#240 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (16th October 2019)

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name's Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. Now.

Now, now, now, now. And I'm tired. So I had a weird day.

I'm not going to spend the entire recording talking about the weird day, but I shall mention it before I begin with my, well, I've got this book from the library. For those listening to this in the future, a library was a place where you could rent books and it didn't cost anything. And for those living even further into the future, books used to be these things that you could read out of.

They're like made of paper. Yeah. It's kind of like little, very thin sheets of paper with writing on print and stuff and pictures.

And the paper was made of trees. And those even further into the future, trees were those things, basically like big, big things that used to grow from the ground. Yeah.

They were big. Not all of them were big. The babies were small.

Then they became big. And they helped to produce oxygen, which was quite useful. And those even further into the future.

Oxygen. Well, before we all moved to Mars to relocate, we used to have this, you have these things, oxygen, something you used to be able to breathe. It was organically produced.

Now, of course, we produce it through, you know, technology, and it's very good. I think ever since they realized that they could produce oxygen from poo, you know, it's really worked out quite well. Worm poo and kangaroo poo, for some reason, speciality.

So that's been quite good. And yeah, so basically, I've got this book from the library, and it's called Canada. It's basically an inside guide to Canada.

So the front picture or front page, you know, the cover, it's quite a heavy book, you know. It's not very big as in tall or wide. Not, it's not a huge amount of girth there.

But it's heavy. It's a lot of pages. How many pages? 376 pages, including the index.

But I think the plastic cover that they've put on top of the cover has added a bit of extra weightage to it. But yeah, it's quite cool. So I'm going to kind of dip into it.

That's what I'm planning. When have I got to give it back? I'll give it back on the 5th of November. So we had it from three, I think they normally do it for about three weeks.

So the picture on the front is of mountains and a lake, these red trees. And it looks a little bit like Mars. Like there's a lot of red, apart from the mountains.

Not sure if they have mountains on Mars. But it's one of those places, not Mars, one of those places that I've never really fantasized about. Mars doesn't, it's just, I don't think there's many jobs there, which means it'd be a long commute if you lived there, wouldn't it? Imagine the travel now to London City is long enough from Mars that, you know, you get there and suddenly it's time to retire.

You're left three weeks old. I don't know how long it takes. Quite a few years, didn't it, to get to Mars.

Anyway, Canada is one of those places I'd like to go to. I think it's, there's a few places I like. Some places I've never really been that interested.

But Canada, America, Australia, New Zealand, and certain parts of Europe I'd quite like to visit. And yeah, just Canada is one of those places I can't, maybe one day I will. And yeah, so that's that book.

So I'm going to be dipping into that a little bit and reading a few little bits and bobs and facts and stuff. I want to get a book which talks about phrases, and not necessarily like Canadian phrases, but like English phrases generally, just the English language and what they mean and where they develop from, the origin. Partly because it's boring, but also because it's interesting and boring.

It'd just be mildly, I don't know, kind of educational, maybe a little bit, I don't know. So yeah, okay, so I woke up this morning, third day in a row, I woke up about seven o'clock, which is usually about the time I go to bed. So my whole day, night has kind of been flipped on its side, or flipped on its head.

So that's a phrase, isn't it? Turned upside down. Which means the same thing, isn't it? Topsy turvy? I suppose that could be. And I got up and I checked my bank, my app on my phone, checked my bank balance, and no money had been put in.

And this is my payday. I get paid every two weeks. And this is my, the day that I get paid.

Unemployment, and nothing went in. There's no money. And I started to think, oh, but there was a message on the app saying this app will be under maintenance, which means you might not be able to, excuse me, get access to some things, some services.

So I thought, I hope that's the reason why it's not saying, or it's saying, you know, it's not saying there's no money in there. Because I had three pound. That's how much I've managed to save in 49 years.

Three per pound. So what's that work out? Three, 49 divided by three, 10, 20, 30, 15, 30, 45, 48. So it's works out about three pound every 16 years.

One pound every 16 years I've saved up. It's not bad, really, is it? If it's not bad, what word would you use? So yeah, I'll be honest, I didn't react perfectly to the possibility of my benefits having been stopped. Because that's what it looked like.

And I've never happened, it's never happened before. Because I play by the rules, I do everything that I'm supposed to do. I couldn't figure why it would better just stopped it.

So I thought, okay, it must be the app, must be an issue with the phone app. So I get Andre and I walk up to the garage to check the cashpoint machine and to check my balance on there. And this was, I don't know, 20 past seven, something like that.

Maybe half past seven. Go there, walk, it's raining. And my glasses are just, my glasses look like the windscreen of a car that doesn't have any wipers.

During the rain. They were wet, basically, that's what I'm saying, they were wet. They didn't stop me.

Andre's now running around. He's been out twice today. No, no, no, he's been out three times today.

Three times. Yeah, now he wants to go out. Been out three times.

Twice to the garage and once all the way around the block. He still wants to go out again. And nearly twice of those times, twice of the times, two of those times he was asleep when I picked him up to take him out with me.

And the first one he actually, in fact, both of them, he went into my jacket to go to sleep. And I carried him. He didn't want to, he didn't want to walk.

But if I go to, if I go somewhere and I can take him with me, I generally always do. He's trying to get out the front door. So generally I try and take him with me, even if he's asleep, at least he's got out, at least he's got some air.

And if he wants to have a little walk, he can have a walk. And I prefer to have him with me. If I'm honest, I do.

I just, I prefer to have him with me when I'm out. I just, I just do. And the, I went to the garage anyway, went to the garage.

Very busy road because I guess a lot of people was on their way to work and, you know, half past seven in the morning, it's quite busy. And I just noticed I've just got my right arm bent. I'm quite muscular, you know, I've got quite nice biceps.

I could say anything on a, on a podcast, can't I? No one's going to know. It's just an audio, you can't see me. I could be like this big, massive blob, just sprawled across the floor, like a big dough ball or something.

And I could be saying, yeah, I'm really muscular. And you could be thinking, no, we actually have seen you on video before. We know you're not.

But I am. I've got, my arms are quite, they're quite good. My right arm seems to be stronger than my left arm, but more muscular than my left.

Come on then, Andre. Andre wants to come and say hello. What are you doing, mate? What are you doing? What? Can you give daddy kisses? What are you up to? You want a cuddle? I can hold you and you have a little cuddle.

Or should I brush up against the microphone? Yeah. Can you hear him? Hey, you've been a good boy today, haven't you? Didn't disturb me at all when I was asleep. And he's been asleep most of the time today.

Now he's awake. He's proper awake. He's probably forgotten we've already been out three times.

And now he wants to go out. And it's dark outside, isn't it? So we're limited to going to the park. I don't want to go to the park.

I want to go to the park, smelly park. No. I'll have to cut his nails, they're getting a bit long.

Your fingernails are getting long. Yes, they are. Why is your nose so wet? Why is your nose so wet? Go on, go and play.

So we went to the garage, eventually got across the road. You know, what's quite unusual is when I cross the road, there's two parts to the road. There's a little, I don't know what you call it, a cordon, little bit of concrete, whatever, that I can stand on in between the road, so I can get halfway through.

And the people that stop are the most, the people that are more, most likely to stop are people in lorries. Because, I guess because they're on the road all the time, they do that for a living, they realize that they're not going to get any further down the road on a busy road. They're not going to get there any quicker if they stop, if they carry on and don't stop.

It's not going to make any difference to them. Andre's now annoying them, I've gone from loving him to being annoyed with him. He's scratching at the front door.

Literally, literally, it was just over an hour, maybe an hour and a half, when I took him for a walk. And now he's, he's, he's, you know. So I went to the garage, eventually I got across the road.

And I tried not to shout at the traffic, but I do see that being my future. As I get older, I start shouting at the cars. That's okay, don't mind me, just keep driving past.

Oh, I'm invisible to you too. Bad enough I'm invisible to all women, now I'm invisible to all cars. Brilliant.

It's getting to the point with Andre that the sound of his little feet running across the floor used to be cute. Now it's, it seems to have lost its, its novelty factor after four years. Because he just does it in a, it's almost like he's, you know when you send a kid to bed, and they go up the stairs and they stomp, bang down on the stairs.

Bang, bang, bang, that's what he does. But he just does it on the floor. And he just makes extra noise that he doesn't normally make when he's not getting his own way.

Anyway. Yeah, get to the garage. It's raining.

He's decided he just wants to stay in my jacket. And I walk up to the garage and I walk it to the cash point machine. And, you know, do this normal stuff.

Put my pin number 5353. And then I get the thing on there saying you have £3.39 or whatever it is I got in there. I was like, oh no.

And the walk home just seemed to be longer than the walk there. I really didn't know what to do. It's like, oh no.

I've got no one I can ask for help. What am I going to do? Have I got the wrong day? Because I definitely overspent last week with the shed and all the stuff to do with that. Have I just got the days muddled up? Then I got home and I checked the bank, you know, the app, and it's definitely the right day.

So I had some breakfast. I waited till 8 o'clock, which wasn't long, only a few minutes till 8. And I called up the benefits place. And I genuinely really just thought, oh, I was trying to figure out how I'm going to get by.

You know, because I need to eat. How's that? Oh, what's going to happen? So I call them up and put in a queue and wait in for quite a while. They play the tune that everyone loves.

If you live in the UK, you've ever phoned the benefit place, you'll know what I'm talking about. It's a beautiful tune. Very, very wonderful.

A lot of fun. I don't know why they don't release it as an actual, you know, tune. Maybe at Christmas, I reckon it'd go to number one.

Especially if they said, if we sell a million of these, we'll no longer use it as the tune on the waiting machine. But what do you think? So I sell 10 million probably. So I'm listening to that.

Eventually I get through to, and I have to answer all these questions on the answer machine. Do you have, what's your national insurance number? And they repeat it back to me. That's fine.

And then they said, what's your date of birth? And I give it to them. And they read it back. And they keep saying 1972.

Mine's 1970. I was born in 1970. And I said, no, that's not right.

Would you like to try again? I said, yes, please. And I did it again. So we hear, we heard, 1972.

Is that correct? No, it's not correct. I do, I like to make that sound of a pirate. Every now and then.

It was just, in the end, I said, no, I don't want to do it again. I don't. Don't want to try again.

No point. When I say 1970, does that sound like 1972? I think I'm fairly clear when I talk, especially when I put the effort in to speak clearly. So I was like that.

Unfortunately, there's no point saying that because it's an answer machine. They don't, they don't answer. It's weird why they call it an answer machine if they don't answer.

They don't. More question machine. Eventually, they said, why are you calling? I said, I haven't been paid my benefits.

And just ask question after question. Eventually, they said, you'll be answered soon by a operative or I don't know what they call them. Someone, you know, a human.

And so I'm waiting for probably about another 20 minutes. And I get through to someone and it doesn't sound very happy. It's just, you know, when you speak to someone like this, don't... Admittedly, it was eight o'clock in the morning.

Well, half eight probably by then. So it's an early start and they don't open the phone lines till eight. So a lot of them would have just got in literally five minutes before eight to start working.

Logging in and, you know, possibly still hungover from the night before, still half asleep. I know I used to be when I worked in a call center, especially early shifts. And he was really helpful though.

He'd, you know, he said, what's your name? I said, what? What have you done all this? He said, you know, if you have to give me information for me to get into your system, into the, you know, to find out your details. I said, okay, then my name's Jason Newland. He said, do you mean Newland? I said, don't correct me on my own name.

So I just went through the security details. What's your telephone number? He said, I don't know what the telephone number is. He said, you don't know what your own telephone number is.

Really? Really? Is that what you're saying? Really? I said, stop it. He said, sorry. I said, why? He said, well, I said, well, just nevermind.

And he said, well, we need to do the security questions. Otherwise I can't look at your stuff. I can't, you know, find out what's going on.

I said, okay. He said, what's your date of birth? And I thought, oh God, here we go. Here we go.

But he heard me, not saying here we go, because I didn't actually say that out loud. And do you hear Andre in the background? He's now run off into the kitchen with his girlfriend. Can't believe a ferret.

He gets more action in one day than I've had in about five years. Seriously. When I say the word action, I mean emotionally fulfilling experiences.

That's what I'm talking about. I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking about, I'm talking it was really nice to have.

He seemed to last forever and ever and ever and ever and, er, eventually he came back on the phone and I'm just I'll be honest I wasn't in the most positive frame of mind, genuinely and it's something I can work on but it was a bit of a shock to the system I just didn't know I was going to wake up to this so eventually he came back onto the call, you know, the phone line and he said ah, he said well I'm kinda waiting for him to say that I've been sanctioned or they've stopped

my money for some weird reason which doesn't make any sense or whatever and he said no, it's basically your money's not been stopped, there's no problems with your claim, everything's absolutely fine I said okay well that's good but how come I've not got any money and he said it's a blip in the system and occasionally it just doesn't pay, doesn't pay people and I said how come?

He got a little bit defensive here and he said the system is 40 years old, which I don't know if that could be true to be fair 40 years old, so they're using a system from 1979, highly unlikely the computer system, they'd be using them more up to date than that, wouldn't they? Anyway he, um, I said oh, okay, and he said what we'll do is, I'll process it so we can put the money into your account and get the money released now it'll take about 10 minutes and I'll put you on hold, is that okay?

Now I said yes, I'm not gonna say what, I've gotta wait 10 minutes, ooh, that blimmin' ferret making those stupid love sounds in the kitchen and, and so I'm here and he's giving me some more music to listen to, he's like, oh yeah, brilliant, brilliant, brilliant eventually he comes back and he says it's all done I've processed it I had to put it in through a different system but the money's gonna go into your account and it might take a couple of hours so I said thank you very much and, um, if you do get

to hear the things that I was saying about you while the music was playing, if your systems do record that and you ever get a chance to listen to it, I apologise he said that's okay, I was listening, we get to, we can hear what you're saying when we're actually got you on hold, I said in that case I've already apologised, I'm not gonna apologise again how many apologises do you need?

he said no, it's okay sir, I said you know what? he said what? I quite like being called sir he said I haven't got time for this, I've got other people waiting to speak I said okay, well you've been great, I really appreciate it and is there anything particularly you want for dinner tonight? he said I quite like fish fingers and chips and beans I said I tell you what if anyone deserves to have that for dinner, you do you very much deserve to have whatever you want in your mouth when you get home he said you're being rude, aren't you?

I said no, I mean food he said good, because you know I told you that this job takes a lot out of me, I've not always got the energy I said it's okay, don't worry I'm gonna go anyway, he said okay, love you I said bye, love you, and he went and then I went to sleep, not like instantly I didn't just like start snoring, I went to bed I needed to recover, I really needed to recover from that and the next thing I needed to do is I checked my bank account and it was

in, money was in so that's good, paid off £67 to the electric and gas bill and then paid £50 off the catalogue which goes towards the shed that I just bought and then I thought what I'm gonna do is go in, I need to collect my prescription because the I had a text from the pharmacy saying that my prescription was ready to collect, I think when I get a light inside that shed, I'm just gonna have to start recording in there when I do these, and the only reason I'm sitting here is because I've got

the book and I can't read it in the shed because there's no light the hint going on Andre, I don't know what it sounds like, hearing him like running around and stuff just sounds extra loud when I'm trying to record, but that just might be my perception anyway, I get on the bus, well I walk to the bus stop and I decide not to go into town, I thought I'd go to the chemist at the pharmacy, get my prescription that they've sent me an email or text message to collect and then I'll go and get

a bit of food from Iceland, because I had a delivery I thought I'd just get a, I'm trying to get a few bits and stuff so that's what I did I got there to the I got on the bus and then the bus took me to where I was going and then I got off the bus I don't think anything interesting happened on the bus on the way there I sat at the back of the bus and it was a bit warm, a bit warm because that's where the engine is isn't it at the back

just a bit too warm it's ok, but just a bit too warm and then I got off, went to the chemist went in there, just standard walked to the, because they've got this express counter where you can pick it up if you've had an email or a text message, so I go there, there's a couple there already and standing very close together but they were together just seemed very attached and then they left and I went and stood there and a lady came up and she said Can I help you?

and I said, I'm not sure what you just said, no I didn't, she said, can I help you I said, yeah, just come and collect my prescription and she said, oh ok, what's your name I said, Jason Newland and she said, ok, Jason Newland I said, no, it's Newland she said, no, it's Newland, you're pronouncing it wrongly I said, listen how do you how do you what makes, I can't think of the words what makes you think that you have the right to talk to me like that to tell me how to pronounce my own

name she said, Jason, I'm your sister I know how to pronounce our name I said, oh, ok anyway, I said, can I speak to someone different, I don't want to talk to you she said, why not, I said, because when I was 10, I wanted a bike and you were 8 and you got a bike and I wanted a bike, you got a bike I didn't get a bike, I've never forgiven you for it that's why I wish to talk to someone else she said, you're so petty I said, I may be petty but at

least I have a willy which is a really, really rubbish comeback on reflection and she so anyway, I gave the prescription details and they said, no, it's not here I said, what do you mean, she said, you have to contact your doctor you have to contact your doctor and then your doctor will because it's a batch of 6 months and you can't have another one until you've spoken to your doctor I said, really, she said, yes speak to your doctor and then they'll be able to send you a prescription so that we can collect it

here I said, ok so I leave there, I go over to I wonder if Andre can think of any other ways to make noise he's now going back into his bed went to his bag I think every time I say his name, his ears prick up it's like a little, he's thinking, oh daddy wants me to make more noise he loves it when I do that he's always so proud of me when I make noise if only he knew how angry I am so I go to the clothes shop well, it's a sports shop, but

I thought, you know what, I need some socks now my socks are really wearing out and I need some new ones I just, yeah, they're really wearing out I'm not going into details, I'm just saying the socks are just a bit worn, they need replacing and Andre seems to get hold of them when he can as well, and he does weird things with them so I went in there and I thought, I didn't want to buy sports socks because I'm not interested in those you know, like a hundred pairs for a pound, I don't want

crappy I like things for a pound, I really do you know, like Mars bars those pound packs, things like that things are on discount, but when it comes to socks it's important that they're comfortable it's one of those little comforts in life, you need to have comfortable socks comfortable shoes, if possible comfortable underpants, a nice comfortable bra or a t-shirt that doesn't chaff your nipples, or is it chafe your nipples, you know I nearly knocked my nipple off the other day I turned around and I banged into the corner of the oh yeah, it was

the shed I banged into the shed from the side of my left nipple I almost thought I was going to be looking down at an emergency situation, but it wasn't I was like, oh man that really like chafed, it really did but I like to have loose clothes, nice loose clothing and so what I did I got some socks, really nice ones and they're not cheap cheap, they're not expensive but they were supposed to be something like £13 for a pack of three but they had them on offer at £5.

99, so I got two packs, and they're really, they're different colours, they're nice so I thought I'll have them, they're not thick thick but they're not, they should be, yeah, they're thick enough I think for the winter, I hope but they're nice, nice material so I got those, and then I thought let me have a look and I thought, I need to get a t-shirt and I saw these packs of t-shirts, but they were Phoenix, the ones I was looking at all the nice colours were small like small, medium, large kind of size now I'm

extra large, or x large times two or whatever, but at least extra large is the minimum I can wear when it comes to a t-shirt, unless I want it to be really tight but all the nice colours were in the smaller sizes, like pink, blue, green, yellow and stuff, and I thought, I only want these t-shirts really for underneath like in the winter, I have a t-shirt underneath underneath a jumper, you know, that kind of thing and maybe just a t-shirt to wear when I'm lounging around at a home and stuff so I had to

keep looking for all these different things to find some t-shirts to fit that would be, I didn't just want white t-shirts or black t-shirts which is what I tend to get, or just blue t-shirts I want a pink t-shirt I want a yellow t-shirt I really felt passionate about it, I don't feel passionate about many things but I really felt passionate about the colours of those t-shirts but I couldn't find any v-necks but I found ones that were just more like curvy necks which even the sneezes are annoying me it's got the cutest little sneeze

and even that's winding me up so I went in there and I got, how much were they?

I got two packs of three t-shirts I think and they were XL x 2 so they should be nice and airy on me so I've got those I've got a few clothes, a few little bits it's just cheap stuff really but it's going to help because some of the t-shirts I've got at the moment are a bit too, they're more for they're not really kind of underneath wearers plus I don't really have much in the way of jumpers or cardigans or anything like that but I'm going to get some maybe try and get some nice

jumpers for the winter some big thick things, you know, just to get me through but cheap, nice and cheap ideally in the sale, that's the main, you know, if I can try and get some, like in November is it Black Friday they call it?

so I might go there and try and get some big discounted stuff, maybe spend 50 quid or something and get a bunch of clothes that will keep me going through Christmas but I got that so I was quite pleased with that, it wasn't like you know, I wasn't doing handstands but I was yeah, it didn't make me want to play the trumpet but it was definitely nice to know that I was going to be wearing some socks that didn't I kind of, the socks I wear now it almost feels like I'm putting on someone else's

socks, even though I know they're mine and nobody else has ever worn them, they're just not comfortable so hopefully the ones I get will be nice and it will last me for a while another year or so I suppose, hopefully I say that, I'll probably make them last about a decade, I am such a catch I really am and then I went to Iceland and got some food, a few bits and it was quite good because I got back to the bus stop and it was literally four minutes or something into the next bus, which

was wow it really happens, really really, and I get back and I go upstairs and I put my stuff, it's not a lot, I didn't get a lot of shopping a couple of carrier bags full, came to about £16 I think, but I still spent quite a bit of money today, with the shopping, the food clothes, the bills, so I've not, you know it's been a, I always like paying bills though it's a weird thing, I don't like bills I don't get excited about them, but I like the fact that I've paid it, there's some,

a degree of satisfaction comes from having it done, gone so I try and do that every time I get a bill, just pay it straight away, if I can and so I get home and I think, I know what I'll do, I'll phone up the doctors because I already phoned them earlier and they were closed for lunch we are now closed for lunch what they forgot to put down was, we are open again at 2 o'clock it's almost like they don't almost like they don't care about the customers or the patients, but it's weird you'd

think wouldn't you, if you're going to put that answer machine saying that you're closed for lunch, you'd say when you're open again, that would be a standard thing, but I don't know, my surgery will be I don't seem to think that way for some reason and I called them up, got through to the prescription there was a big long list of numbers if you would like to talk to the reception, press 1 if you would like to talk about a prescription press 2, if you would like to make an appointment press 3, if you would

like to discuss the state of our toilets press 5, if you would like to just come in here and tell us about how wonderful the NHS is so, I think they had a run for Brexit if you're angry all the time about Brexit, press 9 so I phoned them up, eventually I get through to the prescription department, I speak to a lady and I said, can I help?

hopefully, please, please, please I beg, please help, and she said okay, what is it? I said, I just need to know what the, I've gone to get the prescriptions for the pharmacy, and the pharmacy said that I have to come, I have to speak to you first, and she said, okay, before we go any further, can I just take your name?

I said, yeah, it's Jason Newland and she said, oh, Jason Newland I said, yeah she said, what's your date of birth, so I gave it to her she said, 1972, I said, no, 1970 and then we just did that, and she said you have to have an appointment with a doctor, you have to come and see the doctor to have a medicine review of your medication, and I said I almost feel like I should just have this recorded and just play it back every time I said, I'm under the mental health team my psychiatrist does

medication review every year if I go and see the doctor, the doctor has no power to change my prescription the doctor can't increase the prescription, the doctor can't decrease the prescription, the doctor can't stop the prescription, only the psychiatrist can do that and I have a review every year, I have a medical every year, and I see the psychologist every two weeks and she said, I don't really need your life story and you still need to come to the doctors once a year, I said, what?

so, the NHS they've been going on, doctor surgeries specifically all over the news, moaning at people are you taking up too much of the doctor's time so what they're saying is, I want people to go to the doctors make an appointment, once a year, one appointment a year even if there's no illness, even if there's no reason for it every single patient, for every doctor surgery, they want to make an appointment and go along and I don't go to the doctor unless I need to and as far as the medication goes it's all done from

the psychiatrist and she said, that was a lot of information I said, yeah, I know, but these are facts I try and deal with facts, if at all possible she said, well, you still need to come to the doctors I said, well, is there any chance you can just speak to the doctor because I don't get out of my home very often and, I'll be honest the motivation's not going to be there to come to the doctors for no reason whatsoever, just for the sake of protocol, and she said, well, I can put a thing

in to the doctor, an email or whatever and she said, I'll give you a prescription for one month and then we'll contact you if you have to come in to the doctor so what I'm going to do is, if they insist on me going in there, I will phone up, I will make an appointment I'll make a double appointment, because if I'm going to go, I want to go for a reason, so I'm going to go in about my back, because I've got lower back issues so I'm going in there about my back, and then

I'll say, oh by the way I need a prescription, I'm not going all the way in there just to have a review of my prescription when it's already done by my psychiatrist the hoops I need to jump through to get free stuff, it's ridiculous absolutely ridiculous this has been a weird day generally it really has been a strange, strange day and it's now 8.

48 in the evening normally I make these recordings more like 3. 30 in the morning, but I don't know where I am well I know where I am, but it's like, what's going on I'm asleep, then I'm awake, then I'm asleep so Canada looks like a lovely place to go to a few acres of snow it's quite weird, this looks like a book I might be actually interested in reading thing is I'm never going to get that time back, am I when natural food supplies ran out families moved to another area, usually on sleds made of frozen fish what?

usually on sleds made of frozen fish or hides these could be eaten if necessary what a great idea use food to travel around on wow, imagine if we did that here, a car made of carrots or a house well a house made of chocolate obviously it'd be like Willy Wonka anyway I'm going to go now the envelope is quieting down, I'm going to stop the recording I will do Canada I will talk about the Canadian book that I've got in another recording, take care remember to be kind to yourself because you deserve to be happy anyway, lots of love bye