#292 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (5th January 2020)

Hello and welcome to Jason Newland dot com. My name is Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Please only listen whence you can.

Safely close your peek-a-buys eyes and fall asleep. So, what do I normally say at the beginning? Well, I suppose I'd like to start by sending well wishes to my Australian friends. And my Australian, the people that are listening in Australia or have family, loved ones in Australia and during this difficult time with the fires and stuff that's going on there.

So I wish you all to be safe. And I say that because I've got quite a few people from Australia that listen to me regularly, so that's kind of just for all of you. Because really, my chair, I've got to do something about this squeaky chair.

Really, Australia is a relative, you know, it's like a brother or it's a sibling of England, as is kind of America. I-class Ireland as well, but I know not everybody would sort of agree with that, but that's probably more because my family, I've got an Irish heritage. My grandmother, my grandmother's parents were Irish.

So, you know, I kind of, we've got a big connection with Australia here, more so than maybe a lot of other countries because it's got a big, mind you, due to the multicultural societies that we have, there's going to be people from every single country living in Australia. Somewhere. So, it affects everybody, really.

At different levels, of course. But I just, you know, I wish you all well. That's basically it.

I'm not going to spend the entire recording talking about that stuff, but I just hope that you're all safe and It's really hard to, personally, to get a perspective on that kind of situation. Because here, in my country, I mean, it's not that we never have natural disasters and natural, you know, freaks of weather and stuff, extreme stuff happening. But not on that level, not on that, or for that duration.

The thing that we have in this country, probably more than anything, apart from the occasional bad weather, storms and stuff like that, there's quite a few places that seem to have issues with flooding. Not regularly, you know. And fortunately, I'm not in one of those parts of the country that has that.

Although, we do get flooding, because I live in the countryside. So basically, I suppose, like everywhere, the houses are built in places where they shouldn't really be houses. Because this is where the rabbits live, you know, this is where the foxes lived.

And we decided to build here. I say we, but you know, those people that lived before me. And whenever it rains, for, you know, those times when it rains for like four, five, six days, just seems to be constantly raining.

But when it does that, we get flooding in this area, but only like a couple of roads. So, and there's two bits that are parallel to each other. There's the side road, which is where the countryside bit is, where all the fields are.

And there's a permanent ditch with water in it, which I guess was, I don't know why they just don't just dig it deeper to get, you know, to have a bit more room. So more water can be in it. But there's a ditch, there's a name for it, isn't there? You know, the ditches that are next to fields so that the field can still get water, even when it's not raining.

So the water can still drain into it or soak into it. Is it? Is it slag? Not slag. What do they call it? Oh, trout.

I genuinely can't think what the word is. Ditch. It's a ditch.

Not a slag heap, because that's, isn't that coal, isn't it? Coal is the slag heap. The thing is, I didn't realize that because when I used to go to Nottingham, and also went up to Manchester as well. It was outside of Manchester.

And there was these almost look like little mountains. Beautiful. You know, I thought, my friend, an old friend I used to have, he had at the bottom of his garden, he had this almost like a little mountain.

I said, that's beautiful. He said, that's the slag heap. So that's a bit rude.

It's just this, you know what I mean? He said, no, that's the name of it. Basically, it was just the stuff from the mines, I guess, the whatever, residue or something. And, yeah.

What's the word I'm trying to think of? Not dam. It's weird that so many of these names sound like they're swearing. Slag heap.

Dam. Dam. And what's the other one? Ditch.

I ditched her. I ditched him. It's like almost a, it's just a hole in the ground, isn't it? What is it? Trout.

It's not a trout, is it? Ah, the word will come to me. And so, yeah. Parallel to that is where the park is.

So there's houses on one side. And then, I'm not good with distances as far as like, what, I don't know what 100 yards is. I really don't, but maybe 100 yards.

So there's room for some houses and a big building. Oh, wait a minute. Yeah, some houses and a park.

So there's a park. And in the middle where the, there's a pavement. Well, it's not a pavement.

It's a pathway that goes through the park. Because it's a good way to get through the park. And walking on the grass is okay sometimes.

So in the summer, when it's dry. But when it's a bit wet and a little bit damp, a little bit, it gets a little bit muddy, a little bit, a little bit swishy, swashy, gooey, you know? A little bit. And, you know, I've only really got one pair of shoes that work.

So I just have the, I don't want to get them all covered in mud. Muddles from the puddles. I don't want that.

But what happens every year, I say every year, I can't, I don't know if it's every year that's ever existed. And every year that I've lived here, that I can remember, the park gets flooded. But usually it's just on the grass, near the pavement.

So the grass is uneven. It's like, well, it's not flat, basically. But I don't notice it when it's not raining.

It seems flat enough. But when it rains heavily, well not heavily, it rains and there's a lot of it, it seems to maneuver the ground to be almost a different level to what it was previously. Before it had rained, and therefore leaving puddles.

But big puddles, you know, ones that you couldn't walk through. Unless you chose to walk through them. I mean you could walk through them, but they would just, I'm guessing, probably go up to about your ankles in water.

Or maybe even up to a couple of inches higher than your ankles. I don't know, because I've not tried it. And I'm never going to.

Not purposely, anyway. But this year, well I say this year, last year actually, because it was last year, a couple of weeks ago, or last week, two weeks ago, it rained so much that the puddles, or the flooding on both sides of the grass, overflowed onto the pavement. And I couldn't get through.

There was no boat service, there was nothing. I couldn't get through at all, so I had to walk all the way around. That added an extra five minutes to my journey.

I don't think I'll ever forget it, I just couldn't believe the inconvenience. Adding five minutes to my journey, that's when I decided this global warming needs to be addressed. Because, well adding five minutes to my journey, you know, absolutely couldn't believe it.

Five minutes. And once though, I think it was three years ago, because I hadn't lived here long, and I did have Andre. But I'm not sure if I had Andre with me.

But I might have done, but I might not have done. It's hard to remember. But if I did have him with me, I would have been carrying him.

Because the whole of the road, this is the other road that was parallel to the park, the whole of that road was, it was basically flooded, like from the ditch, the dam, not the dam, not, what was it called? The dike. It's near a dike, isn't it? The thing that goes next to the field, that's full of water, and it's, I think the water drains off of the field when it's really rainy, but it also soaks, the field soaks the water into it when it needs it. It's like permanently being watered and fed.

So yes, I think it's the dike, overflowed, because if it wasn't for that, I don't, well, I don't know. I suppose, because it's a country road. So I'm surprised the water didn't soak into the field though.

But it didn't. So it overflowed anyway. It does it every single year, probably a couple of times a year, completely floods.

This time, I didn't go a couple of weeks ago, didn't go around to look at it, because I didn't want to. And, you know, you can't make me do stuff like that. I didn't want to look at it.

I didn't want to go around there. I didn't see any point, because I just go around and say, oh, I can't get around this way. I've got to walk back the way I came, which will add another, I don't know, minute and a half to my journey.

And that's just unacceptable. So, but a few years ago, my friend, he managed to walk through it, and he found a way where the water just came up to, you know, he didn't kind of cover his shoes, so he didn't get wet. So I tried to follow him.

But I managed to end up practically up to my knees. And that is an exaggeration. It wasn't up to my knees, but the whole of my shoes went inside, you know, the socks just, and you know what happened? There's always people standing on the driveways that were slanted up.

So they were all dry, and they said, why don't you come this way, walk through our garden? I said, oh, thanks. Now you're offering me that. A bit ungrateful, really.

That sounds a bit ungrateful, doesn't it? But why didn't they offer it to me before I was completely soaked through? I wasn't completely soaked through, that is an exaggeration. Yeah, that is a little bit of a, well, can you be a little bit exaggerated? Yeah, you can, can't you? You'd be a lot exaggerated. I don't know.

So I'm not sure. Yeah, I did mention it, but I shaved my head. That's proper, I'm a proper bawdy.

But I couldn't shave the back of my head. Because the razor thing that I was using was not working properly. I blunted it, I blunted it right out.

You're beautiful. You kept singing to me. You're beautiful.

You're beautiful. It's true. And I was like, what's it doing? It just wouldn't cut through my hair anymore.

And I realised it was blunt. Oh dear. So I phoned my friend today, or yesterday, whatever day it was.

And he, he shaved the back of my head. It's really weird, isn't it? I've got a friend who shaves me. It sounds weird when you say it like that.

But all I wanted to do is to borrow his clippers to shave these. And he's, I said, like, nothing I can do is going to get through this. I don't mean get through the, it wasn't like a big emotional experience.

I'm never going to get through it. Well, not like that, but in a way of, the hair, my hair's too thick. I've got, it's almost sacrilege, I think, me shaving my hair off when I've got such a lovely head of hair.

All thick and curly and black. Well, dark brown. Well, some of it.

Well, three, three hairs that are black. No, I haven't. Dark brown.

Well, I've got clumps of hair, not on me head, but you know, on the floor, once I've been shaving me head. And honestly, it, I wasn't looking at it with admiration. Because I've never looked at a floor, never looked at a floor with admiration, really.

I've never looked at hair on a floor with admiration. I've never looked at the mirror with admiration. Sometimes I scrub up okay.

Sometimes, I think the last time I thought, yeah, I look all right. But I did put some effort in. Just heard some weird noises outside.

Sounded like a cat, but actually sounded like a cat going meow, but like a human going meow, but with a high-pitched catty voice, which don't seem right to me, for some odd reason. So it's Sunday. Don't know what the date is.

It's in January. That's all I can tell you. Is it the 5th? So Wednesday was the 1st, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday.

So 5th, 5th of January, 2020. So we're nearly a week into the first year of the decade. And by the way, if you'd like to, and if you haven't already, perhaps you'd like to go to my website, click on the review in the menu, review page, and leave me a video review.

Just as if you haven't done it already. If you've already done it, then thank you. But if you haven't, and if you like what I do, then please leave a video review.

That rhymes, doesn't it? If you like what I do, leave a video review. Wow. I'm ever so pleased with myself right now.

If you like what I do, leave a video review. I think you have just experienced, with me, you've just experienced the pinnacle of my life. This is the highlight of the decade, the decayed, the decade, already.

I can't, I don't think it could get any better. If you like what I do, leave a video review. Wow.

And I almost feel like Bob Dylan. And by that I don't mean 90 year old, 90 year old man. I mean the genius of the rhyming.

I think one of my favourite songs of his is, I think the lines he says is, I gotta give myself a good talking to. It's like brilliant. What a great, great sentence.

I never realised what a great song, Like a Rolling Stone was. Like a rolling stone, how does it feel, how does it feel, to be on your own, with no direction home, like a rolling stone, a complete unknown. I just, I never realised what that song meant.

I never cared really. But listening to the lyrics, about someone like laughing at other people, and thinking that they're better than them, and that the later on in life, sort of being like the person that they were laughing at, kind of, yeah. It's a good old song that.

One of my favourite Bob Dylan songs was, It's Not Me Babe. Was it go away from my window, leave at your own chosen speed, I'm not the one you want babe, I'm not the one you need. And then he goes, you want someone that opens each and every door, but it's not me babe, no, no, no, it's not me babe, it's not me you're looking for babe.

Of course you couldn't do a song with the word babe in anymore. Because, well two reasons. Firstly, it's not socially correct, politically correct, and also, you say the word babe and we think of that pig from the movie, don't we? Babe, babe the pig.

Oh, this is a confession. I'm not sure if I ever actually watched that film. It's a bit like Stuart Little.

I just, it, because I'm not five years old, I just, I don't know, it just, and these were films like years ago, weren't they? I would have loved them if they'd have been out when I was a kid. See, if babe had been around in the early 80s or late 70s, I'd have loved it. Stuart Little, I'd have loved it.

I'd have loved those films when I was like eight, six, whatever. And they're probably brilliant films to watch at any age. But, I just haven't watched them.

Unless I have, I'm not sure. I might have done. I suppose the part of the reason is because I never had any children, so I didn't go through that period of watching that kind of stuff as an adult.

Sort of. Because I'm sure if I was, yeah, if I had, let's say I'm a bit old now for all that stuff, but if I had like a four-year-old son or a three-year-old son, I'd be watching Peppa Pig with him. And I'd probably enjoy it more than he did.

In fact, he'd probably be saying, Daddy, Daddy, can't you watch Pulp Fiction or something like that. I'd say, no, no, Peppa Pig, Peppa Pig. And he'd say, did you notice how I said Pulp Fiction? I said, what do you mean? He said, well, as your reference, because you're so old, you're referencing the films from the 90s, rather than an up-to-date film.

That's rude. He said, yeah, fine, if I'm allowed to be rude. I can reference films.

He said, well, it wasn't you referencing, it was me referencing, but I'm referencing them because you're me. What? You don't like it when I do this, do you? Because it confuses you if you're not sure who's talking. It doesn't matter.

It matters to me, does it? No, not really. So, yeah, I'd watch... I used to, actually. Oh, got an itchy leg.

Oh, that's better. When my little brother was born, apart from ruining my birthday, ruined my eighth birthday, he did. Because, you know, it's all about him.

A little weird when a baby's born, it's all about them, isn't it? What about my birthday? Because he was born the day before my eighth birthday. So those were the days when people that had just given birth were kept in hospital. You know, there was a time, it's hard to believe it, but there was a time when a mother or, you know, soon-to-be mother should go to the hospital, have the baby, and even if all was perfect, everything went perfectly, they'd still stay in the maternity ward for maybe a couple of days.

So the stitches could heal and, you know, they could get back to sort of feeling okay. Let's face it, I've never had a baby. But, you know, I've had food poisoning.

I had gastroenteritis. Mind you, I've had gastroenteritis. It's worse than giving birth.

Because, you know, giving birth doesn't last for sort of nine days, does it? But it's... I've got no idea what I'm talking about. But there was a time when, I hope it's okay, I know it might not be politically correct to say when females give birth, but in the past it was mainly females that gave birth to babies and, you know, whatever. But they'd stay in hospital for a couple of days.

And it was a beautiful thing. Because I think anyone that's been through that, they deserve a rest afterwards. You know, maybe not sort of six or seven months off work, but... God, can you imagine? I remember years ago, I had this job, and I'd just started working there.

And one of the people I was working with, I think she'd just started at the same time as me, or she might have started after me, but she'd, you know, and she said to me quietly, she said, don't say anything, but I'm pregnant. And I said, my God, I only looked at you a couple of times, how can you be pregnant? She said, not by you. I said, oh, good.

I said, I know this, I've heard of weird situations. And she said, what are you talking about? I said, well, you know, immaculate constipation. And she said, what? I said, you know, the Bible and stuff.

She said, yeah, I think you got that wrong. I said, I think you got it wrong. I don't think you're pregnant at all.

She said, I am. I said, are you sure it's not just gas? She said, that's very rude. I said, no, but I get gas and I'm fat.

And she said, well, I'm not fat. I said, I'm not saying you're fat, I'm just saying that I get bloated tummy when I get gas. And she said, name the last time that you kept gas inside your stomach.

I said, what do you mean? She said, you're constantly farting. There's no gas in your tummy. You release it at every opportunity.

I said, this conversation's not going the direction that I thought it would. She said, well, how did you think it was going to go? Well, when you start telling me that I'm the father of your child, I didn't think you'd start talking about farting and stuff. She said, you're not the father of my child.

I said, are you cheating on me? She said, no, we're not together. I said, oh, yeah, I forgot. And she said, don't tell anyone, but I'm pregnant.

I said, well, who am I going to tell? What do you think I'm going to do, go home and phone all my friends and family? Oh, some strange person from work's pregnant. You know, what do you think, we're going to have a secret party for you, even though none of us know who you are? She says, you know who I am. I said, yeah, but you know what I mean, they don't.

She said, what are you talking about? I said, well, why am I going to tell other people about you and your personal stuff when they don't know who you are? She said, I don't know, really, I'm not giving it that much thought. I said, yeah, see, just shows, doesn't it? What? What shows? Exactly. So you're pregnant.

What's the big deal? I mean, I don't mean about being pregnant, because of course it's a big deal, you know, for those that are pregnant. But I mean, why are you telling me not to tell other people? She said, well, I'm glad you realize it's a big deal, because it is. I said, yeah, no, I said that, I realized that, but not to me, it isn't.

I don't mean that rudely, but you know, doesn't make any difference to my life. She said, well, it does sound a bit rude the way you say it. I said, I don't mean it rudely, I'm just, it's your life, it's not, you know, I don't tell you about my medical, I don't tell you about things that are wrong with me.

She said being pregnant is not an illness. I said, okay, I'm sorry. I can't say anything right, can I? I don't know if this relationship is going to work.

We're not in a relationship. Where'd you get pregnant then? We're going around in circles, Jason, aren't we? I said, oh yeah, I know. Perhaps we should get off the roundabout.

So we did. And she said, don't tell anybody that I'm pregnant, because I've just started working here, and I'm going to be taking maternity leave. But they wouldn't have employed me if they knew I was pregnant.

So I didn't tell them, so that I can get lots of time off work when I've had the baby. So I said, oh, okay. But if you turn up for a job and you're seven months pregnant, the employer can't legally, not in this country, and they can't legally tell you that we're not going to employ you because you're pregnant, because we're going to spend a month training you, and then you're going to be off for the next seven months.

The next ten months, or a year, and we have to pay you for that time. And you might not come back, because you're a choice. You might not come back, so we'll pay you for a year, and you may not return.

So we're not going to employ you, because that's against the law. They're not allowed to do that. However, they won't employ you.

So these laws don't mean anything, really. Because if an employer doesn't want to employ someone, so if I turn up for a job, and the place is full of young people, which most jobs are full of younger people than me, apart from those that aren't. And, so let's say call centre, that's where I've got my most experience now.

Do I sound all growly, don't I? Yeah. Very growly. So if I turn up for a job, and they're expecting, they want someone in their 20s, and I turn up, and even on my best day, I don't look in my 20s.

I probably look like maybe 31. I don't know. I don't think I look my age, but it's hard to tell, because I also don't think anybody looks my age, if that makes sense.

I look at people, and it's almost like my eyes have grown older with me. Well, they have, haven't they, I suppose. So I think that's the benefit of... See, our eyesight is supposed to deteriorate, isn't it? It sort of makes sense that we don't see other people ageing, because our eyesight is kind of gently sort of becoming a little bit less sharp, as it were.

As it was before. And that's got to be a good thing, really, I imagine, in some ways. I remember when my Nan had... I don't know what she had done.

She had her eyes lasered. She was just fascinated by Star Wars, and she thought, I've got a laser in my eye. So she had her eyes lasered, because she had visual issues, and she said, and she was probably, she's got to be in her 80s at the time, and she said she couldn't believe when she first looked in the mirror how old she looked.

She didn't realise how old she looked. And I said to her, what did you expect to see? You're in your 80s. I didn't say that.

But she was just shocked, because she'd be looking in the mirror every day, you know, just like anyone else does, brushing her hair, cleaning her teeth, practising a few of her miming routines, and a few card tricks and a bit of magic, close up. She liked distant magic, but I kept saying to her, when people are a really long way away, they can't see what's on the front of the cards. She said, yeah, but I like distant magic, I don't like close up.

I said, yeah, but you can't really do card tricks from a distance, you know, it doesn't really work. She said, what do you know about it? I said, just leave it, don't wind me up today, I'm not in the mood. She said, who are you talking to? Talk to me like that again, and I'll knock you out.

She didn't say that. And I'll knock you out. So she had her eyes done, and she's like, oh, I can't believe how old I look.

And I said, you look the same as you always have, which is true. She's always looked the same to me. Even from like a little kid to being in my 40s.

But I think it's the same as with anyone, isn't it? People, I look at people now and I don't see them as being in their 50s. And now I don't, you know, it's almost like my brain is adapted to the aging process. So that younger people look really young, some of them, when actually they're probably like 19, 20.

And you say, well, they are young, but yeah, they are, but they're adults. But they still kind of just look really young sometimes. And even people in their 20s, 30s, they just don't look, there was a time when they were old.

You know, when I was a kid, I'd look at someone in their 30s, when I was 20, someone in their 30s, that's old, man. Someone in their 40s, someone 49, like me, that'd be like the most pensioner age. That's just like, wow, how have you survived so long? 49? So yeah, so my little brother ruined my birthday.

But yeah, going back to him, because I was eight, when I was about 12, 13, something like that, I started looking after him quite a bit. And sort of during the holidays, both the parents were working. So it was my responsibility to look after him for quite a bit, which was unfortunate, but you know, I didn't really have a choice, so I just did it.

And I used to spend a lot of time watching telly, and I'd end up watching his programs. So I ended up watching, I just fell in love with some of the stuff that I was way too old to be watching, like the Muskehounds and, or other ones, Fraggle Rock. See, Fraggle Rock was, that was like the middle 80s, I think.

And the Muppet Babies, I think that was even like late 80s, early 90s. So I've got no excuse for watching that stuff, but I did. But there was a time, I mentioned this the other day, we used to have children's television on a Saturday morning.

But it was on all the way through the 80s, pretty much all the way through the 90s as well. And all the way through most of the 2000s as well. Then cooking sort of appeared, and cooking shows and stuff like that.

But there was a period in the early 90s, let's say 91, 92, 93. And they used to be TV, or it used to be funny. You know, it wasn't, although it was a kid's program, it was adults that were hosting it.

So they were being, they were kind of telling adult jokes, but that were kind of going over the heads of the kids, as well as making the kids laugh as well. So it was funny for adults and kids. And some of the hosts like Anton Deck, there's loads of different ones.

But I used to watch that, because I used to work all week. And I worked hard. You know, I did.

Sometimes I'd do long hours, do overtime during the week. And sometimes I'd work Saturday mornings. But when I didn't work Saturday morning, that was my time.

I'd get up. Yeah, I miss that. I do.

I do feel quite nostalgic for it. Because even though my lifestyle wasn't ideal in some ways, it was so nice to wake up, not have to go to work. And I'd get some breakfast, and I'd just lay in bed, or lay up in bed and watch in telly.

And I'd watch the kids programs. And it'd be like the Muppet Babies. I loved the Muppet Babies.

I was in my 20s. I loved it. I still haven't seen it for a long time.

And then it'd be like music acts, you know, like, and just silly sketches and stuff on these kids programs. It was just funny. And then the afternoon came, and it was sports.

So I never watched that. And I used to watch it when I was a kid, because they used to be wrestling. And we also used to have boxing on.

So although there was only three channels to choose from, there was, I think every Saturday through a period of time, they used to be wrestling. So we used to have these big wrestlers. One of the most, or the two most famous wrestlers in England ever, you know, during that period, was Big Daddy and Giant Haystacks.

And they were both absolutely huge. I mean, they're passed away now, but they were huge. I mean, huge.

Absolutely huge. And they were loved. They were, even though Big Daddy was the goodie, Giant Haystacks was the baddie, but Giant Haystacks was still loved.

Like in the nation, you know, people still loved him, even though he was the baddie. He was still, I don't know how to explain it, but they were both, they were both really, really famous. And millions and millions of people watched the wrestling, especially when them two fought each other.

You know, they came together, they clashed and had a wrestling match. And any television show today, in this day and age, any television show would give anything to get that audience, to get that amount of people to watch their television show. I say in this country, because obviously, practically every other country in the world is a lot bigger than this.

So the audiences would be a lot higher. But here, it might sound like I'm exaggerating, but there was over 7 billion people watching that match. Seriously, people actually reproduced so that their babies could watch the match.

I don't know what I'm talking about. But it was very popular. And also boxing.

We used to have boxing on in the afternoon as well. So that was good. But it wasn't usually, it wasn't like world titles or anything.

It was more domestic kind of boxing. I don't mean in the kitchen. I mean, probably like local, not local, but English titles and stuff like that.

But it was good because I'd love it to be back on to see the talent that's out there, the talented boxers, just to see the ones that are maybe just starting out or the ones that I don't really get to see on the big screen. Big shows. Big show.

He was one of my favorite wrestlers in America. Big show. He was about nine foot tall and about nine foot wide.

Huge man. And there was always something about that with the wrestlers, like the really big, because they couldn't really do anything. You know, they didn't, not because they could, but they didn't, they were never going to be as acrobatic as the human sized ones.

Just from physicality, not many people are seven foot tall can do the same thing as someone that's, I don't know if I'm making sense here, because that doesn't make sense because some of the top heavyweights are sort of six, seven, six, nine. And they're definitely hugely athletic in a sense, but maybe not doing somersaults and jumping off the tops of ropes and stuff. I mean, let's face it, if the big show, I imagine if he ever stood on the top of a rope in the ring, the wrestling ring, the whole stadium would collapse.

So yeah, I don't think he'd be able to do that. But I used to love the big show because he was just so huge. The Undertaker as well, I used to like him.

The Rock, I used to love The Rock. See, I got into American wrestling in the late 90s, and I'll tell you why. It might have been earlier than that, but I think it was the late 90s.

Because I think it was, yeah. It's just that they started to show it on telly. And I don't know if it was Channel 4 or whatever channel it was.

But they'd actually show a live broadcast of an event, like a big, huge wrestling event in America. That's when it used to be called WWE, World Wrestling, WWF, World Wrestling Federation. But of course, the World Wildlife Fund, WWF, sued the WWF, the World Wrestling Federation, saying that we don't want you using the term WWF anymore.

Because, you know, obviously you're going to get confused between an organization that's out to protect wildlife and a bunch of sweaty men wrestling. It's such a similar, it's ridiculous. WWF, wrestling.

It had the word wrestling after it. People think it's the World Wildlife Fund, wrestling. Oh my god, they've got the giraffes wrestling each other.

They'd get tangled up, wouldn't they, with them big long necks. It's just, how are they going to stand on the top of the ropes? It's just, it's silly, isn't it? Or do they think that people are going to tune in to World Wildlife Fund, expecting to see The Rock and Triple H cuddling? No. No.

I think that's one of the things of using WWF or, you know, just use the words World Wrestling Federation, World Wildlife Fund. That way we know where we are. Because CBT, Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, if you Google that or put in CBT, you get different variations of what it stands for.

I'm not going to give you some of those, I might have done in the past. But one is training, I think for motorbike, like for moped training or motorbike training. You know, when you buy a motorbike and to train to drive it or ride it, something like that.

So that's one of the things for the CBT. The other is, that basically comes, it's CNBT. Teacher, it's a different thing.

So, but yeah, I get a little bit confused sometimes. Because when I was at university, studying counselling, there's a lot of abbreviated terms. And I just, it's almost like I'm not learning.

I'm not learning what I need to learn. If I keep using CBT, if I keep abbreviating things, I almost feel like I need to say the whole of the words. Otherwise I'm not really learning properly.

That's just a personal thing, I suppose. It's personal to me. So, I needed the big yawn then.

Oh, that would be wrong. I held it back, held it back. I'm thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking of doing a whisper version of this.

Let me bore you to sleep. And I thought, should I do like a different podcast where I do a whisper, let me bore you to sleep whisper. But then I thought, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps I could do the occasional recording.

Yeah, do the occasional recording and just have it as a whisper. I'm not sure. We'll see.

Because I know that if I do a whisper recording, as part of these podcasts, then people listen to them. Some, you know, maybe not everyone would want to listen. But if I did a whole new podcast, it's like starting from scratch.

So, I don't know, I don't know. It's just that my, when I whisper, apart from being personal, I find it a bit more intimate. And I think my brain is a little bit different, if that makes any sense.

Almost, I think differently when I'm whispering to the way I do when I'm talking. Even though I know I'm talking very softly. But, so I guess my brain, my brain would probably, the way I'm thinking would be different now to the way it would be if I was shouting.

Perhaps I should make a shouting podcast. I don't want to do that because I don't like what shouting does to my voice. Sometimes I go out and I'm with a friend and we're walking down the road where there's lots of traffic.

And I end up like shouting so that he can hear me and he's shouting so I can hear him over the traffic. And I just, I find my voice just gets a little bit sore. So I don't really, I don't enjoy the process.

So, I'm going to go now. Thank you very much for listening. Remember, if you like what I do, leave a video review.

And remember to be kind to yourself. Because you do, you do deserve to be happy. Lots of love.

Bye.