#630 Let me bore you to sleep

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com My name is Jason Newland. This is let me bore you to sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

Yeah, so I'd like to say a quick thank you first of all to Burt and for your um, Burt, Burt, I'm not sure if I pronounced it correctly. B-A-R-T-E. So to me that's Burt but it might be Beard or Biot or anyway.

Thank you very much and the message was thank you for doing such a great show and with a PayPal gift. So thank you very much. I do appreciate your kindness and another, another message.

My stomach's rumbling. I didn't eat that long ago so I don't see what the issue is there. Um, I had a, I want to say thank you to Molly.

Molly, or is it Moli? Muli? Molly, Molly. Um, where is it? Oh, okay. Basically, if I can find it.

Okay. Nope, that's not it. Um, I'm trying to find it.

That's it. That's the one. No, it's not.

Come on. Um, Molly, Molly. Here we go.

This is in the Jason Newland hypnotist group and it's for, wow, it's a private group. I didn't realize there's 42 members. Wow.

Huh. I didn't realize there's so many people. I know, you know, in the, if you forget the fact, all the billions of people on Facebook, but I just didn't realize.

So thank you very much to Molly for this message and I'll read it out on a cough in a minute. We'll just put you on mute. It's just, it's really weird.

I just thought, you know, and that was loud. I just thought I could actually press mute and go away for eight hours and come back and continue recording. And it would seem like it was just the, you know, the same sentence.

You know, I could like prepare the sentence beforehand. So I used to live in a house that had a green car outside or something. So I would say, I used to live in a house where I had a, and I could go to sleep and then come back.

And so green car outside. You wouldn't know, would you? The power of editing. Anyway, that was, I didn't go for, I didn't go away for ages.

I just pressed pause and had a little cough and that was it. My stomach's rumbling. Is it my stomach? Yeah, I think it is.

Yeah, it is. It's either that or some weird poltergeist with indigestion. So I used to call them poltergeists.

Seems like a better term, doesn't it? Poltergeist, not poltergeist. Poltergeist. Poltergeist sounds like it would be like a German version of a poltergeist.

Poltergeist. So, oh yeah, this message, that's it. So Molly, who's the moderator for the private group, and you can ask to join.

It's called Jason and Newland Hypnotist Group. And I don't have a link to give you. What is the link? Blimey, it's like loads of numbers and stuff.

But if you just put it in, it will come up. It's the only group that I've got that's private, I think. I'm not even sure if I'm a member.

So 42 members. If you can't find it and you want to be invited, I can invite you. So anyway, can we please, appreciation post.

This was on the 3rd of April. Can we all please take a moment to thank and appreciate Jason Newland? Lovely. I know I'm a superstar, but just now and then it's nice to hear it.

My stomach's proper rumbling. Very weird. It says not only does he put so much time and effort into all his recordings, all year long.

True. I do do it all year long, don't I? There's a lot of recordings. I don't know if I actually added them up for last year.

But there was a lot, a lot of recordings. But he has also, he has been on an absolute roll for at least the last 18 days straight with Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Wow.

I didn't realize it was 18 days. I did. It's ironic.

I didn't actually do one yesterday. But I was watching boxing. And so I was watching boxing on DAZN, which is an app.

And I missed the start of this show. Started at three o'clock in the afternoon. I only picked it up about seven o'clock.

So the show pretty much finished, but I was able to rewind it and start at the beginning. So by the time I'd finished, it was 11. And then there was boxing on that started at 10.

So I turned the TV over to watch that. Well, I turned that on. But then I watched one fight, but I was a bit confused because the main fight had already happened.

Unless I fell asleep. And then I thought, shall I make a recording? And I didn't. I ended up going to sleep or going to bed about one o'clock, which is very early for me.

Just felt very tired. So I went and had a, I went and had a lay down and I woke up at five. So I got up and had some breakfast and did a few bits and bobs.

Had a little tinkle around. And yes, I didn't end up doing Let Me Boy To Sleep, but I have been doing them. My basic goal is to do one every day.

That doesn't always happen. But in a year, I do probably over 250 Let Me Boy To Sleeps a year. Probably getting on to the 300 mark.

Probably I reckon last year, I think I did about 300. So yeah, there was 65 days out of the year that I didn't do one. But 300 is quite a lot.

And that's just these podcasts, not all the other things that I've done. But I do aim to do one every day. Just sometimes I just, see if I'm really tired, I fall asleep.

And, you know, it's like, I'm a human. Technically, I am human. And there's some things I just can't do when I'm really, really tired.

And one of those things is talk. And I can. But I tend to find that I drift.

And I'm not sure what I've said. Which isn't always a good thing. You know, I kind of start thinking if I said something weird, because you know, if you listen regularly, you know that I'm not really one to say weird stuff.

Very, very straight laced and upfront. And you know, I would never, I don't want to let people to start thinking that I make stuff up. Do you know, I mean, I remember when I was, when I was orbiting the moon.

And you know, that 20 years ago, because I used to be an astronaut. And officially, I wasn't really not a proper astronaut. It's like showing off.

I was more a supervisor, I was there to just make sure that everybody else did their job properly. So I was more just observing them. So I didn't didn't actually do didn't have to have to do much work.

But I was in a position where I could do everything. So you know, fly the fly the spaceship, the UFO and sort out the toilets, clean the toilets, you know, just the general things that astronauts do. I remember when I was like, one day I was just reading a book, Dostoevsky wrote this book, he actually dedicated it to me, the idiot it's called.

But I just thought, oh, that's quite rude, isn't it? And it might even, I'm reading a thing now. And it might even be more than that, because I didn't check the other podcasts. Yeah, it was more.

Yeah, I did a lot of started doing the deep sleep whisper ones, the relaxation for stress and anxiety ones. I'm going to be going going going to be doing more of the bedtime storytime ones. What else? Oh, yeah, there's the stress and pain relief ones.

So yeah, I'm going to be doing more of everything. But I've come to a little bit of a stumbling block. And I will tell you about that in a minute.

It's not really a stumbling block. It's a learning block. It's a kind of not wanting to do it block.

But not for not for the podcasts. Anyway, I'll come to that. The rest of this is I for one, I for one greatly should do it.

I spoke to Molly. I know what Molly sounds like. So I'll do her.

I'll do her voice. I for one, greatly appreciate all the work, time and effort he puts into his podcasts. And I'm sure many of you do too.

So thank you, Jason. Thanks for all that you do for us. You're the best.

Now I'm going to go for walkabouts. Sorry, Molly. So I appreciate it.

So yeah, thank you very much, Molly. It's really, really kind. And I've had five other comments.

Leslie says, bollocks to that. Hardy says, what a bunch of crap. Sarah says, can't stand the man.

And I say, thank you for your kind words. I feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Actually, I wrote fussy, but no one noticed.

Now Leslie wrote, what a guy. Thank you, Leslie. Heidi says, I'm very thankful to thank you.

And also, I'm on 600 and wait a second. What does it say? Oh, yeah. I'm on number 626.

Facebook dating podcast for three days now. Although I'm laughing, I keep falling asleep. We'll put it on now also while I'm awake.

Yeah, it's these podcasts are weird. Even I will admit that. This isn't how they started out.

It really isn't. Some people maybe they listened right at the beginning. I don't know.

Some people be disappointed that they they kind of have moved and changed and but it's developed. I mean, I'm not the same. Sorry, I'm not the same person.

I was three years ago. You know, always changing and I was gonna say developing but probably not. I'm almost I think I got to the age where there's nothing more developing.

It's more crumbling. Things, things are just starting to crumble a little bit. It's Yeah, you got to kind of just cover over the cover over the mold with paint.

I think that's if I were if I was a house, that would be it. You know, just cover with paint. Hope for the best.

Sarah says, absolutely. And well done for the shout out. I've noticed he is on a real careful Jason.

Don't burn yourself out. We need you. Thank you, Sarah.

That's really nice. Thank you. So yeah, that was just a really, really lovely.

What's the picture? There's a picture that see, I did I did I make that pay this body someone else make this page? I can't remember. I really don't remember who made the page. Genuinely, because there's a picture at the top of it that I've never seen.

I don't know. I'll read you this. Have a look.

He's gonna you know, sometimes I'm a member of a few Facebook groups. And I generally won't read out the comments or messages on there because some of them well, quite a few of them are private groups when anyone can join them and probably gain access to it. But I feel that you know, it's supposed to be kind of a safe space, which is kind of ridiculous.

It's no safe space on Facebook, is it? Really, you know, it's not. It's not really. You got services and it's kind of like, I want to have phoning in to a radio show and wanted to have a private conversation with the with the DJ or the radio host.

And you're talking to them live on air, but you don't want anyone else to know about it. You don't want anyone else to listen. And all you want only the people that are listening now to hear it no one else ever doesn't work like that, does it? But you know, I don't want to sort of, I don't want to share other people's stuff, like what people written, but sometimes people write stuff that I just want to talk about it because it's it.

So one is, it's like a counselling group. And the questions I ask, there's quite a few students and stuff. And I, I, so I'm just reading something.

I suppose because I've, I trained as a counsellor for three years full time. So it wasn't just like, you know, a few weekends and stuff. This was like a degree.

It's pretty much I guess the most advanced training that you can do as far as counselling goes. In a sense, in a way, you know, like three years full time, university degree is, I would say a high level than attending one weekend a month for a year. You know what I mean? Just, but that's the way that I learned hypnosis, well, books and stuff as well.

So in reality, it doesn't really doesn't matter how you learn something. And a lot of the teachers of hypnosis never got any training, because there was no training. You know, the top hypnotists in history, well, some of them, for example, Milton H. Erickson, he learnt it, he had to learn it pretty much almost self-taught in a way.

And a lot of hypnotists have learned it that way. It's one of those subjects that you can, it's a very, it's a very, that was loud, it's a very specialist subject as far as books go. Now you can go into a bookshop and you can get basic books on hypnosis.

And usually it's sort of how to do self-hypnosis that the majority of hypnosis books that you'd see in a bookshop, do you remember bookshops, would be sort of more of a self-hypnosis variety. The kind of books that I've got, or used to have, and will have again, when I build my library back. I've got an okay library now, but I just, I don't know.

The thing is, right, let me show you, I want to share something with you here. And you know, I don't don't like to share stuff, but I'm gonna, I do well share everything that I'm really, there's nothing I don't tell you, I tell you everything. That's why it's nothing like a relationship, because I'm honest.

Okay, iCloud, downloads. So I found somewhere online, where, well, first of all, I've got quite a few hypnosis courses, like video courses, audio courses, training, I've got. But I've got books, and these are ebooks.

Okay. I've got 258 ebooks on my iPad to read. And a lot of them are really quite advanced, and very expensive as well.

And I found these on academics websites, and also found academic papers on hypnosis and hypnotic studies. So for example, someone with Hmm. It could be anything as simple as like a sports issue.

So doing a study with people that play tennis, and whether or not, and that, you know, this is just an example. So there are three groups that have a group that is using visualization, which is kind of hypnosis, but don't tell them that because they will throw them off a group that is doing the using self affirmation. Again, hypnosis, or someone that's actually being hypnotized to improve their game of tennis.

And then they would, what they would do is count how many times a person could hit back a ball that's been shot at them from a cannon, you know, one of those tennis cannon things that you get on practice courts that I've seen on television. It's something really dry and random like that. And it's, and then they sort of gauge the study and how many people, and I guess it also test them beforehand and after.

So they'd do a test of them doing the tennis bit, and how many balls they could hit out of 100, kind of fast succession before doing the hypnosis with the person for 22 and a half minutes, or before visualizing or before doing affirmations. And yeah, I just, it's, I don't know such a study exists. That's just an example.

Although it is quite interesting, thinking about it. I'm not really interested in the subject, but like tennis, I mean, partly because I was no good at it. Really.

And that's why my interest is so limited. Because I was never any good at anything. I was.

I think I was probably a little bit impatient. And also the problem is, if you've, like me, I had two older brothers who I could never compete with. One was two years older, one was four years older.

The one was four years older, was always better at everything than me. He was older. He had more life experience and, but he's just better at things like snooker, pool, anything really like that.

I couldn't really compete with him. And he was a lot older, so I couldn't physically compete with him. But my other brother was super sporty.

So no one could really compete with him. He was, he was the one that would win the sports days. He'd win all the races and you know, so just super fast, super sporty, whatever that means, you know, does that make sense? So things like playing tennis or any kind of those kind of physical sports, I couldn't match my brother with that.

Because he was two years older, two years stronger, um, a lot bigger than me. And I didn't, you know, it's just, and he was really athletic. And then it was me.

And I was this tiny little child. Tiny. Honestly, I was eight and a half stone when I left school.

You can work that out on your own calculator. I don't know what that is in pounds or kilos. It's about three kilos, I think.

And, you know, I was undeveloped. I was, I'll be honest, I think when I left school, I was still going through puberty. Seriously, I wasn't, I wasn't a man when I left school.

I'm still waiting for my voice to break. I'm still, I don't know if I ever really became a man. I don't know.

But I wasn't an adult. But is anybody? I don't know, emotionally or mentally, an adult at 16 or 15. But physically, yes, lots of people are.

And the girls usually a lot more quicker than the boys. But in my school, it was weird because with my year, rather, that's the that's the year I focused on. Don't really focus on but there was some boys in my year that were men in the first year of high school.

And that's started high school when I was 11. There were men like grown men, deep voices, big, strong, muscles, smelly. Well, no, you know, I mean, they were men.

But they were kids. Like mentally, they were kids. But physically, they were men.

As I never know. That's all I wanted. It's not all I wanted.

I also wanted boobies. I got my wish. I don't want them anymore.

I want to give them back. I would like them. They just want muscles, muscles.

So anyway, I couldn't figure it out. How? Why? Why did all these especially in, you know, when it came to sports, and getting changed, and going into the shower, you know, you can't help but notice what's around you. Especially when you're really short.

And there's a lot of really tall people. It's basically in your face, you know, it's hard to ignore what's around you. I wasn't standing around taking photographs.

I'm just just saying it's like, when is that going to happen to me? I just I'm still thinking when's it gonna happen? When's it gonna start growing? Yeah. No, but no, but everyone is only I think it was a couple of kids that were about the same height as me. Maybe not in my year though.

They would sort of Yeah, I was the shortest. I must have been at least the shortest, the littlest in the whole of my year in high school. And, you know, I kind of I think I ended up being around about the same height as some of the other kids.

Like, I was five, eight when I left school. I haven't grown in height. And so I reached my my height by the time I left school.

And some people most people have some people do still grow, you know, carry on growing. But I didn't seem to grow by the size 10 foot. So it is my feet were kind of human size.

But I was short. Yeah, I'm not really sure what my point is on this. Because I was talking about books.

And now I'm talking about being short. Anyone? Any ideas? 258 books, plus I don't know. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40, 40, 40, 50, 51, 52, 53, 54, 55, 56, 57, 58, 59, 60, 61, 62, 63, probably 65 to 70 books on hypnosis that I've got, which is just a tiny amount compared to what I used to have and how much is out there.

But also got 258 ebooks. And some of those books, if I was to buy them, like in proper book form, would cost me some sort of 5060 pound each, because some of them are real, real academic books. And I guess some might not even be in print anymore.

I don't know. For example, this one is the Handbook of Contemporary Clinical Hypnosis from Wiley and Blackwell. Blackwell is, if you don't know, Blackwell's was a book in London.

I don't know if it's in other places as well. Might be in New York, might be in other parts of this country. But they, they're very, very specialized.

They, they sell books, very specialist books on subjects. And yeah, so if you're interested in a specific thing, they go quite in depth. I can't remember which bookshop it is in London, or whether it's even still around.

But it was one that you could buy surgical books. Like there's this whole, I just sneezed and coughed at the same time. That was weird.

It had, what did I have? I think it was in the basement of this bookshop. It was definitely in London somewhere. I think it was in the main Charing Cross Road area where the bookshops are, or were, where Foyles is, or was.

Again, I don't even know. Foyles is still there. I think Foyles is the oldest bookshop in London.

I think Foyles could be the oldest bookshop in the country. It's been around since, I don't know. I was about to make up a date, but I can fact check some of this.

But unfortunately, no one's interested, are they? Which is why I'm going to do it, because no one's interested. Yeah. Foyles, about Foyles.

Okay, here we go. So let's have a look. Foyles.

It's saying about Foyles, but it does not say anything about when it started. That's weird. I thought they would, wouldn't you? Oh, there's seven shops.

Seven shops across London. Oh no, seven shops across London, Chelmsford, Birmingham, and Bristol, and you'll discover a spectacular blah, blah, blah. Oh, okay.

We first earned our bookselling chops in, bookselling chops, in 1903, when the brothers William and Gilbert Foyle, after having failed their civic or civil service exams, I've got no idea what that is, started selling off their unwanted textbooks into 115 years of family owned independent bookselling, turning that first kitchen table venture into a beloved world famous bookshop brand under the stuff of legends. Hmm. Wow.

Here's an interesting thing. Foyles telegrammed, I don't know why this is not funny, but that Foyles telegrammed Hitler asking to buy the books he was burning in the 1930s, but he wouldn't sell. Another thing, when George Bernard Shaw, a vegetarian, spoke on the protection of birds at one of the famed literary luncheons, guests were served chicken.

Brilliant. Wow. So I, I don't think Foyles is a bookshop that had the surgical stuff, but not only did they have the surgical stuff, they had in the books, with pictures, surgical procedures.

I mean, literally, if you had the money and the time and the, I guess, the aptitude, you could, you could learn to be a surgeon. The theory, you know, the theory, obviously, it's a lot difference between knowing how to do something and actually being able to do it. It's easy to get past that hurdle with something like this, or learn how to build a website, you can, you can do it, you know, but with surgery, it's a little bit different.

You can't just set up on your own. Mind you, in the old days, you just set a barbershop up, wouldn't you? And in London, the barbershops, they did everything. They did teeth, they did operations, everything.

Wow. Wow. Which means, in today's age, if this, what's been happening here, happened back then, when barbershops used to do surgery and dentistry, then they would have been left open, wouldn't they? They wouldn't have been closed.

Interesting how it all links together, or really doesn't. What I liked about foils, and I think they did get updated, they got up to date. Last time I went there, it was a lot different.

But they used to have sections that were almost untouched by time. And I loved that. You know, sections where the books weren't even, they didn't even attempt to make it tidy.

It was, it wasn't all like in rows on a clean shelves and with lots of space to look at stuff and all on display. You'd actually have to I'll give you an example, actually, there was the religion section, it might be philosophy and religion. So I was in the early 90s, when I was but a youngster.

In the early 20s. I used to go into foils and all the other bookshops as well. And this was years and years before I got into hypnosis.

And like eight years before I got into hypnosis. I used to go into the bookshops and buy books on Buddhism. I was very interested in Zen Buddhism.

I was very interested in the cones or koans, whatever you want to call them. Buddhists, poetry, and very interested in like Taoism or Taoism. I was interested in the philosophy, really, in the wise words, the the, the ideas that come out of that, that could, for me, change the way that I thought about things or open my mind to new ways of thinking without, without trying to force it upon me.

And I think I try and do that. Again, I'm laughing, I don't know why I'm not comparing myself to some historic philosopher, or great poet or, you know, Buddhist master. There's a lot of similarities, obviously, how much I probably reach a larger audience than some of those.

But they were quite, some of them books, probably didn't see a lot of people weren't seen by a lot. Some of them obviously, you know, really huge bestsellers. But some of them have been sitting on the shelf for 30 years.

So and then the ones I liked, they were little bits of gold. There's something just, they didn't even have labels on them, they pencil on the inside, writing down the price. It was something, even some of them, they did have them when they had labels on.

You could get them home, right? So maybe I spent £7.99, £7.99 on a book, I get home, and I don't like labels on my books really, so I've got to take the label off. And underneath were about six or seven different labels of previous prices. And you get down to it, it's like £7.99, then it's a £5, then £3.72. It's like, blimey, how long has this book been on those shelves? Because the price has gone up, what with inflation and everything like that, but like, blimey, and you keep going.

And like, it's like, 72 pence, and keep going down, it's like, one and a half chickens, you know, was the amount it was, you have to, that's what you swapped. Blimey, gone all the way back down to bartering. Wow.

So yeah, I loved it. I loved the, almost the chaos of these little rooms that were there. And they perhaps have someone sitting in there at the desk.

And it was messy. And I loved it, because I'm messy. I'm a messy person.

Andre makes me a dirty person sometimes because of, he's a bit messy and a bit, he's not dirty, but he leaves me a lot of cleaning up to do. But I am messy. I'd probably be messier if it wasn't for Andre.

Because I would leave stuff on the floor, probably books. But I have to make sure, I don't want him knocking stuff over and hurting himself. So I try and keep things off the ground.

Although I'm not doing a very good job of it. At this moment, do you reckon I'll ever start a recording and stick to the subject? Ever? Do you think? Do you reckon it's even possible? So I've got a conundrum. Conum, conundrum.

Here it is. I got me camera. I managed to film myself.

I managed to get it working. And to get it filming me. And I made a recording, I made a video earlier.

And that's when the process of editing comes in and I've got to learn how to do that. So I have a little bit of a, I've kind of rejected it a little bit. Rejecting the process of having to learn the video editing skills for the Adobe Premiere.

Because I genuinely can't be bothered to learn something new. Not another new thing to learn. Why can't someone else do this? But also brought up some stuff thinking, do I want to film myself? Now, it would be ridiculous if I didn't use a camera, having just bought it.

So that'd be ridiculous. But after filming myself and seeing myself on the camera, you know what I mean? I'm just like, I don't, I don't like that. I've not hugely impressed with how I look, if I'm honest.

And I think that's a problem with having been a professional model. It's, you know, when it comes to being, you know, class as I was the most handsome man that ever existed. It's hard to really, it's hard to move forward with that.

It's all to get better. It's almost a bit of a downhill slide. You can't improve on perfection.

Oh, I wonder how many people actually believe when I say stuff like that. That would be funny. If you believe if yeah, I should say, if anyone listens to this as he believes that I used to be a male model, and I really believe that I was a perfect specimen of a man, then please press the stop button on this recording and do something else.

Because you might start believing all the other stuff I say. You mean you haven't got a ferret called Andre? Yes, I have. But I do.

I do sometimes exaggerate. Sometimes. Sometimes.

I've never exaggerated ever. In all my 72 years. Yeah, no.

Everybody exaggerates. Sometimes. There's a fine line, isn't it between exaggerating and I think it's a fine line between exaggerating on purpose to gain something from another person or from another or from, you know, a situation, you know, to do it for your own self gain, compared to exaggerating because you're just really excited with the conversation, you know, and I've seen that as well.

And it's almost cute. Actually, it's it's all it's like almost the opposite. It's not the opposite to lying because it is kind of lying, isn't it really? But when someone's so interested in what you're talking about, that they contribute in and they want to be part of the conversation and for it to continue, that they start exaggerating aspects of it, of their own experience.

But it's because they're enjoying the conversation with you, enjoying your company. So in a way, perhaps it's not, you know, a terrible thing. Hello, Andre.

Hello. Hello. Hello.

I took him for a walk earlier. It was a bit uneventful. He didn't really want to be out.

What was that he was banging against? That's strange. He was running and I heard this like a jingle. I've got something in my hand right now.

I want you to guess what it is. It's long. It's hairy.

And it smells really bad. It's a ferret. It's Andre the ferret.

Kisses. He doesn't smell bad. I think he smells beautiful.

But not everybody agrees. And he's done a wee wee. You've got a wet tummy.

You've done a wee wee, haven't you? He did something really weird earlier. Right. He was asleep when I took him out.

And I took him out because it was still daylight. It was about five o'clock, something like that. You want to get down? Give daddy big kisses then.

Do you love your daddy? Do you love your daddy? Do you love your daddy? No. Go away. OK.

Love you. And so he wanted to get down. I was carrying him.

What I do is I carry him until he's ready to get down to walk rather than drag him. I make some weird noises. Rather than drag him along the pavement with sparks going off and everything, I just carry him until I get to some grass or until he wants to get down.

Well, he wanted to get down and he lets me know by going. Yeah, yeah. I know he wants to get down, so I put him on the floor, drop him on the floor, gently.

And he starts to walk back the other way. I said, no, you're walking this way. And then he faced me.

He does a wee wee on the floor. Big, big wee wee. Big puddle.

And, you know, when your kids embarrass you, anyone, I don't know if there's any parents listening. Well, I know there are parents listening. And when a kid embarrasses you in public, well, I can top everything that you've experienced.

So I bet none of your kids have ever wee'd on the floor and then started drinking it. That's what he did. Now, you know, from a medical perspective, Ewan comes out sterile, apparently.

So, and he, he's more in touch with his body than I probably ever will be of mine. You know, he's, he's more, he's more in touch with nature and all aspects, even though he's not as in touch as he would be if he lived outside. Still found it a bit disturbing, if I'm honest.

Still a bit embarrassed. And I was thinking, I hope no one walks past. I don't want any of the other dog walkers to see this.

It's strange how I say other dog walkers, isn't it? But, you know, I'm kind of, I'm part of the dog walking fraternity. I'm an outsider, but I always have been. But I'm allowed, I'm allowed on the outskirts of the circle.

Some of them say hello. So, Andre, people actually know his name. No one, not one person that walks their dogs knows my name or has ever asked what my name is.

And, you know, I'd love to get into the, oh, I'm such a victim. Oh, nobody loves me. But I don't know what their names are either.

And I don't care. So that's fair enough. But they know his name.

They don't know my name, but they know his name. They actually, sometimes people come and say, hello, Andre. It's almost like I'm on the lead.

Like he's taking me for a walk. Like I'm the dog. They might, I think they think that I'm the dog and he's the owner.

Hi, Andre, how you doing? Oh, my God. I didn't even thought of it like that before. I'm the bloody dog.

Wow. Wow. Never been so angry.

I can't believe it. Wow. That's phenomenal, isn't it? I'm the dog.

Wow. But yeah, this camera issue is just, I don't really want to be on film anymore. I don't want to, don't want to film myself.

That's something I've actually decided before getting a camera. I do sometimes do things the wrong way around. But it's not the first time and it probably won't be the last.

No. However, I am going to be, I am going to be making videos because it's something I've decided I'm going to do it regardless of whether I want to or not, I'm going to do it. Whether or not I'm going to film every single podcast that I do is another issue.

I just don't know. I have to play around with it tomorrow, maybe for a few more days, practice the editing till I feel confident enough that the picture is good, the sound is good enough that I feel comfortable enough filming myself. And also that I feel confident enough to be able to edit the videos and have them done in enough time to be able to edit, film, edit and upload in a day the amount of recordings that I would make, you know, on a busy day or even an average day, podcasts.

Because that in itself is, you know, quite time consuming and there's, luckily I've got my phone with the internet on there so it's unlimited and the internet's a lot faster on my phone. It's about 55, 59 megabytes a second compared to 37 on my broadband. So the phone is a lot quicker.

So I upload all my podcasts using my phone. I probably would also upload the video using the phone. So I can do other things at the same time.

So there's a bit of multitasking that's, it's not really multitasking. Once I'm uploading something, I just don't touch it for a few minutes or maybe 20 minutes, however, whatever I'm uploading. But because I'm using that internet, I can then be on here using this internet on the laptop or on the iPad or whatever I'm doing.

So I can have more than one thing happening at the same time. Online. Because when I upload something, a large file, all the internet goes on it.

Which is okay on the phone because nothing else is happening on there. But this one, I've got TV, I've got various different things connected to this. Alexa, I've had, well I used to have my phone connected to it as well but I only use the mobile data now.

I don't use the internet, the broadband on my phone. And the tablets and the laptop, everything's all connected to the normal internet. So yeah, I'm quite pleased that I managed to sort that out.

Because that was becoming a problem. You know, I was uploading and the internet was cutting off because I just couldn't handle it. But now, probably, the percentage of it cutting off is very slim now.

It's quite rare when I'm doing it on the phone. And I upload sometimes six, six plus recordings a day. And then share them up for different podcasts.

Uploading quite a few. So yeah, it's, it's all good. I quite like the setup.

There's more to be done. There's more streamlining to be done. And of course, I'm getting the podcast Roadcaster at the end of the month.

So that'll be another step forward. And yeah, so that's all going to be, I mean, there's, there is, there is, there is, there is a possibility that I might be able to also connect the camera to the pod road, the road podcaster, but I might not need to, you know, I might just have it all going at the same time, but separately. Yeah, it's kind of a plan.

But more important than anything, I need to keep making the recordings. Also, I can't wait too long before I start making videos. Otherwise I just keep putting it off.

And I know it's going to take probably till the end of the year before, perhaps before I see any. Really, Andre? Really? You really think that's suitable to be doing that right now, do you? What is he doing? He's playing, that's what he's doing. Playing with something.

But I would, I forgot what I was saying, but yeah, I need to figure out, I mean, because I'm stationary, making a video, I'm not moving around. There's different settings for that. And so it's going to be very stationary.

I need to work out the lighting a little bit better. But I think it's the editing, which is the big hurdle. Once I've reached that hurdle, which will be hopefully tomorrow, once I've jumped that hurdle, and edited the first video properly, because I have edited videos, but I never had to cut them up or, you know, redo anything with them.

Because I did a Jason Chats vlog earlier today. Now, I might not actually upload it as a video to be watched, but I do at least want to edit it and upload it to see, and maybe put it on private or unlisted on YouTube and watch it and see kind of what quality it is. I can watch it on tablet, or I can watch it even on the telly.

I'm not sure if I want to see my face that big. But just just so I can get an idea of the quality of the picture, the quality of the sound, the quality of the lighting. Just go from there.

See, yeah. Oh, I could go to sleep now. I'm not getting by.

Oh, I really could. But I'm not going to. But I could.

But I'm not. But I could. But I'm not.

But I will. No, you won't. I'm going to.

No. So I'm going to go. Thank you for listening again to another very, very boring recording.

I'm sure you'd agree. One of the most boring ever, probably. And I shall, I shall return tomorrow to do another one of these.

Thank you, everybody. And anyone that's still listening or still awake. Thank you for your support.

And thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy. So there.

Do something nice for yourself today. Lots of love. Bye.