#342 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (1st March 2020)

Hello, welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland. This is Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes and please subscribe.

Now, now, now, now. I've been, um, well, hope you're all okay. And what I've been doing for the last week, not constantly, you know, I've had a few breaks.

And I've been transcribing my recordings, some of them, not all of them. Um, and I've got through about, I've got through a lot of, a lot of ink cartridges and many, many pieces of paper. But I started off doing it on really big print so that I could see it.

Um, you know, without glasses and, well, not without glasses, without the reading glasses and so I could have a bit of room on the paper to make changes and stuff. But realizing how much ink I'm getting through and how much, the paper's not really an issue, but the ink is because it's very expensive. So I've started doing it on like normal print size and I'm getting through a lot less ink and a lot less paper.

So I'm going to continue that and just should be fine. But I've got a lot done, uh, so far. And I started off with the Let Me Bore You To Sleep recordings.

I think I've got 70, I think, recordings transcribed. So I've, I'm using a podcast service called podcast.co. And so I've got a podcast on there and all my record, well, all of the more recent recordings are on there. And this is about 1,100 or something.

And it gives me the option to transcribe them as part of the service. So transcribe it. It's not perfect in any way, possibly 70%, maybe a bit more, but it's definitely, um, I can say that as I'm reading it and none of it makes sense, but, uh, I can listen to it and make changes fairly easily, I think.

And then a couple of days ago, I started to print out the Relaxation, Stress and Anxiety podcast. So I've not finished all the Let Me Bore You To Sleep ones, but, um, it's going to take a while. It's going to take probably, realistically, probably a few months to get them all printed out and then to transcribe them probably, you know, until the end of the year.

But I'm hoping to have at least one Kindle book or one book written by the end of this year. And although it's going to be available on Kindle, for myself, I want to actually print it out as well. So I've got a printed version just for my own, I don't know, just give me a little thrill, I suppose, to know that I'm an author.

So that'll be cool. Self-published, of course. So what I thought I would do is, I have to still wear my reading glasses.

I went, I went, whoops, I went with a friend to an assessment thing, a medical assessment today, as support, and they did an eye test for him. And he said, oh, you know, held this, you know, like a optician's thing, and just held it up until what one, what's the bottom line you can see? What's the clearest line you can see how far down? And the top letter was T, just a big, big mess of T. And even that was fuzzy for me. Amazing.

I was like, what on earth? So that's without my glasses on. I mean, to start with, I said, I can't see, I can't see any numbers. And the doctor said, well, this assessment's not for you, it's for your friend.

And besides, you're looking at the wall. I said, oh, okay. So if you turn around, so I've got the, I've got a script for the very first Let Me Bore You To Sleep recording.

I did it a couple of years ago. And it starts with, ah, hello, welcome to jasonnewland.com. But instead of .com, it says, took home. Well, this is going to be hard work.

This is how it's printed out. This, spelled with two S's, is a sleep keep nice session. I only watch listen to this.

Full stop. When he can safely close your eyes. I'm laying down on the bed, pretty comfortable.

I can actually feel what voice five prayed into the actual bed, which is a bit strange. What on earth? He sprayed outside our window. This is the transcription service.

And says there's a spring morning. I'm just gonna focus on my body. Focus.

Don't know how I feel. And ideally, really, you, Tio, gained the most benefit from listening to me. Till I used to give yourselves and time and space.

Ideally, where you won't be interrupted. You know, ideally. Ideally.

Maybe with this name to my voice at night on everything you needed to Tio has been completed. B-E-A-N. Which gives you that space.

Just turn off your brain. Just turn off your brain. Turned down toe.

Fully in so that any thoughts that may arise, you can just that shouldn't be there in the same way. It's when you you're watching a movie. What television program that you enjoy.

You may lose contact with how you think. Phil or your hands may be less aware of time. Parson.

How am I supposed to do this? None of it really makes sense. By because there was something just done that important in this moment. Nondre scratching at the front door again.

Doesn't annoy me one little bit. Yes, it does. Right.

So what I'll do, I'll skip to number four. Hopefully number four make a bit of sense. Let me boil asleep number four.

Hello and welcome. Well, that's that's okay. Tio.

It's a T-E-O. Don't know what that means. I'll welcome to.

Okay. Let me bore you to sleep number forever. I guess that's number four.

Pull. Pull. Full stop.

I think I even start off boring, giving you the number of the session. Oh, that's cool. No one cares about the number.

Really? Debbie. There were different. Not they.

But like I leave you with her a cliffhanger at the end of each episode. Yes, you know, running to you running to your laptop for your phone to listen to the next day to find out what happened. I 3D just me talking to you.

In it's in a way it's took me talking at you about one of those really annoying friends. So I can I can. It's like a different language, but I can tell you what that meant.

In a way, it's like me talking at you. Like when I was really annoying friends, just talk at you. I got no interest in listening to you.

Got no in. That's rude, isn't it? Got got no interest in here. In what? Got no interest.

And I know what I'm saying. Because basically, I was saying, just talking at you. Got no interest in listening to you.

Got no interest in what you've got to say. I just want to talk to you. Well, luckily, I can do that because I don't have to be interrupted by you or by anyone else.

That's what it says there. I can I can I can enjoy just listening. I can enjoy just listen to my own voice overnight again.

And the benefit of this for you is that you don't have to pretend to be interested. You don't have to force your eyes to stay open. You could just listen to me.

And I could be talking about absolutely anything. So this is this is number four. So this is going to over two years ago.

So I started to get into the swing of things at this point. I think I could be looking at the bedroom floor and counting the balls. A little balls colored balls in what? I could be looking at the bedroom floor and counting the balls.

Oh, yeah, there's lots of different colored balls Andre's got. The little colored balls on my fairy plays with their diet all around the flat. So fairy would be ferret.

And so I could just count the colored balls that the ferret runs around with, plays with. I could just count them for you. And so there's one that's red.

What on earth am I talking? I do start to count and ones need a radiator. It's blue. That one's going.

It's like a Scott bit of egg on it. It's got a bit of an egg on it for where Andre had an egg. You mentioned that steak sit in the room with someone talking to you like that.

And you pretty much want to do anything. You pretty much want to do anything of it. And stay awake.

Just when I got a slave, a slave, which when I just also remembered, I only listen or watch these sessions, these sleep sessions when you can safely close your eyes. So it does print some stuff out correctly. My web besides his Jason Newland dot com.

I'm also I've got podcasts about pod automatic among pod automatic. I'm on SoundCloud. I'm on iTunes.

I'm on speaker. Supposed to be speaker. I'm put being everywhere.

So quite easy to find. Just put in Jason Newland. Or if you want to find these ones, just put in the title of the session.

Let me bore you to sleep. Good. Oh, man.

Go there. You find me very easily as creepy. Was any farm very easily.

So the point of these is there is no point other than to relax. Wow. Okay.

So that was a number four that goes on forever. Seriously, there's 20 pages of that. So let's go to number five.

See what I wrote there. No, this is hard work. I can't.

I can't. Oh, no. No, that's that's of no use.

So I'm looking at the relaxation for stress and panic and anxiety ones. For some reason, these ones are typed out a bit better. They're a bit.

So I wonder why that is. Maybe it's just a clearer recording, perhaps, because it says this is number eight. But no, that doesn't make sense because the relaxation for stress and anxiety, they were made ages ago.

The first 34 was probably three years ago. Then it says, hello, blah, blah, blah. This is your daily relaxation hypnosis session for stress, anxiety and panic attacks.

So each day is different, different session. And within each session, some are, I guess some are very much technique based. Others is made just talking, me just talking.

And they're never still. So with this session, I'm going to get straight into the actual relaxation. I'm going to ask you to close your eyes if it's safe for you to do so.

And if you're lying down on a bed or a sofa, make sure you're safe and you're going to fall off. Make sure you're safe and you're going to fall off or anything. Or you're not going to fall off, probably.

Isn't that interesting? I know it's not perfect, but it's a hell of a lot better than the previous one. Ah, I'm starting to, I'm starting to wonder, really, really starting to wonder if there's anything I can do about Andre. Because he is really annoying me.

At this time of night, scratching. To be fair, I was doing a recording yesterday and he was doing that. And in the end of the start, I just stopped the recording.

I was so annoyed with him. Stopped the recording, deleted it. It was half an hour's worth of me talking.

And he just wound me up so much. And I just don't know what I can do. He's just, he's obsessed.

Absolutely. He's got this frenetic energy. He's just nonstop.

He's still sleeping, but he's sleeping a lot less. And he's constantly running up, jumping up my leg, you know, climbing up my leg, which he doesn't normally do because he's lazy. And he's running around, climbing onto it.

Honestly, it's almost like someone's just giving him a big bag of amphetamines or something. And no one has, as far as I'm aware, unless he's up to something when I'm not around. And again, he's just climbed up my leg.

And he hasn't done that for months, literally. He normally puts his, both his hands on my leg for me to pick him up. He doesn't, he's very lazy normally.

But now he's got all this energy. It's kind of like he's, and then he's biting me. And he knows not to.

He's biting the inside between my finger and my thumb, like, you know, the fleshy part, the, as I say, the flipper part, you know, the web, if you had webs, and they are kind of like little webs, aren't they, in a sense. But that would be in that middle bit. And he bites it.

And with other people, he bites hard now, so I have to keep him away from everyone. But he knows, don't you? You know not to bite your daddy, don't you? You know that's the last thing you should ever do. You should not bite me.

I don't mind when we play. Play fighting is fine. And I end up, you know, I do get cut and scratched.

But that's a choice. But you don't do it unless I want you to. Not that I want him to bite me.

But you know, sometimes he needs a good, good old punch up. So he likes to get rough and everything. And he enjoys it.

My hands don't enjoy it so much, but I think it's good for him to have that, you know, play time. But when he just does it, it's weird. So I'm cuddling him.

He sort of wants some more attention. What he seems to want is attention right now. So I've got him in my arms, I'm stroking his face, stroking his chest.

And he's just cuddling me really. But he wants something. It's like his mind is, I don't know, it's almost like he's got some kind of, I don't know, like he's got a drug habit or something.

And all he's thinking about is the next, the next line of cocaine or something like, the next one, the next one. When's the next one happening? When's the, I'm waiting for the dealer to arrive. When's she coming? Mind you, with him, it wouldn't be cocaine.

It would be, it would, no, I'm holding on to you. I don't care. No, I'm holding you.

It would be whipped cream. He loves whipped cream more than anything else in the world. Honestly, that's why I've got to be careful not to give him too much because he gets hooked on it.

You know, I don't want to go out and see him standing out in the street trying to raise money, you know. Looking for business, darling. Looking for business.

So yeah, I want him to, he loves the whipped cream. And it's bad for him as well. It's, it's, it's actually, he's lactose intolerant.

And I think part of that is just in nature and he wouldn't normally be eating cheese and milk and stuff. A ferret wouldn't be, most animals wouldn't, would they? They had the milk of their mothers, maybe. Perhaps not crocodiles, but that'd be too painful for the mother, wouldn't it? Imagine a crocodile on your tit.

That'd be, oh. And after that, most animals go into solid food, don't they? Like pretty much straight away. And yeah, I suppose eggs, which isn't dairy anyway, is it? So eggs.

I suppose if he was in the wild, he'd unfortunately be eating other little animals, which is, well, and rabbits, which are bigger actually, but I'm so glad he doesn't have to do that. But he'd be enjoying himself more. That's the sad thing.

You know, I've given him the run of the flat and which I don't think as many ferrets would have this much space to play in. And if I had a mansion, I'd, I'd let him have the run of the mansion as well. I might keep one room, you know, separate.

Probably the bedroom, actually. I don't know. Probably not.

But, you know, it's, he'd love, he just, he loves having the space and making use of every room. He's got stuff in every single room. Not that I haven't got millions of rooms, but um, he's made it his own.

He's made this place his, he's put his mark, and that's just, that's putting it lightly. He's left his, he's left lots of marks on the carpet. And he's, he's a strange one.

He is. But I think all things considered, I don't think I could have got a better suited pet, really, than a ferret. I think it really suits my kind of weird brain to have that kind of a pet.

To have, I know he's not, I don't normally call him a pet because he is my son, but you know, the reality is I didn't actually, I didn't squirt him out or give birth to him, you know, so he's not biologically mine, but you wouldn't think it to look at him. And he's, I don't know, there's something about, he's got zero compassion, just very much just like me, very only interested in himself, just like me. And he doesn't do, he, you know, he just doesn't, that's it.

It's all about him. He's got no interest, he's not, definitely would not perform for another person. He's not, you know, he doesn't try and look cute.

He just is cute without trying. He doesn't, you know, there's just something about him that's very selfish. You know, he's not, like with a dog, he's not needy, doesn't need affection.

Although he does really, you know, he likes affection, but he pretends he doesn't. But, I mean, cats really, I'd say probably the best, I don't know, one of the nicest animals for affection in a sense of if you've got a cat and it's affectionate to you, it's because the cat really, really loves you. Cats aren't affectionate to people they don't like.

So it's nice to know, because I used to go to my nan's and I think what she used to have cats, she loved cats. She didn't have them in older age because, you know, she'd just been tripped up and everything. So she had cats and I think, I don't know how many she had, but she also had neighborhood cats used to come around.

So she had a very, very affectionate relationship with cats. And, you know, I'd be sitting there and only one of them liked me. And it would come and lay on my lap and purr.

And it was lovely. I covered my trousers in hair, you know, but to be fair, well, you know, it's nice. So it was just, I realized back then that cats are quite fussy because none of the others wanted anything to do with me.

Apart from the neighborhood ones, they're quite like a little nice little stroke, don't they? Every now and then, you know, when they stick their tail up and like, crap, whether they crouch their back or push their back up. And yeah, I used to have a cat when I was about eight or seven, but unfortunately, you know, lost it. And after that, we didn't have any pets again until we had a dog when I was about 14 or 15, a dog, St. Bernard, biggest, strongest, heaviest beast of all in the world at that time.

Honestly, it was like an elephant. It was just huge. It was bigger than me.

Literally, it would stand on its feet and put its hands on my shoulder and its head would be about three inches taller than I was, if not more. It could actually put its chin on top of my head. That's how big the St. Bernard was.

And it weighed way more than I did. So I couldn't take it for a walk. It was too embarrassing.

You know, especially when you're like 14, 15, even if you're not strong, you want to pretend you are. You know, you want to kind of pretend that the little muscles work or the big muscles work, depending if you've got big muscles, but you want to pretend that you're tough. Well, kind of.

No one looks tough when they're being pulled around by a St. Bernard or a big dog, because a big dog is stronger than a big man, generally, because it's all big woman. Not always the case, obviously. Some people are mega strong, but that dog, it got to the thing, it outgrew the house.

Couldn't be in the house anymore because it was too, it was bigger than the room. It was just knocking stuff over all the time. And no one wanted to take it for a walk because it was an impossible task.

So it kind of got neglected, to be fair. Not in a horrible way. I mean, it wasn't starved, but did not get the affection or the attention or the walks that it should have had.

And in the end, we got a new home for it. Her name is Misty. Beautiful dog, but everyone loved her when she was a puppy because she was the same size as any other puppy.

That's what I thought until I realized that she'd only been born three hours ago. She grew, obviously grew and grew and grew. And she was the most beautiful thing.

She brought the family together and everyone loved her. And then she just got bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger. And yeah, it was sad actually.

Sad, but she went to a good home and she wasn't in our place for long. She basically got to adulthood and was just unmanageable. And the family all split up as well.

So she got, she went somewhere, she went elsewhere and got taken in. I mean, her kennel was probably as big as my flat, honestly, in the garden. Massive thing.

She'd hear us coming up, really deep voice. And we couldn't go in the back anymore because she'd be covered in slob, because she's a burning slobber. So she'd be slobbering all over us, all over me because I was at school still.

So I couldn't go in the back way because I couldn't be covered in slobber. And so I ended up going in the front and I didn't really see her because it was too dangerous. She used to pin me to the floor.

I couldn't do anything. It was such a shame. She was lovely, but just huge.

Honestly, if you're going to get a huge dog, you need to, I don't know how you do that, just train them to walk slowly. And probably I'm sure there's lots of dog trainers that could do that. But St Bernard's, they need, I think they just need really good training.

Otherwise they will just pull you wherever they want to go because they are huge, huge, and not just big, but heavy, really heavy. I might have mentioned that, really heavy. But yeah, that was the only dog we had in our family.

And it's a shame, basically the dog was introduced to a family that didn't want a dog. So yeah, not quite sure why they got a dog. It was exciting for the first three months.

And then it was like, okay, it was a chore. You got to take her for a walk. I don't want to take her for a walk.

Oh, she was beautiful. But you know, if you've got a dog, you've got to have a dog somewhere where people love the dog. It's the only way it works, I think, I suppose.

I'm not an expert, but I've lived with a few dogs over the years since that time. And never had one of my own, but I've just lived in places that had dogs and cats as well. And what if I had one? So there was one when I was there, then I moved to a dog there.

So I live with that dog. I live with that dog at two different places. I live with that dog.

I live with that dog. So there's four dogs. I've lived with four different dogs.

Yeah. And my friend's got a dog, but I don't live there. But I do see the dog fairly regularly.

And that's a big old dog. It's nowhere near the size of a, you know, Rottweiler, not Rottweiler, St. Bernard or St. Bernard. However, it's as strong as St. Bernard is ridiculously strong.

That dog is. I've never known a dog as strong. I mean, you know, I've held the lead of quite a few different dogs over the years.

And there's only one dog, only two dogs have ever pulled me off my feet. And that's the St. Bernard and my friend's dog. Bear in mind that I was, when I was 15 or 14, I was very little, you know, I was very, very skinny, probably didn't weigh more than, I probably weighed half the weight I do now.

And probably half as strong, well, not half as strong, but, you know, I would be stronger now than I was back then. So it just shows how strong this dog is because if it wants to go to the right, it goes to the right. And ain't nothing going to stop it.

Just walks through things, walks through tables. It's just so strong. It's ridiculous.

Yet so lovely as well. Really loving. Really got very needy, which a lot of dogs are, aren't they? Quite needy and very kind of wanting to please their owner and stuff.

And that's the opposite to Andre. He doesn't want to please anybody, which, again, I can quite relate to because I suppose I'm probably a bit like that. So, and he stinks.

Doesn't that nice stink, of course. So yeah, it's, and we're both fairly hairy or other things. Isn't it weird? Well, he's, he's hairy and smelly and he's cute.

But me, it's a different word, isn't it? You've got a hairy, smelly, middle-aged man. It's not cute for some reason. It's not fair, as I've talked enough about that little knobhead.

He's, he's asleep now. He's been so naughty though. It just winded me up because when he's, when he's scratching on the front door, I'm just concerned that it's going to disturb the neighbours.

And, you know, if the neighbours complain to the council, always this scratching at the door all the time and, you know, then I'll have to do something about it. And I just don't want to, just don't need that hassle. So in the last night I went to bed and after doing that recording, I stopped halfway through and I ended up having to, I was so tired as well.

I had quite a, quite a bad, what day is it now? It's a different day. It's not yesterday, day before yesterday, because it's now Sunday. But I had, yeah, Friday was quite a difficult day.

I didn't have a very good day, emotionally. And my mood wasn't so wonderful, wasn't so wonderful at all. In fact, I just spent the whole 30 minutes moaning, just moaning and moaning about the day.

And I thought, you know what? This, yeah. And so I got rid of it and deleted it. Perhaps I should have kept it just as an interesting thing for the future, but not released it.

In the end, I got Andre and I put him in the living room and closed the door. I closed the door to my bedroom. I took my phone in there because I had to wait for my friend to contact me in the morning to just let me know what's happening about going to that meeting with him.

And he was scratching at the living room door for what seemed like ages. And I could hear it, but it wasn't, it weren't too bad, you know. I could hear it, but it was muffled.

So I don't know, I suppose I could get him some kind of mittens and tie them on his hands so he can't scratch or some little boxing gloves. That'd be so cute. Can you imagine that, getting him some little boxing gloves? I might actually get some.

And eventually he went to sleep and then he was fine after that. You know, he didn't bother me at all after that. He just went to sleep and I woke up about six in the morning and then I went back to bed.

But this time I just left my bedroom door open and he didn't scratch at the bedroom door or anything. So he was happy, you know. I mean, if you think of the size of him and the size of this room, he's, it would be, him looking at this would be like just one of us standing inside a big cathedral probably, wouldn't it? In the sense of, well maybe not exactly, but the size, the height of the ceiling.

It's a big old, big old high building for him considering how far down he is. It's just people trying to get an idea what it would look like, but I don't know, it's impossible, isn't it really? And I wondered, does he see in black and white or does he see in colour? You know, the answer to that holds no interest to me. Isn't it weird? He doesn't watch telly and he can't see through glass.

He doesn't seem to be able to see through glass, which is weird. So there's a lady in the garage who really likes him. So now and then I'll be walking him and maybe I'll go to the cash machine or something and I'll like put him in front of the window and she'll be through the window just to sort of, she'll be waving at him and he won't even see her.

Yet if he was there in front of her, he'd be like all over her because she loves her. Very strange. I think it's just the eyesight's not great anyway with him.

The eyesight with ferrets isn't the best thing in the world. Their main thing is probably smell. But he's got quite good hearing when it's not me talking.

When it's not me asking him to do something outside of that situation, he's got great hearing. But when I'm asking him to behave or I'm calling him or anything like that, he just completely ignores me. Seriously, he knows his name.

How could he not know his name? He's heard it. How many hundreds of thousands of times has he heard his name when I'm calling him, you know, the last four years? He must, I don't know how many times I've mentioned Bob or whatever his name is. Loads of times.

Loads of times. I think what I might do is transcribe this recording and see how it comes up. And if it comes up as crappy as the original recordings I did, the ones I was looking at earlier, then I found I might just knock that on the head, just put it down as a waste of time.

Because I could hardly make any kind of sense out of the transcripts. I was hoping it'd be, apart from some of the relaxation for stress seemed to come out fairly okay. But these let me boil to sleep ones.

Pretty, pretty, pretty awful. As far as being able to make sense of what it is that I had said. And the idea was to not have to listen to it.

So yeah, it's, for me to listen back to my recordings would be almost like staying in the bathroom after I've done a big mess of smelly poo. No, I don't. I get out as quick as possible and close the door.

Well, sometimes. But you know, I get out of there. I don't want to kind of just, just inhale.

No, I want to get out of there. So rereading what I've listened back to my recordings, it's very much, no, it's not the same as that, but you know, it's, I was there when it happened. I don't, I don't need, I don't need to be there taking photographs and, you know, making a little video of it.

I don't, you know, I was there. I remember it. Let's move on.

So I think, I'm thinking that this, after that, after looking through them, because I've never, I've not looked through them yet. After looking through them, I'm thinking I may have wasted my time on that, on the actual transcribing. It might just be a bit of a pointless adventure.

And I'll look through some of the later ones to see if it's still the same. And if it is, it's a shame, but I'll probably just get rid of them all. Let's just, yeah, move on.

I mean, I know that I bought the printer for that reason, but I can always use a printer in the future. There's always going to be times when it's useful to have a printer and a scanner, so it's not wasted. And the ink cartridges, they'll last for ages.

And the paper, again, that'll last. So I might knock that on its head. After, I'll spend another hour or two looking through the stuff, you know, at my leisure, perhaps tomorrow.

And if none of it, if it's all just gobbledygook and muddled up and, I don't know. I just, I don't have the patience for it, if I'm honest. Because I might as well just listen to the audio and just transcribe it myself, which is something that I'm not going to do.

And the reason I'm not going to do it is because you can't make me. I don't want to. Partly, it's something that I was required to do at college.

I had to do it a few times, and we needed to record what we were required as part of the course to record our recording, our counseling sessions during our training, all of them. And each recording lasted for 50 minutes. And there was times when we were required as part of our coursework to transcribe what we, you know, the entire recording.

And it was, yeah, this wasn't my favorite activity. And in the end, I can't, I just thought, I can't do this. It's, it's, I think it's okay for people that are really accomplished typers.

Someone that can type as quick as the human speech without looking at the keyboard. And in fact, someone that can type faster than human speech, because then you could put the recording on fast forward. So speed it up by maybe a third, so that you can still comprehend the words that are being said, but it's much faster.

It takes less time to type it out. And I don't have those typing skills. I'm definitely much better at typing than I was 20 years ago.

But I still, I could type my name without looking at the keyboard. I think. Yeah, I'm pretty sure.

J A S. In fact, I can actually see on the keyboard in my mind. Oh, yeah. And just because I've typed it so many times over the years, I don't know why.

Oh, yeah, it's probably online stuff. And also because my email address has got my name in it. So the amount of times I've put, I had to sort of type in my email address, untold thousands and thousands of times over the last, you know, 15, 16 years or however long I've had that email address.

So yeah, that's kind of quite automatic. With the old little twinkly fingers typing on the keyboard. But as far as actually typing, you know, like proper sentences from stuff that I'm hearing on an audio.

No, it's just not for me. So yeah, I think I've taught my way. I taught myself into just giving, knocking that on its head.

And what I'll do is I'll keep the transcriptions, rather than chuck them away. I'll keep them just for the future in case I decide to do something with them. So I'll stash them away somewhere.

And then maybe what I can do with a printer is start to come up with some ideas for some recordings for the future. And I can I can stick them on a computer and then type, then get them printed out. So I know kind of, you know, for the deep sleep whisper recordings.

And so they're the ones sometimes I quite like to sort of have at least a rough sketch of what I'm going to be talking about, you know, within the recording. And with the relaxation for stress and anxiety, again, and I don't haven't yet really, but I'd like to have more of an idea of what I'm going to be talking about. Even though I can generally talk for an hour without knowing what I'm going to talk about before I even press the record button.

But it would be nice to be a bit more, a bit more, I don't use the word professional, because I'm not getting paid for it. When professionals get paid, that's basically the difference between amateur and professional. So does that mean I'm an amateur? Oh, amateur.

The thing is, if you put in the word amateur hypnosis, I imagine you get very different websites to the one that I've got. I'm just guessing. I don't know.

I don't know. But I'm guessing. So, I don't know.

I don't know what's, yeah. Another thing I've been doing, I got rid of the adverts again. I don't know if I mentioned, yeah, I think I did mention it.

And as soon as I got rid of them, I've had a few people contact me saying, put the adverts back. So I don't know, are the adverts popular? I'm guessing, this is my theory, that the adverts are more enjoyable than the recordings. So people are listening to the recordings because they've got the adverts at the beginning, and that's what they look forward to.

That's what I'm thinking. And anyway, they're off. The adverts are gone.

And what's the other thing? I have been, I've got, you know, I've got as you probably might be aware, you may be aware, I've got about 48 podcasts. I used to think it was 36, but it's about 48. And there's a bunch that are like the lead runners, you know, as far as having the largest audiences.

And occasionally, one starts to grow. Like there's a stop smoking course that's sort of growing steadily. But I can't do anything with that because it's, it's a complete course, you know, it's from a long time ago, but it's done.

So I just leave it. But another podcast that's been growing steadily is the sleep hypnosis with music. And I've just been observing it for the last few months.

And it's sort of growing very slowly, growing in a sense of, you know, every day. It's the podcast is listened to every day. And the stats are gradually growing up, growing, not like huge.

And so I started thinking, maybe I'll make some more of those recordings. And I did that a couple of months ago. And they, again, people watch that or listen to those ones.

And the last one I did had about two and a half thousand downloads. And I think it was 15 altogether. So what I've done or 16.

So what I've done is yesterday, or the day before Friday night, rather, I did a, I started transforming. First of all, I did the sleep hypnosis weekly. Number 36, I'd already released that.

And I made a version of it with music, relaxing music with it. And I published that as well, but I added with music and the name of the Kevin McLeod, you know, incompetech.com and, you know, all the copyright stuff that's supposed to be on there. So I've done that.

So what I'm going to do from now on is every time I do a sleep hypnosis weekly, I'm going to do two versions, one with music, one without music. And then I uploaded that onto the sleep hypnosis with music podcast, and just named it as number 16. So I gave it a different name, just, you know, and now I started going through the, let me, the sleep hypnosis weekly, starting at number one and just moving up.

And I've done about eight now and added music to them, edit, I have to edit it to do it, added music, and then uploading it as number 16, number 17, number 18, 19, 20, whatever, sleep hypnosis with music. So that's what I've been doing. So I'm probably going to do all 36 of them and put them on there.

And I was thinking of maybe doing this sleep, whisper sleep ones, but they're a bit too quiet to have music underneath them. And I thought maybe adding music to some of these, Let Me Bore You To Sleep, like some relaxing music underneath there. But I don't think that, I tried it yesterday and didn't really work.

It was a little bit, for me, it's a bit distracting. I think for the, but I don't know, I might be wrong. I'm happy, I'm happy to do two different versions, one with music, one without music.

But as it is, I've got enough sleep recordings that I can add music to and then put them all onto the sleep hypnosis with music. And so there'll probably be about, I don't know, about a hundred, maybe 150 recordings on there. And it'll all be, I kind of, I think I've just about got the level correct, the volume level at quite a nice level for the music.

So you can hear it, but it's not intrusive. And sometimes the music goes on for much longer than the actual recording. So the recording ends and the music just carries on gently for another sort of 10 minutes, even 15 minutes, and then just fades out.

So I'm going to do that. See, it's already getting downloads, those recordings, and I'll put them on. For me, it's just a case of if people listening to that podcast like the sleep sessions with music, then why not make more? After all, I've got a lot of sleep recordings that are available that I could add music to.

So that's kind of what I've been doing last night and this evening, just playing around with it. And it seems to be going quite well really, I think. But again, it's like with some of the other podcasts that were getting a little bit of activity, they were kind of a bit more activity than the other ones, but not as much as the more popular ones.

As soon as I started putting a bit of energy into them, they started to grow, really gaining the popularity to the point of even matching some of the more popular ones. For example, the Relaxation for Stress and Anxiety. I reached over 100,000 on that about two, three weeks ago.

It's about 105,000 downloads now and I only started giving that energy last summer. I think it was June. Before that, I just had a bunch of recordings that were on there, sort of 34, I think, yeah.

And I just left them back in November 2018. I didn't touch them and I'd noticed there was a bit of activity. I was getting maybe 50, 60 downloads a day, which again, it's not a lot, but it adds up over the month.

So I started adding new ones and now the minimum I get is about 600, 700 downloads a day. On a good day, 900 or over a thousand downloads on that podcast. So once I started putting energy into it and making more regular recordings, they, I don't like using the word popular, but more because who knows, everyone listening might hate them and watch, but I know it's not true, but you know, because it's just, I don't know, it sounds almost a bit egotistical, popular, or like to say someone is, call someone a fan, even though people call themselves fans or just call someone a follower.

But that's like the internet language, isn't it? You know, you've got followers on Facebook. But in the old days, a follower would be someone that followed like a spiritual teacher, which of course I'm not, you know, so, you know, I try not to use words that would be, don't make me sound like I'm being big headed or whatever, but, or, you know, thinking, thinking of myself as being something that I'm not. I just can't help being a genius.

What can I do? It's a, it's a, it's a, it's a burden. Anyway, I'm going to go. I want to thank you all for listening and do something nice for yourself today or tomorrow.

If you are, if you're going to bed now, do something nice for yourself tomorrow. Whatever it is, just something, doesn't matter how big it is. You know, if you're, if you're financially rich, maybe treat yourself to something shiny, maybe some jewelry, maybe, you know, whatever.

Buy yourself a helicopter or a jet plane or a yacht if you want to. Also, it's up to you what you do. It's your money.

But do something nice for yourself. It doesn't need to be about money. Just watch a movie that you want to watch.

Eat an ice cream. Although the weather might not be ice cream weather at the moment for a lot of people, but just do something. Just, whatever it is, we all have our own things that we enjoy doing that gives us a special feeling.

Maybe you can do that. So do something nice for yourself because you deserve to be happy. So, you know, be kind to yourself.

And that's the end of this recording. Thank you very much for listening. And if you're falling asleep, thank you very much for not listening anymore because you're asleep, feeling relaxed and calm and sleepy.

So take care. Speak to you very soon. Lots of love.

Bye. Bye-bye.