#209 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (4th September 2019)

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. This is let me bore you to sleep. My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen to this and you can safely close your eyes.

I'm not sure what that was. It was a sound, an exhalation sound. So I don't know, I'm not sure what day it is.

I think it's the 4th of September and the last time I recorded one of these was the first, so it's three days ago. Which in reality isn't a long time but for some reason it seems like ages ago. It's weird isn't it? So it's 1 40 a.m. I'm recording this.

So it's a couple of things a little bit different and I've got the windows open wide in the living room. So I'm sitting in my big black squeaky chair. I've got the laptop going.

It's not going anywhere, it's there, it's on. It's basically doing my bidding. It's working for me.

I've got the tv on mute with some kind of screensaver going on and you could possibly hear there's a sound of the train in the background and sometimes they let the horn off. Sometimes the trains get the yawn. They're like really quite loud.

Don't do it during the day. Yeah but thankfully they haven't done it. And I suppose at this time of the night it's more like freights, you know, trains with what do they call them, you know, like those containers that you have on ships and they travel all through the country on trains at night and during the day as well, sometimes as well I think.

So the reason I've got my windows open is because I put some flea powder on. It sounds lovely doesn't it? Sounds like I live in a some kind of disgusting place but I don't. It's quite nice.

Unfortunately Andre managed to catch some fleas and I took him to the vet two weeks ago and he had um like a this capsule of liquid put onto the back of his neck and he's due another one in two weeks time. But the thing is the fleas only, it's only if they bite him that they that it affects the flea. So the flea is happy just to, it's almost like the fleas have, he's like a beach to them.

They're just sunbathing, they're not, you know, they're not doing anything. They're just having a little holiday. But there's not many on him.

There's only like one or two and he's covered in bites where he's been bitten by them and and when he gets bitten the flea gets poisoned and stuff. But I thought they'd be gone and I washed this carpet with the, I've got this carpet washer, it's a carpet cleaner, a vax. So I spent money a few months back.

I'm still paying for it actually and it's pretty good. It really sort of does clean the carpet quite well but it doesn't seem to do the job with fleas. They seem to be, they have, they seem to be have their own um, I don't know, I think they could probably survive a nuclear war but not this special powder that I put down.

So it was basically, I don't know if you ever, you might not have had this in other countries but in England it might still be around, I don't know. It used to be a thing called shake and vac. So you'd shake this lovely smelling powder, it's like talcum powder, onto the floor and then you'd vacuum it up.

You leave it on there for, I don't know, 20 minutes or whatever and you'd vacuum it up and it would leave the carpet all, you know, smelling lovely. You know, almost just want to lick the carpet but don't, don't do that. And I, this is what this is basically, it was shake, shake it onto the carpet and then leave it for at least half an hour and then vacuum and then empty the vacuum cleaner.

So that's what I did. I shook, I covered most of the living room, three quarters of the living room and mainly the area that he sleeps. I kept him in the bedroom with me.

I closed the living room door, opened the windows so, because I didn't really want to be breathing that stuff in so I let some air in. And I went and laid down on the bed and I fell asleep for a couple of hours. So I came in and vacuumed it all up and I closed the windows and I really felt it like I was breathing in the fumes of it.

So I've had to leave the windows open for the last probably six, seven hours. Hence them being open now. And it's a little bit, it's not cold but it's, it's like jumper weather.

I'm, I don't mean jumping up and down, like cardigan, you know. So I'm kind of keeping warm. I'm okay, it's not cold, it's not warm, it's just kind of neutral.

Yeah, neutral kind of temperature. Yeah, so I did the carpet. I washed all his like bedding and his bag again and the things that he sort of sleeps in.

So I put all that in the washing machine. So hopefully that will be, that'll dry off by tomorrow. And then I'm hoping that he's going to be okay.

I gave him a bath as well and I feel so guilty because it's the one thing he doesn't like. It's not the only thing he doesn't like. I'm sure there's lots of things he doesn't like.

He just doesn't tell me about it but it's the thing that he really, really dislikes. It's the only thing that he's scared of. Apart from, he reacts to really loud sounds.

For example, a motorbike. You know those, you know people have those motorbikes that crackle, like they really like, they sound like they've got something wrong with them. They sound like they're breaking, they're like the, yeah it sounds almost like a really loud version of a teenage boy whose voice is breaking.

Like, it wasn't a good impression but it's very loud. And he doesn't really like that. It makes him jump.

So I ran a bath. I don't have to have much water in there. I don't have it full.

I don't have it so, I have it so he can touch the ground, not the ground, the bath. He'd have to have very long legs to touch the ground and be in the bath at the same time. He's not a spider ferret, or a kangaroo ferret, or not a hippopotamus, not a zebra, giraffe, a giraffe ferret.

So he's got long legs, hasn't he? Anyway, that'd be a weird mixture. Imagine a giraffe ferret. If there was such a thing as a giraffe ferret, that would be, it'd be the king of the world, animal-wise.

It would, no animal would be able to touch it, literally. It'd be so tall. So those big legs and then a head.

His head was the side of a giraffe's head. He'd have a jaw that was more powerful, way more powerful than a shark, way more powerful than a lion or crocodile. He's got one of the strongest jaws in the animal kingdom for his size.

So if he was a lot bigger, apparently if he was the size of a shark, he'd have a 20 times more powerful jaw. Of course, how does anyone really know that? It's all guessing, really, isn't it? It's all guesswork. It's all guessing and gassing, that's what I say.

But he, I felt a bit bad, though, because he was asleep on my bed and it's really comfy. And you might be thinking, he's got fleas, what's he doing in your bed? Yeah, that is a good point. But he hasn't really got fleas, but he has.

It's kind of a, it's a weird one, if that makes sense. They're not, they're not like just jumping all around the place. There's just a couple and I've, unless I'm just lying to myself.

Anyway, I picked him up and I kind of woke him up gently. I kind of shook him, I didn't shake him and tried to buck a war over him. No, I didn't.

I didn't do that. Why am I saying that? That would just make the bed so messy. So I carried him into the bath room and it was a bit weird, really, because I was talking to him, saying, okay, baby, I'm just going to give you a bath.

And I was just like being really gentle with him, trying to just, you know, show him the bath and hold him in my hands and, you know, give him kisses and just say, look, it's okay, it's just a little bit of water. It was lukewarm. It wasn't, wasn't hot, wasn't cold.

It was just an okay temperature, you know, and I had to shampoo already because I've got a special ferret shampoo. And I was just like, come on. And he started, he started grabbing at me to get away because he knew, he knew I was going to put him in the bath, but, and I was trying to calm him down because I don't want him to think of it as a horrible experience.

I want him to enjoy, well not enjoy it, but I'd like him to enjoy it because if he did like baths, I'd get in the bath with him and we could have baths and play with rubber ducks and, you know, sink ships and fart and, you know, that kind of stuff. But he, yeah, he doesn't, doesn't like it. I'd love to be able to just play with him in the bath and he's a brilliant swimmer.

He's got webbed feet for goodness sake. He's built to swim. He's an expert swimmer, perfect swimmer.

Basically he's an otter. He's got otter feet, little otter, little webbed feet. He doesn't like baths.

So I put him into it gently, really gently. I said, it's okay. It's just like really like little baby steps.

Even though he's had, he's had plenty of baths in the past. I just, I just wanted to be gentle with him, you know, I wanted him to, to just be okay with it. And I kept giving him kisses, picking him up, giving him kisses and putting him down and just picking him up whenever he looked a little bit like panicky.

I'd pick him up so he could see me, so he could look into my eyes, which probably scared him even more, didn't it? But yeah, I just kind of just like, look, I'm here. It's fine, baby. It's okay.

And, you know, I just put the water over. I always make sure the water doesn't go in his eyes. Shampoo doesn't go in his eyes.

I don't wash any further than the top of his head down to his neck and then further up. I never go anywhere near his eyes. I don't really touch his ears.

And I just made sure that I kind of washed every single part of it. And with the shampoo and then I had to rinse it off again, which takes a while. And he seemed better this time than previous.

He didn't seem quite so affected by it. But he had a good wash. He was very dirty.

He's always running around and rolling around in mud and whatever he can when we're out. And that's the only reason he got fleas in the first place, because I take him out. He got them from probably from the grass or something.

Or maybe he was rolling around near a hedgehog. I take him out at night sometimes and I can't see what he's doing really. He keeps going to, he goes to kind of the same places.

So he might, he might have a hedgehog girlfriend that I don't know about. And I'm just standing there while he's playing around in the bushes. But he might be making out with Henrietta, a hedgehog.

Who knows? I mean, you know, kids don't tell their parents everything, do they? So, and the amount of fleas that came off of him in the bath was so small amount. It's really, and they do come out with water. They come out when you do that.

But as I dried him off, I put him in the towel and I just held him. I just gave him a big hug and kisses again. Just try to get him to look at me just to calm down.

And it was like making weird noises like that. But it was different to that. And I just like, come on, baby.

Come on, baby. Just calm down, calm down, calm down. And I gave him a good old rub and made him as dry as I could.

And then he gets down and he's just rubbed himself over the carpet and not over everything. I think it's partly to dry himself off, but also partly because he wants to get dirty again as soon as possible. It's a, it's a weird, weird little boy he is.

And now he's, he's asleep in my bed again. He looks very happy. I just, I didn't know where he was.

So I just went in there and pulled back the quilt and he's like tucked in, lying on his back, curled up on his back with his little tongue sticking out. He's happy. So I just like, okay, cool.

I gave him a kiss and just left him alone. Turned the light off. And that's, that's all I really want is for him to be happy.

Because it's kind of, I kind of set that as my, as the most important thing to make sure that he's well and he's happy. He's healthy and he is healthy. The vet said that he was very healthy.

He gets lots of exercise. He eats well. He gets lots of cuddles.

I massage him every day. He gets lots of massages and, and I think love is healing as well. And it just, if you show love to someone, it heals.

It's, I think it has to. I'm not talking about unrequited love. That's a different, that's a different thing.

You know, this, this man keeps telling me he loves me, won't leave me alone. I don't like it, but suddenly I feel really healed. My legs healed up.

It's weird, but I wish he'd leave me alone. My sciatica doesn't hurt anymore. Oh, I'm confused.

So yeah, um, our new thing he's doing at the moment is, I might have mentioned this, but he scratches at the, he's got this like little cat scratcher thing. Well, it's quite big actually, but he sleeps in it sometimes and now he scratches it. Late at night and when I get up and I tell him off and he looks at me and carries on doing it.

I get up and he runs into the kitchen, hides behind the, behind the cooker because it's a game. He turns it, he's turned it into a game. So now when he wants me to play and chase him around, he starts doing that, starts scratching and he's only, only just realized really recently that that's what he was doing.

Well, last night I was sitting in this chair and I think I was watching telly or I might have been just sitting here with my eyes closed. I don't know, possibly. I didn't write down in my diary that particular event and I hear this scratching at the thing that he's doing and I watch him.

I'm not, I don't think he knows that I'm here. He might think I'm in the bedroom because sometimes he's not always like clued up where I am, but I'm watching when he did know I was here because I look over like with my peripherals, I didn't look right at him and I see that he stops doing it and he just stares at me, just stops, turns around, stares at me like as if he's expecting me to do something and then he goes back scratching it again and stops and stares at me.

It's like this, what do you do with that? And he does it early hours of the morning, like three o'clock in the morning and everything sounds magnified, don't they? Late at night, just everything seems a little bit louder, a little bit.

I don't know about you, I always find that whenever I try and be quiet, I seem to make more noise. Mind you, it is hard to, it is hard to vacuum, vacuum the carpet quietly. Perhaps I should try and do that just during the day.

I did some washing up today as well. I didn't, I know this is a sleep session but, or a boring session. I think I live up to the name, the boring part.

The thing is, last night I offered to look after my friend's dog during the day and I said, oh I'll probably be up. You know, he's gonna, I think he's gonna come about eight o'clock. I said, that's fine, either I'll still be up or I'll just get up and go back to bed.

It didn't work that way and he came and I didn't get any sleep at all. I got probably two hours sleep before, before eight, five to eight or six to eight, something like that. And I just felt a bit tired all day and I took him out about three times so he could do a wee and I have to keep him away from Andre, had to keep them separate.

So Andre was in the bedroom, he was in the living room with me the original plan was, I was going to have him in the bedroom with me and Andre was going to be in the, in the living room but that plan kind of didn't work out and I have to keep them separate because Andre bites him. Andre, and this is a big dog, this is a proper, you know, it's really, really, really strong dog. I mean the other, I was walking with him and he's got a habit of just stopping and smelling the grass and like any dog really, sometimes he'd do it but he'd keep walking but earlier on he did and he didn't and I kept walking and he just stood still.

I realised that after a few seconds I realised, I thought, oh where's my arm gone? And it's like, that basically pulled my arm out of the socket, he's so strong. I'm walking down there with no arm. I can't believe it, oh not again.

So I'm used to Andre but he's, he's so little, he doesn't pull me around, you know, he doesn't have the physical strength to do that. Thankfully, if he did, oh, oh, well that'd be, that'd be, you know what I mean, oh. So that's kind of what I did today.

Yesterday, all my troubles, all my troubles sitting so far away. Yesterday, last night, the day before, and yesterday, well, yeah but it was yesterday, probably early hours of the morning. I decided to pay for just one website, hosting, just for my jasonnewland.com because I just realised that I need to have at least one website and that jasonnewland.com is how I've been starting my recordings and videos since 2006.

I always started with hello, welcome to jasonnewland.com, or used to be www.jasonnewland.com. So it's a place for people to go to if you need to contact me or want to, you know, send me a gift or want to look at my back catalogue and see my stuff or keep updated on the new stuff I'm doing and, you know, just like a place where everything's there. Kind of like my online home, I guess, yeah. And I haven't really had it up and running as a, like a normal website for a long time.

I had a Shopify which was costing me £35 a month and that was, my website was that, and the domain name was directed to there. But I don't sell anything and I had all these, all of my recordings available to download free and no one was doing it because everyone's just seemed to just listen to them on the podcast, or the podcasts, which admittedly is easier. So I do, I listen to stuff on podcasts.

I don't download anything really, unless I'm going to listen to it later offline. But if I listen to stuff at home, I've got the broadband internet, I just listen, I just stream everything really. Although that's not completely true.

I've got some audiobooks that I've downloaded from Audible. And was it The Power of Thinking Big, I think is the one I'm reading or listening to at the moment. I listened to it yesterday or earlier today.

And I'm really into listening to positive audiobooks and listening, you know, watching. For me, it's not so much the motivational rather than the inspirational. I like kind of that mixture.

So there's a lot of people that I like to listen to, and I'm discovering new people, you know, as I go by, as I go through it. So you got Zig Ziglar, there's Anthony Robbins, of course, but there's Bob Proctor. And my favourite one is, my favourite one used to be Zig Ziglar.

I used to listen to him 20 years ago. That's when I discovered him. And very motivational, funny, quick, very positive.

But I think what it is with positivity and positive thinking, I didn't understand it until recently. And the likes of Bob Proctor. And let's say him, he's a big, great example to explain, who really in depth explains it.

And I've forgotten his name. Jim, Jim, Raines, Haines, Baines. I forgot his name.

It's terrible. But he's a southern bloke, this man. He's American.

He's no longer with us, but he's, he's Raine, Rean, Beam, Raine, Jim Raine, something like that. Brilliant, brilliant. Rune, Ron, Rean.

Oh, that'll bug me now. Jim, Haines, is it Haine? He's brilliant. I mean, like on a level of brilliance that I can't really express.

Because he explains things. He explains it. He explains it in a way that I understand.

I suppose it's, we're all different, aren't we? But I like to see things from different angles and get more of a perspective, I suppose, of what something actually means. Jim Rone, Jim Rone? So his name's Rone, I think it's Jim. Or is it Bobby, Bobby Rone? Jim Rone, I think it's Jim.

Rone, R-O-H-N. Phenomenal speaker. And he's got a way of talking that's really funny as well.

He's like, he stresses certain words. So I've been listening to a lot of that. And then I'm quite, I like to go back to the actual sources.

I don't mean like ketchup and salad cream. I mean, I like to, I'll give you an example. I read a book that talked about Fritz Perls.

So that, for me, that's interesting. I watched a video about Fritz Perls and how, you know, because it was connected to NLP. And I thought, I want to actually, I don't want to hear, well, I don't mind hearing what somebody else's opinion is of what someone else said.

I want to read it for myself. I want to read the words of the person myself, because I'm quite capable of comprehending what they said and understanding it in my own way, you know, I suppose. So that's what I did.

Fritz Perls, Carl Rogers. I was reading books that Carl Rogers wrote a long, long before I even thought about becoming a counsellor. I had no intention of becoming a counsellor back in 99, 2000.

In 2007, that's when I started thinking, you know, sort of probably beginning of 2007, I started looking around at the people that I was volunteering with, and they were getting paid, and they were counsellors. And it dawned on me that they were really nice people. And they were helping people.

They were making a huge difference to people's lives. So I thought, oh, I might give that a go. And that kind of sparked a little.

It wasn't so much, I was already interested in therapy. But I wasn't, I didn't, I wasn't interested in helping people with therapy at that time. Because at that time, and before that, I mean, I was in 2006 and 2004.

But before 2004, I was just reading and studying for the fun of it, for the interest. So I was reading therapy books. I remember sitting in 2003, I think it was, and I was sitting in, up in bed.

Because I didn't have, that was, there was a, I think it was like a studio apartment I was living in. So I didn't have a settee or anything. Although I could have got one, I suppose, but I just had a bed that I sat in.

And I was reading a Carl Rogers book. And I had a few of his books, but there was a specific one. I think I've got it as well.

I re-bought it. So I've got 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. Five Carl Rogers books and a couple of books about him. And I had no interest in being a counselor.

So yeah, for some, I was just, I was fascinated because he was kind of one of the, kind of classed as one of the greats, as far as being a genuine, beautiful person. And yeah, I kind of, and I ended up studying person-centered counseling, which is based on his, you know, person-centered or clients, client-based therapy. So I ended up going to university and studying for the first two years, based on, you know, the counseling part of it was based on Carl Rogers and his theory, as well as, you know, looking at other theories and other techniques.

And then the final year was the dissertation and the degree part, you know. So that was more, a bit more academic. But I suppose I kind of wanted to be like him, but as a person, not as a therapist, but as a person to get to know myself and to be, I don't know, to be congruent within myself, not necessarily with other people, but just within myself so that I can, so I can know what's going on within me.

And Carl Rogers very much about congruence and being in touch with how you are, but also Fritz Perls was as well. Fritz Perls very much, I mean, it's, so you can hear that background sound of the trains again. I couldn't, I couldn't close the windows because of the, all the powder that had been on the floor.

I vacuumed it up, but it was still in the air, you know, and Fritz Perls was kind of so focused on everything that a person did in therapy. It's like, you know, everything, what you said, what you did, why you moved your hand that way, and the incongruence, continuously challenging the incongruence of a person. And it looked like really, it might be a very uncomfortable session to be with someone that did that.

But the man was a genius, you know, he, there's, there's lots of geniuses on there. He was amazing. And I just love studying Milton Erickson and hypnosis and his ways of doing it.

So I wanted to absorb it. I wanted it to be part of me, where I just did it without doing it. It's kind of like, it's like wearing the most expensive suit, but it's on the inside.

That doesn't make any sense, does it? But it's like knowing it's there, it's purpose. Now that's a really crappy analogy, so I'll take that back. It's like an Easter egg, covered in baked beans.

No, it's nothing like that. I just think that what we put in integrates. So knowledge, new, new knowledge integrates.

And that fits very well with Jim Ryan and Bob Proctor and the, you know, positivity is what we focus on. We become what we think about, you know, that kind of stuff. For things to change for you, you've got to change.

These things that maybe 20 years ago was just like a little soundbite. And now with so much information available, all these talks by these great people that are available for free on YouTube, you know, so many that I'll never actually, I'll never be able to watch them all. I'll never be able to listen to all of them, because there's so many.

And I just feel really lucky sometimes, because 20 years ago, I had to buy everything. I had to buy an audio tape CD of an audio book or, you know, motivational talk, inspirational talk. And it would cost, you know, a fair bit of money.

And I had quite a nice collection of tapes. I had quite a big collection at one point. And I listened to all of them.

Was it Dr. Vincent Peale? See, I read his book. And I listened to his audio all those years ago. And I don't think I understood it.

I genuinely don't think I understood where he was coming from. And I saw him do a, I think it was probably about a 40 minute talk. It's on YouTube and it's in a church because he was a reverend.

And he was, I think he was about 80 years old then, or something like that. And the passion in his voice and the things that he was saying, you know, I suppose seeing him in the flesh, as it were, made him more real than reading a book. Because when I was seeing him and hearing him, I could see that he was completely, completely believed what he was saying.

And he'd lived it. He wrote the book, 50 years ago, and he's still traveling around the world, telling his story, and, you know, preaching the word of positivity. And that's just, I think it's amazing.

And I kind of, kind of like to do something like that, maybe. I don't know about traveling the world, but yeah, maybe. So what I've been doing is been transcribing, and I mentioned this in, you know, previous recordings, I've been transcribing my back catalogue of the podcasts.

And I've just reached the hundred mark of the Let Me Boy To Sleep, so I'm now transcribing 101. So far, I've done about probably nearly 200 altogether. It's just the first part of the transcribing, and it takes a while.

But now that I've got past that mark, I realized that it is doable. And then the work really starts when I start to listen to them, and edit it, and, you know, correct the words, and the spelling, and put it into a readable format. You know, sentences, and paragraphs, and sorts alike.

But just skimming through it, I'm amazed at how accurate a lot of the transcriptions are. I'm also kind of surprised at how much there is, how much talking there is. And I know that with the Let Me Boy To Sleep, a lot of it is just nonsense, just silliness.

But with some of the other stuff I've done in the past, there might be some bits of gold there, you know, something that I can work on to produce a book. So now that I've been working on the website, and there's still lots to do on there. But because it's just one website, I can relax with it.

You know, I'm working on a lot of categories, and I'm trying to put each podcast on there, and put each episode on so people can, whoever can stream or download each individual session. So it's going to be, it's definitely a process. And it's going to take a while to do it.

But what I'm planning, especially with some of the shorter recordings, is transcribe them, and then do the editing part of it, and then put that onto the website as well. So for people to read it, if they wish. Or at least have a summary, you know, an abridged version of the transcript.

And I can do that on the website. And maybe I could put them, I can do that on the podcast as well, possibly. Actually add the transcript or a summary.

See, I'm fairly pleased with how the website's coming along. It's all basic. I like basic stuff.

I like it. And for me, content is more important than it being pretty. Although there's nothing wrong with being, it being pretty.

And I just want, because of the amount of work that I have, I'd like it to be just nicely organized. So it's easy to find, not just the back catalogue of recordings I've done, but also future ones. I'd like it to all be easily findable.

So I'm fairly pleased. I've got, there's the home page, which is the first page. I've got a contact page, which you can contact me by, basically all my contact details on there.

You contact me by post, by email. So you've got my telephone number on there. There's, you can contact me by filling in the form on the page as well.

There's an about me page, and that's just a little write up about me, about, you know, having gotten involved in hypnosis in 1998. And then, you know, progressing from there. And then starting the free hypnosis service online in 2006.

It's a very basic summary. And then there is, what's the other page? Oh, on my front page, on the home page, on the right hand side, and this is probably more for people on laptops and tablets, rather than iPhones, or, you know, mobile phones, Androids. There's my contact details again on the first page, as well as the Facebook link, Twitter, the link for my Amazon wishlist, there's the link for YouTube, and a link for WhatsApp, a link for Skype, that's it.

And there's categories, as well. So all the categories are also on the right hand side, as well as having their own page also. So yeah, that's another page categories.

And then there's another page called, what was it called? Gift Me. So that's for people that want to send me a gift. Some people do ask if they can, if they'd like to show their appreciation.

So what I've done is I've made a list of different ways, which you can send me a gift. So there's the PayPal link, there is, let's see the other one, there's my Amazon wishlist, which is just books, there's just books on there, nothing else on the wishlist, but books. I love my books.

And I'm trying to think what else. There's one with a prepaid credit card, like MasterCard. I had someone do that one a couple of times in the past.

And then there is gift cards. So there's the Amazon gift card, which you can send to me in the post, or you can send an email gift card. And then I thought some things would be useful, like to be able to help me with my groceries and just, you know, general living expenses and shopping and that.

And I haven't actually been able to buy any new clothes for... I can't remember the last time I bought, last time I bought new clothes was two years ago, I think. That was a pair of trousers. Oh no, I bought some shoes about six months ago.

So I don't, you know, don't get to buy clothes very often. So that'd be quite nice to get some help with that. So I can just dress a bit nicer, especially with winter coming up and perhaps needing some winter boots and, you know, just to wrap up and that.

So I put a list of stores that I can get gift cards for. And the first five are supermarkets. And then there's some clothes shops and stuff like that, coffee, coffee place.

So you can get, you can purchase gift cards online and then just get them sent to my postal address. And then there's, I think, three websites that are dedicated to producing vouchers and gift cards that can be used in a lot of the major retail stores in the UK. So I've listed those as well.

So it just gives those that are interested in helping me out a few, you know, options, a few ideas, so that I can get myself some, you know, go and buy some food or go and buy some clothes just as a gift. It's not, it's not a donation. It's not, not asking for anything.

Just if someone wants to do that, then it's a beautiful thing and I appreciate it. That's groovy. And yeah.

And any, any money that comes through PayPal, I just put that towards the cost of running this free service, which is reduced in cost. So I've got rid of a few bits, but it's still costing me £30, £40, £50, £60 a month. That might go up if I do decide to get, you know, get some more websites.

But as it is, I need to save up and get an SLSL certificate for my website. Because apparently without the SSL certificate, Google possibly won't list it or won't pay much attention to it. Even though I'm not selling anything, what I do is for free.

So that's going to cost me £140 for the year, which means I'm going to have to save up for that. But I'm in no hurry for that. Really not.

So I could so easily just fall asleep, really, honestly. Sometimes I struggle to balance. I don't mean like balance physically.

And I mean, if I'm building a website, I seem to get a little bit focused, well, a lot focused. And the thing is with the website, it's never going to be finished. Because of the nature of what I do, because I'm always creating new stuff.

I'm always thinking of additional things I can add to the website, which takes me away from the process of recording new sessions. So I need to balance it so I'm doing both. Because I want to be able to, I really wanted to make three recordings a day.

I'm overdo making the sleep hypnosis weekly. I'm getting on to two weeks since I last did the last one for that. So I need, you know, and I don't have to do any of this, but I do, I want to.

And I want to keep the momentum up. Yay. Oh, yes.

So I'm going to go. I hope I've been boring enough for you. I nearly, nearly, nearly sent myself to sleep.

I genuinely could just stop talking and you start to hear me snoring, which would be, well, it might be funny. I don't know. I'm going to go and I will speak to you very, very soon.

And please remember to be kind to yourself. Lots of love. Bye.