#230 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (5th October 2019)

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So, it's warm in here. I've got the heating on, probably a bit higher than normal. I've had the heating on the last few days, just to sort of take the edge off.

But I've done some washing. I've actually washed quite a few things. So I've washed my body, I had a bath, I washed my dishes, so I did the washing up, and I also washed my clothes.

Not all of them, but a few. I concentrated more on the bedding today. So I'm trying to dry out the bedding.

I've got them draped over the radiator. When I said draped, not really, they're more crumpled up along the top of the radiator, because Andre will grab and rip it down onto the floor, and I don't want him doing to my bedding what he does to everything else that seems to be on the floor. What else is there to say? I had a text message from Australia, and it's the second time, because I got a message, I think it was last week, and I just wanted to say, I can't reply to text messages that are international, because my phone doesn't allow it.

I'm on a pay-as-you-go phone. Basically, it's five pound a month, so they take the five pound every month, but it's pay-as-you-go, so it's not a contract. But I can't spend any money other than just by, all I can do is just use the minutes that they give me, if that makes sense.

And five pound a month, I think it's pretty good, because I don't use the phone very much, and when I do, they're not usually long conversations. And every three months, I get a booster, because with EE, which is one of the providers in the UK of England, and every three months, I get a free booster, I can choose between, I think it's 500 megabytes data, or it might be 100 minutes talking time extra, and it just keeps following on from there, so it builds up and builds up. And I've had it for quite a while, which is cool.

And yeah, it's growing. I haven't bothered with the data as yet, because generally, I listen, or I use my phone when I'm at home, so I use the wireless broadband. But when I do go out, it's nice to have some data, so perhaps I like to listen to the radio, or something like that.

But because I'm a member of Audible, I can listen to my audio books without any data, because they've been downloaded. And also the same with some of the music, so it doesn't take any data either. But what I might do is look at increasing the data.

So maybe next year, I'll just... What have I got? I think the next bonus increase thing, booster, will be November. So what I'll do is I'll probably increase the minutes again. Then November, December, January, February, I'll probably boost the data.

Then March, April, May, I'll boost the data. June, July, August, I'll boost the data. September, October, November, I'll boost the data.

So at the moment, at the moment, I think it's 500 megabytes. I think it offers a 500 megabytes increase. So go from 500 to 1,000, 1,500, 2,000, 2,500.

So two and a half gigabytes of worth of data a month. And I suppose if I kept that going for a couple of more years, or a year after that, so November, December, January, February, 2021, February, March, April, May, 2021, June, July, August 2021, September, October, November 2021. So it'll be two and a half gigabytes.

Then it'll be three gigabytes in November. And February, 3,000, three gigabytes, 3.5 gigabytes, four gigabytes, 4.5 gigabytes. So coming into 2022, I'll have about five gigabytes a month to use on my data, which is way more than I need, unless I was going to be out regularly.

But I don't really go out very often. Because I don't really want to. I don't know.

Although I do need margarine. So that that's definitely had an impact. It's, so anyone says, what does, what impact does bipolar have on your life? And my quick answer to that was, I've run out of margarine.

I need some, but I'm not being able to get out. And I've got some tea cakes that are, they're basically, I think they're worn out now. They're not able to be eaten.

And I could have eaten them yesterday, or the day before, but I didn't have any margarine or butter to put onto them. And the best will in the world, it's just not the same dry. It'd be like eating dry Weetabix.

And I know, maybe I'm not being prejudiced against people that eat dry Weetabix, forgive me, but it's not the same to me. It's a bit dry, you know. I mean, sometimes, I did this the other day, and I'm going through a little period of eating Weetabix.

It all happened because I run out of breakfast cereal, and it was time to buy some new breakfast cereal. And I don't normally wait until I'm completely out of any breakfast cereal before I buy new breakfast cereal. But on this occasion, I did, because I had two boxes of Shreddies that I bought from Iceland.

And I didn't want two boxes of Shreddies, because I had to carry them home. And they take up quite a lot of room in a carrier bag. So I only really wanted one box, but it had the offer.

It was, I think, three pounds for one box, or four pounds for two. I couldn't move on without... I couldn't. I had to buy two.

How could I justify just buying one box for three pounds? I'd struggle with that, you know. I'd have to write some kind of, you know, really stern letter to myself, telling myself off. But, you know, it's enough regret that I don't want to add more, including breakfast cereal.

So I bought two boxes. I think it set me up with a false sense of security. Almost like, you know, oh, I've got two boxes of Shreddies.

I'm never going to have to buy breakfast cereal again. This is going to last me forever. Of course it's not going to last forever.

But sometimes there's no telling me. Sometimes I just like get it in my mind. Great, now it's one less thing to think about.

Not that I spend hours thinking about breakfast cereal, but I felt almost comfortable and relaxed in the whole breakfast cereal domain, where it comes to purchasing more of that type of food. I just didn't have it on my shopping list in my head. I don't have an actual shopping list, but I do have a head, and I take that with me to the shops.

And so I didn't bother buying any more breakfast cereal, because I already had in my mind, I just had this memory of putting both of the boxes of breakfast cereal, of Shreddies, on top of the cupboard. And they were sideways, but long ways across. Does that make sense? So, like sliding in, in.

So all you could see was the side, but standing up. And both of them. You had to kind of... I mean, you could read what is said on the side.

It's easy when you know what's been... what's on there. It says Shreddies. But if you really wanted to read it properly, you'd need to get some kind of hoisting system attached to the ceiling and balance your legs and your body so that you're to one side, maybe to the right, and you could just... and then hoist you up so you're at the level of where the cupboard is and you could read it.

Or you could just take the box down and read it. I suppose that'd probably be easier. And so I didn't... I just had that memory and thinking, it's fine.

I've got loads there. Got loads. Calm down, Jason.

Plenty of cereal. Yum, yum, yum, yum. Don't think about it till the morning.

Well, I ran out of breakfast cereal and I think it was on Saturday, last Saturday. And I thought, what am I going to do? And then I thought, well, what I normally do in this situation. And then I remembered, I normally... what I normally do is I just go and buy some more breakfast cereal.

But because I've been eating Shreddies, I wanted more Shreddies. I've got a taste for it. I've really got... I'm not hooked, but I just want more.

That's what I want now. I want Shreddies. I mean, I'll be honest.

I really am, but on this occasion, I'll be honest. I sometimes have a bowl of Shreddies in the evening, just as a little treat. Just to keep me going till breakfast time.

Well, I say evening, I'm talking morning, but then I have them again in the afternoon. But my evening is the morning. But then it was too late because last Saturday, I didn't have time to go to the shops, to go to Iceland.

I didn't have time to get on the bus and go there. And I thought, what shall I do? Wait a minute, it wasn't Saturday, it was Friday. Ah, yeah, it was Friday.

Yeah, I remember now. Because what I did, ah, yeah. I remembered that I had ready brick in the cupboard, but it's not in the box.

It's in a bag because I keep everything sealed up in my kitchen. Everything's like in bags and boxes. You know, I mean, everything's nice and sealed.

And I thought, I'll have ready brick. Now, for those people listening who don't know what ready brick is, it's kind of like porridge, but nothing like porridge. Yeah, I don't know if that makes sense.

It doesn't taste like porridge. It kind of has a similar texture to porridge. I think with ready brick, basically, it's really easy to make.

I really do like it. I really, I like it a lot. And what I do to prepare it is I put milk into the saucepan, turn the heat on the hob of your kitchen cooker.

When I say kitchen cooker, you're not going to have a bedroom cooker, are you? Unless, of course, you have a cooker in your bedroom. I produce enough heat myself by turning the radiators on. So, I don't always do it in that order.

Sometimes, I turn the hob on first, and then I put the milk into the saucepan, and then boil it up, the milk. In the meantime, whilst that is occurring, I pour some ready brick powder. I don't know how else it really is like that.

It's kind of, it's white flakes, and I suppose they're not the same as washing powder, because there's nothing like it, really. Yeah, it must be something that's similar to it. I keep having this, like, image of maybe glue, but that's what kind of, that's what ready brick turns into, ultimately.

If you have ready brick, and you leave the plate, or the, don't you, well, dish, probably, try and eat it off a plate, I'll go, everybody, everybody? We'll go everybody, and everywhere. If you leave the dish on the sideboard, or just, you know, in the kitchen, or on the table, or, I don't know, on the roof, I don't know where, in the greenhouse, I don't know where you eat your breakfast, the spoon will be stuck to the dish, and the inside, or, you know, the rim, or, I don't know if it's the rim, but, you know, the, you know, the outside, but the opposite, the inside of the dish, and the sides of the inside, that it's almost like glue, like it's rock solid, so it does need to be soaked very much, very much so.

That's one of the things that, I don't understand, you know, when people, not all people, but some people, they don't, they don't soak things.

So if I went round someone's house for dinner, and they expected me to do the washing up, because I'd had dinner, first of all, I'd never go back, and secondly, I'd expect any saucepans to be filled with water to soak the thing, because if you cook in a saucepan, and you just leave it to dry for a couple of hours, it's very difficult to wash. And I know this because, well, I used to work as a kitchen porter a few times, but when I was younger, in a kitchen, very busy kitchen, a few different jobs doing that, and the chef at hand had a big saucepan that had been used to make soup, or a stew, or something, and it was just impossible to clean.

Yet if they'd filled it with water, and let it soak for half an hour, it would have been a lot easier to clean.

So I lived in a place years ago, lived in a lot of places, but this place, we used to take turns cooking. So there was so many people, one, two, three, four, five. There's five bedrooms, so often there was five people living there, sometimes less, or sometimes more, sometimes there'd be a visitor sleeping in the living room, but generally five at the most, and we'd take turns cooking.

And it was kind of an unusual experience, because there's one person who used to cook, and he liked cooking, he liked finger food stuff, like Mexican wraps and stuff like that, and not torpedoes, torquitoes, nachos, nachos, chimichanga, I don't know, the things where you got the cheese, and the sauce, and you've got the nachos, like crisp biscuit, whatever they're called. Well, we'd all be tucking in, and using the fork to get a lot of stuff, because it's very messy, and he'd get the ant, because he said, it's finger food, why aren't you eating it with your fingers?

Well, my answer is, because I know where my fingers have been, that's why, I don't eat with my fingers, which isn't completely true, but, and he had a little tantrum, he did, he started just jumping up and down on the table, no, he didn't do that at all, he was dancing. And then another person that lived there, honestly, I can't believe he'd cook, and even if there's only three people, or two people he was cooking for, he would use every single kitchen item, everyone, everything, like every spoon, every fork, every saucepan, every plate, and the washing up, because whoever didn't cook, did the washing up, that was the agreement.

I remember going down there once, and saying, seeing all the washing up, and I said, no, I'm just going to get a takeout, you can keep your food, it's better me spending £20 on a takeout, than spending four hours washing up. He literally, honestly, I think he actually knocked on the neighbours' houses, and borrowed some of their kitchen equipment.

I was seeing stuff I'd never seen before, like different patterned plates, that I've never seen in my life, it's like, we were having, I mean it was, what was it like, a shepherd's pie, and he had a wok, there was a wok there, why would, you don't use a wok to make shepherd's pie, there was a George Foreman grill, we didn't own a George Foreman grill, apart from anything else, it was a vegetarian house, so the shepherd's pie wasn't made of meat, or lamb, you know, like it normally is, but I don't know what it was made of.

Mind you, one of the people that lived there, no, one of the people that lived there was really into, what's it called, you know when you put in bags, you know, like plastic stuff, and cardboard stuff, and not refurbishment, the words gone out of my head, because it doesn't interest me, but yeah, he was really into the environment, and looking after the environment, and he used to plant trees, and everywhere he went he'd plant trees, I mean literally, I'll be walking down the street with him, and I'm continuing talking, and I stop, realize he's not

standing next to me, I look back, and he's there with his shovel, didn't even know he had a shovel on him, digging a hole to plant a tree, didn't know he had a tree on him, it's like magically appeared out of nowhere, I was always picking up trash off the floor, like cans, and stuff like that, as I said he was really environmentally friendly, and this was quite a while ago before it was popular, and he would literally, anything, literally anything that you put down would disappear, because you take it, and put it in the

bin, the blue bin, or the green bin, whatever bin it was, and literally it just takes stuff, but what was ironic, it takes stuff, but then he'd be bringing stuff back into the house, that he found on the street, so he was taking the new stuff that we had, and giving that away to the recycling people, I just remembered the word recycling, yet he was bringing back old crappy stuff from the street, to use instead of buying new stuff, and now I've talked about two of them cooking, let's talk about him cooking, we had a

dinner, they cooked the dinner, at the end of the meal he said, guess what, that's never a good sign, I felt like saying, you found my phone, possibly, and he said, no, he said, guess what, everything that you've just eaten, I found in a bin, a trash bin, and that's a bit of information, it'd be nice to know before, isn't it, it's almost, it's like telling someone, oh by the way, the toilet overflows, and it goes all over, and the water will go all over your trousers, and in your shoes, and everything, when you flush,

and he told me that before, and then I might not flush, but the night I said, a trash, you got that out of a bin, he said, no, no, don't worry, it wasn't like a bin bin, it was, well, it was a bin, but it was outside of a supermarket, behind a supermarket, well, the first thing, if you know, I do, I really, you know, I have a recycled bin here, and that bin gets very dirty, even though I don't put any food in it, just the residue off of the packaging, it gets dirty and

smelly, I've got a lid on it, but, so that big dustbin, whatever it was, where stuff was put, probably guessing it's not germ free, I'm just, just guessing, or vermin free, so, so basically what he did is he went there, and he picked out a bunch of food that had been chucked out by the shop, and he cooked it, and the food was fine, you know, it wasn't, it didn't, you know, it was fine, it was okay, but once he, once he told me, once I heard the word, or the words, oh, that food came

out of a bin, I didn't feel so well, oh, if I'm honest, it wasn't the dessert that I was hoping for, I said, any, any ice cream, he said, no, I melted, okay, and he put, it's just, the thing is, you know, in reality, if more people did what he did, it would change the world, so, you know, it's a great, great bloke, but, oh, I don't want to eat out of a bin, it's just a personal thing, I'm weird like that, I just, I think I said to him, listen mate, I go to work,

so I don't have to eat food out of a bin, that's why I work, because I had that in the past, where someone would eat their food, and they'd have a bit left of their food and offer it to me, I said, no, that's why I work, so I don't have to eat people's leftovers off of their plate, that's why, that's why I'm working, or maybe I was just being ungrateful, I don't know, on my, I was recently seeing someone, just last weekend, but she said she didn't want to see me anymore, because my woolly

was too big, so it's been quite windy here lately, it's been quite windy and rainy and everything, but it's that time of year, isn't it, it's, it's, what is it, autumn, what do you call it in America, what is it, spring, oh, you call autumn fall, don't you, which, is it because the trees, the leaves on the trees fall, is that why it's called fall, because we call it autumn, I wonder why we call it autumn, that's what I need, I need a book, a book explaining the differences between English and American language and the

words used and the phrases used and why, because it does, it does interest me actually, to, I think like sidewalk, instead of pavement, and it's the mispronunciation of course, or mispronunciation, mispronunciation, and such as route, instead of a route, agoraphobia, instead of agoraphobia, what are the words, lessise the square, instead of lechise the square, what are the words, a roof, what do you say in America, a roof, a roof, instead of a ruff, that's what dogs do, dogs go ruff, we don't have ruffs on our houses in England, we have roofs, we don't have dogs

on there, be cruel, whatever words are there, house, yeah, it's sort of like a flat, America have apartments, we have flats, I'm pretty sure American, you have houses, because we have houses, but we don't, I don't think we have lots of different names for them though, I'm not saying that America name every single house, well this one's called Beatrice, you know, although my dad used to do that, he used to name his house and I refused, I'm not going to call it by a name, simply because if you put the postcode into any postcode system,

the number of the house will come up, not the name of the house, simple as that, if you need an emergency, an ambulance, they're going to be looking for a number, not a name, I've actually seen that in the past, where I lived, when I first moved here, when I was doing my college course, an ambulance stopped, because I was walking down my road, and they actually asked me directions, an ambulance, going to an emergency call saying, do you know which one of these houses is called Pretty Boy Pretty Happy Place, and I said, I

don't know mate, do you know what number is, they said, I don't know, they didn't give it to us, and I said, well stop crying, and he said, I like to have a cry, and it's Wednesday night, I always get emotional Wednesdays, I would have asked him why, but I have other things to do, besides I've just set fire to one of the houses, no I hadn't, I hadn't, I'm not saying that, ah, but yeah, everything's groovy, everything's hooli kapooli, and it'd be nice to, it'd be nice to remember what I was talking about, I

was talking about food, how did I get on to food, how did I get on to talking about food, and cooking, and I end up talking about ambulances, must have been a reason why, surely, I watched, ah I've got a joke for you, it's not my joke, I perhaps should have done it at the beginning, I say anyway, just for those who are still awake, those who are asleep, I'm here, it's, I was watching this film today, and I forget the name of the film, so this is not my joke, I'm just telling you it's

not mine, but a man goes to a doctor, and the doctor says to him, to the man, you're going to have to stop masturbating, and the man says, the patient says to the doctor, why?

And the doctor says, I need to examine you.

See, I don't think I've ever heard that joke before, it's actually made me laugh, and I've heard a lot of jokes, and I don't normally tell jokes like that, but I just, I thought I'd share it, because it's very funny, I think, and I was watching Naked Gun, did it two and a half or something, like the third one in the Naked Gun films, and I can't remember watching it for years, because there was bits in it that I don't recall, which was quite nice, and it had Anna Nicole Smith, I forgot what a lovely

voice she had, and that was just some really funny bits in it, I didn't watch it all, but it reminded me, I watched that film with, I was going to Ireland to visit Andre, like the original Andre, and that film was on the boat, and I got talking to a girl on there, who I really, really liked, she was really nice, so I got talking to her, and I thought I was doing really well, we went to the cinema and everything, on the boat, and we watched that film, it's only as we're pulling up, or

that the boat is like docking into Dublin, that she says, all right, well, nice, nice meeting you, I'm gonna have to go, I'm gonna go and meet my boyfriend, what, so that was annoying, and when I got back, what basically we, what did we do, yeah, that's it, we got onto our coach, I got back onto the coach, that I've been on since, because I traveled all the way to Wales, I think, on the coach, got back on the coach, and it took us to Dublin, the Dublin station, or whatever it is, and she must

have gone her own way, and as I got off the coach, I was chatting to some of the blokes that were on the coach with me, that I'd been, I'd seen throughout the journey, and I'm waiting in the Dublin station, and I'm just like chatting, and I'm about to go anyway, but I'm just chatting to them, and there was another bloke there as well, and he just, they were, I think they were friends of him, and he just joined, and they were talking about the women, some nice women on that boat, I said, yeah, she'd

have seen the one I was talking to, and I gave her quite a descriptive description of her, and how much I fancied her, and everything, and then one of the blokes said, oh, that's my girlfriend, at any point, and it was the woman that I'd been, spent the whole journey on a boat, and she was waving it in, so I said, see ya, and I'm out of there, I couldn't believe it, I was just like, oh my god, here's me talking about this, this woman, I wasn't saying anything bad about her, just that I really

liked her, and I think she liked me, and, and I think he was saying, oh, she sounds nice, I said, yeah, thinking to myself, you, you couldn't get anyone like that, well, actually, she was his girlfriend, so I just said bye, and left, and went to McDonald's, and just had a little chuckle, that is until I actually ate the burger, and remembered that, I don't know if they still do, but in Ireland at that time, McDonald's used mayonnaise on their burgers, which is a crime to humanity, it is wrong, mayonnaise on a McDonald's burger, come

on, I mean, seriously, come on, how did that even happen, or did they, like, just, McDonald's opened up their first branch in, in Ireland, the same as they do normally, same stuff, and everyone was complaining, wait a minute, this burger doesn't taste sickly, I understand, why isn't it, why isn't it all sweet, mayonnaise, we need egg, yeah, that's what we need, we need egg and, I don't know what makes mayonnaise, egg and something, isn't it, it's like, oh, no, I like eggs, I'm not prejudiced against eggs, they do all seem to look the same, but

I'm not prejudiced against eggs, some are bigger than others, aren't they, but I've never actually seen, outside of television, I've never seen big eggs, like in real life, I've only ever seen the normal sized eggs, so I like eggs, I like fried eggs, I don't really eat fried food, really, but I like fried eggs, I like boiled eggs, no, I don't, I don't know why I said that, I like fried eggs, I like, I like hard boiled eggs, like boiled eggs where you can eat them and it's runny inside, I like that kind of boiled

eggs, I like scrambled eggs, I like omelettes, and that's it, hard boiled eggs, no, no, no, and what I don't understand, because I've had a lot of jobs, worked in a lot of places, a lot of industrial places, when I was younger, I was in offices as well and I don't know why there's always that one person that has to bring an egg to work, it's always that eggy man or eggy woman, always one person, it's almost like everyone thinks of themselves, I'm just too perfect, everyone likes me too much, I can't do anything to

upset people, everyone just likes me whatever I do, what can I do just to annoy people, I'll bring an egg to work, so it's like the egg person and it comes in two formats doesn't it, it's either the hard boiled egg or the egg sandwich or egg and crust sandwich and I don't understand how the egg goes from being tasty to so stinky, just in that, it basically goes off doesn't it, after it's cooked, eggs go off, they start to go, I don't know, mouldy I suppose, because I always used to think, well basically, let's

face it, how come is a question, how come an egg sandwich smells worse than an eggy fart that's been all the way through your body going through the poo channel and that fart is actually much nicer on the senses than an egg sandwich why?

those are the things that I think about, I realise not everybody's that interested but you're not supposed to be interested, it's a boring recording isn't it, a boring recording that's almost rhymy almost rhymy so it was Sylvia that sent me that text message, that's what I was going to say, sent me a text message and phoned me, I missed the phone call, I can't phone back, maybe if you can contact me on my email address jasonnewland at hotmail. co.

uk and then I'm able to respond but I can't respond via the phone and I just don't want people to think that I'm being rude because I would respond especially as you specifically wanted to contact me although I think there are a couple of messages that I've not responded to yet which I need to look at but I haven't been, I haven't felt great the last couple of days so I've been sleeping a fair bit but it's nice to, it's nice to feel relaxed isn't it oh so nice such a nice experience I'm trying to

think of any stories about that house that I lived in where we did all the washing up oh there's one time my friend, I love him so much, he's the one that you did all the washing up he did the use of everyone else's cutlery and he's one of the most gentle, kindest, generous people that I've ever known especially when it comes to washing up he's very generous there you can do more, do more washing up but he's very, he's genuinely just a beautiful person and we were, we were all sitting down eating and he

started talking about something I wasn't listening and his chair collapsed so literally he was just talking suddenly he disappeared and I couldn't stop laughing and it's just so funny the weird thing about it is when I moved in here in this flat four years ago I inherited my grandmother's, some of her furniture that was in storage and so I got her table, two chairs and you know I've got the TV unit and I basically got stuff that I'm never ever going to give away ever keeping them forever and ever so this table and the chairs

are going to stay with me even if I don't use them they will stay because I can the table can be taken apart so it's not, it's kind of flimsy in a sense it's I don't know you wouldn't want to, I don't think you'd want to stand on it I don't think I'd trust my weight on it but I sat down on this chair and again it did, it collapsed, the chair collapsed under me and I couldn't figure it out because well it doesn't make sense, it's a chair, chairs are supposed to support your weight

aren't they those chairs hardly got any use at all because my Nan, she had two chairs that she sat in two comfortable chairs, both recliners I think but one was an electronic recliner because she had physical issues it helped her to get up as well as well as sort of sitting down but she'd alternate, she'd go into each chair I think one was just pretty much did what I did one was sort of for the recliner and one was just for more comfortable maybe I'd have two chairs, a smoking chair and a farting chair, you

know it's just standard thing isn't it but she, these chairs collapse and I used to visit her and I used to sit in the chair, never had a problem admittedly I was never as heavy as I am now but it's not a huge difference maybe a stone or so, so what my Dad did is he reinforced the chairs he took one back, well I think yeah he might have took both of them back to his home and he reinforced them with wood, now the one I sit in is pretty much okay I feel it a

little bit loose but the other one that I don't sit in I rarely sit in it and it's in my bedroom, it creaks when I sit in it it almost as if it's saying ow, really ow, come on get off, get off so you know it's, although they're reinforced I don't know and next week I have lots to talk to you about because I'm getting my garden shed delivered and I will be creating my recording studio with that garden shed, it's gonna be groovy it's really really gonna be groovy and I'm looking forward to it

actually now it'd be so nice just to have it there so I can just enjoy being able to make recordings do it during the day without any disruptions or interruptions, any background sound well minimal anyway, yeah I'll be good yeah I can tell you all about the excitement of building it, I hope it's easy I hope so, it's only a little shed but I'm kind of hoping that it'll just like slide together and slot together but I don't know, I'm not sure I'm really not sure right that's the end of this recording recording, thank you

to those of you that have left me messages, send messages on Facebook people that have left testimonials, I really appreciate it, it actually really makes my day just to hear that what I'm doing is useful and it does, it's hard, yeah the feeling I get is it's very very pleasant, it's a very pleasant feeling and brings meaning, gives me meaning so yeah so I just want to say thank you to those that have done that and now I'm gonna go and I will speak to you very soon and remember to be kind to yourself because

you deserve to be happy, lots of love, bye