#433 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (19th June 2020)

Hello and welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. My website is jasonnewland.com and I am Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

And I completely threw myself off by doing a different introduction. So I've done a, I hope you're well, I hope you're okay. I've done a, made a couple of recordings already today.

So this is the third one and it's, I don't know what day it is. It's Friday the 19th of June 2020. So yeah, that's it Andre.

He's wide awake at the moment. It's five minutes past four in the morning. So yeah, I did a deep sleep whisper recording called, what is it called? So relaxed and tired.

And I also did a, I can't believe him. So he's walked over with the slipper in his mouth. He's put it down and somehow he managed to tangle it up with the wire to the laptop.

I don't know what he's playing at. And the other one I did was a relaxation, hypnosis for stress and anxiety podcast. It was called, what's it called? Oh yeah, I think it was number 152.

And the deep sleep one was number 239. So yeah, 152. It's called stress sucking helmet.

So that's, that's quite cool. And now I'm doing this one. I actually have a bit of a plan, bit of a plan.

I'm a plan, plan for man. And over the coming year, over the next six months, I'm going to be increasing the amount of recordings I make daily. And so I'm going to be doing some new stuff.

I'm also going to be doing more, more stuff for chronic pain as well, because that's a subject that's really close to my heart. It's why I pretty much started all this in the first place. It was my first passion.

When I learned hypnosis, the idea that you could change the physical sensation in a person's body, you know, just, it stuck with me. It really, it fascinated me because the first thing I thought was, so you could change the physical sensation in someone's body. And I realized I was just repeating what I'd already said.

And then I thought, if that's the case, then perhaps I should try to say something different. And then I thought, if I can change just with words, just by speaking the way that someone feels physically, then that opens up a whole, whole world of ideas and opportunities, possibilities. Endless, really, absolutely.

It is the never-ending journey. I mean, in a sense, the amount of different recordings I make are only limited to the effort I put in, because it's all imagination and creativity, just being willing to try new things out and to not just read out of a book and just do what someone else has done. It doesn't mean that some of the things that I come up with are original, because they might not be.

I might have accidentally copied someone else. I might have just thought of something that was just really similar to something that somebody else has thought of. But I don't care, because there's pretty much nobody in the world that does what I do, which is quite weird, and there's probably a reason for it.

There's a reason why no one does this, because it's silly. But I just, I like the idea of doing different things, the idea of not just making one relaxation session, but making hundreds and hundreds and hundreds and hundreds, and ultimately thousands that I will make over the years. Not just making one sleep hypnosis whisper recording, but so far, nearly 239 on that podcast, as well as all the others that I've done previously, because I've been doing sleep sessions for years.

Yeah, and relaxation for stress and anxiety. But some people, some hypnotists will just maybe do one or two recordings, and they'll sell them. But I just, I just make hundreds.

I just keep making new ones. I don't know, maybe it's, maybe it's wrong. Maybe I'm doing, not wrong, because it's not, nothing's really wrong, is it? It might be pointless, but it's not like, wrong wrong.

There's no wrong gong need bonging, and whatever that means. But it was, I quite like it. I quite like the creative aspect, because what I've been doing, and I'll let you into a little secret, a little secret, is I've got a new thing that I'm now doing.

I'm now thinking up new ideas for recordings. So I started on the deep sleep whisper recordings, and I've got, I think, about eight new ideas of recordings, you know. And it's a very basic description of an idea.

And then I just read it through, and then I make the recording. So the idea to read it through would take about five or six seconds. So it literally is just a sentence.

And then I turn that into a 20 minute or 30 minute recording. So it's not just the creativity of thinking up the idea, but it's the expansion of the idea in the moment whilst I'm actually talking. I quite like it.

It's kind of groovy, in a way. It feels quite nice. At the moment, it's quite hard to do the sleep whisper ones because of Andre.

I never know when he's going to become awake and running around. But I managed to do one today. And I felt nice.

I felt nice afterwards. I felt like I'd actually accomplished something. So that was good.

I know that I do, I've managed to get into a routine of, well, generally making new, let me bore you to sleep recordings most days. Now, there's the occasional day that I miss, but I've been pretty good. And I've done, yeah, I'm pretty consistent with these recordings.

But it is the only podcast that I'm consistent with, or as consistent. The other one that I'm fairly good with is the Relaxation for Stress and Anxiety podcast. And although I do sometimes go a few days without making a recording, I will perhaps make a couple of recordings on that day.

And I generally make because I said it, I know this is boring. You've already heard this before, but I do three different versions, three, four, in fact. I do some recordings where I just talk for maybe an hour, 50 minutes about a subject regarding anxiety, stress, panic, all that stuff, relaxation.

I don't do those as often. I need to feel inspired to do that. So I can get triggered by maybe something I see on television, maybe something I see in a video on YouTube, or something I hear in an audio book.

It could be something that makes you think, oh, that's inspired me to talk about that. And just talk from my own perspective, not from a perspective of a professional expert, but just floating some ideas, really. I'm very much a floater.

Yes. And then the other ones I do for the relaxation stress podcast is the relaxation exercises. And I've done quite a few of those now.

And I'd like to do one a day. That's my aim. But that's in the future.

I will get to that eventually. And then the other one is I do a relaxation, like a deep relaxing session, hypnosis session, which lasts for 25 to 30 minutes. And then another version of exactly the same recording, but with music that lasts longer.

Now up to the other day, it always had been 51 minutes long. I did one, I think it was yesterday or the day before, that lasted five hours long. And I think just based on the reception, the downloads, that people seemed to quite like the long one.

So yeah, I'm happy with that. I'm also planning to do some other things where the recording me talking lasts for a certain period, like, you know, not just like really long ones, but with me talking for the whole time as well. What I want to do, I'll tell you this, and I'd like to, if there's any musicians out there, who'd like to have their music on one of my podcasts as a background music for a relaxation session, then, you know, get in contact with me if you like.

There's no money in it for you, but it's, you know, it's a free service I offer. But what I'll do is I will publicize you, publicize your website and everything like that. And, you know, I'll put a link and everything on there.

And so yeah, it'll be... The thing is that the music's got to be very slow, very relaxing, and ideally lasting for as long as possible. I know that, you know, I can loop things. So I can, which is what I did with the Kevin MacLeod music that I have.

And it's, I looped it because it lasts for 51 minutes. And I just did a bit of editing, I looped it in a few times. But I'm limited to 300 megabytes per upload on my podcasts.

Hear that? That's my slippers. Why am I trying to make noises with my slippers? See, I'm limited to 300 megabytes per upload for the podcasts, which is quite quite a big file. And the five hour one, I think was 238 megabytes.

So I could probably... What's 238 divided by five? Let me just check it out. 238. 238 divided by five, I'm just going to do it in my head, obviously.

47.6 megabytes per per hour. So I times that in my head, of course, by eight. Okay, that's not good.

That's 380. 238 divided by five, 47.6 times by six equals 285. Okay.

238 times by, divided by five, times by seven. Yeah, so six hours, pretty much, maybe six and a half hours is is kind of the longest I can do unless I get some kind of a compressed file. There is ways of doing this.

I'm always sort of trying to look at new ways of doing things and trying to learn different shortcuts, not shortcuts as in like a bodge job shortcut. But in a just find ways of doing things that aren't obvious. And one of the things I'd like to do, I'm looking at doing is making short posts on Instagram to actually play a little bit of the audio.

And I think they're called audiograms. But also I found out a way of possibly sharing the post onto Instagram, but it keeps, whenever I do it, it keeps end up posting on Facebook. So I'm a little bit confused.

Unless I can disconnect Facebook and Instagram from each other. There's got to be a way. I just every now and then I go onto YouTube and I just do a little bit of a search and try and find out how to do things.

I found out how to do a snapshot of my phone screen today. I've been doing it for the last few weeks by accident. And I didn't know how I was doing it.

I googled it and it's really easy. It's basically what I was doing before, but I wasn't meaning to. Just pressing two buttons, basically pressing the button on the right hand side and the increase volume button at the same time, and then just quickly then go.

And that takes a snapshot of the screen. And if it's a podcast or it's a picture or something, you can then share that onto different social networks or in an email, things like that. So yeah, it's all new stuff to learn.

I quite like it. I'm not apart from when I don't, you know, so it's okay. I don't do much promotion of my podcasts, really.

I mean, it is literally a case if I make the recording, I do as much editing as I can take. It's really tedious. And then, you know, I upload it to the podcast, make a webpage on my website, upload the audio to my website so people can download it for free.

Then I embed the player so people can play it for free on my website. Then I add another link, another download for free link, image below the player, where you can actually just click it and it automatically downloads. So you got, there's also a download button on the player.

So there's three ways of downloading the recording as well as playing it. And then I share it onto Facebook and my pages, Twitter and YouTube. That's it.

I've got a very small audience on YouTube. According to the stats on Facebook, it's not a lot of, I don't get many, I don't get much attention on Facebook either, really. So a little bit, I get, there's a few people, Molly.

Hi Molly. Molly likes, I think you like most of my, I don't say you like it, but you click the like button. So that'd be groovy if anyone would like to click the like button or subscribe or join my Facebook page, Let Me Boy To Sleep Facebook page, join a community, man.

And I should also add that I've, due to with Andre and all of that bills and stuff, I've had to cut down my costs, my outgoings. Came as a bit of a shock. I didn't really, bad planning on my part, I think.

I didn't, I guess I didn't expect him to ever need any kind of vet, ongoing vet stuff. It looks like he will be. And I don't know, this might go on for a few months.

So if he needs an operation or whatever, he will do if he keeps making all this noise. Andre. So yeah, I've got rid of my, a few of the websites and the podcasts, but I've kept the main podcasts.

They were just the new stuff that I'd started over the last month. So they're all gone. And so I still got my jasonnewland.com podcast website, my Wayne website, all my stuff's on there to listen to and to download completely free.

And of course, my podcasts are, you know, on most of the directories, most of the podcast apps as well, you know, iPhone as well as Android. But I've kind of kept things down to the minimum because even, what was it, Monday, when I had to pay, it wasn't a lot, it was only £39.90 or something for Andre's vet appointment, just to be examined. That morning, I had $29 taken out of my account for the website hosting.

It's just bad timing, you know, but it's okay. It'll work out. I borrowed £120 off a friend to pay for the x-ray that he has to have on Wednesday.

So I'm gonna have to pay that back. And then that went in my account. A load of other money went out of my account that I didn't sort of plan for.

It's just bits and bobs, you know, sort of bills that I hadn't really, I don't normally think about because it's just, usually there's enough in there, generally. So suddenly, it's like, oh, wow, this is not working out how it's supposed to. But it's gonna be okay.

The main thing for me is, Andre's over there, with his slipper, having a lovely time on date night. Every night's date night for him. And for me, that's the main thing.

He's okay in himself. If he wasn't, then I wouldn't be sitting here making these recordings. I don't know what I'd be doing.

I'd be not in a great space. But he seems fine. His leg don't work.

One of his back legs just doesn't work, for whatever reason. I'm gonna find out what it is. Or rather, the veterinary person is gonna find out what it is.

And we're gonna get it fixed. And he's going nowhere. He's staying with me, apart from when he goes to the vets, and he doesn't come home for the day.

I mean, Wednesday, he has to stay there until they get a chance to see him and x-ray him. And they have to give him, I don't know if they put him to sleep, like unconscious, or they just dose him, dose him up. So he's still really kind of dozy.

I don't know. I'm not sure I should ask really, shouldn't I? But he's gonna be fine. And then I'll bring him home.

So I'll go there in the morning, come back here, and I'll just wait for them to phone me. And when they phone me, I'll go back, collect him. And whatever the vet says he needs to get done, I'll have to just say, well, I'll be in touch.

And how much is it gonna cost, the next bit of treatment? And I'll come back to you when I've got that money. It's just as simple as that. I can't.

But he seems happy. He's still, yeah. He's still my little boy.

He's still naughty, running around, causing chaos. He's got a new thing he does. Honestly, I think he's doing it on purpose.

I have to have the table. I don't have to, but I have the table in a bit closer to the window than I used to, a lot closer, because I have the ethernet cable connected to the laptop from the actual internet hub due to the Wi-Fi not being greatly strong. Although it should have improved.

I think it has improved since they gave me a new hub a few weeks back. I mean, I should do a little test. Let me test what the internet strength is, because I know you're probably all wondering.

I wonder what the internet strength is. I said, okay, let me check. First of all, let me see if I've got the mobile data's off.

Okay. So I'll do it with the mobile data off. So start speed.

I'm using an app called Speed Check. So it's just checking the speed. Obviously, it's checking the speed.

Test this download first, and then the upload speed. And then an advert comes on from the gadget review guy. Do this to fix slow Wi-Fi now.

This tiny device can double internet speeds and supercharge your Wi-Fi signal. Let me open up it. What is it? Groundbreaking device fixes slow Wi-Fi and exposes greedy internet service providers.

How much is it? It's like a little box thing. And it's called Wi-Fi repeater. This isn't a new thing.

I've seen this before, but I don't know how much they cost. How much? All right. Apply discount and check availability.

It's not giving the price. It's just not giving the price. Come on.

It's one of these websites that goes on and on and on about how wonderful it is. And it's still not giving the price. Okay.

Buy now and save. Connect faster. Now I'm going to go to the price.

Check if you, congratulations, you qualified. No, really? I qualified to be able to buy. That's very nice of you.

Okay. So boost your range. This is a proper sales advert on a sales website.

Proper full on. Apparently 171 people are viewing this item. Rachel from Cardiff just purchased super boost Wi-Fi.

Wow. Well done, Rachel. So boost your range.

One super boost. I'm doing an advert really and I'm advertising it to you. Wi-Fi booster, £39.95. Double your range.

I don't need double range because I'm in one room. Wow. Anyway, that was an advert on a speed check.

So if I get, oh, I've lost it now. I have to do the speed check again. Speed check.

Okay. It's now doing the download. It's pinging.

That's what they called it. It's a ping 7ms. So I guess that's Microsoft.

Right. I'll get rid of that advert now. So according to this, my download is speed is 37.24 megabytes per second, 37 and 98.8% stability.

Upload is 6.83 megabytes per second, 92% stability. So it's five out of five for everything like email, browsing, gaming, streaming, video chat. So that's the internet, you know, that's the Wi-Fi apparently.

Before I got the new hub, I was getting about, struggling to get four megabytes download. Seriously, it was that bad. Really bad.

Now what I'm going to do now is I'm going to turn off the internet on my phone. And I'm going to test my mobile data to see how fast that is. This may surprise you.

Test again. So this is just the mobile data, which I can use as a hotspot for, I think sometimes for things. Anyway, I don't know what it was.

It was 37 megabytes upload, wasn't it? Or download rather. Well, now the speed check, the download speed for my mobile internet data is 78.36 megabytes per second. Upload 42.37 megabytes per second.

So the upload is more quicker than my download on my Wi-Fi. And 37 times by two, what's that? 30, 60, 70, 30. Don't laugh at me.

37, 30, 60, 74. So this is actually four megabytes more than twice the download speed of my Wi-Fi. But unfortunately, I only get, I think, 100, I think I get one gig a month.

Well, not unfortunately, because I don't really need it, but I do sometimes think, would it be easier as I transfer my stuff from the laptop onto the tablet, do more stuff that way? Maybe I could move away from having Wi-Fi and just use the phone as a hotspot. But yeah, anyway, I don't know. I'll better put the settings back.

Otherwise, I'll forget. So I'll get rid of mobile data. I only turn it on when I'm out.

So if I'm in, but I don't go out much, but if I was to go into town or on the bus, and I needed to check my bank balance, or I needed to do something, you know, Google something or whatever, then I'll turn the data on and then use it. Other than that, I don't. Even with iTunes, because I listened to iTunes because it's, they gave me like three months free, and then they charged me this week.

I thought I still had another month left. It's only like £9.99 or something. But it was, I listened to it every day because it's got a lot of motivational stuff on there.

Earl Nightingale and different things. So I listen and I've downloaded them onto my phone, which means I don't have to use any of my data to listen to them. So I can, admittedly, in the last few months, I've not really been out hardly at all.

But once I get back to going out, I'll have my headphones on again, and I'll be listening to stuff on my headphones. And I won't have to use any data because it's all, everything's downloaded onto the phone, which is really cool. This is just one big advert, isn't it? You know, I do try and edit these recordings.

It might, I know there's going to be the occasional weird sound. And I know that I go, I do whistle a bit sometimes when I talk, a bit of a lisp at times. But, you know, that's just the way it is.

And I do my best to edit out. I think, because I've been doing it for so long, I can kind of tell when there's a bit of an anomaly in the recording from the spikes in the track. So as I'm looking at it, any kind of, I don't know, spikes, you know, let's just use the word spikes.

I listen to it. Sometimes it's fine. Other times it will be some weird noise.

And, you know, I might edit it out, or I'll quiet it down, just that one bit. Sometimes what I can do is I can actually magnify it so much that I can literally edit out a tiny sound within a word. So the word can still be heard, but the whistle, I say whistle when I say whistle, the whistle, the lisp, or the whatever can be maybe removed, yet the sound, the word is still there.

I can't say I really enjoy doing it. I mean, it's something that I try and do, because I do want to do the best quality that I can. I kind of think at least if the quality is good, I haven't got, you know, might make up for the content.

But, you know, I think anything's going to make up for the content. You really are boring. I know, it's supposed to be.

Win, win, win for me. But I, yeah, I'll tell you what I'm thinking of doing. I'm thinking about actually learning how to do recording professionally.

I don't mean, you know, going to college or anything, because I don't have the money to do that stuff. And if I could afford to go to college, I would do a master's. And it would be, it wouldn't be in recording, it would be in something, it would actually be with the Open University, because no university seems to want to take me on.

Because I can get the funding, but they won't let me on the course, which is a bit annoying. I might give it another go. Once this thing is, you know, over and done with, this thing that's been affecting people for a few months.

And if the universities, colleges get back to normal, you know, where they're open, I mean, as you go, then I might look again at enrolling in a course. But I don't know, we'll see. But I'm thinking maybe in the future, to do an Open University course, get a master's that way.

And then perhaps, you know, do a master's in, I don't know. I'm interested in psychology. I'm interested in neurology.

I'm interested in the, I'm interested in the brain, that's something that's really grabbed my attention. But it's a different kind of interest. You know, I'm not, for me, you know, learning the different parts of the brain and all that stuff.

Although important to know, if you know, someone that's, so I guess studying the brain, I guess, first you need to know the different parts and that. That interests me less than the neuroplasticity of the brain. The, I tell you what's, well, it's strange, but it seems that everything that I've done, not everything, but a lot of the things that I've done and studied over the years has all come together in a way.

So, for example, studying the mind with Buddhism, there's a lot of studying the mind in the sense of internally feelings, things like that. Then there's the counseling, studying the mind from that perspective. Then there's the hypnosis, studying the mind from that perspective.

I do wonder how many times I can say the word perspective within this particular recording. But there's something about, I thought I kind of always had this idea from a very, well, for a very long time that the brain, the hypnosis changes the brain physically. Counseling changes the brain physically.

Things that happen to us changes the brain physically, and it's true, it does. Seriously, Andre, can you shush? Just keep it down a bit. Are you listening? Banging against the radio, what's he up to? And I just find it quite fascinating because it almost seems in a way that we've been, well, for over 100 years, psychology has been ignoring the brain and using the word, you know, the mind, and then the unconscious mind, or subconscious mind, or and subconscious mind, but kind of bypassing the brain itself when we all know that that's where everything comes from, the brain.

Someone has a brain injury or something, even the smallest change in the brain can transform someone's personality. So it all comes from the brain. And so I find that fascinating, that words can change the brain physically, like neural pathways grow, holes in the brain heal up and fill again and heal.

I'm not talking just me talking about the brain is going to do that. I'm just the way we think, what we do, most importantly, the way we think really affects the development of our brain, and it's always been developed. It never stops developing.

And there's that old saying years ago, and even experts used to think that after a certain age, the brain just stops growing. It just starts to decrease. But luckily, it's such a big organ that, you know, it's, you know, usually we've got enough brain cells to keep us going for a while.

The fact is, we've got brain cells growing all the time. All the time, every part of our body replaces itself, it regrows, regenerates. It's amazing, you can cut half of someone's liver off, and it grows back.

Wow. How amazing is that? I think every 27 days, our skin is replaced, like reptiles. Just because it happens gradually, we don't notice it.

I noticed it the other day, because I had flaky skin on my forehead, because I got a sunburn on Monday. And it's now Friday. So this was yesterday, Thursday, I noticed it.

So I had to put some extra moisturizer on my forehead. And I actually thought that I had cake crumbs on my forehead. I had that pastry get on there.

I realized it was skin. I've always got skin on my forehead. It's like, oh my God, what's that? I said, it's skin.

What are they? They're your eyes. It's okay, it's your eyelids. It's fine.

I wasn't surprised at that. What is that? It's your nose, yeah. I'm not surprised, you're a bit shocked, but try not to look at it.

You know, but I find it fascinating. I think it's quite exciting that our brains are always growing, always changing, always adapting. That's exciting, isn't it? I mean, it really is.

And the idea that, well, I like the idea that I can, with hypnosis, I'm now thinking, instead of being some kind of vague thing, I can deal directly with the brain, but directly to the control center, which is our brain. That is our everything, the brain. Everything else is dependent upon the brain.

And it's amazing, it's even amazing that, you know, there's years ago, the experts thought, you know, they mapped the brain, and this part, or this cortex, or whatever it is, operates the left side, that operates the right side. So the right side of the brain operates the left side of the body, and so on and so forth. And so if someone, for whatever reason, lost the use of their right hand, I hope that never happens to me, and the idea is, well, that's it, because that part of the brain is not working for whatever reason.

Then they realized that the complete different part of the brain is now being used to operate that hand. It's rewired, it's corrected itself, it's healed, and it's basically done its own bypass itself without any help from anyone else. But maybe by thinking, you can help it along by thinking about it, by imagining it as happening, by wanting it to happen, wanting changes to occur.

I just find that fascinating. By expecting to feel relaxed when you hear me, you're giving your brain kind of that stimulation to release those hormones and those chemicals into your body that relaxes all the muscles outside and inside, so that you feel really calm and relaxed and groovy. Right, now he's finished date night.

So he does it the opposite way. He goes to bed first, then he has a drink, and then he has some food. You're completely opposite to a lot of people who go out for a meal, have a drink, and then go to bed.

The opposite. But as he said to me earlier, do or won't. It's true, you can.

I did say to him, you're really weird. You're really strange the way some of the things you do, because he drops the food on the floor. Okay, so he doesn't eat it out of the bowl, he picks it up from the bowl.

This is the dry food, drops it on the floor, and then goes to pick it up, ripping half the carpet up. I said to him, you're really weird. He looked at me and said, yeah, but I'm not the one talking to a ferret.

Very rude. Very rude. So yeah, I see.

Yeah, neuroplasticity, or brain. It's brainplasticity, but it's neuroplasticity. I don't want to be a neurologist.

Andre, will you shut up? It's just annoying. What am I doing living with a pain like him? It's weird, you know, half an hour ago, I was cuddling him, kissing him, and I was massaging his leg. Just, I don't know, in my mind, trying to do a bit of physiotherapy, but just doing it gently, you know? And he's looking at me, and he looks all lovely, and just, and I'm thinking, I'm telling him I love him, and now I just, you're annoying me.

That's love. That's love. But yesterday, I didn't really do much.

What did I do? I took Andre out for a couple of walks. Well, I took him out for a walk in the afternoon, or about six o'clock, or seven o'clock, or something. I only took him to the park, because I couldn't be bothered to walk into the fields.

And I, yeah, he went for a long walk all the way around, and then I carried him back. And I just walked slowly back with him, because he even knows he's being carried. He's still outside.

He can still enjoy the smells, and have the breeze in his face, and all that stuff. So, I think he still likes it. I think that maybe his ideal lifestyle would be if I was a traveller, in a sense of travelling around with a, I was going to say a campsite on my back, not a campsite, but a tent, and just travelling from place to place, a bit like Kung Fu or The Hulk from the TV shows.

Hitchhiking along, and that way he could just, he could walk sometimes, he could be carried the rest of the time, and he'd always be outside. And when it was cold, he can get inside my jacket. And, you know, he could rest for a while, just go to sleep on the grass or on a roundabout.

I think he'd like that lifestyle. He'd enjoy that. I think he likes it here.

I mean, this is his home, but then he's never known anything else. He doesn't realise that most ferrets don't get the run of a flat. They don't get, you know, four rooms to go in and out of, plus a cage that he doesn't use.

But, you know, when I see him in his cage, or he's in his hammock, he does look very relaxed. If I could find a way of putting a hammock outside of the cage, I think he'd sleep in it, because he loves his hammock. But I can't.

There probably is a way. There's always a way of doing everything, isn't there? There's always a way. I just, I can't be bothered to figure it out.

I don't know. Is that bad? Is it? Is it? Is it? I don't know. There probably is a way to do it.

I've got a good start on the day. Three recordings. I could probably do another couple.

I mean, it's only five o'clock in the morning, so I could potentially do another. I won't do any more this morning. But then this afternoon, the evening, I could potentially do another two or three recordings.

I'll just see, see how it goes. But I'd like to, I'd like to do more of the self-help recordings as well, you know, for specific issues. For example, I've got one for tinnitus.

I've got stuff for, what is it called? Not itchy leg. Phantom leg. I've got stuff, I've got ones for scary leg.

I've got one for, I don't know, phobias, things like that. Nail biting. So I'm thinking I might actually start a podcast specifically.

Again, I'm using the word specifically, specifically, specifically. I usually, I used to struggle with the word specific. I used to call it specifically, specifically.

Maybe do a podcast specifically for phobias. Maybe another one for dieting or eating. I don't know.

It might be interesting. But I think what I need to do is stop myself from putting the word daily in those podcasts, because I'm just not that reliable to do stuff daily, even though I do. I'll just see them crawling along to get to the water.

It's really weird because whole body's bent over because you walk sideways and now that one leg's not working, you're basically just walking in a circle. It's just, I just want to pick him up and I just want to heal him, basically. A little monkey.

He's eating. So that's all part of the healing process, isn't it? Eating, drinking, resting, exercise, being happy. And if I didn't take him out for walks, he wouldn't be as happy as he is.

He loves going outside. So it might not be good for his leg. It's kind of one of those things.

Yeah, but he's not using his leg. And also, it's good for his mental health, because he loves being outside. He loves rolling around in the grass and sniffing everything.

He loves it. Really happy when he does that. And yeah, he needs that in order to heal as well.

Heal as well. I think emotional well-being is equal to physical well-being. I think it's both are needed.

I think to feel really well emotionally, ideally, feeling well physically is like an ideal situation. So I think he's okay physically, apart from his leg. And I think he's quite well emotionally.

Because I cuddle him, and he just looks at me. He's not... He seems happy. He doesn't seem any different to normal.

He was trying to bite my friend's hand yesterday, which is what he always does when he sees him. He's known him since he was a little baby. Not my friend.

Andre was a little baby. And my friend always let him be rough with him. He always let him bite him.

So I wouldn't allow Andre to do that with me. I used to say, stop biting me. No, I used to be gentle, gentle.

And he does. If he gets carried away, and I say gentle, he stops straight away. He carries on, but just really gently, just like just touching my skin with his teeth.

He doesn't bite anymore. So he's a good boy. He's a good little twiddler.

He's a lovely little penguin. Are you a lovely little penguin, Andre? My lovely little... I was going to say Egyptian butterfly, but I don't know. A weird, weird sentence.

But yeah, that's it, I think. It's another thank you for being bored, another time, another hour of boredom. And my aim is to be returning again tomorrow for another episode of this thing, wherever it is.

And in the meantime, also, I'll be making other recordings for the other podcasts. And I'm starting to plan ahead, starting to try and get a bit more organized, so that I have more ideas of what I do. And yeah, rather than just leave it to inspiration, which is nice.

But maybe with creativity, I can be inspired by an idea that I had maybe last week, that I wrote down. I don't write it down, because I just read it into the tablet, and it writes it down for me. And I just save it.

So I've got a big list, well, I've got a list of eight for the Deep Sleep Whisperer. And what I'm going to do is eventually when I've got... I don't know how many... Oh, what my plan? This is my plan. This is my plan.

I want to get 30 ideas for July. I'll print them off. I've got a printer, so I'll print them off.

And then maybe put a date for each one before I print them. And then just cross them off as I do them. So do a Deep Sleep Whisperer every day in July.

And maybe try and do the same for the relaxation, hypnosis, the stress ones. Yeah. And perhaps the Deep Sleep Whisperer, the Sleep Hypnosis Weekly, because I'm planning, I'm not even attempting to yet, but I'm planning to change the Sleep Hypnosis Weekly to Sleep Hypnosis Daily.

That's a plan. It's a big plan. It's a big... It's one heck of an effort to do that.

So I'm probably not going to be doing that yet. What I might do is try and do two a week, maybe in July, and then August, maybe three a week, four a week, five, you know, like that. So when I get to the December, I'm doing seven.

I'll do one every day. And then I'll change it to daily. I don't know.

We'll see. But the idea, hopefully, is to just have a list of potential scenarios or an outline of something that I could work with, and then be creative with that. Create a session out of it.

So I have 30, just basically have the whole of July set out before I get to July. It doesn't mean I'm going to do it. I don't mean... It doesn't mean I'm going to do it, but like I did the Deep Sleep Whisperer, and I looked at the heading at the one of the lists, on the list, you know, I think I went in a completely different direction.

I've just got to go with what is, you know, go with how I am in the moment. Sometimes I start something and I think, oh, I thought of a better idea. Doesn't mean it is a better idea, but it seemed like it at the time.

So yeah, that's what I'm going to do. That's what I'm planning. That is what me is planning to do.

So it should be cool. And try and do that maybe for every month, till the end of the year. And the plan is by December, I'll be making 10 recordings a day.

That's just the target I've set myself. I can already do five or six a day anyway, so 10 isn't really that much. But it's, it is, you know, if I kind of stick to it, that's 300 recordings in one month.

I worked out all by myself. So there is quite a lot. You think about that, 265 days, 3650, 3650 recordings a year.

That's quite a lot, isn't it? It's, yeah. I mean, that's double the amount of recordings I've already done over the last 15 years. So yeah, it's quite a bit.

But it could be fun. I think it would be interesting. It's nice to have a target.

So that's my target. So November, I'll do nine a day. October, I'll do eight a day.

September, I'll do seven a day. August, I'll do six a day. July, I'll do five a day.

It takes me ages to work out five a day. So I'll just continue during June, doing what I'm doing, preparing for July. And I'll do five, six, seven, eight, nine, 10.

Yeah, so I'll do five recordings a day in July. And then six in August, September, you know, 10 in December, and then back to one in January. But some of those recordings, they will be short.

They won't all be like an hour long, because that'd be impossible to do that 10 hour long recordings. I'd like to just, I want to spread my wings. I want to just see what more I could do.

I mean, something that Molly said, maybe I should do a like a daily, a day recording that's like this, but not for sleep. Like a let me bore you awake recording. And yeah, maybe there's something in that.

I was thinking of doing a news podcast, where I just go through the newspapers. I'll be online though, I guess, and just record me going through the newspapers for maybe, I don't know, a couple of hours, however long it takes, and then edited it down to just the mildly amusing bits. You know, so that's what I thought about doing there.

Yeah, we'll see. We'll see. I've got a lot of ideas, but I do want to try and stick to the therapeutic side of things, because that's sort of why I'm here really.

So yeah, the possibilities are infinite, I guess. So that's me for today. So I want to say thank you for listening.

Remember to be kind to yourself, because you deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye.