#817 Let me bore you to sleep - I USED A HYPNOSIS SCRIPT - Jason Newland (7th APRIL 2022)

Hello, hello, welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name's Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You to Sleep. Please only listen, please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. I should get an introduction, shouldn't I? I should get some kind of a introduction with a tune, a little jingle.

Welcome to jasonnewland.com. Let me bore you to sleep. Something like that. Or maybe something very unlike that.

Completely not like that. So today is Thursday the 7th of April 2022 and I'm making a recording at 3.55pm. I did a recording last night but I didn't actually upload it to the podcast until this morning. Because I went to bed after I made the recording.

I was very, very tired you see. Very, very tired. I'm not, not quite.

Nice cough there. I'm not quite sure why but I've started to go to bed early in the evening. I'm in bed by ten normally.

Half ten. And I wake up between four and six. But I'm usually up about six-ish in the morning.

And it's weird. It's, I don't mind it. In fact, I quite, kind of quite like going to bed early.

It's the complete opposite to how I've been living for the last couple of years where I've been up all night. But I quite like being up all night as well. It's one of those weird things.

What I don't really enjoy is going to bed at two or three. It's, or two o'clock is just a weird time. I just don't seem to enjoy that.

I prefer to go to sleep early or early. You know, early in the morning as in maybe six or seven or early in the evening like say at ten. Just suits me, my friend.

It suits me very well. So yeah, oh, ever so windy today. It's very, very, very, very windy outside.

It's very windy. It's, I can't have the window open because it keeps blowing the kitchen door open. Kitchen door.

And I like to keep the kitchen door closed. So I can't have the window open at the moment. But normally I do.

I have the window open every day. I have all the windows open really. I like to let the air in and the smell out.

Oh, such a pong. I don't, I don't know if the flat stinks. It might stink in here.

But if it does, it's, I don't think it's me. It might be the carpet. I don't know.

I mean, I could get a new carpet. I just can't be bothered with the faffing around of it, of having to move all the furniture and stuff, because that's a chore in itself, which I can't be bothered with. Hmm, I might just get like a really big rug that spreads all the way out that covers most of the floor.

Maybe that would be nice. Add a little bit of extra soundproofing as well. Maybe.

I'm not sure. I'm not sure. I might do.

Yesterday, last night, about eight o'clock, I think it was. No, it wouldn't be eight o'clock. It would have been about seven.

Seven thirty. I spent about 36 minutes making a video and an audio at the same time, podcast, showing pictures from my Photograph album, and then the video stopped. And I think the storage was full in my, on my phone.

So I've gone through and deleted lots of stuff. So hopefully, and I tested it last night to see to make sure that I could record and I recorded an hour of nothing or an hour and 20 minutes of nothing just to make sure they wouldn't cut out and then deleted that video. So hopefully it's going to be fine for future recordings.

And this morning or early afternoon, I did make a video. Which I might, I just made a video without recording it with the podcast microphone, just used the video microphone, which is also a really good mic. It's a Shure microphone.

It's kind of, I mean, technically, the one I use for the podcast is a step above the one that I use for the videos. But it's still a really good mic. It's still a Shure and it's still expensive mic.

It's just this one is a bit more expensive than that one. I know that cost isn't necessarily a requisite for quality, but this one is I think a little bit better than that one. However, I'm very pleased with the sound of the videos now.

It's the best sound I've ever had on any of my videos ever using that microphone. So that's cool. And any editing, when I edit the video that I did earlier, and it was, it was supposed to be a short relaxation session.

And you could question saying whenever I ever done a short anything, and it ended up being half an hour long. So the beginning, I'm saying this is going to be a short recording, that 10 minutes long, and then it's half an hour. But I imagine people can see that it's half an hour long before they start playing it.

But I might call it a 30 minute relaxation, a short 30 minute relaxation session. Maybe the 30 minutes isn't really short, is it? Anyway, what I did is I used the some of the scripts that I've been learning some new scripts that I've been learning. So I was actually reading off the script, not like all the time, just using it as notes as, as memory triggers, you know, just to remind myself of what I'm going to say.

It's not how I normally do it. It's not as you may be aware, I've never really been one to read off a script. But you know, I'm trying to try and improve what I do make it better.

And part of that process is to learn new things and to embrace that learning and not just to learn but also use the new knowledge that I gain from this clinical hypnotherapy course that I started on. And I've got quite a few books with different with scripts, I've got 1000s of scripts that I could use. And maybe I will start using them and adapting them, you know, for myself, adapting them to make them a little bit more vague, because I'm not going to be doing them one on one with people, it's going to be for a group.

However, many people are listening to the recording. So it could be could be hundreds could be 1000s I don't know. So I just yeah, I'm feeling I'm feeling positive about this.

And you know, this part of me that doesn't want to admit to reading a script. Because I never have not never have admitted to it. I just never have really read a script.

I've done some recordings where I knew what I was going to say. In a sense of, I'll give you an example for a pain release session. So I'll have it written down.

So you know, like a little a little map of what I'm going to say. So basically, focusing on the physical sensation, and then allowing it to sort of take a shape. So I'd like take a shape, and then draw out the body in front of you.

Look at it. And so just write that down and then change the color a few times and change the color. And then maybe maybe change the shape.

And maybe turn it into ice and let it drop onto the floor and crumble, you know, as as an example. So I just write down a few bullet points for what that will be. And I'll look at it.

I probably won't look at it while I'm making a recording, but I'll look at it just before I start the recording. So that's for me, that's a little bit different. I'm not I've not got like word for word what I'm going to say.

But what I noticed is reading off the script. There's words that perhaps I could be using more of that. Maybe I don't.

But I'm not sure because I don't listen back to my recordings. Now, when in, so what I'll do today, I'll tell you about the course. So I've not really talked about I've talked about getting there and getting back and everything, but I've not actually spoken about the actual course itself.

And so when I get there part of the course, it's I've got big old white folder with the first, I think first four weekends worth of material. And so, and there's 10, 10 weekends all in all. But I'll get the other the other six weekends, you know, nearer the time.

So I'll probably need two folders to hold all the stuff. And they gave us all a book as well, which is the Art of Hypnosis by Roy Hunter. So that was a, so that's just a gift.

So it wasn't, I don't think it's, no, it's not on the reading list. Otherwise, I'd have bought it because I purchased all the reading books that were on the reading list. There's only a few.

So in the room, it's in this big old building, but the room we're in isn't a big room. It'd probably be bigger if the table wasn't there. And a coat rack.

But you know, you can't really, it's quite difficult to get around everyone when they're sitting down. You have to sort of get up and move your chair to let someone behind you to get to their chair. It's that kind of situation.

But it's okay, because it's a very small group. I've got a tutor. He's the person who's, he's not going to be the tutor every weekend.

But he was a tutor, tutor, tutor, tutor, teacher. He was the tutor on this weekend. And then I think he comes back on the fourth weekend.

So and there's other other teachers that come along on different weekends. He's I think he's the president of the college. He's the I think he's the top person that runs the college.

And apparently, it's changed a bit because it used to be the course I'm doing used to be in two parts. Now they've incorporated it all into one course, one big course. So I think it used to be like four weekends for an introduction, and then to hypnosis and everything and then another eight months for the diploma.

So this is I think they've incorporated into a year. So all those weekends all in together. So I'm covering the introduction part at the moment.

Which I you know, I do. I think it's fair to say I have quite a thorough groundwork of introductions of hypnosis. This is still interesting.

It's still nice to sort of rehear things and, you know, get a different perspective of it. And it's I think for me, it's, it's about not going in with the mentality of I know, I know everything, because I don't know everything. But I'm going to know a fair bit of what I learned already.

But ultimately, I've chosen to be there. So I need to just, you know, remember that yes, I'm going to hear stuff that I already know. But I'm also going to hear new stuff.

And it's, yeah, it's cool. Honestly, it is. So there is the first part was just this five of us students, the tutor and the teaching teacher, the teaching, not teaching teacher, like a teaching assistant.

And I think she's training to be the tutor, or a tutor, a teacher. So she's quite good, because you know, five people, which meant because there was an odd number of people for the practice sessions, the teaching assistant paired up with one of the other people. So at the end of the weekend, we'd all had a chance to work with each other.

So without her would have made it uneven. So but at the end, on, well, one of the people is not coming back, one of the students is not returning for the next weekend, which means alone, it's only gonna be four of us. So it's, it's a very small group, I've never been in a group that small before.

Apart from in a training, like an induction training with a, for a company, I've been in a group with four people or five people. Yeah, I think it was five of us, maybe six, they're still tiny. Most trainings I've been in this usually, especially with the hypnosis trainings is usually like 20 2030 people.

I've been in groups which have been a big, big old room and it's been full. There's been at least 3540 people there. And I like that.

I don't know why I just, I do like it. It's quite nice. And it takes a while to get to know people.

But it just makes it a bit more. It's just different. I guess it's no right or wrong.

It's no, I guess not one's better than the other. I just never, never been such a small group. And I mean, the benefit, a friend of mine said to benefit, you'll, you'll learn more because you, you get, I suppose you have to get feedback, get a lot more quicker feedback.

It's a lot more personal. But it's nice to have it not be so personal sometimes. I mean, it almost feels like the tutor and the teacher's assistant.

It's almost like they're students as well. Like they're part of it. I know they are part of it, but it kind of almost felt like they were like part of the students because it was so small.

And if that sounds weird, I think I understand why I think yeah, it also kind of how it felt a little bit like we're all in it together. And what other stuff, what other stuff? Yeah, so we go into the training, sat down always early, handed us the books, you know, the folders, had to sign in. And started off, I can actually tell you, I can go through what we what we studied if you want.

I will look through my little book. I can move this over there. Well, they are.

Okay, move that there. That's it. Yeah.

Some of it's out of order, because the scripts I've actually taken out and put in the front. Because I have to learn them, man. I have to be able to, I have to be able to do it without looking.

Which you might think, well, it should be easy for me because I've been doing hypnosis recordings for 16 years without looking at anything. But it's different. I don't know why it's just it's, I like to do things correctly.

I like to do it properly. And yeah, just have a drink. So the contents of the weekend.

Welcome, that's page one. And then we go through things like the different states, different trance states, talking about the mind, different types of relaxation recordings, not recordings, our scripts. Factors influencing induction and self-hypnosis, stress management, teaching self-hypnosis.

So we did that. And we did some self-hypnosis in the group. And then some other stuff like hand levitation, difference between authoritarian and indirect suggestions, preparing your client and dealing with resistance to induction.

And then, yeah, so that was the first, that was weekend one. That's it, so I've gone through it. So we did the first song we did is we paired up and did a progressive relaxation, which is something that I've been, I guess I'm probably done the most of during my time doing this is during my time online.

I guess the progressive relaxation focusing on different parts of the body, relaxing the different parts of the body, counting down all that stuff I've done hundreds and hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of times. Thousands of times, probably. But I was sticking to the script.

So I was very kind of a little bit nervous. I'm used to just doing it into a microphone. No one else around.

I can sit here in my thong. And no, you know, can't do that when there's someone else in the room. No, I mean, I was told I can't do that.

On the training course, I had to take the thong. I said, I got to take the thong off. He said, no, just put something over the thong.

And they said, no, not a hat. You got to put your clothes on. So okay, all right, you need to be specific, clean language, you need to be clear.

And um, apparently, I was quite good. So the person that listened to me that I was, so we took turns, I was the therapist, and the other person was the client. And I was the operator.

That's another operating person was the client. So I went first and they went, I spent 15 minutes and they said, you've only got 10. I said, oops, sorry.

Now, the funny thing about it is, when you do this with a real client, it should take 20 minutes. So it was very hard because there's a lot of it's like saying certain words when the person breathes out. So I can only go as fast as they're breathing.

And the more relaxed we would get the slower they're breathing is. But I didn't bring that up, I might write that in my notes, my feedback. And so I was trying to do what they said to do.

But at the same time, with a time restriction, and I understand the reason for the time restrictions is so that both people get a chance to do it and to practice and to move on to the next thing they have to teach. Because it was a lot to get in until the day. So after that, I did stick to the time, I went over by a minute on the next one.

And I started setting a timer on my phone so I could see. And I felt like I was rushing through it sometimes, which I didn't feel comfortable doing. Because I'm not sure if you've noticed, I'm not a rusher.

I don't rush. I don't rush anything. Everything's slow for me.

It's, it's a gift and a curse probably. Probably annoying for other people sometimes. How slowly I walk or I just, I just not, I don't rush around.

I value calmness and relaxation more now than I ever did when I was younger. And it makes a difference to me as a person. I just feel it.

It improves my life. After all those years of stress and you know, anxiety, panic attacks, all that stuff. For me now, I take my time and I talk slowly.

I don't always think slowly, if I'm honest, I do. I think a little bit quicker than I talk. Sometimes I think slowly, but my brain does go quite quickly sometimes.

But I like to try and slow my brain down as well. I like to try and slow my thoughts down, but not to the point of just being stale. You know, you need, I don't want to be like a little smelly pond where everything's slow, nothing happens.

And it's just, you know, I need that water oxygenated. I need, you know, I need water pumping. I need the, the rain coming down and getting some action going on.

So I need my brain working. I need the mind working, but in a more precisive way, precisive. I'm trying, I'm thinking of the word of precision.

I'm more gentle, but clearer, I guess, oiled, well-oiled is kind of what I'm saying. I like it to, to be working, but not against me. I want it to work with me.

Self-hypnosis is, is something that I used to use a lot. I'll talk about this actually another time. And I've got quite a bit to say about self-hypnosis.

I have, it's something I used a lot in my younger days and it helped so much. It really did. It actually is amazing stuff.

However, I've never really talked about it. I've never really taught it. And you know, that's the one thing I feel like I should just not tell anyone about the me going on a training course, because almost like I'm a student now, how can I teach anyone anything? I'm a student.

I'm not a teacher. Now I've never pretended to be a teacher. I never wanted to be a teacher and I don't teach anything.

I pass on ideas. I give suggestions and I give ideas. So I don't tell anyone what they should do or even say that this is, you know, this is something you might like to try for yourself.

You know, going back to some previous recordings for the, I don't know, the relaxation and relaxation hypnosis for stress, anxiety, panic attacks, for example, that podcast, some of those recordings will just be ideas, just ideas to maybe take on board. I sometimes I'll demonstrate physically or verbally, depending if it's a video or audio, a technique that either I've, that I know of, learnt or maybe even made up. But again, I'm not teaching, I'm just sharing.

I think that's the difference. And I'll always be a student. I'll always be a student, whether I'm at college or university or not.

I'll still be a student. I still like to learn. I'm still interested in learning more about psychotherapy and still interested in learning more about the brain.

And my study in hypnosis will never be finished because it's just going to be continuous. I'm never going to teach. I don't want to teach hypnosis to anyone.

I don't, I can, I can show and demonstrate self-hypnosis techniques. I'm not going to, I'm not, I'm not a teacher. Does that, does that make sense? I'm no one's teacher.

I'm just, I just pass on what I learn. I try and share what I learn. So I'll read a book on a pain relief or something.

And I can use some of that information in a new recording that I do. Or I can incorporate it, or I can change. I could sometimes see something and think, oh, I can change that and create something new out of it.

And which is how a lot of inventions are, except my inventions, well, I don't read classmates' inventions. It's just an idea. I'm just waffling on now, aren't I? I'm waffling.

The first, on Saturday, we did the progression, the progressive relaxation. I think that was the first one we did. I think it's the only thing we did.

I think, I think, and I might be wrong. Maybe we did the eye fixation as well. Yeah.

So we did two, two inductions. And by the Saturday afternoon, I was very, I was very stressed, actually, at the time. I'd been up since two o'clock that morning.

And I was very tired. And I was all over the place, really. I was just, I was completely shattered.

At the end, when I left at five o'clock, I just said bye and walked out. And just, you know, there's no niceties or chatting. It was just like, see ya.

I didn't say we wouldn't want to be here, but I said it in my head. And just left. And in my head, I wasn't coming back.

Because I just wasn't in a great space. I just had enough. I was so tired.

And I just wanted out of there. I wanted to be home. And what's weird is, I've noticed this three times now, in the last year, three times.

The feeling is I want to, I want to come home and appreciating what I've got, like my home. The first time, actually, it's not the first time, but before, I never used to leave Andre on his own. I did twice.

But that wasn't through, I wasn't going to. The first time, I went to London. And I stayed overnight.

And I came back because a friend of mine was visiting from London, from America. So we came back and Andre was still a little baby really. He was, yeah, he was still little.

He was always little, but he was, you know, super little back then. And I never left him on his own. Like overnight.

I'd only had him for probably about two months. And came home and he'd wrecked the place. Absolutely wrecked the place.

Ripped, ripped the city apart. Honestly, you wouldn't, he really went to town. I don't know if he was angry that I wasn't here.

Or I don't know if he missed me or if he thought I wasn't coming back or he just didn't care. I don't know. But he really went to town.

And because I, I suppose I shouldn't have done it. But I locked, I closed the the living room door. So he couldn't get out.

So he was free. He wasn't in a cage. He had water, he had plenty of food.

He had everything that he needed. But he was in one room. But it's a big room.

It's not, it's like a mansion to him. You think about it, a little ferret, loads of room. But he just destroyed it.

Absolutely destroyed it. So we come home and we get in. I leave off early in the morning to go to the airport in London.

And then we get back. And we stayed in. No, wait a minute.

You know what? I don't think I even left him overnight. I think I left in the morning early and I got back early hours of the morning the next day. Or got back, I don't know, 11, 12 o'clock.

So he wasn't on the air, he didn't, it wasn't overnight. I'm pretty sure it wasn't overnight. Anyway, he wrecked the place.

But going back to what I was originally saying is, there's going to come a time when I talk about Andre and people aren't going to know what I'm talking about, or who I'm talking about. Maybe there's some people that are listening now that don't know. Oh, well.

Well, who is Andre? I'm not going to tell you. You don't know. Not telling you, not telling you.

He was my little boy. So I, I, I, I, I, last year in June, end of June, July time, I went to not Poland, where did I go to? Cornwall, Cornwall. And I was so grateful to get home.

And just, it's just so nice just to get back. It was a heck of a journey, a really long car journey. And I was so relieved just to get home and to be able to be in my own bed again.

And you know, it was just, just beautiful. And the second time was when I visited my dad, I stayed in a hotel for two nights, three nights. And I just wanted to come home.

And when I got back, I was so relieved, just so relieved to be home. The thing is, when I got back, I turned the heating off completely. Only for two days.

Or three days. Yeah, okay. Three days, the heating was off.

And it was like, it was ice. It was absolutely very cold. Absolutely very cold in here.

It was absolutely, it was terribly, terribly, mildly cold. It was very cold. Turn the heating on full.

It made no difference. It literally took about six hours in order for the flat to heat up. Admittedly, I had all the windows open because the place stunk, which I didn't understand where the smell was coming from, because it didn't smell like that when I left.

And I don't think my flat stinks like that. And if it did, I wouldn't, well, I know they say you can go nose blind and you can not smell where, you know, you get used to a smell in that. But that was a horrible smell.

It wasn't, I'd like to think that if anyone came into my home, they would tell me that it stinks. Now, don't tell me what happened, Andre, because that was, I'd take offence. You know, your ferret stinks.

Don't talk about Andre like that. I had a couple of people try it and I'm like, no, there's a line. There's a line you ain't crossing.

Don't say anything bad about my boy. You know, I mean, realistically, I know that ferrets can be a bit smelly, but I always just say, yeah, he smells better than you, mate. And people don't like that for some reason.

And the amount of people when I stop saying, how long do they live for? I say, how long do your kids live for? How long are your kids gonna, when your kid's gonna die? Like, oh, yeah, exactly. Ask someone that and walk up and say you don't say that to people that have dogs. How long do your dogs live for? Of course you don't.

It's just a wrong thing to say. It's like when an old person dies. People have to say the same thing to that.

Oh, she had a good inning. She was 95. My nan pointed out that, I learned a lot from my nan.

She pointed that out to me. She said, when her, both her brother and her sister died in the same week, back in 2009, I think it was, no, 2008. In the same week.

How crazy is that? And people were saying to her, oh, well, I had a good inning. She was 89 and she was 93. She said, no, doesn't make it any better for me.

They're my brother and sister. If anything, the longer you know someone, the harder it is when they pass away. You spent 90 years knowing someone for 90 years.

You know, in some ways you're probably more attached to them emotionally. That's like a part of yourself, isn't it? I guess. I don't know why I'm thinking it's like a Veruca, but that's part of yourself.

It's like piles. My family's like piles. So, yeah.

Oh, people tried that with my nan. Oh, she had a good life though. Good innings.

95. I almost felt like just acting silly, like jumping up and down. You're right.

That's brilliant. She had a goal. That doesn't matter.

I'm not upset anymore. Thanks for saying that and start doing cartwheels down the road. Like, I don't know, or like have a little bag full of fireworks I can set off in the sky.

Just like, oh, you're right. Don't know why I'm getting upset. Oh, let them pull it.

Let the fireworks off. Okay, I'll come down now. I'm back.

On the Sunday. So I got home on a Saturday, eventually. On a Saturday night, I didn't, I weren't going back.

It wasn't really anything to do with the course. It was to do with just the travel. I didn't enjoy the traveling.

The getting up so early in the morning and all that stuff. But in reality, I got up at two o'clock in the morning on Saturday morning, and I didn't need to. I needed to be up by five.

I woke up at two, went to bed early, woke up at two. I was so worried that I was going to sleep, oversleep, or wouldn't be able to get up out of bed when the alarm went off. That I just stayed up.

It might have been a good move. I'm never going to know. It might have been a really good idea.

But I ended up going. I basically, I got that tunnel vision and just did it. Just walked, just walked out the door, put my coat on, put my coat on first actually, then walked out the door and then just kept walking to the train station.

All the time thinking, what am I doing? Why am I doing this? And it was almost like I gave my, my feet and legs a command to follow. And the rest of my body and mind was thinking, what's going on? Where are we going? So I ended up, you know, getting there Saturday evening when I got home. But I was so relieved to get back.

And I can't remember. No, I had a a pasty that I got from Liverpool Street Station. And I ate that when I got home.

And a couple of cakes, I think that I had. And I, and I got the boxing, boxing was on. So I watched that.

I was very tired. I had to go to bed. I had to go to bed probably about an hour after I'd had something to eat.

I was like, oh, I can't stay up anymore. I'm going to miss the boxing, never mind. And I laid down, I couldn't have been more than like 20 minutes and I was up again.

I was fine. So like a miniature power nap. And suddenly I was awake again.

So I came and watched the rest of the boxing. I was in bed, but then I wasn't tired to go to bed. I was wired.

Almost probably because of the day I'd had and I'd seen more people. Just on that Saturday. I'm talking about the five people that I saw, talking about generally in London, more people than I'd seen for years combined.

And it was just a little bit, a bit overstimulated maybe. And I thought, then when I was watching the boxing, I started to feel better. I started to, after I had my tiny little nap, I started to feel good.

I started to feel accomplished. Like I'd actually accomplished something because I turned up at this course. I'd done it.

I'd come home. I, you know, ticked all the boxes for the day. And, you know, I've enrolled on courses in the past and just not turned up or gone cancelled or whatever.

I, you know, I accomplished something in my mind and I felt good about it. And it's weird because I started looking forward to not going on the Sunday, but I started looking forward to getting home. And what I was going to do when I got home, because Peaky Blinders was on at nine o'clock and I've started watching Vikings on Amazon Prime or Amazon TV, whatever.

And I'm really into it now. So I'm into the second series and I started to think, I'm looking forward to getting home because it was on a bit of a cliffhanger. So I was waiting.

I think, oh, what's going to happen next? And I started looking forward to getting home to find out what happens next with Vikings. And it was a weird, weird feeling because I wasn't so much thinking about the course as in thinking about how good I'd feel having turned up and attended the second day of the weekend and done all that and then got home. I started to sort of get in touch with the feeling I'd have at the end of the day, something to look forward to.

I mean, some might say, why would you not look forward to doing the course? Now, I have been looking forward to it and I'm looking, I'm kind of looking forward to the second weekend, quite a little bit. Hopefully closer to it, I'll look forward to it more. But this got me to go.

This got me to, I didn't go to bed till probably midnight and I woke up early and went back to bed. So I woke up about five, went back to bed and I caught a train that would get me there just on time without any spare money. I like to get to places early, but I thought, no, it's Sunday, I'll get there just on time.

And I was about two minutes late, which is okay with me. Or because I told them the day before that I might be late because of the trains and stuff. The taxi couldn't go directly to the venue from the train station because it was blocked off for the half marathon.

So I had to walk for about 10 minutes to get to the place. So I'd have been there early otherwise. So on the second day, we did a couple more techniques and there was one where I had to, it's basically, it's called refractionation.

Refractionation? Fractionation? Where is it? Stress? Fractionation. Fractionation. And I've done it before on recordings where I ask close your eyes and I count down, then I get to open your eyes again and close your eyes, count down, open your eyes again and keep doing that until the person can't open their eyes anymore.

And then it's very, go very deep with that quite quickly. And you get to the point where you just, you don't want to open your eyes, but to the point where you just kind of can't anymore. It's just, no.

Thinking about it makes me want to close my eyes. And when you, when we did it in person, because I can't do this on a recording, but in person, when I opened my eyes the first time after, you know, I sort of say just think, just let your mind be however it is. Think about whatever you're thinking about.

When I opened my eyes, I asked tell me what you were thinking about. And then I get to close your eyes again and I incorporate what they told me into, so they get deeper, so that I embellish upon it. Then I get them to open their eyes again and they tell me more.

And then I do the same, embellish upon that again. Now I struggled a little bit with this because, well, I thought I struggled in a sense of, well, what do I say? Because I'm usually not quite that descriptive with my recordings. I have to purposely make them quite vague sometimes, because I'm catering for lots of people of all situations.

So I can't, I can't do this and say, now think back to that fireplace, because you might not have been thinking about a fireplace. Or, you know, it's, it's, it's very different in person. And I haven't done hypnosis with people in person for a long time.

A long time, I can't even remember the last time, probably eight years ago. So yeah, it's a long time. I've done thousands of recordings, but I've not done a like a one-on-one with someone that I can remember for a long time.

So it's very different. It's in some ways, I guess it's a lot easier because you can see with your eyes, you can, you can see what's going on. You can see by the right movements underneath the eyelids, by the color of the skin, perhaps by their posture, by their breathing, all that stuff, you can see kind of how they're getting on.

If they're going deeper and, you know, can't do that over the internet on an audio recording. And after that, they said any feedback? And I said, yeah, I struggled a little bit with that. And, um, both the teacher and the teacher assistant said that they thought I did brilliantly because I did incorporate what was going on and what she said.

And I incorporated also what was going on in the background and everything. And they said that I did those really impressed. I might be, am I exaggerating? I don't think I'm exaggerating.

They might not have said impressed. They might not have said brilliantly. Adequate is quite similar to brilliant, isn't it? Poorly isn't that was very bad.

I was very, I was very poor. Isn't that very, very similar to brilliant? No. Anyway.

So, yeah, I've, um, today, because I did that. So now Thursday, I had to take a few days off where I didn't look at anything. I kind of started looking at some of the stuff yesterday or Wednesday, Monday, Tuesday.

I didn't know. Yesterday, I organized my books. So I spent a few hours doing that, sorting the books into categories.

I've got a nice book collection now and still got a few to come. I still got lots to order over the next few months. But yeah, it's coming together and I've got a lot to work with, but I got a lot of work to do as well.

So part of the thing is we've got a Google Classroom and there's all these things I've got to do. And so I had a quiz that I had to do a test and I got a nine out of nine. So that was good.

Yay. Although I could search through the answers online if I wanted to. And what that got me doing is actually researching because of something and I don't remember that.

And they didn't even mention that on the course, whether it's they didn't get a chance to, you know, they skipped through it. And and there's stuff to read as video to watch, which lasted for, I don't know, 14 minutes. So I watched that and that's about inductions.

Yes, there's a lot to do, a lot to read and the scripts to learn. So, yeah, I'm trying to do it. It's so easy just to not do anything, you know, just like put it off and I want to make recordings.

But at the same time, you know, part of part of the whole point of me doing this new course is so as to improve my hypnosis recordings. The quality of the content and to broaden maybe out what I do so I can do more smoking, stop smoking stuff, maybe weight loss. Maybe even like improvement of sporting golf, things like that.

I don't know. So I feel the only thing I won't do is probably that I'm not really, I'm not particularly interested, although I've got I've got books on the subject is past life stuff like regression. I'm not really doesn't really interest me to do something like that.

But the birthing, the the hypno birthing and that's that's interesting. And the gastric band, hypnotic gastric band thing. So what I might do is I'm not sure if that's going to be part of this course or not.

So I haven't got that information for the whole course. I've only got the first four weekends on here. Oops, the first weekend, no first three weekends, not four, it's three weekends.

So the first three weekends. Wow, there's lots more induction, blimey. Oh, there's one, this is not a bad one, because it's counselling skills, one, two, three, three bits on counselling skills, which should be fairly okay with me, considering I've got a degree in counselling, I should be all right with that.

If I can remember any of it. Wait a minute, he's got a nod and say, how does that make you feel? Yeah, sure. That's what counselling is.

No. So 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8. So that's it really, that's that's where I am with all this boring stuff. So the next weekend is the end of April.

And I'll be back in London, be back in London, London. Maybe I'll try and stay in a hotel this time. If I can find one that's close, close, close, close, close to the venue, because if I've got to travel across London, then I might as well just come home.

If I've got to travel, I might as well just travel anyway. So we'll see, I'll see what I can find online. And I just need a room.

I don't as long as got a shower. I don't need anything else. I don't need anything particularly exciting.

Don't need breakfast, I can get breakfast in a coffee house. And yeah, so I need just a room, ideally with a television so I can watch television, I suppose, in the evening. But what would be ideal really is to stay three nights.

So stay the Friday night so I can get there Saturday easy, Saturday night so I can get there Sunday easy without travelling. And just stay Sunday night because I'll be exhausted. And just travel back on the Monday.

And that would be probably more of an ideal situation. And I'm not turning the heating off. Mind you, it's end of April, beginning of May, I might not need the heating on.

So in fact, I didn't even turn the heating off, like I turned it down very low, didn't turn it off completely. And it still was so cold, so cold, which is weird, because it was a level that it should have come on. If it was cold, it seemed too cold for it not to come on.

But maybe because it was so cold outside, and with the windows open, it's just impossible. Because let's face it, wherever the radio is, the worst possible place near the window. In it.

So that's it. I mean, I don't know where else I can if I should stop talking about this course now just the thing is, this is what I'm learning. This is what I'm doing.

This is what's going on in my life at this moment. What I might do is, I don't know, we'll just see, go each day, each day at a time in it, each day, one day at a time. I'd like to do a video, or maybe an audio and just go through my book collection.

Just go through the different books I've got. I guess that'd be a fairly small, I don't know, a good one to be videoed. But I'll do it as an audio as well.

Or if the audio turns out okay on the video I made earlier, so I can extract the audio from the video during the editing process. That opens up some possibilities. But I'm thinking that I don't know if I want to bother, I think with the Let Me Boy To Sleep, I might just keep them as recordings, audios, and not post them on YouTube as videos.

I don't know. I just prefer, I prefer to make it a recording without video if I'm honest. This just suits me, not having a camera focused on me.

I prefer it just the audio, just my voice. It's a personal preference I guess. Anyway, I'm going to go.

So thank you for listening. I will return tomorrow. I will try and do these every day now.

So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you deserve to be happy. Think of all the people that you've helped along the way.

People that you might not, you might even know that you've helped them, but you have. You said a kind word on a day when that person really needed to hear that kind word. Or you showed a kindness, smiled maybe.

We all affect each other, sometimes in profoundly, profound ways that we don't even, we'll never know. So guaranteed 100% that you've helped people and you'll never know how much you helped them. And you may have only met them once.

You have had a profound effect positively on other people's lives. So yeah, you deserve to be happy. So, you know, take it easy on yourself.

None of us are perfect. So be gentle with yourself. It's just a suggestion, it's not a command.

I'm not telling you what to do. If I could tell you what to do, I would tell you to be gentle with yourself. Lots of love.

Bye.