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Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com My name is Jason Newland and this is let me bore you to sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. I just realized that the the plug sockets on the wall are not straight.
I'm not talking sexuality, I'm talking they're they're kind of a weird angle. Never noticed it before because at the moment well now I've got a table, a desk which is straight and I can see in comparison that it's not. I wonder why that is? Anybody got any suggestions please email me because I need some help.
Hi, how you all doing? Are you all right? It is Tuesday the 21st of September 2021. It is. Got no messages to read out or anything like that.
It's been quite a busy day. Quite busy, quite, quite, quite, quite busy. I've done a few recordings.
How many have I done today? Blimey. All I seem to do is make recordings. And one, two, three, four.
So this is the fifth recording. I did a bedtime story, Jason's bedtime story time. I did a deep sleep whisper hypnosis.
I did a daily relax and sleep hypnosis. No, daily relax and sleep hypnosis. Yeah.
Was it sleep hypnosis and relaxation daily? Something like that. And I did boring, I thought it was boning, boring objects. Can he read me all night in? So I'm well behind with my website.
I started last night and this morning trying to kind of update and put images on the podcasts and share them on Facebook and make website pages and add the podcast to the website. Wow, wow, wow, wow, wow, wow. That's really boring.
It's really tedious. It's I think it's because when it's so many today and there are loads and I'm almost I'm outracing myself as it were. I'm too far ahead of myself.
So but just I got an email from my internet company telling me that the internet will possibly be down for two days on the 24th and 25th of September. And it's the 21st today. So was that Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, so Friday and Saturday.
I might not have any recordings to upload. Blimey, so I guess that'll give me a couple of days to catch up. Although there is a way around it.
I do have. So I've got internet mobile internet on one, two, three different devices. And I've got wireless like wireless broadband, which I can have on as many devices as I want.
But it's slow, very, very slow. However, for a couple of days, I could probably get by. It just means spending three, four times the amount of time in the process of uploading.
However, I guess I could upload while I was doing other stuff. So it's not like I have to just sit here and upload and watch it uploading. There's always things to do.
What I normally my normal process is once I've made the recording, I edit it straight away. And then I what do I do? I upload it. And I use the iPhone and the iPad to upload.
But the iPad is still in the process of doing stuff of downloading the audios that I've been editing. So anyway, so I can't use the iPad and straight away. So I upload the first few because I shared them with different podcasts.
So anyway, that's a really boring, yet vague description of what I do. So doing it on two different, using two different bits of equipment to upload is useful. Although I came unstuck earlier.
No, I came stuck. Not unstuck, I became stuck. I basically I made a recording, it was the Jason's Bedtime Storytime.
And it was I forget it was the the Naked Elves and the Lazy Shoemaker, something like that. So I did a recording. And then I go to upload it.
And it won't upload. It won't upload on the iPad, it won't upload on the phone. And I can't figure out why.
It's really bugging me. And I'm thinking, Oh, no. Oh, no.
It's the end. Oh, what am I gonna do? I wasn't sure. Was it the internet? Was it the mobile data? So I've got unlimited, so it shouldn't be an issue.
It was it did it cut off of the What was it? Was it the podcast, but then I've only just paid for that a few days ago. So that's not an issue. And then I started thinking, Well, is it is it was it I iCloud, that's it was it iCloud.
Maybe I haven't paid for that. Maybe they tried to take money out of my bank wasn't in it. There was nothing there.
So they've stopped me from using the iCloud. I looked onto iCloud couldn't see anything. So what I started doing is moving the podcasts files from iCloud onto the actual device.
Because then it made a difference. It's not using iCloud. But then that didn't work.
I was getting very frustrated. I almost felt like sending some random person a Facebook message. And then on on sending it or something, you know, just just like, then a little bit and then just take it back before they read it.
I just like, Oh, I was in that kind of mood. But you know what it was? It turns out the title was too long. That's all it was.
The title was too damn long. I couldn't believe it. And what makes it sillier is this has happened before.
The exact same thing in the past. So I need to stick a big sign on the wall saying, check length of title. Just for future reference in case I have the same issue occur, which is probably will probably will occur again in the future.
And I'll just like be flummoxed like what's going on? What's going on? Why is it all gone wrong? So I know that a lot of you are listening thinking, okay, it's nice to hear about that. And you know, it's good. But what we really want to know is the stats.
Tell us the stats, JJ. Okay. I don't like talking about it, as you know.
But I'll give you the last two days stats. Or yesterday's stats. Okay, was it Sunday? Saturday, I had 13,308 downloads.
Sunday, I had 13,898 downloads. Monday, which was yesterday, 18,105 downloads. And today, there's still two hours left of the day.
So the day's not ended yet. Plus, I'll be uploading this in an hour, hour and 10 minutes or whatever. So there'll be these as well.
But so far today, 18,134 downloads. And I spent about four hours not being able to upload anything trying to figure out what's going on. So that kind of not well, it's not so much it helped me back but the recordings I did weren't uploaded at the time that they should have been.
Which means in the last 30 days, in the last month, I've had 344,011 downloads. Now, I thought I'd do a little bit of research. What is the average download for a podcast? And I don't believe this, but I read it on a few different websites.
And they said if you get more than 27 downloads on your podcast episode, then you're in the in you're in the top 50% of podcasters straight away. 27. So I realized my 18,000 is spread out among different podcasts.
So it's not not just all one podcast. However, my most popular podcast of all of them is the relaxation hypnosis for stress, anxiety and panic attacks. And on that one, I've got, I kind of share all my stuff really on there.
Anything to do with relaxation is shared. And in the last 30 days, I've had 123,462 downloads. And yesterday I had 7,516.
Today so far 6,530 downloads. So that's a lot more than I get on any of my other podcasts. So you may think, why are you telling me? I don't care.
I'm telling you because I know you really do care. I know everyone's interested. I know no one cares, but I care.
So I'm going to talk about why I want to talk about. So there. Right, I'll stop talking about the stats now.
I think what I'm not going to stop talking, I'm going to continue. I'm going to continue. Do you know my goal for years? I'm talking years for three years.
My, not my overall goal, but my, um, a target I really wanted to reach was 10,000 downloads a day. And it took me years and years to get to that. Years and years and years and, you know, three years to get to that point.
And once I got to the 10,000, getting above it just seemed to be easier. It just, 12,000 came, the next 2,000 or 3,000 came so much quicker than the previous 2,000 or 3,000. I don't quite understand.
I don't. I'm not on many lists of top 10 either or top 20 podcasts. I'm on a couple, but none of the big lists, you know, none of the, uh, if you look in top relaxation podcasts, if you Google that, I'm nowhere to be seen.
I'm not even known. I'm an, I'm an unknown quantity. And I was like, why? Can you imagine how many people I'd get listening if anybody even knew that I existed? You, who's listening, you're the only person that knows I exist.
It's just you, one person. And you listen to me 18,000 times a day. Blimey.
You must be very relaxed. I was really relaxed. Oh, yes.
See, that's strange. So today, I'm pretty sure I'm going to hit 20,000 downloads by the end of the day, by 1.30 in the morning. It's 11.30 now.
Oh, wow. I've never done that. This is this is going to be the most successful day I've ever had.
Yesterday was my successful day. Now this day is going to be more. I'm just like, I don't know.
It might sound weird. This might sound weird to you. But oh, that was nice.
That might sound weird to you. But I I just get excited. I don't mean, you know, grippily excited.
I mean, just I just I don't know. It's exciting. It's kind of not knowing.
Not knowing like, oh, am I going to be? Because it's all it is. It's the only competition I have is me. In reality, it's all I'm just competing against myself against my last top day.
I mean, I could try and compete with other people, but I don't know what stats other people have. There's no well, I've not found a website that shows the statistics for podcasts. Maybe there is.
Let me just check. YouTube stats. Because there's a website you can check YouTube stats on.
Shut up. YouTube stats. It's called Social Blade.
So Social Blade for podcasts. Wow. Social Blade does podcasts as well.
No. No, I don't think they do. It's YouTube.
They do. Membership. Social Blade.
Cost compare. Top list. Social Blade.
Supported platforms. YouTube, Twitter, Instagram. There's no podcast.
Why are they lying to me? It's a lie. Yeah. Oh, maybe.
Wow. I think this is YouTube channels that have podcasts. Top 25 YouTube users tagged with podcast.
See. Official podcasts, real time subscriber count. It's a lie.
There's nothing there. Official podcast, 52. YouTube subscriber.
No, there's nothing. There's no way. Yeah, there's nothing.
I'm looking. I'm listening. I'm still with you.
Don't worry. No. There's nothing that I can find.
And I have looked for podcast stats so I can spy on other people and find out what their statistics are. There's nothing. And it'd be nice to see that.
The only person really that's got probably the most attention is Joe Rogan. And he gets millions and millions of downloads for each podcast. I think he gets, I'm sure I remember reading about 300,000, 300 million downloads, podcast downloads a month.
Which makes my poultry 23. I'm very low indeed. I don't know how many, how many did I say I get? 300,000 or whatever.
So no, I can't remember. I don't care. I've lost interest now.
I don't care. Who cares? I keep having to take my glasses off. It's so annoying.
You're annoying. You are. You are.
You're more annoying. 344,000 downloads the last 30 days. Compare that to 300 million.
But hey, I'm not famous. I know I'm not getting paid 50 million or a hundred million dollars a year to do a podcast. So, you know, he's, he's getting paid huge money.
Huge. I think he has something like a hundred million a year or something. Crazy.
I'd happily do it for 10% of that. I could live on 10 mil, 10 million. Just about enough to get by.
Just about. Wow. The thing is, if I, if I had 300 million downloads a month, I don't even, I don't even think of it that way.
I don't think of like, that's what I want. My, my ultimate goal really would be a million a day, million downloads a day. That's kind of, that would be the ultimate.
So I'd be getting in a year what he gets in a month. But it's still a huge amount. You know, 360 million downloads a year is huge.
But it's not really about that. It's just, it's a nice number. It's a nice even number for a day.
But I'm a little way off. The way I see it, if I can get 20,000, I can get 50,000. You know, eventually, I don't mean like this week, but eventually if I can get 20,000 a day, then 50,000 isn't that, it's not unrealistic.
If I can get 50,000, then I can get 100,000. Again, it's not that unrealistic once I'm at that kind of level. And then if I can get 100,000, there's no reason why I can't get a million.
Eventually, because you know, 10% there. Or maybe if I can get 100,000, I can get 200,000. And once I'm 200,000, I'll just go the same route, I can get 500,000.
And if I can get 500,000, I'm boring myself. But yeah, you see where I'm going with that. But yeah, so it's like, okay, I'm talking about it, but I'm celebrating.
I'm kind of celebrating in my own little, in my own little brain. A pea sized brain. My head is like a pea shooter.
My scalp is a little pea stuck in it. And that's my brain. I think celebrating positive things is I think it's a good thing to do.
Actually, I've not done anything to celebrate. I've not gone out, I've got no money, I haven't really got anything to go out with or anywhere to go. But I'd quite like to have celebrated by going to the pub maybe or doing something a little bit different.
Go kart riding, paintballing, watching elderly people bungee jumping. You know, just something that would be funny. Something to, just something to mark the occasion, you know.
Do you know what I mean? You get me? Yes. So I don't know. I guess I'm just gonna have to wait until I reach maybe 30,000 and maybe celebrate that.
Because 20,000 is now done. So, once I reach 30,000, maybe do a special, special dance. I don't know.
I don't know. I'm not sure. I've got no one to celebrate it with.
I want to just, you know, I just like, oh, this is good. Look, look what I've done. Look what I've accomplished.
And there's no one that cares. There's no one. If I phoned up my dad, guess what, I got 20,000 downloads today.
He'd be like, uh-huh. And he'd be like, tell me, yeah, and I fixed the fence in the garden. Honestly, this is, there's, he's both not interested and doesn't understand what I'm doing or why I'm doing it and why I've spent 16 years of my life doing it.
Just doesn't, but doesn't care either. There's just a lack of interest. But it's not, you can't make yourself interested in something.
You're just not interested at all. Not one little bit. And it's weird because when I had Andre, the only two things that I was interested in, in my life was this and him.
And however boring it might seem, they were the only two things I really wanted to talk about. And nobody wanted to listen. That's why I did the podcast, Captive Audience.
But no one, you know, no one, I've got a couple of friends that are mildly interested, but most people are interested in themselves, are interested in their own life and what they're doing, and that's natural. So I'm not judging anyone for that because it's natural. They've got their own lives.
But I just, it'd be nice to share this with someone, to share the, the success after such a long, long time. All those thousands and thousands of hours working on this stuff. All those Saturday evenings in front of the computer, building a website or doing something to help promote what I'm doing or making videos or whatever it was I was doing.
All those redesigning of the website. I must have redesigned my website hundreds of times. It's just, and I guess the thousands of hours of recording as well.
All for what? All for what, man? All for what? So I can tell a bunch of strangers, I've had 20,000 downloads. Although I have never, I have had 18,000. And no one's interested.
I'm going into self-pity. I'm going to start crying in a minute. Oh, I've got an itchy nose.
So yeah, it's good. I'm pretty pleased. I'm very pleased with the way I managed to get the sound back when I got that.
Um, I forget what it is. It's too far away for me to read it, but it's on the other side of the desk. Having, having this space now, the two desks and the table that I had before, having things spread out, one chair and I can just turn it and I'm at the other desk.
It's really good. It's, I don't know why I didn't do it earlier. I could have done this six years ago.
Saying that though, I couldn't because as soon as I had Andre, he'd be on here. He'd be on the desk. It'd be, he'd be pushing everything onto the floor.
That's what he did. That's what he was. That was his job in life to destroy, seek and destroy.
He would push everything onto the floor. So I would come in there. I'd be in bed and I just hear things crashing.
I come in and he'd just be looking at me, just laughing at me and he'd continue. He wouldn't stop doing it. It wasn't, he wouldn't run away because he was in trouble.
He just couldn't do it in front of me. He did not care. So looking at these desks, he would push anything that he could physically move.
He would push onto the floor and if he couldn't push it with his nose, that would be his first port call. So the can of Coke, he just pushed that with his nose and it'd fall on the floor. If something was too heavy, he'd lay on his side and push with his feet.
He'd roll over and try and push it that way. He just had to remove everything from a flat surface and then when the flat surface was empty, he'd move to the next surface. He didn't, he had no plans to do anything with the surface.
There was no logical reason for his chaotic and barbaric behavior. It was like a warmonger who, a warmonger, warmonger, mongrel, warmonger, who would absolutely desolate an entire town and then just move on. I don't want to, got no interest in the town at all.
I'm not going to move in. I'm not going to take the land. You can keep the land.
I don't care. I've ruined everything now. Bye.
Does that remind you of any countries that might do that? I don't know but it's like, wow, Andre, stop it. The only things he couldn't move, he struggled a bit with laptops because they're flat and quite often they're a little bit grippy at the bottom. He tried to push them and they're a little bit heavy as well, you know, it's, so there's the level of, I don't know, the gravity, they're flat, they're wide and they're a little bit heavy.
He couldn't really push them on the floor which is good but the books, no matter how heavy those books were, I've got one, two, three, four, five books piled up where the camera on the tripod is. Clearly it's not a great tripod if I have to have them, have it on books. He would have all of those books on the floor.
He wouldn't give up on that even though they're heavy. He would, he wouldn't give up. He'd, any phone, he'd have that on the floor.
He'd have the, the other little bits on there, my glasses would be on the floor, the bowl of water would be on the floor, the glasses case, the the tripod, that would be on the floor, the camera would be on the floor. Yeah, everything apart from maybe the laptops. The iPad would be on the floor because he could, because it's standing up so he'd find a way to push that over.
Now the only way I stopped him from doing that is to move the chair away from the table like the other side of the room and to make sure that there was nothing that he could get onto which he could then get onto the table. Now when he was young he was daring and he would jump. He'd, he really would go all out to get to that flat surface.
It was almost like a scene out of Mission Impossible. He just, honestly I'm not saying he'd dress all in black and have night vision goggles on and stuff but he would, sometimes he would and maybe he was a bit dumb though, he wore, he did actually use camouflage but he dressed as a ferret. Wasn't the brightest sometimes, I'll be honest.
I shouldn't say that, he can't defend himself can he? I never dressed up as a ferret you knob! Stop it Andre, shush. You and your dirty gutter language. You dressed as a ferret, camouflaged myself as a ferret, how pathetic.
All right, so yeah he would, he'd have everything off here but now, now that everything's, well I don't have to kind of protect the tables, I can leave things on the flat surfaces so that's probably the real reason why I didn't get desks before, because I knew that I wouldn't be able to protect the stuff. Not only would he knock everything off the tables, the desks, he'd get onto the bookcase that's next to that, he'd knock every single book off and he'd manage to get right to the top and knock everything off the top and move his way down and he'd be happy to fall down off the top if it meant that he was knocking stuff off.
If he was causing chaos and damage he was happy to risk his own health, which is I find a bit strange.
I mean once he actually climbed all the way top to the top of the bookcase, I came into the room just as I saw he was at the top, how the heck he got up there I honestly don't know because it's a good six foot up and he'd knocked everything and I'm not even lying here, he actually surfed his way down by standing on various books as they all like avalanched down onto the floor and he didn't even injure himself, he didn't nothing, he landed safely on a big pile of magazines and it was almost like he slid down and looked at me, giggled and ran off.
I couldn't believe it and still I don't know how he did it because I thought I'd ferret, I thought I'd Andre proofed that bookcase. Oh man, things he did.
Still one of my funny memories of him is I took a video of it when he did it last year, the last time he did it would have been probably this time last year and he'd love going out this time you know in September when the weather was still nice but it was cool enough for him to really enjoy it so he wasn't hot and he'd love going into the fields and he didn't want to come back when I wanted to come back and he would put his feet foot down and try and stop me
from pulling him and I would drag him a little bit and he was and he I didn't drag him drag him but he would just put his foot he's like trying to stop me by digging his feet into the ground and I was really weird and I and then he's just so determined and other times he would just lay on the floor he'd just lay on the floor and let me drag him and I didn't realize sometimes I was dragging him but he'd be on the dirt or he'd be on the grass so he'd try
he would never allow himself to be hurt he wasn't he wouldn't allow that and I'd stop and I'd go over to sort of pick him up see if he's okay and he'd start running back into the field he was just doing it to stop me from leaving the field he'd like basically just go on strike and he'd just lay down just flop himself on the floor and like he was exhausted so I'm like oh you know I have to carry him now which is what I would do a lot when he was tired and as
soon as I started walking towards him he'd start running again back into the field so he was so devious and the thing he'd like to do is to walk me as far into the field as possible as far away from home as possible and then do exactly the same thing just collapse on the floor but this time he was he was tired or maybe he wasn't tired but he just wanted me to carry him or he'd let me know he wanted to carry me and me to carry him by putting his two front feet on
my shins and patting my shins because that meant he wanted me to carry him so I'd be miles away from home he'd had his walk he'd completely knackered himself out and then I had to carry him home and he'd be inside my jumper or my cardigan or my top my jacket whatever and he'd go to sleep sometimes he'd pop his head out and say are we there yet he'd look he'd actually look out to see where we were we home yet no okay and then he'd put his head back in and go to sleep he's
so lazy it's so funny though it's weird though but I know I've talked about this before but one of my happiest memories in my life one of my happiest memories was because when I got Andre he didn't like me he was a little baby he hated me he wanted to kill me he was biting me all the time like constantly for the first few days he just wanted to he's like he wanted to kill me and I think he wanted the flat to himself I think he always wanted that actually so I thought well I
kept picking him up because I was determined and after a few days he stopped biting me so he'd let me pick him up and he would play he'd play with me and stuff but he never came to me really he didn't didn't really show much in the way of affection it was always like get off me get off me and on a Saturday night I was sitting in my old squeaky big black squeaky falling apart chair that I used to have and I was watching I don't know possibly boxing or something I was watching and
I was drinking a can of lager and I had my dressing gown on and he jumped this is probably two weeks in of me having him maybe longer he jumped onto my lap and then he climbed onto the onto the armrest the left armrest and he climbed up my dressing gown arm so the arm of my left arm because the dressing gown is very floppy and he climbed up there and went to sleep and that was the first time he ever even showed me any kind of I don't know niceness or love or acceptance that
I existed I don't know but he he just he came to me he came to me and he he slept there for hours and to be fair it's not something that he'd normally would do anyway even as he got older he liked to sleep on his own he'd like to do his own thing he would sleep on my lap but sometimes he'd fall asleep by mistake because I'd be talking to him and I'd bore him and he'd fall asleep and then suddenly he'd wake up and look up at me like who are you get off
me what are you doing because he was a bit groggy when I woke up and he'd jump off because I he didn't for some reason he just liked to sleep on his own he would sleep on the bed with me but he needed his own space he'd prefer to be at the bottom of the bed and what he liked to be near my feet to be fair but he had a feet fetish he's got a really big thing about feet I don't know how common that is with ferrets but I got to know another ferret
as well and that ferret never showed any interest in feet that ferret was interested in arms and biting arms Andre wasn't a biter he didn't bite people he'd have a little nibble but that was his way of sort of testing it was a little bit like a shark a shark sharks like to have a little nibble of what's in the water it's just unfortunate that they've got a million very sharp teeth so to what is a little nibble to them is a considerable loss of blood to a human you know so because Andre had such
sharp teeth you could feel it was a little bit too oh I didn't bother me because I was used to it he used to groom me a little bit sometimes I don't mean sending weird pictures and stuff but he used to get I don't know like go through my hair and it'd sort of be licking and biting a little bit my eyes and my eyelids and my and my face almost I don't know cleaning me or not that I didn't think I was dirty but hey I don't know what got me thinking about him I
think about him a lot but he's such a character I think one of my fears is if I did get another ferret that that ferret would be acting the same as Andre and then that would almost take away Andre's character and his personality I don't want to I don't want to start thinking that it wasn't a personality thing it was just a ferret thing and all ferrets do it that's and I don't want that regardless of if it's true or not I don't want to know that because to me Andre he was just just a
different it was a personality really it was just such a big personality to me and I felt quite good that I was able to communicate with him generally I'm not I was way off the base at the end because I had no idea that he was he was in pain and stuff but you know I'm not I'm not an animal expert I didn't I don't know I didn't know what animals were like when they're in pain I've never sort of had that experience before you know but because when I'm in pain I tell everybody I
honestly I phone up random strangers to tell them I love I love complaining it's my favorite thing oh yeah yeah you complain I don't know why I don't know why but it seems later in the week than it is Sunday I thought it was Monday yesterday I can't remember but today it's felt like Wednesday really has not even to the point of like oh I know it feels like it but the I know it's not I actually had to check to see what day it was because it feels like a Wednesday now that might be
because I've got so much done I've got a lot done I've got I've got quite a lot of work done as well work you know a lot of podcasts made and other stuff completed or you know on the way to being completed there's slowly slowly slowly slowly getting more organized very slowly I'm talking so low but it's okay I'm still wondering what am I gonna do you know in the future not the distance future because I'm almost too old to be planning too far ahead but you know just in the next couple of years sort
of like next year onwards I think this year is pretty much I'm just going to be doing what I'm doing for the rest of the year this is what I'm going to be doing and hopefully keep growing and keep getting expanding and that's why I'm going to focus on this year there's only three more months left pretty much or let's say three months three months in three months time it'll be Christmas week it'll be the 22nd of December coming up to the 23rd you know it's Christmas isn't it so three more months so I'm going
to use those three months to get myself more organized to continue to be regular with un-podcasts regular and consistencies where any any where every pretty much every expert on YouTube and podcasts as well they say consistency you need to be consistent you need to be regular and putting one on every couple of weeks unless it is a fortnightly show and and you're well known of course someone who's famous could do a fortnight or monthly podcast and get a thousand times what I get downloads but for but for a young boy like me working average bedroom
actually it's my living room now I've upgraded the only thing I do in my bedroom is generally sleep yeah I'm just interested I'm just I am just interested in what's gonna happen what's gonna happen what's gonna happen next I just don't know I mean by my plan was to try to get to 20,000 downloads by Christmas you know by the end of the year is he still talking about the bloody stats he said at the beginning that he weren't going to talk about the stats but he's still talking about the stats I don't understand why
do we put up with it it's just self-indulgent tosh I wish he'd just go away thank you that's very nice I shall go away in about three minutes time for there I wish he'd just go away forever leave us alone leave me in peace I can get back to me me knitting me dog okay see uh you know I had a weird idea today I thought I'm gonna go and visit me dad because it was a really nice day today it weren't it's it felt like summer it weren't summer temperatures it was like 22 degrees
or something mind you that is pretty good isn't it but it was it wasn't t-shirt weather but it was lovely really was I went out to the petrol station and got a few bits a few little bits and bobs and I was with my friend and we went out and it was just nice just a nice stroll there and a nice stroll back it was obviously nice and it was good to get out and I think that's what's missing if I had my own garden I would be out there all year round on nice days
I mean also I'm not going to sit out in the hailstorms and you know when it's bitterly killed but on nice days even if it was just a jacket I could wear a jacket I'd sit out and I could do my work I could do things on the laptop or the ipad get things done out there maybe sit under shelter and do it read a book whatever listen to music just be outside I'd enjoy that I don't really want to be indoors all the time but because the garden outside is shared so there's no privacy
I like to when I'm in the garden I like to be bottomless just what I'd lean in and I can't I can't wear clothes I can't wear in the garden there's something about grass I just have to be naked when I'm around grass it's not my fault I blame it on the parents I had no idea what you said no that was different you didn't say that to start with you made different noises hey noises you made different weird noises before that's a crazy crazy I thought about doing another podcast because there's not nearly enough
podcasts of me that I'm making this I need to do more I thought about doing breakfast relaxing breakfast where I just have my breakfast and I just have a little chat just a little chat maybe talk about my dreams that I've had during the night talk about how I'm feeling and maybe slurp my coffee into the microphone to annoy people I did I thought about doing that I nearly did one today and then I decided just to have my breakfast and drink and slurp my coffee whilst watching the news I nearly I really nearly did
it but I changed my mind all right I'm gonna go thank you very much for listening thank you ever so much it's been wonderful so remember remember boys and girls to be kind to yourself do something nice for yourself because you deserve because you busy busy you busy deserve to be happy just be nice to yourself treat yourself like your friend be gentle with yourself and that's it I'm going thank you for listening lots of love bye
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