#54 Let me bore you to sleep - LIVE - Jason Newland (14th November 2018)

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland and this is a let me bore you to sleep number 54 I think. So the whole idea behind this is I'm recording this live and I'm broadcasting it on Facebook. However, I will also post it on YouTube and my website and I'll also make it available to download free as an MP3 and a video and it'll also be on my podcasts on SoundCloud and Spreaker and it might be on Spotify as well.

Anyway, as you can see it's just me and my boy Andre and this is one of those rare moments where he's not wiggling and wobbling to get away. He just seems quite happy to just be lying there. In fact, he might be asleep.

So that's one of the benefits for him is to have the most boring daddy in the world. And I'll talk to him and he just he does just his eyes glaze over and his eyes close and he falls asleep, don't you? So the point behind these let me bore you to sleep is it's in the title. It really is just me talking for probably about an hour about not much and the idea is that as I talk you get even more bored and it can seem sometimes I imagine let's say if you're listening and only listening if you can safely close your eyes.

Let's say you're listening and you got me talking about maybe watching Danger Mouse on television when I was perhaps 14 years old and you might start to wonder what's that got to do with falling asleep and being relaxed and calm. Maybe I should shave my head and be like the Bond villain, you know, with the cat except this time it's a ferret. So hi to everyone that's watching.

I'm doing a little wave there. I try and stick to just talking and not distracting myself too much from the amazing excitement of what's going to come. I don't know what he's doing now.

At the moment he's shedding his hair because he's now growing the winter coat and I'm covered in his hairs because he has two coats, two layers and this time of the year he goes quite white. I don't know if you can see if you are watching on a video you can see the whiteness underneath and he actually feels heavier as well. He's biting, giving me a little nibble.

He's giving me a little nibble. What's that about? So I'd just like to thank those of you that have been supporting me lately by telling me that what I'm doing is useful.

That actually means a lot to me to know that even though it might seem like I'm just rabbiting on and on and on and on what I do online, the various different sessions I've done has been helpful to people and I get quite a few messages from people telling me that they go to sleep watching me or they fall asleep watching me every night and on some level it reminds me just how boring I must be but on another level it's nice to, it feels nice to know that I'm able to help people from a

distance and I do a little wave whenever anyone says hello to me rather than, so I don't want to disrupt the flow of your drowsiness if there is a drowsiness occurring within your mind and it's been a strange day today.

My friend knocked on my door and he had a seagull in his hand which sounds like the start of some kind of weird joke but it's actually true. He's holding a seagull which he found and this seagull was hopping around so he brought it, you know, basically rescued it and brought it to my house. So I put in, put the seagull, I called him Peter and uh maybe a bit forward of me to give him my, to name him.

Who am I to name him? He probably already got a name but anyway I put him into Andre's cage and so that Andre could sort of keep his distance because he's very inquisitive, aren't you? Andre's very inquisitive about new, new people in my home or in our home and so if you came and visited here the first thing you'd want to do is look inside your bag. So if you had, if you have a carrier bag or if you have a handbag or any kind of bag. You know the other day my friend said have you got any carrier bags?

I said yes because he needed them because he was going to take his dog for a walk and I had a few that were split and earlier a couple of weeks ago and he said have you got any ones that don't have a hole in? I said they all have holes in.

I say you put stuff into them. So he loves carrier bags, absolutely loves any kind of, he likes small places where he can cuddle up and I don't quite know why but it's what he does. He's got his favourite carrier bag which is a, it was, it was white originally and it's now various different colours but he likes to sleep inside there sometimes and I realise if you're listening to this on iTunes or SoundCloud or Spreaker or one of the various podcasts that I have you can't see Andre.

So what I would suggest is not necessarily to watch the video if you've already listened to it but you can maybe just visit YouTube or my website or come to the Facebook page and you can check him out and see what he looks like when I'm rubbing his tummy. He's very calm, aren't you? He's very calm and relaxed. He's never more than 30 seconds from being in a deep sleep which I think is something quite good to learn from, realising that maybe, maybe none of us are.

Maybe we're all really not that far away from being able to just go to sleep in the same way a baby is because we're born like that. A baby can fall asleep before a fart is completed that quickly and I know that we're not babies anymore but we're still humans. We're still, I think he wants to go down.

Do you want to say goodbye? Say goodbye. Say goodbye to everyone. He's gone.

It's just me and you now. So, I like the idea of having that, that ability to think that it's still there to be able to just drift off into a natural safe sleep when you want it to happen but not when you are trying to force it to happen because sleep doesn't work that way. Nor does happiness, nor does hunger, nor does anything.

You can't, nothing really, you can't force anything. Even going to the toilet, that can cause problems if you try and force it. You know, it's about naturally happening.

You can't force yourself to feel relaxed. It's allowing it, giving yourself permission. So, I like the idea of knowing that that ability that we were all born with is still there where it's like just allowing it to happen and you kind of say to yourself, or maybe not even with words, but just kind of, okay, just let it happen naturally.

Let the, let the sleep commence. What I've learned over the years, because I've been, I've lived in lots of different places, is actually I don't need it to be quiet in order to sleep. And neither does a baby.

There's something, I've also noticed that sometimes I get into this thing where my hearing seems to just switch off when I'm in bed. And then I can, sometimes I wake up before my hearing wakes up, but I'm not awake-wake, like with my eyes open, you know, and doing my knitting or anything like that. I'm not like fully functional.

I'm just maybe lying there with my eyes closed, but awake, aware of something, maybe the vibrations of something happening, maybe in the flat below or outside in the garden. And then the sound starts. So it's as if I didn't realize that this happens and maybe it's just a natural thing that happens, but I didn't realize that.

It's as if the ears just turn off. So regardless of what sounds are around, the hearing for those sounds, anything that could be classed as a disturbing phenomena would just be dismissed, allowing natural sleep to just occur. And I know that I mentioned, I mentioned safety quite a lot in my sessions, possibly more nowadays than I used to.

I'm probably more in the hypnosis sessions than in, you know, the purely, I would class the daily hypnosis sessions I do as probably the most purely focused hypnosis-y things, as opposed to me when I do these, let me bore you to sleep, boring, long, drawn out sessions. But safety, I think it's quite good in a sense of, because this is transparent. What I do is transparent and I've got no idea why I'm moving my hand around.

For some reason that seems to represent transparency. It's, you can see me talking. You know that it's me talking.

If you, you know, I realize that you might just be on here to laugh at my beard, but it's, it's not funny beard week. It's, you know, this is, this is what I look like. It's not, it's not a fake beard.

Someone did ask me once if I was growing my beard for charity or for a bet, for a bet. So the idea that you can actually listen to me before you listen to me might sound strange, but you can listen to what I say before, you know, before you decide to close your eyes and listen to me and go to sleep or benefit from those specific suggestions that will sink into your mind and make those changes. You know, as you move forward with your life, you can listen first, you can listen to the sessions, you can listen to my words and you can realize that actually everything is there.

Everything is transparent. There's nothing hidden. You're not coming and seeing me having a session and then leave and thinking, I wonder what he said to me.

I can't remember everything because you can replay it and you can re-listen. And also, when you listen to something, maybe an audio, was it edited? Was it, you know, like a lot of videos today on YouTube, you see the editing because every three words, the picture changes. So they don't even, it's, and it's really fast paced talking and I don't edit.

I don't edit videos. I don't edit the audios other than maybe to try and put a nice intro perhaps on videos and I've done that in the past. And occasionally with the audios, if let's say, let's say a beanstalk started to grow in the garden and made loads of noise, you know, then I'd maybe try and edit that out of the audio if it was just a recorded session.

But I can't do any of that when it's live. Everything has to be, is, there's no, there's nowhere to hide. Although I'm trying to hide my belly, trying to hold it in a little bit.

So that's the transparency of this, which means the honesty there and the genuine or genuineness of this allows you to also get in touch with the truth about how you feel and allows you just to get rid of some of the, stuff that gets in the way of your happiness and things that used to get in the way of your sleeping easily, calmly, safely, feeling more relaxed. So this can be like a safe space that we all have within ourselves, except we're kind of congregating in this safe space. Does that, does that make sense? And again, thank you to all of those that are watching live, listening live, watching after it's live, listening to it after it's live.

And quite often, you know, I don't always talk about actually sleeping when I do these sleeping sessions. And sometimes I will talk about sleeping. And just going back to a baby.

If you think of a baby that, you know, that just seems to be able to sleep through anything, literally seems to be able to just sleep. It's like there's nothing you could do to keep that baby awake except feed it, it, he or she rather. So the baby wants to sleep.

And isn't it amazing that the more they sleep, the more awake they are when they're not asleep. Those big eyes looking at you, so alert, watching everything. And then you talk to them.

And you can actually watch them and see their eyelids just start to close and open and then close a bit more and open and then just close all the way. I've seen children fall asleep while they were eating, which is very funny to see. That's like, I mean, I'm talking feeding themselves like a baby or one two-year-old eating with a spoon.

I'm doing the hand movements of eating in case anyone doesn't know what eating means. I don't know why I was doing that. Yet they'd fall asleep.

You know, recently, I think it was about three, four nights ago, I've got a tendency of staying up all night and sleeping more during the day. That's just my kind of my lifestyle at the moment. And I'm quite fortunate in I can fairly much sleep quite easily during the day.

And I can fall asleep quite easily. And I do do self-hypnosis when I go to bed. Whenever I go to bed, I do different things.

Sometimes I just tell myself that I feel relaxed in my body, feel relaxed in my mind, feel safe, feel calm. And other things, sometimes I tell myself that the healing that is needed in my body, in whichever part of my body is going to get that healing. The healing is going to move through my blood to whichever part of my body requires it the most.

And whilst I sleep, sometimes I'll say while I sleep, depends how intellectual I'm feeling, that healing will take place. And I will wake up feeling refreshed. And I'll be honest with you, I bore myself so much that I fall asleep quite often before I've even finished what I wanted to say.

I do actually have sometimes a specific bunch of things that I want to tell myself, whether it's feeling more confidence, whether it's a physical issue that I'd like to correct or to heal. And maybe it could be my breathing, because I have sleep apnea. So I tell myself quite often that the oxygen, the airways will be open so that I can breathe easily and breathe naturally throughout the night or throughout the day, wherever I'm sleeping.

And that my body will change its position naturally, if needed, in order to make sure that I'm always able to breathe easily and naturally. And so that the flow of the breath can enter and exit my body naturally. And in that, oxygen can then enter into my lungs, sending that oxygen around my body and into my brain, increasing the stimulation of those parts of the brain that are needed for my general well-being.

I'll be honest with you, I don't always get to the end of that sentence. Something in my brain just switches off and I just drift off. Other times I'll make it simple.

I think, okay, I just do three sentences and that's all I do. I just say to myself, I feel relaxed and calm. I feel safe.

I feel sleepy. I feel relaxed and calm. I feel safe.

I feel sleepy. I feel relaxed and calm. I feel sleepy.

I feel safe. I feel safe. I feel relaxed and calm.

I feel sleepy. I feel sleepy. I feel... And sometimes I just forget.

I forget what it is that I'm actually saying. And I'm actually trying to keep myself awake so that I can say the things that I want to say in order to send myself to sleep. How about that for some weird logic? It's like setting your alarm for two o'clock in the morning just to remind you, you know, with a little message on the phone saying, are you asleep yet? It's not really... These things are kind of very old-fashioned affirmations.

I say old-fashioned as in they've been around for longer than any of us. I've been alive. And the first time I ever heard any such thing as an affirmation was the Pink Panther films where Inspector Clouseau, his boss, he's the person in charge of him, kept saying, I'm feeling better and better in every way, every day, in every way.

I feel better. Something like that. And that was actually a real therapeutic affirmation that was very famous many, many years ago.

And although when I do it at night it's not, or before I go to sleep, it's not necessarily as an affirmation, more as a suggestion. But then that's what an affirmation is. In a sense, it's a suggestion.

But affirming the belief, affirming that suggestion, I hope that affirming is a real word. I broke it off of affirmation. I can't afford affirming affirmation.

It's a-tioning, affirmation-ing, making sure that I really should read the dictionary. And sleeping really is our birthright. And I actually do have a video that I made, an audio as well, called Sleeping is Your Birthright that I made in 2011 time.

And I think I'm wearing a red jumper in that. But I don't think I'm wearing glasses. Because in them days I didn't need to wear glasses all the time.

Although I don't wear them all the time because not when I'm in a shower. Although I don't have a shower, I have baths, but not when I'm in a bath either because they get all steamed up. That's not the only reason.

So I've got these actor lens, actor light lenses on my glasses. So when I go out, let's say it's daytime because they're not going to really work in the nighttime. But let's say it's daytime.

It doesn't have to be in a summer, at any time of the year, whether it's sun or not, the actor lights are stimulated. And when it rains, again, I'm doing the hand movements of rain, which looks more like I'm milking a cow or a goat. But anyways, the idea is when it rains, the water goes onto the lenses and it leaves a streak of like a white streaks down the lenses.

It's very unusual. I remember talking about that to somebody because I came in and it was it would be in the afternoon, probably about 3.30, a couple of months back, probably maybe August time. So I go into his flat and it's dark in the hallway because there's no lights.

There is a light, but there's no light and there's no windows or anything. And it wouldn't be dark if there was light with that, I suppose. But there is a light switch, which activates a light, which then lights up the darkness.

But I'm not sure if he had a light bulb at that time, but it's not necessarily relevant to the story. So I go into the flat and I turn right. And as usual, everything was a bit dark because I had sunshades on, although they're not normally sunshady.

If that makes sense. When I'm inside, they're just clear and you can barely see my eyes. I've got tiny little eyes.

I haven't. They're normal size, I think. And I always worry about that, you know, to have such strong lenses that when I take my eyes off, not my eyes, my glasses off, that my eyes become half the size to what they look like with the lenses.

And as time's going, my lenses are getting stronger. I don't mean time as in they're stronger now than before I started the session. But I might end up with really thick glasses, which in a sense, I'm not that bothered because if I was worried about having thick glasses, I wouldn't have a beard like this.

You know, I'm clearly not that bothered about my appearance, but I don't, I just, it's just, I don't want to shock people by everyone thinking I've got big eyes and then suddenly taking my glasses off and giving them, making them jump. It's like I just took my eyes off or something. So, and I couldn't see very well because I was inside and I still had these shades on, but I could just see bits of people through the streaks on the lenses.

And it's very strange. I'm not sure why I remember it because I didn't write it down in my diary. It wasn't one of those memories that warranted a journal entry.

And as I was saying earlier, I, the other night talking about babies and how easy it is to sleep and how we've got that natural ability to sleep in the same way. We've got that natural ability to know when we're hungry. You know, the body tells you when it's time to go to the toilet, the body tells you when it's time to drink water, your body tells you, it lets you know there's a, there's a feeling, isn't there, that we all have for certain things.

And I guess we, we increase those more and more different feelings depending on what the thing is. So I like to drink Coke. I don't want, it's not an advert, but I have a certain feeling when I want to have a drink of Coke or I want to open a can of Coke.

And that feeling is very different from when I want to go to the toilet. I don't know why I said that. Obviously it's a different feeling, but we've got all these different feelings for different things.

But I wasn't born with the feeling of needing to open a can of Coke. We were all born with a feeling of knowing when you're tired. We're all born with the ability to just drift off into a deep healing, natural sleep.

So I quite like that. I think we're quite fortunate to have that within us. And I was just thinking about the other night.

I knew that I needed really to go to bed, kind of, you know, had stuff to do the following day and, you know, but I really didn't want to. And it was like being a child again, like a young child at a wedding. When I say our wedding, I don't mean some weird situation that happens in some countries.

I'm talking about, you know, like a relative's wedding or something like that. And I'm there dancing with my cousins and maybe, you know, disco dancing like Shakin' Stevens. Singing along to I'm In The Mood For Dancing.

Gives you an idea of my age. Dancing Queen. Mind you, Dancing Queen is popular for everyone, I think.

And I would force myself to stay awake. Had I known about the trick of pouring cold water on my face, I might have done that, but I didn't know about that at the time. I'd not seen that episode of Starsky and Hutch, so I hadn't learned that trick of keeping awake.

But now, the other night, that's what I was doing. I was trying to stay awake because I didn't want to go to sleep. I wanted to be awake.

I wanted to do things and I was enjoying being awake. And that's something quite nice. But at the same time, the more I tried to stay awake, the harder it became.

And I was watching something on telly and I was just, oh. And I wanted so much to just watch it. I really did and I just found myself just drifting and drifting and sort of coming back and then just drifting again and drifting again.

So it's, it reminded me really back in 1992, 1993. I used to work long hours. I used to start very early in the morning.

I think I used to start at 7 or 7.30 in the morning, which meant getting up a lot earlier than that. And I'd be working until, sometimes I'd do overtime. So I'd be working long days and I still wouldn't go to bed early.

So I wouldn't get more than maybe six hours sleep from Monday to Friday. And then the Friday evening, I was so tired, but I wanted to stay up late. I wanted to watch The Word.

There's a program called The Word on channel four in those days. And maybe I was working Saturday morning as well. So I had to get up extra early because that's, we started at 6.30 or six o'clock on Saturdays.

But I wanted to stay awake because I just, I didn't want to go to sleep. But the more I tried to stay awake, the more I just slept. And I did, I'd fall asleep.

I'd be sitting up in my bed with pillows behind me. Although the pillows, I guess, were always behind me. Even if you were asleep, they're behind you, weren't they? You only had them on your face.

But yeah, it was, I need to get some pillows. I've been thinking about this. I've got quite a nice bed.

It's a double bed. And the thing that I realized, because I've moved around a lot in my life, I've lived at lots of different places. And just in case you're wondering if I've got the pillow underneath my t-shirt, if not, it's my muscles.

I I'd like to get, I've got, it's a nice bed. It's a double bed. It's not king size or queen size.

I don't really know the difference. But it's, what I thought, and I didn't realize, now I know, and I've discussed it with other people, I've discussed it with one person. I don't want to exaggerate, one person.

We had this discussion about a double bed. It's not a double bed at all. A double bed would be literally twice the width of a single bed.

And a double bed is not that. A double bed is maybe another half the width of a single bed added on to a single bed. So it's not really big enough for two people because I take up a bit of room and I like to spread myself.

I like to have, you know, sometimes if I lay on my, on the left side of me, on my left side rather. So I have the pillow underneath kind of my left ear. And I'll have my left arm sometimes maybe up a little bit.

And I'll spread right out so that my right big toe pretty much touches the end of the bed on the other side, on that side. And my left foot touches the opposite side. So I'm kind of, I'm spreading but stretching my hips.

I quite like doing that. It feels nice to just, I like to stretch. And sometimes I will cuddle the duvet, which makes me think that maybe, maybe it is time to find a special lady to share my life with.

Or maybe I just like a duvet. It's, you know, it's a weird one to figure out. But I do like my bed.

But what I've noticed is I've got this headrest. So it's a big headrest that came with it. But it's not really comfortable enough to sit against.

And the two pillows that I have aren't enough to really support my back. And I think, well, all those years, I moved at least 40 times since I left school before I moved here. I'm never going to move again.

This is it. But the, I always lived in, apart, apart from maybe two occasions, I always lived in single beds. Always lived in a little room with a single bed.

And that was my chair as well. I used to sit up in the bed, watch television, eat, you know, everything was kind of done on the bed. Apart from when I was lucky enough to have a table.

So I would, if I can, if I can choose, I will eat at a table as opposed to in a chair because I like, I don't know, I think it's laziness. I don't like to, I like to lift stuff, the food from the plate to my mouth. I like that distance to be as minimal as possible.

Plus, I shouldn't really admit to this, but I'm very, I can be quite a messy eater as a sort of, if I'm eating my breakfast and watching television, I do eat my, I don't eat my breakfast at the table. Always eat it on this chair. Not on this, not out of the chair, it's in a bowl, but I'm watching television maybe.

And I'll eat the breakfast and it just drip. I don't know how, but it's as if I've got some kind of magnetic chest that just attracts milk and it just goes straight to my, because I've got quite a hairy chest. So I think the, maybe it's the hairs that just grab the milk and I don't see it because I'm busy eating it or maybe the hairs grab the bowl and tip it.

I don't know. So yesterday I was having a meeting with someone. This lady came around my flat and I was talking to her and I'm just playing with my beard, just twiddling it a little bit.

And I come across something and I realize it's a bit of breakfast. I was like, oh, I actually found a couple of Rice Krispies in my beard. And they were tangled.

I couldn't, I had my breakfast just before she got there. And of course I told her because I don't like to hide anything. I like to be transparent.

But afterwards I thought that's probably quite embarrassing, quite an embarrassing thing to tell somebody, isn't it? You just found a bit of your breakfast in your beard. Perhaps I shouldn't have eaten it in front of her, but trying to stay awake when you're tired reminds you that actually there is that feeling. It's like an opposite process.

Trying to stay awake when you're tired is the same as trying to force yourself to go to sleep. It doesn't work. You can't force yourself to do stuff like that because because where's the love there? You need to show yourself some love and be kind to yourself.

And you're not getting angry at yourself because you're not sleeping as quickly as you'd like to. It's the whole thing. I've been saying this for years.

I even used to say it to clients when I was counselling privately. Privately, you know, clients and stuff. And they'd tell me about their internal dialogue and the things, the things that they would say to themselves, which were often, they were rarely, very rarely were they nice, but some of the things were just horrible.

And I'd say to them, would you say that to a small child? Would you go up to a small child in the street and say to them exactly what you just said to yourself? And the answer to that, I would say 99.999% would be no. So if it's not, why is it good enough for you then? Why is that okay? It's not. Probably one of the most helpful things I ever heard, I ever had said to me was to be kind to yourself.

A friend of mine told me that. And this is when I just first met him really. He's a Buddhist, a ordained Buddhist, and he's an amazing person.

And he said that to me. He said, be kind to yourself. And I'll be honest, I didn't know what it meant.

Didn't know what it meant. It felt nice. It felt like he was telling me that he cared about me.

That's how I felt it, that he was offering love, and it was a genuine concern. And then I suppose over time, I started thinking about it and coming to the conclusion that I guess it means whatever you want it to mean. But to have that concern for yourself, to be kind to yourself could mean any number of things depending upon the situation.

Because, you know, eating chocolate and lots and lots of chocolate is really not a way to be kind to yourself if you're diabetic. It's the complete opposite. But sometimes, a box of chocolates, for someone that isn't diabetic, a box of chocolates can really, or a tub of ice cream, is being kind to yourself because it's giving you some physical and mental, emotional pleasure, distraction, taking you away from whatever it was that was troubling you at the time.

Giving you space and showing yourself that kindness in that moment can really make the difference. Just like listening to me waffle on and on and on, or sharing these videos with your friends, family, the audios with people that might find them useful. That's being kind to yourself, maybe reminding yourself that you are a wonderful person.

And that you deserve to be happy. That's being kind to yourself. But sometimes just watching a movie, a film that you like, or maybe a film that you've wanted to watch for a while, that can be what you need.

Having a nice bath, eating some Haagen-Dazs or Ben and Jerry's or whatever your particular ice cream favorite is. I like both actually. I like the, I do, I love Haagen-Dazs and Ben and Jerry.

They're my two favorite, out of all the different makes. And I can feel myself smiling just thinking about it. I really, I don't eat that stuff very often.

I really don't. I know I look like I might do, but I don't. If I did, I'd need to put the iPhone a lot further away so you could fit me in.

But it's, some of the chocolate ice cream is just phenomenal. And I like cookie dough. And yeah, it's making me want to have some ice cream now.

Luckily for me, it's not always a blessing. I live in the middle of nowhere. Literally, I live nowhere near any shops that I could buy stuff from, like that.

And at this time of night, it's impossible. I'd have to wait till tomorrow and get the nine o'clock bus and go and buy dinner. I wouldn't want to eat ice cream during the day, unless it was summer, or there was no one watching.

No. I might eat ice cream in the summer, but during the day, but generally not. But right now, I could go for a nice bit of Haagen-Dazs.

I used to live in a place called Green Street in London, which is just up the road from, or used to be just up the road from West Ham football ground. And I used to come out where I lived. Turn right, there's this little dark alleyway thing, you just go out.

Opposite was a pub. Turn right, and there was every shop I could ever need. There was a supermarket, big, big supermarket.

There was Iceland, which sold all frozen stuff, so I could get as much ice cream as I wanted. There was newsagents, just everything I could need or want was there. And every single takeaway possible, fast food was also around that area as well.

I have no idea why I'm mentioning this. That's a good thing about these is, one of the good things about doing this live is, I do lose track sometimes, but I'm a bit more aware of it than when I'm just recording a video or just recording an audio. But at the same time, I've got no idea how long I've been on here for.

I might have been on here for 30 minutes, I might have been live for an hour, I really don't know. And the idea was to just talk and talk for an hour, and then finish and get on with the rest of the day. But I've no idea how long I've been talking for, and I don't know how to find out.

There's got to be a way of figuring it out. So I reckon it's probably heading towards an hour. So I'm probably going to bring this to an end.

If it's less than an hour, then it's less than an hour. But if it's more than an hour, it's more than that. But I was aiming for an hour.

But I don't have, my only time calculator is on the phone, and I'm using the phone to record this. But it doesn't have, so when you do a live broadcast on YouTube, it comes up and it tells you how long you've been on there for, but not on Facebook. And perhaps I need to get a clock, but I like the idea of not having a clock on the wall.

I've never ever, yeah, my whole adult life, I've never had a clock on the wall, never put a clock on the wall ever. But there have been times when I've had a clock in the room. So for example, a video player, there might be a clock on that.

Or in, because I lived in a lot of rooms, just the bedroom, so I'd have a, no, an electric clock, because I'd have to be able to have an alarm to wake me up in the morning for work. So I'd have a clock there, but never had a clock on the wall. Maybe I should get one.

There's something about, I don't know, there's something about not being a slave to time, not being too attached to the minutes that are going by. But on the same hand, it's, on the other hand, it's 4.30. On the other hand, it's, it's quite handy for knowing what time it is. So maybe I will, maybe I'll, maybe I'll get like this big, massive clock and put it on my wall just there.

You know, I used to, years ago when I was, yeah, I used to make recordings. So I used to work in a, a couple of places doing the counselling, and they'd have clocks in the room, because you always need to know what time it is, because each session would last for 50 minutes, and you'd need to start to wind things down maybe five minutes before. And then there'd be 10 minutes between that session ending and the next session beginning.

So it'd be 10 minutes really to sort of prepare for the next person. And what I used to do is make sessions in those rooms. So there's quite a few of my sessions where you just, if the audios, sometimes videos as well, where you've got the clock.

That was my impression of a clock. And you could hear that in the background. Even going back to 2006, when I first started making the audio recordings, I used to do these live sessions, lead these relaxation group sessions in the local, a couple of rehab, alcohol and drug rehab centres.

And they all had clocks in their rooms, in the rooms that I did the recordings and did the sessions. And a couple of people at the clients used to say to me that when they listened to me, because I used to make CDs for them to listen to, then I started making MP3s and putting them onto the website. But they'd say when they listened to the recording, it's as if they were back in that particular session.

Because of that clock, that ticking seemed to transport them back into that room in their mind, whilst they were listening to my voice and relaxing. So maybe I might get a clock. I don't know.

So I'm going to bring this to an end because I'm not sure what the time is. But thank you for watching. Thank you for listening to this.

Let me bore you to sleep. If you would like to support me, you can support me on Patreon. The Patreon page is... I don't know what it is.

It's something. I really need to get on the ball with that. There's a link somewhere.

Just let me know if you're interested. I can just give you the link. And also let me know if what I've been doing now, in the past, over the last 12 years, whatever, anything, if you find it useful and perhaps anything that you'd like me to do.

Going forward, I'm feeling really tired now. I did a video years ago where I was lying in my bed, recording, doing a softly spoken or maybe a whisper sleep session. And I actually fell asleep.

And it was just recording it, so it wasn't live. So it's supposed to be maybe 40 minutes long, ended up being about an hour and a half, two hours. And I think the camera, I think the battery probably ran out.

So the next day, I recharged the battery and went back and watched the video. And it's really, really nice video. And I did upload it.

But I did edit it because I kept falling asleep and then sort of waking up and carrying on. Eventually, I fell asleep and started snoring so loudly. You could see the camera was shaking.

I don't think it was scared. I think maybe the bed was banging against the tripod. But it was really, really loud snoring.

So that would be a downside if I was going to be doing these live and I fell asleep, because then I'd start who knows what. So I don't want to, something I don't really want to do live on camera, snoring. It just showed how boring I was to myself.

It's like now I could really just drift off. It's like my whole body is just ready for a nice nap. Just feel so relaxed.

But I won't. I'm just going to say goodbye. And I'll see you next time.

Lots of love. Bye.