(no music) #1137 - Q&A Friday - Let Me Bore You To Sleep (1st June 2024)

Well, hello. Horace the pigeon's turned up. Doesn't normally visit me this time of the day.

Vinnie, I don't know what you want. You've just been out for a walk, you got your food, you got your water. There's nothing else I can give you really.

There's no, we didn't go to the sweet shop today so I didn't get him anything. It was raining, it was too rainy today to go out a long way. Staring at me.

Anyway, welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. My name's Jason Newland. My website's jasonnewland.com. This is Q&A Friday.

Q&A, Q&A, Q&A Friday. I need to get some jingles. That pigeon's a bit annoying.

You know, actually earlier today, I guess everything that happened today is earlier, isn't it? There was a bird in the hallway where I live upstairs on the 14th floor and there's this bird trapped and I don't know how, I mean the door downstairs was open so maybe it got in that way and the window was open but it was closed for some reason, probably because of the wind.

So I was trying to manipulate the bird to go towards the window that I just opened but it wouldn't. I was like, I thought, I did think, oh should I get a blanket or something and chuck it over the bird and then do it that way but I don't know.

I didn't, didn't do that in the end but I managed with a bit of sweet words like, come on baby, come on, over to the window, that's it, to the window and eventually he went to the window and left and flew off. That was it, that's the whole story. That wasn't, probably wasn't the most exciting story I've ever told but it's far from the most boring one either.

So if you, if you, if you want to, I am on YouTube, just to let you know, just search for me on YouTube. I have a YouTube channel. How many more times can I say the word YouTube? YouTube.

I also have a Facebook group called Jason Newland's Boring Group, which you are welcome to join. It is a private group but you can join and you'll be accepted and it's a good place to be sure of knowing everything that I've just done, all the new recordings I post on there, and also an opportunity to ask me a question for Q&A Fridays. So I have been asked, I think three people asked me questions.

Hillary asked me a question today and Ben and Ann asked me a question. So what I'll do, I'll start with Ben because he was first, Ann was second, and then Hillary was third. So yeah, so I'll do that in order of who posted the messages or the questions first.

Where is it? Trying to find it, remind me. Q&A, where are you? Where are you? Where are you? Where are you? I've also got to say, I'm not sure if I sent a text or not. Say a big thank you.

Where is it? Big thank you to Mary. I will send you. Oh, I got a question from Mary as well.

I knew there was a fourth question. I just couldn't remember where it was. Mary, so I'll do Mary first, because while I've got the thing open.

So first of all, Mary, thank you for your PayPal gift. And in the note for the PayPal gift is a question. Q&A Friday question.

So hi, Jason, good to hear you making podcast regularly. Did I say only listen when you can safely close your eyes? Just in case I haven't. Why does PayPal convert my gift to you to US dollars? All the best Mary? Well, I don't know is the answer to that.

It's not a not very concise. I guess it depends where you're where you're sending from. But genuinely, I'm going to ask the question, why does PayPal convert to US dollars? When you make a payment in a foreign currency, we calculate the conversion rate for you, you'll see the rate when you make your payment.

When you're making a payment using your card, you can choose to use your card issue as conversion rate. If you choose to use your cards issues rate, you won't know the conversion rate right away. Does that make sense? I don't know.

Really? I don't know. And don't. Yeah, I guess the original answer was correct.

I don't know. I've even looked this and if you use a foreign currency, I guess if you're using euro, euros, or if you're using pounds would normally come through as pounds, like pound sterling, pounds, pounds sterling. So no, I don't know.

Sorry. That was a pretty rubbish answer. But I did do an in depth search.

I researched it very thoroughly for you just then. And I haven't come up with any kind of correct answer. But I think it's going to be practically impossible to research any deeper than I have.

I spent seconds on it. So I'm not sure. Sorry.

Sorry. Okay, so the next question is from Ben. What's your biggest regret? And where do you want to be in 2034 old timer? And what Hollywood plans you thinking now you've got Vinnie? Also, are you happy? So that's 1234 questions.

Right? What's my biggest regret? Okay, I got it. I don't know why I have to do this. But I like to break things up into groups.

So I've got biggest financial regrets. I've got biggest, you know, I've got this like at the top of the list of relationship regrets, romantic relationship regrets, opportunities, stuff like that jobs, and financial with the comedy. With the counseling is the I've got kind of a top of the line regrets for each of those kind of sections, maybe family as well.

To have an overall regret. Maybe I've just maybe I've not reached it yet. Not got there yet.

But I've got a few I can tell you some of my regret regrets I've got. I guess it's the things that we think about. There's a few, a few things that do resurface into my mind at times.

One is a a lady who used to work at the comedy club. She was a waitress and she couldn't have been less blatant that she liked me. Or she couldn't be more blatant.

I mean, she she liked me. She told me she liked me in quite a few different ways. And I didn't pursue her.

Or I didn't. Well, I didn't. I don't accept her invitation into a kind of a relationship.

I really liked her really liked I'd known for a few years. She was funny. She was lovely to talk to love it to be around.

Very attractive. No, but there's something I kind of had a rule not to not to date any staff there. So I dated a member of staff in 1991.

And even though I wasn't necessarily that involved in the club, it was still awkward. And I asked another member of staff out. Again, I think it was 91 92.

Now it was a little bit awkward as well. And then 93 I asked three waitresses out. And that was definitely an awkward year.

And 94 actually, I was five out at this time, I just lined them all up just that we go out on me we go out on me no we go out on me no we go out on me no we go out on me. Maybe things I'd left the last one. It's like I really want to go with the third one.

But she said no. And I just be weird. So I kind of didn't.

It's not about like not on your own doorstep. It's just I just really liked her. And she basically told me that she liked me.

The night that I was moved like, I'd already moved away. At this point. I think I'd already moved to a different part of country.

She was living in London. And it just wasn't just well, what's the point? This is gonna be a unless she came with me. And I didn't want it just to be a one night thing because I liked I really liked her.

I'd fancied her for ages and ages. I think the first time I really like really fancied her was on Halloween night, she came dressed as a vampire. And I was like, Wow.

But she used to flirt me a lot. She just come up to me say I can she cover cover her face arise. What color? What color eyes I got? And she'd be sitting on my lap like, Oh, I don't know.

I've never looked at your eyes. I don't know. She just didn't believe that I knew what color eyes she had.

But I did. She had brown eyes, or blue eyes. Maybe green, though, but they were definitely eyes.

Definitely eyes. And but she's just, I don't know, I didn't know she was flirting or she was just and it's like we didn't always connect. It was like, I remember she saying, I needed to go and get some food.

I was going to get a bagel. It's the end of work. And there's only me and her left in the in the club.

And I wanted to go and get a bagel in around the corner. And she said, and she knew I was hungry. And she said, Oh, I think I might go upstairs and just it's a bit hot in there.

Just get undressed into my underwear and lounge around on this on the bed in the bedroom bar. There's no one else around. And I was just so disappointed like with her lack of being aware the fact that I was hungry, I needed a bagel.

I would just it's almost like we're on different levels, you know. And that's what I regret. I regret that she didn't realize that I was hungry.

And I regret staying there with her and not eating that bagel. There was a few is I really I liked her. I really liked her.

And I don't know how many opportunities are there for potentially a lifelong relationship potentially, we'd never know. We could still be together 23 years later. It's just there's no way of knowing no way of knowing.

So yeah, that was a shoot. That was one of my little regrets. One of my main regrets as far as romances go.

Well, that wasn't a romance, but it was an opportunity and I didn't jump at the opportunity of being in her life or having her in my life, which is really the thing wasn't about anything else other than I enjoyed her company. And what else? A couple of other weird ones. Yeah, just a couple of like relationshipy kind of stuff.

Am I really gonna tell you this? I think I've mentioned it before, but it's embarrassing. It's embarrassing. Like really embarrassing.

Do you want to hear it? Okay. It was Christmas time. During the Christmas party season, you know, leading up to Christmas, December.

And yeah, we know where Christmas is. Okay, okay, just give me time. And so it was in the club.

And she came in. She came in part of a group of nurses. Because there'd be like parties of different groups of people.

Sometimes you'd have the police, quite a few of the emergency services would congregate. And because there was a hospital just up the road, Whitechapel Hospital wasn't far away. And so she came in it.

But you know, sometimes the whole groups would come in and other times like individually, they just turn up. On this occasion, her group were just turning up. And she came in.

But what was strange is she had no head. And I really intrigued me. And what was strange is she kept coming up to me and asking questions, which is not completely unheard of.

But it got to the point where I'm starting to think, I wonder if she's just wanting to speak to me. You know, when she brought the crossword puzzle up from the newspaper, and Vinnie's just done the smelliest fart you could ever imagine. Oh, my goodness.

He's acting like nothing's happened. This isn't part of the story. This is just real life now.

I'm bringing you back to the now. It smells worse than me. I mean worse than I normally smell.

Not without the farts. Oh, I feel I should call the police. Oh, I mean, I can't have the window open because I'm trying, you know, when I'm doing recordings, I try and keep the window closed, close the curtains, keep as much sound out as possible.

Anyway, the so this this lady, she keeps coming up and asking me questions. And in the end, I said, Look, we should go away. I didn't, I said, I was like, Okay, I didn't really understand.

And all through the night, she was smiling at me. And then when it came to doing the disco, she was up there talking to me and her friends were pushing her forward. So I guess she told them that maybe she liked me.

I don't know. And we ended up dating. So I guess she did like me.

And we got on pretty well. All things considered. I saw her a few times before Christmas.

But I didn't have much time off work. So I was what wasn't work, but like doing the DJ stuff. So I didn't have much time earning my food and beer, and my taxi home.

But I used to see on a Sunday. So I saw every Sunday for like for the month for about three weeks. And then I went away for Christmas, she went away for Christmas, spoke to her over Christmas on the phone.

Because we're in different parts of the country. I started I tried shouting, but it didn't work. Although there's some neighbors around there that actually could shout and be heard at least 300 miles away.

I'm pretty sure we're just talking normal, normal level. You can hear them the other side of town. Imagine if they actually imagine if they stood in a tunnel.

Oh, so and stayed there. So I um, it seemed to be going quite well. You know, seem to be having a laugh and we went out on dates and stuff on a Sunday.

And I think we might have met up on a Saturday as well because she was working as a nurse. And then she came around my place in January. Now I was renting a room, little box room, which you wouldn't be able to rent out legally.

Like it wouldn't be big enough to rent out like as a private landlord. Now, but it was fine for me. I didn't care.

It was fine size. It was fun size just like me. Anyway, we were upstairs in my room for a little while.

And then I heard the dreaded sound of a car pulling up onto the driveway. So I rushed downstairs. I'm embarrassed by this.

I was so scared of my landlady. Just, you know, it's just like she just was annoying. She used to just be like, can't have women in you just very quite strict and I couldn't be bothered with a hassle.

Now it was a mistake. Okay, this is what I did next was a mistake. So I needed in my brain at the time, I needed to hide her.

Don't worry, it doesn't involve a big freezer or anything like that. And but what I did do and this this is silly. And this is about 4 430 in the evening.

In the afternoon, it's dark outside. I got to go outside and hide in the alleyway. It was raining and like it was cold out there.

It's January. And then the front door opens. I'm just gonna try and act all cool.

So I closed the back door open in this way there. And it isn't my landlord, my landlady, it's her husband, who's he doesn't care didn't care about anything really. So he was fine.

And I'm chatting to him. Now. I don't know.

I don't know if my mistake. You can tell me what you can answer me this if you want. I don't know if my mistake was put by didn't push up but I I did lead her outside.

So getting her to go outside or asking her to go outside and hide whether that was the issue that ended the relationship or leaving it 45 minutes before going and getting her I don't know because it was Chan. I just I forgot she was there. And there was a tap on the door like she was drenched.

This I felt so bad. Because she came in and I thought, Oh, I have to clean up all the floor because it was wet. I just felt bad for myself.

I felt sorry for myself. And the land, my landlady's husband found it funny. And she didn't find it funny.

My girlfriend that well, at that time, I don't think she was my girlfriend anymore. I walked her home. We got dry got dried off, walked her home.

Well water to the train station. I didn't. I kind of knew there was no point really in walking, going all the way back to her place and just closing the door on me.

You know, just like just like make our own way back. So I got to the tube station. And that was the last time I ever saw her ever never saw her again.

And I found she she accidentally and I don't know if this is true if it was if she accidentally or not, but she pocket dialed me. And all I heard was her slagging me off. He put me in the alleyway.

Hey, what kind of man does that? Which I agree? What kind of man does that? It's just what kind of human I'm embarrassed. I'm embarrassed for myself. I don't know why I did it.

I just it was it was it was one of my it wasn't my best moment. It's not something I want to be remembered by. And you could argue well stop telling people then.

Yeah, it's a good point. So that was a regret, but regret not so much that it ended the relationship, but just the regret of doing something like that just being that worried. Because basically my landlady would be horrible.

And I would my internal reaction would be I would react by had to kind of obviously hold it in. And it was just too painful to do that. Sometimes you'd have arguments and that and because she was actually my like third cousin or something.

So we're family we're related. So I had to just be careful. And it's a shame because I liked that person, whatever her name was.

And am I supposed to remember names of people that I've dated? Is that normal? The weird thing about it. Okay. I can name, I can name someone that I didn't date.

In 1986. I had a first date and I messed up. That's Wendy.

So I remember her. But I don't remember the actual girl that I did date in 1986. It's strange.

However, you could argue Yeah, but I did spend like two years working with her. So you're fair enough. I saw her very regularly.

So of course, I guess I names etched in my brain. Other than the fact that I really had, I think I was in love with her. We didn't get on.

But I think I was actually in love with her without realising that. Although I think I did declare my love to her once. And she she talked me down.

And like just it's like, okay, you'll find someone that likes you one day. So she's pretty good like that. But she did.

She did agree to go out with me once. And go to the cinema. I don't know if it was a date in her mind.

I don't know if it was a date in my mind. But I thought it'd be funny to hide from her. And I saw her come in and I hid and by the time I stopped hiding, she was gone.

In fact, everyone was gone. The movie was over. I hid in an alleyway too many alleyways in my life.

And anyway, see, yeah, she didn't seem to be very happy with me after that. Didn't hang around. I didn't look for me.

I don't think you know, it's not like I think that she should still be looking for me. You know, driving around like, where's Jason? It's only 45 years later. But the love of my life.

She had ginger hair. It's not really relevant. But it's been I've dated a lot of females with ginger hair.

Yeah, I've dated a lot. And so I guess that's one of my little things I have that doesn't get. Yeah, it's just it's my little thing.

This is just I don't know. Maybe I'm just less prejudiced than the average person. I just you know, I can overlook the overlook the ginger.

No, I like ginger hair. It's nice. Anyway, it isn't really about gingers.

This is I'm partly ginger anyway. I've got all my gingers are now grey. Although I shaved my head today.

Sounded like a bit of a poem. All my gingers were grey. I shaved my head today.

Yeah, I did shave my head and my chins, my chins, my cheeks and my chins all five of them. Had a proper cleanup. Completely bald now.

It's quite nice. I did a I like to mess around when I shave. And for some reason today I decided to I gave myself a mohawk, which is kind of what I was thinking about last night actually just so Oh, because I remember when people used to have hair like that.

I knew one person that had very, very short mohawk Mohican, I think the same thing, isn't it? Mohawk Mohican. And I thought I'll give it a go. But it was a little bit wonky.

It was more one sided than in the middle. That might be because my head is not as symmetrical. As perhaps it could be if it was more symmetrical.

So I ended up trying to move it up. You can't move a mohawk. Once it's there, you can shave bits off.

It's not like a Mr. Potato Head. So I ended up just with a tuft at the front. And I thought, well, Usyk, the World Heavyweight Championship had that.

And this little voice behind me said, but you're not Usyk are you? And I said, shut up Vinnie. Just go away. It did look a bit silly, but I thought about leaving it just for a laugh.

And then when I got to my face, I don't know why, but I just like to have a OK, I like to have a Charlie Chaplin moustache. I like to leave it like a Charlie Chaplin, just for just for fun. You know, big Charlie Chaplin fan, Lauren Hardy.

And I love Lauren Hardy. And Hardy was the one with the, with the, well, he didn't have a Charlie Chaplin moustache. He had what was the moustache, which was popular of the day.

I can't think of anyone else that had a moustache like that. So, you know, I assumed that if someone saw me in the street with a moustache, they would automatically think, oh, Charlie Chaplin or Lauren Hardy. Oliver Hardy, Laurel, Laurel, Laurel, is it Oliver Laurel? No, Oliver Hardy and Stan, Stan Laurel and Oliver Hardy.

That's it. Oliver Hardy was the, was Stan Laurel was the slimmer one of the two. It's very, very slim, wasn't he? If you have not seen it, it's definitely worth watching.

It's Steve Coogan plays Stan Laurel in a movie about Lauren Hardy. And it's their older years. It's when they pretty much, they were at the end of their career or their career was pretty much over and they were, they came to England and were doing some shows and what was the name? Oliver Hardy was very unwell, but it was such a good, good show, good film, good film wasn't perhaps the funniest thing ever, but it wasn't really supposed to be funny.

It was, you know, but Steve Coogan was so good. The other bloke was really, really, really good as well. But Steve Coogan, there will come a time when, I don't know, it might be 30, 40 years time, Steve Coogan will be there amongst Peter Sellers.

And, you know, some of the greatest comedy actors ever, just because he's so good. And he has, I guess, got typecast with Alan Partridge, who's just brilliant. I love Alan Partridge.

And that has always been his most popular character. It's the same way as, what's his name, who did Ali G. Now Ali G, Conan, Baron Conan, Conan Baron, whatever his name is, he, Ali G was huge, hugely famous. But let's face it, what's he known for, really? What's his most famous character? It's Ballrat.

Even though Ali G was like a huge star for years, Ballrat, that's what he's going to be remembered for. Unless, of course, you know, he does something else, which I'm sure you will. He's done, he did Bruno, he did The Dictator.

So yeah, he's done lots of different. It's very funny. The Dictator is funny.

Yeah, I did watch Bruno, but I don't remember what really what happened in it. But he's Conan Baron, Baron Conan. He's a great comedy actor as well.

Anyway, the questions, what gets, I do come back to the questions, don't I? See, see, I'm very focused in these recordings. Maybe. Ben asked, what's my biggest regret? Okay, my biggest regret might sound like a weird, weird thing, really.

One of my biggest regrets in life is working in that chip shop. Now I know it's, you know, everything that's happened since then has led me to here. But that's one of my biggest regrets.

As far as like, like a long term regret, because I was 15 when I left school, I could have literally got a job pretty much anywhere. It would have been easy. You know, whatever I did, I'd be started at the bottom.

But it wouldn't matter because I was 15. And as long as I would have had anywhere else providing it wasn't, you know, a YTS scheme, I'd have got paid an amount to live on and I'd have been okay. So yeah, that that's probably one of the biggest regrets.

So that it's no one's fault. But it's not even it's no one's fault. Not even mine.

I just, I didn't know what else to do. I was kind of in a in a backed in a corner a little bit. So I just took the first thing.

And I've done that a few times over the years and hasn't always worked out to be honest. So another thing, this is a more recent regret. And I'm not going to go into details in this because it's fairly serious.

But one of my regrets is not going down to see my friend earlier, because he might still be here if I had So, you know, there's no way of knowing what was going to happen. But that's it. And I had a key.

It's not like I didn't couldn't get in. So I just wish I'd have done that. But I didn't.

Because I left him alone. So I knew he'd been up all night. So I didn't bother him.

Another whatever else. Regret, regret, regret, regret. I have a little bit of a regret not joining the army.

So I got accepted. We got all I had to do is turn up for the weekend training. The you know, I'd already got through the physical, the test, or everything.

I just needed to go along and do the weekend training, which I'd have passed, I wouldn't have had a problem with that. I think the only thing that would have got in my way would be the two things would be anything involving water, because I'm not a big thing like that, or the air being in the air. So if I had to fly a plane, which I probably wouldn't have to on the weekend, or jump out of a plane, which I probably, I guess I wouldn't have to on the weekend.

I mean, I'm not sure. Sometimes they don't they practice with really high sticks, and you climb up the pole or whatever, then you jump down. Or if there was bungee jumping, things like that, I wouldn't have liked that.

And swimming because I wasn't really very competitive. Why did I say the word competitive? Because that's like being competing, isn't it? I wasn't I wasn't a swimmer, really. Competent.

Competent. Competitive, competent, competent, competent, competing, competing, competing. I wasn't competent.

I wasn't a good swimmer. That's what I'm trying to say. I wasn't even average.

I was kind of, yeah, you know, I was. So she's okay. But I just wasn't into swimming.

So but other than that, I think I mean the discipline, I might have struggled with that. But I had been in the sea cadets. I mean, most of my school adults at my high school life, I was in the sea cadets.

And then I was doing karate. Both were very disciplined. Both, you know, was lining up, doing what I was told.

So yeah, I think I'd have been all right. With the discipline side. I wouldn't have liked it.

Yeah, I don't know. But I kind of think, well, my life would have been different, but would have been different in a good way. Because once I found out what I was capable of doing, would that have helped me? You know, would that have been useful for me as an adult going forward? So I don't know.

Because when you're in the army, you find out what you can do. In a conflictual situation, and I never really got to find that out. And I feel kind of blessed that I didn't.

Because I don't think it would have led me in the right direction. So I don't know, it might be good. So that's, that's like a huge regret.

Why the regrets? I didn't realize I had so many regrets. Well, it's not things I don't give a lot of thought to so much. Apart from when I do.

I'm thinking about it because you brought it up. Basically, it's Ben's fault. Blame Ben.

Blame. Isn't it weird how everyone just wants to blame, have to blame. Here's another one.

Another thing that I've noticed. I see it more and more on Facebook. People posting messages to someone that no one knows who it is they're talking to.

You'll never do this to me again. You'll never. I trusted you.

And then people are commenting. Yeah, good on you girl. Who is it even aimed at? You forgot to put the name of the person you're aiming it at that you're talking to.

It's very, very unusual. I don't know. It's unusual on Facebook, but just seems a very strange thing to do.

Just, I don't know, just, um, I might be in the minority on that one. But just feels a bit icky. A little bit.

So I imagine I wouldn't like someone to do it about me. Although I think I have had it done about me a couple of times. And I haven't had someone do a YouTube video slagging me off.

Seriously. There's this woman. And I think she's in Australia.

I think. And she was at a barbecue, which is a little bit. And what's the word? Whatever the word is, but she was at a barbie.

And she was basically with some friends making fun of me, filming it on her phone. And then she posted it on a channel and just put my name is a whatever word she used. It's like, wow, there was no other videos on there.

And she just opened the channel. She literally just started the YouTube channel just for that. Which was all a little bit of a lie, because I don't know if she did or not.

But it makes the story sound a bit more interesting, I think. Stereotypical, that's what I was gonna say. Anyway, so I also said there was a couple of, well, it was a woman, but she was with someone else drinking tea in a garden, saying, we know something you don't know.

And I never found out what they were talking about. And I think partly because I deleted my YouTube channel out of fear. No, I didn't.

Well, I did delete the YouTube channel. But when I was doing videos on YouTube, like regularly, I got a lot of messages. And, yeah, it was, yeah, it's weird.

It's weird how I start to remember those because I didn't. I've not been involved in YouTube really properly since 2013, I think. So it's what, blimey, 11 years.

That's one of my regrets, my biggest regrets is deleting my YouTube channel, which was going really well. I know, like by today's standards, 45,000 plays a month isn't like a huge amount. But it was growing.

It was like growing by, I don't know, five to 10% every month. So imagine what it'd be like now, 11 years on, especially as the quality of the videos would be better. The quality of the audio would be better.

The content would be worse, but still, you know, compensates for, compensates for everything else being better. My face would be older. Not a lot I could do about that, really.

I mean, if I had 45,000 plays in 2013, I might have like 65,000 a month now. Imagine that. It's amazing.

You think about it. I mean, I might actually realistically have a really quite successful YouTube channel by now, if I'd just kept it. And I didn't get rid of it because it was going bad.

I got rid of it because I had a little brain fart. And for some reason, I thought it'd be a good idea to delete it. What a great idea.

Well done, JJ. And I don't know why, even to this day, I don't know why. I remember doing it.

I just don't know why. I was just having a weird day, I guess. Plus, I wasn't very well at the time.

So that probably didn't help. So yeah, it was. Yeah.

So that's definitely one of my regrets. One of my regrets. I just didn't want, don't want this to be the whole recording.

We're just talking about regrets. But I have regrets. But then again, too few to mention.

Well, obviously not too few to mention, because I've mentioned millions of them. One of the regrets. I regret moving here a little bit.

Because it hasn't been. Well, I mean, the good thing about moving here is, I don't know if I would have started the Let Me Bore You To Sleep podcast if I hadn't been here. Because it's those weird things that all the little bits come together to create something new.

And I remember when I was sitting over there with the idea. I don't remember the exact day, but I just thought, oh, someone told me that because I just started doing YouTube videos again, and I was doing some JSON chats. And someone said, oh, I fall asleep when you make these videos.

And I thought, ah, talking about my life is boring to some, probably not too many, but boring to some. So my intention was to, when I started, to actually purposefully make them boring. Not realizing that I didn't need to put any effort into making them boring.

And it's progressed from there. Six years and six years and two months later. And 1000 and how many? How many have I done? 1000 and 1136 recordings.

This is number 1137. I know. It's ridiculous, really.

It really is. It's like, wow. I'm still doing it.

Still doing it, man. Other regrets? Yeah. I suppose.

I'm trying to think I'm sure there's a big one that I've forgotten. There's ones that would have made a big difference. You know, like, if I hadn't bought those flowers, or if I hadn't set fire to that car, you know, just just little things just I don't know.

I mean, a lot of it is, I suppose, connected to mistakes that I made, which and I've made some really silly mistakes, but never out of malice or trying to cause harm. Sometimes out of trying to help other people. That hasn't seemed like it.

And other times out of pretty bit of mania, to be honest. Not not really thinking about what I'm doing. And then only afterwards, I think, you know, realizing, oh, what did I do? But with the intention of helping somebody.

I've Yeah, it's hard to explain. But so yeah, yeah, I can't really think of any others that there are probably quite a few. But as far as my biggest one, giving up comedy as well.

But that was only supposed to be a temporary thing. I took a break. I had a really bad gig in January 1998.

Decided to have a break from it. And never did another gig. What's that 26 years? Blimey.

Ridiculous. Time, time. So yeah, I suppose I regret not having had a career.

You know, not having been really good at something. I mean, I was fairly good at selling. But it wasn't a career.

It's just sitting on the phone. I never, never progressed to any kind of higher position. You know, even like sales manager or anything like that, which is quite a high position in the sales floor.

It's the highest position you can get on a sales floor, but not even as a supervisor, or even the cleaners were above me. Honestly, I was pretty low down. That's fine.

I don't mind. I mean, if I minded, I'd still be talking about it 20 years later, wouldn't I? Oh, wait a minute. And so that's it.

I won't talk about any more regrets. There probably are other ones. I just can't think of anything offhand.

So the next question is, where do you want to be in 2034? How far away is that? That's 10 years away. So 2034, I will be 20 3020. I'll be Wow, 63 years old.

So where do I want to be in 2034? I'd like to, I don't know. I'd like to be successful at something. I thought I'd like Yeah, I do.

I want to be successful. Just successful just to know that like, yeah, I mean, I don't mean necessarily be the best. Because the world's a big place, but successful, remembered for something positive, you know? I mean, ask you, that's not what you're asking.

But like 2034 10 years away, I do worry, I kind of worry that firstly, I'll still be sitting, talking to a microphone, doing a Let Me Bore You To Sleep podcast number. I don't know whatever number it would be. But also worried I won't be, you know, so I was 300 Oh, 10 years time.

Blimey, it's not much longer than I've already done on this. So it's only four years more, isn't it? We've done six years. So it's a 10 years.

By then I'd have done 3600 4600 4700. So if I do on nearly every day, I'd be out there with 4000 four and a half thousand recordings. So by then, isn't it weird to think there's people that are be listening to me that are not haven't been born, but they're kind of maybe at school.

And 10 years time, there'll be adults at work, listening, or people that have never even heard of me, maybe listening, or some people that have been listening to me for years and years and years, and have all grown up together. Yeah, I don't know. I still got a little.

I've got this little ambition that I'd like to work on the radio, have my own radio show. Just doing this really, just maybe, maybe not call it boring, because I don't know how to sell that to a radio show. Because probably, that's not what a radio show would want.

Relaxing and do relaxing. So maybe like late night, 10 to one or something like that. I just think that I might be okay doing something like that.

I suppose I kind of got this little dream of working on LBC radio. And yeah, I don't know. I mean, maybe, maybe if everyone contacts LBC radio, LBC, L B C, and contacts them says, Hey, you should give this Jason a new land, a job as a radio, on a radio show, because he's, he's asked us to send you messages to ask you to do it.

We don't really want him to do it, because I think it'd be boring, but gone. Give me a job. Go on, give me a job.

Give me a job. But yeah, that kind of step, that'd be nice. You know, to be earning some good money, to be, I mean, I don't know if I'd ever have a car.

I might be, I don't know if I'm ever going to be driving, probably not. But it'd be nice to be able to have a little bit of freedom to go where I need, where I want to go and travel around. And yeah, so that'd be nice.

Which kind of brings me to, is that thunder I'm hearing? No, it's a motorbike. Okay. And what holiday plans do I have? I'm thinking now that I've got Vinnie, nothing, literally nought.

No holiday plans, no plans to even leave this town anytime soon, probably not for a few years, or at least just, I mean, I might go visit me dad, but I'd have to leave Vinnie here. So that would just be for the day. Holiday, no, there's no, no way I can go anywhere.

So not because of him, just generally just can't, can't go anywhere. But it would be nice. I quite like the idea of maybe staying in a dog friendly hotel on the seafront somewhere nice, as opposed to somewhere horrible.

You know, I quite, Torquay's always, it's been a little, a little gem in my memory from when I was younger. Went to Torquay for about five days, and I loved it. I really liked the place.

So yeah, maybe do that, but not anytime soon. Hopefully by 2034, I'll have gone on holiday. Because the last time I went on holiday anywhere really, before a couple of years ago, was 2003.

When I went to Amsterdam. Before that it was Bulgaria in 2002. And I did go to the Isle of Man in 2004.

So that might count. I did go up north in 2005. Does that count? I did go to Wales I think in 2005 as well.

Or 2006, 2005. Does that count? But that was on a retreat. No, that was 2006.

I think it was a pain, pain management retreat. And using mindfulness. So that was for like a week, I think.

Snowing. It was in spring, but it was proper snowing. And I enjoyed that.

It was nice. I liked that actually. And other than that, 2003, 2004, 2005, 2007, 8, 9, 10.

Yeah, no. So between 2000, really the holiday, Wales wasn't a holiday. That was a training.

And the Isle of Man was with family. So that wasn't really much of a holiday. It was nice to get away.

But it was nice. But it was okay. Class it as a holiday.

So I did go to... Where did I go with a friend? And 2021, I think. And Cornwall. I mean, technically that was supposed to be a holiday.

But it wasn't really so much of a holiday. It was, but it was wrong timing. You know, stuff, Andre.

I just lost Andre. And I was kind of, I probably wasn't very good company and even to myself. But it was nice to get away.

It was. So that was, maybe that's kind of a holiday. But generally, I quite like the idea of going on a cruise.

There's lots of things. That's why I want to live forever. Because I want to, I'd like to just do lots of different things.

But that's why I want to be a vampire. Because, you know, if you're a vampire, providing you're careful, avoid sharp objects, daylight, I can do that quite easily. It's fine.

You know, you can read every book you've ever wanted, watch every movie you've ever wanted to watch, every TV show from start to finish, every box set, and eat every food. Okay, I suppose technically, I could eat all the food I wanted, but it wouldn't live forever, would I? So yeah, it's and then travel to every place you ever want to travel to. That's the good thing about being a vampire.

But there's limitations. I mean, having to be carried around in a coffin, probably one of them, only being able to come out at night. But even I mean, the thing is like, oh, he's out at night, how can you enjoy that? But through a vampire's eyes, we don't know if it's bright like daytime.

So that's why I don't like daylight because it's so bright. But at night time, everything's clear and everything's like really bright and they can see everything. It's not like us.

Well, you obviously I am a vampire, but not like you lot. See, so I know your question then wasn't really about how I'd like to live my life as a vampire. But yeah, where do I want to be in 2034? I'd like to still be alive.

That'd be nice. And, and, yeah, I'd like to be successful. I know, holiday plans, got nothing, nothing planned.

I'll come to and next because the next question is another one from Ben and I'm gonna I want to include and just in case I get sidetracked and forget where I am. So and asks me, how did you decide on the mantra you repeat at the end of each Let Me Bore You To Sleep? Well, basically, I had a friend must have got a friend. It's a unload on a little bit or used to actually reword that I was almost like my counselor.

He actually became a counselor after I became a counselor. But he was so good. And he just used to listen to me going on and on and on.

And it wasn't really fair on him to be fair. But anyway, he used to say that to me, just be kind to yourself. And at the time, I was going through all this anxiety and illness and stuff like, you know, I just really was very uptight as a person.

And it took me a long time to learn to relax. Really, this is I mean, this is back in 2003. And all it took me a few years to really, you know, by about 2006, I've learned to kind of relax.

I was, you know, took me I could relax, but it just took me practice and practice and practice, meditation, studying hypnosis, self hypnosis, going on courses, learning, you know, just just learning and trying to get in touch with how I was feeling and having counseling and all those things. And then, but what I used to say when I used to see him, and I've known him for a long time now, I saw him a few weeks ago, we had lunch.

But he used to say to me, just be kind to yourself.

And I never really, really understood what that meant. And it took a lot of took a lot of searching and maybe being a counselor to get to that, you know, and seeing how unpleasant people are towards themselves. Sometimes, the things that some people say to themselves, the things that I say to myself, and some people even say out loud to themselves and think nothing of it.

And then I realized, you know, after years and years and years, you think this started in 2000. It's basically November 2002, I started meeting up with him for coffee and that. And he used to say to me, every time, be kind to yourself.

And then I started these podcasts in 2000 and whatever year is 18 2018. So it's a few years, isn't it? And I've done hypnosis recordings, even entitled titled be kind to yourself, the you deserve to be happy, kind of. It's a weird thing, because when I moved into this place, when I moved into this flat, I actually wrote down above the door in the living room, so I can see it right now, facing towards me, I deserve to be happy.

And I wrote that in a marker pen back in 2015. Thinking that I probably was going to paint over at some point, but I never ended up painting the doorframe. So it's still there.

So that's something I see every day. And I didn't want to say something, you know, like just, what do they call it, we say something doesn't really have any meaning, or you don't mean it. And, you know, whatever that word is, that's used for that.

I didn't want to do that. I didn't want to sound like Jerry Springer, although I did used to be a bit of a fan of Jerry's. Jerry, Jerry, and, you know, be kind to yourself, and each other.

So I quite like the idea of saying something at the end of the recording, probably influenced by Jerry Springer a little bit without realizing it, you know, after the event, I'm thinking, yeah, yeah, maybe a little bit. But I wanted to leave each recording. And you know what, I might have started saying this long before Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

I might have been saying this for years, I don't remember, I'd have to listen to some of the older recordings, the hypnosis stuff. Because I don't know if it's really Let Me Bore You To Sleep thing. It might have been just like, you know, the beginning of the recording, hello, welcome to wherever.

I used to start off saying welcome to www.jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland. And then maybe say what the recording is. But then I say, please remember to be now was only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

And I've been saying that since 2006. So how long is that? 1818 years. So I've been and I had just I had to come up with something.

I know that's not what you asked. But that's something that I've been saying all that time. And it's basically because I started giving CDs to members of this charity alcohol and drug rehab places.

And I was doing these group sessions, relaxation sessions and start to make these DVD, not DVDs, CDs for people to take home so they can listen. And the man that worked at the charity, he said, we've got to put a warning on this thing. Because people are falling asleep.

I said, Okay. And it was really a dual effort between the two of us. So instead of doing this whole big thing about don't use machinery, don't climb on pylons, don't fly a helicopter.

Don't do brain surgery, you know, don't juggle a dwarf or whatever. It's just like, we need something very concise, that will cover all situations. So I don't know if I can, I like to think that I came up with it.

But I think it was a mixture between the two of us. The conversation led to this final one, which was only listen when you can safely close your eyes. That covers everything.

Because people don't go to sleep with their eyes open, do they? Generally. And I've let everyone know that you cannot close your eyes. It's like a pre pre warning kind of a precursor pre emptying them closing their eyes.

So yeah, that's why it covers everything, covers every single scenario. Really. So yeah, but anyway, I know you asked about the last one last bit.

I didn't. The reason I kind of, I started looking into what I was saying, like I'm saying this, do I mean it? Where am I coming with this? Because I knew I meant it, but I just didn't know for a while. I want to explain what I mean by this.

And I've made a few recordings over the years, where I've explained in depth, exactly what I mean by those words. And be kind to yourself, because you deserve to be happy. Be gentle, be kind to yourself, be gentle.

So yeah, and then I kind of added be gentle with yourself onto it as well. Over the over more recently, I think, because although it's almost the same thing, but it's not, I think of you could be kind. Some people think they're being kind when they're actually maybe they're being quite strict, or quite even quite aggressive at times, but they think they're being kind.

Like, if Vinnie tries to run in the road, I will pull him back. And it might not look nice, it might not look like I'm being kind to him. And I might tell him off.

And he's moaning at me like, but it's because I am being kind, I don't want him to get run over. Or put in a muzzle on a dog that needs to have a muzzle on. It might not look like a nice thing to do.

But it's being kind, not just to your dog, it's being kind to the other dogs. And in some circumstances, you have to have a muzzle on because otherwise it breaks the law and you could lose your dog, depending on what kind of breed it is. So there's that, there can be an interpretation of what kindness is.

But being gentle, I'm sure there's an interpretation of what being gentle is, but for me, that seems a bit more, I don't know, unquestionable. Everything could be questioned, but gentle. Just gentle, the word gentle, speaking gently.

You can't, even if you're coming from kindness, if you're swearing at someone, it's not gentle. Even if it's jokey, and it's funny, and it's, and you are being kind to them, you're giving them money. It's like, don't take the living money.

It's a joke, but it's not gentle. So I don't say be kind to others. I don't say be gentle to others.

It's just be kind to yourself. Be gentle with yourself. Because I've given it a lot of thought over the years, really huge amount of thought.

And the amount of people that I've seen, both in and out of therapy situations, where they've really been harsh towards themselves, emotionally, physically, I've even done it myself. So I've punched walls and done stupid things, which has ended up in injury. And, or said things has got me into trouble.

Or said things to myself, or done things, which was the opposite to being gentle. You know, it's like eating something that I know that's going to make me feel ill. That's not being gentle.

Right, I got, I got interrupted by DaVinster, barking at someone coming in our, their flat downstairs or something. I don't know. I can't remember what I was talking about.

Yeah, so the being gentle, just, it's just important. But being kind to yourself. And what I did, I've done a few recordings where I didn't know what I was going to say.

Hard to believe that I'd do anything like that. And I decided to talk on that particular subject. And just spoke from the heart, really.

And, you know, just like how I really felt. And it kind of brought it out a little bit to like, okay, now I understand why I say it. So it's not just for the sake of it, it's actually, it means something, I think.

And it's important as well. And also, there's that repetition, the repetition, be kind to yourself. You deserve to be happy.

And you listen to my recording every day, you're going to hear at least once a day, that you deserve to be happy. That be kind to yourself. Be gentle.

Only listen when you can safely close your eyes. That might not be the, name wise, this is relevant. So that that's kind of why I say that.

It's because everybody, and I believe this, everybody has done something and helped lots of people in their lifetime. And I know there's going to be people thinking, might not be in a great frame of mind and would question that and say, what have I ever done? Not about me, but about themselves even. And the fact is, we don't know.

Probably, probably more than 50% of the people that we've helped. Probably more, more than that percentage is that we don't even know that we've helped them. Maybe we said a kind word, smiled, opened the door for someone, or helped someone carry something, or it could be anything.

And numbers, thousands of different things it could be. But you've made a difference. You know, if you drop money on, it might, you drop like a penny, a couple of pennies on the floor, and someone come and like say, oh, do you drop that? And you give it to them.

Like, it's almost meaningless as far as the money goes. They wouldn't have noticed it. They wouldn't have missed it.

It would have made no difference to their life, losing that few pennies. But the fact that a human being just did that and was kind, and you might have done that, you know, you might have picked those pennies up and given it to them or let them go ahead of you in a queue. You might have done that at just the right moment to move them from the path that they were heading.

Might just be the tiniest bit of positivity that was enough to re-aim their focus. You know, also it's other things. So you might speak to someone and your voice reminds them of someone.

Or you might look similar. Maybe, you know, I might meet someone that looks similar to my gran. So what I would do is maybe I'd phone my gran or my nan.

I need to see how she's getting on. I mean, she's not here anymore. But you know, I'm thinking about in the past.

And that phone call to her might have been important. It might have been important to me as well. It's the little things that can actually have a huge effect, I believe.

And sometimes you don't just you don't know what's going on in someone's life that you don't know the person. Maybe you've never met them before. And they could be walking around carrying the world on their shoulders, literally, like emotionally.

And it can go either way. Be rude to them, for example, and it could cause an absolute meltdown. Be nice to them.

Be kind. It could help to just dissolve some of that baggage, some of that heaviness on their shoulders, which then makes it a little bit easier for them. Perhaps it helps to topple off all the other stuff.

A little bit like, is it Kaplunk? Kaplunk? Isn't it Kaplunk? What's the other one where you've got all those things and you take bits out and then it all falls down? I used to have the analogy of a table with thousands of thousands and thousands of legs. So all holding up this weight. So the table, the top of the table is the big thing.

That's the big thing that seems to be holding you back, you know? There's all these little legs, but just thousands of them holding up this table. But none of them are actually secure. Looks like they're secure.

And because the table is so heavy, it feels like they're secure. You can push them and like, they must be glued or attached or nailed, but they're not. They're just balanced.

And sometimes what we need to do is in therapy, hypnosis, in just chatting to people sometimes, just being kind, just being nice. And this goes towards ourselves as well, is just by knocking a few of those legs over strategically, or even by accident, the whole thing topples. And that whatever that negative thing was, which represents the tabletop, whatever that was, comes crashing down, smashes to bits, and all of those other legs fall off as well.

So nothing's connected anymore. The whole thing is just squashed and scrambled. And the only way to get back to that painful feeling that you had before is to put all those legs up again and get it all balanced, which you don't know how to do because it occurred naturally over maybe years.

So it's like someone else built it. Because we're not the same person we were 10 years ago or 20 years ago, or 50 years ago, even. I can't believe I can talk about 50 years ago and actually, it can be within my lifespan.

Blimey. So I'm sorry if that was a little bit boring, but that that's where I'm coming from. And there's real, it's meaningful to me.

Because I really, really believe that everybody has had a huge impact on other people. We've all had an impact on other people. But we've also had and it's easier to remember if you know the person, it's easier to kind of fairly or easier to gauge if it's been a positive or negative or neutral impact on the person and their life.

It's those people that we don't know, that we don't, we've met, or maybe we haven't even met. Perhaps we're talking about something in a queue and they're like three steps behind in a queue and they're listening. And they're hearing you being nice to someone.

So maybe they're in a, they're out of a relationship and I'm never going to be with another man or I'm never going to be with another woman again. Because they're all whatever, you know, negativity and stuff. But then they see you or someone else being really kind to their partner.

Might not even be their partner, but they might just assume that and they think, oh, it kind of breaks that very limited belief system, temporarily cracks it a little bit. Maybe just puts a little bit of a dent in it. You know, like in a windscreen, if you have a little, just a little, a tiny little crack, a tiny little chip, a tiny, tiny little chip in a windscreen can lead, if it's unprepared, unrepaired, untouched, can lead to the whole windscreen going.

And that's what that can do. That little bit of positivity that they've experienced, that they've witnessed, and it maybe stays with them. Maybe not consciously, but it's there in their mind.

And they start remembering, maybe other people that have been nice to them. Maybe they start noticing other people that are nice to each other. So that, oh, maybe, maybe it's a generalization that all men, or all women, or all hippopotamuses are like this.

All frogs are like that. I'm talking about the amphibian frogs, not, you know, talking about frogs. So never understood.

Yes. So yeah, that's kind of why I do it. I can talk about this for hours, actually.

And I've mentioned that a few times, like, I'm not just saying this just for the sake of it. I can explain myself in quite depth. And I've only touched the tip of the iceberg.

I could literally, I could probably talk about this every day for a year. That would be boring. But I could, I could talk about the reason why you deserve to be happy.

The reason why, you know, you should be kind to yourself. Be gentle with yourself. And so that's, I think that's all those questions.

Who's next? Hillary, I hope I've answered the questions, Ben and Anne. That's probably more I could have said. But so thank you for your questions.

Hillary, this is the last question. So this is not going to be a three and a half hour recording. Although it is at one and a half hours already.

Blimey. Wow. So here we go.

Hillary asks me, do you ever fall asleep when editing your recordings? Yes, as a very short answer. Yes, I do. Wow, do I? I fall asleep making them.

But if I do the hypnosis recordings, I especially when I'm talking really slowly like that. It's hard to do it sometimes. But editing, it's incredibly boring.

I'll be honest with you. And it's easier when there's no distractions. So I can literally just go for it.

I can see any spikes, I can see, you know, I'm always checking. It's not just the spikes, not just the embarking or background sounds. But I try and cut out things if I'm hissing, if there's like a weird noise, or if I bang the microphone, which sometimes I do, occasionally, or if there's a particularly loud sound, or if there's a distorted sound.

I'm not saying I catch all of them, but I do look for them. So I do my best to try and reduce or to make it as clear as possible. And because I do it first thing in the morning.

And sometimes I'm half asleep when I'm doing it. And I'm literally sitting here with my eyes closed, listening. And sometimes I lose track and I've got to go all the way back again.

And so listen to parts of it. I've got a whole routine basically where I can see it, I can see where there's spikes in the audio. So I go to each spike.

Now first of all, I edit the beginning. That's the first bit I do just so I know where the beginning starts. So I delete the beginning bit and phase in or fade in rather the beginning like where I say welcome to today's sausage fest or whatever it is I'm doing.

And then I go to the end and I edit out the ending. So there's a beginning and the ending done. Then I start looking, then I double check the beginning to make sure it's not a false beginning.

Because sometimes I do three or four beginnings and I have to stop because I'm laughing or I'm coughing or he's barking or something weird's happened, you know. So I always have to check I've got the correct beginning because sometimes I will start swearing and being silly. And then you know, so I clap my hands.

That's why I know the spike where it is. Occasionally I forget to clap my hands. Sorry about that.

So once the beginning the end is done, then I go through each spike, which is generally a clap. And quite often between the claps, there's a lot of fuzzy, which is often me talking to Vinnie or whatever. So I play through that just to make sure I don't miss anything.

So I mark between each one and I delete that. And then I go to the next one, then to the next one, then to the next one, then to the next one. When I did last week's Q&A, last Friday, Q&A Friday, last week's one, because it was so long, I think I had to do it in parts.

I had to have a break in between editing it because it was so laborious. And I'm pretty pleased myself I came up with that word. I didn't come up with a word, I didn't invent it.

But the fact that I actually remembered a big word, I'm pretty, pretty pleased. See, I can't think of another word other than pleased. Glorified? No.

No, I can't think of another word. Pleased. I'm pleased.

And it's a case of just going back, I'll skim forward, skim back. And then every, every peak, I then go down to the next higher peak. And next, till it's kind of all at the same level.

And then I kind of can get a gauge of where things are. And by the end of it, it doesn't take me a huge amount of time. It does if it's a long recording, but I can normally get the editing done within an hour.

If there's no major interruptions, let's say if Vinnie's in the bedroom the whole time, I can get, I can edit it in a very short time. Especially if it's like a hypnosis recording, because it'll only last like 20 minutes, half an hour anyway. But with these ones, they, not just the Q&A Fridays, but generally, the Let Me Bore You To Sleep podcasts seem to, not only are they more regular, they're longer.

I'm not talking about my bowel movements. Although that is kind of correct on that one as well. But it's, I don't know what that's all about.

Why? I never, I always used to aim for the hour. Like the hour's done. That's it, boy.

But now, it's rare that I do an hour. Usually, like, you know, longer. That's what I'm saying.

Usually it's longer. And I don't really know why. Maybe it's because I can't stop talking.

The other day, it was like 55 minutes, and I thought, okay, I suppose I should just try and talk for another five minutes to make it up to the hour. What should I say? I'll just do a, I'll just do a slow, a slow goodbye. You know, just like, and then end up talking for another 40 minutes.

About what? I've no idea. So, yes, I do. Sometimes I fall asleep.

Literally, sometimes I proper fall asleep, like snoring, asleep sleep for I don't know how long, maybe half an hour, an hour. I'm gone. Because I've got up too early.

You know, I've got up at three in the morning and thought, okay, I want to get up and do this. No, it's too early. So yeah, I'll try and I've been getting I'll try and stay in bed till I got a bit of 10.

I don't want to get up. I don't really want to get up before five. Six is kind of ideal, really.

I can get the eight hours. That's cool. If I wake up at four and I feel awake, then groovy.

But generally, just see how I feel. But I know that the first thing I'm going to do when I wake up after I've done a wee wee is come and edit last night's recording. So knowing that I do give myself I go to the toilet and I think, yeah, sometimes I'll just go back to bed.

Because I know that I'm not awake enough to do it. And that does have an effect actually on Yeah, it has an effect on me. If I if I'm more awake, I kind of don't mind doing it.

Editing is not hard. It just focused. And because I do it every single day, and I've been doing it for years and years and years.

It's not that I'm good at it. I just know how to how to edit what I do. If that makes sense.

I kind of know what to look for. And I have a vague memory of what I've done the night before. Kind of.

I mean, I don't. I mean, this morning, I went to edit. But right before I do the editing, I actually, I name it, I name the recording.

So you know, like today was 1136. Or yesterday's one that I uploaded today, I edited 30th of May 2024. And I genuinely didn't know what I talked about, could not think of anything I talked about.

And I gave it a title, which was I don't remember. I don't remember what the title was I had. And then as I was editing it, I realized what I was talking about.

So what I did is I saved it under a different title. So still the same number, but a different title. So it's called first and last dates.

Before that, I didn't I had a different title because I couldn't remember what I spoke about. I don't think it was sticky helmets or whatever, something about firemen or whatever. I don't know.

Firemen in a glue factory. They've got their helmets all sticky. This was, I should say firefighters.

Sorry. So yeah, it was kind of, but then I listened to it. And I was talking about dates, I went to quite, quite detail about some of my dates that I had.

So that seemed to be the better. And first, first and last dates, because the first never led to anything more. Wow.

When I fall in love, it will be for 10 minutes. So yeah, that did you said? That's it? Really? I do. Hillary, thank you for your question.

I do fall in. I do sometimes fall asleep. Not not every time.

Because if I did, I'll have to do it at different time. Because I need to have a degree of alertness when I'm editing. And it's not just the editing everything else that comes afterwards.

So there's the was uploading, making the image, creating the image and doing the description, using all the different apps and stuff that I use to do all that stuff. And yeah, so it's none of it's really hard, but it is. It takes a degree of focus and patience, especially the image creation, because I have to go through many, many, many, many, many versions of images.

So I find one that I like, that suits what I'm looking for. So it's not a quick process. And then I have to edit the image, upload the image to each of the podcasts.

So yes, it takes a while. But as far as the editing, yeah, I'm pretty much, and I would say 5% of the time, I'm asleep, during the editing, like asleep, sleep. 10% of the time, I'm kind of in and out of falling asleep.

Probably 10% of the time I'm like tired. But the rest of the time, I would say I'm okay, pretty much once I get started. And there's always the promise of breakfast as well, because I do this before I have my breakfast.

So I don't do all of it. But I will spend usually about an hour working on this stuff before I had my breakfast. And then when I've had my breakfast, watched a bit of telly or watched something on YouTube, I will then come back and continue with what I'm doing for probably about another hour, maybe an hour and a half depending.

And then that that's pretty much all of it done. All the everything, all the editing, all the all the production side of things, I guess, I don't know, production, promotion, post it onto Facebook, do a little dance, hope, you know, dance into the curtains, hoping that helped the podcast be successful. It's little things like that.

Not done superstitious. So that is the end of this Q&A Friday. Before I go, though, I I've mentioned this before.

I mentioned it again, but I'll just mention it because it's relevant for today. I did have a message if you're this person and get in contact with me. Olivia from the US, Olivia Helen sent me a message saying, hey, anyone here left on my website, jasonnewland.com.

Guess you don't know where my website is. I really don't know who I might know the person I don't know. But if it was you, go to my Facebook page.

If you're still awake or listening, and maybe go to my Facebook group and you can contact me on there if you want to. So what I've done today is I have applied for the Open University course. So I've been waiting a few months to do it because I kind of already was on the list.

But I couldn't apply until student finance opened in June, or in May, but there was a problem in May. It was like a certain date or whatever. But it turns out I got on the phone to both Open University and the student finance place to get help because I was struggling online to do it.

So I'm signed up for the BSc honours in psychology with the Open University. And it's going to be I'll be doing it for six years. So I think Ben my answer will be and in 2034 I'll hopefully have finished completed my post graduate.

So my master's and then I'll be getting ready to do my or other started my PhD. I wonder why would they even finance that? Because you imagine I'll be nearly 60 or six now be 63. So 63.

So let's say if I finish this 63, I'll be 5345678 I'll be 59 by the time I've done this degree. And I'll start a post graduate. So if I do that over two years part time to be 61.

So 61 start on a PhD. I don't know if they'd even let me. But anyway, I'm starting this with the introduction to childhood studies and child psychology.

That's the first module as well as 60 points. And overall degree with honours is 360 points. So I'm going to be doing 60 points a year or 60.

I don't know if they call it points, I forget 60 whatever. But introduction to childhood studies and child psychology. So this is what I'm going to be doing.

It starts in October. And I'm allowed to do it as part time. So it doesn't affect anything doesn't affect benefits or anything like that.

And I can get student finance as well. Because it would cost I really can't believe how much it's costing over 6000 pound a year it costs to do this course. Can you believe it? When I went to university full time, it was just over 3000 pound a year.

Now full time university is over 12,000 pound a year. It went up the year after I finished. So this is introduction to childhood psychology, childhood studies and child psychology, 60 credits, and it's module code E104.

So if anyone out there is also doing this, because this is a worldwide university. So if there is anyone else, let me know because we can be study buddies. And I thought I'd start off with this because well, childhood seems to be the best place to start, doesn't it really? And so yeah.

So I've got this unbooked on it, I just have to pay it. And the good thing about it's a good thing in a sense, but I don't I'm trying to be positive. But if I don't pay it, then they just kick me off the course.

I'm not on the course. I'm only on it if I pay it before it starts. And so it starts in October, what is it now? May end of May, June, June, the first is tomorrow.

I contacted student finance, because I couldn't figure out how to do it because it kept saying I wasn't eligible. But I'd already checked that months ago, that I was eligible because it's psychology. Because it's part time, I am eligible for student finance.

So what I did, oh, that's weird. Right, so okay. It was this whole thing.

Just going to log in. Now. Okay.

Blimey. I love it when these are called them anyway, find them up. And they said, Oh, what's your secret word? I thought I was gonna be about to give it to him.

I said, No, we need the last need the eighth and ninth or ninth and 10th letter of your I don't know. I wish I hadn't picked such a long word now. So like, B, O, O, B, S, and it's like, I just don't.

It's why did I have to think of such a long word? But anyway, it's we got through. I applied. So I'm all on there.

Your student finance must and okay, undergraduate. So I filled in all the form, application status processing application, you have actions to complete. So I know about that I've already called, called them up.

Important right now, it's taken us about six to eight weeks to check evidence. There's no need to contact us, we will not be able to speed up your application. If we need more information about checking your evidence, we'll contact you by email or letter.

You can check your application status for actions you need to complete and what will happen next. You can also read our answers to common questions. So yeah, it's Yeah, so I've done I did the whole thing today.

I did it all online. And then I had to phone them up and like, well, I don't know. Something's not right.

And he wasn't he was a little bit confused. Because I wasn't very clear. And then hopefully, it's all done.

It's all kind of sorted. So I'll be starting if all going well, I'll be starting this in October, which is three months away. That's June, tomorrow, July, August, September, October, four months away.

So we started in four months. And it'll be part it'll be 16 hours a week. And it'll be at home on a computer.

And you can imagine I'm going to be talking about it an awful lot. So these recordings are going to become even more boring. So yay, I actually have something to talk about.

But it won't be something good. It will be super boring stuff. So that's what I've done.

I have applied for that. And all being well, I mean, I applied for student finance before for a postgraduate degree. And they gave me the money.

Well, they didn't give me the money. But they because they sent the money directly to the university, but they accepted it. And they said, there's 10 grand shores.

And you just need to be accepted on the course. I wasn't accepted on the course, I was rejected. Because of the grades of my past degree wasn't high enough.

So that's part of the reason. So that was like, I went for all that for nothing. And to be fair, that would have happened at the time of lockdown.

So that probably wouldn't have been a very good time to be going to university anyway. So maybe it saved me that a lot of hassle. But I need to with this degree that I'm going to hopefully do in October start for six years.

Not only do I need to complete it, I need to get a really, really good grade, like a really good grade. Otherwise, I can't go on onwards. And I know that, I guess most people do degrees in order to better their career or to move into a new career.

For me, it's not, I'm not doing it for that reason. That was why I got my other degree so that I could be a counsellor. And, well, the first two years was the counselling diploma.

The third year was the degree year. And the whole thing was a degree, but I didn't have to complete the third year, I would have just, I would have just ended up with a diploma. Or maybe a degree without honours, I think, maybe, I don't know.

So I decided, no, it's 180. 180? 60? I don't know. Anyway, I just, if I'm going to do this, I need to be good.

I need to be, I need to be a good boy. I need to get good grades. Otherwise, there's no point.

Just because that's part of the reason. It's not the only reason, by any means. And I first started doing a degree with the Open University in Psychology in, I think, about 1999.

And I did another one in 2004. I did another one in 2011. All three times.

The first two times, I think it cost me nothing. The third time, or the first time it cost nothing. In the 90s, it was free.

Open University was free. And then the next two times, I paid, and it was a lot cheaper. Like, it was maybe four or five hundred pounds for the whole course for the year.

Maybe even less than that. Well, that's not the case anymore. So, so I have attempted in the past to do this Psychology degree with the Open University, even after I got my other degree.

But it just wasn't good timing, to be honest. You know, the last time wasn't good timing. And I also booked on it, I think, two years ago.

And I didn't do it. I didn't get the, I didn't start it. I just, I booked on it, and then it got sort of deleted, cancelled, because I didn't sign up.

Well, this time I signed up. It's even got down paid. Although it's not, but that's to be completed.

That's to be, you know. So it's just a case of, the Open University and the student finance kind of getting together, and then it'll be done. They'll pay the Open University, and that'll be it.

That's pretty groovy. So it'll be something to look forward to, something different. And I haven't been in any kind of higher education, not like really, not really, until since I left university.

So, which was 2010. So that's what, 14 years. And I did the hypnosis course that I started last, not last year, but the year before.

Or was it a year before that? I don't know. But I was not in a good space. Yeah, it was a year before last.

2022, I think it was beginning of the year. And yeah, I wasn't, I wasn't, wasn't very well back then. So I kind of, the traveling was a bit just, yeah, it wasn't for me.

So, yeah, that's okay. So just to say, I thought I'd just mention it, because this is what, this is what the JJ is into now. Now.

So I'd be, yeah. I mean, even if I just did the introduction to childhood studies, and child psychology, if I just did one course, it's still a really interesting course to do. So I'm just going to take it year by year.

It's hard to really plan six years ahead. It's just we don't know, do we don't know what's gonna happen. So I'll do it.

But it'd be nice to be nice to complete another degree. I mean, you know, at least then I'll go from thinking I'd never ever be able to get a degree to having two degrees. So that'd be cool.

And then I can get a master's, then I'll have three degrees. And then I can bring out records. Oh, dear, that was bad, wasn't it? Sorry.

So that's it. Thank you very much. I'm gonna go.

So this has been a fairly short recording. All I'm saying that looks like it's over two hours. I just can't I can't help myself.

It's almost like my tongue has just got a mind of its own. That's really what all you're hearing is. I think I'm making sense in my mind.

Walking down the street used to work in a coal mine. Marabella tomato sandwiches. Maybe that's what you hear when I'm talking.

But for me, I'm almost shake, you know, reciting Shakespeare, because I say shaking reciting. But that would make sense. Shaking right spear.

My stomach's gurgling, which means it's time to eat or the opposite to eat, which means going and sitting down on a different kind of chair in a different room, which is much more echoey. In fact, the one room you don't want to be echoey. And with the bathroom, why is that the most echoey room in the entire building, especially when you've got flats, you live above someone or they live below you, you can hear them in the bathroom, you can hear them on the toilet.

And I'm guessing being up above them, they can probably hear me better. Because that's like a wind tunnel, isn't it? A toilet like a fart chamber is is the echo. It's not just in the it's like the echo in the actual that reminds me, that reminds me.

And it's been a few weeks, so I need to buy some flowers for my toilet. I just have to every now and then just say thank you and sorry. You know, sorry about that.

So I'm going to go thank you for listening. I feel weird saying it now because I've been talking about it. But what I normally say, remember to be kind to yourself.

See now I'm saying that you if you if you have listened to this recording, and you're still awake, and you're like, okay, it's not just saying it for the sake of saying it. It's not meaningless, jabba jibba jobba. Like the rest of the recording, maybe.

And yeah, so remember to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself. Lots of love.

And I will be back again tomorrow. Bye