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Hello and welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. My name's Jason Newland. This is... I always start yawning when I do these things.
This is Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. And this is... Yeah, this is out of the Let Me Bore You To Sleep.
This is number 1157. And Q&A Friday. This is Q&A Friday today.
Yay! Q&A Friday. It's week 15. Wow, really? Really? Yep, week 15.
So Q&A Friday 15. And but it's number 1157. Blimey, I just find that kind of strange, really.
I don't know why. I just do. Why? I don't know.
So what I will do, what I will do is go to Oh, by the way, all those of you listening if you would like to, and if you're not already a member of my Facebook group, go to Jason Newland's Boring Group. That is the main place where you can contact me. It's a private group, but you will be accepted.
And yeah, so at the moment, there's only 172 members, but I think there's more people got access to it. Because I invited people that I think if you invite people that don't have to actually join to gain access. So there's potentially quite a few hundred more.
But anyway, this if you want to join, please join join. Because I post stuff on there. I don't post other places.
And I also also also also post my repost all the recordings I do. Well, I don't post all of them. I put the the one about music and the one 10 hour version.
I post those on to the group. But then every Thursday or Friday, I put a post asking for questions for Q&A Friday. And today I did that and I have got some questions.
So I'm going to start What should I do? Should I start just give you a little update on today. I took the old Vinster out for a chasing the ball session in the park. He had a great time.
And what I thought I would do is I would record it. Well, I recorded about six minutes or something like that. And so I posted it on YouTube.
And I've posted the link on to the the Facebook group. If you want to find my YouTube channel, just put in my name, Jason Newland. And you'll find me there's a picture of me when I was 10.
So that doesn't really help does it? I don't know what you look like now. I don't know what you look like when you're 10. Yeah, good point.
Nevermind. So yeah, I've got over 1000 videos on YouTube. And growing still doing that.
And I managed to get up to 410 of the deep sleep whisper hypnosis sessions. There's 410 videos. And there will be probably about another 50 100 of those.
Let me I can I can tell you, I can exactly tell you how many because I have started to build the videos with the templates for the videos. So that's done. So 400 510.
So 401. I spent hours doing this today. Blimey 401.
No, I've got 410. Sorry, I've done 410 so far. So 1113 10.
I don't know. Anyway, this is, I think probably another what's 412. Wow, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25.
25 times by 4, yeah, so it's about 100. So yeah, there's about 100 left. Goes up to 510, but there may be a couple missing.
A couple, but yeah, about another 100 left to build and upload. So I'll have that done by the end of the weekend. Then I'll start on the next one, which will probably be the Relax and Sleep Hypnosis Deeply, and that's a couple of hundred.
And then I'll start on the next one, and by the end of the month, I'm guessing every single video will be uploaded by the end of the month. But they won't all be available. So I'll have uploaded them, but I'm releasing one a day.
So I'm up to the 6th of September at 410. So add another 100 days on to that. October, November, December, 3, 6, 9. So it's going to be January next year.
But what I will do is I'll also, whenever I release the other stuff, I'll release those on the same days as well, like later on in the day. So that'll be maybe two a day, three a day even, maybe even four a day, until it's all done. That made sense to me, I hope it did to you.
It might not have done. So yeah, so if you want to check out the little Vinnie video, it's nice. I think part of the reason why I'm thinking I need to start making some videos of the little boy is because even though I made quite a few videos of Andre, I didn't make enough.
And I've done very few videos of Vin. It's because he's with me all the time. I don't, because I can see him, I don't really think, think of that, you know, but I guess it can be nice for other people to see who I'm talking about.
You know, when I'm talking about him like, Oh, who is he? Who is this Vinnie? So yeah. So right back to the point of what I'm doing here. So here we go.
Well, all Facebook, YouTube, click on YouTube. So what's my, I've got 1327 subscribers now. So yeah, that's right.
It's growing, growing slowly, but surely. And as I've mentioned previous on previous recordings, my plan is when everything's all up to date, I will start to make videos of me talking possibly, possibly. So let's get on the Facebook page and start from there.
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And so he is safe. I did ask them that as well. So he is very safe.
It's just a case of someone taking him, rehoming him. I have quite a few different emotions over the whole thing, if I'm honest with you. Also, I found out the cause of my friend's, well, the coroner's report yesterday.
So that was a bit of a, or was it a day before? It was a bit of a, I don't know. I'm not sure what the right word is for that. Not so much a shock, but still just, hmm.
So yeah, it just, it doesn't, it hasn't cleared everything up. There's still questions whether or not it was an accident or otherwise. So I'll move away from that, because that's not particularly pleasant subject for me, or anyone else, I guess.
So, and those that don't know what I'm talking about, don't worry, it's not, it's, it's just something from the past. So Cindy has a question. Question, question, question.
Hi Jason. I'll do it in Cindy's voice. I run boring objects airports.
I'm curious about your trip to Mallorca, Spain. What motivated you to go there? So, thanks Cindy. Is that where I went? You got a better memory than me.
Major, Major Spanish Airport. Is that where I went? Barcelona? No, I went to Malaga. Did I? So I went to, yeah, so I went to Malaga.
That's what I'm thinking. Is my memory gone? I mean, it is gone a little bit. It's really good at some things.
So she listened to me. I mean, of course, I might be making everything up, but no, it was Malaga. Wow.
You get eight, eight over nearly 9 million total passengers a year at Malaga. So yeah, it was Malaga, Malaga, Malaga, Malorca, Malaga. Okay, that is what you said.
I'm not so sure what you wrote. Sorry. Anyway, I. So start with this question first.
Thank you, Cindy. It was it was quite a sunny day. I was working in a factory, putting meters, electric meters into boxes.
And for some reason, I didn't feel completely fulfilled. And because it was a summer, I was leaving work and it was lovely weather. But I don't know, I was young.
I mean, blimey, this would have been. Yeah, I was 18. I was 18 at the time.
18 or 17. 17. No, I was 18.
I think I was 18. Yeah, I was 18. Definitely 18.
So because I had to be 18 to work at this place. I forgot. I just remembered I had to wait to apply.
Couldn't couldn't work there until he was 18. Basically just said the same thing five times, didn't I? So if you can hear Vinnie chomping away under the table. So I struggled with the shifts because I kept getting just these different shifts and it was just hard, like six to two and two to 10 and over time.
And it's like getting up. I preferred the late shift because for two reasons. On the late shift, there was not really anyone around.
There's a lot less people about because it was busy during the day. There was like the the main period is when everyone was there kind of between. I'm trying to figure out like midday or, you know, between 10 and four or something or whatever.
But that's when the most people were there. In the evening, I used to have a bit more of a quiet time. It was, although it was only me doing the shift, there would also not be much going on.
So there'd be less other people doing their shift. So there'd be less to do. And so I was kind of my own boss, in a way.
I wasn't but you know, I kind of didn't have anyone telling me what to do apart from those people that told me what to do. That kid's been shouting since six o'clock this morning. It's now 6.03 in the evening.
Okay. Anyway, so the other reason I quite like the late shift like the two to 10 was because I didn't have to get up in the morning. I didn't have to get up early.
Early mornings were never my thing. It's different now. I can get up and wake up four or five in the morning.
I'm cool. But back then, nah, wasn't wasn't for me. And the other thing that was useful is, actually, the reality is I had nothing else to do in the evenings.
I didn't have a social life. I didn't have it. I just didn't.
That period of building a social life when you're like 16, leave school, start going out and all that thing. I didn't get to do that. I mean, minimally, a little bit.
But generally, I didn't have, I didn't get to kind of build any kind of an adult social life after leaving school. Because I was just working and I had no money. Couldn't afford to really do anything.
And I was working unsociable hours as well. So it just suited me better when I had this other job and the evenings, but it was predominantly it was like mixed one week early, one week late. And eventually I just decided I couldn't, didn't want to go in anymore.
And I just had this idea that I knew I was getting paid on Friday, and this was possibly the Saturday. And I thought I got paid on a Wednesday. It was the end of the month.
And this was on Friday or Saturday. And I had enough money to buy a ticket. I had to get a two way ticket.
So I had to get a return because I wasn't allowed to get a single because I didn't have anywhere to stay. And although they did give me a hotel, I got a bit muddled up. I thought it was including a hotel, but I'd have to go to the hotel because they sold flights.
It was in a travel agency. Because they sold flights, they had to, at that time, they said they had to recommend a hotel that I could go to. So that's what I was going to do.
Now, back then, as far as I know, there was no way of getting my money out of the bank. So I wasn't going to have access to money that got paid into my bank for the month, which was a bit weird. But I had, you know, I had enough to buy the ticket wasn't expensive enough to get to have a drink enough to get to London.
I think it was Stansted or Heathrow. I think they're the only two major ones anyway in London, I think. And then I probably had about 50 quid left on me.
I really didn't plan this very well. I bought two Woody Allen books. In fact, no, I bought a Viz magazine from the news agents as I waited for the coach to take me to London.
So I'm a good old giggle. It was early hours in the morning, which is ironic considering I didn't want to get up early in the morning. I didn't have any trouble when I was traveling away.
And then I got to the airport. There was a huge amount of time to wait for the flight. It was either 13 or 16 hours or something like that, a real long, long wait.
And the airport wasn't busy. For some reason. I mean, I've been in a few airports over the years.
And usually you struggle to find somewhere to sit. This I had a whole area to myself. I was fighting a lot that day.
So maybe people kept away but I don't know. But I was sitting there and I ended up buying and reading two Woody Allen books. I think what was it radio days and days.
I can't remember the other one. They weren't big books, but they're very funny. And then yeah, I got on the plane.
I didn't have a passport. I had a I don't know what it was I had that I used because in them days you could travel because we were part of Europe. You didn't necessarily need a passport.
I think I got like a temporary passport or something like that. But when I got the other side, they questioned me. Like, who are you? What are you doing? Where are you going? So I'm going that's where I'm going to that.
I don't know why they grabbed me, but they took me in. And yeah, they questioned me and why I was doing in Spain. And well, what are you doing in Spain? What's everyone ask everyone else? Why are you asking me? They said because you're more likely to know why you're in Spain.
Other people might not know who you are. Okay, good point. And I just didn't know what to tell them really.
Like, I'm just escaping. I had to get away. So I get there got I haven't got much money left on me.
But 50 quid was, I mean, that was half a week's wages to me back then. Or maybe a quarter or I don't know is it was, you know, it was it wasn't nothing. And 50 quid now is one get very far.
But that's a long time ago. This is like 1988. And I yeah, so when I got into the plane, I've never been on a plane before.
And I didn't know that I was scared of flying until I got onto the plane. Good time to find out. No plane experience.
I'd seen if I tell you what it is, I reckon it's because of all those disaster movies in the 70s that I ended up watching on TV. When I was a little kid. You know, there was no honestly, there was nothing but disaster movies.
If you if you're, if you're too young to remember anything, I'm lying. Ask an old person. They will tell you.
There was like earthquake, terror, inferno, volcano, airplane or air or airport was the airport. There was a few airplane designers like blimey. I can't think of any others.
But there was a lot a lot of it was a big deal back then. I mean, some of the biggest stars got involved as well like Charlton Heston and all the big major stars were in these movies. Earthquake was massive.
I think. What's the name Pam Pam Pam Ewing was in that. Did you know that she was Pam Ewing was an earthquake.
So oh yeah, I remember. That's when I think that's when I really fell in love with her. I was three.
So on the plane, it's like, wow, I don't like this. Now, back then, a flight which probably lasted what a couple of hours if that I don't know how long the flight flight time. England to Malaga Malaga flight time 2050 minutes.
Okay, it's a little bit long. Wow. 20 pound.
They're charging 20 pound for three hour nonstop flight. Since when did that happen? 20 pound war. That can't be true.
But this time of the year. No, that can't be true. Surely not Ryanair EasyJet and EasyJet some more expensive one.
And that's the one that's supposed to be the cheapest Ryanair. So I know it's a little bit of distraction. Economy class one passenger 20 pound one plane.
Okay, it's 20 pound each way. But 20 pound 22 pounds. Departed.
It's really 20 pound there 300 pound back. Oh, blimey. So there's a four star hotel.
Oh, this is is this for October doesn't say what date doesn't say the date. You think you would when you eighth of October. That's why.
Because no one wants to travel in October. Who wants to go to Spain in October, but from those that do, especially those that really do. So 8th of October to Saturday the 12th, 8th to the 12th.
Got a hotel for £336. What's that? 8, 9, 8, 9, 10, 11. So does that include the 12th? Or do you leave on the 12th? Never I'm sure.
Is it October the 8th in the evening, then the 9th in the evening, 10th overnight, 11th overnight, and 12th overnight, or is it just 11th overnight, and they kick you out on the Saturday. So it's four nights, not five. You need to know these things.
But then if I look, then I will look at the flight, but it's not saying Tuesday flight one way. It's not saying the dates. Okay, it's not really relevant, I suppose.
I wonder how. So I wonder how much they are now. Flights, price, flight price, England to Malaga.
If I've got to put return, there's no point in that return is there really. Flight prices, easy jet flight, jet price flights to Malaga from £28. Yeah, again, is that October? So if I put in today.
Oh, it's still a kayak saying easy flight. £21. I bet you I'm going to click on the kayak.
I bet you it's not today's date. I bet you anything, I bet you money. Yep, I was right.
But to be fair, it's not that far ahead. 28th. So it's the 12th of... No, it's quite far ahead.
Blimey. The 28th of August. It's only the 12th of July.
See, does that mean that there's no flights? If I change the date, come on, let's change the date. Let's go back to July. Where is any July? Let's say if I go to July the 13th, let's say tomorrow, July the 12th and come back.
Let's say if I come back, Friday the 19th. Okay, let's just check. How much is it going to be? Would you reckon? £200? £400? £300? £27? It's not going to be £27, is it? No matches found.
Of course there isn't. Okay, I think it's because I probably chose the 12th. What if I chose the 6th? Okay, here we go.
Update. Saturday the 6th. Oh, it's still a lot more.
I think the cheapest one is £135. It's three hours direct. Three hours and five minutes.
Isn't it weird? The ones in October take less time than in the summer. Maybe because in the summer people take more stuff. It is the summer now.
Maybe in the winter people take more stuff because it's colder. So they have to take more coats and hats and umbrellas and stuff. I don't know.
Okay, I'll pull that one back. Good. £153.
£187? £140? £200? Well, compared to how much it was when I went, I think it was probably 20 quid or something. Wow. So yeah, so I'm on this plane and I'm not enjoying myself.
But I get through it and we come to land. I get talking to this lady and she says, you're alright? I said no, I'm nervous. She said your first time and then we looked at each other and both laughed because we thought about the airplane line.
You know, you're nervous first time. No, I've been nervous before. We laughed.
It was like we knew each other's thoughts and we started kissing. It was lovely. No, we didn't.
So I, this is totally true, it's a bit embarrassing really. It's not that embarrassing really but on the landing she held my hand or I held her hand and I had one hand, the other hand on the headboard or you know the head leaning of the seat ahead of me. Which is lucky because if I'd have got hold of the person's head I think I'd have squashed it.
I mean there was a print of my hand in there, not on his head. I don't think there's anyone sitting there. I was like, really? And at one point I thought, is she okay? Because she started like turning blue like, you okay? She let go of my hand.
I was like, no, I can't. Sorry. But we landed and it's kind of silly really to say that it was a safe, you know, safe landing.
Which it was. And what is the question? We don't, I'm curious what might have urged you to go? Yeah, I think, because I think I talked about it. Did I talk about the trip then in that podcast episode? Number 31, Boring Objects Airport.
I might have done. I think so. But basically I just wanted to get away from everything really.
Not in a necessarily even a bad way. I just wanted to, I wanted to have some fun, be somewhere nice just while I was young. And it was, I think it was one of those bad decisions.
And it wasn't, the actual idea of going there wasn't a silly decision. Had I waited until I got paid, which was only like four days, and then I've had a whole month's worth of money to go out there with. And I probably had, yeah, probably a £600 or something.
Because I had overtime as well. So it's probably five to £600. I could have gone out there and maybe found some jobs, you know, in a bar or something like that.
And at least been out there for a while, maybe a month, or a few weeks. But I didn't give myself that, that help. I did it on the spur of the moment, is it spur or spare of the moment, and just went, got there.
I still remember, it's weird. I was just walking through the airport. And it was cool inside.
Because I guess they had air conditioning. And I thought, oh, I thought Spain was supposed to be warm. So I went and I got myself, I wasn't willing to eat any of their food.
I was scared, rather scared to eat any food. So I bought myself a Mars bar and a can of Coke. So I thought I'd be safe with that.
I just didn't know what to do really. I wasn't sure what to do. So I got a Mars bar can of Coke.
I might have got two Mars bars. I might have bought a Twix as well. I can't remember exactly.
I might have got two cans of Coke. Might have been a bottle of Coke. I wonder if it was from a machine.
I don't know if it was from a machine though. It might have been from a shop. I don't actually recall exactly.
But anyway, I'm walking through the airport. I remember going out of the front and the air hitting me. But it was unlike anything I'd experienced before.
Because it was a different kind of heat. It wasn't clammy. It was actually nice.
Nice heat. Nice warmth but also kind of cool. It was a different feeling which makes you wonder why I had not gone back really.
Yeah, it's a difference. I think I'd quite like to visit Spain again just to see if it would suit me better as far as the weather perhaps. I don't know.
Maybe. It would be good to visit. It would be interesting to visit just to see.
Just to have a look. To escape. To be free.
To be able just to walk without stress. To be able to just breathe and not have anyone telling me what to do or what I should think or whatever. Just to have that space that I hadn't yet had.
I didn't feel like I'd really had any freedom yet even though I was living on my own for a couple of years. I just still didn't feel well for about a year. But I was kind of homeless for the first one while I was living in a family's living room on a camper bed.
But it just felt like the first time that I was, even though it only lasted for an hour, it felt like there was a freedom there that I quite enjoyed. And I got into a taxi and I showed the taxi driver the address of the hotel that I had. I think I thought that I'd actually got a room in that hotel booked part of the flight.
I might have been a little bit confused. It wouldn't be the first time. Well he decided to take me on a scenic route via France and Germany I think.
And in the end I thought well we're, I could, you know, I had like an idea of taxi prices and how much I had. And thinking well we've been driving for like an hour now this is ridiculous. I said just stop the car.
Stop, stop, stop, stop. And he was like, what do you want? I want you to stop. What do you want? Why? He didn't talk like that at all.
He said what do you want mate? What do you want me to stop for? Why? Why? I said well I'm a little bit concerned about the cost of this particular taxi journey. That sounds like taxidermy doesn't it? I said yeah I just thought that when I said it out loud. We both giggled, had a little kiss and then we, I don't know why I say stuff like that.
Anyway, we shaved each other's knees. See, silly things. This is weird things to say.
I, I said how much is this going to be? How much do you want to pay? I said no that's not how it works. How much is it already? And he said something like ridiculous amount. I said okay this is how much I got to take me back to the airport.
And she did. Which left me with about £20, maybe £10, something like that left. And what I did is, I think maybe I had £20 left.
I changed the flight to come back early. Because I had an open, yeah I didn't, no I didn't change the flight. I had an open return.
So yeah all I had to do was book it. So I had to go and tell them that I wanted to use it to come. So you can't just walk on a plane with no, you had to book it kind of.
So they did. So I would say I was probably at the most, I had to wait probably two hours. So I was probably in Spain for about three hours, maybe three and a half hours.
But most of that time was just waiting in the airport to go back. And I get back, the old lady that I was with, she had to sit down. But she was still with me because I couldn't get rid of, couldn't get her hand off me.
My hand and hers were actually mixed together, like we were one person because of the pressure of, that's just a silly thing to say, wasn't it. We just liked each other, we liked spending time with each other, we decided to travel together. What's it to you anyway? So I get on the plane, come home, get back to the nearest town to where I lived.
And then this is the awkward bit, I phone up my landlady who I'd left, who I told I'd move in. And she said, well, you've moved out. I said, yeah, I know.
But I'm homeless now. She said, you've only been gone a day. I said, yeah, I know.
She said, where have you been? I said, I've been in Spain. How can you be in Spain? How can you have gone on a Sunday and come back and be back on a Monday? I said, it's a long story, I'll tell you when I get back. She said, well, you don't live here now.
I said, okay. I thought she'd just let me come back because we didn't have any problems or anything. But she didn't want me to live there anymore once I'd moved out.
And she said, okay, well, you can come back, but you have to find somewhere else to live. I said, ah, fine. So I got, I got, I asked her to pay for my taxi to get back.
I said, don't worry, I'll get paid on Wednesday. And as soon as I get paid, I'll find somewhere to live, find a room somewhere and I'll be gone. Which is what I did.
I'm not sure if that answered your question. But yeah, as far as motivation, I don't really remember. But thanks, Cindy.
I hope that, I don't know if that answered anything. Did it? It might have done. Who's Anvita Suri? Anvita has sent me a friend request.
Want to know how to get rid of your chronic pain without using meds, PT, chiro, osteo, et cetera. Okay. So PuriPani, Puri for dinner.
So this is join the Facebook group. Okay. No, I don't know who that is.
I don't really have generally add people on my pages anymore. Just come to the, to my group if you want to be part of what I'm doing. Yeah.
Okay. So what's the next question, man? The next question is, is I've got a few, believe it or not, got a few top comments. No, all comments.
There is no top comments we're talking about. Weird. Right.
Two, three, four, five, six. Blimey. Molly asks, what's your take on cosmology? Shut up, Molly.
Right. Next, Hillary. Shut up, Molly.
Stop asking me silly questions. Always on about the cosmology. Always.
Honestly, she finds me up every day. Can we talk about cosmology, please? No, I don't want to talk about cosmology. I'm making it up and I'm being silly by the way.
I'm just joking. Just in case anyone thinks I'm being rude. I'm not.
I don't really think of cosmology. I just think of the, the Russian big helmets, space helmets, I mean, and like from the 70s and 80s and stuff and 60s and 50s and don't know why. So, I'll do Hillary first.
Tell me what you learned about codependency. No. What I learned is I don't have to answer questions.
I'm not I don't have to be a people pleaser. You can't make me. And it was interesting.
Actually, let me have a look. I was just because I didn't have access to the didn't have access to my phone. So I got two books by Medley BT Melody BT codependence no more and journey to the heart on audible.
So I listened to them both. Listen to the codependence no more probably two or three times since I got it. And there's a few things really just that I've been I got messages coming up.
I don't have people added more questions. If you have added questions while I'm recording this and you might not get answered. But I will.
If you just ask the same question next week, and I'll do it next Friday. Hmm, I think with just looking at recent events, me because it's not quite as simple as being because I'm not dependent on other people, really. So it's not don't really feel feel that way because I don't get much really out of anyone else.
And so it's not a mutual thing. It's helping other people is generally what I do. And it's this, there's a mixture of reasons for that.
I mean, the recent stuff was, I guess I was going through some kind of I don't know. I'm gonna say manicky, not manic, but manic ish state mood. And when I made some bad decisions to help a neighbor, and I went overboard.
And, you know, I'm, I'm paying for it now. So it's, it's kind of, as I was reading the book, I was thinking more of the past, or listen to the book, I was thinking more of the past and it is kind of feels like you could put anyone into that category. It's like, you know, an addict is codependent, someone helping an addict is codependent, like, okay.
So, yeah, I've been, I know that with my friend, I was, I wasn't necessarily doing the right thing. But for the right reasons. You know, if someone with an alcohol, so someone with an alcohol problem, asks you to go to the petrol station to get you get a bottle of vodka, and you do it, then you're not necessarily helping that person, potentially, not to like you, but you know, a person.
And, but then if that person is ill, and you're well aware that they struggle to even walk that far, and they might collapse. And what it's like puts, again, I'm not talking about you, I'm talking about me, obviously, but I'm trying to be vague. Put into that situation of, well, if you don't do it, I'm going to go myself.
And you know, I can't go. It's very, yeah, it's very difficult. And also, what I do know enough about alcoholism to know that it's dangerous for some people just to stop drinking, you know, so it's, you know, it's weird, sometimes a bit of knowledge.
Maybe it's not always useful, but I used to volunteer at a drug and alcohol, two different places, a few years ago. So I know a little bit about this stuff. That's the first thing that the alcohol charity ever said.
You know, they'd ask them how much they were drinking, what units or bottles or whatever. And they'd make an appointment for them to come along, probably usually next week, a few days, you know, it's not sort of straight away. And they would say, whatever you do, don't stop drinking.
You can cut down, but don't stop altogether. Because of what it can, the effect it can have. So yeah, yeah, open up a few things for me, to be honest, it was wasn't pleasant.
But what did what I did get from it is, I thought, no more. No more, I really can't, I kind of realised how I've been used, or allowed myself to be used. And from various different people over the years, since I've lived here, and how I almost welcomed it, I kind of like signposted it into my life.
Come to me, take advantage, ask for anything, I'll give it to you. What do you want money, food? You know, it's just like, it's what I did for years. And I don't know, it's almost like I was trying to make up for past mistakes.
But I don't know what those past mistakes were, because I've made some really silly decisions, which has caused problems for myself, and a few other people over the years, but never intentionally. I never sort of set out to cause anyone problems. I can genuinely say that I've not really, since I was a kid, when I was a kid, maybe I did a little bit, but as an adult, I don't set out to do anything bad.
I just make some really ridiculous decisions, I have done in the past. And by that, I mean, up to about two days ago. So, which is why I've, you might have done it if you listened to yesterday's recording, but I've really been working on getting my financial situation sorted out.
It's going to take about four years. But, yeah, and then, you know, can't lend anyone anything anymore. I've even lent a Broly to a neighbour, didn't bring it back.
I go out at least four times a day with Vinnie, and it's been raining a lot lately. So this neighbour needed a Broly. I said, yeah, but I need you to bring it back.
Yeah, I'll bring it back. Eight hours later, where's my Broly? I'm not back yet. The next day, they got my Broly.
No, my sister took it. What? Yeah, she's, I'm going to let my sister use it. That evening, where's my Broly? My sister ain't brought it back yet.
Two days later, where's my Broly? Oh, my sister's gone. I haven't seen her. It's just a little bit, that, I think, yeah, it's just weird, weird, weird situation.
So, but I think what I discovered, I knew, kind of knew this anyway, but I didn't realise how, how bad it was. I struggled to say no. I really struggled to say no.
The only people I can say no to is, there's, you know, I think of a person that I really don't care too much about because of their behaviour in the past. But even then, it's still hard to say no, because they'll just stare. Go on, go on, go on, go, like, well, not quite like that, but it is like a little kid, just like, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme.
Can I have that? Can I have that? Can I have that? Until you give up. Well, no more. No more, no more, no more.
So yeah, that's, yeah, I could talk more about this. I mean, my friend was definitely, get rid of the co-dependent, because that's, it sounds more like we're both dependent on each other, and I don't feel that I was dependent on him. But then, I guess I must have been getting something from him.
I had friendship, but that wasn't dependent upon me doing anything or giving him anything. And usually, he didn't ask for anything. I was the one that gave.
I was the one that bought food and, yeah, whatever. So, yeah, basically, without getting all, being on a downer, so I'm trying to make this, I'm trying to make these recordings a little bit humorous. Slightly, like point, point, zero, zero, zero, minus 3%.
I, hmm, it's a difficult one. I was just trying to keep him alive, basically. I was just doing my best to keep him, make sure he was okay.
And I do feel that I failed on that one, but it wasn't really my, you can't, I can't take control of someone. I mean, if it had been like a, he wasn't a child, I couldn't just, like, pick him up and take him. You can't even do that to a child, really, can you? But if, you know, if he was, I'm trying to think of a scenario that I could just pick him up and take him to the doctors or, I couldn't do that.
He's a big, strong adult. I couldn't, I couldn't just, I couldn't force him to do anything. And managed to get him to the hospital a few times over the years.
And the one time he did actually ask for help, he didn't get any. And that's something that, yeah, it's hard to, hard to accept, really. But anyway, I think I've spoken about that before.
So let's not go down that road again. So yeah, codependence. The thing is, what might surprise you is before I moved here, I didn't do anything for anyone outside of the internet stuff.
I had nothing to do with people in life. I had some friends, people I'd meet up with for coffee, go to the Buddhist center and stuff. No one ever asked to borrow money from me.
In fact, the only time anyone asked to borrow money, probably since 1995 until 2015. So 20 years, and the only person that I lent money to was my, it was at my friend's wedding. And I was a groomsman.
There was three groomsmen. I was one. And one of the other groomsmen needed some money, 200 quid or something to, I don't know what he needed to do, but it just, he was also my friend.
So I lent it to my boss in the shop. He just didn't have any cash, so I lent him that and he gave it back to me the next day. It might have been actually the person that got wed, married.
It was someone anyway. Someone that I knew. And they paid it back to me.
No, that's not true. That is true, but there was another person I lent money to and she didn't pay it back. So yeah, I was kind of, yeah, that was it.
But other than that, there was no one else. Oh God, and then there was those 10 other people. No.
No, I didn't lend money. I didn't get involved in that because I was stung quite badly in 1995. I lived with a proper, full-on gambler.
You know, someone that was willing to lose everything on a bet. And so he was also, I'm not saying all gamblers are liars and cheats and con artists, but he happened to be one. So he'd pretty much do anything and say anything to anyone if it either got him out of trouble or got him some money.
And unfortunately, I was kind of caught up in a little bit of that. So I decided after that, no, never again, because they just drain you like leeches. And then I ended up in a kind of similar place, similar, but lots of different ones, but it wasn't gambling.
Yeah, it's weird. So yeah, what did I learn? What did I learn about codependency? Yeah, quite a bit. So I guess I looked at things a little bit differently.
Looking at things a bit different. But yeah, it's, I think it's sometimes labels and like, they're not. I just noticed that when someone becomes something they'd like, oh, that's all they're going to focus on now.
I'm going to focus on codependency or I'm going to focus on, excuse me, on a certain therapy style or they automatically, they think it is the one, one stop shop. Sometimes, I got a friend and she went to a jaw specialist. And literally, she believes that because this bloke said to her, all this stuff, like everything's about the jaw.
Every single thing, any body, disalignment, brain, anatomy, emotional, all about the jaw. Change the jaw, change your life, which may be true, but if it was the case that one thing is all anyone did, then that's all we would do, isn't it? I think pretty sure that there wouldn't be lots of different things that would have been discovered maybe a hundred years ago. You notice that people, when they turn their head sideways and look up and hold their right leg in the air and poke themselves in the left eye, they have no trouble at all with overeating.
Everyone does it. You do that for five hours a day, you never put on weight because you don't get a chance to eat, do you, if you're doing that? So yeah, it was interesting, but not being personally a user of anything. I'm not codependent on, I'm not dependent, I'm independent, I would say.
I don't rely on anybody else now, really. I've got one friend who we help each other out, it's a local neighbor, we help each other out a little bit every now and then, but outside of that, it's not really much. There's no one I can really ask for help now, which, it's alright, it's fine, but it's kind of just going back to how it used to be.
I never had anyone to ask for help from, not really any proper help. So I'm back where I was before, and I'll be fine. But I do notice that I've started to talk to people, and it's almost like I don't want to be one of those people that grabs hold of someone and just keeps talking at them and not letting them leave.
But I noticed I don't have hardly any human contact anymore, apart from when I'm walking Vinnie. And, where is he? Oh, sorry, he was asleep. I'm sorry, darling.
Sorry, baby. I just woke him up, that wasn't supposed to happen. Go back to sleep.
Go to sleep, little Vinnie. Go to sleep. Go and lay down beneath the sheets.
You are such a good boy. Yes, yes, you are. That is because you sleep under a star.
That was a bit pointless, sorry. I do apologise. Now he's staring at me.
If only I hadn't trodden on him. I didn't trod. Basically, I moved my foot, and he was balanced just over my feet, and I didn't even realise it.
And now he's staring at me. I don't want him to stare at me. I don't.
I really don't. Maybe if I take him in the garden, perhaps. Maybe.
Maybe. Maybe. So, yeah, that's all I'm going to say on that.
But, yeah, I suppose every time I listen to it, a little bit more comes out, a little bit more thinking. And the more I've looked at the situation, you know, the idea is I really struggle to say no. I really struggle with that.
And even to the point of the person that's been asking for money and asking for help and stuff, even us saying no, I'm like, is there a way I can help them? Is there something I can do? And, you know, even though perhaps they haven't paid any money back that they owe, it's just like, oh, but I don't know what that is. But doing these recordings, doing this free service, that is something that, I don't know, maybe some would argue is part of the problem, but I don't think so.
I actually know people that think it's ridiculous to do something for free.
You know, at least two of my family members think that. And I just don't, to me it seems cruel, a cruel thing to say to someone, actually, to tell someone that what they're doing is worthless unless they charge money for it. That is quite, yeah, a little bit uncalled for, a little bit woo, a little bit wah, you know.
And I still, even now I remember, I've talked, I've probably mentioned this a few times over the years, in 2006 I visited somebody in hospital who wanted me to help them with some hypnosis because they needed to have a medical procedure part of their treatment. And they was, they were not going to be surviving this complete, this thing, the treatment but not the illness. So it was a very serious situation, but they didn't, they'd had the treatment before, they didn't like it.
So he asked me if I could go and help him. So I did, went to the hospital, went into that ward, and I was finding it's best to go into the ward that they're in, otherwise you have to shout really loudly. And what I did helped.
And the fact that it helped, that was a thousand, it means a thousand times probably of anything that I would do online. Because that, it was powerful, as far as just getting instant feedback and then, yeah, it's hard for me to put into words. But the following day, I'm at lunch with one of my Buddhist buddies, didn't know this bloke particularly well, he's now ordained I think, but I knew him enough to go out for lunch and stuff.
And I told him about what I was doing, it was still quite early days I guess, wasn't it, it was the first half of 2006. And he said, because I told him I was doing it for free, and he said, well if you do something for free, people won't appreciate it. And in my imagination, I punched him.
It's like, and I was physically shaking with, I was, my reaction was not good internally. But I said to him, you got any idea what you just said? And I explained to him what I'd done the day before, where I'd been and, you know, just like, so you're telling me that person didn't appreciate it because I didn't charge them any money. And people don't know what to say in that situation.
It's a bit like, you know when people say, charity starts at home, and I answer, well you don't know what the word charity means then, because that's not what charity is. Looking after yourself and looking after your family is a standard thing that everyone pretty much does. It's not charity though.
Buying yourself food isn't charity. And I've lost a few friends over the years. I wonder what charity actually means.
I should look it up really before I start going on, shouldn't I? Meaning. Charity. An organisation set up to provide help and raise money for those in need.
The body of organisations viewed collectively as the object of fundraising or of donations. The voluntarily giving of help, typically in the form of money, to those in need. Help or money given to those in need.
Kindness and tolerance in judging others. She found it hard to look at her mother with such charity. Charity is the voluntarily provision of assistance to those in need.
It serves as a humanitarian act and is unmotivated by self-interest. Various philosophies about charity exist. So.
I knew all that anyway. It's not buying food for yourself. That's just the right thing to do.
You need to eat. Everyone needs to eat. And.
Charity begins at home. Home. It's like.
I think what it is, is, is, is, is, is. Some of these sentences that are regurgitated. Are just reused without thinking.
No thought at all has gone into what they're saying, what they're actually meaning. They just kind of know the context. And I've heard other people saying this at the same, kind of at the same time of that kind of conversation.
And it's just repeating what other people have done and said. Without actually giving it any thought. I just find it a little bit.
A little bit weird, really, to be honest. Three people. Three people in the last few years have said that to me.
Charity begins at home. Man. It's just, it's just one of those cliches.
I feel like I want to have a book of cliches I can just read out, like one after another, like a hundred. Just shout it at them. But I don't.
I don't. So, yeah, so that's it. That's Hillary's question.
So I hope I answered partly some of that. Some. Emery has asked, Hi Jason, what podcast do you listen to? Well, hi, Emery.
What do I know for? And. Mind your own business. So what podcast do I listen to? Hmm.
Let me think. My back is still hurting. Oh.
I did some weights today. It didn't help. It's supposed to help.
But I think it's just posture and stuff like that. I've had it before. The thing is, when I had it before.
I said it was just. Lack of. Lack of movement, maybe.
Spend a bit too much time sitting down. And. They gave me these really strong painkillers.
They're also like muscle relaxants. I did not like them. I really didn't.
They were too strong and made my brain go a bit weird. So I stopped taking them. After a month.
I did stop. I think eventually. But yeah, so what's my question? What podcasts do you listen to? I don't have.
I don't really have any particular podcasts that I listen to these days. The ones I have listened to in the past. Would be.
Like psychological, psychological, psychology stuff, things like that. And. But what I do listen to.
Is audible books. I've got hundreds of books on audible now, I think. I've got quite a few over the years.
It's all adds up, doesn't it? How many have I got? Audible home. And. Library.
275 titles. I've got on my audible. And yeah, blimey.
275. But that's over like. Wow.
Many, many, many, many, many, many, many years. I don't even know. Doesn't have the dates.
Of when I first joined, I don't think. No. Listening level.
Weekend Warrior. Yeah. Bite-sized bookworm.
Seven days stretch. I don't know what that was. What's that all about? Listening level.
I'm a master. So I've gone from being a newbie to a novice to a professional to a scholar to a master. So I'm a master listener level.
And. Manager. So I don't know.
It's not telling me. How long. I've been with them.
Membership details. Let's have a look. It might do.
Renews 26 July 2024. No, it doesn't tell me. The thing about it is there's some things that I don't necessarily use.
That I can get rid of. And some things that I really use a lot. Audible something that I use a lot.
Like daily. And Apple. Music.
Is something that I use every single day. And it doesn't have to be Apple. I got two months free on Apple.
It could be Spotify or it could be Amazon. But I use those. I listen to music every day.
Sometimes multiple times a day. Sometimes all night long. All night long.
And I listen to classical music. So or if I'm doing. If I'm doing internet stuff.
Building. Videos or whatever it is. Organizing stuff.
Could you make more noise please Vin. Thanks. I have music on.
Or I listen to a book. Another thing I use a lot of is YouTube. And I listen to there's lots of audio books on there's lots of lectures on there.
And at the moment. Very much. Trying to just.
Watch as much stuff. And listen to as much stuff. About psychology.
You know building up to the. Degree course I start in October. In fact what I've got at the moment.
I've got. Three books. Three one two three.
Yeah three books. The great ideas of psychology. Psychology for Dummies.
An introduction to psychology. I'm basically listening between those three books. And.
Constantly. At night and also during the day. So I've listened to.
The great. Ideas of psychology. And.
Continued download. Blimey. That's weird.
I just wanted to see the details of it. It hasn't completely downloaded at all. How weird.
Why wouldn't it have downloaded it all. I don't know. It's quite a large download.
It's like 400. Megabytes or something like that. No.
342 megabytes. I just wanted to see how many hours. Because that's a really long one.
Psychology for Dummies. Download. How weird.
It's letting me download. It's letting me play it. But it's not downloading it.
I guess it's just letting me stream it. But it hasn't actually downloaded it to the. Right.
That was. I accidentally played it. Also got.
Man's Search for Meaning. By Viktor E. Frankl. And that was.
It's a book I've read. I've got it somewhere. I just couldn't find it anywhere.
I read it. 2001. It's weird that I remember this.
So the reason I remember it is because. I just started. I am.
In September I started a new job. In insurance. And.
December. So I got. Yeah it was November.
So it was November. So basically. I started in September.
So my first. Wage packet. Or my first pay.
Was the end of September. No it was the end of October. Or.
The first of November whatever. And. There was no bonus.
Nothing like that in there. But I was behind in my rent. So I had to pay quite a bit out.
To sort of you know. I was lucky they allowed me to. Because I had no money really.
To sort of pay much rent in advance. But I was at the YMCA. I'm not going to sing this song.
And I do want to though. YMCA. And.
It was weird because. One of my managers came up to me and said. You have to take time off.
I said. What do you mean? I said you're going to have to take. The last week of November off.
Because you've. You're owed that holiday. I didn't.
I could not make sense of that at all. Why would I need to take a week off. I'd only been there for two months.
But I just took it. So fair enough. But the problem with this is.
I'd run out of money. Like completely. On the Sunday.
I got paid on the Friday. Which was. About a thousand pounds or something.
Just over a thousand pounds. With a little bit of bonus. So I had to go.
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. Until Friday early hours. When I got paid.
And it's. It might sound like I'm lying. But it's totally true.
All I had to get me through. For those four days. Was one jar of jam.
Which is. I don't know what you call it. In other countries.
But we call it jam here. And I think. One or two packet of crackers.
Cream crackers. And I did have tea bags. A tap water.
And that was it. So that's all I had for four days. And I was very, very hungry.
For the whole of that time. But what I did do is. I decided to read a book.
Which was the. Victor not Victor. I am the.
Man's search. For. Meaning Victor E. Frankel.
And. It was kind of weird. Because there was.
I was partly feeling sorry for myself. Because I didn't have. Any food.
Because I did run out of crackers. Eventually. And I ran out of jam.
So it was literally just. For nothing. I think for the last day.
Maybe two days. I didn't really have anything. And.
But I was reading this book. Which was talking about. If you don't.
If you know the book. You'll know what I mean. That was a weird noise.
I'm sure I'm turning into a pig. Gradually. So the.
The content of the book. Is very famous. If you want to know.
Maybe just search it. It was very hard. For me to feel sorry for myself.
Whilst reading this book. Genuinely. It was like.
Wow. Well. Although this is difficult.
It's nothing compared to. What the people in this book. Are going through.
So. Put me into a bit of. Perspective.
Gave me a bit of perspective. For a very short while. But a powerful book.
Very powerful. And. I'm pretty sure.
I got another one of his books. About logotherapy. Which is.
Was his. Psychotherapy. Technique.
Which is pretty much about. Finding. Finding meaning.
And I think that stayed with me. Those seeds were sown. After reading that book.
And realising that. If someone can. Find meaning.
Even in the. The most. Extreme conditions.
Then maybe it's possible for. All of us. To find meaning.
Well maybe. I just thought for myself. It's possible that I could.
And I kind of did. Which is why. He's making so much noise.
Basically. I went and got him a treat. He hasn't even had them both.
And a couple of. Packets of food. Empty ones.
But it's still got a little. Bit of food in them I guess. Fell onto the floor.
And now he's. Ripping them to bits. When he was running around.
He built an appetite up. Seriously. I think if I put a packet of food out now.
He'd just eat it all. He's got a real appetite. Yeah.
A few days ago. Didn't eat anything. Hardly anything for two days.
Just goes through periods I guess. He's moody. Wish he was more like me.
So yeah. What I do is. Emery is.
I've been really more. It is kind of like a podcast. I suppose.
But reading. I've been listening to audio books. And.
The podcasting world is not. Quite as. Popular as it used to be.
And. It goes in waves. So I was there.
Before it was popular. Then it became popular. Then it didn't.
Then it wasn't popular anymore. Then it became popular again. Now I think it's going.
Not so popular. And. Yeah.
Popularity. Popularity. Of podcasts.
So I think. If you if you go to. The amount of podcasts I've gone to.
That actually. People start. And then they just stop.
And all this actually thing here. Podcasts. This is from.
Two thousand. Twenty three. On a BBC.
Podcasts. Is to have a go podcaster. Error.
Or era. Come into an end. And I think.
That's possibly. What's happened. And according to this even.
Two thousand. Twenty three. The stats have gone down.
Less people. Are listening to podcasts. Now than used to.
Even here. This is like last year. New podcasts on the decline with.
80% drop over two years. So there's a lot of people. Starting new podcasts.
You know. Especially I guess. Trying to get into.
Like a popular. Thing like you know with YouTube. If there's a. Popular genre.
You find. Like you got Mr. Beast. And after him.
You loads of. I don't want to use the word copycats. But a lot of people doing.
Similar. Things to him. But they're in their own way though.
So it's just as entertaining. And just as valid if they're helping. People's brilliant.
But it's just in a different way. And someone will probably come along. And do it much bigger.
Maybe much better. I mean. Do the.
PewDiePie. Is it PewDiePie. He was the number one podcast.
Number one YouTuber in the world. For years. As like as a soul.
YouTuber. There was. I've got a treat here Vinnie.
If you want it. There you go. He's hungry.
So. And then Mr. Beast took over. Like overtook him.
Because PewDiePie had 100 million. And now. Blimey I don't know how many.
How many Mr. Beast has got. I wonder. I'm going to check.
Mr. Beast. Mr. Beast. Mr. Beast got.
Whoa really. 301 million subscribers. 301 million.
Subscribers. Three. Whoa.
And. Blimey. That surprised me.
I don't know why. Three million. 301 million.
So PewDiePie. PewDiePie. He had 100 and.
He's got 111 million. Is that what he's got. It's weird because I. I remember as.
Wow. I just remembered. It was is that.
Mr. Beast. He took over and he was like 110. 120.
125 million. 130 million. That's when I stopped watching.
I stopped looking at his stats rather than like wow. So. Which makes you wonder.
Makes me wonder. OK. So.
He's clearly the top. Like the top. Of everything.
And. Mr. Beast. 301 million.
10th social. First subscriber rank. In the world.
First country. First in his country. First entertainment.
I'm looking this up on Social Blade. Which is a stats thing. Oh wow.
So he earns like anything up to five million. A month. 65 million.
A year. And that's that's just by. From adverts.
That's about sponsorship and stuff like that. Blimey. So he's getting.
Average. Average. Subscribers.
Extra 21 million. A month. Average video views for a month.
Is. Over 2 billion. Wow.
Over 2 billion views. And that's just. I mean the fact he's getting.
1.3 million a week. Average. According to this.
That's more than footballers. More than basketball players. Not all but.
Wow. Should we look at mine. Shall we.
Come on then. Let's have a laugh. Oh.
I just click on that. It's already. Already got it ready.
Okay. 1031 uploads. How many did he have.
How many uploaded Mr. B Scott. 806. So I'm beating him on that one.
Hmm. Video views. 23.
23,589. Subscribers. 1.2. 1.32 K. 1.3 2000.
User created March 15th. 2018. I'm a C plus.
Total grade. So in the UK. I am.
4396. Top channel in the UK. So there's 4395.
More successful YouTube channels than me in my country. Or in you know UK. So.
Entertainment rank. There are 7,044. YouTube channels that are higher than me in entertainment.
Subscriber rank. 17. I think.
Wow. 17. I think subscriber rank.
17,400. 17,487. That's me subscriber rank in the world.
So 17,486 people. I've got more subscribers than me. In the world.
Video view rank. There are 4,000,000. 4,000,000.
511,000. 699 more YouTube channels. That have more video views than me.
So yeah. It's how much do I make? I don't make anything. I'm not even monetized.
But if I was monetized. I would earn an average. 1 to 17 pound a month.
12 to 100. The maximum is 198 pound a year. I would make from my YouTube channel.
So it's even given me the days. Estimated earnings. So what's the day today? So yesterday.
Thursday. 40 pence. And today so far 54 pence.
If I was monetized. I mean literally. This week.
4 pound. I could have made out of YouTube. If I was monetized.
So yeah. Does it give a future projections? Let's have a look. Future projections.
Let's see what it says. So for me to get. I'd like to have 10,000 subscribers.
By the end of the year. Now it's going to be. 2 years and 4 months.
Before I get 10,000. Or 2 years and 3 months. According to this.
Based on where I am now. And then. View predictions.
I'll be on. Half a million. 500.
So that's where I was before. I was on half a million. Of my other YouTube channel.
Back in. Well forever. A long time ago.
I had. Just over half a million. Plays on that.
Views on my videos. But I think I got three. Maybe.
Two and a half. 3,000 subscribers. So.
Just shows you that. I have a lot. I have a lot more.
Subscribers and views. Now if I'd have kept that. If you imagine.
If all the different podcasts. I've done. I'd have done.
A video. And put onto YouTube. Since 2013.
All the way down to now. All the way up to now. So it lasts 11 years.
Every video. It's thousands isn't it? Thousands of videos. And.
I'm guessing. The better quality as well. Better quality sound.
Better quality video. And. Potentially.
I'd have a lot of subscribers. I might have like. 2,000 subscribers by now.
Like 3,000 inside. Who knows. I mean I might have like 100,000.
I might have a hundred million thousand. So for me to get to the 10,000. It's going to be two and a half years.
For me to get to. 40,000. Is going to take me.
Nearly five years. But you know what. 40,000 means I'll be at two and a half million.
Views. Of my videos. And in reality.
It's going to be higher than that. It will be higher than that. So if I just stick at it.
Stick at it. It's going to be fine. According to this.
In another 12 months. I'll be at three. 3,400 subscribers.
And have 147. Thousand. Views.
Which is not bad. You think 12 years. 12 months.
Going from 27,000. To 147,000. Or 20 whatever I'm on.
I don't know. 23 and a half thousand. To 147,000.
In just a year. And then from. 1,300.
Subscribers. All the way up to. 3,399.
So it's. It's quite a jump in it. Yeah.
So what about the end of this year. The 11th of the 12th. So I should have 1,682.
And 41,390 video. I'll be honest with you. Don't like to be honest.
But I reckon. If I do. If it goes the way.
I'm planning it to go. On YouTube. Then I'm.
Hoping. That the subscribers. Have over 2,000.
By the end of the year. Hopefully more. Because.
What's weird is. This is weird. That was weird.
Whistling. What's weird is. With YouTube.
Something happens. And I can't really explain it. But I've seen it happen for myself.
And. And it's due to the algorithms. And YouTube.
Pushing your videos. Or like letting other people. See the videos.
And suddenly. The stats. Start to rise.
Quite a lot. I get the occasional boost. When suddenly I'm getting.
You know thousands of. Views in. In a few days.
And it goes back down to being. Very little. Which can be to do with.
I just creaked. I just made a creak. My mouth creaked.
Just then. Did you hear that? It was like that. I think it was my jaw.
So. Yeah. I think I'm gonna.
I have to face. Making videos. Again.
You know. Seeing myself on screen. Which I'm not a big fan of.
But. If. If I reach a larger audience.
And get to. Yeah. I think it's worth it.
And YouTube is still really popular. I don't think it's going to go anywhere. It's here to stay.
Pretty much. I think it's. It's proved itself.
And it's. Because it's part of. One of the biggest companies.
In the world. Google. Literally one of the biggest.
Largest companies. In the entire planet. Then.
It can't really fail. Can it? And this. There's a lot of people.
I think. Watch YouTube over TV. I'm one of them.
One of them people. I do. I watch.
I do. I watch. Every day.
I watch YouTube. So. Yeah.
Anyway. So. Does that answer your questions? What podcasts do you listen to? Technically.
I probably. I do. I do.
Listen to podcasts on YouTube. But. They're like video podcasts.
So. Yeah. I do.
I do watch stuff like that on YouTube. Sometimes. There's a few comedy ones.
I quite like. I just. I skim.
I skim through different ones. Really. It's nothing that I'm particularly.
Hooked on. At the moment. So.
Thanks for that. Sarah says. Hello.
From America. I'm curious. What techniques you use.
When you. Can't sleep. Certainly.
You bore yourself to sleep. Somehow. Also.
Thank you for the update. About Loki. Thanks for that.
I don't know what's going on downstairs. Someone's banging. I mean not banging.
You know. Banging as in like a hammer. And.
So Sarah. I. I don't really have any problems. Sleeping.
If that. Makes sense. I tell you what.
What I've realized is. What. Again.
I can only talk for myself. But I think it's. It's something to maybe.
Think about is. When you try. And go to sleep.
That's when it's going to be hard. It's it's not something that can be really be.
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