#913 Power cuts - Let me bore you to sleep (Jason Newland) (28th October 2022)

Hello, hello, hello and welcome to let me bore you to sleep. My name is Jason Newland. My website is jasonnewland.com and please only listen when you can safely close your ears.

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listened on um you know with with headphones you would hear the right so if i went like that and then you'd hear it in different ears i mean i probably wouldn't actually go that might not be that might not be uh wanted i don't know it might not be popular but i thought hmm and they're supposed to be really good and also for the asmr whispering because i've got a few microphones and i'm trying to play around and find which is the best microphone for whisper because these are good for talking these are good this

one here is a good microphone and what kind of what microphone is it i don't know let's have a look what microphone have i got it can't be that long ago that i bought it blimey maybe it was last year was it this year oh no i know why because i've dog like no it would have been this year that i got this microphone oh come on that's the last three months of 2022 come on where's the microphone three i need to i just want to be able to tell you what it is i suppose

i could just look at the microphone but that would involve moving my head and i'm just not prepared oh there it is it's an electro voice re 20 broadcast announcer microphone with variable d whatever that means now this is a really good microphone it's you know it's not you can spend a hundred thousand pound on a microphone this isn't a hundred mic yes oh really no it's not a hundred thousand pound but oh i got that in july august september october november so yeah but at four months this and i've actually put i put this

black thing the the pop filter there's a pop filter there are but also this here because i'm trying to cut down on the s's and s because i um a little bit of lisp and i didn't realize until i started uh until someone mentioned it funny enough until someone kindly mentioned it to me and i said oh thanks so i got a bit of a lisp and as as i've but i'm playing with my pen p-e-n no other words just just pen and no other letters so i used to didn't take that much notice when

i edited for me editing was about getting rid of the horrible sounds in the background uh you know like a rattling window or whatever to try and make it sound as okay as possible now as i've improved the quality of the equipment now it's really focusing on my voice to make my voice sound a bit better not my voice as in i don't try and try and change how my voice sounds but the things in between the words when i'm going and making all these weird sounds which i didn't realize i made so trying to

clean that up trying to get rid of those sounds but then you know what i'm doing what am i doing i'm doing what youtubers do deleting the gap between the individual words and that's not what this is about this is a this isn't about like some fast-paced video or you know um podcast speaking like a uh like a 1960s salesman you know it's not about that double glazing salesman oh what about a car maybe a baddest boy fine 99 the best you'll ever see that's not really what i'm about this is about slowing down this

is about you know being calmer to me that's what this is about so i think it's just about you know i also do want to clean up the audio i want to make the audio as good as best as as possible and the video so i made a video a couple of days ago and i was i don't know i was probably 15 minutes into it and the video just cut off so i was making a podcast at the same time i'm thinking of maybe getting some kind of little microphone system just to um as

a backup in case the studio right it cuts off or something happens like that just so i don't lose the recording you know don't lose that that hour of my time although the hour of my time will have gone but it wouldn't have been in vain necessarily but do i need to delete the breaths the thing is a breath it sounds more prominent because i'm so close to the microphone now i'm pretty sure if you was in a room with me talking you wouldn't hear me breathing it's but it sounds like my breathing is really

heavy and it's not it's not like that at all it just sounds a bit like that in between the the words and i see that i'm now doing it on purpose so and it's like it just shows up and i think that's because the order the better the audio gets the more edit but not more editing the more prominent some of the sounds are so i've got this i've still got two filters i've got the filter at the front pop filter the metal one that came we didn't have to buy it separate but it was

part of this and then this thing um that is actually from another microphone that there's a black pop filter thing now i want to see i should really look to see if there's a pop filter for this but something i do need to do i need to figure a way of soundproofing the window so that i can't hear uh the the neighbors in the garden you know stuff like that because i wanted to make some recordings earlier today because now it's nearly half past eight in the evening i wanted to make some recordings during the

day there was just foghorn was out there and it was it was there was people just talking quite loud well loud loudly and i don't really want that in the background of my recordings i just don't and it's i don't know if it always actually shows up on the recording anyway but i can hear it and it distracts me but i would like to find a way of they couldn't have blacking out the windows from the light but blacking it out from the sound now i've got a few ideas i've gone online nothing really sort

of seems suitable i mean these are soundproof curtains but i mean i think with the with there's a particular voice i think you'd need like a an underground bunker you'd still hear that person it's got just happen to have a very loud voice so there's nothing wrong with that and they're perfectly wonderful person i'm sure so i don't know it's it's kind of i'd like not to hear it but it comes with where i live this is part of the environment doesn't bother me personally usually you know but when i'm making a recording which is

weird because i'm making a relaxing recording and i'm getting angry inside so that you know i mean it's it's not really yeah doesn't really fit together does it so um see gratitude journal oh okay yeah in the video the video ran out and the reason for that is because the disc was full and i for some reason the disc was just wouldn't work properly so i got myself a is it 250 something gigabyte disc which is now in there which gives me according to the screen because on the camera there's a flip of a screen

i'm using the sv1 the sony sv1 vlogging camera and it says there's eight hours 45 minutes left and i've used 13 nearly for 14 minutes so yeah that makes sense so i had 10 hours out of off of that disc stills not a lot is it really and i tried to put on 4k and i don't understand because i've gone online 4k should give me at least i think about three hours i lucky if i get 10 15 minutes out of 4k video which i mean this is high definition and all that stuff which is

it should be soft focus it should be i didn't know but i hope so but you know 4k makes sense to just do things at the at the highest possible quality i guess um and like okay what what kind of size what size disc do i need because 256 or whatever gigabytes is quite a lot that's that's a lot now if an hour recorded i i mean 256 gigabytes if i made a recording that that was that large how how long would it take to upload to youtube i mean think about it it would take

that would take like days wouldn't it it's huge absolutely huge sized file and then when youtube get it they compress it so you might upload a like a 50 gigabyte file to youtube whoops beg the microphone but they compress it down to maybe i don't know four gigabytes maybe less than 100 gigabytes 100 megabytes maybe 300 megabytes so they compress it way way down otherwise it wouldn't be able to stream can you imagine like a 50 gigabyte what kind of internet connection you would need to stream a 50 gigabyte youtube video if your internet connection

was like mine is like 30 megabytes a second so what's that 300 megabytes a minute no that's not right is it i don't know 30 megabytes a second 37 megabytes a second something like that so i don't think i'd struggle yeah i probably wouldn't be able to stream such a large file without buffering i think so youtube do definitely compress uh so it's the only way that they can stream billions of videos every day to people around the world so there what is the point in uploading in 4k then as long as it's not webcam

level but i see some videos on youtube and the quality of the videos not great the content's really good but you know even some of the really popular videos they're it's like they're not worried anymore about the the actual visual quality and maybe that's because there's a certain level there's no point doing if you get like you know uh a 10 20 000 pound camera and you film it all like a movie and you upload it and it still plays back in the same quality like high definition maximum i'm making some of this up but

it seems like it might be true so friday 28th what month is it march no october 22 what is i grateful for all right okay so the camera ran out uh the and then what i did is because i can use it plugged in without battery well it has to have battery in it or does it because it doesn't charge the battery while it's in what it's plugged what it's turned on anyway i'm not sure anyway the yeah i don't think it charges while it's recording so i got myself some batteries this size there get

them in and it got a rechargeable base you put them in three got from amazon they came through the next day and i was like brilliant so now i can put a fully charged battery in i'm gonna have the camera attached to the socket it can just be a bit more freer without cables and stuff and i can just relax and i can see the battery life so it's fine you know i can make a video and then uh take the battery out when needed too big these were too big i got them put it

couldn't put them in it's too large could not get it into the hole the hole was too small so i had to go and this is what came up when i put in a battery rechargeable batteries full as the sony zv1 this is what came up as the results so i had to do some more research and now i found ones that actually were for them so i've got some more coming tomorrow these are powertrust 2-pack npbx1 npbx1 battery recharger for sony dsc dsc wait a minute oh my goodness it's not even saying as it

did say oh yeah also for the zv1 vlog digital camera which this is so oh so that's good um there's only two rechargeable batteries but that's all i need i'm not you know if i decide to go out and make videos outside and it's good i don't know how long the batteries last for but if it's an issue and i go out and they run out i'll just get another charger because they're pretty cheap so i'll just get another couple of batteries with a charger or maybe look to get a larger one if there is

such a thing and i don't really know how it works what if it's you know it didn't give an option to get more sometimes you know on youtube they give you an option you can like choose two batteries or four batteries or a million billion batteries and it just gives you a choice this just had two batteries um they're lithium so i don't know ah now this is what i'm thinking of doing i'm thinking but then i don't know because of the cost of the cards how much did that card cost 256 gigabytes is the

memory card for this so it can only hold 10 recordings but then it costs 38 pound 49 which is i don't understand how it can just yeah this is video for video audio blimey is you can huge amounts audio so what's 38 pound divided by 10 3 pound 80 3 pound 80 yeah so 3 pound 80 and 49 3 pound 84 3 pound 84 per recording is costing me if i just use the disc once and i store the disc so that i don't lose my recordings i know i can transfer them but it's huge

these are big files they take up so much space if if you look at um so 120 256 gigabytes a thousand gigabytes is a terabyte so the cost of a one terabyte disc and they're quite they're not huge but they're a little bit chunky you know 140 pound or something which is still cheaper than that though isn't it 38 three six nine twelve thirty four it's about yeah it's roughly the same kind of price i guess i could experiment with it by the way this is supposed to be boring just just it's not supposed to

be this boring but it is supposed to be kind of boring and in my last video i was sweating it was so hot in there and i think the radiators must have been on and literally i was watching the video and it's dripping down also if you're looking at me and thinking why doesn't he sort his beard out doesn't he know how ridiculous and smelly his beard looks yeah i'm aware of it it's purpose i'm doing this on purpose i'm growing it to be really wild and um it does need trimming but i'm letting it

grow over my lip as well because i know that will annoy people it actually annoys me i get a thrill out of annoying myself which is that's a really strange thing to say isn't it i enjoy annoying myself that is probably the weirdest sentence that you were here for a while i enjoy annoying myself i can't believe that came out of my mouth that's the weird things that come out of my mouth over the years years but i just like wow i enjoy annoying myself hmm my hair needs sorting out but i didn't have it

cut that long ago as i waggle my finger and it was what um august or maybe even the beginning of september i had my hair cut maybe it was august end of august so it's only just a month and a half ago i don't think i need to worry too much but it's starting to get a little bit curly at the sides a little bit you know i've got very very curly hair now you can't tell if i'm looking at it because some of you say well you don't actually have any hair do you i

do a little bit i don't have much but what i do have is curly yes curly so i'm gonna i'm gonna look into this i'm gonna look into it triple pack 128 16 10 32 128 all right it's actually um triple pack 32 triple pack is 17.

99 so that's three six nine 98 gigabyte for 18 pound so that's let's say 20 pound that's 100 gigabyte so 200 gigabyte anyone 200 200 gigabyte it's 40 pound yeah i'm trying to think of a way to i get the sand disks which are kind of top of the range but there probably is cheaper versions that would do the job in fact i've just found just wait a minute let's have a look at this so single pack 64 256 i'm gonna see i can find 65 256 i'll just have a look see if i can

find some even cheaper ones wow 512 gigabytes which uh i i yeah it should be fine should be fine sand disk 10 which is 512 gigabytes uh 84 pound 99 so what i might do is get out like the case that was on there and just put them into the case to store them because then they're done then they're stored because i've lost hundreds and hundreds of videos and audio recordings over the years due to my lack of well it's not always been me it's not always been i mean yeah i guess it is really

it's i i'm back backed stuff up sometimes i've had stuff closed uh when i was if i go back to 2008 there is i had a podcast host and it was my first podcast host brilliant free i think it's actually called free podcast host or something freepodcast.com something like that let me check it because i'm sure it might still be there podcast.com free free like the country freepodcast.com no it's uh gone the website's gone so well it probably would be by now wouldn't it it may be for sale ah so i i had something like

i think it was because i remember i was showing off at college and i was college but you're 105 years old how can you be at college 10 years ago well first of all it's 15 years ago and secondly i was old i was an old student i started university when i was 37 yep uh so i remember i went to i i was trying to show

him because they want to know what i did some of the people in on the course so what do you do jason i thought okay well i i make and videos and the good thing about doing stuff online being a content creator whether it's video or podcasts or whatever i guess you can show people like here we go so i showed them my youtube channel which was thriving at the time it was well it was going okay i'd had it for i hadn't had it that long really i died like a year or so year

and a half two years was it 2007 i think i got my youtube channel was it i think so or 2006 anyway so you know so i showed that then i showed my podcast which was more impressive because i'd had a hundred thousand downloads of my podcasts and i was like really yay and they weren't impressed no one's ever been impressed with anything i've done it's not fair and i so i just i remember that place because i i i stored everything on there and i kept thinking i need to back this stuff up and

we're going back i said 2008 i had a laptop it didn't have huge storage i mean even some laptops today don't have huge storage i got a laptop behind me which is a top of the it's a good laptop it's also like you know you can touch screen and a laptop at the same time so it's like i turned the volume down so i wouldn't hear that blimey damn you i just got an instagram thing why would i need to know that someone posted something on instagram why would i ever need to know that what

possible why why would i need to know that it's really weird because i try and turn off notifications for everything honestly if i was on a transplant list i would even probably turn off the notifications from the nhs hospital app letting me know when there's a transplant available i you know i just don't like notifications it's just hopefully i wouldn't be that stupid but i can't stand notifications it's annoying like all these weird noises like shut up i mean you never notify you to let you know that you've won some money do they like by

the way we want to give you a thousand pounds there's a million pounds for you no don't get notifications like that notifications someone wants to have sex with you no that's what's never happened to me so uh moving on moving on what am i grateful for nothing now i was before now what i'm grateful for um i'm grateful is oh my upper back left hand side like shoulder area back is hurting it's been hurting for about a week now um but i did some weights yesterday and it seemed to ease it off a bit so

that was loud wasn't it so i'm going to do some more weights later and that should do it i just need to be a bit more consistent with everything that's the word of the day that should needs to be the word of the year and i've watched hundreds upon hundreds of youtube videos uh on almost like youtube best practices and i don't follow hardly any of them but um one of the things and it's not just youtube it's i turned the volume down oh billie eilish is on tour who care why are you telling me

that how do i get rid of this this is otherwise i have to turn the phone off but this is my ipad um notifications where's notifications this is real notifications okay fair enough instagram off damn you i don't know why it was on because i've turned notifications for everything off i've never been so angry so i i can't remember what i was saying now what was i saying i was saying something i'm sure i was i must have been so what am i grateful for i'm grateful that i've finally decided to use the camera that

i purchased specifically for this purpose now you could say you could argue yep do you mean for this purpose what other use would you have for a camera other than a video camera other than to make videos okay fair enough that's a good argument but you know i saved up for this i spent ages i waited for about eight eight or nine months to buy this this video camera and then when i got it i just couldn't use it so i just got frustrated with it and uh i realized now it's because i didn't i

didn't have an sd card in it so it wasn't working i couldn't figure that out for a while and i watched some tutorials the weird thing is i watched tutorials before purchasing it but none of it stuck in yet and then once i actually purchased it i tried to figure it out on my own and it turns out that all i really needed to do is just point it at myself and press record have it plugged into the socket into the mains have an sd card that works that's got storage on it and just record

i can now i can i know my way around the some of the controls because i played around with them so there's certain things that are not good you know but it's basic it should pretty much be the same as before but i don't know if it's given like a soft filter as the ones before did if it's not i can go back and change that but either way i'm just going to see my big funny shiny face a pink face with a weird beard that rhymes isn't it weird a weird beard and it's going

to get worse it's going to get much much worse and i'm looking forward to that because it's now a proper beard you know it's gone from you can say what do you mean it's a problem well a month ago it was nothing i shaved it off so this is a month's worth of pretty much a month's worth of stubble really to make this now by what we're looking at what is it now november it's nearly november november this month this weekend is it what day is it the 28th today 29th tomorrow which is saturday sunday's

the 30th and then monday's 31st so tuesday will be the 1st of november it's guy fawkes night on the 31st so that's monday the clocks go either forward or back back they go back for an hour on sunday evening or is it saturday evening yeah saturday evening so like midnight saturday or something and so the clocks go back an hour and so if you're doing a night shift you'll be working an extra hour i've done that i remember i worked in a nightclub and the clocks went back but i worked till two o'clock and i

was packing up and like everyone just stopped and looked at me i literally turned the music off and started to pack all the cds away because i was dj'ing and everyone was just looking at me and the manager came i said what are you doing i said well it's two o'clock i said if anything it's five past two i'll let it go a little bit longer than normal and he said no it's now one o'clock or five past one you've still got another hour left i said no i haven't look because in those days phones

didn't automatically reset themselves like the iphone it sets itself to the time you know so if you wake up on a sunday with i'm guessing probably most phones it resets itself and it's the same with laptops and stuff so you don't have to change the time in them days you had to manually do it so i'm looking at the watch i didn't have a watch but i probably got my phone out i said nick it says six minutes past one no six minutes past two that's that's the right yeah and he said no it's and

he and he said look the clocks have come back i said oh oh of course it's halloween isn't it because that would that's i was connected to so halloween i've got actually i got i got i got two memories of halloween one is a not a very nice memory so i won't mention that one but uh i got quite a nice memory of halloween uh it was at the comedy club actually and there was this waitress called um something or other and she was dressed as a vampire and she was wearing a corset and she

had um really big hair and blood like coming down her cheeks and um dripping onto her neck and stuff and she'd only i think she'd been working there for a little while but i really liked her and i really liked her on that night i really like wow i really just i'd never seen i'd never seen um i've always been attracted to vampires i've always um it's because when i was a child i was raised by vampires i was no i it's because when i was a child i i used to like i used to

love watching vampire movies and especially to be fair i used to really love the black and white movies like the uh not just vampire but werewolves or frankenstein or any kind of really old hammer house horror like christopher reeve vincent province and price is more kind of a little bit later but um bela lugosi boris karloff um you know all those real huge stars of that time the horror stars and i love them i still love them like even now i love them because they were atmospheric they had an they weren't they weren't gory because

that wasn't allowed and the black and white ones you'd hardly would be lucky to see what i say lucky but you only see any kind of flesh there's no nudity they wouldn't even be much in the way of kissing you know it's like the old fashioned hollywood kiss where they kept their mouths closed and like that and um it's like two dolphins trying to arm wrestle or something you know it's just it's i like that stuff i do i really i used to love watching the old black and white horror movies and then the hammer

house when they brought out the color movies with um christopher lee and um what's his name he used to play his arch enemy quite a lot but they were really cool as well but they were they were a bit more scarier they still they did have the atmosphere but i didn't find them as atmospheric as the black and white ones i'm not quite sure why really i don't know maybe the music in the original black and white movies were the music was better maybe i don't i'm not sure and but i i liked i liked

all of them one of my favorite characters my favorite actors was vincent price because he was so good so funny as well in some of the movies he was in and he kind of brought comedy to the horror even when he was playing really disgustingly horrible sadistic characters it'd still be funny it's still like as they talk like this and that's probably not a good impression that wasn't really impression of anything was there was an impression of me just making weird noises so i can't wait soon the hairs will be just long enough like for

my top lip to reach down i'll be to play with them with my teeth and the hairs there as well will be long enough they're not yet but another week or two i'll be able to stick them in between my teeth and play with them it's a never-ending toy honestly it's a it's it's a it's a pleasure that doesn't end pleasure that oh it's wonderful i can't wait i've never been so excited so christmas has come in that's going to be my christmas present this beard i kind of think it's a christmas present for everyone

i think it's a joyous thing especially you know round christmas father christmas slash santa claus you know the big old bushy beard that's me red face that's me big bushy beard overweight big fat belly it's me um big sack and of course there's all the the things he carries his toys around in so you know it's it's and the sleigh so yeah i kind of am probably about 43 percent center so i um oh yeah my great my gratitude journal what am i grateful for i'm grateful for my camera camera working okay what else what

else what else what else what else what else food deliveries now i got a food delivery yesterday or last night actually and it's just so handy he didn't the delivery person seemed a bit offish off with me a bit like oh distant i mean i'm thinking did i smell i mean i shouldn't smell too bad i mean it's only been three or four months since my last uh wash i should be still fine i mean i don't know it's just he just maybe he was tired it was you know at night time and he was

ready to go to bed or go home but he was like really he just didn't seem to want to talk but at one point i just said okay fair enough so i put the to the chairs put them back in my flat folded the table up i mean i thought he'd want to sit down and have a chat he just didn't i mean i made him sandwiches and everything it was just like what's the point what's the point in doing all that stuff making cakes sandwiches for the delivery driver if they're not going to sit

down and have a little bit of a net a little bit of it's a little bit of company isn't it so you know weren't interested as for the movie that i was you know preparing to watch with him he didn't didn't didn't want to do that either i don't like the last resort as well can we just have a little dance i mean i've got some music playing i've hired an orchestra a little band it's not a big band just enough to fit into the cupboard um into the bedroom can we have a little dance

or he said no the last resort is walking down the stairs what about a wrestle just a little wrestle but nothing i mean try and make friends you know you put some effort in try and make new friends and it doesn't always work i mean i'm still going to be proactive i'm still going to put my effort in to make new friends but sometimes i just think oh you know just oh you know why why why all that effort three days it took me to prepare for that delivery yeah the sandwiches were a bit stale

but you know perhaps i should have done the sandwiches last i suppose choosing a movie wasn't the yeah wasn't this the last thing i needed to do i could have done that first but then if i'd done that i'd have been stuck because i wanted to watch other things i wanted to choose the movie because i had to go through all the different streaming channels to choose a movie that would be suitable for a nice romantic no for a nice friendly um buffet you know sandwiches cakes jelly deals barbecue might have been a bit over

the top but the plane would have signed right in be my friend question mark i mean maybe that was over the top besides you know it's dark so i don't think you could see it which is probably not a bad thing but i'm not lonely it's fine so number three uh i'm grateful for what am i grateful for baby come on think of something what am i grateful for uh i know it's going to sound strange this is kind of a similar thing to food deliveries and i know that um some people like oh you

know because everyone's got everyone's got an opinion have they're not what do they say opinions so i said to you once uh um now someone said to me oh i said that's my opinion he said well opinions are like assholes and i and i i thought about it and i said oh is it because because it leaves an answer it leaves an aftertaste because of the aftertaste he said what i said nothing i said why are they like assholes he said oh because everyone's got one okay it's not the aftertaste then so number three i'm

gonna say amazon how can you say amazon easy amazon it's easy i practiced i mean it took me a while um and no and now i could do amazon i can say it see took a while that's how i can say it it's not you know for some people who go out go into shops go to supermarkets go into malls go you know have a uh access the drive you know go to places as you know the normal world is brilliant for them and has been and the internet is an option for me the internet

is a solution rather than an option i mean you know it's it means i can get what i need without having to go out uh without having to sit on a bus and travel um so i can eat and i've got milk and i've got breakfast cereal and i've got stuff that i need when i need it rather than uh running out which is a good reason to get delivery so that i because otherwise i'd run out of stuff amazon for me to get some of the stuff i get on amazon i'd have to actually

go to what other websites i guess but i'd need to go to specific shops and maybe even go to a different town to get stuff that specialize in these things like microphones for example and i might have to go all the way to london or go to the music shop and order the microphone or the equipment and then they deliver it within you know a couple of weeks or they didn't have to go in and collect it why go through that when i can just order it and get it delivered the next day or within

a few days it you know and i'll be honest i don't care if it's the next day or if it's in three days generally i'm not that bothered i ordered something last night and it was too late and couldn't get it delivered today but it'll be delivered tomorrow i don't care i'm not usually it's it's rarely well they're not really emergency things that i order on amazon the only time was like 2019 when it was very hard to get hold of toilet roll so i was ordering toilet roll on amazon at a premium i would

say and some of the other things that it was it was also i couldn't get deliveries the supermarkets were happy to take my money for the previous six years delivering here but as soon as 2009 kicked in 2019 2020 2020 well especially specifically 2019 i couldn't get deliveries because i wasn't um i wasn't on their list as it were even though i am uh categorized as disabled like literally category i'm in that category not physically um but i do also have uh my lower back problems like arthritis in my lower back physically so i can't

i can physically lift stuff and i can carry stuff so i'm not not weak but i really feel it afterwards if that makes sense it's like oh so i can help someone carry a washing machine out of their flat and into you know somewhere upstairs or something i wouldn't want to but i've done it in the past and i've had to lay down for two hours because i've just really put too much pressure on my back i also end up being about three inches shorter that's not good i don't know why i lie why do

i i lie so much it's ridiculous i don't i don't think anything have i said anything true today i'm not even sure i'm not sure so they're the three things i know technically my gratitude journal today is very it's not particularly emotional it's not spiritual it's not um any kind of self-development stuff but you know it's what i'm great i am grateful for the camera working being able to use a camera i'm i am grateful for the food deliveries i'm grateful for amazon because amazon does deliver me the stuff that i need and sometimes when

i can't get anywhere else you know there's times i know actually got toothpaste from amazon because i couldn't get it anywhere because there was uh we weren't allowed out i couldn't get deliveries i mean what what and there's no local shops the only local shop is a garage and they don't sell toothpaste in there so what was i supposed to do wasn't allowed out during lockdown couldn't get deliveries i didn't have anyone to help me and yeah it was very very weird situation so i got stuff online and i mean oh man it was it

was expensive but then i also got help i got people some of my listeners sent me some stuff and amazing i've got the best listeners in the world honestly the people that listen to my podcasts are the best without a doubt i don't tell them i said that i don't want them to know but they are brilliant very supportive to what i do and um brilliant brilliant and i i'd say the same about my youtube so i'm not like i don't know i'm laughing about that to my youtube subscribers as well and it's a little

bit different because i've lost touch with youtube over the years i've really i'm only kind of coming back to it so there are people that have been subscribed to me for quite for a couple of years some people have subscribed to me on and off for the last decade the different channels i've had but this is kind of a not a comeback but a a continuation this is kind of me now rather than where i was in 2010 or 11 or 12 and 2012 was probably my or 11 12 11 and 12 was my peak

time on youtube and then or 11 12 13 and then it all went i kind of deleted that channel and although i i opened another channel probably about 2015 i don't know how long i've had this channel open it might be that long i don't know might be seven years i don't think so though i think i've had this for about four years i should look let me have a look let me find out when youtube does it tell you what if it tells me my your channel youtube studio how long have i had the

channel copyright customization settings does it where does it say where do it say settings channel advanced settings permissions community nope um copyright nope analytics ah so if i go to analytics see if i've got lifetime does it say lifetime anymore it don't do it oh yes it does wait a cancel so if i go to lifetime i can see exactly right according to this 15th of march 2018 so four years i've had this channel and i can i'll be honest with you i've had uh tiny tiny tiny views so far on youtube uh with this

channel i've had six 76 000 views and 21 000 hours 659 subscribers i've got at the moment now i don't know how i think the views might not be right and the hours might not be right because i deleted over a thousand videos so i think that it might have been a lot long a lot more than that had i not deleted i think i'm not sure and i've only got one video with any kind of views and that's the try and stay awake hypnosis challenge and that was from 2011 although it's i put it

on there march 2018 7 509 views and uh 53 percent who watched that video listened to the whole watched the whole thing so that's this i've got like a very irregular returners that watch that video because i deleted it a few times and people have come back and i said where's that video so i put it on there i've left it on there but i got rid of everything else and the only videos i got now are the most up-to-date ones you know as far as let me have a if i put in content uh

18th of july and then 13th of august so basically from from pretty much august onwards has been the main time that i've been posting videos uh but not many either like there was one two three four five five in august september 2022 one two three four five six seven eight nine ten eleven eleven in september in october which is this month one two three four five six seven this will be the eighth the last one was the 24th so that's four days ago so yeah i'm i'm okay with that it's it's just another avenue it's

another avenue to um access what i do and i'm i'm grateful for that i should write that down i'm grateful but to be fair the thing i'm probably most grateful for generally but overall is that i've got this to do that i created this thing these videos and these podcasts because if i hadn't done that back in 2006 i don't know what i'd be doing now i don't know what would i just be sitting watching tv all the time would i be uh maybe i'd be in a maybe i'd be doing a lot better i

don't know it's nowhere known is there i might be happy i might be married i mean i don't know i might be a a pilot i might go into aviation i'd who knows i might be living in canada i might be you know the world it's so easy isn't it like you just meet someone new and that meet leads to something else or you get a job and that leads to something else and you know oh you mean i can go and do this same job but in canada so i'm going to do somewhere nice

wow and then because i love bears you see and like okay well that sounds good so i could end up in australia or in america or do who knows where i could have ended up who knows where i will end up but the thing is because it's a friday evening i know a lot of people will be out on a friday evening not just young people but people of all ages i'll be out cinema in a pub in a club in a bar in a restaurant a disco rolling rolling roller skating or climbing walls you

know those wall climbing places you go to um cinema did i say theater of course theater watching theater stuff and i'm sitting here making podcasts so this is how i've spent the last 16 years of my life doing this on a saturday night friday night well pretty much every night when i was working this is what i do in the evening and at weekends and this is what i do it's just what i do kind of becomes become part of me really it become has become me it's almost just what i do i make podcasts

and i make videos and at the moment i'm doing both at the same time now and that suits me actually because i know if i just start okay i want to make a video i'm going to do it separate make videos for youtube do podcasts for the internet for you know my listeners and then do separate things but i know that i'll make a video and i think oh that would make a good podcast and i'll make a podcast i think well that would have made a good video so how i'll just do both at

the same time why not and it's just it's just more work that's all just takes more time consuming to set it up doesn't take a huge amount to set up but afterwards you know the uploading the editing all that stuff so yes three times the work than just doing a podcast because video maybe four times actually um because you know it's just so it's more effort to put in there's more it's more time consuming and i do the very basic editing now if i really if i want to be more professional i will need to

start learning to use the software like the the other soft like professional software maybe adobe the good thing about adobe is because i do podcasts and video the they've got editing software for audio and for video but they kind of link them together so i've been watching some tutorials for you for audio and because at the moment i pay a hundred pounds or just over a hundred pounds for this software online which edits the audio doesn't take out um it basically improves the quality of what tries to like um i think dampen down background sound

but then increases the volume so it's a proper podcast level now i can do that myself once i learn how which is a kind of a strange sentence because obviously like well that that doesn't that stand for everything you know you can do anything once you learn how to do it okay so i can learn how to box but it doesn't mean i can get into a boxing with a professional and last more than what five seconds without being knocked out and that would be with any weight if i go into a ring even with

someone half my weight they would knock me out or okay mate but they they would be you know they would win because they're a professional boxer and i'm a 52 year old fat man and it doesn't matter how much i train at boxing i'm not going to be a boxer i'm never gonna what is it illegal i can't be a professional boxer you know no one would give me a license and also so i can learn to do something doesn't mean i can actually do it you know i mean that's where i'm going with that

um i know you can learn how to do operations for books that's where they learn and then from experience but you can learn pretty much anything you can learn how to build a plane you can learn quantum physics you you could get a lot of that stuff just from watching youtube videos everything's available online if you look if you know where to look and if you've got the money as well because some stuff is expensive you know not everything is free on the internet used to be didn't it do you remember do you remember when

you like never had to pay for an album never had to pay for a book not really you could always get stuff for free um but that that is why i think spotify and well i just say spotify it's the only one i use but you got prime amazon music and stuff i think google have got music haven't they apple music as well i use spotify and i stream and it's just easy but you know i do think sometimes what would happen not i get all apocalyptic but you know if you watch these tv shows

or the movies and they're in a bunker and they've got dvds or videotapes cds record players that's the stuff they're using to um enjoy their entertainment content no internet i don't have any dvds i don't have any cds i don't have any videotapes i don't have a video recorder i don't have a cd player i don't have a dvd player everything is pretty much reliant upon the internet take the internet away and the only thing i'd have would be the television i mean as far as viewing i've got books i've got loads of books but

as far as uh entertainment goes you know i could i could buy a cd player and stuff like that but i'm saying the tv but didn't take this you know so as long as i've got a tv aerial which i do that's fine but the internet i rely so much on it i remember we had a power cut here a few years back and the whole building went down and it was a little bit annoying because my next my neighbor my female neighbor was actually it seemed like she liked me and we were about to

have a kind of a date and eat together in the evening you know she was talking about cooking dinner and everything and then all the lights went off and then suddenly everybody else from the block we went downstairs they all went downstairs and everyone came out and she went into a flat and that was it so i felt i missed out on a lovely evening of friendly chatter and um fine cuisine maybe but i remember i remember remembering that my laptop was charged up so i didn't need electricity for my laptop and i thought to

myself i can go upstairs and it wasn't pitch black yet it was it was about five in the evening in the winter it was too dark to read a book but you could get around you know it wasn't like dark dark yet so i came upstairs opened the laptop up yeah i came on it was all a lie as i i've got light in the room now i can do stuff on my on my laptop i don't need the television and then i realized that the internet broadband needs electricity to work and that was so

annoying now now i've got broadband that is chargeable which is mobile broadband so i've got two broadbands so the mobile one i've got it charged in all the time now if i take it out it will last a few hours so i could actually in a power car i could sit here watching netflix for a few hours or i mean it'd be a bit weird looking at a screen in a dark room but you know i could have opened the other screens because all my stuff is charged so i could open them up and put

some light into the room so i could or listen to the radio or watch youtube so i'd have all that available so that's quite good so i kind of sorted that issue out if it happens again and they're talking about like power cuts and even organized power cuts timed power cuts which seems a bit of a strange thing and when i grew up with power cuts you know i remember late 70s even early 80s we used to get power cuts very regularly and sometimes it was exciting sometimes it really wasn't you know especially if i

was watching something on television oh that's just just i can't even think about it about oh that's just ridiculous it's always just at the time when you're about something interesting is about to happen i i'm anyway i'm getting all excited again so i'm going to go so thank you for listening for itchy arm isn't it strange how quickly see these videos go really quickly you might think oh it's really dragged it's fine but i think they go quick and the weird thing about it is sometimes i will watch a youtube video that lasts for five

minutes or six minutes thinking well i've got a couple of minutes to spare and i'll just watch that i'll just you know just quickly watch it and it just drags those five minutes seem to last ages yet my hour and 15 minutes or whatever i've been doing this for but it just spins by so quickly quickly like a windy old flappy dirt bike i don't know just so it goes very quickly like a blumange on a stick that doesn't even make sense anyway i'm going to go thank you thank you for listening remember remember to

be kind to yourself and gentle with yourself because you deserve to be happy and being gentle with yourself might be the hardest one out of both of them it might be difficult but it's worth giving it a go it's worth practicing because it seems in this day that people are less gentle than perhaps they they could be not just to other people but that's to themselves and maybe if we're more gentle to ourselves we'd be more gentle to others and i'm not talking about how we even are or act or what we say to others

it's you know inside how we're thinking our emotions so maybe be a bit more gentle with yourself give yourself a break you know just be kind to you test it out give it a go so i'm going to go thank you for listening lots of love thank you for watching bye