#813 Let me bore you to sleep - ACID REFLUX FRIED BREAKFAST- Jason Newland (25th MARCH 2022)

Hello, is it me you're looking for? Oh it isn't, okay. Welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. My name is Jason Newland and my website is jasonnewland.com. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

So hello, how you doing? How you doing? Are you well? I've got some messages, I've got some messages somewhere. I have to figure out how to get back to them. Um, notifications, um, that's weird.

Okay, message. I've now got back to that, okay. Messages, so if I come out of the messages, hopefully.

What are you doing? I don't, I don't actually want his messages on here. Oh okay, right, I've got some messages. Um, from, this is from Karen.

It says, do you have any ideas for sleeping longer than two hours? Lol, I wake up and you're still going but I can't get back to sleep. Um, I wake up wide awake then, then takes me another two hours to get back to sleep. Um, I don't know Karen, I don't really know.

I'm not really sure. Off the top of my head, listen to, I mean, it depends if you're listening to what kind of list, depends what podcast you're listening to. If you listen to Let Me Bore You To Sleep, maybe listen to different ones, listen to the sleep recordings, the hypnosis ones, Deep Sleep Whisper, I don't know, um, Relax, Sleep Hypnosis Daily.

Um, I mean, I suppose a solution from my end could be to make, I was gonna say a longer recording, but 10 hours is quite a long one, isn't it? But maybe a longer recording without music. So perhaps if I made a 45 hour recording, but no music, just on its own. Maybe with and without music, if you know what I mean.

So you could sort of choose, but no 10 hour version, just the two versions. But that would, I mean, I can maybe give that a go. So maybe, yeah, I'm not sure, I'll give it some thought.

Some thought. So I've replied. And I will give it some thought.

And I've got a message from, okay, that's gone. Sebastian, I'm not going to read any of his messages out because, because, because, because because of the wonderful things he does. I have another message.

Where is it? This is from Oh, blimey. Okay. This is from Sean.

And it says, Hi, Jason, like, like most of your listeners, I have sleep problems. So I'll read this without the glasses because it's a bit easier. I fought and that's not where the glasses different glasses.

That's bad. I fall asleep easy enough by wake up several times during the night. Which is kind of a similar thing to what the what's the name saying? I used to lay awake for hours with thoughts running through my head, not being able to fall asleep again and feeling very tired the next day.

I have tried many podcasts like yours, but I find yours the best. Each time I wake up during the night, your boring voice sends me back to sleep. Thank you.

So yeah, I mean, that's, that's kind of the aim is hopefully, if you do wake up my boring voice to send you back to sleep. I sometimes wake up three to four times and I will replay your podcast and fall straight back asleep as of before. When I used to lay awake for hours.

My only criticism is when you sometimes make screeching or loud noises which wake me up again. Despite, I try not to make, I do make weird noises. I try not to make screeching or loud noises.

Generally try. I mean, what I'll do, see, I'm always open for suggestions to try and, you know, improve things. What I will do is when I edit, I'll go through and if there's any, because it spikes, it shows me on the screen, if it's a louder noise, and I'll try and reduce it down.

So that the noise, the weird sound will still be there, but it'll just be a much lower volume. Okay, that's what I'll try and do from now on. And I generally do that.

But I guess I missed the occasional one out. So I will try a little bit harder. Keep up the good work, mate.

I expect there are many thousands of people out there who appreciate what you are doing. It's taken me over two years of listening to you to eventually write and show my appreciation to you. I'm sure there there are most, I'm sure, I'm sure there are most that listen to you that think a message of support will mean nothing.

But I know from experience when I receive thanks from the work I've done for people and the praise I receive for my art and music, it means a lot and encourages me to do better and makes my life worth living. Sean. Well, yeah, I agree with that, Sean completely.

And it's it's lovely to get positive feedback. It really is. It's it means more than I think people realize.

Especially when there's some detail when there's a bit of like, well, it's nice just to hear thanks a lot, you know, like what you do. Brilliant. It's lovely.

But when you get a little bit of detail in it a little bit of like, well, this is how it was before. I've been through this and now I'm here and you know, this is how it's benefited was contributed towards my recovery or whatever, you know, with the course of other things as well, maybe included separately. But thank you.

Thank you, Sean. Teresa says, I've been listening to old podcasts of yours from 2019. Tonight, I woke up during one episode and I laughed through the entire show.

It was August 28, 2019, episode 206. Wow, it's a long time ago. From birdwatching, peach crumble to white suits.

Jason, I've laughed so hard. I'm crying. You're so funny.

Even though it's 3am and I'm wide awake. Thank you for that. So I just replied.

Thank you. I may take a listen myself. I could do with a good laugh.

Thank you, Teresa. See, that's lovely message. I had a message I remember I posted something with a title weird, the word weird.

And Lauren felt the need to send me a message saying, you spelt you have weird spelt incorrectly. Let's put this how I spell it. And I put s p l l a. I'm not quite sure what that was about.

That's a quite that's quite a while back. That's February. Some.

That's, that's three, four weeks ago. There's no other. All right, so it's about done.

There's a few people moaning and that's all just this is a lovely one smetter lady called smetter. Thanks, help me relax and even giggle after a panic attack. So that's lovely.

Thank you. That was from December last year. But still, it's nice to get those kind of messages.

So don't always read stuff out. So it's, it's banged on a microphone there. So I'm gonna edit that out.

Here's a message I got from I'll just let you know this isn't a business one doing here. This is just a free service. It's not a business.

I'm not. And I know I've come across as a astute businessman. Entrepreneur.

I mean, you imagine I do. I'm you know, I am very similar to Richard Branson in so many ways. And I can't be so careful what I say because yeah, they call me Mr. Octopus.

I'm thinking of octopuses because I watched the Spider Man movie. Because Octo, is it Dr. Octopus? Yeah. They call me Dr. Octopus.

I was going for a walk, I felt like I was groping around in the dark. And then I thought, I got my phone on me. There's a light on there, isn't there? So I looked and turn the light on and I could see much better.

That's my, that's my mobile phone torch story. That's the whole thing. I really need to embellish it to make it more interesting.

What did I do today? I went somewhere today. Where did I go? Oh, yeah, I went for a walk. In the field actually, went out to walk up the field and walk back just before my, my supermarket delivery arrived.

They were early. So if they say five to six, they should be here between five and six, not 20 to five. And I was out.

In fact, it was more, it was probably about 25 to five. They pulled up, open the thing, they were starting to unload before I even got to the, you know, to my home. I said, Is that for me? He said, Yeah.

So I'm a bit early. I said, Yeah, I know. And I said, they started pulling this, bringing this stuff up.

So I get my bags and I'm in a hallway outside my front door getting ready to put them into the bags. And I said was just because you know, some of the things are quite heavy. I said it shouldn't be too heavy today because there's a lot of small stuff, lots of stuff, but lots of small stuff.

And he said, this is what I do for a living. I said, Oh, so I just, I was just chatting. He came out and he asked me how I was.

And I've got a few issues going on. I don't, you know, not all my recordings are going to be hilarious. Perhaps 0.1% will be mildly amusing.

Couple of things going on with me at the moment. Luckily, my lower back's been doing really good. That's good.

You know, I've been doing exercises every day. And I also go for at least one walk a day. Now that the weather's improved, I try and get out twice a day, just to go for a walk.

So I do a few few miles walking, which is really good for my lower back. And hopefully, fairly good for my body generally. But it's, I know I'm not giving my blood, my my heart much of an exercise doing just walking slowly.

But it's a start. It's a start. But what I do have going on is vertigo, vertigo has come back.

And it's like when I'm in bed, I turn over and you know, everything spins. And because I know what it is, it's kind of used to it because I had it before. But not for quite a few.

I don't know how many weeks or how many months. It's been a while. But it seems to be weird because if I look up, I have the same thing happen.

And if I bend down, I have a sort of similar thing happen. So it's not just confined to when I'm in bed. Which is a little bit I don't just I'll be honest, it sends me into a kind of a panic attack, kind of.

But not full blown, I managed to pull myself out of it, I managed to sort of calm myself down. But it kind of takes my breath away a little bit. And so that's what I'm dealing with.

It's, you know, I used to have always get a little bit a little bit a little bit nervous of mentioning this stuff, especially when some people might be listening to me for their panic attacks or for their anxiety. And then to find out that, you know, I am having similar things happen to myself. Some people might think, well, well, you're no good.

If you can't even, if you can't even sort yourself out, why am I listening to you? It's not quite the same thing. You know, I can help with chronic pain doesn't mean that I have to have a completely physically well body. A doctor doesn't have to be 100% well, in order to help you.

Now I'm not a doctor, I'm not saying I'm a doctor. But you know, if he was an ambulance, a paramedic, you wouldn't sort of send them away because they're overweight. Would you like go away, come back when you're healthy and fit? No.

The fact is, you know, you're welcome that they've turned up because you need them. And I guess knowing the reason I do, the only reason really that I do recordings to try and help people with anxiety and stress is because of my many, many, many, many, many, many years of dealing with it. Since I was a child, I've been dealing with anxiety and stress.

Since I was a small child, I'm talking, I can only really remember back as far as, I could only, yeah, I could remember earlier, but I could remember being about eight years old, and being anxious, I mean, to the point of, well, how I said, I didn't, I didn't know what it was. So it used to build up inside me. And then I'd get home.

And I remember walking up to my stepmom. And she said, Are you all right? And I just looked at and I just burst out laughing, laughing and burst out laughing. I burst out crying.

It was like a almost like a volcano erupted of energy. And like, I didn't know why I was crying. I didn't know what was going on.

I didn't understand the feelings. Because it wasn't as simple as anger, or jealousy, or, you know, feeling good or feeling it wasn't like basic feelings. They're quite simple to kind of explain.

When you're little. These were more complicated feelings that I didn't understand. And it took me a long time to kind of get to grips with.

As an adult, you know, I don't know, a mixture of many years of therapy, a mixture of many years of studying therapy, a mixture of several, several years of, I guess, studying myself, training in therapy, therapeutic things, including massage, that's one of the things that I trained in, reflexology, those things that, you know, I was, it was a two thronged thing that I was interested in, chronic pain relief, and stress, anxiety relief, stress relief, really, to start with, because I hadn't, I didn't really go down the extreme anxiety until I was in my early 30s. I had had anxiety attacks before that, but I didn't know what they were. It was like a very, very rare thing.

And I put it, I was like the breathlessness I put down to being in a, in a room full of smoke when I wasn't smoking. And that's kind of what I put it down to sort of being in a nightclub, like full of people smoking. So I'd come outside and I'd be like, you know, really breathless.

And I thought, well, that's the reason. Either I've got to stop going in there, or I need to start smoking again. Because I was dumb.

And I did start smoking again, blimey. And I, anyway, this, this might not be a good subject to be talking about in this, this podcast, I don't know. If it isn't, just turn it off, listen to something else, a different recording.

But I'm trying to make it light, you know, I'm not going to sort of I'm not going to go into any particular detail, just generally, there's a little bit of, because I had a friend who told me don't tell people you've got bipolar, or you've got mental health issues, or personality disorder, or anxiety and stress, or don't tell people that. Because still, they won't, some people will see that as a weakness. The thing is, if anyone's listening, that sees mental health issue as a weakness, then you really haven't, you don't understand mental health problems.

And because it's really not a weakness. It can feel like it sometimes, but it's not a weakness at all. It's a health condition.

And, you know, it's easy, oh, it's like any other mental health, is it like any other health condition? Well, no. You know, every health condition has its own issues, don't they? Not all health conditions, sort of pretty much take over your life. I mean, I have acid reflux.

It takes over my life when I get really, really bad heartburn, and, you know, cramps in my stomach and stuff. Yeah, that's, there's nothing I can do, but that's rare. And I bring that on myself by eating lots of really bad food, crappy, well, stuff that's lovely.

To be fair, when I went and visited my dad, you now know I'm going to walk off, I'm going to completely not walk off, I'm going to wander off into a different subject now. And I probably won't come back to what I've been talking about. Because this happens every time I just take off.

And I realized at the end of the recording, I didn't even mention what I talked about with my dad when I was drinking the soup in that restaurant. Like the recording I did yesterday, I got so caught up in soup and how it's not real food. I went off on one and I didn't come back to the reason I was mentioning the soup to start with.

And I need to move on from soup. What was I talking about? Mental health issues. Oh, yeah, Brett, the thing that causes my acid reflux to really kick in.

Last week, when I went and visited the parents, I had a fried breakfast three days in a row. I never, never happens in normal life. It has happened in the past.

I mean, the last time I had a fried breakfast three days in a row would have been probably 2003. It gives you an idea. That's how long it's been.

Because I only have fried breakfasts more than one. If I'm staying in a hotel, and that's this breakfast included. Now, I never normally stay in a hotel for more than one night.

Occasionally, it's two nights, so maybe Saturday and Sunday morning. But generally, you know, that's very rare. But I had a fried breakfast on the Monday, and then I had one Tuesday in a cafe place.

Then I had one on Tuesday and Wednesday morning. And I was also drinking beer, which is something that I never do when I'm at home. Drinking lager.

And I had this idea that I could drink lager if I was in a bar. If I was in a bar, because I did it when I was in Cornwall, I had, because I don't drink, I literally, I can't consume alcohol anymore. Like the way I used to.

I don't mean, I don't screw it out of my bum. I don't mean like, yeah, I can still drink it in my mouth. It's just, I bought cans of lager, with the intention of drinking them through my mouth.

And rarely can I drink even half a can. And end up giving away the rest away. Now, I've tried a few times, I just can't do it.

If I drink red wine, it makes me cough. I think that's the acid reflux, because it's quite, I don't know what that is. Is it tanning that red wine has? But it makes me cough.

I like a bit of red wine. I used to drink red wine all the time. Well, regularly, sort of weekends.

I used to drink a nice bottle of red wine in the evening. I used to enjoy that. No more.

So, but when I was in Cornwall, I was able to drink a whole pint easily. And then the next day, I think I had two pints. And I thought, oh, so this is the secret.

In the sunshine, and away from home, in a different environment, in a glass, like from a pub. And it goes down well. And it did go down really well.

I thought, yeah, this is the way to do it. So I thought I'd test that theory out. Because even since, and I actually occasionally want to go and visit my dad.

Although I haven't seen him, but I saw him this time. But before that, it was over two years. But you know, quite often I visit my dad, or if I stay over, I'll have some beers.

Have, you know, but two or three, four pints, but it's never a lot. But that's enough. So she's my little brother's here.

We had sort of sit around, have a chat. My little brother and me, and my dad, and we'll sit there for a few hours in the evening around the table just talking about stuff. It's nice.

And we'll drink, we'll just, I drink more than I would normally. But it's not, you know, so it's a really, to be fair, it's one of my favourite things, actually, I quite like doing that. It's lovely.

Got my little brother, my dad. It's just, yes, nice. Anyway, that's that.

I can't remember the last time we did it. It's a long time ago. Probably three, three, four years now, I suppose.

And so I just thought, yeah, I'll go away, see me dad. This is last week. So what I did is I had the fried breakfast on the Monday, about two o'clock and a half one in the afternoon.

I couldn't clock into the hotel to two o'clock, you see. So and it's always a 20 pound fine or 20 pound extra on top if you if you want to go into the room before two o'clock. I mean, nah, nah, you're right.

So I just went and got some food, came back, I think it's about half two when I finally got to the hotel and went in there and they took the money off my card straight away. I booked for seven days. So I booked for Monday night, Tuesday night, Wednesday night, Thursday night, Friday night, Saturday night and Sunday night.

So I paid for that all in one go. I thought you normally pay when you leave, but hey, and then so they give me the card, which is to to go in. Now this hotel, it's a very old hotel.

It's very old. Like, you know, really, I just realized I moved my mobile phone just in case it's causing the microphone to go weird. Oops, now I'm banging the microphone.

That hotel's been there longer than I've been alive, I think. It was there when I moved to the town and that was in 1977. So it's been there a long time.

It's an old, old hotel. And you can tell it's old when you go inside. But I quite like it.

It's not like a holiday inn. It's not all, I would say it's not all clean. It's not dirty.

It's not, it's just this holiday inns seem, some of the ones I've been in can seem a little bit sterile. But that's, I think it's quite a good thing in some ways when you've got lots of people coming through. A bit of sterility is possibly advantageous.

And so, but it's very old fashioned, quite dark when you go in, although it's got lights as well. And got a nice little garden in the front. They've got trees, big old trees have been there probably centuries.

And they lean towards each other. It looks almost like they're holding each other's hands. So it's like they're keeping each other up, which is just really nice.

A few, this whole, I'll be honest, I think this bit of green, this grass, it's like a bowling green, which I'd be surprised if they don't use it for that at some point. But it's a place where they take photographs for weddings. So I have a lot of wedding functions there.

In fact, my little brother, my other little brother, he was actually, wasn't born there. He wasn't born on the grass. I don't know why I was going to say that.

He got married at that hotel. So he had his wedding photographs taken there on the grass. And it's got a big car park as well.

It's opposite a supermarket. So it's really ideal. Just so you can get bits and bobs because a hotel doesn't offer everything.

It's, you know, you still need, because when I got there, I had to go light because I was carrying everything. And I didn't take anything with me regarding like deodorant, soap, shampoo, face wipes, face wash, or other things. Yeah, toilet paper, there should be in the hotel, shouldn't there? But none of that stuff.

So when I got to the town, I put my stuff in the hotel. I went over and I bought a bunch of stuff to plus some biscuits and things like that. But I got some toilet roll as well.

Because the toilet paper was rubbish. It was that, I'm not sure what the brand is called, but it's finger through, if you know what I mean. It's, if you like poking your finger through toilet paper, that's the toilet, that's the hotel to go to.

That's what I'm saying. And considering how much they were charging for the room, they could have, I think they could afford to put a toilet roll that, you know, was decent. I just, you know, I went and bought some toilet paper, even the decent stuff isn't that expensive.

You know, I mean, I don't know how much it works out, what 50 pence a roll, probably less than that. And I'm not charging 60 quid a night to use the bathroom. So if I was, I'd be able to put even nicer toilet paper in there.

If I was making 60, 70, 80 quid a night, you know, but I'm not. So I was really surprised at that. I'm not, I'm not, I'm not a big fan of shortcuts.

And, you know, I don't want to have a big conversation about toileting and going to the toilet now. But it's something that none of us particularly want to do necessarily. I mean, we need to do it.

And it's important we do it. And it's important that everything flows nice and smoothly. At the same time, you want everything to make it as nice as a nice experience as possible.

So in the same side, you know, when you have a tap, you don't want the hot tap to become boiling hot water instantly. Do it, it's nice to have it gradually become warm and then become hot. So you can, you know, get the soap on your hands and you can have a nice, you know, you're supposed to wash your hands under, apparently under flowing taps.

Unless you've got a nozzle, which has the hot water and the cold water coming out of the same nozzle. You got a cold tap and a hot tap. So go and run between each one.

So you don't get too hot, too cold. That's boring, isn't it? Decent toilet paper. It's important.

I mean, I generally I'm not, I don't go for like super duper fancy toilet paper when I'm at home, but just decent toilet paper. Just, you know, stuff that works, not the cheapest possible. Cause you need to take care of your parts, you know, the different parts of us.

We need to be gentle. Anyway, so I did that. This was on the Monday.

So I went, I had a walk, ended up at my dad's on the Monday. Did I? Yeah, that's it. I went there, but only for a short time.

Wasn't there for long. And then I headed back. I think I had four pints of lager.

That's weird. A weird noise in my flat. I don't know why.

Very strange. Hmm. So what was I saying? Sound like it was, I don't know if it was coming from another flat, but it sounded like it was here.

It was like a chain or something. Hmm. Weird.

So yeah, I saw my dad for a little while. Then I went back to the thing again, went to the hotel. So I'd already had a fried breakfast at lunch, you know, in the afternoon, went back, had a couple of pints of lager.

Then I had a burger and chips or fried, you know, big old chippies and a big burger. Then two more pints of lager. That's the Monday, that's the Monday's food.

Tuesday's food, get up, have a fried breakfast. I'm also drinking coffee. I bought some coffee and I'm drinking coffee, like way more coffee than I normally drink.

So I'm like two, probably two coffees before breakfast because I'm waking up so early, because there's nothing to do. There's nowhere to go, nothing to do. And really it's just, unless I went into a pub and I don't really, it's just not really, I don't know, not there.

That's not really my thing. So I was in, I was in the bar till, it couldn't be much later than about 10. No, it was even earlier than that, because I was upstairs at quarter past nine, because there was a cutoff at nine.

You're supposed to tell the reception whether or not you're having breakfast in the morning. So I phoned them up at quarter past nine from the hotel room on Monday evening and booked breakfast. I said, is it too late? And she said, what for? I said, to book breakfast.

She said, well, you said that like I should know. How should I know what you're phoning for? I said, should we start again? She said, no, I haven't got time. She said, I'm leaving you now.

I said, don't leave me. And so she had to, she got breakfast, she organised, she didn't organise it. She just put me on the, on the rotor for eight o'clock in the morning breakfast.

I woke up about six, so it was two hours to wait. It's a Tuesday, so that was a Tuesday morning. So I had my big cooked breakfast.

But before that, I had a bowl of breakfast cereal. Not a big bowl. We're talking a little, you know, those little rubbish, the tiny little boxes of cereal, which aren't enough for it.

They'd like enough for a small child probably, if that. I had one of those and I had a croissant and I had a cup of coffee. Then I had my fried breakfast.

Then, and yeah, so I had more coffee. And then what did I do on the Tuesday? I went and met up with a friend and then I went for a long walk, had an ice cream, sat on the beach. Then I went to, well, on a promenade.

Then I went home and I also had a bath in the morning. So that was nice. Big old bath.

It was good. And then I went to my dad's for an evening meal. And that was the only healthy food I had.

And that was sort of like, not a roast dinner, but some meat and some vegetables and mashed potato. But I also had a pint of lager there. Oh yeah, that's it.

Tuesday, I met my friend. She had to go somewhere and then she was in town instead of my around. So I invited her to the hotel.

And so I had a pint. Then I went to my dad's, had a pint. Then I came back to the hotel and had a pint.

Then I went to bed. Of lager that was. And then I got up Wednesday.

Same thing, woke up very early, had my dinner, my breakfast booked at nine this time. I don't know why. I don't know why.

I just didn't think I was going to wake up so early, but I did again. So I had a few cups of coffee and then I went to have my breakfast, more coffee, same thing again, breakfast, cereal, croissant, coffee, and then my breakfast, fried breakfast, and more coffee. And then I, it was raining.

So it was a bit of a, not such a great day as before. It was like lovely, really nice weather the couple of days previous. So I go upstairs into the hotel.

I'm still quite early, it's like 10 o'clock and I've got a couple of hours to really do nothing with. So I lie down, which was not a good idea, just having eaten. But I lied down because I didn't feel very well.

I was hoping I would kind of, you know, get rid of it. And it wasn't. I was, oh man, the old acid reflux really kicked in.

So in the end, I had to go to get some, not ask, what was it called? That pink liquid. Anyway, you know this stuff, heartburn. So I got some of that.

That didn't work. Not the way it normally does. I was waiting for the big gas release, but it didn't happen.

But eventually, bit by bit, I kind of got rid of some of it. And in the end, because I didn't feel so well, I just came home. But the weird thing about it is the amount of junk food I had.

Like really, you know, like three cooked breakfasts and a burger. So it's four fried meals in a row. And then three days of drinking alcohol, which is something that I never do.

So all those things combined left me a bit, my whole stomach system, a bit overwhelmed. Because I do have the odd fried breakfast. It's not like I never have them.

But it's, I mean, literally a few times a year, maybe sometimes a couple of times a year. This is very rare. And, you know, I do like a nice, big fried breakfast.

But I know it's no good. No good for me. This tastes amazing.

I love it. But so it's something that I do every now and then. I cannot do it every day.

And not even on holiday. So now I know that, because I didn't, I guess I didn't really realize it. Because I've only had this problem.

Well, I've had it for quite a few years, but not, not long enough to have tested it. So I'm not gonna, I'm not gonna do that anymore. I'm not gonna sort of eat too much.

So don't eat much greasy food. It's I've, I have, I have, I do have the occasional burger. But even that's maybe, if I have one burger a month, that's probably excessive, realistically.

Because having a burger involves going out and going to McDonald's or the Wimpy. And going to the Wimpy involves going to town. I couldn't have gone to town more than maybe five times last year, if that.

And the Wimpy and McDonald's. I've probably been to McDonald's possibly four times in the last two years, maybe six times in the last two years. So you see, I mean, I don't, although I might have a big fat belly, it's not full of burgers and chips and fries.

And I do, the only thing I really eat too much of, that's pizza. Because it's easy to get. You can get frozen ones that are easy to cook, or you can get them delivered very easily.

That's the only, I don't, I'm not, I'm not really into kebabs because I don't drink alcohol. Kebabs taste great when you're drunk. I don't get drunk.

I still like kebabs, but it's not the same. You know, I won't enjoy it as much as someone that's drinking. Just the way it is.

What other fast food is there? Oh, there's a place that does roast dinners at the weekend. So the occasional Sunday, I might get a roast dinner delivered, and there's usually enough to share with my friend. So I'll have half, he has half.

For me, that's enough for a whole dinner. For him, it's just a small snack. But I don't eat much.

No one believes me, but it's true. I don't eat much in a row. In a row? At a time, that's what I mean.

In a row. No, I don't eat much. I have small meals.

When I finish this, I'm going to have a frozen shepherd's pie. That's what I'm going to have. I'm going to stick it in the microwave for 10 minutes, and then leave it for another 10 minutes, so it's cooled down.

And I'll have that. And that'll be it for the rest of the day. And they're not big meals, you know, it's only a small little thing.

That's enough for me. Although sometimes I am still hungry afterwards, so technically probably isn't enough. But that's what biscuits are for, isn't it? That's what biscuits are for, don't you know? So yeah, I'm gonna... Oh, let's see what's weird.

This is weird. In 2000, I had quite a few listeners send me gifts in the form of, you know, during the lockdown and the first lockdown, people sent me toilet paper, soap, stuff like that. And I put a list, I had an Amazon list.

And I had some very generous people send me some stocks, for me to, you know, to help me get stocked up in that. So I couldn't get out, couldn't get deliveries. So there was lockdown, but I couldn't get deliveries delivered to me.

Because I couldn't, I was going online, I just couldn't get anything. The only things I could get was from Amazon. And so yeah, some of those stocks lasted for ages and ages and ages.

But now, pretty much run out of everything. So it lasted me, you know, pretty much nearly two years, some of this stuff, like the toilet paper. And so now I'm kind of, I had my deliveries, I bought, I started trying to get stocked up again.

So I ended up buying 10 deodorants and 10, 10 toothpastes. I didn't get any toilet paper, because I still got some left. 10 packs of toilet wipes, 10 packs of face wipes.

I hope I don't get those muddled up. And I got 10 packs of soap, but there's six soaps in each. So that should last me for a while.

60 soaps should, yeah, should last me to the end of the year, shouldn't it? But then what I tend to do is give stuff away. So if I've got a neighbour that needs some stuff, I'll go have some of that. And, you know, perhaps, perhaps stop doing that.

I think it's just, if someone asks for something, give it to them. But I've seen sometimes a tendency of going a little bit overboard and just like, have this, have this, have this and have this and, which isn't what they wanted anyway, didn't ask for it. And suddenly I've just given loads of stuff.

I'm just too damn generous. No, not really. You can never be too generous, I don't think.

Maybe you can, maybe, I don't know. I don't know. Oh, my right armpit is itching.

I did, I just smelt it, I'm sorry. I did. So yeah, everything's okay.

So that's kind of what happened with that. So I'm being a bit more careful with what I eat. I've gone back to just drinking one cup of coffee a day, in the morning, with my breakfast.

It's the only coffee I drink. That's enough. That puts me on the, on just on the limit.

Because coffee can give me heartburn. So I don't drink more than one coffee. I haven't had any alcohol at all since I got back from my dad's.

Because I just don't have I don't even think about wanting to drink. It just doesn't even end on my brain. It doesn't, just nothing, there's no part of me wants to drink alcohol.

I just don't have it, it's not there. Doesn't, I don't have, doesn't, I don't get anything from it. You know, it's, I used to, I used to love drinking for quite a while.

I was never drinking when I was younger. But when I hit 30, pretty much, well, I was 29. But, you know, come the January when I was so 2000, basically, I was 29.

I started drinking in the evenings, just four cans a week, week, week, week, week lager. And it put a smile on my face, I was very happy with it. And then eventually, over the years, it grew to the strongest.

Eight cans of the strongest lager every evening and then, you know, got a little bit out of hand. But I don't, don't have a taste for alcohol at all anymore. At all.

None whatsoever. Which is weird. It's not weird.

I'm not, I don't care either way. I've got no issue with alcohol. You know, but it's strange that I just don't have that, have any interest.

Yeah. It's quite nice to start getting stocked up again, though. Because it's just nice to have the reserves in, you know, not with food.

But just with the basic stuff. I said like deodorant or shampoo, mouthwash or whatever, just all that kind of stuff, the basic stuff that I need. The stuff that I don't actually like buying, because I don't get any pleasure out of it whatsoever.

Unlike a chocolate bar, which is very temporary, but it is pleasurable temporarily. No pleasure in a can of deodorant. I mean, I guess it's, it prevents the displeasure from other people's noses by me using the deodorant.

But, you know, for me, it's no pleasure. There's no like, oh, this is nice. Because that would be weird.

That'd be very strange, wouldn't it? I start getting excited about how I smelt. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. So yeah, that's it really.

So I'll probably try and get a few more bits and bobs. Maybe I'm thinking of getting some tinned food, tinned food as kind of spares, you know, just as a backup, maybe stock up a little bit, maybe some pasta and rice, you know, things that last a long time, just in case, you know, just, just, you know, just for a bit of, just a bit of a backup for my pantry. But I'd have to have them in a sealed container and not in the kitchen.

So they have to be somewhere else. Because they'd have to be completely self-sealed, airtight sealed so that, you know, just the way things have to be around here. Yes.

So that's it. My hair's growing back. Yeah, it's interesting, isn't it? My hair's growing.

Yeah, I'm pretty sure that every time I shave my head and let the hair grow, more grey hairs grow through. So I'm not sure what that's all about. I'm not sure I'm particularly pleased with that state of affair.

Anyway, I'm gonna go. Thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, be gentle with yourself today.

Just notice the things that you say to yourself. And if you catch yourself, if you say anything that sounds harsh, just, just catch yourself. You know, don't have a go at yourself, just notice and say, no.

No. Be gentle. And just change the way that the words sound in your head.

So if you're saying stuff about yourself, maybe just make it a bit more gentle, a bit nicer. So take care, and I'll speak to you again tomorrow. Lots of love.

Bye.