#838 Let me bore you to sleep - IM HOME - Jason Newland (28th MAY 2022)

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So how are you getting on? Are you all right? Are you well? Oh that's nice. So today is Saturday the 28th of May 2022. It's 10 36 in the a.m. and I am at home in my living room at my desk speaking into my microphone.

And yes, I'm back from Tayland or Thayland and I got back two days ago, two days ago, two, I think, I don't know, Thursday. I got back Thursday. And yeah, Thursday late afternoon, half three, half four, something like that.

And yeah, I was away for, it wasn't two, it wasn't even two weeks. So, but I had to come, well, I didn't have to come back, but I decided to come home early. So I changed the flight and came back.

I left, no, did I go home Friday? You know what, I'm not even sure. I'm losing track. I'm losing track.

I think I might have set off on Wednesday and I got back on Thursday. But for some reason, I think I might have got home yesterday. I'm not even sure.

I'm honestly, I'm a bit, what's it, what do you call it? It's like my words are not working today. Jet lagged or whatever. So I left Thailand, I left the hotel at 12.30 in the afternoon.

And I arrived back the next day in the evening, well, late afternoon. So I guess I must have left on Wednesday and I got back on Thursday. And then yesterday I was, I spent quite a lot of time in bed yesterday.

And then today I'm, I'm still not feeling a hundred percent, but I'm kind of pretty much back to whatever. But I remember Thursday, oh wow, that feeling of I was too tired to sleep. Very strange.

It was, I've been awake for, I've been traveling like 30 hours or something it took to get home. Because with the time difference and everything, it was really, really, really long time. And, you know, I remember when I got back to London Heathrow airport, I was too tired to travel.

I just didn't, you know, I had to get another train or another two trains in order to get home. So I had to travel across London to get to Liverpool street. And then another hour or so on the, on the train to get back to where I live and then waited for a bus for about 15, 20 minutes to get me home.

And then there's the walk. It's not a long walk, 15 minute walk. And just weird, just thought I was so tired, so tired.

And getting home, it was weird because I get into the flat and there's a weird smell in there. And I'm thinking this place smells, which is probably how you would, you know, a natural reaction to a smell, I guess, isn't it? But it's like, is this how my home smells to other people who haven't been here before? Because it's not a nice smell. And I'm not a stinky person, not really.

And I joke about being stinky, but I'm not, you know, I'm fairly standard. I have a standard stink, you know, I'm not nothing special, nothing outstanding. It's just, just normal human smell, I think.

I'm not, not really. And I'm thinking, is it the carpet? Is it, is this something? Because it wasn't food, because before I left, I made sure that everything was clear, clear, you know, in a sense of nothing left in the kitchen, nothing left out. All the rubbish gone, I didn't leave any rubbish in the flat, didn't leave any washing up apart from one bowl that I forgot.

But that just had water in and that was okay. It wasn't too bad. So there's nothing in here to sort of go off, if you know what I mean.

Yet there was a smell. I don't know where it comes from. Unless that's how I smell to other people, wherever I go.

Will it explain why I got a seat to myself on the plane? I got a whole cabin to myself. I didn't, none of that's true. I don't know.

It's strange. But yeah, I'm still tired, still tired. I need another day or two, I think.

Not just to recover from the travel, but to recover from the trip, you know, the holiday, the, you know, it's a very hot experience. I'm not really suited for warm, warm, warm weather constantly. And I think part of the reason for that, and probably a huge reason is because I was born here in England, where it's really hot.

And it's really, really hot. Even rarer than just being warm. You know, we have, we have nice weather.

I mean, you know, we have some lovely weather sometimes. But that heat that I experienced in Thailand was something I'd never experienced before. It, you know, even with the breeze, it was like standing in front of a, an oven, an open oven.

Just, you know, it's like, this isn't that pleasant, to be honest. And something I was quite surprised about is the Thai, the Thai people that I met, were the ones that I talked about the weather with. They said they didn't like the heat either.

Not when it was really hot. And I said, I thought you'd be used to it. She said, you, the person said, are you used to the cold? Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah. Huh? Huh? Huh? I said, what do you mean? She said, that's what it's like for us. The heat is like the cold for you.

You moan about the cold. We moan about the heat. Now she'd met quite a few English people.

So she'd knew about the, the tradition of English people moaning about the weather. Which is true. I mean, maybe not everywhere, not everyone, of course, but everywhere that I've ever lived, moaning about the weather or complaining about the weather, or just mentioning the weather is a standard thing that happens in England.

It's, it's a hereditary thing. It's almost part of our shared consciousness. We moan about the weather.

Oh, isn't it cold? Isn't it hot? Oh, it's raining again. I'm going to get wet. Yeah, that's what rain does.

Because it's water. Everything's a surprise. Oh, it's windy.

I mean, I've lived here for 50, nearly 52 years. Kind of should have been kind of used to it by now. I mean, it's very rare, really, that there's any like spectacular weather.

Occasionally. And we had one hurricane in 1980. Was it 1988? Or was it 87? Yeah, end of 87.

I think it was October time, 87. And in my lifetime, that's the only like hurricane that we've had. Although we've had many, many strong winds of nearly equal, but not quite.

I think the hurricane of 87 wasn't so much about the weather as the surprise of it. Not knowing it was going to come and just overnight completely took everyone by surprise. That was the thing, really.

Because there was no, no one could prepare for it. You know, if you know, if you know that it's going to be really, really, really strong winds, then there's certain things we could do. You know, if you've got a, if you've got loose paneling in your fence, then you can maybe do something about it before the weather, you know, or you can, I don't know.

I'm trying to think of practical things. I can't think of anything necessarily. Or perhaps, you know, if you had stuff in the garden, you take it out inside, you know, loose things like trees and cars and stuff.

I don't know, just this is sort of a degree of preparation can be made. Just like, you know, if you know, it's going to rain really, really hard, then you take maybe taking the garden furniture. I don't have any garden furniture.

I'm pretending I'm a normal adult. When I talk about this stuff, I'm pretending that I'm living a normal life and I've got things like children and family and friends and garden furniture and trees and cars and, you know, things that the general population have. None of those things that I have.

I have a television and I've got some books and I've got some socks. Yeah, I've got a few things, but I don't have any of those family kind of stuff, you know, like kids. Maybe I should get married.

Maybe one day, maybe. Oh, so, yeah. Am I glad to be back? Not really.

Kind of. Not sure. Not sure.

Genuinely not sure. Now, I did my last Let Me Boy To Sleep, I talked about Thailand and I've been there for two days, three days or whatever, and I just talked roughly about the journey there and a few little things. It lasted over two hours, I think, that podcast.

I'm not going to talk too much about Thailand at the moment. I don't want to go in too deep about what happened because, yeah, there's a few things I want to mention, but I'm going to do it gradually over time. Yeah.

Gradual. I did get called a few things when I was over there. Buffalo, that's one thing.

It was very strange to be tall. For the first time in my life, I was above average height. Wherever I went, well, not everywhere.

I mean, if I was around the Thai people, because, of course, there's tall Thai men and tall Thai women as well. But on average, those, and I spent quite a bit of time with Thai people. On average, I had some pictures took as well, and I look tall and I'm not tall.

I'm five foot eight. I'm below the average height in my country. The average height, I would say, is about 5'10".

I'm 5'8", so I'm a short, short ass, really, but not short, short, you know? But I'm never, I'm rarely, hardly ever am I taller than the people I'm around. Nearly everybody's taller than me, you know, in the people that I meet and see and, you know, day-to-day life. And I'm used to it, you know, it's just how it's always been all my whole life.

I was always, I was very short at school. Even when I reached my final height, I remember thinking, is this it? Is this it? I've waited for, I don't know, 16, 17 years just to be tall. You know, fingers crossed, I want to be six foot.

No, it didn't happen. And you might be, you might think, well, why would you expect to be taller? Well, the reason is because my brothers are taller. I've got three brothers, they're all taller than me.

The youngest one, I don't know, he's probably about 5'10". The one a bit older than me is about six foot, and the one other, he's about 6'5". 6'4", 6'5".

Maybe the other one's 6'1". So yeah, they're all a lot taller than me. I mean, 6'5 is a hell of a lot taller than me, isn't it? I mean, I'm up to his, probably his shoulders, if that.

And I just thought, why can't I be tall? I've got cousins that are like 6'7". Six, you know, really, really tall, like first cousins. And that's all to do with the family, like my dad, my dad's, I don't know, he's taller, well, he's shrunk because he's older now, he's 70s.

So he's shrunk, which is normal, everyone shrinks in height, generally. But he, I don't mean he's shrunk, like he's not now like four foot, he's not he's not a dwarf or anything. Although when he grew his beard, he looked a little bit like a dwarf.

But nice, I liked him with his beard. He, I don't know how tall he is. I really don't know, 5'10", 5'11".

I mean, I don't think he was six foot, he was below six foot. But then his brothers are all way taller, like 6'3", 6'5", 6'6", or whatever. Even his, even his sister, one of his sisters, my auntie, she's taller than me.

So it's like, so when they had kids, they had tall kids. So I'm the shortest out of all the men in the world. I'm the shortest man that ever existed.

I wouldn't mind it if it was made up in other ways, you know, if like nature sort of said, okay, you're short, so we'll give you a bigger hands, you know, whatever. But no, nope, nope, nope. It seemed to go the other way.

Ain't fair. But when I was in Thailand, I didn't necessarily feel tall, but I didn't feel short. But then the other tourists, there's a lot of tall people that were, so I kind of felt pretty back to normal then.

But then when I was around the Thai people, let's say the group of them and talking and stuff, I'm not sure I really noticed it, if I'm honest, until I saw the photograph and I was head and shoulders above some of them. I was like, wow, okay, not head and shoulders, but I was taller and I looked huge. Now, not just tall, but wide and fat.

And I realized that it wasn't an optical illusion. I really am that fat. So that was a, I don't have many photographs taken of me by other people.

Well, I never have photographs really, generally, unless it's like a family occasion, a Christmas or a birthday, you know, and someone takes a photograph, a wedding or a funeral and never quite understood why people take photographs at funerals. I think that's very strange. I really do.

I think it's a very strange thing to do. I've got some building work going on in the background now. How lovely.

I'm not sure if you can hear it on the microphone or not. On the microphone, in the microphone. So yeah, it feels quite nice to be tall or just it was, I didn't feel tall.

I just didn't feel short. But saying that, I'll be, I don't really care. I don't, I don't really take much notice of that, unless someone really tall pops along, you know.

Oh, wow. You know, someone like six foot six, seven, seven foot, whatever. And I just thought, oh, if I'm around a six foot person, I'm so used to being around people of that height that I don't really notice how much shorter I am.

Yeah. But I think I need to be losing some weight, because I'm just too big now. I look like a walrus or a buffalo.

I just, I'm just too big. What was weird, though, is, because I went out there with just two sets of clothes, one that I was wearing and one that was in the bag. It's a very, very, a light traveling bag, you know, that I could just take onto the plane.

Although I didn't realize that I'm the only person, I'm one of the only people that actually seems to understand what hand luggage is. It's exactly that something you could just carry with you in your hand. That's not what people were taking onto the plane.

Some people had two suitcases, which meant there was not, it was quite difficult to fit it all into the, you know, the carrier spaces at the top above the seats. Big suitcases, okay, big, but too big. It's not, that's not hand luggage.

Hand luggage is something you can carry in a little, in a bag, you know, it's not a suitcase. I know I don't make the rules, but that's just how I feel. That's how I really feel.

It's weird. Just traveling is weird. I mean, one, one thing I would say, though, is if you have, well, I, okay, I'll talk about myself, I, one of my biggest fears, one of my big fears in life is, or biggest phobias, not phobia, I don't know what you want to call it, fears is flying.

Flying in a plane. As a passenger. And I've been on, what, one, two, three, four, four planes in the past.

So I've been on two holidays where I was on a plane in the past. One was to Spain for the day. I went to Spain for the afternoon back in 1988.

And then I went to Bulgaria in 2002. I think it was March, February, March 2002. And then, yeah, I've not been on a plane since then.

And they were both quite short journeys. Bulgaria a bit further away than Spain, but it's not a long journey. Now, Thailand is a long journey, even when it's broken up.

Each, even the journey home was longer, but the journey there was at least over six hours on each plane. So it's two planes, one from Heathrow to Dubai, and then from Dubai to Thailand, Bangkok. Now, I thought you said you weren't going to talk about Thailand.

I'm not, I'm just talking about planes. I, what I found is a way to combat a fear of flying is to put yourself on a really, really long flight, one after another. So, you know, if you go into Australia or somewhere really long way away, or Thailand, where you've got two flights each, I mean, coming back, one of them was nearly eight hours and one was seven hours.

So it's a longer journey coming back. Not quite sure why, but that's just the way it worked out. And I guess a different route, they took a different route, yeah.

To spend that much time in the air, it breaks the fear. So it breaks it down to the only things to be fearful of is no longer in the air, but the takeoff and the landing. And the more of those you do, the easier that becomes.

Now, I was surprised at this because before it, you know, I was on very short flights, and I was, to be honest, nervous the whole time before in the past. Now, this time, well, I'm going to say something that's possibly not true, but it's how I seem to experience it. It felt impossible, almost impossible to keep that certain feeling for the whole journey.

So that fear that I had, I just couldn't keep it. It wasn't possible. I think it's very, very difficult to hold on to any particular feeling for seven hours, or six hours.

I'm not saying it's impossible. I did just, I did say it's impossible, didn't I? But I'm not saying it's impossible in every situation. But the way, I don't know, the way my mind works anyway, it's almost like it just wouldn't allow me to do it.

Because, you know, you start thinking about other things. You start noticing other things. Maybe getting annoyed with other passengers.

Just, you know, there was someone sitting in front of me, and I was watching, I was watching a movie on the screen in front of me, but it was at the back of their seat. And then they leaned back, and the screen came too close to me. And I couldn't really focus very well on the screen.

Because I wear glasses, and it was just, it was just at the, just about the right distance for me to really focus on the screen. And then it just, it was only a few inches back, and it was a little bit, oh, a bit too close. And I had nothing to hit them with.

No, I wouldn't. Spilled drink over one of the passengers next to me. I was like, wow.

He didn't make a fuss. He was like really nice about it. He was like, don't worry about it.

And the, the member of staff that was serving the food said, I was always, there's always one. But she wasn't, not, not sarcastically, but I said, I was so many messages. I was always, there's always one.

She didn't just say, oh, there's always one that, you know, rudely. She was, unless she was being rude, and I just was too dumb to realise. She, yeah, she was alright.

And yeah, I apologised to him. He was like, I don't worry about it. But if he had made a fuss, or had she made a fuss, like the person that was serving the food to me, I'd have just pointed out, well, you're serving me a drink with no top.

She had a top on. I'm not talking about her wearing clothes. I'm talking about a top on, a lid rather, yeah, on the drink.

In a shaky environment. I mean, yeah, it's like a, a mild earthquake going on the whole time, and moving around. And it's like, that's, I'd have thought they'd have little, if, a good thing to do, you know what little, little toddlers have, you know, those drinks that have a little, a little mouthpiece that they can suck the drink out of.

I forget what they call them now. But one of those would have been good. Or something with a straw, or something like that.

But no, it's all like, oh, it's like little plastic cups, seafood cups, or plastic glasses, you know, they're not cups, they are cups, but you know, anyway. And then they just, it's like, everything's shaking everywhere. I'm amazed that they can do the job.

It's, I mean, it's a very, it's got a lot of skills, those cabin workers that work on the planes, to be able to do all the things that they do, under that environment, and under the, the, the time pressures that they have, because they've got to get all the food out by a certain time. And it's amazing, very skillful. It's, if I had a hat on, I would, I would take it off.

But I'd say I wouldn't wear a hat indoors. Why would you wear a hat indoors? I haven't worn a hat for years. I did buy one from Dubai, actually.

The cheap, like baseball cap kind of thing. And it was too small, really. I don't know if it, I don't think it was even adjustable.

Just, you know, elastic, or didn't have one of those plastic things inside that you could adjust. So it wasn't really suited for me. So I left in Thailand, never wore it.

Never wore it, not once. Other than when I, apart from when I did wear it. But that was just when I got there and looked in the mirror, and I thought, this is nice.

But unfortunately, there's no, it's cutting off the blood circulation in my head. Probably wasn't, but it felt quite tight. So I decided to exaggerate the feeling to myself.

Yes. So what I found is, by being on the plane for such a long time, the fear I had seemed to just get squashed. And then as the journey progressed, I was getting more and more tired.

And the more tired I was, the more I realized I didn't have the energy to worry. And that was quite a new experience as well, because I've always generally in life, found the energy to worry about stuff. I'm kind of a little bit of a worrier sometimes, or maybe not worry so much.

And there are times I worry, but it's normal. We all humans worry at times, don't we? If it's something you're concerned about, and it's important to you, or it might be about another person. But I'm definitely a thinker.

I do like to, well, I think about stuff. I put a lot of thought into just, I think, I'm a thinker. Now, I just assumed everybody was, but it doesn't seem to be the case.

And I've spent some time with someone in Thailand, and they kept saying, you're thinking again, aren't you? Yeah, that's what the brain's for. What's wrong with, why is thinking a bad thing? To me, yeah, okay, worrying is generally not particularly useful or helpful. However, you know, if you're a human being, and someone you care about is in trouble, or maybe you've got trouble yourself, it's natural to worry about stuff.

To some extent, not like to the point of illness, but you know, it's just human beings, the idea of like, oh, never need to worry about a thing ever again. Well, no, I quite, I want to worry about stuff sometimes, you know, like with my dad, or when my parents got COVID, I was worried about them. I want to be worried about them.

I don't want to not care. You know, I want to be able to care about stuff like that. You know, just a human being, I don't want to be cold and uncaring.

Why would anyone want to be like that? But then, you know, there's the unnecessary worrying. That's the thing that I've had a few issues with over the years. A few issues, I'm working on it gently, and very, very slowly working on it.

But anyway, back to the flight, I was very surprised. Now, I don't know if this would work for everyone. So I'm not, it's not a therapy session.

But I'm just really surprised at the idea of confronting that particular issue that I had. Now, I wasn't doing it for that reason. I didn't book a trip to Thailand to confront my issues with flying.

That was 100% not. If anything, that was a reason not to go to Thailand. And the main reason I went away, apart from this, I've wanted to go for a while.

But that wasn't the only reason. One of the main reasons is because I'd been having a recurrence of anxiety and stuff. And I felt the need, I needed to get away somewhere.

I needed to get away from my home, get away from my life, everyone I know. Just take, take a break, you know, take a step back, but a big step away from everything. And I think as far as different scenery, I think Thailand is a pretty good, you know, option.

Couldn't get more different from here. I mean, I know there's lots of countries I could have gone to, you know, I've gone to India, I've gone to perhaps any country really is going to be different from here. But to be so different, especially weather wise, language wise, food wise, smell wise, different smell, not a bad smell, just a different kind of smell.

Different type of air, different customs, different money, different, different things in the shops, different shops, different sounds, a different feeling. It was a different feeling when I was out there. And I miss it a little bit, if I'm honest, a little bit.

I could have quite liked to have brought a little bit of that back with me. Because although I didn't necessarily relax completely, when I was out there, I did relax a bit. And I think it's, I found it a little bit difficult to just let go.

When I had to sort of be aware of my surroundings, you know, being a foreigner, as I was, and just needing to be, I don't know, just conscious of what I was doing, where I was going, how I was behaving, there's certain things that you need to be a little bit careful of, I guess, wherever you go in the world. It was also strange walking around with money. I didn't have a lot of money, but I had more money on me in cash than I would normally have.

Because most of the time, I just use a debit card and I don't take money out. But because I'd be going out for the day, I didn't know how much I'd need. So I'd take, so I'd literally have all my money on me at some point in my bag.

So I had to be careful, I had to make sure that I didn't lose that bag. Because other times, when I went to change money, I had to take my passport. Now I had to make sure that I didn't lose my passport.

Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to leave the country, wouldn't be able to come back here. Replacing a passport, I don't think is a very easy process. So, you know, I had to be very careful of that.

And, you know, just make sure I didn't lose my phone. I mean, okay, a phone is replaceable. But well, it's not actually because I can't afford to replace the iPhone.

It's, you know, it's, it's, they're too expensive to get another one now. But, you know, technically, you know, stuff like that is replaceable. But the money's not replaceable.

You know, if I lost, if I lost my bag or someone, I put it down and someone went in there or whatever, you know, I could, my answer is I had either part of the reason I left early is because I ran out of money. So I didn't have much really to go with. And it wasn't about having money.

It wasn't about spending lots of money because I don't have a lot of money to spend. It was about getting away. It's about just, I just so wanted to go to Thailand.

I don't even know why really. It's partly because it's a Buddhist country. And I'm a Buddhist, kind of, not much of a Buddhist, but you know, that is my kind of my religion, if they if you want to call it that.

I don't really think of it as a religion. It is a religion, I know. But in my mind, I think of it more as a a philosophy, like more of a philosophy of life.

Yeah. I'm more into the teachings than the practices. You know, some of the, the, like the Pali Canon, which is part of Buddhist scriptures.

There's just some amazing stuff there. Like really, you know, amazing, life changing, you know, sometimes. For me, when I've read stuff in the past, it's like blown me away.

Oh, like, changed how I thought about stuff. But that's, that same stuff's happened reading and books on Zen, Taoism, Christianity, Hinduism, or, you know, not just self help books as well, just sometimes just a sentence. Even some psychotherapy books I've read, just a sentence.

It's like, oh, wow. That's why I like books. One of the reasons that I think books are so amazing is they can be life changing.

One sentence, one paragraph, you know, can actually transform or maybe change the direction of our lives. It's a bit dramatic, isn't it? That's a bit dramatic. Say something silly now.

That was too serious. So yeah, it's, um, I'll have a drink. I didn't have one chocolate bar the whole time I was out there.

Too hot for chocolate. How about that? Too hot for chocolate. Now, I never thought I'd say those words.

I never thought those words would ever come out of my mouth. And if I'd ever heard those words, I'm pretty sure I'd have laughed in your face. It's never too hot for chocolate.

Well, yep, it can be. And I had no chocolate. That's not true.

Wait a minute. I took a, I think on the very, very first day I bought a Snickers. I think it was at the airport.

Either in Dubai or in Thailand, I bought a Snickers bar. And I had, I didn't eat it until I got to the hotel room. And I had half of it.

In fact, it was one of the double ones, you know, the double bars, Snickers, like extra big one. And I had half of one of them. And it was melted.

It was melting at that point. And now, I just left it and I didn't touch the rest of it and just chucked it away after a couple of days. I just didn't, didn't want it.

Didn't want chocolate. Even ice cream. I bought four ice lollies and I put them in the freezer compartment of the fridge that was in the room, in the hotel room.

And I didn't even eat those. But I did drink Coke and water and beer. Now, I don't drink alcohol when I'm here in England.

When I'm here, I say that like I'm a global traveler. Well, whenever I'm in England, I rarely drink. But when I'm abroad, most of the time.

No, when I'm here, when I'm at home, I haven't really drunk alcohol regularly for six years, probably now. Just went off it just not really interested. But because I was out and I was spending time with a lady, and we were just, I suppose, not dating, but just, you know, hanging out really.

So we go to restaurants and bars and stuff like that. Or go for walks on the beach. And, you know, it wasn't necessarily romantic, just we're just gone really well.

So we're just hanging out. And I was drinking. But I never drunk more than five bottles of lager.

And it wasn't it wasn't strong lager. I think it's like Chang or something it was called. And it was fairly weak.

It wasn't, it wasn't, you know, strong at all. But what I noticed, and I realized this very, very early is, I think when I had my very first drink, so I got there on a Saturday. I left on a Friday from England got there Saturday evening about nine or 10 o'clock.

Yeah, it was gone 10 in the evening. And I went for a walk, I had a shower and then I went for a walk. And everything was closed.

By the time I left, it was gone 11. Not everything but the like the normal places, you know, the Burger King, the one with the big sign outside that I could see for about a mile away, open 24 hours, that was closed. You know, I went in there, they said no, we're closed now.

Okay, well, clearly not in a row then not 24 hours all at one time. So why have a sign like that? Anyway, McDonald's was closed. Hooters was closed.

That's an American bar. So I just thought, Oh, okay. I ended up getting something from 7-Eleven.

Now 7-Eleven, I don't know if if there exist anywhere else in the world. But they're everywhere. They're absolutely everywhere.

Just in that one area that I was, there must be about 27-Elevens. Every street seems to have one. So I went in there open, I think 24 hours.

So that's the opposite. So they're supposed to be open at seven in the morning to 11 at night. That was the 7-Eleven, wasn't it? But they seem to be open all the time.

That's what I was told. And, and unlike here, and other places, you know, I've seen stuff on YouTube, in different countries, Western countries, English speaking countries, where people go into stores and refuse to put a mask on. You know, they just stand and have arguments and stuff.

Not in Thailand. It don't happen over there. You wouldn't get away with it.

And basically, you go, you go into 7-Eleven, you get shouted at by the staff. If you haven't got a mask on, mask or get out. Put your mask on, and you have to test the temperature as well.

Every pretty much every shop, bar, restaurant has the thermometer thing, you know, you just put your hand in front of it, and it goes, and it's like, I was 36.6 degrees or whatever. I think I went up to 36. I think it was between 36.4 and 36.7. I seem to sort of go between during my stay.

And I saw one bloke there, and he was 37.2. Which is quite hot, I think. So I didn't say anything, but I'm thinking surely it should let off an alarm if it's too high. So I'm not quite sure what the high level is, where it's because there's no point checking people's temperatures, is on comes in, it's like 45 degrees.

And it's just go did you did like normal and that's walking that defeats the object, doesn't it? But I saw quite often I heard as well, when I was walking past those places, get out. Mask, put your mask on. It's not please.

It's like do it now put a mask on or you don't enter. So everybody is wearing a mask when they go into these places. It's not an option.

It's mandatory. It's they don't they don't mess around. They don't have to wear a mask in the street.

But nearly everybody is. So I kind of I'd wear it on my chin. Sometimes I'd wear it, put it over my face.

Sometimes I wouldn't. If if I'm walking towards a place and there's like food being served in a on the street, I put a mask over my face, you know, hygiene reasons. So I didn't have to smell the food.

No joking. And if I walked, because there wasn't much in the way of pavements or sidewalks, you know, it's very much roads and a little bit of the side sometimes. So if there was a cluster of people and they all had masks on walking towards me, or it's a shop for people with my I just put a mask on.

So I kind of tried to just fit in. And or if there was someone I was trying to avoid. Yeah, so I mask wearing is very big out there.

Very, very big. It's weird, though, because coming back. So in Thailand, some some foreigners, I say foreigners, I'm talking about myself, you know, holiday people, some blatantly just didn't wear a mask in the airport, although they're supposed to.

And so the occasional one didn't. I wore my mask. Sometimes I'd take it off and I'd forget.

I think I went to the toilet in Dubai, I think it was. And I came out. And, you know, there's too much to remember.

Wipe, put your trousers back on, wash your hands. And make sure there's no food in between my teeth, you know, what it is so many things to remember, like, can I get it in the right order? That's the first thing. And then I walked out without a mask on because I just forgot.

And I'm confronted, we're not confronted, but there's like seven police all standing in a group. One of them looked at me. And that triggered my memory about the mask because they were all wearing masks at all.

They didn't say anything to me, I just put my mask on. But it's, you know, Thailand, airport, every member of staff wearing a mask, and most of the people traveling, the occasional one that just doesn't care, you know, whether or not they get pulled up, I don't know. If they get in trouble or told off, I'm not sure.

If they went to 711, they would. Perhaps the airport needs to employ those staff. And then Dubai on the plane had to wear a mask the whole journey, apart from when we ate.

Because you can't eat through a mask. So I don't know why they didn't just make the masks edible. As I make the food in the shape of a mask, and just hand you a new master, you put that on, you can eat that.

So that could be like your dessert. That's our cheese sandwich. That's nice.

Yeah. Chicken curry, you know, just a different mask for each one. That would make sense.

In my mind, that would make sense. As the journey went by, I noticed coming back, the more and more people just forgot to put the mask back on. I think genuinely through tiredness just forgot.

And it's a long time to wear a mask, though. You know, 30 hours or whatever. Long time.

And my ears are still sore from because not just the mask, I wear glasses as well. So I had the strap on around my glasses, you know, the strap for the for the mask. But then my glasses are pressing on that little bit of wire, digging into my ears.

What was my point in telling you this? I don't know. Oh, yeah. Thailand airport.

Masks, masks, masks. Plane, masks, masks, masks. Dubai airport, masks.

But really, you know, very serious. The airplane, the next plane, mask, masks. Get to Heathrow.

No one's wearing a mask. I mean, none of the staff. I think maybe some of them, but I saw hardly any members of staff at Heathrow wearing a mask.

And very few customers. I mean, there were some some customers that were wearing them, but minority, you know, maybe 10%. I didn't do a survey.

And I wasn't there for too long to be able to count everyone. But I'm just saying it's a small percentage. I was just like a different world.

And it really felt like almost like this country doesn't care. They don't care about it anymore. Yeah, it's just, I don't want to talk about the thing.

But it's, you know, it's, it's, it's just amazing. The difference in attitude. And yeah, just just really strange.

And the weird thing is, because I've been wearing a mask pretty much for almost solidly for two weeks, nearly. Including every time I went in and out of the hotel. So basically, I left the hotel room, I put the mask on, because all the cleaners are wearing them.

All the hotel staff were wearing masks. So I wanted to show respect to them, even though I didn't have to wear a mask. Plenty of people didn't.

You know, the customers and stuff. But I wanted to just show a bit of respect towards the staff. So I did that.

And I just ended up as soon as I got outside, I was in the street. And, you know, pretty much every Thai person had a mask on. Or Yeah, well, maybe they had it on their chin.

And you know, they'd be wearing a mask. And I'd say, probably 100% of Thai people were wearing masks. Or at least had it on, you know, they might not have been wearing it, but they might have been at the chin.

Or maybe they had it in their hand. But generally, I think everyone pretty much had a mask. So I kind of got used to wearing one.

And it's strange. So it's a bit surreal to be home. Bit surreal.

And I'm not really sure what to do now. Because when I was away, I really started to think, Oh, I'm missing this. I'm missing making podcasts.

And I want to get back and I want to get, you know, back into making podcasts. And not just the Let Me Boy To Sleep ones, but the hypnosis stuff. And I want to get back into that.

And, you know, get back into it properly. And not that I ever got out of it, just I haven't done anything for a couple of weeks, really. And but when I got home, I guess I was so tired, physically, completely drained.

I couldn't do anything when I got back. And then yesterday, I was asleep on and off nearly all day. And I woke up today, quite early.

But I'm going to be up all night because I'm watching boxing tonight, which starts at two in the morning. So I'll be going to bed for a few hours later, in order to be awake. So that's a choice.

And it's something that I want to do, because it's a fight I want to watch. It's in America being so it's, you know, on early hours of the morning that the actual main fight might not be on until about four, maybe even five. But I'm looking forward to it because it's one of my favorite fighters.

It's old Tank Davis against Rolo, Rolo, Rolo, something. Yeah. Both undefeated.

So yeah, I'll talk a bit more about some of the stuff that happened in Thailand. Yeah, again, another time. It's I'm trying to decide how much to tell you.

And it's not because anything weird happened, because it really didn't. I can't believe how, how unadventurous I am. It's ridiculous.

Honestly. I thought, you know, the things I could have did, but I didn't. I think I mentioned it, I cracked my rib during a massage, like a genuine Thai massage.

And I was on my stomach. And he pushed down on the left side and the rib cracked. Like you could hear it loud.

And yeah, very, very, very, very painful. And it limited any kind of physical activity that I might want to engage in, which didn't go very down very well. I just yeah, nothing went down really through.

Just, you know, just I could walk around. And even getting up out of a chair was painful. But, you know, I had to sleep on my own.

And I had to sleep on one side, because I couldn't sleep on my left side. And just taking breathing, it hurts when I breathe, because it's the rib and it's obviously just above the just above the lung. It's weird, because I think I damaged my toe twice on the first night.

Is this this steps everywhere? I mentioned that in my last podcast, it is literally the steps I've fallen down about 2020 slopes and steps and ramps, if not more. I mean, even the other day, I was in a restaurant. It was really nice at this little pizza, just a big enough for one person.

And so we're just sitting there. I thought I might have had a couple of beers. In fact, I might not have even drunk anything that day just had coke and water.

And I just went for a walk. So I wanted to feed I got some stuff from 711. Meat is like just like ham or something.

And I was going to feed the dogs because there's wild, I say wild, just dogs roaming around in Thailand, just on the beach and just walking around and stuff. So I wanted to feed some of the dogs. So I went over.

And it was a little prom area, you know, there's a beach. And there's some people on the beach and this dog was following this lady around. So I thought, well, it's not I think it was her dog.

But clearly no, you know, he likes a dog is probably there every day. She maybe she's there every day. And he wouldn't the dog wouldn't come to me.

And there's a few of the dogs. So I said to her, do you want to do you want to give this meat to the dog? She said, Oh, she got up and walked over. And I stepped forward and I fell because there was a ramp that there was a big step that was probably about two foot tall.

Didn't even know I was there. And she caught me. I mean, she didn't catch me like, in some kind of ballet move for ice dancing.

She wasn't holding me above her head. But she stopped me from just enough for me to get catch my own foot in. Because I could have really hurt myself.

It happened again the other day. A few days earlier, I was walking down this alleyway, just to get through to the beach. And so there's motorbikes constantly coming from all directions.

When you cross the road, you have to look up. Seriously, you don't know where the bike's going to come from. And so a car's coming or motorbike.

So I stepped back to get out of the way. But in this one particular place, someone's put a crate in front of the step. So I knew there was a step there.

That wasn't an issue. But they put a crate in front of the steps or tripped over the crate. And I fell back.

And two people from this shop ran out because I didn't just fall back. I wobbled. And tripped and tripped again and tripped again.

And trying to get nothing to grab hold of. And they both ran out and caught me. Like pushed pushed against me.

So I didn't fall down. I mean, I don't I hadn't fallen. So I was still pretty much upright.

So I didn't have to catch my whole weight. But just correct me. So I was like a weeble.

Like weebles wobble, but they don't fall down. Well, I was about to fall down. But I wobbled for a bit first.

And they caught me. Again, I could have gone through that window. It was just like really just I was like, thank you.

Oh, go away, fat man. So okay, okay. I was saying thank you.

So yeah, we know just was what do you want to go away? Because we can't see the sun when you're there. So I'm not that big. Yes, you are.

Buffalo. Okay, so enough of that. It's honestly I've tripped.

I fell over at Paddington station in London, looking for the sign for Heathrow. And I fell down three steps. Literally fell down.

I was I was on my bum. So I sprained my wrist on my wrist, my ankle on that day. Luckily, it wasn't badly sprained, which is good.

It was just a bit sore. Again, off the plane. In Thailand, I fell down because there was a there was a step into a step and I fell down the step.

Still there. I can't get up. No one's noticed.

Help. So yeah, lots of steps and slopes. I'm back.

I'm back now. I don't know what to do. I mean, I don't know.

I need to maybe I just need another day or so and then I can get my head back to to helping people or you know, at least attempting to help people. Ah, and relax. Right.

That's it for me. I think for one day for today. I'm gonna go.

I'm gonna go. And need to get some shopping inside. That's what I do need to do.

So I'm gonna do that. Yeah, yeah, I need to get some shopping in. So I need to maybe order a delivery or something.

So thank you for listening. Remember, remember to be kind to yourself because you deserve to be happy. Do something nice for yourself.

And try, give it a go. Try and just be a bit more gentle towards yourself. You know, when you think about things and maybe you know, you like being a bit harsh towards yourself and maybe you're judging yourself or whatever.

Just maybe go a little bit easy, like soften it a bit. Just a little bit just to see maybe a lot soften things. My my kind of thought is this.

Would you say that to a small child? If you think about a small child that you absolutely adore, or you know, could be your child, could be grandchild, could be your niece, nephew, could be your friend's child. It might even just be a complete stranger, like a strange a child in the street, you know, you're walking through the shopping center. Would you walk up to a three year old, four year old child and say that sentence that you just said to yourself? Now my theory behind this is, if it's not acceptable to say it to a small child, why is it acceptable to say it to yourself? In other words, be more gentle and be kinder to yourself.

So I'm going to go, thank you, lots of love. Bye.