#850 Let me bore you to sleep - ITS NOT EASY BEING A SEX SYMBOL - Jason Newland (18th JUNE 2022)

Hello and welcome to let me bore you to sleep. My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes and I want to put that there so I've got my lap my iPad and I want to put it right in front of me so it kind of covers my tummy for those watching on YouTube.

So yeah please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. My website is jasonnewland.com. Hope you're well. Hope you're okay.

la la la la la la la So some people might say well what is let me bore you to sleep. What is that all about? Well let me tell you. It's a podcast.

It's a podcast and I've been doing it since I can tell you the exact date that I started. When's the exact date? 27th of March 2018. So it's four years and three months nearly.

It's the 18th of June now. So yeah I've been doing it for a while and it's it's just basically me talking. Just talking.

I'll move the microphone a little bit. Yeah just uh it's just me talking. That's all that's all just talking about stuff.

Nothing particularly important. I'm just waffling on about I guess just being boring. Just talking rubbish for an hour.

And when I'm on a roll I do one every day. When I'm on a crawl I do maybe one every three days. When I'm on a stop then I don't do anything.

So you know it all depends on my mood. My mood on what I do or where I am what I'm up to. You know there's more if anyone out there makes podcasts or YouTube videos or does you know has websites.

You'll know this there's a lot more behind the scenes stuff going on which needs to be done. Especially you know with the website updating it and then there's the promotion then there's the editing side of things and uploading which sometimes takes hours especially with the videos. So this you know it's it's quite it's quite a time consuming hobby if you want to call it a hobby.

So you know it's I can't always get loads and loads and loads and loads done. Now I can get more stuff done if all I do is make podcasts the audio podcasts. But if I'm going to do videos as well it's a lot more time takes a lot more time to do because I'll make the video and then I transfer the video by airplay or air whatever drop to my ipad.

That takes a while and then I upload the file to the editing software which can take another half an hour maybe 40 minutes maybe an hour depending and then I do the editing which isn't doesn't take a huge amount of time for the actual editing because I there's not a huge amount I'm not doing special effects or anything like that it's you know it's pretty straightforward boring stuff really it's just me sitting here which isn't the most exciting thing in the world but that's what I do so hey.

So then once I've edited it if I do it like this with just one microphone like I've got another microphone up there I'll push it pull it down there you go that's the podcast microphone but this microphone which is a shure microphone it's another good one this is the one that I use for the videos so that so once I've edited the video I upload or download rather I guess yeah the audio only from the video so that's then saved onto the ipad then I save the actual video the edited video onto the ipad so

that takes you know it takes a little while not a lot not a long time takes a few minutes for it to kind of get together and stuff then I airdrop it again to my phone which takes a while then from my phone I upload the video to youtube and you might think why don't you just do it straight from your ipad then well the internet I have here isn't very good but the mobile internet the mobile data on my phone is much better and much stronger and faster than the broadband I have here which

is a bit annoying so what I'll do is I upload it because I think it can take the other day I had it going for about eight hours and it still hadn't uploaded and I thought what you know that's part of the reason why I stopped making videos for a couple of weeks because I like I can't this is not working I can't upload one video doesn't you know can't spend 10 hours uploading a video because I can only upload one video a day at the most and then I figured a way around it and

now I upload from my phone and it takes about an hour for I mean to be fair the recording yesterday yeah it takes about an hour so an hour long recorded maybe a little bit longer than an hour but the one I did yesterday was relax and sleep hypnosis daily and that lasted for about 25 minutes and it took about an hour to upload once it's uploaded the processing side of things is done by YouTube so I don't have to be concerned with that you know that's YouTube's end of the things so once it's in

you in inside YouTube YouTube can then digest it so and then once it's on YouTube and it's uploaded and it's processed it's available for people to watch but it also says that they're converting it into and um oh what is it like high definition whatever so yeah um what is it oh blimey I have to check what it says you YouTube sorry I'll just just forget what it is YouTube okay relaxing is effortless oh it doesn't come up on there the same way as it does on the laptop the laptop just no it doesn't doesn't

say the same thing on the laptop it kind of gives you more information about what's happening and what it's doing on the iPad it's just it's just there so never mind that's okay so I did something the other day and it's something I've already done before and I deleted them all and I started again and um basically I decided to re-upload all of my podcast episodes because there are thousands and I thought yeah I just re-upload them re-upload them because I used to people used to listen to them and when I got rid of them

my stats went down by quite a lot because I decided a few months ago to just have videos on my website on my YouTube channel no podcasts because a podcast is just a picture and the audio and I thought nah don't want that anymore just want videos man just videos moving pictures so what I did was well I started to upload the um the podcasts a few days ago and within probably three or four days I lost six subscribers and I thought uh this is going in the wrong direction so I deleted all the ones

I'd uploaded I'd uploaded probably 150 maybe more I just deleted them all and just put it put everything back to how it was so you know apologies to anyone that's watching on YouTube that unsubscribed because you were getting way too many new videos coming through especially if you're getting notifications it must have been very annoying but that's it that's done now so that's not going to happen again and it's just going to be videos so once I've done that anyway going back to that I've uploaded the video then I come back to the iPad and

I edit the audio so I edit the audio and then I do that and then I make four versions of it there's the original version then there's a version with background music there's a version which has got five hours long another version which is 10 hours long which has background music with uh affirmations and counting down and me talking in the background so there's four versions of each recording and then I upload them using my phone because that's the the best internet I've got so as you can sort of hear it's quite a quite a

process quite a long process for each recording and time-wise is a few hours that's that's without the actual recording part you know when I'm talking rubbish loyko is now talking rubbish I don't know if you can see it for those watching the YouTube video because you know most people listening to this listen to my voice right now will be listening on a podcast they won't be listening to me on YouTube only a small amount of people at the moment listen to me on YouTube or watch my videos and so I might get for let's say

for this podcast um let me bore you to sleep I might have today I might have 20 people listen to my let me bore you to sleep videos or watch them but on on my uh podcasts uh throughout all of them I might have thousands of people listen to the various different let me bore you to sleep so it kind of is part of me thinking why am I putting so much effort into the video then if no one's going to be watching it hardly and I don't have an answer for that you might also

want to know why don't I have a shave I'm honestly I've got a very big muff on my face it's very it's getting I like my beard it's weird because whenever I meet anyone or like a female they're like oh shave your beard trim it but I quite like it I like playing with it I like just I like the way it feels it's I don't know why once it gets past the itchy itchy phrase and it has been a little bit itchy the last couple of days but once you get past that and and

it still gets itchy and stuff but you can see you can like brush I brush it I actually I brush it through and it's lovely it feels nice I like a beard I just I don't know I mean it's maybe I look older with the beard than I do without the beard I don't know because I can't see myself in the same way as other people see me I can you know I mean I just I don't see I don't see what you see I mean I can see what you see and I definitely know

what I sound like having made recordings for 16 years I know what you know I've heard my voice my voice my voice has got deeper over the years 16 years ago I was like hello my name is Jason Newland welcome to www.

jasonnewland.com this is a relaxation session and as time so as time has gone by my voice is broken you know I've become an an adult kind of I've gone through puberty I feel I went through puberty about 43 years old about that and I so my voice is I'm not I don't think I'm ever gonna have a deep deep voice you know I don't and some people it's put on you know some people they talk really it's put on it's not real they purposely talk like that I'm not quite sure why maybe they probably were

told when younger like um real men have deep voices that's a sign of a a manly man which it might be I don't know um so they go around and their whole life like talking like that so by the time they get to their 30s and 40s they can do it quite easily which is what I used to do when I was at school I'd wake up and my voice hadn't broken yet so it's almost like like you know always changing and I'd wake up in the morning and it was that I don't know kind

of blocked throat kind of feeling and I'm like yes my voice is broken today yes and I'd come down and I'd go get and everyone else would be having their breakfast I was always last doing everything really I've always been slow slow in every way lovely and I'd be like morning everybody oh god I'd be so annoyed because I really thought because my voice because I hadn't spoken for I don't know eight or nine hours and there was that croakiness like oh brilliant brilliant and it's weird because it's the most unimportant thing in the world

to have a deep voice it couldn't be less interesting to me I mean admittedly I don't want to walk around talking like that all the time um but if I did I would you know it's nothing wrong with talking with a high-pitched voice I don't care um it wouldn't be my choice but then it wouldn't be my choice to be five foot eight which I am you know my choice would be to be six foot six foot six or six foot seven that would be my choice I'd love to be tall I'd love to be

if you're six foot six and you're a man I know six foot six might be too tall for some women might not like being really tall I've met a few that didn't like it so I don't I'm generalizing but the the ones that I've met I've met a few six footers I dated a girl when I was younger what oh yeah over six foot way taller than me I've dated a few girls taller than me because I'm so short and I've dated a few girls and they didn't those those females that I dated they didn't

like being tall but they still wanted to wear high heels it was like okay so you don't like being tall and people noticing how tall you are but you're going to add another four inches to your height yeah that's right okay fair enough I mean I'd add I would love to add four inches to my height I'd have to wear a hat that's the only way of doing it I mean yeah high heels but even I mean I mean technically you know a man can wear high heels but you know it's personally and you don't

know where I'm going with this so you know wait personally they look so uncomfortable I mean I have worn high heels when I was at school so I used to be do drama and I wore women's clothes wore makeup loved it absolutely loved it and I was I would say probably the ugliest girl there ever was I looked awful and I loved every second of it it was brilliant you know I was I mean it'd be amazing to be there's there's only two men that I think of when I think of being um almost having

like perfect faces there's loads of like really pretty men out there but I think of Johnny Depp and Adam Ant now some people listen to this might think Adam Ant what are you talking about check out his pictures I mean yeah he's I think he's like 66 now so he's an old man now but when he was younger he was and probably still is pretty he's probably still pretty he was just perfect face so he could wear makeup and if anything Adam when he was I'll just call him Adam because we're good mates ad ah

he'd wear that makeup so he had like um white stripe across his nose and he had you know all the Adam and the Ant makeup and people I don't think people realized how handsome he was until he went on television without his makeup on and suddenly like what because he was a model he was a model I think before he did did um Adam and the Ants I think and I think uh Johnny Depp was as well I mean Johnny Depp is he's just beautiful he's he's he's an attractive human there's is there's a few

people I'm trying to think whoever that's going to be title of this podcast attractive men I'm not even gay I just just I could it's just you can't not see how if you know if I was going to choose how I looked it would be Johnny Depp Adam and Adam and George Clooney I mean wow you know he's he's that's even though he's he's older than me he's probably in his 60s now that's a handsome man you know there's loads I'll tell you what I did this is getting really weird one I did like um

the one that I found another one it was um this is going in a weird direction uh Vikings like the star of Vikings the man star who was in it for for the first like four seasons or whatever it's like wow he had these blue eyes it's like oh why can't I have why couldn't I have looked like him my life would have been so different I don't think I'd have done anything though I don't think I'd have been motivated to do anything because for most for a lot of my life the only thing I

ever really wanted was to have a girlfriend or to have fun you know when I was sort of young I know it's not true but because I didn't have because that was if I if it had been really easy really easy that's what I'm trying to say if it was if it had been really easy and I had the looks like Johnny Depp or Adamant or George Clooney or any of the other like really handsome um Justin Bieber he's really handsome man you know there's people like that so there's loads there's probably thousands millions probably

um trying to think if whoever who else Idris Elba that's another one Idris Elba um so I just realized I just named off a load of white people but there's lots of really handsome men I don't know why I'm focusing on handsome men I would have really enjoyed it I've had my moments you know I've had my little moments where I don't know if it's because I felt confident or I was just in the the right place at the right time and I was just there and you know things went quite well but generally I

don't know because I think one of the biggest problems with me meeting women is I don't go out I mean you know there's a little bit of a problem there isn't there but if you don't go out you don't meet anyone and I don't think any woman ever in the entire history of my life has ever seen me from a distance and thought oh I've gotta have him oh I don't think that's maybe you know I've met anyone no woman's ever looked at me and thought wow maybe wow like what is it but I've you

know I've won a few women over by I don't know making them laugh or just groan on them I guess like a wart so I'm like a wart that's nice I'm like a big hairy wart I love wart oh no that's wrong and that goes in a different direction no that's penicillin required yeah but if you don't go out you don't meet no one and when I do go out I mean it's only really been two times that I've well I mean I went to this this place which was a group it was actually a

like a bipolar group actually and I ended up dating someone this was a few years ago I ended up dating one of the people it was there and she was lovely and then you know I went on a holiday and I met a couple of women when I went on a holiday so it's it's not that hard I guess it's just about getting out and I'm surprised though sometimes because I remember talking to this this this lady I don't know how old she was I've got no idea but I said to her you know why

would you why would you be interested in someone as fat as me which to be fair isn't a good opening line it's it's you know it's not it's not a first date conversation and it's not an icebreaker that's what I mean but anyway we were talking and we were in a hotel and I said right and she held my arm and she said and she cuddled my arm and she said there's no fun cuddling bones I prefer to cuddle and she then she cuddled me like I prefer that because it's soft I was like yeah

no give me time you know I mean I'm 52 she said no no I'm talking about your your belly I said stop talking about my belly will you she said but you brought it up so I didn't it's not you said your response was I said no she said you are you eat too many cakes that's you see rude you're rude Buffalo I was called Buffalo recently it's a bit rude and but yeah so it's like okay don't quite understand it I mean I'd thought that it'd be because I do like why would a woman

want to date someone that was fat I don't mean that against other fat people just me I'm just thinking why would why would someone wanna because I've got a belly you know I'm not I'm not huge I'm not like I don't waddle you know but I'm I've never got stuck in a doorway but you know I just like this is one of those things I guess it's hard to comprehend what someone else is thinking or how they're feeling you know you know I mean see when I talk about fat I talk about myself I don't

call other people fat I call myself fat because I am I'm overweight I need to lose weight I started doing stomach exercises I do leg raises when I'm on the bed and it's not just like lifting your legs basically I go like that and I hold on to the the back of the bed thing whatever and I raise my legs and it exercises the same muscles that it would do if I was doing sit-ups it's just it's a little bit easier to do so it'll be more comfortable and I think I did 40 40 leg

raises earlier and I did it to the point where it started to hurt it started to burn and I just continued for another 39 so I did 40 altogether so I'm gonna be doing that every day maybe a few times a day and also yesterday I realized I got a bit flabby a bit I don't know I did a video yesterday my arms just looked a bit rubbish so I got back on the weights because I haven't done any weights for a while because I cracked my rib when I was on holiday and I've had

to be really careful so I haven't done any exercise really apart from walking so I didn't do any weights thinking it might hurt but then yesterday I did it and I did find that I think my rib was clicking as I was doing the weights I just did some basic dumbbell weight things but I did it because what I do is I don't do sets like some people do a set of ten and they do three reps no three sets of which is reps and which is sets okay repetition anyway one of them so it's

either three reps ten reps and then three sets of ten or whatever I can't remember if it's sets or reps of which one is which but anyway you do ten exercises and then you have a rest for maybe half a minute a minute then you do ten more rest then do ten more so I don't do that what I do is I do the exercise until I can't do it anymore so I did probably about 50 of I'll move back just those you know with the dumbbells just like that so I did about 50 and

my arms were absolutely almost agony you know that it really was not agony that's wrong word wasn't agony at all but stinging it's really stinging almost like stinging that was what underneath the muscle it's like that's what it kind of felt like it didn't feel like that at all how would I know how would I know what it feels like to have stinging that was underneath my muscles how would I even know as it possible to know that you know what I mean it was stingy it's it stinged a bit and that's when I know

it's working now what I'll do is I'll do it again today and just ease my way back into it maybe do some other like you know other other exercises ones above me head and stuff like that by the way if you're listening on the podcast you're missing a lot of physical activity just then I'd actually showing you the exercises I've just done 50 push-ups 50 sit-ups leg raises I've just lifted 600 pound on a dumb dumbbells balanced a fridge on my head so you're missing all that you don't get to see that if you're just

listening on a podcast if you watch on YouTube you you get to enjoy all of that stuff including me spitting everywhere so yeah I don't know why was I talking about men and pretty men I don't know I've got no idea how I got on to that subject well it's Saturday the 18th of June 2000 and 22 1235 in the afternoon so yeah just trying to get my head around how I want things to be regarding this stuff and the podcasts the yeah just sort of just you know trying to trying to figure it out

because making videos like this is the it's the best quality videos that I've ever made you can look back at previous videos and the the setup I've got here is the best I've ever had best audio best video best lighting I've got all this lighting if I haven't got the light above me on which is you see my glasses the lights so like they're like they're like there but I didn't put the light ahead and above me on so maybe I need to do that I might actually get another light just to be right shining

on me but I think it's fairly bright I've watched the videos and it seems to be okay the ones that I've done I've only done the one with the lighting setup I've done one two three four this is the fifth video that I've done with the new lights so from that perspective it's pretty good like I think it's kind of reversed it's gone the quality before the content was good but the quality of the video and audio is awful it's now reversed so the contents rubbish but the quality of the video and audio is good

so you know I need to try and find a medium I haven't done a whisper recording yet so I don't know how that's gonna work out I've not I don't know how the microphone and all that stuff is gonna work when I start whispering I don't know how close I'm gonna have to get to the microphone I don't know I don't know I don't know do I will have to get my face right close to the microphone or would I be able to do it from here I don't know that's the thing so I'm not

sure once I figure that out then I'll be able to make some deep sleep whisper hypnosis videos or podcasts but also videos you know so this for those listening it's just basically me videoing the podcast but on this occasion now I've made a few changes and I'm just using one microphone because before I had two microphones going and there was all this equipment being used all at the same time it looked like some kind of weird news emergency news bulletin thing you know when they you know when prime ministers or presidents have all these microphones

stuck together it was a like that but nothing like that and because I'm not a president so I think things look better when it's just one microphone and what I might do is get myself yeah get myself a another microphone stand because I lost the other one that won't be like an arm like this and maybe just have it so it's there because I think it will be high enough and this this microphone picks up the sound it's a it records it louder than the other microphone so maybe I can get a little bit of

feedback from my podcast listeners as to how the sound is is the sound okay yeah I mean it's a little bit of a humming from the lights which I'm not hugely pleased with if I'm honest I didn't expect there to be any humming it's just a light why is it humming why why tell me tell me don't know no no just tell me I'm not moving on till you tell me why is it humming and I've got three of them humming like that I don't know if you can actually hear it or not but I

can hear it and yes a bit annoying unless I need to move further away from the lights so maybe I need to move the desk further away and have the light far enough away so it's still shining on me but it's not you know and it's not loud and you know I mean with the podcast and the videos it's always a quite often a bit of background sound of I've got Horace the pigeon who visits me regularly comes on to the windowsill and waves to me and stuff sometimes he sings me a song yeah I'm

not quite sure what the song is but it's nice isn't it this is a lovely it's a lovely gesture from him so Horace he's been following me for about Wow about 14 15 years you follow me around to be coming from I've moved a dress a few times and he just always ends up being around and just coming in visiting me don't know why I mean I had the window open and he sometimes he pops his head he's like just looks in it's louder it's louder than that you know he's obviously with the window open

it's it's extraordinarily louder sometimes because Horace has got a girlfriend called Doris and she is often the other side of the building so she's at the front of the building he hangs out at the back of the building sometimes he calls to her it's usually a little a little gap a little and then I don't know what they're saying to each other I really don't know but I mean I don't understand why he doesn't have a phone in this day and age to still be relying on calls you know shouting out to be relying on

shouting just seems a little bit old-fashioned don't you think get yourself an iPhone man that probably be the ringtone though wouldn't it I'm just enjoying making that sound for some reason I never realized how much fun it would be I thought about making that sound but I didn't realize it would give me such a feeling of overall bliss oh I feel like a feel like a teapot being emptied oh lovely so yeah I'm not sure what else to say I don't know nothing I said today seems to really make sense that's kind of how the

let me boy to sleep podcasts are but I'm sure there was I don't know what I was talking about I must have been talking about something I must have been I know I've been talking about something but I must there must have been a reason how I ended up talking about Brad Pitt not Brad Pitt I don't know George Clooney and adamant and you know the various good-looking I mean they're kind of sex symbols and they so I picked like the top of the top cream but then everyone's different I mean look at what's her

name Marilyn Monroe I mean she married the bloke that she married I mean she went from marrying didn't she marry a baseball player and then she married a writer and very different people like physically very different people physically and who was it was it who is it that married a country and Western singer was it Julia Roberts and everyone like this is free of the 90s and people lost their minds why she she married him why she married someone that that looks like him and I just felt so rude like first of all there's nothing

wrong with the way looks just because she's a huge mood or she was a huge movie star doesn't mean that she has to date a model or another movie star it's just like oh Britney Spears as well didn't she they kept giving her hassle like she's married a loser another loser he's with her for her money well she was an adult and I'm pretty sure that she could make her own decisions and I imagine if she married him she loved him so what's he got to do with anyone else he's a loser well I've been

called a loser more than once that was shocker to hear that but and that's it I've got nothing more to say about that really I've just been called a loser a few occasions it's really easy to have like to say well it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks it don't matter this is your life this is your life to be lived and this is your decision what you do with your life who you date who you marry who you love on all that stuff and if someone calls your husband or your wife or your boyfriend

girlfriend whatever a loser or if they call you a loser it doesn't matter that's just their perception and it doesn't matter what they think it's not nice though is it it's not nice I mean I've had a few especially being a public I'm not a public figure but being you know a few years ago I used to be quite prominent on YouTube with my previous YouTube channel I'm talking 10 years ago there's a long time back I was you know I was on YouTube that was my main my main internet thing making videos I did

podcasts I've done podcasts right from the start since 2016 but I did focus on videos and you know I've had majority positive feedback over the years and whether it be video or because of the podcasts and as I said the podcast is where I'm where most people listen to me I was on the podcast at the moment so I've had a few weird comments and messages over the years but with the podcast it's never you don't get personal messages about how you look so that's I mean I've had a few messages from people that didn't

like the way I sound which is fair enough but just don't listen why would you take the time to you know I mean it's like well if you don't like if you if you eat something you don't like it and you're in a restaurant and yeah and you've never had let's say you've never had I don't know think of a meal this I don't know octopus for example so if you go in a seafood shop a seafood restaurant for example and you have octopus you've never had octopus before why would you but hey why would

you want it but you have octopus for the first time and you don't like it so does that mean that you have to slag off the restaurant all it means is you don't like octopus doesn't mean you don't like everything else at that restaurant offers because you haven't tasted everything that that restaurant offers it's just the octopus so for me it's like well first of all you know I do different podcasts but I don't understand why people never really understood why people are more likely to complain than to compliment and this isn't just the Western

thing it's not just an English thing or it's not just a Chinese thing or you know it's like worldwide it seems that human beings are quite similar there's a lot of similarity probably more similarities than otherwise with humans I find that interesting so I mean I still don't know about YouTube I don't know if I want to be making YouTube videos I'm gonna continue with the podcast forever but I just don't know if I did ask I did a YouTube video where I asked it was a Jason Chats video that's my vlog that I do

occasionally do you want me to make more hypnosis videos and I did get quite a few comments and I need to reply I asked a question and I don't reply to the answers I am sorry but I will that's if you're you know watching this and part of the reason is I don't haven't given any energy to YouTube for a long time I've really kind of really been tentative about whether or not to put energy into it and partly because the stats are so low and I'll get such a tiny amount of people I've got

how many I don't know how many how many subscribers I've got I've got a very small amount of subscribers where is it subscribers your channel YouTube studio six yeah six hundred and forty seven subscribers I had 653 four days ago and it went down because of all that messing about that I did so I don't know I mean considering I got 647 subscribers I'd have thought I'd have more views of the videos I did a video 11 days ago and I've had 43 views so a lot of those 643 people in fact 647 so over

600 of those subscribers are not watching my videos so if you're not gonna watch a video why are you subscribed I'm not complaining you know subscribe but it just seems mind you this is for YouTube channels I'm subscribed to that I don't watch videos sometimes I get you know I'll watch a few channel a few videos and I just don't watch anymore yeah I don't know anyway I've got to go I've done me our so remember please to be kind to yourself be gentle with yourself because you deserve to be happy do something nice for

yourself today lots of love bye