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Good morning, afternoon and evening. My name is Jason Newland and this is Let People You Call Sleep. Hello there, how are you doing today? Are you well? I hope you are.
So yeah, please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. And just to let you know, my very sexy website is jasonnewland.com so you can stream and download my recordings on there. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Last night, before I went to bed, I pulled out one of my books and it's called the Oxford Handbook of Hypnosis. And it's about 800 pages. It's a big old thing.
Yeah. It's not hardback. I mean, it did come in hardback, but that was a lot more expensive.
So I got, although it's paperback, it's sturdy, you know. But yeah, it's a big old thing. And I was looking through it.
It's not gonna be an easy read. It's really not. I mean, it's proper, full on academic writings based.
And it just is, it's almost like just looking through it. It's all based on research, on dissertations and on people's, you know, on research has been done research papers. See, yeah.
I don't know about that. I don't know if, if I've got a few really quite academic books, lots of academic books, but I got a few really hypnosis ones that are very big and textbooky, but not in a, in a, in a, I had to explain it is a lot of them are textbooks. But these are just, they look big.
I got one, two, three, four, all with a good six, 700 pages in each one. Five in stack, five, five, yeah, five, maybe six even. It's like, wow.
And I look at them, so there's, I don't know. I'm looking at them now as I'm talking to you. And this, the clinical hit, what was that one? Actually, if I just put my glasses on, I'll be able to see a lot more, but I don't know where my glasses are.
Oh, there they are behind me. All right. Yeah, I can see with my glasses on.
Clinic, handbook of clinical hypnosis. It's weird because this handbook, you need both hands to hold it. That's what she said.
Okay. Okay. I said it.
And the, the handbook of contemporary clinical hypnosis, then I got handbook of clinical hypnosis. No, that's not the same one. Don't tell me I bought the same book twice.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no. Oops. Yeah, it's the same book.
That's not the first time I've done that either. It's the same book, the same authors, but it's one's hardback, one's not hardback, two completely different colors. Damn you.
So there might be different editions. So I guess one might have more in there or different, but that's annoying because I was really excited about having both of those. Not really.
No wonder they sounded so similar. Because they are exactly well. Even the authors are in a different order.
Honestly, if you, if you looked at those, if you was looking at that bookcase where I'm looking at, even though it's got the same title, one title is big and you can see easy. The other one is all different. It's all it's white encased in black, red, red, like hardback book.
The other one's green. It can be more different. It's different color, different design.
Everything's different about it. Even the logo of the publishing company is, I can see it's the same, but it's not the same. It's completely different.
It's the same design, but it's a different color. That's annoying. I mean, it's not that important.
Really. I mean, you know, generally it's not particularly, it's not important at all. I mean, why, why, why, why am I mentioning it? But it's, it's annoyed me now.
It's annoyed me now. I'll have forgotten about it by the end of the recording. Oh dear.
So I've literally just got up. Well, not literally just got up because we're eight minutes into the recording and I was up over eight minutes ago. I mean, I didn't, I didn't, didn't come in here and just start recording instantly.
The second I was awake, I didn't want to open my eyes, stretch and say, welcome to jasonnewland.com. Although I remember I mentioned this. Remember once I was in the, um, park and I actually said out loud, Alexa, what's the time? I was like, wow, seriously. I'm not even joking.
I genuinely said, Alexa, what's the time? Because I was so used to doing it here. Um, I had to turn Alexa off cause you can't, you can't, the amount of programs that would just say the word Alexa and it'd come on. Or if I mentioned it when I was making a recording, it'd come on and like, oh, yeah, annoying.
Oh, I don't know where it is. I think it's in the same place. It always was.
A good idea. But I think, um, the fact, you know, it just needs to, I think it needs, first of all, they need to be only to respond to a particular voice. So, um, if someone else says Alexa in a video or, you know, in a movie or a TV show or something, then Alexa doesn't come on and activate.
Um, I don't know, there must be a, you know, that, that's something they need to sort of maybe sort out. So other people can't activate it for fun. And other people don't have access to it.
So that your friends can't come into your house and just say, Alexa play last song played, you know, and then like you start hearing, I'm a Barbie girl in a Barbie world. And everyone knows that that's what I was listening to. 10 minutes ago, and I feel silly.
Oh, what was I dreaming about? I don't know. I can't remember. I mean, I must have been dreaming about something.
But I don't recall exactly what. Dreams. Dreams are strange, aren't they? What was the movie that was? Oh, yeah.
I watched this movie. Dr. Strange, the new Dr. Strange movie. And it is strange.
It's a it's the first, not the first, but the, the pre, the pre prelude, I guess, towards before this happened before this movie was the, the Spider Man movie. Where Dr. Strange was prominent in that one as well. And that that kind of was the it wasn't the first mention of the multiverse, but it was the it was the because you know, with the old the Avengers, the last two Avengers movies.
A lot of it was I don't say made up because obviously, it's all made up, but it is I don't think the Avengers movies are necessarily based on fact. Really? Okay, yeah, fair enough. So you know, the the second anyway, the second that this movie with Dr. Strange was very strange movie.
Why did I mention Dr. Oh, yeah, there's a thing in it where they basically say that I think it's in this is this or something else. No, it was this. That when you dream, that's you dreaming of a multiverse.
As you dreaming, and in each in each multiverse, which is like another universe, you're there. This isn't like an original concept. I mean, this has been used quite often and thought of and stuff, you know, for a long time.
But the idea is you're in that universe. And you're you. But you're a different version of you, you know, you, there might be millions of different universes.
And you can be every different version of yourself possible. And the idea is, when you dream this, this is in the movie, I'm not saying this is real, because it's a movie. When you dream in that movie, they said, that's you dreaming about your version of yourself in another in one of the multiverses.
Where you're yourself, but you're living a different life. So it might be one way you're living a life that you prefer, maybe or whatever. So and I just, I know it's just the movie.
I know that. However, I started thinking about that. I started thinking about some of the dreams that I have.
And if that was actually, you know, imagine if that was real, the this was like a multi, a multiverse. And that's actually really happening to me somewhere else in another universe. I hope not.
I don't necessarily. I would say that a lot of my dreams are quite neutral, actually. I don't I don't mind the idea of a multiverse.
It doesn't doesn't doesn't chew me to my bones. I don't mind the idea of it. I don't you know, I sometimes I thought, kind of going down that line of dreams and maybe a dream, we dream and we kind of make a world that we go to eventually.
And that world is made up, we kind of make that world ourself in our dreams. Like we build that world that we're going to go to in the future. But we build it in our dreams.
And depending upon what kind of dreams you have, because our dreams are affected by what we do during the day, they're affected by our mental states, they're affected by all kinds of things, you know, a lot of it based on us. Not just us though, but you know, not just us though, other people too. And so that that is something that we're building.
Now, if that was true, knowing what we know about, you know, psychology and basic stuff like that, said a bit like Roger Moore, psychology. My name is Bond, James Bond. Now give me a nice gin and tonic.
That's nice. Yes. Yes, that's right.
And I never had a gin and tonic wouldn't even know what it was. Well, I do know what it is. It's gin and tonic.
But I don't know. I've never had one. Never had.
I'm not even sure if I've ever had gin. No, I had ginseng, ginseng, ginseng, ginseng, ginseng, ginseng, ginseng. Is it ginseng? But I think I've had that.
Oh, I got an itchy belly. So I, the idea of creating. And I said with psychology, we know what if you know that what you do during the day is going to perhaps have a an effect on the dreams we have.
So if you're able to manipulate the dreams, I mean, obviously, if you listen to me, you have nice dreams, lovely, calm, happy dreams. And that's good. So if we can design a control those dreams and not control them as they're happening, but contribute positively to them.
And the idea of building a world. The only reason I say that is because, well, I have to say something, don't I? The only reason I say it is because I revisit dreams, revisit whole scenarios. I revisit buildings.
And when I say that, I mean, buildings I've never been in. Places I've never been to that I know almost intimately, intimately from a dream, because I've been there so often in the dreams. It's kind of weird.
Okay, this is weird, weird. Now, I've never really, I have, but not, not really. I mean, you know, I kind of have.
What am I saying? I have done, kept a dream log of my dreams. I've done it in the past. I mean, I probably did it for 20 years.
But it was only really, if I had a particularly strong, memorable dream, I'd write it down. Because when I was, I used to go for a period when I'd, I'd wake up. That happened quite often.
You know, most days I'd wake up, in fact, then I'd go to work or whatever. And I'd write down in my diary or my journal, my book, my, what did I call them? Did I call it my journal? It wasn't really a diary, but it was, but it wasn't. They're just my books.
I can't believe I haven't got them. I'd love to be able to just, I didn't used to look through them at all. I had no interest, had them with me for years.
And I didn't ever look back at, you know, what I was, or rarely did I look back at what I'd written years earlier. But I'd quite like to now, if you know what I mean, I'd like to, I'd like to see how much have changed from 30 years ago. As a person, maybe based on maybe, maybe, maybe something that I'd said.
So if I, let's say a statement that I've written out that I am completely disagree with now. And I'm like, wow, did I really say that? Blimey, what was going on with me then for me to say something like that? You know, so, but that's all gone now. So, um, I mean, I do remember some things.
Sometimes things come back that I'd completely forgotten about. Happened the other day. I can't remember what it was now.
No, I can't remember, but it was just like this memory of something. It's like, wow, I forgot about that. It was, it was pretty much a neutral memory.
It wasn't particularly good or anything. It just, it was just something that happened. It's like, oh, wow.
I forgot about that UFO landing on my garden. It was like, yeah. Oh, wow, wow, wow.
So yeah. Yeah, man. Yeah.
You get me in it, eh? In it, in it, in it, in it. I'm still having me ready break every day, which is, if you don't know what ready break is, it's, it's, I mean, it's a break. It's like break for breakfast, ready, I guess, for getting it ready.
I don't know. I think the ready is like ready for the day ahead. So it's a breakfast that gets you ready for the day ahead.
Ready break. And I've been eating this since I was a kid. I say a kid, I don't, I might have had it when I was little.
But I did have it when I was little, but I only can remember as far back as eight. And I think we had ready break in the winter, because it was warm. It's, you know, hot milk.
And then a little bit with sugar. And I think back then I'd have a cup of tea. But now I drink coffee.
I have a coffee every morning with my breakfast. It's most often it's the only cup of coffee I have in the day. Sometimes I'll have two, but generally it's one.
Now, I haven't had any breakfast yet. I haven't had a coffee. All I've had is a drink of water.
And I could definitely eat right now. I could definitely you know, I'm looking, I'm looking forward to having my breakfast. It's only half an hour away.
So it's not, it's not a biggie. I'm not like, oh, I've got to eat. It's never been that long since I ate.
I look at my belly and I'm like, okay, I can afford to miss a meal. It's not a big deal. Honestly, I'm gonna be all right.
You know, I'm hungry. I can wait half an hour. I can wait half an hour.
So it's Saturday, blimey. It is, it's Saturday, the 25th of June 2022. And it's early man.
5.16 in the morning. Now for months and months and months and months, I've been waking up early. At four o'clock, sometimes five, sometimes six, sometimes two, but generally four o'clock in the morning is about an average time that I wake up.
And I've been going to bed early in the evening as well. And I don't even know why. I mean, technically, well, you know, if I'm going to bed early, then I'm going to wake up early.
But yeah. But why four o'clock? You know? Why? And I say four, I mean, it's not, it was, I guess it wasn't four, it was half four. It's 17 minutes past five.
And I mean, I'm 30 minutes into this recording. And I was only up for, I don't know, 10 minutes before I started the recording. So we're talking 430 440.
There's still four. I mean, if it says 4am, I don't care if it's one minute past or 59 minutes past, it's still 4am. That's all I'm noticing is the four.
The big, big four. So wow, that's early. Early.
And the thing is, I quite like getting up early. I mean, I look outside and it's light. It's, you know, it's light outside at this time of day.
At this time of the year, particularly. I mean, I think it starts to get light about 330 in the morning. And I didn't realize this, I didn't know that there was some parts of the world that don't, I know that, you know, different parts of the world have different seasons and stuff.
Maybe don't have exactly the same seasons as we do in England. But I was kind of surprised at how some places don't have anything like what we have here. And they don't have, like in Thailand.
Well, when I was where I stayed, they didn't have. Well, I asked and she's the person I spoke to said, I asked her and she said this was true that they don't have late nights when it's still light at night, late. She said, oh, it's dark, it's dark by six or seven all year round.
Even though it's summer. Now, I don't know. I mean, there was a there was always going to be well, there's miscommunication between us.
Oh, my stomach's rumbling today. And there was miscommunication between us, which would be different languages. But I couldn't get my head around that.
Because it was a summer there when I went over there. And it's like, it's June, May, May. And here.
It's still okay, it's not light, light, but it's still not dark at 10 in the evening. Not not dark, dark. And I mean, it's in the winter, it's darker at five in the evening than it is now at 10 in the evening.
You know that that light when it's still it's not light, but it's not dark. It's kind of you know, I mean, does that make sense? Do it make sense? Or you think it might do? But you're not sure. I think it makes sense.
It's light, light, but not light, not light, light, but not dark, dark. And the mornings start really, really early. Now.
I wasn't really sure. I mean, the mornings I used to walk around at three, sometimes two or three in the morning, when I was out there. But because there was so much light, anyway, like with street lights, there's a lot of activity still at that time in the morning.
It didn't, it felt more like daytime. And because it was warm. It's just because also, living here in England, I you know, even in the summer, it's not necessarily going to be warm at night.
I mean, it is, we do have, you know, fairly few nights to, you know, don't necessarily get cold nights in the summer. But you know, if you generally, if you're walking around at three in the morning, which is probably not a great idea to do anyway. But if you, if you was out at three in the morning, you might need a jumper on.
At least, you know, it might not be a temperature where you're warm. It might be. But not, you wouldn't depend upon that you'd like, well, I mean, even during the day in the summer, sometimes you need a jumper on.
But I'm thinking in the peak, which is probably July, June, July is the peak of summer. And we have had some nice days for the last three or four days. It's been lovely.
And we're coming to the end of the month is the 25th. And then next month will be, that'll be it. And in August, we have nice weather in August, sometimes even September.
But the main two months of summer is another June and July. Because I think at the end of this month is the longest day. So the days start to get shorter.
So, you know, by the time we get to August, it's kind of getting dark by about eight o'clock, maybe nine, 830, you know, it's stark outside. And in September, it'll pretty much be dark by about seven in the evening. In October, it'll be dark by six.
October, it'll be dark by five in the evening, in the afternoon days. In December, and January, it might be dark by four. It's you know, I mean, it's ridiculous.
It's dark light in the afternoon. But maybe, maybe not four, maybe five, half four, five. But it's, you know, it's definitely not daylight anymore.
The day's gone. The sun shines, the sun, you know, is is getting dark. Sometimes from 330 onwards, it just starts to get dark.
Now, some people listen to this might think what's going on? Because it's so different from what you're used to. Because it's, it really is because having four seasons that are very well, they all kind of mixed together, they all you know, but they are different seasons. But none of them last long.
Like the winter. And a lot of people like to about a winter and it's cold. Yeah, it's supposed to be cold.
Well, how old are you? I'm 74. Yeah. So if you lived here all your life, man and boy, man and boy, I've lived here.
So that's 74 years. You're not used to it yet. Why are you not prepared? You know, I'll be there 52 years nearly.
I don't bother really moaning about the weather about the cold. Because it's supposed to be cold. It's winter.
That's what happens. You know, it's like, oh, it's windy. Yeah.
It's supposed to be windy. It's raining. Yeah, it's supposed to be raining.
It's cold. Yeah, it's winter. It's supposed to be cold.
It was cold last year. It's gonna be cold next year. It was cold 10 years ago.
It's gonna be cold in 10 years time. It's cold. It's winter.
It's normal. This country's obsessed with the weather. And I'm obsessed with the weather.
I was born obsessed. That's a genetic fault in my brain. I'm obsessed with the weather.
I can talk about the weather. nonstop for years. I can just talk about the weather.
And most English people can born into it. If you if you're a bus stop, and if you ever think to yourself, oh, I don't know what to say. I'm sure I don't know what to say to people.
And you go to walk to the bus stop, and there's someone already standing at the bus stop. And you think, Oh, no, what if they want to talk to me? Talk about the weather. That's probably going to be the conversation anyway.
So no one ever has to be shy about talking to a stranger. Yeah, in a safe situation. Because you can talk about the weather.
I imagine you can do that anywhere in the world. Maybe I thought maybe not. Perhaps it's a taboo subject in some parts of the globe.
But here, talking about the weather is, is, it's almost the most exciting thing you could ever do. And every time I talk about the weather, especially if it's with a stranger at a bus stop, I get lift from it. I do.
I get Oh, that was nice. I got to talk about my favourite subject to someone else who also it's their favourite subject. Because English people love to moan, love to complain.
And the weather gives us something to complain about. Every day. It's too hot.
It's too cold. It's too windy. Every day, there's a different subject available.
It's still the same subject, but it's a different, you know, because our weather changes. We can get through three seasons in a day. Easily.
Hot, and it's cold. It's windy. And just, you know, imagine being a tree.
How could you? How could anyone imagine being a tree? But I'm just thinking those poor things. They it's like, there was, I don't know if there was a time when the seasons were correct. You know, they'd have this four seasons at the right time.
And everything worked perfectly. But now poor tree has to go like it doesn't know where it is. It's basking in the sun.
Next minute is, you know, the wind is coming trying to blow the leaves off. It's like it's not time for the leaves to be blown off. It's only June.
You know, that's the leaf being blown off. That's November time. But no, no, no.
And then it's freezing. It's cold. It's cold.
It's cold. Poor trees don't know where they stand. Well, I should do because they never move.
I mean, they should know where they stand, shouldn't they? I mean, if I only stood in one place, he said, Oh, where are you standing? I thought I'm here. I'm standing here. Wow.
I think trees are just lazy. Very lazy. That's why they grow.
They say that, don't they? You have to keep moving. Otherwise, you grow roots. Although some people think growing roots is a good thing.
So it's Yeah, I guess roots could also mean family and stuff like that. You grow roots if you stay in one place. If you become stagnant, you end up with a family.
You end up getting married, having children. But if you keep moving, keep it fresh, keep moving. You don't have that.
So maybe it's better to be staying still sometimes. I'm becoming stagnant. Oh, that's probably the wrong word.
Did you just say that people that get married and have children and raise families are stagnant? No, I didn't. I'm just talking about um, well, I did, but I didn't, you know, I didn't mean it. Oh, dear.
Stagnant. What a weird name. That's a weird word.
Stagnant. I'm feeling rather stagnant today, Rufus. Oh, okay.
Really? Come on then, Pauline. Come on. Let's go for a little walk then, shall we? I don't feel like going for a walk, Rufus.
Why do you keep saying my name? There's only us two here. There's no reason to say your name ever. Unless you're calling me, I suppose.
But there's nobody else in here, so you don't have to say my name during a conversation when it's only me and you here. What do you mean, Rufus? See, you don't have to do that. I mean, if you are from that part of the country that does that, you still just stop it.
There's no need. But I'd like to say your name. And surely I was told at a self-improvement course that people's favourite word is their own name, and they feel good when they hear it.
So I thought if I keep saying Rufus, you'll feel good hearing that name being said. Well, perhaps I would if it was actually my name. I think it's nice to hear people remember a name, but I don't remember names.
You tell me your name and literally it disappears. The words disappear. As soon as you say the words, they just float in the air and I don't hear them.
So what's your name? Oh, my name's Rufus. And that's it. That's all I hear.
And it's not and I am listening. I really am listening. But I don't seem to be able to absorb names.
For me, it's like, okay, if I'm if you're going to be in my life, if I'm not gonna be able to get rid of you, and you're sticking around for the long term, as a friend or whatever, then eventually I'll learn your name. But right now, I just met you. And nothing that happens in the next 24 hours, no matter how interesting or wonderful, is going to require me to know your name.
But I will learn it if I have to. There was someone I met recently. And you know, I said to my friend, I met someone, you know, we got on really well, spent a few days together.
And he said, What's her name? I don't know. I don't know what her name is. He said, What do you mean you don't know what her name is? I said, I don't know.
I didn't ask her. Because I don't. I don't care what people's names are.
I just doesn't. I don't care what people's names are. I don't care what people's pasts are.
I don't care what people's favourite colour is, what their favourite food is. I don't know, I just don't. I'm only interested in how they are now with me.
And if we get on, if we get on with someone, then that's all that really matters. And some people would say, Oh, if you don't want to, if you're not interested in, if you're not interested in me, then I don't want to be with someone that's not interested in me. There's different types of interest, isn't there? You know, I can be with someone, I can be friends or in a relationship with someone and not have the slightest interest in anything that they've ever done.
But think the world of them. And also, because I'm focusing on how they are now, I'm focusing on their well being now, making sure that they're okay. And that's, that's my focus on how they are now.
In this moment, not everything that happened to them in their life. And if they want me to know something, they'll tell me. And that's probably not, maybe not the greatest way to do it, because you know, I haven't had much success with that process.
But genuinely, I'm not bothered. You know, I don't want to sit down and ask 1000 questions to someone that I've just met. If something comes up in a conversation, then cool.
You know, let's say we're talking about horses. We're having a lovely, lovely lunch, and we're talking about horses. And she mentions that she used to ride horses.
And I'm thinking, well, that's it. That explains that thing. Okay, that's that.
And she's so I used to where I used to ride horses, I used to maybe one medals ride horses and I'm like, okay. And I might be interested in what she's saying. And I might ask more questions.
Okay. I can't think of anything interesting to ask. But I'm just saying that, you know, in that situation, I might sort of talk about horses with her.
I might say, what was his name? It was a girl. So why? Why do you have to make a big deal about the sex of the horse? You know, we can have an argument now. But you know, I'll ask Oh, I might.
But I might not. So okay. I do struggle to get interested in other people's lives.
Unless I can help them. If I can help someone, I think I'm a little bit of a savior in me. Is it savior? What's the right word? Wanted to save people.
I say a little bit as a big bit of me in there. And that's what I'm interested in what someone's saying. No, I don't want to just hear horrible things.
And you know, I don't want to hear just stories of people where they need help. It's good to I love hearing people's good luck and good fortune and success that interests me. So someone's got a pay rise or someone's got a sold the house and they're really happy or they got a new house or they've met someone lovely and they're really happy and they want to get married or Yeah, that that's interesting.
Because they're happy. And I'm interested in things that stuff like that, that's good. Someone's good fortune, whether they've won the lottery, or whether they've, they've started a new business, or they're writing a book, or whatever it might be, or things are going to plan and you know, good luck to good luck to anybody.
You know, I'm very much that way minded. I love to see people being successful. And I don't mean financially, necessarily, I just just generally, someone doing well, someone getting a good, maybe having some medical tests and getting some positive, happy results.
That stuff is brilliant. I love that stuff. Or maybe I got a friend and he's he's really into sort of reptiles, stuff like that.
So he's, you know, seeing is happy, because he's got some, he bought a new case the other day, a big new tank. And he was happy as Larry. And that's nice to see.
It's just nice to see people that are happy the big for a reason. I mean, it's nice to see people happy for no reason as well. But I don't know, it's just, it's nice.
It's nice to see someone like smiling and like, Oh, look, I've got this. I mean, even if it's, I got a friend who's really into their clothes, and he's never happier than when he's bought a new pair of shoes or something. Good for you.
Good for him. He loves his shoes. He's bought a new pair of shoes and he's happy.
He's buzzing. It's probably as happy as he's gonna get. It's you know, it's the thing that gives him the most pleasure.
It might not be the thing that gives him the most pleasure. But you know what I mean? I mean, just in general life. It's, it's nice to see there's a certain a certain feeling arises in me when I see that when I'm around that.
And there's a genuineness. Yeah, that's pretty well I kicks it's real. When I'm quite like real, quite like real.
And even if it's not particularly enjoyable to be around, it's still real. But you know, I prefer nice real when someone's doing well. That's that's a preference.
It's nice. Yeah. So I've been an advocate for a long time, not not publicly, although I mentioned it, but just in my own mind, I'm an advocate of people doing what they love doing.
And I use train spotters as an example of something or stamp collecting or something like that, which a lot of people would laugh at, but why would you do that? It's pointless, whatever. My argument is this, you probably won't find a happier person than a train spotter, or someone that's collecting stamps, and they're looking through their albums or whatever, I don't know, and they're doing it. And I use those two examples of something my whole life has been laughed at.
Not not me, but people have laughed at train spotters and like it's a silly thing to do. Well, doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. And we could learn so much from somebody who's happy, who's doing something that makes them happy.
And I bet you they look forward to, you know, some people maybe they're working all week and look forward to that Saturday morning, when they go to the train station. Sorry. And stand with their friends drinking out of flasks, coffee and stuff.
Tea, keep themselves warm. And wearing a hat. Taking photographs of the trains.
Okay, I don't understand why they do it. Right. But I admire them.
Because they're doing something that makes them happy. I mean, it looks like the most pointless thing in the world. It really does.
But guarantee they're happier than me. And I admire that. And I kind of want what they've got.
Maybe I do have what they've got. It's just a different thing. It's this stuff.
You know, they've got something to look forward to. And they they're happy. There might be some train spotters listening to this.
And trust me, I will laugh at what I laugh at everybody. And I'm not laughing at the person. I don't see the point in what most people do.
I don't see the point in what I do most of the time. So don't worry about it. But I do think that we can learn a lot from and I don't mean in an experimental way, like, you know, not dissecting.
What I mean is to have something that you love doing. Something that you look forward to doing. Something that you look back to in the past, and you feel good remembering.
Again, I'm gonna laugh. I'm sorry, I can't say it out loud about laughing. But as you remember that, seeing that special train for the first time.
I'm sorry, I can't I can't help it. I'm, I'm just not into trains. But I tell you why.
For those train spotters, trains are different now to how they used to be. When I was a kid, I mean, I think they still had trains with coal and that when I was a kid. And there was a certain smell at the train stations that you don't get anymore.
And the trains were old. You know, I was born in 70, 1970, not 1870. And I used to travel on trains when I was a little kid.
So three, three, four years old. And I remember them. I went on a few journeys.
And they were old, you know, they very different to how they are now. Back then, I quite like to be honest, just time travel, just revisit the train station, just have a look at the trains. And a little have that smell.
Just remind me if my memory is real or not. We know memories are real. But if it was how how correct I am with my memory of those trains.
Anyway, so I wish I was a train spotter. That's the going to be the title of this recording. So I want to go thank you very much for listening.
Remember to be kind to yourself because you deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself. Lots of love.
Bye
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