#938 Ive lived here nearly 8 years Let me bore you to sleep (Jason Newland) (18th December 2022)

Hello and welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. My name's Jason Newland and my website is jasonnewland.com. I also have a YouTube channel.

Yeah, so I hope you're well. If you want to, let's have a look at my Facebook. I've got a few Facebook pages but I've got one special Facebook page.

I'm not on my iPad. Do you want to open up in the app? No, I don't want to open up the app. Stop asking me that.

Right, I have a special Facebook page or it's a group. Okay, it's called Jason Newland Hypnotist Group and it's a private group. So if you would like to join then please go to just go to that group Jason Newland Hypnotist Group.

There's only 80 members but it's a private one and I share. To be fair, I don't go on there that often but it's a place where you can sort of meet other people that are sort of that like what I do. Yeah, that makes sense doesn't it? Yeah, it makes sense.

So you can just ask to join and I have an administrator called Molly, lovely Molly who I don't know why she's happy to do it but I think she's still happy to do it. Hope you are Molly. Hello Molly and just ask to join and you will be accepted and it gives you an opportunity to perhaps meet other people that also listen to me or watch my videos and it's a good place to maybe send me messages as well.

So can you send me messages on here? I don't know. Yeah, you can ask a message and post it and what you get is other people can also answer as well. So if you for example wanted to know something or where is this new thing or whatever and somebody on here may be able to help you because everyone on the group is people that well I imagine people that actually do listen to my stuff.

It's not like a hugely active group. There's not a huge amount of stuff going on but it's all right. I'm not really selling it am I? Not really selling it.

I did post a picture of Vinnie on there. There's two pictures of him on my on my couch and he's got a permanent frown on him. Yes, I don't think he looks very happy.

I think he is and he's happy at the moment. He's eating a bone but I don't know. He seems to have a bit of a frown but he has got a love.

He's got a heart on his nose. When the light shines on it he's got a heart. A little heart so that's cute.

But you know he's still getting to know me. It's only been two weeks. Literally two weeks plus today.

He doesn't really know yet. He doesn't really know if I'm sticking around or if he's staying here or if he's going to move on. I mean I guess he's not settled.

It feels like he's settled but he's still... I reckon once he's by Easter. By Easter. So once he's been here for four months or five months.

Four or five months. It will be the longest he's ever been anywhere and he should be. I think he should be comfortable by then.

So I just got to just ride it out and he's a good boy. You know he's a good boy. He's a good boy.

He is generally. He's a little bit a little bit cheeky. A little bit destructive.

But he's a puppy you know. He likes to... He's eaten three pairs of my shoes. Two pairs I didn't care about.

The one pair that I wear all the time he's kind of ruined them. But I've been wearing my boots lately because of the snow and ice. So it's just the shoes I have are much easier.

They're more like trainers. They're slip-on shoes. They're just really comfortable and easy to put on.

I don't have to sort of do the laces up or anything with the boots. They're laces and it takes all of like a minute. It's just a lot of effort.

But necessary in this weather at the moment. See I don't know where you are. If you're listening in Australia it might be really lovely weather.

Might be really sunny and warm. If you're listening in Ireland it's probably cold and wet and windy. I mean this time of year December the 18th.

Sunday before Christmas. Yeah Christmas is next Sunday I think. Is that right? I think it's right.

And I've just booked a delivery. Food delivery. I went online and I knew I knew I knew I knew I knew that I wouldn't get a slot this coming week before Christmas.

Unless I did it early and I didn't do it early. I kept putting it off. I thought well because I had a delivery on Friday and I thought that's right I'll go online and book a delivery over the weekend.

But I looked online about two three hours ago and they were all full every day before Christmas. But I managed to get a slot after Christmas. So that's all right.

I've probably got enough stuff in. The only things that I'm going to run out of is milk and bread. You know there's like the fresh things.

They're the only things I'm really gonna perhaps need to go and get something from the shops. But outside of that yeah I've got enough stuff in the freezer. Oh yeah I have got enough stuff in the freezer because I'm a vegetarian now.

I don't know if I told you I'm a vegetarian. Although I did have a roast dinner today. But generally I'm a vegetarian.

See I met I met my parents today when we had. Why is he barking? Vinnie stop that mate. Oh you're wanting my attention are you? He's so little he can get everywhere.

I didn't even know he was he was sitting underneath the table just looking at me. And he moves quite he's very very quiet when he moves. I should tell you how he's.

Is it plugged in? Oh that's weird. His collar's not charged yet. It's been plugged in for hours.

That's weird. I thought it'd be charged by now. Hello mate.

So I've got an anti-barking collar for Vinnie. I think it came through about three or four days ago. And it works.

It really really is good. In fact what I'll do is I will put the link somewhere and you can check it out because I can well it works. Well it's worked for me.

Worked for him. Basically all it does it just electrocutes him a little bit. It doesn't.

Hello. Hello mate. Let me get up.

Come on then. Come on give me cuddles. Oh daddy cuddles.

And basically it's. I wonder why it's not charged. Yeah.

He when he barks it's on him. It's not tight on his neck. So it's fairly loose but it's close enough for him to feel the vibrations when it does vibrate.

But it's not tight at all. So he can sleep in it and whatever. But he doesn't.

What was that? You just did a big burp. Was that almost like a vomit burp? Are you okay? You're eating those rotten bones. I think I need to put them on in the bin.

I don't think you need to be eating them all still. Do you? A little fox. He is red like a fox.

If you saw him if he was in a field and he come running out of a hole you'd think he was a fox. Maybe not close up because he doesn't he hasn't got a fox's face but the colouring really he looks like a fox to me. Don't you? He's got the same.

He's red. He's yeah I think he looks like a fox. They get kisses.

You get daddy kisses? Get off me. Okay. All right.

Okay. I've heard that before. Get off.

Leave me alone. You're not my real dad. All right.

Okay. So what it does this anti-barking thing is when he barks it does nothing to start with. When he barks a second time it beeps like beep beep beep like that and it really distracts like he looks around for the sound.

It distracts him from the barking and that alone is often enough. If he barks a third time it vibrates and that's where he runs to me. So I think it startles him and he stops.

He doesn't bark anymore after that and it's not on a high level. It's not like a big vibration. It's just I can hear it.

It's like like that. It's like and he's on the floor shaking. No he's not.

He's it startles him and he runs to his daddy and he runs to my my feet. He's like what's going on? But it stops him from barking. Now since he's had it I've noticed that he's been a bit better with the barking even without the without the collar over because he hasn't had it on since three o'clock and it's three o'clock it's now eight.

He's had a little bit of barking but hardly hardly any. Last night I didn't put it on until 10 in the evening 11. I just forgot about it and he wasn't barking.

If someone knocks at the door yeah he goes he loses it and you know some people say to me yeah but you know it's good because he's letting you know someone's there and I don't need a guard dog. I genuinely don't need a guard dog. I don't need it even if it was a big scary Rottweiler Doberman whatever pit bull.

I don't need a guard dog. I don't need anyone to tell me there's someone at the door and I don't need anyone to protect me. I don't need a dog for that.

That's not what he's for. He's you're my little boy ain't you? He's just to play with and have fun with and look after you. I don't need you.

I guess if it's in his nature dog's nature to want to protect maybe not me maybe just his home. This is where he lives now. It's where his toys are.

He doesn't want anyone taking his toys which include two pairs of my underpants. Nice. So I guess it's just you know maybe he's always going to do that but when he hears noises outside the gate goes he barks but he seems to be barking less.

It's more like just a half bark rather than a full-on yep yep yep yep yep yep yep yep like that which is not a good impression at all of what he does. It's really not a good impression. I don't do that.

I know you don't. Who's that? What do you mean? Who's that on your? Who is she? What do you mean? Well she's nice. Stop it.

You can't you can't be saying that about people that listen to this. Yeah but she's nice. Stop it Vinnie.

You've had your bits taken off. You shouldn't even be thinking that way. Yeah but oh what is this? A 1970s sitcom? Hey you can't say the stuff like that these days.

Oh she's lovely. Yeah so it's just stop it. Stop it.

Stop it. Stop it. You know what? He snores.

He snores. Can you believe it? Like he sleeps in here at night. I know I snore.

I don't have an issue with it. Tough. You know I mean I sleep on my own.

Live on my own. I snore. That's just one of those things.

He I think he comes in here to get away from my snoring and he snores. I was sitting there watching telly and he was asleep next to me in his bed because he's got his own little bed on the set a next to me. Proper.

Like that. And then he was like barking in his sleep. So he was having a dream clearly like some kind of dream.

I don't know what it was. He was chasing a rabbit or something probably. You better not be chasing any rabbits when you're with me.

That would so that would upset me so much. I do keep him on a lead to be fair. So he doesn't have a chance to run off.

Although he's good and he won't well I don't know do I yet really. But I don't feel that he's going to run off run off. Like proper run off.

Like see ya. Thanks. Thanks for the two weeks holiday.

I'm off. I'm going to find my mum. Okay.

I don't I don't think he'd do that. But when I let him off a couple of times the first time he was great. The second time he started really running between fields into ditches and he did come back which was good.

Oh do you wanna. That's it. If you just go like that.

That's it. That's it. Oh.

And he kept running between the fields and I couldn't get to him at all. I couldn't get to him. But he did come back which was good.

And then the second time when it was time to. So there's a field and I have to get him on a lead before we get into the last field because that leads onto the road and I've already seen him in action. Well I see two things that worry me a bit about him.

Even when he's on the lead he tries to walk into the road. I'm constantly stopping him. So I could definitely not have him off the lead.

I wouldn't anyway but I wouldn't couldn't have him off the lead if he was on the pavement you know walking around. So I know that if he gets near a road he'll just run in the road. He doesn't he doesn't have any concerns about that.

I do. But the second thing is when I go to put the lead back on him because he's got this harness. It's a luminous harness.

Do you want to get down or are you okay? You want to get down? No? Oh you just want to lick yourself. Okay okay go for it. He he sees it as a game.

So I can't actually get him and he just he's so fast. He's so so very fast that I can't grab him to put the lead on. And okay you want to get down.

There you go. Go away. Oh good boy.

Good boy. Oh he's now sniffing me. That's nice.

He's sniffing. So that was a little bit annoying because in the end I had to practically jump on him to to hold him down to. Well holding him down is not a problem because he's little.

But it's just not like I have to overpower him because he's he's a tiny. He's just so quick. He runs through my legs.

It's like perhaps I shouldn't stand like that with my legs wide open. But it's it's my kung fu training. I can't help it.

I'm standing on my legs open. And uh isn't he barking now? Why is he going on and out? Why is he? Why? Why are you doing that? It's almost like he wants a reason. He's looking for an excuse to bark.

And I've come to think that maybe he enjoys barking. So I don't want to take that away from him. I don't want to sort of stop him barking altogether.

But I do need to make sure he doesn't bark at night because it's not fair on the neighbors. It's not. I know a lot of people in my experience don't care much about when it comes to consideration towards others.

But I just my experience of living in lots of different places and having people with loud music and it's just like it's almost like they're in their own world. They're completely oblivious to anybody else being in that house or living next door or anything like that. Hello.

Come on then. You really want to get back up don't you? He wants to lick my face. Oh that's nice.

As long as I can forget where your tongue's been it's fine. You weirdo. You weirdo.Me weird? Look at you looking on the internet. So shush. Stop.

I've been making videos on YouTube now. So what I've been doing is going through some of my older, not old old, but some of my more recent older recordings. So I've made videos of my Deep Sleep Whisper Hypnosis recordings from this year.

It's not that many. Funny enough it's not as many as I thought. And I'm now going through the Relax, oh what is it? The Stress and Pain Relief podcast.

So going through them. I think it's 44 of them. So I'm now up to about 15.

So I've been making videos from them using the audio and then adding video and some background music. Different from what I use on the podcast. Has to be ideally part of the YouTube, you know, so it's not copyrighted.

Hey! Even though the music I use on the podcast is copyright free, YouTube doesn't always recognise that. And if they get the ump, it's not a personal thing, but they might take the video down. Hey! The only way to really avoid that is to use YouTube's own music.

Which I might do. They've got their own music collection that you can use. And that's acceptable.

So I might do that. I might use that in the future. We'll see.

I've done that in the past in previous videos when I was younger. So there's about 75, nearly 80 videos now on my YouTube channel. And I think I'm up to about the 28th or 29th of December planned ahead.

Sort of scheduled to be released. So at the moment, I can actually tell you, I can look at it. Where is it? Channel content.

Hey! Calm down, mate. Calm down. Oh.

So every day between... Right, he's barking now. Just as he started barking, the collars turned green. So it's ready to be put onto him.

I'll put your collar on in a minute. I have to edit out the barking, don't worry. So what I've got is every day forward between now and... I've got the... Yeah, between now and the 27th of December.

1920, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27. That's nine days. Wow.

Nine days I've got two recordings being released, two videos being released. One at 4am and one at 4pm. So I've got the deep sleep whisper ones at 4am and the relax... What are they called? Stress and pain relief ones at 4pm.

And that's every day up to the 27th. It will be the 28th because the other one's just finished rendering. So that'll be ready to upload in a minute.

When I finish this, I'll upload it. So that's up to the 28th of December. And then I will continue doing all of the other videos for the relax, the stress and pain relief.

And then I'll look into the... What do I want to look into? Oh yeah, the relax and sleep hypnosis daily. And I'll turn them into videos as well. Maybe not all of them just because there's lots, but the ones this year, maybe.

And then that'll be it, I think. I don't think there's going to be many more that I need to do. So everything else is kind of... I don't know.

I might, I might upload the... Yeah, I don't know. Yeah, that might be it. That might be it.

And I suppose I could upload the stop smoking recordings. Some of them, like the last, like the more recent ones, perhaps. What? He wants to go out, I think.

You really, you don't want to go out, do you? Do you want to go out? Or do you want to fight? I don't think he wants to go out. I think he does want to go out because he's not, he's not really biting me. Okay, let me pause this.

Well, I had to press pause then. Because he was playing up a little bit. Because I wasn't sure if he wanted to, when he barks, like, sometimes he wants to play, sometimes he wants to go out.

I can't always tell the difference, if I'm honest. I guess I'd get to know him. But the only way I'm judging it is if, if I put my hand near his mouth and he doesn't try and bite me, not hard, but then perhaps he wants to go out.

I guess that's it. So that's what I did. I just took him out in the rain.

And I've been walking around since it started snowing, which was about a week ago. And this is the slippiest it's been. Well, you know, around where I live, it's this, I was sliding a little bit.

Now, I got these big boots, and they do the job very well. Plus I've got, I think my balance is quite good. My body's more balanced than my mind.

So I seem to be okay. But I did notice that turning, you know, to right, turning right or turning left. You know, plus the light because it's dark outside.

The streetlights, if you didn't know this in, I don't know if it's the whole of the country, but where I, you know, in my area, they turn all the streetlights off at midnight. Now, streetlights used to be on all night, in the past. And it's only recent, I say recent, I don't know how many years, it's been a few years.

But all the lights get turned off at midnight. And now what they've done, they whoever they are, council, I guess, is they've, I think they've replaced the light bulbs. And you can't argue that this is a very boring story.

He's talking about light bulbs now. What on earth is this? This is really boring. Yep, it's supposed to be.

So I don't know is if they've changed the light bulbs, or they they've done something basically. So the light is about 50% of what a bright is what it was. So I'm guessing a lower volt light bulb, or maybe it's a solar light bulb.

So it gets soldered, soldered during the day, and then at night, it's on that goes off at 12. So not only is it pitch black at night, you know, after 12. So I live in the countryside.

So there's not really anything is there's quite a few houses if you walk past and lights come on. So when I'm taking well, if I walk past out for whatever reason, you know, if I take him for a walk, or if I take my friend's dog for a walk, if I'm looking after him, I might take him for a walk during the nighttime. Or when I should take Andre out.

So the lights would come on outside people's houses. And I never really liked that. Because I feel like I'm disturbing people.

If you know, I mean, like, surely that's got a a light coming on really bright in the front of your house. That's got to shine into your bedroom, isn't it? I guess, not just your bedroom, but maybe other bedrooms, other people's houses, opposite near. Whoops.

So yeah, I'm not a big fan of that. I think for security, they're great. And it's actually good for me because I can see where I'm going.

But I don't think it's so good for the for the neighbors and for the people themselves. So, but I don't spend a lot of time out like two in the morning. But sometimes I do, you know, if this little one wants to go out for a walk, and it's three in the morning, then whatever time is, that's what time is going out.

You know, if he needs to, sometimes, you know, I don't really want to do that. And he hasn't. I haven't done it yet.

But when I looked after my friend's dog, I think it was during the summer though. So it didn't really wasn't too bad because I took him out early hours in the morning. To be Yeah, to be honest, it was because I wanted to go out wasn't for him.

I'd just it was for him as well. But we went and walked all the way around the countryside, not in the country itself, but in like the round the back roads. Something like three, four in the morning, and it was fairly light outside.

That's nice. I like that. I like it when there's no one around.

Just when it's from that early morning, it's very peaceful, very fresh. The only people around are the birds. Even some of them are asleep.

And to just go for a walk. I mean, I do that on my own. Sometimes I mean, I guess I won't be doing it anymore.

Not for the next 16 years. I'll be within. But you know, I've often gone gone for a walk on my own.

All my life, really, to be fair, even before I moved here. And it's weird, because I was having dinner with my dad. And we were talking, he said, how long you been at your flat now? Is it 10 years? 10 years? Because it's not 10 years.

That's ridiculous. But in April, it'll be eight years. I mean, you know, eight years is closer to 10 than it is to five, isn't it? It's like, blimey.

It's two more years and three months. 10 years, a whole decade. Because my dad said, oh, because we were talking about me moving around a lot, which I have.

And he said, you've been in your flat the longest you've ever been anywhere, haven't you? And yeah, apart from, there's only one place that I've lived longer than living here. And that was when I was at home with my family, like when I was a kid. So we lived.

So I moved from Southend Children's Home. And then we lived in this house, but it was a bit, I think it was derelict, not derelict, but it was closed down. It had problems, structural or something.

So we were living, my dad, his new wife, my new mum, my new stepmum. So I was seven. I had my two brothers with me, two older brothers, and we were living in his stepmum's mum's house.

So my nan, my stepnan, who I got on really well with. I was very close to her for quite a while, until I lived with her when I was older. And then we didn't get on so well.

Yeah, when I was 15, 16, after living with her for about, what was it, 10 months, we never spoke to each other again. I know it's bad, isn't it? We were close, really, really close. But she didn't like living with me.

And I guess it was hard. It's hard living. I didn't see it from her perspective, but to be on your own, because she lost her husband, my stepgranddad, like 30 years previous, like in the, probably in the 70s, 60s or 70s, you know, long time ago.

So she'd been living on her own for a long time. And she was used to it. She had a lovely flat, really nice flat, two bedrooms, really lovely living room, dining area, nice kitchen, nice bathroom.

Everything was just, it's the kind of place that I'd like to live, if I'm honest. It was perfect for me. This is fine.

It's just, it was lovely. It was a really nice, nice flat. And funny enough, I remember, because she didn't always live there.

She lived in the old house before. So we used to, so she was one of the first people I met. As far as the family goes, I met, when I was in the kids home, we used to come back at weekends for, I don't know, six months, seven months, maybe before we actually moved in with them.

So we used to come home every weekend for quite a few months. Sometimes we'd go to London to see my nanny and grandad, Newland, who, you know, I've talked about my nan and my grandad a few times, but my nan, who I was very, very close to. So we used to visit her.

I didn't know her from Adam. I didn't know, I didn't know her. I knew she wasn't Adam, but I knew, I didn't really know, I got to know her a little bit.

But I had known her when I was a baby because she'd been around. It's just, I didn't recognise her because I hadn't seen her for, blimey, seven years, six years or whatever, five, five and a half years. So got to know them a bit.

Then we got to know, but we, I spent more time in that big, it was like a white house. I don't know how many bedrooms it had, but it was near, it was near the seafront. It wasn't far from the seafront and it wasn't far from the docks.

So it was kind of, it was the kind of place that a docker would live in, that lived quite close to the docks. I guess, you know, handy if you lived, if you worked on the docks. I wonder how many more times I can say the word docks in this paragraph.

So we lived there. We used to visit there and that's where we stayed most of the time, most weekends. And it was brilliant because we got to watch cartoons for the first time in quite a long time.

Sometimes I think, oh yeah, I didn't watch cartoons until I was seven. That's not true. We used to watch cartoons when I was little, when I was like three, four, whatever.

But during the time in the children's home, we didn't get to watch stuff like that. So it was nice to sort of, I guess because it'd been so long, I'd forgotten what it was like. I'd forgotten what it was like to watch Saturday morning cartoons.

I loved it, absolutely loved it. And I still have this memory of me and my two brothers sitting on the settee sofa, watching TV and my step-mom doing the vacuuming and we were all just lifting our feet up. So she could get, why she chose to do the vacuum, do the hoovering while we were watching telly, I'll never know.

But, you know, considering we were all going to come down, maybe do it before you revisit, but it's not an issue. Clearly it is because I'm still going on about it. Why would you vacuum during a television? One is, in those days, if you had the vacuum on, it would make the TV go fuzzy.

Do you remember that? It made the TV go staticky. Blimey, we're going back. Or squeaky chair.

Anyway, I, there was one time when I think my new step-mom had the measles or something. She wasn't very well. So that weekend, we stayed with my aunt in London.

So she picked us up and she brought us to London and she took us to all of the major places, Madame Tussauds, Tower of London, Trafalgar Square, you know, all those different places that people that go to London kind of go to, you know. And it was brilliant. And I remember because she had this, I don't know if she just picked us up from Southend and then just took us back or wherever we stayed with her.

I can't 100% remember. I can't remember at all. But I do remember that her boyfriend had a big old beard, like a big nest.

He literally like had an afro on his chin. It was huge, huge, huge beard. And I did, I remember I started trying to talk into it because I was making a podcast.

I mistook his face for a microphone. That's not true. So I remember that.

So we lived in that house for a little while when we moved away, when I moved there, me and my two brothers. And then she got my stepmum's mother, my nan, I used to call her Nan. She used to, she moved into the flat that I talked about.

Now I remember when it was empty. We were in that flat and it was empty. And she was looking at it and I think she had the keys to it and they were going to get furniture moved in and stuff like that.

At the same time, we, my dad, my stepmum and my two brothers were moving into a council house on a new estate, a new council estate that was still being built. Our house was finished, but the backyard, the garden, the back garden was still basically like a swamp. Honestly, like my dad, well I was up to my waist in dirt.

The ground hadn't settled. And so we were the first people to move in there and there was still bulldozers and brick layers and all that stuff still building the houses around. Just our one, our little area was finished.

So that was quite exciting. That was the, probably the happiest time in my childhood, probably in that house. I did like the other house as well, the one where my stepnan lived.

I liked it there, but this was a bit cooler because I had my own bedroom for the first time, probably ever. And I had a picture of Bruce Lee, a post of Bruce Lee on the wall. How it got there, I don't know.

And that set me up to be a Kung Fu master. So, yeah, I liked that house. I still, and then my Nan and Gran had moved in there when we moved out.

We moved out in 1979, I think it was. And they moved there. They moved into that house from, they got like a council swap or something.

Not a swap, but they were allowed to move into that house because they had a bigger house. So the councils were happy to, because my Nan and Gran had probably a three or four bedroom house in London, with a big old garden because they raised five kids in that house, to move into a two and a half bedroom. Because I was in a box room, basically.

It wasn't really a bedroom, but it was big enough for a small child. But when my little brother was born, that changed things because we couldn't stay there anymore for any amount of time as long, only for the amount of time that my little brother was a baby and was in his cot next to the, what's it, into my parents' bed. But once he was old enough, he would need his own room.

So I suggested putting him in the shed in the garden. It didn't go down that well, funny enough. It's weird.

It was just an idea, but you know, I haven't got to shoot everyone down. They're like, just, just think about it. Give it some thought.

It might be good. It might work. And then I thought, well, I'll just do it anyway.

See if they'd like it. I mean, you know, maybe they need to try it out first. That didn't go down very well either.

So what happened then is, oh yeah, going back to the other flat, my, sorry, if you can't follow this, it's, it doesn't, you don't have to follow it. It's not that interesting. But my little brother, right? He was big enough to run around before we moved into the house.

So he must have been at least a year, a year old. It must have been, wasn't he? He must be at least a year old to be running around and stuff. Well, we went into the flat that my stepmother was going to be living in, my step grandmother, whether or not she'd been staying somewhere else.

I don't know. I can't remember anyway. Anyway, she had to, to, you know, she had to move out of where she was, as did we.

And we were in this empty flat and my little brother was running around the room. Like running around and round and round and round and round and round. And for some reason, I don't know why.

I still don't know why I'm asking. His answer's always the same. I'm 44.

How can I remember that far back? Is it? Okay. Fair enough. Which is weird because he'd been saying that for like 20 years.

Like, what do you mean you're 44? You're not, you're 18. But it was, you know, that's the way things are sometimes, isn't it? Anyway, he's running around, around, around, around. And then he tripped.

And he hit, well, he basically fell over and he hit the skirting board. And he basically had to go to hospital. He just, um, yeah, cut his eye out.

He just, his eyebrow or whatever, something like that. So he had to go to hospital and have stitches and that. And I just remember that.

I mean, I guess it shouldn't really be one of my happy memories, but it's not a happy memory, but I just remember it. I've forgotten all about that until just now, apart from other times when I've remembered it. Yeah.

I wonder if he's still got that scar. I imagine he must have. I wonder where it was.

I'll have to have a little look at him next time I see him. A little look around his eyes. I'm sure it was like around the eyebrow area, I think.

But yeah, he, um, yeah, he christened that flat. I don't know, but I think that might have been a new block of flats just built. I made that up.

I mean, I really don't know if it's true or not. Should we check? Should we go on the, should we check on the, see if the thing, I actually remember the name of the flats just came into my head. How weird is that? Oh my, um, uh, oh, okay.

It's, what? Wow. Okay. Well, the place is just this, this huge news story from, when was that from? Oh, 2001.

Blimey. I don't remember hearing about that. Maybe I did at the time.

Whoa. Yeah. I don't know.

It's, it's, I don't know. Well, it's a, it's a nice block of, well, it was a nice block of flats. I lived there myself for nearly a year.

Okay. How, how old? Built? Yeah. I'm just interested.

It's not really very interesting for anyone else. Probably residents of building. Ah, typically constructed between 1967 and 1975.

That's all I can see on this. So built in the 1960s. Yeah.

There was this big event in 2001 that I didn't know about. Wow. Two, two events, very close to each other.

Blimey. That's, what? This is one for the London Gazette, 1984. I don't know.

Anyway, it's, so we're looking, probably the 60s. So it was already built when she moved in. I'm glad we found that out.

Aren't you glad? I mean, I don't think this, the story would have been complete if we hadn't at least attempted to find out a little bit of factuality concerning this particular subject. What'd you think? That's very sealy, wasn't it? I forget he's there sometimes. 52 years without a dog and suddenly there's a dog here.

Not a dog here, ear, a dog here. There's two dog ears. He does sigh a bit when I talk.

When I do his podcasts, he goes to sleep. Honestly, he just must just argue. So tedious.

What's he talking about now? Why was I talking about the flats though? How did I get onto that subject? The flats, moving it? Oh yeah. The house I lived in from about 1979 to 1986. So what's that? Seven years? So this is the longest I've lived anywhere then, yeah.

The longest I've ever lived in any one place, any one, I don't know, property, house, flat, whatever. The longest I've ever stayed in one place. Because that was the second longest and that was seven years we lived there because it was nine, pretty much nine, so seven, yeah.

Well I was, not really, it was more eight years. So I was from the age of seven to the age of 15. So it was about eight years we had a family, like a mother, father, three kids, four kids, and then four kids in 1978.

It went to four. And then, yeah, then it kind of, because my brothers were older than me when I was born. They stayed that way.

And one was four years older. So when I was, what, fifth was, I think when I was about 12, 13, 14, whatever, he moved out. And he did move back for a while, but he didn't move out.

I still have dreams about him. But he moved out and then he came back and then he moved, I don't know, it's my memory of it, but he definitely moved out because that room that he was in, that he was living in, his bedroom was empty for quite a while. And it was next to mine, you see, and there was no heating on in there.

It was absolutely freezing cold and I got a budgie and I put it in there because it was a little bit too noisy for my bedroom and I thought, I'll put it into a different room. You know, the room is not being used and the budgie froze, unfortunately. So I didn't know that was, I just didn't really think that was possible.

I came with a little blanket and stuff and a hat, a water bottle, hot water bottle. I just didn't, just really didn't know that it was going to get that cold in there. It was proper freezing.

And so he was gone. And then when I was 14, no probably 15, 14, no, yeah, maybe 14, my other brother moved out. So it was just me and my little brother.

And by this time, my dad was always working anyway. He was a very hard worker, self-employed and he was always out working, not always out, but you know, he was working very hard, long hours. And my step-mom had got herself a part-time job, so she was working in the evenings.

So I was coming home from school and looking after my little brother between four o'clock, half three, whatever. I think he used to get picked up by the neighbor, something like that. And then I'd collect him and I'd look after him until six o'clock when someone would come home and then I could go to karate, if it was a Tuesday or Thursday.

And that was kind of the last year of all living together. Well, the last year of me living there, that's how it was pretty much. So no other older brothers ever gone.

And just me and my little brother in this big house on our own a lot of the time. It's weird. I didn't like the house, you know, it was just too big, too old and weird.

And it wasn't warm because it, when we was all there, I think we had the heating on, but it was almost like, well, he's not there anymore, so we'll turn the heating off in that room. And that affects the other rooms, doesn't it? It affects the hallway, affects the overall building if you start turning, turning heating off in certain rooms. And I've got a very cold kitchen and a very cold bathroom.

And I try and keep the doors closed so that the cold doesn't get into the living room. I've not even been able to have the windows open because it's, because it's been so cold. Just, it's been minus for about, blimey, over a week, about 10 days, I think pretty much.

It's been, and it's, it's raining outside. So I took him for a walk and I was thinking, please warm up. It's clearly warmed up a bit in order to rain, but please don't freeze overnight, otherwise this is going to be just, it's just going to be one sheet of ice and I really hope not.

I don't really want that, really. I'll accept it if it's reality, it's fine, but I'd prefer not. No, thanks.

No, thank you very much. I think I've done quite well balancing myself and managed to get through. I mean, I remember one place I lived and this, they were very keen, well, she was a keen gardener, the landlady, the landlord, not so much a landlady, keen gardener.

And I remember she's always putting obstacles down. She just liked, she couldn't have a gap without putting something there. And I went out one night and all I was doing, I was on the, I don't know what, I was just walking out the back way towards the front garden, which there was a little pathway, a little tiny little pathway, it wasn't that big, but she'd put, it was dark, couldn't see anything, she'd put some pots there, you know, with some stuff.

Her garden could do what she wants, but I fell over them and I, I injured my shoulder. Why do you always, she just had to, it's a little bit like me with every flat surface I have to fill. I don't know why.

I just have to fill flat surfaces. I can't stop myself. There isn't one flat surface in this entire flat, the entire place that isn't filled.

Seriously, there's not one. Even the bookcases have got flats, they've got stuff on top of them. Both, both, all three of them.

And that table's full, that table's full, both of these tables are full. That bookcase has got stuff on all three. There's four, there's a little bookcase, three large-ish bookcases.

In the, yeah, everything has to have stuff on. So, you know, I guess I had that compulsion, the same way that she had to fill in all gaps with stuff. It's, I guess it's one of those things, isn't it, if you'd, no matter how big, because she had a quite a nice garden, you know, it was a lovely garden, she's a great gardener, loved the garden, she did.

And I suppose eventually you run out of space, don't you, no matter how big it is. You live somewhere for 20, 30 years, you're gonna just use up the space. So perhaps that's what it was, she just ran out of places to put stuff.

Unless she had a secret camera filming me tripping over and just found it hilarious. I know I didn't. Oh, oh, I was, it was just, it was a little route that I'd gone down for ages, I lived there for three years, and I'd gone down there loads of times.

It's just a little shortcut, that one night, no, trip right over. And it wasn't, it wasn't cutting through anything, it wasn't ruining anything, it was a little, like a made pathway, it was, I'm making this last bit up, but in my memory, I'd like to think that it was a made pathway, it had stones down which you could walk along. That might not be true, but I'm gonna stick to it and pretend it is.

And I feel better for that, because then I just, just feels nicer, somehow. I don't know why. But yeah, that's, yeah, so this is the longest I've ever lived in any one accommodation, since I've been born.

Yeah. I mean, I hope to, I'd like to get out of here. I'll be here for next year, like to get out the year after.

And I'm going to need somewhere with a garden for him. I'm kind of thinking in the future, and I might not always be able to take him for walks, you know, there might be times when I can't, or if, you know, I mean, he's a little baby, ain't he? He's only nine months old, and I'm, you think I'm gonna be, when he's 13, when he, that's around the time that he stops being, like, super active, hyperactive, whatever, when he's 13. I'll be, what will I be? 65 years old.

I'll be a pensioner. I won't be allowed to retire, because I have to wait until I'm 67, I think, before I can retire. Trust me, I'm not wishing the years away.

I'm genuinely not. Don't think that of me. Oh, you're just wishing your life away.

No, I'm not. I don't want to be, I do want to get to 65, but I don't, I'm not hoping that comes, you know, like, oh, please get me to 65, so I can retire. No, not at all.

Not one little bit. I've got too much to do between now and then. But this little monkey, he's gonna be traveling with me on that journey.

So I'm kind of thinking, not long, long term, but beyond next year. This coming year is gonna be a financial challenge. Yet, at the same time, I'm going to be trying to increase and work harder on this stuff.

Both this, the podcast, and the YouTube channel as well, and all the other stuff involved with it. And I'd like to make more recordings next year, because I added up the total, I can't see, I can't remember where, where the thing is. Have I got it? I think it worked out about, let me have a look.

Excuse my noise, if I make any noise getting up. No, no. I did write it down.

I did. But I don't know. Well, I'll come back to the microphone.

I'm back. I did work out and I counted all of the recordings that I made this year, so far. And it was nowhere near as many as I thought.

I think it was about 230 different recordings. Which technically is not bad, is it? It's not like a, it's not like a small amount. 230 different recordings.

Yeah, that's quite a few. But it's not, you know, it's, it's not as many. It's not as many as I thought I'd done.

So this coming year, 2024, no, 2023, I'm going to try and stick to doing this, let me boy to sleep every day. And I'd like to, that was loud, I'd like to do at least one hypnosis recording every day, at least. So that's already three times the amount that I did this year.

If I do that, because that's what, 365, 730, 730, whatever, compared to 230. Now, if I can do three recordings a day, then you know, I'll say it's over a thousand. A thousand a day, a year, three, six, nine, yeah, over a thousand.

But the main thing for me is if I can stick to doing one, at least one, let me boy to sleep daily, just do one daily. And then try and, you know, do at least one to be, I've kind of planned kind of what I want to do. But the reality is, I don't know what the reality is of me being able to realistically accomplish what I have set in my mind.

Because, you know, in my mind, I've got about five, maybe six different recordings that I want to do every day. And although it is possible to do that, it's very, it takes a huge amount of discipline to be able to, and planning as well, to be fair. I don't have to plan these ones, but I definitely would have to start planning the hypnosis ones, because it's just too much, you know, I have to sort of plan what I'm going to do.

But then once the recording is made, so if I spend four hours making recordings, four hours worth of recordings, so this is an hour long, and then I spend, I do two, four, six, two, four, one, two, yeah, so half an hour for each recording, other recordings. So if I let's say I spend three or four hours, one, two, so I do five recordings, and I said one, two, three hours recording, let's say five hours, or four and a half hours, four hours, if you include preparation, maybe longer for the other recordings. I don't know how long it takes me to figure out what I'm going to, at least the subject, what I'm going to sort of roughly say.

And then there's the editing, which to edit five recordings, and basically you go, you're looking at least, at least the amount of time it takes to record it, to edit it. So I have to listen to the whole thing, especially now I've got him barking every now and then, so I have to go through it. So that's another four hours.

So that's eight, nine hours for the day, that's just editing. And then there's the making recordings with music, there's that side of things, so adding that, doing that, and then uploading, that takes hours as well. It's possible, it's possible that I could do it, it's possible to, if I can multitask, uploading one podcast while I'm recording another one, all that stuff, it is possible.

And practical, it's not practical, because it's, yeah, best will in the world, there's all, you know, there's these interruptions, there's people knock on the door, there's people in the garden, there's people mowing the lawn, trimming the hedges, there's a little monkey over there barking, there's all kinds of different things that you can get in. There's television programs I want to watch, you know, I'm not a monk, I do like to do other things as well. So, yeah, we'll see, we'll see.

I shouldn't, I think really, but there's the other side added on to it, is I'm now making videos, I'll be making videos of all the new recordings, not me videoing myself at this point, although that might happen, but it's more making videos after the event, and, you know, using the audio and making a video out of the audio, and then upload that onto my YouTube channel. That in itself, for each recording, let's say if the recording lasts for half an hour, that's probably an hour and a half of work for that half an hour video to get that set up.

So, yeah, again, some of that can be done at the same time as me, you know, the processing part of it can be done at the same time as me recording.

So, I can, this seems like when it's been uploaded, I don't have to watch it be uploaded. I can be doing something else while it's uploading, but it's a bit of a juggling, bit of a juggling task, and you may think, oh, YouTube, what's that about? Well, my plan, my plan is, because I started off on YouTube, that was my first place really. Well, I didn't start off, I started off, started off as a baby.

I started off on Myspace, and then I moved to YouTube, and I was doing podcasts at the same time. So, but I definitely gave my major focus towards YouTube for a few years, and I'm now trying to get back, I guess, because the the quality of the, not only the quality of the audio, but the quality of the videos I'm making are better than they used to be. There's more available, there's more ways of doing stuff than there used to be, and I've done a lot of research to find stuff and find ways of doing things.

So, I can kind of produce what I always wanted to in the past, but didn't know how to, or couldn't figure out how to. So, it used to just be me sitting in front of a camera talking. Now, there's nothing wrong with that.

It's, you know, some very popular YouTube channels have people doing that. It's just, that's a lot. I think with the hypnosis stuff, when people, there are, you know, I'm asking people generally to close their eyes.

So, why do they need to have anything really on the screen? But, because it's YouTube, it has to be a video. Just having a static picture, like I used to do, or to have, to just upload the podcast episode to YouTube, which I have done as well, which again is just like a static picture, but it plays the podcast. YouTube doesn't like that.

Not YouTube itself, but the people on YouTube, they, it needs to be a video, even if it's not me talking, but something like a moving image. So, I've got quite a few spirals, there's waterfalls, there's, there's images moving around, and I try and do a different one for every video so far, and I've succeeded so far, but I'm eventually probably going to have to repeat some of them. But that's fine.

That's okay. I don't all have to be completely different videos. But the, it's, it's a step in the right direction.

It will improve. And I will improve. But over the next year, I'm hoping to get a nice audience on YouTube and get, get, not get back what I once had, because, you know, it's, although some people have come back from years ago, that used to listen to me about 10 years ago, or watch me on 10 years ago.

But so all this stuff is new, and the people that have not been following me on the podcast will never have heard any of these recordings. They're all relatively new in the last year or so. And most of them are pretty good quality sound.

And I've got background music now, which I've got, which I've been putting underneath. I'm not the one that I use on the podcast, and a video, and it's, it's quite cool. So I'm releasing two a day.

And at the moment, I don't know how many I've got at the moment. Let me have a look. I've got 81 videos now.

And the weird thing about it is my, my top videos has always been, this is for the last 28 days, my top video generally is try and stay awake hypnosis challenge. Well, now it's been overtook, just not all in all, but just over the last 28 days. And the number one one, number one one is ASMR hypnosis challenge, try to keep your eyes open.

So it's, it's not me talk, it's me talking, but it's not me. You know, with my face on the, on the camera, the only one that's got my face on the camera from in the past, and this was from 2011, is the try and stay awake hypnosis challenge. So if you want to see what I look like 11 years ago, then go to my YouTube channel.

I look different. I look so much younger, but I was, I was only 40. What? 41? 40? No, 40.

So I was, this is 2011. So I was only 40. Yeah, there are videos of me, you know, as well, other videos, more recent ones where I'm on camera.

But I wonder what is the last 28, the last seven days, what's the top video. Okay. So try and stay awake.

Hypnosis challenge is way down. It's like one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, seven ahead of it. So yeah, it's most of them are recent uploads.

So none of them, I'll be honest, none of them are getting like huge, big, huge views at the moment. That'll take, you know, it'll take ages probably. I mean, I've had in the last year, 365 days, my channels had 17,418 views on my videos on my YouTube channel.

And a lot of those, it's, you know, it's just like very small amounts, gradual. I had the odd, odd time when I've had lots, but every day is a small amount. It's not.

And a few bigger days. That makes sense. And the lifetime of the channel, which is I think two years.

No, 15th of March, 2018, 19, 20, 21, 22. So it's four years. Four, blimey, nearly five years next March.

84,586 views. So it's like small amounts every day. You know, it really is.

I mean, I've only got, you know, I deleted a video that was fairly popular. Why did I do that? But I did. And it was the jigsaw.

I was making a jigsaw ASMR and I was just whispering while I was making a jigsaw. And it was fairly popular. People quite like that.

I say popular in my, you know, in my world, you know, a couple of thousand wasn't like popular as in huge amounts. But the try and stay awake hypnosis challenge, although it's got 7,713 views on YouTube on this channel, it had over a hundred thousand views on the big channel that my main one that I had, that I deleted back in 2013, I think, maybe 2014, one of them, 2013. So I had, yeah, over a hundred thousand video views.

It was my most popular video that I've ever had. And even when I took it off, I get people contact me. Can you put, you know, can you put it back on? So I do, I leave it on there now.

It's the only old video that I leave on because people like it. Well, some people like to watch it. So I can't argue with that.

You know, it's there. Just leave it, leave it there. So I'll leave it there and it'll be there for the rest of this forever.

Well, not forever, but you know, for a while, a while. It's weird. Just no gray hair at all in that.

Super sexy. I was, no, I wasn't. Why did I say so? Friday the 11th of November, I had 1000 plays, but I was publicizing, I was advertising my podcast, my YouTube videos.

What have I got here? Vinnie, Vinnie, Vinnie. So people are commenting on my Facebook. Oh, oh dear.

So yeah, that's it really. It's Sunday evening, 21, it's four minutes to 10. I had a big lunch.

I didn't eat a huge amount of it, but I don't eat much food at a time. I'm going to have to get myself a sandwich. So I won't be going to bed early because, you know, I'll go to bed, I don't know, 11, 30, 12 or something.

What I will do though is put his collar on him. Although he's been so good and he's really good at night, even before I got the collar at night, night, like during, during the actual nighttime, once he settled, stayed settled. Didn't make, didn't make a peep the whole time.

And he likes sleeping in his bed. He loves his bed. It's weird because it's just like the perfect size for him.

It's also on the settee. I don't know if that's the right place for it to be. Maybe it should be on the floor.

There's not a lot of floor space to be honest. But he's okay jumping up and down on the settee because he's, you know, he's young, he can do all that. I'm sure when he's old, he might not want to do that.

But he definitely seems to be happy being in his settee. And I've got this towel because we went out and it was raining. I've got a towel to dry him off with.

It's a new towel. I've never really used it. I bought it for the gym, which is why I've never used it.

I bought it for the gym, but it's basically the gym is closed because the hotels, hotel, local hotels got a government contract. So they're, they've got refugees living there. So they basically closed it to the public.

So I'm assuming they've closed the gym as well. I haven't asked, but I've used that as an excuse not to go to the gym, but I've got, I've got a gym here really. I've got, I've got weights.

I've got stuff. I've got a punch bag. I've got my punch ball.

I've got the exercise bike. I've got my sit up bench. So I've got, I've got enough stuff here, but maybe he should be on the floor.

I don't know. There's just not enough room in there for my stuff. I haven't got a lot of stuff.

It's just, I like, I like to have room to maneuver. And this is a little bit, because I've got two, two desks parallel to each other. I hardly ever sit on the other desk, but once I clear it, I will be, I'm going to have to get it set up.

But I've got another table that you see with my lens and that's on the side of this in between the two desks on the side. And that's where I do all my laptop work. So if I'm making videos or editing, that's where I do this stuff there.

Here in front of my bookcase, this is where I make the podcasts. Although what I'm thinking of doing is moving, because I've now got the podcast, the microphone stand for the desk for my ear microphones, the ASMR 3DO ones. So I might try and get that set up on the other desk, clear that away and just have it just for that.

And maybe, yeah, just do that. Keep this here, keep that over there, and then use that desk over there for the editing. So it's kind of having everything in its place.

It takes a while, it takes a while to get it all sorted. But I definitely seem to be comfortable in that other, on the other table doing the editing, rather than here for some reason. This is more comfortable for me to make podcasts.

It's weird, isn't it? Not really. It's just not interesting either, is it? No. So I'm going to go, I'm going to go, go, go.

Tomorrow, I'll try and talk about Christmas, because I haven't talked about Christmas today. I'll try and figure, try and get some Christmas memories, if I can. There's got to be some.

Right, well, thank you for listening. Remember, remember to be kind to yourself. Remember to be gentle with yourself.

You deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye.