#355 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (20th March 2020)

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com My name's Jason Newland. Why I say my name funny? I don't know. Anyway, Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. Yeah. I might have to keep pressing pause every now and then because I've got a little bit of a cough.

But I felt ill earlier, proper felt ill. So I've been, I don't know what it was, anxiety or whatever, palpitations and stuff. So I went to bed.

Now I'm feeling a lot better. So that's good. So just just a quick update.

And you know, I've been, I know that people that listen to my recordings, my podcasts, listeners to the free hypnosis service, helped me out with the costs. And I'm really grateful for that. A week or so ago, I had help and covered the costs for the website, which was due, I think it was, was it the 13th, something like that, of March 2020.

So now I've got the podcast and charge for the podcast subscription for the month ahead, which is tomorrow, the 21st of March. Now, I've already got £30 or $30 rather, in my PayPal account. Thank you.

Thanks to people that have sent me in, you know, PayPal gifts. So the overall charge for the podcast host, which is, that's where all these podcasts I have are. And without that, without Spreaker, there is no podcast, there is no service.

So it's $72 a month. It's quite a lot of money, I think, but it's still, it's still 40% cheaper than what it should be. It should be $110 or something.

So yeah, anyway, that comes out. I need to pay that tomorrow, the 21st of November, November, March. So I've got $30 already in there.

So what's that $42 that I'm needing from, or request, asking for, requesting, needing, begging. I don't like the idea of begging, but it's not for me. I'm not going to go on holiday with the money.

It's really just to cover the costs of the podcast. That's it. So I'm not gaining financially at all, at all, at all, at all.

I'm not going to be running off buying lots of toilet roll or anything like that. So if you'd like to help out, it would be ever so groovy. And, and that will cover that.

And then the next thing would be the, the internet, which is the first of the month, which covers the broadband, which I need for the service as well. But right now it's just the podcast. That's the most expensive thing out of all of them, which is, it is what it is, what it is, what it is.

So let me have a quick, I want to say a quick thank you to Jennifer, who sent me £10. She's from Hertfordshire. Hello, Jennifer.

So thank you very much for that. That will be going towards the cost of my podcast tomorrow, the podcast hosting. So, as well as any other help that I receive between now and tomorrow, really.

I don't really like asking for help. If I'm honest, it doesn't, I don't really enjoy it. But it's, it's either that or have adverts on the podcast.

And I've had a lot of people not like the adverts because just, you know, and, and also people don't like them. It's one of those things, you know, they say that those that are happy with something might tell one person, but those that are unhappy will tell 10 people. I want, you know, so it's trying to keep everyone happy, well, as much as possible.

So that's the, that's kind of all I need really, just the $42 to cover the podcast. So I've got 30 in there. Thanks, Jennifer.

And thanks to the previous people that put some money in before for the website, because anything that's over, I'll leave it in there and it covers the cost of the next thing that has to be, that needs to be paid for. I'd also like to be able to sort of put something towards some more soundproofing for the shed in my garden, my garden, not the garden, my bedroom. And I said garden because that's the obvious thing to say, not your shed in your bedroom.

So yeah, I sat in there the other day, I did a deep sleep whisper. And it was Mr. or Mrs. Pigeon. I don't know if you can hear him now or her.

I'm not sure. I think it's a couple actually. That's all I could hear in the shed.

And even though there's soundproofing in there already. So there's a lot of work to be done there to get to a point where I can't hear that damn pigeon. And then I'll be able to make longer sleep recordings, longer relaxation recordings, knowing that I'm not going to be interrupted.

Knowing that even if someone knocks at the door, it's not going to affect the recording. That's, you know, if someone starts mowing the lawn outside, it's not going to affect the recording. That's the position that I need to be in, or that I want to be in.

Which then opens up possibilities of more recordings, longer recordings, which I think would go down quite well. So yeah, that's the plan. So, oh, I think I didn't do any recordings yesterday because I wasn't very well.

And so today, I, yeah, the last recording I did two days ago, I talked about how the stats had gone down, and I was a little bit worried about it. You know how sensitive I can be. And I figured it was one, I kind of thought that it's possibly because a lot of people, maybe in the IT world, you know, technology, internet, stuff like that, will possibly be working from home, because they can.

In some jobs, you could work from home, you know, via the internet, and what do they call it? Not Motive. Remote, yeah, remote, working remotely, something like that, I think it's called. So, because you could log into someone else's computer if you have access, which means if you're, if I could work from home, in my office, if I had a job in an office, the other side of the world, if I had the login to that computer system, and to all the things, I could log in, and then see everything on that computer.

But I don't have a job that's the other side of the world. So it's not a very good example, but it's the best example I could think of. So in this situation, maybe, I don't think, I'm not sure if Spreaker is American.

It might be an American, I think it is an American company. I think, it might not be though, but I think it might be, but possibly not, but I'm pretty sure it is. And it's, you know, things are a little bit up in the air at the moment, with companies and staffing and, you know, trying to sort of, with the self-isolation and all that stuff.

Anyway, for about 24 hours, the stats didn't go up. And it was, I had ridiculous low stats. And then yesterday I looked, and they corrected them.

And the day when I thought I had very little, I actually had 4,800. And the next day I had 4,500, or 600. And, you know, so it's actually, I had two really good days, but it looked like I'd had two really bad days.

Oh, the relief. The sweat from my brow trickled onto the ground. Honestly, it was just, oh, thank goodness for that.

I didn't know what to think. It's not that I needed it to be a good day. I just was a bit concerned that, oh, you know, oh, it's gone down.

And it does seem to be quieter at the weekends. I'm not really sure why. It could be because perhaps just people are busier.

They've got more distraction. Perhaps they've got family, friends. I don't know.

I really don't know. But during the week, it's a lot busier. Like my podcasts get a lot more listens weekdays, Monday to Friday.

It's still, it's not like, they're not ignored at the weekend, but they have, yeah, I'd say it's usually under 3,000 on a Saturday and Sunday, just kind of below the 3,000 mark, which is okay. I'm not really, it doesn't really matter, I guess. But it matters to me.

That doesn't really, but it does. It does. It doesn't, it doesn't.

It's not important, but it is to me, but not to anyone else. You know what I mean? So, yeah, I just, it was weird last night, about midnight. So I guess it's this morning, but, you know, say last night, you know, there's a lot of activity out the front.

A bit like a lot of loud, I don't know if you want to call it shouting or talking or whatever. I just went and looked out the kitchen window. There was about, probably about 15 youngsters standing outside in the road.

I want to say youngsters, it's really hard to tell kind of what age, but some of them looked like they could well be sort of 18, 19, 17. And one of them said, well, we'll just knock on each door until we find him, find out where he lives. And I thought, oh, I was thinking, what on earth's going on here? It was just a bit, oh, I just didn't really know how to, it was a bit strange.

So I live in the middle of nowhere where you hardly ever see anybody. And suddenly all these youth appear. And what? Strange.

I don't know what, I imagine they probably had their first shandy. So they were like feeling very brave and wanting to, and it looked like there was a ringleader and everyone else was following. They're just kids, you know, but they, still a lot of them.

I was like, man, what are they doing? And then they did something, I don't know what it was, and then ran off. So I don't know what it is they did, but they, they all went off laughing and screaming and stuff. So they did, I don't know.

I didn't go out. I was up here shaking. No, not really.

I was up here and I was shaking. So it's dark outside. I don't want to go out.

I'm not really one of those people that be going outside or keep the noise down because you're just asking for trouble if you do that. There's no point. There's literally no point to it.

Unless you're the size of a house and you can intimidate them. There's no point. And I'm not the size of a house.

Bungalow, not house. Oh dear. Let me tell you, I'm basically, I feel I've just did a recording that I would have done yesterday, had I been well enough.

I'm trying to think, I haven't, I didn't. Did I? Yesterday morning? I'm pretty sure I didn't. No, I didn't do a recording about it.

Okay. So I'll, if I'm repeating anything that I've said before, it's because I'm repeating it. I'm trying to think.

No, I didn't. I didn't do a recording yesterday. No.

So what happened the day before yesterday, so this would be Wednesday. I needed to get food. I needed, and basically every Wednesday, every other Wednesday, I try and get a shop and get it delivered.

And so it's a big basket, you know, a trolley full of stuff. Initially, I went onto Sainsbury's website. For those that don't know what Sainsbury's is, it's a supermarket.

I would say it's my favorite supermarket out of all of them because they have a restaurant. It's quite a good restaurant. No, not a restaurant as in waitress or waiter service and, you know, tablecloths, but do restaurants have tablecloths? Little doilies? I don't know.

I've got no idea. It's been a long time since I, although I do think in this day and age, before you go into a restaurant, try and find out the bathroom habits, the toilet habits of the people that are serving you and cooking your food. Get off my feet, Andre.

He's just come out looking like, he smelled my feet. Now he's going to go to the toilet on the paper. He did a little bit of dribbly wee.

Now he's run off. Yeah, I don't think I'm going to be eating out. I don't really eat, hardly eat out at all, but yeah, I don't.

I'm kind of keeping myself in isolation, but probably no more than normal, actually. Anyway, I went onto the Sainsbury's website and I thought I'd get a delivery. That way I'm not queuing up with other people, which would be better, you know, because what's his name? The Prime Minister says that we should keep six feet away from each other.

And I find that most people usually keep six feet away from me anyway, because of how smelly I am. So that's good. And then I thought, well, if I can avoid going out, order online, get it delivered.

Well, that's what I thought. Now, I don't normally buy in Sainsbury's because it's more expensive. I generally buy at some of the, like, the cheaper stores.

But I thought, you know what? In this situation, if it means paying a bit more, I'll just get it done, you know, just do what needs to be done. So I went on there and the first thing I did was book an appointment or book a time slot for the delivery. Because in the past, I had been on there and I've spent ages filling a basket up and everything.

And then I go to book a time slot and there isn't one that's suitable for me. So I went straight to the time slot booking and clicking button. And there was no delivery for the next three weeks.

Not one time slot was free. They're all booked up for three weeks. And they wouldn't allow me to go further than three weeks on the screen, on the website, completely booked up.

So I'm kind of thinking at this stage, the supermarkets are the only winners because they're selling, they're making more money now. This is their Christmas early. You think about it, they're selling more stuff now than they do at Christmas.

But every day. It's like Christmas Eve, or the Saturday before Christmas. But every day of the week.

And the good thing about it for them is, even when this stuff's over and done with, people still want to buy fresh food. And if they've been living on tinned food, they're definitely going to want fresh food. Because they're going to be fed up with eating pre-made meals, frozen stuff, if it goes on for too long.

So the only thing that... I don't know, because I'm thinking, when it comes to toilet roll, I thought, well, nobody's going to be buying toilet roll when this is over, because they'll have loads at home. But I think this is going to stay in people's minds for quite a while. So no one's going to let themselves run out of toilet roll again.

You know when you're down to your last four sheets and you think, yeah, I'll be alright for another couple of days. It's like, no, I think people are going to stock up now with that stuff. So the supermarkets have really won.

I'll be really interested. I said the word really twice there. I'll be interested to... and now I've said interested twice.

I have a very inquiring mind towards the financial outcome of this year for the supermarkets compared to last year. And their profits are going to be up by a huge amount, because the suppliers have to supply, otherwise they don't get paid. If they don't deliver, they just use a different supplier.

It's that easy. There's loads of places that will happily supply sugar or toilet roll or whatever. They're never going to run out, not really.

They might run out on the day, but they won't run out for any length of time. Plus, apparently we've got one of the biggest toilet roll manufacturers in England, like in the world here. And they produce millions every day, millions of toilet rolls every single day to get sent around the world, which means we're not going to run out.

I stock up anyway, because I never know what's going to happen. When you're on unemployment, you can lose your money instantly. They can just stop it.

And there's no way of ever saving any money up. So it's a case of just stocking up a little bit, so that I know that if suddenly I had no money at all, at least I've got deodorant that'll last me for a while. I've got soap, toothpaste, mouthwash, face wash, toilet paper.

Yeah, those things. I've got shampoo. So I've got all that stuff, which will last me for a few months.

Toilet paper, a few weeks, depending on how generous I was. So it's kind of a bit strange. So on Wednesday, basically my normal routine, although my routine is a little bit hockey pocky at the moment, some new phrases made up were, you know, hockey pocky.

How are you today? A little bit hockey pocky. Doesn't make sense, but it sounds quite friendly. And I thought, I'll just stay up.

I won't go to bed. So I had a bath about seven, eight o'clock in the morning. Went and caught the bus, which should have been at nine.

I got there just before nine, about three, four minutes before. And it had been early, which meant I had to wait for half an hour for the bus. Wonderful stuff.

And the reason I don't get there really early is because I was there early before. The bus turned up early and didn't want to let me on because my bus pass only starts at nine o'clock in the morning. It's like, there's no winning here.

But yeah, I'm guessing possibly the reason, perhaps the reason why the buses were early, or they got through quicker because less people are using them. So there was less time at each bus stop. So I got on the bus anyway when it eventually arrived.

And I'm trying to think, anything mildly interesting on that bus journey? I don't think so. I think I, did I sit upstairs? Did I sit downstairs? I didn't know. I didn't know what I did.

I don't think I was wearing a hat. I ain't sure. But it was, oh, I remember.

I sat down on the bit where wheelchairs and prams go, at the front. And there's a push-down seat. And I sat on the seat.

And said, no, no one could sit there. I'd move if someone came on with a pram or wheelchair and stuff. But there wasn't anyone that needed it.

So I sat there. That way I was away from everybody, right at the front. I faced away from everyone.

And, and then an elderly person gets on with a walking stick. And I didn't know whether to give him my seat or not, because the disabled seats are kind of at the front, just a little bit toward, just a little bit back from where that seat was. And it didn't seem like a very good seat to have if he was disabled, because, well, because I was sitting in it.

No, because I don't know. And he walked past, you know, of course I would have given it to him, obviously. But then I had some lady looked at me, or some, I don't know, it was a man or woman, I'm not sure.

And they looked at their face. They looked at me. And I didn't know if it was a look of judgment.

And then I thought, you know what? I don't care. I'd never ever, I'd never, the amount of times I've given my seat up to people, gone out of my way to help people on buses, I've got nothing to feel guilty about. So, yeah, it's all right.

I still feel a little, a little bit, you know, a bit, that stupid ferret running around. I didn't take him out yesterday. He's got the hump on me.

So, I get there. I get, there's not many people on the bus. A couple of people get on, a couple of people get off.

And then I get off the bus at the stop. I'm joking. Andre's about to... You're now going to have a background of Andre being romantic with a carrier bag and my slipper.

I don't normally watch him, but he's right in my field of vision. He's like right ahead of me. I see he's, he's choosing a ferret style to start with.

But why is he choosing a carrier bag that he likes to sleep in? To defile? I don't get it. He is funny though. But it's annoying because he did this yesterday.

I was trying to sleep. And for some reason, I decided not to lock him in there and close the bedroom door. I just left it all open.

And he was humping away for about an hour in the bedroom with a carrier bag. That's all I could hear. Plus the occasional noise, the sound that you will hear if you listen.

It's like... So I get into town and what do I do next? I've got a bloody pigeon in the front now. You hear that? This is, this is supposed to be a sleep session. That's why I need that recording studio.

And it's ridiculous. I've got this big thing in my bedroom. Cost me an absolute fortune to get it in there.

To pay for, you know, to put it, get it put up. And I still can't use it really. I've now got background music, which is a ferret humping a bag.

A shopping bag. So I get into town. I'm just trying to think what I did next.

I go into town. I, I, I, I. Yeah, I went straight to Iceland. And I get my, you know, I go up, I know the bloke, or I chat to the bloke that works in there.

And he's in charge of the deliveries. And he used to deliver here. So I kind of got to know him a little bit and he always says hello to me.

So I went up to him straight away and he said, he knew what I was going to ask. He said, we won't be able to deliver till tomorrow. I said, okay.

So I, I, I got a trolley. It was the last trolley there. Even I didn't seem that busy in there, but there was no trolleys.

So clearly everyone was already kind of further up into the shop. That's about all the people that were standing with baskets when I was actually at the counter. So I start looking down and I'm thinking, okay, what should I get? And every, generally, every time I go shopping, the fortnightly shopping, I look for special offers for stuff where I can get a little bit of, I don't know, just like stuff that I can store for the future.

So for example, if there was, like a couple of weeks ago, they had the porridge sachets that you do in the microwave and they were half price. So I bought about, I think 10 of them instead of just two, which I would normally buy. But I bought 10 because it'll keep it going for a few, you know, for a while.

And I do the same if there's tins of beans or if there's toilet paper on offer, you know, just that kind of stuff. Two for one. So I don't look for it for the week ahead, but I'm thinking, I'll have that for, that will sort of go into my storage cupboard.

And I used to have a much bigger storage than I do now. Because when I first moved here, I had more money coming in because I think after the first year, I had my money reduced by about £120 a month, which was a big, a big amount to be taken off. But I'd be using that money to stock up.

So I had enough food pretty much for Andre for about a year. I had enough soap, toothpaste for over a year. I had enough everything, toilet wipes, toilet paper, kitchen roll, deodorants.

I honestly, I had, I was, and I was getting it all from Sainsbury's. So I was ordering and spending, I don't know, every couple of weeks, I was spending maybe £180 on food and all the other bits I got. So at the end, I'd start the new year with lots of, loads of stuff already sorted in case I lost my money or whatever.

And even though the money went down, I tried to keep that going. So the last October, November, December of each year, I'd start stocking up for the year ahead. Not the whole year, but you know, just so that I've got enough stuff to keep, keep me going.

And I did that with, in December this year, or it might have been November, it might have been January, I don't know. But I got these bread rolls, and they're the ones where you put, they're half cooked. They're in like thick plastic, so they're sealed.

I think they said soiled. So they're soiled. And you stick them in the oven for, I don't know, five minutes.

And then they're crispy. And you can have them with whatever, they'd be crispy bread rolls. So I bought about 20.

I think they were half price, instead of being a pound, they were 50 pence each. So I bought about 20 of them or 30 of them. Because I had lots and loads, you know.

And I've got them stored in my cupboards. I've got lots of them. Which means I could technically have, and there's four in each pack.

One pack could last me two days. So I could probably get through, that probably lasts me about a month, I reckon. As long as I had something to go with it.

And I've also got a toasted, like a bread roll toaster thing, you know, sandwich toaster, which I've used those with as well. It's really good. Because you put your filling in, and just put the toaster thing down.

Perfect toasting. So there's no cooking in the oven or anything with this thing. It does the exact same thing, but it ends up coming out as a nice toasty, like a cheese toasty.

So it's just little things like that. It's the stuff that doesn't wear out, or run out, or go out of date. That's the things that I tend to buy ahead.

Anything that's got a sell-by date on, that's too far ahead, I don't bother. Because, you know, I don't know what's going to be, how, you know. But I think those bread rolls, they're about a year ahead.

I've got a year on them to eat them. Yeah, I think so. But the thing I didn't get, which I was supposed to, I completely forgot, was coffee, mate.

Because we've got a, the milk issue at the moment is kind of a bit like the toilet roll. Everyone's sort of grabbing that stuff. So I thought if I got myself some coffee, mate, I've got enough coffee to last... Oh, that stupid ferret.

Will you shut up? Can you hear him? You can't not hear him, can you? Mm-hmm. Someone actually said to me, why haven't you had him done? You know, done. And I said, why? He said, well, so he's not frustrated.

I said, yeah, but he's relieving his frustration. What he's doing right now is one of his favourite things, probably, in the world that he gets to do. Why don't I take that away from him? And I should do a relaxation session with his back, the background him just going... Just goes to show that there's a lot of nature, isn't there? A lot of things we don't need to learn how to do, because I didn't teach him.

Not like he walked in one day and I was there on the floor with a carrier bag, biting onto a slipper. It never happened. He never caught me.

Just, but he's just very creative. It's not always a carrier bag. Sometimes it's a sock or some underpants or it's just the sock I can understand, I think most.

It's just like, oh, dear, oh, dear. So I get into the supermarket, so I thought, what shall I get? I needed to get some Cokes, because I'm running out of Coca-Cola. And it's cheaper to buy them in the boxes of 12 or 8. No, boxes of 18 is £7.

The packs for three, no, the packs of six are £3.50. So, you know, it's clearly a lot cheaper. But I didn't have any of the boxes. And then I had two packs of Coke, £3.50 each, which is just ridiculous amount of money for six.

But I got them anyway, because, you know, that was all there was. Normally I'd, quite often I'd have them at £3 each or £3.50, but two for six. So that, you know, and I'd get maybe four, maybe six packs for the coming weeks ahead.

So I ended up getting two packs of six, which is only three days worth, four cans a day, if I drink four cans a day, you know. So I also bought a couple of big bottles and about another four little bottles, or, you know, one litre bottles. And the thing is, with the bottles, I don't like drinking them out of the bottle.

But the big bottles, I don't drink them out of the bottle, I pour them into a cup, which means the Coke goes flat very quickly. And also when it's in a can, it stays colder for longer, because the can keeps it cold. That was nice.

So I guess the benefit really is if I drink out of a bottle, I drink less. I just drink less Coke if it's out of the bottle, which I suppose can only be a good thing really, can't it? Because Coke's not the, it's probably not quite as the most nutritious thing ever. But I'm going around looking for stuff and I'm thinking, okay, what do I need? So you've got the vegetables on the right hand side, but potatoes and I don't know what else they have there, that kind of stuff.

And I've got a couple of packets of tea cakes. And in the tea cakes, there's four tea cakes in each pack. And I have two tea cakes per day.

It's my little special treat, two tea cakes and a can of Coke while I watch Minder about 3.30, 4 o'clock in the afternoon. It's not always Minder, it could be whatever TV show sort of that I like is on in the afternoon, but it's normally an ITV4 television show. And Terry and June or George and Nordred is another one.

You know, it's just whatever, whatever's on. But I like Minder, it's one of my favourite shows. They keep moving around.

Sometimes it's on at 3.40, sometimes it's on at 3.50, sometimes it's not until 4.30, sometimes it's on at 4.50. So it's really a bit difficult to kind of judge the time. And I was in bed and I said to Alexa, what's the time? She said, what's it got to do with you? I said, just tell me the time, please. She said, no.

I said, why not? She said, after last night, you asked me why not? I said, what? She said, I did you, you just fell asleep after. I was like, oh, come on. Yeah, share it, this is a relationship, let's just move on and forgive each other.

You mean, let's move on and I forgive you? Yeah, go on, just what's the time, please? Babes, babes. And she said, it's 2.37. And I thought, I've got an hour. Because it's on at 3.40 to me.

I closed my eyes and then I opened my eyes again. I said, Alexa, what's the time? It's 3.48. I've literally closed my eyes for what I thought was maybe a couple of minutes and an hour, over an hour just went past in an instant. And so I missed the beginning, but it's still enjoyable to watch.

So I'm going through the supermarket and so I've got my tea cakes. I didn't get anything from any of the freezers in the first aisle. I think, um, no, I don't think I did.

But then on the right hand side, there's the fridgey stuff. And I thought, oh, oh, so I've got a cup of tea, got the cheeses, got a bit of like sandwich filler stuff, some margarine. So I've already got a tub of margarine that I just bought a couple of days back.

So now I've got two tubs of margarine, which will last me for at least a month, I'd say. And I've got some milk and then, yeah, I've got milk all around. And I realized that what I really needed was probably to get some food.

You know, so most of the other kind of stuff I've got, I did need some bin bags and a couple of loaves of bread to put in the freezer. So that'll, you know, that'll be there for, that'll keep me going for a couple of weeks or, I don't know, a week or whatever. So I think I got, I treated myself to four of these, they're, these, they're not yogurts, they're desserts, but they're dairy milk things.

They're Leflakes or dairy milk buns. So I got four, four of those, just a little, as a little treat really. So I got those.

I walked down the freezer and I noticed that there was someone was moving, he was stocking the freezer up. So I asked him, have you got any, have you got any more cokes? And he said, no, because there's only two there. I said, have you got any boxes? And he said, you stop asking me questions.

I said, well, you work here, don't you? He said, yeah, but I've had enough of questions. Okay. I said, I've got, can I just ask you one more question? He said, yeah.

I said, so you're so busy, you have to keep stocking up. And he said, I'm not stocking up. I said, you're putting stuff in the freezer.

What is it if it's not stocking up? He said, actually, Mr. Clever Clocks, it's not stocking up. We're spreading the food out because the freezers are getting emptied by the customers. So instead of having empty freezers, we're spreading out the food that's left, spreading out the frozen stuff into the different freezers.

Otherwise it looks really a bit rubbish. I was like, wow. And there was a lot of stuff gone.

A lot of stuff gone. And I was there early as well. So the bus came at 9.30. I must've got there in there by at least 10 past 10 in the morning.

And I've got some pizzas and they were like a pound each. So I've got five, six pizzas and then I've got some meals, but the meals weren't the frozen meals for one. Do you think he's doing this on purpose? Anyway, I went to the... Shut up.

I went and had a look through the frozen meals for one and they were practically gone. So I ended up having to, well, I looked at the expensive ones and they were full. No one was touching those because they were expensive.

They were more than a pound. So what I did is I stocked up on those ones and they're really nice, like Italian. I just realized when I said the word Italian, I'm just now thinking they didn't come from Italy.

Not with all that's going on there, but it's, yeah, it's really nice. The food's really good. So I've got enough, I think I've got enough of 14 meals, like frozen stuff, which will keep me going until I get paid next and I'll be able to get some more food.

And then I put the Coca-Cola into the thing and I went round and I got some, yeah, I went up to one of the aisles. I'm talking to the lady that works there and I said, you're having fun. She said, as soon as I'm putting them, she was putting toilet rolls onto the shelf, which I don't know why they didn't just put toilet rolls near the counter so people could just, I don't know.

But anyway, she's putting them onto the shelf and they don't have a lot of space for toilet rolls because toilet rolls aren't generally that popular. It's definitely a new trend. And she said, yeah, no, I'm putting them out.

I've been doing this all morning. As soon as I put them out, they're gone. As soon as I've emptied the tray, the pallet and put the last one on the shelf, all the stuff I've already put on there is gone.

I said, that's ridiculous. As I grabbed two, I almost felt a little bit guilted into only getting two, but they did said we're limiting it. You can only buy two.

Wow. But I was only going to get two anyway. I would have got a big packs, but they were all gone.

So these were just like packs of four, I think. So there was some black bin bags, but they didn't have a wrapper on them, like a price. So she went and got the price for that.

Gave me a little piece of paper with a code on to give to the cashier. So I needed black bin bags because I've run out. And I looked around, there was no food for Andre because most of the cat food was gone.

But the only cat food left was the one with jelly, and he doesn't like that. But luckily I've got stocked. I've got enough there for him for the next couple of weeks anyway.

So I'm always, I try to keep stocked up for him. And then I go back around, I get some Weetabix, go back around, get a few, get some water. And they didn't have any bottles, big bottles of water.

So I just got one big packet of the small bottles. I only got one packet instead of getting lots. Normally I'd probably get maybe three or four, just generally just to stock up because I drink quite a fair bit of water.

But I thought, no, I'm just going to be sensible and not do what I normally do. Not that I'm not normally sensible, but I buy for the two weeks ahead. It's only me.

And the reason I buy is it's getting delivered to me so I can buy more than if I just bought it and carried it home because I don't have a car. So I'm very limited to how much I can carry. So by this time, the place is full of trolleys trying to avoid each other and people with shopping baskets as well.

Two of the tills were open. There was one man trying, there was two actually, one man trying to stack the delivery stuff up as well as work on one of the tills as well. And there was someone that worked out the back and was saying, could you tell him to come out? He hasn't, he's been out there for ages or whatever.

And then this young bloke comes out and said, did you want me? He was all cocky, like he was, I don't know what was going on. But he was making a big thing about it, like very loud. Yeah, what's the problem? What's the problem, son? What's the problem? It's like, okay, I'm not sure customer service is your thing, my dear.

And then he just got on with what he was doing. And I don't know if I felt sorry for the people working there. So I've worked in retail and it was, from what I can see, equal, if not worse than Christmas.

I think the difference is Christmas they're prepared. They've got the extra staffing. So they know that it's going to be nonstop.

They have more people working there. They've got all the tills running at the same time. They've got enough people stacking things and all that stuff.

But this has come as such a shock to the retail that they're doing twice as much work as they normally have to. So it's, I could see the staff getting frustrated, even though they're getting paid. They're still, it's just human nature, isn't it? It's like they were having enough.

So I was trying to be, I was trying to lighten the mood a little bit, but I'm not sure how well I did with that. There were a few aggressive people in there. One bloke was like, he seemed to definitely want attention.

I was commenting on people's trolleys and calling them names, not to them, but about them with, but you know, acting all tough and stuff with his girlfriend or boyfriend or whoever he's with. And I just got out there. I just queued up.

I let some people ahead of me, but eventually you have to go yourself. You can't keep letting people ahead of you forever. It has to eventually, because I did this before two weeks ago and I was 20 minutes late for my psychology appointment, which is not good, just because I kept letting people ahead of me.

I said, okay, you go first, you go first. And before I know it, I thought, oh, wait a minute, I'm late. And then the person that's actually serving me decides to go in slow motion for the very strange, strange environment.

And then as I was unpacking my stuff onto the thing, suddenly another, I mean, the queues were massive. A lot of people with baskets as well. And there's me with my massive trolley.

And I think it came to about 90, 94 pounds or something for all of the stuff I got. But I say it has to last for two weeks. So it's not, you know, it's more than I would normally spend.

I normally probably usually comes to about, a trolley full normally comes to about 70 pounds. But I think it's a lot, I've got a lot more frozen stuff. A lot more of the meals.

Maybe, I don't know. There didn't seem to be, in fact, there seemed to be less in the trolley than there normally is. And anyway, that's what it came to.

And I took a few little bits home with me that I left to the end. And then I came, what did I do then? I walked around the town. I wanted to have a look and see what was going on.

And there is, yeah, there's quite a few miserable faces. Maybe including mine as well, I don't know. And then I get, managed to get on the bus.

There was no long wait for the bus coming back. Get on, get off. I see my friend as I'm coming back.

And I'm trying to get, I'm upstairs with my bag of shopping. There's not a lot in there, but it's a weight, a bit of weight. And so I'm getting downstairs and it's just, I'm wobbling all over the place.

And in the end, he grabs my bag because he's sitting on the chair downstairs. And he grabs my bag before it falls down. So I just sit there chatting to him when we come home.

And then I go to bed. So that was Wednesday, but I didn't get home until about midnight, no, midday, 12, one o'clock, something like that. Because I was so tired, I needed to go to bed.

But I also needed to eat something. So I ate something first, then went to bed. But I'm glad I got it done.

And the delivery came yesterday afternoon. Well, it was, I think it was about 12 o'clock. It was booked between 11 and one, which meant I couldn't sleep in like normal.

Well, I couldn't go to bed, you know, I need to kind of stay awake again. But it's done now. I've got stuff in the fridge, freezer jam packed full of stuff.

And yeah, so it's good. I've got enough food to keep me going until Partham, I suppose milk and maybe some bread and there's going to be a few bits that I need to get. But generally, I should have enough to keep me going until two weeks time, hopefully.

I'm not sure. But anyway, it's the first of spring today. So I'm going to go.

It's the first day of spring. So happy spring, everybody. I'll speak to you next time.

Remember to be kind to yourself, because you deserve to be happy. Oh, yes. Lots of love.

Bye.