so we had the last prime minister who came in so basically boris and then what's the name that was in for a short while and then the former is that is that forgettable it's terrible isn't it another bloke i forget his name now i didn't i did know his name at the time it's just gone out of my head but he was tiny he was about four foot tall

which is fine you could hold him in your hands in fact that's what they did held him in his hands and this like used to speak hello everybody hi hi he'd be like that and he was very cute he was very cute and there's one point when he actually was doing a talk and i think he was announcing the election the coming election that he lost to shakira and shakira shakira and it got rained it got rained on now he didn't have a brolly no one came brought a brolly over

his head he didn't need it all he needed was like one of those little cocktail brollies that would have covered him or he could have just stood underneath in fact if he'd have moved around a little bit he probably could have dodged the rain drops very small what was his name he got a lot of flack but he had really vinnie he's just i think this is a ball it rolled away and he's not pleased with that so now we've got shakira so the the previous prime minister he liked the

squeaky voice hello my name is a prime minister yeah a bit like that i don't know if it's because they have their their collars so tight on their necks that it restricts their vocal cords maybe that's what it is or because maybe they talk with the pronunciation of their mouth and so they're not actually talking from their throat they're talking from their mouth maybe because if you talk through your mouth yeah maybe and the pronunciation and the amount of people in the commons and these like mps that talk and all

you can see is their bottom teeth and the vocal contacts are talking like that and it's i don't know what that is i i i mean i didn't really do much learning how to articulate myself or how to pronounce or pronunciate or you know things like public speaking although i have done in the past a lot of public speaking when i was younger but then this is public speaking kind of in a way maybe maybe i don't know tired it's a tiring day so it's monday i woke up fairly early

today and boxing was on so it was um Clarissa Shields was defending a heavyweight title on last night well this morning early hours here last night in america and it's kind of weird because it's the second time no what i did is by the time i got to it it was nearly over the live broadcast so i decided i'll just watch the last fight and they'd already had about seven rounds so i just clicked on round one and watched it from there i won't say who won because you might not

have seen it so i don't want to spoil it for you and the thing is i had a similar thing with the David Benavidez fight on sunday morning so it was saturday night in america i got to the and i basically clicked on the thing it was on sky went to the to the front so you know at the beginning and i thought no it wasn't on sky it was on prime prime video so i could watch it back later so i thought i wonder what where we are in the

live so i went live and they were literally just about to start the fight they were introducing the fighters the main card you know david benavidez and david morale wow that's like perfect absolutely perfect so i sit there with my ready brick watching david benavidez and david morale slug it out i can't tell you who won because that'd be spoiling it for those that don't know i'll revisit it in 10 years and i'll talk about it because it might be too soon look at this tap roots i don't know if

this is backwards because of the camera hmm i used to read a lot of uh william ohandlon or william hudson ohandlon i read quite a few of his books years ago he's very it's very much a student of nilton h erickson i mean this is all about about nilton h erickson his techniques and stuff and once i get my glasses sorted i'm going to be able to get back to reading because even now even with these i'm looking through the the parts that are for reading it's still not very clear

okay that's better i can't see it at all so i can see it when it gets down to the bottom but when i can read it erickson did not really have a formal theory of how problems arise or of psychopathology the closest he came was his view of rigid behavior he observed the rigidity in patients beliefs and behavior and considered it pathological where rigidity has been he seemed to be saying let there be flexibility if flexibility were introduced the pathology would disappear or at least be very diminished in its detrimental

effects to this end erickson often elicited a quite detailed description of the presenting problem from the client and then used that information to devise an intervention that would alter i just thought i heard someone knocking at the door so i had to go and check but it wasn't but it was someone knocking somewhere and because i've got the phone off i got up for nothing oh well i don't know what i was talking about now i know oh i was reading out of this book oh right never mind that's what

i need to do i need to get my eyes tested i need to go to the opticians book an appointment and then go obviously do it in that order just get an eye test and the only thing is i'm going to need new glasses i know do you know when you know you know when you know my eyesight has it's not improved put it this way so i'm going to need and i don't want to wear these i've got trifocals here but they all mix they mix together so the top

bit is for distance the middle bit is or more for i think we've only got two levels i think maybe it's only two now so the top bit is for distance and the bottom bit is for reading neither of them are great i can read that size text really easy but i suppose most people could i mean that's the size you get when you're like three or four isn't it that would suit me but i kind of miss my books it's something i've noticed it's stuff missing from my life there's

a few things but some things as far as that i used to enjoy doing that i don't do as much i'm still doing things i do enjoy like i i do enjoy working on this stuff and hopefully helping people hopefully being of use and i had a lovely message today from someone telling me that the i my recordings it's not only helpful for falling asleep but also it's kind of company as well it can be company so that's yeah that's nice to know and but but however not not but however

but also therefore and reading something that i did a lot of and i'm thinking get myself some proper eyeglasses for reading proper reading glasses instead of just because what i did is i got two pairs i've got one free it's expensive uh i've got a free eye test but all i'd like the because these are actor lenses acty light because my they saw in the back of my eyes potentially the start of macro degenerative whatever my nan had it my dad has it i think my uncle's aunts have it so

it's definitely on my father's side of the of the family so so i do need to kind of take care of my eyes which i'm probably not in a way that in a sense that most of the things i do involves my eyes not when i'm in a toilet or when i'm asleep but when you know looking at computer watching tv making videos making audios editing all that stuff is my eyes with my fingers as well but you know i mean as i'm using my eyes so if i can get

some decent reading glasses doesn't really matter what they look like they don't have to be actor light or anything like that because i'll only be reading indoors and the normal lens glasses these ones which would just be for outside or for every day you know will be they'll also have to have a light turn because they turn dark when i'm outside even in the winter i think from what someone said some people think that i'm walking around in sunglasses which i'm not so yeah it's going to be a little bit

of a bit of cost involved in this whole thing and i might say like maybe i need to get a separate pair of glasses for computer work or look at getting some kind of anti anti-glare screen maybe starting to look after my eyes a because i mean i'm heading towards middle age you know i can hear lots of people being very loud in the garden very loud they're that close to each other that's an impression um i don't know what else has happened and yeah this weekend really so a lot

the last time i made a Let Me Bore You To Sleep recording was on friday and it was a q a friday and i'm trying to tense my arm but it's not working damn it i have to keep my arms covered in future that's a weird but you know the bodybuilding look quite often they look like they've got bosoms don't they do bodybuilding men but when it's actually when i take the top off it's just complete muscle and it's sort of surprising just saying that maybe maybe i've got a nice

chest and it's muscle it just looks like fat you don't know you can't see it's not like i'm ever going to take my top off is it no although i have in the past i've done a recording with my top off once but i think the the screen went up to about mid chest so you couldn't see you couldn't see what was underneath you couldn't see the sag the saggy bits wow i don't know maybe i need a an uplift i want if i was going to have surgery if i

was going to have cosmetic surgery the last thing i'd be focused on is my body it'd be straight face first wouldn't it obviously uh i don't know what that's i think the thing is unless i look in the mirror i forget what i look like and i just assume that i'm kind of all right i look okay i forget and i walk around like everything's normal so yeah i did set this weekend really has been a bit lazy maybe didn't do any recordings on saturday i don't think i did any

recordings on sunday either but today i've made up for it three recordings wow and you know what it's not even late it's about half seven i think it was it's about half seven i think it was about 20 to 7 when i started this here recording it would make more sense just to spread it out a little bit but i just get so damn excited whenever i make a new recording i just want to put it out there and you know it could be my could be my masterpiece never is

never is never has been but it could be this could be my masterpiece it could be the this could be the the piece of work my piece of art that changes the environment of podcasts and recordings and sets everything on a different direction and changes the world or it could be listened to by a few people when they've forgotten it's more likely to happen yes artist in a way i probably would have been better off doing one recording a week you know as far as an audience retention build up the

audience and you know so okay i'm going to release a new one on a friday every friday and that's it that's all i'm going to do just one recording now the problem with that is is i have these little moments where i want to get busy with the fizzy and i want to just make recordings and i have an idea and i think yeah yeah i want to go with that and do this and then something else i kind of like a i suppose being on a roll kind of like

i want to do the next one let's do something else and often the only reason i don't make a recording is because of the noise because too much going on outside too much going on downstairs i don't know just if there's if there's building work being done which has been a little bit over the last few months not a huge amount but i can always find an excuse basically and if there's i don't know if there's something being done there's banging and that and i don't know where it's going to

start and stop and it can be heard with a microphone because it's quite loud sometimes earlier i did a recording and it was the first one of the day and this little one decided to chew on a bone and instead of being over there on the chair because remember if you if you remember but when i first started doing these videos again like live ones or me on camera he was sitting back there on the chair he was happy to be over there now he won't sit over there he has

to sit right by my chair he has to sit with me he has to sit at my feet or lay down and go to sleep right next to me and i thought that was one of the good things about doing videos so people can see him on the settee like playing around and looking and stuff like he did at the beginning of this oh well i miss those times 35 minutes ago i miss that oh i feel really nostalgic for half an hour ago i i don't know why he wants

us to lay down next to me i mean he acts like he doesn't even like me but he doesn't want me to leave him on his own he follows me around but i can't figure him out i really can't the one thing i would like i don't know it's not going to happen anytime soon but i would like to get a place with a big garden for him so he can have a proper run around like a real without worrying about other dogs running up to him or anything like that

because unfortunately that's what we've got at the moment in the parks in the fields a lot of dogs off the leads and i'll say a lot of big dogs most dogs are big compared to him but a lot of big big dogs and he doesn't like big dogs generally he's got a few friends that are big but he's got a bit of an issue with big dogs so it'd be really nice to have a garden it doesn't have to be a big garden to be honest just a garden because even

as an average size garden is still quite big for him because he's so tiny but it would be nice to have a big garden something he could have a real proper run around and i can chuck a ball and he can run for like 200 yards or whatever i don't know that's the correct amount maybe not maybe not 200 yards but i mean not not necessarily the size of a football pitch but maybe that's that's quite a nice size isn't it that's quite big actually the football pitch is a lot

quite very big isn't it i'm thinking probably more of a fiver side rather than like a full pitch but for him it'd be cool for him i don't know i do have these ideas or what's going to go on in the future what's going to happen i mean there's you know again i don't want to get to politics but there's a lot of talks about changes being made for people like me and i don't know how that's going to affect what i do or what i can do and the weird

thing about it again without going into details because i've said that this is supposed to be light-hearted i was listening to this radio show and i think it was a politician came on and said well people on benefits they need to at the very least make a contribution to society and aren't i doing that i mean i know that person wasn't aiming it at me just let everyone a blanket aim fire but i feel that i came i might not be i remember saying this to my social worker a few

years back and saying i do feel i really i don't don't feel like i'm contributing to my local society to my local area you know necessarily but to the larger area what i do i feel is contributing to society it's just a society is a much wider area for me it doesn't just include liverpool and manchester and london and scotland and wales and norfolk and suffolk in ipswich and essex and somerset and all the different places also includes ireland and america and canada south africa new zealand germany france just all

over the place iraq and dubai thailand the philippines and it's like nearly every country someone's listening to me three people but they move around a lot those three people so that that's contribution that's a contributing to society i do believe it's just not necessarily contributing to this society my local society and it's not contributing financially i guess well it's not i'm not i'm not contributing financially but maybe i'm helping people in a way that is beneficial i don't know i don't know what i'm trying to say this is going to

be seem a little bit weird if i'm kind of forced to do forced away from this because this is all i've got and i don't spend all day watching television i think that i don't so on my good days i do lots of recordings on my less than good days i do very little so i you know i make the most of the good times and get as much stuff done as possible although i won't be doing anything else today this is three is enough three and it's three full recordings

it's not like i did a i would say i could have done a five minute recording but i don't really do five minute recordings generally there's not many things i spend doing five minutes spend doing five minutes i spend not many times yeah not many times i spend five minutes doing you know david benavidez he just at the end of his fight that he might have won or not i don't know i'm not gonna tell you he it's his saturday night or sunday early hours here in the uk of england

the person asked him the interviewer at the end of the fight asked him but they asked me a question and he said the words back to front which i thought did i mishear that and i've rewound it so he said the words back to front not not like not like that i mean the sentence structure instead of i'd like to thank my friends i'd like to friend my thanks as an example it wasn't that but i thought wow and it just shows that i because i knew what you meant it

didn't matter i mean it wasn't a personal issue for me anyway but because he's one of my heroes my boxing heroes is phenomenal but it's just like wow is the interviewer didn't say anything didn't correct him i mean it'd be a little bit silly to correct someone like him anyway especially when they've just had a big fight you know but i can imagine some people would want to correct in a real life situation don't you mean you're like to thank your fans not friends fans you're frank thank hey as an

example oh my back so yeah i don't know what else to say i started doing the you know i talked about doing the leg when i'm in bed i've upped it to 100 because 50 is just not enough so i do have muscles in my stomach area they're very camouflaged very well camouflaged but they are there so i could do 100 leg raises and even then it's not like i could do more but 100 is enough you know 50 i could do more so i do more but 100 is like

i could do more but i won't i don't need to 100 is enough for now so what i do i try and do it maybe two three times a day i do 100 leg raises and with the squats i've increased it to 110 i started off on about 10 and i just built it up over over the months i do it with weights and as i do the weights i'm also moving my wrists just to kind of strengthen my wrists and my forearms but it's really weird because what would have

been easy even 10 years ago especially 20 years ago i all i had to do is just a bit of exercise and the muscles start popping out now now not so much weird it's who thought i could have kept my body like that if all i had to do is just exercise it wasn't even an eating thing because if i exercise regularly um i probably wouldn't have put the weight on or if i did it would be yeah perhaps i would have done but i noticed when i did boxing i

didn't change my diet at all and i lost weight and i put on muscle i was doing weights and a punch bag in the garden and i was 38 so i wasn't like a young young young person even then but i did get toned up and i was doing um crunches i was doing leg raises and push-ups and weights and on the punch bag every night and training twice a week in the boxing gym and i didn't change anything i did no anything i was eating or drinking still the same

and i didn't so much lose weight but i did lose fat so my stomach went down and i just um yeah kind of bulked up a little bit i mean i was a lot lighter back then than i am now which is weird i'm not a lot i don't know probably a stone i'm probably a stone heavier now than i was back then it's not it's not a lot in it i don't think no but i still haven't put that stone on though because i was 16 stone and now i'm

just under 15 stone i was 14 and a half and it's kind of gone up a little bit and i don't know i like to fool myself that it's muscle because muscle is this is what overweight people say muscle weighs more than fat that's why i put weight on it's muscle and it might be true but if muscle weighs more than fat and you put weight on i'll put it this way a 14 stone okay someone okay someone of my weight that's all muscle compared to someone of my weight that's

like me we're going to look very different that person is going to look a lot slimmer they're going to look smaller not muscly wise but they're going to look smaller because it's there's more mass with fat i don't know or they might look bigger it's one of them they will look either bigger or smaller i can't remember which one of them but yeah i'd love to be able to do a video in the summer and just sit in here and like oh you know not my top off because i think

they should be covered but you know i don't know you know like just maybe do lots of exercise first and just come in and just like keep flexing as i go like that and flex in and just like oh you know i don't know maybe by the summer the weird thing is if you do weights it does actually pump the muscles up so it doesn't last forever but yeah that's my arm see i can put i can push a hole in it that's how muscular i am mind you the fact

that the hole doesn't stay there means that my skin's still got some elasticity to it i guess i think this is this arm's actually a bit stronger i don't know i don't know what i'm doing i'm just just bored i think have you got quite bored to record yourself to film yourself poking yourself in the arm and shoulder is this a new low i don't know i don't know i don't know no it's not i can go much lower i did as a chocolate dessert today on those button chocolate buttons

mousse things but it's so little i mean they don't last hardly always just i think they must they're like child baby size honestly but they're so yummy i had it up i had some i had vegetables first so it was like my treat for eating semi-healthy food that's the way i see it yeah it's the way i see it man so i'm tired yeah i could go to sleep i could eat very easily just hmm i don't know what that means but that's me that's what i do when i'm asleep

anyway i'm gonna go thank you for listening thank you for being here with me today i do have a an asmr deep sleep whisper video on YouTube coming out at midnight tonight so look out for that if you want to see me on video even though i recorded that first i might release this mind you i might not release this too yeah i might not do this till tomorrow i'll see how i feel i'll see how things go so thank you very much i'm off now so remember to be kind to yourself because you do

deserve to be happy be gentle with yourself lots of love bye and he gets up straight away as soon as i say be kind to yourself lots of love straightaways up see ya