#301 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (14th January 2020)

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name's Jason Newland. This is Let Me Bore You to Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

Close your eyes. If you like what I do, leave a review. Just go to my website and you can either leave a written review or a video review if you're feeling extra, extra brave and I'll appreciate it.

Because that's just lovely, isn't it? I just like it. And what other things? So I have pretty much completed the website as far as uploading all of my recordings, saying that there are probably 100 or so, maybe 200 that aren't on there. And you can say, well, that's quite a lot, but not really compared to how many I've got altogether.

So there's a few of the self-development, self-help ones that are quite short and don't necessarily fit into a category. So I might add them as well, I'm not sure. But at the moment, pretty much everything is now on my website to stream free and to download.

And at the moment, you can download them for free as well. Although if you're listening to this in two years time, there might be a charge for the downloads, I really don't know. But at the moment, everything is free.

And I'd like it to always stay that way, because it's what I like, I like that a lot. And today, or yesterday rather, I produced, what did I do yesterday? Yeah, I produced two recordings. I did number 300, Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

So this is episode 301. Can't believe I've done over 300. Recordings of this.

Just talking about nothing for an hour. It's amazing. And I also did, I started to do more regular recordings of the relaxation hypnosis for stress, anxiety and panic attacks.

I'd like to say thank you to Boston Chiki for your support for these recordings. Because when I first started doing them back in 2017, I think it was, I think it was January 2017. Might have been 2016.

But I think it was 2017. And I did 34 recordings, I think it was. And that was it.

That's all I was going to do. And Boston Chiki, as well as a few other people really were supportive about them and, you know, told me how much they liked those recordings. And then in 2018, was it November, I uploaded that podcast, as well as all the other podcasts, onto Spreaker and share them with all the different podcast hosts out there online.

And I kind of forgot about that one. And I focused more on the, I don't know what I was focusing on back then. Oh, Let Me Bore You To Sleep ones.

And yeah, that's really what I was focusing more on at that time. Because I'd been doing that since the beginning of 2018. And then I couldn't figure out why I was getting so many downloads overall.

Because I was looking at the podcasts that were the most popular, that I kind of was putting stuff onto and I couldn't figure it out. It didn't work out properly. And I noticed that the Relaxations, Hypnosis for Sleep, Anxiety and Panic Attacks was actually getting quite a few downloads, like every day.

Yeah, I hadn't made any new recordings for, well, at all. And I didn't start doing until I think probably April or May, maybe June last year, I think it was about June time. At that point, I was getting quite a few downloads every day.

And I thought, I might as well just do another one, do number 35 and see if people would like them. And it's gone from there. So I've now did number 72.

Yeah, I did number 72 yesterday. And yeah, I'm really pleased with that podcast. It's close to my heart, due to my own experiences with stress and anxiety and panic and stuff.

So I talk about my experiences on there, as well as offering hopefully useful tips and ideas. I'm not big on the word advice. I probably do offer advice, but I try to just offer options.

Let's give a few ideas and options. So I'll talk about the buffet idea, because I had the podcast, The Hypnotic Buffet. And that's what that was based on, in a sense of, you've got the buffet, and you can, instead of me saying, why don't you try the sausage rolls? Have you tried the cheese puffs? You know, have you tried the seagull pate? And instead of doing that, I just mention stuff, just talk about stuff.

And that was, you know, it's kind of what I do. I just float some ideas in the air. And if you choose to try them on or to test them or to embrace them or to let those ideas sink into your mind, then that's kind of a choice, you know.

So that's pretty much what I do with those recordings. That's a, it's quite a simplistic description, but I prefer simplistic, I really do. And I really, I do, I value those, those podcasts.

It's got to the point, actually, where the podcasts are almost like my children. And that's a bit weird. But, you know, I've got the Let Me Boyd, this one, Let Me Boyd to Sleep.

This is my child, you know. It's now 300 years old. But it's my baby.

It's something I've created from scratch. Created and, I don't know, brought up and nurtured or whatever, you know. The same with the Deep Sleep Whisper Hypnosis podcast.

It's now 172 or 173, something like that, recordings on there. And that was a similar thing. I needed seven to start with.

And then people were downloading it. It kept downloading every day. So I thought, oh, as I like to give people, my listeners, you who are listening, I like to give you options, you know, more choice, instead of listening to the same recording over and over again, which can be really useful.

And it's just nice to have a choice, I think. So that's what I've done. That's what I've tried to do with my little babies, with my children.

So I've got Let Me Boyd to Sleep, Deep Sleep Whisper Hypnosis, the Sleep Hypnosis, what is it, the Relaxation Hypnosis for stress, anxiety, panic attacks, and I've got the Sleep Hypnosis Weekly. So that's four, isn't it? Four podcasts. I've got 35 podcasts, but they're the four that are kind of my babies that I've started from scratch as a podcast, you know, as a kind of, well, they're all created myself, but there's, they've almost kind of taken a life on their own, sort of separate from all my other stuff.

And then there's the two Sleep Hypnosis podcasts that I've got, that are the two most popular podcasts that I have online. But that's, that contains all of the deep sleep stuff that I do. But they get, some of them get like 800 or more downloads a day, some of those two podcasts.

So, you know, I kind of like to say thank you to people that are listening because yesterday, I don't even know why really, but I had 4,100 downloads just yesterday. And I had just under 400 the day before, 400, 4,000, just under 3,900 or something downloads. And it's just all grown just since January.

I mean, month on month, it's growing, you know, if you look at the, it's definitely upward slope throughout the year, last year. But I think part of the reason, you know, I'd like to thank Natalie and Rachel who have been sharing my podcasts on Facebook, because I think that helps. I've had a few extra people that have added me as friends on Facebook.

And it's, I don't know, I did start the competition for January where I said anyone that posts or, you know, shares my post on Facebook onto their page will get entered into a competition where you can win a flash drive with all of my Let Me Boy To Sleep recordings on it. And I'll send that at the beginning of February to the winner, it'll be like a draw. And I haven't had a lot of people show huge interest in that so far.

Although I have had, I've had a few shares. I've had lots of shares, but it's been kind of the same people pretty much every time, which I really appreciate. And it'd be lovely to have more.

But I do understand if you don't want my stuff on your page, but maybe the odd one, you know, maybe if it's a recording that you do like, that you've listened to and you thought, yeah, that was groovy, or that that was useful. And maybe you've got friends that might find it helpful, rather than just sharing it for the sake of it. But if you share it, I don't mind what the reason is.

I just appreciate the help really to reach more people. And although I do reach, you know, I've got a few people on Facebook that follow what I do. Most of the people that listen to me online are not on Facebook, not on my Facebook, rather.

And so I kind of don't know, you know, people all over the world listen, and I don't know who they are. I don't need to know either. But it's just, I suppose that's why I kind of would be interested in getting some more reviews.

And I know that as some people listen to this would say, well, actually, I've left a few testimonials on a few of your different websites over the years, JJ. And perhaps I don't want to do any more. I've had enough of leaving reviews.

I've done enough testimonials. And I could understand that. But maybe do another one, just for me.

Because this website is now going to stay. I've put so much into this current website that I've got. It's also costing quite a bit of money.

Even to have the reviews, that's a separate app that I have to pay for £10 a month, added on to the website host. So I'm keeping that. And I just want to see how it grows over the next year without keep changing.

So I've got a habit of changing the website hosts, which means it messes it up in the Google search and search engines. They just don't know where I am, because I'm there. And then suddenly, all the page links don't work anymore, because I've moved to a different host.

And there's a different page links. So my plan is to just stay on one, one, just stay with that host. Stay with the website I've got and keep growing it every day it grows.

So I'm adding new recordings on there. And there's still loads of work to do on the website. And I'm looking to probably change the design a bit as well, make it a little bit nicer.

But that's, I'll do that once everything's on there how I want it to be. And every now and then, I kind of test out some of the apps that are available. I did one yesterday, which was sort to message me and stuff.

But I don't really, I suppose I could have a Facebook messenger thing on there. But again, I'm paying for that extra. When you can just face, you can just like send a message from my website to me.

So yeah, there's a few things I'm going to do. But at the moment, I'm quite pleased with how it is. Because I've put a lot of work into it to get it how it is.

So yeah, that was boring. That really was boring. Wow.

Sometimes I'm really bored myself. That's when I know that I'm doing good work. So let me give you an idea what I'm up to at the moment.

I'm currently listening to, not right now while I'm talking to you, I'm listening to Susan Jeffers' Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway, which is an audio on Audible. It's a recording I used to own back in the 90s and the 2000s. So I used to, I owned it on tape, then I bought it on CD.

And I listened to it. I remember once, I listened to it in the garden. It was a summer's day.

When I was living in the Buddhist community, we had this garden outside the back. And I was sitting down, listening to it on, I had my little CD player thing, whatever it was. Well, it's probably a big one, but you know, not big, like a little boombox thing.

And I had headphones. So I listened to it, the Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway. And I didn't realize that it must have just been on loop, must have had it set to just keep playing over and over again, because I got completely sunburned.

And yeah, I was out there, I fell asleep. So I was probably out there for maybe three hours, instead of just thinking I'll sit down here for an hour. And I wasn't even directly in the sun to start with.

So the sun must have moved around, even though someone moved me around to get into the sun. Maybe my housemates, which would be a bit rude. Or perhaps, well no, that wouldn't make sense would it? Let's say someone attached healing blooms to my legs and my arms and I floated towards the sun, hence getting sunburned.

But that really wouldn't make much sense. How would I end up back in the chair? That'd be silly. Anyway, yeah, so I got sunburned.

And it's kind of the first time that I've been that sunburned for many, many, many, many years. Improper, so you know, not just like mildly, but really. Although there was a time back in, my heating's coming on so the radio will start clicking, that'd be nice.

There was a time when it was my dad's, was it his birthday? Yeah, it was his birthday. And it was in April. So I kind of just, I turned the heating off, but the radio is still clicking.

So I did, I went down to the beach, I was reading a book. I wonder what book I was reading. This is during my degree.

So we're probably talking 2008, 2009, something like that. And I was, yeah, more than likely reading a book on counseling for fun. And I just sat down and just sat there.

I had about an hour, you know, I was sitting there for about half an hour, an hour. People were going in to see. It wasn't even hot.

It was warm. But it wasn't like, it didn't seem to me to be burny, burny temperature. But I ended up with sunstroke.

Very weird. So yeah, I think it might be in a combination of the sea air and stuff, you know. So I think because you've got the breeze coming off of the sea, it can give a false estimate of the temperature.

I'm making that up. I've got no idea if it's true. It's because of my skin, you see.

I've got this skin. I suppose we all have, but mine is very, very, very, I don't know what, I suppose sensitive, but red or pale. I'm not sure what you would call it.

But when I was a kid, like very, very young, probably, yeah, four, three, four. I remember I got sunburned really, really, really badly. And I was out playing with my brothers and with my friends or whatever.

And I didn't even know, didn't even realize until I got home. And you know when you get inside after being out in the sun and suddenly everything's like a weird, it's like that darkness as you walk inside. Like your eyes kind of had to sort of readjust.

And I look in the mirror, and there's a clown looking back at me. But without the white makeup, just one big red was a tomato basically kind of. And although I looked funny, it didn't feel funny.

No, it didn't. No, no, no, no, no. So, so basically, I have to keep out of the sun.

I don't keep out of it like a vampire. And yeah, I don't. But I do keep out of it, partly because I've talked about this before, it's like a body image.

I've never really felt particularly comfortable to be walking around topless. I've never done it outside of when I was a child. And I do all the time, bottomless, I didn't mind, topless.

Unfortunately, the members of the public and supermarket staff did mind. But when I'm indoors even, I will be topless in the summer, indoors. Andre seems to be okay with it.

And sometimes, I don't know, it's hard to tell because sometimes he looks, screams, and mums away. Other times I see him, and he's hiding behind the door and he's giggling. So I don't know.

It's hard to tell if he's just making fun of me or, but I actually, I do, I sit there, maybe I'm watching telly, maybe I'm on the laptop, maybe I'm making a recording even, and I'll be topless. Sometimes it'll be hot and I'll just have some shorts on, and that'll be it. But if someone knocks at the door, I have to make sure I've got a t-shirt on.

Sometimes I take the shorts off just to even things out, but generally I have to have a t-shirt on. I will not be seen topless, not by anybody, ever, apart from a doctor. Although the last doctor I went to see, she had to do a, she did, you know the thing where they put it on, put the stethoscope, is it stethoscope? That cold metal breathy thing that they put, it's like attached to headphones.

I'm sure she was just listening to music, but she put that on my back and my stomach, but she didn't, she was quite happy. I was in the same, I started to take my t-shirt off, and it got up to my nipples. She said, no, no, you can leave it down.

I'll just go underneath. So I don't know if she just didn't want me to take my top off. I think it was, I think she got scared.

I think she was, yeah, I don't know. Maybe she was, I mean, she might have been about to have a lunch, you know, and she didn't want that image in her head. So maybe she was, you know, I was one of the last people she was going to see before it was her lunch, and she's there eating a seagull pate sandwich, and I was like, oh, that bloke, what on earth was that? But luckily, you know, the chesty, breathy thing, lungs and stuff are fine.

So that was good, which is the main thing really, I guess. It does annoy me a little bit though. I'm going to go on.

See, I've had a back issue, lower back issue since I was, the first time in my memory, I remember having it and getting a little bit of therapy for it, physical therapy for it, back in 1999. Okay. And in 1999, I was slim.

And I had this lower back issue, which is gradually worsened over time. I went to a chiropractor, or chiroprodist, I don't know what they call it, chiropractor. And that's after the lower back issue was getting so bad that I had to stop doing Taekwondo.

I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't do the kicking, running around. It was, I remember it was quite upsetting, actually.

So I went to this ear, nose, throat specialist and he looked at me back and he said, no, can you put your top back on please? I'm feeling ill. I said, okay, you don't have to be rude. He said, no, sorry, but I've just eaten.

I said, oh, still rude. He said, yeah, I know, but I mean, you do own a mirror, don't you? I said, yeah. He said, well, you know what I'm talking about then.

I said, it's still rude though, isn't it? It's even ruder. He said, well, let's focus on your back. I've only got 15 minutes.

I said, yeah, that's another thing. How come I'm paying you £45 for 15 minutes? He said, what do you mean? I said, I'm paying you £45 for 15 minutes and all you do is press on my back a little bit, get me to stand on one leg and touch my toes, which I found a bit unusual, and just basically manipulate my lower back a bit. He said, yeah.

I said, do you know what I could get for £45 elsewhere? He said, yeah, I do know what you could get. It's three doors up. You could probably get a lot more.

I said, no, not what? He said, yeah, don't you see the business cards in the telephone box? I said, no, I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about stuff I could buy for £45. That's a week's food potentially.

He said, depends. Depends on what? Well, you might want to eat caviar. I said, who eats caviar? He said, lots of people eat caviar.

It's a very popular food item. Anyway, he said to me, lower back is wear and tear. It's just, I'm getting older.

This is five years ago, so I was what, 40, 44 or something at the time. And he said, yeah, it's wear and tear. It's just standard stuff.

I said, okay. He gave me some exercises to do and he wanted me to keep going back every couple of weeks or every week, paying £44, £45 at a time for 15 minutes. And I just, I couldn't.

I just couldn't afford that. It was just ridiculous. But at least I kind of got a diagnosis, as it were, about what's going on with my back.

Although I think an x-ray would have done more, given me more of an idea or given him more of an idea. So I've been to the doctors since then. I've seen nurses.

I've seen quite a few different doctors. I had health checkups and I get a health checkup every year. And I mention it every single year to the person that gives me the health checkup about my lower back.

And they always say the same thing. Can you put your top back on, please? No, they always say the same thing. They say, lose some weight.

It's because you need to lose some weight. Have you tried losing some weight? And I tried to explain to them that this, my lower back issue was there when I was slim. It's been with me.

It's gradually been getting worse over the last 20 years. Have you tried losing some weight? That seems to be the argument. It's sort of like, what would they say if I didn't have a belly on me? Have you tried shaving your beard off? Or is that what they'd say? It's that mentality, isn't it, of you'd always find a reason.

It's kind of always finding someone to blame, to find, always find, let's blame the patient. It's your fault. It's not my fault I've got a lower back issue.

It's not my fault. I could do some stuff probably to help it. I probably spend way too much time sitting down.

I do do exercise and I do do weight lifting to help my lower back. I've got a punch bag and I recently joined a gym. And like most people who I haven't been, at least I've joined it.

It's a start, isn't it? And I'm moaning, but it's like, don't blame the patient. Help the patient. It must be because of your belly.

Have you tried cutting your toenails? Maybe that'll help. I know. Yeah, I have tried cutting my toenails.

I can't reach them. Maybe you need to lose some weight. I don't know.

To be honest, yeah, even, I mean, I used to do, I started doing martial arts, karate, well, kickboxing first and then karate when I was about, I don't know, 13. And I've done it. I've done quite a few different martial arts over the years and my flexibility's never been great.

I'll be honest. I could kick head height, but my head height, and I've always been short. So I'm kind of kicking waist height or chest height with other people.

I've never, never liked stretching. I mean, I probably never liked stretching. Could never do the splits apart from when I was young.

When I was a kid, I could, but once I kind of reached teenage years, I could not do the splits ever. Never have been able to because I just don't have that flexibility probably in my hips that some people do. And I don't think anything that I could have done would have made any difference because I spent years stretching and properly doing it with people that were doing it.

That's not really a proper sentence, is it? I was doing it properly with people that were doing it properly. That's not really what I was trying to say. I was being observed and instructed on how to do it correctly and I still could not reach that level.

Even at 13, I couldn't. And when I was doing Taekwondo back in I did it for a couple of years. I did it and I stopped doing that about five years ago.

I still couldn't, I could not do the splits. My flexibility for kicking was very low and I couldn't kick at my head level anymore like when I was a kid. The last time I was able to kick at my own head level was back in 2004 when I was doing Wing Chun Kung Fu.

And I lost loads of weight while I was training doing that. Still had lower back problems. So it's, you know, not as bad as they are now.

And I'm not just talking about that because I just want to moan about it. Oh, maybe I am. Maybe I am.

Maybe I am. Maybe, baby. I'm just gonna have a little drink.

But yeah, I do wonder. I used to think it was maybe sciatica, but I don't think it is. I think it's the doctor or the chiro, and what's the name of the person? The gynecologist.

He said that it was wear and tear and basically I've tried to stimulate to loosen it up. And but there's sort of very little that you thought I'd really be able to do. It was about flexibility.

Try and get a bit more flexibility in my lower back. And that was it. So I do stretch it every day.

I stretch every day and always stretch my lower back. I'm surprised I'm not seven foot tall. Seriously, I'm always stretching it.

Even when I'm in bed, I'm stretching it. Stretching it now as I speak. Because it gives me mild relief.

And when I say mild relief, it's not agony. Sometimes it's very uncomfortable. But at the moment, it feels with my posture, sitting up fairly straight in the chair.

And yeah. So I want to start off talking about what I'm doing. Let me tell you about the books I'm reading.

Excuse me. I'll let you know the audible books I've got. These are the ones I've got.

I've got Your Self-Sabotage Survival Guide. I've got Mirroring Hands. That's Richard Hill and Ernest L. Rossi.

The Your Self-Sabotage is Karen Berg. Other ones I've got here. Some I've read or listened to.

Some I've not completely listened to. My Voice Will Go With You, Teacher Tales of Milton Erickson. That's been listened to.

The Power of Now, Irkhart Tolle. Loving What Is by Byron Katie. So I have listened to most of that, I think.

Well, I was not saying I've listened to it. What I Learned Losing a Million Dollars. That's another one.

And I have listened to that. Effort, The Ultimate Spiritual Way. Dialectic, A Beginner's Guide to Dialectical Behavior Therapy by William E. Joyce.

The next one is The Day That Turned Your Life Around by Jim Rohn. Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill. I've read that.

I've read a lot of these, but they're just not all coming up as 100% read for some reason. The Magic of Thinking Big by David J. Swartz. I'm pretty sure I've read all of that.

I've read these as books as well in the past, but these are audiobooks. Then there's The Ultimate Zig Ziglar Library. The Ultimate Jim Rohn Library.

I love Jim Rohn. I love Zig Ziglar, but I love Jim Rohn more. That's 100% read.

It says there. Then, yeah, a couple of other bits. Reality is Plastic.

The Art of Impromptu Hypnosis. So they're the ones all downloaded. That's weird.

So let's have a look at my books, shall we? Come on, let's have a look at my books. Where's the books? Books, okay. Let's see what books I've got.

So library. See all of your books. So some of these books are from the ... Some of these books I own, like I bought years ago, are Kindle books.

These are the Kindle books. And some of them are part of the Kindle Unlimited, where you can just read loads of books. The only problem with that is the selection isn't ... Although there's loads to choose from, they're not necessarily top of the list of books.

That makes sense. If you want to read the most popular books, they're the ones that they charge for. They don't seem to include them in the Kindle Unlimited, which I find is a bit out of order.

So if I sort by collection. Collection, no, I'll just leave it as that. All downloaded.

All filter. Now, actually, I'll just give you some of the ... Nine of them are Kindle Unlimited. So I've got Anxiety Management by Mike Mitchell.

I've read 13% of that. Positive Thinking by Robert Norman. I read 5% of that.

Inside Out by Jenny Haywood. There's Robert McNeely. Which is Clinical Applications of Ericksonian Hypnosis After Trauma.

There's My Voice Will Go With You by Tejan Charles and Milton H. Erickson. Irving Yellum, I'm Calling the Police. Then I've got one called Strictly Bipolar by Darian Leder.

In Two Minds by Daniel Taub something. There's a little tick next to it so it's blocking the name. It's 50 short poems or so short poems.

I guess it's a number. And I've got another one here. How to Hypnotize Anyone.

Confessions of a Rogue Hypnotist. So I've not read that. I've got another book here.

It's called Not About Being Good. That's a Buddhist book. Another one, The Ten Pillars of Buddhism by Sankarachdha.

There's the Life Inspire Something by Leval Lama. Then there's a Sigmund Freud book. Dream Psychology Psychoanalysis for Beginners.

Then I've got What is the Sangha by Sankarachdha. I've got the Dhammapada, the Way of Truth by Sankarachdha. I've got a Puja book which is a book of Buddhist rituals.

What is Dhamma? What is the Dhamma by Sankarachdha? What is the Buddha by Sankarachdha? So these books here, these are ones that I own, that I bought a few years back. I've got Hypnosis, a Comprehensive Guide by Ted James. I've got, so these, I think I've got these in human form as well on my bookshelf.

I've definitely got this next one. It's Handbook of Hypnotic Suggestions and Metaphors by Dr. Croydon Hammond, or Croydon, Croydon Hammond, PhD. And I've got that in hardback.

It's a big old book, but also got it on Kindle as well. So next, so Games People Play. It's a great book.

I've got that in human form as well, I think. Eric Byrne, or should we say, what's the opposite of digital? What's that word? Analog. Yeah, so I've got them in analog form.

So people's, Games People Play, Eric Byrne. I'm okay. You're okay.

Thomas A something Harris, I think. What do you say after you say hello, Eric Byrne? Then I've got Scripts. Three books by Katherine Holden.

The Ego States. Scripts, scripts, scripts, scripts. And lastly, Strokes and Hungers.

So they're psychotherapy books, I'm pretty sure. Oh, this is interesting. I didn't know I had that.

I've got The Buddhist Noble Eightfold Path by Sankarachda. I've got Trance Work by Michael Di Iapco. And there's, I think I've got that in analog.

Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill. Then, another one. The Universe Doesn't Give a Flying F about You by Johnny Trait or something.

Declutter. So this is 33 easy and quick ways to declutter your life or whatever. Then I've got Helpless.

A True Story by Rosie Liu something. I didn't know I had these books. Wow.

I wonder how long I've had these for. The Meditation Transformation. I don't remember buying that.

That's Jennifer something. Then I've got Your Little Steps to Self-Confidence for Life by Paul Bailey. And then another one.

This is Brilliant. Okay. It's a bit of a 10 brilliant chapters from 10 brilliant books.

Pretty good name for a book, isn't it? This is Brilliant. How to Transform Your Life by Geshe Gelsang Gyatso. I could tell you about him.

He was my first, not my first Buddhist teacher because I never met him. But I used to read his books back in the early 90s. And I've still got, I think, a couple of his books here.

I think so. And I love them. They're very, very organized, very organized books.

And I quite like that actually. It was, yeah, quite like it. So Mindfulness for Anxiety Relief by Mike Mitchell.

As a Man Thinketh by James Allen. I've got quite a few books here. I didn't realize.

I forgot about all these. Abuse, Emotional Abuse, How to Recognize and Overcome Abuse. That's Louise R. Allen.

Nikola Tesla. There's a book about him. How to Write a Novel the Easy Way Using the Pulp Fiction Method to Write Better Novels.

Jim Drive. Okay. 35 Steps to Loving Yourself.

Slim Fatty. I can't believe that's the name of the person. 35 Steps to Loving Yourself.

Slim Fatty. It's actually spelled S-L-I-N-P-H-A-T-T-Y. That's the name of the author.

I don't know. I guess it's like an in-joke or something with the author. It can't be the real name, surely.

Motivational and Inspirational Success. Quotes. Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.

That's by Emily Welch, I think. The next one is A Real Life Recovery. Dear Anxiety, This is My Life.

Where did these books come from? Are these my books? They are my books. These are books that I've actually paid for in the past and I don't remember them. Wow.

So I've got Self Hypnosis. It's another one. Dear Anxiety, This is My Life.

John Crawford. This one is Self Hypnosis. How to Self Hypnotize for Beginners or something.

Ryan Cooper. How to Eliminate Negative Thoughts and Emotions with One Simple but Powerful Technique. Again, I don't remember that one.

Confidence. How to Overcome Your Limiting Life Beliefs and Achieve Your Goals by Martin Meadows. And then another one here.

200 Motivational and Inspirational Quotes that Will Inspire Your Success. There's another one. I won't read that title because it's quite negative actually.

Very negative. The One Minute Gratitude Journal. Brenda Nathan.

The next one is called Magic Intentions. Five Energized Affirmations. Don Trey.

The next one is The Art of Saying No with Grace and Respect. Learn How to Say No Can Improve. Learn How Saying No Can Improve Your Relationships and Help You Feel Better.

Then the next one. Subconscious Mind Power. How to Use the Hidden Power of Your Subconscious Mind.

James Thompson. I don't remember any of these. Seriously.

Achieve in Balance. A Simple Book That Will Change Your Life by Alan Willis. Oh, this is interesting.

I don't know how this got on here. I think someone must have bought this for me. Don't Give Your Work Away for Free.

An Ebook by Thadrin Cooper or Thadrus Cooper. Okay. And this one is Eight Reasons Your Life Matters by John Herrick.

So I've got an Amazon bestselling one. This says Tequila Teabags. Okay.

I don't remember that. And this one is Expert YouTube Video Marketing Strategy. Video SEO Methods to Grow Your Business or Brand Online.

So this must be when I was sort of into YouTube. So that's a long time that I was kind of really focusing on YouTube. And the Golden Saying of Epictetus or Epictetus.

So I think. I don't know how you'd pronounce that. And then there's another one.

Coping with Bipolar Disorder. A Guide to Living with Manic Depression. Steve Jones, Peter Heywood and Dominic Lamb.

And then there's another one. How to Hypnotize Anyone. And then there's another one.

Sleep. Cure Your Insomnia. Improve Your Health and Feel Better Now.

And then the next one is the Mindfulness Solution for Intense Emotions. Take Control of Borderline Personality Disorder with DBT. And this, I don't remember these, some of these.

DARE! The New Way to End Anxiety and Stop Panic Attacks. Dialectical Behavior Therapy Workbook. That's a CBT.

Essentials and Fundamentals. The Diploma in Clinical Hypnotherapy and NLP. And five more.

70 Proven Hypnosis Scripts. Three. The Courage to Be Disliked.

How to Free Yourself, Change Your Life and Achieve Real Happiness. And this one is Quick Cheats for Writing with Dragon. Hidden Tricks to Help You Dictate Your Book and Work Anywhere and Set Your Words Free with Speech Recognition.

And the last two. Collected Lectures and Other Papers by Ergun Sengerechter. And Diary of a Bipolar.

And this is, I can't read the bit there. Journey into One Man's Life of Extremes. And that's George Isos or Iso.

Yeah, I think it's I-S-O-E. So how many of those are Kindle Unlimited? One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine. Nine.

Yeah, they're downloaded. All downloaded. So there's nine out of those.

How many altogether? Three, six. Okay. One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40, 41, 42, 43, 44, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49, 50, 51, 52, 53, 54, 55, 56, 57, 58, 59, 60, 61, 62, 63, 64, 65, 66, 67, 68, 69, 70, 71, 72, 73, 74, 75, 76, 77.

So 77 books all in all, and nine of those are Kindle Unlimited, which means I don't own them. 76, did I say? So that's 67. Yeah, 67.

So there's 67 books that I've got on the Kindle that I've actually purchased. Wow. How unusual.

So I've already got that book. Buy, loving what is, saving 92%. Print list is £12.99, and I can buy it for 99 pence.

That's not bad, is it? It'd be so easy, wouldn't it, to just go and buy and buy and buy and end up, well, actually, yeah, they're only 99 pence each, but I just bought 400. Well, I couldn't do that because I don't have £400, but you know what I mean. I'm going to add it to my list.

Wow. Future Feelings, bestsellers, 80 Kindle books for £1 each. The thing is, the ones they're selling for £1 each are also free to read on Kindle Unlimited, which kind of defeats the point, really, because I can just read them there.

You know what I mean? I wonder how many other... How to Serve the Art of Fate. Wow. That's interesting.

Vagus Nerve, The Complete Guide to Vagus Nerve. The Complete Guide to Vagus Nerve, Stimulation, Emotional Intelligence, Anger Management, and Self-Hypnosis for Overcome. Anxiety, Depression, and Chronic Illness.

My only problem with that is the... Oh, it's available to read on Unlimited. My only problem is that it's actually the bad grammar. That's terrible, isn't it? I'm not an expert, but The Complete Guide to Vagus Nerve, or Vagus Nerve, Stimulation, Emotional Intelligence, Anger Management, and Self-Hypnosis, this next bit, for Overcome Anxiety, Depression, and Chronic Illness.

It should be, To Overcome Anxiety, Depression, and Chronic Illness. So, yeah, I might not read it just because of that. It's terrible, isn't it? Hypnosis, Richard Nongard's big book of hypnosis scripts.

So, read and get that to read it for free as well. Well, I've got that. There's not a lot of hypnosis books on Kindle, really.

Which is not in the sense of some of the older books, you know, some of the classic. Oh, there's a few, there's a few, but not the ones that I would deep sleep. I'm saying that, and now I'm finding stuff.

Nope, that's ridiculous. At least that's some of this stuff that I see, like, wow. It's almost, oh, now this is interesting.

The Hypnotic Gastric Band, and there's another one. What's this? Unlimited, I can read on there. Breaking barriers with hypnosis and hypnotherapy.

When you believe you grasp the destiny of your creation, you write your own screenplay, you're powerful, you're magical, you're worthy of the life that you desire. Like our ancient ancestors before us, we all have our joys, struggles, breakthroughs, and paths that we share with one another. This is what connects us.

This is what keeps us strong, and that what this beautiful book imparts. Again, bad grammar. And if we are really with it then, this is what keeps us strong, and that what this beautiful book imparts.

The knowledge on how to successfully harness the power of your subconscious mind. The world we live transforms more and more digitally, and as it happens, we continue to become more secluded and isolated, which in turn evokes our fears, phobias, insecurities. Thus, digital transformation needs emotional transformation, which is possible with the help of hypnosis and a hypnotherapist.

No matter if you are finding it hard to give up on something you are addicted to, or you have trouble guiding your brain to follow a diet plan, whether you are having anger issues, or you are being insecure about your partner, the book covers all the nitty gritties of such issues, and helps you turn into a person that you are always wanted to be. A successful and individual man or woman. Yeah, it might be a really good book, and it's clearly, you know, very positive and stuff.

I just, I wonder about that. Mind you, because it's Kindle, because I'm not sure how well I would be able to write, because I suppose writing a book, if you write how you speak, mine might be like a really ridiculously, what's the word? Un-something. Grammatical.

Bedtime stories, the hypnosis, self-hypnosis as you read. Let's have a look at that. Change your life as you read with powerful self-hypnosis scripts from a proven source.

Let go of the baby weight. Get over your ex. Relieve social anxiety.

Manifest a new job. Eat less chocolate. No.

These are just a few of the eyes-open hypnosis scripts included in this amazing volume from Forbes Robbins Blair, the author of the best-selling Instant Self-Hypnosis, How to Hypnotize Yourself with Your Eyes Open. This original, easy-to-use technique allows you to put yourself into a hypnotic trance and improve your life without ever needing to put the book down. You're going to have to put it down at some point, aren't you? You can't carry it around everywhere you go.

What are you going to do in the shower? You remain aware at all times during the session and return gently to everyday consciousness. You never memorize or record anything unlike most of the other techniques. So it says here, 42 reader requested scripts.

The scripts featured in this book came at the request of readers and fans of Mr. Blair's previous books. This collection includes four hypnotic inductions, advanced techniques, and dozens of scripts you asked for. And it's got a list of things.

Not all self-hypnosis scripts are equal. Some hypnotism books these days offer free hypnosis scripts. So here we go.

However, you have to ask yourself some questions. Who wrote them? Are they professionals who have worked for years in the field? Hear more. Do the scripts really work? So don't trust people who do things for free.

These scripts, take and trust people that want your money. Take control of your life now. Choose now to change your habits and take charge of your life with the ease of this breakthrough self-hypnosis method and the power of these one-of-a-kind scripts.

Your new life changes could be only minutes away. Close your eyes, get free. Is that the same one I was just reading? No.

Oh, this is good. It's got, this is a nice review here. Grace personally helped me to overcome a severe fear of flying that left me crying, shaking, and often simply unable to travel for nearly 20 years.

In her new book, Grace unlocks the transformative power of hypnosis for people across the planet, debunking myths and giving readers the resources they need to enact real, lasting change in their lives. Liz Moody, that's the name of the person, food editor at MindBodyGreen, writer, photographer, recipe developer, creator of Eat Well Europe. Yeah, cool.

And that book's called Close Your Eyes, Get Free. You can buy it for £3.99 on Amazon or Kindle. Yeah, okay.

I think that's probably enough. I've slightly gone over again. I always seem to go over.

I was quite surprised at how many books I've got. Yeah. See all your books.

Yeah, I'm quite surprised at that. Never mind. Well, that's good, isn't it? It's a good thing.

I have to start looking at them. Trying to get organized, trying to get a little bit more organized and look through what I've got. Come up with some, you know, just get some fresh ideas, remind me what I already know, you know, that kind of stuff.

Because we never stop learning, we're always learning. It's just, I think when we focus and purposefully learn, then we're learning what we want to learn, kind of going in the direction perhaps that you want to go. Because we're always absorbing new stuff, aren't we? Because let's face it, the human brain is amazing.

Amazing thing. So I'm going to end this recording. I want to thank you for listening.

I hope I was boring enough. And I will speak to you next time. Probably speak to you again tomorrow.

So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself. Because you deserve to be happy.

Lots of love. Bye.