#853 Let me bore you to sleep - MY DADS BLACK CHAIR - Jason Newland (24th JUNE 2022)

and welcome to let me bore you to sleep. My name is Jason Newland and this is my podcast. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

It's very important that perhaps you don't listen to a recording that is supposed to help you to fall asleep when you are doing something which needs you to be awake. And my website is jasonnewland.com Yes, I hope you're well and I hope that you can take the time to just let go of all stresses and tensions from your body and your mind and to just relax yourself. Relax yourself and just let go, let go.

I sometimes think that my yawn sounds like a you know one of those old, really really old, scary horror movies in a big mansion and you know when they open the door, the front door and they open it and it creaks. I'm thinking maybe my yawn sounds like that. That was another yawn.

I can't open my mouth very wide. Just generally. I don't know if that's an unusual thing or not.

I don't know. I just I don't think it's my jaw. Maybe my jaw is I'm squeaking my chair now.

Sorry. I'm not squeaking my chair. That's a weird phrase.

I'm turning. I'm kind of fidgeting by moving from side to side in my chair. I don't know if you can hear that.

My dad used to have this chair. It was a black chair. The color is not really relevant but you know I'm just setting the scene.

He also had a carpet on the floor. It's about as visual as I'm going to get for this story. Oh you're so descriptive.

It's a black chair and there was a carpet on the floor. Wow I can visualize it now. All hail the king of visualizations.

Anyway this chair. Very comfortable. I'll give that to my dad.

He knows his way around a comfortable chair. And this was his chair. I mean I did say it was his chair but I mean it was in his house and it was his chair.

The chair that he sat on in his living room. This is a 1980 1988 to 1988 until 1990. And I stayed with him three times and and he was he was there and you know so he lived there.

This was his own house. It was only a small house but I liked it actually. I liked it a lot.

It was the kind of house that I'd like to have for myself. Very I said small. I mean it was it wasn't it wasn't small really but it wasn't like compared to what he had previous before.

You know we used to have a really big house before. But this is it was nice. There was a there's a little garden and there was nothing in it.

It was literally just a bit of grass and that was it. But there was a conservatory that was already there. So it was a conservatory extension you know to the kitchen.

The kitchen the kitchen was it was okay. It was just a small kitchen. It was a good size not small like mine but just average size.

Enough room for a a table and chairs and then you know all the cooking stuff. And then there was a living room which also had a yeah that's where the front door was in the living room. So there wasn't like a separate entrance you know not no entrance.

There wasn't like a hallway where you know then you go into the front door in a hallway. There's no hallway. There was no hallway.

There was no hey there was no hallway. I need to read a message out before I go any further. This is from Mary.

Dear Jason. Oops should I do it in her voice? Dear Jason so the other night I was listening to let me bore you to sleep and you'd introduced lots. I can't do it let's do my voice in.

I was listening to let me bore you to sleep and you'd introduced lots of changes including stopping the background music. Ey up what's he up to now I thought. I'll drop him a line.

Then I thought about it some more and decided to wait to see what the week would bring. Hmm music back deleted podcasts undeleted. Love it.

As well as sending me to sleep you continue to make me laugh. More power to your elbow Jason. You managed to meet a serious need whilst being so funny.

I don't know anyone else who could do that. Well done and great to hear you in such good form. Cheerio then as they say hereabouts.

Mary. Mori. P.S. you're doing great with the pronunciation of my name.

Thanks Muri. So yeah well I'm not going to address that because I addressed it yesterday. I talked about it yesterday in my previous recording which said which was called sorry sorry about the stain on the sheet.

Well I don't know what it's so sorry about something. Anyway my dad's wow I'm sticking to what I'm talking about. That's a first.

I'm actually being conscientious. I'm actually being professional. I've decided to stick to the conversation.

I'm not going to go into a tarrant and go off randomly conversing about a different subject. No I'm just going to stick to what I've decided to talk about. What was I saying? Yeah my dad's house.

So anyway he had this house. It wasn't I was giving you a description. Yeah so the kitchen there then the living room had the front door.

I think there was like a little um you know the front doors where you can walk out into the you know it had one of them I think like a little extension. It's like it's got this own little little room for the door for the front door. Not not not big enough to really do anything in but big enough for the to pick your letters off the floor.

I suppose it's good if you're wet and you're coming in the front door and you're wet and you you get in there and you can perhaps take your coat off and then then go into the front door you know.

But he never used he never used the front door always used the back door and the living room it was nice nice living room had a sofa telly then in the corner which is more kind of the entrance to in the kitchen in the living room he had a at a table and then he had this black chair that swiveled around and it was leather I think very comfortable and it used to not just swivel around but it also kind of rocked a bit as well good chair proper good chair it's probably still got it

somewhere and I upstairs I think it was called a mezzanine is it a mezzanine you know where the stairs kind of are open to upstairs anyway I went upstairs and then turn left was his bedroom and turn right was the spare bedroom and that's where I stayed and then next to that was the bathroom and that was it you know it's very compact perfect size really for one person and I stayed there a couple of times three times once was well actually I left the chip shop in 88 and it was about March a March

time 88 1988 and I can't remember exactly it's just a bit of a mixture but it's um probably about six months before that my dad came around the only time he ever visited actually the actual flat that I lived in and he was very upset at how I was living because I had nothing there was nothing I didn't do because I didn't have any money I didn't because I was hungry and everything and I wasn't getting really I was paid such a small tiny amount of money and I sold all everything I had the only

thing I didn't sell I'm not sure I might have even sold my bed I can't remember but I was living I probably didn't sell my bed although I might have just lived on a mattress slept on a mattress but I had no belongings pretty much maybe the television but I had no wardrobe no settee I'm not sure if I ever had a settee but it was pretty much just a bare room in my living room and that upset my dad and because I'd sold everything and he couldn't understand why and everything you know and he

said you can't you can't live like this come come and live with me and I said no you're right and um and then when I actually did I left that job I had to get out because the flat was part of the job you know not a good idea actually necessarily to live where you work I mean it's handy in some ways but in other ways it's really not I mean it's handy from a a perspective of you haven't got far to travel when you finish working but from another side apart from the fact that

you have to give it up when you leave the job it's hard to fake being ill if you live at work you can't you know especially when the front door that you let walk out of everyone can see you in the shop or it's a chip shop so they could see me leave the property or even hear me or literally physically see me downstairs because I'd have to walk through so I it's not a good idea because we all have to sometimes take a day off you know you know what I mean you're like I

just just need a day off it's just something you need to just be at home on your own and maybe you don't feel very well but you still want to go out for a walk sometimes it's good to get some fresh air in it you know I mean you know I mean fella and so it's hard to skive when all your work colleagues are there including your boss also it's almost like you've made yourself available 24 hours a day so if someone else phones you're ill you're just automatically expected to work because you're there it's

not how it works but you're here I know I'm here but I don't want to work I know you know I'm busy but you're only watching television yeah but I'm doing research I don't know what that means but so yeah that wasn't good and even I remember once so I used to lock the door I lived in a town center so you know there would be people breaking into shops and stuff at night and there's stuff weird things happening yes it's a little town but still you know still had pubs and stuff like that so

people still had a few drunk people walking around being silly so I used to lock my door from the inside now I don't think that's a crazy thing to do is it not really well they used to get annoyed because they haste that because they needed to come in so on my days off they'd wake me up because I had to get into the front door because they used to come in and that's where the used to keep stuff in the front door used to keep that's where they they basically shared the front door they'd

come in so that would be the front door wait a minute this is weird no no I'm trying to think now this is weird is it too because that the door it was I say front door is the back door but it was the side door really I'm pretty sure the side door maybe it opened and it went to I'm sure there's a separate door from my flat you went in and then there's a door to the right which is to my flat I locked that door and then I remember once they were on holiday

the the bosses and they put someone else in charge not me they got their friend to come down which is a bit annoying because I felt that I could have done it never mind we gotta let that go and so they got an adult to come down which makes sense really because I was just a kid still and they this bloke was banging on the door one morning I said oh I was ignoring it and eventually he came and he'd lost his mind because there was enough oil in the fryer and they kept the oil

cans at the bottom of the stairs were in my flat so he couldn't get in because it was locked I thought he was gonna beat me up honestly he was so angry because if the fryer he turned the fryers on he didn't look before he turned the fryers on so he didn't look at the oil first to see if there's enough oil in there and which is kind of the equivalent of sitting out on a long journey where there's no petrol stations for a hundred miles without looking to see if you've got enough petrol it's

nothing like that really but you know just saying as an example like the problem with this is with not enough oil the thing could have set alight it was quite dangerous so but anyway I remember that it's like oh and I remember thinking I can't even have a lie-in without leaving the front door open not open open but not you know there's a key but I wanted to you know there's a lock I used to lock it from the inside I mean it's I would always do that in a in a place that I lived

I'd lock it from the inside it's it's kind of standard isn't it if there's a lock you use it just like if you move into a place and like you move into a new room or new house and there's a toothbrush already there you use it you know it's just you know you make use of what's there oh that's gross so um so my dad had this black chair oh yeah um so when I left that how the that job I had to find somewhere else to live but I didn't have a job so it's

basically it's an impossible situation I told my dad and my dad said oh you know when you when you tell someone something you don't ask them for help but you just tell them your situation and wait for them to offer to help that's what I did and he said oh you move in here so I did and I had I think a black bin liner full of stuff to bring basically just a few clothes that was it and so I lived there I moved in there and it was all right he gave me food at

the time at the time he didn't really eat very he hadn't been there very long and he used the microwave and all he did is like microwaved potatoes ones that were from a tin you know ones that were already cooked so he heated those up like little boiled potatoes heat those up and then heated a pie up and some beans and heated the beans up in a microwave and that's what kind of what we'd have for dinner and that was it for a while that was and then I found myself a job in the co-op

which was just up the road from where he lived and it was like a co-op is a supermarket this is only a small supermarket but it was okay it wasn't I didn't like it but I worked there for a while and then I moved out I moved out and it was only up the road from where he lived actually so it's quite handy I used to be able to come home for lunch and make myself a sandwich and stuff and as soon as I started working you know I could start buying food and and just

yeah I don't I can't even remember if he even had I'm not sure if I paid him any rent I don't think I did and then I was earning about 60 pound a week so it's weird because I was earning that when I was 15 when I first started in a chip shop they would pay me 60 pound a week and then two years later when I was 17 nearly 18 in fact I wasn't far off I was 17 in April 18 in August I wasn't I didn't turn 17 in April because that'd be weird

that doesn't make sense and so I moved out and I moved above the chip above the I moved in above the co-op I lived there because I'd learned nothing from my experience of living in the chip shop and knowing that when I left that job I'd have to move out because the job was connected to the premises I'd learnt nothing the only difference with this is it wasn't mine this is I kind of felt that I was a bit more secure because the the person that whose flat it was was the manager of the supermarket

I thought well that's a stable job you know okay you're not working with horses but it's still a stable job and I thought you know that's okay she she offered me a room I moved in we got on okay and it was fine it didn't quite work out but I've very likely spoken about that before um one of my happiest memories of that place is she was a good cook and it was a Sunday and she offered me some food she's like it's okay thanks and I remember having a having a dinner she it was

just I think it was just the two of us and she had a cooked dinner I had my cooked dinner like a roast dinner I remember just going to sleep on the settee just falling asleep after eating my dinner and I was very relaxed felt very blissed out almost like oh this is nice I'm nice and full I've eaten some decent food and now just sitting here calm and relaxed I didn't think that to myself because I didn't really think that way but I just remember thinking oh this is nice this is ever so nice

I really am enjoying this this is lovely honestly I hope I wonder if I'm ever going to talk about this experience because it's so lovely so nice thoroughly enjoying it so another time I was going away for the day or for the night and then it turned out that I didn't stay and I came back so I just said to my landlady I said oh I'm gonna be away for the weekend but I'll be back Monday or come back Sunday or whatever in the evening it didn't didn't work out I don't know exactly what it

was I was supposed to be doing but it didn't work out so I came back early to find her friend with a man in my bed honestly worst night's sleep I've ever had I was like well you two just stay still for a few seconds I'm trying to sleep here so my dad's black chair very comfortable the second time I moved in was was it the chip the the pub worked in a pub at the end of 88 this is weird because there wasn't a huge gap really it's April and I moved out in June

and I think I moved back again in January 89 no yeah it was January 89 and I'd found a job so but I was homeless again so I had to move out of where I was living but I did find a job but it wasn't it wasn't a case of I I had to get out because of what happened there so it wasn't um I needed to get out of where I was living and my dad said I could stay with him for a little while which I did um this time I think I annoyed

him because he asked me to get out he asked me to move out after a few months I was there I think he might have been because I was working at the same place as where he worked not with him but as a place that was connected to his company it was the same company and I guess people there used to make fun of him to me to try and wind me up and I'm pretty sure they did the same to him about me and it was probably embarrassing because I wasn't very good at my

job so I'm guessing he was very embarrassed by me working there and he just didn't want to see me which is understandable I think because I was awful at what I was doing I was continuously making mistakes and um I when did I leave that job I left that job and then I did something else obviously I did something else what did I do oh yeah I left that job and I went back to working in the the factory the meter factory electric meter factory and I used to I was packing meters into boxes so

I had a a friend that was a supervisor there and I called him up to say can I get a job and he said yeah start Monday that was it so I just jacked in the job says I'm not coming back see ya we want to be ya and I left and again I think that might not have gone down well with my dad because I didn't give any notice I don't think I just said yeah I'm not coming back or did they sack me I forget I'm pretty sure I left and or it might

have happened at the same time I think he was about to sack me and I was about to leave and he says you're I'm leaving and I got there quicker quicker than him so yeah I worked and I was doing shift work another thing I might have been waking him up because I was getting up at weird hours so you know it didn't for whatever it wasn't really working so I moved I moved out and it was fine that was okay so I was living where on earth was I living the further away it gets

from oh I remember where I live in I moved in with my friend's mother that's it I moved in with my friend's mother and yeah so I was living there working in the factory and then I decided to go to Spain and live in Spain this was I was 18 at this point this is 1989 probably I don't know June time decided to move to Spain went there for the afternoon came back ran out of money and yeah then that was kind of okay brilliant and I got I basically got by by doing part-time cleaning

jobs and I got helped out I was homeless so I was sleeping on people's sofas and managed to stay in a few different places and that and so that that turned out being the best summer pretty much of my life and yeah pretty much it was because yeah I moved into wait a minute where did I move where did I live oh yeah I moved into a couple of a friend's house flat and I looked after their kid for a couple of months until she left school until it's summer holidays which is I think July

and then I ended up going to France for a week with a complete stranger who became a friend so we traveled through France and then after that I came back and didn't really didn't have a job didn't have any money and I found sort of stared stayed with people and things like that until I found myself and I used to get like little part-time cleaning jobs to get me by so I had enough to eat and you know and then they were my little savior to be honest I honestly I got no issue with cleaning

cleaning jobs I've cleaned enough toilets and enough floors and supermarkets and nightclubs and you name it in my life offices I said offices not orifices and I just they were my savior because even though it's small amount of money it was enough to get by just just minimally get by to have food to maybe pay rent you know going all the way back to then um it was I got by got through I succeeded yes yes anyway I was staying in where was I staying I ended up moving this is weird I ended up moving

into this house okay it was just a case it was chance so I get taught I move into this house and the owner of the house was one of the regular customers at the pub that I used to work and not only that his wife was there well they lived together they were married and she was always in that but she was regular in a pub and then another bloke that was always in that pub the two other people were living there as well it was like oh okay it was very strange to go from

being and I was all I was useless behind the bar I was really bad really bad I didn't know what I was doing and I can't adding up in my head was not easy and it's okay like five plus five or ten plus two you know I can do that so I'm not you know obviously it might not be genius level but you know I can do basic arithmetic but trying to add up six drinks one being $1.

99 the other one being $2.

32 it's like oh and at the same time there's music being played loads of people talking maybe some people arguing people laughing and the person sort of being very impatient and maybe talking at me while I'm trying to add it up no why they didn't just have a till that added the stuff up that makes sense anyway it's uh I yeah I left there but I moved into this address this house and I don't know which order what order things worked in because I can't remember which was the process but I got a job oh

I had cleaning jobs yeah and then I got a job as a canvasser double glazing canvasser knocking on people's doors trying to convince them to have a quotation for new windows or conservatory or something like that or doors it was weird because I finally found something that I was good at because basically I was just talking rubbish I was just talking absolute rubbish and they were laughing some people some people got annoyed go away some people just sat stood there and just laughing at some of the ridiculous things I was coming out with and it

was in a way it was the making of me because I mean you know about being um about getting all serious it wasn't an enjoyable time in my life leaving school that whole period or being at school to be fair but um leaving school that was it was a difficult time those first three years were hard and I in the 89 the summer when I was looking after that kid I didn't have any money I got a part-time job in the supermarket cleaning which was opposite where I lived so that was handy because they seemed

to think that it was enough for me to be get fed and to have somewhere to sleep which was in the living room on a makeup bed thing a camper bed and I'd already done that previously for a year when I was 15 and they like no I also need food I need money you need money you know I can't just live yeah you're giving me food but I need to I need to also not only maybe to choose some food that I want to eat but also I needed money I need you know just

to just to get things deodorant stuff like that I mean I was smelly man I was so smelly anyway so I found that job and I got that job as a as a canvasser but before that in that summer just a few months previous I started to have this little voice in my head saying I need to write I need to write stuff down I'm not doing you know what I meant like I need to write things down I need to start writing down my thoughts writing down how I'm feeling I need to start keeping

a a journal or I need to write a book or something I don't know I just felt need to write I need to write something and I don't really know why if I'm honest I just had this feeling and well eventually I did I sort of after a couple of weeks of thinking this I did I went out and bought myself a pad it's a refill pad 200 pages a good you know I was going to say an expensive one but a good branded one wasn't a cheap one that fell apart it was quite sturdy

and a couple of pens I just started writing that was it just started writing this is whatever and I just that's what I started doing I started writing stuff down writing thoughts down ideas feelings and I took that book with me all through France I was writing in it while I was in France and also after France I had that same book when I became a canvasser I used to write in it so the whole of the summer 89 I used to write in that book that journal and then I lost it I left it

in a place I lived when I moved to London and I just couldn't believe I didn't bring it with me and it just I never got it back I never got it back so that was gone forever and and that plus to be an account the canvasser knocking on people's doors it opened up my personality I don't know what it was it allowed me it gave me some kind of a self-esteem boost because for the first time I say for the first time I think I was quite good at frying fish actually there was there

was some customers that would only eat if I cooked it for them they would only buy the you know they're like I want Jason to cook it and which wasn't really hard wasn't really big problem because I was the only one there but it was I didn't I didn't feel any good I didn't feel as if I was any good at the job so that that was a thing you know and technically I probably was good at the job in the factory putting meters in boxes I was good at it you know I did it

I was careful yeah maybe I broke a few meters every now and then but generally I was conscientious and made sure they were all the right things and I didn't really have many problems but it wasn't something I was particularly pleased at being good at so I didn't necessarily have there's nothing wrong with what I was doing I mean I was grateful for having the job and it was the best paid job that I had at that time it was a proper job wasn't low paid wasn't a high paid but it was average paid job

you know if I'd wanted to I could have lived in a flat you know got my own flat got my own home to rent rent that is not buy obviously obviously and then I could have had I could have got driving lessons I could have had a car you know I could have lived a life on my salary in the factory because it was a decent salary plus I did overtime so I don't know how much I was earning 700 pound a month maybe I know it's not a lot of money now but it was

I can't remember but I was doing all right it was a case of like what shall I spend my money on because I was just living in a crappy little room and I didn't need to that's the thing but I I knew I kind of knew how I was so I just you know well yeah I just I didn't really I didn't almost didn't trust myself you know so I didn't I didn't I didn't to be I didn't even think about it all I did was work and go home work and go home but if

you know I guess I didn't want to be in that town I didn't like the town didn't like being there I knew I wanted to get away which I did I did get away but when I got the count the canvassing job keep going to go to say counselling when I got the canvassing job it's then that I started to have fun for the first time as an adult or for the first time since I left school like fun I don't mean the occasional bit of fun I'm talking about like day in day out feeling

good having positivity feeling good about myself self-esteem you know it's like it was a regular thing and it was the first time in my entire life really that I had this sense of I don't know if it was belonging but I was doing something I was able to do something I was good at something I was earning fairly good money for doing and yeah I felt good I enjoyed I enjoyed doing it I mean I didn't spend at the time for that that summer so I was doing this work as a canvasser I'd work from

I don't know 4 4 30 till 7 or 4 5 6 till 7 4 till 7 4 30 7 30 something like that those were the hours we'd do about three hours a day but we'd work for we'd be we'd be collecting for I think three different companies so I'd be getting £120 a week plus plus bonuses you know so I think one I'm sure I got about I earned over £200 one week £230 or £240 because we get bonuses for people if they sold they sold the windows we get bonus if they managed to

get in the house to give the presentation I didn't understand it all really but you know I just enjoyed it and so suddenly I had more money than I ever had before I wasn't spending it on anything I was living in a house that was very relaxed they were all drinking and just doing their own thing it was it was very most of the time it was it was actually quite a very easy place to live it's a big house lots of people living there but they were all friends I just did my own thing

I couldn't go drinking with them because they were still drinking in the pub that I was that I'd left so you know they did their own thing I just did mine and I was just I spent that summer just chilling out at work and then I'd go and go for a walk maybe have a drink during the day I'd hang out with some friends especially in the summertime like during the actual really nice weather and then I'd go to work so I'd be hanging around my friends on the beach maybe drinking and then we'd go

to then I'd go to work at four and I had a whale of a time I just enjoyed myself I wasn't doing anything particularly exciting exciting but it was nice it was just relaxing and I didn't even watch any television for the whole of the summer I didn't have a television in my room I had but I did have there was um I could have bought one wasn't that wasn't an issue I just didn't bother there was a there was a living room downstairs that I could use to watch television there was a family room

though but they were out a lot of the time just in the pubs and stuff so they weren't they weren't really I think they might have had their own another room with the tv as well I'm not sure well there was um a record player in the room that I was living in and there was some albums the kind of albums I used to listen to those and it was I don't know if they had their own albums or I bought the album I can't remember but it's Luther Vandross I think Luther Vandross not Luther

Vandross Luther Vandross or is it Luther Vandross I'm not sure I didn't see yeah it was those there were good times it's almost like I was getting to I'd been waiting to have some fun and I wasn't still wasn't having fun still wasn't in a way of like with girls or in nightclubs or drinking or any in pubs wasn't wasn't doing any of that and but I was having fun as far as just chilling out relaxing enjoying the summer working three hours a day oh come on you can't argue with that can you you know

three hours a day and also sometimes we do a Saturday as well Saturday morning so that's overtime so it's um that was a good time but then the company the main company who we used to get paid from they decided to put their money into advertising on the radio instead of using us so we all lost our jobs literally instantly and I didn't know what to do I didn't know what to do at this time at this point I was living in a house with a friend and because I'd lost my job I didn't have

any money coming in I had to sort of make a decision what to do next I decided to move to London which I did and then so I lived there until I think it was the March 1990 and I worked just did some temporary agency work very low paid £1.

80 an hour stuff and it's really weird I went from doing all right into suddenly earning like £90 a week again it was just oh man so I'm going backwards I'm going backwards man the only problem with going backwards is you keep banging into things so that's why going backwards is dangerous so I'm on the phone I'm in London and I'm on the phone to a friend of mine no this is the I spoke to a friend and he said and he was the one that I used to work with doing the canvassing and he

said oh we started doing it again I said what he said yeah started doing it again £120 a week £150 a week and yeah we started doing it £427 I said oh he said why don't you give Jeff a call I said oh I don't know not sure if he'd want me back anyway I called Jeff who was the boss he was the boss of the of the canvassing um he was a dodgy old salesman he was funny and he said yeah it would start Monday I said but it's only Thursday he said well it's

good that you can still tell the day the day it is you've still got your faculties in it's a bit rude anyway um so I moved well what I did is I phoned my dad and I said look uh I've got a job in back in the town you know where we lived and it's I've got now doing the canvassing again they're giving me a job and he said well you can stay here for a while so I did I moved back into his house that was the the time that we got on the best

I think it was see when I moved in there we both we both we both knew it was temporary I mean before I think he wasn't sure if I was going to try and stay there forever because I was still a kid wasn't I but now that I was 18 over 18 I was I knew it was temporary he knew it was temporary and also his wife he was dating they weren't married then he spent his weekends with her at her house so I didn't I didn't hardly see him it worked out perfectly so I'd

have the the weekends the house for myself at the weekends and I got a girlfriend and I started dating you know and she'd come around and yeah it was all things were cool and I just remember that chair was there that was the staple that was the I mean the house was identical if you'd have if you took a picture of it that's almost how it stayed nothing changed the chairs the table everything was exactly the same for the three or four years that he lived there and I mean basically I lived there until he

moved out he got he bought himself a new house and I helped move and everything and I lived in that house for a little while because I had another job back in the I got a job doing the oh yeah it was a factory that I had working with meters the electric meters but this time it was night shift and it wasn't packing stuff it was actually more of the like electrical stuff more on the conveyor belt side of things so it was a bit more not advanced but a little bit more interesting than what

I was doing before and yeah so I did that I liked that job I did I did I liked that job and I gave up the canvas in because I couldn't do both jobs even though it was lovely to have that money coming in two jobs you know it was too much so I was getting up at three two o'clock whatever in the afternoon but going to bed about seven getting up at two and then going to work then getting back and then having an hour and then going to work again so it was yeah

it was just uh inconsistent in not inconsistent incomprehensible no indoors no it just wasn't um upholdable that's not a word is it so yeah so I ended up I left the canvassing and I'll be honest I didn't enjoy the canvassing anymore I think it's probably because I was doing too much I couldn't just enjoy it and yeah so I gave that up and I carried on just with the full-time job but then so I enjoyed working nights they changed the shift and they took me off nights me and a few other people and at this

point I had already left so I'd moved out of my dad's house the new house had this little studio apartment there was a former holiday home it was like a like a holiday apartment thing it was just um studio as in little kitchen bathroom living room and the bed all in one place you know and I liked it it was nice actually and they changed the shift so I was doing double shift two to ten then six to two alternate weeks during the day and I was never any good for me didn't never like that

shift night shift perfect or any just one shift one set you know ideally late so two to ten I'd have been fine with early mornings wasn't a good didn't really enjoy early mornings back then so and they started talking about making redundancies so I just left I figured well they're gonna they're gonna sack me anyway so you know they're gonna get rid of me so I might as well just leave first and I just went through a bit of a weird period I just didn't go in well it turned out that I said I moved

into a different place after that it turned out I was living opposite one of my supervisors and I wasn't even on the list they said no we only get rid of you why would we get rid of you you're fun to be around and I okay so I because I got on really well with the staff you know the supervisors especially her she used to have a little giggle and I don't know I just I guess I didn't feel very secure and as I oh so the thing is I didn't like the shifts but there's

always a chance of getting back on night shift I guess I don't know but the place closed down so it's nearly every place I've worked for closed chip shop closed or you know they they're gone the oh it's windy in here today it's windy I know where you are what the weather's like but yeah we get a bit of wind in the summer 24th of June is today Friday 24th 2022 yeah that's it anyway that black chair it's just I just want to say his chair was very comfortable that's it and I used to like

to swivel around in it like go from right to left and yeah that was kind of my tea little little parts of my teenage years was in that chair from the age of 17 to 20 yeah so I'm gonna go thank you for listening remember to be kind to yourself remember to be gentle with yourself lots of love bye